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happy aro awareness week, last night I had a nightmare that someone confessed their love for me
#this has been an original post#personal spewage#clouds dreams#it was. horrible#it was a ''coworker'' but not one from real life#it was just a random dude who in the dream i knew contextually was a coworker#i dont actually remember my response but i feel like i said ''oh no'' at some point#which tbh is prolly how id respond in real life too#pls no one ever confess your love for me it will not go well#you keep that shit bottled up
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i know everyone is praising ify for how he’s playing this season and i do think he is slaying but some of his moves kinda bother me😭😭😭i didn’t like how he took all the drug juice i feel like brennan obviously had a plan for how that was gonna work with persimmon dead AND everyone would’ve got a cool moment with the drugs but he kinda just took it :/ obviously it worked out and it did lead to that convo w liv and russell but idk i felt like jacob in that moment and i’m not even playing LMAO like i would rather have just seen what brennan was gonna do and got to see how everyone was gonna take it
#also with ify i fucking hate his vin diesel impression LMAO#i know that’s a super unpopular opinion and i’m FINE with that i just think it’s so cringey im SORRY#it’s probably cause i’ve never seen fast and furious and i never will cause that shit looks stupid asf#i love nsbu but i HATE actual action movies so some of his moves that are objectively cool give me the ick#jacob looked so upset too#like he really wanted to do something cool with the drug juice#i know what it’s called but i’m not attempting to spell that shit#and ify was like trust me! then did something stupid#then when he was gm and only took 3 bottles😭😭😭😭#BITCH TAKE 6#“i didnt want to do too much#OKAY WELL YOU DID#he better give one of those bottles to jacob or i stg#honestly if he keeps one for himself that’s kind of so annoying too#idk why i’m hating so much AH it’s not that deep it just irked me#never stop blowing up#d20#dimension 20#brennan lee mulligan#ify nwadiwe#nsbu spoilers
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I've seen some of the things people have cited as marks of character growth in the norse games, but honestly I don't think all of them are. I mean, yeah sure Kratos definitely was a lot more willing to be open with other people and accept help from others, but the willingness to show mercy to someone he's fighting, not wanting to kill someone unless they threaten somebody he cares about, shrugging off personal insults and and threats to himself, showing compassion to someone going through something awful, those are all pretty standard parts of his personality
He's actually consistently a pretty calm person, given the circumstances. It's also not that surprising to see him readily accept Thrud and Angrboda as Atreus' friends, since he's got a bit of a soft spot for kids
#text post tag#god of war#kratos#he is - at the end of the day - a dilf#you cant have a dilf character that doesnt like kids#but like???? the seething anger directed towards the greek pantheon aside‚ he's a pretty calm person#with an insane amount of self restraint#the main character development was him getting over his tendancy to just keep everything bottled up and never share anything or accept help#which is a classic symptom of someone who was severely abused growing up#which he explicitly was - normal real life sparta was shit‚ i cant imagine how much worse the gow sparta was
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my coworkers are being turbo transphobic and literally refuse to listen to answers to questions they fucking ask argh!!! I can just tell you!!! I can just answer you!!!!! I have answers!!! to the ridiculous questions you ask in a mocking way!!!! if you listen for one second I can just fucking explain!!!! 😡😭😡😭
#they ask why would trans men NEED tampons for men since they are WOMEN why cant they juat use WOMEN ones those stupid silly women ugh#they keep coming back to the topic#and im like hey they are not women ^_^ and try to explain the concept#in easy kindergarten terms like hey you know how you wouldnt want to buy pink girly items because you are a (cis) guy! well#and them im cut off with more transphobic shit before i can say anything else#my coworker literally said her son told her and her husband they were playing spin the bottle on a school trip#and she asked so did you kiss any girls? and he said#sure when it landed on a girl then i kissed a girl (implying he also kissed guys)#and she said her husband was so shocked because hes conservative#while she said she just ordered the son not to say anything else#and she tells us 'i think he was just testing us or something'#wtf. i said well okay maybe he was testing your reactions and now hes not gonna tell you shit anymore#and she went like hm 🤔#also the irony of saying her HUSBAND is conservative while she fucking. misgenders trans men all day and jokes about gay men constantly#in a nasty way#all of them do#im so tired#she complained kids nowadays are so caaual about gay people#and i said okay well i love it personally they should keep it up#and NO ONE at the table supported/agreed with me#sorry i am on a work trip and suffering#transphobia tw#neri stfu
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𝐍𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐒
bold for always, italics for sometimes, strikethrough never.
