#updates on all my wips to follow shortly...

[turtletaubwrites]

tumblr broke this post, please check out my updated masterlist

Take Me With You Masterlist ~ Buggy x Fem!Reader

We've All Got Needs Masterlist ~ Poly Fic with Zoro x Fem!Reader, Sanji x Fem!Reader, Robin x Fem!Reader, and Sanji x Robin

What You Need Masterlist ~ Sanji x Fem!Reader

Rating/Warnings for all/most of these fics: Explicit Sexual Content, Reader Insert, AFAB!Reader, She/Her Pronouns for Reader, 18+ Only, MDNI, Smut *Specific Content Warnings found on each link.

Requests & One Shots:

Just a Dream ~ (1288) ~ Zoro x Fem!Reader, Ace x Fem!Reader (In a dream)

Mama Bear ~ (2606) ~ Zoro x Reader (Modern AU)

Parted Lips (SFW) ~ (1734) ~ Sanji x Fem!Reader

My Lovely Patron ~ (1300) ~ Part 2 ~ (1922) ~ Red Leg Zeff x Fem!Reader

Everything's Fine ~ Part 2 (Blurbs for We've All Got Needs above)

My Favorite Kinds of Nights ~ (2375) ~ Part 2 ~ (3625) ~ Luffy x Fem!Reader (Requested miniseries set 2 years after We've All Got Needs)

The Sounds You Made ~ (1422) ~ Sanji x Fem!Reader, Zoro x Fem!Reader (Can be read alone, or read after part 3 of We've All Got Needs)

I Saw You First ~ (1451) ~ Part 2 (1309) ~ Zoro x Fem!Reader, Sanji x Fem!Reader (Can be read alone or after part 6, then part 7 of We've All Got Needs)

Lucky Boy ~ (2561) ~ Sanji x Robin (Can be read alone or after part 16 of We've All Got Needs)

Filthy Little Angel ~ (1323) ~ Sanji x Fem!Reader

Sanji's Super Birthday Present ~ (988) ~ Sanji x Fem!Reader

Fighting Dirty ~ (2341) ~ Zoro x Fem!Reader

Hogging the Blankets ~ (1210) ~ Zoro x Fem!Reader

In Control ~ (2599) ~ Zoro x Robin

You Never Shut Up, Do You? ~ (1323) ~ Zoro x Nami

Touching What's Yours ~ (815) ~ Part 2 ~ (2344) ~ Part 3 ~ (6048) ~ Zoro x Sanji, Zoro x Fem!Reader x Sanji

Original x Reader Fics & Guided Audios:

On The Balcony Part 1 ~ (363) ~ Male (Yandere?) x GN!Reader (No descriptions of body or pronouns, Pet Name used for reader - Darling)

Wips for Luffy, Nami, Gale of Waterdeep, & Astarion as well.

Below the cut are summaries for the series listed, but you can click the links above for more detail, and specific content warnings. And here's my About Me if you'd like to get to know me better!

Take Me With You

Pairing: Buggy the Clown x Fem!Reader

Summary: Buggy takes a small town hostage and the reader asks to join him. You take this chance to leave this shithole of a town, one way or another. And Buggy gives you the perfect opportunity to take some revenge before you do. What kind of life will you lead if you pass his violent audition and become one of Buggy's freaks?

*This is a Dark, smutty romance starting shortly before and then following the OPLA timeline. Please heed the warnings below. MDNI

What You Need

Pairing: Sanji x Fem!Reader

Summary: Reader is an investigative journalist that joined the crew after the fight at Arlong Park. Your dream is to uncover the hidden truths about the World Government and share it with the world. You’ve been a member of the crew for a few weeks and although you feel welcomed, especially by Nami, you’ve been feeling a bit out of place. And your distracting crush on a certain ship’s cook isn’t helping matters.

A/N: Reader has a condition that makes intimacy difficult and sometimes painful, but Sanji is ready to prove how much he values your pleasure.

We've All Got Needs

Pairing: Roronoa Zoro x Fem!Reader (+ Sanji x Fem!Reader, Robin x Fem!Reader, and Sanji x Robin later!)

Summary: Enjoy the smutty shenanigans as you agree to be 'crewmates with benefits' with a certain surly swordsman. Things may get a little out of hand.

A/N: This one was also supposed to be a one shot. Oops!

Thank you for reading! 💜

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[nc-vb]

𝐍𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐖𝐈𝐏𝐒

This is me finally moving my wip list from the old blog... slowly but surely, right? This time, I'm putting them in the order I hope to update them in, because I nearly deviated last time. And if I don't get these done by the time September rolls around, so help me, God.

UPDATED TAGLIST HERE

HEARTSTRINGS (18+)

series -> Scaramouche/Wanderer x fem!reader

to function, a puppet must have a body. eyes. a mouth. a set of strings attached to each limb. a sturdy marionette. a master to wield them. then, it may move. it may behave. learn. breathe the life of the world around them in. see the beauty and the chaos within it. touch each petal and leaf to cross its path. but none of it is possible without a set of hooks… and yours are drilled just oh so deep into him that he can’t function without you.

It wasn't announced at the time, but this story was on a temporary hiatus. I'll likely be starting it again closer to June, unfortunately.

EX CONSILIO (18+)

oneshot -> Kaveh x fem!reader

years have passed since you and your infamous fellow Kshahrewar alumnus have last interacted with each other, but all it takes is a piece of cloth and a chunk of stone for a bit of (re)kindling.

Current obsession. This is at the tippy top of my list to finish, and is a part of a collab.

YOU ONLY TEASE THE ONES YOU LOVE (18+)

pt. 2 -> Diluc x fem!reader

an invitation was extended, but after an entire year spent enduring your teasing and attempts at cajoling him, Diluc refuses to be the one to make the first move.

UNNAMED

oneshot -> Aether x fem!reader

loneliness and homesickness never go well together— this, Aether has learned quickly. and so, to make Teyvat feel just a little more like home, he brings to you a tradition from his home world, and a proposition (of sorts).

TO LOVE ONESELF IS THE BEGINNING OF A LIFE-LONG ROMANCE (18+)

oneshot -> Kaeya x fem!reader

feelings thought to be gone unrequited (or at the very least, ignored) opens up a door for romantic comity when you open the door to Kaeya's office.

UNNAMED (18+)

oneshot -> Childe/Ajax x fem!reader

no summary, but is based around Сочельник/Pождество (Christmas Eve/Christmas) -> instead of Russia, of course, it's Snezhnaya. they celebrate on January 7th following the Julian calendar.

UNNAMED

oneshot SAGAU -> Cyno x isekai'ed fem!reader

a superstorm hits your town and a strange glitch occurs while you're playing Genshin... at least, it's strange by the General Mahamatra's standards.

UNNAMED (18+)

oneshot, dubcon-> Kazuha x fem!reader

there's a reason Beidou doesn't let Kazuha drink on her ship.

UNNAMED (18+)

oneshot -> Thoma x fem!reader

something tells you Inazuma's grand fixer could use a little fixing, himself...

UNNAMED no.1

oneshot -> (semi)yandere Xiao x fem!reader

no summary.

UNNAMED no.2

oneshot -> Xiao x fem!reader

no summary; no availability timeline.

UNNAMED (18+)

oneshot -> Alhaitham x fem!reader (potential for x Kaveh)

generally brilliant in your studies but not in your spending, Alhaitham jokingly comes up with an idea that won't compromise the quality of your work...

THOUGH I KNEW TO LOVE HER WAS TO SUFFER, I COULD NOT STOP (18+)

Zhongli x yaksha fem!reader

no summary -> y/n is an ex-yaksha who abandoned her duties shortly after the archon war, instead establishing strong trade routes between liyue and the other affected regions.

UNNAMED (rating tbd)

series -> Dainsleif x amnesiac fem!reader

no summary; no spoilers-- only the groundwork and reader's backstory is prepared.

UNNAMED (rating tbd)

oneshot -> shikanoin heizou x fem!reader

no summary; Heizou takes on your case when you're falsely accused and framed of murder upon entering Inazuma.

Again, if you'd like to receive a notification for the story update on any of these wips, you can join through the updated taglist HERE, or shoot me an ask. You gotta be 18+, though.

