#yall I bombed it but its okay we lived

[omnxnom]

just got out of a 5 hour interview...anyways some silvers I doodled to wind down LMAO

bonus a quick silver doodle wishing me luck before my interview

[newtkive]

pixels [newt x reader - modern text au]

ch. 4 - agoraphobia and burger king on 5th street

summary: a personal experience provides a way for newt to connect to y/n.

warnings: strong language, mental health talk, depression, medication (its my literal prescription i mention oops this is like a self insert fr), mutual pining, none really.

➥ m.list

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THE GLADE

[ 10:52 am ]

y/n: it’s official yall

drugs saved my life

tommy: huh??

minho: same

newt: wow, i’ve never seen your name on my screen before 12 pm

y/n: shut the hell up bitch

newt: ouch, touchy

minho: woah

touchy 👀

are yallll..?

y/n: you’re sick

tommy: are we going to ignore the drugs statement??

like hello are u ok ??

newt: you’re annoying minho

minho: yea <3 😊

notice how they didn’t say no

y/n: you guys just don’t understand how a girl like me needs beauty sleep..

and no we aren’t

gally: all that beauty sleep and ur still walking around with that mug.. yikes.

y/n: 😑

i hate you i haete you i dhateoyifu

minho: great she’s having a fit

y/n: no one cares about me

and you think i’m ugly

this is so sick

and you don’t even care that i’m on drugs

☹️😭😭😭😭 done.

newt: no one said that love

gally that was rude

minho: BRUHHHHH

here she goes

tommy: I CAREE????????

DO I NEED TO COMEGET YOU????

y/n: yes 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

before i do something crazy 😭😭💣

minho: THE BOMB IS WILD

tommy: stay where you are

i have your location

newt: uhhh

y/n: pause what

minho: tommy why would you admit to that

tommy: im On my way! what’s the issue

sorry autocorrect

y/n: WHY DO YOU HAVE MY LOCATION????

gally: can you guys shut the fuck up

minho: the drama queen is here 😍

gally: stop

alby: I have it on Life360, I imagine Thomas does as well. In fact I have all of your locations.

y/n: oh

i forgot about that app..

minho: i didn’t. i get a notif that newt’s phone is at 5% all the goddamn time

even tho he said he deleted it

newt: just turn it off then

i redownloaded it don't track my app intake

minho: no it makes me feel less lonely

y/n: awwwww

idk how you do that newt

newt: do what?

y/n: not charge your phone

if my phone gets below like 15% then the monsters will get me

tommy: omg me tooo 🥹

newt: i was about to say you sound like tommy.

tommy: don’t say that!

she’s on drugs i don’t want to sound like an addict 😔

newt: she isn’t on drugs thomas

tommy: she literally said she is newt :/

5 mins and i’m there y/n

y/n: are you actually fr

thomas..

we live very far away sweetie

newt: i mean

if you were in trouble you don’t think we’d come get you?

tommy: ^^

but life360 says you’re at the burger king on 5th

minho: no that’s me LOOOL

y/n: NEWTTT ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

tommy: wtf

i’m the one who’s coming to get u

why does he get the credit

minho: no tommy you’re coming to get me

tommy: oh yippee i get to see my friend 🤗

newt: ewwwwww

y/n: EWWWWW

tommy: OH STOP IT

y/n: why burger king of all places min

minho: why drugs of all things y/n

gally: she’s not doing drugs are you guys fuckin insane

y/n: yes i am

it’s 10 mg of fluoxetine 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

ONCE A DAY!!!!!!

IM ADDICTED

newt: no you aren’t, 10 mg is the smallest dose

minho: told y’all she was on drugs

y/n: ???????

minho: over the year

you’re too hyper to not be on some crack shit

tommy: oh stop that’s not nice.

newt: it’s not drugs like that minho stop.

tommy: uhoh he brought out the . at the end

y/n: it’s just for anxiety cuz i can’t leave the house without going into a breakdown

minho: she got acrophobia

told y’all she was mental

newt: what the fuck are you talking about

tommy: oh i know that word

fear of spiders 🕷️

minho: wtf no

fear of outside

y/n: i’m not afraid of outside

newt: that’s agoraphobia you fucking dumbass

y/n: 😍

i did NOT mean to send that lol oops

newt: ??

oh, okay

minho: when he’s a know it all 😍

when she’s agoraphobic 😍

y/n: when he’s at burger king on 5th because he has no food in his fridge and can only afford a $1.99 whopper with the coupons from the newspaper 😍😍😍😍

minho: 😒😑

newt: LMFAOOOO

GOOD THAT

minho: british people be so annoying

saying shit like gormless minger and good that be sooo real rn

newt: i have never said gormless minger in my whole 26 years of life.

y/n: you just did bro

newt: call me bro again

y/n: bro

brosive

brother

stepbro

minho: laughed until i saw the last msg :/

newt: 😑

y/n: ok youre the perverts

minho: cant you take your prozac and turn back to normal now

y/n: so you DO know what it is..

gally: wym 'back to normal' like there was smth before this??

y/n: real i been like this for life

tommy: i got whopper and two large fries and mozzarella sticks

newt: wow

y/n: wow just call him a fatass newt.

newt: i would never, stop

y/n: 2 large fries is kinda crazy tho

tommy: i have to get enough to share with my friend

minho

gally: surprised you have friends

tommy: yeah you are not one.

gally: RUDE?

y/n: WELL LMFAO

minho: i literally already ate also gally ur not my friend either

newt: same

alby: same

gally: well why tf am i in here

y/n: well you're my friend!

gally: great.

y/n: not with that attitude..

tommy: y/n you're ok though right??

y/n: yes tommy im fine sweetie

go eat your food

tommy: okay i wish you could share these fries with me

y/n: me too :(

minho: i don't

big back would eat em all

y/n: i actually hate you

__

newt

[ 11:45 am ]

newt: hey

y/n: hiii :D whats up??

newt: idk why but this feels like secretly texting you across the room at a party

y/n: actually tho

picture me giving u a look from across the room

newt: you would blow our cover immediately

i just wanted to let you know if you needed any like,, advice or something with your new medicine i'm here for you. i take the same stuff on top of lexapro

y/n: oh really?

newt: yeah i do

y/n: newt :( thank you

i am a bit nervous to start it tbh

newt: i understand, i was too

but hopefully it'll change things for the better

y/n: i hope so

i didn't realize you dealt with anxiety n stuff

newt: more than you know

you aren't the only one and you aren't alone w it

y/n: you're sweet newt, thank you

newt: don't mention it :))

sorry the smiley was creepy

y/n: lmao no i like it

if you need to talk or anything too i’m always here

newt: yeah?

y/n: of course ): you’re my pookie

newt: one day you gotta let go of that word lmao

y/n: but you love it tho

newt: you tell yourself that

actually are you free rn?

y/n: yeah! i’m just about home what’s up?

newt: i’m bored so pick up the phone

y/n: NEWT LMAO

ok fine 😒

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Did I ever tell yall about my mother's habit of sitting me down once a month to have a Serious Developmentally Appropriate and Relevant Conversation? They started when I was about 5, and continued until I was 17 (with some inconsistencies when the two of us were on the outs), and we talked about SO many things. We had the same conversations multiple times at different levels of depth, complexity, and nuance too, which was a really cool way for me to learn what it feels like for knowledge to be inherently cumulative in nature. I feel like that's part of what has made me as curious, as prone towards positive change over time, and as analytical as I typically am.

Anyway, these conversations were all about important life issues. Body health, drugs, sex, relationship dynamics and boundaries, the different ways people harm other people and what it could look like to react to that, racism, gender, war, death, sexuality, capitalism, surbival resource obtainment, sexism, ablism (although I don't know my mother called it this at the time), etc. My mom's general approach to "risky" information with me was essentially "you're going to find out eventually, whether I try to intervene in that or not. I'd rather your first awareness of these things come from me so it's easier for you to recognize when someone is selling you a load of bullshit." My mom and I have a lot of very different ideas of what it should look like to be a parent, but this was absolutely something I think she did right. She was frank and open, she never made me feel like a question or tooic or even certain words were dangerous or "wrong", and she was careful to scale her approach to the conversation in relation to my own emotional and psychological development. I still actually remember a lot of these conversations, tho of course some stand out better than others.

It took a while of me percolating on our conversation about war and intercommunal conflict before I asked her why people fight in wars if they're so awful for everyone involved. She explained a few different reasons, and things that might draw a person to this one or that one, while acknowledging opposing logic where she could.

Then she describes to me the draft. The act of a political entity compelling its own people to put their lives in harm's way for political interests or assets. She explained different ways the draft might work, and different kinds of people who might or might not get drafted. And then, she says,

"Not everyone obeys when they're called up." She watched me very carefully whenever she was using my reactions to gauge her next words. "In fact, several people in our family have refused to be drafted. Some because of their beliefs, some because of their circumstances. A lot of people do. It's called draft dodging."

See, my grandma was born in 1931. She spent most of her and her brothers' childhoods growing up in the place where her father's family had lived since about the 1500s, up in the Virginia Appalachians. But then Pearl Harbor was bombed, the USA joined world war 2, and a draft came up. It'd been calling up so many of the local men who simply. Did not come home. My grandma's parents knew that the family absolutely would not be okay without her father for any significant length of time, let alone forever. Her mother, Josephine, was visibly brown skinned and a first generation orphan immigrant who had already raised her own siblings by the time they'd eloped at 17. It wasn't that she wasn't capable, it was that she didn't have the bandwidth for any new traumas. They didn't trust that she could hold herself together for their kids and her siblings if she lost the one person who made her feel safe. (Ultimately her husband did die young, several decades before Josephine, but after all the children were grown and married. As expected, she did not take it well, and lived with my uncle for the rest of her life grieving)

So when his number came up, he dodged the draft. Sold everything the family had, packed them all into the car, and fled the state. (Apparently a Canadian radio jockey bought the family land back in the 90s and was incredibly frustrated that he couldn't convince the people in town to start calling it after his name instead of my family name lmao) My family was lucky. They had the resources to do this, and to arrange an exemption when they arrived in their new home. Not everyone manages that. And the alternatives can sometimes be a lot more impactful than "just" blowing up your entire life. Jail time, bodily harm, communal rejection, even death. It depends on your circumstances.

And yet people ALWAYS do it. They dodge the draft, or they go AWOL, or they find SOME way to stay out of the war machine. There will ALWAYS be people who choose and prioritize saving lives and denying a war more cannon fodder.

I think about this a lot when I hear about military, militia, or otherwise militarized organizational violence and human rights abuses. I think about the way humans tend to chafe at being denied their autonomy. How in intense hierarchies, people who are belittled by their higher-ups may often lash out at those they are above when they feel a compulsion to re-exert control. I think about the history of asymmetrical warfare, and what we know about what soldiers tend to do in those environments.

And at the end of the day, I think about how when these things happen, when they KEEP happening. Everyone has the choice to refuse. There have always been people who make that choice, even under the worst of consequences.

So what makes the difference between a person who refuses to supply the state with more power to exert violence with, and the person who complies?

[mostlymarvelsstuff]

Listen, I know I'm just a fanfic writer and Yall are here for content and not real world shit, but I can't ignore what I've seen and heard. Yes, I could look away "for my mental health" or just ignore it and shut it out as many people, especially those my age are doing. But I won't. These people deserve to be seen, heard and witnessed. They deserve the attention. They deserve to be spoken about. If you wish to remain ignorant, that's on you. But this is a teaching moment, and I will be speaking.

In just 30 days Israel has killed more people in Gaza than Russia has in Ukraine during this most recent conflict. I need y'all to understand how vast that is, okay? In 30 days 10,022 are just...gone. At least 4,104 have been children. CHILDREN. Not war criminals, not armed militants, not soldiers. Fucking kids man!

In Gaza there are now 47 entire family trees have been wiped out. Not just a family of 3, entire bloodlines are gone. Entire. Bloodlines. Generations have been eradicated.

All of these weapons that are being used on innocent Palestinians have been provided or bought from the USA. They are being carpet bombed almost constantly. White phosphorus bombs, which is generally used to hide troop movements with its smoke, have been deployed in residential areas. These have caused a multitude of chemical burns to the people of Gaza, both internally and externally. Which, is a documented war crime btw. Hellfire missiles, which are used on high value targets/aircrafts due to their precision, have also been used. These missiles kill not by explosives, but by using blade like shrapnel and kinetic energy. Its ripping people apart like a blender.

The morgues are so full of the dead that Ice cream trucks are being used to store corpses. And corpses isn't even the correct term, because majority of those found are in pieces. Imagine having to have your neighbors help you pick of the severed limbs of a family member because no one is coming to help you. Either because they don't care to or they aren't being allowed into Gaza. So now the community must ban together to use its hands to dig through the rubble in the hopes of finding surviving loved ones or even just a body or some parts to bury.

And because it seems the leaders of the world can blindly turn an eye to the doctors, the everyday citizens and the politicians, so Children now have to win over sympathy to get a ceasefire. And they do that with a press conference, in fucking english because they know people will only listen if its english. In that press conference they tell us how they want to live and play and they legitimately invite us to help. That's how they phrase it, "We invite you to help". Imagine having to beg for the decency of others to shine through so you can make it to tomorrow yet alone adulthood.

They have bombed churches, a refugee camps, schools, homes, apartments, and hospitals. They rejoice and celebrate that schools in Gaza have shut down because the children that attended them are dead. How barbaric can Israel be? And yet they have the gall to call the Palestinian people animals. They condemn them as unfit for life while strutting around with headless babies and cheering

Recently, the power in Shifa hospital has been cut off and it's now been confirmed that all ICU patients (including around 50 premature babies) have all died because of this. To add to that, many sources are saying they have seen the armed IDF forces storm into Shifa hospital, where around 7,000 civilians, 650 patients and 650 medical staff are taking refuge and gunfire has been reported....I can only imagine that a massacre of immense proportions is taking place as I type.

It is time to act. I don't care how. Boycott, march/rally, call your representatives, donate, spread the word. I don't care how you do it, but don't sit idly by and just think "well, it's out of my hands" or "it doesn't concern me". Make your voice heard somehow. Demand a ceasefire now!

Sensitive imagery below (because some of y'all need to actually see to believe)

What did these citizens do to deserve eradication??

I hope you feel the grief and anger as I do. Because we are witnessing a genocide take place. We are witnessing a multitude of war crimes happen with weapons our tax dollars paid for. And if all of this information doesn't phase you, doesn't evoke some kind of emotion within you, then I truly don't want you interacting on my page.

