#yes it's also the feverish nightmare of a worn down and deeply traumatized man. but the comfort of hietanen's laugh and presence is there

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trying so fucking hard to stay calm hhhhhhh okay okay okay okay okay okay so. I was NOT emotionally prepared for this but Koskela's feverish visions of Hietanen were in fact in the original text. and the romantic subtext of the whole "hearing the echo of a loved one's laughter moments before your death" thing was. in fact. very much there. as well. almost. pretty much. unmistakably so.

..........i cannot believe this

i cannot fucking believe this

I am genuinely in open-mouthed awe about this. holding my head in my hands with a thousand mile stare. i was not prepared for this. I was NOT prepared for this. a hinted gay romance. between two of the most beloved characters in one of the most beloved books in the history of Finnish literature. in a book. that was written 70 YEARS AGO when homosexuality was still a sin a crime and an illness. and yet. koskela was implied to be in love with hietanen. THE ACTUAL CANONICAL TEXT IMPLIED THIS I AM NOT MAKING THIS SHIT UP. ville koskela was in love with urho hietanen