#// namae you're the best thank you!

[ferromagnetiic]

I hope you're drowning in so much love that you never forget that no matter how much time passes you're still pretty much loved all time around. WOOD I still remember how funny i feel threated my our first interaction here and from there it was downhill. JSIDPADKOSDK You're sweet & kind I don't know how to picked a crackhead punk like kid (but is just as perfect) Replying/talking/plotting with you always been a joy and I don't want to extend too much bc I already poured my heart and guts in this thing I'm gonna send but, just know that I LOVEEE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH WOOD AND YOU'RE ALWAYS BE MY FRIEND NO MATTER HOW TIME PASSES OR FANDOM S TOO. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MANY YEARS FOR YOU, let's meet some day and laugh all together about the silliness we did here.

                    @waxgentleman

(◌ ♥︎◡♡ ◌) // Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Namae!!!! This was so cute, I'm going to treasure this message forever!!! ever since we met you've always gone out of your way to be so sweet to me, you always make an effort to make me feel loved and appreciated and it means so much to me. You're so thoughtful and considerate and you do so much for me. Every time we talk you make me laugh or leave me with warm feelings in my chest, you're just such a sweetie and such a hugely loved member of our writing community. Seeing your posts and your amazing art is such an integral part of what makes writing here a great experience, you're so important and everyone adores you endlessly!!

We will absolutely meet one day and have a wild and fantastic time together!!!! I love you so much, thank you for writing me such a precious birthday note and giving me the warm fuzzies. I'm gonna go pace around my room for a while aaaaaaaaaaaa i'm so lucky to have you as a friend i will bawl.

[mythicalmyles]

Hiya Myles, its blood anon. Since you're now doing anime recs, can you do Shu Sakamaki with a skeptical reader who doesn't believe in vampires? With blood mentions, and dub-con?

Just a small lil thought but what if they were bfs and MC doesn't believe half the things Shu says about being a vampire since hes a very lazy person and he thinks his bf is making it up.

Also, Congrats on 500 followers (๑˃̵　ᴗ　˂̵)و I hope to see more awesome writes from you in the future

Thank you so much i hope you enjoy this<3333

“Your blood smells really good.” Shu muttered as his lips ran across the back of (Names) neck, (Names) body shuddering as his breath hit the back of his neck. (Name) just let out a chuckle and rolled his eyes, Shu’s hands running up and down his stomach as he sat in Shu’s lap. (Namae) hadn’t been dating Shu long, despite how perverted he was this was the farthest they had gone. Shu had pretty much dragged him into his room and onto his lap, (Name) barley had had a moment to think before Shu’s lips were ghosting his neck.

(Name) let out a gasp when Shu’s fingers started circling his nipples through his shirt, his cheeks were flaming red as he tried his best to hold in his moans. “Sh-Shu stop.” (Name) groaned feeling his pants tighten. “But why? You clearly like it.” Shu teased as his hand began cupping and rubbing (Names) cock. “I mea-mean it Shu!” He choked out through his moans.

“I’ll prove what i am.” Shu muttered and before (Name) could question him, he’d sank his teeth into the junction between his neck and shoulder. (Names) mouth dropped open and his eyes widened as Shu’s fangs sank into him. His body relaxed as Shu began drinking from him, moans pouring from his mouth as he slumped in Shu’s lap.

Once Shu had taken enough to leave him drowsy and sluggish he pulled back, fox like grin coating his cheeks as his eyes gleamed. Shu didn’t know how they’d gotten this far without him bending the smaller over and taking him already, he’d held himself back long enough. “Shu.” (Name) sluggishly groaned, trying to turn his head to see him. (Name) felt fear as he gazed at Shu who had a wild look on his face, fangs dripping with (Names) blood before he licked it all up including the blood dripping from his lips. Shu’s hand wrapped around his neck as his other hand went to pull down his pants and boxers. Shu practically tore the fabric, hand moving to shove fingers in (Names) mouth.

Shu chuckled as he fucked his fingers into (Names) mouth, fingers playing with his throat. Shu looked at (Name) in the mirror just across from them, eating up every expression that fell on (Names) face. Gags and moans flew from (Names) mouth as it was used, Shu’s hands keeping him pinned in place. Not that he could do anything with his swirling mind, head static due to blood loss. All (Name) could do was submit as his boyfriend took him, Shu had such a grip on him (Name) knew he wouldn’t have a chance even if his head wasn’t swirling.

Shu pulled his fingers out and (Name) gasped in air as Shu’s fingers moved to his ass, sliding two digits into his hole. A choked yelp flew out of (Names) mouth, body jumping at the intrusion. “Shu i mean it!” He cried as Shu scissored his fingers, long fingers hitting deep inside of him.

Shu relished in the way his little boyfriend melted into him, the sweet moans he made spurred Shu on. Drool began dripping out of (Names) mouth, saliva running down his neck as he threw his head back into Shu’s chest. His hands desperately gripped into Shu’s sleeves, twisting the fabric as pleasure short circuited his brain.

