#I'm. fucking crying. I'm so tired.

[the-dye-stained-socialite]

hello person i am trapped in the car with. maybe don't randomly talk about your diet/weight loss thing. keep that to yourself. thanks.

[justfeelme]

I just want kill myself but i’m scared. I guess i’m just coward…

[riskybusiness-buddie]

some of us have to put on a fucking brave face and smile and wave at people who literally voted to take away everything we have worked so fucking hard to get. some of us work in places with people who hate us, who tell us to speak english because we're in america, who tell us we have jobs because nowhere else would take us, who can't stand the idea of an overqualified black woman in power. we have to keep our heads down because we have no other choice if we want to keep the job that is keeping a roof over our heads and food on our tables.

i'm sorry to be doomposting but sometimes it's not as easy as just keep moving, keep your head up, live!, when you're surrounded by people who want the opposite for you.

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[chibifox2002]

... Can the government/justice system stop killing innocent people?... PLEASE....

[tired-o-fighter]

I think I achieved the most incredible honor a disabled person can achieve

I'm sitting in the bus rn on my way to uni

And this lady sits next to me

She's like 45?50?older?

Anyways, Ancient

And then as she's studying her notes she suddenly sees my knee braces

(I have both of them on and they're absolutely visible because they're dark blue and my pants are black)

She asks me if i have a knee injury/knee pain and i explain that yes u infact do

And she says "me too"

She continues talking about her experiences and stuff

And then asks me about what happened

So i explain (because i felt comfortable talking about it. No one ever has to explain)

And she asks me why i didn't wear it under my pants

Now my pants are literally leggings and also THE TEXTURE OF THESE BRACES???? HORRIBLE

So without missing a beat i grin and say "because that's so hard, makes me sweat a LOT, and just not comfortable. Why would i wear it under my pants if they're not helpful?"

And i see sth in her eyes

And as she keeps talking, because she KEPT talking

She eventually says "I was told to wear one too but it was too uncomfortable under my pants and i never considered wearing them over them. I was always too embarrassed"

And i tell her she has nothing to be embarrassed about

And she tells me I inspired her and I don't think I've felt this much pride ever

I told her that I'm so happy she feels that way, and no one should feel embarrassed of their body, and who cares what anyone thinks

I am so fucking happy

Today is a beautiful day

[epikhightechnology]

Desperate times ask for desperate measures aka I find myself unsure of how I am going to pay my rent & bills this winter so I am wondering if anyone would be interested in exchanging some money for my drawing services? I don't do prints cause I don't know how lol but I can mail you the actual drawing. Here's some of the stuff I've drawn this year:

I can draw your blorbo, your bias, your mom, anyone really, just need a good reference picture. Price would depend on the picture, the size, if it's b&w or coloured and shipping (i live in the EU). If anyone's interested lmk and we'll figure it out together? 🙏🙏

[talesoftheesun]

I refuse to acknowledge anything that happened in this volume. none of this happened. must've just been a heat induced fever dream. nope. no way.

[worthless-misery]

So sick of pretending to be fine just to survive...

Society is so gross.

[manikas-whims]

While I completely agree that any form of physical intimacy between show kanej will seem wrong and ooc and highly disrespectful to both their traumas. And that any of it being a dream sequence will be the best way to portray it.

But I also want this fandom to remember that Kaz Brekker and Inej Ghafa are two characters which are all about hope and facing their fears head on and trying to best their adversities against all odds. That both of them have always explicitly expressed in their pov chapters about how much they want each other, how much they desire to attain that physical as well as sexual intimacy.

And who knows!? Someday, they might be able to best their fears and share those beautiful moments ♡

So i hope we stop policing anyone wanting such things. And hopefully also stop seeing those fans who cry and scream at the prospect of any physical intimacy between Kanej.

Because not only does that feel like perverse infantilization of the characters but is also extremely disrespectful to what they've always clearly expressed.

[snepfeathers]

pros of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I can save my money and use it on more necessary things, like rent and groceries

cons of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I don't get to have The Thing

[jeycehappyxd]

Captain εγώ🌌 and his adventures out there???