[blackstarchanx3new]

FSR Rambles 12 times Vaati got his ass kicked

Insanity, Vaati being pathetic.

What's new?

Ooop. Zelda showing off how she'll kill you within 2 seconds of being in HER castle.

Link's letter was smth addressed earlier: He warned her with a letter he was going to pull the sword.

Which implies a certain amount of impersonal-ness to the action. He didn't want her talking him out of it lmfao. He was already struggling with defying Vio's persistence so it makes sense he didn't want Zelda to try and logic his ass either.

Her outfit being the sneaky armor in botw, presumably so she could sneak attack, whoever ended up attacking her.

I thought it'd also be a fun throwback to Sheik and spoiler:

Zelda's gender identity is pretty open. Link referred to her with "They" pronouns earlier in the comic but I didn't feel it was very relevant to bring up at the time lmfao. Zelda's all sorts of gender in this comic to say the least.

The reason why Vaati knows she's around is smth I'll get into later when it's more relevant.

"Damn would you have preferred Gannon???" - Vaati probably.

Zelda isn't playing around she wants to know where her blonde twink is at.

Vaati is a bitch about it of course.

Oh she mad.

She real mad.

"PATRICK THATS NOT A HOOKER!!!"

"It's not?"

"ITS A BOMB 💣!!!!"

Vaatis stupid as hell expression before she goes boom is hilarious to me.

Smth people seem to be CONFUSED about fsr is Vaati's not so subtle Zelda simping.

Vaati is a Zelda simp, that's really all there is too it. The extent of that simping is smth I've joked about a lot.

So he got his ass handed to him.

Shadow himself noted vaati must be weak as hell earlier so. Guess he was right.

Smth of note: vaati is struggling to keep his form in the "wind mage" form. As his body keeps trying to revert to the "wind demon" design

Those titles are used interchangeably in the manga but I call his Hylian disguise his "wind mage" form and the demon form his "wind demon" form personally.

Zelda casually drops the fact she was trying to murder Vaati with that blast. She isn't playing around. Makes sense this asshole held her prisoner for who knows how long before and did something to her best friend.

Haha vaatis pathetic and also in pain.

Good.

His suffering is all the direct cause of his own actions so...hard to feel TOO bad for him rn.

Zelda certainly doesn't.

Link’s shitty state outright made her a more cold hearted person it seems.

Not that'd I'd blame her for that lmfao.

Vaati struggling to get back to being handsome lmfao.

Vaati, my bro, when are you going to do a single thing for yourself????

Okay but the implication Dark Link let Vaati get his ass kicked and only jumped in to help when Vaati called for help is very funny.

Dark links comedically large sword is just interesting. It's not a four sword replica like Shadow’s.

Zelda is in shock at the weird Link coming out of nowhere.

Darks immediate reaction of being flustered at seeing Zelda is so funny to me.

"HYLIA'S MASSIVE TITS, IT'S A WOMAN!!!"

And fun note: This is the first time Dark's actually for reals appeared in the physical world and not just in the "Headspace".

Subtly creepy he isn't just a mental problem but a physical danger as well.

His attack was very calculated, as he didn't hurt Zelda and just slammed his sword in front of her...

...Haven't we seen smth...SIMILAR TO THIS?

Huh well, look at that...

Sweaty weirdo Dark Link enters the chat.

No it was not just for the memes he's actually just like that lmfao.

So from what we know about Dark so far there's some things to note:

Our buddy boy can see the memories of others and "live" through their experiences.

Yall see what it is getting at right?

Shadow link, Vio, and Vaati's emotions and memories are influencing Darks inability to harm Zelda here.

And perhaps he formed feeling a certain kind of way about her.

He associates her with positive feelings lmfao.

Their influence aside, he still chooses not to hurt her on his own.

Vaati’s reaction is priceless.

Zelda seems to grant Dark some mercy, assumably because he outright denied Vaati here lol.

For his sparing of Zelda he gets squished like a dog toy. Poor Dark Link.

Vaati leaves with his dumbass lackey.

When you casualy blow a hole in your castle lmfao.

She's overwhelmed.

She need break.

She need hug.

She need...Link.

Pff.

Guys, he has self-awareness...fuck.

Vaati, that was just unnecessarily mean to your lackey.

Also Dark Link appearance wise:

His hair color has changed. It's purple toned now when it was grey blue toned earlier....

Okay I'll stop being coy it's because he's mimicking Vio's appearance.

Oh. Well, that's a face, alright...

Is he ANGRY? Is he HAPPY?

Did he make that face because he knows it'd freak Vaati out?

Vaati’s abusive bullshit doesn't seem to damper his mood at least as he's smiling in the 3rd panel.

Dark link and Shadow link are very different people, ESPECIALY when it comes to how they cope with Vaati's abuse.

It left a mark on Shadow where as as of right now at least, Dark acts MOSTLY unbothered by it.

Let's face it rn his idea of normal relationships are Shadow and vio lmfaoooooooo-

The dudes who both almost murdered each other.

Pff

His "I want kisses too" line will never not get a laugh out of me.

It's so indicative of how he actually feels.

He wants kisses.

He drops that Shadow is the demon king and for a second you gotta wonder if Vaati was like

"...Why is Gannon smooching Vio?????"

Dark Link also wants to dance. Both are things he saw Vio and Shadow do, mind you...

Vaati has no idea wtf is going on lmfao.

Dark has eclipsed him as the true villain of this comic-

I say in jest.

Dark casually recaps stuff we already kinda know.

While trying to dance with Vaati pff.

Funny enough, taking the lead in said dance, which reflects how he's the one doing all the work rn.

So, Dark link is interpreting peoples feelings, not 100% understanding them. 🤔

He has to actually think about Blue's emotional state hah and even seems surprised.

It's funny to think that even Green picked up on blue being jealous, and basically everyone did, but Dark had to think about it...

Kinda shows he doesn't really understand people much. Like TRUELY.

Or he's just not as interested in blue vs Vio and Shadow.

Dark stutters again like he did when he was face to face with Zelda.

Vaatis so mean mocking his stutter and continues to berate him.

Well that was an outburst.

And I finally get to talk in detail about Dark Link’s "mechanics" for a lack of a better term will expand on the next page.

Design/art wise:

Dark's teeth are all sharp here when normally, despite being a demon his teeth are flat/human looking teeth.

The background is a more red version of the head-space Vio and Green have been dragged to when Dark talks to them/at them.

Immediately he's back to being himself.

Weirdly happy, which settles in the true horror of the previous outbirst:

He didn't mean, a single word of what he just said.

He said that, PURELY to hurt Vaati because it's something that Vaati already feels about himself. He wasn't actually MAD at Vaati and snapping in response to Vaati's abuse. He was just reflecting Vaati's anger right back at him.

So smth about Dark:

He often reflects DIRECTLY how others behave.

Instances of such:

The madder Vaati got in this talk, the "angrier" Dark Link got right back at him.

He shouted at Dark to "Do something" and he responded angrily back that he didn't want to hurt Zelda.

He shouted and berated Dark Link causing Dark to shout that nobody loves Vaati.

Dark Link's nature is to be calm, quiet, pretty "Happy" and kinda hopelessly romantic lmao. He wants to have his idea of "Fun" with people.

He MIMICS people.

Dark has no identity of his own (At least he doesn't seem to realize he does) so often he just bounces off people. He only takes joy in hurting others atm.

Not even in an outright malicious way. At least not the kind of malicious that's "haha I broke the hero because I hate him". This is just what his idea of "Fun" is. What his idea of normal interactions are. This is just what he's suposed to be doing rn.

He isn't acting much outside of his direct reason for creation. What he even deems as fun is indicative of his creation as well.

Engaging with their range of emotions and characters and memories he deems interesting is FUN to him.

If his dialogue from page 121 is anything to go off of, bro really doesn't give a shit about his job. He just wants to have fun:

He finds it amusing Shadow can ALSO manipulate people's feelings, outright kind of complimenting him for it.

And then gets hopelessly distracted and starts talking about what he'd "Rather do" right now.

Which involves hugging Vio and reading oop.

He didn't get SUPER involved/invested in Shadow's memories until Vio and Shadow were doing more "interesting" things, at least in Dark's opinion of what is "interesting."

Dark wants to engage in relationships lmfao. But he's stuck engaging with memories living though them vicariously and hurting people he supposedly "Likes".

He wants to dance with someone and kiss them and in general have "happy" moments with someone. But is stuck being a curse that's only purpose is to break the hero apart and reflect negativity.

It's kinda sad.

But he clearly hasn't reflected on his own life/situation outside of Vaati's feelings towards him.

Also: Dark has no desire to kill any of the Link or Link himself...keep this in mind.

Again: He reflects Vaati's mood of annoyance with that face in the second panel. Which kills me. You just know Vaati's making the same face off screen lmfao.

Symbolism symbolism

Dark plucks the violet but leaves the silent princess alone outside of petting it. Call back to how he left Zelda alone.

He says more stuff we kinda already know, but recapping is good. Actually, we spent like 100 pages in flashbacks, hah.

It also shows what Dark learned/his takeaway from watching their interactions.

Haha oh Dark why are you ripping petals out?

There's smth to be said about him ripping the petals out as the game "She loves me, she loves me not" is a vibe that's being invoked here.

With the odd amount of petals (Being 5) it'd land on "She loves me" by the way.

A relatively innocent game turned into something sinister as he rips petals out in accordance with how many heroes there are.

Dark's behavior continues to be ODD, as he claims Shadow's predicament is "Sad". Which is true.

But...does his expression REALLY scream that he's ACTUALLY sad about it to you?

His chest eyeball just stares blankly forward, his body language implies he's just kinda pretending or acting sad.

Which makes sense, Dark hasn't been shown to clearly understand sorrow properly as even when he cried he was still smiling.

He compares Vio and Shadow's struggles with their identities directly as they're both struggling with who they're SUPOSED to be compared to who they are.

Again: he's ripping a petal out as he talks about each member of the Link squad.

Notes notes notes my favorite:

For whatever reason Vio is not in his present day look here. He's how he looked 7 years ago.

You could make a lot of different assumptions as to why:

Is this how Dark sees Vio? Vio visually represented to be stuck in the past. Vio just feeling more childishly scared in the face of what's happening.

Dark's comforting Vio here in a similar manor to how Shadow did though.

Also super weird: Dark actually in a round about way compliments Vio here.

"He's so blinded by his self hatred he can't see just how much everyone adores him because of his calm cool nature..."

Dark can feel how others feel about Vio and repeated those opinions.

This is smth to note because so far the only things he's really repeated out loud have been negative things people feel about THEMSELVES.

Outside of when he complimented Shadow.

But this shows he can actually recognize positive feelings people have towards others and repeat those too...

And outright stating: He "likes" Vio.

Because of his strong reaction to Zelda, we can assume that he likes people depending on how others feel about them. Because the team likes Vio: So does Dark Link.

Another petal falls while he dips into Green's problems. Who's the only other one we've seen him play around with so far outside of Vio and Shadow And not even really with Shadow...

Weirdly enough Green feels empty inside because he's diet link lmfao.

I told yall I'd give him a personality.

Harbors guilt for lazing around when everyone else was doing stuff. Ouch.

He felt the need to promise Link he'd keep shit okay but he doesn't even know if he CAN.

Blue and his ptsd.

Dark continues to hug people while utterly obliterating them as people lmao.

Blue can't express his emotions arounv Vio which is a theme we'll see as we go into the comic more.

Vio looking back at Blue tho is, a thing.

To be fair to Dark's assesment of Red: red hasn't done anything in the comic yet.

Him chucking the flower the second it's not pretty anymore and, eating the petal is just funny in a morbid way.

Creepy thing: He ate the petal that "Symbolized" Red. The sweet optimistic character. Kinda just shows Dark consumes everything around him in a pit of despair lmfao. Also it's hilarious that he ate smth that he shouldn't have.

Vaati's disgusted reaction to said petal eating is very funny and Dark's monologue about HIMSELF is very telling I feel.

He thinks he's a hero, because he's saving someone. Removed from context that Vaati is a villain and the fac to "Save" Vaati he needed to hurt the REAL hero of Hyrule...

His actions are preventative at the moment: he's making so Link can't reform and the pieces can't seal Vaati back into the sword.

Dark's actions all make sense to Dark Link. XD

Nobody is cheering him, so he just blatantly says "YAY DARK LINK!!!" Which is honestly the funniest lines Dark has said purely because it shows his childish outlook on this entire situation.

He's just the hero saving Vaati.

Dark's clearly annoyed to some degree nothing he does is bringing Vaati any amount of satisfaction.

He did what he was supposed to do. The sword is drawn. Vaati is free.

Dark even mocks Vaati's impatience and his need to control someone else to do his work for him. Hitting Vaati right where it hurts with Vaati's insecurity about being a pawn.

Instantly also going for the throat with "Master Elzo and Link would be disgusted with you"

Obviously: He's talking about Minish Cap Link NOT "our" Link.

This use of their names offends Vaati to no end.

The fight scene is fun, enough said. XD

Okay fine: Ramble thoughts.

Dark manages to mauver his way into not getting properly hit.

Dark's fascination with strangling people is not missed as he does it to Vaati here.

As he repeats things he knows will hurt Vaati's feelings.

Vaati is being unreasonable and stupid in Dark's eyes so him bringing up Vaati's insecurities to make a point is just his attempt to get Vaati to listen to him.

Despite his actions seeming to go against it: He IS on Vaati's side and IS trying to "save" Vaati.

He isn't even saying/acting out of spite, he's just kinda lowkey annoyed and exasperated at Vaati at best. XD

We hit the image count so I'll pick up later.

