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DEADLOCH
Madeleine Sami as Eddie Redcliffe
Word of advice. Press the memory of what happened today, like, down, you know? Like, really far down. Because the faster you do that, the faster you'll get him out of the corner of your eye, you know? Watching you as you put your tampon in. Ok. See you later for a fuck.
#madeleine sami#deadloch#tvedit#thing i made#when she asked for tape#and i thought she was gonna get prints off a piece of evidence but instead she taped a piece of cardboard to the bottom of her foot I...#well i fell in love honestly#also the cock? on the wall behind her was so perfect
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Vanny finally meets FNAF tape girl in person...
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf vanessa#fnaf vanny#tape girl#fnaf tonya#fnaf help wanted#security breach#fnaf fanart#TAPE GIRL MENTIONED AGAIN 🔥🔥#A good handful of folks asks me if I’d draw Tape girl and Vanessa meeting#I THOUGHT it was a fun idea and finally got around to it#my thought process here is Vanny was hunting tape girl down#mean she wants to find the person who gave her this virus after all#just to say thank you I promise :-)#she’s either being genuine or sarcastic when she says it ‘helped her a lot’#probably similar to the Mike deal can’t bring herself to actually harm tape girl#I like the name Tonya for tape girl it’s one of her maybe names and I think it fits#shout out to toxic fnaf yuri…
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You’re telling me Taissa was worried enough about Natalie to send her to rehab multiple times & say “who does Natalie have?” so sadly. But she didn’t check up on Van who was living alone, not paying her bills, not healthy, not happy ONCE… I DON’T BELIEVE IT. That kind of love doesn’t fade 😭.
#now I want a fic of taissa anonymously buying thousands of dollars of VHS tapes to keep van in business#no but either she had a secret ‘van’ file somewhere in her house#or something bad went down between them and van pushed her away#I feel like tai would obsessively google and read articles and reviews of Van’s store when she couldn’t sleep#I don’t care if she canonically didn’t know about it until she asked for the file#in my heart Tai is a pathetic wet cat of an ex girlfriend#yellowjackets#Van Palmer#taissa Turner#Taivan
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lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...
it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy
also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]
gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.
anyway.
there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.
imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.
a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.
the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?
but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.
#asks#Anonymous#sagau#tsaritsa#like. am i explaining this coherently?? first meetings r GOOD and i could go on a tangent of like. first meetings w zl and make it work#but first meetings w the tsaritsa is like. you just cooked a 5 course meal. took one bite. called it a day.#so much of my characterization lies in the “after” of the first meeting#because her first meetings are generally the same. she's apathetic at best!! she does not gaf abt the creator in the SLIGHTEST#but show that you are more then the creator? that you do not cling to the title like a shield? that you do not rely on it?#youve got the worst person youve ever known ready to kill a man for you.#tsaritsa is very like. EXTREMELY hard to earn the trust of but when you do she will kill someone for you no hesitation no question#which is why she works SO WELL in villain au and imposter au!!!!!!!!!#esp if theres a fake “creator” calling you the imposter. she hates their ass and was .5 seconds from dethroning them anyway#you just made it 10x easier#also cant do just first meetings bc i am incapable of not shoving themes of love into every fic w her SORRY#tsaritsa going on a full multiple month long mental breakdown bc she is not in love with you but she would destroy everything for u..#(shes in denial)#tsaritsa and complex themes of love and what it means for the god of love to be incapable of feeling it + what it means when reader shows u#LIKE UGHHHHHH okay. i guess ill write another tsaritsa fic and put it in my vault#aka my drafts#i hold so many fics hostage there its crazy#this answered like 0 of ur questions sorry i see tsaritsa and black out and this happens#i just think first meetings dont let her character really come thru but my response got out of hand so uhhhhh everyone look away. please#putting tape over my mouth now so i shut up before this gets worse#basically tsaritsa gravitates more towards outcast reader rather then one who has already become accustomed to the adoration of the acolyte#does that make sense........#i havent slept in forever and im running on nothing but spite and dreams atp dont expect coherency when it comes 2 the tsaritsa from me#head in hands someone please stop me i keep rambling abt the tsaritsa it makes me go NUTS#lays down. explodes
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going for my in-person breast augmentation consult today wish me luck fellas
#text#first thing this doc asked me on remote consult was “so how long have you had gender dysphoria” lmao#during the same consult she contradicted me when i said i had d/dd cups and said they were “maybe b” doc u think i can't use a tape measure
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Hey Fort? It's hot out here, right?
