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platonic-qpr-selfshipping · 1 year

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okay let me finally show you my updated f/o list!! I am also planning to add some s/i info but tbh i still havent gotten to it cause im procrastinating it while trying to relax doing other stuff klsdksj here it is!! (I am aware that the first photos look weird in phones so pls bare with me and put it in pc mode lmaoo im a carrd super-beginner)

now if you'd let me, Imma talk a bit about the changes just because

I wanted to get a bit more specific mentioning platonic f/os so even if I like many characters in sources like Obey Me, you can now see which characters I think my s/i would be the closest with :D!! I also played a bit with labels ig but I read this fic where Mammon said there was no need "to be anything" as long as we were in peace with each other and I felt that on a spiritual lvl so instead of overthinking how to label f/os sometimes I just put him as unlabeled lol I just love self inserting in his world being really close to him and he's my fav character of the game and all but ig it becomes hard sometimes to try to fit that into something so I said whatever, it's my little self insert world and they can do whatever they want that brings me comfort XD yknow, sometimes partnering concepts just feel off but at the same time I enjoy saying I am a Mammon simp cause I love the character so it's a bit of a mess in my brain sometimes, trying to make both my experience as a player and my s/i's fit for my best comfort

(yes this was another Mammon UR+ I did not get on Nightbringer)

talking about labels, I've decided to put all the Golden Deer as platonic soulmates :D! I think it suits us all and all the unique bonds they form with each other, and I thought that the whole thing of my s/i probably having this huge feeling of admiration and loyalty towards Claude felt better like this somehow, like it's a part of my s/i lore and not so much about what their relationship can be or not? I dont know if this makes sense worded like this but it seems to work out in my head XD I still plan to someday develop my s/i's story a lot so who knows

anyway, FRIENDS AND FAMILY!! I feel like it's pretty obvious that I've started to play Honkai Star Rail because suddenly I got a friend, a brother and a father from there- listen everytime I see the Astral Express Family written in the groupchat I emotionally cry happy tears (also I wouldnt be surprised if i ended up also f/oing Himeko in the future lmao, I love found families can you tell)

from Genshin Impact I've officially added Thoma as a platonic f/o :D!! (my hearts craves to befriend kind characters, yes) I think my Genshin s/i is probably the one with the most lore right now so I'm excited to write about this in the future! well,,,,, actually my Super Mario Bros s/i also has some info around themselves already,,,,,, like would you believe me if I told you I was already making up s/i lore while still watching the movie,,,,, the self-shipper experience huh.....

I love her

and do you know who I also love a lot.....?

those platonic f/os I've been mentioning in some reblogs lately saying I still havent talked about them......?

the dudes that may have taken over my brain recently using the power of friendship....?

yeah

aren't they the coolest tho

anyway I love them (repeating it as if i hadnt made it clear already) and I had to rewrite part of this cause I accidentally deleted it it so I think I'll finish it here ksdhkjs I believe there is a bit more to see in the carrd though, I'll put it in my pinned post soon :D! now if you'd excuse me imma go consume more hypmic manga as a healing experience, if you've read until here go drink some water, listen to Break The Wall and thank me later

#f/o community #self ship community #self shipping #self ship #f/o #selfship #queerplatonic f/o #platonic f/o #f/o list #all i write is about you #self shipper #self shipping community #selfshipping #self shipping blog #i love the pink aesthetic i may try to also bring it to this blog :D

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titanchaser · 10 months

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𝘼𝙍𝙑𝙀𝙉 of 𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘯 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘦𝘵 & 𝘷𝘪𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘵. by percival (he/him, 30+)

𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲 𝐢𝐧 [ . . . ] learning to let go / man vs. machine / looking back, looking forward / healing the soul / finding your treasure

public v. private info ╱ verses ╱ about ╱ his pokemon ╱ his battle team ╱

affiliated with [ . . . ] @rotharvest , @griefurias, @aetherceuse , @moonkssd , @directorstarfall , @fightingstargirl , @skullkxd, tba

𝐨𝐧𝐞. #TITANCHASER is an independent, private, highly selective and mutuals exclusive writing blog for arven of the pokemon franchise. except imagine it's actually written in the style of the final season of yu-gi-oh 5Ds (arc cradle / iliaster) ... among other franchises lmao.

due to the fact that i am OLD, this blog is 18+. please do not follow me if you are under 18!

on this note, this blog will feature dark and triggering themes. i will make sure to tag these things with the format of #trigger so that they can be filtered out! please tag #trypophobia for me!

