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Oh dear lord. It's 2023 I don't want to see fucking pro/anti shipping discourse especially in the One Piece tags.
#yes i just blocked a few people#the whole discourse is stupid af#ship whatever the hell you want to ship#if you dont like a ship then block the tag and move on#sorry for the rant#but i saw new fans from the live action talking about it#and had a very visceral reaction#to someone saying they didn't want to be mistaken as a proshipper#i will block anyone who tries to bring this damn discourse back#one piece#opla#one piece live action#vent#rant#not gonna use the proanti whatever tags cause i don't want to start an actual war#if this shows up in the tag anyway because Tumblr is weird like that#then feel free to block me#yes i am having warflash backs from v/oltron
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Mini rant below and in the tags, the only time I’ll talk about this and my personal take on it.
The way people talk about hypothetical male Anya on Twitter and the idea of how Mouthwashing would play out if the genders were swapped makes me remember how people still don’t take sexual assault and rape with male victims with the same gravity, especially when the perpetrator is female.
#not even gonna tag this cause I don’t want to start discourse in the tags but you can absolutely still explore the concepts of patriarchy#toxic masculinity misogyny and rape culture if the genders where swapped#like those concepts don’t disappear just because Anya is a boy now cause you have to think of all the ways it applies to male victims and#I just don’t understand why people keep getting angry when people facilitate different discussion the game opens you up to#like yes I get the frustration with not seeing the conversations you want but start them go find them why complain on other posts when#people are bringing attention to similar issues and the ways they are overlooked dismissed or blame the victim#I for one think we should have more basic clarifying conversations of SA rape cultures and how toxic masculinity and sexism create scenarios#like the Tulpar and enable men like Jimmy but I also can understand and enjoy the topic being expanded upon to include other cases on a#flipped scale like yes how male centered the fandom is is annoying considering the topic but seeing comments saying that SA isn’t as harmful#to men cause they can’t get pregnant is a whole can of worms you really need to unpack cause holy shit#like in this scenario if Jimmy is pregnant and can’t get rid of the baby Anya is the father yes Jimmy is pregnant but that’s because in this#swap she assaulted a man lied to either say it was consensual he forced himself on her or like canon panicked and semi admitted to forcing#him either way he is afraid to do anything because men do get blamed for defending themselves against women in these situations not to#mention the shaming that occurs because he is a man and should step up for the kids sake and likely be told he should be proud a girl wanted#him that much like yes you have to explain it more but bodily autonomy in this scenario is just as nuanced and I can’t believe I have to#defend something being male centered in a game where the rape of a woman is the catalyst just because people are saying SA for men#is not as damaging or degrading or harmful to autonomy as it is to a woman like how can you want conversations on rape culture and shut down#people bringing up other nuances in the conversation#like people are gonna jump around with it I know but if you only want to talk about one thing stay in that sphere like I just don’t get#going to another space especially one that isn’t even being weird or toxic and starting shit cause you don’t like it like the amount of#unnecessary and mean comments on normal art of think pieces I’ve seen on Twitter is crazy like it’s stupid callout shit for the sake of just#not liking something like I’m seeing so much screen shotting and vague posting like just at the bitch and fight about it like it’s still a#relatively small fandom ur just asking for in fighting on like the few things we shouldn’t have to worry about#as a victim my self and who has been in other situations and being afab I just can’t understand the vitriol toward this sort of discussion#mouthwashing#actually I will tag this cause you can explore the themes in mouthwashing still stop being freaks and just block bitches ong
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ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!
