#when u just wanna learn abt a plant/animal

[moomeecore]

@stellatheknave yes exactly exactly. i am also an avid bug lover, not just an enjoyer of so called "weeds". it is a curse. have u ever searched up drain flies on the google with the intent of seeing a fuzzy wuzzy little guy? a cutie patootee, if you will? only 2 have the internet forcefuly remind u that some people r obsessed w suppressing and destroying nature ! god

that is definitely NOT what i asked

[deathvsthemaiden]

🎯, 💡 , 🎻 ,🔭, 🕯 !!!

🎯 if you could gain any skill instantly, what would it be?

I would just know every language (or at least the ones I really wanna know, like Arabic, Farsi, Latin, sign language etc.) like the back of my hand w/o trying! Effort is rewarding and blah blah but I’m gonna die eventually so! I’ll take instant gratification bc I can only feel and practice a finite level of nobility in one lifetime. (Also I count bioluminescence as a language and the most common one on earth at that—)🦑🌊

Or else I’d really just like to know how to draw anatomically correct people without too much effort. I’ll make the effort to learn everything else but can I plzzz just learn to draw bodies?? I have so many ideas and a finite amount of time on earth to execute them in :(

wow what’s w me and the word finite. I’d ask the same thing abt the hyperawareness of my temporality but that’s old ancient news :P

💡 what hobby did you start doing most recently?

I plan to pick up origami again bc I found a bunch of paper. Going to re teach myself how to fold all sorts of flowers and /retain/ that knowledge this time!! Does browsing online shopping sites count as a hobby.....that’s the newest diversion I’ve found to fill my time w lately :P

My newest niche of YT videos is kickboxing workouts, and I keep dreaming up different and novel grilled cheese filling combos and making them and they never disappoint 👌🏽 🧀

🎻 if you began learning a new instrument today, which one would you pick?

Ukulele or guitar probably, I’ve tried guitar and it was fun! Or the sitar...the harp? if it has strings I want to play upon it things I guess :P 🎸

🔭 what’s your go-to topic to learn about when you’re bored?

It’s so sweet of you to assume my first instinct when confronted w boredom is to devote myself to my own intellectual BETTERMENT I’m emotional thank u 😭!! AGHXSNSN! Ok but tbh...I do like those art restoration vids on YT....like the narrated long ones where the conservator tells us all his secrets....I don’t really remember most of them but u know...and listening to the occasional nonfiction audiobook (when I’m mentally strong enough to handle it) usually abt history, art/color or plants. Maybe a memoir if I’m feeling really unlike myself. 🖼

The most honest answer is probably that I seek out information about whatever piece of fiction I’m most into at the time of boredom by poking around the Internet. So lots of anime and fantasy book (ask me about the cosmere and I’ll talk your poor god given ears off ⚔️) related lore, and atm I know a good deal ish about Sherlock Holmes and ACD himself bc I’m so into detective fiction lately 🤷🏽‍♀️🔍

🕯 do you have any self care activities you do routinely?

Hmm 🤔 Napping. I probably do more but that’s the most effective and healthy thing 😪 😴 I like to read...listen to music....audiobooks...and pace (so much pacing)... 🤔 eat and occasionally exercise

[laughing-thrush]

The good news is that the best way you can help native birds long term is by creating healthy habitat with native plants! Individuals conducting starling/sparrow culls do not effect overall population trends, and are only attempting to treat the symptoms of habitat degradation. If you’re an average Joe who wants to help, try these instead, no “hard decisions” necessary: -Plant native! (Can be as little as including natives in landscaping, every little bit helps! Link to NFWS Native Plant Finder, which is good for casual gardeners or as a starting point for plant nerds.) -Don’t use herbicides or pesticides! (These kill bird food- bugs- and run off yards and affect natural areas (minimize or eliminate fertilizer for the same reason). Small amounts applied to stumps are not the problem, but don’t broadcast/treat lawns. Oft included in weed&feed when not specified on the packaging, so watch out.) -Leave the leaves! (Gives bugs places to hide/overwinter and improves soil quality. Both a natural fertilizer and a natural bird feeder! U can move them to an area where u don’t mind them, just don’t shred or bag.) -Encourage others to do the same! (Friends, family, neighbors, land managers, parks systems- it’s all connected, contiguous land is more valuable to wildlife, and every little bit helps!)

saw a post urging people to cull any invasive house sparrows they come across and like if its a male maybe sure but the amount of even experienced birders who have difficulty with sparrow ID do you REALLY think average joe will be able to tell the difference??

