#[i just need to work on getting their bios updated xD]

[drengar]

actions speak louder than words | Accepting @strywoven asked: book + swap ; kaen for hawks (or whomever you're vibing with for the prompt. they do have a verse tho, i promise)

"Is this the book ya wanted?" Keigo asked as a feather moved to offer the book. He had noticed that they were trying to get it and it seemed just out of reach to him. He sort of knew how that felt. There were times when he didn't want to or couldn't use his feathers to get something. Fortunately, then he was around one of his friends who were much taller than him. Which in itself was funny because, for the average man, he was the correct height. One that just happened to be surrounded by freakish giants.

"If not then just point out the one ya wanted and I can get it for ya."

[warywind]

Dergtober 14-18

Day 14: Scry, featuring the twins. They’re one of two sets of siblings referred to as the twins, but dragons know which ones are being referred to by whether its said with a smile or a slight pause. Ignore the fact that I haven’t managed to name them yet >_<. These two are fairly traditional water dragons in that they’re practicing seers/oracles. They’re near inseparable and have a habit of acting in sync with each other, leading to dragons often treating them similar to the aberrations that have since emerged, like a single entity in plural. The sister is also nearly twice the size of the brother, and I love that for them. They’re at opposite extremes of mirror sizes!

Day 15: Nest gets a super quick thumb that I started at maybe 11 at night. I like the general composition idea, but the anatomy is going to need some work. XD Chroma and Junco are one of my oldest couples and had the first nest that was intentionally laid as opposed to adopting abandoned kids. I am getting into some really old lore here, their bios could use some refurbishing. In any case, their three kids are still around and are named Damasen, Euryale, and Euphrosyne.

Day 16: Bounty, features Kilauea, who I felt bad about passing over for Mani’s found family since their lore is intertwined, and Archai with his familiar Jewel. Kilauea is a sword for hire and the closest thing to a bounty hunter that could still be accepted to the Grotto. Archai, meanwhile, is a mute thief that is mostly harmless, not to mention a skilled escape artist. I imagine it makes Kilauea’s day a lot harder whenever the theft he’s investigating turns out to be this little magpie. Still, Archai is generally pretty willing to turn over shinies he’s stolen because he doesn’t value them beyond looking pretty, so Kilauea should be able to resolve things peacefully. Halfway through and I’m finally getting a little more serious about slipping short comic strips in! I didn’t really have time to figure out the somewhat ambitious perspective I had in mind, but hopefully the general idea still reads. In case my handwriting is unreadable, Kilauea’s dialogue in the last panel is: “Alright, Archai. Come on out, and... I'll take you and Jewel to the Grotto, or something. / Although, this will be a lot easier if you hand over anything shiny you've taken lately.”

Day 17: Lost, featuring a Wrathe that is lost in life. He’s a grumpy dragon that more or less gave up on everything after the combined blows of his charge dying and the Tidelord disappearing. He just wanders around looking for clues about his deity, or failing that, a new purpose in life. He's due for a lore update after the fathoms' return and a particular fathom deciding to glue himself to him. I like the idea of making and alt version with Phi sitting beside him.

Day 18: Island; featuring Chroma and her familiar in a very old bit of lore that probably needs reworking. She got stuck on an ice floe during her stubborn teenage years with a hoarfrost mauler (exactly how doesn't make sense to me anymore, as an ice guardian shouldn't have issues with frigid water even if her wings were somehow out of commission). The two fought fiercely at first and dealt each other substantial injuries, but eventually bonded as they were stuck trying to survive on their little island. The bear ended up becoming both familiar and charge, giving her something to look out for beyond herself.

[shoot-of-corruption]

Blog Announcement

Hi there my lovelies! It is a rare guest, Ria here :D

I put on an Oblivion Let's Play to hold my blood pressure low while formulating this announcement, so you better settle down with me xD

I would like to announce here how I will deal with my main blog and all my side blogs on tumblr from now on.

As most of you know, I am working a full time job in retail, so my nervous costume tends to be a tiny bit thin after around 9,5hrs of shift. I am happy to announce to you all that my time as a worker in retail is finally a finite one. If everything works out right, I won't just be able to start a homeoffice job by next year, but also live at a completely different place and city. Sadly there is still a good while of wait ahead of me until then and a lot of things are unsure as of yet. But I will do my best to get to that destination, because right now everything is pretty much murdering me.

What does that mean for my blogs? I have been on Hiatus for a long while, on and off, over years. And yet I have always returned here, more or less satisfied or happy with my performance or the RPC.

From this day on I will treat myself better about being able to come here and also, I will not spread myself thin anymore. I will transform Mariku into an Ask- and Art-Blog. Interactions are always welcome, on and off Anon, as well as dash commentary or writing pieces and updates of myself. You can tag Mariku and me in everything, the followed tags will stay the same, I will just update a few things on my BIO in the next days etc. [maybe I'll finally force myself to make a card, should the mobile pages not work anymore].

Things that will for the close future not be done on my blogs:

RP-Threads: no matter if long, short, or anything. I am torturing myself, because I cannot say no to new thread ideas and the moment I really get invested into plots, threads, ideas or anything alike, my partners tend to just leave and let me drop like a hot potato and I honestly neither need nor want that hate in my life anymore.

Anon-Hate: Will NOT be displayed on this channel. I will keep my Inbox with anonymous messages on, but every piece of disgusting hate will be immediately plucked out of the screen and burned in a bonfire. You will not get a stage here and you can be assured, that I will piss and shit on your disgusting hatred and then laugh about it for the coming week, because you are the most pathetic thing that I had the displeasure of even having to lay a momentary glance on <3

RPC/personal Drama: I will ignore drama and strictly remove myself from it. I will not be part or target of any hatred, impulsive meanness and/or random bouts of radical opinions. If you don't feel seen/represented in my opinions, turn around and find a place you fit into, but leave me and my muses alone.

Things that will be done on this blog (and partly my side blogs):

Ask-Memes: Of any kind. Ask-Plots, random asks, symbol ask memes, color memes, background memes, AU-memes and YES, also art related asks.

Open Commissions: I will open art commissions again after I had a bit more training on my tablet, for everybody, who wants to commission art. They will likely be limited and they may also for training reasons only be for free for training, thus included in art memes, but I will open paid commissions eventually again, definitely this year. I cannot tell you details, yet, but keep your eyes peeled ;)

IMs and Mun related things: You are definitely allowed to write IMs and ask me questions!! I am here to have fun as all of us are, so if your fun includes coming into my IMs and leaving a cat meme each day or send me weird asks, I am all here for it!! All of this might sound very dickish of me, but I just feel like I get too emotionally hurt and immersed and I want to protect me from bad feelings and you from my wrath xDDD

Thank you for reading all of this and I hope all of us can stick to those ground rules (for now) - we will get on peachy! If the fact that I am not RPing (for now) on here is breaking you beyond compare, I do own a Discord and I am usually willing to share it. Please contact me on here before adding me, so I know who exactly is adding me on there, otherwise, I might not accept your request. Discord: sangnoire

I will warn you though, that I will be very selective with accepting RPs and partners on there still and that any unwillingness to accept that will be met with... a uno-reverse card reaction x'D

[dreamboundedstar]

I Have More to Say About Kacchako That I Need to Let Out:

In one of the MHA Smash volumes they have some panels that take place around the time Bakugo was kidnapped by the League of Villains. The LoV force Bakugo to play the board game, Life to show them his deepest, dark desires. Turns out his “inner desires” were to have the most normal, domestic life. Something that amusingly contrasts his number 1 hero dream.

You can find the panels here. https://todomitoukei.tumblr.com/post/190826151761/horikoshi-not-having-put-this-in-the-main

Even though it’s parody and shouldn’t be taken for anything canonical, this is fanfiction and I can do whatever I want. Anyway, thanks to this panel it really helps give me a road map to what I want to do for the ages of the Kacchako kids. I specifically made Ryosei and Hanahoshi twins since their names are both star themed and binary stars are a thing.