#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here#i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral#texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet!#here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress!#you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better'#i Immediately started doing Worse!#i think i stressed myself out too much#pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3#ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block#mentally i am banging my head into a wall#but its fine Its Fine#i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail#which is something i should be used to by now!#okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so#i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh#well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um.#i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive#not gonna tag this with anything actually.#love treating tumblr like my personal diary#ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me.#perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day#buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that!#with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!!#gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent#i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain#ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts#just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3#look away look away
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#health cw#but yes. starting to realise that i'm probably going to be stuck with neuralgia for a few months#it's manageable. it flares up when i talk alot or try something crispy but if I'm careful and stick with softer foods I'm fine#stupid nerve inflammation. honestly makes me feel so much for the people with chronic conditions like this#there's just. not much you can do.#except weather it.#i've gotten used to lukewarm food and drink and sticking to softer things like soup and pasta#rice dishes are also great!#nothing crispy#and bread isn't great either - anything that's rough against the roof of my mouth is a no-go#I have a follow up appointment in just over two weeks but honestly unless they give me some sort of nerve block I'm stuck with this#i was thinking maybe steroids could help with the inflammation but they only prescribed me nerve stabilisers#we shall see. what a year. getting acutely familiar with the anatomy of the lingual nerve#as the sensitivity spreads around my damn mouth and up my cheekbone on the worst flare ups 🙈#tbd
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Saw a post a couple days ago that was something like "the price of wwx staying at lotus pier was his memories of his parents" that also implied Madam Yu was keeping info on his parents from him/ she'd punish him for looking for info on his parents and like??? That's just not how Madam Yu is bitchy.
For one, her beef with wwx isn't directly with him so much as he's just caught in a proxy war between her and Jiang Fengmian. She simply does not care enough about wwx to try and sabotage his life like that.
Secondly, the whole point of conflict between her and jfm is that she's angry that he appears to be trying to adopt wwx and placing wwx above his bio children. Why the hell would she get mad over wwx trying to assert himself as part of a family that isn't hers? Like, I think she's way more likely to tell wwx about his parents in the most loud and obnoxious way possible while jfm is around ("oh? Your mom? She was a brilliant cultivator. Too brilliant to stick around here.") while also taking jabs at wwx's dad's class to remind everyone in the room that wwx is supposed to be a servant.
Thirdly, Madam Yu just wasn't actually around that often. Like, it says when she's introduced that she's usually out on night hunts (with us seeing her as much as we do because the Wens took all the spots). Wwx's got plenty of time to slooth if he wants
But ya- tldr, I don't think Madam Yu would in any way prevent wwx from finding out about his parents, but she'd probably be incredibly annoying whenever it came around to her talking about them
#mdzs#madam yu#yu ziyuan#reminder: madam yu's average punishments were 1-2 lashes + neeling *when wwx broke the rules*#and yes- wwx lying around mostly naked in the extra then running away from getting scolded was in fact him breaking rules#which (as I kinda have to bring up every time i talk about her) is not a fair or reasonable punishment by modern standards#but does fall in line with standards set by the book#and also- bringing up the incident in front of the wens and acting like that was in any way a regular thing is grounds for instant blocking#the dozens of lashes were an act to get the wens to fuck off. they didnt even disable wwx like she claimed they would#y'all LOVE taking that scene out of context and its infuriating#that aside- Madam Yu was usually just verbally mean to wwx#I dont know that I'd argue that she's verbally abusive but I wouldn't exactly argue if anyone else called her such#anyways- did The Untamed fuck up Madam Yu somehow? Is there a reason theres so many bad takes on her or are y'all just sexist?#excuse my poor attempt at writing Madam Yu dialog. i simply couldnt summon the vibes rn#maybe wwx's memory is just bad because he's a kid with trauma and adhd#maybe its just because he began dissociating as a coping mechanism#maybe its just because very few people remember shit that happened when they were 5
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i’m still kinda working on it but getting over my antisocial habits is literally improving my life so fucking much
#like. i got an invite from this girl who was on the spain trip with me#she texted me like ‘hey i’m having a wine night if you wanna come over’ and i knew she lived just a few blocks away from me#but in the past i would’ve been too nervous like uohhh idk if i’ll know anyone thereee i don’t wanna be weird i don’t wanna be an outsider#+ idkkk + im not entirely in the mood to drink even if i’m not /not/ in a drinking mood#+ wehhh a billion other excuses#BUT I DIDNT DO THAT#i was like oh is it cool if one of my housemates comes with? yes? wicked i’ll see you in a few#and then we just walked over and joined the party!!#AMD WE HAD SO MUCH FUN we had lots of good drinks and met a bunch of cool people and i flirted with all the girls#and one dude kept challenging me to a face-off in which we’d see who had a harder look and could avoid breaking#and i kept winning bc i’m the hardest motherfucker around#and it was just so much fun!!!! i think one dude there wanted me badly bc he kept hanging around me and talking to me but he was#good conversation so i didn’t mind. and i’m a narcissist so the attention was just stroking my ego even if i don’t like him back at all#overall. yeah. i’m glad i just said yup i’ll be there thanks! it was so much fun. so much fun.