Shu didn’t spend long opening him up before he withdrew his fingers and freed his cock. (Name) whimpered as it popped up between his legs, shivering at the side. He sluggishly shook his head. “Shu. No.” He groaned, Shu’s cock intimidating him. “Youll love it. Youll be begging for more soon.” ( Name) couldnt fight back as Shu positioned him above his cock, slowly sliding into him. (Names) mouth dropped in a silent scream as Shu slowly sunk him on his cock, his body shook when their hips finally met. Gravity dropping him as far as he could, Shu moved his shaking legs so they were spread. (Name) sobbed when Shu lifted him, the feeling of Shu’s cock stretching him more then anything had before was intoxicating.

“See?” Shu teased when (Name) began to moan as he was bounced on Shu’s cock. Moans flew from (Names) throat and it was like music to Shu’s ears, he choked when Shu would slam him down particularly hard. “You love it don’t you?” Shu hit his prostate with every bounce, drawing whines from (Name). “Yes, fuck. More. Please.” (Name) cried, Shu couldn’t help himself as he bit down on (Names) neck, hard enough to leave an obvious mark. (Name) came hard as Shu’s fangs entered him, painting his stomach and legs.

Shu didn’t slow down as his own high approached, his own orgasm fast approaching. (Name) whimpered and whine as his prostate was abused, Shu still stiking on every thrust. Oxygen had left (Names) lungs as Shu bounced him at an inhuman strength, vision whiting out with each slam.

He clenched hard on his second orgasm, scream tearing from his lips as he came hard. Shu slammed deep, cum flooding inside (Name). Shu lapped at his neck and occasionally sucked and kissed at his flesh. “My pretty little human.” Shu chuckled as (Name) passed out in his hold.

[ikkaku-of-heart]

@waxgentleman asked: Very bad because she doesn't want to be in the arms of an elegant blond gentleman that desires her so much :/ what's wrong with Ikkaku doesn't she believe in romance.. COUGH COUGH Anubis I can't be more clearer on how amazing your portrayal of Ikkaku is! Literally every time I see her in the anime now I imagine yours and all the backstory together. (excluding some scenes ofc) Writing with you is so easy for me, because we both have that style of detailing scenes/feelings/perfectly give your partner a open window to interact so much!!!! I literally obsessed with both ikkaku and your hawkins. beep beep how’s my portrayal?

Ikkaku says the fact that I haven't screwed her up and made her fall for Hawkins' manipulations is a sign I'm doing something right, lol

Ok, jokes aside, thank you, Namae! I'm so glad you've taken to my portrayal so strongly. I do my best to convey what's going on in a scene and in Ikkaku's heart while still giving my partner something to go off of so the story is truly collaborative. It's something I know I never have to worry about with you, because you're great at doing the same! And I appreciate that you love my Hawkins even if he is truly a terrible bastard. I love the weird friendship he and Mr. 3 have developed, especially since it gets him out of his anti-social shell a bit.

We're definitely stuck in Background Character Hell together but we walk through those flames hand-in-hand with pride. Thank you so much for your kind words, support, and friendship. I always know you've got my back.

[stanninghigedan]

破顔 / Hagan / A Wide Smile

*reposted because I hated the formatting in the previous version of this post HAHA

Ahhhhh this was really tricky to translate as this song was full of metaphors (classic Satocchan). But even though it hurt my brain so much, I pushed through as I believe this is one of their best songs - I feel like it’s a love letter of some sort to their fans/supporters for being their light, and because they received so much love and support (light) from them, they will do their best to pass on that light to others through their music.

Anyway, hope this post and this song will make you smile widely, too :)

帰り道のライト　何らかの合図を　無機質に放つビルたちの 名前は知らんよ　でもありがとう　開いてく心の搬入口

暖かな窓　カーテンの奥を　推し量ることは野暮だけど 幸せ願うよ　暮らしのサインを　くれた顔も知らぬ仲間たち

あなたが居るなら人生は今日も平和だ

到底僕じゃ払えもしないような　深い闇さえもぼやかしてしまう 街の誰そ彼の人生の　無数の美しさに途方に暮れる

ため息をつくと　止めてよってちょっと　叱ってくるおかしな奴がいる 言葉ではないよ　点滅のレッド　泳ぐ四輪二輪魚の群れ

眺めてた僕の荷物は笑みへと変わった

到底ひとりじゃ作れもしないような　愛着の湧くシワのひとつひとつ 君のあなたのお前たちの　その頼もしさに途方に暮れる

消えてくライト　静けさと共に　灯り出すライト　代わる代わる 訪れる夜を　生き抜くための大事な光を 宿してる誰も　届いてるちゃんと　ちゃんと　ちゃんと

到底僕じゃ払えもしないような　深い闇さえもぼやかしてしまう 街の誰そ彼の人生の　無数の美しさに途方に暮れる

きっと僕らは受け取ってしまう　色んな恐怖も色んな悲しみも それを背負ったもの同士だからこそ　互いを照らし合っては笑う

全てのライト　おやすみありがとう　届いてるちゃんと　ちゃんと

--

Kaerimichi no raito nanraka no aizu wo mukishitsu ni hanatsu biru tachi no Namae wa shiran yo demo arigatou hiraiteku kokoro no hannyuukou