aggressive | arrogant | authoritarian | bitter | brutal | callous | careless | cold/cold-hearted | compulsive | controlling | corrects others constantly | cowardly | critical | cruel | delusional | demanding | disillusioned | domineering | envious | emotionally stunted | greedy | grim | guarded | hard | harsh | hypocritical | impatient | impolite | intimidating | irritable | kidnapper | lazy | liar | lustful | manipulative | materialistic | mean | merciless | messianic | mistrusting | murderer | narrow-minded | obsessive | opinionated | over-bearing | over-critical | over-emotional | over-thinking | patronizing | proud | remote | repressed | rigid | rules with an iron fist | ruthless | sarcastic | self-righteous | self-indulgent | serial killer | taciturn | torturer | touchy | traitorous | unsympathetic | unpredictable | uptight | vain | vengeful
tagged by: @cxpperhead (thank you!! ♡)
tagging: anyone who hasn't done this yet!!
#˗ˏˋ ༄ ──── 𝐃𝐀𝐒𝐇 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒 〳 ❪ helluva party ❫#italics are mostly situational#she's the type of villain to be VERY self-aware about her behaviour and not give a shit about the bad things she's done in the past#because let's be honest here she'll do it again 😭😭#had to italicize cowardly because she's faced bigger AND better enemies that could easily kill her#she MIGHT be impulsive but that doesn't mean she's a idiot#because louise is intelligent enough to survive in her workline#she definitely knows when to shut her mouth and keep her head low when shit hits the fan#i hope this list gives of queen energy because that's what i'm trying to aim for tbh!!#you are terrible miss lincoln!!#let it be known!!#forgot to mention that she is a very expressive person#she refuses to bottle up her emotions#crystal is more private and closed off than louise#especially when it comes down to emotions and trauma
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today is such a stark contrast to yesterday in how much i fucking hate today (vent/rant in tags bc i forgor to do it on my vent one)
#[🔮] rambles ~#lmfao you speak up in this household? WRONG. MISTAKE. HOW DARE YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH.#expressing your thoughts? fucking blasphemy#“oh you do know you can tell me anything anytime right? ” what a joke#gods#fuck this shit#you know what i need to learn properly? keeping my mouth fucking shut. keeping my thoughts to myself.#why do i even bother#I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING#just you know spoke the truth which is apparently forbidden or smth#its not my fault shes a hypocrite????? cant accept the truth thats her fucking problem#honestly i genuinely cant think of an adult around me who isnt a hypocrite but im sure there hopefully is#and then she comes again all sweet sickly smiles expecting me to shower her with love the next moment after being fucking scolded like hell#for saying ome single fucking line of my thoughts that she so encourages me to “express”#as if everything is my fucking fault#atp i hate myself as much too bc why do i let myself get affected i should have grown used to this shit years ago#i should know better than to let her get to me yet look at me being a sentimental lil bitch#god i just wanna get out of here please#anyways shit this didnt go to my vent blog fuck im sorry yall had to read that guys please feel free to ignore lmao#but yk i had to get my feelings out somewhere bc wwll i bottle up enough already lol#tw vent
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finding that I'm very quickly shifting mentally in certain ways. especially when it comes to a lot of things I've routinely held myself back from saying until recently.
it's hard to describe what the feeling is exactly but it's definitely healthy to let it out finally, even if that means more conflict or whatever. i know why i held myself back before, but i no longer feel that way so. 🤷
#I especially find myself more and more irritated by things said by ppl who consider themselves progressive leftists#ab indigenous cultures/languages/beliefs/etc. that simply are misinformed or half informed but#wildly easy to learn about. shit i knew before i ever knew about my ancestry. shit i just. bothered to learn#even tho i never considered myself as righteously woke as most of these sort#it's just kinda boiled over honestly#like you keep running your mouth about hating colonialism but can't be bothered to do the most bare minimum research#or even just shutting up about shit you don't really know rather than trying to present your cute little half formed bs “fun facts”#yeah i think i just went over the edge in terms of abilty to just brush this kind of shit off tbh#just. shut up!!#ntm the way so many usamerican leftists treat north american native cultures v differently than you treat any other native cultures...#i ran out of room to bottle it up sorry
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how to bring up to your dungeon master that your character might be better if she got railed
