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The Night Shift (Pt. 8)
Life has never been fair. You know that better than most. It��s a truth that clung to you like a second skin, suffocating and inescapable. You used to think about it a lot as a child, lying awake in bed, staring at a cracked ceiling that never seemed to get fixed. It wasnât fair when you got third place in the science fair, despite the sleepless nights spent perfecting your baking soda volcano. You can still feel the heat of frustration rising to your cheeks when the judges smiled that polite, disinterested smile, their eyes skimming over your work like it wasnât worth a second glance. They didnât even wait for the "eruption."
And then there were the birthdays. The other kids got balloons and cake, their homes filled with laughter and the warm glow of candles. You got cold training rooms and grueling exercises. You can still feel the ache in your muscles, the sting of bruises on your skin as you stumbled through yet another drill.
âItâs for your future,â theyâd say, though no one ever explained what that future would look like. At some point, you stopped asking. Stopped hoping.
Fairness, you realized, was a privilege reserved for other people. The ones who didnât live under the weight of unspoken expectations. The ones who werenât told to endure and obey, to carry the weight of a destiny they didnât choose. You learned early that no one was going to fight for you, so you had to fight for yourselfâor at least survive long enough to figure out how.
Maybe, somewhere in another life, another version of you is blowing out candles on a birthday cake, her biggest worry whether sheâll get a bicycle or a dollhouse.
But the first time you realized how unfair life could beâreally, truly unfairâyou were only eight. Mrs. Carter was at the front of the room, talking about metaphors, or maybe similes. You werenât paying much attention, staring out the window like usual.
Then she collapsed.
You can still hear the sound of her body hitting the floor, the awful thud of it. At first, you thought sheâd tripped. But then you saw her faceâtwisted, pale, her hand clutching her chest like she was trying to keep something inside from breaking free.
The room exploded into chaos. Desks screeched as kids shoved their chairs back. Someone screamed. A few bolted for the door. You just sat there, frozen, watching. It felt like the air had been sucked out of the room, and all we could hear was her gaspingâsharp, shallow, desperate.
You remember thinking, someone has to help her. But no one moved. Not really. They were too scared, too shocked. And then the thought came again, louder this time. I have to help her.
Before you knew what you were doing, you were at her side. Knees hitting the floor hard enough to bruise, but no pain erupted. Or at least, you didnât feel it. You couldn't feel anything except the pounding of your heart. You remember touching her arm, hands shaking so badly you werenât sure you could keep them still. Her lips were moving, but you couldnât hear what she was saying.
Then it happened.
As your skin touched hers, a sudden warmth surged through your chest, spreading like fire down your arms. A golden light began to spiral around you, vivid and alive, wrapping the two of you in its glow. Then, just like that, the panic and pain vanished. She went still, her breathing steadying as if a switch had been flipped.
What am I doing? Is this me?
Your eyes widen in awe and disbelief as her veins shimmered beneath her skin, glowing like threads of molten gold. The luminous trails weaving their way from the arm you were holding, disappearing under her sleeves and tracing an unseen path beneath her shirt to somewhere deeper within her body.
The rest is a blur. The door slammed open, teachers rushed in with everyone talking at once. Eventually, someone touches your arm, their grip firm but not unkind. You barely register the murmurs of reassurance as they guide you to your feet. Your legs move mechanically, as your head turns, eyes fixed on Mrs. Carter as they lift her onto a stretcher.
âLittle lady,â a man with grey hair says, leaning down towards you. âI think youâve got a bright future ahead of you.â
"Are you listening?"
The voice jolts you, snapping your attention back to the sterile room. Your eyes locking onto the source of the voiceâa man in a white coat standing at the foot of your bed. Your abrupt movement causes him jump as well, nearly dropping his clipboard, which in turn knocks against a nurse's tray of IV medication. She scowls, steadying it with a sharp glare.
"I-" you croak, your voice raw as if youâve swallowed shards of glass. You reach out instinctively, your trembling fingers brushing against the nurse's forearm. She pauses, then gently clasps your hand in hers.
"I needâŚ" you rasp, the words catching in your throat.
âWhat is it?â the nurse asks, her tone softening despite the irritation that had lined her features a moment ago.
Your body lurches forward suddenly, a violent gag ripping through you. The nurse reacts swiftly, sliding a plastic tray under your chin just in time, but nothing comes up. Dry heaves rack your body, each one making your head throb harder, the pounding in your skull relentless.
âI need some Zofran,â you manage to plead between gasps, your body sagging back against the bed. Another dry retch claws its way up, leaving your stomach aching and hollow.
Dr. Kento Moriâs calm voice cuts through. âI already ordered it,â he says, stepping closer before turning to the nurse with a nod. âGo ahead and administer it.â
The nurseâKumiko, if you remember correctlyâgives your hand a gentle, reassuring squeeze before releasing it, busying herself with the IV line. Meanwhile, Dr. Mori pulls up a chair on the other side of the bed, his expression unreadable. Dozens of monitors surround you, their soft beeps counting out your pulse, your breathing, the rhythm of your existence.
âHow are you feeling?â he asks gently, his large, callused hand resting on your arm. Your brow furrows. How are you feeling? Everything achesâyour head, your throat, your stomachâbut itâs the stabbing pain in your chest that feels the worst.
âWhat happened?â you whisper. The question hangs in the air, as your mind races to fill in the gaps. Was I hurt?
Kento leans forward, clasping his hands together. "You collapsed during your shift," he begins, his eyes meeting yours. "Another visitor in the hospital found you unresponsive in the south hallway."
âIâŚâ You try to form a coherent thought, but your mind spirals. How could I let this happen?
"Youâve been pushing yourself too hard," Dr. Mori continues, as if he could read your mind. âYour body couldnât take it anymore. Itâs not just exhaustionâitâs dehydration, malnutrition, and stress. Youâre burning out.â
His words feel like accusations, even though you know they arenât. You stare at the ceiling, your chest tightening. Iâm supposed to be better than this. Stronger than this.
But lying here, tethered to machines and monitors, you canât ignore the truth. Your body betrayed you, or maybe you betrayed it.
âWhen can I get back to work?â you ask, the words tumbling out before you can stop them. They feel hollow, wrong somehow, but theyâre all you can think to say. Kento's face tightens.
âHonestly,â he starts, then hesitates, clearing his throat like the words are hard to get out. âI donât know whatâs wrong with you.â
His eyes flick to the monitors beside you, the steady beeping growing louder, faster, like itâs keeping time with the unease building in your chest. His eyes return to yours, sharp but not unkind, and for a moment, you see the exhaustion behind it.
âYour heart is deteriorating,â he says bluntly. âAnd we donât know yet if itâs connected to your quirk use or something else entirely.â
âSo⌠what does that mean?â you manage, your voice small, even to your own ears.
âIt means,â he says, folding his arms and leaning back into the chair, âthat youâre on borrowed time until we figure this out. You need to stop using your quirkâat least until we can stabilize you. If you donâtâŚâ He pauses, his jaw tightening as if forcing himself to say it aloud. âIf you donât, the damage could become irreversible.â
"But what ifâwhat if someone needs me? What ifââ
âNo.â His voice is firm, cutting through your protest. âYouâre not a hero. Your job is to survive.â
His words hit like a slap, and you look down at your hands, twisting the thin blanket on your lap. âIâm fine. I justâI just overdid it. I need some rest, Iâll be fine.â you whisper.
âYouâve been out for a bit,â he says gently, âlonger than typical for causes of exhaustion.â He pauses, his eyes searching yours for somethingâunderstanding, maybe, or a hint that youâre taking this seriously. Leaning forward slightly, his tone steadies, quieter but insistent. âIâm going to do everything I can to figure this out. I promise.â
Thereâs a flicker of something in his copper irisâdetermination or maybe worry; you can't decide which. âBut I need you to help me, okay? That means no overexertion. No stress. Noââ
His words falter mid-sentence as the door bursts open, slamming against the wall. Before you can process whatâs happening, two familiar figures rush in like a whirlwind.
âYouâre awake!â Rina cries, her voice cracking with a mix of relief and excitement. Airiâs right behind her, her eyes glistening, but she says nothing as she dives forward.
The next second, theyâre both on you, arms wrapping tightly around your shoulders in a bear hug that nearly knocks the wind out of you.
âCareful!â the man protests, his voice sharp with concern as he jumps to his feet.
But Rina and Airi donât seem to hear himâor, more likely, they donât care. âThree weeksâ Rina exclaims, her voice muffled against your shoulder. âThree weeks! Do you know how worried we were?!â
Airi sniffles, pulling back just enough to glare at you through watery eyes. âYouâre never allowed to scare us like that again, got it?â
Your throat tightens, and the weight of their presenceâof their relief, their worry, their sheer being hereâmakes your own eyes sting.
âIâm sorry,â you croak, your voice breaking.
Rina pulls back just enough to look at you, her brow furrowed in mock anger. âDamn right, you are.â Then she softens, a small, wobbly smile breaking through. âBut Iâm so glad youâre okay.â
Airi nods furiously, gripping your hand like sheâll never let go. âWe thoughtâŚâ Her voice wavers, and she doesnât finish, but she doesnât have to. The man clears his throat pointedly, and all three of you glance at him.
âAs heartwarming as this is,â he says, his tone a mix of exasperation and understanding, âsheâs still fragile. You can hug her later. For now, I need to finish up with this patient.â
Rina raises an eyebrow, clearly unimpressed. âWe are helping. Emotional support is part of healing.â
Airi nods, shooting him a defiant look. âYeah. Don't act like we don't work here.â
He pinches the bridge of his nose, muttering something about patience, but doesnât argue further. âFine. But only if you let her rest after this.â
Rina and Airi exchange a glance, then reluctantly step back, though they donât let go entirely. Their hands remain on the bed near you.
âSheâs going to be okay, right?â Airi asks, her voice trembling as her wide eyes dart between you and the doctor. "They wouldnât tell us anything about what happened. No one would."
âIâm fine,â you interject quickly, forcing a smile to steady her. âTurns out I just overdid it. Nothing serious, right, Kento?â You glance at him, searching for backup.
âThatâs right.â Kento offers a polite smile, but it doesnât reach his eyes. âAnd, as you know, weâre not allowed to access employee medical records unless it's an assigned case.â
Rina crosses her arms, standing protectively beside Airi. âDoesnât stop you from being all secretive, though,â she mutters, her tone carrying just enough edge to convey her frustration.
You shake your head gently. âItâs normal hospital procedure, Rina. Heâs just following the rules. But thank youâreallyâfor being here.â Your voice softens, gratitude seeping through. âIt means a lot.â
Rina huffs but softens at your words. Before she can reply, Kento clears his throat. âDid you know your best friend here has months of vacation time saved up?â His casual tone carries a teasing edge, but his glance at you feels pointed. He's saying checkmate.
Your eyes snap to him, narrowing. If looks could kill, the room would be painted in red. âOh, for the love ofââ
âWe have to take a girlsâ trip!â Airi exclaims, the tension in her face finally breaking as a smile spreads across her lips. She practically bounces up and down, the previous look in her eyes replaced with excitement.
Vacation? Youâve never been one to take time offânot because you donât need it, but because work has always been your anchor, your identity. The thought of being away feels like losing a part of yourself.
âAre you seriously taking time off?â Rinaâs voice breaks through your spiraling thoughts.
You hesitate, caught between their hopeful expressions and the reality of your new schedule.
âWellâŚâ You let your eyes wander around the room, grasping for a distraction, but even the nurse who had administered your medication earlier has slipped away unnoticed. âMaybe? Iâm not sure yet.â
âYou should,â Rina says firmly, her usual teasing tone gone. âIf anyone deserves a break, itâs you.â
Airi nods, âYou better actually rest this time, though. No sneaking out to answer emails or check on patients. Iâll hunt you down if I have to.â
You laugh again, but the sound feels thin, like glass stretched too far. âI promise,â you lie, knowing full well youâll try to stay involved in any way you can.
As your friend's chatter on, their excitement filling the room, your doctor sighs in defeat and quietly excuses himself, promising to return later when theyâre finished. You keep smiling, nodding along as if their energy is infectious, but inside, the fear twists like a knife. What if I canât come back? What if this is the beginning of the end for me?
âHey.â Rina shoves you softly, her tone lighter, almost teasing again. âYouâll be back before we know it. The place is already falling apart without you.â
You muster a grin, forcing it to feel natural. âOf course,â you reply, your voice steady despite the weight in your chest. âIâll be back in no time.â
Author's Note: DON'T BE MAD AT ME. I promise you I am single handedly creating the most beautiful storyline of my career, but you need to let me cook!
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aough I'm actually going so insane about peter/caspian again
#its like!!!!!!!#caspian was raised hearing legends and stories about the 4 kings and queens. they were his bedtime stories.#and then he meets them face to face and they're just. kids. they're KIDS.#but they're so dangerous and powerful and skilled and they command armies and even lucy carries this. sort of.#eerie grace. she's older than he can even comprehend. she looks like she could be his little sister.#and idk. caspian getting to meet the king he was raised on stories about. and he's just a kid#who's lived a life and was shoved back into the body of a kid. and he's filled with so much anger and fear.#he was snatched away once. he can be snatched away again. he's supposed to keep his siblings and his kingdom safe.#he's the oldest brother he's the high king and Yes his siblings are also kings/queens but he's the deciding factor for it all.#it all comes onto HIS shoulders.#and caspian who has been raised knowing that he'll be killed whenever he's no longer convenient .. never knowing who he can trust ..#and he's so ANGRY. his father's dead. he's the last of his house. he's only still alive because he has more worth alive than dead#but that can change at any time. he never knows where or when he'll be safe.#caspian coming face to face with this king this LEGEND....and all he can see is himself.#im aoughghghhhhh#i started out shipping them because it was funny but now im actually.insane about them#narnia#peter/caspian#winter speaks
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oooh so did we divorce Bruce, or is this an infidelity type of situation?
a loving family, an unpalatable desire: first meeting (unofficial)
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a/n: a tad bit nsfw. if this sounds messy, spare me. i'm running on like 4 hours of sleep and the will of a thirsty man in front of an oasis. i told yall im going insane for this plotline. ofc a&a still has my heart but I also love to occasionally write for smth else in the sidelines. send in more asks yall hehe.
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definitely an infidelity type of situation, anon! you see, the affair was caused by all mere coincidence. you were to attend with bruce in one of lex luthor's extravagant show of a gala, hold his arm for a brief moment when you walk out of the limousine, only to be abandoned right in the middle of the enormous room.
of course, the right reaction was to be pissed, to badmouth the very man who decided to court and entertain others in front of you; but you chose to stay silent, biting back choked tears by stumbling over the buffet table, only to be met with stupid, overbearing paparazzi and journalists.
so when clark kent rushes in to save you from stuttering over the dozens of microphones and cameras shoved right in your face, granting them access to your pathetic sobsâ it's only right that your first reaction was to lean against his body, dismissing the hushed, harsh gossips of journalists.
it was at a time where you're not aware of his identity of superman. well, bruce barely permits you to enter the batcave, only if you stubbornly pester alfred does he let you, only to kick you, his darling spouse right out the moment you step on the cold, hard floors of the lair.
so it's not... a bad thing, right? your husband had a child with another woman, raised him as his own, didn't even bother to notify you with his infidelityâ so is it your fault if you slowly start to fall for a man who promises you the world? who actually has the ability to give you the world in the palm of your hands? whose kid lets you pamper him without any fight?
sure, he's coping with... the loss of his previous wife but you're such a perfect spouse, so undeniably attractive, captivating in the hearts of many. your distant eyes, the way you bite the inside of your cheeks, the way your body sways back and forth as if begging for someone, your husband, to provide you a pillar of support in the suffocating heat of paparazzi.
he could be that pillar, could be your support.
when he first came up to you, his intentions weren't to obtain gossip about the oh-so silent spouse of bruce wayne. he didn't even want to acknowledge your marital status, palms already taking your wrist just so he could lead you off to somewhere quieter.
"it's an interview," he whispers an excuse to your reddened ears. but the buzz of his breath, the warmth, the caged arm on your waist tells you it's more than that.
but you don't fight back, you'd rather be anywhere than be the spotlight of a media that eats you up, makes you doubt your marriage even more.
so you're grateful that someone came to your rescue.
this would be the first time you ever saw someone as a savior, and it's not superman, no. it's clark kent, your resident, widowed, journalist.
and for clark's case, you warm his bed better than anything else. you allow clark this sense of respite, a break from heroic activities. allow him to be human, just as he allows you to play your fantasies of being a house spouse; you're perfect for each other.
to hell with useless marriage papers that don't even give bruce a sense of obligation to act as your husband, right? what can it do, when you're absolutely smitten with the current life you're living?
the first stages of your infidelity with clark is confusing, but very much welcomed into your already hectic life.
firstly, you convince yourself, it was all mere 'emotional cheating'. you began texting clark, he does too. an occasional greeting in messages, a passing congratulation for something, then the next it was good morning messages, 'have you eaten breakfast yet?, 'how'd the appointment go?'.
you don't know when it started, when your feelings started, when you began an intimate to romantic relationship with the manâ all you knew was that the moment he revealed his superhero identity was the moment he decided to bed you for the night, the moment you grant the man, now your partner, access to every part of your depraved body, made him make you beg for more, giving him all the time in the world to kiss your imperfections, to fondle sensitive parts long untouched, to leave lovebites deeper and darker than the ones you caught bruce with.
you can't help it, he's unknowingly handsome, especially when he invites you over to his ma and pa's farm the next day, pretending to not notice the way your eyes hungrily flit over his topless body, sweat and budding pecs encased in a muscled form. over the course of dinner, you kept biting your lips, warm cheeks at the implications that clark merely wanted to sit next to you just so he could handfeed you, something about him being prideful that you'd definitely enjoy this week's harvest... but his fingers circling your thighs just seems to get you brain all haywired.
yet you stay, and continue visiting for long hours either way, enjoying the man's attention.
you know it's wrong, he knows it's wrong. but the way his son, jon looks at you like you mean the world, the way he's slowly starting to heal the longer you stay over at his place makes clark want to... what's the word? ah, he wants to turn you into his loving trophy spouse. all you need to do is provide jon with all the support in the world.
as for bruce... well, him and his family can deal with your absence for the first few months. but when the lingering feeling of emptiness becomes too much, when bruce no longer feels the worried gazes, or when dick can't hear anymore laughter in one of the supposed 'barren' rooms, or when tim's security systems tracked a missing device, one now in a completely different city.
that's when they start to yearn for someone they purposely let go
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Sea Cryptic! Danny Pt.9
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"Fan-sea meeting you here. You must be Phantom!"
Danny slowly turned around, grin blinding. "I shore am. Who's asking?"
Danny knew exactly who was asking. Bludhaven's vigilante, Nightwing. If the giant dark blue bird emblazoned on the front of his suit didn't give it away, the friendly demeanor and the puns would have. Plus, now that Danny's figured out who Tim was, the rest were pretty simple dots to be connected.
"Hi. I'm Nightwing. Thanks for saving Batman."
"I am Phantom. You are welcome. Please lecture him on the necessity of keeping the waters clean."
"Uh, I think he knows," Nightwing grinned. âSo, why are you cleaning Gothamâs bay? I heard the Atlantic is nice this time of year.â
âExactly. This?â Danny flapped a gloved hand around them, specifically at the moldy docks and the paint scraped board. âThis is not nice. If it were nice, I wouldnât need to be cleaning it. Look at that paint! Itâs flaking off into the water! Does Gotham not have proper boat maintainance? Thatâs dangerous for the waters and seafarers!â
âWoah, you know a lot about boats,â Nightwing commented, crossing his arms and leaning back. What the hero didnât know was that he knew more about boats than Danny did, as Dannyâs hyper fixation was more focused on space ships and Dick had education Ă la maison de Bruce Wayne which usually meant an absurd amount of information for someone who doesnât actually use boats as a regular mode of transportation.
âRust! Rust is very much a thing!â Danny ranted, using his ice to scoop up water and using it like a makeshift filter. âIt weakens bonds! Itâs a tetanus hazard! And oh, donât even get me started on how you people mutated the ocean life!â
âMutated ocean life? Iâm pretty sure we hadnât. Itâs just a little weird, right?â
Without another word, Danny dove into the weird ecosystem that was the Gotham bay. He came back holding a wriggling green thing the size of a worm.
âDo you know what this is?â Danny demanded. The thing flopped around on his gloved hands.
âA sea monkey?â
âTheyâre brine shrimp. Brine. Shrimp. Do you know what regular brine shrimp look like???â Danny shoved the thing at Nightwing, who took a step back.
âNot like that?â He replied, a quizzical look on his face.
âNo, not like that! What in the ancients is this?!â Danny waved the weird sea brine that had started glowing faintly, like Dannyâs natural ectoplasm glow. âFar be it from me of all people to judge evolution but this was all man made!â Danny gently tossed the brine shrimp back into the bay. âBrine shrimp is staple food for the ocean! Youâve got weird brine shrimp? Youâve got weird fish! Why is it impossible for this place to, for even one day, refrain from dumping hazardous chemicals or dead bodies in the water?â
âOoookay, how about we take a breather?â Nightwing quickly glanced around, trying to find something to change the subject, feeling oddly guilty at the earnest expression on the kidâs face. âUh, I was actually wondering if youâd swing by the waters near BlĂźd?â
Danny crossed his arms. âI clean the waters as a past time because you humans donât know how to keep it clean. I am not a personal, on call, seakeeper.â
âBatman will pay you for your time,â Dick offered. Danny straightened. Amity didnât actually cost that much to live well, but Gotham was a whole other ball park. The rent might be dirt cheap for a city, but the special pricey little add ons such as gas masks and space level insulation on top of the sky high insurance policies were draining whatâs left of his half dead soul. As they say, Danny was a city dweller first and Phantom second.
âHow much, when, and I wonât fish up the bodies unless he pays me extra.â
âFour thousand base pay, extra one hundred per identity, fifty for bodies with no shades, and on the weekends.â
Danny straightened as his motherâs steel spine, Jazzâs whip sharp wit, and his own craftiness made their appearance as he bargained. âFive thousand. Rate agreed, but I can only do every other weekends and Iâll have to call out some days.â
âOkay.â Nightwing rocked back on his heels with an affable smile. Itâs Bruceâs money and itâs going towards his probable future baby brother, after all, even if said baby brother is a dead immortal Atlantis founder. Or something.
Danny groaned. âYou are supposed to bargain back. But Iâll take it.â
âGreat! Who do we got tonight?â Nightwing looked down at the plastic/burlap wrapped person Danny dragged onto the shores a bit ago.
âThe lake kept the body cold, so it should be preserved adequately if you want to examine him,â Danny tilted his head to the side, the flames of his hair tilting with him. âHe said his name is Gorganzo Bean.â
âReally?â
âYes. Itâs a nickname he got for eating a whole can of beans straight.â
âYeah, thatâll do it. Any more details?â
âSure.â
When Danny reached to take the money from Nightwing, he found that the hero had tightened his grip on it.
Danny pointedly dropped his gaze from Nightwingâs face to the money.
âWait. I- I heard from a source that you could possibly smell souls.â
Danny yanked the cash out of Nightwingâs hand and shoved it into his shoulder. If that didnât confirm Nightwingâs identity, he doesnât know what would other than the guy telling Danny who he was. âYouâve been speaking with Danny. Yes, I can.â
âCan you tell whatâs wrong with my brother?â Nightwing blurted out.
Danny stared at him, his legs flickering in and out to his tail form. ââŚOther than dressing in probably leather or Kevlar and going out to beat criminals with his bare hands?â
Nightwing opened and closed his mouth. He coughed awkwardly. âOther than that. Why is he- um, stinky? Soul-wise,â Nightwing added, clearly humoring the tinny little voice at the base of his temples that was an annoyed Red Hood saying that he showered. âHe showers often. And is definitely not stinky body odor wise.â
âI am not a doctor. Well, not now anyways,â Danny said, thinking about his future PhD. âBut heâs got a⌠soul infection. His natural immunity- all souls have a natural immunity against regular outside influences- is working hard to repel the equivalence of chronic bronchitis.â
âThereâs⌠no way to help him?â
âI never said that,â Danny tilted his head. âBring your brother to meet Danny. He could probably handle it.â
âThe civilian?â
âHis parents hunted my kind, once. He helped protect me and my people. If anyone knows how to cure it, it would be him.â
Phantom could not afford to deal with this right now, because Danny had a presentation tomorrow that he needed to finish.
âOh. Thank you, Phantom.â Nightwing said, looking relieved and pensive. Danny decided right then and there that was Future Dannyâs problem.
Danny nodded distractedly, blinking out.
He blinked back in. Nightwing jerked back. âDo you happen to have any examples of corrupt politicians in Gotham?â
Nightwing blinked before laughing. âItâd probably be easier to name the ones that arenât.â
âGood to know. Thank you!â
ââ
A couple of days later, Tim and two older guys ambushed him in the quad.
âHi! Iâm Dick! This is my brother Jason! Weâre Timâs older brothers!â
Danny looked down at his hand- trapped in an overexcited handshake- and back up at Dick.
Whatever expression he was making, it must have been ha-fucking-larious because Tim and Jason burst out into laughter. Danny cursed his past self.
âYeah?â Danny blinked. Wait. His smile grew and he made a face like he just realized something. âOh. So youâre Nightwing?â
The laughter cut off.
âHaha, what?â
âPhantom told me youâd be coming but I, uh, thought youâd be in gear. Not⌠straight up telling me who you are?â
âYouâre in regular contact with Phantom?â Tim demanded.
âYeah, dude. After you- wait, youâre Red Robin!â Danny whispered.
âOh shit, Bâs gonna be pissed,â Jason drawled, looking mildly amused and hiding an extremely cautious, possibly lethal (if it werenât for the fact that Dannyâs pretty much impossible to kill with regular weapons) reaction.
âYouâre one to talk. Iâd smell your soul no matter what your disguise was.â
ââŚAbout that.â
ââ
You might be wondering: wouldnât Dick know not to show up in civvies?
Yes. Except for the fact that Tim stalked Danny for weeks after he met Phantom and Danny hadnât hung out with (himself) at all. They think Danny doesnât know Phantom well enough to even talk to him much, despite being from the same town because: theyâre all big city kids and have never experienced small town solidarity and, more importantly, gossip grapevines + they have no idea these two are the same people.
A deleted scene:
âWhen did you have time to talk to Phantom?â Tim demanded. Jason nudged Tim. That had hinted too much at what Tim was doing on his off hours and stalking was usually frowned upon.