Extra wips (for personal use)

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[asterekmess]

A Bit of a Conundrum

I've been waffling about this for a long time, and as I've already vented about it to my discord, I wanted to open it up to a possibly larger audience of my readers. And also complain about it more. XD I write. A lot. I have. A LOT of writing. We're talking like more than 2 dozen wips sitting in my google docs, some with 14k, some with 114k words in them. Some with a specific ending in mind, some with no plot beyond what's already written. Fuck dude, some aren't even Sterek/TW! I was fortunate enough to have someone go on my ko-fi and do a monthly donation to me for a few months. They stopped, which I'll never be mad at, but having them there at all, having someone say "I'd like to support your writing just for the sake of supporting it" meant a huge amount to me, and it made me think about all of my wips.

I don't post often, or regularly, or..well at all, for months and months at a time. This is because I almost only ever post fics when they're done. it's a personal rule of mine, and not one I used to follow when i first started writing fic. It's one I came up with shortly after finishing "Wanted" bc I felt terrible and pressured when I had to take breaks during that fic and when I couldn't keep up with a regular schedule for people. And for a long time it was a good rule for me. It helped me not to feel pressured or overwhelmed by the worry of abandoning a project on ao3 and getting bombarded with comments asking where the next chapter is. But as I've continued writing over the years, my wips have gotten more numerous, while my posted work continues to trickle in. I'm a chronic long-fic writer (though my currently posted fics don't reflect that), which means it takes way more time for me to finish a fic than it does for me to get distracted coming up with a NEW idea for a fic. It's hard to finish work. But that doesn't mean I don't love my wips. They're incredible. Some of them contain some of the best stuff I feel I've ever written. Poignant words and phrases and meaningful moments. And looking around at them, I realized that anyone who goes to support me on my ko-fi, or considers following me on Ao3, or even just subscribes to a series, isn't really getting to see what I"m actually doing. They see a fic posted every 9 months, or every year. There's no real indication that anything they do is helping me regularly, that they're even supporting a Current Active writer. In light of that, I've been considering starting to post wips of mine. The problems with that are numerous and a bit overwhelming, hence wanting to hear others' opinions and vent about it ad nauseum. I've got lots of wips, and if I were to start posting them, I wouldn't want to toss the whole wip out at once. But posting a chapter at a time every few days or even once a week, while it would mean a lot of content coming out, it would be a lot of content that I haven't finished. Cliffhanger chapters, and unfinished stories that I can't promise would ever be finished. And I know I don't owe my readers anything, but it's still unsatisfying to post something without an ending. Then there's the absolute overload of possibly too Much content for people. Getting an e-mail every other day about a new chapter for a fic you've no interest in reading isn't fun. And on top of all that, is the editing. Often when I'm struggling with a fic, I find that i need to go back and change the beginning. In honesty, part of why I wait to post until I'm finished with fics is bc semi-regularly I'll get to the end of a fic, go back to the beginning and edit it all over again to make it more cohesive. To me there is no such thing as a 'finished' chapter. only a finished fic. If I posted as I wrote, then I'd either not be able to go back and edit chapters, or if I DID go back and edit my chapters, they would then need updated, and people who'd read the first 4 chapters of something would end up needing to reread the fic to get the full sense of what I'm doing. But at the same time, posting my wips would mean finally getting to share some stuff that's been gathering dust for years in some cases, finally getting to see people's reactions to them. Finally getting to know that even if I don't end up finishing it, at least people can enjoy what's already been written. And of course, finally getting to show people that when they support me through donations or comments or what-have-you, they're supporting an Active writer, supporting work being made every day, even if it's not FINISHED every day. All of these things are stuff I'm trying to take into consideration, and it's been a hell of a struggle. Plus, as I'm unfortunately trying to manage doing a part-time job rn, just getting up the energy for this stuff is a big BIG task.

If you've got any thoughts or strategic ideas, I'd love to hear them. If not, s'all good, I mostly just wanted to vent. XD

[ourdramaqueen]

Fic Tag Game

I was tagged by @suchaladyy 🌸

20 questions:

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

55, divided into fandoms as follows: Wednesday (TV 2022) (24) The Boys (TV 2019) (21) The Lord of the Rings (8) Sin City - All Media Types (1) Almost Human (TV) (1)

2. What’s your AO3 word count?

368,862

3. What fandoms do you write for?

See #1. Currently only Wednesday, though I do hope to get back into The Boys soon, and I still have some unpublished LotR WIPs that I'd like to actually finish sometime...

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Private Tutor

Kinktober Day 8: Shaving (The Boys, Butcher/Hughie)

Kinktober Day 2: See-through (The Boys, Butcher/Hughie)

Kinktober Day 18: Rough Sex (The Boys, Butcher/Hughie)

How do I passive-agressively say ‘fuck you’ in flower?

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes! I really appreciate when readers take the time to post a comment, so I always answer at least with a brief "thank you".

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Defintiely the whole Closer series (LotR, Frodo/Éomer) because it is mostly canon compliant, so it ends with Frodo going into the West. 😭My Rough Sex series (The Boys, Butcher/Hughie) is also fairly angsty by its nature as a series of mildly canon divergent gap filler fics following through the episodes of S1 and S2 (so far).

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I think pretty much anything apart from the above two series? Well, apart from the Struck by a Bolt series (The Boys, Butcher/Hughie), which has the potential to go either way.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I haven't gotten outright hate, but certainly a few rude/entitled/"clearly hasn't read the tags or the end note despite me recommending to in the a/n at the beginning" comments.

9. Do you write smut? What kind?

LOL! All kinds. Soft, kinky (probably more kinky), some a bit dark. I seem to enjoy my ships a little fucked up.

10. Do you write cross-overs?

I don't have a proper crossover on my AO3 (see #12 for the reason why I specify it like this), though I'd love to write one sometime since I love reading them. The closest I've come is Kinktober Day 15: Monster Fucking (The Boys, Butcher/Hughie), which is heavily Beauty and the Beast inspired.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Little Brother was translating Private Tutor into Russian, though they haven't updated it in a while.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Oh yes! In fact, the first fics I posted online were cowritten with two (originally three, but one of then dropped out shortly after we'd started) friends, though under a different pen name and in a crossover of two small fandoms (with additional ones sneaking in here and there). I haven't written for that series in at least 15 years, though I still have fairly extensive notes for a trilogy of stories centered around my OC and I'd love to get back to that eventually.

But more recently, I've cowritten Line Without a Hook with erraticallyinspired (holyfudgemonkeys), who afaik isn't on Tumblr, and An Addams Family Guide to Kidnapping with @nonamemanga. I'm currently working on something with @suchaladyy, and who knows what and who will be next? It's a lot of fun!

13. What WIP would you like to finish but doubt you ever will?

Oof! I only have unpublished WIPs which I'm not sure if I'll ever get to finish them. Mostly for LotR.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

I really can't choose. Go look at my bookmarks on AO3, LOL!

15. What are your writing strengths?

Oh boy. Um. I think I've figured out quite well how to show character through smut, as well as to distinguish characters from one another by how they behave and talk.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Hmm... Sometimes I get bogged down in details, though I've gotten much better at catching myself now. Oh, paragraphs of really long sentences, but again, I've improved a lot there. 😆

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Absolutely, as long as I'm confident in the language or have someone who's a native/fluent speaker to help me with it.

18. First fandom you wrote for?

Are we talking wrote for myself, or published? Because I started as a teenager in the 80s, writing your typical Mary Sue self-inserts starring my favorite celebs, like Nick Rhodes from Duran Duran, by hand on notepads...

19. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

Nope, still can't choose, sorry!

20. What fic would you want to rewrite one day?

There's one story from my first cowriting experience I mentioned in #12 that I would dearly love to rewrite because the constant POV changes are driving me nuts when I read it now! I don't think there's anything that's currently on my AO3 that I feel the need to rewrite.

I don't know who's been tagged or not, so if you haven't been but want to participate, consider yourself tagged!

[suna1suna1]

It's WIP Wednesday again!

Alright, the tag game didn't work super great either, but that's okay. I got one person to play and they've got a really cool webcomic wip so it's all good lol

So, no art wips this week, but I do have an announcement.

The first chapter of To Catch a Hedgehog will be posted on AO3 next Thursday (probably after I get home from taking my chemistry exam)! After that, until such a time as it has been completely finished, I will update monthly, on the 1st of each month. I'm super excited to share this fic with all of you, and I hope you enjoy it! If you're looking forward to it, mark your calendars for February 1st! ^^

Now, here's this week's tag (go follow them, they're really cool) @deadrabbithq

And here's this week's progress! (that I totally didn't do late last night nope)

Shadow: "Sure. Let's go with that."