Atataka na mado kaaten no oku wo oshihakaru koto wa yabo dakedo Shiawase negau yo kurashi no sain wo kureta kao mo shiranu nakamatachi

Anata ga iru nara jinsei wa kyou mo heiwa da

Toutei boku ja haraemo shinai you na fukai yami saemo boyakashite shimau Machi no tasogare no jinsei no musuu no utsukushisa ni tohou ni kureru*

Tameiki wo tsuku to tomete yotte chotto shikattekuru okashi na yatsu ga iru Kotoba de wa nai yo tenmetsu no reddo oyogu yonrin nirin sakana no mure

Nagameteta boku no nimotsu wa emi e to kawatta

Toutei hitori ja tsukuremo shinai you na aichaku no waku shiwa no hitotsu hitotsu Kimi no anata no omaetachi no sono tanomoshisa ni tohou ni kureru

Kieteku raito shizukesa to tomo ni tomoridasu raito kawaru kawaru Otozureru yoru wo ikinuku tame no daiji na hikari wo Yadoshiteru daremo todoiteru chanto chanto chanto

Toutei boku ja haraemo shinai you na fukai yami saemo boyakashite shimau Machi no tasogare no jinsei no musuu no utsukushisa ni tohou ni kureru

Kitto bokura wa uketotte shimau ironna kyoufu mo ironna kanashimi mo Sore wo seotta mono doushi dakara koso tagai wo terashi atte wa warau

Subete no raito oyasumi arigatou todoiteru chanto chanto

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The lights on the way home, being emitted by those cold, lifeless buildings, serves as some sort of signal I may not know their names, but I'm thankful, (since) they opened up the (service) entrance to their hearts

Although it's dumb to guess who or what’s behind these curtains and warm windows I wish these friends, who have been giving me signs to live, happiness, even though I don't know their faces

As long as you're here, this life, as well as the present, will be peaceful

I am in awe of the beauty of the countless stars (scattered across) the vast twilight sky in this city* A darkness so deep that it's impossible to clear it up no matter how much I try - even if I do try, it'll just be blurry at best

As I breathed a sigh, I stopped for a while; a weird guy scolds at someone Without any words, the red lights blinked; the four-wheeled and two wheeled vehicles moving like a school of fishes (also begin to stop)

I watched as my baggages turned into smiles

I am left in awe of the kindness of each and every one of you** That even if one doesn't make an effort to make connections, one by one, those feelings (of affection) eventually reach me, like a ripple

The lights come on and then disappear with the silence, they change, one after the other That precious light that keeps us alive during the nights that (always) come I'll carry it with me and make sure it reaches someone, for sure, I'll make sure of that

I am in awe of the beauty of the countless stars (scattered across) the vast twilight sky in this city A darkness so deep that it's impossible to clear it up no matter how much I try - even if I do try, it'll just be blurry at best

Surely, we'll have to accept everything - even the (various) fears and sadness It is exactly because we go through all these things together that we can shine and laugh at these together

The lights, as well as the good night and thank you's - I'll make sure they reach someone, for sure

T/N

"*OH GOD HOW DO I EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN THESE TWO LINES IT WAS SO HARD TO TRANSLATE BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE WHATEVER TRANSLATION I MAKE IT WILL NOT DO THE LINES JUSTICE :(( I WILL ALWAYS BE AMAZED OF HOW SATOCCHAN IS A GENIUS WITH WORDS. Tasogare, with the kanji he used in the lyrics, would mean "who is that?". This is actually an old adage/old way of referring to unknown people. In recent times, ""tasogare"" (with the kanji 黄昏) means "twilight", which, actually comes from the old meaning of tasogare. If you look at the lyrics, you will see that both meanings of tasogare work with the context of the song = it may mean that he is completely overwhelmed by the beauty of the lives of the immeasurable number of people he's never known in town (as immeasurable as the stars in the twilight sky). The people interpretation will also work with the song as it can be used as reference for the second chorus (kimi no anata no omaetachi no)."

"**Kimi no, anata no, omaetachi no - kimi, anata, and omae all mean ""you"" when translated into english, but the differences in these lie in the degree of closeness the speaker has with the other party being pertained to. Kimi is more casual and can refer to friends, family, and loved ones, anata to other people one knows (acquaintances, etc; but can also be used with people you have a very close relationship with, especially since anata is sometimes used between husband and wife), and omaetachi to those you don't have a personal relationship with."