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i've tried everything, different ways, different times, different places. i just can't seem to find my passion for writing back.
#writers block my ass this shit has been going on for years#you love going around telling people that you write when in truth you haven't written anything in ages#i don't even consider myself a writer anymore because it feels wrong to call it that#everything i put out is influenced by something. ifeel like i can never truly be original#a few shitty pieces i wrote at the peak of a fixation don't really count because i've abandoned them too#yes i've written them but im so afraid to associate them with my name#how does one hate what they create so much#yet still want to create#when will it be satisfying?#when will i be like yeah. i like this. i made this. this is mine.#i dont think the problem is language either like sure it can be improved but i can't even write in my own language?#i used to love writing in turkish and peopel would praise me for my stories but looking back at it even that wasn't original#it was never mine#it was always about something that affected me#this is sad its just sad.#writing
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hey so i'm not making a DNI because i don't want to (i initially had a longer attempt at articulating a reason and then i realized i don't have to explain more than "i don't want to") but the past few blogs that have followed me are very harry pottter focused and given the actions and rhetoric of jk rowling i'd appreciate it if any blogs who prominently post harry potter themed content would kindly refrain from following me.
you can probably still reblog my posts, not bc of my moral stance but bc honestly i don't really notice who reblogs from me unless they have a huge red flag in their url, but in terms of following my blog i'd prefer it if harry potter bloggers could just not
and i know there's always the excuse of separating the art from the artist (like people who continue to post about harry potter but end every post with "fuck jkr tho"), and not everyone even knows why jkr is a horrible person bc a lot of the discussion is very online (that's the reason this is worded so empathetically, i'm assuming harry potter fans who follow me are in either of these two camps but if you're just an outright terf then go fuck yourself of course). but even if you're entirely dedicated to balancing every harry potter post with a post about hating terfs, the fact that harry potter is still being promoted in a way that's uncritical of the content itself makes me uncomfortable and by making the harry potter brand maintain relevance that's still supporting jkr no matter how many times you put "fuck terfs" on your blog
disagree with me if you want bc i can't control whether people post about one of the largest fandoms in history, but i can make a statement being like "hey if you follow me and your most recent posts are all harry potter gifsets i will be blocking you so honestly for your own convenience please don't put in the effort of following me"
#this might honestly come across as TOO forgiving but i want to assume people have good intentions#in terms of cognitive dissonance about the issue or just not knowing about it#also ngl even aside from the controversy i just don't think harry potter is even that great of a story?#like yeah i enjoyed the first few books in middle school but honestly anything after book 4 just felt miserable or boring imo#and there were ABSOLUTELY problematic aspects people should have picked up on#(even the very system of ''hogwarts houses'' annoyed me. like yes i know british private schools did actually have houses)#(the hogwarts system still sucked tho i hated it even as a little kid)#i remember in like 2017 before the terf thing came out i would frequently peruse the ''anti jkr'' tag#bc all of my friends were like ''yeah it has its problems but here's a fix-it fanfic that does it sooo well!!!''#and i'd be like no i don't want harry potter fanfiction the real fix-it is just reading a different book jfc#and i did once end a friendship because someone assigned hogwarts houses to the characters in other girls#(that wasn't the only reason i stopped being friends with them they were a shitty person in general but that was a Moment)#anyway harry potter blogs can y'all please unfollow me i don't want to spend minutes of my day blocking you i have better things to do
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Every time the topic of Vegetta and marriage comes up I am forced to see misinformation or even flat out lies about Vegetta's past wedding experience and his relationship with Rubius and I just
#i talk#qsmp talk#IM TIREDDDDDDDDDDDD#For the love of god can you talk about this subject without doing the worst character analysis I've ever seen#Was his past wedding experience bad? yes#Does that somehow mean Rubius was abusive and they hate each other? NO#People don't need to villainize Rubius just to justify their ship dear GOD#I really don't care about fandom opinions usually but this one drives me up the frickin wall#Listen man I love Rubius and Vegetta to death and seeing people purposefully misinterpret them#and their past relationship for the sake of a ship#is just so exhausting#I don't care about people talking about the potential for marriage or how disastrous the last ones were#it's SOLELY when the interpretations are based on second or third hand information#or the intentionally is intentionally made in bad-faith#that I get :///#A few Spanish mutuals on Twitter wrote some very long threads with helpful information detailing events from past weddings#because they were also tired of people not knowing the details#and they got SO much hate for it from people who were specifically spreading the bad information to new fans#Like. why is a block game ship a hill you're willing to die on#It's so silly when you take a step back and think about it but also I'm so tired
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You know, case in fucking point, I went to go vote and on the way back I was halfway through an intersection and a car went to turn and came about a foot from hitting me. In a pedestrian heavy area. And I was wearing all black in broad daylight so it's not like I was blending in. Fucking pay attention.