Kacchako Timeline:

Age 24 to 25:

Katsuki and Ochako are dating and eventually move in together to help financially support each other. Katsuki needs all the help he can get after *MHA Epilogue Spoilers*.

Age 28:

They will get married on July 7th. (Basing it on the fact that Ochako loves looking at the night sky and July 7th is the date for Tanabata, the Star Festival. It’s also Present Mic’s birthday and Ochako is his favorite student, so that’s a bonus.)

Have a kid April 8th the year after (conceived on July 15th because it’s funny and came into the world 5 days early).

Age 35:

They are finally financially stable enough to own a house.

Conceived fraternal twins December 27th.

Age 36:

Twins born 8 days late on October 10th.

Anyway, that's my headcanon, Kacchako timeline so far based on the panel scenes I mentioned. Hopefully, I'll be able to update the timeline more accurately to the canon material once the extra 60 pages come out in the final, canon volume. Though, I'm not holding my breath on it because the extra pages could just as likely kill any ideas I had Kacchako related in the first place. Oh well, I knew what I was getting into when I let the Kacchako crumbs consume me. Now that I figured the age range between these kids, I can now go deeper into their personalities. I’m just really attached to these fan kids and wanted to do more for their bios then just experiment with quirks.

Teyushin (手優伸)–

Name Meaning: “Extending a gentle/superior hand” (or more literally, “Hand to Hand” according to Word Hippo)

Age: 14

Birthday: April 8th

Pronouns: He/Him

Personality: Teyushin, on first impression comes off as very affable and easygoing. Deep down, he fears that none of the connections he makes are genuine and feels lonely at times. He often questions if he’s really a good person or if he’s only nice to make it easier to deal with his quirk. With how his quirk works, he sometimes tries too hard to get people to like him. That way, he only needs to rely on his own blood to help track others if they need to be found. He often has the vibe of a space cadet even in intense situations. However, when it really matters, he puts on a serious, no-nonsense persona that is determined to get a job done asap.

Ryosei (凌星)–

Name Meaning: “Eclipsing the sun” (more like “surpassing the star” but close enough. I meant eclipsing as surpassing anyway XD)

Age: 6

Birthday: October 10th

Pronouns: He/Him

Personality: If Ryosei could be described with one word it would be exhausting. He’s got the competitive nature of Katsuki but he is a lot more reckless than Katsuki ever was. Given his quirk is tied to natural disasters, it is only natural for him to forgo strategy and embrace the chaos. He can be boastful at times, such as pointing out he’s so fast he won the race of existence against his sister when they were born, much to her annoyance. He honestly doesn’t even care about being a hero, he doesn’t need labels like “hero” to do the right thing. He just loves the thrill of fighting and adventure. (think like the lyrics “It’s Doesn’t Matter” from the first Sonic Adventure game)

He tries to not let others pointing out how villainous/dangerous his quirk is get to him. He knows his heart and he couldn’t care less about another’s analysis of his character. Actions speak louder than words after all.

Hanahoshi (花星)–

Name Meaning: “Blossoming star” (just a poetic way to say supernova)

Age: 6

Birthday: October 10th

Pronouns: She/Her

Personality: Unlike her twin brother, Hanahoshi actually tries to think of plans before springing into action. However, she can be a bit ditzy at times. She tends to stay in her head too long that the plethora of ideas she could do overwhelm her and Ryosei is already doing something before she figures out what to do. It’s as if her ideas were like the night sky and the perfect one is in the constellations. Unfortunately, she was always bad at finding the constellations in the millions of stars. As much potential her quirk has in fighting, her favorite way to use is to simply make people happy with the beauty of them. Since tiny stars don’t hurt people on impact, she likes seeing the happy faces of see her lights burst around them and making them feel special cause every deserves to feel special. In a way, she’s more of an artist than a hero. Even so, she chooses to be a hero because she wants to be a light in darkness for as many people as she can like her mother was and is. Just don’t make her mad though because play with fire and you will get burned. Things get under her skin quicker compared to Teyushin or even Ryosei, much to her dismay. Though since she hates expressing that anger, she does her best to hold it in because the last thing she wants is to be seen as the angry sibling. Though, she can only hold that pressure in for so long until she bursts like a supernova, usually on Ryosei, who deserves it most of the time. I suppose this is a spinoff sequel to this post.

[on-a-lucky-tide]

Post-Surgery Day 43

cw: surgery, bodies

- I made it! I had my six week Post-Surgery consultation today and I got top grades in "healing". My surgeon called my scars "lovely and neat" and he's "very happy".

- I still have some swelling in the left of my chest that makes it all look a bit uneven. He's not worried about it; it's the remaining build up of fluid and it will disappear eventually. It's gathered there because I sleep on my left side and I started doing that at about 5 weeks. He said that, in 12 months, if it's still there, then we can look at corrections. It's unlikely.

- I can go back to lifting! But not lat pull downs or anything that requires me reaching straight up. The reason for this is scar stretching. I'm also banned from boxing for a further nine months, which... Eh. Guess I'll just have to not pick any fights with fascists or TERFs in 2024.

- Otherwise, I'm going back to the gym so expect the gym-posting to resume under #rawr lifts. I'm going to start light at 12kg and work my way back up, focusing on building chest and shoulders for that tapered V shape, or at least a box. Fat redistribution on T can take up to six years, but it can be hastened with a good workout regime and a high protein diet.

- Sensation is coming back slowly. Nipples are still quite numb, left side of my chest is still numb, but the right side I'm getting a lot of feeling back. Occasional shooting pains in my nipples, which is good because it means the nerves are reconnecting and healing.

- The surgeon says I am healed at "10%". By nine months, I'll be 90%. I likened myself to a crusty old Nokia to a friend; slowly recharging. XD

- I have to massage the scars two times a day. I have bought some bio oil and a jade roller for this and my partner is hyped. Like, he hasn't been permitted to touch my chest for years, and our intimacy has been very, very fucking limited. He wants to help, and he's super keen to get to know my body as it changes.

- Interestingly, you only need to use silicone tape on raised scars? Mine are flat, so the surgeon says it's not necessary. He also says they're not a replacement for massage so don't slack.

- Thanks to everyone who has given messages of support throughout this. I'm happy to answer any questions I haven't covered here if anyone is thinking of pursuing surgery. It is literally the best thing I've ever done; a radical act of self love that has saved my life.

- My next post-surgery update will be in six months. :3

[misshvariety1307]

Alright, time to start my big project of the year! My AGIT AU concepts, character designs, and other things that I create for my AU.

This will be mostly Dan centered since I love the concept from the novel about him getting a second chance to come to terms about all the things that happened, redeem himself of the actions he's made against humanity, and how he has to deal with living in a human form again. At the same time, I want to explore concepts that I've thought on for some time for Nyreena and thread it throughout the AU. Plus intro and reintroduce new OCs with either a complete concept or an updated concept to fit in with the AU. Definitely a big project but something that I'm happy and excited to work on throughout the year among other things XD

So, let's begin!

First up is the character designs for the version of Nyreena for this AU! (Appearance, Characteristics, and Bio under cut.)

Appearance:

- Long, voluminous blue hair with curling ends - Porcelain white skin - Glowing magenta pink eyes - Gray crescent moon marking circling around her left eye - Main outfits: - Left: Casual/Usual - Middle: Armor/Fighting - Right: Elegant/Violin Playing

Characteristics:

- To most she is calm, demure, subtle, but has a tendency to be stoic, serious, and a bit cynical, and doesn’t take nonsense from anyone. To them she means business and is dedicated to finishing her business the first time around and not have to do it again a second time. If she has to deal with someone that is either giving her a hard time or causing unnecessary nonsense it can set off the very short fuse of her near volatile temper and cause her to lash out and tell that person off if she can’t calm or be calmed down before it goes off.

