#ugh sometimes i need to chill out lmao
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fappellmoan · 10 months ago
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um yall… sam’s roommate pulled up to coffee like. um. dressed like this. btw. and their hair is just like. a better fluffier mullet. is this surprising
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#just wanna express what i’m dealing with btw because the hair thing sort of hit me like a truck earlier and then i was like#well girl wait… literally… come on lmao… also we both wore sweatervests hashtag twinem#it’s so chill though coffee was really fun#we ended up hanging for like two hours and then i was like fuckkkkk g2g to class and they walked w me partway there#and then almost dapped me up gave me a hug at the worst possible intersection there were so many people walking fuck the construction fr#but like. yeah it was chill im glad i reached out even tho like idk things r... ok.. w sam but we’re certainly not like 🤞#and i think they just had a semi recent breakup and drama and im like. um. largely unwell#and need 2 just get through this semester so i rlly forced myself to chill and go in with no expectations and it was just :-)#i was charmed by how passionate he was talking abt the weather and stuff like within minutes of meeting#i was listening to a very excited spiel about el nino and the tornadoes in wisconsin and etc oh and they came up w an ocean fact for me#and also ugh they played piano for so long growing up and can still like. do it. fucckcjkkk. and demonstrated#this rlly odd chord. um. like stretching and flexing their hand. srrryy lol i’m just giggling#lol and i mentioned my hair journey at one point and they were like ‘yeah? tell me about it’ shut UP… oh and also#knew exactly the stairwell i was talking abt when i described my favorite and we managed to chat abt that ugh it was so dorky#like. aw wow this person is just really cool#i also think they’re stupid hot but like idk since we actually um communicated and etc it's taken out a lot of the#tendency i had/have to be like 'sigh what if -' and er mythologize ppl. i suppose could be said. like aw we're just yapping and we're loyal#story likers now and if they ever want to just like make out sometime that’s so chill but regardless like we ball 💪#yayyyyyayyyyy me when i can be normal about things!!!!! 🫶🙈#abby talks
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fyodior · 5 months ago
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i’ll talk about kiryu!!!!! to me he has the perfect energy for “bestie you fuck around with sometimes”
like you know each other super well and when you’re both single or whatever you could just be chilling and be like “hey can i put your dick in my mouth?” and he’d be like “hehe sure <3”
casually dry humping while watching a movie and/or him playing with your pussy as you both stare at the screen / you give each other advice while trying on clothes at the mall and then have sex in the dressing room. etc. etc. i could go on all day
ROBINNN UR SOOOO RIGHT!!!! THATS SO KIRYU
you’ve never labeled it, never called each other anything more than friends, but honestly both of you are fine with that. its nice to have no strings attached, no commitments, just a best friend you care for very dearly who also fucks you sometimes. like im just imagining chilling in bed playing on your phones or nintendo switches with him laying opposite to you, his feet at the headboard so his crotch is near your face, and just leaning over and tugging his dick out to suck it. its just casual too, he continues playing his game save for the moaning and groaning. he’ll def eat you out as you scroll thru your phone.
you’re so right he’ll def just casually finger you during a movie while you jerk him off, for no other reason than it feels good and yall just do that sometimes. no hidden meaning or motive or anything.
i love the dressing room thing LMAO like just dragging kiryu along to go shopping because he’s blunt and you know he’ll give you his honest opinion about what looks good or not, but then he accidentally pops a boner watching you get undressed and you’re like ugh just put it in i guess LMAO its hot as fuck tho the way he presses you against the full body mirror so you can watch him…….
helping him dye his hair but when you’re dyeing the front he just tugs one of your tits out of your tank top and starts sucking. you barely think anything of it but you’ll jerk him off while his hair processes.
showering together because it saves water and time, there’s no need to do it separately. if he ends up hoisting your leg up to slide his cock inside you, then whatev. no big deal.
I COULD GO ON BUT ILL QUIT HERE
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queenlua · 5 months ago
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30's meme: 1, 11, 45, 52?
1. What was the first piece of furniture you bought?
my *very* first piece of furniture was a futon whose cost i split with three other roommates, freshman year of college. i napped/lounged/homeworked on that futon probably more than anyone else all four years of undergrad, lmao. we got it from a habitat from humanity sale and it was CLUTCH
my first non-cheapo/non-ikea furniture would be the wooden dinner table i split with my husband when we moved in together. it's SO pretty and nice and i love it so much... and he DEFINITELY had to talk me into it because i have no sense of ~*~interior decoration aesthetics~*~ and was like "do we really need this idk it seems too fancy...." (he was 100% correct and, come to think of it, is responsible for pretty much all our furniture. it's ok, i contribute all the stuffed animals, i'm helping)
11. What’s something you saved up for and then regretted buying?
for years all my skibrah buddies were like "bro you gotta get an Epic Pass it's the only way to ski bro" & one year i FINALLY caved and got an epic pass and... then due to illness/injury i wasn't even able to USE the thing to the fullest, and also, most of the bit of skiing i wound up doing was at a NON-EPIC MOUNTAIN, so. all i got was the warm n fuzzy feeling of "paying lots of money to the evil conglomerate that's slowly jacking up the price of skiing all across the entire world." UGH
45. What’s something you wish you had more time for?
if i had an extra three hours a day i could do job + all my hobbies + get adequate sleep. however i do not have those three hours so more-often-then-not i sleep less than i'd like (and uhhh sometimes i job less than i should, but, don't tell my boss that)
52. Did your relationship with your parents get better when you stopped living with them?
Oh yeah, absolutely. Though I guess there was a little back-n-forth, like...
High school: Relationship with mom was so-so but overall fine
College: Relationship with mom gets much worse. In hindsight, she was definitely working through some Empty Nester Feelings TM and i kinda got the brunt of that, but also, I probably wasn't as nice about it as I could've been haha
First job out of college: Mom's SO much more chill. So chill that, when I end up doing a residency in another city & plot to land a job on the west coast, I'm like "why don't I just move back home for a bit in-between gigs"
Living at home again: BAD idea lmfao. Things are really tense and bad
West coast job: Both mom & I are still a little wounded for a year or two, but stuff's much better from there on out, and nowadays I definitely count mom among my best friends.
