#what AM i supposed to tag this shit as

[miallurk]

I'm officially so fucked up I need help girlies.

Just a minute ago, I was scrolling tumblr. A throught came to me, and I wanted to send it to my friend. I'm thinking about it real hard, but a second later... it's gone like it was never there. Just up and wanished, and I was left with the desire to break my head banging it on a wall.

This shit is happening more and more. Yeah, I had bad memory before, but this isn't fucking it. I can't remember most of my childhood by now. I do not remember the last four years, only bits and pieces that I can't pin up to a certain time. I lose track of time easily and can just forget about prople until I see something that reminds me of them but by then it's usually too late to not be weird by texting them back. Physically i can't hold three kilograms without getting tired and I have the shittiest stamina ever. I am currently just a mess of anxiety and depression, wrestling with myself to not try to harm myself once again, and I don't think i've been out of this state since when I was nine and the throught "wish I had cancer and died" crossed my mind, since, y'know, kids don't really know many ways of dying and I knew sickness and oldness only.

I am less than twenty years old for fucks sake. What the hell is happening to me? I feel like my body is deteriorating. My eyesight is shit, as my hearing is. It's so fucking frustrating. My mental health is not getting any better, things are piling up and am being forced to go pursue a career in something I fucking despice because "I want that for you" and money problems.

I cannot remember the last name or face of the woman who I considered a sister and loved with my whole heart. I push people away just because of my fucking paranoia and fear of being "not normal". I am suffering every day constantly, be it physically or emotionally. Is this normal??? I mean, I know I was malnourished and sleep deprived and dehydrated and mentally ill and potentially abused all that time but it still is very. Very bad. I'm struggling and?? How do people go through this??

I also may have adhd/autism if its relevant- but I quess I'm just really venting stuff out and not really expecting answers at this point. Sure would be nice, but. Ugh. Now I feel bad after trying to sit down and ask a few questions but just crying into the void I know no one will boter to read. Hells.

[almondpiglet]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST REIGEN!!

everyone thanks you for entering their lives :')

[seafoamsol]

Hey, different post than usual, but this is just a PSA for people who may follow or have purchased anything from @/kagebros, or are looking to join any of the zines run by them @/allsparkzines. They have a history (and present) of tracing for profit.

I don’t think this one requires an overlay. It’s a trace of the yolopark bumblebee shockwave model kit promotional image, as a “sketch”.

Which they changed, once people noticed it! Changed most of it. They traced a different promotional image for the gun, which remained largely the same, even in the final piece (right).

Their matching Optimus Prime poster is a trace of the still from a [ Paramount promo video ], 36 seconds in.

There are several other examples that I can’t fit into this post without making it overly long, but if you have purchased or have been gifted anything from them, there is a chance it has been traced.

Regarding tracing as a tool:

Go hogwild! Trace all you want! Tracing is a very useful tool for learning shapes and forms, but like any other tool, it’s only useful if you use it correctly. The ultimate goal of tracing is to understand. It’s training wheels. Just don’t hide and lie about it, because as soon as you do, it becomes plagiarism.

Even within the finished versions of the Shockwave poster, it’s still clear where parts have been traced or copied without understanding. It’s a shame, because transformers as a franchise having so many toys makes it very easy to make references!

Here's an example of how I use them:

Luckily for me, the Cybertron toys and models are more or less exactly the same. I don't own the toys, so I have two images from a [ toy reviewer ] on top. Many angles to help me understand exactly what's happening. Granted, I could just ask my friend who does own the toy for him in the same pose, but tracing over that directly would make it too stiff and it wouldn't mesh with my style.

TL;DR: Kage traces, blindly and without disclosure, for profit.

[heshemejoshi]

brand new body

[mamawasatesttube]

literally batfanon would be such a non-issue if the people making it could just tag their stuff with like #batfanon or something, so that those of us who dislike it could simply blacklist that and move on with our lives. unfortunately instead they insist on putting it in all the comics tags because they claim comics are a) so inconsistent it doesn't matter, b) full of bigotry so their version is better (...as if they didn't just reinvent a bunch of racial stereotypes, but that's another post), c) too hard to get into so no one should be expected to and everyone who does read them is a gatekeeper, d) basically fanfiction themselves so you don't need to care what they say, etc., and so here we are. alas!!

[fallow-grove]

"autism will ruin your marriage" but taken to a different conclusion. autism so sexy ur spouse cant stop makin eyes at me. autism so charming bitches cant resist the way i posture like a wild animal

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

I am exhausted, good heavens.

[cerealmonster15]

right clicks boyfriend -> relationship -> discuss expanding the polycule

throws my shakey handed hurried doodle at you and runs back to the tasks i was supposed to be doing. even tho this is basically the same joke i drew of them a little while ago kind of teehee oopsie :3

[starscelly]

who up kissing they soulmate in the locker room !

non blurry + flat version below

[7amonathursdayinoctober]

This is the destiel website yes? Therefore it is the supernatural website

Does anyone know the FIRST spn post ever made on here?

Does anyone know the first DESTIEL post over made?

