#u guys can still ask questions if i haven't answered them yet hehehe

[qserasera]

hi i'm finally back. writing meme questions please: 19, 23, 32 as well, and 36

wahhhh im finally here to answer these friend!! questions from this writing meme here. 19.Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going? o v o this is a tough one...man. i suppose mine would be one of those typical bookworm-since-i-could-read turned beginning writer pipeline....i have vague memories of making like. stapled together picture books with my own writing in them since i was six years old possibly!!! hahaha.

went thru the whole run of fic-writing during the rlly rough years of middle school-ft-high school etc.

still writing fic now (with some pieces actually going. over. 10k!!! unbelievable), with some attempts at original writing here and there (true) (intention is there)( ; v ; everything is a work in progress and that's okay!!) 23.Describe the physical environment in which you write. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me what’s around you as you work. Paint me a picture. long desk which makes a satisfying knocking sound if u thump your palms against it...looks like it's made of fake pine. surface covered in assortment of scattered pens, neatly stashed headphones, filed-away recipes for meals, and cute stationary paper. in the right corner, a reassuringly chunky radio clock (ft the kind in a studio ghibli film set) blinks red as the hours change.

32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

novel quote: this TGCF quote which strikes me in the kokoro every time for obvious reasons!!: “to me, the one basking in infinite glory is you; the one fallen from grace is also you. what matters is you, and not the state of you.”

fic quote: ok so this is from a natsume yuujinchou fic ft my very talented friend @defeateddetectives and yes. it is. under 1k. bUT NO LESS INCREDIBLY DEVASTATING!!!!!

this entire scene is basically between matoba seiji and nanase, after matoba is irate from a clan talk about marriage:

Briefly, she wonders if this target practice had always been more than it appeared to the untrained eye, wonders if he pictures the mark to be his heart with the belief that practice made perfect after all...

A beat later, she asks. "What do you want, Seiji?" It is the wrong question. His stillness fractures for a moment and his hair comes undone from its loose tie atop his head when he shakes it violently once. "Do not play games with me," he nearly snarls. "I want this house to survive and you know this."

He does not say: The rest is irrelevant.

in case you were wondering what the irrelevant thing was....he was thinking about natori shuuichi The Repression......the doomed feeling of Power and Devotion to his duty forcing him to crush down any softer sentimental feelings of his own, choosing Survival over love!!!....the archery as a metaphor for him striking at his own heart. exquisite work!!!! 36.They say to Write What You Know. Setting aside for a moment the fact that this is terrible advice…what do you Know? oooh i did answer this one time here, but i don't mind having a second try at this!!

hmmmmm....i think one thing either my beta reader or one of my other readers mentioned was how the ships i tend to favor have a really....natural intimate dynamic when i end up writing them in a fic?? or they have an implicit understanding of each other, and they respond and react to that accordingly without having it pointed out explicitly in-text. which kind of gives the atmosphere a 'romance-without-being-rated-as-romantic' feel.

i accept it as a compliment but im not sure how i do it though....maybe it's the influence of a constant stream of cdramas? im thinking of that one fic i wrote where childe had a long journey, and zhongli, being thoughtful of him took a seat near the corner of a table that was the coldest spot and blocked the wind from where childe was sitting and he doesn't comment on it and the fic....doesn't linger on it especially! zhongli just does it!! love expressed as....an act of care?? or something??? i don't know what it shows that i know but it's something ; w ;

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Not sure if you've already answered this before but ! I haven't seen this question pop onto your blog yet so here i am asking! How did Tom and Jesse first meet? Was it a classic case of "Oh hey new neighbor!", or was it moreso "Hey Tom meet this rlly cool person I met :D"? And how did their ''confession'' play out? Like who confessed first, how did they do it, so on and so forth.

[Is this okay to ask ?? Like you can totally 100% disregard this ahah]

:000!!! HELLOOOO IM SO GLAD U ASKED HEHRHS I'M SO EXCITED I'm gonna put this on read more heheh it's very long :'D I'm gonna be so indulgent and cringe watch me

nobody actually asked me yet, until you!! SO THANK UUU EHEH I actually recently managed to come up with an idea so yES I do have a story for how they actually met!!! I had this discussed with my buddy so I'll copy paste that info here!! :DD

• jesse meets them at a yard/garage sale because edd and tom finally said "matt ur shit is clogging our house we're going to sell your stuff now"

• AS IF MATT COULD FIGHT BACK they eventually have a yard sale and while his stuff is being displayed outside matt tries to switch his items with tom and edd's items so that THEIR stuff would (hopefully) be sold instead

• jesse walks by their house and the first thing she hears is matt crying, and then the shitty drawn yard sale banner (courtesy of edd but it still looks horrible LMAO) but hey when there's stuff to sell why not go check it out

• so, she among some random people look at the stuff being sold.... half of the items are just any variation of matt's face... edd and tom attends to her because they're the ones hosting. edd greets her.