Shadow: "On another note, how attached to your job are you?"

Rouge: "0_0" 

Rouge: "Nah, I'm sitting this one out. You have fun. I'll try and cover your tracks." 

Shadow: "I didn't ask you to do that." 

Rouge: "You asked me if I was willing to be fired. I'm not. I'm compromising." 

Shadow: "Fair enough." 

There was another chime, and a new email address appeared in his inbox. No profile picture. The name was a string of nonsensical numbers and letters. 

yy783y7hhuqq7ht: "Would have come up with something cooler if my roommate had let me but oh well. It's me." 

Shadow rolled his eyes before he replied. 

Shadow: "What would you have come up with?" 

Sonic: "idk, fastest.thing.alive? Oh, wait... fuck, that's my ex's email. DAMN IT WHY'D HE TAKE THE COOL ONE?"

Shadow bit back a laugh as another message from Rouge came through. 

Rouge: "Look, just be careful, okay? It's not just losing your job you'll have to worry about." 

Shadow: "I know." 

He closed the window with their chat and turned his focus back to Sonic. 

Shadow: "Anyway, who is it that's gone completely 'Netic?" 

Sonic: "...Alright, here's an idea. It would be easier if I showed you. But since I can't trust you not to try and shoot my brains out, you come unarmed, and I bring back-up." 

Shadow: "Alright... but come where?"

Sonic: "The Mobius Strip. It's an Xtreme racing track. I used to race there not too long ago." 

Shadow: "Why did you stop?" 

Sonic: "Eh, dated a guy I met there for a little while, but he's just kind of a douche, so I try to avoid him." 

Shadow recalled the green-feathered hawk he'd seen talking to Sonic the night he followed him and Knuckles down to Station Square, and his quills stood in revulsion as he shuddered. If that was who he thought he was, he could see why Sonic would want nothing to do with him. 

Shadow: "Do you miss it?" 

Sonic: "Well, yeah, I guess... It was decent money for me too. But I couldn't trust that he wouldn't sabotage me because we broke up, so I cut my losses..." 

Shadow: "I take it you won quite a bit then? Or were you a foul player?"

Sonic: ">:( Rude, man. I race fair and square. Not my fault I'm aerodynamic." 

Shadow: "I've seen you on your gear. That's abnormally fast." 

Sonic: "Okay, yes, but that was after I quit. I had a friend juice it up for me. Better for running from the Hounds. And you. Oh, wait... you have those stupid rocket boots." 

Shadow: "Implants. Got them shortly after the Council died." 

Sonic: "Dude, just say they were murdered. We all know they were. Hell, you might have even done it."

Shadow: "Now who's being rude? I didn't. That was somebody else. At that time I was still in college." 

Sonic: "You went to college?"

Shadow: "Had to drop out before I got my bachelor's."

[japanifornication]

20 fic questions

i was tagged by @mutxnts thank you ash!!

1. how many works do you have on Ao3?

21, ayyy, one less than ash!!

2. what's your total ao3 word count?

189,718. this does not surprise me.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

ace attorney and very rarely ff7 and the last of us.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

late night (257 kudos), tasting (121 kudos), finality (114 kudos), alive (91 kudos), distance (88 kudos) all of these are ace attorney, three of them are part of a series lol.

if we want to include my art that i've posted to ao3, holding would actually be in second place, with 218 kudos.

theoretically another fic should be in the top five instead but i left it out because i just don't like it and don't plan to update it again/will prob remove it at some point (it was my first in the fandom, was trying to do a case fic before realizing i am bad at them).

5. do you respond to comments?

i try to always respond but sometimes i just don't know what to say! that being said i am always open to chatting about my fics. please. please talk to me oh my god i want to talk about ace attorney.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oughhhh....... i guess no one told me it would be beautiful? it's one of my shortest fics and part of just a short series of a post-apocalypse au. it's not exactly the angstiest ending, i have another series in mind for that, but the whole fic has an undertone of angst, and series will too. i just write it in spurts when i feel the need to write something that isn't one of my WIPs.

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

i think most of my fics end on a sort of higher note! my fics have strong undertones of angst but with lighter endings, but i think the winner would go to status :) because it's the happy ending to the long angsty series! and also it just makes me happy, i feel like i really stuck the landing, we get to see the boys laugh over the most absurd situation and it makes me laugh too.

8. do you get hate on fics?

i've never gotten hate on a fic but shortly after i posted fic that met this description in the tags once, someone i follow made a post making fun of the idea that edgeworth would ever be a sexy dom. listen we are all playing in our own sandboxes.

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

we all know me, come on now. i write trans phoenix getting railed in all configurations smut. every e-rated fic has at least one creampie. we know this.

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i don't, but i do have one in mind. i've been planning a severance ace attorney fic for a long time.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

no

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

no

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

kind of? tybalt wrote a fic in the universe of one of my series! which kind of counts? idk! but he didn't feel like posting it so i did lol (he's co-author on it). but i do RP a lot, just none is published yet. maybe some day.

14. what’s your all time favorite ship?

of all time??????? tifa/cloud/aerith probably

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

ohhh god maybe my vampire fic, wait for the morning. i'm trying. i'm trying for the homosexuals.

16. what are your writing strengths?

i think i'm best at writing dialogue honestly, that is what i love to write the most, especially arguments. otherwise in the Real World i am very good at writing passive-aggressive but still somehow polite and professional emails to get shit done.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

i have a lot of problems with just repetitive vocab.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i have a lot of feelings on this i can't exactly elucidate well. i only speak english fluently. i have a very beginner's knowledge in french. i'm also indigenous, but i don't speak the language of my people, which despite being one of the largest indigenous speech communities in the US, still only has around 2,000 native speakers.

so... i have a lot of feelings about language that take up a lot of space in my chest. but i just am kind of stuck writing in english. if i need to write dialogue in another language, i try to source from friends who speak the language first, then elsewhere on the internet if i don't know anyone directly who speaks it (e.g. asking in a public discord or reddit or somewhere), and use online translation tools as a last resort.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

theoretically it was accidentally tomb raider when i was in 3rd grade but i didn't know that's what i was doing at the time. intentionally, the first fic i ever wrote fanfic for was ff7.

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

i really and truly cannot choose here. it's like picking your favorite child. for the writing skills alone i have to pick wait for the morning (unfinished, i'm sorry). clarity is another one i think shows off some writing skills, idk, i just like it! for the characterization, something about decadence really floats my boat. and for the one that really earns its e-rating, it's tasting (especially chapter 3), my magnum opus of smut.

i am tagging.... who am i tagging. i hate tagging ppl bc i get sooooo anxious that ppl will be annoyed but i am going to tag @sandboxer @m-aximumjoy @samioli if you want to do it, and i have forgotten everyone else's tumblr urls in this exact moment it's like the men in black just memory-wiped me

[illusionsofdreaming]

hey, it's owhda. how have you been? it's a little bit sad to see no updates on tumblr from you(I mean any, even just a talk) but that just mean there's something else going on in your life and I sincerely hope it's something good. I didn't really know you much but I really thought that you could be a good friend to have. So.. could we get a glimpse into your life? How's your work? What are you interested in right now?

Hello, hello! It's so nice to see some familiar faces still hanging around this dusty blog! I've missed interacting with you both and Tumblr in general, it's very humbling to know people are reminded of me from time to time. I guess now is as good a time as any to post a little update on what's been going on in my life, how that's affected my writing and what I've got planned for the blog in the coming future. For those who wish to skip the chatter, tldr; I'm hanging on, this will blog will remain online and I do have plans to continue writing.

Let’s see… where do I even begin? Shortly after May, I’ve received an exciting notice - I was promoted! It’s a goal I’ve been working on for some time so it was quite satisfying to hear the news. Since then it’s been a whirlwind of activities - trying to juggle my new responsibilities and manage my own team took some time getting used to. I’ve worked solo for so long it was difficult to be the ‘leader’. In fact - I still am uncomfortable being one, but I’m starting to get the grasp of it.

I’ve been traveling for work as well and in these few months have been to Japan and UK. Both trips where I fell severely ill because my weak body can’t cross countries without making complaints and making me feel my age. Oh. And I finally got Covid in November which really laid me low for at least 2 weeks. 

I realise my health’s been taking a hit lately. Perhaps its the stress of having more work on my plate and being in a new position but I’ve been getting sick more easily. I’m currently recovering from a throat infection that I got from my UK trip as I write this - so fun times.

