#ummmmm uh uh uh what did i tag myself as.

[wishcrafted]

doodle of me :3

[vintagedolan]

hey!!! big big fan of all your work bub, thanks for the effort you put into everything! not sure if ur taking requests, if not just ignore, but i have a potential one here;) so i’m a sups independent girl, almost to a fault lol, part bc i love being independent and part sometimes bc i just don’t want to burden others. and my friend once joked about if something were to ever happen and i’d need to go to the hospital, i’d legit try to take myself. SO i was wondering, could you maybe write (1/2)

(2/2) i was wondering if you’d write something about one of the boys’s S.O’s having stomach pain or smth and maybe she has to get her appendix out and she’s driving herself and her man finds out and he’s like, angry she didn’t say anything but also gets worried and idk hopefully this makes sense if not no worries 😂 have a nice night, bug xx

okay but why is this concept actually some shit I would do lmao

You missed the porsche. There, you said it. Maybe it was because you had so many memories tied to it’s leather seats - Gray driving you home after your first date, the late night PCH drives, the morning coffee runs. You were emotionally attached to the thing, you couldn’t help it.

But holy shit were you glad that he’d gotten a tesla that day.

“Fucking shit.” You winced, doubling over again after just a few steps. When it started, you thought it was just cramps, or maybe even something you ate. But by the second time you’d thrown up, you knew something else was going on, the stabbing pain in your lower right side excruciating. 

“Breathe, just breathe,” you mumbled to yourself, scrambling through the drawer of the table of the foyer until you found the key you needed - Grayson always just used his phone to start his car, but you knew the little car shaped thing had to be somewhere. 

Sure enough, you gripped in your hands so hard that you accidentally pressed the button that made the doors open automatically. Usually you’d mutter about how unnecessary it was, all the over top technology when you could just open the door yourself.

But when you managed to get in, a few tears slipping from your eyes as you punched in hospital on the GPS and flipped auto pilot on, leaning back in the seat and clutching your stomach, you were thankful for all the bells and whistles. The drive time popped up as the car started to move - 15 minutes. You just had to make it 15 minutes.

At a Wakeheart meeting on the other side of town, Grayson’s phone buzzed.

He moved it quickly off the tabletop, a bit embarrassed. It didn’t matter that he was the CEO of the whole thing, he didn’t want any of his team to think he didn’t care about his meeting. Still, he checked it quickly under the table in case it was a text from you.

Instead, it was a notification from his Tesla app, and the tag line had his heart rate rising with every word he read.

Headed to the hospital? If you are in an emergency, please do not rely on autopilot and call 911 immediately to seek medical assistance.

He put his phone back up on the table, sliding it over to Ethan. He didn’t have to say anything - Ethan just knew, and by the way his brow furrowed over the screen, Grayson understood.

“Hey guys, really sorry but can we take a five minute break? Gotta troubleshoot something really quick.”

He was met with mumbles of understanding that he didn’t pay attention to as he stepped out into the hallway, Ethan on his heels.

“You’ve never gotten anything like that before?” 

“Nah bro, I have no idea what that’s about. Hold on I’ll look it up.” Ethan typed furiously on his phone for a moment, eyes going wide.

“Uh, it says it comes up if you put a hospital into the GPS and enable autopilot. It’s a safety feature, so you can’t try to hold them liable if autopilot fails and you’re like dying or something. But who would be - oh shit.”

Grayson was two steps ahead of him, already clicking your contact.

Inside the tesla, you let out another groan as you saw his name pop up on the screen. You knew if you didn’t answer he would just keep calling, and you had the sinking feeling that he was somehow onto you. You clicked the green button and tried to steady your voice.

“Hello?”

“Are you good?”

“Yeah, I’m uh - I’m okay. Why?”

“Oh you know, just the fact that my phone told me my tesla is in route to a fucking hospital right now? What the fuck babe?”

Fuck. There was no way to play that off, and if there was, you couldn’t think of it quick enough. 

“Ummmmm.. shit,” you winced again, grabbing at your side with a whimper.

“Y/N tell me what’s going on, no bullshit. Please, you’re scaring me.” His tone was pleading, and you couldn’t resist it.

“I think it’s my appendix. Hurts like a bitch, and if they rupture that can be really bad. So I’m going to the -“ you sucked in another breath, trying to keep it together. “- To the hospital.

“Jesus, why didn’t you call me? I could have taken you, you shouldn’t be driving!”

“I’m fin-”

“You aren’t fine. I’m coming. I’m on my way.”

“Okay.” You didn’t have the heart to argue with him, you were in too much pain, and you knew he was only going to be more mad when he realized that if it really was your appendix, they were going to have you in surgery as soon as they could.

You made it through the last few minutes of the drive, taking the tesla off auto and doing your very best to park it. 

You must not have been playing it off as well as you thought you were, because someone took one look at you headed for the ER doors and they were running inside to get someone to help.

It was a bit humiliating to be eased down into a wheelchair by a very nice nurse and wheeled in through the doors, but the pain was so bad that you felt like you were going to pass out any minute. So you let it happen, let them wheel you in and take you back almost immediately, get you changed into a gown and check you out. The pain was immense, but they didn’t want to give you anything to ease it with the likelihood of surgery right around the corner. So you ground your teeth and tried to fight through it, sucking in deep breaths as your insides felt like they were ripping apart.

“Well Y/N, it’s looking like surgery. Did anyone come here with you, anyone you want to bring back?” The doctor asked quickly when he finally came in, already starting to get the paperwork moving. 

“I came alone, but my boyfriend is on his - on his way. Grayson Dolan. Please let him back here if he gets here, please,” you pleaded, knowing he would be more than upset if he didn’t see you before you got taken back.

“I’ll have one of the nurses check the waiting room. 

“Ethan Dolan too, if he’s here.”

“Okay, you just try to relax, I’ll go see.” 

Relaxing wasn’t in your capabilities, but you did let out a sigh of relief when you saw them come through the door.

Grayson on the other hand was anything but relieved when he saw the look on your face and realized just how much pain you were in. He was at your side immediately, Ethan over his shoulder - more for his sake than for yours.

“Baby -” he was out of breath, no doubt having raced to the hospital and run inside as quickly as he could.

“I’m okay, I’m gonna be fine,” you moved to reassure him, trying to reach out for him. It backfired, sending more pain into your side that had you sucking in a breath. “You don’t have to worry.”

“Bullshit, of course I’m gonna worry. The nurse said you’re going back for surgery?” 

“Yeah.” As if on cue the doctor came back in, ready to take you back.

“Sorry I didn’t tell you,” you whispered, feeling guilty. If the roles were reversed, you would be more than mad, and it was all you could think about.

“Shhhh, stop. I love you, just come back to me in one piece, okay?” He leaned over and kissed your forehead - the pain had you hazy, but you managed to get out a “I love you too” before they wheeled you out.

It was a quick surgery, which was a blessing for Grayson’s nerves that were already worn thin. His foot bounced from the minute he sat down in the waiting room all the way until the nurse came to find them again, letting him know that you’d made it through surgery with no issues.