Also I decided it was too windy for an umbrella, so by the time I got to the polling place I was soaked. Dripped all over my ballot lol. But I voted!!!! No excuses!
#i drive!!!! I'm not anti-car by any means!!!!#but you have to fucking watch for pedestrians!!!!!!#we have a walkability score of 89#and people DO walk here A LOT#like why wouldn't you if you're just going a few blocks away (and there's no parking anywhere)#but we have hit and runs on pedestrians all the time#fucking ridiculous#it wasn't even a busy intersection#like it was a side street#fuck off guy in blue car#anyway I'm drenched and i haven't eaten all day#i mostly only voted cause there was a funding thing for our public schools#and our schools are SHIT so I'm like yes please fund education
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vaniiii ehe hiya :3 umm we got a system sideblog if yer interested in seein more of us... but ummmm hiya !!!! i missed ya n im glad t' see ya... do ya got any advice fer copin wit' lack of attention from an fp.... we're okay but if ya got anythin it might be helpful for us :33 ehe i love yaaaa -🪴
MIIIIIKAAAAA!!!!!!!!! i missed u guys </3 i would love to see more of u tho i miss you guys when you're not around... although i guess technically you are since you said we're mutuals but skdghds
ough. tbh i've been pretty lucky insofar that i haven't had a lotta issues with that... but in my experience usually if i gotta be left alone for awhile distracting myself helps a lot? like. go down a wikipedia rabbit hole, or do a puzzle, or play a game you get super invested in. just something to focus on so you don't end up in your own head kinda thing yanno??? otherwise don't feel bad to just. ask for attention? like. it's not illegal to have human desires. and as long as your fp isn't busy or something they probably don't mind talking with you a lil :3 although idk for sure i know everyone has different relationships with their fp so ^^; do not listen to me if you know it'll cause you harm/strife/etc :< also naps. bc those pass the time reaaaaal quick. its like a lifehack. feeling bad? take a nap. you'll either feel amazing after or like you got smacked in the face with a trout ! oh and also like. doing schoolwork or smth productive maybe? thats not really fun tho so dskghds maybe pick up a kinda time-consuming hobby like crochet or cross-stitch or something where you can use that to distract yourself and have something to do with your hands :3?