"Yes, it's Thailand, so-?"
Yeah... just a second, can you hold this with your face a moment?
*sticks a strip of Gaff tape right between his eyes.*
Just, like, for 15 seconds.
*waits while it gets hot*
Perfect.
*rips the gaff tape- and his unibrow- off*
#love in the air#lita#prapai#side note just because it's a rookie mistake#BabyCousin (Peat's age) and I have a bit of a gift war with Xmas each year#i started it- i wrapped her gift in 13 layers of paper and tape and when she finally got down to it#the card was empty and I had her gift in my pocket#she tried to kill me with scissors#anyways#when she was in college she wrapped my gift in gaff tape because she had a part time job in a theater#gaff tape is insanely sticky don't fuck with it we use it constantly#and i wrapped hers with simple packing tape#she was so proud of herself because gaff take is a pain in the ass#and I just look at it; then look outside at the snow; and asked if she left it in her car#she was like '? yeah? so ?'#one good yank and it was open easy as can be#I handed her gift to her and said 'next time use a hair dryer'#it took an hour for her to get that bitch open#you want to fuck with someone- always heat the tape#gaff tape especially turns into just about a solid brick if it gets hot#i hate using gaff someone left out in the heat; you'll get blisters even trying to pull 6 inches#which is a random ass tangent to go on on this post but if you've read this far then now you know the trick to really messing with tape
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i feel really deflated after seeing that doriane pin lost her win. i was so excited about women in motorsport and now it just feels like the people in power just want to punish talented women
listen, the fia are absolutely, 100%, no doubt whatsoever, clowns at their jobs.
but in this specific incident, i actually think they were right to penalise pin. i understand the frustration, because her doing an extra lap did not affect the race result, but ultimately, the penalty was for failing to follow basic safety regulations.
not to be morbid, but motorsport is actually a very dangerous sport, both for the drivers and for the officials. people do still die from participating in motorsport, and safety regulations, whilst rarely enjoyable, are very very important.
the stewards weren't penalising doriane for doing an extra lap, they were penalising her for being unaware first of the chequered flag, and then the many red flags that she was failing to slow for. should her team have been on the radio to tell her that it was over and she had won? yes. but should she have been aware of what was going on, seen the flags and responded to them appropriately? also yes.
in this instance it was the end of the race and she was only returning to the grid, but that's where the podium finishers park their cars. if she had still been going at full speed when she approached a grid where officials and other drivers were wandering about, it could have gone very badly. if the red flag had been thrown in the middle of the race and she had continued going at full speed until she arrived at the scene of an accident, potentially even where machinery was on track to move a car, it could have been very bad. and it's worth pointing out that teams don't always see everything from the pit wall, they sometimes have to rely on drivers giving them that information after the driver has seen a flag, so driver awareness is incredibly important.
it's very easy for people to sit and be annoyed by this decision because her actions didn't affect anyone, but safety rules are put in place to anticipate and mitigate the worst possibilities, and the only way they can ever be effective is if they are also applied for the smallest breaches. nothing bad happened this time, but it could have, and even if it didn't, doriane could have ended up disqualifying herself by using more fuel than is permitted. it seems harsh, and there is an argument that she should have been given a grid penalty for the next race rather than a time penalty for this one, but i don't believe that her getting a penalty is unfair.
does it suck that she lost her win? sure. i really like doriane, she's been fantastic in endurance racing and i love the iron dames, so i'm definitely rooting for her to do well in single seaters. but i think safety is more important and i always will. she'll take this hit, learn from it, and come back fighting. please don't let yourself lose any excitement about women in motorsport because of one stewarding decision. i promise you, there is so much talent and potential in the world for female drivers.
if you're interested in the stewarding standards i recommend dropping into @mercedeshaterr's inbox as she has actual experience and can speak about stewarding with far more insight and authority than i can, and is a passionate supporter of women in motorsport
#keeping this in the tags because it is morbid but i remember watching a vhs tape of imola 1994#not realising that it was the race where senna died and then being horrified when he crashed#i remember watching jules bianchi have his accident in suzuka and a year later finding out that i had effectively seen a man die#i remember watching romain grosjean's accident and thinking that i was about to see another driver die#safety should always always be the highest priority and it's better for a driver to lose a win than someone to lose their life#doriane wasn't trying to endanger anyone but she could have and for that she gets a penalty#asks#anon#f1 academy
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thoughts on revival mulder pretending his name is bob at starbucks because he’s tired of explaining he is named after an animal ?