When you finally managed to open your eyes, Grayson was right there, one of your hands clasped in his. You were loopy from the anesthesia still in your system and you gave him a goofy smile. 

“You’s mad at me,” you said, and though you meant to be sad it came out as a giggle. 

“A little bit, yes, Ms. I-never-ask-for-help,” he sighed, but there wasn’t a trace of bite in his tone.

“Sowwwy,” you slurred, squeezing his hand as best you could. He brought your hand up to his lips, kissing each of your knuckles as you started to wake up a bit more, bleary eyes opening further.

“It’s okay baby. Besides, you get to let me take care of you for the next week. Doctor’s orders, so you can’t argue either. That’ll make up for it.”

“You have work,” you countered, making him laugh as he moved up the bed and kissed your forehead again.

“Ethan and I cleared our week, you’re stuck with me. I get to pamper you,” he teased, running his fingers through your hair as he moved it back out of your face.

“Gross,” you grumbled, trying to keep up the facade. You never liked to be taken care of, no matter how much Grayson tried to.

“I’m glad you’re okay baby. Just promise to call me next time, okay? Taking care of you is part of my boyfriend duties, it’d be nice if you let me do it sometimes.”

You mumbled out the promise, but you were smiling as best you could and nodding, just glad to have him there with you, the idea of him being curled up in bed with you for a few days warming you up to the idea. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad after all. 

[ravenofthefandoms]

Here are my thoughts on S8E2!

REAL QUICK THO AN ANGRY REMINDER

If you’re gonna post about an episode after watching the leak TAG UR SHIT I saw way too many spoilers and literally two hours before it aired. If you can’t tag ur shit then don’t post at all until it’s over. At least then most people have seen it. If you don’t tag ur shit then ur legally an asshole so be careful

ANYWAYS Thoughts from S8E2:

- Hi yeah did Dany kinda forget that her dad was the Mad King or is she just gonna act like she’s the only one with the right to want Jaime dead?

- Also I love how she’s like “your sister lied to me wut you gonna do about it”

- She needs to step oFF of Tyrion

- I hope Jaime really does slit Dany’s throat tbh how great would that be

- Bran is great fuckin hilarious

- YAS BRIENNE DEFEND YO MANZ

- God I love Sansa so freaking much 😭 she actually values her advisors opinions unlike another queen I know

- I love how Dany expects Jon to be like “yeah babe whatever you want” and then he’s like “nah Sansa’s right”

- Grey Worm I love you but you’re not intimidating buddy I’m sorry

- Jonno does a 10/10 walkout

- Tyrion you don’t deserve this work environment abuse go give your wisdom to someone else who deserves it

- Mmmmmmm Gendry what a man

- “It’s strong enough” what ur dick?

- “What do they smell like?” What kinda question is that wtf

- PSA: sharp objects handled by Arya Stark turn on Gendry pass it on

- Arya Stark, Queen of BDE

- Fuck yes I love this Bran and Jaime reunion

- Bran is like it’s chill tbh it’s like a good thing that you pushed me out the window and made me a cripple cuz now we’re here and I’m a magical motherfucker

- Bran is the most understanding person ever after he became the Three Eyed Raven

- “She’s your new queen too” mmm no

- Actually, contrary to popular belief Tyrion, it’s not hard to blame her

- Tyrion is both smart and a dumbass at the same time how the fuck

- Jaime’s like a dog who just heard a squirrel like “????brienne?????”

- Podrick isn’t a boy anymore HE IS MY MANZ AND HUSBAND AND HOLY FUCK HE GOT HOT SO FAST LIKE THE LIGHT FACIAL HAIR? WET. SWORD FIGHTING SKILLS? WET.

- Awww Brienne and Jaime are like the awkward high schoolers who have a thing for each other

- Why does Jorah still call her Khaleesi

- I’m glad Jorah isn’t a dumb bitch. Like he literally betrayed Dany to her brother’s killer and she still forgave him but Tyrion decides to trust his sister for once??? Nope he fucked up too bad not trustworthy

- Uhhh the position wasn’t Jorah’s to be stolen

- This scene is proof that Daensa will never happen and I am glad for it

- “I wish I could have that kind of faith in my advisors” uhh??? Maybe get some new advisors then??? You should trust them??? That’s why they’re your advisors????

- PREACH SANSA CLAPBACK ON THAT BITCH BEING A HYPOCRITE

- Uh no a) the northerners accept Sansa pretty well they actually like her and b) you’re not doing a damn good job of it dumb bitch

- Uh the family that destroyed Sansa was your family dumb bitch

- Is this bitch really making the excuse that she was manipulated?¿?

- This bitch big stupid

- This scene literally reminds me of high school like Dany literally reminds me of those fake ass bitches who were sickly sweet just to get what they want from me like wtf Dany is so obviously fake that it makes me cringe

- BREAKER OF CHAINS MY ASS THE NORTH BROKE THEIR OWN CHAINS AND NOW YOU WANNA PUT THEM BACK ON DUMB BITCH EHHA (read that ehha as Cardi B)

- THEOOOOOOON YAS

- I love how he just ignores Dany and is like SANSA I WANNA SERVE U BB

- Suddenly I ship Theonsa

- This Theonsa hug is all I have ever needed in life

- Isn’t that the thief from Merlin?

- I love that little Irish girl who’s like “imma fight give me a sword” like is this Arya 2.0??

- I heart Gilly

- “I’ll defend the crypt then” YES YOU WILL LIL HUNNY YOU’LL DO A DAMN GOOD JOB OF IT TOO

- EDDAAAAAAAY AND TORMUND YAS MY FAVE BITCHES

- Tormund is like surprise bitch you getta hug me first

- Beric is basically that cool as fuck and chill as hell uncle

- “The big woman”

- We love a Jon Snow pep talk

- Bran is like “hi yeah I’d like to be uhhh bait”

- Damn Samwell you didn’t have to flex on us like that with that deep thinking aight

- YES THEON REDEMPTION ARC AS FUCK

- Noooooo let Tyrion fight you ain’t his boss bitch (I mean you are but)

- Need it for what? Taking over the north?

- “No one’s ever tried” hehe I’m in danger

- Stark fam looking badass as fuck

- Walkout #2 isn’t as smooth but still acceptable

- “It’s a long story” bitch I got time start talking

- I CACKLED when those girls walked away from Missandei like I felt bad but that was just such a “you can’t sit with us” moment

- CAN GREY WORM AND MISSANDEI JUST GO TO NARTH AND STAY THERE FOREVER AND GROW OLD TOGETHER PLEASE

- WE WILL PROTECT YOU IM CRYINGGGGG

- Ghost is that you homie????