but if its like. ur Already Feeling Bad i recommend like. watching a movie/tv show/etc that you really like or getting a Little Treat(tm) or something :3 curl up with a cozy blanket and drink some hot cocoa or tea or something !! its not like. a sure-fire fix. but i find the combo of distraction + comfort media + Little Treat tends to make you feel at least a lil better :3 also if it gets Very Bad just like. destroy some old school work you don't need or somethin. tearing papers to shreds is sooooooo fun. make sure u don't accidentally rip up something you need though skjghds it helps to calm down a lil and then you can work on relaxing a little more !! its not like. guaranteed. but sometimes gettin some of the destructive urges out helps
ily2 mika <3 i would die for u btw /lh
#at least i get destructive urges idk. i usually just rip up papers and stuff i don't need if i get like that#most of the time i can just deal w/ it via distractions (mmmm shitty mobile games) but !! sometimes u gotta Rip And Tear#most of my strats are just. distract urself. bc it gives you time to calm down and process stuff even if you don't realize it#so. ye. jus kinda be nice to yourself :3 it helps a little. perhaps get a plushie to cuddle with even#i have plushies my fp got me and i keep them on my bed and cuddle them when i miss them nd stuff#it helps a little !!! making yourself feel better can be rlly hard tho so don't feel bad if you struggle a bit !!#find some friends to talk to too if you can !!! it rlly helps to have people to talk to even if they don't entirely get it#just having other people around can help. i message with a few friends when my fp is busy sometimes and it helps keep the loneliness#at bay a little :3 but !! obv i cannot guarantee any of this will work for you !! but hopefully some of it is helpful at least !!!#I FORGOR U CAN'T PUT READ MORES IN ASKS. AUGH. this got so long srry mika ily#anyway !!! i am glad to see u :3 i was thinking abt u guys recently actually sdkghsd#i was worried u guys might've been one of the people in recent times that've blocked me or something orz#ily. stay safe. nd !! lemme know if i can help you guys somehow :3#im not like the most versed in system nor bpd stuff but ! i have my silly little experiences to go off of#system anon 🪴#long post#<- j. just in case. bc this did get Long. oopsies
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Whoever sent me that ask about a Billy anti, I’m only going to answer you the same thing that I’ve answered others so many times before: block them or ignore them. It’s the best way to deal with them.
I am not going to publish that ask because it gives a direct link to a post and I don’t encourage bullying anyone - even if it’s a person with a ‘bad take’.
#personal#also if i'm being completely honest here#i'm getting tired of talking about billy antis and other billy fans talking about them#when the block button is right there#i had my fair share of billy antis and discourse last summer#i participated in that and said some bad things too yes#and it completely wore me out#it depressed the fuck out of me#so besides taking a two month break from tumblr recently#i've also slowly started migrating back to my old fandoms#because i'm tired#not of hg. or billy. or fanfiction. or the people i consider my friends in this fandom#i'm just tired overall#i want to enjoy this fandom but it's giving me a major headache right now#and i may have to start unfollowing some of you for that#because i'm officially done with antis and anything to do with them#and it seems like some of you (the same few people actually) live and breathe that drama every day#because i always see you on my dashboard talking about that stuff even though i don't even follow you all#so i don't know#i feel bad for having to unfollow some otherwise great blogs#but the drama you bring to my dashboard is making me miserable#i don't care anymore okay#if you can't or don't want to block them that's on you#but i don't want to hear about them anymore#that's why i blocked those people in the first place
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it is a good day to not know anything about smps
#aria talkz#yea i know not everyone in dsmp sucks. i still hate dsmp and smps and how it fucked the minecraft rp community forever with its structure#alas.#anyways i just see block people in trans character polls and im like... yea sure if the character and the creator of them r trans ig but#Are they really gunna win against frisk undertale anyways#Or the knight from hollowknight#Or canonical / heavily headcanoned trans characters#idk i dislike when theres clear character bias due to ppls followerbase like#to have a bunch of characters from a specific series shoved into a poll that theyre going to have bias for bc the blogger who made the poll#likes it a lot to the point where they themselves get weirdly upset when ppl dont vote for the mcyters#i dont know these ppl nor give a fuck!#and even if they do win its like that shit is Noooot deserved. they are not as much as a cultural icon as canon trans characters#Like yes they can make ppl figure out their identity. Thats cool! But u rlly have to factor in that shit#I am not voting for a random white mcyters OC insert over Birdo or Frisk or The Knight or anything. Sorry not sorry#ESPECIALLY IF THE CHARACTER AND CONTENT CREATOR *ARENT EVEN TRANS*...#like yes cis people can play trans characters. but it is very subjective if they can do it well. Or should. As opposed to like actual trans#people who can do it much better and need those roles more...#i also am p sure most of the options there are just widely regarded as fandom headcanons for oc self insert white mcyter no. 50#except the actual trans ccs in mcyt like ranboo or w/e. thats fine.#and yes i know theyre characters. but its so odd to have what is essentially a self insert with a few layers removed. theres obviously like#a level of personal-ness there. i know how it is!! i used to fucking rp a semi-self insert minecraft character it is HARD to NOT project!!#blablabla my experiences arent universal but idk itsj ust always struck me as odd.#it sucks bc the whole idea around minecraft rps is fun but minecraft rp is tainted for me eternally by smps and past friendgroups.#( both of which did not really account for my needs since i cant rlly play minecraft survival well bc of triggers but then like#only played minecraft and excluded me from a lot )#so w/e
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A secret if you're petty by nature and can't get the last word in on an internet fight is you can always be the first one to hit the block button and that legally means you win
(this is a joke. im kidding. i dont actually believe this. im making a silly joke on the internet for fun)
#did i block people out of spite. yes. and what about it#im spiteful as hell and ooooo i love to press a fuckin block button#but seriously the debate wasnt going to go anywhere any way and blocking was my way of closing that chapter#i cant change peoples minds sometimes and thats okay. some arguments you dont win and cant win#so you have to let it go#blocking was also a way to ensure that i cant go back to look at the posts and ruminate on them#because ngl i have been doing that for the last few hours and its just not worth it#there are better things in life i could be doing other than being grumpy
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This is a reminder that leaving disparaging tags, comments, or additions on an artist's or writer's post is super shitty.