(my dad was present through all this but that relationship's always been stable, by the virtue of me being Basically The Same Person As My Dad, lol)
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pommunist · 6 months ago
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My ass preparing "AND ANOTHR THING"
People being mean about pommes relationship with bbh is so fucked!!!
It bothered me that people didn't care as much about her BEFORE she started hanging out with BBH.
It's bizarre to me!
The value of eggs for some reason in this Fandom was weirdly adjusted by exposure and time spent with BBH. Which is the most frustrating thing in my personal opinion.
They are all important and were important before they did or didn't hang out with BBH.
Even lullah only started getting more praise after she started showing up later in the evenings to hang out. This Fandom was mean to her over and over.
Outright saw someone GLAD she was gone. Called her a "cop out player bait" character. She got so much backlash for having arguments or disagreeing. Her, Pomme, Leo, Em and Sunny all played very complex characters who didn't fit the mold perfectly on how little girls should act and this Fandom hated them all differently for it.
Actual insane behavior.
This is entirely Fandom neg here lmao. Image an annoyance shaking their head at the tags frequently. Yall don't know how to behave sometimes. I'm not asking you all to like every single character ever and like everything that they do. But sending death threats and wishing characters would die or be removed entirely is some of the most selfish pissbaby behavior in existence. Sometimes characters you don't like exist! Your opinions are not universal! You are not the center of the universe!
Let people play this stupid fucking game how they choose! Stop living vicariously through streamers and characters! You can absolutely relate to them ect but at the end of the day they are their own people. Knock that shit off. I hope next run of whatever the fuck gets going people stop backseating and wishing people died. Stop taking everything everyone does so fucking seriously. People tease one another they're literally playing a game with their friends and are all adults.
Sorry, tangent over.
Sorry for rambling in your askbox. Not for what I said >:| I mean it MCYT Fandom. Chill the fuck out.
Tbh from what I’ve seen, a lot of people who disliked Pomme being adopted by bbh were from the french side of the fandom and it came from their criticism of cc!bbh (which I would argue was quite valid to an extent) but in some cases it got too intense
Pomme’s character in general is overlooked a lot and aaaah man :(((( it’s okay shes my number 1 forever though ❤️
DEFENDING THE FEM EGGS ONLINE ISNT ENOUGH I NEED A GUN /j Especially Pomme, Sunny and Em I’ve seen them being hated for absolutely no reason, to the point that some people were being insulting and hateful to their admins ???????????
Big up to their admins btw these three were some of my favourite (tbf I liked all the eggs just some I didn’t get too attached to due to timezones conflicting)
I think in general, sometimes some fans let their dislike of some characters (which is fan btw we all have our tastes) bleed into hate for the admins/cc playing them and ugh let’s not ?????? (fandom treatment of baghera and bagi amongst others, your crimes shall never be forgiven).
Especially sometimes, things would be said between ccs as just funny ahah moments and they would be interpreted as a bad character action that would lead to hate to the ccs and ??? hello ??? i love overanalysing things as much as the next person but lets take a step back sometimes
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werebutch · 8 months ago
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Guy who is annoying and weird. Chill outttttbruh
Seriously though I’m so tired of having to wait on everyone in my family there are days where I have to wait hours in the car doing nothing because I live too far from everything so I can’t go home or I never know when they’ll be done doing whatever so I can’t exactly do anything else. At school I have to wait for my sister for at least 2 hours and yes I can do homework but god. Still. And yes I do do other shit during that but there’s only so much I can do out. Then I have to go home, sometimes shop beforehand (which I usually do while waiting but still..), cook dinner, spend a sympathy hour or 2 with my dad or he’ll kill himself, THEN I have time to do my own stuff like clean up bunnies + room + do homework + fun stuff. That’s usually only 3 hours before I go to bed. It fluctuates obviously. I know I’m being really stupid bc I have it pretty good I have a real house where I don’t have to pay rent and shit but I’m still gonna complain a little. It was way worse last year when my other sister was in hs but my family literally can’t function without me doing this stuff. I have to keep track of all appointments and school stuff for them too. They keep me so busy that I can’t work. Like my dad will beg me not to work because if I do he will have to get off his ass. Cause I can’t possible do everything. When my summer job rolls around he calls me evil and selfish for working it but if I don’t I’m even more broke the rest of the year. But at least I’m not as busy since there’s no school. It’s just such stupid stuff right now I can’t wait until I save up to move out 😭 and I have to do all this shit while they’re all telling me that I make their life worse etc etc like wtaf ? Am I insane like am I just so spoiled that I’m making up problems for myself or are they real. Because I genuinely can’t tell. It used to be so much worse it’s insane that I’m still not happy LMAO. So I hate complaining about it on here but I also need to get it out SOMEWHERE. Ugh
I hate seeming like I’m fishing for validation or sympathy bc I’m not I just need to talk somewhere.. I feel so crazy guilty having people tell me that I’m ok for thinking this. So don’t 😭😭 even if it’s really sweet. I appreciate it a lot but idk. It’s like okay well how would you know..you know. Like what if I’m unknowingly twisting my story to seem worse or something and I’m actually just spoiled and looking for smth to complain abt. Idk
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chaisshitposts · 1 year ago
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thanks for reminding me i can manifest them to be chill- i way too used to my strict parents lmao
THE JOJO REFERENCES GOES HARD FR
i haven't catched up with hxh manga but i did finish the anime and basically killua split up to protect alluka and gon wanted to meet his father so they technically couldn't stay together, there's a possibility that they won't appear in the manga again :((
don't blame me😭 the first thing i saw about kny was that episode and nezuko (there was so many nezuko edits oml), but first episode was like a 50/50 for me?? i'm pretty sure it's because i used to watch like really dark magical girls animes when i was younger and my cousins always made me watch the final destination series with them🧍🏻
OML TOJI I REMEMBER READING THE MANGA AND WANTING HIM AND MEGUMI TO MEET SDCNKSDJFBS and yuta is the literal definition of looking like a cinnamon roll but can actually kill you
I DON'T BLAME YOU ABOUT THE PROMISED NEVERLAND CUz Isabella's jumpscare in the first episode was😭😭🖐🏻 and yES PLS GIVE BUNGO STAY DOGS A CHANCE!
KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN?? I HAVEN'T WATCHED IT YET BUT MY COUSIN WATCHES IT A LOT
there's something so scrumptiously delicious about main characters who are weak but are actually strong and just humbles the people who underestimates them, like, sLAY
my sister recommended me mashle! it's on to watch list since i'm planning on binge watching animes in my waiting room and PLS TELL ME THAT ZOM 100 IS FINALLY COMPLETED, I'VE BEEN WANTING TO BINGE WATCH IT SINCE LIKE LAST LAST MONTH
i'm currently watching the apothecary diaries! It's so refreshing because the female lead is so smart and pragmatic, like she doesn't give a sht about the male lead and just loves medicine and poison tasting so much😫 the only thing i dislike is how she's being forced to be the male lead's partner but the plot is still good heheh
🐧anon
no problemo 🕵️ gotta help the homies out. everything in life is a jojo reference, even jesus.
oml nO wait I watched the whole HXH manga and know they split up I was just acting delusional 😭 and uGh I hope the manga gets finished one day... The creator has bad health-- wait a damn minute I can just manifest his health back wtf am I sayin' 🧐
PFFFTTT what a wild read— and oh god no don't even talk about final destination to me, I cannot drive on the freeway normally sometimes bc of that shit, everytime I see a truck with like oversized loads (especially the fuckers with the big ass steel poles on the back of them) I always get chills, even though I know nothing is gonna happen to me cause I said so 🧍
toji didn't even remember he had son.... deadbeat dad type beat. yuta and rika deserve better ngl
isabella and that other maid... they are nightmare fuel. and yes!!!!!! I will absolutely give it another chance for the adorable tiger boy with the fruity little haircut!!! bingeing anime in yer waitin' room??? bruh that's literally so big brain wtf I low-key wanna shift to all my favorite animes one of these days 🕵️ but I have this underlying worry about the version of myself being left behind to do my dirty work lmfao
also- katekyo hitman reborn! is super good, but I will say that I have been rewatchin' it for a sense of nostalgia on and off whenever I have time and god the first like--- 20 episodes are fuckin' cringe but the main character's awakenin' is satisfying 😭 he's like the og deku
I have no idea if all the eps have been posted for zom 100 !!!! I will check for you today if I remember--- I haven't had time to check after watching like the first three episodes on crunchyroll—
OooOo an anime with a strong female lead!?!?! I would absolutely eat that shit up oml gobble gobble gobble— ew that plot sounds cringey. man, I really want an anime with a stoic, underestimated female lead whos like majorly asexual... wait 🧍 hold on, I basically just described saiki k... I NEED A FULL THIRD SEASON OF THE DISASTROUS LIFE OF SAIKI K.
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grahamcarmen · 1 year ago
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Have a lot of asks and takes so just gonna dump them all here:-
opinion on chase and dexter.
you know i really want carlotta to meet the faculty and coach brunt and gray.
carlotta is gonna get such a biased version of gray that it cackles me up.
I can just imagine carmen telling her about gray and her response is "so you inherited my taste in bad boys".
you know, i understand why people think that if el topo killed someone he'll feel really guilty nut like he's the one to remind crackle that no witnesses should be left behind he's a cinnamon roll who can kill you.
rn i'm giggling at the idea of someone catching carmen and grey making out.
Commander is adorable.
1)i like them! Chase i maintain has the best line about the trufffles in his brain in s2. vivid imagery. poetic. and he gets such a solid and clear arc so congrats dude!! i really also like in s1 where he doesn't really buy that mimebomb is important but does have a tactic to keep tabs on him . tenacious, resiliant, and really intelligent sometimes. a lot of fun to watch and occasionally hear the out of pocket things he can say, he starts out abrasive but seeing him soften up and do what he can do best is fun and rewarding
dexter we don't get much but he was literally so!!! for getting only barely caught on cameras dating carms mom (which he refused to stop doing heck yeah <3) and doing his best to long con his way OUT of VILE for all of their sakes. and as a VILE agent? he was so smooth like steal those jewels, fly away, get paid for minimal teaching...ajsdnfasdkfn cool. RIPERONIS you were pretty cool
i really hope that carmen gets told by her mom that she has her dads eyes it was such an awwww moment when she said it. :( + just ugh can you imagine the conversations if she gets even more hints of similar things between them...ughhhhh carmen would really hold that dear...
2) hmmmmmmm like i really am into maybe her mom wanting to occasionally help carmen and that could happen VIA that (faculty and brunt) as for GRAY...
3) asdkjfnaslkfdjasd ok carmen gives literally all of gray's good points in such heart eyes and happy voice that the context of how carmen knows this just like makes her go "WAIT WAT" but lmao the idea of them falling for bad boys who are actually so soft and will do whatever it takes and actually turn over a new leaf <3 [i do think she might be a little harsher in her opinion on gray at first because thats her baby >:( waddyumeanyou! but like
:(it was everything...it was literally everything he held dear for carmen to exist and ugghhhhhhhhh i can't with them.
and like a changed person who her daughter has so much love for and obviously loved her enough to do that?? plus her mom runs an orphanage like i want to see him try to wiggle his way in the middle of respectful and being called out for old habits he can't shake yet and not being used to her brand of warmth. or her just asking him to keep watch the kids so she and carmen can have a day together mijo :((((((
and him being decent at corralling all those kids...not great he almost lost a couple but decent (he is good at charming distractions but gets snippy at the troublemakers if any...he's the only troublemaker allowed there<3) + always my evidences that he was the one who split up carmen and sheenas fights, the boys looked at him when they needed help at the tunnel, lmao he actually did have a decent distraction of codenames at the ready, and he's a head patter with a chill laid back disposition he projects...he can distract them with candyland for an hour...i think he can catch their attention like lmao he has such de facto group leader energy even if its not what he primarily does/the role he always wants...can he hold it tho...
or even a seriousish conversation after with gray realizing that was her trusting him lol + just long way round is still the way around conversation
5)...is that a thing? i mean el topo initially felt really bad about carmen because they were friends and might* have felt bad for shadowsan because he was his teacher but le chevre just tells him to focus on the bad parts of his class to get over it. old man in the desert who he has no attachment to? crackle remember to kill him + next time le chevre/ el topo both get over any lingering attachments and el topo even captures carmen with a smile and an ho-la. cinnamon roll who can kill.
