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nightmarenoise · 4 years

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Some thoughts on TMNT 2012

I finished watching the entirety of the TMNT 2012 series a while ago and boy, do I have some thoughts™. First of all though, the following is going to be my opinions and you’re free to disagree with them. If you feel like attacking me for expressing these opinions though, I’m just going to have to ask you to take a minute and consider that you are about to be a bitch online over an eight year old children’s animated show, and that maybe you should find something else to base your entire identity around. Secondly, I don’t hate the show, not by any means. It was fine. It was fine. It was fine, you guys. I wouldn’t have watched it otherwise. I watched usually about half a season per day because I have too much time on my hands but if I do more than 13 episodes, my puny brain will implode. That being said, I understand that the binge watching might have affected my judgement, because having to wait for a new episode to air each week hits different, I know. Still, I came home after work each day, cozied up in bed and watched 13 episodes of turtle shenanigans before going to sleep and my sleep schedule has never been better. But I digress. Also, I will compare 2012 to Rise, because that’s the only other TMNT show I’ve seen and because this is my post and I want to and it’s only initially.

I feel like the main difference between Rise and 2012 is that Rise is a character-driven show, while 2012 is ultimately plot-driven.

Why do things in Rise happen? Because a character wants something (the boys want to buy their dad a nw robe, April wants to spend a normal day with her new friend, etc, those are just from the top of my head). The motivations are ultimately mundane, and then the story goes from there.

Why do things in 2012 happen? Because the plot said so. Sure, the characters grow and change, but they’re ultimately vehicles for the plot. We don’t really take a minute to let the characters breathe. Usually, things happen because the Turtles saw something on patrol and they’re on patrol because they know the plot is waiting out there to get them.

The show starts with April’s dad being kidnapped by the Krang (/Kraang? It’s unclear) and April herself being spared this presumably gruesome fate because Donnie saved her at the last second. She then goes on to live with an aunt we never see.

We also don’t see much of how this affects April at first. Sure, she is shown to be sad and wanting to get her father back, but the episode ends on the Turtles leaving her at her aunt’s place and then we’re done for the day. Hell, the next time we see April, she just casually drops by their place to show Mikey how to make online friends.

Maybe that’s just me being overly criticial, but I could have done with more time between those moments, showing her coming to terms with things, her normal day-to-day live, or heck, even just going to the lair for the first time.

But we don’t get that because plot has to happen.

April isn’t the only character who suffers from that, but I feel like it affects her the most.

The writers seem to have learned their lesson, because when April loses her dad for the second time, to mutation this time around, she blames the Turtles (which isn’t wrong) and then doesn’t talk to them for a month while presumably going back to her aunt, who I suppose never asks any questions. She only goes back to talking to them when Casey tells her a similar story and she realizes something something, hurting someone without meaning to. Which is fine, but it’s also not really, because it implies April being rightfully upset isn’t valid, because the Turtles didn’t mean to mutate her dad and it was an accident, but it feels like it tone polices someone for experiencing a loss and not letting her take some time for herself to come to terms with that.

But y'know we need her, in part because she’s The Special, but most importantly, so one of the most tedious love subplots can happen.

I know they explained April’s specialness as her being a human/Krang mutant and the Krang needing her unique brain to mutate the entire planet because …reasons. Except for when they later attack New Yok and then don’t need her for that anymore. On that note, I do not understand Krang’s plan at all. Time passes faster in their dimension and they’re kind of at war with the Triceratons and have trouble with the Utrom, so they want to leave (even though the Triceratons are clearly also in our universe, so why not pick a different dimension to take over entirely? There’s established to be ten) and mutate a planet to take over. This is all well and good, except they’ve been at it for about seven million years? Krang takes credit for creating the first humans with mutagen and it’s been mentioned that they steered human evolution to the point where they could create a human/Krang hybrid, such as April. But why did they only have one? They lost track of her when her dad and her fled to New York City, wouldn’t it have been more convenient to have more mutants to do their vague mutant stuff they require by the plot to take over the planet?

Even if we assume that this first mutation means that the first humans didn’t surface between seven and five million years ago, humans haven’t evolved that much in the last couple thousand years. Why wait so long? It must have been billions of years for the Krang.

I know it’s a cartoon and stuff, but they could have easily removed that problem by cutting the line about Krang taking credit for human evolution and for the Krang having been with us for thousands of years. It just creates problems.

Speaking of problematic, the romantic subplots. So, Leo wants to bang his sister, Donnie is creepily obsessed with the first human girl he’s ever met and Mikey is such a good boy, he gets two love interests, because one isn’t enough for all the love and goodness contained in orange boy. I still think it’s weird because all of these love interests are humans, but I gradually got over that. I managed to think about this without physically convulsing for ten whole minutes, for starts.

Okay, so Donnie/April is just bad. The writing and the execution are bad. The characters are fine, I love Donnie, even though he focuses way too much of his time and attention on obsessing over April, but I can let that go on account of him being a teen dealing with his very first ever crush. April though is frequently made to be a callous bitch who knows of his feelings and leads him on when she wants something, but pushes him away at all other times. I vividly remember the time New York was overrun by Krang and April helped Donnie bandage his injured arm and he was about to confess his feelings to her and she pulled too tight to get him to stop. Instead of being up front about it or just telling him that she either liked him or not or that now just wasn’t the time to focus on romance - all of which super valid in their own right. Rip the bandaid off, girl. None of them look especially good coming out of this.

It gets worse considering that after seasons of back and forth and even introducing Casey to give us a love triangle, everyone’s favorite thing in media and April redeeming herself by also being That Way to Casey and by redeeming I mean informing us that she just isn’t really fit for a relationship because she is very toxic in handling them, the whole thing is just kind of dropped forever. There’s no payoff. We spent so much time watching Donnie agonize over this, get worse, then get over his stalker-ish tendencies and get rewarded with a kiss and then nothing ever happens. They don’t even have a conversation about their feelings. The show tries to make it seem like there’s a special connection between April and Donnie because she kills him and then feels bad and brings him back, but, no. That’s not how any of that works. Ultimately this whole thing feels like a huge and infuriating waste of time. Fourth place. And that’s a kindness.

Leo and Karai get third place, mainly because of the incest. Neither of them is as toxic over this subplot and it also has the common decency of not taking up that much time, but it’s still weird. I don’t have much to say here. I guess it was dropped in the end, but maybe also not, but at least there weren’t 30 episodes about Leo agonizing over Karai while she was being weird and also she had her own thing going on and felt like a more fleshed out character than April despite getting less screen time. Third place.

Mikey gets silver because while he’s flirting with two human girls, they both seem to be exclusively into it and also he’s much more mature about dealing with it than his supposedly intelligent brother. Get this. Mikey, being mature at something. None of these ships are confirmed, but it’s a nice change of pace.

Raph takes gold because he fell in love with a girl after she beat the crap out of him and nothing is more valid than that.

Okay, the plot feels kind of rushed, in that they’re confessing undying love after kissing twice, but one, they’re teens and two, this is just the best we’re going to get out of this show.

Casey, well.

Casey exists. He doesn’t add all that much to the story. He has a delightful dynamic with Raph, coming in just after Slash confronted him with his worst traits and then reinforcing the “be a vigilante and do good”-angle and that’s nice. Outside of that though, he tries to hit on April, he hits things with his hockey sticks and I guess he has a family he cares about that we never see. Oops.

I’m very ambivalent about Splinter. I do get him and he’s a good sensei, but kind of a lousy father? Sure, his entire life went up in flames quite spectacularly, but as soon as he realizes his daughter is alive, he often seems to prioritize getting her back over the lives of the four sons he actually raised and spent the last fifteen years with? Also, he’s a dick to Mikey? He gets better later and then he dies. Hm.

Mikey wasn’t as annoying as I feared, going in. He was still stupid, but he had his moments. I also didn’t find him as funny as some of the writers probably hoped, but he was fine. He’s a good boy who deserved better every step of the way, but his brothers and Splinter are kind of not nice to him despite him being just as capable as his brothers. Neither is the show, often making him the butt of a joke or downplaying his achievements (producing super-retro mutagen, saving all his brothers from parasite wasps and the one time he saved the city from cannibal pizza it was treated like a “it was all a dream or was it” and nobody believed him). He doesn’t get a lot of development, but he’s the goodest boy.

Raph again surprised me. He arguably underwent the most development, dealing with his many demons and getting a grip on his temper. This was especially apparent in the Northampton arc when he did chores without complaint and helped Leo train.

Leo on the other hand, started as the leader of the team and ended the story as the de-facto leader of the family and also he was stronger now. I don’t know. Being a leader was his defining trait from start to finish and while he agonized over that, he wasn’t allowed much development outside of that. His first meeting with Karai introduced this subplot about him wanting to be irresponsible and do his own thing, but that was quickly dropped and never brought up again. I liked him best when he was being a dork over his favorite TV show or that time he went to space and on his first outing tried to hit on an alien lady. I would have liked to see more of that Leo, because that Leo was actually interesting.

Donnie, I don’t know. Most of his time was poured into the world’s worst romantic subplot and outside of that he had some traits, but he was mostly there so he could analyze things, develop antivenoms at the drop of a hat, finally create a retromutagen and build 152 vehicles. I like Donnie, but there isn’t much to talk about that isn’t directly tied to April. Except maybe how he promised to turn Timothy back into a human and then never did, even though we keep seeing his frozen remains in the back of the lab. For shame, Donnie. For shame.

To the show’s credit, a lot of the mutants looked horrifying and creepy. They had a tight grip on that horror vibe and it was great. They maintained a balance of comedy and horror and while it wasn’t great, it was a nice reprieve.

I hated Shredder and I know I was supposed to, but I will never get over what a petty bitch he was.

The thing that hit me the hardest was probably the destruction of Earth at the end of season 3. I was legitimately upset about that, so that’s probably a good thing. But when five minutes into the next episode Scrooge McDoctor Who did some timey whimey bullshit to reverse it, I was not any less upset. Make of that what you will. (No, I’ll explain, I felt cheated and it was cheap and annoying. Just when you think the show has some balls, it pulls a “sike” and then flips back to the status quo, usually). The space arc was simultaneously interesting and also not, with a lot of predictable plot threads, but at least we got more locations than the same two nocturnal New York streets all the time.

The ending though was super weird. The other turtles then went into space and probably died or some shit, because they never show up again and also the Fugitoid’s head is alive in orbit, but whatever, no time for that because we have to go back, for the 50th time, to the Foot!

The plot has no time to unfold because the plot needs to happen.

