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ghostbeam · 5 months ago

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Mech pilot yuuta and his mech that’s incredibly possessive over him. He takes to you as a handler almost immediately, excited for the help after his last few handlers were scared off. You’re not allowed inside, your constantly dodging malfunctioning limbs and faulty wires, but you’re not one to back down, and gaining her trust is just as important as gaining his.

Rika only realizes how important you are to Yuuta the day after you spend the night with him, and he’s left alone in the morning with an empty bed and a broken heart. You’re his handler. You’re not supposed to leave him. Not ever.

She lures you into her chest one night, faking some sort of lighting malfunction and allowing you inside for the first time. She keeps you inside all night, enduring all your yelling and banging on her insides to be let out, a nice gift for Yuuta.

#he’ll coax you into the neurolink connection with sweet words #talk about being unable to live without you how much he needs you #not only as his handler but as someone he’s falling in love with #the link will only make the two of you stronger #you’ll let him right?? let him peak inside your brain and hear all your thoughts #he’ll know every time you think of leaving #know your desire for him when your words say otherwise #you won’t be able to hide anymore #especially not when rika has taken to you too #you belong to them now❤️#sorry had to get that out #lowkey a little horrific to be trapped in a mech #but this au is consuming my life #if I had any energy I would write this but #it’s all going toward my Touya fic I fear #ghost thoughts

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dreamerdrop · 15 days ago

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Julian does kind of strike me as someone who just sort of. Endures suffering and then pushes it way, way down and pretends it doesn’t hurt.

Bad things happen and he just sits quietly and then pushes it down and pretends he’s okay so he can get on with whatever he needs to get on with.

Doesn’t know how to process trauma or misery inside himself, but he can help other people with theirs, so he just. Keeps going. Keeps working. Keeps trying.

It makes sense, I mean, the pivotal traumatic incident in his life was one he has never been allowed to even allude to out of fear. His parents don’t seem very emotionally available for him either, so he’s definitely never talked out those issues with them. So he’s probably just grown up pushing any off feelings back down and focusing on something else.

And even when his big ol secret is finally out, he still doesn’t really talk about it or acknlowedge it unless someone basically drags him kicking and screaming into having to focus on it. He never really talks about or addresses like. Anything.

Like his attempts at curing the blight and how fucked up he was over that. Or the time he thought he could save the Jem’Hadar from their ketracel white addiction. (And boy howdy does that episode take on new layers of pain when you think about him being so sympathetic to entities that were genetically engineered to suffer and his own backstory.) Surviving a psychic attack that basically involved his own subconscious mind trying to talk him into embracing death. A month in a prison camp where he probably definitely thought he was going to just die there, and then realizing no one knew he was gone, and his friends are not anywhere near disturbed enough by any of what just happened.

(To be clear, I think it’s fine that they didn’t realise it was a changeling. I think the reaction they have when they find out retroactively, however, is like. Guys. A minute ago you thought Julian Bashir, your close friend of several years, beloved station doctor, had betrayed the federation and had to be killed. Guys. Forget Julian for a second. How was this not traumatic for the rest of you?)

Then there’s all of that Sloan fuckery which is basically just three episodes of one man trying to gaslight Julian into a dissociative break for reasons.

And he just. Bounces back. Next episode, time to move on, insists he’s totally fine. Except he’s not. He gets gradually more and more tired and miserable and closed off but he just. Never fucking talks about it to anyone. Never deals with how messed up he’s slowly becoming. Never recovers. Never heals. Never gets closure for any of it.

He has so many wonderful moments where he comforts someone else when they break, when they’re scared, when they let all the bad stuff finally make them collapse.

But Julian just never really collapses like that, and it’s like he actively ensures he will never have the chance to collapse because he doesn't want to (and probably doesn’t know how to) deal with any of his issues.

Can you imagine what it would look like when he finally breaks.