6)I NEED THAT SO BAD ! NEED THEM TO BE INSEPARABLE AND INSUFFERABLE AND GET CAUGHT BEING ABSOLUTELY INTO EACH OTHER AND ABSOLUTELY SO HAPPY. askjdfnaskfjna and absolutely with only half an idea of what to do when caught
7) COMMANDER ...is cute <3
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bruisedboys · 1 year ago
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HUMMINGBIRD, ships ─── teehee okay i think you know me because im an oversharer✊😁 buuuut i am an infp/enfj hybrid (idk i’ve gotten both multiple times!) and my enneagram is 6w7💪 i am definitely an overthinker to my core. i am analyzing everything all the time without even trying to, it just happens. my love language is quality time, even if we’re just sitting doing nothing, it’s so nice. i binge watch so many shows and movie franchises, i get obsessed so fast it’s so silly. also performing arts is a mandatory addition that i need to include every time to make me seem super cool
+ no fandom or gender preference !
I ship you with nancy wheeler / pope heyward!
okay funny that I shipped you with the two scholars lolzies but I feel like you’d go so well with either of them!!
with nancy, she’d listen to allll of your thoughts and analyses on everything, and she’d be so so supportive — as in she’d listen, and validate you and your thoughts, but then she’d also tell you that most things that you think matter, don’t really matter! she’s good like that and she’d be good at helping you to not overthink so much!! not that she thinks it’s a bad thing, she actually thinks it’s adorable, but she knows it can take a toll on you emotionally so she likes to help you out! alsooo she definitely loves to just sit and do nothing with you, or maybe you’re both doing your seperate things but in the same room, and it’s just so nice. her love language is probably the same honestly! so it works really well. that and physical affection, and she loves watching you get flustered when she asks for a kiss.
with pope, he’d have such a big crush on you oh em gee. I just feel like he would be soooo into you. like … you’re nerdy about shows and movies? he is too!! please talk to him about your obsessions he’s so down to hear about them. also also he thinks it’s totally cool that you do performing arts — he’ll come to alllll your dance or drama performances and bring you flowers every time ugh. he’s also an overthinker lolzies, he would overthink everything he’s ever said to you. like that was so cringe why did I say that to her while just you’re thinking he’s so cute!!! also (like nancy) he loves to just spend time with you, it doesn’t matter what you’re doing, he’s really not fussed, he just wants to be around you. he’s pretty chill like that (unlike jj who needs to be on his feet 24/7 lmao) and so he’ll just sit with you sometimes while you talk or do separate things. and also it’s a given that he’d teach you how to surf!! overall I just feel like you and pope would go so incredibly well together. I can’t explain it I just know it okay trust me
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mcalhenwrites · 1 year ago
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Yet another writing-related rant (it's actually a rant lmao)
Okay, I don't want to see "wow let's make sure now more than ever to have positive queer rep" bc while it's good to have that, it's not wrong to have toxic queer characters, and that won't make the fucking fashies like us more!
How about we all just write what we want to write, making sure it's not bigoted*, and stop fucking supporting book bans along the fascists bc if you hadn't noticed, it's after ANY queer rep and ANY rep for people of color.
*And make sure when you're working around this, you're not attacking people who talk about the discrimination they've faced. Work on boycotting bigoted propaganda.
Positive representation is important, but the people who write the less positive stuff aren't your fucking enemy. I fall under the queer umbrella several times, and I've met people who are toxic in that community.
Actually, you know what? I'm a better person than I used to be, but there have been times I've been hurtful or toxic too. I work to be better every fucking day, but I grew up with some shitty people and I used to hurt myself, and in doing so, I was hurting my friends. I would be hard on myself and make fun of things with friends so we could all feel better about ourselves, and do you know what that fucking did? NOTHING GOOD. Sometimes people aren't great. And honestly, someone who isn't great might get better! Someone who was horrible to you might go on to be a better person to other people. As long as they're learning to be better. For those that do harm that requires legal consequences, they need legal consequences. But let's not say "they're not queer" or w/e. Harm is done in all groups.
I'm currently wrapping up a story that has two abusive gay fathers. And before anyone says, "Queer people make better parents" NO ALL PARENTS CAN MAKE MISTAKES
And I've seen plenty of queer people normalize spanking kids, heck I've seen it even when they have spanking kinks. Like, nah, I'm sorry, go fucking read Psychopathia Sexualis cases to see how many found their kink via childhood (and I dislike Krafft-Ebing immensely, but at least he even said "maybe we should stop spanking kids"), look up Rousseau, actually just do any research for an hour and you'll find out how much of a sexual violation that was for so many people when they were kids.
And even if the kids don't find it sexually violating, they can still be messed up from it. It's not effective.
And you'd think(???) with all the queer people who are like "my parents beat the shit out of me when they found out I am gay/trans/etc" they'd be less inclined to be chill about child abuse. But no. Actually. So many still justify it. Practice it. We need toxic stories just as much as positive ones, because it's actually a good sign that if you read something with toxic characters and find it uncomfortable, you recognize that the behavior is bad! This doesn't mean you can't enjoy the story, either! Though maybe you won't, and that's okay!