Do you ever think the writers squabbled a lot? It kind of feels like a lot of them wanted to do their own thing and then someone else meddled with that and then we got a patchwork of unconnected threads, left loose and dangling.

I was surprised when we got some buildup to April’s growing dependence on her alien crystal and even one episode dealing with its powers before we got to the episode dealing with the crystal’s effects on her. That sort of nuanced pacing was new. I was also initially very sure that this subplot would only find its payoff in the season finale or half season finale, like most other plot threads usually did, but no, it got its own separate episode.

Yes, they went all Dark Phoenix, but the ending was super anticlimactic, because April killed Donnie and then someone reminded her of it and she felt bad, so she stopped being possessed by evil. They fucked up on the home stretch, but they tried.

I never liked the time travel episodes with Renet much, they felt weirdly intrusive and adding nothing new to the plot. It felt like the first one only happened so we could meet Tang Shen before she died and that didn’t add a whole lot of anything. It confirmed things we already knew and introduced Mikey’s love interest and that was that.

The show tried to do a thing about anti-mutant racism once, but it sure is a good thing that the only people racist against mutants were the mafia, so we don’t have to worry about making a nuanced take here. They could have done something really interesting, but then went for simple black-and-white-morality instead.

My favorite episode was when the boys played Dungeons and Dragons with a sparrow mutant.

The worst part of the show though was its fifth season. First it seemed like it would just continue from where the fourth season had left off with Shredder being revived - because like a good villain, or herpes, Shredder always comes back - by the worst looking dragon I have ever seen in my entire life, but then that arc surprisingly ended after four episodes, shocking me to my core. Almost as shocking as Donnie almost killing a guy, but then deciding not do at the very last second. Again, feels like they could have done more here, but then they didn’t.

The fifth season started with two arcs that seemed to tie up loose plot threads, like Shredder’s revival and the bug alien guy I could have sworn died when he was yeeted out of an airlock coming back to enact his grim revenge, all so Raph’s girlfriend could live on the same planet as him and then never appear on the show ever again. Also Mikey died and his brothers were sad for five seconds before going about their business and then he came back with superpowers and then he conveniently lost them at the end of the episode, because the plot doesn’t have time for things that are emotional or interesting. Then there was that time the writers were like “What if we made Yojimbo, but with anthropromorphic animals and also the turtles are there” and it existed and the Turtles added very few things to the story and then went back to their dimension and never talked about it ever again. Or the time they said “what if we made Mad Max and also everything was terrible” and so they did and Leo became a hulked up war criminal but everyone forgave him because he wasn’t himself but immediately snapped out of it after seeing his brothers and Raphael was on steroids and Donnie became a robot in what I assume was a reference to the comics where he died and became a robot and also Donnie ended up being the only one whose body died, but considering what became of his brothers, he was probably the best off? And Raph had amnesia just so he could say he had amnesia and it didn’t actually factor into the plot once because he immediately recognized Mikey. I don’t know, I hated that special.

But at least it gave me emotions. The best part of the “that time travel demon is back and trying to monster mash” arc was when I remembered that I could browse tumblr on my phone while it was on and then I didn’t bore myself to death and also didn’t miss anything of value.

The series finale was fine. Nothing to write home about, but perfectly fine, even though the show threw an awful lot of shade at the 1987 version.

I feel like the most jarring thing about the fifth season was that the show spent four seasons going out of its way to present itself as something with a cohesive narrative and a plot that goes on and on and then we get these disjointed stories, some of which have absolutely nothing to do with the story at all. Just the writers throwing some idea at a wall to see what sticks because they either didn’t have any ideas anymore, or too many, but the end result wasn’t great and I’ll recommend newcomers to stop after the fourth season, because for real.

Tiger Claw existed and he was infuriatingly capable and powerful and then his sister chopped off his arm and then he got a robot arm and that was it forever. I don’t know, some episodes felt more pointless than others, but some managed to be fun or interesting and some just added something they thought was fun and it ended up never mattering again.

Some characters disappeared randomly, like the dove guy and I don’t care enough to ask what happened there.

Karai’s mutation being reversed off-screen was super bizarre. Sure, her being able to change at will as metal as heck, but it felt weird and incomplete and like I missed an episode. Maybe I did. It was also infuriating how her venom was a plot point in one episode and never brought up again after that.

Outside of that, I don’t have much insight to offer. Other people already exlained how the fight scenes, while nice, are not very accurate, especially the bo staff moves, or how the show is very dark, not in tone, but in actual absence of light and lots of greyscales or how most characters have singular traits rather than fleshed out personalities, especially the supporting cast. How there isn’t a lot of diversity in the human characters and how figure-hugging a lot of April’s and Karai’s clothing is (shoutout to April’s yellow shirt, it’s uncomfortable to look at, cheers) or how the female characters are frequently damselled.

I liked when the animation added personality to the characters because the writing sure didn’t think it had time for that.

All in all, it’s a mixed bag for me. It’s a fine show to watch if you have the time and it’s not all bad and I can see why people enjoy it, but it’s not for me. I liked some episodes enough to watch again, but I feel like in nine out of ten cases, I’ll opt to rewatch Rise instead because it has more of what I personally like, but I won’t think less of you if you enjoyed this version of the show. I’m not telling people that one version of the Turtles is superior to the other, just that I think it’s important to take off those rose-colored glasses and be critical of the things you consume every now and again.

But if you prefer plot-driven shows that can be surprisingly dark, you might enjoy this. Or you could watch Avatar, because it has that as well as three-dimensional characters and better worldbuilding.

Thank you for reading my way-too-long thoughts about an animated kid’s show.

#some of these are nitpicks some of these are not #i did not beta read this #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles 2012 #tmnt 2012 #Rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles 87 #tmnt 87

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theromanticscrooge · 4 years

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Thoughts on Apriltello Across the Animated TMNT Series

After watching the Rise of the TMNT episode “Donnie Vs Witch Town,” I’ve been wanting to chime in on this topic.

My big introduction to TMNT in general was the 2012 series, so I’ve kept a few tabs on Donnie and April in the 2003, 2012, and 2018 series. From what I can tell, there’s been more of a highlight on these two as each new animated series comes out. It just depends on how Donnie or April are set up and written in each one as to what kind of dynamic they share.

2003

In the 2003 series, April seems to be a few years older than the turtles. Over the course of the series, she becomes the older sister figure of the group. She and Splinter are the guardian/parental figures of the group in certain situations. The turtles are ready to deliver nosy sibling banter and jokes when she goes out with Casey. And she’s lived in the sewers with the turtles as often as they’ve taken temporary residence above her antique shop.

In combat situations or missions, April usually acts as back-up, filling the role of ongoing research assistant to the turtles when they’re out in the field. Or, for a better description, she serves a role similar to what the Oracle does with Batman.

In regards to her dynamic with Donnie in specific, I’d say that they’re best friends and lab partners. They share strong mutual interests in science and technology. They even collaborate often enough to where Donnie has commented on how valuable her feedback is to him.

There’s one scene in particular where Donnie gets excited after April makes the comment “I could kiss you!” after he steps in and tries to rescue her. This is a one-off scene, though. April’s romantic interest is focused on Casey. And Donnie never expresses interest in trying to make any moves or pursuing any kind of romantic relationship. I think Donnie would go for it if April showed genuine interest. Otherwise, he’s satisfied being just friends.

2012

In the 2012 series, April is fifteen; the same age as all four turtles. She’s a friend, confidant, fellow kunoichi, and an adoptive member of their family.

Donnie is smitten with April from the moment he sees her and his infatuation grows deeper over the course of the series. His feelings are painfully obvious, he can get overbearing with his attempts to flirt with or impress April, and he can come across as clingy and creepy. He places April on a pedestal to the point that he can’t relax around her enough to get to know her as a three dimensional person rather than an idealized love interest.

One episode shows Donnie developing enough self awareness to approach April and tell her he’ll be better about giving her space. But it doesn’t really stick. Or, more specifically, there aren’t any other significant scenes or moments that show a deliberate shift in Donnie’s behavior or his dynamic with April.

On April’s part, she likes Donnie well enough. He’s her favorite turtle and she’s been openly affectionate in expressing her gratitude or fondness towards him. She appreciates him going out of his way to help her and her dad. The largest problem is the lack of communication. Donnie and April don’t really share their feelings well: Donnie is too forceful and can’t read the room where April seems reluctant to outright address Donnie’s feelings for fear of hurting him or otherwise.

It’s dubious how much Donnie and April have in common, too. Science and technology are the center of Donnie’s life. Sometimes, April calls one of his inventions “cool,” but there’s also been a scene where she looked bored to tears as he was describing one of his latest inventions. Donnie and April watch TV together in a big group, but there’s little to no hints at mutual interests they share or activities they’d exclusively do together.

Compare Donnie and April with Casey and April. Casey and April share chemistry from their first scene onward. He has just the right amount of self-confidence and awareness that his flirting is cool and casual. They’re comfortable around each other. April openly flirts back, banters, and has fun with Casey. She even uses “date with Casey” as a plausible cover for her outings with the group at large. If April did start up a committed romantic relationship with any character, Casey would be the most likely choice. It’d just take a couple of scenes where they had a more meaningful stare, kiss, whatever. In short, the groundwork was there. Casey and April have exactly what Donnie and April lack in more casual settings and situations.

There’s hints that Donnie and April are together in the last season. Because of how big a part Donnie’s crush on April is to his character, I’m not keen on hand-waving that all of that development happened off-screen. When romantic relationships contribute to a character’s growth or writing in a significant way, I want to see what leads up to that and how it impacts that character.

As a concept, I think Donnie’s intense crush is an interesting setup and painfully relatable. The way he acts is believable and accurate to what a lovesick socially awkward nerd can be like. But I wanted to see Donnie back off and actively work on how he acts around April. As in, he catches himself before he makes yet another awkward gift or unwanted over-the-top gesture. For me, the ideal end result would be an organic, gradual shift towards Donnie developing a healthy friendship with April.

2018

In the 2018 series, April is sixteen. According to the ages listed in the fan wiki, she’s a year older than Donnie. She’s considered part of the family to the point Splinter coaches her as much as his own kids and makes a point of wanting to meet her parents. She’s good friends with all of the turtles and it’s implied she hung out exclusively with them until she met Sunida.

But Donnie is definitely her best friend. He’s the first one she calls for help with tech related issues. They have the same taste in Jupiter Jim movies and video games. And Donnie designed part of his metal shell to accommodate April if they travel by air. There’s also a handful of episodes that specifically follow Donnie and April; and these two are the most likely dynamic duo to star in a one-off episode out of the main cast.