- Awww the Nights Watch reunion made me tear up a lil

- Sam’s like “I AINT NO BITCH I KILLED A WHITE WALKER KILLED A THENN AND STOLE BOOKS FROM THE CITADEL IM THE BADDEST BITCH AROUND”

- I love this banter with my whole entire heart

- i miss grenn and pyp so much I’m crying grenn was my pre-Pod husband

- I love Lannister brother moments so much they are so pure

- Oprah is handing out redemption arcs left and right wOw

- PODRICK HE IS A MAN NOW HE IS MY HUSBAND HE IS JUST SO SEXY NOW

- CACKLINGGGGG “half a cup” pours in half the wine jug

- What a squad

- TORMUND MAKES ME LAUGH SO FUCKIN MUCH

- He’s the awkward kid who tells weird stories and then does weird shit

- “Kingslayer get it right” - Jaime on the inside

- Everyone just has a “wtf” look on their face and I’m dying

- I. AM. CACKLING. AT. TORMUND. SEND HELP

- I fucking love Sandor with my entire heart and soul

- “I fought for you didn’t I?” Touche you got her there

- *sandor doesn’t get to sit by himself* fINE WHY DOESNT THE WHOLE FUCKING NORTH COME SIT BY ME TOO HUH IF YOU ALL WANT TO. CROWD. ME HUH???

- “I’m not gonna sit with you old shits I’m gonna go fuck a bull I mean uhhhhh I gotta go ”

- Arya being lowkey jealous makes me cackle like a witch

- “Is that your first time?” “Well yeah Arya I don’t put leeches all over my dick every time I get home wtf”

- YES ARYA GET THAT DICK HUNTY YASS RIDE HIM TO STORMS END HUNTY YAAAAAAS

- ARYA IS DOM AND GENDRY IS SUB PASS IT ON

- Arya having her first time be CONSENSUAL and with someone she loves makes me happy as fUCK

- GENDRY IS THE PUREST MOTHERFUCKER I SWEAR (only after Pod though)

- All I want at this point in my life is for Podrick to hold me in his big strong arms like I just wanna cuddle him fUCK

- “Not a Ser?? Why the fuck not get outta here with that bullshit”

- “I never wanted to be a knight” Podrick: I call bULLSHIT

- Tormund is supportive of Brienne even when she’s dating another guy he doesn’t even care

- WE WAITED SO LONG FOR BRIENNE AND JAIME TO HAVE A ROMANTIC AND INTIMATE MOMENT AND WE GOT AND BRIENNE EVEN GOT WHAT SHE DESERVES OUT OF IT

- Podrick is Brienne’s proud son I am living for it

- BRIENNE’S SMILE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND PRECIOUS THING ON THIS WHOLE ENTIRE EARTH IT MUST BE PROTECTED

- Honestly Tormund just wants to see Brienne happy and successful and tbh I don’t think he would care if that meant that she was with Jaime

- I stg if anything happens to babygirl Lyanna i will throw fists she looks like such a little bad ass in her armor omg she’s adorable

- Yeah Jorah you don’t gotta wield it in Randals memory he was kind of an asshole

- Can Podrick sing me to sleep every night please holy fUCK

- Theonsa? Check. Gendrya? Check. Grey Worm and Missandei? Check. Podrick making my whole self thirsty for him? Check.

- Uhhh Daenerys are you not gonna be concerned that you were idk fuckin your nephew or maybe that you aren’t the last Targaryen???? Maybe something important like that not the Iron fucking Throne???

- This bitch really thinks that Bran and Sam were lying hAh she drank a lot of dumb bitch juice this episode

- Daenerys is like those anti-vaxxers or flat earthers who refuse to see the facts

- Fun fact: episode 3 is going to tear out my heart and soul, put them in a blender, and then fucken shook it until it exploded like a coke with a mento in it

- I read somewhere that said something to the effect of characters who don’t learn from the past are doomed to repeat it and that sounds like Dany w/ the Mad King to me rn

- Honestly every time Dany talked in this episode I got pissed off so that’s not good

- People be like “aw this episode was so boring” like bITCH ARE YALL MISSING THESE GREAT DOMESTIC MOMENTS?? GAME OF THRONES ISNT ALL STABBY AND SHIT IT CAN BE NICE FOR ONCE

- This episode made my heart full and I’m going to cry

- Ummmmm in case y’all haven’t seen in Dan Portman (Podrick) posted on his Instagram and it may or may not be a spoiler and if it is then I’ll kill myself

[isys777]

tagged by literally my damn self cause nobody tags me in these jawns anymore and I fucking wanted to do this goddamn it

Pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions. don’t cheat. tag 10 (or however many) peeps.

this is funny cause there are so few shows I’ve watched all the way through

Boy Meets World (cause I can watch it over and over)

Supernatural (even tho I quit in like season 12)

Pretty Little Liars

Brooklyn 99

The Good Place

Literally idek why I did this to myself I like don’t watch tv these days but damnit I’m committed now

1. who is your favorite character in 2?

um Sam ig? Yeah I think he was always my favorite but probably cause I big loved Jared Padalecki

2. who is your least favorite character in 1?

In this 90s sitcom? Is there someone to dislike? I chose the worst shows haha um.... I honestly was never a big fan of Rachel. She ain’t do nothin she just bored me

3. what is your favorite episode of 4?

BRO the mumps episode is forever iconic I literally never laughed so hard at a tv show

4. what is your favorite season of 5?

uhhhh season... 1 I think. I like all the other seasons but I think the first season really did the damn thing

5. who is your favorite couple in 3?

Haleb. By the end of the show I was honestly only watching to know what happened with them

6. who is your favorite couple in 2?

ha ha. none sorry the fandom high key ruined destiel for me before I even started the show and no others appealed to me

7. what is your favorite episode of 1?

You would think since this is a show I’ve watched 3493948 times I’d know off top. I think it might be An Affair to... Remember? Ironic that I can’t remember if it’s called an affair to remember or forget but it’s the one where Cory and Shawn can’t be friends because of Shawn’s bitch gf. 

8. what is your favorite episode of 5?

The last one in season 1, whatever it’s called. Really hyped me up for the next season

9. what is your favorite season of 2?

Ummmmm hmm. I’ma say season... 5. I think. I mean it’s 2, 4, or 5. Good seasons for sure

10. how long have you watched 1?

Uh I saw reruns on cable every once and a while for like ever but I rewatched the show in full some years back, idk exactly when, and since then at least once a year I rewatch the whole show cause it’s just a lot of fun

11. how did you become interested in 3?

This is like lowkey gonna sound sad but I was on a group call with my friends in middle school and it was fun until the two of them started watching pll live without me and like forgot I was there. I felt left out and instead of hanging out I just sat there and listened to them watch the show and talk about it on the phone without me until the call ended and probably started watching the show like... immediately after

12. who is your favorite actor in 4?

Andy Samberg because he’s fucking GREAT

13. which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5?

Ugh um. Idk those are like completely different shows. I mean comparing 1 and 5 are a little easier but even then. I’ma say 1 cause it’s... easier on the mind. I mean 5 got philosophy and shit and it’s fun and funny but I’ve honestly never said, huh let me go back and rewatch this season, which I’ve said about 1 many times. 2 too tbh but I’ma say 1 over 2 since I actually finished 1 and 2 is still going and i have no desire to catch up. Early season Supernatural might beat out bmw if I sit and think about it tho...