#when you're also the person in the group who's usually least interested in doing a sex scene#listen i'm not saying sex will fix everything#but my formerly-oath-of-devotion paladin who has lived in a constant miasma of anxiety and is a highly pressurized bottle of emotions#is finally letting herself make (frankly bad) choices and letting her rage out and went oathbreaker and is trying to enter her bad bitch er#this is the ariadne who fucks and she should get to fuck one time 😂#i keep thinking about this guy back in the city where her order's main temple is#who took over the thieves' guild because the temple wasn't helping the city and he was taking matters into his own hands#and god he's been stuck in her craw because like#you're saying the thing i've devoted my life to is shit#and i'm not sure you're wrong but i can't say that#and i hate that#and i hate you#and you're doing more for the city than my entire order is#and i hate that too and i hate you so much and why do i want to make out with you a little bit#god if we run into him again later in the game now that ariadne's not quite as tied up in her order shit might get weird#also: my notes from the session where we met him read “idk who this dude is but i'm gonna fuckin kill him”
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Had a normal night last night (breadcrumbs on the toilet lid)
#i thought that a slice of bread would be nice but discovered that the sandwich bread we keep is mildly sweet??? what the fuck#not eating that when im feeling nauseous#also (vomit mention tw/tmi) i was so intellectual last night you guys. filled up my water bottle with room temp water instead of cold and it#was so much better#barfing up cold water is weird and jarring but barfing up room temp water is (for the situation) honestly kind of pleasant. didnt get any#acid (until i ran out of water because i only drank 75% of the bottle)#but yeah. word of advice. if you feel like you're going to barf drink room temp water. also it goes down easier#finn says shit#tw vomit#tw vomit mention
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It'd be crazy if I got a new backpack...right? Totally crazy. Who cares that it's 3lbs lighter than my Deva, or that I've consolidated my gear down enough that I only need 50L of space instead of 65L...,not me, that's for sure
#im already getting a new tent cause its ON SALE for over $100 off#the pack isnt#plus it doesnt even have a side zip!#i know no ultralight packs do but a girl can dream...#also what is this hobby's obsession with smartwater bottles#“oh theyre lightweight and yoy can attach your filter to them!#“#great#but have you ever tried to fill water with them?#especially from a shallow source?#it fucking sucks#the mouth is too narrow#so its either slow as FUCK or you can MAYBE only fill the bottle a third of the way#if you can even get anything in there AT ALL cause the shape just fucking sucks#idc if its a few oz heavier#i LOVE my hydrapak#i have a 1L stow for clean#a 2Lseeker for dirty#and a platypus for flavored drinks which is nice cause i can roll it up to put in my food storage overnight#and i dont have to filler them up all the way either#it depends on the hike#but i do t have to worry aboutit getting crushed like a smartwater bottle#and keeping the filter on the bottle just seems so wierd to me#like hello?#reduced qater flow AND you have to worry about a failed connection?#not to mentio. the fact that you have to carry the plunger for the filter with you#i hate sawyer filters btw if you couldnt tell#i had a mini which i can only describe as a nightmare to use and have held a grudge ever since#plus their bags are shit#anyways
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if i hear one more "don't tell x person" from any one of my family members i am going to explode/start blasting
#if you don't want people to know something do not ask me to be responsible for your dishonesty!!!! what the fuck!!!!#the amount of just. bottled up stupid information I have is insane. I'm about to go crazy and unleash hell with an email#if you want me to keep your secrets you'll have to fucking kill me mr bond#do you all HAVE to keep asking your autistic family member to do this shit. WHAT IS YOUR REASONING#i am turning off my phone in italy nobody talk to me wtf#and I'll restart therapy when i get back because dog holy fuck
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once more thinking about The Morning Of New Years 2001 and its just now dawning on me that arakawa really chugged two bottles of booze and smoked A Fuck Bitch of ciggies Presumably before noon. like dire situation i know but god damn guy got a lot done in two hours
#snap chats#AND he's just chilling in the dark. ok not 'chilling' but yk what i mean#either he can really hold his liquor or bro picked up some .5% shit#now some might say 'snap it's two hours' and to that i say 'it's only been two hours' he just walkin off two bottles like theyre nothin#unless he is The Most Functional Drunk perceivable theeeeeen CHRIST#in all fairness he is only sitting so no fear of him tripping and banging his head into his desk but still#were you doin twenty-minute rule my dude... funny as hell consideration considering. The Fuck Bitch Of Ciggies#like i dont think health consciousness is on the table this morning..#what time is it. at that point. i keep telling myself i'd try to hunt down the time in-game but i doubt i'd find anything#arakawa office so fucked for not having a clock on the wall like girl id go mad not knowing what time it is#can i get a timeline of events for what happened. jo calls -> presumably they talk about a plan -> drink time#i doubt arakawa would be lying about the time sawashiro got in contact with him.... unless he did.... lol... anyway..#i just want a timeline of events like masato commits murder at midnight -> calls jo afterwards -> ???#did my guy sleep on it.. did he think of a plan all night...#ok bye i cant be sittin on this all night i have a comic im lining. which is why i made this post LMAO#I REMINDED MYSELF OF ARAKAWA'S DEPRESSION BREAKFAST ok bye
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What "monster fish" are you?