âWhen I wasnât talking to you, duh.â
#danny phantom#batman#dpxdc#dcxdp#Tim Drake#Nightwing#Dick Grayson#Jason Todd#bamf danny#red hood#stinky red hood#danny: oh wow they just handed me the perfect excuse#sea cryptic! danny au
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moving day; m.k.
pairing:Â marc spector x reader, steven grant x reader, jake lockley x reader
summary:Â how marc and steven learn to live together, how you come to live with them, and how jake finally lets himself live at all.
warnings:Â basically a BIG character study into our boys, fluff, hurt and comfort, angst, insecurity, mentions of marc's childhood, mentions of violence, suggestive content but nothing explicit.
word count: 9.9k
notes: this one got away from me and might also be the best thing I've ever written (i'm very proud of it đ). part of the @MOONKNIGHT-EVENTS bingo! prompt: â'is that my shirt?'â
MOON KNIGHT MASTERLISTÂ |Â ALL MASTERLISTS
Even though it was (and still is) under Marcâs name, the flat was Stevenâs first. Marc just helped set it up a little.
He rented out the first decent unit he found in the city and kept every piece of mismatched furniture the previous tenant left behind. The essentials had to be filled in himselfâa bed, couch, and desk. A table to go with that rickety stool to eat meals on, a coat rack near the doorway. The only belongings of his own that Marc left behind were his old Egyptology texts, unceremoniously shoved into a corner of one of the floor-to-ceiling bookshelves that he hoped Steven would like.
(The fish was unexpected, though. Steven already had everything he would need, and it was Marcâs mistake to be scrolling through Facebook Marketplace on one of his last days before he handed it all over to his alter. A complete aquarium set was being offered for next to nothing; attached: a photo of the original posterâs late goldfish. Backlit from the tank light, blank faced and innocent.
He just couldnât move on.)
But it was Steven who then took Marcâsâtheirâcard and ran with it. Every free surface was prime real estate for another journal, another tomb. The used bookstores of London never stood a chance; it was almost impressive to watch him scour the shelves for the most esoteric topics and still come out with his arms full of what he was looking for. Marc would wake up in the body to find Stevenâs collection a little bigger than before and ghost his fingers over the spines during those brief moments of respite before having to put on the suit.
It didnât stop at the books. Of course, it didnât. Stevenâs always had an affinity for oddities. Marc wasnât the least bit surprised to see the new paper lantern hung over the living room, or the pumpkin-esque footstool that was coloured as though it was plucked off the vine just a tad too early.
The pieces were quaint at best. If there were any psychological meaning as to why his alter gravitated towards dingy, threadbare upholstery instead of an IKEA like a normal person, it was beyond Marc.
However, he couldnât not admit that it all kind of worked once put together; the clashing mix of materials and colours sort of became its own style when combined under the wooden rafters. Even when the books started overfilling the storage capacity and ended up in piles on the floorâit only added to the charm.
Marc was sure to erase every trace of his presence around the flat to avoid interfering with Stevenâs life, but that didnât stop the sense of longing to return to theirâStevenâsâhome during missions.
It was still a mess. A mess where everything has its place, yes, but there was no way that Steven could trip over several odds-and-ends in one day and claim that he was any degree of neat or tidy. Marc silently griped to himself about it all the time, but heâd sooner eat that dusty-ass rug Steven got for free before he saw anything get thrown away.
(It was like this back when they were kids, too. Marcâs childhood bedroom in Chicagoâa room he never finds himself thinking about outside of his nightmaresâwas filled with joy. Medals from peewee baseball. Posters from his favourite movies, carefully smoothened out and taped to the walls by his dad. Drawings by him and Randall piled at the corner of his desk.
Right after theâthe accident, all his stuff remained, immortalized in place. As if keeping everything the same would somehow also make Marcâs life the same as it was before, and Randall would come bursting through his door at any moment to ask him to come play. It was an overarching belief in their household. Even on her worst days, his motherâs anger never touched their home. Only him.
But then things began to change. His old action figures, collecting dust, would be strewn about the floor, waiting for someone to continue the battle. A collection of particularly smooth rocks began appearing on his windowsill despite the fact that he hadnât gone outside in days. Heâd wake up to grass-stained jeans and a scraped knee which Marc didnât know how he got, for once.
Steven has always been like a crow, bringing all these little gifts for Marc to enjoyâthese signs of lifeâeven when he wasnât aware of it.)
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Coming back from Cairo feels like it shouldâve been a bigger deal than it was, but after the dust settled on Harrow and Layla decided to return stateside aloneâa decision that seemed a long time coming, if Stevenâs being honestâthere was nothing else to do other than to go home.
They have one blissful, uninterrupted day of sleep. Steven was the one to wake up sixteen hours later, mouth dry, and instinctively panicked at the thought of losing days again before realizing that Marc was also (and still is) out cold.
When he finally woke up a few hours later, half-asleep even in the reflection of the mirror, Steven couldnât help himself from asking, âWhat now, Marc?â
Because Marc was the original. Marc was the one with a real life and legal status. He might never want to walk the streets of Chicago again, but that didnât change the fact that he only came overseas to run away. Everything around them was a temporary measure.
Marc straightens. âI wonât bother you too much, I promise.â
âYou still have your own life,â Steven reminds him.
âStillââ
âOh, donât startââ
At least they agreed on one thing: they were going to stay in London.
Marc cleans out his storage unit, bringing home an array of bins and duffel bags and that shitty fold-up cot that he still refuses to toss. Steven immediately got him his own dresser when Marc tried to insist that he âdidnât have muchâ; that was a blaring warning that he was about to do something stupid and sacrificial, and Steven had to put his foot down before a nearby charity got a donation of some well-loved button-downs.
Itâs almost funny, how predicable Marc was when unpacking. Steven watched as he pushed all their new furniture against the walls then methodically unpacked bin by bin, stacking the empties inside one another like Russian dolls. Like Steven, everything he owned had a place, even after months spent stored away. Marc was just a lot more neat about it.
âMove my stuff if you want,â Steven pipes up. Marc doesnât react, only continuing to store his notebooks on top of a filing cabinet. âReally, Iâve already read everything on that middle shelf thereâwe can put them somewhere else.â
Marc glances around the bookshelves. âArenât these alphabetized?â
âWell, mostly, but give me an hour or two and Iâll free up some space.â
Itâs like a puzzle, and Stevenâs always liked puzzles. Marcâs gone quiet in their head, out of excuses as to why he can just shove all his belongings out-of-sight so that Steven wouldnât have to go through the effort. Now, if he would just believe Steven, then heâd know that reorganizing his books was hardly any effort at all.
And even if it wasâheâs been meaning to do this for a while. An alphabetized collection is great until he gets a new book, because then everything has to be shifted over, andâwell. Thereâs a reason why there were so many books languishing on the floor.
They pass off the body like that for the rest of the day, moving things around in the flat in order to accommodate Marc. It looks no less hectic in the end, despite Marcâs best efforts to tidy up a little, but it also doesnât look any worse, which Steven sees as a win.
There are still so many things they need to talk about. Scheduling, routines, the fact that theyâre currently both out of a jobâeither one would be lying if they said that this new life didnât make them a bit nervous. But when Marc finally flops down onto their bed, a movement as easy as breathing, the pieces begin to settle into place. The last of his bins have been put away. His jacket hangs beside Stevenâs as if itâs always been there.
In the headspace, Steven beams. Whatever comes, however hardâtheyâll face it together.
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Somehow, Steven wakes up one day and feels great.
There are a few minutes more until his alarm goes off, but he turns it off early. The usual grogginess that accompanies him this early is completely absent, and he rolls up to a seated position without a single mental or physical protest. He feels so good, in fact, that he even considers skipping his morning cup of tea.
(He doesnât, of course. They quickly figured outâwell, Steven did, Marc already knewâthat they differed in their caffeinated beverages of choice. Steven, a strong cup of Yorkshire Gold with a healthy splash of milk and a teaspoon or two of sugar. Marc, a simple drip coffee, black, made from the most generic-looking brand of medium roast beans.
Not to say that he wishes to be separate from Marc or anything of the sort, but Steven imagines his feelings to be like that of a sibling who was always dressed in matching clothes as his brother. Marc mightâve graced Steven with an interest in Egyptology from his mercenary work and Gus from hisâtheir?âbrotherâs drawing a lifetime ago, but as far as they know, his preference for tea was just a quirk.
Steven likes having something just for him.)
Marc had the body last nightâhe mustâve gone to bed early. Mustâve drank camomile tea and avoided blue light the entire time he was fronting because Steven could run a marathon like this and still go into work afterwards. Heâs about to ask Marc for his secret when he spots an unfamiliar rumple of fabric on the pillow where he laid his head.
âWhatâs this now?â Steven murmurs, gathering the soft material in his hands. A womanâs sweater, obviously, with its feminine cut and style and faintly sweet scent that short-circuits his brain for a moment.
It doesnât take a genius to realize how it got inside their flat, what with how thereâs a whole other person living in his head, and it would explain the strange marks he found on his neck the other dayâ
Heat blooms in his face and Steven nearly drops the sweater back onto the pillow in embarrassment. Distantly, he knows that he shouldâve seen this coming. Marc is Marc; Stevenâs witnessed the quiet confidence the man extrudes from inside their headspace and the resulting, ah, attention it attracts.
In the corner of his eye, his reflection stills. Steven doesnât even bother turning aroundâjust holds up the offending sweater and asks, âFun night?â
Marc, strangely, is quiet. Itâs not like heâs one to talk about his romantic pursuits, but Steven at least expected a dry comment or two. He shakes the sweater like a bag of treats until Marc scowls. âStop that.â
âNot judging,â Steven says, âbut donât suppose you got a number? Should I make a run to the donation bin for you?â
âNo.â Thereâs an edge to Marcâs voice, and he purses his lips when he realizes that he responded a little too fast; Stevenâs questioning look is pointedly ignored. âJust leave it on my desk for now.â
âIs she coming back or is this just like aââ Steven makes an ambiguous gesture, full of innuendo ââthing for you?â
âWhat? Noâwhat?â
âOkay, okay,â Steven finally lets up because the groove between his alterâs eyebrows has become something fierce. He slips out of bed to place the sweater on Marcâs desk as requested, then throws one more comment over his shoulder for good measure, âBring her home for dinner one day, would you?â
âSteven!â
-
âIs that my shirt?â You move towards the armchair, a smile tugging at your lips as you pick up the folded garment. Itâs been freshly laundered. Marc wouldnât burden you if he could help it.
âMhm.â He doesnât stir from his seat on the couch, tracking your movements with fondness in his eyes. Youâve been to their place plenty over the past few months and quietly, he relishes in the domesticity.
Theyâre simple things, like knowing your preferred spoon in their drawer or how you like your toast; the ease in which you curl into the cushions next to himâyour spot, he canât help but noteâdraws a contented little sigh from him.
âYou know, if you want me to do your laundry, you can just ask.â
He would. Steven would prod endlessly as he does with all things related to you, but Marcâs managed to get this far with vague explanations and stubborn hand-waving. Heâd endure the nosiness if it were for you.
âAlthough,â he continues, giving you a once-over. His eyebrow quirks at the familiar cotton long-sleeve enveloping your torso. âIâm not even sure you have laundry anymore.â
âWell, maybe if your clothes werenât so comfortable, Iâd stop stealing them,â you tease.
(His clothes arenât boring, Steven, justâutilitarian. Between Khonshu and his mercenary work, Marc needed plain, flexible pieces; ones that made him blend in anywhere and ready for anything. Nothing that he could get too attached too, either. Everything he wore was at risk of getting ruined by grime and/or blood and/or tearing from various weapons. Of course, he doesnât own anything ânice.â
Not like Steven. Not with his hodgepodge closet filled with colours and patterns, everything just a tad too large on their frame. Marc groans about it every time he takes over in the middle of the dayâjust a size down, just one. But the issue is that Steven likes it like that, likes the comfort and roominess he finds in his thrifted pieces, and so Marc dropped it as a serious topic, even though he still doesnât quite get it.)
âThis why you had to wear my jacket the other day?â
Stevenâs sudden appearances donât phase Marc anymore, even when youâre around. He just gives him a slight nod without missing a beat. âAt this rate, I wonât have any clothes left for you to take.â
âGuess Iâll just have to borrow something from Steven then, hm?â
Before Marc can even begin to think about what to say to thatâ âI think my white jumper would suit her really well.â
He shoots a glare into a nearby mirror and just barely catches a glimpse of Stevenâs grin in the reflection. Part of him wants to tell Steven to stop hitting on his girlfriend, but hesitates when you look at him expectantly, still waiting for his response.
Heâs not ashamed of Steven, far from it. Still, a sliver of self-consciousness worms its way into his chest at the thought of talking to him in front of you. Heâs done it before, butâhe knows how it can look.
Youâre more perceptive than heâd like. Marc sees the moment when it clicks in your head. âIs he here right now?â
Excitement bleeds into your voice. Youâve been wanting to meet Steven for a while. Marc showing up to a date with tousled curls and a colourfully-printed button-up instead of his usual streamlined style, a slew of scribbled papers piled onto the armchair you like to lounge on, a sticky note left on one of your books (âoooh good choice! xâ)âall these things that sent panic strumming through his veins were only ever endearing to you, for some reason. Itâs lessened his worry by orders of magnitude.
Still. Letting you meet Steven is one step closer to talking about his childhood. His mom. His brother. Heâs given you a high- high-level view of things (âIt wasnât great.â), but the thought of going any further makes his throat tighten. Thereâs a whole failed marriage that proves his inability to be vulnerable.
So, it must truly be a bout of madness that makes him say, âThe white one.â
âWhat?â
âWhat?â
âThe white sweater,â Marc continues, because heâs already thrown himself off the bridgeâthereâs no use trying to backtrack now. âHe says youâd look good in his white sweater.â
Your face slowly morphs into an expression of pure joy; you do nothing short of jump off the couch to bolt to their bedroom. Steven chatters excitedly in his ear, only pausing momentarily when you slip off Marcâs shirt.
âOh! Um! Sheâsâsheâs veryâwowâ" Marc feels the strangest urge to punch himself in the face againâ
âAnd then you reappear into their field of view, a dream in fine knit. Stevenâs sweater be damned, your beaming smile is more than enough to render them both speechless.
âHow do I look?â
The sweater isnât his, but it stirs the same syrupy feelings in Marc anyway. Youâve spoken about it beforeâand him privately with Stevenâwhere Steven stands in your relationship with Marc. All heâs ever let himself hope for was for you and Steven to be cordial, maybe even friends. Of course, heâd have to actually let you guys speak to each other for any of that to be possible, but you two seem to have grown comfortable with each other regardless.
Now, he sees you in Stevenâs clothes and his thoughts run rampant. Ours. He tests out the word and his heart skips a beat. Itâs always been a possibility; one you all were open to if it ever happened. But he could never ask either of you to try to love each other on his behalf.
God, that word does something stupid to his brainâStevenâs rattling off compliments and other things of his you should try on and invites to go thriftingâand Marc just sits there, dumbfounded by his own hypothetical scenario. âCome on, Marc, say something!â
You move to stand in front of him, and his thighs part automatically to have you close. It takes your hand on his cheek, gentle as you stroke your thumb over his skin, to pull him back to reality. âYou okay?â
âYou look incredible.â His voice dips in the way he knowsmakes your stomach swoop, and is promptly rewarded with your flustered smile. The moment doesnât lastânot with Steven cooing in his ear over you.
A pang of possessiveness runs through Marc. That smile was for him, thank you very much.
His mouth works faster than his brain. âSteven has something to tell you.â
You light up. âReally?â
âWants to tell you himself, actually.â
Steven splutters, nerves coming on in full force. Marc bites his tongue to keep a straight face. âWell, now, hang on a minuteââ
Stevenâs introduction was always going to be a well-thought-out but casual event, as to not make a circus out of it. It was just who they were, after all. They wouldnât switch in front of youâSteven would change into his wardrobe and âdoâ his hair beforehand; Marc worried it might be too much for you to see him but hear Steven. He wouldâve prepped you both plenty in the preceding days, regardless of how necessary it was.
It definitely would not be the stunt heâs pulling right now.
Your eyes narrow at the placid look on his face, too casual to not be suspicious, but meeting Steven must outweigh the want to catch Marc in the act of whatever heâs planning because you donât call him out, hands frozen on his face. Itâs cute, watching you struggle between overt enthusiasm and not wanting to pressure them into anything.
Marc would even enjoy it a little longer if it werenât for the confused and alarmed word vomit spilling out in his head.
âStop messing aboutâI mean, itâs notânot odd, yeah? For me to front a little? Just a little chat, canât be all that bad. Please be messing with me, but I can do it, sânot a big deal. Yeah, yeah, itâs whateverâoh, boy."
Taking pity on the poor guy, Marc quiets him with a steady glance into the mirror. âYou sure, buddy?â
Slightly shrill but no less serious, âAre you sure, Marc?â
And then Marcâs fun little charade teeters on its headâis he ready for this? You and Steven wouldnât hold it against him if he pulled the plug on it all right now, but this is the closest heâs ever gotten. The band-aid has to come off, lest he lets this fester for the length of another relationship.
âYeah,â he murmurs, his flare of panic comforted by the patience in your eyes. More confidently this time, âYeah, Iâm sure.â
Stevenâs smile is clear in his voice. It mirrors your own.
âAbout time, innit?â
-
Moving into their flat isnât a decision you make all at once, but rather a slow, steady conclusion that youâve been unintentionally working towards ever since you first visited.
The clothes were just the start. Itâs not like you didnât have perfectly good clothes before you met Marc, but his were just better somehow. Soft and simple, all in that neutral colour scheme he seemed to gravitate towards. The warm, woodsy scent of his aftershave clings to the fabric, making you want to bury your nose into the garments and go right back to the sourceâ
You just couldnât help yourself from borrowing something whenever you came over.
(That pleased, half-lidded gaze you receive each time you slip on his shirt, or his heated touch whenever he drapes his jacket over your shoulders during chilly morning aftersâwell. Those are just a bonus.)
So, maybe you left a shirt or two behind in the process. And maybe you realized that you should probably have a pair of sweatpants there as well, and a good book to read during quiet nights in. Once, you forgot your toothbrush only for Marc to pull out an extra from their medicine cabinet; now you have a toothbrush in their bathroom.
After you finally met Steven and his adorable, eclectic selfâall bets were off. You bond while scouring vintage shops and finding new pieces for the flat. A little basket of throw blankets gets added to the living room (always neatly sorted by Marc, without fail). Candlesâtall and stout, festive and fruity and spicedâstart to litter the shelves. A particularly good haul at a used bookstore, a bit heavy for you to carry home, is instead slotted amongst their collection; the contemporary fonts and colourful covers are a stark contrast against the yellowing older texts, and you love it.
Your fingerprints are all over the place by the time Marc officially empties some space in his dresser for you, uncharacteristically avoiding your eyes as he speaks, âJust in case you wanted to keep some more stuff here.â
You were already using their closets before then (in both the storing-your-clothes sense and the stealing-their-clothes sense); youâve practically taken over one of his drawers. But to give you one outright, to admit that heâs carved out some space just for you instead of silently accommodating your things as he always hasâ
âThank you, Marc,â you whisper, brimming with emotion that you wonder if youâll ever be able to fully express. Heâll flit about and clean and care for you because words will never capture the depth of his feelings. You see this for what it is, like all the gestures that have come before: a declaration.
âThank you,â you repeat, and press a soft kiss onto the corner of his mouth. âI love you, too.â
Itâs not much long after when Steven comes home from work grinning like a madman, one hand held behind his back. He beelines towards you, not even bothering to put his bag down.
âHey, you.â You peck his lips and feel his smile stretch impossibly wider. âWhatâs got you all riled up?â
The words come out in a rush. âHavesomethingforyou.â
âOh?â
âClose your eyes.â You canât help but laugh a little as you follow the direction; Stevenâs excitement is utterly infectious. âOkay, now hold out your hand.â
âIf you give me a bug, I swear to Godââ
âI would never.â His seriousness is a bit too heavy-handed, and you get a feeling youâre going to need to be on guard for a while.
Youâre distracted, however, by the brush of his skin as he places something small and rigid into your palm. The metal is warm from being clasped inside his hand, but the shape is so familiar that you recognize what it is immediately.
âYou can openââ
Youâre already looking downâat the silver key to the flat nestled in your hand. Lonesome without the Koala plushie on Stevenâs keyring, without the little charm you got for Marcâsâno, itâs meant to be your copy.
âWe were thinking, right,â he starts before your heart has the opportunity to beat right out your chest, âMarc and Iâwell, youâre here with us most of the time. You should have your own key. Beats having to come grab mine from the museum, right?â
You let out a choked little laugh, too caught up to remind him that the only reason why you went to the museum was because else he wouldâve dropped everything to deliver the keys himself. Spent his entire break and then some to commute back home so that you wouldnât have to wait for his shift to be over, even though you couldâve amused yourself just fine outside until then.
âYeah,â is all you manage to get out before stepping forward, burying your face in his chest as you wrap your arms around his torso. Stevenâs love is unbridled; he holds you close, going on about how glad he isâhow glad they both areâto have you, how he was practically bouncing off the walls at the locksmith, waiting for the key to be cut.
Theyâve been your home for so long now that while the new addition onto your keyring makes you giddy and smile stupidly whenever you get to use it, it also just feels right. You go grocery shopping with Marc and watch him scrutinize apples like they personally offended him. Steven tangles your legs together as you wind down in the evenings, and always always smiles whenever he catches you looking at him. You rank the restaurants around the neighbourhood and line your favourite mugs beside each other on the shelf; you sit in the comforting quiet of the flat and wonder how you got so lucky.
When itâs eventually time to renew your lease, thereâs no decision to be made. Youâre relieved from dinner prep to write the email to your landlord on their couch. Itâs sent off with no fanfare and quickly forgotten about when Marcâs voice rings out, asking what you want to eat.
âAnything,â you say, the ghost of a smile on your lips; he hates it when you say that. Marc grumbles a little, but you mean it this time. You have them and they have you. Curled up in one of Stevenâs sweaters, Marcâs playlist on low in the backgroundâanything is just fine by you.
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You are the bane of Jakeâs existence.
First, you meet Marc. Terrible. Khonshu is riding his ass about a mission in Liverpoolâtheyâve now been geolocked to stay under the radarâand Marc plans a date. An actual, Godforsaken date with a set time, throwing a wrench into their plans because Stevenâs been scheduled to work on the surrounding days as well. How is he supposed to sneak off to the other side of the country now?
Even worse, you stick around. There are more dates between the two of you. For how much he hates texting, Marc responds promptly whenever you send him something. He frets over what to wear before picking you up. You stay over at the flat and he holds you in his sleep like heâs afraid youâll disappear; Jake has been unluckily enough to wake up in the middle of the night, planning to slip away, only to be hit with the scent of your shampoo in his nose.
Thenâand thenâMarc has the bright idea to introduce you to Steven. The hope that this is just a casual, temporary thing is dashed away the second Jake sees that lovesick expression on the idiota. Itâs more overt than Marcâs, but still the same blaring warning sign that Jakeâs life is only about to get harder from here.
Keeping a low profile has become incredibly difficult since the others decided to be normal. Marc never questioned whenever Jake took over in a tight spot, too hyped up on adrenaline and too stubborn about their condition to follow up on his blackouts after the fight was done. Steven was clueless about everything for those first few months, then just blamed his blackouts on Marc.
But now? They talk to each other. They have a year-long calendar on the fridge with a magnetic pen holder to keep track of their schedules, colour-coded blue (for Marc) and green (for Steven). Theyâve gotten distracted and added another consciousness for Jake to deceive in order to do his thing. He canât take the body for more than a few hours, and certainly not by force, without drawing suspicion.
Jakeâs happy for them. Really, he is. Theyâve finally begun to move on from the trauma of their childhood into something that resembles a normal life. Stevenâs gotten rehired at the museum as a tour guide. Marcâs taken up security consulting. And despite their respective anxiousness and ten-foot-walls, you bring them peace.
But that doesnât change the fact that heâs Khonshuâs avatar now. That a lifetime ago, when the work began to wear down on Marc in all the worst ways, Jake was the one who cut a deal with the god for his release. All he had to do was take his place.
(Foresight might not be his strong suit, but he refuses to take responsibility for what happened next. He could never have imagined all the puppetry thatâd occur with Layla in the mix, or that theyâd actually divorce one of these days and end up with someone new.
Except this time, you know about their system and not about Khonshu. He wonders how well youâd take that whole mess.)
In shortâMarc and Steven still need him. He canât just up and disappear into the recesses of their mind; he has a job to do.
So, when Steven presses that fucking key into your hand, Jakeâs so frustrated he could scream. Unfettered access to the flatâas if you werenât there enough already. As if he werenât already jumping through every hoop imaginable, just to keep his existence a secret. He wouldâve made them drop the copy down the nearest gutter on the way home if he didnât know that they would simply go right back to the locksmith and ask for another.
Steven watches as you slip it onto your keychain; that all-encompassing, vibrant burst of joy in their chest be damnedâyou are the worst thing to ever happen to Jake, even if you might be the best thing to ever happen to them.
-
Steven had the flat, Marc had his storage unit, and Jake?
Jake has his car.
Multiple, actually, but the limousine is the legal one (thanks for your identity, Marc) and serves as his homebase. Supplies are stashed in compartments around the cabinâweapons, clothes, cashâand with its heavily tinted windows, he can do anything he wants inside and passersby would be none the wiser. When Khonshuâs booming voice echoes around his brain about some new target, at least Jake can recline into a soft leather seat.
The only issue is that he canât keep everything there. No, the parking garage is a fair distance away from the flat and sometimes, he doesnât have the opportunity to make the trip before setting off. This means that he has to keep a change of clothes in the flat to avoid accidentally ruining some of Stevenâs or Marcâs. Heâd never actually wear anything of Stevenâs to begin with (at least, not on a mission), but Marcâs wardrobe is minimal by choiceâif something went missing or got a new, unexplained hole in it, heâd notice.
Thatâs why Jake is currently slinking through their living room, ready to change back into Stevenâs pajamas before hiding his clothes on the loft above their bed. Nothing up there but empty bins and poster tubes. Marc regularly dusts the area during his monthly deep cleans, so Jake doesnât even have to worry about leaving behind any tracks.
It was an easy job tonight, done in little less than an hour and not a speck on Jake to show for it. He could take a shower if he wantedâyouâre staying over at a friendâs place right now, as noted in red on the calendar. But he shouldnât keep the body for longer than necessary; they still need sleep, after all.
He slips off his flat cap, groaning as he runs a hand through his hair. God, theyâre getting old. Even this stolen hour will be felt by whoever wakes up in the morning, slightly slower and groggier than usual.
(Jake doesnât think about the futureâhas never needed to. The only future that exists to him is the next minute, and the minute after that, and what he has to do to ensure the body makes it there. Him and Marc were similar in that aspect for a long, long time.
That calendar on the fridge, while helpful to his vigilantism, stirs something uncomfortable in his gut. Heâs seen them flip through the months to mark down birthdays and reservations. Vacations, work eventsâMarcâs going on a completely normal, non-violent work trip, which Jake still canât quite wrap his head aroundâand itâs all so far ahead.