14. which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3 ?

Uh 1? I think? Idk both have 7 seasons they probably have about the same number of episodes and I don’t feel like looking it up but I’ve certainly rewatched 1 more

15. if you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?

Um... Rosa? Yeah probably Rosa, what an icon honestly.

16. would a crossover between 3 and 4 work?

It would actually cause let’s be real the people in b99 would have figured out who A was in a single episode and could have ended the show before it got too bad haha

17. pair two characters in 1 who would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple.

I like highkey wanna say Cory and Shawn but they’re not even unlikely and strange they’re practically a couple. If they were bold enough for that back then, that’d be the true iconic love story of bmw. So since that’s over I guess I’ll just say Cory and Angela? Idk Topanga and Shawn came to mind but they don’t seem quite as unlikely on the real and maybe it would have been cool to see the main character be in an interracial relationship. Be cool the stories that might come from that. Damn... now I kinda wish that happened

18. overall, which show has the better storyline, 3 or 5?

Fucking Good Place is beast like let’s be real they eat PLL for breakfast (I did genuinely enjoy PLL I swear lol) and they know when to quit while they’re ahead. Even if the constant reset to Eleanor and Chidi is driving me up a goddamn WALL

19. which has the better theme music, 2 or 4?

Uh idk I guess Supernatural because even tho I don’t watch anymore I can still jam tf out to Carry on my wayward son but then also to consider there’s the iconic I want it that way scene. But for the sake of the question I’ll say Supernatural

This was a disaster but I did it anyway sue me

@ipoddymouth @my---druthers @vibrant-falkon @hypermania @mrs-n-uzumaki @bellamyblakesz lol the thing is I do actually know ten people to tag I just have no idea what they’re doing with their lives and their tumblrs cause I really only still interact with the ones I just put down but whatever fuck it @bonneibennett @darwinquark That’s 8... that’s enough. Wait *edit* adding @succcdrake cuz you my friend toooo sorry I didn’t include you from jump? My bad?

[radioactivepeasant]

So I was tagged by @consultingzoologist for this “Answer 28 questions and tag at least 20 blogs you would like to know better” game, and a similar one by @liveandletrain. Since I haven’t done one of these in a long time, I figured, why not?

Name: true names are funny things, and you never know who’s listening. I’ll keep that one to myself if you don’t mind. (Translation: you know how when we were kids the adults were all freaking out about kids using their real name on the internet because what if they meet a major creeper? Well I met the major creeper when I was too naive to use a fake name and found out later that he was a registered offender)

Nickname: Mac, Trivia, Aspen, Radio, “The Flying Girl”....there’s a story there....

Gender: lady-type person why the heck do I always respond with that phrase? I have no idea

Height: unless I have by some miracle gotten taller, I suspect I am still 5′2″

Time: like right now? ‘bout twenty past two

Sign: stop sign ;) (ba-dum-tshhh no that is a horrible joke Radio stop that)

Birthday: early enough in the year to still be cold except this state is the Twilight Zone of weather so for all I know it’ll be in the 60s this year

Favorite bands: Van Canto, Needtobreathe, I like some 21 Pilots stuff, mostly composers

Favorite solo artists: Han Zimmer, Thomas Newman, Ilan Eshkeri, other composers like that

Song stuck in my head: vicious tug of war between Imagine Dragons’ “Believer” and the entirety of the Bugs Bunny Barber of Seville short

Last movie I watched: ummmmm I think it was 9. The one with Elijah Wood and the stitchpunks.

Last show I watched: Forensic Files. I  binge watch it when I have nothing to do. I like the science.

When did I create my blog: Oh geez. Um. Uh.....I wanna say 2015? I’m not sure.

Last thing I googled: google translate

Do I have any other blogs: once upon a time I had a wordpress blog, but I quit posting there when I got this one. On tumblr, this is the only one I’ve got.

Do I get asks: Yes, a whole lot for a while there. The inbox is temporarily closed until I can finish answering the last 28 that are in there, then I’ll open it back up.

Following: 67

Followers: freakin’ 2886 of you guys!! It’s a little overwhelming sometimes like where did you all come from and how long before you all figure out that I am a very weird human bean? Or maybe that’s why you’re here in the first place? In which case, that’s fair.

Average hours of sleep: .......probably five or less.......to be fair though some of that was evidently to do with my horrible horrible old pillow. I had no idea getting a new pillow could have such an effect on your sleep! This thing is awesome! 

Lucky numbers: ....I like even numbers I guess?

Instruments: I play the viola, though I haven’t played sheet music or been in an orchestra in years and I’m a little rusty. I goof around on it frequently, but I play entirely by ear.

What am I wearing: loose clothes for gym day

Dream job: dude, if I could get paid to wander the world (safely) and collect regional folklore, that’d be awesome

Dream trip: probably Ireland. I’d like to see the places where my family came from. I’d also love to see New Zealand someday.

Favorite food: you can’t make me choooose! I can’t choose a favorite meal food, so I’ll cheat and say black olives. Once in college someone left an entire jar of black olives outside my door as a care package and it was the best day ever.

Nationality: American

Favorite song: Hm. It changes frequently, tbh, and depends wholly on my mood and what I’m doing. If I’m writing, my favorite song is A Father’s Love, by James Dooley. If I’m working out, my favorite songs are Wonder Woman’s Wrath and Immigrant Song by Rupert Gregson-Williams and Led Zeppelin respectively. If I’m cleaning the apartment, I like Mis’ry and the Blues.

and I don’t want to put any pressure on anyone to do these, but this is an open invite to any of y’all who want to try this: consider yourself tagged!

[evakuality]

About me ask meme

Thank you to @crazyheartfics and @kapplebougher for tagging me in this! Now that everyone has done it I should actually get around to doing it myself haha

O N E

1) Name: Alison || Nickname: Allie (not much of one, really haha)

2) Zodiac sign: Aries

3) Height: 5’5”

|| Orientation: bi? Maybe? I’m still not really sure.  I usually go with ‘queer’ because it works for everything I might possibly be.

4) Ethnicity: White, more specifically, my family traces to England, Ireland and Guernsey even though I’ve never been any of those places

5) Favourite fruit: ummm????  I have so many??? Maybe mangoes if I’m pushed to choose just one

|| Favourite Skam season: S3  

6) Favourite book: Tam Lin by Pamela Dean.  There are so many books I love a lot and would effectively die for.  But Tam Lin is the only one I read every year at least once no matter what else is happening 

|| Favourite flower: Freesias, probably.  They just smell really nice.  Or Boronia.  Those smell good too.  Okay, basically the smelly ones.  I like flower smells.

7) Favorite scent: flowers haha.  There’s this one part of our local gardens that I call the ‘smelly garden’ because it’s literally just all scented flowers and it’s my heaven.

8) Favorite animal: cats.  Forever and ever.

9) Coffee, tea, or hot cocoa?: tea, particular a good fruit tea.