[julsdsweet]

2020 Testimonials

Nurulizzaty & Mohamed Hafiq wedding Date of Event: 19 & 25 December 2020 via Email

Subject: Kak Juls Testimonial 

Dear kak Juls, 

I hope all is well during this pandemic situation. I know this email comes a little late but I’m finally getting back to reality and would like to thank you for everything you have done on my wedding day. I cannot begin to express my gratitude for your wonderful service that you have provided throughout the 2 days you have done for us. 

My make up artist, kak Juls has everything that I needed. She is very patience, very outgoing person, just as we are, coming from a lady who has a long experience in this industry, she is very well prepared of such questions and enquiries that probably all grooms and brides have in their mind. Her replies are very prompt and also she will give lots of suggestions - in terms of during fitting, time wise, what to prepare beforehand, and a big tip for me, to what skincare routine I should take to maintain a good and healthy face. Not to forgot, she is very flexible and could handle with different kinds of situation at the very last minute. After all, she can still attend to my needs.

Overall, she is one talented make up artist and her professionalism and a relaxing spirit were essential to our days of success. Thank you so much for your warmth presence from day 1 until the end of our event. We hope you will continue to give out your tremendous skills to the future newlyweds. We are glad to have chose you and having you on our wedding day. Wish you lots of future success with your business. Insha allah.

Best Regards, 

Izza&Hafiq

Siti Jayrah & Farhan wedding Date of Event: 23 August 2020 via Instagram posting

JulsDsweet - Thank you kak Juls for the magic hands!  Everyone were saying that I look different especially during nikah.  Thank you for delivering my request the night before my event and thank you for the amazing hairdo that I dreamt of for my wedding!!  Cantikk gilaaaa okkkk!  Eventhough you're so gentle in person, you make sure Im always ok throughout the day, you entertain everyone especially our bridesmaid, bestman and photo/videographer.  Jangan serik2 lagi tau layan adik2 akak ni!

JulsDsweet - Kajol adalah nama baru Kak Juls. She have a magic one!  Ehk salah.  Magic wand.  Zyrah berpeluh camne pun muka dia takde crack linkes.  Good job kak.  Fun and easy to work with.  Easily blend in with our kecohness.  Geng2 happening jgk.  Hahaha!

Noor Omairah's engagement Date of Event: 18 July 2020 via email

Dear Kak Juls

I am so glad I came across your Instagram profile while I was panic-finding for MUA - exactly a month ago! I think the primary reason why I enquired you in the first place was that I was thoroughly impressed by your portfolio (the makeup, the HD photos/videos etc). You certainly did not fail and met all of my expectations for my event. 

Everyone complimented about my make-up and how I looked like a life-sized doll. My mum was elated that she looked extremely radiant, as well as the many compliments she received during the event. All these wouldn't have happened if not for your magic hands! So our biggest thank you for dolling us up, Kak Juls. Thank you also for our hilarious conversations throughout coupled with your cheerful personality, which really helped calm my nerves!

Insyallah if any opportunity arises for me to get a MUA, I'll look for you first ok! Hehe. 

In the meantime, take care and stay safe. Keep in touch! :)

With Regards Noor Omairah

[caroli-san]

Motivation for finishing my heart

Hi, after a long time right? 😅 I had difficult time in my real life, but that doesn't matter now... Everything is fine aaand I finally finished something after a long time eyyy 😁 *You forget that you got again into HARPG* well my 2nd me, you're right... I got again into it and now I hope, I'll only enjoy it 😊 *nah whatever... What you did, say it now!* yeah, don't worry, I'll say it now!

Soo... As you could read *oh really? And I thought that they don't read it... * sarcastic hmm... Whatever - I finished my two arts of Uragiri wa Boku no Namae wo Shitteiru 😍 Yess, two of them ❤️ I'm so proud of myself! *I must say that I agree... But just for this one time, ok?!?* sweet my 2nd me x3

Yeah, this is the 1st one 😊 I know, that I said and promised to @galespider that I'd tag her so hello! Here is it! 😁 (she did similar picture, but better with this same reference, so go check her out!) ❤️

And this is the reference (I don't own the picture, I just made screenshot, so respect the true owners!

I was shocked, that I did this one with the colored pencils, not with the pencils itself o.o I must had crazy happy mood probably (but I finished it someone today too!) 😅

The next one is this one! I'm so proud of it, the twin brothers -> Luka and Luze Crosszeria ❤️❤️ You have no idea, how long I was doing this 😅

Yes... The best thing is to have one Manga reference and one anime reference how clever of me x') *and then, who is sarcastic for today huh?* you know what? Shut up! *pff, never...*

Bonus as the end

Yeah I probably didn't post it here yet, but when I was on holiday back in July, I did Luze itself too (yeah, I just love him, you know?) 😅

Again with the reference of course x3

And what I find today? That one of my favorite characters in Black butler / Kuroshitsuji has the same voice actor as Luka! I thought, I'd die TuT And I'm sooo happy probably spoiler warning! that he didn't die (I mean Luka ok?) because if he dies, I'd die too and hell yeah! I maybe simp more for Luze but damn nope, nope and again nope TT

That would be for this post everything! Thank you again for reading the whole post x3 See you soon hopefully ❤️❤️

[sword-dad-fukuzawa]

Hi! You're super great at doing these analyses and I was wondering if you could analyze some of the songs in bsd? The ones I'm most interested in would definitely be Namae wo yobu yo and Scarlet Sky. Thank you for all the analyses you've done ;-;

Yo! Thanks anon, and I’m happy you like to read the stuff I write!! 