What's important is that you're like, "Yeah that's not a good way to treat a person IRL, this is interesting to explore in fiction" and stop fucking trying to cancel out everything to please fashies
THEY WILL NOT LIKE YOU EVER THEY WANT TO KILL US ALL
It's why your shitty crap about cutting the B and T and Q out is also just as fucking horrifying. Why it's so curious that we always have to leave the I out! THEY WANT TO END THE L AND G TOO
Ugh I'm so angry.
I have positive representation but damn I have negative representation bc sometimes I need a good fucking cry over my exasperation over the world.
Anyway. Yeah. Today's ruling shouldn't end with "oh my god positive representation of queer people is SO IMPORTANT after today" yeah no let's all be loud and proud, and if someone is truly doing harm, we make sure to take measures to lessen that harm.
I really wish people realized fucked up fiction can be catharsis and informative, and IRL offers some horrifying shit that we sometimes have to write about through fiction to tell our stories or it hits too close to home. I literally was reading a thread about people's experiences growing up in cults/churches just last night and think maybe that's an actual thing to work on fighting in the US.
I'm going to write toxic shit and if you go in thinking that the exposure to it will make you suddenly do terrible things, maybe think about if you weren't already a horrible person going in or why you think fiction is a how-to manual (and never an insight to what has already been done to people). Personally, I can read something awful and go, "Yeah that's wrong, and I have a solid personal moral system that still holds up after I consumed this fiction."
Sorry for the incoherence, this was actually a rant lmao
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obitohno · 2 years ago
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Babe!!!!!!! Omg!! Going on anon cause I'm shy 👀 anyway. I'm a virgin and I had bad past relationships with boys but I don't regret not doing it cause I always hear girls saying their first time was disappointing or how men don't even make them cum most of the time and!!!!! Aaaah I wanna buy a dildo so bad but I have zero privacy!!! I live with my roomate and we share a room and she always snoops in my stuff 😭😭 I don't think I could hide it somewhere. Plus she's mostly at home with me but I wanna buy one!!!!!!!
So how I get off, hope you don't mind me sharing lmao. I need to have something, I don't really like porn cause it's so violent and just dick dick and ugh. I like audios or Twitter videos sometimes. I do ride my pillow or use my electric toothbrush holder 🫣 like use the vibration. Anyway it takes me a few minutes and I feel a good sensation that last a few seconds and that's all :/ Is that an orgasm??? I mean it does help me release and it feels good but it's not overwhelming like I read about it 😭😭 I'm starting to think I never had one or maybe I don't know how to do it
sfdfd, first of all, hihi!
this may be tmi, but i used to be a big part of the nsfw community on twt a few years back, n i actually ended up buying quite a few toys for content >.< i now stash my hidden toys in one of the drawers under my bed bc it’s the easiest place to hide stuff, so if you can fit anything under your bed, a small box would be my recommendation bc if you’re in the mood, it’s nice to have easy access (trust me, wasting time rummaging around for sex toys bc you can’t find the one you want is a mood killer). also! maybe put some boundaries in with your roommate beforehand, n make it clear that you don’t want her snooping through your things anymore bc, one, if it was the other way around, i don’t think she’d be so willing to allow you to look through her belongings without permission, n two, it’s just rude??
secondly, if you feel that release, then i’m pretty certain that you’ve had an orgasm before. a lot of the time, orgasms can be rushed n the end result isn’t always so intense bc it’s a ‘quickie’ (if this makes sense). again, tmi, but some orgasms can be pretty ‘small’ n underwhelming for me, n i’m just chilling like ‘oh, was that it?’ the best kind are the ones that you slowly build up to—or even ones that you deny—before releasing. if you have the time to, experiment with which types of videos that you like to watch. homemade porn—especially solo masturbation videos—are my personal favourite, so if i’m in the mood, i like to lay there n watch a bunch of them as a little teaser for myself. have a search online, see which videos you like the most n favourite/bookmark them to keep for a later date. sometimes, if i really like a video, i’ll rewatch n see how long i can hold off before i cum ;-;
again, it’s all down to personal preference, n as cliche as it sounds, you literally have to take the time to explore your own body. experiment with hands, toys, even pillows or mattresses n if it works for you, then dw about what other people are doing. everyone is different, so i can only say what works for me, but any orgasm, whether rushed or drawn out, is yum (imo), so ig i can only wish you the best of luck going forward?? i hope this helped a lil >.<
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lonely-north-star · 2 months ago
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work troubles and period talk under the cut lmao i gotta scream so ignore it
Lmao? Not my co manager making me feel bad about taking a break? Hello? I only asked if you were busy as in are you on break bc i haven't seen you anywhere on the floor in forever, not fucking permission, you're not above me? I'm letting you know to be courteous? "I GUESS I'll do my paperwork later, you can go, that's fine" STOP ??
Telling you cause that's thr right thing to do? But you wouldn't know about that, you got mad that one time when i ask you to grab something, and made a big fuss about how you were taking a small break but "i GUESS i can come down and do that"
miss never takes a break vs mister steals time and doesn't do shit
like yeah im skipping my lunches bc you don't help for shit and there's lots to do, and you say you never take breaks but how many times have i caught you eating in the break room when you disappeared
mister leaves the building and doesn't tell me, so I'm running around and calling for help but you give no answer like whqt the fuck !!! We are equals !!
i never take breaks 😭 because i know i won't get back up after sitting down. But also. I could fuck around for half my shift and still get the store clean and recovered and keep up with orders like 😭 GEGAHAHWH please why is he paid more
my cramps are so bad right now i feel like im dying, i keep stumbling because i don't feel well and I'm off balance and that's the only reason I'm taking a break. I've got a croissant which i hope will help, i literally got chills earlier 😭 ggrrr why do i get flu symptoms !! sometimes I'm lucky and it lines up with my day's off, but the first two days are the worst
im so nauseous ajwjwje, but I can't leave because I'm the closing manager
I've left early before, the sm and replen have to because they've been unwell, but y'know what he did? When he had a migraine? He sat in the office in the dark for over an hour to "ride out the last of his shift" like okay!! Just go home ;!!