Unlike the 2003 and 2012 series, there’s plenty of scenes and dialogue to articulate what kind of dynamic these two share. They’re visibly comfortable around each other, share fantastic chemistry, and have complementary personalities. Donnie is snarky, arrogant, and puts on a front to mask his insecurities or doubts. He doubles down unless someone pulls him aside and talks things out. More often than not, April’s willingness to be blunt and no-nonsense helps reign him in. Where Donnie helps April troubleshoot tech, she keeps him grounded.

These two have a solid enough dynamic that a friends to lovers setup could play out in a satisfying, well done way; as long as they still had the same open communication anyway. That said, though, I prefer them as just friends in canon. They’re one of the better guy and girl friendships I’ve seen in a more comedy-centric episodic cartoon in awhile (after Rad and Enid in O.K. K.O.).

Conclusion

Rise of the TMNT has the best Donnie and April dynamic in my opinion.

It pretty much boils down to Rise giving characters individual attention and writing as well as Rise knowing exactly how this take on Donnie and April works, how they fit, and why they fit. The 2003 series was more focused on telling a grand, ongoing adventure than much emphasis on the characters themselves. There just wasn’t as much of Donnie and April highlighted in the ’03 series as there is in Rise. The 2012 series was bogged down with enough exec mandates and other writing issues that Donnie and April probably got sidelined in favor of other plot points and character writing. It needed more time and focus to feel more fleshed out and cohesive than it turned out.

I used to write long, rambly takes called The Shipping Corner on why I thought Character A was a good fit for Character B. When I’d sit down to cobble something together, I felt like I had my best results if I could unpack why a character acted a certain way and articulate how the other character fit into or impacted their life. If given a week or so, I think I could write up a Shipping Corner for Donnie and April in Rise. I don’t think I could write one for them in the 2012 TMNT.

It’s been a few years, but The Shipping Corner still determines some parts and pieces of my shipping interests or even how I analyze some characters.

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overdramaticly-dying · 5 years

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Turtle-Dega Nights

This episode is probably my overall second favourite in the series!! I love the way Mikey and Donnie interact in this series (dare I say they’re my favourite duo?? B team all the way baby!!) and also the emotional development for Splinter?? And how this show approaches his relationship with his sons?? *chef’s kiss* Anywaysss, let’s talk about it:

-Splinter dreams of fighting a two-headed snake in his dream. Maybe this was just another memory of his in dream form, but dreaming of a two-headed snake usually means you need to work on cooperation and teamwork in some relationship, which sorta is related to the theme in this episode...

-You really get a sense for how much Splinter misses his humanity

-”iT WAS DONNIE- PUNISH HIM” (also rip Raph, who didn’t get a line in this ep)

-we all know Donnie’s username, but Mikey’s is ‘FLAVORTOWN’ and it’s really cute how much rise! leaned into the whole chef Mikey thing

-”278 days ago... you said ‘hi purple’... to Raph” ASDFGHJKLGD THATS A MOOD

-”play it cool, he might be possessed.” “You’re right, I always fall for this!” MIKEY WHAT???

-Mikey and Donnie trying to act cool is always the best thing in the world when they’ve both been called the softest of the group

-”I thought we were playing it cool”

-the rare Judgemental Mikey

-(sorry, Mikey is my fave, can you tell?)

-OK CORRECT ME IF I’M WRONG ON THIS BC I CAN’T REMEMBER, BUT I THINK THIS IS THE FIRST TIME DONNIE CALLS SPLINTER ‘DAD’??? Like he’s called him father etc before, but this is the first time I can remember him genuinely calling Splinter ‘dad’ without any hesitation...

-Mikey is skeptical from the moment Splinter begins asking abt defenses... the orange bean is smart

-Splinter has a booster seat

-Every shot where Donnie is happy is so blessed (but especially when Splinter nearly says he’s proud)

-But the fact that they made an entire episode addressing the few lines in ‘Bug Busters’ where Donnie states he feels like he doesn’t have parental approval is really amazing??? Like they set up a minor issue that could’ve been pushed aside as a joke, but they chose to use it for character development?? A+ writing

-”Cool cool cool, ABORT. we are in danger!”

-Yo, it was probably pretty traumatizing to see those rats for Mikey since, y’know, their dad is a rat??”

-Splinter had those sunglasses ready to pull out the moment they arrived

-”He not only doesn’t like us, but I kind of broke his heart!” “What have you boys been up to?” (Splinter’s fathering side takes over long enough to question wtf his children are doing)

-The whole argument between Donnie and Splinter feels so genuine and real, something that’s hard to do in a cartoon without coming across as forced. But it honestly fits with the episode perfectly and feels so real... and it feels like an argument a teen has with their parent...

-That’s not even mentioning the animation during this scene, the small movements, the way Donnie is genuinely crying- like you can actually see his tears forming??? the way he looks hopeful and almost smiles when Splinter said he brought them because he wanted to spend time with them before looking away???

-HOW HE LOOKS AWAY AND HESITATES BEFORE HE CALLS SPLINTER DAD???

-Also Mikey being reasonable and freaking out during this scene is completely valid someone help this orange child

-”YES! GREAT IDEA! LET’S GET OUT OF HERE”

-The running mentions of Splinter not being a tiger is really funny considering who he played in the last tmnt show, but it’s always brought up in emotionally distressing moments (Like in ‘Shadow of Evil’)

-”Proud! proud? you were gonna say proud- why do you keep stopping it right before-”

-Mikey slightly hides behind Donnie when Big Mama comes out.

-Donnie put shields on the tank after ‘The Mutant Menace’- it’s cool how it shows he improves the tank once he sees a need for it

-the whole fight scene is super fun to watch

-THE HUG

-that little sigh that Splinter gives when he sees his sons??? Like he realizes that he’s satisfied with his life cuz he loves them????

-”DID YOU JUST HEAR THAT???” (but honestly 100% relatable reaction)

-freakin flower petals instead of confetti?? it’s a cool touch since it shows that yokai are more in touch with nature?? (or maybe they just wanted it to look like Ouran HSHC, who knows)

tl;dr THIS EPISODE IS AMAZING??? One of my favourite things about Rise! is their focus on relationships- especially Splinter and the boys. Also this episode brings back a lot of points from previous episodes, which is really cool, since it shows that it’s focused on not only keeping track of major plot points and storylines, but also on character development and on building family relationships that feel real...

(also sorry, I think I focused too much on Mikey considering this was a Donnie ep, but also no, because Mikey is precious and deserves that attention)

Thanks @dabibliophile for the ask!!!

#Sorry I’m so late with this!! I don’t really have any excuses other than being tired and depressed but hey what else is new #I'm homeschooled so honestly I got the time #but sometimes that ADHD won't let me just sit still for long enough to type these out #anywayssssss #risingepisodetalks #rottmnt #Rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2018 #episode discussion

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idreamofinsanity · 5 years

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Dreams: My husband and I travel to Florida, then other dimensions

I dreamt about a 3 day visit to Florida that became a dimension hopping, lucid dream adventure.