[kangaroo-r00]

[PERSONAL GOALS]

feel free to ignore this it’s just for my shitty memory tbh

{ G E N D E R  I D E N T I T Y }

- NAME CHANGE NAME CHANGE NAME CHANGE RIGHT AS I HIT 18 MY DAD CAN EAT SHIT      > Lmao don’t forget to change every part of ur name u forgetful bastard - Buy @ least 1 binder       > Actually measure my cup size so I can finally buy a fucking binder             > Get tighter bras if I can’t buy a binder soon - Ask mom to go shopping w/ me        > Buy @ least 1 CASUAL dress (dress for sister’s wedding does not count)            > Maybe get a skirt - I WANNA WEAR A SUIT BEACAUSE ID LOOK HOT IN ONE - Only introduce myself as Roux (already doing that p well - Next time I go swimming (if ever) wear baggy t shirt & shorts - Learn how to apply makeup       > Ask sisters or consult youtube - Buy men’s jeans (for the practical pockets)       > Basically shop in whatever fucking aisles I want because I will  n o t  be restricted by something like gender  - Wear more baggy hoodies - Check out the men’s aisle for hygiene stuff (because, hey, no pink tax & I like the men’s stuff better) - Paint my nails more (kinda got off track doing that) - Learn how to present more masculine??? - Maybe do stuff w/ my voice??? - Work on my walk (kinda feminine???) - Shave my legs??? (it’s been over a year so I dunno) - For the love of all that is holy ask my doctor abt birth control becuz dysphoria runs rampant on shark week, cramps suck ass, & the fact that my uterus still works properly is transphobic - Start saving up to eventually get surgery & change my name (if I take an off year for college then maybe I can get surgery b4 I go???)      > Split portions of my paychecks & money to go to an account or fund or whatever           > Top surgery & get uterus removed or something along those lines (tubes tied, sell eggs???) - Make sure I get (at the very least) Roux on my junior ring - Write more abt being nonbinary. Representation!!! - Basically be not subtle abt being nonbinary       > Be openly out to my whole school??? because fuck I hate being labelled as a girl at STA that shit fucking sucks            > LOBBY AGAINST SKIRTS BECAUSE THEY SUCK WHEN THEYRE REQUIRED - Try to figure out my identity more (am I just using nonbinary as an umbrella term??? what other pronouns do I feel comf w/???) - Move somewhere LGBTQ+ tolerant

{ R E L I G I O N }

- Cut myself off from Catholicism completely (gonna be hard when I go to a catholic school haha end me)      > Try to get past my church hurt            > I dunno stop making so many jokes abt Catholicism (lmao maybe not; im still salty af) - Look more into other religions       > Learn more abt Wicca &/or Paganism            > Talk to some actual Wicca & Pagans for more info - Do some soul searching            > What do I believe in exactly??? What are my morals??? What’s important to me??? - Move somewhere religiously tolerant

{ S C H O O L }

- Actively try harder even if I don’t want to       > Please try super hard in math again             > Try harder in Latin becuz ur not doing ur best!!! - Write. Notes. For. Everything. - Please don’t stop using ur planner becuz ur memory is fucking atrocious       > Turn in all ur homework heathen - GPA is somewhat important!!! Raise that shit!!! - Ask for help!!! - Don’t wait until last minute??? - Pursue some kinda zoology / conservationist / writing degree - Enter more contests       > Try for scholarships???  