Im curious

[b4kuch1n]

ough brain is doing SO bad but sometimes. there are colors

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

Okay yeah no I need to yell abt Valentino's behavior during Stayed Gone and the scenes surrounding it some more because it makes me rEALLY FUCKING FRUSTRATED-

First of all: Val is partially the reason Stayed Gone even happens in the first place. While I do believe Vox would've done something similar had he figured out Al was at the hotel some other way, Val still encouraged Vox to react the way he did. The smiles, the teasing, the way he subtly reminds Vox why he hates Alastor in the first place... it's all very intentional. He is purposefully trying to get Vox pissed off. He wants a show. A show that he KNOWS is going to cause damage to the Vees image, which he also knows is very important to Vox. He also ABSOLUTELY could've told Vox this information sooner! He probably heard about Alastor being at the hotel from Angel, and we know that episode one takes place like a week after the pilot. Val probably knew Alastor was there for at most a week before he told Vox. He was saving that information(for some fucking reason idfk). And like to be fair I don't think just randomly bringing that up to Vox would be a very good idea, but like. Val also picked a really weird time to tell him anyway so. There was probably some kind of ulterior motive there. Also I've seen a couple people saying this so I'm just gonna get it out of the way right now: THIS IS ABSOLUTELY NOT THE SAME THING AS VOX SUBTLY MANIPULATING VAL TO GET HIM TO CALM DOWN. Vox did that as a way to prevent Val from shooting up a fucking building, one that also happened to contain the LITERAL PRINCESS OF HELL!!! There was no waiting for Val to calm down in that scenario, he had to get him to stop. Val was also literally throwing shit at him??? Fuck I'm surprised Vox didn't pull the manipulation card sooner. I've gone into it in depth before but for the sake of this post I'm going to reiterate: FIGHTING BACK AGAINST SOMEBODY WHO HAS BEEN THROWING SHIT AT YOU AND IS ACTIVELY THREATENING TO DO SOMETHING LIKE SHOOT UP A BUILDING WITH THE SECOND MOST POWERFUL BEING IN HELL INSIDE IS NOT ABUSE!!!!!!!!!! LIKE HOLY FUCK I SHOULDN'T EVEN HAVE TO SAY THIS IT'S NOT EVEN FUCKING CLOSE TO ABUSE YALL NEED TO STOP SAYING THIS SHIT!!!!!!!! Vox was trying to prevent Val from doing something OBSCENELY stupid, Val was actively encouraging Vox to do the dumbest fucking thing possible. These actions are not the same. They do not carry the same weight.

*ahem* Anyways, that brings us to the singing portion of Stayed Gone, which to be fair Val isn't really in all that much. But when he IS, boy howdy is he NOT acting like somebody who was very clearly trying to get this reaction literally 30 seconds ago. He shows up like. 3 times. And every time he looks put off by Vox's behavior. BITCH YOU WANTED THIS THE FUCK!?!?!?!? This is the part that makes me really mad. I don't even know WHY it's so upsetting to me- the manipulation is shitty yeah but to have the fucking GAUL to act like you weren't TRYING TO GET THIS REACTION afterwards is just. What. No! What???? That's. What the fuck???? You are not allowed to encourage somebody to make a public fool of themself and then be embarrassed when they make a public fool of themself. It is simply against the rules. Also his complete disinterest during the meeting scene... like okay, lets contrast this with Velvette's behavior for a second, right? She also looks upset during Stayed Gone, but she didn't egg Vox on the way Val did, in fact she probably had no idea what was going on until the song started, so she gets a pass. Then, during the meeting scene, she. She actually participates. She gives genuine suggestions and actually pays attention to what Vox & Val are saying. I'm on the fence over wether this should be considered bare minimum or not because, while Al forming an alliance with Charlie WOULD be a big deal, we don't actually know how much this would effect specifically the Vees so. Idk. But still she's doing more than fucking Val!!! Valentino "someone who owes us much more than money" HazbinHotel is just sitting there, bedazzling his gun, giving weird vague suggestions that barely even apply to the situation. Velvette wins this interaction, gold star for her, because LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK VAL-

Anyways, in conclusion, Val's behavior in this scene makes me really mad and is thus far completely unjustified by the narrative. Vox never does anything even REMOTELY similar to him, at least not that we know of, and Velvette, the person who is MUCH LESS INVOLVED IN VOX AND ALASTOR'S BULLSHIT THEN VAL IS, is still somehow taking the situation more seriously then Val, who is, once again, LITERALLY THE ONE WHO ENCOURAGED THIS BULLSHIT!!!! The bar was on the floor and yet Val somehow managed to limbo his way under it. I hate it here.

[sparkdoesart]

Ughhhhhhudhdudhtsgh

Have them,,,

So tired

No motivation but whatever

[everyoneprotector]

I love you Alice Dyer. Got me through my shift at work. Nothing could make me hate you fr.

[sparring-spirals]

me in tags of posts i am reblogging with no context: haha delilah being ominous? sure. go for it

me, glancing at other posts in the CR tag immediately after that reblog: OH. OH SO LAUDNA DID GO FOR IT. IT BEING. ORYM.

[stewies-inactive-account]

this is huberta. she is the hypothetical hellspawn child of annoying orange and that fuckass chicken nugget from max design pro. when it walks it makes that one piano sound effect from the 2nd spongebob movie when plankton and spongebob are trying to sneak past patrick in the chum bucket.