#stella talks #star trek ds9 #star trek #julian bashir #.i think I focus more on Julian than other characters because of that lack of closure.#.and I do feel like it. it’s gotta be intentional to a large extent.#.because it’s so JARRING how many episodes focusing on Julian just have him at the end looking shell shocked and dead inside.#.and then it all has to move on and he just shoves it all aside.#.like Julian please there is a line between not letting your personal issues affect your work and like…#.not letting your personal issues even exist in the first place.#.but like. he’s heading for a ten car pile up level breakdown and doing nothing to avert it.#.just gonna collapse one day in the replimat and start sobbing uncontrollably.#.and it’ll surprise him as much as anyone because he’ll be like BUT I WAS FINE. no sir you were not.#.probably jumps ship to go to Cardassia just so he can focus on someone suffering more than him and continue not dealing with his own stuff #.jokes on him because this is post character development Garak and he would force Julian to address that shit.#.Garak and Miles coordinating with Ezri on how to trick Julian into addressing his emotions properly.#.and yes this ties into my other post about his dangerous ego.#.these two aspects of his character are intrinsically related.#trek meta

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purrfectlycontent · 9 months ago

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i may be going insane

#my ramblings #lsk realizing the brutal truth that the relationship she wants with her son may not be salvageable #that all the sacrifices she made out of unconditional love only served to worsen their relationship #that she’s not the person he loves most and probably never will be #she only wants him to be alive and safe (because that’s what being a mother means right? one day he’ll embrace the truth thank her. right?)#but the only person accompanied him in his childhood #who comforted him when she couldn’t even bear to talk to him #is right in front of her. not knowing that her son will do whatever he can to make sure he survives. not knowing that he’ll die for him.#this is the most coherent i can be about this rn #anyways. back to your regularly scheduled programming #orv #omniscient reader’s viewpoint #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #lee sookyung

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quietwingsinthesky · 7 months ago

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people are saying he « led her on » because he did. the fact that he kissed her in the first episode set the tone for the rest of the season and if you can’t perceive the flirting I’m sorry but how?? he didn’t make anything clear he sent the craziest mixed signals in the world. there’s nothing revolutionary about claiming that Martha was being pushy toward someone who was clearly not interested it’s 1) weird to claim in what it suggests about her 2) factually not true.

I wasn’t gonna respond to this at first because the top half of this ask is pretty much just individual interpretation and I don’t really care about it. Like, no, to me, the Doctor doesn’t seem especially flirty towards Martha. He’s just sort of Like That. That’s his damage, you know, Mr. I need to traumadump on anyone who tolerates being around me for more than five minutes. Mr. If I don’t develop an intensely codependent emotional bond with the companion I have currently I’ll die. It doesn’t read to me as him trying to lead her on because that bit’s honest, and he does it with damn near every companion he’s ever had.

And if nothing else, because we do see Ten when he tries to flirt intentionally and he’s a fuckin dork about it. Kind of guy who looked up romance in the dictionary and took notes. Kinda guy who draws diagrams to maximize kissing potential. It would have been obvious even to me (<- romance-blind as all fuck) if he was flirting with Martha on purpose because he’s not smooth at all; he flirts like he’s gotten lines in a play and he’s super excited to be the main star.

But anyway, as I was saying, that’s just how I see it. And if you see it different, no skin off my back, I just disagree.

But I take umbrage with you putting words in my mouth. I never said Martha was pushy towards him. Because yeah, she’s not. If I implied that she was, then it was a result of poor phrasing on my part. Martha’s not at fault for what she feels, for wanting there to come something of it. No more at fault than the Doctor is for not returning those feelings. It’s a bit weird that you’re assuming that I think one of them has to be the bad guy here when that was the opposite of what I was saying. My point was: When it comes to their romantic subtext of their relationship, it’s weird to pretend like either of them are to blame for them not being in a relationship at the end of s3, and even weirder to assert that as part of why Martha supposedly wouldn’t like the Doctor afterwards when they’re. friends. they continue to be friends into s4.

Martha’s not pushy. She has a crush on her friend. It happens. He doesn’t return it. This also happens. Both of these facts are pushed to the extreme because he’s a time-traveling alien with poor emotional skills and she’s put herself in the position of needing to help him from minute one of meeting each other. That’s why it’s fun to watch, because the Doctor is both so open and so unavailable in turns, because Martha’s feelings for him grow and change as she knows more about her Doctor until she decides to step back.

I don’t know, man. You seem to be coming at this as if one of them has to be The Problem™️. I don’t think either of them is, not so definitively. I think boiling their relationship down to that is reductive and an insult to the way they both grow over s3, to Martha’s choice to continue to be his friend while also establishing her own boundaries, to the fact that the Doctor is able to let her go without immediately trying to kill himself afterwards when she’s not there to catch him.