- But, to a very, very select few (more or less it’s just Ethern) she shows another side of herself; that she is warmhearted, kind and very confident in herself. However, she does feel uncomfortable around other ghosts that give her odd looks or looks of concern, as if there’s something about her they know that she doesn’t and makes her nervous and feeling like she’s being judged for something she might have done against them when she hasn't.

- She is a highly skilled fighter, having been trained by Pandora in the ways of honor, fair fighting and to only defend herself and fight if absolutely necessary. She is very strategic in how she fights and uses her powers, studying her opponent to learn their tactics and overcome them to get the upper hand. But if she is distracted by other things going on around her she will be at a large disadvantage once she can get her focus back onto the fight.

- Along with her fighter training she has been trained by Ethern in the ways of proper etiquette, ranging from manners to conducting herself in high society. He also trained her in several styles of dancing from ballroom to waltz to contemporary and how to play the violin. Attuning to her inherited intellect she is taught a number of subjects such as math, history, and others.

- Finding comfort and joy in her violin Nyreena will go to a certain spot in the Ghost Zone that she can feel that can be heard at every angle and play there, in case she needs to be alone for some time or needs time to calm down and collect herself in case her temper gets the better of her in a previous situation. Her favorite song to play is Transylvanian Lullaby, loving the haunting melody and the soothing tone it has that helps to calm her nerves and subdue her temper.

Bio:

After the coup of Pariah Dark by the Ancient Ghosts Shadowmoon, Pariah’s baby daughter, was discovered and was decided by them to drift away into the depths of the Ghost Zone to be forgotten for the rest of time. However, Ethern, an assistant to one of the Ghosts, took pity on the baby who was never at fault for her father’s actions and waited for his master and the other Ancient Ghosts to leave then followed the direction where Shadowmoon was sent off in, catching up with her and took her into his care to raise as his own. Bringing her back to his lair as secretly as he could he hoped that by raising her as her surrogate father she could grow up to be a ghost with virtue and honor and one day when she was ready reveal to her her royal heritage and prepare her to assume her birthright and become the Queen the Zone needed to bring it into a more prosperous future.

Knowing that she couldn’t go by her real name Ethern picked the name Nyreena to conceal her true identity from her and others so that no one would be suspicious of who she really was. As she grew up it could clearly be seen that she had inherited every bit of the striking beauty once possessed by her late mother, Queen Leota. But it was also evident that she inherited her father’s superior strength and intellect. Deciding to put that to use Ethern began teaching her a great many things he knew, from etiquette and manners to subjects as math and history to dancing and music, including how to play the violin. Though he wasn't trained how to fight he employed the great and wise ghost Pandora to teach her how to fight with honor and justice. Once it was agreed and her training began Nyreena took to it like she had been fighting since her birth, her agility and flexibility aiding her to learn quickly and excel in her fighting prowess and the use of her powers.

Even though there was no concept of time in the Ghost Zone it seemed like it flew by and before Ethern knew it Nyreena had grown into her late teens, looking to be about seventeen or eighteen years old. And with Ethern’s careful training and teaching she was a young lady that could fit in any scene of high society or a royal court. Being warmhearted and kind and confident when she was with him to everyone else she encountered she was calm, demure, subtle, but sometimes stoic, serious, and down to business, just like her father was so long ago. To her everything was going fine until she had a run-in with a ghost with flaming white hair and the chain of events began spiraling that would lead her to her destiny in the most unlikely way that everyone involved would ever expect.

And that's it! I will be showing more as the AU develops so stay tuned!

Also, should I show Ethern next or go ahead and work on Dan next? Let me know!

Thanks everyone and I'll see you next time!

[notknickers]

aww thank you. I'm still learning to draw scars. I defo need to make time for more studies. (we both gotta buckle down)

oh man. fanart, if done well and a lot can get me to do almost anything. seeing fanart of Ghost back in November 2022 is what got me into this fandom in the first place.

I'm a bit picky with headcanons but yh. im fully aware a lot of them are just watered down to be vessals for our kinks and affection. At the end of the day. they'er our silly made up blurbos U///U but yh theirs defo gaps in these guys's personalities that we can fill in (which is what we're doing now lol from the short bios we're given)

fanart (nsfw) and audio of these blurbos together. I'm waiting on my lounge chair right now to be presented to me.

hey man. Rivals to lovers makes sense. I'm stumped with who would make the first move though. becasue like you said, both of them aren't the most affectionate of people and don't trust too quickly; at least on the battlefield. like they could respect each other on the battlefield and stuff. but to get them vunerable to love hmmmmm. might need to bend like a pretzal for either of them to act on their feelings even in the most subtle ways… unless we have one of them a lil more unhinged in this department. claps hands* What if Konig is the more unhinged one and Ghost just doesn't know how to handle his feelings or Konig, like, does anyone really wanna make the over 6 foot tall batterying ram upset. Anything can happen in delulu land

my fanart is literally made up shit if you were dating Ghost ooc XD

love that the whole fandom are in on the joke of eldritch/ocotpuss/cathulu Konig since the chibi drawings of him look like a cute octopuss and the bio updating and saying His hood hides something more hideous. I'll check out your fic….(hehe heat cycles)

btw. sorry for the late reply. fell asleep after work (¯﹃¯) also I'm bad with writing hehe

hey, don't worry. life outside the machine takes precedence! plus, sleep is gooood, rest to your brain while increasing your chances of dreaming of your blorbos! it's a win-win, but thanks for replying.

now i must absolutely write that eldritch!könig/civilian!ghost fic! i have so many ideas that i left xeno!könig and his tentacles aside for a while, but after i've dealt with the five different colonel!könig/recruit!dommy mummy!reader and colonel!könig/tmale!base medic, perhaps i'll have some time to figure it out!

oh! don't even say it! today i was all excited about a fanart idea i had while at work, then i was confronted with the reality of actually drawing it... what an ice cold shower!!!

i'll get back to it as soon as i get over the trauma! but good luck with your studies, you're already ahead!

pretty pixel vessels!!! i am also very nitpicky. in fact, i've noticed, the more concrete an idea i develop of könig, the less open i am to changing interpretation (even though i still like reading others'!)

the only thing i am glad about entering the fandom when i did is that i initially conceinved this blog as a magnus archives fanblog. if it started as a könig simp blog, i would probably have called myself something like... königsheftyballs or something and i'm so grateful that didn't happen. im' much happier as a jaredhopworthsknickers!

and yes, smutty ghost fanart was my gateway drug.

(i don't know if i remembered linking you the fic in question that sold me over the ghostsoap ship, but it was this one.)

for the audio, it's easy. here's the link and happy listening! (very nsfw, very explicit). it's one hundred percent out of my headcanons: no, könig the forty-plus-year-old colonel is not simon 'ghost' riley who got his mask at a hot topic or halloween costume shop's little bitch.

time to pull ranks on that one!

(still, enjoyable listening and great voice acting, though!)

true, but them being affiliated with opposing factions opens up interesting scenarios: could either be captured by the other? could that mean the the captured is assigned to the capturer for intel extraction or other expedient? could it be that each finds out that the other is way less sadistic and more compassionate and simply human and matter-of-fact than they initially thought, which changes the mutual way they see each other, while still being wary, because of their curcumstantial enmity?

commonalities? they are both masked, they both have something to hide, something that hurts to this day, the need to create someone who can endure interfacing themselves with the world and its demands while their tender cores still reel and recover, but that they can put aside, when they're alone, to catch breath and regain their whole selves or, the opposite, feel incapable to abandon even when no one is around, as they have become too fragmented.

just throwing ideas around, but there is so much to dig up.

their similarities might draw them to one another: could they have finally found someone who gets it? could they afford to be a little vulnerable, to show a little bit of their soft bellies and hope not to be stabbed from side to side?

but, being enemies who work for different factions with different goals surely would stand in the way: if trusting and opening up is harrowing and dreadful, doing so with an enemy operator can be outright fatal... so much at stake, but what if this were the only chance they have at genuine human connection? a friendship? comfort in wach other's bodies? darethey hope for more? are they delusional? is the imprisonment getting to them?

re: your ooc fanart: and that's brilliant all the same! my latest fanart was nothing but an excuse to put könig in a skimpy little outfit and parade him around! if you like ooc ghost dating your insert, do more of it!!!!!!

i always laugh when someone comes along, thinking themselves smart by pointing out that "well, akshually ghost and könig would never date in canon", because you're in the wrong place, luv. go play the game, write/draw your canon-compliant stuff or only interact with fic and fanartists who are as attached to canon as you, but stop yucking in everyone's yum. it's called fandom, not candom.

i will go on a perilous mission to find all the ghost/könig artists i can and report back, sir! yes, sir!