Little bit of background for why I think I was having this dream: in real life, my husband has a work thing planned for Florida, and he initially thought he could take me with him. Something like that happened earlier last year, and we got to go see a rocket launch together. Now, due to transport plans getting changed, I don’t get to go. I think my brain drew on my anticipation and disappointment as the inspiration for the Florida part. I’m almost certain that in the dream we flew there with only carry ons because that’s what we ended up doing when we had to unexpectedly fly to go to my little brother’s memorial service about 3 weeks ago... Basically, there’s been a lot of traveling related things on my mind recently, so the beginning isn’t too surprising. In the dream we were only in Florida (probably around the Coco Beach area) for 3 days. For some reason we were at this big, fancy hotel we were staying at? Dunno why my brain was like, “Oh, yeah, you guys would TOTALLY shill out this kind of money during this trip,” because we certainly would NOT. Anyway, while exploring this crazy big hotel with all kinds of interesting stuff going on in it, I came across my college Latin professor. I remember chatting with him, and him giving me advice, but I... don’t remember what we said. We also saw a friend from college named Paul who lives in Florida now, though he doesn’t live near where we were supposedly visiting. (I was initially confused as to why he was showing up in my dream about Florida at ALL, but thought about it while typing this out, and realized him living there made it make more sense.) I think we saw him right out of the airport (maybe picking us up?), some time “in the middle” of our trip, and then he also saw us off at the airport again. I don’t remember there being much to the trip besides walking around and seeing stuff like we did when we were there IRL, but one “scene” stands out in my memory more. It was the last day, and we’d decided to go to the beach just to kind of... chill there. We found some food shack that was nearly at the water, ordered some food there, and I went out to dip my feet in the ocean while my husband waited on our meal and watched me. I ended up coming right back out of the water, though, because there was some weird slime mold out there. I was like, “Ah, right. As everything dies from global warming, the mold is actually getting way worse.” Thought about that like it was a freaking obvious fact of life. I wasn’t gonna let that stop me from enjoying myself, though, so I sat in the sand, closed my eyes, and just... listened to the sound of the ocean. When I opened my eyes, the sky over the ocean was darkening in dusk, so I stood, brushed myself off, and headed over to rejoin my husband. The next thing I really remember with clarity is being in the airport, carrying around our carry ons. I particularly recall a moving walk way that led to a section with food places and little shops. I think... I think this was when I realized I was dreaming. All this reminded me of the last time we’d flown, and how it was for my brother... Strange as this is, the last time I had a lucid dream--only the SECOND TIME I ever remembered a lucid dream--my brother had been in it. We’d been running from some people or something, and he and I had grabbed a car that I’d changed into this awesome looking red convertible (because lucid dreaming). That’s not the dream I want to record right now, though, so suffice to say, the moment in the airport was the moment in the dream that I probably mentally tried to “check” if I could alter reality. From there, there’s just a direct “chop” in what happens in the story. The next thing I remember is traveling down some really clean looking sewers and coming across the freaking Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. In order to make sure they trust me, I make myself look like a female Mutant Ninja Turtle. Upon seeing me, they, of course, barrage me with questions while ushering me to the entrance of their hideout. Near the entrance is a FIFTH turtle with a red bandana over his eyes; his most prominent feature is that he’s about half the size of the brothers. I approach him and go, “My husband told me about you,” without thinking about how the brother turtles can hear me. They start asking questions related to my husband, and I end up having to tell them he’s a human. After answering some more questions, I’m able to talk with the Fifth Turtle Guy some more, looking him over and trying to assess what happened to him. He eventually asks me either if I know how this happened to him or if I can fix it? I can’t remember (I’m leaning towards the former, though). All I know is I had to tell him “No, I’m sorry,” with great disappointment for both of us. At about that point, my husband shows up, coming from behind me. I think I say his name, and he’s able to tell for whatever reason that it’s me. He then gives me a kiss on the lips, and I’m all slightly confused and really embarrassed because he kissed me in front of people but also I’M A TURTLE PERSON??? Like, honey, you didn’t have to do that. Anyway, we talk briefly about the Fifth Turtle, and then the next thing I remember is us being attacked by these two goons. Like, stereotypical cartoon buff guys in black 3 piece suits. The best part, though? One is, like, 7 feet tall, and the other is, like, between 3 and 4 feet tall, and, I must re-emphasize, BOTH ARE SUPER BUFF. So eventually we get separated from the TMNT group, and I end up in a kitchen area with my husband (maybe in the TMNT base). I think I use my mind powers to shove a BIG double-doored fridge in front of the entrance, but I honestly don’t know. All I know for sure is the tall guy was after my husband and me, so I changed back into my human self, something got all over the inside of the fridge, and I tried making it clean again with my powers. For some reason, I could only get the inside partially cleaned, and I kind of got fixated on trying to clean it, like, “It’s okay, I just need to visualize it as being clean, and it will be!” It didn’t work, though, because I kept thinking of it as slightly dirty... until my husband was like, “Hey, can you stop dealing with that and deal with the HULKING BAD GUY TRYING TO BREAK OUR BARRICADE???” So then I go over to this tall guy’s very long arm and grab it to keep him from hitting my husband or doing more damage. I then remember how my real husband in real life had jokingly tugged on my arm the day before and was like, “Huh, why’s it not coming off?” as a joke, and then I’m like, “Yeah, I’m gonna rip this Dream Realm goon’s arm off.” I then proceed to alter reality as I pull on this guy’s arm, and, over the course of about 5 seconds, RIP THIS GUY’S ARM OFF AT THE SHOULDER, LAYER BY LAYER. He yells in pain, understandably, but I’m not a completely cruel god, so I made sure that he didn’t lose blood and that his shoulder instantly healed over... well, heals over the course of about 5 seconds. He backs off as his meat and skin heal over his shoulder (and to clarify his right arm is gone and definitely in my arms now). This goon--in the face of a power he cannot comprehend--comes back, sticks his head through the hole in the barricade and tries shoving his way through with the help of his remaining limbs. Apparently one for not letting a BEAUTIFUL opportunity go, I turn his arm around and slap him with it. This does NOT deter the absolutely CRAZY goon, and he keeps going, finally pushing down what’s left of our barricade. I conclude that the limp slap was just not gonna cut it, so I use my powers to harden the flesh to, like, metal, and deliver multiple slaps, caving his head in as he turned to run. At that point, his small goon buddy comes into the open space outside the kitchen, sees me, and seems like he’s about to attack me. I just look at him as he’s circling me, while I’m still ARMED with the weapon I used to take down his comrade, and I’m just like, “Do you not see this dude on the floor?! I will totally do the same thing to you if you come at me.” I’m not too sure what happens at that point, but I definitely remember freezing the short goon in time or something. I then try to figure out where they came from and discover a mind control on them. I actually feel really bad about it, so I decide to try breaking the control... by turning them into muppets? Like, felted, stuffed animal caricatures of their fleshy selves. (Can’t brain control with no brain?) I also definitely reattach the tall goon’s arm. After all that, I get the feeling the goons end up working for me? For some reason? It’s weird. Anyway, I take my husband and we exit that dimension and jump into another one for some reason? I feel like there were things we were trying to accomplish, but I don’t recall them. I also think I remember my husband making a comment about how this new dimension was a version of reality where Jesus didn’t happen? Or Christianity didn’t take off as being popular? I can’t remember the specifics, but it’s especially confusing that he’d say that because I definitely ended up in a catholic church (or a church with the same aesthetics and priest stuff as a catholic church). The weird thing was that there was a large sanctuary, but then also a smaller room with pews and a confession booth in another part of the building. I ended up being naked at some point when I was in the building (I think because any time I have a “oh crap no clothes!” dream, it’s always a church, so my brain must be like, “In a church? Time for no clothes!”). Anyway, I try avoiding the main sanctuary and end up in this small Pew Room with a bunch of old ladies in it. They’re all aghast at my nakedness, and I then go, “Wait, I’m still dreaming. What am I letting this nonsense dream dictate that I’m gonna be embarrassed rn??” So I just alter the dream to have me in a night gown while holding my change of clothes and change the women’s memories to that of this simple gown. To them, the emotional reaction of shock is still there, but now they want to help me get into decent clothes. One of them suggests getting dressed in the confessional booth but that I should check to see if Priest [name] is in there because, even tho he’s not supposed to be in there yet, sometimes he shows up early. I can only check by looking through a foggy glass on the priest side, though, and it takes me a moment to see that, yeah, the priest is in there. So I leave the... minituary? and make for a bathroom where I get my proper clothes on. I eventually meet back up with my husband, and some other stuff happens that I can’t remember. Then we hop over to another dimension where there’s some really famous school? I think? I only remember that I separated from my husband (again), and wander around what seemed to be a campus. I go down a smaller side walkway and see a boy and girl playing, maybe around 8 years old... I think. The girl wins the game, and the boy pushes her down, saying how his family is rich and influential, and he’ll make sure her life was miserable from then on for beating him. I decide to intervene, grabbing the boy and telling him that what he just did was wrong. He jeers at me, basically being like, “And what are you gonna do about it?” At that point, I decide this boy had never been spanked in his life, and I need to change that (which is weird because I’ve never in my adult life hit a child, and I decided a long time ago I’d do my best to avoid it). Maybe it’s because I knew the boy was part of a dream, or it was because I was hoping to make myself into a greater force of antagonism in this boys life so that he’d forget and leave the girl alone? I definitely remember thinking the former... I just don’t know if it was quite at that point? Anyway, I spank him five times, not hard or anything--just enough to sting. I then run him out of the alley and check on the girl, healing her bruises and scrapes from where the boy’s assault had hurt her. I don’t quite remember what happened with her or what exactly happened following the exchange, just that the boy eventually comes back to the front of the alleyway and, brandishing as large of a branch as he can yield, issues a challenge against me. (What was kind of weird was that he’d gone from looking like he was around 8, to looking like he was now around 12... Time traveling might have been involved, but, like, huh??) I think he thought he could come at me while I was surprised and unarmed, but the boy didn’t know I could summon a branch just as large and sturdy as his own. After doing so, I start approaching him with my own branch in hand, and he darts away, down towards a large, probably 100 ft tree (I assumed he’d gotten the branch off the ground around it). To his credit, when he sees I’m still advancing, he turns to face me and fight. We actually have a pretty decent battle, but ultimately his downfall is that he used his branch as a sword, while I used my branch to its full extent as a fighting staff. He doesn’t like that I bested him and called me a cheat, making comments about how his family would find me and ruin not only my life, but the lives of everyone I love. At that point, I’ve had enough of his sniveling and poor sportsmanships, and straight up lift him with my mind. He hovers there, obviously scared out of his mind, as I give him a lecture on how he needs to learn how to be a better loser, and stuff about using his family’s influence for evil, petty revenge is disgusting. I wrap it up by saying if he ever pulls this kind of awful behavior again, I’ll come back for him, and, as he could see, I’m more powerful than anything his family’s money could do for him. Then, for good measure, I change the chemistry in his brain so that he won’t lash out with such awful aggression. I then let him down, and he runs off. It didn’t occur to me until that moment, but I’d done that out in the full view of a few buildings and a main street. I just have a moment of “Eh, whatever. I’m too powerful to care right now. This isn’t even my dimension.” I think I then leave the dimension and then jump back into it (the dimension "section” looked like a video game overworld man, btw) in order to get to be with my husband again. Might have complained about the boy? Something plot related might have happened, idk. I woke up not long after that.

#dreams #my dreams #lucid dreams #lucid dreaming #my husband #travel #florida #friends #reality altering #dimensions #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #religion #?#church #schools #bullying #November 2019 #Gonna start putting read mores on these extra long dreams

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myrcury · 7 years

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Meme

Lifted from @trelobita

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— what was your last…

1. drink: Water

2. phone call: Called for movie ticket info for Isle of Dogs

3. text message: from the boyfriend: “I’m glad I managed to make you feel even a little bit happier today. :D”

4. song you listened to: Score from Passengers, specifically “Spacewalk.” It’s so beautiful. <3

5. time you cried: A few nights ago. Just feeling lonely and blah. :/

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: Not... really? Technically. I guess. We dated and then became FWB for a long time, so. :/

7. kissed someone and regretted it: Nah, not really regretted. Thought I probably shouldn’t have, but easily let it go lol.

8. been cheated on: Yup.

9. lost someone special: Yes.

10. been depressed: Yes. For a long time. Doing a lot better these days though.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Threw up the morning after, not during the actual drinking uh... event.

— fave colours

12. All shades of pink

13. Rainbow

14. Black and white together

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: Yes

16. fallen out of love: No

17. laughed until you cried: Yesss so much XD

18. found out someone was talking about you: Yes. :P

19. met someone who changed you: I’m a bit more self-conscious and less stingy with my time because of the bf. It’s a good thing, really.

20. found out who your friends are: Sorta?

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Nope

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: A good number of them.

23. do you have any pets: Two dogs live here but I’m not particularly fond of either of them. They’re my sister’s Shih-Tzu and my mom’s Pug. They’re okay. I miss -my- dog though. :(

24. do you want to change your name: Not officially but I do prefer to go by my nickname. (Steph vs. Stephanie)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: Had a weekend of birthday since my birthday fell on a craft show day. Had dinner at Golden Corral and spent time with the family at home.

26. what time did you wake up today: at noonish.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Drawing and listening to music in my room.

28. what is something you can’t wait for: Convention weekends with out-of-state friends that I don’t get to see very often.

30. what are you listening to right now: Closing credits for Thor: Ragnarok. What a weird movie. Hulk was adorable though. <3

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I went to school with two boys named Michael and Thomas. Their dad went by Tom, as I recall. So yes.

32. something that’s getting on your nerves: Blissfully not this exact moment, because they’re both asleep, but I can’t stand the sound of these two dogs licking. They do it almost constantly. .-.

33. most visited website: Facebook, Tumblr... Mostly use the apps though.

34. hair colour: Dark purple, lighter purple, blue, faded pink, and neon green. At the moment. XD

35. long or short hair: Short hair on the left side which is taking an annoying amount of time to grow out... longer on the right. Thinking about shaving it back down again.