i just think he is a cute old man.
i actually wrote a whole thing based on this once skjdfh but he is CUTE!!! my favorite thing about it is the way scully teases him ("fox doesn't exist in coffee shops") but she genuinely looks like she's gonna melt looking at him. she just adores him so bad, 25 years in even the silly little things still get to her.
and i've always really loved these small eccentricities that mulder's characterization was so rich with, i love how those types of things matured and developed as the series continued
#when the coffee shop guy is like 'hey bob' and hes just like 'hi :)'#he is CUTE.#asks#ghouli#ALSO#scully LEARNING things about him#things she didn't know after a couple of years apart#he was relearning how to be...a person...and exist...after years trapped in that house and in grief and depression#and she was relearning who he is and the new little eccentricities of the person he's becoming#and i think that's really nice too#he's in his 50s but he's also 12 and 33 and 40 and holding his baby for the first time and he's trying#i love that about mulder in the revival too. he's just trying.#and it's special as well to have gotten to see him as older#i don't know that anyone expected him to be in his 50s and hoarding VHS tapes and telling scully she looks sooo adorbs#but he is and it's nice
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Your koala clinging post is giving cat energy and how when a cat lays on you asleep you're not allowed to move. So cute! But also *opens arms* cling away!
- 🌸 (a willing victim of an adorable koala)
P.S. (in response to your response to my last ask)
I actually googled whether massaging can help painful joints and it did say it can help. Maybe you just need someone else to massage them for you, and I suppose if it doesn't work at least we'll be holding hands.
Also not a barren wasteland 😭 pshh the tags are hidden gems and if your ideas for the cuddle sesh are anything to go off of I bet you'd be standing in a fantastical realm.
And of course boops and sleepy cuddles for you and the cutest kitty (how is she doing?)!
Agsjfkghdj you’re right though😭 apologies to all the cats i judged for doing this to me apparently i get it💀
Hmm i think it varies from case to case🤔 just between all my different joints some do better with heat, some with cold, and some with compression! So who knows! But also you’re right!! It’ll always be nice to spend some relaxing time with someone - joint pain or no :)
Agsjkflgh glad you can vibe with my tags and how i store all my rambling there haha😅
And!! Boop boop!! Kitty is well as always! As clingy as ever😪 and she also somehow managed to stain her neck dirt brown and i’m at an absolute loss for what to do about it🙃🙃 she found out she’s a white cat and HAD to find the dirtiest places in the world to play😒 here’s a very blurry quick picture of her trying to sleep underneath my blankets rn lol (gross neck stains not shown)
#asks#cryptids caught on tape#got the sleepiest most offended blinks in the entire world for lifting that blanket rip#she also just almost got crushed by the dog baby breaking out of his Baby Jail™️#so i didnt want to disturb her long enough for an unblurry picture apologies#will have to try again sometime when her highness is camera ready (never)#ma’am is always asleep which same but—#oh#im seeing the cat comparison now huh#🐨😴 <- koala nap for you!!#🌸
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wait did you really never listen to tapes? the earliest audiobooks I had were on tapes, I remember needing to wind them back using a pencil lol. I think CDs weren't a thing till I was like 8 or 9
I think I just didn't listen to audiobooks as a kid. My parents would put on comedy tapes for long drives (Bill Cosby 😬). I never had my own walkman. By the time I was deemed old enough (7 or 8?) I was given a hand me down discman, I think. I remember playing Jagged Little Pill in it at elementary school, but that CD was my older sister's. I didn't buy my own CD until I was given a gift certificate at age 9. Conversely, we had a record player at home and I had Disney records I would put on. And my oldest sister was definitely making old fashioned mix tapes from recording the radio.
I think every family probably has some odd mix of 10-20 years of tech going on at once. If it ain't broke, keep using it, but also new and shiny things are fun.
#i asked my older sister and she claims the library would give ys books on tape when we were learning to read#but i dont remember that at all#but i learned to read pretty easily and she has dyslexia#so it might be have been different for us
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Pleaseeeee we need more from the ghost file AU! It’s underrated and funny!
(as always, credit must be shared with @taran-chan who co-authored the first entry and shares custody of this AU with me)
"Hey, Thena?"
"Yes?"
"Why do I do this to myself?"