Okay, but, song analyses?? Intriguing! Clarification- would it be better if I did a strictly song-only analysis or if I did something similar to Mother’s Basement on YouTube? He’s best known for his series “What’s in an OP” where he talks about the visual aspects of the OP/ED as well. I could definitely do one for Namae Wo Yobu Yo (the symbolism in this ED, I swear, it’s like crack for my brain) but I can’t actually find Scarlet Sky. It’s a Dead Apple OST, right? But I don’t know if it has lyrics/translated ones, Google’s kinda confusing.

[githanst]

2019, You're The best Moments ❤️

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh 🌹 1. Januari Di bulan ini aku sudah memasuki 4 bulan bekerja sebagai terapis. Menangani anak yang begitu spesial di kehidupan selama aku bekerja. Orangtua yang spesial, guru yang spesial, dan juga anak yang spesial. Aku senang bisa dipertemukan dengan keluarga ini, lebih tepatnya dengan anak ini — anak yang aku terapi. Ada yang mengatakan "mengajarlah bagaimana ia belajar". Aku tidak bisa mengungkapkan perasaanku bagaimana belajar banyak hal dari anak ini. Bahkan kata ikhlas yang sering kuucapkan terkadang masih terasa sesak. Kenapa? Apa benar aku ikhlas melakukan ini demi kesembuhannya? Atau karena aku harus terpaksa ikhlas demi memenuhi kebutuhan hidupku? Aku sering bertanya dalam hati masalah ini. Tapi aku tetap bersyukur kepadaNya karena aku bisa dipertemukan dengan anak yang spesial dan juga orangtua yang spesial. Salut dengan mereka yang diberikan hadiah yang luar biasa dariNya 2. Februari Kini aku kembali menapaki diri di negeri singa. Bukan untuk liburan seperti orang pada umumnya, tapi untuk melakukan asesmen. Ya, ini masih tentang anak spesial yang aku sebutkan sebelumnya. Untuk membantunya membaik harus melakukan berbagai hal. Termasuk mengunjungi salah satu tempat terapi yang cocok dengan usianya saat ini. Selama bulan ini kami sering hilir mudik Singapura - Batam. Lelah? Tidak ada kata lelah dalam hal ini. Menyenangkan? Pasti. Karena aku termasuk orang yang hobby jalan kesana kemari bertemu dengan orang baru sembari mengumpulkan ilmu dan belajar. 3. Maret Aku lupa dengan momen di bulan ini. Tapi yang masih tertinggal di kepala ini adalah saat aku bertemu kembali dengan seseorang di dunia maya. Ya seseorang itu adalah teman ngajiku sewaktu kecil dulu. Di bulan ini juga aku patah hati karena seseorang. Tapi dibalik semua kejadian di bulan ini aku lebih bisa memahami bahwa setiap perpisahan bakal digantikan dengan pertemuan yang baru. 4. April Bulan kelahiranku. Ya aku selalu bahagia dengan bulan ini. Tidak perlu dijelaskan sebabnya apa yaa :) Tapi momen lain di bulan ini adalah aku bertemu dengan seseorang yang sangat hebat dan luar biasa yaitu dr. Partington di Singapore. Siapakah dr. Partington ini? Dia adalah bapak ABA VB Internasional (maaf kalau salah). Dia yang menciptakan metode pembelajaran untuk anak berkebutuhan khusus, khususnya Autis. Betapa bahagianya aku saat mengikuti training bersamanya. Diajarkan olehnya. Dan hal yang paling tidak ku sangka adalah dia melontar kalimat dan mengatakan yang menakjubkan menurutku "she is smart" 😍 MasyaAllah terkejut aku tuh. Tapi begitulah penilaiannya terhadapku. Thank you dr. Partington ❤️ 5. Mei Bulan ini memasuki bulan ramadhan. Tahun ini sama seperti sebelumnya. Di bulan ramadhan ini aku jauh dari keluarga ku dan menjalani kehidupan seperti orang pada umumnya. Sedih? Pasti sedih dong. Ya harus bagaimana, memang sudah kodratnya aku menjalini kehidupan ini dan aku percaya Allah punya rencana yang terbaik. Di bulan ini juga aku disadarkan akan kesalahanku dulu terhadap seseorang orang. Aku mengecewakannya dengan sikap dan perkataanku. Tidak butuh lama dan aku segera menghubunginya dan meminta maaf mengakui kesalahanku terhadapnya. Dan alhamdulillah dia bersikap baik. Sungguh, aku tidak pernah sebahagia ini mendapatkan maaf dari seseorang. Semenjak hari itu komunikasi kami menjadi intens. 