36. do you have a crush on someone: Only on my adorable boyfriend. :)

37. what do you like about yourself: My eyes, my glasses, my creativity, and how far I’ve come in accepting myself warts and all.

38. want any piercings: Not really anymore. Used to want an eyebrow piercing.

39. blood type: I have no idea.

40. nicknames: Steph, Rexy

41. relationship status: Dating someone. “Taken” I guess? Hate that word though. Haz a boyfriend. XD

42. sign: Virgo

43. pronouns: she/her I suppose, though I do identify as genderfluid.

44. fave tv show: I’m most recently in love with Shameless. Gallavich is going to break me, I just know it. ;_; At least it’s canon. Anyway I also love watching Jeopardy.

45. tattoos: I have one just above my right ankle. Little winking star with devil horns and tail and angel wings and halo. Little thing I drew when I was 15, and got it inked when I turned 25. I want more though.

46. right or left handed: I’m a righty. 47. ever had surgery: Yep. Several.

48. piercings: Are cool? Meh. I only have my ears done twice.

49. sport: Not my jam.

50. vacation: All my life is one big vacation. >_> *shrug* I’ll probably never get to travel anywhere awesome. Would love to go just about anywhere though.

51. trainers: Are we talking about shoes or people? ... Yeah leaving with Trel said cuz. Eh?

— more general

52. eating: Nothing at the moment but I broke my “no bread” rule for only like the 3rd time so far this year, earlier. *shrug* I was hungry and a PB sammich sounded good.

53. drinking: Water

54. i’m about to watch: The rest of Shameless without my family who are all also hooked on it as well but who knows when we’ll all be able to sit and watch together again GRRNNNGHineedit. >_>

55. waiting for: This list of questions to reach it’s end so I can go to bed XD

56. want: To ... do a lot of things... To know why my brain is so foggy these days, for one.

57. get married: I think it might be nice. I saw a thing the other day that said marriage is like a neverending sleepover party with your best friend, or something like that. I’d love to think that’s true.

58. career: Art for life.

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: Depends on the person and the situation...

60. lips or eyes: Again, depends on the person and situation.

61. shorter or taller: Taller than me, ideally. But the bf is an inch shorter and we make it work.

62. older or younger: I wish I was younger. :(

63. nice arms or stomach: Armssss... I have such a fetish D:

64. hookup or relationships: Relationships. Hookups and me don’t mix. I’m demisexual.

65. troublemaker or hesitant: Always so hesitant. Inner Steph is an upstart though for sure. XD

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: Yep. See #7 lol

67. drank hard liquor: Yes

68. turned someone down: Yes

69. sex on first date: Newp.

70: broken someone’s heart: I don’t think so.

71. had your heart broken: Yes, and it hurts like no other pain in the world, let me tell you.

72. been arrested: Nope.

73. cried when someone died: Yes.

74. fallen for a friend: Yes

— do you believe in

75. yourself: I do, after all this time and a lot of struggle to get to a place where I do. It’s hard and it’s being tested real bad lately but... Hanging in there.

76. miracles: I do.

77. love at first sight: In terms of romantic love, I only believe in attraction and infatuation at first sight. However, the feeling you have when you hold your baby for the first time or your new puppy gives you a kiss for the first time…. both of those qualify as very real love at first sight. <3 ... Trel. That’s such a great answer I’m just gonna leave it. XD <3

78. Santa Claus: I do sort of still believe, in a way. I think we all become Santa Claus when we do generous or helpful things for one another at holiday time. And the rest of the year if we’re good people like that, then we’re just good people without seasonal connotation lol.

79. angels: I do believe, yes.

— misc

80. eye colour: Very dark brown

81. best friend’s name: I’ve got 3 best friends and they know who they are.

82. favourite movie: I can’t name only one. I’ll name the most recent ones. The Shape of Water, Passengers, Chappie, TMNT lol

83. favourite actor: Doug Jones. He’s amazing and such a wonderful man. :)

84. favourite cartoon: “Rick and Morty” at the moment lol

85. favourite teacher’s name: LIFE the greatest teacher of all

if you’re reading this, consider yourself tagged <3

#steph irl #meme #survey #getting to know you #getting to know all about you

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thelostandforgottenangel · 7 years

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Never The Same - Part One

THANK YOU ANON! Guys I didn’t notice this but when I posted the original it cut out the first part of the story... You guys came in at the middle if you read this already so here it is completely fixed

Okay so SAINW from the 2003 turtles was always one of my favorite episodes even though it always leaves me in tears.

This started out as something completely different but warped into this after a friend saw it and mentioned I ripped off the cartoon even though I hadn't seen the episode in years - this is set in my AU Bayverse turtles and since I'm a horrible person here it is

Fair warning it's dark and full of things most wont like so read with caution: Blood, gore, graphic details

I don't own TMNT

This story is set in the year 2059, Hell has broke loose in New York - the turtles of that time are dead except for one who is hell bent on changing their futures for the better, Shredder won and has taken over the world and enslaved or slaughtered all of mankind, because of that it ends up with Raven back in the year 2016 in hopes to not only stop Shredder before he plunges their world into the inevitable apocalypse world the teen is from now that the last of her family is dead

This is her last shot to change what has happened - to save her family from the life she has to repeatedly live but like everything else in her life her actions will prove their world will never be the same

Enjoy!

“Are you sure this will work?”

“It has too… you need to go back and make sure nothing happens to them”

She looked down seeing the green feet of her genius brother kicking himself back under his machine working to finish it fast since they had just gotten the call that this location was no longer safe

“But what if it doesn’t… what if I fail again? What if I have to watch you all die again?”

Something hit the door denting it as the teen looked over at April seeing she had pulled her weapon looking over at the person under the machine “Hey lets hurry it up!” she heard a whirling sound behind her seconds later the machine sprung to life as a loud creak came from the door as it started to give out

“Just do your best little sister… it’s up to you to save the guys”

The door finally gave as Raven wrapped the shredded red mask around her head pulling the katana blades from her back seeing the huge figure coming through the door before several soldiers stormed the private room

“Both of you come with me we can do this together and we might be able to stop this completely”

“RAVEN GO! You’re the only one who can stop this-”

She turned as a scream pulled her attention back seeing April go down blood pooling around her “NO APRIL!” the teen bolted taking out the man standing over her only human friend snarling as another started inching forward “It’s almost ready Rave, just buy me a few more minutes so I know it won’t screw up”

“Just get the machine ready and I’ll hold them off for a bit longer”

She leaned down checking for a pulse pressing her fingers harder into the woman’s neck but there was nothing as she felt a fire burning in her gut as she took the yellow ribbon in her hair wrapping it around one wrist next to the blue fabric “D-Don’t worry… I’ll save us this time” lunging forward she attacked two men that were going for her brother feeling both blades enter their bodies before she turned holding off three more whirling around fast taking one guy’s head off in a single motion looking back as he grabbed his staff swinging it knocking someone away that had slipped past me.

“It’s ready lets go”

The teen fell back grabbing his arm pulling him with her towards the machine “Come on”

“No raven move-” he shifted shoving her out of the way making her stumble hitting the ground just in front of the portal looking back as he screamed out seeing a blade shoved threw his gut before he tossed her his bag “Go – Go while it’s still open”

“Donnie… No Donnie you have to go with me”

He shoved the large figure away bolting towards the teenager as the portal started to close grabbing her hand as she pulled his bag around her “Listen –I love you Rae” he chuckled as she let a tear fall when he moved closer kissing her on the forehead holding tight to his stomach “If I go with you there will be nobody to hold them off – they will follow us back and then we’ll never have a chance” looking back in time he moved to block a sword “NOW GO!”

The teenager bolted forward knocking the man that had attacked him away checking him over seeing he may not have much time left with his current wounds digging her nails into one palm making it bleed giving him a small smile before placing it over the wound as her lips crushed his in a quick peck holding tight to his shoulders

He returned the kiss chuckling to himself when she reached out touching his face gently “I-I’m so sorry” he nodded pulling the woman into a small hug nuzzling his face against hers before he placed something soft in her hand shoving the teen through the open portal as it closed hearing him go down screaming out in pain

“I-I WONT FAIL DON… I PROMISE I’LL STOP IT THIS TIME…”

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Raven opened her eyes looking around seeing she was in the sewers but they looked practically new compared to what they looked like in her time

She slowly glanced down seeing Donnie’s bag laying at her side and a deep wound in her side from a knife but after years of pain and torture the girl couldn’t feel it, grabbing some bandages out of one of the sides placing what gauze she had in her pocket over the wound wrapping it around her waist before tying her hoodie around it to keep pressure on the still bleeding wound looking down to see there was something wrapped around her hand realizing it was a torn purple cloth; Donatello’s mask.

“D-Donnie… I won’t fail – not this time” she got to her feet tying the cloth next to the orange material looking down seeing they were all with her again turning around fast remembering the way home before running down the tunnels heading for the lair, if she was correct he had gave her an extra hour to convince their family to listen before the first attack came so focused on getting there she tripped an alarm before entering the door ducking as something flew at her head looking up to see four figures standing over where she was crouched staring at her their weapons at the ready

Looking down after a moment I could see a throwing star stuck deep in one shoulder pulling it out without wincing seeing blood blossoming under the shirt she was wearing “Who are you?”

The teen stopped looking at each of them doing her best not to move once she was on her feet as they took in the girl standing in the door way as she pushed the blade that was resting against her neck back with one finger stepping forward hearing the alarm going off again as Leo turned to Donnie as he ran over typing in several commands “Shut it off already” saying it wasn’t working

“It’s not working again”

She clicked on her mic aiming her watch at the computer seeing Mikey jump as her voice echoed loudly around them “System Alarm Delta await command; User FallenAngel92 security code 45-993, Password Raphael. Shut down”

The alarm died down as she looked back at the Seven foot turtle standing closest to her remembering that she didn’t look like herself anymore and hadn’t in ages - she no longer looked like the Raven they had known since years of war and deadly battles had taken their toll on her body but still looked as if she was eighteen even though she should have been in her late thirty’s by now she hadn’t aged in over twenty years, her long black hair was now blonde with red streaks braided behind her back under the red bandana she constantly wore to remember her fallen mate seeing them glance at the colored fabrics on her arms that were a constant reminder that she had failed them - each one to remember the lost family members she hadn’t been able to save.