10) Average hours of sleep: ummmmm … 6-8 depending on if it’s a workday or not (eg the days when I have to get up at 6 I get about 6)

11) Cats or dogs?: cats forever.

12) Favorite fictional character: I can’t answer this question.  There are literally too many.  I mean obviously right now Isak and Even are on that list, but there are several dozen others all crammed onto the podium with them

13) Dream trip: I have so many!  A lovely relaxed beach vacation on an island somewhere, a trip round like Greece and Italy, actually going to the USA.  Norway, of course.  Just … places that aren’t here really.

14) When was your blog created?: September?  I think?  It was whenever I posted the second chapter of my giant fic thing, which I think was early September

15) What do you post about? Skam, writing things, memes I get tagged in.  That’s about it really.

16) Do you get asks on a regular basis? No not really.  I get little bursts of them and I love them.  Answering is so much fun.

17) Aesthetic: I don’t have one??

18) Favorite band/ artist?: I dunno?  Not sure I have one.  I really like 90s British stuff though, like Blur etc

19) Fictional character I’d date: I’d basically die for Harry Potter.  But there are others as well.  Too many to list.

20) Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff.  Maybe a little bit of Ravenclaw mixed in for good measure.

T W O

1) Countries I’ve lived in: Apart from this one, Australia and Brazil

2) Favourite fandom: Whatever I’m currently in, so Skam rn.

3) Languages you speak: English, Portuguese.  I did Latin and Japanese at school and I know a little Spanish.  But mostly I couldn’t hold a conversation in those but while rusty I’m sure I could in Portuguese.

4) Favourite film of 2017: Wonder Woman.  I loved that movie so much.

5) Last article you read: Something about the gender pay gay being due to bias in how many men vs women are in a certain field and how the opay a field receives changes as proportions of men vs women in them changes.  It was from a few years back, but I found it on tumblr and reading it made my blood boil

6) Shuffle your music library and put your first three songs here:

Call Your Girlfriend - Robyn (hahaha, okay I listen to this playlist a lot)

My Youth - Troye Sivan

Let’s Dance to Joy Division - The Wombats

(Hmmmm, well that’s certainly a mix, but okay)

7) Last thing you bought online: A book

8) How would your friends describe you? Ummm … quiet, calm.  Passionate about stuff I love, a bit inclined to do things because of spite. I don’t know what else??

9) How would your enemies describe you? Too quiet, too opinionated, too set in my ways

10) Who would you take a bullet for?: Well, recentish (a few years is recentish, right?) experience in a disaster situation shows that for me: adult between me and safety, that person is going to have to save themselves, but small child between me and safety, I will pick up and carry that small human to safety.  So … uh.  I guess small children.

Okay, I’m fairly sure that everyone has done this, so just do it if you want and if you do tag me cos I want to see all the answers.

[angies-team]

92 Questions Tag!

TAGGED BY:  @hello-em75 (who is in every way awesome) 

last:

drink: A wierd grape juice fruit blend thingy. I don’t really know but it was good.

phone call: my mother

text message: ditto ^^^^

song you listened to: Two Feet- I feel like i’m drowning.

time you cried: This morning I was watching Stranger Things okay 

have you:

dated someone twice: neyooo

kissed someone and regretted it: yeah. Every night i put my younger brother to bed and regret giving him a kiss of the cheek when he makes some sort of annoying comment.

been cheated on: sorry that role goes to my tests.

lost someone special: yeah, family, I’ve had a few friends who have passed away for multiple different reasons, some more painful than others. Uhhh... I’ve lost a few fictional characters close to my heart.

been depressed: oh look it’s the title of my autobiography.

gotten drunk and thrown up: nopers

list three favorite colors:

blue

blue  aquamarine

also blue multiple other colours that are also cool

in the last year have you:

made new friends: I HAvE. I sweaarrr. I have friends! It’s hard to sit alone ever though, but I wouldn’t change things even if i had the chance.

fallen out of love: nah, my heart still belongs to my one true love, Hayden Christensen. 

laughed until i cried: did that yesterday, actually. 

found out someone was talking about you: probably, but i don’t remember.

found out who your friends are: Iii’mmm not exactly sure what this means but one of my friends did turn out to be Batman soooo...yeah. no i didn’t i’m kidding i swear

kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

general:

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: probably most if not all of them

do you have any pets: we have two turtles: Spock and Chopper. (Chopper is the biggest lil shit too it’s perfect)

do you want to change your name: i mean not really. If i were going to i’d just make my nickname my legal name since it’s what everyone calls me already anyway.

what did you do for your last birthday: Which was TODAY WUT. uhhh idk played a little BATTLEFRONT 2 (IT’S AMAZING GAH), 

what time do you wake up: well i should wake up by at least 7 to get to school on time but lately I've been sick and i’m always sleeping in and late for school. Usually ranges from 8-8:30 on schooldays and i have no idea for weekends. 

what were you doing at midnight last night: uh i was totally sleeping. I wasn’t watching stranger things at all. nope. nuh uh. not a chance.

name something you can’t wait for: The last JEDI. gah just give it to me now i’m already dead you can’t kill me any more.

when was the last time you saw your mom: today

what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my math and Physics mark. that or get rid of my stupid concussion so i can do things again.

what are you listening to right now: 

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah, my late grandfather. There have probably been other Tom’s in my life but i can’t think of one off the top of my head. 

something that is getting on your nerves: MATH. and this guy who keeps following me around and WROTE ME A FRIKIN POEM nopenopenope abort.

most visited website: youtube honest

mole/s: i don’t think i have any?

mark/s: freckles (if that counts, but i have like five and they’re practically invisible when it’s not summer), the large scar that appeared on my cheek this week, cuts, scrapes and bruises here or there.

childhood dream: teacher *shudders* glad i gave that one a rest.

hair color: dirty-ish light blond sort of thing i have no clue what my hair is. My eyebrows are black though and no i haven’t ever dyed my hair, except for that one time this year i went as sabine for Halloween

long or short hair: short. my hair was halfway down my back in around March and i chopped it all off for star wars.

do you have a crush on someone: sort of? I mean i don’t think it really counts as a crush i just think this guy is kind of cute but he also looks IDENTICAL TO EZRA I KID YOU NOT i swear on my life it’s crazy. but yeah that’s kind of the only reason i’m sort of obsessed with him i guess? But yeah I honestly dont even know who he is and I’ve only talked to him like three times and two were like “oh hey sorry is someone sitting here?” “oh no. sorry i’ll move my bag because its on your chair.” so yeahh. fun stuff.

what do you like about yourself: ummmmm... things? I love that i can find beauty in music and the world in ways alot of people can’t and i feel lucky because of that. My artistic personality is realy what defines me other than my constant use of sarcasm and dry humor, as well as terrible jokes and combacks that aren’t even comebacks and it’s helped me become who i am and will be fore the rest of my life. i love that i can use not only pictures but song, as well as words to express myself and other things to the world. I’m also terrible with words when i’m speaking so being able to write down what i mean with the detail needed to paint the picture into your mind is great. i also make no sense. like all the time.

piercings: one simple hole in each ear is enough for me

blood type: I....don’t actually know.

