#well who give a shit she'll go on a pretty long trip tomorrow so i have time to prep

[sol-flo]

oh she said my mustache looks dark. i really am trying to fly under the radar of the most perceptive woman alive

exactly two months on t today. mom said i sound hoarse. what could that mean

[thecreaturesblog]

Don't I look so,

pretty with,

that filter on, babe?

yes, no?

long days

and longer nights chillin in bed

alone, completely alone

completely stuck in my own head,

hey, at least you gotta fucking bed man,

i hate going to work

but when I get there,

it can be, amazing

i work tomorrow

gotta leave around

8, am,

then it's off to Bumble Town

that's right Honey, it's time for another vacation,

seems like a lot of em this year

shut the fuck up

dont pay attention

tripin when I walk

limpin when I talk

wait a minute, reverse that shit

you say you, need a man to make you smile

well baby, I think you're living your life, in denial

once upon a time,

Long ago,

I, I fell in love so hard,

so fast,

in one night, you know,

it was roughly, eleven years, ago

to a boy named Josh,

had that, charisma and a good flow

but his, mistreastment,

lead to a path,

so destructive,

always repeatin,

no change, like no seasons,

on me and on God,

I had to set us free, yeah

so what did she do?

she broke his heart, saying after every moment,

spent in love, after

having your back and shedding all of that blood,

I have to say to you,

baby, I'm not in love,

no more,

no mooorrrre,

won't let you break my shit

or get real hateful

call me a bitch and I'll see ya later

no more

loving those other girls,

on those nights I couldn't make it,

or the other ones where I was just in bed,

when I wasn't tryna give you any head,

and never

never

never again,

will you place your fist anywhere on my head,

or my body,

you will stay far, far away from me,

and one day, yes someday,

I'll watch my soul set itself free

Goodbye Joshua Alexander, I miss you all the time. I would honestly love to talk to you, see how you are. After six years, I've let a lot go, instead I held on just to remember, take no shit, from no man. But baby, you're ignoring me lately.. Like I ain't good enough, for the sweet ass time of Mr. Joshua... Huh? I'll always remember your smile, but also the face you make when you're angry, I hear your laugh, in my ears it rings, our matching tongue rings, that year long trip across the west side of this country, baby you will always belong to me, like a flame to a fire, you will dance you will move, just like I did to get away from you, we might be burning two separate things but baby we are the fire, we made eachothers flames. I hope you're still looking at those stars, cause I'm doing the same, and every once in a while you get on my brain, do I do the same? To you? Maybe someday, I'll see you again, and we could laugh about some of the mistakes. Remember all those nights in bed we laid. You held me every single day. And maybe we had codependency problems, but we were so in love, who cared if we solved em? You and me, together in the night, living for each and every day, we were up against this world, that had too much to say, about us. You hurt me deep, like bad, like it's taken years to get past, but I still miss you the same, I loved the way that you and only you could speak my name. Some people say love is fucked up but I think those people are just playing a game. We tried so hard to be real, that we both ended up fake, two troubled and lost souls, walked down an unmarked trail, hands together, voices the same, each of trying to take over what the other sayin.

Don't forget me, please, my Joshua. I'll always remember your name, your birthday, the thinga you liked and the ones that you'd hate. Take care of yourself, now and again. Stay safe.

And please, never forget, all of thw things, all the adventures, all the fights, all the talks, that took all night, the music, the car, chaco, or the shooting stars, the beach, Cheyenne, or Shane, Bones and the rest of our hippies hoppin from train to train, and Lord, don't forget to pray. I love you always and forever, maybe from a very far away place and maybe you spend to much time in the light, while in always stuck in this darknees, maybe the people round you ain't it, and now I got a place, I got a job, my shit's getting turned around, while you still playin, maybe you've got a new girl, but I don't gotta ask, and i don't mean to judge, but I know she'll never be me baby, but still my love it's still the same, as it was yesterday and everyday before that, till the day I met you, when you started by saying 'wow you are beautiful'

Nigga if things had gone different

I would have your last name

But things, things,

And people,

We all

Suddenly

Change

So float through the fires

To bring me your flame

With every star in the sky

My heart misses you again and again,

And I do sometimes, I do think of you,

Like we still got something,

Not even you,

Could take away

The moon she stays, to watch your way home for me,

And the sun he tells,

Me, that you have also changed,

Your health.. it truly,

Truly worries me,

I wish I was strong enough,

To carry you all the way,

I'm sorry I just couldnt make it,

I'm sorry some problems change,

But some will always remain.