#the thing about the doctor is that if you want to tell me that he’s Extra Special Flirty With This Companion.#i dunno. feels like something that requires a lot of proof lmao. because the doctor is a freak who latches onto people like a barnacle and #gets way too invested way too quick and holds on like he’ll die if he even thinks of letting go. he’s just like that. he’s just like that.#he’s like that with rose he’s like that with martha he’s like that with donna amy clara bill!!!! these relationships are all different but #the common core is that the doctor is a freak! the doctor clings on too tight!!! the doctor will fuck you up he loves you so much!!!#idk! is it more leading on for the doctor to kiss martha to pull off a plan than it is for him to reshape amy’s life around him on accident #and then show up when she’s an adult to finally whisk her away. or to let clara do emotional infidelity with him for months while #insisting that he’s not her boyfriend. i don’t think ever he is. i think he’s just like gravity. mavity. you’re gonna orbit him because he’s #something cosmic and unknowable. and he’s also your best friend. he’s always too much and too tangible all at once.#am i making any sense here.#ask #martha jones #the doctor #tenth doctor #doctor who #idk man its like 7 in the morning where i am im not awake enough to talk martha/ten semantics. personally i think they should have made out #on screen even more without ever clarifying the nature of their relationship so that they had even weirder and more complicated feelings #about each other.

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ct-multifandom · 1 year ago

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Forever lamenting that YTTD chapter 1 dropped during the Trump presidency because this meme wasn’t invented yet

Spent the entire Sara minisode going “it’s joever” over and over again in my head

#yttd #your turn to die #kimi ga shine #kgs #yttd mini episodes #yttd minisodes #he looks particulary salad fingers esque in this image #I know I usually make posts when new yttd comes out but I don’t really have anything new to add this time?#my only thought is whether Nankidai plans on making all the side content before releasing the ending chapter of the actual game #or releasing the ending whenever it’s ready and then making whatever else he wants after #the way the minisode select screen is laid out makes it look like there are only a few left so not one per character but maybe he’ll add #another menu and make more of them #I need to replay the game I feel like. I’ve been forgetting some stuff #might make a post with predictions for 3-2 at some point #it was good to finally see Ryoko tho damn I’d love to like play as her or something. there is another sprite of her she’ll probably return #maybe I’ll make a Ryoko post I want people to be talking about her more #yttd spoilers #your turn to die spoilers #kimi ga shine spoilers #kgs spoilers

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milkstoner · 5 months ago

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I don't have an insta 😔

I do have to respect that honestly.

#instagram is one of the worse social media apps i use it only to post my own photography and scroll on my fyp which is well curated somehow #btw if you’re trying to date dont communicate on instagram #exchange numbers. keep that boundary and keep it sacred #dont let whoever ur trying to date see your social media presence #even worse if their dms are on silent who tf are you and whose dms are you trying to avoid?surely not mine #how are you going to set up a date with me when your insta DMs are on silent. you havent responded to me and its been 6 hours the day of!!!#how is it 3 pm and its your day off and we were supposed to have a date but youre acting like youre beyoncé omg text me the fuck back #plus you haven’t texted me two whole days #and im mad about it cause that’s a very attractive long haired peruvian man i mean wow! fuck this #had to block cause even if there wasn’t any commitment im not letting myself be disrespected the fuck #anyway if a man asks for your Snapchat specifically he is a serial killer and he will murder you OR he is twenty years old or younger #if a man asks for your TikTok he thinks youre in high school. we all are too classy for TikTok #TikTok is the temu of apps just trashy altogether. you open and there’s aliexpress-reminiscent ads…ew…I’ve only posted a few times #but every time i open the app i feel like I’ll catch lice it just feels unclean #we talk about twitter and how ass it is to use which is fair but tiktok is worse i mean…UI nightmare #a man that uses TikTok is off the deep end you can’t save him #he’s frying up his attention span. meaning he wont be able to focus on you as he should because you are a queen #instead he’ll think about skibidi toilet or some shit does anyone know what that is?i dont #imagine kissing a man having no idea he has that fucking ‘oh no oh no oh nonono’ audio stuck in his head #a man should read a book and even then that should be fucking controlled #im reading Freud right now and its torture. tbf it does happen to be sexuality theories #girl its fucking gross #academia is cooked cause in what world do i get creds for reading the most wack books in the history of ever?#I’ve read 11 books and half of them were boring #this Freud included and its repulsive to read and not even true.#why is it 2024 and im still being taught untrue info just cause old man from old times wrote it #i could clear freud. he literally was a cokehead #in the end he’s a man like the rest of them and if you show him TikTok his brain cells will be cooked #so who won?