So yeah.. it’s been a lot of paperwork, electronic work, a lot of self reflection and remoulding of myself to my real life that really put writing on the back burner. I always wrote at night after work but nowadays I don’t even have the energy for that. If I’m not dead asleep by the time I’m done with work then some infection, flu or cold will get me. 

…and the longer I don’t touch my writing the less I wish to open my WIPs because I have a silly, irrational fear that I no longer write the same way I use to - either I’ve deteriorated or my style’s changed. It’s silly. 

Good news is that, I think I’ve finally found my pace, my new position is no longer ‘new’ but the norm and I’m slowly finding ways to carve out my own personal time in my new schedule. Which is why I’ve decided to tackle this issue today. To be honest, it’s been a while since I wrote anything fictional, but I’m planning on slowly working through the writing blocks that have built up due to my neglect. I’ve bought 2 new books during my trip in UK so that’s a step in the right direction right?

As some of my older followers would know and recognise by now, I do tend to go through highs and lows when it comes to activity on this blog. It often reflects what’s going on in my personal life haha. But lately, the creative bug that has been out of energy seemed to have been slightly rejuvenated - my habits of hyperfixating on creative mediums is rearing its head again so I know it’ll only be a matter of time before I’m itching to write again. 

About what..? TCF is still on my mind but not as much as before since it’s been some time since I last read its chapters. Lately I’ve been reading Absolute Sword Sense and am keeping up with its chapters so far. I’ve yet to get the newest Fire Emblem game and have been doing great avoiding any and all spoilers so far - but I’m pretty sure it’ll be going on my list of series I’ll write for in the future.

My health issues are to be tackled another day because I’m frankly, quite tired of taking meds. 

As for where I wish to take the blog… hmm.. that’s really a tough decision because I’ve never really had a clear goal in mind when it comes to this blog. It was just a great space to share my thoughts on fandoms and interact with likeminded people. I don’t think I’ll be opening requests for a while since I’ve got a huge backlog of WIPs to work on. I suppose I could attempt to keep the blog less.. dead? Not sure how I’ll go about it though.

Anyways.. that’s about it. Terribly sorry for the word vomit, I hope everyone's been doing well and enjoying your life! If it seems I'm a bit dead without updates, it's usually because there aren't any chatter related inboxes haha. So is this illu's call for random stories to be dropped in their mail? Yes.

[saintsenara]

An update…where the murderer will be REVEALED?! And a possible Room of Requirement scene? 😉 I am SO pumped.

For One Year in Every Ten I’ll go for: ⚡️ 🕸️ 🌋 🥸

And 😈—I’d love to hear about any WIP you’re feeling at the moment :) Your list last spring was incredible!

(PS Thanks to the Death Eater Hagrid dossier, I am now deep in WIP in which Ron and Luna (not a pairing, just true crime pals) accidentally figure it while bored during the lockdown, while reviewing cold cases from the war years. Truly a life-changing read).

One for the gorgeous Scylla and Charybdis to follow!

anon, i need desperately for you to reveal yourself and send me this ron & luna crime-fighting duo uncovering dark lord hagrid fic. it sounds like a masterpiece, canon rewritten, atyd in the mud, and i need it.

in fact, answering questions on one year in every ten from this work in progress ask game seems almost futile in the light of this life-changing information. i'll power through, though...

🌋 percentage which is done and ready to post?

it’s all done. i’m just lazy.

⚡️ which character is gonna get a rude awakening?

harry james potter is shortly to discover that sleeping with a wanted criminal doesn’t endear you to the government. which i feel hermione has already mentioned, but harry wasn’t listening then.

🕸 feeling you were stuck with how to write?

it’s not so much a feeling as a character, but i normally hate writing hermione - she and i would not be friends in real life! what of it! - and so deciding to make the trio [which dear old tom has forced his way into] a central part of the story was quite daunting.

choosing to make hermione a lawyer was also not my brightest move, since the risk of her becoming insufferable as a result was high, but i think she and i have managed to form an uneasy alliance, helped - without a doubt - by the fact that ron is a chad.

🥸 tag yourself, which wip character are you?

tom. i’m also a hot slut who likes to overshare and who reacts poorly to the slightest provocation.

😈 next wip after this one?

i'm shocked to discover that i've actually made good progress on much of that list, which isn't like me... many pieces have already launched, many will shortly. it's giving hustle culture.

i think it’s important to always have at least one tomarrymort on the go, just so that the girlies [gender neutral] who don’t like the ship are always having to live in fear. because i can’t focus on single tasks, i have three tomarrymort wips in the pipeline. first up, we’re getting a little pornographic treat for the @tomarrybigbang, then we’re getting philosophical with two musings - one a one-shot, one a big multi-chapter stunner - on the nature of the soul and of love.

i also have a scarcrux-turns-the-child-harry-into-a-murderer one-shot knocking around somewhere, because of course i do.

[aggravateddurian]

WIP Wednesday: 2079 Dorian, 2079 Kaylee, and The Tower AU

@theviridianbunny tagged me on her newest WIP Wednesday post. Thanks, bunny!

A couple of things to share this week, all related to my new 2077 AU: The Tower, a divergent Brother's Shadow Timeline based on the new ending from Phantom Liberty... so spoilers for those netrunners who don't want to touch the Blackwall.

I've been working on new appearances for all of the characters returning to 'The Tower' AU.

2079 Durian Update!

"Dorian! You... you're dressed like you're on your way to blow up Arasaka for killing your girlfriend... how've you been?" - Clara Gonzalez, 2079

Dorian's back, and he's ready to start Chippin' In with his new 'rebel' outfit, inspired by such upstanding and law-abiding citizens as Johnny Silverhand. His new outfit should provide some clues as to how Dorian will be portrayed in The Tower.

Kaylee 2079 Update!

Kaylee has changed as well, even more radically than Dorian. Kaylee disappeared shortly after Trey's death. The only clue she left behind was a single word: FIRESTARTER. Dorian found her in Tulsa, Oklahoma, and they've returned to Night City, though Kaylee has had to live under an assumed identity, complete wiith a new face: Sarah Karlsson.

More on Sarah, and how Kaylee came to wear her face, in upcoming lore posts.

My other blorbos

Clara will be getting some more love this week, but nothing specific to share this week.

The Tower AU

I've written the first short story that takes place in the new Brother's Shadow: The Tower AU, which follows on from one of the endings of Cyberpunk 2077: Phantom Liberty. This AU is going to be my main focus, followed by Chorus.

Check it out here!

I love hearing about peoples' upcoming projects. VP, mods, lore, fic, original projects. If you have something and you feel comfortable (no pressure), please post it!

[hopelesshawks]

This is a long one so bear with me but felt important to post. Basically covers what’s going on with my current tumblr WIP (not Again Like Before, that fic is vibing) and my writing in general:

So Fool Like Me hasn’t updated in literally ages and I’ve been debating what to do with it lately. First of all it’s got a low number of notes so idek if there’s really anyone who cares what happens to it? And more importantly although I like the story it had to tell, frankly the format no longer super appeals to me.

I first started writing fics on tumblr using SMAUs and to this day my most successful fics fall into that category but I don’t love 1) feeling like people will only read my fics if they’re SMAUs and 2) the format itself and how to create it.

So I guess this is me officially saying I probably won’t be writing anymore SMAUs. The app I use has been off the App Store for a while now and it shows. It was always decently buggy but it’s only gotten more egregious as time has gone on and frankly the experience has gotten more frustrating than is worth. So if that was the only reason you were following me then gg I guess. Thank you for the support you’ve given up until this point

As far as Fool Like Me is concerned, I’ll be making a poll shortly to see if there are enough people invested in it for me to redo and then complete it as a regular, typed fic but the current version of it at least will be discontinued

If you read this far thanks for listening <3 love y’all and feel free to check me out on AO3 under the same name if you wanna see what written fic I’ve been working on lately

[puregaalee]

PureGaaLee Presents: WIP Your Heart Out 2023 FAQ Author Edition

Helpful Links:

Announcement // Rules // General FAQ // Artist/Pinch-Hitter FAQ // Author Sign-Up (TBA) // Artist Sign-Up (TBA) // Pinch-Hitter Sign-Up (TBA) // PGL Ask

Authors: How many WIPs can I sign up with?