[jinxificada]

Its okeyii jester is like a performer, similar to a clown🦝

AND YAY ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE AU, holy shit i need some arcane with this trope, MY SKIBIDI WONT STOP RIZZING FOR IT. For the angstier side of this trope, vi def almost got bitten so jinx assumed she turned to save her😓 which is like, literally ep 3 if u think ab it. Jinx def has a home like bill from tlou, i mean shes hella smart and good w guns (fingers-) and she can also make bombs! Yippie! Murder is okay now that zombies exist! Also silco is a leader of a rebellion or sumthn and took in jinx

ROMANCE SIDE BECAUSE WERE TOUCH STARVED. She lives on her own and you guys met when you were looting the same building, either she went "ur my friend now!" Took you in (and kidnapped you), or she was skeptical to trust you and you guys met a few more times, formed and alliance, and eventually she became ur main supplier. She didnt rlly needed trading w you but she liked your company so she kept you around. Eventually you guys just got closer and much more touchy and clingy (because who is jinx but clingy?) And yall got this "i call her for some cuddles and kisses but we got no label" typa thing. Would def sell you some weed/drugs bec why not i mean its the apocalypse darl' (its up to u if you want to take it)

IDK IF I SHOULD ADD A SEXY SMUT PART BUT LET ME KNOW IF I COOKED😎🙏 skibidi flushed🙏⁉️ (this is my equivalent of a bye for now)

SKIBIDI FLUSHED

ALRIGHT WHAT ELSE APART FROM SHIMMER DID U INJECT EVERYTHING SOUNDS SO GOOD????? if u dont write it asap imma go hunt you down /joking sweetly

U COOKED AND I ATE IT ALL UP do the sexy part go crazy PLEASE

wth imma do a hashtag for you im genuinely amazed

[coralgreenroses]

this world is getting sicker day by day.

first of all, yall made people feel inhumane for having black skin. like it is the scum of earth. yall made hate speech for having black skin and even went as far to kill, and then, even justified the killings.

yall started mocking the human race. black skin. yellow skin. ching chong eyes. dirt color skin.

then yall started the religion war.

islamophobia.

yall made people hate on islam, saying they did 9/11 . if you have researched enough, your government lied to you. Still not convinced? read the testimonies of the people who served. blood money. blood money for the arab oil.

and human beings with half of IQ and EQ knows the duality of humans. Good Muslims exist, bad Muslims exist. Good Christians exist, bad Christians exist. Good Jews exist, bad Jews exist.

you cannot use the character of One black man as a decoy to put a label on the whole community. You don't bomb the entire school to take out the school shooter.

then, with the added bonus of hatred for certain skin color, race , religion, they justified to you how some humans are more equal than the others.

they made you think we are all bags of meat in a butcher shop, some has a bigger price tag than others, And some just dont deserve to live, they should be slaughtered.

don't you realise how ruthless that is?

then, they started to justify to you that, killing a 'certain group of people' is okay.

genocide is okay. killing innocent people is okay. shooting someone because they are black is okay. killing someone just because they disagree with you is okay.

and if you have been brainwashed to think like this, you still have hope left.

don't you think every single one whose "death" was justified had hopes and dreams like you? a hope of peace. a hope of life. a hope to have a family to hear the laughter of their children. why are we fighting for the right to live?

wake the fuck up.

its not too late to take a stand. everytime, a genocide occurs, somehow, the world manages to keep one eye and one ear shut. pray for them. raise your voice for them.

Today it is Palestine, Congo, Sudan, or anywhere else.

Tomorrow, it could be you.

and I pray. that none of those who deny others the right to exist, ever find themself in the same scenario.

and if you do, and if you beg for help, it is still us that will raise the voice for you.

[takineko-arts]

It was a really good movie but I wasn't nuts over it. It's like we knew a good chunk of it already from conversations and comics.

S P O I L E R S

S P O I L E R S

S P O I L E R S

I'm wondering if the Bullet Farm is mostly underground? From what we see, it mostly looks like a quarry, a giant hole in the ground. But hundreds of people live there and work there. I really wanted to see more of their distinctive war boy culture, too. Or the culture of Gas Town for that matter.

I felt like Furiosa herself was a little too unemotional. I felt like Charlize was good at getting a lot across with just her eyes that Anya isn't. Sorry if this upsets anyone these are just my thoughts. What bothers me the most is how much Jack outshines her as the more interesting character. I feel like i would watch a whole movie about him. But he's just a Max proxy in a way.. So that's kind of upsetting. Furiosa has a lot of unspoken thoughts and feelings, I wish the movie could've found a way to explore them more, and explore her relationships with the wives more.

What I don't get is that she was outed as a woman imperator, and no one made a big deal out of it? In that culture, you would think she would be in constant danger, but instead, they respect her. It just feels like she'd have a much harder time to get to that untouchable level.

I liked that though Jack you can kind of see what a relationship with Max might have been like. Afraid to get too close, they kind of just nuzzle foreheads, which gives more meaning to the end of Fury Road. My heart a splode.

I really loved Octoboss and his crew, I kinda wanted to see more of them and understand the tensions they had between leaders and rank before they were killed off. But alas, how much can you cram into a 2 hour movie? The second we see why he's called Octo- he's gone though. Very sad.

I thought it was funny how casually the organic mechanic was traded off. That guy's skills should be considered invaluable, how many surgeons do you think are even around in the wasteland?

I liked that the History Man's advice wasn't actually all that good. It was no more wise than anyone else. "Make yourself something valuable." I'm paraphrasing, but it strikes my attention that he was a thing. He was telling her to make sure you're a thing that others value. In Fury Road, the big message the wives learned that they wrote all over the walls is that, "We are not things". The reason for their revolution. That people would no longer be treated like commodities, and new leadership was needed for humanity to regain its humanity.

The truth is Dementus... wasn't great... he was okay, but he never shuts up and has nothing to say. I guess to make him the opposite of Furiosa who almost never speaks, it makes sense that he's a yapper. But it got tiring, and I couldn't see why he's such a great ruler. Who would obey this guy? When he rolled up on the Citadel, they should've just dropped bombs on him until he was dead.

The part where they had a war that lasted days kind of baffles me. That is a lot of supplies you guys wouldn't have. Where's the People Eater to count the cost, how are yall affording this? Lol

Speaking of People Eater, it cracked me up when he fainted at the sight of another man having his nipples ripped off. I don't know how he plays with his nipples that much and doesn't lose sensitivity, but he needs to calm down. I am going to barf.

On that note I'm running out of things to ramble about so I'll end it here lol. Talk to me about your thoughts. I'm sorry if you found any of mine frustrating. I do love talking about this franchise though.

I can't wait to be mentally ill about Furiosa when it comes out.

[comfyswitcherblanketfort]

You Make Me Brave

i cried listening to ruin on the way home from work one night and this is what yall get lol. its a follow up to the sensate focus fic i wrote last year but can be read independently! 

Pairing: Geraskier (romantic)

Warnings: they’ve been going to couples therapy for a year or so, past broken relationship, geralt’s anxiety mentioned heavily, but he’s aware of how much progress he’s made, feeeeellliiinnngggsssss, also cant speak to clinical accuracy - im not a therapist nor have i been in couples therapy its just a thought i had

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“Sounds like you two had fun together!” Their therapist was beaming as Geralt and Jaskier told her about the couple of parties they’d gone to over the week.

Jaskier grinned and elbowed Geralt, “Even out in public!”

Geralt just sheepishly smiled. What he used to take as offensive now sounded much more like a brag gently disguised as a joke. Jaskier had even told him he was proud of him when they’d gotten home and Geralt had almost cried; he actually believed him. Every day it was getting a little easier to relax and remember they were in it together, that Geralt wasn’t just playing a part in the hopes no one would realize he’d bombed his audition and shouldn’t be there in the first place. Hell, they were even sitting closer together on their therapist’s couch. When they first started, they couldn’t sit farther away from each other, let alone look at each other while they spoke. Now their knees touched and if Geralt really wanted to he could reach out and grab Jaskier’s hand. 

It was… well it wasn’t odd, but it was new. Geralt had never felt entirely settled in any relationship, as much as he thought he was when he’d married Jaskier, but now he was getting a handle on his place. He was figuring himself out just as much as he was getting to know Jaskier again. 

“Hm, wasn’t as bad as I remembered,” he added, giving Jaskier a soft smile before turning back to their therapist. 

She smiled, flipping through her notes to the beginning of her file, “It’s been a year since you two started coming in, do you want to hear how far you’ve come?” 

Looking over at Jaskier to check, Geralt was greeted with a scrunched-up nose and a look of apprehension, “Maybe not?”

“Next time.” Geralt suggested, endeared but still a little exasperated at the way Jaskier refused to look back, even on pictures, from the year before. 

“Maybe.” Jaskier countered.

“We’ll discuss,” Geralt decided, turning back to their therapist with a nod.

“Sounds good. I’d like to try something if you two are interested. I think you’re at a good point where it could be rather helpful.” 

Geralt shrugged as Jaskier nodded excitedly. Geralt was learning his husband was much more eager to please than he’d thought, that when he knew what he could do to help he would do it in a heartbeat, sometimes to his detriment. It had riddled him with guilt for a while to realize the person he lived with and claimed to love was so kind and he’d taken advantage of it without even realizing it. 

“Let's talk about what you need from the other person. I know we’ve been doing this since day one, but I want you to put it in your words and communicate it to them. What are the two most important things for you to feel loved and okay with being vulnerable?” Geralt stared at her like a deer in the headlights, every last word he’d ever known fleeing his head as soon as she’d asked the question. Jaskier, however, was frowning the way he did when he wrote and couldn’t condense a paragraph down like he wanted to. 

“We’ll take the hour to figure it out if we need to,” she looked at Geralt for that bit with an expression Geralt had become all too familiar with, “But after, when you’re home, and only when you feel ready, maybe you can promise to be and do those things for each other. Only when you believe that you can, and really want to, follow through on those things. I don’t want you making any promises you don't intend to keep or think you can't follow through on. Deal?” 

Geralt and Jaskier glanced at each other with little nervous shrugs before Jaskier took a deep breath and sighed, “Who goes first?” 

-

That night, Geralt laid awake long after Jaskier had rolled away from him, mumbling something about being sweaty, and drifted off to sleep. The things Jaskier asked for weren’t hard… in fact, they were surprisingly simple. Part of him had worried that Jaskier hadn’t been entirely honest and was taking it easy on him- but he quickly pushed the thought aside. His husband had promised him he was being honest and their therapist didn’t call bullshit, and that was all he needed these days. 

If he thought about it, he was already doing those things, albeit not confidently. But he was trying! And it was getting easier, not exponentially (hell, not even in a nice straight line), but just like telling his anxiety off, he was starting to do some of it out of habit. He finally slipped into unconsciousness thinking of ways he could go about bringing it up without making himself cry. 

All the next day, Geralt worried himself near sick about it. Was he really ready for it like their therapist wanted? Or did he just want to be ready? Would it make Jaskier uncomfortable if he did it too soon? Before Jaskier was ready? If he cried? Given that Jaskier had told him point-blank that it is a relief when he cries, that one shouldn’t be a problem. But the anxiety seemed to be gaining momentum and he was scrambling to catch it. 

When he got home from work, Jaskier was in the living room they never really used, plunking away on the piano he hadn’t touched since he started teaching and had a baby grand in his office. The old frame creaked as Jaskier opened the top and started tuning it. Geralt watched him in silence for a little while, biting back a smile when his husband mumbled to himself and swore as he scratched his head. It almost didn’t feel real. That sweet moment of peace and the warmth that spread through Geralt was still confusing, but he’d started savoring it. Hesitantly, he’d labeled it affection, but only because he didn’t want to jinx anything. He was almost certain it was that long brewed love that he heard couples who had been together forever talking about. It was close to what he and Jaskier had felt when they got married, just all the more fulfilling knowing it was hard-won. 

Jaskier played a series of notes a few times over that sounded eerily familiar to Geralt but he couldn’t quite place it as his husband muttered to himself, “Which fucking one of you is being a bitch?”

“It's your A key,” Geralt supplied, a cheeky grin spreading on his face when Jaskier jumped and let out a shrill giggle. 

“Come here, I need your ears,” Jaskier’s voice was melodic, rising and falling just like his laughter as he scooted over and patted the bench to the left of him. 

Geralt settled in next to him, giving him a quick kiss on his cheek before settling with his hands in his lap, “How was your day?” 

“Oh ridiculous,” Jaskier rolled his eyes, pausing to press the offending A key and glancing toward Geralt. 

“Sharp. You fiddled with it too much. What was so ridiculous?”

Jaskier stood to reach in the piano and let a tiny bit of tension release on the string before sitting back down and plunking away as he spoke, “Oh one of the other professors had some sort of presentation with bonus points for dressing up and half the students were wearing feather boas! The other half were dressed like me in college, which I proved to them by showing them a picture and we wasted half a lecture but I had fun. I was going to have them do something incredibly time-consuming to fill up the hour anyway.”

“E flat needs more flat,” Geralt took his pause to tell him what he’d noticed and continued, “Which pictures did you show them?” 

The smile he got in return was absolutely brilliant as Jaskier once again reached into the piano, “The Summer Social pictures where I had blue hair and you had an undercut with the Nirvana smiley face shaved into it.”

“Mmh, and that took a half-hour?” Geralt laughed, one hand resting on Jaskier’s knee as he sat back down. 

“Oh yes! I’ve got a lot of talkers in this one. One asked me to do their undercut when I told them I’d done yours,” Jaskier snickered, leaning closer to Geralt as he began plunking that same familiar tune from before. 

As they lapsed into silence and the soft notes filled the room, Geralt felt he could almost place the song. It was almost something he should know the name of immediately, he knew for sure that he’d heard Jaskier play it before, but it was just out of his reach until Jaskier looped his arm around Geralt’s elbow and rested his head on his shoulder. All at once Geralt remembered sitting at a different, clunkier piano that had given them splinters and plunking out a song together. A simple little melody and a simpler accompanying line that Geralt could play with one hand and keep up. 

Hesitantly, Geralt rested his left hand over the keys he thought he remembered and started tapping out his line. Jaskier squeezed his arm briefly to show he noticed, but neither of them said anything until they’d finished the song out. 

The final three-note harmony seemed to ring in Geralt’s ears as his heart beat furiously, “Hey Jaskier?” he whispered, gently leaning into his husband to get his attention. 

“Yes, Geralt?” Jaskier whispered back, mimicking Geralt’s little nudge. 

“I- I promise to be patient. And I promise-” Geralt had to pause to sniff and swallow back his tears, “...to be brave for you. I love you.”

For a few horrifying seconds, Jaskier didn’t make a peep. Right when Geralt was about to risk looking over at him, Jaskier gave a horrible snotty sniffle and a little squeak as he ducked under Geralt’s arm and wrapped himself around his torso. 

Jaskier couldn’t keep the warble out of his voice as he replied, gasping through his tears, “Thank you. I’m so proud of you- I really really am.” 

As Jaskier descended into tears, Geralt felt his grip on his composure slipping. He pressed his face to the top of Jaskier’s head and inhaled, trying to keep himself together and failing as tears streaked his cheeks. A year ago he might have rolled his eyes and called Jaskier a liar, afraid to trust that he actually meant it and afraid of feeling so vulnerable. But his words were comforting now; they silenced the little monster in his head, if only for a moment.

Only a few seconds later, Jaskier untangled himself from Geralt, holding his hand and sitting back to look at him while he spoke, his voice still squeaky and unsteady, “I love you so much it’s not even fair. I promise not to hide behind my jokes. And I promise to be brave for you.” 