𝐭𝐰𝐨. idk arven is an upperclassman at a goddamn college (21), but shipping isn't my main concern here. anyway there's nothing with any muse under 18 obviously, and arven won't be going for anyone too far above his age range, either!

i am very open to other sorts of bonds, though!

i should also note that i will accept mains and exclusives!

𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞. i am known for writing metas across the blogs i have. in the wise words of a friend:

with this in mind, the metas i write are portrayal specific to this blog, so please give them a read! i know i can be rather wordy- anyone who has followed me elsewhere may know this, but for my first time followers, worldbuilding is one of my favorite things to do. i am particularly fond of analysis of character psychology.

𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞. to the point above, i do have other blogs! i am in and out of other fandoms, but i am trying to focus on a smaller group of things for my own sanity.

and by this, i mean i work 32-40 hours as a registered nurse in an inpatient psychiatric unit. i am busy, i am tired, and i can't keep letting my focus go all over the place. inevitably, it still may do that because i have a tendency to be scattered, so if i don't get to something immediately, it isn't you, it's me!

also related to that, i do love communication! i struggle with reading the room (it's the Autism tm) and so if something's up or if you're bothered, please be direct with me! i will not take offense, i quite appreciate feedback so that i can be better as a person! in return, i will communicate back! i am learning to curate my space (after 10+ years of being on tumblr).

𝐬𝐢𝐱. there are people i won't interact with due to various reasons- my dni list is on the carrd of my other blogs. i won't interact with genderbent versions of characters, people who are Real Life Individuals (not counting fictional depictions like in the typemoon franchise or whatnot because those really have nothing to do with the actual individual they're supposedly based on?).

please stay far away from me if you fall under the following categories (i'm censoring things because god knows tumblr just picks shit up idk): proshipping, writing inc*st, p*dophilia, r*pe/n*ncon, are transphobic/homophobic- the usual gross behavior! use your moral compass!

on top of that, i am a firm believer that we learn from the media around us. full censorship is just as dangerous as the aforementioned things- the world isn't all sunshine and rainbows! please refer to this post which essentially summarizes the gist of what i'm trying to explain.

𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧. anyway, hello, i'm percival / percy. i am 30+ and use he/him pronouns exclusively! i am a hobby artist (it's my side-gig from nursing) and sometimes i post my art, tagged #whats my art tag considering i constantly forget my art tag if it's fancy. please do not repost my art without my permission.

mutuals, feel free to ask me for my discord, since i am much easier to reach there!

i look forward to writing with you!

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madeimpact · 2 years

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Verse Information - Sunset City.

So I added a verse on my carrd for my Discord server, primarily because those muses now have some common ground through there that's easier to fall back on than to completely redo their meetings and dynamics from scratch here. It's by no means the "main" canon for this blog, but here's a post explaining it anyway for anyone who cares enough to know.

Basically, the premise is that every muse in the server gets mysteriously added to a group chat that then gives them access to a hub world called bargain bin Twilight Town Sunset City. From there, they can access the worlds of all the other associated muses. Sunset City is a dreamlike city ( literally ) that gets reshaped based on the minds of those that access it. But lately, the muses have been trying to get to the bottom of what this place really is...

A lot of the major canon divergences apply to the KH muses, and they really just stem from the fact that there's a bit of a sense of linear progression in the server, so Sora was very much in step with my playthrough of the series, so when he died...I kind of had to improvise LMAO. I'll have to improvise again whenever we get more information on KH4, but for now, just consider this a completely alternate timeline to the main canon where he disappears to Quadratum. Some fun things also change for Roxas but not to nearly the same extent as Sora.

Edit: And then the same thing happened to me while writing Noctis. I was writing him in step with my playthrough, then dude had to go and get prophecy'd on me and I had to figure out how to justify continuing to write him; same with my friend who writes Ardyn in the server. So those changes will also be detailed here.

List of all the major divergences below the cut. Where relevant, I'll indicate when a Discord-only muse or mun is being referenced.