As many as you want, but please try to be practical about how much you can get done during the creation period. If you think you can only get one fic done, that's okay! You don't have to go crazy. The purpose of the event is to finish a WIP, and if taking on more means finishing nothing, it's better to just take on one!

Additionally, if you sign up with multiple fics but realize you can't finish all of them after an artist has already claimed your fic, that will mean the artist isn't guaranteed a fic to create art for. So please be mindful of that when signing up.

Authors: How far along should my fic(s) be by each check-in?

This will greatly depend on where your WIP is at the start of the event and how much of the fic is left, but a good rule of thumb is:

Check-in #1: 35% Complete Check-in #2: 55% Complete Check-in #3: 75% Complete Check-in #4: 90%-100% Complete

This is more of a guide to help you keep on track, so don't worry if you veer off course a bit. You also want to consider having enough written by the time an artist has claimed your piece to give them a decent idea of the story and what they want to create for it.

Authors: How will posting work? Do I have to post the entire fic on the posting date?

The posting date you choose will be the date you start posting your fic. If your fic has multiples chapters, you can divide those up however you see fit, so long as the first chapter you post for the event is posted on the day chosen.

If you are posting a brand new fic, this means chapter one. If you are updating a WIP, this means whatever chapter following your last update before the event. Do not post chapters during the event, prior to your posting date.

Authors: Do I post the art in my fic?

Yup! Just place the art into the body of the text in the appropriate place in the story, and make sure to link to the artist's page in the author notes! A guide on how to include images in fics will be posted shortly before posting begins.

Authors: What if my WIP contains triggering content?

Triggering content is a natural part of media, be it art, television, movies, books, comics, whatever! In order to be mindful of everyone's comfort, when you sign up, you will be asked a series of questions including what triggers your fic does or will contain. This may change as you continue to write, but that's okay, just try to get as many triggers listed as you can so that when fic claiming begins, potential artists can see what to expect.

Authors: What happens if my artist drops? What if they ghost me?

Sometimes people drop out of events, and sometimes people go ghost. It's not ideal, but it does happen, and if that happens, a pinch-hitter will be assigned to you.

Hopefully your artist will be up front, but if you cannot get in touch with them after a week, please contact me and I will reach out to them. After two weeks of radio silence--from the first week you were unable to contact them to the end of the week I couldn't--you will be assigned a pinch-hitter.

In the event your artist drops but has finished a piece of art for your fic, please ensure you still have their permission to use the piece in your fic.

Authors: What if I can't get my fic done in time, but I still got a portion of it done during the event?

In the event you don't finish your WIP but you still got something done during the event, you may go ahead and add your fic to the event collection on Ao3 and post your fic.

The fic will be included in the honorable mentions section of the final event wrap.

Did I miss anything? If you have any further questions, please send a message to PureGaaLee!

[velkynkarma]

My typical strategy is the following.

FIRST, write a nice review.

This is very important! Talk about the things you liked about the fic. Demanding updates with no explanation as to why is really insulting!

There are a ton of good guides out there on how to comment on fic, but try to explain what it is about the fic you like that leaves you yearning for more (without asking about the next update).

Ex.

"I really love the way you write [character], you really nail the way they [talk/act/interact/whatever]"

"This line especially really made me [feel things/think about the situation/envision the imagery/etc]"

"I really enjoy the plot so far! I especially like [plot detail]"

"You write my favorite ship so well, I love the way you have [Character A/Character B] interact!"

Now that your review is written, part 2:

The Non-Pressure Inquiry

It's very important to NOT pressure the writer into feeling like you're demanding more fic. Fic writing takes a lot of time, and it's easy to feel discouraged if people just ask when your next update is. Especially if Life is getting in the way (fic takes time and inspiration to write after all!)

For WIPs I've enjoyed, I always finish a review with this general comment:

"It looks like you haven't updated this fic since [UPDATE DATE], so I'm not certain if you plan on continuing. If you are, I look forward to the next update! If you are not, then thank you for sharing what you have with this story, because I really enjoyed spending my time reading it."

That last line is very important. It makes it clear that you aren't demanding anything of them, and that you still enjoyed what you got. Between that, and the nice comment beforehand, it's a nice pick-me-up for the writer without them feeling pressured to update more.

And sometimes, it's even enough inspiration TO update more! Sometimes a work can get abandoned because of negative responses (or no responses at all), or life gets in the way, or there just isn't that motivational push to do more. This kind of no-pressure inquiry comment can sometimes give writers the spark they need to get back to writing! Sometimes after leaving comments like this, the fic I commented on will start updating again shortly after.

And remember: even if it doesn't, appreciate the story you got so far! If you enjoyed your time with it, then that time was never wasted, even if there might not be more.

Hi, what is a polite way to ask authors if they will be updating? Or questions that could be taken as you the reader being negative or criticizing

Here’s my hot take on this — they’re either updating or the story is abandoned, right? There’s only two options at the end of the day. Maybe three, if you count plans to update. So what we’re really saying, as readers, when we ask that question, is I’m excited for this story and I’m worried I won’t see more from it soon. Right?

Getting the “is this fic abandoned?” question on a WIP I haven’t updated in a bit stings for some reason. There’s a lot of reasons why that fic might have stalled! Instead of it feeling encouraging, it can sometimes just feel like a reminder of failure, at least to me. Like oh god, I felt terrible about this writers block and now other people are noticing too.

My advice is, if you truly want to see an author update — talk to them about their fic. Send praise, send commentary, but most importantly, send questions! Ask them why they made certain choices. Ask them the inspiration behind a certain scene or event. Get their brain clicking back into that writing mode! I can’t count how many times a good ask on here has reminded me that I love that WIP and want to continue it.

I would not send negative or criticizing questions to authors unless they’ve made it explicitly clear that they are open to receiving it. If the question can be rephrased into something more neutral like “you did X — I didn’t quite understand that. could you explain why?” that works, in my mind.

[littlejeanniebean]

GUESS WHO’S BACK FROM HIATUS WITH SOMETHING EXCITING ON THE WAYYY

Follow me on Twitter and Instagram @jccolewrites for more more details on the exciting thing™️, wip excerpts, writing talk, and basically all the behind the scenes and bonus content I never get around to posting on Tumblr 😂  Also, feel free to DM me if I know you from this blog so I can immediately follow you back xx

[thesaltybuns]

Hey hey guess what

I'm running my first "Your Character Here" commission drop as part of my End Of Summer S@le!

Spooky szn is my favorite time of year and I personally believe it is never too early to start celebrating your favorite things!

Important things to know!:

There are now 6 available slots!

Each slot is $60

Wips are projected to be rolled out in Mid October with finals following shortly after! If this changes I will be sure to send updates in advance!

50% of the deposit is required to hold your place in line!

Payments are accepted through paypal!

Clear references of you, your oc, or the character you'd like drawn into the scene will be required!

Sweater color can be adjusted!

Hyper detailed creatures, mechas, or hard nsfw is a no go.

I'm more than happy to answer any and all questions so don't hesitate to reach out via dm! <3 If you aren't in the market for a spook portrait, reblogs are just as appreciated!

[ihopuhopwehop]

My Favorite Fremione Fics

Hello! Here is a list of my favorite Fred x Hermione fics!

Multichapters:

"The Brightest Witch of Beauxbatons" by free_bee

32/35 chapters posted. WIP

Rating: T

Summary:

"~July 1984~ Mr. Hugo Granger lived at number 84 Rue de Pierre de Lune, in Paris, France. Every morning he would collect his paper from the doorstep and retreat back to his kitchen where an owl would be waiting with his other paper at the window. However, on this rainy Tuesday, there was more than a newspaper in this owl's talons.

After the death of her parents, Hermione goes to live with her uncle at the age of five, discovering she is a witch from her magical uncle. Attending Beauxbatons Academy of Magic, Hermione joins her school on a trip to Hogwarts in 1994, where three schools will be competing in the Triwizard Tournament.

Hermione meets many friends at Hogwarts, spending her sixth year amongst the other school's Houses, and discovering friends and loved ones that will last her whole life. If only she could figure out a way to help her new friends in the fight against He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, while desperately trying not to fall head over heels for a certain mischief-making red head who seems intent on having her do just that.

My notes on the fic: AU- canon divergence. Where Hermione grew up going to Beauxbatons instead of Hogwarts. She comes to Hogwarts for the Triwizard Tournament. I love this fremione fic because of how Fleur is written. I haven't finished reading this one yet, but I have enjoyed it so much that it must be added to my list!