Geralt squeezed his eyes closed, committing everything he could about the moment to memory as he nodded, tears falling from his chin to his chest. 

He squeezed Jaskier’s hands and whispered, “Thank you,” before his first genuine sob of the night pushed its way out of his throat. They sat on the piano bench just holding each other and crying for what felt like hours. Years of fear and loneliness were finally seeping out of their home as they cried and cried and wiped their snot on their sleeves and cried some more. 

As they petered out to deep breaths and little giggles of relief, Geralt’s stomach growled. 

“Hungry?” Jaskier teased, poking Geralt’s stomach and looking up at him like the picture of innocence. 

“Apparently.”

“Post-cry-pasta sound good? Or pizza?” 

Geralt kissed Jaskeir’s forehead before digging his phone out of his pocket, “You’ll want the leftover pizza for lunch tomorrow.” 

Nodding and tapping the edge of Geralt’s phone, Jaskier chirped, “I will. Can we get bacon on this one?”

They stayed sat at the piano, playing their song and trading soft lingering kisses until the pizza arrived and fell asleep wrapped up in each other, lulled into peaceful dreams by their food comas and the comfort of each other. 

[shu-glue]

Chapter 4: Annoying

Summary: A day in your life and you think it's going to be another annoying one, but a note always brightens up your day.

A/N: this chapter is focused more on you, the reader, so we're taking a break from suna's shenanigans! thank you guys for reading this series and supporting it, it means a lot to me ♥️ as always, like, reblogs and comments are appreciated! enjoy reading!!

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[THE BOYS™]

Piss Blond [7:31pm]

okay, what about urameshi yusuke?

Local Gossiper [7:31pm]

i dont exactly vibe with him.

Piss Blond [7:32pm]

now i know youre just turning these guys down for the fun of it YUSUKE IS AN ANIME CHARACTER

Osamu Ramsay [7:32pm]

lmao

Suna rolls his eyes skywards as he lies on his bed, homework forgotten on his desk as he stares at his ceiling. His shoulder still hurts, a dull ache in his muscles that he feels when he moves his arm around. His phone buzzes with each message sent to the group chat as he reaches over to grab it.

Piss Blond [7:39pm]

also dont think i didnt notice yall changing my name to PISS BLOND you traitors

Osamu Ramsay [7:39pm]

you want it as highlighter head then

Piss Blond [7:40pm]

YOU WANT ME TO HIT YA

Osamu Ramsay [7:40pm]

YOU CAN TRY SCRUB

Braincell Holder [7:42pm]

….i guess its safe to assume theyve started fighting again

Braincell Holder [7:42pm]

suna, have ya thought of anyone who can tutor you?

Suna frowns at Ginjima's message, sighing. No, he has not. He's been thinking, contrary to what Atsumu thinks, but he hasn't been able to think of anyone to ask to tutor him.

Local Gossiper [7:45pm]

no i havent

Local Gossiper [7:45pm]

anyone you suggest?

Piss Blond [7:45pm]

weve been giving ya suggestions for hours ò_ó

Braincell Holder [7:46pm]

are you guys done fighting?

Piss Blond [7:46pm]

yeah i won

Osamu Ramsay [7:46pm]

in what universe

As the twins start to bicker over chat again, Suna rolls his eyes, tossing his phone onto his bed and lying back down, splaying his arms all over the sheets. He's exhausted from the day he just had. A bunch of Erika's 'friends' had bombed his DMs, and he just resorted to blocking them so his poor phone could take a break from all the notifications.

Suna turns his head, catching sight of your shoujo manga on his nightstand. After much inspecting, he found your name scribbled in small letters on the back of the cover so now he knows that it's definitely yours. Blase and nonchalant you. Who would've thought.

But the fact that you own a shoujo manga isn't the thing that's boggling Suna's mind, it's the fact that you had a picture of you and KITA of all people when you were kids. Did the two of you know each other? He has never seen you two spend time together or even talk at school unless it was about academics. 

Judging by the picture he saw, you two must've known each other since you were kids.

Local Gossiper [7:58pm]

hey. does kita have any friends

Braincell Holder [7:58pm]

thats such a way to ask… of course he does

Local Gossiper [7:58pm]

no i mean like. friends he hangs out with outside of school.

Local Gossiper [7:59pm]

or like. a secret girlfriend.

Piss Blond [7:59pm]

wow, you live up to your name

Local Gossiper [7:59pm]

@Piss Blond you do too

Local Gossiper [7:59pm]

anyway

Local Gossiper [7:59pm]

answer the question pls

Osamu Ramsay [7:59pm]

not really??? we dont exactly keep tabs on what kita does in his free time out of school 

Piss Blond [7:59pm]

and if he had a secret girlfriend, we wouldnt know

Local Gossiper [8:00pm]

oh

So no one knows about you and Kita… aside from Suna…

The 'bingo!' moment has made itself known as Suna thumbs at the manga now on his lap, eyeing the polaroid picture seated carefully between the middle pages.

Local Gossiper [8:01pm]

another question: how do you think will high and mighty react to blackmail

Braincell Holder [8:01pm]

wh

Braincell Holder [8:01pm]

who?

Braincell Holder [8:05pm]

suna???

The first thought you had waking up in the morning was how one of these days, you're really going to throw your alarm clock at the wall. Alas, you decide to just slam on the nefarious object, stopping its incessant ringing. It's annoying.

Groaning, you slowly sit up on your bed, blinking to get used to the light in your room. The sunlight is so annoying.

Your body is aching a bit, and you rub your shoulder to ease the pain. Dammit. Why did you have to be so careless yesterday? First, you practically crashed into Suna Rintarou from 2-1 and right after, realized you lost your copy of 'Love-Hate Relationship with my No-Good, Very Annoying Roommate'.

You were so happy yesterday, too, after Kita asked you (well, your club but he came to you) to make posters for the volleyball club for fundraising. You wanted to do your best for him, so when you informed your president about the favor (to which he didn't even bat an eyelash, much to your expectation and annoyance), you immediately worked on the drafts so you and your friends can start taking reference pictures today.

Now you have an aching shoulder (plus head, did you hit your head yesterday?), a lost manga, and a sour taste in your mouth.

Your alarm clock starts to ring again and you slam your fist onto it, stopping the ringing once again. You groan, rubbing your face as you get out of bed and trudge towards the bathroom. You go about your daily routine; take a shower, brush your teeth, scowl at the dark bags underneath your eyes, put on your uniform. Your movements are sluggish, due to lack of sleep.

You spent the whole night flipping your room inside out looking for your manga. You're going to cry. You even tucked your favorite photo of you and Kita in between the pages. Stupid, stupid, stupid. What if you never find it again?

Sighing dejectedly, you grab your bag and walk out of your room, closing the door quietly behind you. It would be a shame to break the strong silence in your house. As you walk down the hallway, you pass by your parents' bedroom, pausing.

She should still be asleep at this time. And she'll have a massive headache when she wakes up.

Pursing your lips, you silently open the door to your parents' bedroom, blinking to grow accustomed to the darkness inside it. There's a distinctive stench in the room, one you've grown to be familiar with for all the years you've been alive. You sigh. She's at it again.

You have memorized your parents' bedroom like the palm of your hand by now, walking over to the curtains to pull them back, avoiding anything that could make you trip in the process. Once you do, light finally shines in the room, bathing everything in color again.

And you finally see the mess that is your parents' room. The sheets are haphazard, part of it even lying on the floor now. Beer cans and red wine bottles litter the wooden floor and you nudge a can away, a grimace on your face. Honestly, if she was going to do this again, she could have prepared a trash can to dispose of everything as well. Look, there are even cans and bottles on the bed.

And your mother is lying among the cans and bottles and haphazard duvets.

This is so annoying.

You feel your fists clench but you close your eyes and repeat the word "relax" ten times before you open them again, turning on your heel and walking down the stairs. 

You slip into the kitchen and open the fridge, taking out a bottle from your mother’s stock of Korean pear juice and some oranges. You peel the oranges and cut them into slices, putting them in a small bowl before taking out a pack of crackers and a bag of nuts out of the cardboard, placing all of them on a tray. You unscrew the cap on the bottle of Korean pear juice and pour the contents in a tall glass, placing it on the tray as well as some ibuprofen.

You pick up the tray and walk back upstairs back to your parents’ room. Your mother was still asleep, a beer can pressed up against her cheek while she’s none the wiser. You press your lips into a tight line and walk into the room, stepping over trash and cigarette butts, to place the tray on her nightstand. You gently remove the can from her face, tight frown still on your face.

At this, your mother stirs, unfocused eyes blinking open and gathering her bearings for a couple of seconds. She slowly sits up, rubbing her eyes as she groans from the piercing headache. You hand her the ibuprofen. “Here.” You say, and your mother blinks at you once, twice, through her haze and she smiles brightly at you.

“Good morning, sweetie!” She chirps despite her state, accepting the ibuprofen from you. “Thank you, what time is it?”

You check your phone, pursing your lips. “6:30. How are ya feelin’?”

“Oh, my head is pounding!” Your mother complains, whining. “And I feel like I wanna puke.”

“Don’t puke on me.” You quickly say, scrunching your nose at the thought. “And maybe you should stop drinking so much. Yer liver’s gonna give out and yer stinking up the place.”

Your mother opens her mouth, about to say something, and closes it. Instead, she sighs, nodding slowly. “Yer probably right. I’ll try to cut back just for ya!” She says to you, giving you an apologetic smile and you frown, furrowing your eyebrows.

“Ya always say that.” You grumble, averting your gaze away. “But ya never do.”

She goes silent, her eyes finally clearing up as she takes your words in. Her expression softens into a sad smile as her gaze falls downcast to her lap. You would have thought she looked ashamed. “Well, it’s a miracle I’m still alive!” She suddenly replies, going back to being bright and you give her a cold gaze. “Anyway, come have a bite, honey! You haven’t had breakfast yet, have ya?”

“How’d ya know that?” You ask, deadpan.

“It's a motherly instinct, ya know!”

She’s always like this. So talkative, and happy, and full of energy, and she’d fall into a deep depression where she’d drink all day, maybe all night if she doesn’t pass out fast enough. When she’d wake up, she’d have a hangover so bad she couldn’t get out of bed, and she’d be happy and acting like a mother again.

She always does it. You’re used to it.

And like every time, you don’t kick up a fuss and decide to just humor her, taking a drink of the Korean pear juice. It’s sweet and thick and kind of disgusting. Maybe it’s in your head (or maybe it’s the brand).

“You can have the rest of it. I’ll just eat on the way to school.” You hand the glass back to her with a grimace. She smiles sadly as you turn to leave.

“Yer a good child, honey.” Your mother says. “I don’t know how I’d live without ya.”

You pause, looking at your mother with cold eyes. She stares at you contemplating, swirling the pear juice in the cup. “Ya have yer papa’s eyes.” She blurts out, in her own little world once again, uncaring of the people outside of it. “Yer so like him. So like yer father. How he’d love you.”

At her words, your body freezes, staring at your mother with hard eyes. You don’t say anything.

She snaps out of it again and sighs, nodding her head. “I said something wrong again, didn’t I?” She laments, frowning.

You quickly avert your gaze, gritting your teeth. “Ya always do.” You say. “I’m going to school. Jus’ order delivery when ya get hungry.” Without waiting for her response, you exit the room and run out of the house. Your mother stares after you, her face sullen, and she looks at the mess in the room.

“Maybe I should clean up.”

You walk down the street, fingers gripping the strap of your bookbag. The birds are chirping, the sun is shining brightly (at this hour?), and people are already out and about doing their own thing. How annoying. You make a quick trip to the convenience store to buy yourself some melon bread. Convenience store food isn’t normally that good, but your rumbling stomach doesn’t really care where the food is coming from as long as it makes it to your digestive system.

A shame that your favorite bakery is closed for renovations.

You say thank the cashier as you pay for your melon bread and you exit the convenience store, immediately chowing down on the piece of bread as you walk towards the bus stop. It’s so good, you’re almost tempted to go back and buy a second one.

You arrive at the bus stop on time and wait for the bus to arrive, chewing on your almost finished melon bread in the meantime as you look around. You see a small dog standing by the edge of the sidewalk. It’s beside its owner who’s talking to somebody on her phone and it’s looking at you with its big ole’ eyes. When it barks at you, you narrow your eyes at it and it seems that that small action was enough to send it whimpering and hiding behind its owner.

The woman pauses, side-eyeing you and mumbling under her breath before going back to talking on the phone. You side-eye her back.

You finish eating your melon bread just as the bus arrives, discarding the wrapper in the trash bin before getting on. Just your luck, all the seats are occupied, rendering you unable to sit down. Figures.

Earphones in their rightful place, you hang onto the handlebars as you try to ignore everyone else around you. The ride to your stop wasn’t that eventful, aside from a baby staring at you with its unnerving big eyes (you stared back at it), and the bus slowly rolls to a stop nearby Inarizaki. A lot of people bump into you while getting off the bus, which irritates you even more. Relax, ten times, deep breath.

At least no one bumps into you on your way to the school gates, the look on your face is enough to make them jump away from your path. Very convenient.

You arrive at the school gates with time to spare, your hands stuffed into the pockets of your blazer jacket, when you hear a chirp voice from behind you. “Senpai!”

You turn around and nearly grunt when you’re almost tackled with a tight hug, looking down to see the smaller stature of Nana, who’s grinning up at you. “Good morning!” She greets, loosening her hold on you a bit.

You blink and allow a small smile on your face, patting your head. “Good morning, Nana.” You greet back. Nana’s normally brash and rude (she was to you when you first met) but she does an entire 180 when it comes to you. It’s like a younger sister looking at her older sibling.

The two of you start to walk to the school building. “Look, look!” She says, grabbing her Canon EOS, and going through the pictures, grinning widely. “I was walkin’ towards the convenince store, yeah? Because my Ma wanted ta make some maki sushi rolls but we didn't have any seaweed wrapper cuz' she forgot, anyway—"

You listen with rapt attention as Nana shows you around a dozen pictures of a ladybug on a weed growing from a crack on the sidewalk, the setting sun serving as the backlight of the photos. "—and then a bunch'a twats were walkin' by and ruinin' my shot and of course, I had ta give 'em a piece o' my mind, so I did jus' that! But then, the ladybug flew away!" She laments, shaking her camera and you gently take it from her, looking through the photos.

You nod as you look at each one. "These photos are beautiful, Nana. I don't see any problem with 'em, the layout's good, the lighting's just right. I didn't expect less from ya." You say, smiling as you hand her back her camera.