Bichir (genus Polypterus)
You're a tenacious person who somehow continually manages to survive circumstances that would drive anyone else insane. You're the type to not confide in others and shoulder the burden of everything life throws at you all by yourself. Your stubbornness can be both a strength and a weakness; it allows you to stand strong in truly bleak circumstances, but can also cause you to stagnate. You're prone to digging your heels in and resisting change, even if you should logically know that change would be good for you.
Tagging: @arkhmlcst, @awolxsiblings, @babydxhl, @byanyan, @gnarledbite, @goldenmedic, @grasshopperqueen, @paleobird, @the-rorschach-mask and anybody else who'd like to do this??
#🌈 || dashboard games#🌈 || memes#Just a smol for the moment!#I see fish and have to do it#Because of Khare and her fucked up mutation haha#This is.. scarily accurate though#Khare is so fucking resilient and it's sad because she doesn't realize how traumatized she is#She's so focused on surviving and basically getting through another day that what she's been through hasn't really impacted her yet#Best not to think about it too much#Not when there's bills to pay and eyes to squeeze#She's very much the type to keep shit bottled up too#Just pretend nothing's wrong and pretend she's normal thank you very much#Just trying to live a normal life#:')#Fun quiz though#Right gotta write now I've got a day off#Kirk Roman and Khare are all chomping at the bit today umm let's see who wins#Bichir more like bitchir amirite
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I really being go through it emotionally rn huh
#honestly not well at the moment#grief and mourning fucking sucks#and I hate it#I have moments of fine and the next I’m screaming and sobbing#but at least them ouizzy crumbs giving me a reason to wake up in the mornings#sometimes it’s the little things you gotta find to keep yourself going#don’t know why I’m putting this all here but I suppose it’s better than bottling up#sorry Frenchie I don’t have the box in my brain where I can just lock all the tramutic shit away and not think about it#I just want to be okay#but the truth is I’m not#and pretending I am isn’t working any more
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one of these days I'm going to be in a tik tok for being a bitch to idiots who are loud and disruptive in public
#a girl fully stuck her head out of her window to scream as their car passed ours then laughed bc it scared the shit out of me#and actually caused me a fucking panic attack#and then we immediately stopped at a light 1 car back from being next to them and it took all my strength not to get out and throw shit#and i was finally calming down when the light turned green and they paused to do it again#so i yelled shut the fuck up back at her#genuinely regret not getting out and dumping my bottle of water on her#i know youre like somewhere between 17 and 24 but youre not the main character keep your fucking head in the car#and shut the fuck up. what the fuck is wrong with you#also this is missouri. youre going to get shot if you keep doing shit like this
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yknow i've mentioned before that chelly is very capable of being violent and explosive. however the most ever angry i've ever drawn her is mildly upset. plus there was the memey-ish thing with chelly literally begging chip to let her bite maim kill people for him.
i kinda wanna draw chelly completely snapping. chelly getting a little too silly.
#cell screams#cw vent#//<- just incase lol#//fun fact that horse toon ive mentioned a few times? sam bucus? yeah he's based on my actual childhood bully#//this might start looking like a vent from here-on and will get violent so little warning if you keep reading these tags#//but yeah since my actual bully ruined my childhood and social development and never apologized i feel a lot of hatred as u can see.#//and since actually getting revenge on the real guy is both illegal and a total waste of my time im just going to take out said rage#//on the toon version of said guy. is that deranged? maybe. at least im self aware about it idk lol#//i am very close to just drawing chelly killing bucus or something idfk.#//but i am not wasting time trying to hunt down some asshole brat who definitely played a big part in me being so fucked up today#//bc like. he had a chance to apologize senior year. then when a friend told him to apologize he fuckin vanishes into thin air never to be#//seen again until graduation night. so in my opinion i think he didnt regret anything and wasnt sorry.#//which sucks bc in my traumatized rage i definitely said some fucked up shit to him too as a kid and would've apologized as well.#//but there was a chance for closure. i tried to find him too to try and get that closure but no. there never will be closure. its over now#//so instead im going to unleash a teeny tiny portion of my bottled up decades long rage and hatred#//on an anthropomorphic purple horse. :)#//besides sam bucus did more fucked up things to chelly than my irl bully since bucus is a culmination of EVERYTHING thats#//fucked me up in life whether it be mental machinations; intrusive thoughts or things that actually happened#//so while perhaps my real bully doesnt deserve death; SAM BUCUS SURE DOES AND HE'S GONNA GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#// :)#//sorry for my violent rambling i got it out of my system now thanks for reading my weird bullshit lmao
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