How can they be so sure that nothing will change between now and then? That their life wonât blow up again, and force them on the run? Everything they add is just another handful of salt to be pressed into the wound when it all goes to hell. But they still write things on that stupid calendar. Confident, excited even, about the plans they think will come to pass.
How do they know?)
Thereâs a rustling in the bedroom.
Oh, fuck. Fuck fuck fuckâ
âMarc?â
You shift a little under the covers, trying to peer at him through the darkness. Jakeâs never been more grateful for Marcâs sensible taste in fashion; with only a silhouette to go by, of course youâd mistake him for Marcâstraight-cut jeans, a collared jacket. His flat cap would tip you off though, and he presses it into his chest to hide it from your line of sight. Marc would never wear a flat cap.
He forces a casual tone. âHm?â
A small sigh of relief escapes you as your head falls back onto the pillow. Still watching him, though, you mumble, âBad dream?â
You know about Marcâs time in the military and as a mercenary. Not everything, obviously, but enough. Jake nods, and can imagine the worried purse of your lips in the shadows. In the best impression he can manage, his accent turns Chicagoan. âJust had to take a walk.â
If he were really Marc, heâd already be in bed by now, letting you brush curls away from his face and press a kiss against the furrow of his brow. If he were really Marc, heâd ask you why you were back here instead of with your friends as expected, and youâd talk things out until dozing off in a tangle of limbs, comforted by each otherâs presence.
But Jakeâs not Marc. He brushes off the subtle tightening of his chest as just a lingering remnant from his alters. The body knows you, even if Jake doesnât. It doesnât mean anything to him.
You whine, a sleepy and pitiful but inviting noise from the back of your throat as he continues to stand in the living room. Alarm bells go off in his head; he has to placate you before you get up and try to drag him over yourself.
âJust need to change,â he says, soft and low, warmth injected into every word. Nausea courses through him, to his own confusion, as he continues to play Marc. This should be easierâheâs been hiding for as long as he can remember. This is probably the tamest thing heâs done to keep his cover. âGo back to sleep, Iâll be there in a second, okay?â
He takes two steps towards the kitchen then stops, feigningâfeigning something, fuck if he knowsâwaiting for your breathing to level out again. Silence falls over the flat, but Jakeâs mouth runs dry.
Thereâs no way you donât bring this up to them in the morning, and thereâs no way they wonât immediately suspect another alter. They know he exists, have seen the aftermath of when he fronts. Itâs only his secrecy that has kept them off his back for this long, and it will all come crashing down in a few hours.
For better or for worse, heâll have to meet the others soon.
-
Marc will never tire of waking up beside you. Even though thereâs a heaviness weighing him down, body aching for just a few more minutes, he pushes through because youâre already awake. With one hand on his chest, the other tracing over his jawâthe small, lazy smile on your face has already made his day.
You turned over while he was asleep, but his arm is still slung over your waist; he pulls you closer to press a kiss onto your forehead. Lips moving against your skin, âMorning, baby.â
âMorning,â you murmur. âFeel better?â
Mind hazy from sleep, Marc doesnât question the odd wording. He just letâs himself settle into the lingering fatigue, leaning into your touch as his eyes flutter shut again. âMâtired. Stay with me a little longer?â
Concern laces your tone. âWas the dream that bad?â
That breaks through to him. He peers at you curiously, more alert than before. âWhat do you mean?â
You blink, confused. âYour nightmare last night. You left to take a walk?â
Marc sits up, furrowing his brow. Reality seeps in, and he checks the date on his phone. Arenât you supposed to beâ? âI thought you were staying over at a friendâs place.â
âI was going to, but she had a family emergencyâI came back here around three. Donât worry, they walked me home,â you explain with a soft pat of your hand at the end. Thatâthat is one mystery solved, and he is glad to hear that you werenât walking alone at night, but his shoulders remain taut with tension. His mind gets caught on a detail.
âThree?â Heâs a light sleeper, he wouldâve woken up when you came into bed. Butâyour words replay in his mind. He wasnât here when that happened, was he? âI went on a walk?â
His stress begins to spill over to you, and you prop yourself up on an elbow, fiddling at the blankets. âUm, yeah. We spoke a little when you came backâI was already in bed, remember?â
A pit opens up in his stomach, and the words die in this throat. Marc does not, in fact, remember. He apparently went outside in the middle of the night, long enough for you to come home and settle in without him, then had a whole conversation upon returnâand none of it is familiar to him. Not even a hint of dĂŠjĂ vu.
He throws off the covers, on his feet in seconds despite your protests. All hisblackouts, the ones he thought were finished after traversing the Duatâ
That third sarcophagusâ
Is this what it was like for Steven? To wake up, not knowing what your body has done, where itâs beenâif itâs hurt someone?
Marc might actually puke if he thinks about it for too long. And God, you live with them now: him, Steven, and what Marc wishes was a complete unknown. But the truth isâthey arenât an unknown. No, Marc is fully aware of what this alter is capable of.
âOh, bugger, whatâs going on?â Steven must feel his panic, reflects it in kind. He must be expecting bloodshed with how fast their heart is racing.
Marc says nothing and flings open the tri-mirror on the wall, bracing himself with both hands on the sink below. He sees himself in the center, a bull primed to fight. Stevenâs to the left, so fearful heâs nearly frozen still. And to the rightâ
To the rightâ
-
So. Jake hasnât really prepared for this situation, to be honest.
Heâll face anything head-on to keep the body safe, but imagining himself as the threat? Never crossed his mind. Thereâs anger in their blood, and Marcâs liable to cracking the porcelain with his grip. If looks could kill, Jake would be dead ten times over.
The few times he wondered what it would be like to actually meet Marc and Steven, the worst that could happen was that they disliked him. Unfortunate, but heâd live. He didnât need their approval to do his job.
But through the blood rushing in their ears, he can hear you; still in bed, barely breathing as you watch everything unfold. And thatâs when he remembersâ
You are the bane of his existence.
Because Marc and Steven arenât just thinking about their own self-preservation. No, now they have you to protect, and the lengths that they would go to do that, wellâJake begrudgingly has to admit that they might rival some of his own efforts for them.
Heâd let them stare at themselves forever in the mirror if it werenât for that fact. They would never give up on trying to talk to him. Steven was clever enough with the sand and tape and ankle restraint; he doesnât want to think about what sort of traps theyâd create with Marc in the mix. Jake would probably still evade them all, but theyâd drive themselves crazy in their attempts.
Theyâve really left him no choice. For the first time, he lets himself be seen.
-
Youâve watched Marc and Steven talk to each other plenty of times. Itâs really no big deal. Theyâre just normal conversations where you can only hear one side, and usually taken through the nearest reflective surface.
But this? This is an interrogation. Marc slackens his jaw for just a moment before everything in him tenses again. He speaks through clenched teeth, as if barely controlling the severity of his thoughtsâyou canât help but brace yourself for impact. âWho are you?â
The pause as he waits for the other alter, whoever they are, to respond is maddening. It wasnât quite fear that gripped you when you realized that it wasnât Marc last nightâto be honest, you donât know what to feelâbut the scene in front of you has you reevaluating your initial reaction.
That initial reaction being, wellâthe same thing you felt when you Marc told you about Steven: curiosity. You wanted to meet Steven. Almost begged for the chance near the end. Whoever this isâ
âJake.â
The name grates itself out of Marcâs throat, and you cling to the information like a life raft.
âJake.â You canât help but test it out on your tongue, squinting a little as you look at your boyfriend and try to see yourself calling him that. Marc looks towards you. Thereâs a storm of emotions in his eyes, but thereâs no time to decipher any of themâa moment later, he turns back towards the mirror with a scowl.
âWhy should I believe you?â The lines on his face deepen; Marc grits his teeth so hard you yearn to hold him, but youâre frozen to the spot.
âI donât know that. After youââ his eyes dart between you and his reflection so fast, you mightâve imagined it ââafter what youâve done?â
A wave of dread washes over you.
Heâs not talking about last night.
No, MarcâMarc has interacted with Jake before, and whatever happened mustâve crossed a line. Mustâve crossed several lines because of how heâs acting right now, and you want to bury yourself under the covers, still fisted tightly in your hands.
He laughs bitterly. The sound rakes through your ears. âYou call that protecting us?â
Your blood runs cold. With no real context and spiked with adrenaline, your mind runs rampant with the possibilities, connects all the worst dots.
Thereâs no wayâ
âLay a hand on her and I swearââ
You want to run and you want to hide and you want their arms around you, assuring you ofâof anything. You need to leave this building and also never go outside again, because your head begins to pound with each thought that passes through.
You can still see the worry flare in Marcâs eyes when you accidentally grabbed the handle of a hot pan, the dutiful and tender way he held your hand under the tap for no less than fifteen minutesâ
You can still hear Stevenâs babbling when your new shoes rubbed your ankles red and raw while on a walk, distracting you from the pain the best he could until you got back homeâ
You are just so acutely aware of their loveâthat Marc and Steven would never dare hurt you. Itâs impossible to reconcile your memories of them with the picture thatâs being painted of Jake right now.
No. You canât believe it.
Youâre not even hearing their conversation anymore, your heartbeat is too loud. Breathing returns to you in a rushâyou never even realized you stoppedâand your vision swims with light-headedness.
None of it makes sense.
Itâit canâtâ
The mattress dips beside you, but you barely feel it. Someoneâs cupping your cheeks, grounding you back into the flat, your home, and you know these hands. You know this voice, soothing in your ear, even as you shut your eyes.
They say that theyâre sorry. They say that youâll be okay.
They call you princesa.
-
It feels strange walking around the flat, knowing that heâs welcome there now.
Jakeâs seen every nook and cranny through Marc and Steven, but to actually be able to explore the place himselfâheâs like a kid in a toy store. He canât help but run his fingers over everything. The spines on the bookshelves, the mismatched dishware in the cabinets. That velvet throw pillow, which you are so fond of playing with during moviesâyeah, he gets it.
Heâs not going to be talking to you for a while, though. After his rocky first meeting with Marc and Steven, which also coincides with the absolute worst possible first meeting with youâ
Itâs best to steer clear for a while.
Jake let the other two do the explaining. He watched silently as Marc told you about his pastâtold you about why he was discharged from the Marines and the scenes heâd wake up to after Jake had frontedâhands shaking as they held onto yours. He watched as Steven took over when it got to be too much, adding in the finer details and clarifications, steadier but no less genuine than Marc. Their arms were gentle as Steven held you in their lap, patient as you stumbled through how you felt.
âMarc seemed so mad at Jake.â You clutched at Stevenâs shirt, sniffling into his neck. âI didnât know what was happening, IâI was scared.â
No. Jake furiously shakes his head as if it would jostle the memory out of his brain. Just thinking about it threatens to unravel him, and he has to keep it together. Heâs on thin ice as is.
You had been the one to temper their emotionsâthe sight of you panicking on their bed grinding all other issues to a halt. The conversation couldnât continue until you were okay, and this time, Steven kept you in the loop.
Steven is wary. Steven needles him about what heâs been doing all this time, asks him what heâs going to do now with short little mhms. Steven is also the one to buy a new set of pens (because black is already used for non-individual specific events) and designates him as orange.
Marc doesnât trust Jake at all and admits it outright. Itâsâit stings more than he thought it would, but he understands. He always knew that Marc would take a while to come around, especially with you to considerâ
Jake doesnât know why he worries so much about your opinion. Protecting you is an extension of protecting the body, but he never used to care about what Marc or Steven had to say. He hates the caution in your voice when you talk about him and canât help but appreciate you trying anyways.
He pinches himself. Youâre not his to think about, period.
Acknowledging his existence also, sort of, comes with accepting it. Steven somehow finds the space for another dresser in their already cramped bedroom. Jake doesnât even have enough possessions in general to fill that thingânot counting all the weapons and ammo that Marc would definitely have their head for if he brought them into the flat.
Itâs an olive branch on both sides, though. Theyâre committing to having him around. Heâs committing to being around, instead of lurking in the background of their lives.
His clothes only fill up the first drawer butâitâs nice. Jake stares at the thing a lot more than a used, scratched-up piece of furniture probably warrants. He can barely admit it to himself but this, all of itâgoing outside during the day, eating a freshly-cooked meal, even just relaxing in bed without immediately trying to go to sleep in order to Protect the Bodyâit really is just nice.
(Since when did he describe anything as nice?)
Thenâyour keys turn in the door.
.
.
.
Jake hits the eject button so fast, Stevenâs probably going to get whiplash.
âNice reflexes,â he grumbles as you enter the flat. It was funny the first few dozen times. Now? That twatâs just being a coward.
âIâm home!â You call out as Steven rounds the corner to greet you, tote bag nearly bulging in your hand. He pecks your lips as he helps you out of your jacket, then hangs it up beside the three others on the rack. âThere was a little creatorsâ market in the parkâyou shouldâve seen it!â
âThink Iâm seeing it now,â he chuckles, moving to help you with your tote. You slink past him at the last second, grinning. âCome on, love, show us what you got!â
âTheyâre gifts! Just hang on.â You place the bag on the dining table and enraptured, he pulls up a stool. His head rests on his chin as he waits for you to unpack. âOkay, first, for Marcââ
You reach your hand inside and reveal a pair of black leather gloves. Not driving gloves like Jakeâsâthereâre far less embellishments all around. But theyâre warm and flexible, perfect for colder weather. Inside, the lining is made with a material so soft that when trying one on, Steven canât help but laugh a little in disbelief.
âTreading on my territory, pendejo?â
Marc snipes back, âLike you own a monopoly on leather gloves.â
Steven lets Marc pull to the front. An easy smile spreads on his face as he flexes his hand, testing his movement. âThanks, baby. I really like them.â
He takes your chin into his gloved hand to thank you properly, slotting his lips against yours with no shortage of appreciation. His grip is an anchor, holding you in place as he kisses you, deep and languid. Like you have all the time in the world despite the heat flickering across his skin. When Marc gets like this, itâs not long before you start squirming under him, and your hands paw at his neck for something more.
Thatâs his cue to finally pull away, smirking as he traces your bottom lip with his thumb. Whether itâs the leather or him or both, he can see the effect on you, the dazed look you give him when you bat your eyes open.
Let Jake try and beat that.
âOi! Share!â
Marc sighs. Drops his forehead to yours and reluctantly doesnât continue any further. âSteven wants his gift now.â
âOh,â you laugh a little, realizing the situation youâve put yourself in. âMaybe I shouldâve done Stevenâs first.â
Marc steals one more kiss before retreating again, and Steven is back, clearly eager for many different reasons now. After putting Marcâs new gloves to the side, you donât make him wait a second longer; you pull out a stunning new button-up, deep navy with a pattern of large teal palm leaves and hints of salmon accents all over.
All traces of joy disappear from Marcâs voice. âOh, my fucking God.â
âSheâs an enabler. I canât believe it.â
Steven gapes, amazed. âHow did youââ
âI had to go digging,â you admit, gesturing widely. âThere were so many racks, we need to go back! I only had my one bag!â
âThereâs no way people actually buy this stuff.â
âAhh, well, itâs not that badâ"
âAre you kidding me?â
Ignoring the fashion police in his head, Steven immediately switches shirts and tosses the old one somewhere behind him. Based on Marcâs grunt, he missed the couch, but also can hardly find himself to care.
He doesnât even bother doing up the buttons, because he knows where youâll put your hands when he descends upon your face. Kiss after kiss on your cheeks, forehead, and nose, and soon enough youâre giggling loudly into the air. Your hands are warm against his bare torso, pulling him closer even as their stubble tickles your skin.
âStevieâSteven! Thereâs one more!â
Heâs not letting you off that easily, though, and finally captures your lips with his. That does buy him a few more blissful seconds until you manage to push him away; breathing heavily, you point sternly in his directionâbehave.
Steven schools his expression into one of perfect obedience, teasing, but you barely even react. With one glance back down at the table, itâs like the tote bag sucked away your excitement, leaving shy uncertainty in its wake. Youâre biting your lip as you reach for the last gift, quiet.
Marc hums, trying to figure out whatâs wrong. Steven offers you an encouraging little smile and is about to say something when you produce the last gift in a rush, still not meeting their eyes.
Itâs a simple wool scarf, colour-blocked in soft browns and greys. He waits as you fiddle with it in your hands, trying to find the words.
âHe doesnât have a scarf,â you blurt out. When Steven doesnât respond immediately, you continue. âJake, I meanâI donât think he has one. I thought it would be nice.â
He follows your gaze to the coat rack near the door, filled with four sets of outerwear. It clearly doesnât fit all the jackets owned in the household, but his favourite is hung up next to Marcâs, which is hung up beside your overcoat and Jakeâs collared jacket. Various cold weather accessories are layered onto the hooks as well, multiple pairs of gloves, hatsâbut there are only three scarves.
Come to think of it, Steven hasnât seen Jake ever wear a scarf either. âYouâre right, love. Doesnât his neck get cold? I know our neck gets cold.â
The corners of your mouth tug up a little and he grins, triumphant. He tunes into his head, making sure he doesnât miss any of Jakeâs reaction, but nothing comes. Thatâs odd. It doesnât feel like heâs gone, more likeâholding his breath.
âThink heâll like it?â You tilt your head, though your true question is clear on your face.
The words canât come out of Jake fast enough. âIâm not here right now.â
âJesus, man.â
Steven huffs but covers for his alter; theyâll press him about it another time. âOnce he sees it, I donât think heâll ever take it off.â
The gloves and scarf are added to the coat rack, which is liable to falling over one of these days due to the heavy load itâs carrying. With no shortage of complaining from Marc, Steven picks up his discarded shirt and tosses it into the laundry basket. Itâs almost fullâhe makes a note to do a load later this week.
He must look ridiculous, parading around in an undone button-up, but you have nothing but fondness for him when he returns to cuddle with you on the couch. Youâve changed into Marcâs sweater and have to move no less than five decorative pillows in order to make enough space.
Marc makes a distressed noise when Steven throws one of them to the side. âItâs fineââ
It hits the standing lamp and you both freeze as you watch it teeter on its base, creaking ominously. After a moment, it steadies again.
âItâs only fine because of your weak throw.â
Steven splutters as he pulls you into his side. âWe have the same arm!â
They bicker about the mechanics of their body, whether muscle memory crosses over when they switch or not. Marc is squarely of the opinion: No. Steven reminds him of when he punched the Jackal, and the conversation continues to devolve. Jake refrains from getting involved but spurs them on regardless with a well-placed snicker here and there.
Itâs an aimless argument that has you burying your face in your hands because youâre laughing too hard; one of many that have taken place and one of many that have yet to occur.
In the morning, Marc will cook you breakfast and throw an eggshell into the bin from across the kitchen just to prove a point. Steven will go back to the market with you to buy armfuls of his favourite clothing and home goods, and heâll add one more to his bag for every snide comment Marc makes. And Jakeâ
Jake will take a little while longer until he feels ready to speak to you, but you see the scarf gather raindrops and the warm, woodsy smell of their aftershave as he wears it every time he goes outside. Always see it hung up neatly on the rack, on top of his jacket so it can properly dry.
And with all four of you settled in, their cluttered little flat in Londonâlong overflowing with books and clothes, your favourite comforts and some truly unique furnitureâfinally started to feel complete.
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â hate is a strong word.
pairing: moze x gn!reader
premise: your relationship with moze could be summarized with three simple words; "i hate you." but you can only deny so much when the word "hate" also means "love" in both of your books.
â warings: mentions of blood and daggers, ooc (?) moze (i have not started the quest at all LMAO)
â author's note: for my dearest @lowkeyren @st6rly @ughscara and @tragedy-of-commons aka my fellow normal moze stans <3333 art credits to @.code_tesseract on twitter!! | ~500 words.
âi hate you.â perfectly surmised your relationship with a fellow assassin. the words are hastily and carelessly uttered with one another at any given moment, one would assume its your way of showing your affection. and they arenât wrong.
âi hate you.â you mutter under your breath as you lay on the grass. your arm bleeding as moze rolled his eyes and threw a roll of bandages into your stomach. the regret of making a blood oath with the kid whoâs been stealing your spot as the greatest assassin prodigy was starting to kick in. the realization that you and he are now forever tethered; past, present, and future lives are now spent trying to one-up each other. you donât know if you want to laugh or cry. moze always seemed to throw away all your logic out of the window with just a glare.
âi hate you.â he grumbles when the two of you are unfortunately paired up for a mission. with a click of your tongue, you jump from roof to roof to try and lose him. split up, you said, it would be faster, but moze would always tug you back by the collar of your shirt and lay down his plans.
âi hate you.â you mumble as he throws your arm over his shoulders. âgood to know youâre still kicking.â you scoff at him and try to pull away but it only makes mozeâs grip on your waist and arm tighter.
âdo you want to die?â he angrily counters and you click your tongue. âif it isnât by your hands, no, no i donât.â
moze hated how you made his ears ring with such simple words. to bystanders âoutsiders of your relationshipâ they would be concerned, but to moze, it was a declaration of the highest affection.Â
âthen donât die now,â he mutters. âyour life is mine to take.â
ânot if i take yours first.â
to everyone, it was clear as day that you two hated each other with a burning passion that would rival the sun.
yes, hate was a strong word, but what else could describe the burning in his chest whenever you pin him to the wall? his dagger in your hand as you press it to the apple of his throat, your eyes narrowed down into a nasty glare while your tone drips venom from the tips of your teeth. moze hated the way your body always gravitated towards him; you were the planet that revolved around him out of necessity and want.Â
it was hatred and it always will be.
you will always hate moze for constantly stealing your spotlight; your daggers and cloaks; his blood that stuck to you like glue, forever reminding you of your oath; the hoodie he always used to shield you from the rain; iron clawed fingers that always brushed over your lips; and the eyes that always spelled âi want youâ in every and any language known to the universe.Â
it was impossible not to hate each other. and even more impossible to say âi love youâ before every mission when the words âhateâ and âloveâ are so intertwined they start to bleed into each other.Â
âi hate you.â you say as you shove at his chest. moze rolls his eyes and pulls your mask to hide your face. âi hate you more.â
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the way i can see rafe rolling his eyes when he hears you yell across a party for jj to knock it off in picking a fight, and laughs at jj when he listens to you, and is like an embarrassed little dog.
a perfect world where rafe realizes he and jj are the same person in different fonts <3 thank you for the request, i love jj in this lmaođđŠľ
 you say you got it & you have to let me see - r.c
pairing: rafe x pogue!reader (bartender!reader universe)
The annual boneyard party was in full swing, and like clockwork, someone was trying to start shit.
You stood close to Rafe, your hand loosely gripping a beer bottle as you watched the mess unfold in front of you. "JJ!" you called out, voice loud and clear across the sand. "Knock it off!"
Rafe felt the corner of his mouth twitch, suppressing a grin. It wasn't even surprising anymore.
JJ Maybankâstill the same hot-headed teen who grew up a few doors down from youâwas in some guy's face, already half a second away from getting clocked.
His first instinct was to roll his eyes. Every year. Every damn year, JJ managed to start up some bullshit. Rafe glanced down at you, saw how your brow furrowed in annoyance, and the urge to laugh took over instead.
It was kind of funny, watching JJ go from ready to swing to immediately backing off the second you opened your mouth.
JJ turned like a kid caught stealing cookies from the jar, hands half-raised in defense as he looked at you with wide eyes. âChill! I wasnât evenââ
"Yeah, yeah," you cut him off, pointing your beer in his direction. "Save it. Just walk away, okay?"
And, of course, he did.
Like a scolded puppy, he muttered something under his breath before shoving his hands into his pockets and trudging off. Rafe snorted, shaking his head. "Little brother still listens to you, huh?"
You shot him a look, half-smiling. "Someone's gotta keep him in line."
"Yeah, well," Rafe glanced at JJâs retreating figure, still chuckling under his breath, "It's funny watching him tuck his tail between his legs every time."
He wasnât usually one for parties like this anymoreâtoo many reminders of who he used to beâbut being here with you made it easier. You grounded him. Three years of dating, living together, dealing with lifeâs shitstorms, and somehow you still managed to make everything feel lighter.
You narrowed your eyes, âDonât think youâre so different from him Mr. No one talks down to my girlfriend.â
Rafeâs grin widened, and he took a long sip from his beer, savoring the burn of the carbonation on his throat. You had him there. Not that he was gonna admit it. âThat was different,â he drawled, flashing you a smirk.
âUh-huh,â you said, arching an eyebrow. âHow, exactly?â
He scratched at his jaw, the familiar prickle of stubble reminding him he hadnât shaved in a few days. âI mean, I didnât throw a punch every time. Just made it clear no oneâs gonna talk shit.â
You rolled your eyes, but the corners of your lips twitched. âYouâre lucky I love you, Cameron.â
Rafeâs heart did that stupid thing it always did when you said stuff like that, even after all these years. He could play it cool all he wanted, but you knew how to get to him. Always did.
âYeah, I am,â he said, stepping a little closer, his body blocking the cool breeze coming off the ocean. He could smell the saltwater and smoke, but all he cared about was the warmth radiating from you. He took a swig of his beer, watching the flames from the bonfire dance against the night sky. âHow many more times you think youâll have to pull him out of a fight tonight?â
You tilted your head, thinking for a second before shrugging. âDepends on how much heâs had to drink.â
JJ was like a golden retriever sometimesâquick to rile up, but just as quick to bounce back. Rafe watched him for a second, the way he moved through the crowd, all ego and no direction. It reminded him of himself when he was younger. He chuckled, shaking his head.
âHeâs gonna make it hard for me to take him seriously if you keep saving his ass.â
"Like youâve ever taken him seriously," you shot back, giving him a playful shove.
True. Rafe couldnât remember a single time in the last few years where JJ had been more than an annoyance.Â
"God, itâs like heâs still twelve or something," you muttered, shaking your head. You took a step closer to him, your arm brushing his. The firelight flickered in your eyes, making you look impossibly warm.
The kind of warmth Rafe had gotten used to over the years. The kind he was lucky to have. He turned to face you, an easy smile forming on his lips. âYeah, but at least itâs entertaining.â
You smirked. "For now. I give it an hour before heâs passed out in the sand."
He tilted his head, giving you a mock-serious look. âYou wanna place a bet on that?â
You squinted at him like you were actually considering it. âWhatâs the wager?â
Rafe leaned in, his voice dropping just enough to send a shiver down your spine. âWinner gets to pick what we do tomorrow.â
You raised an eyebrow, your smirk deepening. âAnd what exactly do you have in mind?â
He shrugged, trying to play it cool but knowing exactly what heâd want if he won. He could feel the stupid velvet box burning in his pocket. He carried it everywhere, hoping heâd man up and do it already. He couldnât do it nowânot here, not like this, not with JJ stumbling around somewhere in the background and the sound of half-drunk partygoers laughing around you.
âI donât know. Maybe spend the day out on the boat. Just the two of us.â
âAlright, deal,â you said, holding out your hand for him to shake, âSounds nice.â
Nice wasnât even close to what he had in mind.