Nana practically beams at you. If she was a puppy, her tail would be wagging behind her frantically. 'I can almost see the puppy ears…' You think as you look at her. 

When the both of you arrive at the shoe lockers, you see Ryuji putting away his shoes. He notices the two of you and smiles, waving. "Good morning—!" He greets but is cut off by Nana.

"Ryuji! Gimme back my manga, ya ass!!!" Nana yells at him, doing a 180 once again as she stomps up to the tall third year. You follow behind her, giving Ryuji a small wave and a 'good morning'.

Ryuji glares at her. "A good morning woulda been great, Nana. And use honorifics when ya talk to me, I'm your senior!" He says, pointing at her.

"I can talk how I want, especially ta someone who's been hogging all my manga volumes and not givin' em back!" Nana retorts, pointing back at him.

"Please be quiet." You say to the both of them, voice icy, and they immediately stop, standing straight with a meek 'right!'.

Nana makes an ‘ah’ sound and turns to you, eyebrows raised. “Speaking of manga, senpai, did ya find the manga you were lookin’ fer yesterday?” She asks you and you stop, robotically turning your head to look at her for one, two seconds, before you turn back to your locker and—with a loud bang—hit your forehead against the metal.

“No…” You lament, and you're sort of glad that there were no students around to see your embarrassing plight. As you remember practically turning your room inside out last night looking for that recent volume of Love-Hate, you feel like crying. No, you are going to cry.

"Woah! Don't cry over it now, come here." Ryuji says, patting your head as he tries to comfort you.

"I mean, it's just a comic, senpai, ain't anythin' important…" Nana says, voice flat.

Ryuji snaps his head to glare at her. "Don't say that right now!" 

"Well, I'm right…"

"Ya threatened ta punch me over yer manga!"

"No, I didn't!"

"Not verbally!"

"It's not just the manga…" You say, rubbing your temple as you try to get rid of the growing headache. "I put my favorite picture of myself and my friend in between the pages… and now it's gone."

Nana and Ryuji glance at each other, lips pursed into tight frowns. "There's nothin' ta ba guilty about, I'm sure ya can find the picture." Ryuji reassures you, patting your shoulder. "And if ya don't, you can always take more with your friend."

You look up at him, eyes blinking, and you nod, muttering a 'thanks'. "Sure, if it's Ryuji, it's 'oh he's so kind', 'he's so caring', but if it's me, it's 'Nana, don't be rude' 'Nana, stop that'." Nana deadpans but slings an arm around your shoulder nonetheless. "Buuut, ta add to Ryuji's statement, I'll always be available ta take the pictures myself!"

You blink at both of them, fiddling with your uniform, before you hug them both, sighing. "Thanks, ya really ground me." You say, pulling away from them.

As the two of them talk and bicker behind you, you open your locker, about to reach in to take your slippers. But something flutters out of the shoe locker, much to your surprise. Glancing behind you, you check if Nana and Ryuji are paying attention.

Seeing as they're busy bickering about Nana's manga again, you pick up the piece of paper and peek at the contents.

The familiarity of the handwriting makes your stomach flutter, and it takes everything within you to keep from blushing on the spot. It's embarrassing, how such a short, simple note from him can elicit such a reaction from you.

'Come meet me. School rooftop.'

Insider Pursuit! Asagao Pharmaceutical Inc.

Founded in 2001, the company is now owned by the Asagao Group, spearheaded under the direction of the group's second son and his wife, retired actress who had lead roles in "Maiden of the Moon", "My Heart Still Remains in Tokyo", and "Petrichor". The couple's eldest daughter, Miki, oldest of three, is set to be the heiress of Asagao Group and will inherit Asagao Pharmaceutical Inc. in the near future.

[meltwonu]

| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 |     [CHAPTER 19]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, powerbottom!seungcheol, brat!seungcheol, dom!reader, restraints(handcuffs), sex toys, dirty talk, degradation, dumbificiation, spitplay, yall the way i be using DDD like i’m guy fieri in this bitch ☠️ dkjfhdskh Also, merry christmas if you celebrate it!! Happy holidays!! Be safe, enjoy your day~💕 I’d say this is my gift to yall but I update every friday, I just so happen to be uploading on christmas LOL Although, Cherry Bomb has been a gift to write 🥺!! One more chapter after this, I can’t believe it... But also first chapter of DD next week 😳 Hehe~ as always, inbox roundup this weekend! Enjoy ch 19 and have a great weekend everyone!! ❤️🍒💕

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“Hyung… Are you… Okay?”

Seungcheol drops the set of skates in his hold; eye twitching when he turns to face both Seokmin and Jeongguk who stare back at him with a concerned gaze. “You haven’t moved from this spot in the last 15 minutes, Jeongguk was starting to get worried… And honestly, me too. You look like you’ve seen a ghost. Or three.”

“I, uh, yeah, I’m good.” Seungcheol laughs it off, shaking his head and letting out a deep breath he didn’t realize he was holding in. “It’s just… Well, I don’t wanna spoil anything but I’m just nervous for tonight.” He bites his bottom lip, remembering when you’d posted the notice to your homepage that basically sealed in the plans you had for him and really, what he had in store for you too.

The two younger males share a look, eyebrows raised. “Whatever’s got you this nervous must be good ‘cause you literally just zoned out and turned into a mannequin for 15 minutes. It was weird!” Jeongguk laughs; half in nervousness for Seungcheol and half in amusement. “Me and Seokmin snapped a few pics too. For posterity.”

Seungcheol rolls his eyes before he picks up the pair of skates again, “Okay, okay, enough with the teasing. Get back to work before Namjoon-hyung sees us all over here!”

“We could say the same to you!”

“Interesting setup…” Seungcheol mutters, eyes glossing over the vibrator, pink fuzzy handcuffs, and cockring that are neatly lined up on the bed. “Should I be concerned that this looks a little too normal?”

You laugh under your breath as you readjust your bra strap one last time before easing onto the bed yourself; patting the spot next to you. “Nah, trust me, it’s not gonna be that crazy. Now c’mere, we only have 10 minutes ‘til we need to start and you’re just standing there fidgeting like we’re about to fuck for the first time ever.”

“Damn, we should’ve done a show with a corruption kink or something.”

“Hey, it’s never too late!”

artist8hao: this looks relatively normal considering the notice

kitty_junjun has donated $75

gc__koo: yea… and considering how i found hyung earlier

alphagyu97: ???

alphagyu97: wdym

gc__koo: mans was a statue 

xcaliburDK: yea it was weird, it was like he was possessed 

sleepy_wonu: wait u work with him too??

therealchan99: wait is that why u almost quit?

xcaliburDK: can we not talk about me right now thank u

universe_WZ has donated $75

angelhan has donated $100

artist8hao has donated $50

“Well! Aren’t you all a lively bunch tonight!” You giggle softly, wrapping an arm around one of Seungcheol’s as he tenses up under your touch. “Seungcheol’s so tense tonight! Can we get some words of encouragement for him before we start~”

gc__koo: ayyyy my man its gonna be ok

hoshi_tiger_xx: think of it this way, any of us would pay to be in your position rn

tangerine_kwan: l i t e r a l l y

chwenon: its not like ur getting pegged 

chwenon: right

Seungcheol’s cheeks bloom a bright pink, wide eyes meeting yours as you laugh loudly. “Wait, is that what the vibrator is for ‘cause I--”

“No, no, no! Seungcheol’s not getting pegged tonight, okay?” Grinning, you ease off the bed and make your way towards the nightstand as Seungcheol watches you from behind.

You grab the item, smiling as you hide it from Seungcheol’s view for a little while longer.

“See, when we, really just I, decided to do this back to back camshow for the last time, I really wanted to try something new, y’know? But nothing too far out there ‘cause I didn’t wanna push our boundaries too much.” You move your hand, flashing the object in front of Seungcheol’s face as he raises an eyebrow.

“A gopro?”

Nodding, you show it to the camera, “Mmhmm~ The quality is gonna go down a bit but I think it’ll be okay! It’ll be worth it~” You set it down next to the array of toys, winking at the camera before settling in next to Seungcheol again.

You lean into his side, grabbing his arm and putting it on your inner thigh as you moan. “Thought that they’d like a new view of us, y’know? Instead of just the static view that we usually have. Now you can film me riding your cock and get a good view of it for the camera~” Seungcheol smirks as he drags his hand up your thigh; fingertips grazing against your panties as you mewl.

“So that’s the game you wanna play tonight, huh, baby? You wanna film each other up close and personal for everyone to see?”

He can feel his cock twitch in his sweats, already eager to see where this went.

“Well…” You bite the inside of your cheek, face hot as you pry his hand off of you. “Actually, I want you up by the headboard while I set up this gopro. Think you can shimmy up there, ‘Cheol?”

The male nods slowly, shuffling towards the headboard as you turn to the camera. “The stream’s probably gonna cut out for a sec while I set this up but please be patient with me, okay?” Winking, you quickly set up the gopro before cutting out the stream to fiddle with the settings and changing it so that the stream was coming from the gopro instead.

“Ah, good! It works!” You make sure everyone can see you from the smaller device before you’re rejoining Seungcheol on the bed; eyes twinkling with mischief as you hand the gopro to him before reaching for the toys you’d laid out.

chwenon: im rly curious about this

universe_WZ: i know, same

alphagyu97: fuck the angles we’re about to get with this for future shows tho

hoshi_tiger_xx: oh hell yeah

Seungcheol holds onto the gopro, making sure to film you as you hold the vibrator in your hand. “Let’s start with this first, huh?” You don’t waste a second before you’re turning the toy on and pressing it against his clothed cock.

“Oh, s-shit!” He almost loses his grip on the small camera when his body threatens to double over at the vibrations that quickly have shivers running up his spine. “Oh fuck, that’s---that’s so s-strong!” Seungcheol’s hips cant up, grinding against the vibrations when he realizes how good it actually feels.

“Strong? It’s only the lowest setting, baby. Is your cock that sensitive?” You smile; voice laced with a teasing lilt and the pieces start to fall for Seungcheol when you seem to spit his own words back at him.

“That’s h-how it’s gonna be, huh?” He grits out, jaw clenched when you raise the setting to the second highest. “F-fuck, you---”

“What? We’re playing like I wanna tonight, right, ‘Cheollie?” Licking your lips, you lean in close to the camera before your lust filled eyes meet his.

“And tonight, you’re just my dumb little fucktoy that I get to play with, aren’t you?”

Seungcheol tugs against the fuzzy pink handcuffs that keep him bound to the headboard; gritting his teeth when you turn off the toy for the third time.

“Ah, ah, ah, don’t move around too much, Seungcheol. Dumb little fucktoys should be good and stay still, right?”

“Right.” Muttering, he watches as you bring the camera closer to his cock again, filming the vibrator that you tap against the cock head; both covered in precum.

“Your cock is already so hard~ God you’re so fuckin’ easy~” You squirm a little from where you straddle his thighs; already wanting to sit on his cock but also knowing you still wanted to play with him a little longer while you had him underneath you.

angelhan: goddamn she’s so fucking hot when shes the dom???

therealchan99: the way i would pay her to choke me and spit in my mouth

alphagyu97: she could put me on a leash and i’d bark without question

You turn on the toy again, pressing it against his cock as he groans and thrusts his hips up. “Ah! We should use the last toy, before you end up cumming without my permission.” Seungcheol lets out a choked sob at the way you sound so cheery, eyes looking up towards the ceiling while you set the vibrator down in favor of the cockring.

Wrapping a hand around his cock, you work you hand up and down as you smear the precum down his shaft. “Hmm~ Bet you’d cum right now if I just sucked you off, huh?”

“Dunno, why don’t you sink your pretty ‘lil mouth down on me and find out?” He snarkily replies.

You shoot him an angelic smile; one that makes him realize he really shouldn’t have said anything when you hurriedly ease the cockring down until it sits at the base of his cock. Grabbing the vibrator again, you turn it onto its highest setting before bringing it back to his cock and holding it parallel to his shaft. “You’re so mouthy~ You should really be careful with that~”

Seungcheol lets out a sharp, shaky breath; eyes wider than saucers when he feels his abdomen tightening and the pleasure rapidly building up in his body. “W-wait, but---but, ah, h-hold on, it--it feels like I’m g-gonna cum!” He tugs against his restraints as his entire body squirms and thrashes against the bed at the sensations that flood his body.

“Ah, you really are so fuckin’ easy for me, Seungcheol~”

A weird feeling washes over Seungcheol when he feels his cock twitching; mouth open in stuttered breaths as his eyebrows furrow. It felt like an orgasm, but at this point, he can’t even tell. “Wh--what?” He lets out a drawn out groan, throwing his head back against the pillows just as you shut the toy off and toss it to the side.

“I think you just experienced your first dry orgasm, huh? Not so fun being on the other side, is it? Being played with~” You laugh teasingly, readjusting yourself until you’re grinding down onto his cock. instead. “Mmh, I’m gonna use your cock and I’m gonna make myself cum and you can’t do anything about it~ Just my own personal fucktoy watching me get off~”

You take the gopro and set it down right on Seungcheol’s chest, “Don’t move, or else.” He nods once shakily, watching as you lift yourself up and position his cock right at your soaking entrance. 

The two of you share a moan once you finally start to sink down onto his cock but Seungcheol knows he won’t actually be able to cum anytime soon.

chwenon: they rly said VIEWS on this one

gc__koo: honestly, i aint even tryna get off i just like watching knowing hyung is lowkey suffering

gc__koo has donated $100

gc__koo: its like a reward

kitty_junjun: he’ll be lucky if he even gets to cum again lbr

sleepy_wonu: oh how the tables have turned huh?

sleepy_wonu has donated $100

tangerine_kwan: wait but…

tangerine_kwan: if today was her idea and tomorrow is his…

chwenon: uh oh

artist8hao: oh i didnt even think about that

artist8hao has donated $100

artist8hao: for the aftercare funds  

kitty_junjun: dont be too hard on her!!

kitty_junjun: also breakfast on me when ur not too tired

You start bouncing in his lap, loud moans on your lips when his cock curves perfectly into your g-spot.

“Oh, fuh--fuck, your cock is so g-good! Fuckin’ hits me so, hah, d-deep!”

Seungcheol can’t do anything but grit his teeth and let you alternate between bouncing on his lap and swiveling your hips atop his own; jaw clenched tight. “Y-yeah? Your so-called sex toy fucks you g-good? I don’t even have to, ah, do anything, all I have to do is lay here and you’d cum, huh?” He smirks up at you, convincing himself he’s one-upped you when you pout and halt your movements.