nicknames: Angie, Ange, Angeasaurus, tangeriene, angerine, Rey (it’s a long story), Bob, Frank, Joe (i am being serious, actually) 

relationship status: single not like a pringle because pringles come on tins which hold alot more than a single pringle (heh) soooo what am i even sayig

zodiac: scorpio

pronouns: she/her

favorite tv show: ooohhh that’s an unfair question. 

right or left hand: right

surgery: i don’t think so?

hair dyed in different colour: oh look i just talked about this. uh yeah, but temporarily for halloween

sport: ice hockey, water polo, tennis, swimming, baseball, something else i’m 100 percent forgetting.

vacation: i legit just went somewhere and i kid you not i cannot remember where it was. my memory is actually really bad.

pair of trainers: either my white sneakers or, if it’s winter or fall i’m always wearing my boots.

more general:

eating: a lolipop :)

drinking: lemonade

i’m about to: draw something stupid (probably)

want: to just feel like I’ve made a difference. To be happy. 

get married: one day. but i’m like 17 so...

career: broke student(?)

hugs or kisses: hugssss

lips or eyes: eyes mostly, but both

shorter or taller: taller

older or younger: older

nice arms or nice stomachs: both is the way to gooo

sensitive or loud: really depends on the time, place, and people

hookup or relationship: relationship

troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

have you ever:

kissed a stranger: nopers

drank hard liquor: uh yeah. i accidentally downed my mom’s vodka when i was like 11 because i thought it was water. heh mistakes.

lost glasses/contacts: i’m using my mom’s glasses actually right now because i lost mine

turned someone down: all the time tbh. just the other day actually (in my defense he was stalking me and it was getting creppy)

sex on the first date: uh nooooooooooo

personal:

broken someone’s heart: yeah (i feel like a terrible person saying yeah, but the things this guy did to me to try and get me to like him back were ridiculous)

had your heart broken: everytime my favorite fictional characters die okay in all seriousness, nope. I’ve never really liked someone that way. except for that one time when i was 12 but that’s a story for another time

been arrested: nope

cried when someone died: yeah. my grandfather earlier this year, a friend of mine commited suicide last year, and another one just died this yeah in a hit and run accident. so. other than that... *glares at stoick*

fallen for a friend: not as of current date

do you believe in:

yourself: sometimes 

miracles: yeah.

love at first sight: nah. romeo and Julliet is a LIE. sort of.

santa claus: nope. (i blame my mother for not being more stealthy when i was 11)

kisses on the first date: i guess it would depend

other:

current best friend: doesn’t have tumblr and would rather i didn’t say his name.

eye color: blue (except when it’s really bright outside they turn almost white. it’s creepy)

favorite movie: The Empire Strikes Back

TAGGING: @twiggy242 @tarched @leffie-draws-fanart @jeditimelordinthetardis @fanwriter02 @fangirling1998 and anyone else who feels like doing this!

[paladinofmoonlight]

Tagged!

82 Questions! I’m sick, so hopefully that doesn’t take away from some of the answers... Let’s go.  Also I was tagged by @cool-beenz (thanks!!) LAST 1. Drink Water, for once 2. Phone call My friend’s brother so he would let me in the apartment 3. Text message My mother  4. Song I listened to Crayon by G-Dragon 5. Time I cried This morning 6. Dated someone twice?  Nah 7. Kissed someone and regretted it? yep 8. Been cheated on? Possibly  9. Lost someone special? Yeah 10. Gotten drunk and thrown up? Nope, and I don’t plan to 

FAVOURITE COLOURS 11. Red 12. Black? 13. Gold

IN THE LAST YEAR 14. Made friends?  Definitely 15. Fallen out of love? Haven’t really fallen in love 16. Laughed until you cried? All the time  17. Found out someone was talking about you? Yep... 18. Met someone who changed you? Sure  19. Found out who your friends are? ooh yeah 20. Kissed someone on your Facebook list lol no

GENERAL 21. How many Facebook friends do you know irl? Basically all of them? I don’t really friend people I don’t know  22. Any pets? Yah, a puggle (pug beagle) Buddy and some fish 23. Do you want to change your name? Nah, it’s unique and stuff  24. What did you do for your last bday? Went to my favourite Japanese restaurant with some friends...I like a quiet gathering also I couldn’t think of anything to do in time lol  25. What time did you wake up? Once at 8 and then actually got up at like 12  26. What were you doing at midnight last night? Coughing up a lung and feeling sad  27. Name something you can’t wait for Ooh...danganronpa v3? i’ve been avoiding spoilers like crazy 28. When was the last time you saw your mom? This morning 29. What are you listening to rn? cars drive past  30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Sure, it’s a pretty common name  31. Something that is getting on your nerves? My stepdad with his poor views and values  32. Most visited website? Idk probably tumblr and youtube  33. Hair colour? People think it’s black but it’s actually dark brown  34. Long or short hair? On myself I prefer it on the shorter side  35. Do you have a crush on anyone? Always  36. What do you like about yourself Sense of humour 37. Piercings? Ears, and that’s as far as I’ll go  38. Blood type? AB+!  39. Nicknames? V for people who can’t be bothered figuring out my ‘weird foreign name’, Lani for people I like  40. Relationship status? Single 41. Zodiac? Scorpio yo 42. Pronouns? She/her  43. Favourite tv shows? Uh...At the moment I like penn+teller fool us, doctor who to some degree, idk lazytown 44. Tattoos? Too scared of needles 45. Right or left-handed? Right  46. Surgery? Yep, in my left arm. It’s all metal now  47. Sports? haha no  48. Vacation? I love travelling! Cook Islands and Japan were awesome  49. Pair of trainers? uh. they’re black and pink...? 50. Eating? don’t feel up to it right now  51. Drinking? water  52. I’m about to? Watch an hour long youtube video  53. Waiting for? my body to stop being SICK OMG IT’S BEEN OVER A WEEK  54. Want? To stop being so anxious  55. Get married? It might be nice. Depends  56. Career? Something in the arts...

THIS OR THAT 57. Hugs or kisses? I love hugs 58. Lips or eyes? Eyes are nice 59. Shorter or taller? me? or others? I don’t really mind my height or what others are lol  60. Older or younger? ???? i don’t know how to answer this what. I’m young?  61. Nice arms or stomach? I’m working on getting both better. My arms are aight  62. Hook up or Relationship? relationship  63. Troublemaker or hesitant? Depends lol. Probably hesitant mostly  64. Kissed a stranger? nope  65. Drank hard liquor? nope 66. Lost glasses/contacts? not lost, but never wear them 67. Turned someone down? Yeah but he also asked everyone out with a pulse so  68. Had sex on the first date? nope 69. Broken someone’s heart? Don’t think so  70. Had your heart broken? Not really  71. Been arrested? No..(t yet...jk)  72. Cried when someone died? Yeah, always  73. Fallen for a friend? Yeah  DO YOU BELIEVE IN 74. Yourself? Not really 75. Miracles? I try to  76. Love at first sight? Yeah 77. Santa? I’ll believe in the magic of Christmas, let’s say  78. Kiss on the first date? one day maybe  79. Angels? Ye  OTHER 80. Current best friend’s name? I don’t believe in having a single best friend  81. Eye colour? Dark brown 82. Favourite movie? ummmmm....no single one, but I love animated stuff.  So there we go. Sorry, but I never tag people in these things. Please do this if you’d like and have some free time, I totally would’ve tagged you. 