She smiled into her walkie-talkie. Gil was camping out upstairs while she was on the ground floor. He had initially said that he should be on the ground floor in case someone broke into the house. Then she said that the upper floor was likely more haunted and then he had fallen on that sword instead.
He was very protective, for a giant walking fraidy-cat.
"I wouldn't know the answer to that," she answered back, the click of the walkie's signal punctuating each sentence for her.
"Are you, um," he paused, and she heard the rustling of his sleeping bag. "Are you okay, down there?"
Ah, sweet Gilgamesh. Every hunt, she volunteered to come with him, and every hunt, he worried about her endlessly. She shifted in her own sleeping bag, "I'm fine Gil--are you?"
There was a bit of a silence on his end, because of course he was terrified. He hated doing solo investigations, even though that was always when he got his best evidence (when she wasn't there to corroborate the story).
"I know it's just an old house," he muttered, clearly sharing with her what he had been telling himself endlessly. "It makes...sounds."
"All old buildings do," she agreed, turning onto her back to stare up at the ceiling. Gil was up there, curled up on the carpet in the old bedroom of the woman who had died suddenly in full health on halloween night two hundred years earlier.
"The door's locked, right?"
"Yes," Thena laughed faintly, and he heard him grumbling about how lightly she took things on their hunts. "Gil, I'm safe."
"I just," he sighed and even clicked the walkie in the middle of his strenuous sentence. "I would feel a lot better if I could see you."
Thena shook her head on her pillow. Sweet, sweet Gilgamesh, with his charming words; and he wondered how she kept agreeing to late night ghost hunts with him. "I know, me too."
"What if-"
Thena looked at the walkie, but he never continued his statement. She clicked in, "Gil?"
"Ah, it's nothing."
She pursed her lips, sitting up now. It wasn't as if it wasn't creepy in the old, boarded up house she had broken them into for the night. But she didn't quite see things in the shadows and hear voices in the wind the way Gil did. "Gil?"
"It's okay, I'm sorry if I woke you up."
Thena reached for her phone and maglight, already shimmying out of her sleeping bag. "Do you want me to come up?"
She could practically imagine the look on his adorable face, lips all pouted and big brown eyes. He clicked in, "you don't have to."
"I'm coming up, Gil," she laughed, pulling her boots on again. "It's pretty late anyway. If you don't have much evidence by now I think the rest of the night will be quiet."
"Okay."
He sounded so excited.
Thena walked up the stairs, listening to every creek and moan. Gil was so expressive, always wearing his heart on his sleeve. She adored that about him. "Almost there."
She walked towards the first bedroom on the right, her feet creaking the floorboards. She knocked on the door, hearing a wobbly, "Thena?"
Gil was wrapped up in his sleeping bag, his flashlight on and pointed at the ceiling like a kid scared to go to sleep at camp. She shook her head, "what happened to lights off, hm?"
"Not tonight," he rustled around, emerging from the sleeping bag enough to look at her. He sighed, "you're a sight for sore eyes."
Thena rolled her eyes, "you're just saying that because you're scared that woman is going to appear at the foot of your sleeping bag."
"Well, I am now!"
She laughed as he unzipped the side of it and sat up properly, "I'm kidding Gil."
He pouted at her, holding the unzipped flap open, "just get in here."
Thena blushed. She had left her sleeping bag downstairs. She hadn't even thought about it--maybe she had just thought she would just come up and calm him down. Or maybe she imagined he would be so ready to leave that he would pack up and leave immediately.
"Come on," he urged, even moving the flashlight to beckon her closer. "It's chilly!"
Thena crept closer, tucking herself against his back at first to take off her boots again. "Gil, don't you-"
"Eep!"
A moan ran through the old house and that was all the excuse Gil needed to pull her into the sleeping bag with him, curling his arms around her and even tucking her smaller feet between his own.
"We've been in a lot of houses, but this one really takes the cake," he muttered against her hair, holding her against him like a full sized comfort toy.
Thena blinked, completely pressed into his chest as his hands rubbed circles in the back of her shirt. His sleeping bag was so much warmer than hers.
Gil settled himself more comfortably, finally turning the flashlight off and nestling his cheek against the top of her hair. "Okay, I'm beat. Wake me up if that ghost lady comes by."
"'Kay," Thena just barely managed to squeak out, and her voice was high and squeaky as she said, much to her own horror. She couldn't possibly sleep with her heart beating like this. It was the most adrenaline she'd had in her system all night.
"Hey," he whispered, and it was not helping her forget how close they were.