• "hello!! feel free to look around, let me know if- hEY — MATT STOP SWITCHING YOUR STUFF WITH MINE-" and then edd runs to matt and fights with him and she's left with tom

• it was, very quiet. he probably doesn't care enough to say smth damn but she tries to strike a convo.

"any good items you could reccomend?"

he looks back at her. "oh sure, yeah it's over there"

• she goes there and sees the checkered pattern bass on sale, its patched up but it looks pretty cool anyways. "how much is this, sir?"

"the prize is just there" he didn't look yet

"it looks pretty expensive for it just be sold like that.... it looks customized as well"

• and then tom realizes MATT PLACED HIS GUITAR ON THE STAND

• he runs to her and, forcibly grabs it away from her. after realizes his brash movement he quickly apologizes

• "i-uh. sorry. that's actually mine. that guy crying over there decided to switch my stuff with his because he didn't wanna ~lose his toy collection~" he was so salty in that last phrase, and crosses his arms

"you play the bass?" she asks

"oh, yeah. how did you know it was a bass?"

"i like music too, y'know? I'm not bland" she awkwardly cracks a joke, but her cute giggle was enough

• he laughs back, "I'm surprised you know that" he's a little impressed. pretty good first impression on her part

• after their short but nice exchange, she excuses herself to keep browsing some more items, tom still had his bass on his hand. he went back to his original spot but decided to observe her on his chair while he tried to strum his bass out of boredom. he thinks she's kinda cool after being able to differentiate an electric guitar with a bass

• she finds an item she likes and decides that she should buy it. she goes back to tom, who was still all by himself because matt and edd still be WRESTLING

• "id like to get this one!" she hands the item to him.

"oh, yeah sure."

• she nods, and pulls out her wallet. oh no, she's a few coins and money short uUH OH NO she panics

"oh. oh dear"

"huh?"

• "I, uh. I'm a little short on money" her anxiety got the better of her and she starts to try to look in her pockets if she had some spare while frantically rambling to herself

she was in awkward misery in his eyes, so he tries to save it

"wait, I can hold this item for you!" he tries to calm her. she pauses and looks back at him. "you can?"

• "i-i mean. yeah! me and my friend are running this, so why can't I make my own rules too?" not that he knows if this is even a possible rule in selling but since she seemed pretty sweet, he thought to make an excuse for her

• "oh, that's such a relief, thank you!!" she places her wallet back. "ill come back here tomorrow with the right money, I promise!!"

• "nah, it's all good. heck I've had it worse when my friend bought other stuff instead of nails when we tried to build something" he motions back at matt, behind him

• she notices matt, he's sitting and bound to the chair with ropes to keep him restrained from doing his shit again

"is he always like this?"

"don't mind it." tom tries to shift topic

• "since I'll be saving this item for you, can I get your name?" he grabs a random piece of paper and pen and hands it to her

• "ah, right. one moment!" she scribbles her name down. her handwriting is neat and pretty

•" 'jesse payton' nice. tom ridley by the way." he extends his hand to hers, and she responds by giving him a gentle handshake

• "it was nice seeing you! I'll be back tomorrow again!" she slowly backs up and waves a goodbye at him

he waves back at her, his guitar still in hand

"nice guitar by the way, you should take good care of it before it gets sold again!" she teased

"pfft. yeah that won't happen again!"

and there she left, he still watched her leave and then looked at the little paper

"you're pretty cool, jesse" (<333 UEUEUEUE CRYING)

edd comes back with a rope and scissors from trying to rope matt back. "did you sell anything?"

"no, but I did get a name and number"

edd frowns back at him. "that's not money"

"give me a break, edd"

ANDDD THATS HOW THEY METTT HEHE I still didn't figure out how they confessed, but tom most definitely fell in love first, and then she did much later. he also confessed first!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺💓💓💓💞💞