[bowlofsoup11]

So uh I was tagged by @billmayonnaise to do a thing so I'm gonna attempt to do a thing (also since I have no idea what I'm doing and don't want to mess up I'm just gonna try and format it like @billmayonnaise did....) Rules: tag ten other people and they get to ponder these very difficult questions Gender: i mean i don't really care but female I guess? Relationship status: somehow ended up with a girlfriend (idk how that happened) Favorite color: idk I can at least tolerate all colors but I'm not a big fan of neon pick or neon yellow Pets: uh I have a goldfish named Gilligan and also plants Wake up time: Weekdays- like 6:30 (but I go back to sleep until like 7:15 because that's like 10 minutes until I have to leave) Weekends- uhhh ya this is kinda all over the place (just assume nothing early) Love or lust: ummmmm love??? Favorite food: shite ummm I may be here a while with this one Met a celebrity: please like I'd be able to talk to a celebrity without feeling super awkward (as usual.....but more intense) Last song I listened to: you give love a bad name (Bon Jovi) First kiss: uhhhh well Does it count of my little sister ligit shoved our faces together? Tall or short: ummm well I haven't measured myself in awhile and I'm kinda medium-ish but I'm kind like somewhere around 5'5 I can't really think of 10 people at the minute but uhhh @literaryfurball and ummm @sarcasticly-imperfect I guess So umm thanks to @billmayonnaise for thinking about me and remembering I exist... so ya that's all I got

[thatfangirlingdepressedkid]

i was tagged by an anon so like here u go

LAST:

1. drink: water

2. phone call: ummmmmmmmm who uses phones anymore?

3. text message: a human

4. song listened to: Death of a Bachelor by Panic! At The Disco

5. time i cried: the question is: when am i not crying?

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated somebody twice: nope

7. been cheated on: nah

8. kissed someone and regretted it: no

9. lost someone special: mmhm this weekend actually

10. been depressed: constantly

11. gotten drunk and puked: im a minor so...yes

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. ugh black isnt a colour...ummmm...very very very dark blue

13. GAY COLOURS LITERALLY ANYTHING GAY

14. very very very dark grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: shoutout to my tumblr fam! oml did i just say fam. fml

16. fallen out of love: i guess so :)

17. laughed until you cried: yeah cause inside jokes ahhhhhhhh

18. found out someone was gossiping about you: ALL👏 THE👏FUCKING👏TIME LIKE SERIOUSLY GET A LIFE

19. met somebody who changed you: yup :) a couple people actually

20. find out who your true friends are: i think so? but i mean...bpd so...i guess we will never know

21. kissed somebody on your facebook list: facebook is for old people

HOW MANY/MUCH:

22. facebook friends do you have in real life: get over it facebook is so 2007

23. pets: ive had 7 fish...ive given up all hope

24. want to change name: idk maybe on my dysphoric days but not constantly

WHAT:

25. did i get for my last birthday: a phone + data and a trip to Toronto for dance as far as i know

26. time i woke up: ummmmmmm ever heard of insomnia?

27. doing at midnight: probably on tumblr while watching netflix sometimes talking to friends

28. something you cannot wait for: death

29. last time i saw my mom: 45 mins ago

30. something you wish you could change about your life: being alive

31. listening to right now: grey’s anatomy cause OML THAT SHOW IS BOMB, jesus did i just say bomb...kill me

32. something that gets on your nerves: homophobes

33. talked to a person named Tom: idfk probably ive met a lot of people through acting im almost positive that i had a producer named tom when i was like 6

34. most visited website: TUMBLR. but netflix and youtube comes a close second...not really but like i use them a lot

35. elementary school: i went to 2 and was homeschooled for some reasons but like only briefly

36. high school: im in high school? only been to 1 but homeschooling might happen probs not but maybe

37. college: probably will be dead by then...BUT...if i am unfortunately alive, ill be in LA idk what ill be doing but ill be in LA or NYC but probs LA

38. hair color: dark brown looks black in the light kinda red and brown and black UGH WORDS u need to see it to understand what im saying

39. long or short hair: TOO LONG. TOO FUCKING LONG

40. crush: a cool human

41. do you like about yourself: i am filled with self hatred. there is no room for ‘liking myself’ what are u talking about

42. piercings: nope no nah nuh uh not happening not today boo boo not today FEMALE DYSPHORIA IM SORRY

43. blood type: you would think i knew cause ive done too many blood tests to count but nope still clueless as fuck cause IM A MINOR FUCK YOU MOM

44. nickname: M, some people call me Mandy but if u call me Mandy ur dead to me

45. relationship status: taken? wow thats weird to say

46. zodiac: Pisces

47. pronouns: she/her? he/him? they/them? EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN? depends on the day i guess...or whatever im feeling? still kinda confused LEAVE ME ALONE OKAY

48. favorite show: grey’s anatomy currently but pretty little liars comes really close

49. tattoos: WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT

50. right or left handed: ambidextrous get on my level

FIRST:

51. surgery: there has been too many i cant even remember my first

52. piercing: ugh refer to 42 ^^^

53. best friend: a couple of them? no names mentioned u know who u fucking are

54. sport: dance, ugh dance, love dance but like love hate, ummmm im really fucking athletic so like everything?

55. vacation: THAILAND U TAKE ME TO THAILAND U ARE OFFICALLY MY BEST FRIEND ALSO LA TAKE ME TO LA PLEASE I LOVE U FOREVER

56. pair of shoes: adidas cause i get them for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

RIGHT NOW:

57. eating: newsflash im anorexic

58. drinking: nothing? water i guess?

59. im about to: UMMMMMMMMMMMMM

60. listening to: LA Devotee by Panic! at the Disco

61. waiting for: death? thats not original...ummmmmmm summer i guess? no summer = stress ummmmmm fuck it death im waiting for fucking death. refer to my blog to understand WHY IM SUICIDAL

62. want to see: my hw finished on my table

63. want to get married: idk i guess so? probs will be dead :)

64. career: acting i think but dance is an option i mean im already in the business and working actively so why not continue? idk if i actually wanna pursue it tho

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. hugs/kisses: depends on the person ;)

66. lips/eyes: ^^^ but usually eyes cause eyes are pretty

67. shorter/taller: people are cute no matter what

68. younger/older: does it matter? “age is just a number”

69. romantic/spontaneous: romantic but i wouldnt know im making an educated guess

70. nice arms/nice stomach: nice humans

71. sensitive/loud: sensitive

72. hook up/relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker/hesitant: hesitant i think?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. kissed a stranger: nope

75. drank hard liquor: fuck yes gets u drunk fast

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: dont wear them...yet....we’ll see (see what i did there) (and there again) I AM AN AWFUL PERSON

77. turned someone down: yes quite often actually idk why it just happens?