6. Juni Tidak banyak yang ku ceritakan di bulan ini. Lebaran tahun ini aku dan keluargaku kembali berkumpul di kediaman alm. Kakek dari sebelah papa. Banyak yang datang kali ini. Kedatangan saudara lakiku beserta anak dan istrinya, kedatangan uwak — saudara tertua dari papa, dan juga adik beradik Papa. Tidak ada moment khusus kedatangan mereka kali ini. Mereka memang sering berkumpul untuk memenuhi hasrat didalam hati mereka — rindu berkumpul dengan saudara. Ah ya ada yang ketinggalan, selain memenuhi hasrat tersebut yaitu kedatangan mereka karena Bunde Fahimah — adik bungsunya Papa, sedang mengadakan aqiqah untuk cucu pertamanya. Lebaran kali ini menurutku cukup berkesan. Selain kedatangan mereka, aku juga memiliki moment tersendiri bersama orang terkasihku. Aku bertemu dan berbicara berbagi cerita dengannya. Tentang lelahnya menjalin hubungan yang terlalu banyak toxic. Seseorang ini adalah seseorang yang berhasil membuatku menyesal atas perbuatanku. Juni 9, 2019 moment kami berdua saling bertanya siapa yang kami pilih untuk menetap di hati kami. Ah ya, di bulan ini juga aku mengikuti Pelatihan Shadow Teacher Anak Berkebutuhan Khusus Autis dengan pemateri yaitu dr. Tri Gunadi. Aku tidak menyangka beberapa kali di pertemukan dengan orang hebat. Ini semua tidak lepas dari usaha orangtua anak yang sedang aku terapi. Aku berterima kasih dan bersyukur kepada mereka 😊 7. Juli Lebaran telah usai, kami kembali ke rutinitas seperti sebelumnya yaitu bekerja. Demi memenuhi kebutuhan hidup, yah rasanya tidak wajar lagi di usia sekarang masih meminta kepada orangtua. Walaupun mereka tidak keberatan kalau kita masih meminta. Hanya saja gengsi ini terlalu tinggi. Masa ya udah jadi seorang sarjana lalu bekerja tapi masih meminta kepada orangtua? Yah, ucapan itu bakal terlantar dari mereka yang terlalu nyinyir dengan kehidupan orang lain. Aku bersyukur memiliki orang tua yang tidak mempermasalahkan hal tersebut. Di bulan ini aku qtime — menurut kamu milenialnya gitu. Aku qtime bersama orang terkasihku. Siapa? Mama Hiu dan Mama Bear — aku menyebut mereka dengan sebutan itu. Hanya mereka tempatku untuk berkeluh soal kerjaan dan masalah hati untuk saat ini. Karena mereka yang mudah untuk aku jangkau. 8. Agustus Bulan ini lagi-lagi aku mengikuti seminar spesial ABA (Applied Behavior Analysis) dengan pemateri Bu Rury Soeriawinata, MSC., M. ED (board Certified Behaviour Analyst (BCBA). Banyak hal yang aku dapatkan dari seminar ini. Aku juga tak luput kembali mengucapkan terima kasih kepada orangtua spesial yang sudah mensponsori seminar untuk aku dan rekan kerjaku. 9. September Bulan ini aku merencanakan untuk liburan ke salah satu tempat yang sudah ku rencanakan dari jauh hari. Mungkin bukan untuk pertama kali aku menginjakkan kaki di kota ini, bisa dikatakan sering. Karena hampir setahun sekali aku melewati kota ini untuk aku menuju ke kampung halaman orangtuaku—Papaku, yah walaupun nggak sampai di kota ini, nggak melewati kota ini tapi masih daerah Sumatera Barat. Tripku kali ini memang sudah aku rencanakan dari sewaktu zaman waktu skripsian dulu. Sebelummya sih aku udah pernah ke kota Padang ini bersama teman kuliahku. Tapi ntah kenapa kali ini aku ingin kesana lagi. Mungkin mau tahu rasanya bagaimana ngetrip solo. Yah, dan berhasil! Kenapa aku pilih Padang? Mungkin karena aku penasaran dengan tempat wisata yang disajikan oleh kota ini. Apalagi aku sering melihat kebanyakan orang ngepost bagaimana bagusnya kota ini, hmm aku makin penasaran haha. Aku lebih penasaran dengan pulaunya sih, tapi bukan yang lain nggak buat aku tertarik. Tetap kok. Selain solo trip, kedatanganku ke kota ini untuk memecahkan rinduku terhadap seseorang haha. Seru banget gitu wkwk. September selalu memberikan moment terbaik. 10. Oktober Bulan ini tidak ada moment khusus. Hanya saja panggilan "Bu Githa" kerap kali sering terdengar di telinga ku. Betapa bahagianya aku, anak yang aku didik begitu cintanya kepadaku. "Ya Allah, Berikanlah kesembuhanMu kepadaNya dengan kesembuhan yang tidak meninggalkan bekas. Aamiin". 11. November Bulan ini adalah bulan kelahiran dari abang Sulungku. Kelahiran dari Muhammad Zubair Nasution. November 19, 2019. Ini kebahagiaan yang luar biasa teruntuk kami, terutama untuk Bang Andilo dan istrinya. Mereka sudah menantikan moment ini selama 6tahun. Rezeki dan tanggung jawab sudah berpihak kepada mereka. Semoga mereka bisa menjadi orangtua yang baik dan semoga Zubair menjadi anak yang Sholeh. Aamiin ya rabbal'aalamiin 🤲🏻 12. Desember Batam - Padang - Medan - Takengon - Lhokseumawe - Medan - Pkl. Kerinci - Pekanbaru - Batam Di bulan ini aku melewati beberapa kota. Seperti yang aku tuliskan. Hahahaha, betapa bahagianya aku bisa kemana-mana sendiri. Ok baiklah, aku ku ceritakan. Berhubung Bulan ini adalah bulan liburan anak sekolah, aku memanfaatkan waktuku untuk bertemu dengan beberapa orang. Seperti biasa, memecahkan celengan rinduku. Dari Batam aku ke padang, di Padang aku bertemu seseorang yang spesial di hatiku. Bertemu untuk kedua kali setelah bulan September yang lalu. Pertemuan kali sangat mengesankan buatku. Karena meninggalkan rasa yang begitu besar terhadapnya. Rasa apaan sih gith? Hahaha. Cukup aku dan dia saja yang tahu hal ini. Setelah dari Padang aku melanjutkan