"Y-Yeah?" she whispered back, only because he couldn't see her face and how terribly flustered she felt.
"You know I couldn't do this without you, right?"
His arms tightened around her, and her hands gripped the back of his flannel in reflex. He was so warm, and he felt so strong, but also soft. Her eyes fluttered, "I know."
"Good," he sounded like he was smiling. He nuzzled her forehead until he could press his lips to it. "I just want you to know how happy I am that you're here."
Thena pressed herself even deeper into his chest, as if he and the ghosts could all see her falling even harder for him in real time. Her hands clung to him as she straightened out her curled spine, really cuddling against him. "I'm happy to be with you, too."
She heard him chuckle in the dark, and her blush intensified. That wasn't what he meant.
"Good," he sufficed to say. "Get some sleep."
She nodded against him, done trying to talk and formulate words with him saying such bone-meltingly sweet things. "Night."
#Thenamesh Ghost Files AU#Gil asks her if she's up for staking out this place for halloween night#thinking maybe she would rather go to a costume party or something#meanwhile Thena is like yes date night!#they do have some evidence to look at the next morning\#but Thena doesn't remember any of it#like not a spec#she's too busy thinking about how comfy it was to sleep together#all snuggled up like a couple of little love bugs#Gil is going through the tapes and asks if she remembers hearing this sound#Thena says no#because she could only hear her own heartbeat in her ears#and Gil's breathing#for hours#And Gil#poor sweet Gil#he has no idea why she seems to shy the next morning#they grab breakfast at some old dinner and when he brings her coffee she looks at him#like he's her prince charming#and he's like okay maybe last night wasn't so bad#Thena is here with heart eyes over spending the night together in a spooky old house#and listen honey same#happy spooky time!
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thinking about eiffel making hera a mixtape on cassette by recording over some old Goddard protocol tape he found in storage, but he doesn't have access to his tunes in a way he can transfer to a cassette recorder so it's just him singing out of key and getting lyrics wrong in a way that makes them more about Hera
this is soo sweet. he's such a massive ham; i love the idea of eiffel, like, dedicating the classical music they pick up to hera, or asking her to dance and dramatically - kind of awkwardly, in low gravity, but also just because he's not a very good dancer anyway - 'waltzing' with himself, or just... singing to her. pointing at her cameras. incredibly off-key. i love the thought of hera hearing some of those songs - the actual, non-eiffel versions - on earth for the first time, after all the times she's heard him singing them.
there's this interview gabriel urbina did a while back, where he was answering character-building questions, and said that eiffel once made someone a mixtape "in the way that only an obsessive 90s teenager can really make a mixtape"- like he really put effort into it, and really cared about it, and the person it was for didn't really appreciate it. and he never fully got over that. i think about that a lot, and how important music is to eiffel, how much is communicated through music... i think it would really mean a lot if hera could make a mixtape for him, someday. i think that's such a sweet sentiment, like a continuation of the way she gifts him music for his birthday.
#i knoww eiffel has tried to be a guy with a band. there are tapes from eiffel's terrible one-man garage band somewhere. i know it#and he canonically has a good memory for music. 'my entire mental john williams discography.'#he's always whistling and humming and singing to himself to pass time when he's bored and/or nervous#well. i would appreciate his mixtape. anyway.#thank you for this ask i love it very much#the funniest thing about this tbh is that she would know. like he couldn't keep the creation of that mixtape a secret from her#she would have to listen to every single step of him making it. which is very sweet but also very embarrassing#that's the doug eiffel experience.#asks#wolf 359#w359#eiffera
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#*beep* oh. hey. guess you're sleeping? maybe you're at work. or out with friends. i hope wherever you are it's good#or that it's getting better. i really do#i'm not good. but you knew that already. otherwise why would i be leaving this message?#sorry. i just need to talk for a bit i guess#cause it's like. every day i write a hundred posts and every day i delete most if not all of them#and i could not tell you why#this is my blog after all. my words and thoughts go here#but also. this is my third place. and i can't lose that#isn't that crazy? i can't lose the handful of notes from reblogging other people's posts#the idea that somehow i'm constructing myself in the cut and paste instead of doing something myself#and i do try to make posts of my own. but nothing's ever worth posting. i don't even let it rot in the drafts. it's just gone#and i try to think about what would stop me from doing this#which inevitably brought me here - what would i be doing if it were fifty years ago#and i think the answer is i'd be calling someone who used to care and blowing up their answering machine#and i think about old answering machines. the ones that need a tape to record the message#does dora just re-record over the tapes that harry fills?