He took your hand, but instead of shaking it, he pulled you in closer, wrapping an arm around your waist. You let out a small laugh, leaning into him. The beer bottle in your hand dangled lazily at your side. You leaned up, pressing a kiss to his cheek.Â
âYouâre lucky youâre cute.â
Rafe let out a breathy chuckle, turning his head to capture your lips with his. The kiss was slow, lazy even, like there wasnât a party around you. âStill think Iâm cute, huh?âÂ
You gave him a look, lips curving into a shit-eating-grin. âWhen youâre not acting like JJ.â
He groaned, tipping his head back dramatically. âDonât compare me to that fuckin' idiot.â
You just grinned, pulling away slightly, though your hand stayed on his chest. âRelax. Youâre cuter, baby.â
âDamn right,â Rafe muttered, tugging you back to him. He liked having you close like thisâreminded him that no matter how much shit had changed, some things stayed solid. You. Him. This.
He kissed the top of your head, breathing in the familiar scent of your hair, and let out a contented sigh.Â
JJ had somehow found another beer, and as Rafe glanced his way, he saw Kie giving him a hard time, probably for almost getting into it earlier.
âYou think theyâll ever figure it out?â you asked, following Rafeâs gaze.
âWho, JJ and Kie?â He shrugged, taking another sip of his beer. âMaybe. Probably not, though. Theyâre both too stubborn.â
You hummed in agreement, resting your head against his shoulder. âSounds familiar.â
He chuckled, shaking his head. âYeah, well, we turned out alright, didnât we?â
You smiled up at him, the firelight dancing in your eyes. âYeah, we did.â
Just as you and Rafe were starting to get lost in your own little world, a sudden shout cut through the noise of the party. Rafe glanced up and spotted JJ again, this time charging toward some guy who was standing way too close to Kie.Â
Oh for fuckâs sake.
JJ's posture tense, fists clenched at his sides, and his voice already rising in that familiar way that screamed trouble. "Hey, man, back the fuck off!" He growled, pushing the guy away from Kie. The dude barely had time to react before JJ was already up in his face, looking like he was seconds away from throwing a punch.
"Jesus fucking Christ," Rafe muttered under his breath.
Without a second thought, he downed the last of his beer and started striding toward fight. You followed, a little concerned but mostly impressed by how quickly he handled it. He was always the one who kept things calm nowâso different from his hot-headed younger days.
âMaybank!â Rafeâs voice boomed across the beach, and you could hear the change in tone.
He was done playing around.
JJ, too focused on trying to defend Kieâs honor, didnât even hear him. Rafe didnât hesitate. He grabbed him by the back of his shirt, pulling him away from the guy before anything could escalate further.
The younguer blonde whipped around, ready to argue, but stopped dead in his tracks when he saw Rafe. âDude, Iââ
âStart walking,â He hauled him a few feet away, practically dragging him while the other guy quickly disappeared into the crowd.
You couldnât help but watch the way Rafe took control of the situation, handling JJ like a dad trying to wrangle a rowdy teenager. You could see the way he deflated in response. Heâd grown to respect Rafe too much to keep pushing.
âWhat the hell were you thinking?â Rafe said, his grip still tight on JJâs shirt. âYouâre gonna get yourself knocked out one of these days if you donât stop acting like you need to throw hands over every little thing.â JJ scowled but didnât say anything, and Rafe shook his head, letting him go. âSeriously, Kie can handle herself. And if she needs backup, thatâs what we are forânot you getting your ass handed to you every time some guy breathes in her direction.â
JJ kicked at the sand, muttering something under his breath, but he knew better than to argue. Rafeâs voice softened a little, seeing JJâs shoulders slump. âLook, I get it. But not like this. Not here.â
He nodded once, reluctantly, and Rafe gave him a rough pat on the shoulder before turning back to you. He caught your eye, and you felt the pride bloom in your chest. The way he handled himself, the way he diffused situationsâit wasnât just about being strong anymore, it was about knowing how to lead, how to take care of the people he loved. And, honestly? It was a turn-on.
You couldnât help the way your eyes lingered on him as he came back over to you. He looked so composed, so solid, and that arm of his, the way he pulled JJ back without breaking a sweatâit had your mind going places. Rafe raised an eyebrow at you, a playful smirk on his lips.
âWhat?â he asked, already knowing you were checking him out.
You stepped closer, trailing your fingers up his arm, feeling the strength in the way his muscles flexed beneath your touch.
âNothing,â you murmured, biting your lip as your eyes met his. âJust proud of you.â
Rafe chuckled, his hand slipping around your waist, pulling you against him. âProud, huh?â
âMhm,â you whispered, pressing yourself closer, feeling the warmth of his body. âItâs kinda hot.â
âThat what does it for you now? Me playing babysitter?â
You laughed softly, your hand still resting on his arm, fingers trailing along his bicep. âNot just that. The way you handled it. Youâre justââ
Rafeâs hand slid down your back. âJust what?â he asked, his breath hot against your neck.
You bit your lip, feeling your heart pick up speed. "Strong.â You smirked, letting your hand slide lower, down the curve of his chest. âKinda makes me wannaââ
He cut you off with a kiss, his mouth moving against yours with a kind of slow intensity that had you melting into him. His hand gripped you tighter, pulling you even closer, because he could never have enough of you.Â
When he pulled back, his forehead pressed against yours, both of you a little breathless, he smirked down at you. âYou keep talkin' like that, we might need to leave this party a little early.â
You grinned up at him, your arms wrapping around his neck. âMight not be the worst idea,â you teased, your voice low. âThink weâve had enough excitement for one night.â
Rafe chuckled, his lips brushing against your forehead before he pulled away just enough to glance over his shoulder, making sure JJ wasnât about to start up more trouble.
When he saw everything was calm, he turned back to you, âLetâs get outta here, baby.â
You didnât need to be told twice.
He pulled you in close as you reached the car, wrapping his arms around your waist and leaning down to press a lingering kiss to your lips, making your head spin all over again.
"You're somethin' else, you know that?" he whispered against your lips, his hands sliding up your back, fingers tracing patterns on your skin.
"Get in the car, Cameron.â
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Dabi simply adores you, his precious daughter. But he didnât always love you.
Part 2
Warnings: attempted murder (failed), canon typical violence, robberies, alcohol+drugs, references to child neglect, implied pedophilia (nothing graphic, and not towards reader), teenage parenthood, minor swearing.
reader has blue eyes like Dabi's.
let me know if you spot anymore.
note: I swear, it's not that bad, just fluff with kinda angsty undertones, cuz' it's Dabi! what do you want
I mean, he was only a teenager when he had you, fresh to the villain business at the wonderful age of 16 and a half. He decided itâd be a wonderful time to drink his sorrows away one night, one horrid, awful night. He ended up fucking a woman he did not know, who was surely much older than he, in the back alley of a bar in the worse parts of town. Amidst the filth of the nearby dumpster, it was here that he would make the single worst decision of his life, either that, or the best. He really doesnât know.
but alas, he ended up with a little swaddled baby 9 months later when the same woman angrily shoved you into his arms, declaring something unintelligible before storming out of the bar again. Dabi, who at the time was drunk and higher than a kite. didn't react. when you started crying, he didn't react. when you cried louder, thrashing around in his hold he still didn't react. he was in his own world at that moment, shutting out everything except the burn of the cheep beer going down his throat. it wasn't until he was kicked out of the bar along with you for being too disruptive and he fell asleep in one of the abandoned buildings nearby only to wake up hung over and disoriented did he realize what he had done; when he saw a quite malnourished baby laying down on his jacket that he chucked on the floor last night. your swaddle all dirty by now.
he did nothing but stare at you for a while, the pounding in his head as well as the harsh rays of the mid day sun didn't help much. He was still just a kid, a villain too, and homeless. he wasn't ready to have a child. for a split second he thought of leaving you there, God, you looked just like Fuyumi when she was a baby. but you looked worse, like you were barely living. had you... had you died during the night? he stumbled to your side of the room, trying his best to avoid the rumble of the deteriorating building. it would truly have been a miracle if you happened to survive in such conditions.
carefully, he flipped you onto your back, putting a warm hand on your chest. god. you were barely breathing. barely responding too. Dabi's breath hitched, had he nearly killed his own child? he stayed like there for a few moments. looking right at you. he really had no idea what to do. you're already on the verge of death, if you died right now, would it really matter? you've been on this earth for only a few days it seems, your mother left you with a villainous teenage father who could let you wither away in an abandoned building.
if you were to die right now. he could spare you the pain of having to live with him, you'd never have to know the horrors of life.
he could just light one flame,
let it fill the room with smoke,
and watch as your lungs give up
and you simply stop breathing.
...
you'd just be another person who never got to see their future.
Gently, he stroked your tiny chubby cheek with a warm finger.
he nearly laughed at the thought, killing his first child, just like his own father had done with him. he pulled you into his arms, preparing to hold a small flame right up to your face until your fragile little body couldn't take it anymore. then he'd leave your body here as he burns down the rest of the building. a fitting memorial. but before he could do anything,
he paused - you - you squirmed in his hold. cracking open your eyes to stare at him with soulless blue eyes that mirrored his own, tried and scared. an expression that surely should never be on the face of a child.
Dabi truly can't quite recall what happened in that moment when he held you in his arms. all he remembers is a clenching in his heart. maybe it was the alcohol and the drugs. but he felt the emptiness and the pain. the gut wrenching, soul crushing pain, the type that he felt whenever his father would ignore him, again and again. he pain he felt when he saw his childhood home again after so many years, only to find that nothing had changed; he was forever gone and no body gave a fuck.
but- you. just you. you were just like him. you wanted nothing more than a little bit of love. would it truly be so bad if he gave it to you? he'd keep you around, for a while at least.
that's what he told himself as he found himself stealing diapers and baby powder and formula and what not from a convenience store, only to fuck up making formula and changing a baby. he did a little victory dance with you in his arms when he finally figured it out.
but that's only after he managed to get some midwife or other doctor to do a lil' check up on you. (only to knock them out for the police to find their body hours later.) anxiously analyzing everything the doctor was doing, making mental notes to himself to have you try and eat better.
he tended to do more robberies and muggings these days, only to spend it all on a shabby little one bedroom condo in one of the cheaper (and by proxy, crime ridden) parts of the city. it was better than being a single parent living on the streets I guess.
he ended up turning the bedroom into your nursery, if you would call a room that could barely hold a twin sized bed, full of nothing but a crib, a small closet full of dirty clothes, and a big stack of baby products in one corner; a nursery. he instead slept on the couch most nights. but he would forever find himself running back into your room whenever you would cry, he almost always ended up letting you sleep on his chest on the couch. both arms slung over your tiny body so there would never be a chance you'd fall out of his grip.
but life got better with time it seems. he started taking bigger jobs, bank robberies, sometimes murders every now and then. he built a good reputation for himself. and you. you grew on him. who was once a fragile little thing, right to death's doorstep. now, when you smiled, he felt ever so full of life.
he liked how you would always wait by the door after he went out to run an "errand", always being right where he left you and babbling happily when he came back. making a little gesture to be picked up and carried.
he liked you you tend to boss him around most of the time. you could point to where you wanted to go and he would happily carry you there. he isn't even aware of what he's doing, you could yell at him (as best as a baby can anyways) and he'd meet your demands near instantly without much complaint. someone else would have to point it out for him to notice.
he especially liked how you would stare at him with wide eyes as he would smoke on the balcony with the glass door shut. every night, it was a routine, just after dinner, Dabi would snag a pack of cigarettes, and sit outside on the balcony to smoke, occasionally looking back inside through the glass to see what you were doing. he would put on a little cartoon or set out some toys for you. and while that'd keep you entertained for a while, you'd still drift towards him, looking back at him through the glass to try and get his attention. his smoke breaks kept getting shorter and shorter because of that.
he liked how every time he woke up, you would always be with him. looking up at him with those big blue eyes that he gave you. especially the way you'd always look at him with nothing but love and joy.
the same eyes that he used to look at his own father with disdain and fury.
he'll joke around that you're too clingy, always following him, attached to the hip, quite literally with how often he holds you on his hip. But deep down he knows he'd be torn apart if you were gone from him for even one hour. he can't live without your little hugs and giggles and stupid playtime's and everything. please, your love means the world to him.
but he was still only ever a boy, a boy who never quite got to grow up the way he was meant to. but you will forever be the reason he'd try and be a man. for his little girl. he remembers how he'd make more frequent trips to the grocery store, how he'd stock up on medicine for kids, how he'd buy cleaning supplies to somehow make the rinky dinky condo you both live in a tad bit more suitable for a child.
you're the reason he even joined the league. this world has already killed him, and while he was given a second chance as Dabi will it really ever be the same?
but you. you are so full of life, so perfect, awaiting a future unknown. he'll sculpt this world with the second chance he's been given. for your father, Touya, may be dead, but Dabi is not, and he is very much ready to give you what he never had, even if he dies again in the process.
but with the league comes responsibility, a time consuming responsibility. gone are the days when he'd lounge around at home all day and only leave to take you to the playground or grocery shopping, and the occasional robbery when he was low on cash. now he was busy! can you believe it? now Dabi may have skipped nearly all of high school but he wasn't that stupid enough to leave a child home alone for hours on end. hence, he came to the conclusion of daycare. the horrid, horrid daycare.
he nearly cried when he realized his little girl was growing up so fast, it seemed like just last week he was holding you on his hip as he heated up a bottle of formula in his hand to finally get you to shut up and sleep. that only a couple days ago you walked your first ever steps after he came home early with your favorite snacks. he wasn't even able to record it he was too busy sobbing as you held onto his legs to steady yourself waiting for him to pick you up. it literally felt like yesterday you said your first words, "baba" after he jokingly started calling you cry baby.
this actually led to quite a lot of problematic nicknames, cry baby became Babs and Babs became bun and bun became bunny and bunny---- (i'm losing it as I write this.)
but nonetheless, it hurts. so every morning he'll wake up at the crack of dawn to haul you out of bed and get you all pretty and dolled up for the day. he lets you choose your shirt and pants and bows and what not. tying up your little baby sized shoes to take you to the next district over. now, he would've enrolled you into a daycare much closer to home but he really wants you to be safe, and unfortunately anything and everything in your neighborhood without his supervision is not and never will be, considered safe. so he'd much rather escort you via public transport to the richer neighborhoods every single morning than have you be in danger of any kind. sure, you're a little out of place, with thrifted clothes and frizzled up hair from only ever using your dad's 4-in-1 shampoo. and he's definitely out place. hence why he never quite shows his face to the teachers. always ushering you into the daycare building before leaving as fast as he came. The teachers think that he's your older goth brother who's being forced to take you to school by his parents. is it exhausting? yes, very much so. will he do it on repeat for the rest of his life if that means ensuring your happiness and safety? most certainly yes.
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PART 2 IS HERE
that'll be all. I might do a part 2. tried something different with my writing this time and hope it's better than the rest of my works.
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you could do something where sukuna and yuji team up to protect their mom/wife when a person is bothering or harassing her, they love her so much that they won't let someone hurt her đĽšđ
Leave Mama Kuna alone đ
Old Day, because no one was brave enough to confront Sukuna for murder.
Warnings? Murder, in red text a man attempted to force himself on reader, Gore, Blood
It didn't take much to upset Sukuna, he was always looking for a reason to snap at someone and end a life. Sadly his son Yuji was a cock block for murder, and it irked him that he basically had to shake and rile his son up to get angry and then heâd just flat line and âbut why donât we-â They didnât agree to often on why a man should die- but in this case they were all agreeing. âGet him daddy!â Yuji yelled, pointing his chubby finger at a man maybe in his early Twenties who had been talking to you while you were trying to pick out Snacks for Yuji. He had wandered off after passing a candy stand and usually youâd send a maid or help to get the necessities but today you wanted to take Yuji out to walk and play and hopefully learn some self preservation, Sukuna, well he was feared and he just wanted to come along to make sure no idiot would try to disrespect you. âListen, Iâm just trying to get some things for my son. Leave while you still can and maybe my husband will let you live.â You smiled nodding at the man who scoffed âYour husband? What is he? a Mercenary? Whatâs he gonna do to kill me? Thatâs probably a lie you probably donât even have a so-â you sighed turning away when Sukuna lifted the man by the neck with one hand twisting him around to face him, âNo, Iâm your God,â his stare darkened âbut Iâm not so merciful.â There stood Yuji by his dads leg, âYeah! You deserve no mercy! Thatâs my mom you were disrespecting!⌠Idiot!â You tried not to laugh at Yujiâs extra words and went back to paying the scared vendor for the snacks you had picked out. By the time you looked back the guy was laid out on the floor bloody and probably just barely clinging to life, head being pressed into the dirt being grinded on by Sukunaâs large foot. Yuji was swinging away on his ribs and stomach, for a 7 year old his hits were surprisingly solid.
As the day progressed you had managed to convince Sukuna to have lunch despite the fact he didnât eat human food. But he watched as Yuji sat beside him slurping away at noodles and his rice topped with diced meat, âBoyâs more human than curse.â Was all Sukuna said when Yuji looked up at him, noodles hanging out his mouth before he slurped them up smiling. âDaddy I gotta Pee.â Sukuna sighed standing up out of the booth, âthen go.â ââŚgo with me?â Yuji looked up at his dead with pleading eyes before Sukuna groaned and motioned for him to go, âFine.â Sukuna was waiting outside the bathroom when he heard a trio, two men and one woman. âThat's her isnât it? Sheâs the Deity at the Shrine house isnât she?â One man asked the girl. She just shrugged, âYeah but I donât see whatâs so special about her? So she had some big curses kid, her bodyâs probably trashed or something.â âShut up Kaguya, you're probably just jealous, any man would give anything to lay that woman in their bed. If I had a chance Iâd get her pregnant too, look at her, Iâd do anything to pull her robes off.â The second guy spoke up, âThatâs sick man, she has a husband and kid, Yeah sheâs pretty but sheâs literally a deity, have some respect.â Kaguya interrupted âSheâs probably a slut and maid who just had sex with him and got lucky she got pregnant, sheâd probably spread her legs for anyone if they offered a comfortable lif-â Sukunaâs hands were bloody, in a matter of seconds he had ripped th hearts out of the first man and the girls chest. It hadn't been processed as they managed to look up his blood covered hands. The smirk on his face was sinister and became worse when the second man looked up at him in fear, struggling to scream. He shoved the manâs friend's heart into his mouth like a gag, leaning down with a threatening voice âYouâd do best to keep your mouth shut.â
Yuji and you had wandered off from Sukuna when he became surrounded by people bearing gifts to honour him. He was annoyed and even more when he turned to realise both you and Yuji had left his side. You were taking Yuji with you to the shrine house the people had built for you. The eunuchs at the entrance greeted you, stopping to ask if Yuji would be entering with you, which caused him to hold onto the side of your robes and sleeve, you put your hand on his shoulder comforting him, âYes, this is my son after all.â Entering the shrine, you made your way all the way to the back where you would sit and wait before the doors would open to the public. Yuji was walking around the room looking around until he stopped. You had a wall where all the drawings heâd ever given you while leaving the palace had been framed because âI don wan you to forget meâ A young girl came into the room shocked that Yuji was there until you cleared your throat, âoh! Forgive me Lady Y/n, I didnât know you would be here today.â You waved a hand of dismissal. âI didnât expect to be here either, but I thought Yuji,â you looked at him, he was staring at the girl in the door, slowly walking to you, his eyes never left her face. He looked serious, a face his dad often wore when something was wrong and he was watching it play out or when he was lost in thought. He turned away from you leaning against your lap standing between you and the girl. âWho the hell is she?â He sounded like a younger version of his dad with his demanding tone and dead stare, his curse word caught you off guard. You tried to form words stopping when you couldnât, âsheâs a servant who works here Yu, whatâs wrong?â You leaned trying to get a look at his face, but he wouldnât turn to look at you, he had his target. The girl became uncomfortable under his stare, âwell, him Lady y/n there was an expecting mother who came by begging for a miracle.. the details shouldnât be explained in front of such a young boy or boy at all really but-â you held up your hand silencing her. âBring her into the main room. I'll be out in a minute. I just need to make sure Yuji will be okay here for a few minutes.â She bowed, closing the door, Yuji turned to look at you and he seemed visibly at ease, âYu.. whatâs wrong?â He looked at the door, âSheâs funny.. in a bad way..â you didnât know how to answer. âAlright, Iâll remember that then.â You stood up, setting him on your chair and kneeling in front of him, âWill you be okay here? Alone for a short bit?â He shook his head no while kicking his feet, âDonât leave me.â
Thatâs how you ended up with Yuji following quietly behind you when you made your way through the hallways to the main room. He got distracted stopping for a moment to look at a picture, the end of the hallway split two ways. There was a painting of Sukuna holding newborn Yuji, he looked so serious in the painting, when you told Sukuna you wanted it for your shrine he refused to smile saying it wouldnât look good in the public eye or something along those words. Yuji was pulled out of his day dream when he heard you scream, he ran trying to find you. He froze seeing a man cornering you in the hallway, you were fighting him off the best you could but you couldnât only do so much against a half curse half man that was attempting to measure up to Sukuna. He was far off from even touching the hem of Ryomenâs robes, but he was an entitled arrogant bastard. When the servant girl came, Yuji saw how she smiled at the scene. Yuji ran in blind, jumping and climbing the manâs back, wrapping his arms around his neck and biting into his shoulder. The man screamed and tried to pull Yuji free. He couldnât do it alone so the servant girl tried, you fought harder when you saw how she was shaking him around. You broke free from the man's grip pulling Yuji free from her before rushing screaming for Sukuna, all the eunuchs wouldnât be able to help you. The man grabbed your robes and Yuji fell from your arms, he watched his man lift you by the front of your robes and your hands, nails were digging into his wrist.
Why donât you use your technique mom!? DO SOMETHING! dads not he- âDomain Expansionâ the room went black, there was the sound of a drip and everything was dark, it felt hard to breathe, âCleave.â Your eyes widened before you shoved the man off of you. You heard the squelch and thud of a body, and the crashing and cracking of the walls to your shrine being torn apart. Turning to look you saw Yuji, his hand sign was opposite his fathers, but he looked livid. His face was covered in markings mirroring his fathers more human form. You wanted to say something, but you turned to the gaping wall. The Cursed man was laying in the dusty street, he was sliced deeply but not fatally. The servant didnât stand a chance. She was sliced finely for betrayal. Watching a crowd gather you pulled Yuji with you to see if the cursed man was alive. He was laying there, unfocused, he saw you and yelled âILL FUCKING KILL YOU AND YOUR DAMN CHILD I AM THE ONE DESTINED FOR GREAT I WILL BE THE KING OF CURSES YOU BOTH WILL DIE AT MY HANDS,â before forcing himself up, chest, arms, and waist crossed with deep gashes.
He tried to lift his hands only to realise they werenât there, his arms were gone. Yuji was mad that a man would try to take advantage of his mother, but as long as his father wasnât there he would be there, but for now, a low chuckled rumbled behind the man, âYouâll need your hands to even think about laying them on my wife and son.â Sukuna wrapped his arm around the man from behind, large hand squeezing his neck, a low grumble, âYou arenât strong, youâre a fool and your brain is a pile of shit. You deserve only the worst death, but Iâm having a little fun here so Iâll make this slow and painful.â Uraume approached Sukuna holding out his staff. Sukuna stabbed it into the ground piercing the man on the pointed edges, letting him sink down until it pierced through his chest. There the cursed man screamed and no matter how much he squirmed and begged for mercy Sukuna would push him down further. The man begged for mercy, for him to stop, âDid you listen to my wife when she asked you to stop?â He took the manâs jaw in his hand forcing him to look up at him, the pressure slowly fracturing his jaw as he shook his head no trying to profusely apologise. Sukunas nails dug into his face before he let go, âDid you have mercy on my wife when you grabbed her like this?â His large hand crushed the man's throat, nails digging into his skin, blood flowing, âWHEN MY WIFE TRIED TO PUSH YOU AWAY DID YOU WALK AWAY? NO YOU TRIED TO TOUCH HER LIKE THIS.â Sukuna placed his hand on the manâs chest, âdishonourable actions will be paid for with blood.â The crowd was watching when Sukuna drove his hand into the manâs chest squeezing his heart in his chest, the man screamed and gurgled as he spat up blood. Sukuna ripped out his heart throwing it on the ground and ripping off his head crushing his skull in his head, âLet this be a warning to every human in the vicinity, in this city in the existence of this time, that any man or woman who would act to lift a hand against my child or wife, your blood will be spilled to atone your sins.â
The crowd quickly cleared out and Sukuna turned to you, Yuji still had the markings on his face, his eyes were red. Sukuna nodded, holding an arm out to you. Pushing Yuji ahead of you, you started to tear up, hugging your husbandâs side. Yuji was hugging your side. âRyo-â he shushed you using a hand to press your face against his chest. Burying your face against his hot skin your body wanted to tremble while you cried into the comforting of your husband but his presence was reassuring as surprising as it might sound. He rubbed his warm hand up and down your back âIâm here now.â He rested his chin on top of your head, he looked down at Yuji pulling him into his other side ruffling his hair. âYou did good kid.â Yuji still looked serious before he leaned into his dads side with a slight smile. He went over to hug you, you took hold of him and he didnât let go until you stopped sniffling. He smiled up at you, puffy eyes and red cheeks, Sukuna snickered, pinching your cheek making a joke, Yujiâs bright smile didnât falter, âI still think youâre pretty.â Your sudden laugh made your husband and son laugh. Kneeling down you pinched both of Yujiâs cheeks lightly as he laughed, before cupping his face in both hands bringing him close to kiss both of cheeks and forehead calling him âMy Little Protector.â He smiled with pride before you got up smiling at Sukuna, he sides eyed you before sighing leaning to the side giving you his face, âand my big hero.â Cupping his face you brought him into a kiss and he smirked against your lips when Yuji let out a loud âeeeewwwwâ
âCmon Yu,â you held your hand out to him and he took it happily walking while holding your hand, âIâll be stronger next time!â
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Set Me Free || myg
min yoongi x female reader
Summary:Â Tired of being told how to live his life and unsure of where he stands in the world, Yoongi--your soulmate--yearns to be free. When you give him what he wants, it causes a rift in your relationship that seems irreparable. 12 years later, you find him back in your life. Can you mend your relationship? Do you even want to? Word Count:Â 14,377 Genre:Â friends to enemies to lovers, supernatural au, witch & familiar au, soulmate au, angst, fluff Warnings:Â death of a parent (brief mention), alcohol, soulmate breakup, smooching
Notes: banner by @itaeewon. thank you to @daechwitatamic and @oddinary4bts for beta-ing and listening to me struggle my way through this. as always. and extra thanks to ella for helping me write Yoongi's letters and to my friend tanya for giving me a super helpful base for the ending.