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perenlop · 8 months ago

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ohhhh thinking about the parallels between odin/maya and frost/marlow/valerie rn

#the way it all comes down to the need to be in control #like theres more nuance to it than that and there are multiple factors in each dynamic but maya and valerie were both isolated #and their respective toxic relationships w their families were allowed to fester and break them bc of that isolation #man. always imagined that valerie was closer to cheri but maybe she should connect more with maya #maya and cheri are sorta aware of the situation? but they dont know just how bad it is and unfortunately theres not a lot they can do #without marlow denying them access to valerie at all the way he did to felicity and aisling #i think maya would try to talk to him gently without oversharing but he’d probably be quick to shut it down #and even if he did know mayas backstory hed be like ‘’wtf im not like that guy at all!! that guy got aggressive with his kid i dont do that’#which is also what he does with frost. ‘’no ofc im not like my mom. my mom didnt give a fuck about me. i care so much about valerie!!’’#tfw you try so hard not to be like your abuser that you end up being toxic in the opposite way #echoed voice #tbh very curious to know how marlow will be recieved #assuming he’ll either be hated or all his worse actions will be shrugged off as ‘’oh its ok hes dad of the year anyways’’#maybe both w no inbetween whatsoever #personally i like him. hes my personal little trainwreck. he fascinates me. i want to put him in a tube and study him #he needs therapy sooo bad but unfortunately hes way too proud for it #also in his own way sakura does want marlow to stop self isolating w valerie #like hes not as clear about it as like cheri would be. i think hes mostly motivated by their rivalry. he wants marlow to better himself #and be a more worthy rival for him basically which is why hes constantly rubbing souvenirs in his face #sakura likes valerie but i think he kinda like. disregards her compared to her brother. he hasnt really picked up on whats going on based on #their interactions. but hmmmm…: perhaps now that hes staying in serenade for an extended amount of time….?

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deus-ex-mona · 1 year ago

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eat the [redacted] anime pen, kaito-kun

#in o t h e r n e w s i brought all of my plain pens to work and now this is the only pen i’m willing to use bc i accidentally bought 2–#like heck im gonna let my family see it though what if they misunderstand and think that i like the [redacted] anime???? no wayyyyyy #the pen writes pretty decently though ngl. but again im not bringing it to work bc my coworkers would def question it/steal it #plus it’s a black ink pen and i prefer using blue inks bc it’s easier to differentiate from the bw printer ink lmaoooo—#special thanks to my bro’s gf for the pen holder though~~~~~~~~~#but i cant believe my bro remembered my rxl phase from like 2k14 bro erase it from your memory p l s i dont even ship them that much anymore #idk how much he remembered of it but. the way he said ‘the yellow one is your favourite right’ was very. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i haven’t even talked about them in y e a r s man… ig the list of uncorrected misunderstandings between us will keep on growing #g od. now that i think about it. he’ll prolly assume that aizo and len are the same person if i showed him pics of them at the same time..#like heck im gonna do that. i have a nonexistent reputation to uphold g o o d b y e

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tonariofjananda · 2 years ago

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Good night, sweet prince.

Based off @alphaofdarkness ‘s Wing! AU

#Bonchien Nicoli La Tasty Peach Uralis #Bonchien #my art #To Your Eternity #Fumetsu No Anata E #To You The Immortal #AHHHHHH didn’t get a chance to cross post this cuz I was at a 3 hour movie lol waaaaaaah!!! I been thinking bout him all day!!!#actually it’s kind of fitting to post this rn it’s nightime where I’m at #anyway #I would have lined and/or colored this in (that was the plan actually) but I fell in love with how soft it was #like I was gonna draw him with his full armor too but I realized belatedly I didn’t want to figure out how that would work with his wings 😭#and so I left him shirtless and drew some closed eyes as placeholders and then on a whim I gave him a pillow #and it became this soft thing!!!! 😭❤️ like he got tuckered out halfway through taking off his armor and just conked out :’O #I’m just sooo quietly in love with this… it was gonna be a little more silly/‘sexy’ so idk how this even happened lol #ANYWAY. I’d talk more about this art #BUT THIS AU GRIPPED ME BY THE HAIR AND WOULD NOT LET GO it’s so fun and I’m just AHHHH #like March AND Eko’s Itty bitty baby wings ;0; and Messar having the most preened wings #Messar 100% has a full care routine in place for those wings and I KNOW he’ll never admit it #GUGU’S BEING FIREPROOOOOOFFFF which I feel also adds an extra layer to when he and Kai wrap their wings around the whole group #like!!!! they’re extra safe!!!!!!!!!!!#and Tonari’s POISON COAT GGRRRR IM GOING FERAL but also like I’m thinking of that one scene from the movie Holes #where the lady paints her nails with poison and I’m just imagining Tonari plucking one of her own wings to write with whenever she needs to #like it’s an inconspicuous weapon too like she’s writing and next second WHAM feather to the throat 😩❤️#HAIRO’S THO. THAT ONE WAS INSPIRED. It hurts my heart that he has a complicated relationship with his wings but it’s so beautiful like #he has a disability!!! he now works harder to use his wings than anyone else!!!!!#and it’s kinda nice in a way cuz I feel like this could be a way for him and Eko to bond #since they both have had trouble with flying and whatnot #given her having a few wings that are smaller than the other like I kinda like the idea of him taking out Eko and March to practice flying #… gosh Kai and Gugu wrapping their wings around anyone I didn’t mean to circle back to this #but wow this AU has my whole heart Alpha I love it!!!

