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I don't want to hear 'i love you'

I want to feel 'i love you.'

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Even if you were a difficult child, you didn't deserve to be hurt.

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Maybe it's true that people get bored of you when you show them too much love

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hey google tell me how to stop feeling a crippling and deep seated fear of abandonment

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applying for the position of your good luck charm that's kept in your pocket and looked at adoringly

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So the therapist who always forgot what I was supposed to be working on was leaving and passing me off to someone else. And because of my work schedule most people weren't available. So even though I asked to not have a male therapist I decided to go with him anyway because at this point I don't care. He cancels a week before the appointment and passes me off to another woman. She cancels the day before and leaves a voicemail to reschedule. So I quit.

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we are the daughters of parents who should not have had kids

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Diff topic but fr how many people are going to break my heart before I give up on feeling wanted cause I'm tired

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being traumatized is so embarrassing sometimes like oooogh my mom was mean to me when i was little so now i want to eviscerate myself anytime i think i’ve done something wrong. fuck you

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we are the daughters of parents who should not have had kids

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we will be looking back on in shame how evil we have been to trans racial people. Just like with being transgender it doesn’t matter why and it doesn’t matter what social issues come up because of it someone’s identity is their identity no ifs ands or buts. people can have an identity that doesn’t match how their body “materially” is without changes. People can get those changes and be valid and people can assert their identity without any physical changes and still be valid. This pisses everyone off who think identity factors are all rooted in the material and that that is what makes it “real”. They hate how powerful our minds and socially constructed experiences are and want to make sure everyone stays in the boxes they recognize so they don’t have to face complexity

All I can say is I directly experience my body not reflecting my identity both with sex-gender and ethnicity/race. And i have transitioned socially and physically on both fronts. One is not less valid than the other

For every “oh you couldn’t possibly experience what [my racial identity] experiences because you’re actually physically [what my body looks like and gets read as without my alterations]” there is a “oh you couldn’t possibly experience what [my gender identity] experiences because you’re actually physically [what my body looks like and gets read as without my alterations]”.

I'm just going to be honest, I'm not reading this.

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I feel like I'm getting worse.

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Imagine being bought for money and forced to live with strangers you're taught to love and told is a good thing

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My logic is if I have a major depressive episode maybe I'll feel better after