Itâs cold. The late autumn wind rustles through amber-brown-orange-yellow leaves, swirling the fallen ones into little tornadoes that scuttle across the pavement. The cold doesnât bother Yoongi, necessarily. Itâs been a while since heâs been here, in this town, on this street, but even after so much time, his body remembers the chill of November in the same way his feet remember the way to his destination. He shoves his hands deep into his pockets and pauses at the street corner.
Itâs strange being back here. Heâd once known this neighborhood so intimately, he could map it in his sleep. Not much has changed in the almost 13 years heâs been gone. The park on the corner is the same. The playground, massive to an eight-year-old with a near-infinite imagination, stands resolute, its plastic and paint sun-faded and weathered. Further up the block is the head of the trail that snakes its way through the forest, where heâd spent countless hours playing pirates as a kid and exploring as a teen. And there, at the end of the street, is his destination.
The closer he gets, the more his stomach roils with nerves. Thirteen years since heâd walked down this sidewalk. Thirteen years since heâd walked onto that front porch. Or rather, 12 years, 5 months, and 11 days.Â
But whoâs counting?
Thereâs a light on in the front room of the house, he can see it through the big window despite the shades being pulled closed. He hesitates. Heâs spent daysâno, weeksâplaying out in his head how this was going to go. In a moment, heâll know if any of those scenarios were correct. And frankly, right now, heâs terrified.Â
What if you start to cry? What if you slam the door in his face? What if you hug him? What if you yell at him? What if you donât answer? What if you want to talk? What if you never want to see him again? What if you invite him in? What if you have someone over?
He takes a deep breath and knocks.
It takes a second. He can hear shuffling around on the other side of the door, so he knows his knock was heard. But the longer it takes, the sweatier his hands get, and the more he considers turning and running away. The door opens before he can make a move.
You stand in the doorway, bathed in the warm light of the living room lamp behind you. And shit, Yoongi doesnât know what to say. In many ways, you havenât changed since the last time he saw you, but at the same time, you look so different. He can see in your eyes the moment the realization hits, and your expression changes drastically. You looked tiredâand Yoongi can sense that it goes deeper than just physical exhaustionâand you were slouching, but now, youâre standing ramrod straight, and thereâs a hard look in your eyes. One he knows all too well.
âHey.â He raises a hand, offers a wave that, in hindsight, is rather pathetic. You stare at him, unblinking, and slowly, he lowers his hand. âI uh⌠I heard about your parents,â he says softly, scuffing his shoe against the wood of the porch. âIâm sorry you have to go through it.â
âBrave of you to show up.â You sound almost bored, but Yoongi knowsâhe senses, in that kind of primal, gut feeling he gets when it comes to youâthat itâs an act. âYou know I could turn you into a bug and squash you if I wanted to.â
âI know.â
Thereâs a tense moment where you stare at each other, the scowl you wear pulling your lips downward and creasing your brow. But then you heave an exhausted sigh.
âWhy are you here, Yoongi?â
âIâŚâÂ
I want to apologize.Â
Iâm so sorry.
I miss you.
It all catches in his throat. He coughs in a meager attempt to entice somethingâanythingâto come out of his mouth. âI wanted you to have this.â
He holds out his hands, and in an instant, heâs holding a box. Itâs full but not heavy, and he thrusts it out in front of him in your direction.
âA 10-year-old shoebox?â You do nothing to mask your surprise.Â
âLetters,â he corrects. âYou donât have to read them but⌠I wanted you to have them.â He pushes the box into your arms, leaving you no choice but to take it. Then, he steps away and nods his head. âThank you for not turning me into a bug. I am sorry about your parents. I⌠guess Iâll go.â
Without another word, he trots down the porch steps. And then, in a blink, heâs gone. Disappeared into the night.
You sigh and shut the door, the box heâd given you cradled in the crook of your arm. You donât have the energy for this right now. Honestly, you arenât sure that youâll ever have the energy for it, but certainly not the day before your parentsâ funeral.
Whoever had decided that witches and their familiars die together clearly never thought of the ones left behind.
You collapse onto the couch, placing the box beside you. This would be easier if you werenât alone. It would be easier with Yoongi, your brain supplies less than helpfully. You curse yourself. You curse him. After all these years, you thought you were over it, over the abandonment, over the betrayal. But all it takes is for him to show his stupid face, and you can feel it all bubbling up anew. Angrily, you push the box off the couch. It explodes when it hits the floor, what seems like thousands of pieces of paper tumble out and scatter from the force.
The forest was almost silent as you stalked the trail. Not even the birds were happy that day. Twigs snapped under your feet. You werenât even paying attention to where you were going, your feet carrying you along the path that youâd hiked countless times before. You needed to get away, to escape, to calm down. But you couldnât, because what you were running away from was hot on your heels.
âWould you slow down?â You could hear the frustration in Yoongiâs voice as he followed you. You ignored him. âGoddamnit,â he breathed, picking up his pace. âWill you at least listen to me?â
Quite frankly, you didnât care what he had to say in that moment.
âIt wouldnât be a permanent thing,â he continued. âI just⌠I donât know. I need to do this.â
You stopped, sliding a little on the damp new growth below your feet. âWhat the fuck are you talking about? Youâre not being oppressed, Yoongi. No oneâs stopping you from going out and exploring the world.â
âMaybe this way of life isnât for everyone. Maybe not everyone wants their whole existence to be predetermined at birth. Maybe not everyone wants the universe to choose who theyâre supposed to be with and how theyâre supposed to live.â
His words stung, and until then, you werenât quite sure why. Rejection. Not just of how you lived, and who he was, and how things had always been. But of you. Yoongi was your familiar, you were destined to be together in some way since you were six years old and the bond gem first appeared. Not all witches and familiars were in romantic relationshipsâyour parents were, sure, and Yoongiâs parentsâbut plenty of them had other partners, lives separate from each other. Platonic soulmates navigating the world together.
Until a few months before, youâd been content with that. There was no doubt youâd been best friends from the jump. Youâd been practically inseparable through school. Then, months before, heâd kissed you at the winter market. Right there in the park, under the aurora. Before that, you hadnât thought of him as any more than your best friend. But the kiss had unlocked something inside you. And nowâŚ
Now he wanted you gone.Â
âYou want to be free that badly?â By some miracle, your voice sounded positively venomous, even though you felt like you could crumble at any moment. âFine.â
âWh-â
Thereâs a saying your mother told you once, back when you were a child. You and Yoongi had found a turtle in the woods, stuck in the mud. His little turtle leg had been hurt, and youâd rushed it to your mother immediately. Familiars were excellent with animals, and she was no exception, healing the turtle in days when it should have taken weeks. You and Yoongi had both cried when you had to release it back into the wildâyouâd both so wanted it to be your friend. âIf you love something, set it free,â your mother had said, âSometimes itâs the kindest option.â
Kinder for whom?
The chain around your wrist snapped easily when you wrapped your fingers around it. The incantation meant to keep the bond gem safe became meaningless as soon as you wanted it gone. You couldnât remember the last time youâd been without it around your wrist. You loved it, with its gem of swirling, inky black and navy blue. It reminded you so much of Yoongi, deep and calm and unwavering.Â
Without a word, you tossed the bracelet to the ground. Yoongiâs eyes widened as it hit and the gem cracked. For good measure, you stepped on it, crushed it into dust. There was a pitiful swirl of blue magic that puffed up from the dirt. When you moved your foot, there was nothing left of the bond gem or its chain.
âWhat the fuck?â Yoongiâs eyes were glassy when you finally looked at him. He looked almost as crushed as you felt. âWhat the fuck?â
âYouâre free.â And this time, you couldnât hide your sadness behind your anger.Â
He didnât follow you as you walked away, and honestly, it was for the best. It was faint, but you could still feel his emotions, and you werenât sure you could handle that kind of heartache in person.
There is paper everywhere. Hundreds of pieces, folded neatly in thirds. You have no idea how Yoongi had fit them all into the shoebox. He mustâve enchanted it. Groaning, you start to pick them up.Â
Letters, heâd said. You flip through some as you gather them up. Now that theyâre on the floor, they arenât in any particular order, but it quickly becomes clear that these letters span years. There are some from 12 years ago, written shortly after heâd left. Some are more recent. You stare at one, from December of the year he left. Glancing through it, you expect it to unearth your anger, your rage. But it doesnât. Just like seeing him again, all Yoongiâs letter brings is sadness. Grief.
Youâd spent the past 12 years grieving. Sure, he hadnât died, but when he left, youâd lost the closest relationship you would ever have. In 17 years, youâd grown so accustomed to having him there, that when he was gone, there was a Yoongi-sized hole left in your life that you had to learn to fill. And you did your best, sewing yourself back together and moving on. But it wasnât the same.
Glancing through his letter, it seems you werenât the only one struggling. You arenât sure if thatâs a comfort or not.
Itâs been almost a year since the night marketâone year since everything started crumbling around us. I still remember it like it was yesterday. It felt right in the moment, didnât it? I really thought you would understand.
Iâve tried to figure out where things went wrong. But shit, I canât wrap my head around it. Why did you react like that when I told you I just wanted to be free?
At the end of the day, I guess we didnât understand each other as much as I thought we did. As much as this bond brings us together, I guess it doesnât reveal everything. But⌠that night I just wanted to kiss you, and so I did. Maybe it was selfish. Sometimes I wish the bond didnât exist, that we could just be free to choose things for ourselves. That we weren't forced into what the universe wants from us⌠Maybe thatâs selfish, too.
Why couldnât you understand? I just wish I could turn back time and make you understand. Maybe then you wouldnât hate me, and maybe then Iâd stop hating myself too.
Because watching you destroy the gem nearly killed me, but it wasnât half as bad as watching you walk away. Should I have run after you?Â
Would you still be there if I had?
You sigh and lean back against your couch. That damn night market. You hadnât been back to it since the year heâd kissed you. Itâs silly, but a part of you blames it for everything that happened. Because Yoongiâs letter is right. It had marked the beginning of everything going wrong. It wouldnât change anything, but thereâs a part of you that wonât listen to logic, that refuses to believe that maybe, if he hadnât kissed youâif you hadnât kissed him backâhe wouldnât have left.Â
The night market was beautiful. It always was, but that year was particularly beautiful. The park had been decorated in all of its sparkling, winter glory. Candles twinkled in the trees, suspended by sheer force of will. Through some magic you werenât familiar with, theyâd enchanted the sky, and an aurora shimmered far above, slowly swirling in greens and blues and purples. Snow fell gently, and you werenât sure if it was natural, or if it was also magic.Â
You browsed the various tents and tables, going from one to the other to see the different things people were selling. Some had crafts, others baked goods, and some were even selling things like potion ingredients and spellbooks. There were a few tables dedicated to familiarsâbooks on shifting and specialty items and insets and jewelry for bond gems.
Yoongi followed you closely, clutching a hot chocolate. You knew he wasnât cold, the temperature was nowhere near low enough for either of you to be uncomfortable, but the way his fingers tapped against the paper cup, you knew something was up. You could sense his anxiety, could feel it in the pit of your own stomach.
âWant to go sit?â you asked softly, gesturing over to the picnic tables theyâd set up under one of the sparkling trees.Â
His eyes widened. âNo, thatâs okay. Youâre looking.â
âIâm done. Letâs go sit.â
âI-â He deflated a little and didnât argue further, allowing you to lead him over to one of the tables.Â
You sat side by side on the bench, backs against the table, and watched the snow fall around you. The night was peaceful, quiet for the most part except for the occasional laughter that bubbled up. Most of the older crowd had left, leaving only the teens and young adults to explore the market. You watched the other festival goers in silence, Yoongiâs arm pressed against your own.
âYou okay?â you asked softly, bumping your shoulder into his own.
Yoongi being quiet was nothing new. He was an observer, a listener, he took in information like a sponge. Which wasnât to say that he was never loud and boisterous, that he didnât talk incessantly to the people he cared about. But he was absolutely the calmest presence youâd ever been around, even compared to the adults in your life.
But you could sense what he was feeling, could feel his nerves and unease and conflict. And you knew that heâd rather explode than burden anyone with his feelings. So you prodded. Ever so gently. Because he was your best friend, and when he was suffering, you were too.Â
He stayed quiet, and when you turned to look at him, he was much closer than you were expecting. A moment passed. You shared a look. Youâd always thought that Yoongiâs eyes were pretty, but in the twinkling light of the candles above, they were deep pools of warm, dark cedar and flecks of honey. Slowly, subtly, he leaned inâor maybe you did, you werenât sureâ as though some mysterious force was drawing you together. An emotion flashed in his eyes, but you couldnât quite take the time to consider what it may have been because he was kissing you. Lips chapped from the bitter wind moulded against your own for the shortest of moments. It was tentative and delicate and brief, but as he pulled away, your mind reeled.Â
That day had affected you in ways you never would have expected. Before, youâd never considered Yoongi as anything more than your best friend, the platonic other half of yourself. And then the kiss, and suddenly, it was like youâd been awakened. For as long as you could remember, your thoughts had been filled with Yoongi. Of the things he liked, the things he didnât, of spending time with him, of the academy (with him). Suddenly, you were suspecting that maybe there was more to that, more than just the bond of a witch and their familiar.
You sigh. The letters are all finally back in the box, though nowhere near as nicely as theyâd been before youâd kicked it and it had exploded. You should get up. You should go to bed. You have to be up fairly early for the funeral. But you stay seated, the box of letters in your lap.
Seeing him again was hard. Youâre willing to admit that. Youâd spent 12 years convincing yourself that you were fine, harboring anger and resentment and frustration, all for it to melt away the second you saw him. The bond makes it tough to stay mad at him, but it doesnât let you forget the betrayal.
You stand out of the way, looking out over the funeral attendees in the park. Your parents didnât have a lot of friends, but there are enough people here that youâd officially call it a crowd. Theyâre all minglingâyouâd bought beer and wine, and if you didnât know any better, it could maybe be a party and not a wake. You tighten your fist around the bond gem in your hand. For as long as you could remember, your dad had worn it around his neck, tucked under his shirt. The gem is like your motherâbright pink, fiery orange, deep yellowâand when you were a child, youâd loved to look at it, mesmerized by the swirling, glittering colors.Â
The gems have always been a gift from a familiar to their witch, given to symbolize the soulmate-like bonds between them. Most witchesâespecially those who were romantically involved with their familiarsâwear them as jewelry. They donât really do anything, though some people claim it made their magic stronger (you arenât really sure about that, seeing as most gems appear in childhood).
As a child, you hadnât been particularly close with your parents. Especially as a teen, you would have much rather hung out with Yoongi than them. But they were kind, and supportive, and for the most part, they left you to do your own thing. Theyâd been almost as devastated as you when youâd crushed your bond gem.
Days after your fight with Yoongi, the doorbell rang. Your mother had opened the door. You were upstairs. Youâd stayed home from school that dayâsick, but not in the way the administrators would have accepted. For a few brief moments, youâd ignored whatever visitor was downstairs. But then-
âSheâs not here.â Your motherâs voice drifted up to you. She sounded disappointed.
âPlease.â It was Yoongi, youâd recognize his baritone from miles away.
Quietly, youâd slipped out of your room and crept down the hall, sitting at the top of the stairs. You could hear your mother sigh, could see her shift her weight from one foot to the other. Your father appeared from the kitchen and joined your mother at the door.
âI donât think thatâs a good idea right now,â he said, shaking his head. He leaned against the doorknob, pulling it a little more shut in the process so it blocked you completely from the doorâs sight.
A long moment of silence passed before your mother called, âYoongi?â You couldnât hear his responseâhe must have already gone down the porch steps. Your mother continued, âIt can be scary, and youâre both still young. Give it time.â
The door shut quietly, and both of your parents looked to where you were sitting. You could see it in both of their eyes. Sadness, but something else. Something that looked a little close to pity.
A laugh draws your attention, and you smile sadly as you watch your motherâs coworkers laugh at some memory. But then you notice, just behind them, a shadow close to the ground and suddenly, youâre distracted all over again. Because there, half-hidden by a bush, sits a black cat. Cedar and honey eyes watch you intently, its dark fur swirling and shining like a thousand galaxies. Your hand tightens around your parentsâ bond gem, the chain pressing sharply into the flesh of your hand.
He doesnât move, just sits there patiently. Watching. Heâs there as people approach you, offering condolences and hugs that you donât particularly want; heâs there when people start trickling out. And heâs there when youâre the last one left, all alone under the large oak tree in the center of the park.Â
Itâs quiet as you stand there, staring down at the bond gem in your hands. This is the part youâve been dreading. Because you donât want to keep the damn thingâyou could if you wanted to, but thereâs also tradition to think about. But itâs also weird to give up the one thing that is so emblematic of your parents. You wonder if theyâd felt like this when your grandparents had died.Â
At least theyâd had each other during it.
You can sense him approach, even though his steps are completely silent. And though he comes closer, he keeps his distance. On one hand, you appreciate it. On the otherâŚ
âIf youâre going to be here, the least you could do is be here,â you say quietly, looking down at the gem in your hand. It sparkles a little in the light.
Thankfully, he doesnât ask you to explain. He takes a few slow steps forward until heâs standing beside you. Itâs weird, having him this close again. Youâd been too overwhelmed last night to actually observe, but now, youâre exhausted, yet alert.Â
His hair is longerâas a teen, heâd kept it short, but the ends curl and sit just above his shoulders now. Heâs filled out and put on some muscle, and though heâs still a little on the lankier side, his shoulders have broadened. He wears cologne now, the scent light, like lavender, citrus, and sage. So much has changed, and yet itâs the same eyes that watch you with a soft curiosity.
You look up to the tree, watch its branches wave in the wind. You used to think that the centenarian boughs touched the sky, and even still, it towers above everything else in the park. The leaves sparkle, their iridescence catching the light to make the tree look like something out of a fairy tale. You sigh and tighten your fist around your parentsâ bond gem one more time before opening your hand.
At first, nothing happens, but then the gem glistens and rises out of your grasp. It joins the other leaves close to the top of the tree, becoming just another sparkle in the prism.Â
For a while, not even the birds make a noise. You just stand there, looking up at the tree that has stood sentinel over most of your life. The wind rustles the leaves, and they shimmer as they move. You have no idea how many leaves are up there, how many bond gems have been placed over time. Thousandsâmaybe hundreds of thousandsâof witches and their familiars, most forgotten to the annals of time.
Itâs strange, knowing that you would never be memorialized by the tree.
âLet me buy you a coffee,â Yoongi whispers from beside you, husky baritone cutting through the silence.
Yoongi isnât sure why you say yes, but soon enough, youâre walking into the Green Bean just behind him. Heâs uncomfortable, people have been watching you since the park, and their stares are starting to burn holes in his back. He says nothing about it until youâre in line at the cafe.
âWhat are they staring at?â he whispers, leaning close so that only you can hear in the semi-busy cafe. He chooses to ignore how you tense up ever so slightly.
âYouâve been gone for 12 years, what did you expect?â
Right. He supposes he should have expected their animosity. But itâs not just him theyâre watching. He doesnât miss the way people stare at you, watch you warily as you simply exist. His mind races. Was that his fault? Did his absence cause so many unintended consequences?
You order a coffee and choose a table in the far corner of the cafe, away from everyone but still near the window. He sits in the chair across from you, the hard metal shockingly comfortable despite its harsh lines. An awkward silence settles over you both, but Yoongiâs not sure what to say, so he lets it linger. He watches you stare out the window. Which is a little weird, right? But he canât bring himself to drag his gaze away. Itâs like after 12 years of being away, he just wants to look at you.
The barista calls out your orders and Yoongi stands to grab both of them from the counter. He places one oversized ceramic mug down in front of you, and the other, he wraps his hands around. Itâs warm, almost hot, and he dares not take a drink yet. You stare down at the foam on top of your drink, one finger hooked around the handle of the cup.
âWhat happened to them?â he asks softly. When you look up, surprised, he clarifies. âYour parents, I mean. I⌠didnât hear how theyâŚâ
You sigh, tap your mug. He can sense the deep sadness you struggle with and is just about to tell you to forget he asked when you speak. âI always kind of thought it would be dad whoâd go first.â Your voice is barely above a whisper. âHe was always so frail when we were kids. But mom got sick last year andâŚâ You shrug. âOne of the neighbors found them.â
âIâm so sorry.â You wave him off. âNo. Honestly. They were nice.â
âThanks.â
He nods, and silence settles again. But then something you said pops into his mind, striking him as strange. âYou arenât living here anymore?â Mentally, he slaps himself. Why did it come out like heâs surprised? He supposes that heâs always just kind of pictured you still⌠here, in town.
âIâm over in Ashland,â you say, generally gesturing west, toward the city. âI work at the library at the university.â
âYeah?â He raises his eyebrows. âHowâs that?â
You shrug. âMostly good. Itâs a job. The libraryâs usually pretty quiet, soâŚâ
âThatâs really cool.â
Ashland is big, much bigger than here in square feet and at least 10 times the people. Itâs a real city, with skyscrapers and functioning public transportation and one of the countryâs top medical universities. Heâs proud of you, he realizes. Youâd always planned to leave for the city, too constrained by life in such a small town. For the longest time, heâd planned on going with you. And then, of course, heâd ruined it. It stings a little to know that youâd gone without him like that, that your life had continued as planned, that maybe he hadnât meant that much in the grand scheme of things.
But then your eyes meet, and heâs confronted by the anxiety and sadness youâre feeling, and he knows heâs just being stupid. Again.
âSo, uhâŚâ He feels a wave of nerves wash over himâthey arenât his own. You tap your half-empty mug. âWhat have you been up to?â
If heâs honest, Yoongi wasnât expecting you to ask about him. Heâs shocked enough that youâd even agreed to be here, let alone that you were interested in his life. âI was traveling,â he starts cautiously, gauging your reaction. You blink slowly, watching his every move. If you can sense his apprehension, you donât react. âBut now Iâm up north in Ulmae. Iâve got a pretty good thing going at this restaurant on the North Shore.â
âYeah?â
âYeah, uhâŚâ He chuckles, a little nervous. âTheyâve got me bartending on the weekends and let me do music during the week.â
Your eyes widen a little, and you lean forward. âThey let you play?â
âItâs only like an hour a night-â
âNo, shut up. Thatâs amazing!â You grin, big and genuine, but Yoongi can sense a tinge of sadness in it.Â
Heâs disappointed when you both finish your coffees and you stand up to put your cup in the little tub by the counter. Itâs starting to get late, the sun is starting to set and the streetlights have turned on. It was nice, catching up with you, short though it may have been. Itâs not lost on him how strange it is, having to catch up with someone that was once practically a part of him.Â
Together, you stand outside in the chilly early evening air, looking down the street toward the park. Over the roofs of the shops and houses, Yoongi can just barely see the centinel tree with its sparkling leaves. People walk pastâpeople he recognizes but couldnât possibly nameâsome are more subtle about it, but others practically break their necks to stare at the two of you. Suddenly, Yoongi feels exposed outside the cafe, like there are eyes everywhere. He hates this, hates feeling like heâs doing something wrong just for wanting to talk to you more.
You sigh, scuff your shoe against the concrete of the sidewalk, shove your hands deep into the pockets of your dark jeans. âI⌠probably shouldnât even ask,â you start warily. âBut do you want to come back for a drink?â
The house is the same, yet somehow also different, like one of those spot the difference puzzles come to life. The layout of the living room is the same, but the couch is a different style and color. Thereâs a blanket folded the same way under the coffee table, but itâs clearly a different pattern than he remembers. Most of the photos are the same, but there are 12 yearsâ worth of more of them.Â
Apparently, the stash of alcohol your father kept in the built in cabinet beside the television hasnât changed.
You pull out a bottle of whisky and two glasses, setting them on the coffee table with a gentle âclink.â The shoebox heâd given you sits on the floor. The lid is off, the letters contained within are a mess. Have you read them, or did they spill out? Thereâs no way for him to really know.Â
Silently, you hand him a glass and sit on the other side of the couch, grabbing one of the throw pillows to hug in your lap. You sip at the double in your glass stoically, and for a moment, you stare at him. He has to resist the urge to squirm under your gaze. Thereâs something different about how youâre sitting, something in your aura that he didnât notice in the cafe. Maybe youâd been saving it for private, but he can sense that youâre reining your emotions in.Â
But then finally, after what feels like an eternity, you turn over your hand. Two pieces of paper sit in your palm. âIâm going to need you to explain these.â The two letters float over to him and open themselves in front of him.
The first is dated only a few years after heâd left.
Iâve been struck by a thought. I had tacos earlier, and I just know you would have loved them. Which made me realize that thereâs still part of me that thinks about you at every turn. Your friendship was such an integral part of my life, and not having it anymore feels like thereâs a piece missing. Last week it was a song on the radio. Before that, a stray cat I saw that I know for certain you would have loved. Everything reminds me of you, everything leads back to you. Youâre everywhere and nowhere, andâŚ
I would like to see you again. Someday.Â
How have you been doing? Where has your life taken you? I can only hope itâs treated you kindly. Itâs what you deserve.
The other is from the day he turned 25.
A quarter of a century, and for some reason I feel incredibly old. With it comes some realizations, things I didnât understand before. Maybe I was too young, too blinded by my own need to feel free⌠but it never was about being free from you. I canât even begin to imagine how hurtful it must have been for youâŚ
I never wanted to make you feel like I was giving up on you, like I didnât want you. I never wanted to make you feel rejected, because it wasnât you I was trying to be free from.
I was so scared of having my whole life laid out in front of me. I never took the time to think what my life could be with the bondâI only ever thought about what the bond meant for my life. All of the expectations, what comes with being a familiar, our roles in society and the universeâŚ
I realize now that I could haveâshould haveâcommunicated it all better. If only so that I wouldnât have lost you. So that it wouldnât have led to me making you feel like I was rejecting you. Maybe it wouldnât have mattered; at the end of the day I was still walking away from you. But at least maybe I could have made it more clear that it was never you that I wanted to be free from.
Iâm sorry. I feel like itâs useless to say, but I am so sorry for not realizing any of this before.
Wherever you are, I hope youâll understand. Take care until I see you again.
I hope I see you again.
Yoongi sighs. The lettersâall of them, not just these twoâtended to be rambling diatribes, a snapshot of his thoughts as he worked through his feelings about his own life and everything and you. Heâd been an idiot when he leftâhe was 17 and full of himself and terrified of the world but too proud to admit itâand it had taken him far too long to realize a lot of important things.
For a moment, itâs quiet as he thinks of what to say. How should he even begin? But apparently, heâs quiet for too long, because you wave your hand and the letters fold themselves back up and float back down to the shoebox. When you speak, you sound exhausted. âWhy are you here, Yoongi?â
âI-â
âBecause if the roles were reversed, I donât know that Iâd have the balls to come back. On one hand, Iâm impressed. On the otherâŚâ You trail off and shrug.
Heâs quiet, not sure how to respond. Heâs got lots of thoughts, lots of feelingsâof course he doesâbut right now, youâre a wall, and heâs not sure how to read the situation. Heâs not sure what you need to hear right now. So he says nothing.