#does she trash them? i'm guessing she doesn't listen to them#i won't tell you what to do with this message. i'll spare you a call to action#it's not like a diary would fix this. i have a diary. i've been keeping one regularly for months now#i think i want to be perceived but i refuse to speak unless spoken to and i will not reach out on here unless i'm being a kindly anon#and when i talk irl it's all broken disjointed subjects without predicates#it takes such effort for me to talk that people stop asking me out of kindness. but there's still thoughts i haven't said#thoughts that don't need to be said. we don't *need* another person rambling on about whatever random fandom topic or half-assed scribbles#i tried making serious art and meta posts for like four years across different fandoms#it's all gone now. as is most of my poetry. lotta things i don't know or care to know#and i can't bring myself to do that again. esp if that's not why you're here. so like. it's easier just to remain quiet?#because. i know people *can* understand. but it takes effort#and i can't guarantee a return on investment. i don't know if the cost of teaching me how to talk again is worth it#god i want to infodump but that was beaten out of me. the need is still there but i can't. it hurts#idk. things are good and then things are bad and on the whole they're good and getting better
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okay okay queer people on tumblr please put in the tags how you came out to yourself/ realised you were queer
#for me i had a moment in 10th when i thought that hm. if i like someone i like someone them not having a dick wouldn't change my feelings#for them#and wondering if people really liked people based on their sex?? that's so weird?? until i realised that sounded kinda gay so postponed#thinking about it cause i had to focus on boards lol#and i didn't really have one particular moment cause before me 2/3 of my friends group came out as bi and pan and they knew i liked girls#too but they were gentle because i was just scared of using my label because of my dad#my first girl crush was this girl in 11th we were doing some board decoration thing for like school exhibition idk#and she was up on a chair and i was holding her chair so she doesn't fall off and we were talking about her inability to say no#cause she was kinda teachers favorite and then someone asked for something like a tape or some stationery#and she looked me right in the eye and said 'NO. i will not give it to you because ik how to say no'#and then she was like are you proud of me#the eye contact awakened something in me lmao😭
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i am sobbing bro why the heck are little kids so hard to take care of
#Especially when they're in the phase when they are old enough to speak incoherent sentences but too too young to understand anything you are#Saying#AND ALL FOUR ADULTS LEFT ME#A GROWN ASS TEEN TO TAKE CARE OF HER#IM SOBBING LEGIT#Right now shes asking:- what is used to kill a housefly#And abt my birthmark which looks like a piece of tape#And whether she can tear apart the crayon box#Im already tired sm help 😭😭😭😭#✾rambles•
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unmmmnm my phone doesnt have the flame emoji for some reason but. Give me yuor Emma takes <3
YAAAAY EEMA MY FRIEND lets see um. well honestly i dont think nearly enough people making postcanon designs acknowledge that emma is absolutely gnc in some form.
yes she really doesn't dress super masc and i know how annoying the trend of 'oh shes so butch <3<3<3' n its literally just Girl With Pants can be but i think in the context of tpn specifically its like. different. i simply think that demizu taking a character who was required to wear skirts 'because shes a girl' for the first 11 years of her life and making the conscious decision to literally never draw her in a skirt outside gracefield probably has some significance to it yknow.
and like all the girls are shown wearing both skirts and pants at some point once they are given the freedom to choose, but emma is the only girl besides violet and paula who makes the conscious decision to never wear skirts. basicaly agender masc lesbian emma is the realest ever to me <3
#skye's ramblings#HII RUBY HII ive actually been wanting to talk abt this for a bit gnc eema is so so important. to me <3 ignore how late i am to this ask <3#i just. i hate when postcanon emma is depicted as like super feminine like its just. incorrect.#emma might enjoy small fem stuff like the ribbon in her bunker outfit but. she very clearly leans more toward being androgynous#people who give emma longer hair are soo annoying too. feels like 'she naturally embraced femininity as she matured <3' like um. die foreve#also no one can draw it right it always feels like. different hair type taped onto the og style? like theres a clear. detachment i suppose#if emma did decide on longer hair itd look like whatevers going on w nao y/ttd's hair. ithink#also id like to mention that from the first images of her i saw. i thought emma was a boy before seeing her in a skirt#and i literally lost count of the amount of people i've seen say the same. emma has the most awesome gender <3#sepiamestus#shrimps squad
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