{ M I S C E L L A N E O U S }

- TATTOOS BABEY (nature ones uwu)      > A wolf, snake, or peacock would be p lit           > & SPACE                > & PLANTS & FLOWERS - Dye my hair more fun colors      > Dye my hair unnatural colors every summer finals becuz fuck STA!!!           > Dye my hair unnatural colors for graduation becuz FUCK STA!!!                > Dye my hair unnatural colors becuz FUCK BARB!!! - PIERCINGS I WANT THEM      > Cartilage piercings???           > Nose piercing???                 > Eyebrow piercing???                       > Tongue piercing??? (I dunno abt this one) - Learn more German becuz u mad Duo sad & he’ll kill ur family if u don’t!!! - Draw u bastard!!! - Sing more!!! - Compliment people more!!!      > Talk to people u think are cool!!! - Visit more wildlife sanctuaries & zoos      > Visit more places w/ nature!!! - Donate to more charities!!! - Foster all the dogs & cats!!! - I WANT ALL THE PETS (I WILL BE THE CRAZY ANIMAL PERSON)      > Reptiles, arachnids, amphibians, mammals, rodents, birds, & insects!!! - Maybe foster teens when I’m a Proper Adult™??? - I like plants!!! I want to learn how to take care of them!!!      > Ask Sarah for tips & knowledge!!! - Get a book published!!! - Learn how to cook &/or bake adequately - Buy more earrings!!!      > More jewelry in gen!!! - Learn more abt astronomy, geology, & phycology - Try more styles!!! Buy more clothes!!! - Live somewhere in the country???      > Just somewhere w/ lots of nature & less people!!! - I wanna be a nice person!!!

[aegissi]

50 questions tag 💕

I was tagged by @sophrosynes (this took me like a month im sorry)

1. what takes up too much of your time? definitely social media n looking at kpop stuff or youtchube videos :////

2. what makes your day better? nowadays the only thing that will always lift my mood is working out bc of all those chemicals

3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today? i procrastinated today so i didn’t do much sjgvdfhdbk i did an arm workout tho and it was so satisfying to be able to do all the moves without a break bc it shows that im getting stronger n i luv that

4. what fictional place would you like to go? the house in my neighbor totoro bc it just looks nice and peaceful

5. are you good at giving advice? i think i am but ultimately the receiver decides if the advice was indeed good or not 

6. do you have any mental illness? hahahahahahhaa yea maybey probably im seeing a therapist anyway

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? no it sounds very intriguing tho n i was surprised that so many people experienced it 

8. what musician inspired you the most? epik high and 2ne1 :(((

9. have you ever fallen in love? nah i don’t think so,, im more of a “intricate daydreams abt romantic scenarios that won’t ever happen” type girl

10. what’s your dream date? roberta im litcherally the same sjgdvfjbhk so yea museum or art gallery and then going to a place to talk,, i think a picnic would be nice too??

11. what do others notice about you? well first off they notice im #asian asfhjdg and also like my eyes i think? especially if i put on makeup (tbh i don’t even think that people notice things abt me)

12. what is the annoying habit you have? i always hum or sing-song randomly,, i personally don’t find it annoying but maybe others would ig

13. do you still talk to your first love? my first crush is a business major now so no lmaooo

14. how many ex’s do you have? zero

15. how many songs are on your playlist? 182 on my current tunes playlist but i have like 30 playlists in total

16. what instruments can you play? none unfortunately :// (i want to learn gayageum tho bc it sounds cool)

17. who do you have the most pictures of? 80% of my phone galleries are selfies bc i Love Myself

18. where would you like to go before you die? i want to go to a place where there’s a lot of snow n it’s really white n quiet

19. what is your zodiac? capricorn babey!!

20. do you relate to it? yea im very earthy n i like money

21. what is happiness to you? being at peace and not worrying,,, just being in the moment n enjoying it to its fullest

22. are you going through anything right now? yea but a bitch is gonna survive as always

23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? i don’t really remember and i don’t even want to bc thats not useful to my growth

24. what’s your favorite store? there’s a vintage store i really like and also artbox in korea,,, they have so much stuff i almost bought the whole stationary section

25. what’s your opinion on abortion? it should be as safe as possible for the people who choose to have one 

26. do you keep a bucket list? yea but i always forget what i put on it anyway and i end up remaking it every year rsgjbjkf i do have a bucket list for the month tho!! 

27. do you have a favorite album at the moment? not really i feel like it’s been a while since i last listened to an album in its entirety 

28. what do you want for your birthday? a hair straightener bc my bangs are currently out of control

29. what are most people’s first impression of you? i have no idea honestly but i think it’s mostly good? but i can appear kinda distant bc i am quite distant if im not feeling the person 

30. what age do you seem according to most people? i look my age tbh i’ve never had anyone give me more at least

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? on my desk or charged near my bed

32. what word do you say the most? uuuuhh idk but i write “okey” a lot by texts shfdbhkf

33. what’s the oldest age you would date? like 22?? i don’t like huge age gaps

34. what’s the youngest age you would date? people born in december 2000 sjbhkdb otherwise ur babey

35. what job/career do most people say would suit you? one of my best friends used to tell me i would be a good therapist but i feel like thats bc im a good listener?? other than that idk (i asked my parents once n they were like. just do what u want zjvhjgbfk thats not helpful!!!)