"The Trouble with Wanting" by WrathOfMacy

39/? Chapters posted WIP

Rating: M

Summary: "This is a series of drabbles, ficlets and one-shots following our dear Fred and Hermione from June of 1995 (shortly before the third task of the Triwizard Tournament) to an as-of-yet undetermined point post-war.

Let's just call it the bastard love child of Alternate Canon and Fix-it Fic and leave it at that.

*Regarding the Underage tag, the characters are ages sixteen and eighteen at the first occurrence. If this upsets your sensibilities, this is not the story for you.*

**TAGS AND CHARACTERS WILL BE CONTINUALLY UPDATED AS NEEDED**"

My notes: I literally love this fic with all my heart. I subscribed to it and try to comment on every chapter kind of love. IT DOES HAVE SEX IN IT, CHECK THE TAGS BEFORE YOU READ.

"Things Have Changed" by marblewaves

33/36 Chapters posted WIP

Rating: M

Summary: "Fred Lives. Which is good because the world would be terrible without him. Snippets from 4th book on-"

My Notes: Soulmate AU. Slow Burn. I also really love this fanfiction, however I haven't read it in awhile otherwise I could give better notes lol.

"Not a perfect gentleman" by @ralina003 & Quartz

14/23 Chapters posted WIP

Rating: M

Summary: "Entering her second season in London, Miss Granger is already bored out of her mind. She is not interested in entering a marriage with one of the gentlemen, pursuing her only because of her dowry. Mr Weasley, who is the fourth son of a landowner not even having a title surely is no exception there. Or is he?"

My Notes: MY FAVORITE FICS RN Regency AU. I recently watched bridgerton and this is very much like bridgerton and I am LOVING it. I love how both Fred and Hermione are written. Highly recommend

"It Looks Better On Me" by SunshineSkies13

3/4 chapters written WIP

Rating: T

Summary: "* BY POPULAR DEMAND, 4th CHAPTER TO BE ADDED SOON* After a prank gone wrong, Fred lends Hermione his jumper. A few days later, she lets him borrow her hat. That should have been the end of it, except he refuses to give it back. She decides the only way to get him back is to 'borrow' something else, he decides to return the favor, and the Gryffindors place bets on whether they will empty each other's closets before admitting their feelings."

My Notes: Romantic Comedy. This story is so cute! I love the mischief both Hermione and Fred partake in.

"Prosturing and Prose" by evidenceclaimed

8/8 chapters posted COMPLETED

Rating: T

Summary: '"If I’m tried before the Wizengamot on accusations of moral ambiguity, you’ll be the first to say ‘I told you so.’”

“So glad we’ve established my favourite thing to say to you"

“I’ll be careful not to develop any pavlovian responses.”'

My Notes: Soulmate-identifying marks au, Enemies to friends to lovers. I love this fic so much as well. It was one of the first one to get me hooked on Fremione.

ONE-SHOTS

"Purr-fectly Matched" by omnenomnom

rating: T

Summary: "Crookshanks is fond of his servant. She is generous with both treats and affection while still knowledgeable of her place as his attendant. However, when she starts making that wailing noise, he decides the best solution would be to find her a mate. The question is, which male is worthy?"

My Notes: this is an interesting perspective that I love because Crookshanks is a distinguished gentleman.

"both hands outstretched (for meeting your hands)" by @gingerteaonthetardis

Rating: T

Summary: "a collection of fremione oneshots, featuring: early morning snuggling, soulmarks, time travel, domesticity, arguments about marriage proposals, and similar nonsense."

My Notes: I really like this one because it is a collection of one shots and I like the prompts within it.

"Don't pull away...not yet" by (me, myself, and I) Ihopuhopwehop

Rating: T

Summary: The war has finally ended and Hermione comforts Fred when he wakes up from being in a coma.

My Notes: Angst, Fred Lives

"Not So Perfect Prefect" by Ihopuhopwehop

Rating: T

Summary: For a tumblr Prompt of Fremione kisses with someone catching them

My Notes: In a series. I wrote this fic and I included the ones I wrote because I apparently don't book mark my favorite one-shots :(

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

let me be your ruler.5

Warnings: guns, dubcon, noncon, fingering, treats.

This is a dark!fic and explicit. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.

Pairing: (dark!mob!) Peter Parker x Reader

Summary: You find more to worry about than just Peter.

Note: We get the long awaited update for mob Peter and I hope you like this twisted little chapter! Tomorrow Zemo and Wednesday the finale of Birch!Loki. I’ll try to keep up with Zemo and go back to an old series and try to pick away more at finish WIPs.

Hope you enjoy it. Thank you. Love you guys!

Please leave some feedback, like and reblog <3

Masterlist

Peter’s intensity did not let up. If anything, he grew more insistent and more suffocating. After the pool, there was the bed, then the shower, then another romp that kept you from logging into your work email. You were sore and drained by the time you laid down, too exhausted to try to wriggle away from him as he joined you and kept his arm over you as you drifted off.

You woke to him drinking coffee and looking out at the lush property. He wore only a pair of short boxers, his muscles lined perfectly along his bent arm and firm stomach. You let out a soft breath and rolled onto your back. 

Your thighs brushed together and made you squirm. You thought once he had his fun, he might let up. You could not predict this man in anything.

“You want a coffee?” he asked as he turned away from the windows, “I’ll send for one. Latte? Mocha?”

“Mmmph,” you grumbled and sat up carefully. 

Those cocktails went down too easy and added to the weight in your head and limbs. The alcohol made him bearable, made your new reality palatable. You were naked still. You held the sheet to your chest and he went to the dresser and pulled out the drawer with his free hand. He dangled the long camisole gown before you as he neared.

“I hate to cover such a pretty woman up but I think we’ve exposed my staff to enough of our fun,” he held the thin straps over a single finger.

You reached for it and he drew it just away from your grasp. He bent and his dark eyes clung to yours, “not a good morning kiss?” he taunted.

You leaned forward and pecked his lips. He purred and stood, draping the silk over your lap.

“So, coffee?” he asked again.

“With just a little milk,” you answered as you pulled on the nightgown and turned your legs over the edge of the bed. Every part of you was stiff, “thank you.”

“You’re learning, princess,” he praised, “such sweet manners.”

You stood and crossed your arms. He chuckled and nudged your chin with his knuckle playfully. He pulled on a robe and knotted it loosely around his body. He went to the door and hit the button right beside the frame. A knock came shortly and he handed over his empty mug and requested one for you.

“I was thinking, we’d extend our stay a while,” he said as he turned back to the room, “I need a break from the city… but if you’re good, I’ll let you invite your friends. They’re nice girls.”

“Is that a suggestion or an order?” you asked dully.

“Both,” he smirked at you as he came closer and wrapped his arms around you, “you’re starting to get it, princess.”

You searched his face and held back a sigh. His brown eyes were smokey as his hands slipped down to your ass.

“I’ll need them around to distract my guests,” he purred.

“Guests?” you turned your arms and planted them firmly against his chest as he bent to kiss your neck. He ignored you easily as he swayed you with him.

“I was woken up early by a call,” he spoke against your skin, his lips sending shivers through you, “we got today and tomorrow, then those two goons will be joining us. I can get away but…” he raised his head and ran his hands up your sides and along your arms, pulled them over his shoulders, “business is business… we can still fit in a little play.”

You stiffened and swallowed. Your brows furrowed and you slanted your lips as you looked past him.

“You mean Bucky?”

“And Steve,” he filled in, “you don’t get one without the other.”

“I thought you guys were all… sorted out,” you said quietly.

“Ah, princess, you don’t know the half of it,” he cooed, “let’s keep it that way. Better for everyone.”

You nodded. He was right, you knew whatever he did was unsavoury and you didn’t need the details. You knew what he was capable of. A flash of fear went through you as you recalled the barrel of his gun pointed at you.

“I don’t wanna do that again, princess,” he uttered as if he could read your mind, “so… let’s not. Give the girls a call.”

A tap came at the door and he parted. He opened it and took the mug from the servant and brought it to you. You took it as the scent promised to fend off the ache behind your eye. You sat in one of the upholstered chairs and took a cautious sip. He watched you with a grin and bit his lip.

“Better finish that fast,” he warned, “coffee stains don’t come easy.”

You eyed him as he pushed open his robe and you saw the bulge twitch in his boxers. You kept your face placid, not wanting to provoke him. What exactly were you holding onto? He already had your whole life in the palm of his hand.