The woman looked over seeing the picture of her and her brothers on the wall feeling like it had been taken in another life time, reaching out touching the glass seeing the child that she had tried so hard to protect barely remembering what it felt like to be her looking back at them feeling a small smile pulling at her lips as a flash of power pulsed through her body changing the smallest features to the ones she had forever ago abandoned seeing all the eyes in the room widening as they recognized her watching the long hair slowly changing to black and dull crystal blue eyes turning to a bright lifeless green as her features softened looking up to see her brothers stepping back in shock

W-Wait a minute… Raven?!?”

She bolted forward wrapping Leonardo in a tight hug when he stepped forward feeling him freeze before his arms came around her pulling the teen’s face up whispering under his breath as he looked her over again “It’s really you… your home” she moved back looking around at her brothers finally able to let out a strained breath seeing all of them alive once more mumbling softly so they couldn’t hear her as she looked around at her home

I made it in time…

“Where the hell have ya been? We haven’t seen ya in years and ya show up looking like ya just survived the end of the world, figured ya abandoned yer family-”

The teen looked back seeing Raphael step closer grabbing her arm looking surprised when she shrugged him off yelling back with just as much fire “I didn’t abandon anyone, in fact I’m here to save you guys” her voice died down as she shifted moving back when she saw his face harden before reaching forward touching his cheek gently looking up at his golden orbs smiling “I’m sorry” grabbing his hand in hers she took a deep breath catching his scent which only seemed to relax her all that much more “I missed you big guy… missed looking into those eyes too” a small grin cross his face as he patted her on the back before ruffling her hair

“Good to see ya too kid”

She moved away looking at Mikey as he moved forward pushing past Leo “Baby girl you okay?” she looked over as he pointed out the blood dripping down her side from the fresh wounds but she didn’t hear him bolting forward wrapping her arms around his neck holding tight when he tried to pull away stopping when she nuzzled against him

“I-I’m so happy to see you alive Mike” she didn’t let go seeing them watching her cherishing the moment of getting to hold the youngest of her older brothers after so long before she moved back looking at her watch seeing they needed to move

Raphael looked her over again seeing she was looking around the lair as if she had never seen it before “Kid ya wanna explain what’s going on and why in the hell are ya dressed like ya just came out of the apocalypse?”

“I can’t explain right now but we need to move and I’ll tell you later”

They paused when Master Splinter entered the room tapping his stick on the floor to gain their attention “My son’s what’s with the yelling-?” looking her over for a second he moved forward staring at her as if she were a stranger stopping her as she started to insist they leave immediately “Explain now – you my child are not my daughter… your aura although like hers feels almost old and hardened”

“Please Master… Guys we only have half an hour before this place will be attacked. I can’t fail this time”

They all looked between one another as a soft voice came from behind them making her jump looking up seeing April stepping around the guys Casey right behind her as she looked at both of them not recognizing her two friends after everything that had happened pleading with them to listen to me as they looked me over again asking what I meant by ‘this time’

“They will be here soon… Jeez if it will make you move your shells any faster I’ll explain but then we need to go. I-I’m not your Raven… I’m from forty years in the future and my Donnie sent me back to save you guys.”

“I-I sent you back”

“Yes. Six years ago the foot kidnapped your little sister; kidnapped me off the streets after Raphael and I got into a fight. They couldn’t make me tell them what they needed to find you guys so they… they used any means necessary to make me talk but years of torture couldn’t break me thanks to the stubborn streak ya’ll use to tease me about and when I still refused they experimented on me mutating me with the DNA of a chameleon and several other things they had discovered over the years all at once; in the process they created a monster that couldn’t be controlled. The Raven you ONCE knew is gone, because in fifteen minutes the foot will kill her for protecting your family. I’m what was reborn when she wakes up tomorrow and after all this time I have watched the people I loved grow old or die while I never age. They track down this lair and set off a chain of events that makes the apocalypse you see in those horror movies look like a paradise in comparison to what the hell I’ve seen and if we are still here I can’t save ya’ll and the future I have to live in will become a reality”

Raph laughed at her actually holding his stomach as he hunched over “Good story kid but you have to know how crazy that sounds-” he continued to laugh at her as the other’s looked her over seeming not to believe it either making the fire in her gut explode stepping in his way blocking his path reaching out to keep him from leaving when he tried to step around her hearing him growling under his breath “Get outta my way kid” she didn’t move and in that he reached out grabbing her shoulder trying to push her out of the way only to wind up on his shell with the small girl towering over him

Reaching back she quickly pulled the sais from her belt flipping them in her hand before holding them out seeing his eyes fly to them mumbling softly under his breath as his golden eyes met hers “T-That’s impossible… those are – those are my sais” he sat up pulling his from his belt looking them over seeing hers were more worn out before she put them back

“You didn’t believe me the first time either; you made fun of me for trying to tell you the truth even bragging that you guys never went looking for Raven because you thought she had left on her own. Truth be told you went out every night alone for a whole year searching for her - I’ve had to do this four fucken times now on my own and I won’t fail again. I watched my entire family die once I won’t let it happen again”

“Baby girl…?”

Raven watched their eyes widen further before Leo stepped forward as she pulled her arms up looking at the ribbons she had wrapped around them holding them up to her chest “I can’t do this again they are gone and the only way to fix it is to save you before it happens”

Raphael grabbed ahold of her arm looking at the woman as if she was hiding something “Kid that don’t explain nothing” she pulled away from him with a sad sigh drawing one of the Katana blades off her back looking uncomfortable “Leonardo – attack me all out… I’ll explain further after” he looked at the sword in her hand pulling one of his glancing between them in shock

“How do you… how do you have my blades?” she shook her head as he readied himself rushing forward going in for the attack as she held the sword up moving it just enough that she would miss the block feeling it slice through her stomach clenching her teeth to suppress the scream as he pulled his blade away seeing all the blood “Raven!?”

Donatello moved closer holding her up as she started to drop “You should have blocked that – why didn’t you block-” his words cut off as he jumped when she pushed him gently back standing up lifting her shirt so they could see the deep cut where smoke rose from the wound seeing them watching closely as it closed up healing fast leaving a small light pink scar looking up at Raph who’s mouth had dropped looking her over

“Just now before I came through this door Raphael - you were contemplating on walking out. You and Leonardo got into an argument last night, it got ugly and you’re getting ready to leave them but if you walk out that door now the foot show up with Shredder before you can get back to help them. Dad and Casey won’t make it, Mikey loses his left arm trying to get April out of here after they are killed, and Leo takes a blow to his eyes and becomes blind doing what he can to keep them safe. When you do get back you jumping in to save Donnie and Leo but you catch a blade to you left eye trying to protect this family, losing it in a few weeks from now when Don has to remove it to stop an infection from getting any worse… after that Donnie goes missing for three years and it isn’t until he returns that the world I’m from nose dives. Raven finds you guys in a few years but she will never be the little girl you all remember and for that every last one of you shun her and make her feel like it was all her fault… as if she could have stopped it”

They looked between one another trying to process the story as she moved forward meeting their eyes carefully “We need to leave now – please, guys please believe me and I promise once I have you safely out of here I will explain everything in full detail” they finally nodded seeing the relief take over her face as Master Splinter tapped his stick once more

“Go my son’s gather whatever you need before we head out of the city and be sure to pack light” she saw them all nod before the old rat stepped closer once the guys were moving reaching out with a furry hand touching her cheek running his thumb over the tiny scar on her chin that she had gotten when she was a child from her first day training with the guys before he stepped back “Raven – it’s good to see you again my daughter welcome home”

The teen smiled bowing low to her Master saying a quick thank you under her short breath before glancing down seeing the stab wound on her side was disappearing it was a silent conformation that history was changing looking up seeing April step closer wrapping her in a small hug “Oh god it’s good to see you” the teen nodded motioning that they needed to hurry giving her a list she had in her pocket

“Help Don gather these things” once she had let her go the young reporter bolted towards the lab rushing to help gather what they needed and putting it on the elevator before Donnie took it up to the warehouse to load in the van as she ran around helping all of them being sure the old rat was ready to move the moment they were done

Donatello had just came off the elevator when the security system went off blaring an alarm that was still fresh in her mind from the last time she had tried this “Shit that’s not good. They’re early - we should have another ten minutes”

She looked over seeing Donnie’s computer system turning to see the turtles had frozen looking to her for answers as she snapped into survival mode “Mike – Casey you two get April and D- Master Splinter out of here. Wait for us in the van its safe there” almost calling Master Splinter ‘dad’ had paused her turning to see Leo standing behind her instantly taking charge

“Raphael with me”

She saw them taking their positions at the door before Donnie ran over tapping her shoulder already wearing his full tech gear “What can I do?” she moved over giving him room at the computer pulling up the security video so he could see the men were five minutes from hitting the door but they weren’t in the tunnel they should have been in, something else was changing as she saw the cuts on her arms fading away

“Okay don’t fail me now genius-”pulling up the lairs files on the hallo screen connecting to her arm after plugging the headset she was wearing into the server pushing in a small flash drive to the main system, she couldn’t help but grin seeing her brother’s face pop on the image in front of her “Computer” the mainframe whirled to life several screens flashing up fast letting her fingers fly over one of the many keyboards changing a few things fast closing the files as soon as she was done waving for his help “Okay start closing down all the fire walls so these updates I’m uploading won’t get stopped halfway – these codes Don came up with will work like a charm”

His eyes lit up as she continued to work seeing a few of the things she was implanting in the system “That’s it! Okay get on the elevator guys” they didn’t move as she looked back seeing them pulling their weapons silently telling her they would all be leaving together or none at all as she shook her head mumbling under a breath before she was on her feet “Been so long I almost forgot how stubborn you guys can be” her words earned a small smile from each of them as she moved to the open part of her old home

“We got your back little sister”

Something akin to relief and happiness pulsed through her chest as she looked to her brother’s faces her green eyes falling on Raph for a moment longer before she ripped her attention away “When they get here stay back from me. Leo no jumping in to save me no matter what, I don’t want to hurt any of you Donnie keep the doors on the elevator open because we are going to have to bolt fast - this place is gonna shut down just before the weapons discharge. And for the love of god please listen to me two of those four times nobody listened to me and trust me it got ugly”

“How ugly?”