36. what’s your favorite music genre? the type of music they put in chill study music playlists on youtube honestly (and also anything that sounds gay. i luv disco sm u guys don’t even know)

37. if you could live in any country in the world where would it be? korea bc i need yakult and karaokes

38. what is your current favorite song? shine by pentagon bc i relate to the lyrics now sgdbkjfnkjb

39. how long have you had this blog for? uuuhh i wanna say 2 years??

40. what are you excited for? my paris trip with my friends!!!!!!! 

41. are you a better talker or listener? im a good listener but i luv talking bc i luv attention,,,, but im also not very eloquent most of the time??? so im gonna go with listener

42. what is the last productive thing you did? not 2 repeat myself again but working out (im a jock i tell u)

43. what do you want for christmas?  money would be nice

44. what class do you get the best grades in? according to my exam results it’s english but i had good grades in physics in hs and also in literature

45. on a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? a solid 4.5

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years? in a nice apartment with lots of plants and wearing a long white dress while playing the ukulele to my flower bouquets

47. when did you get your first heartbreak? ay it’s always been broken fellas 🤠🤠 if we wanna get more specific i’d say first year of high school during my first friendship breakup

48. at what age do you want to get married? honestlé? i don’t wanna get married,, to me it just seems like another thing to be trapped in and i value my independance too much

49. what career did you want to have as a child?  i wanted to be a vet bc i loved animals!! i also wanted to be a jedi too but thats smth else entirely 

50. what do you crave now? affection/purpose/peace/blueberry muffin/tteokbokki with cheese

im tagging: @1fancafe @twejoon @ilovemeghan @flowerene @scy @rainmv @jinseas (idk who did this already but ignore if u want to sgjdbgkfn)

[sundrenched-smilez]

odd numbers for the lesbian asks! (if it's too many just do every 4th one maybe?)

1. Femme or butch? 

for type, im vry easily wooed by butches tbh

as for myself, im genderfluid + heavily lean towards butch-ish for one gender + have been gettin more comf w that term for myself. the 3 genders i switch between, ive described as sharp, dainty and tired, for reason of not really being comf w gender labels aside from nonbinary. sharp/tired r kinda butchish, moreso sharp. like leather jackets, ripped jeans, dress pants/shirts, defs flannels (which r a given for any mood im in tbh) while tired is like mb softer, more focused on flannels + loose tank tops/shirts, shorts + certain skirts, comfy clothes, and the like   

ive found that i’m leaning more towards butch lately too, like i’ve been a lot more comfortable with pants and a nice top than i have w dresses or most skirts + im wondering if i was just hanging on to femininity for sake of society, so those r things 2 think abt. i still feel comf in them sometimes, but it’s getting much less often. gender’s weird, i still cant cling to one bc of how pressuring that is so genderfluidity is still smth for me + it shifting to different percentages is okay (im thinking out loud @ this point, but its helping so i hope its interesting to read)

3. Plaid button-ups or leather jackets?

both, but primarily flannels/plaid buttion-ups

5. Describe your aesthetic

aaahh theres a lot of diff aesthetics i could go into, but i have a tag if ur interested in a visual representation? basically, cosy homes, forests, wooden steps and bridges, cats, girls/nbs, water, plants, and old video game stuff, and clouds/skies. i’m sure there’s more in there, but for a good rule of thumb !! as for like dressing aesthetic, i like to look rly gay + attractive and a lil showy? like my shorts r Short and i love crop tops + a lot of my shirts show my bra thru them, + i like showing it when i can, like sports bra + a tank top is a fav look of mine bc i can make it look like my bra is a trim on the shirt + it’s cute. i’ve been wearing dresses less often, but occasionally, i like to rock one. id love a pair of combat boots but i have like size 11/12 feet + most stores dont carry that size + im hesitant to buy some online. 