78. canoodling on first date: first of all, ive never been on a date. second, im a virgin. third, WHY CANT U JUST SAY SEX? LIKE ITS NOT A BAD THING TO SAY WE ARE ON TUMBLR WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT...okay im done now sorry

79. broken someones heart: oops

80. had your own heart broken: mmhm all the fucking time idk why it just happens, i just realized how many times ive said that

81: been arrested: nah

82: cried when someone died: MMHM ALL FUCKING WEEKEND

83: fallen for a friend: who hasn’t like lesbihonest (sorry im just really gay)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: of course not who do u think ur talking to

85. miracles: i hope so?

86. love at first sight: ummmmm i think so? i really hope so but idk

87. Santa Clause: no but ummm idk but like no but like maybe but like no

88. kiss on first date: yeah

89. angels: i want to believe that i believe in angels but after everything that has happened to me idfk

OTHER:

90. current best friends name: fucking classified bitch leave me alone

91. eye color: hazel

92. favorite movie: anything disney cause im a disney freak ummmm The Imitation Game cause gay ummm OMG PRIDE GREAT MOVIE also love Tomboy cause it made me cry uggggh coming out ahhhhhhh tears ahhhhh

i tag everyone that reads this cause im too lazy

U BETTER DO THIS TAG ITS ACTUALLY A GOOD TAG SO LIKE

[missthornbirds]

fic recap 2016

thank you for the tag @hashtagartistlife​!

total number of completed stories: 8

total word count:

completed works? about 7,792 but if we count these guys...

aka all the fics i am working on i totally swear--

then that brings me up to 16,297.

fandoms written in: lmao i’ve sold my soul to bleach and only bleach

looking back, did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected?

so basically my writing process this year has been to write like a mad woman during every break i have since, during the semester i’m so busy with school work. i’m actually really proud of myself for writing as much as i did! i’ve written some original stuff too that isn’t posted anywhere, so the amount of fanfic that i have managed to write definitely exceeded my expectations. the trash ending of bleach this year also helped fuel my writing with salt :)

what’s your own favorite story of the year?

“their places” is very near and dear to my heart because it was a piece that helped me nail down my characterization of rukia. other than that, i really like “summer thunder”, since it was my first ishihime fic and the beginning of my descent into true hell over this ship. i remember i wrote it around the beginning of the last arc, before we found out ishida wasn’t on the side of the quincies, and i was super disappointed that we weren’t getting an ishida arc revolving around his split loyalty to his friends and his blood. @.kubo what the fuck!!!! wasted potential!!!! coulda had good ishihime angst!!!!

did you take any writing risks this year?

lmao i tried my hand at writing nsfw.....which is that unfinished “lace” file up there but uhhh for completed works no i was p safe except for including post-686 adultery i guess??? i’ve kinda noticed that my fic writings have set formats that i’ve been struggling to break out of.

do you have any fanfic or profit goals for the new year?

break outta those damn formats! seriously, all my fics start off with a topic sentence, then kinda unnecessary description, and THEN we get to plot so i’m definitely gonna try to mix it up in 2017 (in my way too short breaks from school sigh)

i’m also aiming to finish all those fics of course but we’ll see how that goes idk

best story of the year?

uh...objectively speaking, my best writing might have come up in “to want” and “waning and waxing”. for both of those, the end vignettes came to me very clearly and i sort of structured those fics around getting to those bits of writing.

most popular story of the year?

“and the rain left” was by far my most popular of the year and wow :’/ i wonder :’/ why :’/ that would be :’//////

@.bleach thanks for fueling the entire ichiruki fandom with enough salt to rewrite 686 in 802850289280584202 different ways. truly a creative blessing

story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:

“the captain of the tenth division” i just...love matsumoto rangiku so much and i felt personally attacked by kubo never revealing her bankai bc I KNOW SHE HAS IT KUBO DON’T DO ME LIKE THIS. no i do not hate toshiro and hoped he’d die. i just think his death would have made this entire war so much more interesting (byakuya’s too btw)

tbh i don’t think any of my fics are “under-appreciated” but i think the fandom does have thirst for pairing-centric writing bc honestly? don’t we all

most fun story to write:

“and the rain left” was my coping mechanism when i heard that bleach, my long love of 7 fucking years, was ending, and i’m pretty fuckin sure i went through the 7 stages of grief while writing this damn thing. i put a lot of thought into this one honestly bc i wanted to get this conversation right so badly as a goodbye to my favorite manga. middle school megan shed some tears writing this tbh

story with the single sexiest moment:

LOL ok here’s a snippet from “lace”:

Ichigo pulls back from the heat suddenly, panting, staring at her from mere inches away. “Christ, Rukia,” he says, breathless, gaze roving her face, down her body, lingering where they still touch. His brown eyes flick back up to hers. “When’d you get so fucking sexy?” He slides his hand up her side to cup her breast again, staring at her nipple in something akin to awe as it perks up under his thumb.

THAT’S REALLY EMBARRASSING TO POST OMG--

otherwise, orihime and ishida fucked against the counter in “to want” sooo there’s that.

most sweet story:

“and the rain left” bc i really just want ichigo and rukia to cuddle on his bed while sunlight filters over them ok

”holy crap, thats wrong, even for you!” story:

UMMMMM NOBODY KNOWS THIS YET BUT i am currently working on a fic where unagiya ikumi (that’s ichigo’s freelance boss from the fullbring arc in case anyone forgot bc i damn sure did before i started committing this Sin) thinks ichigo is hot but is ultimately angsty bc he’s literally a 17yo kid but he’s also always shirtless and sweaty moving boxes around in her house.

meanwhile ikumi reminds ichigo of rukia so there’s angst about that and he lowkey has weird sexual feelings for her too and...do they bang? do they not? who knows!!! find out when i finish confessing my sins to a priest

story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters & most unintentionally telling story:

“to want” was primarily written in order for me to think long and hard about how ishihime and ichiruki work post-686. i have some other headcanons floating around about this, but this fic really helped me with the idea that ichigo and rukia’s relationship later on in life, when it finally does take a turn, leaves everyone hurt in some way, and maybe they’re not the good guys anymore just bc they’re in love. idk

hardest story to write:

fuckin “waning and waxing” had to be pulled outta my ass for like the first half of it bc i wanted to frame the whole thing around the ending. i like how i came out overall, but i’m still not quite happy with how it begins.

biggest disappointment:

not actually finishing all my bleach fics before bleach itself ended. i really wanted to but school started up again the week 686 came out, so i didn’t have time to properly Angst all over a word document

biggest surprise:

lmao that i still managed to finish 8 fics this year regardless! for real that’s a small number compared to other people but i have always been a suuuuuuuuuuuper slow writer (a 3 page short story once took me 2 years to finish. i am constantly in pain.) so 8? 8?! i applaud myself.

imma tag @clrtsycat!