#yeah i literally found a few blogs in there with 16+ warnings in their descriptions wish i was making that up

[josiebelladonna]

hate to be *that* person, but—

everyone in the kinktober tag: taking requests! we’re months away but I wanna get a head start, haha 😛 i *~only~* do f!white!reader, sorry!! it wouldn’t be right or fair. nsfw, 16+ only! nsfw but I won’t always write about s3x 😉 I’ll finish last year’s kinktober at some point lol. Looking forward to the daddy kink/bukkake/creampie prompts especially I’m such a coquette!! But it’s all about “you”, though, mooties 🩷

meanwhile, on the surface of the sun, i.e., my end: i really want to do this again because i got butchered last year. god, am i actually gay or something, why is this so hard? eric is hot, why am i like this whenever i set out to write about him. i need to relax. NO, i refuse to do anything in the “x reader” format, bag and tag that fucking shit already. this is awfully personal even by my standards do i really want to post this? i need to be honest but i don’t know what i’d do if alex were to find this. i’m gonna catch hell the same way i caught hell with ben even though ben and alex are two totally different men. where are all the jewish people in here, like wtf why is this tag flooded with antisemites. people are either going to shrug at this or i’m going to get hoist up by my own petard this year… again. *sees something that triggers the pain i feel whenever sexuality is mentioned* Ah, shit, here we go again. why do these 1.4k word-length one shots peppered with “you” have like 30k notes, these are terrible and i have to read it like 10 times to understand what the hell is happening here, like is it the fandom? is it me, like do i just not get it or something? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I’M GOING TO LOSE IT. I’M GOING TO LOSE IT AND IT’S ALL MY FAULT. I HATE KINKTOBER AND I HATE MYSELF FOR GETTING INVOLVED IN THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE. WHY DO I KEEP TORTURING MYSELF WITH THIS.