(by which i mean, i will write you in the inbox or leave the links in the dms, so you'll find them when you have time. no hurry!)

n_n

[rallamajoop]

RE's Dulvey Daily newspaper, and the Deep Lore (TM) of the sinister Horn of Plenty pharmaceutical company

There is some wonderful nonsense to be found in the unused assets of RE8. One favourite examples is this one texture asset created for the collectable-document-item titled simply "Old News Clipping" that you can find early on in Ethan's home. This is not an item you can pick up and examine, the screencap above is all you can see of the newspaper: folded so that the name is abbreviated to "The Du", with the cover article similarly cropped down to "Horn of Plenty Facing F". The actual headline referenced in the document text ("Curtain Closes on The Dulvey Gas Incident") isn't visible here at all.

But the complete texture created for this double-folded paper covers the newspaper's whole front page, and it is huge. I've broken it in half to make it a little more tumblr-friendly.

The full front page shows the paper is called "The Dulvey Daily", with the headlining article, "Horn of Plenty Pharmaceutical Company Facing Financial Dilemma". But it doesn't stop there: beneath the fold we've got two more huge articles ("Twin Sisters Sail Mediterranean Conference Tomorrow" and "A Real Good Boy! Dog Saves Child's Life"). There's no real text for these ‒ text is deliberately blurred what little is legible suggests it's basically a lot of lorem ipsum-style placeholder material ‒ but someone put some real work into all those photos all the same.

The article we're actually looking for is the smallest on the page, crammed down into a corner (and here, confusingly, titled "Baker Investigation Called Off" ‒ presumably the English title was changed later and no-one saw the need to update an image that wasn't going to be visible anyway). And that's a detail I like a lot, given the whole point of this file is to communicate the way the whole Dulvey incident has been swept so far under the carpet by the authorities that it's not even worth a proper local headline. Really, and it's a shame the full asset isn't viewable in-game, given how effectively the layout communicates how un-newsworthy the events of RE7 are now thought to be.

You can actually find another issue of "The Dulvey Daily" in RE7 ‒ and it's more what I'd expect for this kind of asset, in that the same title "Ghosts Sighted In Bayou" appears twice on the same page. Nothing wrong with that kind of shortcut: if people aren't going to see both sides, why bother adding more individuality? The asset team's got better stuff to do.

Still, it's a nice touch that both games uses the same fonts and layouts for these two issues of "The Dulvey Daily," so here they are side by side.

But by far my favourite thing about this page is another detail you won't notice unless you get to see that whole asset. Let's take another look at that headline story:

Now, in the RE universe, you tell me a "pharmaceutical company" is involved in "financial dilemma", and my instant response is, oh shit, did they just get busted for making bio-weapons on the sly? Are they about to try and 'fix' their financial woes by getting into dodgy research areas? Don't tell me it's not likely!

But it gets worse, because I have seen that baby food jar somewhere before! Heck, I have formulated semi-serious theories about the whole pre-timeline of the game based on those baby food jars!

The game draws your attention to them on both your visits to that pantry (in slightly contradictory ways, but shh, just put those little details aside).

We can get an even better look at the label on the asset texture, and...

...yup, Horn of Plenty baby-food, right there in orange-and-white. Yikes, maybe it's a good thing Miranda!Mia wasn't keen on letting Rose actually eat any of that stuff! XD

Now, I don't really think this is pointing to any deep-lore about the Horn of Plenty company or their potential role as the New Big Bad of RE9, or anything. Far more likely, this is just someone on the asset team amusing themselves with a cute little call-back to some other asset they just worked on, where no player is ever likely to see it.

But now I've seen it. And now I too am duly amused.

[ihavetoomuchhomeworkforthis]

hey so I wrote this whole like 3 page thing within one class period a year ago back in 9th grade about how super stressed I was and I thought you might want to see so I'm copy-pasting it all here lol

Update: it doesn't fit in the word limit, so I'm putting half of it into the comments if I can XD

Update #2, it took TEN comments to finish it omg this crap is really frickin' long

Journal: Change the World

Directions:

Answer the following prompt in 6-8 complete sentences.

Prompt:

Write about anything you want. Or, if you need a prompt, write about something that is stressing you out right now.

Right now I’m stressed because I have a lot of work to catch up on, Ms. Cady when we all got back, she said something like “if you were on the band trip, your cumulative review #1 which was pages 3-5 is due right now.” and I had barely started it and so that was stressful and now I can’t make it up properly because it’s a review and I don’t remember anything and the point of a review is to review so that you do remember stuff of course, but there’s no time and she already sent us the key to it so it wouldn’t be credible if I turned it in at this point because I could realistically just copy down the answers off of the Key, and not re-learn anything. Also the Cumulative review #2 was due yesterday, which I also hadn’t finished or even really started for similar reasons, and she told us to rip it out of our books and pass it to the front, so I had to do that, and now I can’t use those problems to review because I don’t remember anything anymore and also I don’t have that page from the book, and Cumulative Review number 3 is due Wednesday, so I have plenty of time except that I don’t know where to find the resources to review and remember how to do any of those problems in the first place so I don’t know how I’m going to complete that one. And I also have a test that I have to make up, and I don’t know where that test is and I don’t know what the test is and I don’t know how I’m going to make it up because I don’t have it and I don’t even know if it’s on paper or online or how to do it but somehow I have to figure out what the test is and how to do it and make up that test so that’s also stressing me out. And then in Biology I’ve also fallen behind and Mr. McLauglin is a bit nicer and more understanding than Ms Cady, he said end of the week or Next Monda would be a good time to get stuff in and he even wrote all my missing stuff on a little sticky note and gave it to me and that was really very nice and helpful even though I haven’t actually gotten a chance to look at it yet but on Google Classroom I’ve already gone through and looked at what I’ve missed, and turns out they’ve been covering Reproductive Systems so that’s really an annoying and embarrassing thing to have to make up, but whatever, except that I have about three or I dunno, a lot of worksheets and labs that are in my Bio binder, so I don’t know when I’ll have time to do that since I also have all the math stuff to figure out.

[comparison-anxiety]

my friend is writing an author interview anthologyyyyy

If u see anything u don’t understand, (YWW) it’s about something else and not necessary XD

she’s Christian, btw, letting y’all know. :D

CALLING ALL AUTHORS

Would you like to get published? Regardless of your age, skill level or what you write, we want YOU!

This upcoming anthology is titled We are Writers: An Author Interview Collection.

Here’s how it’s going to work:

Step one: fill out this form. Filling it out doesn’t force you to enter the anthology, it just puts you on the list.

Step two: make sure you’re subscribed to the email list.

Step three: share about WaW! We suggest sharing it with at least 3 people. Here’s a link with everything you need to know! Just copy the text into a post, share, done!

Step four: once we get at least 10 entries, I’ll start sending out the submission forms and you can enter the anthology.

Now, you probably have some questions…

1️⃣ What is an “interview anthology”? An interview anthology is a collection of interviews. In the second form you receive (if you enter the WaW anthology) there will be a series of writerly questions. All you have to do is answer them! Then, if you get accepted, your answers will be published in a beautiful copy of We are Writers: An Interview Anthology Vol. 1!