It can be about the art, the style, a character there you don't like, a setting you hate, the overall quality, ect. It really doesn't matter, it's always shitty. Complaints were not asked for and are not appreciated when someone is posting the content they spent time creating and are now sharing with you for free.
I mostly reblog content and I expect when someone comments or reblogs a post from me that they are kind and respectful to the original poster. For anyone that needs the reminder, the original poster will see all the tags, reblogs, and comments added to their post in their notifications (and potentially email if they have that turned on for comments) regardless of how far down the reblog chain it is. People that reblog the post (like me) will see the tags, reblogs, and comments added to the post when they are from my reblog only.
Take this as the warning it is. I will be blocking anyone who is shitty on the posts I have reblogged. The creators didn't ask for this and they don't deserve it. I will not be an origin point for this kind of bullshit. Don't like it, don't reblog it or comment on it.
#rambles#yes I am very grumpy about this#this has happened a few times now#i'm not gonna let it continue#not from me at least#i know someone is probably gonna come in and point out that people who post things for free should have a thick skin to deal with bullshit#but that is just victim blaming#so get the fuck off my blog#i dont want you following me and inflicting your fuckery onto artists and writers i appreciate#i use the block button liberally and will continue to
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It's been a while since you've seen a doctor, and you're nervous as you follow the nurse back to my office. What's there to be nervous about, this is just a little checkup, right? You notice the nurse's manicured burgundy nails as she knocks sharply on the door. She turns to you, smiling prettily, and says, "the doctor will see you now."
You push open the door and enter quite a large room. The nurse follows, closing the door behind you. In the center is the examination table, off to the right is a small crowd of young adults, appearing to be made up of men and women, and on the left is me, seated at my desk. "Welcome," I say, standing and extending one hand. My voice is deep, warm, and smooth, and you fumble for a moment, blushing a little, before you remember to shake my hand. Your hand is dwarfed in mine, my strong fingers encircling you, and a thought flashes unbidden through your mind - what would those fingers feel like inside you? - but, come on now, that's really not appropriate...
"I have a few students with me, as you can see. Is that alright?"
"Well, yes, of course!" Why shouldn't it be?
"Excellent. Now, I'm pioneering this new full-body examination method - it's really quite extraordinary, the maladies I can detect this way - but be warned, it is, shall we say, unorthodox. Is that alright?"
Just for a moment, you see something in my eyes, something behind the genial smile and gentle, reassuring tone. Just for a moment, you feel like some specimen, some piece of meat, pinned down under the lights with nowhere to go... but just for a moment. Surely, nothing bad can happen, and I'm a doctor, aren't I? You can trust me. So you swallow your fear, and you acquiesce.
"Excellent! Let's have a seat on the table, if you don't mind, and we'll make a start. Nurse V, if you would..."
As you sit on the table, the clinical, sterile seating a little cold against your skin, the pretty nurse steps behind the table, facing you, waiting for something. From your right, I approach, and you feel again just how much larger than you I am as my broad shoulders block out one of the ceiling lights. With all these people watching you, it takes all you have not to squeeze your legs together, just a little bit.
We begin with a quick examination of your face - "you have beautiful eyes, you know," I purr into one ear. I place one hand on the side of your neck and tilt your head; god, you've been reading too much, haven't you, the way you want these strong, expert fingers to close around your throat.