perjalananku ke Medan. Di Medan hanya beberapa jam saja, karena malam harinya aku harus kembali berangkat ke Takengon - Aceh. Tapi bukan berarti tidak ada moment di Medan. Setelah sekian lama aku tidak menapaki kakiku di kota ini, ternyata kota ini cukup besar. Wajar saja Papa mengkhawatirkanku. Di Medan aku menyempatkan untuk bertemu seseorang dari masa lalunya dari seseorang yang spesial dihatiku — ah elah ribet banget sih gith! Haha. Kok bisa? Ya bisa, aku sih yang maksa untuk bertemu. Karena menjalin hubungan dengan orang baru itu baik. Tidak ada masalahnya kan? Toh aku dan perempuan ini tidak ada masalah kok. Jadi menurutku tidak masalah kalau berteman 😊. Oh ya, Nama panggilannya Dini. Aku senang bisa mengenalnya. Baik. Setelah bertemu dengan Dini, aku harus bergegas ke loket travel karena travel ku akan berangkat ke kota yang aku tuju selanjutnya. Pukul 08.00 wib aku tiba di kota Takengon - Aceh. Kedatanganku di kota ini untuk mengikuti prosesi pernikahan dari sepupuku. Abang beradik Papa berkumpul semuanya disini. Semuanya menyambutku dengan hangat, semua proses pernikahan berjalan dengan lancar. Di Takengon bersama yang lain, kami mengunjungi beberapa tempat wisata — Pantan terong namanya. Dari tempat ini aku bisa melitah kota Takengon dari atas bukit ini. Oh ya, ada yang ketinggalan. Di kota Takengon ini memiliki suhu yang cukup dingin. Airnya saja seperti air es. Sampai-sampai aku yang dasarnya malas mandi jadi lebih malas dikarenakan suhu air dan cuaca yang dingin. Ok kita lanjut. Keesokan harinya kami semua bergegas untuk siap-siap pulang ke Medan. Kami berangkat dari Takengon sekitar pukul 08.00 wib. Kami sempat singgah berhenti di warung durian untuk memenuhi hasrat kami yang ingin makan durian enak haha. Setelah itu kami melanjutkan perjalanan kami. Kami tiba di kota Medan sekitar pukul 01.30 wib dini hari. Kami sempat singgah di warung Amangboru — Suaminya bunde Naimah. Sekitar pukul 02.00 wib kami tiba di Kediaman Bunde Naimah. Di Kota Medan ini kami semua mendapat kabar duka. Pukul 02.30 wib dini hari, kami mendapat kabar duka bahwa Amangboru suaminya Bunde Naimah meninggal dunia :". Ini semua cukup mengejutkan kami. Bagaimana tidak? Setengah jam lalu kami baru saja bertemu dengannya. Tapi ya begitu, maut tidak ada yang tau kapan akan menjemput. Tapi aku salut kepada Bunde, Bunde adalah wanita yang paling tegar dan kuat yang pernah aku temui setelah Mamaku. Paginya kami sibuk bergegas menyiapkan kediaman untuk kedatangan jenazah. Satu persatu orang berdatangan menyampaikan bela sungkawanya kepada keluarga Alm. Amangboru. Tapi ada hal lebih menyakitkan, siangnya aku harus berangkat ke loket bus dikarenakan aku harus balik ke Batam. Tiket pesawat yang sudah aku booking tidak bisa di cancel. Ini sangat membuatku dilema. Tapi Mama Papa bilang tidak masalah jika aku pulang lebih awal. Begitu juga Bunde Naimah, mereka cukup mengerti akan kondisiku. Pukul 16.00 wib aku berangkat menuju Pekanbaru. Apa Pekanbaru? Bukannya ke Batam? Iya, pesawatku keberangkatannya dari Pekanbaru. Maka dari itu aku harus naik bus ke Pekanbaru, dan harus sampai di Pekanbaru secepatnya. Pukul 08.25 wib aku sudah tiba di Pkl. Kerinci. Kenapa? Karena bus nya aku tumpangi hanya bisa berhenti di loket Pkl. Kerinci. Baiklah. Dari Pkl. Kerinci aku harus menumpangi travel lagi untuk menuju Pekanbaru. Aku tiba di Pekanbaru sekitar pukul 11.00 wib. Aku sempat bertemu dengan adik bungsuku - Abi nama panggilannya. Hanya saja aku tidak menginap di kontrakannya. Karena mesin air di kontrakannya sedang rusak -_- jadi aku memutuskan untuk menginap di kontrakan sahabatku. Mumun, aku sering memanggilnya dengan sebutan itu. Betapa bahagianya aku tidak bertemu dan merasakan pelukan hangat secara langsung. Bagaimana tidak? Kami kembali terpisah dikarenakan aku sudah memiliki pekerjaan sedangkan saat itu ia masih berjuang untuk menyelesaikan tugas akhirnya. Kali ini lengkap semua kebahagianku. Keesokan harinya aku kembali bersiap - siap untuk pulang ke Batam. Tidak ada yang terasa sesak kali ini. Karena semua orang telah aku temui. Setidaknya sudah memenuhi hasrat ku untuk bertemu dengan orang yang aku sayangi. Desember, you're the best Moments ❤️ Cukup sekian ceritaku selama setahun di 2019. Mohon maaf kalau bahasanya masih jumpalitan, maklum aku masih belajar dengan hobby ini, hobby yang (berusaha) aku komitmenkan hah. Semoga ada hikmah yang bisa diambil dari cerita ku ini, tapi kalau nggak ada yah diabaikan saja, wkwkwkwk. Terima kasih untuk segalanya, Wassalamu'alaikum 2019 🌸 Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, 2020 🌹