2️⃣ How do I enter? Fill out this form to sign up for updates. If we get at least 10 responses, we will start sending submission forms to everyone who signed up. If you sign up, you do not have to submit.

3️⃣ How can I purchase the book? Subscribe to the email list so you can get updates on when the book is ready for you to buy.

4️⃣ What exactly am I submitting? Do I have to write anything? All you have to do is fill out a questionnaire with writerly questions. Please don’t write anything before-hand, it’s an interview, so it should be spontaneous! (Please have a written bio and bio picture ready) 5️⃣ Help! I have more questions! Email Eowyn at eowynbolivette@gmail.com.

[manasurge]

Incoming rambling (nothing bad, just my own stuff that no one but me cares about, lol): I’m getting SO close to finally finishing the final parts of my detailed refs for Mourynn, and I’m happy with how it’s turning out. The whole process of wrapping my mind around the logistics of making up cultural armour and in a way where it makes sense (while trying to visualize it in 3D) and isn’t too difficult to replicate has taken a while, but I’m still super proud of her design and I can’t wait to put it all together in an actual bio post for her so she can finally exist outside of my brain (I say “put all together” since I like to isolate different body parts separately so I can more easily focus on them and their design and angles without having to worry about the rest since they get isolated visuals too. Makes it less overwhelming than doing it all at once, at least for me xd)  And ofc, I’m extra and didn’t want to go with any in game armour (which meant more work, but totally worth it bc it turned out better than I initially envisioned while still keeping the features I had in mind), especially non-cultural ones, mainly bc I’m lowkey obsessed with Sylvari cultural armour and wanted to design something unique for her (especially since it fits her lore better, and also bc it’s fun and extremely self-indulgent. Designing sylvari outfits and body features in general is so much fun since you can go extra creative with it). Though, I feel like I’ve been at this forever since I started working on this, but I also blame my stupid ADHD since I can only do like, bite-sized drawing periods as I keep having to go back and forth between other things while drawing bc I can never hyperfocus on things that I want to (Ofc I instead wind up using my hyperfocus on things like listing items on the Auction House in Flight Rising for a few hours earlier today lmao~ -_-) Anyways I can’t wait for my extremely self-indulgent OC to exist outside of my brain so I can finally have fun and do all the ideas I have had listed down for ages now alskdjfls. I’m mostly doing this all for myself, but it want to also try and finally interact with the GW2 art community here a bit more since I didn’t know it existed much before I came back to tumblr (and especially bc for this special case, it’s impossible for my OC to exist in game for a large number of reasons, so I can’t interact like this in game, so I get to suffer lmao). Also once I finish this and the bio I need to update my avatar(s) here orz. I’m just using another OC drawing atm lol.

[solarsavoy]

Welcome to my blog!

Updated 5/15/24.

Commissions Still Open! Info here.

Hey yall. So, on the one hand, I've done a lot of stuff lately. On the other, unfortunately, my WIPs on AO3 are still WIPs. 😅 Rest assured though, I have not given up yet! To update you on all the things I've been working on, wrote a few chapters of The Guardian, which I'm planning to start posting January 1, 2025. I've rewritten a chapter or two of Krystar: First Fragment. I've written a chapter or two of Pandora's even, no estimate on when I'll start publishing it though. And I've started a comic called Frenz. 😭 Because, you know, I'm not busy enough. Magic Shuu, Nagisa Shiota, Zodiac Killers and Kristmas Karma II have been haunting my mind lately too, so hopefully I can get some work done on those as well. Oh! And I'm still gonna do my OC tournament. I'll let you know at least a week ahead of time before I start it. I'm almost done with all the pictures and bios. ^^ Anyway, I hope you all have a lovely day! And thank you for being patient with me. 💙

Solar's OC Tournament links: 1st announcement Additional rules and info

Guide to my blog (subject to change)

Asks always open! Quick way to cheer me up and make me happy is getting an ask. Ask about my OCs, ask about me, interactions give me life. Also harassing me about Krystar might make me work on it sooner. (Probably not, but a girl can hope.)

Stag's blog, run by me. Recently made it to the semi-finals of his own contest.

I have a Ko-fi account. Come buy me a boba drink! I don't like coffee, so boba it is. XD Your support, no matter what form it takes, is indispensable. 😊

Twitch. I haven't really been streaming lately, but I do want to... I just might need to move first. Where I live isn't really a good place to stream at this time.

I have recently reactivated my Patreon account. I post the Frenz comic chapters as I finish them, so become a Patron and read ahead! Otherwise, new chapters are published on Thursdays.

Speaking of the comic, here's a link to Frenz on Webtoon. ^^

I'm also on IG, FB, Twitter, AO3, and WattPad! I'm not very active on most of these though. Discord username: SolarSavoy

[itsohh]

I can’t judge, I straight up orphaned one of my works when it was halfway done cause my ADHD got so bad I couldn’t write so I feel ya there! I love your works so much, maybe one day I won’t be super shy and will come chat with you (I’d love to hear more on Kali if you want to share?). I was very briefly in a discord with the main author for a while and they did chat about how they hated their first characterisation of Ash so I know for a fact we’ll see some changes with her. If you read some of thier other fics that Ash is in she’s completely different so I’m hoping we’ll get a serious by the book upgrade to her. Either way I’m just happy to share the siege love and buzzed that you liked it. I think the author is on tumblr but I could never find them, probs a good thing 🤣 Keep up the good work, can’t wait to read what you come up with next ❤️

Oh sweet, I'd love to see how Ash is for them now cause yeah Ash is very much a more secluded trust issues sorta person, I wonder if their role will be given to someone more outgoing. #ADHD buddies, I have uh like two big fic's I was working on, one for ffxiv and the other for RE8 that I just... haven't updated. The RE8 one cause I got block and then the FFXIV one cause I forgot what I had and hadn't put in and couldn't be bother rereading my writing to edit properly XD.

Ah I feel you about being shy tho, I've joined discords for writing before and spent like 1 day there cause I'm too shy to talk lmao which is pretty funny cause I'm the Overshare Master 3000™ in rl.

But you see now you have me talking about Kali. So Kali is such a grey character. Because unlike someone like Ash or Mira she's not super black and white in terms of her actions and views. We see in her psych report that it's unknown how she feels about her country, especially with her born wealth. She's someone that's always gotten what shes wanted so to be refused to be deployed because that fact shes a woman, I imagine it would have been very frustrating and pissed the fuck outta of her. That being said I can't think imagine its the first time shes experienced sexism of course that leads to her in Nighthaven.

There must be some level of morality inside of her, to stay as a PMC rather than fully going underground- the fact she even applied for the military must mean something. I don't think it was out of the kindness of her heart though, shes not like that. Perhaps it's because of her love of combat. Shes careful to stay within the laws, adapting her PSC to become a PMC, she's known to be amazing at negotiating which is why it's so almost odd that they would be so easily caught in what's currently going. It just doesn't seem like them, for Nighthaven to take in Rainbow Operators then directly work out in the open with criminals, it doesn't quite add up.

Sure she's one for money and ultimately Nighthaven is a business but I can't imagine her putting it at such a high risk without proper motivation. Kali gets a lot from her deals as written in her biography right? So something this big such as putting everything shes built up on the line must have a high reward if she's doing criminal activity.

Kali is cocky, shes arrogant but shes not dumb, the fact that she planned out everything and got almost everyone she wanted recruited shows her talent for her leadership, shows her skill. But shes also still human, her support for Osa isn't something driven from manipulation, they wouldn't be so close if it was. In Osa's bio we know that Kali supported her through her transition and the pair of them are pretty much like sisters at this point. I imagine she has sympthay for Osa's struggles, Kali sure has been given a lot of things but shes certainly had to fight for a lot aswell. So shes not cold-hearted, she does care about someone else.