"Now, open your mouth for me, please." You oblige, and I cup your chin and slide my thumb into your mouth, pressing down on your tongue. Your eyebrows jump in surprise, and you look at me questioningly.
I smile again, still inside you. "Unorthodox, remember? Now, close your mouth and try to swallow." From behind, the nurse strokes your cheek with the back of one hand, and you feel a sudden ache between your legs. You close your lips around my thumb and swallow. It tastes... clean, mostly, as one might expect from a doctor, but you can taste the sweat underneath.
"Very good, one more time for me."
You swallow again, and you feel me slide my thumb over the surface of your tongue, pressing down, swirling in circles.
"And, one more time... yes, that's it, good job, very good job."
The praise for this degrading task is more than you can bear, and you squeeze your thighs together. Fuck, it's humiliating, everyone just saw you do that... All these eyes on you, the beautiful nurse behind you, this big, strong doctor with these big, strong hands and that big fucking bulge... but no, this is just a checkup, nothing is going to happen, right?
While you were thinking, I dried my hand off and had begun speaking.
"I'm - I'm sorry?"
"No worries. I was saying, can you remove your top, please? We need to examine your heart and your breathing."
You stare at me. "Remove my - "
"Yes, remove your top. The fewer barriers between me and you, the less interference with my examination." My face is quite serious, almost bored - this really must be routine. You look back at the nurse, and she smiles slightly and nods. So you undress, your nipples betraying you, standing at attention. You blush as the crowd of students looks at you intently. The nurse lays one warm hand on your shoulder, slender fingers gripping you reassuringly, and your eyes are drawn once more to those burgundy nails.
I step in close, and you feel my breath warm on your chest. "Now, observe the stiffness in the patient's nipples - this is to be expected, given the cool air, and it's certainly nothing to be ashamed of," I say, smiling. I press my stethoscope up over your heart, the metal cold on your skin, and your mind is betrayed by the pounding of your heart. My eyes flick up to meet yours, and I grin, predatorily, and once again you feel like a piece of meat beneath the lights.
I examine your breasts, starting with your left. Enclosed in my big, strong hands, I squeeze and push, prod and pull, ostensibly feeling for any abnormalities, but the way my fingers brush over your nipples, the intensity with which I sink them into your soft breasts, heaving now as your breath comes faster... My practiced tongue rasps over one nipple and a tiny moan escapes your lips as you try desperately to hide how much you're enjoying this; try desperately, and fail.
Abruptly, I pull back. "Excellent! All seems well here." I rest one hand on your other shoulder and turn to the students. "Note the pleasure response during this section of the examination, and I hope you were paying attention to the oral technique."
I turn back to you, my eyes dancing as they meet yours. "Fully undress, if you would. The inspection must continue."
Your hands tremble as you slide your clothes down off your waist, and the nurse aids you, her lovely hands stroking along your thighs and calves as she does.
"And spread for us, please."
Obediently, your thighs open, exposing your cunt, your needy, aching wetness, to all.
"Note the beauty of the patient's sex, here. The shape of the folds," I murmur, tracing one finger along your sensitive lips, "the balanced ratio of the clitoris to the vulva overall," sliding two fingers on either side of your clit, squeezing gently between them, "the appropriate pleasure response in - "
You lose what I say as I plunge two fingers inside you, powerful and dextrous, knuckles slipping past your tightness easily. It feels so fucking good to finally have something inside you, after all this aching and teasing, and god, so many people are watching, they're all watching your pussy spread and toyed with by this big, strong, handsome older man, and now the nurse's slender fingers are across your throat and her lips are on your forehead, and she tells you that you're doing so well for me, you've been so good...
My fingers press up inside you, finding your g spot, and with my thumb rubbing on your clit, I start melting you. Waves of pleasure course through your body, you gasp, moan, whimper, and with your eyes closed you can't tell whose lips are so soft on yours, but it feels so fucking good, and all those people are watching and it makes you want it more, your back arching, chest heaving, melting under the attention, and finally, mercifully, you cum, contracting around my fingers, squeezing your thighs together, trembling, shaking, gasping for air. You hear me say something, but you're so overwhelmed with pleasure that all you can make out from my speech is "very, very good".