i SHOULD be doing repacks rn but i can barely stand, i keep half crumpling over against my cart like my friend is so concerned help
I'm so tired, i need a new job, i need a raise, i can't keep doing this. But like, I can't see mysekf working at anotjer place, and where else will i be guaranteed 40 hours
the sm has talked to him multiple times, and is building a case about him i think, and he'll get kinda better the first few days and then finds a new way to mess around. And he's been snippy all day with the one cashier who actually calls him out akdjwj
ugh my lunch is over 😭 i feel bettter ish but also just exhausted. I'm so sleepy i fear i may fall asleep standing up
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kdipshit · 2 years ago
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Hard Knock Life ;
I’ve spent years trying to weed through this mess in my head, but it’s getting so clean now, It’s like the cord of thoughts in my brain was hiding some pretty cool stuff under it, pretty dope realisations. Yanno I didn’t go outside and run or walk or workout because my mum would laugh at the people who did that. I wouldn’t speak up because my mother would judge those who did. How can I say this without sounding like I’m an ungrateful daughter who doesn’t like her mum, that’s not true, that the furthest thing from the truth. I love my mother and I don’t blame her, I don’t even think I knew enough to even piece it all together. I feel like im making no sense, but im trying to read this damn chord but it’s hard. I feel like right now, im actually sick so maybe it’s the best time to talk about the rotten seeds imbedded in my brain, I’ve got a headache, im nauseous as fuck, im kinda high a little bit so im not in as much pain, my headaches aren’t fkn normal they’re fat fkn migraines that effects my neck, eye, temple, shoulder, jaw, sometimes it makes my teeth hurt or like they’re falling out lol, it’s pain I can’t open my eyes my vision goes black it’s so dramatic and so fitting for a BPD bitch lmao.
Anyways, I think that convo was getting a little like fucked up so I needed to get my mind off it, idk man I feel like I’m just rambling, I’m thinking too much about the reader and not shifting my attention back to just writing.
I have an appointment with my drug & alcohol Therapist tomorrow and like ugh. I’m feeling sick so it automatically makes me not want to go, she has only asked me of one thing, and that’s to sort my licence out, and do you think I’ve done that? No I haven’t done that, because idk why. I forgot. Like idk why I didn’t go do my licence, I guess I don’t fucking care that much. I don’t feel good today mannn, but I did still do my morning routine, most of it, which just consists on me cleaning my room, making my bed, putting music on and taking my meds lol, I’m back in bed now, but I still feel good and super grateful because my room is clean, my meds are taken, and I don’t really have to worry about anything else until a little later, I’ve given myself the space to chill, which I need sick she’s a sick girl. Oh yeah I applied for a job yesterday like full on went into the shop and handed my resume. I’m excited for the response. Sick of waiting for this other bullshit job, hours are better and it’s closer than my old job and my old job was literally 1km away.
I feel like my mum dropped me, not like physically, but she dropped her association with me when I was like 13-14 she kind of gave up on me and just let me run wild in my own brain, with no help or direction on where to go. She didn’t wanna talk to me about anything, she didn’t wanna hear anything from me, she didn’t care how I felt, what was going on at school, she didn’t care about me, or didn’t make it feel like she did, so I got a boyfriend who I became extremely codependent towards. My mum ignored me, for years, and didn’t talk to me unless we got drunk together, for years, I’m talking like 10 years she left me alone, it was awkward to talk to her, it was horrible, I missed a ghost it felt like, I missed her but I didn’t even know her.
Y’all I know I said goodbye but I’m soul tied to this man. I can’t let him go and I’m a freak for holding on still, thats how I feel, the last thing he said to me was how beautiful I am, and how much he loves me, so why is it so fucking horrible. Why does this feel so horrible, I shouldn’t reach out, thats not what I should do. Not anymore, I make myself look like an idiot, and all these thoughts are just so silly to me. But I miss him, and I don’t know if its because he’s my favourite person, or because he’s the only person to ever get that closet me… like he knows me in a way no one else can, I wouldn’t let them anyway…. I landed a job interview with a company I’m really enjoying, I don’t want to go because its a far journey, and its all too new, I just wish I had ‘him to talk to right now. I just wanna talk. It always turns into an argument, I miss him. ha. I do, I miss him, I still see him everywhere, I see him in me, I see him in everyone, and all the songs that are playing are song I was singing when we were together, yang, all that r&b shit, wee belong together by Mariah Carey just started playing, like, fuck off. Am I not tormented enough? I cant see myself with anyone else, and if that means I’m single forever then I’ve accepted that, and I’m okay with that, no one compares to my first love. And I’m not sick and tired anymore, I’m okay with that, I can understand that, and I’m okay. I guess he’s just a character that lives in my head, and thats the only way I can make peace with not being with him. Maybe he doesn’t even exist? Maybe he’s in a happy relationship, maybe I don’t even love him and I’m just in a mood swing, maybe im in love with someone else, maybe I’m in love with someone I can’t be with BECAUSE I can’t be with them, maybe I’m meant to be with someone else. Idk. Because I have loved after him, and some even more intense than my favourite person, but with my FP, I just don’t know….. I’m bound. Not for too much longer now… surely. I am so ready to let this go, soooooo ready. Omg, I still have his ring in my draw I gave him as a promise ring, he got me one swell, I know we were so married, anyways I still have his ring. Idk where it is but I know its hidden somewhere, that ring is my goodbye. I’ve always known it thats why I kept it. Just like I kept my goodbye from him for so long. The ultimate disrespect to myself. I was open for him for this long, my very first love, my first everything, it was 100% a relationship that was more grown than we were, way more grown. we were acting and living like we were so much older than we were. We were pretty locked in. And it was okay with me because I was following in my parents footsteps, young love, the seriousness, all the ugly. I accepted it all, and I loved all of him, for everything he was inside and out. ill always have love stored away somewhere for him, but choppitty chop chop Jesus Christ its HURTINGGGGGG MEEEEEEE. How??! gahh damnnn I’m tryinggg….. why don’t you fucking do it lmaooo, okay okay okay your right. Were gonna do it together girlie, aswell as let go of the anger I have towards my mother, since it all came out at the same time. Ugh, my counsellor told me to be honest tho so I am. I’m so much stronger than this, holding onto all of this bull fucking shit. I don’t need to hold onto anything, at all. The only thing that exist is this moment right now, thats it and thats all. Consciousness feels pretty trippy btw. Idk why I said that, I think I went into the void of the moment, lmao. Its good to not have to think or feel for use a little bit, everything disappears. All my problems leave, all my overthinking.