He lets out a soft groan when you clench around him and you’re quick to grab the gopro still sitting on his chest before turning the camera towards him.

“Such a bold mouth you’ve got. But don’t forget, you’re the one handcuffed to the bed and you’ve got a cockring on, baby~ I can give you more dry orgasms if you’d like?” You lick your lips, “Be a good little fucktoy and open your mouth for me.”

Seungcheol narrows his eyes before obeying, lips parting hesitantly. “Now, stick your tongue out.” You turn the camera and hold it from the side; filming yourself as you let a glob of spit fall from your lips, directly onto Seungcheol’s waiting tongue.

A shiver runs up his spine when he draws his tongue back in to swallow the saliva, hazy eyes staring back up at you when he parts his lips to show you that he’s swallowed it all down.

“See? You can be so obedient. You just choose to be a brat.”

“Where’s the fun if I make it easy for you? And it’s cute watching you trying to dom me when we both know how much you like being under me.”

You resume your movements, swiveling your hips as you set the gopro back down onto his chest. “Ah, all the things I could do to you right now, ‘Cheol~ We should do this again so I can try some wax play on you… Or, hah, m-maybe even ice play? Since your body is so fuckin’ sensitive. Bet you’d be so fuckin’ cute cumming over and over and whining when the overstimulation starts to bite~”

It only takes a second for Seungcheol to mentally say ‘screw it’ before he uses all his strength to plant his feet down onto the bed and start thrusting up into you. Your body jerks on top of him, surprised noises spilling from your lips at the strength he exerts in his frustration.

“My body’s sensitive? You take one look at me and your panties are fuckin’ soaked.” Seungcheol scoffs, watching as you grab the gopro and set it to the side before it topples off of him. “I might be your dumb little fucktoy today but you’re mine too. My dumb ‘lil cocksleeve that only knows how to beg me for cock. Your pussy was made for me, baby. Don’t forget that.”

The pleasure builds inside your body as you meet his thrusts and for a second, you contemplate taking off the handcuffs and the cockring, but instead deciding to keep them on. Unless he begged.

“Fuck, S--Seungcheol, ‘m g-gonna cum~” You reach down, fingertips on your clit as you hurry to throw yourself over the edge of an orgasm. “That’s right, cum on my cock like the desperate ‘lil cock hungry girl you are.” He growls in frustration; wanting to cum but knowing he wouldn’t be able to unless you took the cockring off.

“Oh god, Seungcheol!”

Your walls flutter around his cock and he lets out a garbled moan at how good you feel when you cum; exhaling harshly at the frustration of not being able to cum with you. “That’s right, bet it feels good with my cock inside your tight ‘lil cunt, huh?”

He halts his movements just as you opt to grind down on him, fingertips still rubbing and pinching at your clit as you ride out your high. “Mmh, bet you wanna cum too, don’t you, ‘Cheol? Wanna, ngh, fill my p-pussy up with your cum like you always do~ But do you even deserve it? Or should I leave you here and let you cool down?”

alphagyu97: the energy we’ve created in the studio tonight

xcaliburDK: i know, holy shit

angelhan: i feel like i'm actually scared for this man im ngl

alphagyu97: if she lets u cum ur a lucky man

You let out a sultry moan; body filled with warmth as the last bits of your orgasm wash over you. “You’ve been so mouthy and bratty but I wanna feel you cum too, so I’ll be nice tonight~”

Smart move, he thinks.

Raising yourself off of his cock, you let out a whimper at the emptiness you feel; pussy clenching around emptiness as you settle back down onto his thighs that are slick with your wetness. “Mmh… On second thought… Why don’t you beg a little? Lemme hear how much you wanna cum~”

He feels his cock twitch and realizes you won’t make this any easier. “Fuck, okay, p-please.... Please take the cockring off so I can cum… I--I wanna cum inside your pretty ‘lil cunt, fuck, I don’t even care if you just jerk me off just---just please take it off! I’ll t-take it easy on you tomorrow, I s-swear!” Seungcheol almost accidentally spoils his ideas for his planned camshow and he quickly bites his bottom lip before he accidentally says too much.

“That was weak but it’s okay. Dumb fucktoys don’t need to think much, do they? Only good for being used like a toy~”  You pout mockingly at him before you’re easing the cockring off of him and Seungcheol lets out a guttural moan when you immediately wrap a hand around his cock and start jerking him off.

“You weren’t very nice with your words tonight so you’ll cum with just my hand.”

“Fu--fuck, that’s fine, just let m-me cum, please!”  You work your hand up and down his shaft, giggling when you already feel his cock throbbing in your hand when you run your hand from the base to the tip.

“Cum for me, Seungcheol~”

He lets out a small whine, eyes clamped shut when he finally cums and for the first time in his life, he feels himself momentarily black out with how hard his orgasm hits him. Ropes of cum hit his chest as you work him through it, alternating the tightness of your grip on his cock as he whines and moans in return.

“Ah, you’re cumming so much this time~ You’re making such a mess!” You tease.

Seungcheol can barely hear a word you say through the ringing in his ears once his orgasm starts to ebb away and he feels himself slump against the bed as he catches his breath.

His chest rises and falls in deep breaths and he feels you leaning over him to undo the handcuffs; tired sighs on his lips as he tries to focus on you through bleary eyes. He can feel his entire body twitching and he swears his arms have. gone numb from being handcuffed to the headboard. “You’re gonna get it tomorrow, I swear…” He mutters, no real threat to his tired words. 

“Hey, you said you were gonna take it easy on me tomorrow!”

“Yeah, well...” 

tangerine_kwan: yo im excited to see the sequel to this

gc__koo: i have some… ideas

gc__koo: things r falling into place

gc__koo: my brain is expanding

hoshi_tiger_xx: i feel like its gonna be intense lol

xcaliburDK: knowing hyung…

xcaliburDK has donated $100

xcaliburDK: if u call into work on monday i wont even question it

“Here, you need to drink this, ‘Cheol!”

The said male groans as he tugs a pillow into his arms, already on the brink of sleeping when you finally end your camshow. “But ‘m tired…” He whines. “Can’t we just go to bed and clean up in the morning? The cum on my chest is already dried, it won’t get on the sheets.” You roll your eyes in return, sitting next to him on the bed.  

“Oh, so now you’re being a big baby? I’m just trying to get you to drink some water and we need to get you at least a little cleaned up for bed. You can’t go to bed like this, y’know. And anyway, we need to be in top condition for tomorrow show too. We gotta get cleaned up and eat a little something.” You laugh under your breath, shaking your head as he only whines harder. 

“C’mon, I always do it for you, right?”

He nods only once before he’s sitting up tiredly; a shaky hand reaching for the glass of water you hold out to him. You immediately take notice of the slight redness around his wrists, pouting as you help him finish the glass before setting it down onto the nightstand.

“Your wrists got so red from the handcuffs, ‘Cheol… You should’ve said something if it hurt, I would’ve taken them off…”

Seungcheol grins at you, eyes unfocused with sleepiness. “Who said it hurt? I didn’t even feel that in comparison to that horrible dry orgasm you made me experience. God, it was like… Like when you have a dream but it feels real until you try to grab for something and realize you can’t?”

The two of you share a laugh as you help Seungcheol off of the bed so that the two of you could properly get cleaned up before he flopped back down onto the sheets.

“Yeah? Trust me, that wasn't even the worst I could’ve done! You’re lucky I took it easy for my first time!”  

[roachemoji]

04 05

OKAY IM GONNA DO MY BEST TO PAY CLOSE ASS ATTENTION TO THIS EPISDOE BECAUSE ITS THE NINA PROJECT AND IK ITS IMPORTANT TO CERTAIN PEOPLE WHO I ENJOY V MUCH SO THIS IS FOR U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FORGOT MY MAN WAS SHOT WE'RE STARTING OFF SO FUCKING STRONG!!!! KING WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN NO HOSPITAL THOUGH JUST CHOOSING TO DIE???? I MEAN IDK AKSHDAKSJDHAKSJHD idk im gonna be real there is nothing in this world i would sacrifice myself for i would not die for shit i am so scared of death absolutely fucking not taKE me to the hospital PLEASE thank u

ksjhfksjhf heres a PHONE N UMBER CALL THEM AKJSDHAKSJDHAKSJHD OH . DAMN. RIP. SORRY </3

ARGYLEEEEEE IM SO SORRY AKJHDKASJHDSAKJH ABSOLUTELY ZOOMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASKDJHSKFJH THIS IS SO INTSENSE I LOVE THE PACE I LOVE IT SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!

YALL JUST. DESTROYING PEOPLE'S FUCKING LIVES AND ROOMS AND FOR WHAT? uglies.

If that man didnt want to go to the hospital i feel like the other dude would rather die than tell you that info im ngl ?

SORR Y we just foced ARgle to go off road so that we could ALSO go off road <33 LOVE when they do the most obvious cut away things

GIRL NOT THE DOOR IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE HELLO ????? THATS NOT FUCKING CONSPICUOUS AT ALL AKSDJHAKSJDH

one time when i was going to buy mushrooms with a friend we drove past a cornfield that had a random red door just standing inthe middle of it. it wasnt there onthe drive back

theres no bomb here at all (except now) (you)

IS THAT. IS THAT. NO NO NO NON ON UGLY UGLY THROWS UP THROW S UP PUKES AND RAGES AND FIGHTS AND KILLS AND DESTROYS. DONT. DONT DO THIS TO HER

STOP EW EW EW EW EW GOD.

I THINK YOU NEED MY HELP- DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

FUCK hes so uncomfortable. OUGHHHAHDSHASDHJKHKJ goDDDDD EW. FUCK FUCK I KNOW theres. so.... MUCH. JUST... NO NO NO NO OOUADSKAHF GOD I hate how he holds her so much im AUGHHHH

You're home now what if i exploded you

oh the RAGE im about to feel in this episode - ALSO WHY IS IT ALWAYS SHORT HAIRED WOMEN WHO ARE OUT TO LIKE HARM EL WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT ALMOST EVERY WOMAN WHOSE LIKE BETRAYED HER OR HARMED HER IN SOME WAY HAS HAD SHORT HAIR!!!!!!! never the same colour but ALWAYS SHORT

FORGOT HOPPER FAILED TO ESCAPE AND IS ALSO BALD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly UNWARRENTED!!!!!!!!!! Enzo didn't want this :(

YURIIII AKJDHKAJSHDAKSHKJH i mean king,,,, i get it ya know moral,,,, things.... or whatever. BUT DAMN KING

GIRL AKJHDKASJH oh its. AKSJDHAKSJHDKAJSDH EDDIE I FOGOT ABOUT HIM TOO. everyone is EEPYING!!!!!!!!

TED SHUT UP AND DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DUSTIN i love YOU <3333 scare the children

OHHH YEAH BABEY WE'RE GOING TO VICTOR'S HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh god did they shave her head AGAIN BABY GIRL PLEASE oh hh akhdasjdh oh ,,,,, fuCKing trauma holy shit the DRAWING WITHTHE RAINBOW SHUT UP OH I,,,, AHHHHHH SHE DESERVES. BETTE THAN THIS IM GONNA EXPLODE SOMEONE . is this ? LIKE a recreation of the lab ???? or a flashback????

or like a dream?? bc she can hear the other kids???????

henry !!!!!!!!!! THERE HE IS. OH OKAY. YEAH. JUST MAKE THE LIGHTS DO THAT ITS COOL. OH THE? ITS REPEATING OK !!!!!! TIME LOOP SHIT IM SO SORRY GIRL. OH THE MIRROR TOO GOD THATS.

OKAY ITS A COMA/DREAM GOTCHA

EXPLODES BRENNER KILLS HIM KILLS HIM STABS HIM KICKS HIM KILLS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRO HELLO ?????? YEA JUST. DIG A GRAVE BURY A MAN. I GUESS THIS IS JUST NORMAL TO EVERYONE AND I LOVE HOW THEY'RE ALL SO CALM EXCEPT THERES ALWAYS ONE GUY LOSING HIS FUCKING MIND

I LOVE YOU ARGYLE

YEAH. OKAY. YEAH!!! YEAH. OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY!!! JESUS. FUCKING. AKSJDHSKAJH THE FACES HELLO?? GOD HES SO GOOD AT PORTRAYING WILL WITH THE SMALLEST FACIAL EXPRESSIONS ALONE

do you ever project?

BRO TH ELITTLE FUCKING GLANCE AWAY FROM MIKE? DAMN. AKSJDHAKJHD OKAY.

ARGYLE MY BELOVED!!!!!!

THE PEN IS LIKE THE SWORD FROM PERCY JACKSON ITS A WEAPON BABEY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THE WEAPON IS A PHONE NUMBER

THAT FUCKING RUSSIAN'S EYE BROW ARCH GIRL DAMN OKAY!!!!!

the american is depressed and bald sorry :(

WHY ARE WE TALKING ABOUT THE HORRORS OF CHEMICAL EXPOSURES GENERATIONS DOWN THE LINE !!!!!!!!! SORRY HOPPER. SORRY YOU DECIDED TO HAVE A BABY EVEN THO U KNEW THE RISKS AND DIDN'T EXPRESS THAT TO UR WIFE SO U WERE BOTH MENTALLY AND FINANCIALLY PREPARED TO HELP YOUR DAUGHTER IN THE EVENT SHE WAS DISABLED ???????? EVERYONE I LOVE I HURT - SIR ITS CALLED TALKING ABOUT THINGS LMAO I WASNT CURSED I AM THE CURSE THIS ISTHE MOST MAN THING IVE HEARD HIM SO BRO ITS CALLED COMMUNICATING 🗞️💥

SEE ITS THE SHORT HAIRED WOMAN AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS UP WITH THAT!!! WHY R WE PORTRAYING WOMAN AS EVIL IF THEY HAVE SHORT HAIR ADKJASHKDJHDJS

The fucking!!!! WHITE ASS ARCHIE MOTHER FUCKER !!!!!! OUGH I HATE HIM SO MUCH HE STRESSES ME OUT LIKE DAMN

OH here we AREEE love the shoddily boarded up windows and shit frOM THE OUTSIDE?

ROSES ARE IMPORTANT RIGHT LIKE I SAW THAT A FEW TIMES IN SOMEONES POSTS (@aemiron-main icant remmber who i feel like it was you aksd) SO I FEEL LIKETHE SMASHING OF THE WINDOW MEANS SOMETHING ????