You laugh, but thereâs no humor in it, and you look down at the glass in your hand, stare into the dregs of the amber whisky youâve nearly finished. âIâm running on like two hoursâ sleep,â you admit. âBut fuck, Yoongi, I⌠I was so convinced that Iâd never see you again. I wasnât sure I wanted to.â Then, softer. âIâm still not sure.â
âWhy?â Itâs out of his mouth before he can even think and god, he just wants the Earth to open up and swallow him whole.
It takes a second for you to process his absolute trash heap of an asinine question. But when you do, your face contorts into somewhere between anger, disappointment, and heartbreak. âWhat do you mean, âwhyâ?â You practically spit the question at him. âYou⌠you⌠Do you know what itâs like to have the most important person in your life tell you that he wants rid of you?â
âI never said-â
âYou wanted to be free. From all of it. From me.â You pick at the corner of the pillow in your lap. âAnd then you just come back out of the blue like nothing happened and drop this damn shoebox at my feet-â from where it sits on the floor, the shoebox explodes, letters flying everywhere, â-and you just⌠What did you expect, Yoongi? What do you want?â
âI donât know!â He sounds a little desperate when he says it, and he hates that, hates how pathetic it makes him sound. So he shrugs, takes a deep breath, leans back a little. âI donât know,â he repeats. âI just⌠I missed you. And then mom told me about your parents, andâŚâ He runs a hand through his hair, pushing it back off his forehead and out of his eyes. âAnd then I was on a train.â
You stare at him for a moment, a little gobsmacked. You have no idea how to respond. What do you say to that? Where do you even start? There are a hundred things you could say. Youâve played this scenario out a thousand times in your head over the yearsâwhat would you do if he came back?âbut somehow, it never played out like this. In your mind, heâd never told you that he missed you.
Youâd never considered that he would miss you.
But you should say something, right? Itâs weird that youâre sitting there, just staring at him in complete silence. Has your jaw been clenched the whole time? Does he think youâre angry with him? Quickly, you school your face into something a little more neutral and say the first thing that comes to mind.
âHow long are you here for?â
Truthfully, you probably should have asked sooner. Youâve been wondering since he showed up on your doorstep last night, but it never seemed like a great time to ask.
He sighs. ââTill tomorrow.â
You nod, probably longer than it makes sense to, but it takes you a bit to process. Tomorrow. Heâs back in your life for two days, and then heâs gone again. Thatâs not even enough time to catch up, let alone actually talk with him. And thatâs⌠you arenât sure how to feel.Â
Yoongi watches you quietly and takes a sip of his drink. Heâs barely touched it. âMaybeâŚâ he says after a moment, leaning forward to put his glass on the coffee table. âMaybe I should go?â
Part of you wants to tell him no, to ask him to stay, to tell you more about his gig working at the bar. Anything to keep him here and talking to you. But thereâs a more logical part of you thatâs overwhelmed, that needs some time to think. Heâs offering to go, which means that heâs either uncomfortable or his train leaves early in the morning. Or both. He stands, thanks you for the drink, and you follow him to the door. He hesitates just outside, opens his mouth as if to say something and closes it almost as quickly.
You say nothing. And for the second time in as many days, you watch him leave without another word.
The playground was almost empty. Mama said it was supposed to rain, but sheâd also said that you would go anyway, for a little bit. You were trying to learn how to swing on your own, and plus Yoongi and his mom were going to be there, and heâd said heâd bring his trucks to play in the sand.Â
But he wasnât there yet, so you were on the swing. Mama pushed you, her hand firm on your back, and you closed your eyes. You were flying, wind in your face as you launched forward into the air. And then, just as suddenly, you were falling, swinging backward.
âRemember what I said,â mama said softly. âKick your legs.â
You werenât quite sure what she meant by that. Your legs were little, and when you kicked out, you felt more like you were going to slide out of the swing seat than anything. You heard her laugh a little, but her hand was on your back once again, propelling you forward.Â
A few minutes passed in a blur of forwards and backwards. You still didnât quite understand the whole swinging on your own thing, but mamaâs rhythmic pushes kept you going. But then, a small voice at the edge of the playground yelled your name, and you heard excited footsteps in the wood chips. Mama helped you slow to a stop, and you jumped off the swing.
A little boy, his dark hair cut short by his own mom, ran toward you. He was carrying an armful of small cars and larger trucks. He skidded to a stop in front of you, a wide, gummy grin engulfing his face and crinkling the corners of his eyes.
âI brought all my trucks!â he announced, looking down at the toys in his arms. âYou can be the green one. Here.â He tried to hand it to you, and another fell in the process.
You picked it up and took the green truck from him. It was bright greenâthe same shade as the lime popsicles Yoongiâs mom usually boughtâand it had big wheels. You followed him to the sandbox and you both plopped down. It didnât take long to have a whole city constructed. Granted, it was all made from rocks and wood chips and other small things you found around the sandbox. But it was a city and it was beautiful.
Yoongi drove his truck over a bump, making engine noises as he pushed it toward you. As he drove the truck down another sand hill, bumping and bouncing it over sticks and rocks, something fell out of the sleeve of his jacket. It was perfectly round, and it rolled to a stop in front of you. You picked it up and inspected it. It was some kind of rock, hard and shiny, but it was also colorful, and you were pretty sure rocks couldnât be blue.Â
One look at the rock and he frowned, calling for his mom. She came over immediately and crouched down to see what he was so concerned about. Your mama followed her, and she was the one that saw the rock in your hand first.
âOh,â she said, her hand gently smoothing down your hair. âYou two have found your gem.â
âWhaâs that mean?â Yoongi asked, looking up at his mom.Â
She smiled and sat in the sand beside him, pulling him into her lap. She held out her arm, twisted her bracelet around so that he could see it. âYou know how I have this from your dad? Itâs like that.â
âBut-â
âYour friendship is special,â she continued, pinching his cheek. Yoongi laughed. âIt means youâve gotta look out for each other now.â
For a moment, he was quiet. But then he nodded, just once. âOkay!â He held out his hand to you, tiny palm face up. âCan I have it?â
âItâs not yours anymore,â his mom said softly, brushing his short hair back. âItâs a gift.â
You looked to your mama and she nodded. âTake care of it,â she told you. âYou only get one.â
Middle school was the worst. Everything was difficult. Social situations, interactions with your parents, school. At the time, it all seemed like it was unfairly hard. Making it worse, of course, was getting sick. As a kid, you were never sick that often. Yoongi was a different story. For whatever reason, familiars were just more susceptible to illness, and when he got sick, he got sick.Â
It was the middle of the semester, and Yoongi hadnât been to school in days. Your teachers hadnât even asked, theyâd just started giving you packetsâhomework and printouts of their lessons and extra materialsâso he wouldnât fall behind. So you stopped by his house after school. His mom let you in, offering you some of the snacks she was making for Yoongi before you headed up the stairs to his room.Â
You knocked gently before entering. The knock was a politenessâyou were close enough with him and familiar enough with his room at this point in your life that you could just barge in without warning and you knew he wouldnât mind. He looked like hell, stuck in his bed buried in blankets. It was clear heâd had a fever at some point, because his hair looked damp and sweaty.Â
But he sat up when you walked in, coughing deeply before speaking. âYouâre going to get sick, too,â he protested weakly.Â
You waved him off. âEveryoneâs sick.â You pulled over his desk chair to the side of his bed and started to go through your bag. âMs. Miller gave me your math homework, but if you understand it, youâll have to explain it to me because I have no idea what sheâs talking about.â He giggled at that, gummy smile soon hidden by his hand as he coughed. âHereâs the novel for Brownâs class. She said sheâd talk to you about making up the paper when youâre back.â
It took a surprisingly long time to go through eight classesâ worth of homework and assignments, but youâd put sticky notes at the front of each packet explaining things, too, so the fact that he was half-asleep for most of your explanation didnât really matter.Â
âWill you stay?â he asked when you were done. âHelp me with some of this?â
âWhat happened to not wanting me to get sick?â you teased.
âI mean, you donât have to. If you want to go home, thatâs fine, too. I just-â He coughed, burying his face in his blankets.Â
âYou staying for dinner, hon?â Yoongiâs mom called from the bottom of the stairs.
âYes please!â you responded, shuffling through the stack of packets youâd brought for Yoongi. âWanna take a stab at math?â
Halfway through the fall of your senior year, Yoongi started to get⌠weird. Cagey. Like he was trying to hide something and figure out particle physics at the same time. Youâd tried asking him about it a few times, only for him to wave you off with a quiet âjust thinking about some things.â After that, heâd be back to normal for a few days. But every time, like clockwork, he would fall back into it.
Finally, on the third day of the new year, he pulled you aside. Tucked back into the dormant foliage of the park, away from prying eyes, he stood, shifting his weight from one foot to the other. He was nervous, you could feel it deep inside you, but to be honest, you didnât really need your bond to tell you what was plain to see.Â
âIâŚâ He trailed off, unsure of how to continue. His brows furrowed in thought, and after a moment, he motioned for you to sit. âI need to tell you something.â
âOkay?â You sat on the edge of a big rock, confused.
âIâŚâ he started again, sitting beside you. You could feel a spike of nerves, and he took a breath to steady himself. âIâve been doing a lot of thinking, and I think⌠fuck, this is harder than I thought it would be.â
âYou can just say it,â you told him. âItâs just me.â
He nodded and mumbled something that sounded a lot like âthatâs the problem,â but after a moment, he continued. âI need to be free of all of this.â
âWhat?â
âHavenât you ever thought that maybe the universe doesnât know what itâs talking about? That maybe youâd be happier if you chose things for yourself?â He frowned. âThereâs rules for gifts. Weâre only good at certain types of magic because of how we were born. We have to celebrate holidays certain ways, we have to do specific things on our birthdays-â
â-and we get told who weâre to bond to.â
He recoiled at your words. âThatâs not-â
âBut itâs true, right?â Your gaze fell from him to your hands. âItâs just one more thing you donât get to control.â
Yoongi sighed. âI just⌠want to be able to choose for myself.â
Suddenly, you were sick to your stomach. This was the last thing youâd expected. You didnât particularly like all of the traditions, either, but you were 17. What the hell were you going to do about it? But this felt like he was saying he didnât want you. You hadnât yet talked about the kiss at the night market a few weeks prior, but youâd never guessed that heâd do such a sudden about-face.Â
âRight,â you said softly.
âJust⌠think about it?â he asked, dark eyes pleading.Â
You didnât like where this was going, didnât like how it made you feel. But you nodded anyway. Maybe he would change his mind.
Days gave way to weeks and months, and before you knew it, spring had come. Yoongi hadnât changed his mind. If anything, heâd gotten more insistent.Â
âI want to find myself,â heâd told you once. âI need to make sure this is how I want to live my life.â
âI just need to get away,â heâd said one day while you were doing homework together. âStart fresh somewhere new.â
And then, on the way home from school one day, heâd said, âI need to be free of it all.âÂ
And youâd snapped. Three months of hearing him talk about it, three months of him basically saying that your entire way of life was wrong and that he was chafing to get away. You couldnât help it.
âFuck off,â youâd told him, taking the trail behind the houses at a faster pace. Despite being so attuned with nature thanks to his familiar genes, heâd had trouble keeping up with you.
âWould you slow down?â You could hear the frustration in Yoongiâs voice as he followed you. You ignored him. âGoddamnit,â he breathed, picking up his pace. âWill you at least listen to me?â
Heâd pushed. And eventually, youâd given in. Because despite everything, youâd loved him, and if he was unhappy, you wanted to fix that. And nowâŚ
Now youâre sitting alone at the train station at ass oâclock in the morning. The train station has just barely opened, and already youâre inside, clutching a cup of coffee. There are a few other people here, milling around, waiting for their early trains to god knows where. You can feel them watching you, can feel them trying to make it subtle that theyâre staring. At this point, youâre used to it. Word travels fast in small towns, especially when that word is as earth-shattering as a broken bond gem and a falling out between a witch and their familiar.Â
You try to ignore them, focus on your coffee and the posters across the waiting area from you.Â
Report any unattended or suspicious luggage to National Rail personnel.
Bags larger than this poster must be checked into the trainâs luggage car.
Please remain seated until your train is announced and National Rail personnel give authorization to enter the platform.
You scroll through the news on your phone. Read the posters again. Stare out the window at the coffee shop across the street. And wait. A train arrives, and the couple that had been staring at you leaves. You sigh and stand to throw out your now empty cup.
Just as you do, the door to the train station opens. You turn to look, and there stands Yoongi. Heâs wearing a black shirt, a bag slung across his body. His hair is pushed back off his face and heâs wearing his glasses. Heâs clutching an absolutely massive travel mug and his phone in one hand, the other rolls a small suitcase behind him. He looks sleepy, but the second his dark eyes land on you, he jolts a little, as if electrocuted into being awake and alert.
âHey,â he says cautiously, approaching you.
âHey.â You wave slightlyâawkwardly.
âWhat are you doing here?â His voice is soft, still a little gruff from sleep. You get the sense that maybe he hasnât said much of anything to anyone this morning.
You sigh and gesture for him to follow you to a bench. The next trainâhis, you presumeâisnât due for another 20 minutes. You have time, but not much.
âI didnât like how we left things,â you admit. âI⌠I wasn't sure if you were serious.â
âSerious?â His head falls to the side slightly, confused. But then, it seems, he understands, and he nods. âI did miss youâI do. I spent the entire ride here thinking about how seeing you again was going to go.â
âWere you right?â
He chuckles. âNot exactly.â
You hum and nod, and for the briefest of moments, silence settles over you. The stationmaster types away at his computer, the clacking of the keyboard the only sound in the entire station. But then you force yourself to say something thatâs been on your mind since he showed up on your doorstep two days ago.
âItâs been good seeing you again,â you say, and even though you mean it, you canât bring yourself to look at him. âI⌠think in a way, after so long, I made you the villain in my head. Itâs good to see that youâre⌠not that.â
âI am sorry,â he whispers. âThat was the worst thing I have ever done, and I justâŚâ
âI get it.â
âWhat?â
âI think I kind of always did, but⌠it just hurt too much to think that you were including me in everything that you wanted to get away from, and I just-â
âYou were the last thing I wanted to get away from.â Maybe itâs the waver in his voice, maybe itâs the way he ducks his head to make sure he makes eye contact, but you believe him. He sits his mug down on the bench beside him and gathers your hands in his. âI was so fucking dumb. I would have taken you with me in a heartbeat, but god I was too stupid and selfish to take ten minutes to think.â
âI thought maybe Iâd done something,â you admit quietly. âI thought that maybe after the night market-â
âNo! Oh my god, no,â he exclaims, his hands tightening around your own. âYouâre my best friend! I lo-â
âTrain 49âthe Northern Limitedâwill be arriving on the platform in five minutes,â the stationmaster announces, not even bothering to use the buildingâs intercom. âIâll take you over to the platform when youâre ready.â
Yoongi groans.
âHere.â You pull your hands away from him and immediately miss the warmth of him. But you reach into your pocket, unlocking your phone and shoving it into his hands in one motion. âPut your number in.â
For a moment, he stares at you, dumbfounded. But then the stationmaster opens the door to his office, and the noise jolts Yoongi into action. He types quickly and hands you your phone. You donât even look at it, just lock it and shove it into your pocket. He hands you his phone and you enter your own contact information before giving it back.
You stand at the same time, and for one brief, quiet moment, you worry that maybe heâs just going to leave it at that. But then he rubs the back of his neck and glances toward the stationmaster.
âIâll text you,â he promises.
You nod, almost mechanically. You werenât expecting it to hurt this much to see him leave again. As he turns to gather his things, something comes over you.
âI- Can we-â You sigh, take a deep breath. âCan I have a hug?â
He makes a noise somewhere between a hum and a squeak, and it takes almost no time for the pink to start blossoming on his cheeks. He sputters for a second, and you can feel his shock. But then he opens his arms, and you find yourself taking a small step forward.
Itâs shockingly easy to fall back into him, to step into his arms. Heâs warm, and solid, but still also somehow soft. His cologne lingers on his clothes, all lavender-y and citrus-y and sage-y. Your arms fit around his waist, and for a moment, you let yourself pretend that this is normal, that nothing ever happened and that he isnât leaving. But you hear the train horn in the distance and you pull away. You kiss his cheek as you part, and his eyes go wide in shock.
âText me,â you tell him firmly, reaching down to grab his coffee mug and hand it to him.
âI will. I promise.â
And with one last, fleeting look, he steps onto the elevator with the stationmaster to go over to the platform.Â
You stand outside the station long after the train departs, feeling very much like you did when heâd left the first time. You should be feeling optimisticâfor the first time in a long time, you feel like maybe thereâs hope. For you, for your friendship, for⌠whatever comes next. But itâs hard to feel any sort of positive when heâs on a train back to a city seven hours away, and you have to go home in the exact opposite direction in a few short days.
As youâre walking back to your car in the lot down the street, your phone dings. When you unlock it, you get the sudden feeling that youâre flying, like a horde of butterflies have erupted within you. Itâs nerves and itâs excitement and maybe, itâs also a little bit of hope.
Yoongi đ: thanks again for not turning me into a bug
âIâve been thinking,â Yoongi says one late night, his deep, sleep-deprived voice distorted ever so slightly by the distance and the speakers of your phone. You can barely see himâthereâs a dim light that just slightly illuminates his face, but the rest of the room is dark.
âDangerous,â you joke.
âRude.â He nuzzles down further into his pillow. âIâd like to come visit,â he admits softly.
For a moment, your mind goes blank. Thereâs a fluttering in your stomach, hundreds of butterflies trying to escape at once. Heâd kept his word after the train station, texting and calling you frequently over the past couple weeks. Youâd text throughout the weekâlittle messages about bad days and delicious lunches and cute dogsâand then on the weekends, one of you would inevitably end up calling each other. Youâd spend hours on the phone, sometimes talking, sometimes just existing in the silence between you.Â
The video calls were a recent development. Since they began, youâd watched him cook dinner, heâd played piano while you worked on a spreadsheet for work, and one early morning, heâd called you on his way home after bartending so he wouldnât fall asleep on the train.
âWhat do you mean?â You laugh a little. Maybe it was a little obvious what he meant, but you wanted to hear him say it.
He groans a little, stretches one arm up before covering his eyes with it. He peeks out at you through the cook in his elbow, one singular, dark eye sparkling, even in the poor quality of the video. âI miss you,â he mumbles, and you almost donât catch it, itâs so muffled by his arm and your phoneâs speaker.
You hum. The butterflies in your stomach make themselves known again. âI guess you could come.â
âI donât have to if you donât want me to.â
âHey now. Itâs against the rules to take something like that back.â
He laughs. âWhat rules?â
âYou know. The rules.â You gesture vaguely before pulling your blanket up a little further on your body. âDonât tell me youâve forgotten the rules?â He grunts. âBeing away for so long has rotted your brain, Iâm afraid.â
âSo rude.â His arm is still obscuring his face slightly, but you can see his big, gummy smile as he laughs. âNo, but seriously. Are you busy next weekend?â
You frown. Youâd been trying to forget about next weekend. âNormally Iâd go home for the new year,â you say softly.
âWhy donât,â he begins, stifling a yawn. Youâre a little surprised heâs made it this long without seeming tired. Itâs almost 3am. âWhy donât I come hang out? We can do new yearâs stuff together.â
âYouâre sure?â
âOf course.â
âWhat about work?â
He shifts, the arm that was over his face now supporting his head under his pillow. âI make the schedule. Theyâll deal with it.â
âYoongi.â
He continues on, ignoring you. âI can work the day shift and get a train right after work on Friday, but I wouldnât get there until late, is that okay?â
You sigh. It would be nice to not spend the holiday alone. And it would be nice to see him again. Sure, youâve been talking to him in one way or another, but itâs different than having him in person. You finally agree, and he shoots you a smug, sleepy smile.
The week passes at a glacial pace. Work is slow because of the break in classes for the upcoming holiday, and spending time in an empty library is infinitely less entertaining than youâd expect it to be. Most of your coworkers have taken off, so youâre mostly alone with your thoughts. You fill the time with paperwork, completing literature loan requests for the Universityâs faculty and doing intake for the newly released journals the library has subscriptions for.Â
In the small handful of weeks since youâd seen him last, youâd replayed things in your mind. But mostly, youâve been stuck on how nice it is to have him in your life again. You arenât fooling yourself. You havenât forgotten. But thereâs a part of youâa large part, if youâre honest with yourselfâthat hopes that this is a step forward, that you can be close again. Maybe not how you were, but something that resembles a friendship.
After an eternity, itâs Friday. You sit outside of the train station in your car, parked in one of the pick up spots just outside of the main door. The trickle of people into and out of the station has slowed significantly now that itâs dark outâyouâve never seen it this dead. Itâs late, the station is getting ready to close, but thereâs one last train that has yet to come in. Thereâs another car parked a few spaces to your left, and you wonder briefly about who theyâre waiting to pick up, but itâs fleeting.Â
The door to the station opens automatically, and out steps Yoongi. He rolls a suitcase beside him, a messenger bag slung across his body, his other hand shoved deep into his hoodie pocket. He looks around, confused, his gaze going back and forth between your car and the one to your left. You turn on the dome light and wave and he nods.
He gives you a quick greeting as he opens the back door, shoving his bags in the back seat. When he finally climbs into the passenger seat, he sighs deeply, resting his head against the headrest for a moment before turning to you.
âHey,â he says softly.
âHey. How was the train?â
He groans. âLong.â
You hum. Heâd worked a short, early shift so he could catch the last train from Ulmae to Ashland. He looks and sounds exhausted. But heâs here. Heâs not a face on a screen, heâs in your car. You resist the urge to reach out and touch him. Itâs strange. Youâd been without him for nearly 13 years. Itâs only been a few short weeks since youâd seen him last, but youâre giddy, practically bursting with excitement at the fact that, for the next two and a half days, heâs here. With you.
You drive in relative silence, willing the lights to be green more for Yoongiâs sake than your own. The radio plays a soft hip-hop song, and you vaguely recognize it as one of the bands heâd been obsessed with in high school, but you donât turn it up. Youâre fairly certain that heâs fallen asleep, his head lolled slightly to the side so that heâs facing the window.
Itâs a damn miracle that thereâs an open spot in front of your building, but you gladly take it. There are people in your building who donât know how to parallel parkâwho refuse to do itâbut youâd taught yourself just for instances like this. For a moment, you think youâre going to have to wake Yoongi up, but just as you cut the engine, he unbuckles his seat belt and stretches.
Your apartment isnât large, but itâs bigger than most for what you pay for it. Youâre on the seventh floor, the top floor of the building, and your bedroom has a lovely view of the building beside you. But if you lean a little to one side and press your face up against the glass, you can see out into the city beyond, and the university campus in the far distance.
He sits his bags down in your living room and plops down on the couch. Youâve already set out some blankets and a couple pillows for him. The clock on your microwave says 11:05.
âYouâre probably exhausted,â you say. âIâll let you get settled.â
Immediately, he picks his head up from the back cushion of the couch. ââm not tired.â Ever defiant. But you can tell heâs lying. You can see it in his eyes how groggy he is. Normally, heâs up much later than thisâyou know, because sometimes, he calls youâbut between working an early shift and the six-hour train ride, you donât blame him for being a little sleepy.
âI put some towels out in the bathroom,â you tell him, gesturing down the hall. âItâs the door on the left. Let me know if you need anything else.â
âThanks.â
And with that, you leave him there in your living room. You can hear him unzipping his bag as you retreat into your room.
An hour later, you find that you canât sleep. Not that youâve even tried. You arenât even sure why youâre so wired. But youâre sitting in your bed, legs covered by a sheet, in the dim light of your bedside lamp. Youâve had friends stay over before. But this⌠you feel like you did as a kid, having your first sleepover. Except back then you were wired on soda and sugary snacks and it was a treat to stay up late. Now, youâre justâŚ
You hear the bathroom door open and shut, and after a moment, Yoongi stands in the doorway to your room.
âYou have the softest towels in the world,â he says, hair hanging in damp strands in front of his eyes. He pats and scrunches it dry with one of the fluffy grey towels youâd set out for him.Â
âWould you believe I got them on clearance?â
âIâll just have to stuff one in my bag, then.â
âI charge a 5% fee for any towels that leave the premises.â
At that, he laughs, a groggy, squeaky sound that shakes his shoulders and crinkles his eyes and leaves a wide, gummy smile in its wake.
âSo⌠whatâs the plan for tomorrow?â
âI havenât really thought about it.â He shoots you a look that says he doesnât believe you, and you relent. âWell,â you pat the bed beside you, inviting him to sit, âThereâs this thing every year in the park to watch the meteors,â you say as Yoongi eases himself onto the mattress. âBut it doesnât start until late.â He hums. âWas there something you wanted to do?âÂ
âNo, just-â He stifles a yawn. âCurious.â He leans back against the headboard, settling in.
Just like that, you fall easily into conversation. Itâs comfortable, calm. Just two old friends chatting. He likes your apartment, thinks the tile in your bathroom is really nice. He asks about your job, nods along as you tell him about working in the library and your coworkers.Â
And slowly, his reactions become slower, delayed, until he finally doesnât respond at all. You look over, and his chin is tucked against his chest, his breathing gentle. Asleep.
For a moment, you consider going out to the couch. It would be weird, right, to stay here with him? But as youâre about to kick the blanket off, you pause.Â
Weâre adults. Adults can share a bed. It doesnât have to mean anything. Youâre mature enough to let this just be two people sleeping in the same space.Â
At least, you think you are.Â
But as you settle in yourself, snuggling down into your blankets and turning off the light, youâre suddenly faced with the quiet peacefulness of his face. Heâd always been handsome, and now that youâre both older, you can appreciate just how beautiful he really is. He sighs and slides down a little, his hand brushing against your arm as he gets more comfortable.Â
Oh no.Â
You sit on the floor of your living room, a box of pizza on the coffee table that youâve shoved out of the way. Yoongiâs beside you, your backs against the couch as you watch some anime heâd been trying to convince you to watch back in high school. Youâre three episodes in, and you donât have the heart to tell him that you donât really care for the basketball-themed show. Part of you is still afraid that if you say something wrong, heâll be gone again.Â
His arm rests casually behind you on the cushions, far enough away that itâs more a comfortable way to sit than any sort of advance, but that doesnât stop the smallest of butterflies from making itself known in your stomach. This Yoongi is so different from the Yoongi you knewâthe one who, as a kid, got excited by construction equipment and the concept of ice cream, and as a teen spent his free time hiding from his parents, playing the piano and hanging out with you (though neither were mutually exclusive). Heâs quiet, comfortable in the silence, comfortable with letting things linger.Â
Youâre a little jealous of it, to be honest.Â
Yoongi leans forward slightly, and a piece of pizza meets him halfway, floating gently into his grasp. âDo you remember,â he begins, settling back in against the couch, âwhen we were 16 and we went camping?â You hum an affirmative. âWe spent most of the week playing old board games with my parents.â
You smile at the memory. If anyone had asked back then, you would have told them it was lame that youâd had to spend the whole time with Yoongiâs parents. But now? That was one of the more fun summers youâd ever had. âWhat made you think of that?â
He shrugs, mouth full of pizza. âI dunno. But Iâve been thinking about it a lot recently. Things were so much simpler thenâŚâÂ
You nod and hum softly, but ultimately, you say nothing. Much simpler indeed.Â
âYou know,â Yoongi begins, zipping his coat up to his chin, âwhen you said âparkâ, I was kind of expecting it to be in the city.â
âI think technically it is.â You lock your car and meet him at the front of it.