[thetardisisnotourdivision]

I am unreasonably upset about the fact that I've been forced to accept that Gabriel was a Gerald.

For context, in An Inspector Calls, Gerald Croft is engaged to Sheila Birling when he meets a homeless, struggling Eva Smith in a bar, and essentially in return for a home and money he shows her affection (ahem), then gets rid of her once he no longer has a use for her. Now, obviously this isn't a direct translation, but the essentials are - a Gerald is a character who uses another character, in return for something they need, usually masking the fact that they're using them with affection and love.

And against my will I've had to accept that this is exactly what Gabriel does to Nathalie.

Did I want to think he had potential to be better? Did I think he genuinely cared for Nathalie?? Hell, did I just really really want somebody to care about Nathalie???

Probably all of the above but the point is: he's Gerald. And I cannot - I literally can't unsee it now. Their whole dynamic in S3 is like “oh boohoo I'm sorry I wish you didn't have to use the peacock Miraculous and kill yourself over it but uh I need to use your powers” “yeah no that's fine I'm all good”. Which, given the "Gerald" theorem, I'm assuming leads to the fact that what Nathalie needed, above all, was someone to care about her - and Gabriel came along, as Sheila Birling puts it, "like a fairytale prince", and was so caring and gentle and... Yeah. She fell for him. And. Yeah he genuinely did seem to care like twice. But so did Gerald. Gerald actually admits that he did care for Eva, just not the way that she cared for him, and, uh, not enough to not just dispose of her. So he discards her anyway when she stops being useful.

Leading me neatly to my point.

He starts using the peacock Miraculous the second it's fixed, the slimy bastard, HOWEVER. It runs way deeper than that. Assuming I'm right (which I almost DEFINITELY am), then Gabriel only needed Nathalie while she was useful. She didn't stop being useful in season three - she's still scheming for him, helping him with plan after plan. It's only partway through season 5 that she officially servers ties with him, and starts to actively hinder him.

Nathalie stops being useful when she fails as Safari. And I reckon that's when Gabriel and Tomoe decided she had to go.

(It's painfully, I-was-ugly-crying-over-it obvious in Conformation that Gabriel is fully prepared to let Nathalie die - in the original storyboard, her alliance was encouraging her to sleep, and he's very obviously prepared for this moment - I've made a separate post about it that I'll link if I can find it. However, onto the next bit)

With all of this, there's one thing that sticks out to me - Nathalie didn't see any of it until it was already too late. There could be many reasons for this. But you know who would have seen through it? Whose parents were all loving and perfect until she married the wrong man? Emilie. Emilie, who left behind those videos, which on the surface look innocent, but when you look deeper look like a (love confession???????) AHEM a warning. I reckon Emilie noticed what was going on and realised that Nathalie wouldn't see through Gabriel, so she left those videos addressed to Nathalie (not Gabriel, which surely they should have been - they were about him, after all - unless they were there...) as a warning. I don't think the videos were supposed to be about helping Gabriel, I think Emilie was warning Nathalie to get the fuck out of that house, and to take Adrien with her. Because Emilie knew it'd end like this.

Yes I'm still mad ok give me a break.

[soupbtch]

ummm. my fic is done.

[wisyhana]

Felt super sad today so I kicked myself out of the house and went to get some delicious takoyaki and make myself happy grrrrrr

[ebonytails]

sorry my post is just to complain but guys i literally hate adobe after effects. i can not explain to you the mental torture and how LOW it has brought my mental health because I *need* to use it for my post production class because it's "industry standard". ADOBE After Effects has made me write off the entire film and video production industry as a turn off and I never want to do it ever again.

The amount of times this has crashed on me where I lost everything? 5+ hours of work? 8+ hours of work? It's my fault for not saving sometimes but I also have auto-save on. it didn't save anything so im just left with nothing.

You want a trip to burn out town really quick? Use adobe after effects in an academic setting where you have no choice but to use this program.

I have never in my life TOUCHED a program SO TERRIBLE that it made me never want to do anything about that form of art/media EVER AGAIN