DUSTING KAJSHDJKASHDLKAJSHLDSAKJHLKJH STEVE !!!! YOU'RE NOT A CHILD. THEIR DYNAMIC MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME

OH ITS THE FUCKING CLOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok but what time did the clock stop at??? is that Integral idk my ass has NEVER been good at reading clocks i lOVE dyscalcula (numbers dracla- THE COUNT)

MURRY YOURE A FAKE BLACK BELT !!!!! my uncle is a black belt and he taught me how to round house kick properly when i was like 10 and then kicked him directly in the balls

goD THE MUSIC. is so!!! dissorienting they did a FANTASTIC job AKSDHASKJ

KJSFHKSDJFKSDFJ I KNOW ITS LIKE HER YOUNGER BUT IT LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE SHE GOT FUCKING SHRUNK

BRO ARE YOU TRYING TO INDUCE HER TO FUCKING KILL EVERYONE AGAIN ??????????? ARE YOU TRYING TO FUCKING GET HER TO. BRO ??? YEA YEAH RELIVE ONE OF THE MOST TRAUMATIZING EVENTS OF YOUR LIFE.

okay yeah i get it thats a borzoi

GOD i hate this. Uncomfortable as hell.

SORRY THATS NOT REMOTELY CLOSE TO THE NUMBER THAT WAS FUCKING JUST READ OUT ???????????

SUZIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMETHING SOMETHING THEM SHOWING UP IN SUITS AND BLOND MOTHER FUCKER LOOKING LIKE BRENNER AND THEYRE GOING TO BEAT THE SHIT OUF OF EDDIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ive read like a fic or two before ever watching this and the way that Eddie is portrayed in them is SO ????? Maybe its b c im only like 5 eps into season 4 but this man is a COWARD (granted he's literally being hunted rn but STILL thats a WIMP)

OHHHHHH SPIDERSSSSSSSSSS didHenry keep them??? as pets???? the autism

LUCAS AND MAX MAKE ME WANNA EXPLODE (positive)

Ohhhh hhhh hHHHDFHKDSFKJFHD LIGHTBULBS OR WAHTEVER WHY WOULD U TOUCH IT. ???

OH THE CANDY BIT IS HERE NOW. ITS FUCKING SALT WATER TAFFY ???????????? yall sound like th egod damn gulls from nemo.

AKSJDHASDHKJASDH HE LLO OH MY GOD YEAH JUST. THEYRE MAKING FUN OF YOU IDIOT THEYRE CALLING YOU A LOSER THEY THINK YOURE WEEK - EXPLODE EXPLDEO DONE TOUCH HER GOD I 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

o hhhHH adsaKJHkaJDHSKAH sorry i couldnt light the bulb but i did accidentally explode everyone :( v💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

SORRY AGAIN ACTUALLY GIRL THATS SO. WHAT DID YOU DO ??? SHOWED THEM YOU WEREN'T WEAK BUT ALSO THIS IS TRAUMATIZING AND IM SORRY GIRL

BRENNER LISTEN TO HIM HE FUCKING CARES ABOIUT HER as much as a man in this situation can tbh buT STILL does he know what Brenner's done to her/the other kids?

MURRY ASKDHJKFJDHSKFJH ???????? YOURE ABOUT TO GET FUCKNG SHOT KING. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

GIRLIE YOU CANT JUST SHOOT THE WINDOWOW KJHDSAKASDKJASDKSDJHJHDAS GOD ARIEL COMBAT OR WHATEVER HOT DAMN !!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERES NO WAY THIS PLANE ISN'T CRASHING AND YALL AREN'T GONNA FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY MURRAY THAT WAS COOL NOW FLIE THE FUCKING PLANE FLY THE FUCKING PLAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

🫡 to my king and queen in da sky !!!!!!!!! RIP

ARE THEY FISH PEOPLE WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY SWIMMING SO DAMN FAST WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO !!!!!!! KASJHKSJFHKSJDFH DAMN EDDIE ROW BETTER????

why r we coming together to ?? tell spooky stories ????? yall are standing where my mANS GETS LINKED UP LIKE A FREAK

oh MAN MAN IS ABOUT TO FUCKING GET IT !!!!!!!!!!! bYE RE EW EW EW EW EW YEAH SEE NOW YOU GET TO WATCH OUR FRIEND ABSOLUTELY GET IT JUST LIKE YOUR GF AND I KNOW FOR A FACT YOURE GONNA BLAME FUCKING EDDIT FOR THAT ??????? LIKE OOUGHGH ITS SOMETHING FUCKING SATANIC

YEA YEA YEA YEA YEA GET HIS ASS BABY GIRL EXPLODE THEIR ASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS ISNT HOW YOU WANTED TO GET YOUR POWERS BACK, UNDER FUCKING EXTREME DURRESS AND ANGER BUT THATS WHAT YOUR SISTER TOLD YOU TO DO !!!!!!!!

explode papa

tumblr explode papa

tubmlr delte papa

kil l

he put the napkin down ???? and then there was suddenly no blood??? ight as el says she doesnt understand??? and he says i do???????? is he REAL I want h im to explode and die

i HATED this episode (positive)

every episode so far has ended with something instrumental which is what happened in prior seasons when the UD and the "real world" were like intertwined so idk !!!!!!!! what that means!!!!!!!!!! but ig ill find out!!!!!!!!!!!!

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theres NO realistic way in hell some kid was chucking that shit every damn day and making it !!!!!!!!! bro would have smacked someone in the fucking FACE by now!!!!!

starting off with a freak ass routine gotcha gotcha gotcha !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aGAGGLE OF BALD CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been. 4 minutes and im already so uncomfortable with how they hold the kids hands to lead them around lmao

Brenner cant draw for SHIT girl if that was me id tell him i dont know bc its fucking UGLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH. HES RIGHT.

GOD hes. i hate hate hate hate hate hate his fucking face it makes me so uncomfortable.

GIRL HELLO !!!!!!!!! DAMN LMAO

EXPLODES THEM EXPLODESTHEM EXPLODES THEM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the TONE shift from the last season is really getting to me girlie like that last one didnt feel REAL and this one feels VERY present. even with the rainbow visuals in the room?

OUGHH GOD HES SO UNCOMFORTABLE.

HIS EXPRESSIONS ARE SO ???? HIS GASP SEEING A DEAD KID??? IDK HOW TO PLACE IT.

damn girlie what did you do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EL'S !!!! FUCKING AUTISM ACCENT? LOVE HER. LOVE HER.

ARGYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GODIM SO EXCITED TO MEET HIM !!!!!

I CANT PUT INTO WORDSS HOW MUCH I LOVE THE TONE SHIFT AND THEM BEING OLDER AND EL'S LETTER TO MIKE BEING !!!! SO.

THEYRE ALL SO BIG NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KAREN LOOKS SO CUTE AND TED? KILLS HIM.

SUZZIIEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND DUSTIN <3333333 THEYRE SO CUTE

STEVE AND ROBIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEOOPLE WHO LIKE BOOBIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK ING STE VE. BI MEN AND THEIR LESBIAN BESTIES ???

MAX IS NOT BEATING THE TRANS MASC ALLEGATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT NOW NOT EVER NOT IN MY HEART

UCAS LOOK SO FU CKING GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIS HAIIRRRRRR

WHO TH FUCK IS THIS ARCHIE LOOKING WHITE MAN ?????

THEIR PANTS ARE TEAR AWAY ? I GUESS THOSE HAVE A FUCKING USE .... WHEN IT COMES TO SPORTS ? BUT STILL KAJDSHKJHADS IM FU CKING KAJHDKJAHSD. THEY DIDNT DIE SO WE WOULD LOOSE AT BASKETBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHUT UP

Lucas is making a good ass point butalso im so sorry he doesnt wanna be a loser nerd freak anymore :pensive:

the fu cCKING RUSSIANS LAKJSHDAKSJHDKJ HDAMN GIRLIE HOLY SHIT BE CAREFUL ? EW. EW? WHOSE THE LITTLE WHITE WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH ELL BABY YOU GOT THIS. YOU GOT THIS!!!! GO AUTISM GIRLIE!!!!!!!!

IM GONNA KILL. EVERYONE IN THAT ROOM. !! PLEASE LET HER JUST. OUGHHGH GODD. WILL TEARING UP TOO. FUCKING EXPLODE HER!!!!!! EXPLODE THAT FUCKING. BITCH HOLY SHIT ?

WILL IS.

MAX ?? QUEER WHATS WITH THE... GREEN SCRUNCHIE?? THAT THE OTHER GIRLIES HAVE

LUCAS approaching Max who... is the only one who is like ? LOUDLY suffering with shit after watching Billy die and be traumatized vs the core group not NOT being traumatized but handling it VERY DIFFERENTLY ? like they always "bounced back" and Max isn't

o h JESUS WHAT THE FUCK HELLO ?????? bro aksjdhkasjhakhkKJHDFKJSDHFKJH DAMN I WOULD NOT HAVE LEFT THAT BATHROOM HELLO WHAT THE FUCK

Eddie doesnt SOUND like i thought he would ???? AKDHAKDJH i forgot about the hanky code my mans wearing

dustiinnNNSFNKJKSJH DUSTIN. AKJSDH!!!!!! MIKE'S FACE.

Eddie's vibe is. AKHASKDJASHD like my ex boyfriend from highschool

MURRYYYY !!! MISSED HIM. LOVE HIM. RIP ALEXEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she has nIPPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGYLE AKSJHDKASJH!!!!!!!!!! MOPEY DICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NANCY LOOKS SO CUTE!!!

ARGYLE CALLING HIM A FUCKING GOOD BOY KJHSDKAHADSKJHADSKJH YELLING

im sorry literally N OON wants to play DnD you just have to find the gay people !!!!!!!!!!!!!! (40 years from now)

Out h ere being Mentally ill in da Woods as you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what gay ass drugs are we selling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh hes DRAMATIC fucking theater kid. that man's NOT STRAIGHT !!!! and also defenitely has ADHD. chewing on his fucking HAIR !!! stimming i see u !!

EL BABY GIRL IM SO SORRY I WAN T TO EXPLODE THE WORLD FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO KILL FOR HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOY SHIT . MAKE THEM PISS THEIR PANTS GIRL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OO OoOOO H BABAKJSHD I FORGOT HER POW ERS ARENT ,,, WO RK ING,,, ABY IM,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, THIS IS FUCKING PAINFUL.

tHE focus not having been on Will the entire time except for a snippet here and there is REALLY NICE ACTUALLY likE!!! IDK BUT IT IS. TTHAT MANS FIGURING OUT HES QUEER TOO

MURRY JADKASLASKLJSADKJ !!!! MY MAN ABSOLUTEL LOSING HIS MIND

sTEVE IM AKSDJHS SORRY GIRLIE LMAOOOOOO fuc kinggGGGG TAMMMYYYYY AKSDJAKDHAKJSDHKAJSHD ROBINNN GIRLIEE IM SO FUCKING SORRRYY. JDKLKJDLKJFDSJLKDF I WA NNA FUCKING.

ERICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BABY GIRL IS BACKKKK YEAHHHH FUCKING LOVE HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HER HAIIIRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT WAIT FOR HER TO DESTROY EDDIE

DESTROY HIM DESTROY HIM DESTROY HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the fucking mountain dew cansssss his DM set up is so good

I JUST LOVE HOW DND IS USED AS FORESHADOWING BABEY !!!

Dusstin and Erica working together like THIS IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH. love u lady applejack <33333

FUCKING GET IT ERICA!!!! LUCAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASSSEEEEEEEEE

YYYEAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i thOUGHT he was tlking to like a lizard and not a guitar AKSJD

IS Chrissy just experiencing like a psychotic break ?? delusions??? I cant tell if its like. ACTUALLY happening to her or something to do with the UD ? Dissociative seizures????? DISSOCIATIVE SEIZURES AND THE UD ?????

FEEL LIKE ALL THE SPIDER VISUALS AND SHIT ARE IMPORTANT AND I JUST DONT KNOW HOW YET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH IS THIS VECNA ? SIR !! YOURE. WET :/

BRO HELLO WHAT

KING WHAT DOES THAT M EAN

ASDASKJHD KASHDKASJH SORRY TO EDDIE WHO THOUGH YEAHHH A FRIEND :3c

GIRL WAHT THE FUCK EXORCIST SHIT HOLY HSHKJASJK LSHAJKHAD HE RE YEB ALLS!!!!!!!!! BROOOO AKSJDHKASHDKASHD

yeah so season 3 was. liike. different and now ? we're back at it!!!! we're back at it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSRRIGH alright

ending with a half song again no lyrics inchresting

[antebellumite]

ok ok so civil war alternate history books be like:

abe lincoln always gets impeached if he lives through his assasination

if that doesn't happen, then he gets turned into a vegetable and uhhh *checks notes*... and WILLIAM SEWARD STARTS ANOTHER TRAIL OF TEARS??? FOR SLAVEHOLDERS AND THEIR FAMILIES- OKAY THEN??

somehow newt gingrich wrote the most historically accurate version of what if lee won the battle of gettysburg

hey harry turtledove, no offense, southern victory is a fascinating series but a. what the fuck and b. what the FUCK??

every confederacy wins scenerio is so fucking funny in the long run ngl tho

for some reasons only racists have time machines and they all want to give the south ak 47s but NO ONE thinks of doing this for the union??

that one with slavery in the modern day in the "Core Four" states is pretty good?

the one with the premise of what if the underground railroad was a REAL RAILROAD is REALLY good?

Bring on the Jubilee oh dear GOD my fucking DETESTED

unrelated but there's a story out there where aaron burr establishes a dictatorship in america by aligning with napoleon after defeating tj and um. yeah.

also a story where franklin is the first president.

and ANOTHER story where andrew jackson is elected in 1824 as president and somehow invents BIOLOGICAL AND CHEMICAL WARFARE??? OH MY GOD???

and if andrew jackson isn't elected, then davy crockett is and this somehow ends up with a civil war occuring over the compromise of 1850, which, fair. could have happened. was a reasonable concern.

"How the South Preserved the Union" is actually so fucking interesting? it starts with zack taylor and millard fillmore dying and ends with the NORTH seceding with john brown as commander of the army and daniel webster as president? stephen douglas signs the civil rights act of 1861? the war lasts 2 yrs? JUST 2 yrs?

"now falls the cold, cold night" has millard fillmore elected the fifteenth president in 1856 after james buchanan dies of a stroke, causing the north to secede ( something about fillmore just FORCES the north to want to leave the union, huh? ) and john c fremont becomes president of the new england confederacy while william tecumseh sherman becomes commanding general, opposed by robert e lee...