âWe drove for an hour!â
You shrug. âBig city.â
He laughs and shakes his head, incredulous. He canât tell if youâre being serious or not, but there was a sign on the way in with the university logo on it, so he supposes that whether itâs part of the city or not, it doesnât really matter. Thereâs a well-lit trail that runs from the shale parking lot up a hill slightly to a clearing that overlooks the city and the rest of the park. Itâs busyâpeople mill about around the parking lot, and he can see a steady stream of visitors on the trail up to the clearing.Â
He adjusts his coatâitâs cold, and both his shoulder and his senses ache with the impending snowâand when heâs ready, the two of you start walking toward the trail. Itâs astonishingly busy, and as you weave your way through the crowd, leading him up the hill, he grabs your hand.Â
So we donât get separated, he tells himself. For a moment, he expects you to pull away. Not maliciously, heâs not expecting you to scoff and throw his hand away. But what he isnât expecting is for you to tighten your grip on him and tug him this way and that as you get closer to the clearing. His hand is warm where your skin touches his, like heâs holding a candle a little too close to the flame.
The clearing is massive, mostly flat but not entirely, with gentle rolling slopes that provide some extra elevation here and there. On one of the little hills, a few food trucks are set up, though how they got there, Yoongi isnât really sure. Someone must have magicked them through the path or up the hill or something. There are picnic tables scattered around, mostly near the food trucks, but throughout the clearing, as well. Towards the edge of the clearing, thereâs a cliff with an overlook that has a spectacular view of the city vista below. People are everywhere. Of course, there are a lot of college-aged kids hanging out in big and small groups. But thereâs also a shocking amount of people that are Yoongiâs age and olderâprofessors, he assumes, and university staff here to enjoy the evening. Almost all of them are holding drinks, and just about every one of them seems to be paired with someone.
Itâs subtle sometimes, seeing bonded witches and familiars. Of course, the ones who are romantically involved tend to be more obvious, but the ones that are just friends are just as easy to spot once you know what to look for. Itâs the people who stand so close together theyâre almost touching, the ones who lean in a little extra close to whisper something. And the clearing is full of pairs standing in each otherâs personal spaces.
You tug on his hand to direct him off to the left and he blindly follows, squeezing your fingers ever so gently as a response.Â
Thereâs a pair of people at one of the tables by the food trucks. They spot you almost immediately, and one of them stands to greet you. Heâs a little taller than you are, made even more obvious when he gives you an awkward, one-armed hug over the picnic tableâs bench. The other oneâa womanâremains seated, eyeing Yoongi.
For a hot minute, itâs weird, as he stands there in silence while you chat with the man and woman. Itâs not even the side-eye that the womanâs shooting him. The man is handsomeâYoongiâs not blindâand you are friendly with him. But thereâs a moment, the briefest of moments, where you gesture somewhere off to your left. And when your body moves, Yoongiâs arm moves, too, and a little part of him, a silly, childish, hopeful part, soars.
Youâre still holding his hand.
Eventually, you introduce him to the two. Alice works the reference desk in your library while sheâs doing a doctorate program in linguistics. Her partner is gone in the winter, fighting fires in the far south. Despite her harsh side-eye, she greets Yoongi with a smile and a polite handshake. Jihwan, on the other hand, is the head baseball coach at the university. How the two of you met, Yoongi can only guess, but you make no mention of Jihwanâs partner, and Yoongi doesnât see a gem anywhere. He almostâalmostâstarts to feel bad for the guy, but then he opens his mouth.
You ask a simple question, gesturing with your head to the food trucks. âWhat do they have good?â
âThe pierogi guy from last year is back-â
Jihwan interrupts Alice. âToo much butter.â
Itâs not even what he says. Itâs how he says it. Like you and Alice are toddlers, like you canât be trusted not to drown yourselves in carbs. But you roll your eyes and Alice scoffs playfully, and Yoongi realizes that this is not the first time Jihwan has done something like this. And suddenly, Yoongi hates this guy.Â
âApparently, heâs got a new flavor this year,â Alice says, continuing like Jihwan never interrupted. âBut the taco guy is also back-â
âIs the popcorn guy back?â you ask. laughing. âBecause I kind of want a front-row seat to that.â Yoongi must look confused, because you explain. âPierogi guyâs daughter was engaged to taco guyâs daughter. But last year, pierogi guy and taco guy just started yelling at each other-â
â-It was amazing,â Alice adds.
âIt was ridiculous,â Jihwan mumbles.
You push him. âIt was a little like having our own little telenovela here.â
Cautiously, Yoongi asks, âWhy were they fighting?â
âNo one knows.â You shrug. âBut it launched a campus-wide food war. Everyone was choosing sides. It was like the year the Moondance tried to change its logo.â
Jihwan and Alice look at you, a little confused. But Yoongi knows exactly what youâre talking about. Somewhere around when you were preteens, the owners of the Moondance diner decided that its logo was outdated and wanted to update it. The whole town had been in an uproar, whole neighborhoods entering into a Cold War-esque stand-off over their preferences. People who had been friends for 50 years were suddenly in an unsolvable, unending argument. All over a color palette swap and a slightly newer font. Yoongi hadnât cared much one way or the otherâall businesses change their logos at some point, right?âand he always suspected that you didnât either, but youâd both gotten swept up in the chaos of it all. It was stupid, ridiculous fun, and heâs pretty sure that his parents still have the buttons youâd made somewhere in their house.
You finally let go of Yoongiâs hand when youâre standing in line at the taco truck, and heâs painfully aware of how empty it feels now. You donât go far, though, standing close enough that your elbow brushes against his every once in a while. Youâre scrolling through your phone, reading some news article to pass the time. Itâs gotten darker since youâve been there, and looking up, he can just barely make out a couple pinpricks of stars in the sky. The clearing is fairly bright, with little flickering balls of light criss-crossing the space like bistro lighting, and the lights from the city below donât help to make the night sky visible.Â
You pay for his tacosââI get an employee discount,â you say, brandishing your university id like itâs a black cardâand Yoongi doesnât think that you were in line that long, but when you return to the table, Alice and Jihwan are gone.Â
âWhereâd-â Heâs not even asked the question, but youâre already shrugging.
âAliceâs probably off calling her fiance,â you say it like youâre back in high school, all singsong-y and mockingly, âand who knows where Jihwan got to. Probably trying to take someone home tonight.â
âHe seemsâŚâ
You sigh. âYeah.â
âHowâd you meet him?â
A pang of⌠something hits him. Your expression falls, ever so slightly, and he regrets asking. But after a brief moment, you clear your throat. âHe and I are the only two on campus without gems.â
Oh.Â
Well.
That makes sense.
âSo theyâŚâ
You pick a piece of red cabbage off your taco and eat it. âYeah, they know.â
Which explains Aliceâs side-eye earlier. The weird emotion heâd gotten from you is gone now, and you seem to have just brushed right past the awkward feelings.Â
He hums, not really sure what to say. Whatâs there to say? So instead of saying anything dumb, he does the safe thing. He changes the subject.
âNo wonder they didnât kick the taco guy out of the festival this year.â He takes another bite of his taco. âThis is the best al pastor Iâve ever had.â
âHis chimichangas are amazing, but he only makes them on special days.â
âMore special thanâŚ?â He gestures vaguely. Around you, the lights have started to dim. Yoongi isnât really sure when that started, but things are definitely less bright.
You laugh, and something inside of him warms.
He hasnât even finished his tacos yet, but the vibe in the clearing starts to dramatically change. The crowd gathers tighter, a palpable buzz in the air. Alice has returned and stands alone near the head of the table. Sheâs looking up at the sky, and when Yoongi looks up, he sees why. Thereâs an aurora in the sky, gentle waves of effervescent greens and blues swirling through the heavens, just like the night market all those years ago. It has to be magic of some sortâthe city isnât far enough north for it to be naturalâbut he canât tell whoâs doing it.
A hand on his shoulder pulls his focus back to the ground. Youâre there behind him, bathed in the dim glow of the floating lights around you. By now, itâs almost dark, but even in the low light and deep shadows, youâre beautiful.Â
âCome on,â you say softly. âLetâs get a good spot closer to the lookout.â
He follows you through the crowd, weaving around the bodies to get closer to the edge of the clearing. Itâs tight, and you grab his hand so you donât get separated. Normally, Yoongi isnât a huge fan of crowds like this. Youâre a small island in a sea of people, and he barely has room to turn in a circle without bumping into someone. You stand closeâclose enough that he can feel your warmth through the chill of the night.
The city spans the valley below, a forest of metal and windows and concrete. A bright spot in the middle of an otherwise dark night. But then, individually at first and then more, the buildingsâ lights begin to flicker out.
âTheyâve been doing this festival since before the city got public electricity,â you explain, answering his question before he could even ask. âItâs kind of a big deal.â
With the lights of the city mostly out, the stars above are much brighter. He can almost see them twinkling and winking as they burn, millions of billions of lightyears away. The night sky is beautiful, and his eyes drift around to locate the constellations heâd learned as a child. Almost immediately, he finds Perseus, right beside his wife Andromeda. Youâd loved the myth of Perseus slaying Medusa when you were kids, and even though he hadnât looked for the constellation in over a decade, finding it is still ingrained in him.Â
He nudges you slightly, pointing up to the constellation. But just as he does, a pinprick of light streaks across the sky. You squeeze his hand as more streaks start to appear and the gathered crowd buzzes with âoohâs and âaahâs. The meteors are all sizes. Big and bright. Small and thin. They arenât constant, only a few show up every minute, but itâs beautiful to watch.Â
Thereâs a strange sensation growing in his chest, something warm and fluttering and all-encompassing. You lean a little closer and the feeling grows. You must sense somethingâheâs never really been sure what his emotions feel like for youâbecause you look up at him. For a moment, you look confused.
Yoongi isnât really sure how it happens, but what he does know is that suddenly, your face is centimeters from his own. He thinks that maybe someone bumped you and you took a step closer, but maybe thatâs just his brain trying to fill in the gaps. He also knows that heâs the one that closes the space between you, leans in and brushes his lips against yours. Itâs quick, a little impulsive, and truthfully, it feels a little forbidden.Â
He pulls away, not far enough to make it seem like heâs made a mistake, but enough that it gives you an out, if you want it. His brain starts making all these calculationsâwhat he should do if you back away, what he should do if you slap him, what if you donât react.
But then you whisper, âWhyâd you stop?â and your hand slides up his chest to grip the lapel of his coat. You tug with a surprising amount of force, and when your lips connect, he feels himself soaring.Â
His entire world narrows to the points where your bodies connect. The firm touch of your knuckles against his shirt, the way your leg presses against his, but mostly the heat from your lips as he deepens the kiss. You fit against him perfectly, as if you were made for each other. Heâd only kissed you that one time, but somehow, heâd missed it, missed you.Â
When you finally pull away, you stay close, pressed against his chestâthough whether thatâs fully your choice or because of the crowd tightening around you is anyoneâs guess. He can feel your heart pounding, and when you shoot him a small smirk, heâs pretty sure that you can feel the pace of his own pulse. Your grip loosens on the collar of his coat and you smooth it down coolly before your arm wraps around his back. Without a word, you cozy in, pressed close as your gaze returns to the sky and to the stars.
For a moment, he stands there, unmoving, mind empty. But then itâs like he snaps out of a trance, and he snakes an arm around your waist, holding you tightly. His focus shifts to the shooting stars above, catching one just as it streaks across the sky. As he stands there, staring at the heavens and feeling your steady breathing, his mind begins to wander.
12 years, 7 months, and 3 days. Heâd spent most of that time wondering what would have happened if he hadnât left. If, after heâd kissed you at the night market, heâd been satisfied with whatever life had come after that. Heâd been so scared back then, of losing control, of his life not being his own. But now, none of that matters.
Now, heâd give up almost anything to stay here, in this moment, in your arms.Â
okay so like... what do we think? how are we feeling? I was originally planning on having this be much longer, but I was so stressed out from grad school, I just wanted to get it out now. I'm so excited to hear your thoughts! and let me know if you want to see a part 2 (and if so, what you might want to see in it!!)
#yoongi x reader#min yoongi x reader#bts x reader#yoongi fanfic#yoongi fic#suga fic#suga fanfic#bts fanfic#bts fic#min yoongi fic#min yoongi fanfic#myg x reader#bts soulmate au#bts supernatural au#set me free
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Ok so this is not connected to my Big Daddy au
But here is another short fic/prompt so feel free to continue this or do your own spin.
This will be DannyxSteph as I don't see much for them (I believe their ship name is meme lords)
Steph winced in pain as she shifted in the chair she had been tied too. She was desperate as she was trying to find a way to distract the Joker or escape with a broken leg and no gear. She wouldn't have been panicked as bad as she was if she had been the only one grabbed but they grabbed the kid she had been babysitting as well, a sweet little girl only four years old named Dawn who was currently crying in her lap where she was chained while the Joker was monologing at the camera.
Supposedly it was broadcasting live on every TV in Gotham. Steph really hoped that there was someone near Dawn's father to help him through this. Danny ,which is her father's name, was a single father Stephs age (which means that he would have had to been a teenage father with Dawn's age) and his little girl was his whole life which means this could not be easy on him.
Suddenly as Joker was mid sentence everyone froze because they could hear gunshots from outside as well as a loud diesel engine before suddenly a wall collapsed as a garbage truck slammed through the wall before screeching to a halt.
Steph at first thought that it was the rest of the bat's maybe borrowing the truck to get in faster and it seemed like Joker had the same thought.
"Well now I never expected this of you Bat's couldn't use the skyli- you aren't one of the bat's."
And he was right because stepping out of the truck-turned-battering-ram was Danny and he didn't even spare a second thought to the Joker as he set his eyes on Dawn and Steph and called out in a relieved tone of voice. "Dawn! Steph! You're ok thank the Ancients."
"Daddy!" Dawn had stopped crying at the sound of her father's voice the tension in her body fading away with that childlike certainty that her father would make everything better. However Joker not one to be ignored reached out and grabbed Danny's arm before speaking.
"Now the shows not over there Daddy but thank you for adding a new hos-"
"Fuck off bozo!" Danny didn't even slow using the same hand Joker grabbed he shoved him off sending the clown stumbling back a few steps as Danny finished crossing the room before quickly cutting the ropes with a pocket knife (and Steph was not blushing at the strength he had to have to cut the sturdy rope in one smooth movement no siree) with Dawn quickly leaping into her Dads arms as soon as the ropes fell away.
Steph turned to the Joker who seemed stunned hand on his chest where he was shoved seemingly shocked that someone had done that with no fear. Turning back to the father daughter pair she started quickly speaking in a low voice hopping not to break the trance the clown prince of crime was under.
"Quick you need to take Dawn and run my legs broken so you need to leave me here the Bat's will be here soon ill be fin-"
"He can't hurt you anymore." Danny's voice was calm and steady as he interrupted Steph. He looked her in the eye before looking pointedly at the had that he shoved the Joker with opening it to reveal something that made Steph gasp.
A human heart still beating though it stopped as she looked and the moment it did she heard a thud as the Joker fell to the floor limp as a puppet with its strings cut.
"Is that .." Steph couldn't even finish the question. But Danny still nodded before tossing it unceremoniously to the floor.
"Nobody threatens the people I care about and gets away with it. He forfeit his existence the moment he grabbed the two of you."
Steph felt like her own heart was about to fall out onto the floor the combination of the Joker a bogeyman who had terrorized Gotham almost as long as she had been alive just dead, dying without so much as a whimper much less a bang. Done in, not by any bat or caped crusader but a father who only wanted to save his daughter. As well as the implication that Danny cared for her too that he killed the nightmare of every kid in Gotham for her sake as much as his daughters.
Danny had separated from Dawn after placing one more kiss on her head and whispered comfort that Steph was to shocked to pay much attention to before quickly coming to check on her injury.
"Looks like a clean break so it should heal fast. I just hate that you got hurt protecting Dawn even if I'm more grateful than you can imagine that you tried to protect her."
Steph smiled "We've known each other for months now and I love that little girl as well. No way was I going to let someone touch her without a fight."
Danny looked up at her from his position next to her chair with a look that Steph couldn't describe before standing up.
"Here I'll carry you to one of the ambulances I hear coming this way."
As he bent to scoop her up Steph got his attention as she got ready to do something impulsive. As he turned his head toward her Steph grabbed his head and pulled him into a kiss. Danny froze against her before returning it the pair only stopped when they heard a giggle.
"Daddy and Stephie are kissing! Does that mean Stephie is my Momma now?" Dawn's voice snapped the two out of it but before Danny could say anything Steph beat him to it.
"Maybe one day Daddy has to take me on a date first and we'll see where things go. Say a movie this Friday?"
Steph knew she was being bold but by God she was not letting this absolute dork start to spiral she knew from the amount of time they spent together as neighbors that Danny had a surprising low self esteem and would probably convince himself she only kissed him out of gratitude or something when in reality she has wanted to do this for months and just didn't know how to initiate.
"That sounds wonderful I'm sure miss Chen downstairs would be able to watch Dawn if I ask." Danny's blushing face only made Steph giggle as he responded. But as he lifted her she noticed the Jokers camera with the recording light still on and she knew she was going to get so much shit from the other bat's so she decided to share the embarrassment.
"Not so sure you'll have to ask seeing as everyone in Gotham just saw everything on their screens.
Danny who had just picked Steph up in a princess carry without hurting her leg froze before letting out a groan.
"Oh I'm never going to live this down."
#danny phantom#dp x dc#dc x dp#danny fenton#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc crossover#meme lord ship#stephanie brown#dannyxsteph#minor gore#but its the joker
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â the babysitter â dilf!toji f. x reader
WARNINGS: f!reader, age gap, rough sex, unprotected sex, mating press, daddy kink, breeding kink
you had just come back to visit home after you completed one semester of college. college was expensive, especially with the tuition costs, accommodation charges, groceries, etc. also you did not like to burden your parents with your expenses so you sought out for a job in the holidays.
your father recommended a babysitting job for one of his acquaintances, someone named fushiguro. you jump at the opportunity since you had a great time bonding with kids. you shyly wait outside the door after ringing the doorbell once. the one who opens the door had an irritated look on his face and seemed to be sleep deprived. you could also hear the wailing of a baby in the background. much to your embarrassment, you found yourself blushing at the tall and muscular physique of the older man. your father did not mention that he was so handsome.
"what?" he said with a voice laced with annoyance and irritation.
"oh-um, mr fushiguro, i just came to enquire about the babysitting job" you squeaked out, feeling intimidated by the scary man.
toji had welcomed you in after this and you met his son, baby megumi who had promptly stopped crying when he was placed in your gentle arms. you were relieved inside, happy to know that the baby had bonded with you so quick.
toji had felt grateful for everything you did, truly. you were a sweet girl who looked after megumi well like he was your own and had even no problems staying in when his work ran late. you had always greeted him home with that adorable smile of yours, balancing megumi on your hip.
he wished he was ashamed to say this because he really wasn't, but he wanted you. you were so sweet, pliant and caring. you were someone he wanted for himself. coming home after every gruelling day of work to see your illuminating smile and holding his son was his dream. megumi also loved you, seeing you as his mother.
toji's desires got the best of him one day when he cornered you in the living room after you put down megumi for sleep. you fidgeted shyly under his intense gaze, making him even more aroused at your blushing face.
he then crashed his lips onto your warm and plump ones, causing you to moan. he shoved his tongue in your mouth and picked you up easily. you had started to squeak in embarrassment at getting picked up and taken to his room where you were thrown on the bed, unceremoniously.
the rest was a blur when he stripped you and him until you both were naked. you blushed at his scarred chest and toned and lean body. toji looked at your gorgeous body in awe while spreading your legs, revealing your pretty pussy to him while you whimpered shyly. from then, toji lost all composure.
he had you with your legs in the air, while thrusting into your mercilessly. you cry and sob in a sinful mixture of pleasure and pain, as he pounds deep into you, hitting all your sweet spots. toji had one rough hand gripped tightly to your waist, holding you down to your bed to prevent your body from jolting from every harsh thrust.
toji had an immense sexual appetite, already built up from not having sex for so long and he was so experienced too, making you stutter and blabber like a fool. you held onto his muscular arms for dear life while he had his fill.
"d-daddy, its too much!" you hiccup out, trying to adjust to his large size and animalistic pace. toji seemed to like you calling him daddy a lot, as indicated by him going even more deeper and faster into you.
"you can take it" he hissed in your ear, squeezing your tits. he kisses your swollen lips, snuffling the cry that threatened to come. "my good girl" he whispered, making your heart skip a beat at the praise. you felt in come in you, most of it leaking out your quivering pussy.
toji didn't like to see you waste his cum like that, giving you a harsh slap on the side of your thigh, making you squeal. he fucks his cum back into your pussy, making sure it went in deep.
"i'm gonna put a baby in you" he says to you, every syllable make your belly feel warm. "you'd look so beautiful with my kid in your belly"
"daddy!" you squealed, feeling embarrassed and strangely aroused, already imagining yourself as his young, pretty wife.
your arrangement after this slightly changed. after feeding megumi and putting him to bed, toji would come home from work. you would be sitting on his large bed, sitting obediently and naked.
toji would take out all his frustrations from work out on your body and you would be lying under him, pliantly and happy to ease his worries. he would fuck you without abandon every night with would result in you leaving his house with a blissed-out smile. your parents were none the wiser, and were oblivious to the new bruises and hickeys on your body whenever you returned from the fushiguros.
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never again â daryl dixon đŠ°
in which you reunite with daryl after him being taken by the Saviours
note: i had to get this off my brain before i forgot about it & also it's not 100% story accurate as season 7 was so long ago for me lmao
You were a crack shot with a gun. You were quick, reliable, efficient. But nothing prepared you for this.
Negan.
Being on your knees, Lucille being swung around recklessly by the psychopath you'd met only moments ago, you were holding it together. You'd seen a lot since the world had ended, done a lot, lost a lot. Something just felt worse about this, the not knowing, the complete and utter defeat plastered on every face around you. You looked over to Daryl, who you'd only just seen again, being dragged out of a vehicle by one of the many ruffians. The two of you locked eyes for just a moment, hoping to not give anything away between the two of you. His eyes were desperate, helpless, full of every ounce of love his body could carry. Hoping he could give it to you in person soon. You tried to be strong, for the group, for yourself, but this was a loss. There's no trying to be tough here, they had the upper hand. Negan was playing with everyone, playing a party game to choose who dies, laughing maniacally at the tears and shivers you all shared. You lost your breath when the bat clocked Abraham's skull, diverting your eyes away out of pure fear. Fear. At one point that was only reserved for the dead, but you'd come to realize humans were way worse. Everything blurred together after that. Daryl having a moment of courage and clipping Negan before being held down once more. Glenn being hit. Your eyes burning and jaw hurting from clenching your teeth so hard. It had taken every last bit of humanity out of you. You'd lost two parts of the family keeping you glued together. And there was nothing you could do. Your once bright demeanor swapped for one moodier, angrier, emptier. Daryl had been taken by Negan, to be kept. Like a pet. Your mouth dried as you saw him thrown into the back of a vehicle, like an animal, like he meant nothing to nobody. But he meant something to you. The love of your life. The reason to want to survive this mess daily. He meant everything to you. Even from before, you'd never had a connection like this with anyone. Daryl understood you, knew you, cared so deeply for you, and you him. You spoke about marrying, about finding a nice place to yourselves one day, about making a beautiful family to devote your time to.
You stayed in Alexandria, out of fear. You wanted to leave, you wanted to tell Negan to shove it, you wanted to side with Rosita and stand up for yourselves, like you always had. But Negan having Daryl changed everything for you. You didn't want to do anything to put him in harm's way, you wanted him back. Negan and his group would occasionally come in, take whatever they wanted, and leave. You'd see Daryl, all dirty with his head low. And you'd tell yourself it wasn't him. That wasn't your Daryl. He'd look at you, and you could still see him in there, but the looks were always fleeting. So you'd sit in your house, parts of your furniture gone, waiting for your turn with Lucille. You'd sit on your porch, a blank stare cast over your face as you think about him. You'd sit out here together, reading a book to him as he massaged your legs that were propped up on his lap. You'd join him out here for a smoke, not to smoke but for company, and you'd talk to him about a cute thing Judith did that day, or what you thought your own kids would look like. Nobody was happy living like this, trembling at the sound of the whistling, or the men just wandering around the streets and homes. But Rick was submitting, he had to. There was no other way. You'd lost all motivation for anything, you'd force yourself on runs, finding resources for Negan. Then you'd come back, sometimes eat, but mostly sleep and think about Daryl.
There were small talks of a fight back, like Maggie had spoken about the morning after Negan. She was on Death's door last time you saw her, but you had hoped and prayed her and Sasha were okay. Rick had shut down every idea of fighting back, saying this is how to survive now. You'd even gone over to him, pleading to do something.
"Please, Rick," you cried, stood at his door with tears sliding down your cheeks, "I need him back." "I know." Was all he said, pulling you into his arms. The comfort was nice, but these arms weren't the ones you wanted around you.
Then you'd lost Spencer, Eugene, and almost Rosita. Your emotions were burning inside of you, you felt like a spectator in this sick, twisted game. Enough was enough.
"I'm fighting, Rick," you spoke, your voice low. Broken but determined. Michonne stood by you; you needed to go to war. There's no more lying down and taking it. "We've lost so much, too much, for this to be our lives now." You cried, "I'm not losing anything else. Anyone else."
You were headed to Hilltop, where Maggie and Sasha were. You were hopeful for their health, and survival, and to see them both on the other side of those gates, was a sight for sore eyes. "You were right," Rick said to Maggie, but you couldn't hear the rest. Your eyes had drowned out everything around you. Your eyes, you thought, were playing tricks on you. There he was. You'd walked over to him, unsure if this was just another nightmare like the previous nights, or if this was him. Daryl. Standing in front of you. The two of you just looked at each other, unable to comprehend what you were seeing. Until Daryl had opened his arms for you, crying into your shoulder as you were his. The two of you a sobbing mess in each other's limbs. "I got ya back," he whispered, for only you to hear, "I've been thinking about ya every day. I couldn't stop." "I'm here." You cried, holding him tighter against your body. "I'm not going anywhere, you're never leaving me again." "I know, baby, I know."