He kept me in line, and told me off, he guided me, he helped me, he loved me he cared for me. I can do all of that myself. If its really that, that I want. I guess I’m lonely, and he’s the only other person who can cure that for me. I feel a sensation of completeness when I’m talking to him, no matter the topic, or argument. I forgive him, and I let him go, please.
I love all my ex’s lol, not gonna lie, they all made me so crazy for them, all my ex FP’s , LMFAO, no one does it better, I wanna say I miss having a FP but I don’t, except for that one fkn FP that won’t loosen its grip on my mind, I’ve learned to live with him, its peaceful sometimes, but its still a fucking parasite. I’ve also decided I’m not going to take that job with that cool company in the city, its too far, ill keep an eye out for the other job I wrote a whole cover letter for. The universe has given me options and I am so thankful for that. Thank you thank you thank you. For everything, for it all <3 I was trying to whack the weeds out without looking at them in the eye, how rude.
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princepotatosack · 2 years ago
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anon from here [ having a blast interacting w u 🙏 ]
Back to Emma, shes such a lovable character ( both as an LI and a platonic character ) 😞 like her personality is overall so charming how could you not love her 😭 shes so sweet and considerate to everyone pls id protect her w my life
On HSS:CA, I personally REALLY like Ajay and I've romanced him for most of my replays ^__^ He's a cutie I love him sm 😞 Sometimes he needs to take a moment and relax cause he always seems so stressed pls [ maria and ajay twinning lmao ]
Oh, his younger brother is really cute too (Mohit, I think? I forgot his name) but I adore their bond so much its so UGH
heyyy bestie!!
yes emma is such a sweetie! and so cute too<3
i also romanced ajay in hssca, but because i wanted to play all of his scenes to study him like a little bug 😅😅 he reminds me of me (and a lot of people i knew) when i was in theatre conservatory HAHAH my self-indulgent headcanon is that after he graduated high school, he went to the same theatre program as i did where he had a major crisis and then learned to chill out🫢
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eternalpassions · 2 years ago
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This post made me kinda want to add to it/ make my own lol. All these characters have likable and unlikable traits just like real people so it gets hard to know when a character is truly unlikable lol
Eric: I would tone down is Star Wars obsession in later seasons too. I like Star Wars too but he got annoying when it became his only personality. Also another thing I don’t like about that 90’s show is they made him a professor on Star Wars. I think he had more potential and they just make him have something else for Red to mock him on. I think him being a professor is cool, just not on Star Wars lol. Also I’d like to see him be less sexist/intimidated by Donna’s success and ambition. And I’d have liked to see him more confident and accept himself as he is
Donna: I’d change her hypocrisy. She’s a feminist but she’s quick to call other women she perceives as wrong as sluts and whores. Don’t have much to say I think she’s over hated lol
Jackie: How materialistic and vein she is. Hyde helped her a lot in that regard but she never really grew out of it fully and it was annoying. She could be less overbearing lol. I hated her in the early seasons lmao but her bitchy nature toned down later and she grew on me lol. But yea I’d just make her chill out a bit and try understanding more where other people come from . Would’ve liked to see her apologize to Kelso for how she was and them both to have a heart to heart acknowledging they care for each other but aren’t the right people for each other
Fez: I’d just make him less pervy. Maybe give him a legit serious story arc and not making him be a creep and give him racist treatment. It sucks when you see a POC character treated as the butt of the jokes all the time and get made into an insufferable creep
Kelso: I’d have made him keep his talents for math like before. Ugh it took him too long to get some depth other than being a shameless pig. Like he’s the funniest character and cute but I’d have like to have seen more of his sweet side. Would’ve liked to see more of him around Brooke. Would have liked him to be less bitchy and passive aggressive in season 5 cuz that was making him really unlikable. I would’ve liked to see him apologize to Jackie and Hyde. Honestly if there was no laugh track this character would be mostly horrible lol…
Hyde: would’ve liked to see him be more playful in later seasons. I would’ve liked to see him be more vulnerable. And def get rid of that whole weird him pursuing Donna when she had no interest in him lol. That was just inconsistent with his character
Red: I would’ve liked him to be less abusive to Eric lol. He’s a good man but he is the reason why Eric has no self esteem and why he turned out that way lol. Yea I don’t like the way he treated Eric at all. I know him being republican was to poke fun at him (I hope) but his homophobia and low key racist attitude was kinda :/
Kitty: Not sure. She needs a break sometimes lol. She works as a nurse and is still cooking and cleaning for her family idk how she does it 😂 I know Laurie is bitchy but I felt as her mother she should’ve been less petty. The way she babied Eric def was not good and also maybe bad for him.
Oh and just a note on the male characters in general: None of these males besides Hyde know how to cook and clean! Lmao. How do these men survive this long? It’s not a good look lmao…
If you could change one (just one) thing about each of the main T7S characters (which include Red and Kitty), what would they be?
Oh, that's a great question!
Hyde - It's gonna sound weird but I'd make him happier. One of the weirdest things about his character for me is that he was really playful and funny in season 1 and season 2, then he just kept getting angrier. I enjoyed having him be silly, y'know, like a teenage boy. He can be angry, of course, but I liked seeing him be fun and a little ridiculous.
Jackie - I'd change her obsession with marriage and commitment. I understand that a lot of people do want that, but it was too much with her and I didn't enjoy it.