✨

Halle was more than overjoyed to accept your invitation but Molly passed as she wanted to hang out with Charlie. Desiree said it would be good for her as her co-worker turned out to be a total waste of time. 

You hated that you were doing this to your own friends; using them as bait. Peter made it clear that they were welcome only on the condition that they could be an ends to his means. ‘Tell them to bring bikinis’, he insisted before you made the call.

Your second morning at the beach house was just as heavy as the first. The day before was filled with Peter’s incessant touching and another dip in the pool that ended in his delight. The staff was set to cleaning the pool once more in preparation of the guests. You were embarrassed as the servers, cleaners, and chef were all too aware of your activities.

Peter left you after a quick shower and you were thankful for the chance to wash on your own. He pecked your lips as he held his phone to his ear and squeezed your ass before he went. 

You stood beneath the steamy stream of the faucet and melted beneath it. You came out slightly refreshed and wrapped yourself in a plush towel.

You went into the bedroom and sorted through the second drawer as you searched for something more comfortable than showy. There wasn’t much you could categorize as practical. You heard the door creak and didn’t look up as droplets cooled on your arms and you pulled a yellow sun dress out of the closet instead.

“That’s a good colour for you,” the voice made you freeze and you glanced over at the open door. 

You assumed it was Peter or the wind, but the man who filled the doorframe with his thick shoulders, made your chest tight. Bucky stood with his arm against the wood as he leaned nonchalantly and leered at you.

“Wh-when did you get here?” you stuttered as you held your towel tight and shielded yourself with the dress.

“Just a couple minutes ago,” he smiled, “I was just looking for the bathroom but…” he tilted his head as his voice trailed off and his eyes ventured down your body, “...think I found something better.”

“Get out,” you hissed, “or I’ll shout.”

“Why? I’m not doing anything… just watching,” his lips curled lasciviously, “and you are fun to watch.”

“What-- I said, get out, Bucky,” you snarled as you stomped over to him.

You pushed on his thick arm, the muscle firm as it peeked out from beneath his short-sleeve button-up. He didn’t budge as he loomed over you.

“Your man likes to treat me like some errand boy. Sent me off to keep an eye on you. Boring, at first, all those months following you around to cafes and grocery stores,” he reached out and cradled your chin. You tried to pull away but he gripped your jaw firmly and held you in place, “but those things you do when you think you’re all alone… I was tempted to lend a hand but… business.”

“Don’t fucking touch me,” you grabbed his wrist and wrenched it away, “I don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about--”

“That little pink dildo, well, not very little is it?” he licked his bottom lip, “I thought he would’ve told you. He’s a careful man. He plans ahead. I respect that, at least.”

“Go!” you shoved him in mortification, “or I’ll scream right now and you know Peter won’t be happy--”

“Calm down, little girl,” he scoffed, “don’t get so worked up. I’m not that stupid…” he squared his jaw and raised a brow wryly, “but he will get careless and I’ll still be watching.”

He winked and turned away slowly. You quickly closed the door as he retreated down the hallway and you locked it with a shaky hand. You staggered back blindly and sat heavily on the cushioned bench at the foot of the bed.

How long had Bucky been hounding you? How long had Peter had his eye on you? Your heart raced at the realisation of how deep in you truly were. You could deal with one, but two? You were well and truly fucked.

✨

You tried to hide in the bedroom until your friend arrived but Peter dragged you out to welcome his guests over breakfast by the pool. You sat quietly and picked at the fruit plate until they excused themselves for more business. You were grateful as you didn’t miss Bucky’s fleeting looks.

Halle and Desiree arrived just after noon. The men were locked away in the parlor so you greeted them as they approached the walk, beach bags on their arms and rolling suitcases bouncing up the stones.

“Oh my god, girl,” Halle chirped, “he sent a car and everything.”

“Thank god, my old piece of shit wouldn’t have made it this far,” Desiree added, “oh, you look so good. I love that dress.”

“Thanks,” you sniffed, “um, I hope you guys don’t mind staying on the second floor. Peter’s staff just got the rooms ready--”

“Staff?” Halle swooned, “you hooked in a real sugar daddy.”

“No, I-- Halle,” you sneered, “it’s not--”

“I’m teasing,” she giggled, “but come on, look at this place.”

“Mm, well there is another hitch,” you said as you led them inside.

Two staff members approached and offered to take their bags. They gave you silent looks of amazement as they handed over their luggage and you rolled your eyes.

“So, what’s the hitch? Don’t tell me the pools out of order,” Desiree whined.

“No, pool’s just been cleaned, but… we have company,” you said tritely, “couple of Peter’s… friends. I’m sure they won’t bother you but--”

“Are they hot?” Halle asked.

“Are you serious?” you blinked.

“I’m so serious. I need to get laid. Bad.”

“And a stranger is the best choice for that?” you scoffed.

“If he’s cute,” she shrugged.

“It’s an important question,” Desiree seconded, “I can’t keep dating boys. You won’t believe what this asshole did.”

“I dunno,” you waved off the question, “how about I show you around first and then we can get to all that later.”

“Ooo, yes,” Halle clapped, “this place is huge.”

“Alright, well, we can’t go in the parlour right now but you won’t really be in there anyway,” you ushered them forward, “the pool’s just through here…”

✨

When at last the girls were settled in, you waited by the pool as they went to change into their suits. You requested some drinks from the staff and thanked them profusely as you felt entirely out of place asking anything of them. The fruity margaritas were left on the round table as you sat in the middle of a lounger.

“Uh, this place is gorgeous,” Halle declared as she came through the sliding doors, “oh my god, are those for us?”

You nodded as she swiped up a drink and sipped noisily from the straw. Desiree took her own but side-eyed Halle, “It’s barely one o’clock, slow down,” she chirped.

“It’s a vacation! Sort of. I had to use sick time for this so no Insta please,” Halle sang, “I can’t wait to get in.”

She set down her glass and strode over to the pool. She slid out of her sandals and dipped her toes in. She surprised you as suddenly she dove in and sent up a splash of water. Desiree giggled as she swallowed her mouthful and placed her drink beside Halle’s and raced over to join her.

You dragged yourself to your feet and sat at the side of the pool with only your legs in the water.

“Come on, don’t be such a party pooper,” Desiree splashed you.

“I’m not, I’m just… all pooled out right now,” you shrugged, “you guys have fun, I’m just happy to have you here.”

It wasn’t a lie. In those last two days when it was just you and Peter, you felt so completely isolated. Even if they were there to act as diversions, you were reassured to have a glimpse of your former life.

“You ladies look like you’re having fun,” Peter’s voice startled you and you looked over your shoulder as he emerged from the house, “drinking already?” He was dressed in his trunks already, “I hope you don’t mind, the guys were hoping to hop in too.”

“The guys,” Halle giggled.

“I told them we had company,” you assured Peter, “and uh, you know Halle, but this is Desiree.”

“A pleasure,” he said as he neared and sat beside you, “why aren’t you in there with them?”

“I will get in, I’m just… enjoying the sun.”

He hummed and put his hand over yours on the rim of the pool, “you okay?” he lowered his voice.

You squinted at him and nodded. He didn’t really care if you weren’t okay. He was only telling you to start acting like it.

You heard the others before they appeared. Peter introduced them as they came out and the girls were all too happy to have them sink into the pool with them. Peter nudged you and you slipped over the edge and he quickly followed. He caught you as you broke the surface and held you to him.

“They’re getting along,” he intoned.

“I still don’t get it,” you pressed against his chest as he waded you over to the other side of the pool, “why do you need them?”

“Part of the deal,” he said, “they want some fun too.”

“What? You mean--”

“The girls seem willing. They’re pretty enough and I wouldn’t say Bucky or Steve are hideous,” Peter chuckled, “it works for everyone.”

“You’re whoring out my friends for a deal?” you spat.

“Now, princess, watch it,” he curled his lip, “I’ve been patient, haven’t I?” he leaned into you and squished you between him and the wall of the pool, “if I was a worse man, I’d just let them have a taste of you… but you’re mine,” he kissed you roughly and drew back, “and so long as you are, you will only be mine. Understood?”

You swallowed and nodded. He relaxed and kept his arm around you as he came parallel to the pool wall and floated beside you. Steve and Desiree were chattering as she came back to the pool with her drink and Halle gabbed on at Bucky but his eyes weren’t on her. He smirked as he watched you and slowly dropped his gaze to your roommate.