.... well at least it wasn't john brown this time?

"Lincoln's Charge" is just... I can't do it justice okay. I CAN'T DO LINCOLN'S CHARGE JUSTICE ON HERE! BUT GUYS READ IT! OR JUST LOOK AT IT'S SUMMARY

there's a universe where we have our first female president in the 1870s! and frederick douglass becomes vp!

AND IT'S TOLD THROUGH A SERIES OF LETTERS TO QUEEN VICTORIA!

samuel tilden deserved better aus.

( unrelated but adolf hitler keeps getting involved in this series and its so weird. he gets lured to washington dc in one story and ends up getting killed by a bomb there. )

( also unrelated but "demarche to iran" is cool. )

BUT GUYS READ THIS!

" Michael Dukakis is elected president in 1988, but is revealed to be an alien attempting to infiltrate Dulce Base. The Men in Black, along with friendly aliens, therefore rewrite history in order for George H. W. Bush to win the 1988 election instead, resulting in our timeline."

oh and walter mondale causes a civil war with mexico btw thought yall should know.

[nylwnder]

GUYS IM BACK AND I FINISHED WATCHING ALL OR NOTHING WITH MY CUZ LAST NIGHT.

i’m def like not okay, but tbh when am i okay with these guys?? 😭😭😭

i was straight on vibing between 1-3, then in 4 i knew what was gonna happen and what the last episode would hold. in 5, like we legit had to stop to just mentally prepare!!! it broke me ngl.

just some stuff i wanted to say, random things i was thinking, etc :

THE FACT THE WILLY WAS HALF NAKED THE WHOLE FUCKISJH TIME

NO NO THE AMOUNT OF THIGHS I SAW OMF PLSSSSS. I WAS DEAD WHEEZING WITH MY COUSIN 💀💀

FELIX! PABLO! ZEUS! AND MUZZY’S DOG!!! ICONS!!!

UGH I LOVED RELIVING ALL THE SEXY GOALS

ALL THE INJURIES AND ALL THE BEHIND THE SCENE TREATMENTS WHETHER ITS IMMEDIATELY OR DAYS, WEEKS, GAMES LATER. LIKE I HOPE ALL THE INSENSITIVE ASS PPL KNOW THESE GUYS ARE HUMAN. PLS PLS PLS DONT HATE THEM FOR BEING SLOW OR SHIT. LIKE THEY ARE TIRED AND IN PAIN. THIS SHIT ISNT EASY.

SPEZZ!!!!!! THATS MY DAD <3<3<3<3<3 i was living every time he was on the screen

OMG YALL DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WANTED TO CRY EVERY TIME FREDDIE WOULD COME ON. AND LIKE SEEING HIM IN HOODIES AND COMFY CLOTHES 🥺🥺🥺 NO BUT HES SO QUIET AND SOFT I JUS WANTED TO CUDDLE SIR

zachary martin hyman, why would you hurt me like this. why??????????? 💔💔💔💔💔

DID I SEE FOLGINO’S ASS????? serious question……. didn’t need it💀✋ (it was when he was getting treatment)

bogo crying about his grandma….. 😢

kyle dubas pls be my therapist. he’s just so calming.

WHERE IS MY KERFY CONTENT???? OR TJ????? BITCH I BARLEY GOT ANY

jt n aryne n jace n axton,,,, they’re so cute omg!!!!

nah i had to legit mentally prepare cause i knew jt’s accident was going to show. i just had to keep telling myself he’s alright now 😭😭 so everytime he smiled i was so happy

the stuff they were telling him tho, sobs omf that must have been horrible

I DEAD ASS LAUGHED WHEN THEY STARTED TO PLAY ‘BUSS IT’ CAUSE ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS MY JT FANCAM WITH THAY SONG (it’s on @tmlvibez on instagram!!!!!)

OMG WHEN WILLY AND SANDY AND ALEX WENT TO DRIVE THOSE CARS,,,, THAT WAS REAL SEXC I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO DO THAT WITH THEM 😩😩 it’s just the way willy holds the wheel idk bajssjaosiiakakdjk

SOME MORE THIGHS THIGHS THIGHS

the ✨f bombs✨

but chief keefes yelling! i know i would prob do the same but if that man would yell at me i would cry.

THE SINGING!!!!! AND WHEN THEY PLAYED SINCE U BEEN GONE I LAUGHED 💀💀

i wanna be the hair stylist so i too can get all the secrets ✨✨✨

WHEN JT CAME BACK, JUMBO AND WILLY SLAPPING HIS ASS AND JT IS UNBOTHERED!!!! ICONIC. 😌✋

JACK BAWLING AT THE FUCKING END. I WAS DEAD ASS BROKEN. I NEVER WANT TO SEE THAT AGAIN OMG I HATE IT. I HÂTE IT. I HTAE IT.

AND THEN ALL THE OTHER BOYS SOBBING LIKE SHUT UP STOP

and SPEZZ!! SPEZZY, DAD, U DONT DESERVE THIS!!!!!!!!!

anyways, i loved this!!!! i just wanted to see all the inside of their world and i think it delivered cause we def have new insight!! but do would’ve loved some more hangouts of the boys!

10/10 duh!!!!!! 💙🤍 (acc maybe a 9/10 but, idk i love whatever they give me 😩)

[shu-sakamaki]

I wanted to share some domestic/gentle Shuu Sakamaki headcanons because the world need softness (and admin like headcanons nobody can stop me Ú-Ù) Those headcanons are when Shuu is in a relationship with his S/O and he is happy

- Shuu loves art, not like "art is for certain people" type of bs, Shuu like all types of art, cinema, paintings, music, dance, everything. And I feel like he have all those apps on his phone that gives him notifications when there is a new exhibit or a new restaurant that just opened and he always check up on it to take his girlfriend somewhere. It's like "hey did you see that there is a two-months exhibit about Ancient Egypt ? We should go see it." or "I saw that a new Indian restaurant opened, do you want to eat Indian food ?" He also like well-done video games with nice storyline and beautiful visuals or indie psychological films. #shuuisaarthoe

- Matching pyjama set matching pyjama set !! This one is inspired from @nutaella-kookie 's blog where she have a "things that Shuu might be into" article and she wrote about pj pants on girls which made think that blondie would love to match pyjamas with you and buy really comfy satin sets for both of you OR buy one pj set and you will wear the top part and he'll wear the pants.

- He also looooooves skincare ! Not necessarily the really long layering skincare routine but the facemasks and the face facecreams with a soft scent, him and you are putting on your sheet masks and taking a bunch of silly pictures together or trying the new snacks that you bought the day before.

- Talking about snacks and food, I'm sure that Shuu cooks really well, (he's like Barbie, he can do everything) even simple meals like pasta he made it taste like something expensive, its like HOW ?? What is he putting in the food ? Also if you're trying to cook something and you fail it's okay, he will probably taste it or eat it anyways or gobble it down just like he ate Kanato's jelly-

- Shuu likes to put on soft music in the morning and wake his girlfriend up with kisses on her neck and cheeks before lifting her up and gently putting her on the couch when she have to wake up to go to work or school. "Love, did you sleep well ? I'm going to make you some coffee..."

- Late nights convo with him are the BOMB, I don't know what yall are talking about, but yall be talking till the sun rises. Also, none of you really says goodnight because you are falling asleep in the middle of a conversation.

- When you have the impulse of adopting an animal, Shuu is not really the type to calm you down, in fact, he may be worse. You can be like "Omg I want a baby goat" and he'll answer by "They're so cute" and both of you are already in a conversation about names then two hours later Shuu come back "Well, maybe it's not a good idea, we live in a flat...we need a house...and a garden, or else the goat won't be happy."

- Watching movies or shows with him is the best thing ever because he can be like "This is stupid" but keep watching to see where it goes (example : he's watching Twilight) or if he's interested he gives the most interesting theories ever and you two can talk for HOURS about what is going to happen next. And if you are watching an episode without him he will appear on the dark little space of the room like "How dare you 🧍🏼‍♂️" and will fake being hurt.

- Shuu is good at imitations, to you moaning when he was having sex with you last night, to the weird man that you saw on the tram.

- Now I know that Shuu is a Sadistic fuck and really cruel and mean, but something about him gives me "gentle giant" type of vibes and I think that he's the dude who regularly gives money to homeless people and humanitarian societies, especially the ones that help starving children.

- On the subject of children, Shuu have the FACE that attracts little kids, like those bright wide eyes are the ones that the babies are looking at in the line during groceries shopping and Shuu is sometimes making silly faces to make them laugh. Or if he sees an alone children who's lost and crying he will slightly look at them, just to check that nothing happens or even ask where are their parents.

- Shuu hates public transport, crowded places where strangers are squeezed together, he hates it with his whole chest. One time a dude was checking you out and smirked and blondie was going mental on the little wagon, you had to calm him down and tell that there are people, when you walked out, Shuu shoulder-checked the dude and was hoping to see him fall on the dirty floor.

- If your legs hurt or you are tired of walking when you are outside, he makes you jump on his back (his arched back yum) or he lift you up in bridal style without a care in the world, yes, even if you are in the middle of the city with dozens of people.

- Shuu is the clingy type and especially when you are outside he want to maintain physical contact so he's holding your hand most of the time and I feel like he has the habits of rubbing your hand with his thumbs or absent-mindedly kissing the back of it and you just look at him like "🥺🥺"

- Also about him clingy in public, he is also the boyfriend who put his head on the top of your head or your shoulder, holding you by the waist or give you soft pecks on the lips by pressing your cheeks together with one hand and kissing you.

- Shuu kinda gives the best advice regarding fashion, I think that he knows a lot about color coordination so he is able to give you the best advice in regards of clothing or makeup that you should pick when you are shopping together.

Now, I probably got carried away so I'm going to stop there and wish everyone to have a wonderful day and to be happy, if you are in a tough situation remember that it will get better I promise, whoever you are, you are deserving of happiness and worthy of love and you are all beauties and I say we should drown Shuu in our gorgeousness. 😃🤗

((This.... *CHEF KISS*. Soft.

[anonil88]

Kick iiii by Arca (my live listen/react)

I already know going into the album it is way way way more ambient and instrumental hefty. I am completely okay with that as I listen to a lot of classical and deep techno that sounds like you're sitting in the den at a rave.

So here we go.

👯‍♀️💃🕺👯‍♂️

Whoresong: I love all of the vocal filters she has at her disposal, but when I logged onto the first stream with her sis was talking through the filter for a solid 15 and I though I was going insane. But that being said I love it more in her music than when she's talking about her cat. I love that simple piano progression/sample in the background. I could see it being used in like a hiphop song. Ooo the zapper effect on the audio and voice at the end is great. The lyrics kinda empowering kinda sad.

Esuna: take me on a fairy train ride.

Xenomorphgirl: Queen mother, the alien one, would probably love this. Very ethereal and light, her pitched vocals with the slight glitch how how good.

Queer: A great Segway from xenomorphgirl and a fitting single for this project. Which so far there's only been one single for this project and thats probably deliberate. Closing my eyes and vibing to this one, "Tears of shower in the night time, like magic."

Witch: I love this No Bra's voice and the way it works so well with the piano even before it starts to go through post vocal filters.

Hija: 😍😍😍 slow and not dark but also not light in terms of emotion. Or maybe its just a mix of both of those emotions. I want to sit at a bench in front of a very green turf where you can see mountains or a highway in the distance and listen to this song and contemplate. Maybe just maybe I want to film something that looks like that with this song playing in the background. The one note being sung in the background adding another layer is brava. I can't understand the words being said so ill have to look up the lyrics later but the way they sound is so good for the music it adds a tinge of haunt (Spanish and distortion takes my basic Spanish skills and tosses them.) It's too fucking short or more so it goes by too quickly, I want more.

Boquifloja: 90s-00s grunge mixed with some Mazzy Star vocal runs. Arca said don't yall limit me I can produce whatever genre I want to....omg can her and Kid Cudi make a track together. Her run libs and his hums making up a beat together, please. 🙏🧎‍♂️ ugh her laugh after stopping playing the piano, yea girl.

Alien inside: my ears are ascending to a God tier level. WAIT GARBAGE SHIRLEY MANSON, yessss this makes sense bring in the rock influences.

Altar: Anyone who doesn't like this album would hate James Blake and to that I say, their loss. This song gives me heavy "I never learnt to share" vibes. James and Arca would be another bomb ass collab because they both make music from different spaces literally and still sound so full. Arca really is flexing her production versatility with all of these kicks and its highly appreciated. Too often an artist is placed in a box unallowing them to grow and it can be from a label and from fans. These projects in this anthology show she can do so much more than electronic alt pop or electronic hiphop. She refuses to downplay that range, her queerness, her transness, her "vulgarity", for anyone not even her fans even though she's curious what we think.

Lost Woman Found: This makes me feels things like "is it cold in the water" makes me feels things. Its distorted like you're listening to it and passing through a mountain tunnel so it drops in one ear at moments and comes back slightly distorted. There's audio thats in one ear and not the other and some thats in both but it isn't overwhelming. These effects layered with a robust droning sound that travels in both ears and around just makes it so so full. But, it doesn't loose the ethereal sound that has been throughout the project so far. There's also a heartbeat snuck into the beat as well. So much emotion in the words "I'm looking for a miracle to cast down my fears." The lyrics are so good even though there aren't many they last the entire song. Its seeing yourself for who you really are like a euphoric way and telling others they can too achieve this feeling of self ascending/discovery.

Paw: I've heard this is really good but I'm trying to go into it without expectations. The lyrics are good but halfway through that rolling effect with a delay on the production is 😭👏🏾. Someone put me on a raft in the middle of a big ass pool and let me just listen to this song. 2nd half of the song just vibrates and stays in your ears.

Wow.

My favorites from this project are : lost woman found, hija, boquifloja, and alien inside.

Um my ranking of kicks so far (still have to listen to 5):

Kick iii, kick iiii, kick ii, kick i

And this in no ways means they aren't all great, I saw someone say each album just appeals to a different style that each of listeners in general, her fans, and herself really loves to hear. And that was really smart, also dropping all 4 to finish up the series/anthology is so smart. Its a lot like her releasing @@@@@ all together like one long dj set instead of singles or sections, but in a different format. This KicK project also feels a lot more put together in terms of a concept like @@@@@ is great for long time fans its not something to just jump into, but these projects new fans and random people can kind of find a volume and flip through it to find something they absolutely love or hate. There's also love letters to her communities in the music she makes. Whether that is making a classic reggaeton song in her own style or a song she's very explicitly said in a Twitter or IG post, is for trans feminine people or queer people.