[cicocess]

I saw you sitting there, alone, which is quite a sight because you glow from the people you surround yourself with, but now that you are alone, and quiet, you seem to be glowing in a different light.

I said to my friends, that I wanted to be like ladybird, I would approach any guy I find interesting, let the motive be for platonical or romantical. You are then one of my few crushes, crackes on pavement, to be filled with semen to make it whole. The semen of ideas. How will you answer to the semen I fill in between your cracks?

"Hey, do you have a pencil? I really need to jot something down like right now."

"Hey, here you go. Funny how you go around with a book, but not a pencil?"

"Hahaha, nama kau Asyraf, right? Sherap was it?"

"Lol, yes. How did you know my name."

"Not sure if you remember, but there was this one time when you guys were practising the flashmob thing at bs2, and I was there doing the hiasan things, and I found you cute, so I asked my roommate if she knows you."

"That's a detailed first impression."

"Hahaha yes, I write sometimes, so I really like filling my minds with ideas to write. Say, do you wanna know what I was about to write just now?"

"Shoot."

"How I write is, I look at my surroundings and try to make a story out of the habitual routine of the things. Like you know how water, when in certain angles, reflect the light out of the surface, and makes the light looks like they are dancing? I love those shits. I am really an unimaginative person, so I really depend a lot on things that I see."

"Well, what was the boring thing that you saw that made you borrow a pencil from a stranger?"

"Funny, you are the boring thing lol. And why did you put it into that way? Habitual stationary things are not boring. They make the world moves around. 'Boring things' like you make this small brain of mine moves around."

"Never had I imagine to be complimented in such a fancy way."

"That's what I do best, I compliment people weirdly."

"..."

"If you are curious to what I was writing, I am sorry to drop the bomb but I cant show you now, or ever. I dont like telling people about what I write, unless it is finished."

"Well, I could always read it when you're finished with it, right?"

"Wow, you are kinda full of yourself aren't you? We are not even friends, you dont even know my name, and now you be demanding to write my stuffs? The Guts!"

"Well, that could be changed, couldnt it? Here, give me your insta, and let's be friends from there."

"Great, one of my bucket list is ticked. Being asked of my insta username by a cute guy. Here, I gotta go, thanks!"