7. Favorite pair of shoes?

its rly hard to find any, i have like walmart converse knockoffs atm + theyre a beige/grey color im not that huge on, it kinda reminds me of sandalwood but depressed

9. Any haircut goals for the future? 

there was the undercut!! and i have that down now c: next step is to dye it blue and mb some purple. i wanna bleach it if i’m gonna dye it, but im hesitant to do that bc of how damaging it is, but since my hair’s been cut a cpl time almost all the color is out now, so i think itll b ok if i take good care of it. 

11. Describe the worst date you’ve been on

i went to a cafe w someone (i think they were nb but i cant remember, it was like 2 yrs ago about ) and they were impossible to talk to bc they just kept saying “im awkward sorry” @ everything and like any conversations i tried to maintain were all one-shot responses, and like that was a lil frustrating. like i dont hold it against them or anything, more in a sense of i was rly tryin 2 carry it and just couldnt 

13. If taken, talk about your girlfriend/wife!

whooh i wish i was taken, i need affection + to b cute w someone 

15. Describe your dream wedding

hmmmm i havent thought much about it !! i know when i was younger i wanted to wear a black wedding dress but now im thinkin mb a suit that switches to dress @ the bottom?? that could b cool. I’d be happy w anything tbh, if im getting married, i’d just b happy to be w my wife/spouse. mb somewhere in a forest or on a boat would b cool, defs lots of good food and colorful flowers. I’d like a lot of color, most weddings ive been to are just b/w and bland for my taste (they’ve also all been straight tho so theres that.) it’s kind of wild to think that i might b married someday, but it’d b rly nice. i just haven’t thought much abt the planning of one. it’d b rly gay tho, probs give out tiny gay flags at each seat, and the cake could b lesbian flag colors. im rly drawing a blank on this, but i know id want all my friends around the country + world to be there. 

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

i definitely want to live in a port town at some point !! idk where i’d like to settle down, ideally somewhere that doesnt get much hotter than 90 degrees + has lots of parks + is big enough for some events, like pride stuff, little festivals, a farmer’s market, and places to do things, such as a movie theater, bowling alley, mb an aquarium, if not one in a nearby town. hiking trails r also good. 

19. Favorite lesbian novel/story?

on a sunbeam!!! its a huge inspiration for me, and i love it so much. it always puts me in such a good mindset when i read it, and the artist is my age, so it makes me feel like I can also accomplish great things if i rly put my heart into it!! which is such a good feeling, and it has great representation + characters that i love, and its rly gay, and in space and theres ships shaped like fish + its gorgeous : D i could go on for hrs abt it + how important it is to me. theres an nb character too, and like the aspect of found families is one that rly hits home and it helped me get thru a rough time of my life + better accept myself as queer/gay. 

21. Favorite lesbian musician?

adult mom (tho i think they’re bi but still gay), or hayley kiyoko

23. Ever been assumed to be nothing more than a gal pal?

i think so, but i can’t place when, it’s been a bit. 

25. Be positive! What do you like most about being a lesbian?

talking abt being gay w other girls/nbs is lovely and cathartic, i never got to growing up bc i lived in a homophobic town + i was like dealing heavily with internalized homophobia and body/gender dysphoria so i was ace for a bit. talking more abt like sexual attraction + aesthetic attraction is new to me, and that’s been a process to get to, but it’s nice that I can now do so w/o being belittled or barraged by insult. i also just love the thought of being w someone, and daydreaming abt when that happens is really nice. also,, girls + nbs r a blessing and brighten my day and im so glad im attracted 2 them 

27. Turn ons?

absolutely communication, that’s a need. i had a bad experience w someone bc she wasn’t communicative at all, and failed to tell me that we weren’t dating despite us going on several dates + kissing??? like i wont go too into it, but hatchi matchi it was a mess. so yeah, communication, affection, and like reassurance that they actually want to be with me, and that my presence is wanted and enjoyed. I got a lot of “i dont care”s for answers last sort-of relationship, and that was rly discouraging. another turn on is for them to initiate talking and things, like holding hands or planning to hang out + such. consent is another big one. 