Now, shes a bitch. It's obvious, she taunts Ash, there's no need for it, but it makes me wonder if the same situation would have happened under Kali's command. Shes an advocate for doing anything it takes to get the job and for risks such as friendly fire so long as its non-lethal. In her interviews as her as captain she does mention that she doesn't want people to die, least her team. The entire situation is interesting because she went rogue when she used Ash as bait so I wonder if it was more in her control, would she have communicated to her team what she was doing? There was a disconnect in trust in a team that was designed to fail. In Nighthaven how does she lead? In such a situation you have to trust your leader, what does Kali do to keep that trust when she's an advocate for well shooting your team in the back (lowkey) Kali doesn't have the charisma, shes far too arrogant, perhaps it's her knowledge, she knows the battlefield well and her risks are calculated. Kali knows her skill level, shes good and knows it. So far we haven't seen her overstep that boundary unlike Grim (get dunked on idiot)

Anyway, Kali also has this one line in game when u kill (headshot?) someone which is 'bow before me' and every time my gay ass brain restarts. Waman pretty hot.

[tylerwritez]

OKAY ANWYAYS its 10:57 p.m. Wednesday June 23

I'm gonna start writing my entry now so that later I'm not too exhausted to actually TALK about stuff.

Yesterday Bee gave me a link to watch Supernatural on my computer so later tonight I probably will.

I'm in class right now, we just had a test on evolution (boring) and I studied some of the book State And Revolution by Lenin (I also took notes) (he's 100 percent correct by the way)

I just had a wonderful discussion with my friend on Instagram XD it was kinda funny. I dont have much else to say Yet. I'm having a coffee and listening to Samaris

I guess that will be my song recommendation for today since I'm listening to it right now XD

Also my parents said yes to letting me go to Jay's house to watch Insidious after school, I just gotta be back for supper! I'm excited abt that... cos he is actually like. The best. So in honour of that or whatever I'm giving yall TWO song recs today... also I dont think I gave one yesterday so here is Jay's fave song XD we gave different taste you'll notice,,, if you pay attention to the stuff I reccomend

Like he listens to old stuff XD he liked this weezer song from my playlist so you get the vibes. WEEZER IS GOOD THO omg thank u K (I'm just gonna call him K) for recommending me weezer! I knew a radiohead fan would give me good music lol.

Actually I talked to K a while ago and told him about how insanely transgender the song Bodysnatchers is and he was like wow so true so I figured I'd tell yall to listen to this if ur trans because like I know everyone's got a #different experience but for me I was like holy Shit this is so trans

Anwyays idk it makes more sense if u listen to the LYRICS.

Please I'm supposed to talk about my DAY now we are onto music oh well I guess it happens sometimes plus I'm bored I hate bio class

Okay so now we have come to the thesis that kinks are contagious wow fun times in the insta chat XD

It's now 4:16 p.m. I'm back from school! Turns out I couldn't go over to Jay's cos he has work :( which made me a bit sad BUT IT'S OKAY! We can always hang out another time you know?

I'm just studying right now for my final exam... TOMMOROW

Update: 8:15 p.m.

I'm out biking. We've mildly vandalized a school, I'll attach images after I remove the exit data... it probably doesnt count as VANDALISM tho like it can easily be washed off.

My sister made some new friends her age and whatnot. Idk, just regular stuff.

Update: 10:43 p.m. I was frustrated while studying because some of the questions are stupid and I'm stupid and I cant remember TWO ENTIRE UNITS so that's fun. I got really upset. Idk.

Also Star is kinda being bitchy. Like, I know shes upset cos I dont give her enoguh attention but like... do YOU give me attention? Like, shes always so mean out of the blue, even if I try to be nice or if I'm BUSY AND NOT IGNROING HER, BUT BUSY... and it puts me off and it makes me not wanna talk to her like what's the point in saying "hey how was ur day?" If shes gonna act like a bitch to me :| I just dont understand like if she wants soemthing she should say it outright and PUT SOME EFFORT in jesus christ.

Sorry. I dont hate her and I'm not mad at her, I'm just fed up! I'm tired!!! Okay??? Am I not allowed to be exhausted sometimes?

Whatever. I mean at least I got to drink monster.

I gotta start dieting again cos I'm gaining weight :( and its upsetting me

Anyways this whole thing with Jay and Star is kinda confusing and dramatic and I'm kinda tired idk. Its MY OWN FAULT but I just want to be able to. Idk. Not hurt anyone. Whatever. It's too late now and it's not really worth trying anymore.

I hope Jay doesn't just totally ditch me when he goes to college... :( I would be so sad... it's a good thing I can spam his number and insta XD

Wish me luck on my final exam. I need it.

And if anyone knows any good ways to avoid cutting myself, TELL ME!!! Because DAMN I really want to go spend all my money on a four dollar knife/steal a knife then SLICE MYSELF UP. SO BAD. jesus.

I think I should just die I'm actually a horrible person.

Update: its 11:22 p.m. and my parents are FUCKING ARGUING AGAIN JESUS CHRIST JUST FUCKING DIVORCE ALREADY. I wish my lil sister didn't have to hear this shit... oh well. I'm already a shitty influence anyways so I guess it doesn't matter.

... have you ever seen your parents CRY? Because I have. And jesus christ it's the actual worst thing ever. Especially if you're young. Especially if it's YOUR fault... Especially if it's over shit you could barely even comprehend because of your age. Money. Shit like that. They LOOK at you with this expression, like a fucking wounded animal. It's the expression of someone just totally fucking defeated. The expression of soemone who is frightened. And its fucking scary, especially when it's your fault.

My mom does this every time she sees I've cut myself again. I hate it. Makes me wanna cut more because STOP IT. she always looks dESTROYED. It's the worst.

Sometimes they argue and fight and shit and they yell at you yell at you Yell at you scare you into submission and fuck having angry parents is terrifying because they're suppsoed to protect you and be understanding and gentle with you, the child, the cattle of the shepard, the egg of the black goat... ESPEICALLY WHEN YOU ARE IN PAIN. Every time you cry they get angrier and angrier, every time you wear what u wanna wear they get angrier and angrier, every time you are ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT THEY WISH YOU WERE... they get angry. You start to feel like maybe they dont ACTUALLY love you. There is a disconnect between what you need and what you are given. What you see in media and what you see at home. You start to feel like shit.

Eventually you learn that if you dont want the head of your favourite stuffed animal twisted off or your sisters barbie doll thrown out the window in a moving car or to be verbally insulted or to have them do SCARY things like make moves toward you before they remember they aren't suppsoed to hit you and just punishment that's emotionally fucking damaging all those words that you remember years later but they don't, every time they tell you they wish you were dead.... you gotta be quiet. Shut up. Do as you're told and don't say a fucking WORD. good boy. Upset? Don't tell them. Don't cry in front of them. Say nothing. Maintain the illusion, it'll keep you safe.

Soon enough your entire life is a secret and you need therapy but can't get it and wow, I wonder why I'm like this? I fucking wonder.

They aren't even arguing anymore but I wish they would shut up because I dont wanna hear their voices its making me ANXIOUS...

Sometimes I feel like I never got to develop past a certain point in childhood. Maybe 5, 10, 3, 6, I dont fucking know. Over 2 and under 10. Like my brain is emotionally stuck there and all of my behaviour is stuck there too. Sometimes if shit hurts me in ANY WAY I just sorta allow the bad hurt to happen. I tell myself, endure. Stay quiet, don't say a word. I've trained myself this way and now it's hard to learn to be loud and talk to people and be my own self without being scared. And part of this... is why I appreciate my friends and JAY. Jay, who always makes sure I'm okay. And everyone I know who likes to drop into my messages every once in a while to see how I'm doing... everyone who never forgets about me.

I'm actually so fucking appreciative of all my friends.

I don't know. I just... wish it was easier to sort out my shit but I guess not

Update: it's now 3:09 a.m. and I'm so fucking tired but whatever. I talked to Jay and it's hard to say much because I'm so tired but FUCK I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM JESUS CHRIST IM IN LOVE?!?!?!!! goddamnit it I just wanna be with him constantly...