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Wrong girl made right -ch1
Mob Wandanat x reader
18+
Summary-your walking to work one day and you get kidnapped being mistaken for someone else but they canât just let you go now can they and your too cute to kill
Warnings:murder, mafia, mean wandanat, mob wandanat, mommy kink, daddy kink, guns, manhandling, manipulation, forced relationship, dark wandanat, reader is a big baby, wandanat threaten her with death
Photo is ai
You were walking around the city heading to a local bar, you lived in one of the most dangerous cities in the country, it was full of mafias, gangs and all around awful people. you had learned to fit in and just go with the flow. It was never easy growing up in a foster home you had parent they just werent good ones so you ended up being placed in a shitty foster home and it was honestly worse then living with your parents. the forster home was a mess there was too many kids and always fights, the house was just pure chaos. Once you had turned 18 though you had started your own life away from being a scared little child. you worked in a bar the one you were heading to now it was a fairly chill bar not many issues happened and your boss was super cool.
As you made your way through a dark alleyway that leads to the bar you work at the alleyway was filled with homeless and beggars you smiled at them hating that fact you couldnât help more but quickened your pace wanting to get out of the dark cold alleyway it smelt grim and made your stomach turn on a daily basis but it had begun to be normal for you.
Once you reached the exit of the alleyway you took a deep breath of relief, the semi fresh air refreshing your lungs it was refrshing being out of that alley it smelt like things that you never thought you would have to smell walking to work.
Suddenly you felt large viney hands on you and a blacl silk bag placed securely over you head you thoughts were going while as you thrashed around trying to break free from the people holding you they seemed to be men based there strength, you were terrified all that was going though your mind was `am I gunna die?` `whos grabbing me?` `WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?` questions flooded your mind to the point you were dizzy.
You screamed out loudly but a hand quickly clamped down on your head and an object was smacked across the back of your head.
The little light you could see slowly darkened as you lost consciousness and went limp in the arms that were holding you tightly. The last thing you could feel was being dragged across the rough ground and being shoved into what you would assume was a vehicle.
When you next woke up your head was spinning the pain blossemed from the back of your head where you were hit to the sides and front it felt like it shot though your head like a bullet. You could barely even lift you body let alone head. You tried to lift your hands to your head, the pain blossoming and increasing as your worries got worse. You wanted to ease the pain but you found that your arms and legs were bound to the chair you were sitting on. The bag was still placed on your head stopping you from looking around at where you were but you could tell it was cold because your entire body was shaking and shivering. The room was freezing the room was so cold it was as if the cold was seeping into your bones. `who the fuck likes rooms this cold` you thought.
You tried struggling against the restraints, you couldnât free yourself but you had managed to get the bag off your head by tilting your head down and shaking your head intensely ,making the bag fall to the ground softly, your eyes widened in shock as you saw the room you were in.
It was a spacious room but it was cold and empty other then a few hooks on the wall that look as though they are to suspend a person, you eyes continue to travel around the room it was dirty and there was old splatters of blood on the floor your face turned to disgust and fear as you saw a tray next to you filled with knifes and guns and multiple torture weapens your mind raced with questions âwhere am I? Whoâs house is this? What did I do? Am I going to die.â Your thoughts were running a million miles per houryour mind was swimming with bad thoughts and confusion.
Suddenly the door swings open to reveal a fairly tall woman with long beautiful auburn hair her hair was like silk. She was beautiful. You were stunned by her beauty.
The woman looked familiar. She looked like- oh shit she was Wanda Maximoff she and her wife run one of the most feared mafias you had heared all the rumours and stories of them even seen faint photos of the women. Your jaw goes slack your mouth open in shock âwhat could you have done to piss off a mafia bossâ you thought as she started walking over.
Wanda looked at you when she had first walked in the room she realised you were the wrong girl she had been wanting the girl who had hacked into their system she was frustrated that you werenât the girl she had been hoping to tournament but she saw something in you she continued walking towards you her eyes shimmering with something unknown to you.
Wanda slowly assess you looking you up and down âhm your cute whatâs your name sweetieâ
Wanda thinks for a moment looking into your eyes she wasnât going to let you go but she was deciding what she was going to do with you.
Wanda lifted your chin making you look at her. You stared up at her nervously opening and closing your mouths a few times before speaking âI-I im y/n a-are you gonnaâŚ.let me goâ you ask fearful of what she might reply with.
Wanda pulls away slowly âno. Sweet girl Iâm notâ
You look at her confused as to why she said it so confidently âbut I didnât do anything wrong why am I hereâ you say angrily your voice lased with confusion and frustration you were getting annoyed and because of that most rational thouhts left your brain.
Wandaâs eyes narrow at you âdonât speak to me like thatâ her accent drips through slightly she softens her gaze taking a deep breath âyou are here because my men made a mistake and got the wrong girl but you my sweetâŚ.â She leans in and grabs your chin again âyou are adorable and I want you I want to own youâ
You start struggling in the chair you are restrained in âlet me out you phycoâ you spit at her.
Anger flares in Wandaâs eyes âstop.â She says firmly her tone making you stop. âNow donât be a brat I can still blow your brains outâ she picks the gun up and taps it on your temple threateningly.you were starting to realize you were dumb for trying to argue with her
When you look at her totally shocked she smirks and starts speaking ânow you wouldnât want that would youâ the barrel of the gun gets trailed down the side of your face making a tickling sensation wanda brings the tip of the gun to your lips.
She smirks at you with a predatory gaze âopen.â She demands taping the gun against your lips impatiently, she was not one to say something twice.
You open your mouth reluctantly and slowly your lips parting far to slowly for the slovakian so she shoves the barrel of the gun into you mouth quickly making you gag around it and start trying to pull away in panic. you were shocked by the suddendness and panic fills your eyes you looked up at wanda pleadingly.
Wanda looks you in the eyes her eyes blow out leaving barely any colour to be seen âgod Natasha is going to love you, your just adorable arenât youâ she pushes the gun further into your throat making you gag louder.her smirk got biggershe brushes her thumb across your cheek gently.
She pulls the gun away slowly and looks down at the now covered in saliva gun âawe did baby make a mess oh noâ she wipes the end of the gun on your cheek before placing it on the tray beside you ânow sweet thing I have to go deal with the idiot who brought you here so I need you to drink this water for me need to make sure your hydrated before I leaveâ she says a untrustworthy smile plastered on her face.you could barely tell she was lying but her smirk made you not want to believe her.
She opens the bottle of water and puts the drink near your lips âdrink or I can knock you out with my bare handsâ she says seriously making you realize it definately wasnt water. You take a large gulp of the water not wanting to be knocked out with force the water flows down your throat it tasted horrible making your face screw up in disgust.
Your eyes shimmer with tears âwhatâs in thatâ. Wanda letâs out a small laugh seeing your disgusted face she was definately how the stories made her sound.
âThat water, my darling has zolpidem in it, it will help you sleep while I figure out who you are and get Natasha informedâ she says as she smiles at you with fake sympathy as if she didnât just drug you Wanda was already planning of ways she is going to corrupt your innocence and make you her compliant little doll.
You slowly feel your head begin to get dizzy and it drops to the side tilting onto your shoulder âyou're not going to hurt me right?â You say in a muffled voice worried that you wouldnât wake up again.
Wanda letâs a laugh ripple through her as she watched you begin to get dizzy âum not yet, I wonât as long as you behaveâ she gently strokes your hair as you body goes limp in the chair she was smiling down at you maybe she did have a sweet side `unlikely` you thought.
Your vision starts to blur and everything begins to go black but Wandaâs hand on your hair stroking your hair is slightly grounding and helping you panic less.
You slowly start to wake up you donât know know long it had been but your head was hurting 10 times more now and your vision was blurry to the point you couldnât make out anything in the room.
Once you started to come to your senses you noticed you were no longer in the cold room at on that hard uncomfortable chair but instead you were in a warm cosy bed you managed to lift your head of the mountain of pillows and mutter to yourself âwow these lot are rich holy crapâ you looked around the luxurious room it was massive it was probably bigger then your entire apartment.
You attention focus on a letter on the bedside table you look closely at it and pick it up the letter says:
âIâll be back soon stay where you are sweet girlâ
You looked around the massive room it was hard to focus your eyes but you could tell they were rich the room had a massive kings size bed, placed in the middle of the room up against a wall the bed was a dark grey colour it was a pretty bed and looked extremly expensive there are two night stands on the side of the bed they were a black colour that complimented the grey well the walls were a dark shade of grey as well, on the left side of of the room there was a vanity placed next To a door labeled unsuite
"rich bitches" you mumbled. you turned your head to the other side of the room as you switched sides you noticed a big tv facing the bed, drifting your eyes to the right there was two more doors one labeled closet and the other had no label but a small pad lock "whyâs it on the inside" you thought it was the way out but whne you looked back to the tv there was a door next to it with a hand print scanner to get out and in it looked as though it was also on the other side of the door you decided that was the main door to the bed room but what was the other mysterios door you wondered
suddenly you head food steps walk towars the room the door next to the tv was definately the main door to enter and leave then you realized "shit someones coming" you plopped your head down and pretended to be asleep.
The door beeps as the hand is placed on the other side of the door suddenly you hear two voices one you remembered as Wandaâs.
âSheâs so cute nat I just wanna ruin herâ you hear wanda say in a excited voice
âWell show me thenâ what you assumed was Natashaâs voice was rough but also very smooth sounding she said it with a playful tone.
âLook at her her names is y/n y/l/n isnât she cuteâ Wanda says playfully âsheâs like a little doll oh and sheâs pretending to be asleepâ
Your eyes widen in shock. âOh noâ you thought you yourself.
âPrincess, show Natasha your pretty face and stop hidingâŚ.Now.â Wanda demands in a cold tone her playfulness leaving her voice
Slowly you sit up your mind was filled with fear you didnât want to get up but you was scared what would happen if you didnât you looked up at them both fear filling your eyes.
âWhy hello.â Natasha says in a cruel tone filled with fake sympathy.
You shake a little out of fear âar-are y-you n-na-nat-Natasha?â You ask your voice is shakey and quiet.
Natasha smirks âI am sweet thing Wanda has told me all about youâ she says with a fake sweet voice itâs sounds wrong in her mouth the voice makes your cringe but it also adds to your fear she was not a nice person you though.
âBu-bu-but s-sh-she doesnât know meâ you say in confusion what would she have to tell Natasha other then your name.
Wanda speaks up her voice as smooth as velvet it radiated confidence âI know everything about you my sweet. Everythingâ this made you more scared then you were which you didnât think was even possible
âH-how?â you say quietly your mind was hurting with how much you were thinking.
âShe has her ways of finding things outâ Natasha says she sounded bored of the topic like she didnât want to talk about it anymore. âNow letâs get onto rulesâ.
A few hours later they had told you the many rules they have for you (*let me know if you want me to write what the rules would be*) it was a long list and you were going to stuggle to remember they had shown you around there home it was barely a home it was massive and seemed cold other than a few rooms Wandaâs office was the best room it was homey with books and painting on the walls but there was a modern theme to it making it seem dark they said you werenât allowed in the basement which confused you.
The two decided to give you mostly free roam around the house other then certain areas and on certain days they informed you the building was heavily guarded and there was lots of gates and locks so you wouldnât get out even if you tired plus they would find you no matter where you was, this all made you fear the women a lot more then you should.
After the tour you were sat in the bedroom you was originally in you was informed it was in-fact your personal room and you could change it up a little if you behaved will you?⌠you still didnât know what the strange door was for it made you curious and anxious to know. The two locked you in the room for the night saying they would see you in the morning.
You were sat at the massive vanity playing with the various items in the draws when you looked up and noticed a camera in each corner of the room âgreatâ you mumbled to yourself huffing you felt useless you couldnât do anything you were stuck forever unless you manage to escapeâŚ.
You started trying to come up with plans to get out and how you would get away from these phycos and there cruelty.
After a bit you started getting tired so you walked over to the wardrobe hoping there was some clothes there and surprisingly there was a few a note was attached.
âWe will go shopping soon but for now these will do unless you want to walk around bare ;)â the note was unsettling you put the clothes on they were comfortable but were a bit big on you never the less you climbed into bed and tried sleeping.
After a few hours of crying and struggling to sleep out of fear and anxieties you slowly drifted off and fell asleep.
the next morning you woke up feeling like crap your head was in so much pain ou was on the verge of tears, your eyes were puffy from crying all night, your mind was swimming in worries and anxities you felt like pure crap.
as you were sitting up you heared the beep fron the door lock and wanda walked in swaying her hips she was full of confidence and it made you feel slightly attarcated to her no no no you cant think that. wanda gave you a evil smile "good morning baby looks like youve been crying" she says cruely it was more of a statement than a question. you stayed quiet not knowning how to respond she was very confusing did she want you to speak or not? you thought.
Wanda smirked whne you didnt reply "right little lady, up you get. go shower and brush your teeth, there will be some clothes waiting on your bed for when your done oh and if you come out looking like youve been crying i wont be happy" she threats.
you nod and stand up on shakey legs as you start walking pass wanda she suddenly grabs you and pulls you up flush against her
you blushed hard then wanda connected her lips to yours she kissed you with alot of force but it sent sparks shoting though you when her lips connected to yours as she pulls away you were as red as a tomato she smirked seeing you flustered and out of breath
she pushes you towards the unsuite "go shower natasha is waiting downstairsâ she says playfully.
You walk into the bathroom.
Authors note:sorry this is short Ive only just started writing on my laptop hope you like it there is a few mistakes Iâm sorry let me know any tips in the ask box if you have any please <3 lmk if you want a part 2 :)
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âá°. in the name of you .
in a world where everyone forgot their own religion, it's not wrong for luka to look at your ethereal self and immediately mistake you for a divine being, no?
featuring : luka
cw : female reader, implied stalking(for just a little), luka is obsessed with reader, luka isn't obsessed with hyuna in here for the sake of the story lolđââď¸
a/n : i made a till one, and now i'll make a luka one! i was trying to make it seems as if luka is obsessed with reader, but i was having a hard time showing it, and ended up making it seems like luka had become a better person after meeting reader lmfaoođđ
from the moment humans were taken away forcefully by those disgusting aliensâthey all had forgotten about their creators. the one who gave them life, the one who gave them the will to continue living. each day felt like a stab to the heart, it feels as if someone had taken your lungs out of your body, before putting it back inside again.
it feels empty, like a void.
while all the kids run around anakt garden happily, although not genuinely, all luka could do was lean on one of the trees, while holding his knees close to his chest. what can he do? what does people expect him to do? he is a weak child, a child born with diseases, a child unable to live without support from others, including the tree he is currently leaning on. without anything to lean on, to hold on to, what was he supposed to do, weak and dependent as he was?
nothing. he could only weep himself to sleep every day, and it changes nothing. he has heard from the other kids that there is a powerful divine being that could help you in times of distress, how it's called god, how you're supposed to believe in it for it to help you, and he did. luka believed in god for a day, but nothing had changed. his everyday life had remained the same.
like waking up early, even though he doesn't know what time it is because of all the fake painted skies the aliens put in the garden, go eat breakfast with the other kids, with no one else sitting besidesâ"hey, is this seat occupied?" in the midst of the suffocating silence, a cheerful, almost unreal voice had reached his ears. he had first thought that it was just his imagination, his desperate feelings of wanting to be accompanied by someone. but it wasn't, as the voice echoed in his ears once again.
"uh, hello...? did i catch you on a bad day? i'm so sorry, i'll find another seat then." after what felt like a minute, he finally looked up at the person talking to him, only to notice that they're gone. he clenched his fist in regret. he should've looked up earlier, he should've answered whoever that was, but he didn't. such a shame, he thought to himself.
after half an hour, luka finished his breakfast and was getting ready to leave, before being stopped by someone whose voice was so familiar to him, it almost feels as if he is dreaming. "hey, um... i'm really, really sorry for bothering you earlier. as an apology, i got some bread for you!" that cheerful voice had struck something inside him, his eyes grew wide slightly, and his hand trembles at the sight of you. if he were to believe in the divine, he would immediately get down on his knees and pray for you, an angel.
your soft gaze, your skin that looks almost as delicate and fragile as a glass, and your small fingers offering him the bread you got for him. it took him almost a minute to react, and all that came out of his mouth is just a small gasp, so small that even you can't hear it. "don't tell anyone about this though, but i stole it from someone's unfinished breakfast! so take it, please?" you shoved the bread to his face, which made him raise his eyebrows. but he took it anyway.
he examines the bread carefully, to which you took great offense. "i won't poison you, so there's no need to look at it so intensely!" you pout at him. if you squint your eyes really hard, you can notice the faintest hint of smile on his face, and probably the first time he has ever smile so genuinely.
his everyday routine had consisted of the same, basic thing. but, now that you talked to him, it changed his life forever. it changed his views of the world, of everyone. some kids may have believed in the divine from the moment they were born, but luka just believed in the divine the moment she graced himself with her kindness.
from then on, whenever luka woke up and entered the garden, the first thingâor person he looks for, is you. whenever he went to the cafeteria, the first person he approached is you, and when luka went to his first performance on stage, the first person he looks for in the audience is you, holding a cream-colored lightstick.
whenever luka goes anywhere, the first person he looks for, thought of, and wishes to see first... is you.
his god, his universe.
and if he happens to notice some... imbecile, or other people trying to approach you, he won't hesitate to show them that no one can approach his angel without consequences. no one other than him.
naomi-nana. do NOT repost, do not use,(with or without permission), do not reccommend or talk about my works outside of tumblr.
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Unspoken Desires
Pairing: Aaron Hotch x nanny reader AN: very very special thanks to @milla984 for the wonderful gifs. You are the best!! IN my mind this was Aaron when he overheard the phone conversation. This is not Vows of Rivalry part 2 that one will come tomorrow at 9:00 am PST
Aaron Hotchner had always prided himself on his ability to control his emotions. It was a necessary skill for his job at the BAU, where composure was often the difference between life and death. But lately, control had become an elusive thing, slipping through his fingers whenever she was around.
His nanny, Y/N, was in her late twenties, vibrant, full of life, and effortlessly beautiful. She had a natural way with his son, Jack, who adored her, and Aaron had grown to appreciate the calming presence she brought to their home. But somewhere along the way, his appreciation had shifted into something deeper, something more dangerous. He had tried to ignore it, tried to push it down, but every time he saw her, every time she smiled at him, it became harder to resist.
It was late afternoon when he came home one day, early enough to catch the end of Y/N's shift. As he stepped inside the house, he heard her laughing softly on the phone. Aaron paused just outside the living room, intending to greet her once she was finished with her call. But her words caught him off guard.
"No, seriously, Iâm not kidding. Heâs so attractive. You know, that tall, brooding look? The dad I nanny for? Yeah, Hotch." She giggled, the sound making Aaronâs breath hitch. "Iâd let him do unspeakable things to me."
Aaronâs heart slammed against his ribcage. His normally stoic expression faltered as a heat spread through his body. He knew he shouldnât be listeningâhe knew he should just walk away. But he couldnât move. He was frozen, his mind replaying her words over and over again.
"Iâm serious!" she continued, her voice teasing. "Heâs so damn buttoned-up all the time, but I bet if you unbuttoned him, heâd be⌠well, you know."
Aaronâs mouth went dry. He didnât know how much longer he could stand there without giving himself away. He shifted his weight slightly, his shoes scuffing the floor, and Y/N immediately turned.
Her eyes widened in surprise as she quickly ended the call. "Oh my God, I didnât realize you were home." There was a brief, awkward silence before she recovered, a mischievous glint in her eye. "How much of that did you hear?"
Aaron cleared his throat, trying to regain his composure. "Enough."
"Enough, huh?" she teased, biting her lower lip. "Well, in that case, I hope I wasnât too out of line."
"Youâre never out of line," he said quietly, his voice rougher than usual. His eyes locked on hers, and for a brief, electric moment, neither of them said anything.
Finally, Y/N broke the tension with a soft smile. "I was just joking, you know."
Aaron raised an eyebrow. "Were you?"
Her cheeks flushed, but she didnât look away.Â
For the rest of the evening, the air between them was thick with unresolved tension, but they both danced around it, neither willing to take the next step. Aaron told himself it was for the bestâgetting involved with her would be a mistake. But the thoughts that had been planted in his mind wouldnât go away.
Three days had passed since Aaron overheard Y/N on the phone, and the memory of her words still haunted him. He couldnât stop thinking about herâhow she looked when she bit her lip in thought, the way she laughed so easily, and most of all, the things she had said. He had tried to shove those thoughts aside, but his mind kept circling back to them, making it impossible to focus on anything else.
Now, sitting in a busy restaurant with the BAU team for lunch, a rare moment of relaxation for the team, he found himself distracted once again, thoughts of Y/N constantly pulling at the edges of his mind. He absentmindedly sipped his water, only half-listening as Garcia animatedly recounted her latest tech adventure.
But then he saw her.
At a table near the window, there she wasâY/N, her hair shining in the natural light, dressed in a simple yet beautiful sundress that made her look effortlessly stunning. But it wasnât just Sophie that caught his attention. It was the man sitting across from her.
The man was tall, dressed sharply in a button-down shirt, his body language relaxed and confident. And worst of all, he was leaning in too close. Much too close. Y/N was laughing at something he said, her hand brushing against his as they talked.
Aaronâs chest tightened, and a hot, unfamiliar feeling surged through himâjealousy, raw and burning. The possessiveness he'd been trying to bury came roaring to the surface. How could she be here, laughing and smiling with another man, after everything? After the way she'd talked about him on the phone?
Without thinking, Aaronâs jaw clenched, his hands balling into fists around the knife and fork.
"Hotch?" JJâs voice broke through his haze. "You okay?"
Aaron didnât respond. His gaze was fixed on Y/N, and every passing second made his blood boil hotter. He stood abruptly, the chair scraping loudly across the floor, startling the team.
Morgan raised an eyebrow. "Everything all right, man?"
"Iâll be right back," Aaron muttered, his tone clipped, as he stalked across the restaurant, eyes locked on Y/N and the man across from her.
He didnât care about the people watching, didnât care about the surprised looks from the rest of the team as they followed his movements. All he could think about was getting to her, pulling her away from this man who had no right to be near her.
"Y/N," he said, his voice more commanding than he intended.
Her head whipped around in surprise. "Aaron?" She looked startled, glancing between him and the man across from her. Her dining companion looked up too, startled by the sudden interruption. Aaron didnât even glance at him. His focus was solely on her.
"Whatâs going on?" Aaron demanded, his voice harsher than he intended. His eyes flickered to the man, a dangerous edge creeping into his tone. "Who is this?" He didnât care about the people staring or the team watching from across the room.He didnât care about the clear hint of jealousy lacing his tone. All he could think about was the possessiveness clawing at his chest, about how he just wanted to throw her over his shoulder and take her home locking her away while screaming MINE like a caveman.
Y/N blinked, clearly caught off guard by his aggressive approach. "What are youâ" She looked at her friend, then back at Aaron. "Aaron, this is Nicoâs husband Collin. Weâre just planning his surprise birthday party." turning to Collin she says, âCollin, this is Aaron the father to the boy I nanny.â The words took a second to sink in, and when they did, Aaron felt a wave of relief wash over him. But the possessiveness still lingered, simmering beneath the surface. He barely glanced at the man seated across from her, dismissing him as though he was insignificant, because in Aaronâs mind, he was.
The man across from her offered a polite smile, but Aaron barely registered it. His pulse was racing, his emotions spiraling. She wasnât on a date. She was planning a party. A mix of relief and frustration surged through him,Â
He moved closer to Y/N, his body crowding her space, the intensity of his emotions spilling over. "Why didnât you tell me about this?" he asked, his voice lower now but still charged. He knew his reaction wasnât rational, but he couldnât help it. The thought of her with someone else, even if it was innocent, drove him crazy.
Y/N eyes widened, a mix of surprise and something elseâsomething like amusementâcrossing her face. "I didnât think I needed to tell you every detail of my day, Aaron," she said, her voice soft but pointed. Her gaze held his, unwavering, and for a moment, the world seemed to shrink around them.
Aaronâs breath came faster, his chest rising and falling with the weight of everything he was feeling. It was too much. He couldnât hold it in any longer. In one swift movement, he reached for her, pulling her out of her chair and into him.
The kiss came out of nowhereâfierce, desperate, and claiming. He kissed her like a man starved, his hand tangled in her hair, the other gripping her waist as though he was afraid to let go. He poured everything he had into that kissâhis longing, his frustration, his possessiveness.
For a split second, Y/N froze, caught off guard by the sudden intensity of it all. But then, to Aaronâs overwhelming relief, she kissed him back. Her hands found their way to his shoulders then around his neck fingers tugging the back of his hair, holding him just as tightly as he held her.
When they finally pulled apart, both of them were breathless, their foreheads nearly touching. Sophie looked up at him, her lips parted slightly, eyes searching his face.
"Aaron," she whispered, her tone a mix of astonishment and affection, "what was that?"
Aaron took a deep breath, trying to gather his thoughts, but the truth was, he wasnât thinking. He was feeling. And for once, he couldnât control it.
"You drive me crazy," he admitted, his voice rough. "I couldnât stand the thought of you with someone else."
Y/N eyes sparkled with a mix of amusement and surprise. "Well," she said softly, her lips curving into a grin, "I guess I wasnât entirely wrong about you."But, smiling softly with her hand sliding up to cup his cheek she said, âI wasnât on a date. I told you- this is Nicoâs husband and we are just planning his surprise birthday party.â "I know," Aaron murmured, his thumb brushing lightly over her cheek. "But I couldnât⌠I justâ" "Youâre jealous," she teased, her grin growing wider. "Aaron Hotchner, the unshakable, grumpy unit chief of the BAU, is jealous."
He didnât deny it. He couldnât. "Yes," he said simply, his voice raw with honesty. "Iâm jealous. And I donât want to hide it anymore."
Y/N smile softened, her fingers tracing the edge of his jaw. "You donât have to."
Behind them, the BAU team sat at their table, watching the scene unfold in varying degrees of shock. Morgan had a huge grin on his face, clearly amused, while Garcia looked ready to swoon. JJ and Reid exchanged knowing looks, and Rossi just chuckled to himself, shaking his head at Aaronâs unexpected outburst.
Morgan finally broke the silence. "Well damn, Hotch. I didnât see that coming."
Aaron ignored the teamâs comments, his attention focused solely on Y/N. He pulled her closer, pressing his forehead to hers. "I should have told you how I felt sooner," he said, his voice quieter now, more vulnerable.
Y/N's gaze softened, her hand resting gently against his chest. "Better late than never," she whispered back.
Aaron Hotchner had always been a man of few words, but sometimes, actions spoke louder than any words ever could. I need to remake my taglist since I don't know how is still active so for now just tagging some friends.
@boldlyvoid @samuel-de-champagne-problems @reidsaurora @milla984 @reid-ingandweeping
@foxy-eva @thedancingcostumeyoungadult @ssahotchnerr
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