“…As in I killed one of you in a blackout moment – not exactly a happy memory to have-”

They started to say something before she heard a noise turning moments before the door exploded inward sending rocks and debris flying towards them knocking her back a few feet “Donnie get back” pulling the katana blades from their resting place on her back happy to see them step back from her as Foot soldiers flooded into the room only seconds prior to the huge form of Shredder stepped in seeing several men stop when they saw the teen standing there looking back as Shredder stopped almost in shock “Long time no see. It’s refreshing to see you haven’t changed just yet”

“This is impossible!” he growled as he stepped forward extending the blades on his hands “How did you survive!” looked over the small woman’s body as she grinned cracking her neck feeling the pulse of energy surging through her veins hearing a snarl escape her throat stepping forward as he brought his blades down on her shoulder laughing as blood dripped down one arm before he jumped back watching as her hair changed tiny red streaks floating down the black curls

“Next time you kill someone maybe you should check and see if they’re really dead”

Before he could process what had been said she had transformed into the demon he had created feeling joints popping as her body changed slightly looking up seeing the golden eyes reflecting off his armor bolting forward knocking several men away feeling their bones shattering with the blow growling as her blades sunk into one of them splattering blood on her and the floor watching as the men started to move away from the creature

Where a sweet innocent girl who looked a lot like their baby sister had stood moments before now they were looking at what had almost looked like a half morphed mutant. She had a new sleekness to her body, a set of pointed ears and a fluffy tail swayed behind her, and then the most startling part was her eyes – once beautiful deep green now wild golden orbs with the blood lust of a wild animal as red slowly floated from the irises

Glancing back she could see the guys had moved to stand further back looking terrified when the animalistic eyes were looking back at them after she had slaughtered several men in the blink of an eye, looking back just in time to block Shredders hand when it came down at her before screaming out as his other hand slammed into her stomach breathing fast as pain wracked through her body

She signaled behind her back for them to get in the elevator pulling the bladed hand from her gut wincing once the knives were out, blocking the clawed hand that came down at her again knocking it away before grabbing him around the throat throwing him across the room like he was nothing “Security Protocol” hearing it kick on beeping loudly before the metallic voice resembling Donatello’s asked for an order making the other’s jump ‘Awaiting commands’ she blocked a sword knocking it away holding them off looking back as soon as her weapon was free seeing the guys were in the elevator watching before she turned running towards them reverting back to her original form “This is an emergency! Code 56-843 MAYDAY!”

Raven suddenly felt several sharp pains stab into her back once she was on the elevator before the doors slammed shut trapping them in the small space as the lights shut off hearing a loud bang before several screams echoed from in the room just behind her as it fell silent

The teenager dropped crying out as she reached back feeling a blade stuck deep in her shoulder blade looking up with a smile being met with three stunned facial expressions “Well – that went so much better then I originally imagined” the safety lights above them kicked on before any of the guys could speak hearing the security system beep and Donnie’s voice was back awaiting the next set of orders “S-Safe code 23-904 … Family”

The elevator sprung to life moving up as Donnie checked his tech looking for what was going on “How on earth did you do all of that in such a short time – a virus that shut down all electrical pulses yet didn’t mess with the weapons or my gear-” he stopped looking down at her as she coughed up a gush of blood trying to pull the blade out of her shoulder alone hissing at the realization that it was in deeper then she thought as Leo moved forward

“What just happened back there?”

Raph leaned down grabbing the smaller hand in his seeing how tired she was starting to look “Kid stop” for once she listened to his surprise as he moved pulling the girl up off the ground when Leo kneeled down next to them

“Hold tight to her” she turned leaning on the biggest turtle crying out at the slightest movement holding onto Raph breathing in his scent as her older brother grabbed the first knife pulling it from the place it was embedded in her back stopping when she cried out squeezing Raphael’s arms burying her face in his chest “Sorry little sister” all he got was a small nod before Donnie pressed something into her stomach as Leo removed five more watching as the wounds healing the second they were gone

“Thanks. Don thought it would be a good idea to have a safe plan just in case something went wrong and you don’t live with a genius without picking up a few pointers. I just didn’t think the past would change so much though by me actually getting ya’ll to believe me for the first time”

She slowly stood up leaning on the wall for support breathing fast as her body adjusted to the normal state once more “You would think – after all these years I thought I’d be used to having to use this stupid transformation on an occasion” she stretched her arms still feeling jittery seeing Raph looking at her as she tried to get comfortable

“How often do ya have to use that kid” her eyes drifted up as he glanced away when Leo nudged him before she sighed looking away hating they were unable to look at her now before the doors opened seeing the van was running but when she looked around it was hard to suppress the growl that rose up in her chest reverberating around them in the small elevator

Mikey and Casey were holding off several men who had blocked them in trying to keep them back from getting to April and the elderly rat who was probably protecting the young reporter inside the truck “To your question Raphael I do this way too often in my time”

Her words were still hanging in the air when she bolted forward as a sword came down at Michelangelo when he was kicked to the ground being held down by a heavy boot of a massive man

“MIKEY!”

She was there before anyone could move feeling a sharp pain as the change happened again without her having to try looking up seeing fear enter the dark blue eyes above her “Stay away from him – don’t you dare touch him” her hand lashed out ripping his throat open dropping him at her feet with a snarl showing the sharpened teeth that had elongated as she slipped further over the edge

A whimper suddenly made her look back as she took a deep breath seeing Mikey’s wide baby blue eyes looking at her in horror when he saw the blade had ripped open the left side of her body making her feel bad for scaring him, in an instant her voice softened coming out like it was that of a child compared to the monsters voice “Mikey… Mike look at me get in the van. Lock the door once you and the guys are in there and no matter what don’t open it until you know it’s safe. Understand?”

He looked at her eyes for a moment before nodding waving the others to go as she moved back when more men surrounded her taking a deep breath once her family was safe “Let’s play boys” she growled harshly letting the monster out completely blacking out for a second before she opened her eyes looking around seeing the bodies lying in a pile across the room.

A shiver ran up her spine shuttering when the strong scent hit her nose choking on the air as she looked down seeing both hands covered in blood and a blade through her chest trying to breathe even if at that point it was clear her lungs had been damaged glancing back seeing her brothers eyes were seconds from popping out of their heads when she pulled it out biting the inside of her cheek hard taking a breath once it was out as she waved them to pull forward stepping out the garage doors checking the area before pushing them open with ease

Her eyes closed as she stepped out letting the down pouring rain soak her having not had the freedom to do so in so long rinsing any blood off her skin before stepping back to the guys climbing in when Raph opened the door hitting the floor seconds later as she finally dropped from exhaustion “Casey I have a location already set into the GPS follow it – it’s going to take us to a safe house”

Raven laid back staying a good distance from them trying to hold back the pain that was radiating through her chest looking down seeing the wounds were healing but slowly as Donnie moved closer checking over the injuries looking slightly freaked by her demon form that was taking it’s time to leak off “Don’t worry about it Don... it isn’t that bad I’ll live”

He chuckled nervously seeing her smiling as he shook his head “Bad pun sis – seems the healing process is starting to slow down the more your body had to regenerate and repair itself” she nodded showing she already knew as she paused for a moment as he took in a few of the placements of her wounds “If it wasn’t for your bodies mutation that last blow should have killed you – draw of luck huh?”

The woman looked away almost as if the comment had hurt worse than her current injuries “Curse is more like it but let’s go with your idea” they all looked at her having caught on there was something deeper to her words but she waved them off “Never mind it’s nothing”

Glancing at Michelangelo she could see the fear that on more than one occasion she had seen in the eyes of all of them at one point in her life grabbing his left hand once she could move looking at it seeing a small cut where his arm had been amputated in her time smiling as she touched it gently “Sorry you had to see that Mikey… I didn’t expect to have to show any of you that monster”

He moved over hesitating for a moment before wrapping his left arm around her body making the teen stiffen as he smiled at her brushing something off the back of her jacket “It’s all good baby girl” slowly she cuddled closer to him holding tight to his arm looking at her brothers feeling so much of the emotions she had lost all those years ago trying to shut them down knowing they were what would make her weak if anything else happened

“Seems like yesterday I can remember when it was the four of you having to save me instead of the reverse” hearing Leonardo laugh was almost like a bolt of electric to her system and for the first time she felt lighthearted as Splinter looked back at his family almost seeming happy to see they were all still together

“Now my child do you think you could explain what is going on now that things have calmed”

They all looked at her as she reached into her pants pulling out a picture from her pocket smiling at the familiar faces as she held it up showing them the only picture she had of her brothers before she lost each of them letting go of it when Leo took it from her hand looking at it in shock “Is this really us?!”

“Dude we look so old… but shit do we look cool” the teen smirked as Raphael looked at Leo comparing the photo to his brother before a smug grin pulled at his face “Yo Fearless looks danm badass in a trench coat – t-they don’t look too happy to be getting their picture taken”

“Oh they weren’t… in fact I think they would have been happy not being anywhere near each other”

Their faces dropped looking over on the girl as she thought about something before realizing they were waiting wanting her to tell them anything to explain how crazy today had become

“Whatever Shredder and Sacks did to me - it stopped me from aging after that day I look older but its only from having to relive this life over several different times; I can’t die even though I’ve tried to end it many times. The world I’m from, the future that I have is a never ending nightmare. A real hell in which you beg for death, in the last few forty years I had to watch my entire family turn on me because of what I am… and I’ve done this four times. They never called me by my name just ‘Monster’ or ‘Thing’ for the longest time I responded to it but almost all of them came around later on in life.”

“Wait you said four sets of forty year increments… how is that possible”

“In my time I’m supposed to be in my late fifties while my brothers are in their sixties when the truth is every time I fail I have to live that life over just until I find my Donatello again and he manages to build the machine that sends me back all over again”

“So wait you – how old are you?”

“In actuality I’m more like – two hundred and eighteen give or take a few years. Could easily be sneaking up on the two hundred thirties but I’ve really lost count… in those years I watched Mikey die when were ambushed by the Foot at our safe house a week after this picture was taken and that was when our Donatello disappeared - we thought he was dead; Raph and Leo had just left that morning so we never had a chance, then a year later Leonardo made us run trying to give us time to escape, he wound up giving his life to save what was left of our family, then after that I was forced to watch them… I had to watch them kill my mate when he came back around”

“Rave?”