Also I told him I was worried and he said, with his cute fucking voice, that I shouldnt worry cos he wouldnt just leave me. And. ThaNK YOU JAY. IF YOURE READING THIS, THANK YOU. Sometimes I get this dude's messages and just fucking smile. Hes the best and I love him. His whole self is a thing of beauty that I admire so much hes so charismatic and attractive and CUTE and I always tell him he's overconfident but MAN if i was that guy I'd be such a douchebag from confidence... dont tell him that though, xD like man I'm trying my best but at this point I wouldnt know what to fucking do if he went away. Like I'd cry so much.... I hope he doesnt move on from me too quick.

I'm so. I feel happy. Because I'm looking at everything and I feel so happy I'll cry and so sad I'll laugh. It's like being in a shitty coming of age movie where they play pop punk and the main character has his moment with the hot girl at the school dance or whatever bullshit. I feel like that. But its also like that same main character in his late forties stumbling upon an old photo of him and his highschool girlfriend and killing himself from love.

Here's what I'm listening to now... this plus a bunch of nostlagia inducing songs earlier... I just. Memories. So many. I almsot want to cry. Like. Look at them. Hold them in your hands as if they're these lovely little stones you found on the ground and put in your pockets cos they had cool stripes. Feel their WEIGHT. It's one of those things where it's so happy it's sad. It's so sad its happy. You're laughing and crying all at once and all you want is a hug. Because you can FEEL the human parts of you coming out, seeping out like a styro, starts off white then... blood. Humanity. I am vulnerable and exposed and I leave myself here.

HAN LEID, HAN LEID, HAN LEID,... han varr.

He walked, he walked, he walked,... he became.

I guess I'm still walking. But jesus christ. People affect me so much. So much. These memories, how it was cold or sunset or hot outside or nighttime and dark, how we were there as humans. I'd never be happier than in those little moments but you don't see it until years later. You don't see how important it was until you think of it and cry... fucking hell. Nils, Mark, Gabe, Max, James, Kyle, Liz,, every friend I've ever had. Nothing is better than music and memories because jesus christ I would've loved to have... died.

Died? No. My brain does this thing... I dont mean died. I guess I mean I wouldve liked to be frozen in those moments.

Sometimes I get a similar feeling. It's not the same, but its similar. This thing where you are so happy and grateful and sad because this is a tragedy and wow look. A happy moment in a tragedy. But jesus its happy enough and I want to cry because I really do appreciate the people who's lives cross paths with mine. I cry because I think of every little moment in which I knew that I wasnt alone and every little moment in which I felt their SOUL with mine and every little moment where my heart was touched... even unintentionally and in ways that dont make sense.

There was a girl, I'll call her Jade, I came out to her before anyone else. And sometimes, in the back of my head, I play that moment. In my mind. It was over fucking Skype. But I still felt it.

Oh man... I should proabably tell my coming out story. The story of how I came out to my parents. I was scared. I really was... but I felt like if I couldn't be ME, I couldn't live, or at least I didn't want to.

This was the song I played as I wrote a letter at... around this time actually, 3 or 4 am

I wrote it so spontaneously. I didn't even THKNK. I just wrote it. Because I was tired of crying myself to sleep every night and well... I had camp the next morning. That gave them a solid week or so to think about my letter... that would ensure they would be able to cool off whatever anger it would make them feel.

I wrote on one sheet of sketchbook paper front and back. I tried my best to explain. I tried my best. And that paper is stained with tears and still rests in my moms sock drawer

The whole thing got complicated after that... but in the end it worked out, with a lot of fucking work and persistence on my part.

Soemtimes I hope they look at it and cry themselves like how I did writing it.

Sometimes I just wish things were different. But they're not. I gotta deal with this.

But hey! Hey! We were happy earlier. Because... I dont kNow. I love everyone and I love the planet and i never want anyone to have to be hurt. Okay??? I love. Everyone.

Its hyperbole but still. I just want the best for everyone and I hate when other people are suffering cos it makes me upset. And. I don't know. I feel so... emotional right now. Like right now? I just want to hug everyone. And tell them that I'm here. And that it's okay. Look at me, dude! Look at me. I fucking made it... kinda. You can too! If you're reading this and you feel like shit... pull through. Please. I believe you can. I love you ANF I care about you and if you ever need help, message me.

Whatever I just. I dont know. I feel all like I just want everyone to be happy and at peace.... because I remember SO MUCH and all of it is making me cry a lot because I'm full of love okay? Like. I just care about people. I had to say goodbye to all of them but I don't fucking forget. I NEVER FORGET. It's a curse and... right now? The saddest blessing ever.

I had to say goodbye... yknow, I've never been good at goodbyes. I hope I don't have to say goodbye to Jay for a while. A long time. And when we do... I hope I can listen to his song and think of him and pull out every memory as perfectly as I can for everyone else. I just. I don't know. I see all these people in my mind, in flashes and it all comes flooding back to me. That isnt just a face. That was my friend and now they're gone. That was my friend and now? Not a word from them... that was my best friend and now its awkward. I don't want that anymore.. its painful. All of these people that have forgotten me years ago... who I still remember. Ouch. I dont know. I think I'm being dramatic because tlaking to Jay and being sleep deprived made me all mushy and then I listened to music. So.

Music makes everything feel so much more consuming but I cant live without it.

I dont even know

I'm just happy that I get to experience love.

Even if in the very end I am left alone... even if I'm tormented with memories of a happiness that can only be temporary,,,

I still appreciate it all and I'm full of love and appreciation I'm happy and i want to say THANK YOU to everyone

Signing off at 3:50 a.m,

Jude Shepard

[ewoodx]

ETHAN WOOD SEASON 2 !!

[GREGG SULKIN , MALE , HE/HIS ] do you hear [PHENOMENAL BY EMINEM ] coming from the beach ? oh, that has to be [ ETHAN WOOD] . they are a [ TWENTY TWO ] year old [PROFESSIONAL SOCCER PLAYER ] from the outer banks, and they’ve been living there for [TWENTY TWO YEARS ] . they were chosen to be on the show because they are a [ KOOK] , but really , I heard it’s because they can be [ ILL TEMPERED  & DEMANDING ] . if you get to know them though , they’re pretty [PROTECTIVE & ENERGETIC] . they might become a quick audience favorite due to their [ SIGNATURE SMIRK, PRETTY BOY CHARM & RIPPLING PECTORALS]

Hello lovelies! I’m Ally && this is the updated bio for Ethan Wood, your favorite arrogant, frat star with a hot temper && a secret heart of gold..I promise ;) Shoot me a message if you’re interested in plotting.

STATS;

Full name;  Ethan Alexander Wood

Age; 22

School; UNC

Birthday; August 19th

Height; 5’11 but he’ll tell you he’s 6ft

Parents; Olivier and Daphne Wood

Siblings; two brothers: Julian (older) & Damian (younger)

Occupation; Striker for Inter Miami CF 

Location; the eight, OBX and Miami during the soccer season

Sign; Leo

(+) ; protective & energetic.

(-) ; ill-tempered & demanding

Sexuality; heterosexual

Pogue or Kook; Kook

Character Inspiration;  zach siler (she’s all that) chuck bass (gossip girl), mickey milkovich (shameless), damon salvatore (vampire diaries) tim riggins (friday night lights) asher adams (all american) billy hope (southpaw) joe kingman (the game plan) maui (moana)

EARLY YEARS;

Ethan Wood was born and raised to do one thing and one thing only: play soccer. Being the middle child of legendary University of North Carolina starting forward Olivier Wood and renowned athleisure wear designer Daphne Wood, there was only one path for this budding young soccer prodigy. And it was to follow in daddy’s footsteps donning the prestigious Carolina blue and white of his father’s alma mater. 