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noirtek · 10 months ago

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are you really bisexual if you don’t have a friend who you were most definitely lovers with in another life

#r #this guy makes me suicidal sometimes in a way that only a fiance in a past life could make me #i really wish he would just fucking. talk to me about what his issue is as of late #we used to talk all day every day but since christmas he’s been completely ghost and whenever i see him in person he looks like a wet towel #barely speaks and when he does it’s so quiet i can hardly hear him #like angel i can’t fucking help you if you don’t verbalize what your issue is. i love you but i’m going insane #the problem is that him and i are so insanely alike and i know that this is exactly what i do when i get in a headspace #BUT I DON’T KNOW HOW TO HELP BECAUSE NOBODY HAS EVER HELPED ME OUT OF IT #i’ve just had to do it myself and i figure that’s what he’ll have to do but it’s miserable just watching

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akkivee · 1 year ago

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what will they be doing when they’re on opposite sides from the rest of their team i wonder??? 🤔🤔🤔

#vee queued to fill the void #the fact the majority are 3gumi sends me honestly lmao thems misaligned 3gumi fr lol #i’ve been quietly excited for saburo and ramuda’s duet knowing where they both are in their stories (uncovering secrets)#and reading bbmtc➕ ch 12 just reinforced it lol boy i hope saburo doesn’t get burned by whatever secrets make up the yamadas #rio being on his own has only resurfaced my fears for his commander lol like #i’m hoping that with hoods means that he’s not going to that prison alone and that he’ll be successful most importantly #but samajuto with dead parents and partners out here whereas rio has none he’s talked about Scares me lol #for doppo i personally hope it sheds light on his family lol like i said on here #that he and the kannonzakas are looking out for the izanamis for hifumi tho idk what dice would have to do with that #maybe dice also will confront some of his family issues lol #*thousand yard stare at fcking harai kuukou* and yeah what about you mfer what are you doing away from your team #i’m trying not to be too worried since it’s jiro but whether you feel the story so far has reflected it or not #the yamadas are at the centre of it all and the beginning of it all too #if i were better at stringing thoughts together i’d explain how bb being consistent christmas babies ties into that lol #so i’m just a liiiiiiiiittle concerned about kuukou being paired with a yamada as happy as it makes me lol #c: rapping boys

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 year ago

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thinking about Jack s5 time travel au again. eventually he’s going to break down, right? he can tell himself that sam & dean wouldn’t want him to jeopardize the future by changing the past, stand by and let lucifer carry on with his reluctant destruction while telling himself that this is his job, to preserve the life sam & dean & cas will have, no matter how much he’s watching them and everything else get hurt in the present. and maybe for them, jack would misguidedly stick it out and make sure things go as they should because the life that they will have might hurt, but it’s theirs, right? it’s what they wanted, right?

but again. lucifer is also there. lucifer is the crux of the apocalypse, and he’s taken jack under his wing thinking he’s a rebel angel for lucifer’s cause, and he’s so different. lucifer and Jack having quiet conversations surrounded by natural beauty where lucifer is so filled with love for all of it, so furious with humanity for ruining the world, so angry and heartbroken that god wouldn’t listen to him. he’s telling jack this while jack nods and listens and tries not to say anything that will give him away. lucifer’s grooming his wings for him absently, saying how much he missed taking care of one of his siblings while caged, and jack is trembling from the constant affection he’s being shown from his dad who doesn’t know he’s his dad. who has never been like this around him before. who he didn’t know could be like this.

i think that’s what would break jack and push his hand into trying to change the future. what wouldn’t he do, if he has the chance to save his father from himself?