“Maybe Bucky will chill out a little,” Peter grumbled as he pushed himself away from the side of the pool.

“Mm, maybe,” you let him pull you with him as he waded around the middle of the pool.

“Don’t worry so much,” he chided.

“How can I not? I hardly know these men and these are my friends, Peter,” you hissed, “I should’ve known.”

“And if you had, you still would have done what I said, princess,” he snipped, “why are you doing this? Everyone’s having fun so join the party.”

You thinned your lips and forced a smile. His eyes narrowed and he latched onto your arm. He pulled you with him to the large round steps along the far corner and you tried not to slip as you climbed out of the water. The others were too distracted to notice and as you glanced back, you found Desiree with her tongue down Steve’s throat.

“You don’t wanna have fun with them,” Peter dragged you into the house, “then we can have some of our own.”

“Not right now, Peter, please--”

“Listen, princess,” he spun and pulled you to him, “you’re not getting this. I’ve been nice. I bring you to my nice house, I send a car for your friends, I get you off… you need to start using that head instead of your mouth…” he eyed your lips, “well, the mouth is good for some things.”

You quivered in disgust and he turned as he forced you further down the hallway. He flung you through the bedroom door and you barely caught yourself on a chair. The door slammed as your damp feet slipped on the floor and you stood to face him.

“I’ve done you all these favours so you can do me one,” he hooked his thumbs in his shorts and pulled them down over the protrusion of his arousal.

You glanced away and he closed the distance between you. He grabbed your chin and made you look at him. He kissed you roughly and shoved you away. He stormed over to the bed and flopped down, his cock bobbing as he moved to recline against the pillows and exhaled loudly.

“Well…” he said.

You stared at him and the bitterness laced your muscles. You huffed and walked to the bed slowly. He stroked himself tauntingly as he smirked at you. You put a knee on the bed and braced yourself. There was a moment you were ready to run and not look back, but your friends were in his pool and the vision of his pistol pulsed in your head.

You climbed up and crawled to him. You sat back on your heels, just between his legs and he tutted, “now, princess, don’t give me that look.”

You wiped the anger from your face and closed your eyes. You grasped his dick and his hand fell away. You moved your hand up then down and tamped down your reservations. You bent over him and your lashes fluttered as your lips pressed to his tip. He gasped at the soft sensation and you stretched your lips around him.

He groaned and put his hand on your shoulder as he urged you down. He met the back of your throat and you eased back, wetting his length to ease the tension in your jaw. He gripped the back of your head impatiently and you strained to let him further as he invaded your throat. You gagged and he let you back only for a moment before he forced you back down.

You followed his motion, fast and deep, until the spit dripped down him and across your face. You clung to his thigh as you breathed with each retreat only to be smothered again. Your throat burned as your jaw ached as you kept your tongue firm to his length. The sloppy sucking mingled with his lusty moans and he held your head between both hands as he thrust from below.

He stopped you suddenly. Your head spun as he lifted you off of him and sat up to kiss you messily. He pushed you over as he got to his knees. You fell back and bounced on the bed as he parted your legs, bending on over his as he moved to straddle the other. You laid at an angle as his hand slid up your stomach to your neck.

He squeezed lightly as he pulled aside the crotch of your suit and angled his dick against your cunt. You moaned as he filled you and pressed his thumb to your clit. He kept his hand at your throat as he held you down and jerked his hips sharply. He jolted your body with each decisive thrust as he watched your face.

“You like sucking my dick, princess? Makes you so wet, huh?” he growled.

You grabbed his hand but he only gripped your throat more firmly. He bit down as he sped up, the mattress shaking beneath you with each tilt of his hips. He rammed into you hard and harder, your leg stretched up his torso as he kept astride your other.

He teased and toyed with your clit as he fucked you. You choked out raspy moans as the coil wound tight inside of you and your muscles knotted around him. Your eyes rolled back as you slapped at his bicep and clawed deep into his flesh as you came. You squirmed in your orgasm and he sped up.

He pulled his hand from your throat to hold your leg to his body. He kept playing with your bud as you groped your chest senselessly and your voice rose unrestrained around you. His deep grunt punctuated each airy cry from your lips and the entire bed rocked beneath your bodies.

“That’s it, that’s it,” he snarled, “oh, princess, that’s it.”

He sank deep and pulled his hips back in a series of cruel thrusts that made your hips throb painfully. Your walls squeezed him as you came again and you milked him as he spent himself inside of you. He slowed and stopped as he hung his head and the muscles in his chest and arms tautened.

“Shit,” he breathed and slipped out of you, flinching as his tip brushed against you.

You stayed as you were as he let your leg fall to the bed and he sat between your legs and pushed his hair away from his face. He sighed and shook out his arms as if to free himself of the tension.

“You’re so good, princess,” he felt along your cunt and played with his cum as it seeped from you, “aren’t you?”

✨

Shamefully, you left the room in a new swimsuit. The former was stained from Peter’s punishment and after cleaning up, he forced you out with a fake smile. You emptied your margarita and ordered another with less reticence than before. Steve and Desiree had disappeared as Bucky humoured Halle’s flirting on one of the loungers.

Dinner was awkward enough as you weren’t foolish enough to think that no one noticed or heard your absence. You emptied three more glasses and Peter excused the two of you as he kept you from a fourth. You wobbled back to the room ahead of him and fell onto the bed without changing out of your shorts and shirt.

“You’re mad again?” you bubbled drunkenly.

“You’re drunk,” he said as removed his watch and unbuttoned his shirt, “I don’t like that.”

“You don’t, ha?” you rolled onto your back, “that first night you had no problem feeling me up while I was--”

“Princess,” he snapped, “you can only blame the drink for so much.”

“You’re an ass,” you slurred and turned your back to him.

He huffed and the light went out. You felt the mattress dip behind you as he lowered himself next to you. He was stiff and didn’t try to touch you.

“I should spank you for that,” he muttered, “but you’re so fucking lit you wouldn’t remember it.”

“I feel good,” you murmured, “for once.”

He pinched you and the bed jostled as he rolled onto his side.

“Go to sleep,” he ordered. 

He didn’t need to tell you twice as the alcohol weighted your eyelids and you were soon snoring carelessly into the pillow.

✨

You woke with a start as your stomach churned. It was still late as you clamoured out of the bed and ran for the bathroom. You hugged the bowl as you retched into it. Your body revolted and the alcohol came up with your dinner. 

You shuddered as you caught your breath and flushed. You rinsed your mouth and steady yourself as you veins were thick from excess.

You stumbled back into the bedroom. Peter was asleep. His even breath rasped up into the dark. It was a rare moment of peace unsettled only by the memory of the day. You recalled his reproach before you fell asleep, you knew that wouldn’t be the end of it.

You groaned and crept to the door and let yourself out quietly into the hall. You went to the kitchen, tiptoeing through the dark, and filled a glass with water. You sipped but a noise pricked your ears. You listened as you kept your lips on the rim and drank to ease the fire in your stomach.

You followed the sound until it was too late to retreat. The whimpers and groans mixed and sent a tingle through you as you realised what was happening. You stopped in shock, frozen as you found Bucky and Halle in the immense front room. He had her bent over a round ottoman, her fingers curled at the seam as he rutted into her from behind.

She squealed each thrust as her head hung over the other side of the cushion. “Slow down,” she wisped, “please, I told you-- ugh, I never done it like this be--”

She cried out and bit into the cushion as he slapped her ass and fucked her harder, his other hand stretched between her shoulder blades. You took a step back and the movement caught his eye. He looked up and held your gaze as his face contorted into a sinister grin.

He sped up as he reached to smother her wails and held your gaze. You gripped the glass tightly and trembled as you backed away from the doorway. You spun and raced back to your room and tripped through the door. 

You crashed to the floor and the glass shattered as water splashed around you. Peter sat up with a snort and reached to flip on the lamp at the bedside. 

“What’s going on?” he asked sleepily.

“Just getting water,” you croaked as you sat back on your heels in the midst of the broken glass.

“Shit, did you cut yourself?” he asked as he saw you.

“No, no, I’m okay but-- stay there, you’ll get hurt. I’m close enough, I can… I’ll clean it up… I’m sorry.”

He stared at you and slowly nodded. The anger crinkled in his forehead and you stood carefully.

“So, now we know not to drink like that, huh?” he girded.

“I said, I’m sorry.”

“Mmhmm,” he leaned back against the headboard, “go on, princess, clean up your mess.”