The hand withdraws from your throat, and I gently, gently, extricate my fingers, and settle my hand atop one thigh, fingers slick with your desire.
The nurse whispers affirmation in your ear as I address the class. "Stimulation in this manner, of the two most sensitive sex stimuli, brings the most consistent and powerful orgasms to those possessing these organs." I stroke the inside of your thigh reassuringly, before turning to you.
"The final part of this examination is seeing how well you handle penetration. I'm going to need your unequivocal verbal consent before proceeding."
The nurse leans in and whispers into your ear, "might I suggest 'please, sir, will you fuck me?'" You'd blush harder if you could.
You swallow, nervously, and there's a twisting in your gut as you say it. "Please," you begin, voice cracking. "Please, sir, will you fuck me?"
"Yes, that is sufficient. I must say, though," I warn, unzipping my jeans, "that I am quite large." I slap my cock down on your tummy, and the sheer weight of it shocks you. You've seen size like this in porn, sure, but fuck, you've never touched something like this. When you tear your gaze away from my cock, I'm grinning down at you, predatory again. "You can back out at any time, you know." My voice is low, teasing, challenging. "Should we continue?"
You nod shakily, and spread your legs a little wider.
One hand on your raised knee, one hand guiding my cock, I push against you. For a moment you realize the exam had to be done in this order; if you weren't so fucking wet, there's no chance you'd be able to take me. But all thoughts are blasted out of your mind as I push harder and slide in.
It's so fucking thick that you can't help but groan. You've never felt so full, so strained inside, being pushed in every direction; you're not built for this, maybe there's just too much, your body is rejecting me - and then I push again, another few inches, and you slam your head back against the padded table, a long, drawn-out "fuuuuuck" wrenched from your lips. You feel my strong hands brace at your hips, and with a final thrust, slamming your cervix up into your guts, moving your entire body, the ridges of my cock sliding deeper and deeper, sliding painfully, pleasurably past your walls, I'm inside you.
The nurse rests her hands on you again, and purrs in your ear, "you're doing so well for him, I know it's hard, it's so hard, but you're doing such a good job, pretty girl..."
Glacially, I pull out, allowing you a moment to rest, before thrusting in again, hands still at your waist. You sob once, loudly, and then you sink into it as I pick up a rhythm, deep, deep strokes inside you. You hear me grunting, whispering something, and I grow more frantic, impaling you a little harder, and through the wall of pleasure you hear me rumble, "nurse V, begin the overstimulation procedure."
"Certainly, doctor." She leans over you, lips fiercely meeting yours, and one of those slender hands reaches down to abuse your clit. An image of those burgundy nails on your cunt flashes through your mind as I continue pounding you, forcing you to spread for me, adjust to me, even as the nurse plays your clit like an instrument, and fuck, she's a virtuoso.
You sing a song of moans and voiceless curses under our combined mastery, knowing your audience is entranced, filled with a blazing, lusty pride. The deep bass of my voice, resonant in your skull, is saying something, but you cannot hear me; you're moaning, groaning, pleading, "yes, yes, oh my god yes" over and over...
The song swells to a crescendo and with two sudden strikes, two powerful thrusts into you, it ends with a thick, hot, sticky white wave of my approval inside you. You feel it pulse deep, deep inside, filling you, load after load delivered straight past your bruised, abused cervix.
You come back to reality with my cum spilling from between your legs, trailing thickly down onto the exam table. I zip up my jeans while the nurse helps dry you off, from all the sweat and saliva. She dabs caringly at your mouth, and you notice that the cloth is dyed the same shade as her lipstick.
"Now," I address the class, "I hope you were paying attention." I rest one hand on your aching, trembling thigh. How many times did you cum with me inside you? How long were all these people watching you writhe beneath me, begging, losing yourself in the pleasure? You have no fucking clue. "This patient has bravely volunteered for each of you to examine her, here and now, while she's available to us."
Your jaw drops. When did you agree to that? You would never - but you were begging, "yes, yes, yes" earlier, weren't you, while I was talking. You agreed. Everyone heard you say it.
"One at a time, please. And," I say to you, grinning wolfishly, "don't worry. I'll be watching the entire time."
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