Eric - I'd change his obsession with Star Wars. Don't get me wrong, I love his love for Star Wars, but it honestly kind of annoys me in the later seasons. It became way too big a part of his character. And in the Star Wars episode, he wasn't even that into it. Kelso seemed to enjoy it way more than Eric did.
Donna - I'd change her righteousness. In a large majority of the conflicts between her and Eric, she always seems so high and mighty and in the right. And I think she overreacts to a lot of the things Eric does. They just didn't seem equal to me, and a large reason for that was that Eric was always apologizing and Donna never seemed to do anything wrong.
Kelso - I'd change his complete stupidity in the later seasons. In the first season, we saw that he was good at technology stuff and math and everything. Then they let that go. I really enjoyed him being smart in those areas.
Fez - I'd change his attitude towards women in general. He sexualizes, objectifies and disrespects women all the time. He invades boundaries constantly. I liked him a lot in the earlier seasons, but then I ended up hating him.
Red - Look, I know he's a Republican and that's how he's supposed to be, but I'd change the slightly homophobic comments he makes (ie. Luke Skywalker being a fruit, calling people 'pansies', etc). I know it has a lot to do with the time period and how he was raised, but I just don't enjoy it.
Kitty - Honestly, I'm not sure, I love Kitty. I guess I would strengthen her relationship with Donna, especially in the later seasons. There was a lot of tension between them that was really unnecessary. And I think Kitty is the kind of mother to be kind to the people her son dates.
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lynkolnevans · 3 years ago
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My g we're mutuals and I love that for us but pls tell me what this groovy sans skeleton is he's all over my dash and I support u but I have no fucking clue what he is
Sorry about that lmao. I got dragged backed into undertale and went a little crazy with Fresh!Sans. Fresh is an Undertale AU character created by @loverofpiggies - which was initially inspired by “Dippy Fresh” from Gravity Falls, but now they’ve officially become a separate character for loverofpiggies’ upcoming webcomic.
I’m probably not gonna go on another reblog spree again any time soon with Fresh, but if you want me to tag it let me know.
Some info relating to Fresh!Sans (as they relate to the Undertale fandom) under the cut.
Feel free to skip or skim the text below, I just had a lot to say about one of my favorite characters.
At first glance, Fresh!Sans is just another Alternate Universe Sans, albeit a complete opposite to the more numerous “edgy” and “angsty” AUs/headcanons that were popular when the Undertale Fandom was in the spotlight. Basically their whole deal is a “radical” skeleton that talks and dresses like they were imbued with condensed 90′s pop culture essence. “Radical”, “Broski”, and other 90s - 2000s slang is a staple of Fresh’s character, as well as eye-searing clothing and rainbow powers.
They hate swearing or any kind of bad things, like drugs or alcohol. I’ve heard many people say that they are like a walking PSA, the kind with bad acting that you were forced to watch in school. One of Fresh’s powers is that whenever they are around, people’s swearing is censored. For example, “What the fuck!” would become “What the funk!”, usually with the swearer pissed they got censored.
Now onto the cool part. Fresh isn’t actually a Sans in the conventional sense. They’re a souless (literally) parasite that takes over a host and uses the soul as food, while completely overriding the host’s control of their body. Fresh has to keep swapping hosts as they will die without one, yet possessing someone can damage the host’s soul. There are some cool fanfics that explore this dilema.
They also are unable to feel any emotions. Yep, that’s right. Literally, the coolest dude ever is a soul-eating parasite without feelings. The only feelings they are physically capable of is fear and (i think) pain. Essentially, they are an eldritch horror who is mortal and absolutely terrified of dying, but can also do a sick kick-flip and teleport between universes. This leads to a lot of hijinks, especially in fan comics/art/fiction.
I’m sure I’ve missed a ton, but I wasn’t planning on writing an essay about Fresh lol. A lot of his character is centered around the whole Undertale AU Multiverse/Outcode characters, and explaining that is in an of itself multiple essays. There also isn’t a lot of concrete canon from Fresh’s creator. Just the basic: Fresh is a parasite that feeds on souls, cannot feel emotions except fear, and is OP af.
TLDR : Fresh is a parasitic entity possessing a Sans to feed on his soul. A lot of his character is based around 90′s pop culture, being “PC”, and teleporting around AUs/the Undertale Multiverse as the most chaotic being ever. Just a cool lil dude.
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pizzapizzadickz · 2 years ago
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#diary#personal#got fucking dammit my throat is sore and i wanna fucking stop this vocal stim cuz it strains my voice.#but i just fucking keep on doing it. ugh. its so just. annoying after a while. ugh.#sometimes i just get into one specific stim a lot and ill do it so much but stop in a while. but sometimes its too much#idk i just wanna chill but it be hard bc i keep fucking squeeking ;-;#first world problems man. the squeak™️#and whats about as bad is i wanna bit on my cheeks and thats also annoying bc i *should* get some gum#BUT I WANNA SETTLE DOWN AND SLEEP FFS#...god i just need something to bite or chew on ffs. and doing it to myself isnt a good idea lmao#seriously this is so annoying. like ive *sorta* burnt out or something so im just super stimmy lately.#AND LIKE AGAINST BETTER JUDGEMENT IVE BEEN WATCHING NEURODIVERGENT TIKTOKS#AND LIKE THIS IS A PROBLEM BC IT MAKES ME STIM MORE FFS#...a while back i was watching sweet anita who has tics and because she has a popping tic it makes my stim MUCH WORSE.#bc i have the same fucking stim as her tic#IM DYING HERE SOMEONE BRING ME WATER UGH#like. i can cover them up and i dont stim in public or whatever. but at home in my room? its free real-estate.#(yes i just pictured that meme) but seriously tho it gets tiring and annoying after a while when youve spent HOURS or DAYS#just fucking stimming. like. i dont mind stiming. but this is too much. send help. what do do when stim too much.#...and i know this is bc i mask a lot and burn out a lot.... i know i did this to myself leave me alone.#UGHHHHHH FUCK.
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