His childhood was pleasant, raised on his family’s estate in the coveted Eight and filled with family getaways and father/son trips to UNC/Wake Forest rivalry matches. Matches that he hoped to one day play in. Young Ethan was a natural talent and he picked up the game rather quickly, spending every free moment practicing in the yard or scribbling down strategies. He wanted nothing more than to make his father proud and carry on his legacy. 

HIGH SCHOOL;

Ethan was sent to one of the finest private schools on the island that money could buy. Of course, he wasn’t there for his grades and what he lacked in brains, his skills on the field made up for. He made varsity soccer his freshman year and then went on to become captain during his senior year, reveling in all the perks that came with being a star athlete: parties, hookups, popularity. As Ethan’s athletic abilities along with his ego continued to grow, so did his competitive edge, arrogance, and hot temper which is known for getting him into trouble on and off the pitch. He’s no stranger to an alcohol induced bawl and struggles to keep his temper under control. 

COLLEGE;

It’s no secret that in the OBX money talks and Mr. Wood had deep pockets. A library donation and a legacy later, Ethan finally realized his dream and secured a spot on his beloved UNC soccer team. His temper being the reason for the trouble in the first place. It didn’t take long for him to become the frat star worthy of his reputation. Sure, he had to overcome those pesky freshman years, team hazing, and locker room banter, even spending the half a season on the bench for his hot headed temper. Nonetheless, he managed to make a name for himself even if slightly tarnished.

SEASON ONE; 

Fresh off his college graduation, Ethan returned to the Outer Banks with his sights set on playing professional soccer in the upcoming season. Before entering the real world in the fall, he joined the show for one last hurrah and boy did he get what he signed up for. The summer was filled with all sorts of shenanigans, parties, booze, and hook-ups. 

Ethan rounded out the first season of OBX rather unscathed, save for a secret hook-up and an unlikely friendship that he formed with a pogue. He gained some notoriety from the show and it was a perfect launch for his new life in the public eye.  

POST SEASON ONE 

Ethan started footy training in the fall after the reality show ended, and he currently plays for Inter Miami CF, a team owned by David Beckham himself. He took up residence in Miami for the soccer season (come visit him !!  or come to one of his matches) and traveled the country with his team becoming the soccer star he always wanted to be. His rookie season was one for the books, and if you thought his ego couldn’t get any bigger, check again. 

In his off time, Ethan maintained his growing popularity by making appearances at all the Miami hot spots and keeping up a rather impressive social media presence, constantly posting his fitness routines and workouts in addition to his nights out. This earned him a reputation off the pitch, and his name managed to find its way into the local papers and magazines. He did his best to keep in touch with his friends from the show despite his busy schedule, and even visited the OBX whenever he could. 

With his first professional soccer season in the books, Ethan couldn’t resist returning to the reality show for another summer, much to his PR team’s dismay who are working to clean up with reputation, not add to it. 

POGUES VS KOOKS

Ethan got into his fair share of Pogues vs Kooks scuffles back in high school. Nights filled with stupid boyish banter, booze, and blows. He likes to think he’s above all the rivalry now— playing pro ball and all—  but sometimes he still struggles to truly let go of the past and be the bigger person. He’s an athlete though and though, and rivalries are all just a part of the game. 

WANTED CONNECTIONS;

the rival; To say Ethan is competitive is the understatement of the century and he and this person have a rivalry for the ages. The two don’t like each other and this person never fails to get under Ethan’s skin. It could have even started back in school and carried over to now. Perhaps the reason Ethan had some trouble getting into UNC for soccer? Bonus points if they have to put all their differences aside and work together at some point for a common goal. [OPEN]

the hook-ups; Ethan really isn’t the type to stick around after a hook-up and is usually out before the sun comes up, never wanting to get attached. If anyone wants to give him a much deserved slap upside the head, let me know! [OPEN]

let’s make ‘em jealous; There’s no denying that Ethan and this person have chemistry. They are super flirty and all over each other, but in reality it’s all a rouse. They aren’t really into one another and are merely using each other to stir up some drama, cause a scene, and make the ones that really do catch their eyes jealous.  [OPEN]

the real bros; for those looking for a second muse, Ethan has two brothers xD. Julian and Damian (names can totally change!) He has one older brother who rejected the athlete/UNC/kook life leaving Ethan with the pressure to fill daddy’s soccer boots. They had a fall out and their relationship is shaky at best. Ethan also has a baby bro who he is definitely closer with. They get on rather typically through harmless banter and school boy shenanigans. He also has an innate protectiveness over him because he is older. [OPEN]

the tutor; Ethan isn’t the brightest bulb and only maintained good enough grades to stay on the soccer team. Though he was never the easiest student, Ethan has a great deal of respect for this person and appreciates all the work they put into him. Not to mention, is their BIGGEST hype-man if he ever runs into them outside his coursework. [CLOSED]

the workout partner; being a professional athlete means that Ethan is very into keeping in shape, even when he’s hungover. This could go two ways:1.) These two bonded over their love of the gym and they push each other to bring out the most of one another. It could even be a bit of rivalry, too! 2.) Ethan took this person under their wing (a trainer of sorts) and is helping them work out and keep healthy during the show. [CLOSED]

the almost maybe;  Ethan isn’t really into the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing, a big supporter of the motto: no strings, just sex. But this one girl somehow managed to wiggle her way into his GASP, heart. To say it scares the shit out of Ethan is more than just an understatement and even though sparks flew Ethan isn’t sure he’s ready to give up his soccer star lifestyle for her just yet. This could be a new relationship that manifests on the show or one from the past that he is forced to revisit now that they are sharing a summer house together. [CLOSED]

the role model; Ethan didn’t really have many positive role models to look up to growing up, mainly just his father and his toxic masculinity. This person helps Ethan balance all that out and helps him deal with all those pesky emotions he was taught to keep suppressed inside in order to “be a man.” This person also keeps him in check and isn’t afraid to give him a much needed smack to the upside of the head when necessary [CLOSED]

Totally open to anything !! && would love to get Ethan into some more drama this season xD Basically building him up, so I can take him down. Whoops! 

Shoot me a message if you’re interested in plotting.

[skypxllar]

[UPDATES] Blog Updates

Alright some updates:

I’m now testing out autoplay on my blog. Added a few more songs too considering all of my muses. The volume is at 15% though. That way it’s not too distracting or bursting your eardrums when getting on my blog XD.

New muse appears tomorrow. I have a new banner, two new promos, and a basic about page ready to go. Unfortunately, I won’t be posting her banner until tomorrow so just remind me to do that if it’s not up by the end of tomorrow. (also, I’m posting two posts leading up to that. If you can’t narrow down who it is by the end of the day, then we need to have a serious talk XD).

Now that school ends tomorrow and I don’t plan on completing college, I should be able to have some more time to make icons, work on threads, and make new threads. Note: I say SHOULD because Destiny 2 Season of Arrivals launched on Tuesday, the Entei event in Masters launched today, the Isle of Armor launches next Wednesday, I have to re-do CrossCode, I have some freelance work coming soon, and I do want to continue working on my game and honing my drawing skills. Any one or two of these can easily eat up my time in the 3 days that I don’t have work.

All major storylines are planned to be finished by the middle of July. That includes the Galar Travels event and the Kimono Maiden side story. Now that I have time to actually, you know, FINISH THEM, I don’t want to start the next storyline until they’re done, mostly because the next one is going to be a uh... pretty big one for the progress of the blog (and hopefully @ruinspantheon��� will finally get on so we can progress it together).

I’ve hidden my minor muse/NPC page. There’s so many NPCs on this blog that I pull out of nowhere that it’s hard to keep up. I am going to work more on relationship pages to keep everyone updated on how muses relate to each other. It’ll take some time to finish everyone though (just like how there’s STILL no damn bio for Ray, Helen, and Cynthia. Yikes.)

I’m thinking of redoing several of my banners now that I feel like I’ve improved. Specifically, I’m thinking of updating Zinnia and Lacey/Hera.

Let me know what you think about these updates. Also, posting some questions that I’ve been thinking about for a bit, so watch out for that.