The teenager pulled the red bandana out of her hair looking at it for a moment running a hand over the old worn out fabric not daring to look up at Raphael holding it to her lips trying to remember his scarred face the last time she had seen him even as she looked at the younger form of her mate, remembering how lifeless the eye he still had was the last time she had held him as Raphael touched his mask

“I lost my Raphie and… our daughter Evangeline” if it weren’t for the fact that her tears had dried up years ago she would have been crying by now looking up seeing the others watching her and Raphael as she tied the red bandana back on her head “Even if we were technically mates – he never did stay with me for long, that man hated me for killing the woman he had fallen for when they mutated me. He’d come around for a little while then would disappear again; he’d always leave and come see me every few years never getting over the guilt he carried with him – but that changed when Evangeline was born”

“Wait so in your time Dad and Casey are long gone… Leo, Raph, Mikey don’t talk and die separately, what about April and me”

“That’s why I can’t fail this time; if I do there is no fixing it this time because the Donnie and April from my world are gone I lost them an hour ago… in the future I’m the last of this clan. I am the only survivor. And since he’s gone I’m stuck here until I complete my mission but… I fear I might have already failed, I saved you guys but if I really changed the future I shouldn’t be here as for the Raven of this time there is no telling if she survived with the changes that have already happened but the fact that I didn’t blink out of reality means she has to be alive for now”

Everyone fell silent as the woman moved away pulling out Donnie’s note book flipping to a new page trying to come up with a plan for saving her younger self but after twenty minutes she was punching the floor of the van, finally sitting back with a low growl feeling her brain hurting; she had never gotten this far so right now she couldn’t come up with a plan without knowing what all had changed and without Donnie to give updates she would never know.

She sighed reaching into her pocket pulling out the phone she was carrying hooking it up to the watch she was wearing flipping it open as the screen saver popped into a halo screen cleared smiling when she was looking at her stuff brushing her finger over the sweet little face she wished she could see once more before Mikey edged over “Hey who’s that little girl?”

She gave him a sad smile opening her gallery clicking on the file with all her pictures scrolling down before clicking on an image showing it to him “Dude is that me! Look at me I am freaking awesome!” she couldn’t help but laugh as the others moved closer crowding her as she made the image bigger for everyone to see feeling slightly claustrophobic but didn’t say a word knowing she may never get this chance again they sat watching as the teen flipped through the pictures of her family showing them the memories that she had left

“Oh my god look at April” trying not to laugh when they pointed at a picture of her and the reporter in their normal clothes that were better then what she wore now “Holy crap she looks nothing like our April” she kept flipping through her memories stopping on a video playing it before looking at Leo as his older counterpart stood in the middle of a room practicing with a few recruits moving smoothly taking out each without putting in much effort until he was the only one standing “Blind and still better then everyone – guess nothing changed there” she sighed nodding even if they could see there was something she wasn’t saying

Raph grabbed her hand out of nowhere making her stop suddenly at the touch “Could ya go back one picture”

She did as he asked showing him a photo of the older Raphael who was still built like a tank with the left eye of his mask sewn shut smoking glaring at her in the photo “That’s my Raph… On a good day” she looked at him pulling up the next photo seeing his face drop when he saw a picture of the future him holding a little turtle girl up over his head smiling up at her as he looked at the teen “And that’s my… our daughter. She was just like him in every way including her attitude and temper”

He looked at it for a while smiling as the woman reached out trying to touch that moment “Looks just like you hothead… that’s a real shame” the comment from Leo had all of them laugh when Raph nudged him, he looked over seeing a small sad smile on the girl’s face before looking at it again seeing she had reached up flipping to the next picture running his hand over the screen seeing him sitting in a chair with his daughter in his lap reading a story to her

“He may not have loved me but he loved that little girl – god he was such a good dad. She brought out the softer side of him that I remembered” they all started looking closer at the doll the little girl was holding seeing it looked like Mikey before looking up getting the message without her having to say anything but looked down pulling the ripped and tarnished doll from the bag on her gripping it to her chest as if it could give her the comfort she seemed to need before holding it out towards him “She used to love this thing; I made it before she was born right after Mikey was killed. I used a small piece of his mask that had been torn off in the battle”

They all looked at the girl before Mikey took it grinning “Aww it’s cute – just like me” a soft chuckle came from around the chamber as he handed it to Raph when he reached for it holding it in his hand squeezing it slightly

“When did we lose her? How did we lose her?” Raven couldn’t bear to say it but held up two fingers not looking at him feeling fear for the first time in what felt like a hundred years before he lifted her head “What happened?”

“Sacks took her… Raph wasn’t around; losing Leo took its toll on all of us but he took it the hardest since he always believed we could have saved him; of course he tried to blame me for not making Leo leave with us. Not long after he left us again the soldiers stormed our base taking out the resistance camp before kidnapping her wanting to try and create another like her but they didn’t know she wasn’t created in a lab. I went after her thinking he had never got our message after April sent for him but there’s only so much a heavily pregnant person can do.”

His golden orbs widened as she glared at the floor realizing that even with what she had said there was more sadness then anger “Kid”

“I failed her… B-By the time I got there it was too late, I held her in my arms until she passed watching the light leave her eyes as I tried to comfort her… she wanted me to sing to her at the end. I just proved to her how much of a horrible mother I was - it had been a trap set for both of us… I tried to get out; I lost control of the monster but took too much damage in the long run. My body was too weak from the battle and I was so upset over the loss of my baby - I lost our son too, I had never got to tell him we were going to have another child and I couldn’t bring myself to tell him because I was just a mistake to him. When Raphael finally did get back to us he flew off the handle from the grief. As always he was reckless but this time my head wasn’t on right and I followed his lead. Raph thought having a monster would give us an edge and fought bravely next to me against Shredder for the first time in years, the next thing I remember was a soldier was holding me down a-and… seeing h-him… She would have been thirty now”

The teen dropped her head hiding her face before looking up when he lifted her head “Rave – ‘m sorry” she shook her head trying to pull away but he held tight to her face leaning in catching her by surprise as he pulled the girl into his arms holding her against his chest pressing his lips over her forehead whispering under his breath so she could only hear him “Kid ‘m so sorry”

She froze hugging him back once her brain connected what was happening finally pulling away looking into his eyes seeing the bright orbs she had missed so much as he ran a finger over her cheek “I’ve been waiting years to see ya again, ya don’t look the same but I can still see the real brat under all this”

She looked down nodding “It feels like forever – since I have been able to reach out and touch you – but I’m not that person you remember guys. This is just the thing that had inhabits her body… Raven’s going to need you once we rescue her”

Mikey quickly wrapped her in a hug as she paused going stiff from the contact “Baby girl you’re not a monster – if you were you wouldn’t have the heart to still wear the ribbons for your family” she didn’t speak looking down holding her tongue to stop herself from saying what she wanted too.

Raphael flipped over to the next picture looking closely at it seeing him and Leonardo standing far away from each other looking at the teen when she started laughing taking in the image “Been a while since I looked at that one they both had left us a few times to live on their own. After the team split up they didn’t really get along, Raph blamed Leo for Casey and dad’s deaths even though our father gave his life to save his sons, hell I couldn’t even get them to speak to each other without it turning into a fight; actually the only time they did get along was when the two of them were reminding me that I wasn’t their sister”

They looked between each other “Look sis don’t take this the wrong way – but we sound like dicks in the future” a soft giggle met Mikey’s words as she looked at her pictures grinning at the faces she had missed for so long shaking her head after a moment enlarging one picture to life size looking at the drunk induced grins on her brother’s faces as she sat in the center yet nowhere in the actual photo looking happy just to see the in a good mood whispering once she flipped to the next photo of them look a little upset that she only had those memories to live with – all the ones in pictures she had snapped in secret

“They were right to alienate me from the clan”

As soon as the next picture came on the screen she had to look away toughening up her lip as it quivered the ragged wound was still fresh from losing him today feeling her eyes burning for the first time in a long time showing them the picture she had taken of Donatello yesterday smiling as a tear fell down her cheeks touching it slowly confused for a moment “Woah – Don with an upgrade and prosthetic limbs”

She smiled weakly clicking on a video as her Donnie worked on the machine with a small smile on his face as he pushed his tech goggles up with his robotic limb “I haven’t changed all that much in twenty years – I’m still your loving nerd little sister” there was a heartfelt giggle from the background as April cam on screen but she stopped it unable to look back at the image as it fluttered out of focus before it kept playing from her memories

For a while she just listened to him yammering on about something before another memory played of the moments before she was sent back stopping as she finally shut it down not wanting to relive it again

They smiled looking at their Donnie who had copied the image looking at some of the tech in the background “Did I really build all those machines?” she never answered taking one more look at her notes still unable to understand what she was missing

“As soon as I’m done changing your futures I don’t know what I’m gonna do, Don had a theory that after I changed our past the future would change for the better since every time I did something in the past our time line altered in the slightest way. I even managed to have it so my brother’s survived longer but I still couldn’t stop them from dying… Don and April were all I had left. We were the last people still around in the resistance, the rest have long been exterminated by Shredder; he somehow got his hands on this power that makes him almost immortal then he enslaved the humans not long after killing dad forcing them to live as slaves killing the children that were too young and the women that were too weak to work in his camps and after they had built his machines he conquered the world slaughtering thousands of people… in my world I am possibly the last person alive. Never in a million years did I ever think I would outlive any of you”

They all looked at her in horror as she scanned the pages trying to see if Donnie had given her anything that might tell her what the next move was “Your world really does sound like hell”

“Trust me it is-” she grabbed her head feeling a headache coming on before something in her chest moved; pain exploded through her body as she grabbed her leg hissing as it happened again leaning back on the wall trying to breathe through the agony but soon it was happening more and she couldn’t hide it anymore.

Leo leaned closer touching her arm gently drawing her eyes to him when he saw the young woman’s face scrunched up “Hey you okay?” she couldn’t respond crying out moments later hitting the ground curling into a tight ball holding her chest squeezing it harder when she felt something moving under her hand

Feeling someone flipping her body over didn’t help before Donnie’s voice floated into her consciousness “Raven – hey what’s wrong?” she shook her head trying to curl back up but he kept her still before moving her hand out of his way looking for any obvious wounds that he could see “It might be her heart guys”

She looked around in a panic seeing Raphael holding her up as Donnie listened to her chest scanning her looking up at her “I’m not finding anything abnormal here” the pain eased off until she couldn’t feel it anymore finally able to breath trying to slowly get up without getting sick as he sat checking over a few other things “Your hearts beating strongly so there’s nothing there”

Her eyes widened looked up fast seeing them freeze as her emerald orbs started to look slightly different “R-Repeat what you just said…”

He looked her over slowly before displaying her vitals on his virtual watch “Your heart – it’s perfectly fine but it is a little faster than normal everything here looks fine-” he stopped as she placed her hand franticly over her chest feeling the steady beat as her eyes locked on him having to clear her throat for a moment still unable to believe it

“T-That’s impossible... It can’t be my heart; it hasn’t beat in years. It stopped when Raph... died-” they looked at the teen before she moved keeping her shaking hand over where the organ was pounding away taking a deep breath as she felt her heart beating strong under her grasp “I don’t understand what’s happening right now”

So what did everyone thing? If you were confused about anything in that first part feel free to ask and I'll try my best too answer you back

@devilsnevercry1388 Promised I'd post so here it is

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