29. Do you usually ask other women out or do you wait for them to ask you?

i usually tend to ask them out, but im still dealing w internalized junk, so its difficult. i also havent any situations in which they liked me back, which is frustrating. like i got lead on earlier summer for abt a month until i asked what we were doing + didnt rly get an answer, and it was this whole mess. i generally try to make the first move tho, bc i know firsthand how difficult it is, but that being said, it’s still hard for me to know for sure if theyre interested + i dont wanna make things uncomf w them, so i’ll wait until i think there might b attraction. that being said, once that’s all out of the way, i like to consider myself a good flirt when im trying. 

31. Talk about your interests or hobbies!

i have lots of interests!! im obsessed w steven universe, its my fav show (and if u ever have time, we should totally watch it together sometime, i rly think you’d love it, it’s super gay + heartwarming.) i really love playing music and learning new songs, which im rly great at memorizing. talking to friends + gettin 2 know them better is always nice and fun. i like to draw new things + see the different ways ppl draw, so seeing art on here is always fun for me. i’m also rly into polygon videos (it’s a youtube channel, not like videos abt polygon haha) and this podcast called the adventure zone. season one just ended, so i might start listening to another one called friends at the table. i rly wanna start a podcast w someone, but can never find anyone to start it with. idk what I’d talk abt but if i could find a partner for it, i think it’d be a lot of fun. mb smth abt games or books/queer representation in media. doing a dnd podcast would also b rly fun, but a lot of work + editing so mb later down the road !! im blanking on other interests atm, but animations and cartoons r lovely and i aim to make something in that field one day, if not just a comic.

my hobbies r mostlyyyy drawing, dnd things now every thursday, hanging w my friends, playing video games, sometimes writing (i rly wanna start a comic, and im tryin to get my butt into gear on it), goin to parks, listening to music, and goin 2 events w roe + cesar, two of my friends. sometimes ill play music!! i need to get more than the keyboard i’m lending, but i love performing. ill also watch leg birds on youtube, theyre a lesbian couple that plays gams + theyre rly sweet. 

33. Do you love easily or does it take time for you to warm up to someone?

its easy for me to love friends, doesnt usu take me more than a few months of knowing them if were talking a lot. as for falling in love, that takes me a lot longer. ive never rly been in love w someone. i thought i was once, but rly it was just my first gay experience w someone and i wanted it to be perfect so i projected a lot of things + made it better than it seemed to myself for the duration of it, which wasn’t healthy, so i wanna avoid doing that again, + take things slower next time. or at least for what they are. 

35. Ever fallen for a straight girl?

a few times, they were just crushes tho, so it wasnt too too bad

37. Favorite comfort food?

hot cocoa or tea. as for food food, i dont think i have one. mb french toast or cinnamon rolls. 

39. Vegetarian? Vegan? None of the above?

i used to be a vegetarian!! for like a yr, but it was difficult for me to eat and feel full, and i was pretty underweight, so i stopped. 

41. Early-riser or night-owl?

both, i tend to stay up, but getting up early can be nice if i dont have to do anything. like just gently waking + making some tea and a nice breakfast + sittin around for a bit. 

43. What is your Myers-Briggs type?

enfp-a 

45. At what age did you know you were a lesbian?

i think like 16-17? it took me a bit to get words for identity, like lesbian/nonbinary and the like, but i always knew, like id call myself an individual as opposed to gendered terms that i was referred to, and always felt rly yucky w deadname + the wrong pronouns

47. Are you crushing on anyone at the moment (celebrity or otherwise)?

ive got one crush atm !! and another person who seems nice, but i wanna hang out w before like thinking abt a crush (im poly, which perhaps goes w/o saying, but i always like to state it when talking abt these things, jic )

49. Talk about your dreams/aspirations for the future

i’d like a partner or two, to get some bongos- i got to play some a couple weeks ago, and it was the most fun i’ve had playing anything!! having smth with an instant response that i could make up rhythms with was really rewarding and so much fun. i know i want a cat at some point, to go on cute dates + cuddle and kiss a lot w someone, to visit my friends in other places, dye my hair, get a better job, to travel a bit, make a comic, go to college for animation and storyboarding, mb go to camp at some point, and I’d like to make some more friends here, i’m already making some, which i’m super happy about, but it’s always nice meeting new ppl 

thank u for asking!! this was relaxing + fun, and a lot of the topics were cathartic to talk about, and i needed it. so thanks for listening too kinda

also im queen of commas, i’ve discovered while typing this