Let's start with Roxas, since he's got fewer divergences to hammer out:

Basically, just so I could justify writing him while he was canonically inside Sora's heart and not really existing, he managed to exist in Sunset City during that time, due to Sora's heart manifesting him there and the nature of Sunset City as a dream world. He sort of experienced stuff in Sunset and stuff through Sora's heart as if he were in both places at once. His physical body also couldn't leave Sunset until he was able to link to Xion at the end of KH3.

And for Sora:

Sora's ship in this verse is with my friend's Riku who doesn't write on tumblr, so you'll probably see Soriku referenced in relation to this verse.

After the events of DDD, Sora got a therapy Munna from Emmet ( Discord-only mun ). Sora had trouble sleeping after his Mark of Mastery exam, on account of, y'know, the whole "I almost never woke up and had my body used to house part of Xehanort" thing. Also, nightmares. Lots of them. So since Dream Eaters can only really exist in sleeping worlds, and he can only summon his Meow Wow for short periods of time outside of there, Emmet arranged for Sora to have a therapy Munna. She's a shiny that the Breeders turned over to Emmet because they trusted him to put her into good hands and not just ask for a shiny for its own sake. In fact, he didn't even really ask for a shiny. The Breeders just were like, "oh, this guy's reputable, we can give the shiny to him." Sora named her Munny on account of her gold color, and because Munna sounds like Munny! Munny is bred to be a therapy Pokémon, not a battling Pokémon, so Sora doesn't actively battle with her, but she can help defend him in a pinch.

Jingle doesn't really exist in this verse...yet.

And here's the biggest one: Sora is not in Quadratum, and has not been yet. This divergence is entirely a result of me flying by the seat of my pants and trying to figure out how to continue to write him in the server after he fucking DIED — think "anime adapting an ongoing manga and running out of source material and having to improvise" type of beat. Basically, because of all the friends he made in the server, as well as all of his friends from canon, Sora's heart was able to hold on and wake up in Anti-Sunset, a parallel nightmare counterpart to the pleasant dream of Sunset. He began trying to make his way back to the surface, but was interrupted by a mysterious woman who splintered his heart into several fragments again. Several of the muses in the server formed a rescue party to try and find him. Each of the ten fragments of Sora's heart sensed the group and called out to each of its members, requiring them to help him overcome some of the pain in his heart in order to dispel the darkness that kept them caged and separate from each other. After these ten fragments were obtained, the group was able to safely return home with Sora.

Whenever we eventually get more information about KH4, and potentially a release date, I'll figure out an excuse to eeby deeby him back to Quadratum, but basically, if you see references to a rescue operation for Sora in threads set in this verse, that's what's going on.

Noctis suffered from the same problem as Sora, where I was writing in-game events happening to him as I experienced them, not knowing that was eventually going to result in him perma-dying. This also ended up writing the server's Ardyn into a corner. So here's what we came up with:

After learning his and Ardyn's fate from Bahamut in the Crystal, Noctis decided that — as angry and damaged as Ardyn made him feel, it just wasn't right to kill someone who was also a victim. So instead, he appealed to any humanity Ardyn might have had left in an effort to make a truce, and try to put off the inevitable long enough to look for another way. Incredibly, Ardyn agrees to the truce, and holds back the miasma enough for the group to resume their travels, now with Ardyn in tow, looking for a way to change their future for the better.

Because the prophecy hasn't been fulfilled yet, there are still daemons running about, and the party is doing their best to keep things under control. They basically have Ardyn on a big ol' child leash while he menaces them in less apocalyptic, more just plain old annoying ways.

The point in the Sunset timeline that I write these guys at on the blog jumps around a lot, it just kinda depends how I feel lmao.

#❛ verse: sora ; sunset city.#❛ verse: roxas ; sunset city.#❛ headcanon: sora.#❛ headcanon: roxas.#i'll dump this verse tag for all the involved muses on a separate post lol #kh mutuals i apologize for the level of bullshit under the cut #❛ verse: noctis ; sunset city.#❛ headcanon: noctis.

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lawtistic · 2 years

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pinned

remaking my pinned post because SOMEONE decided to start a massive argument on it thank you jesse

hi, i’m liam or L, you can use these interchangeably or use one i don’t mind

i’m an aroace gay transmasc who’s brain farms mental illness like it’s playing minecraft

with that being said, please use tone indicators around me, thank you !! (i have autism pls)

i was hyperfixated on death note and thats still mainly what my blog is about and i will post about it

im slightly more inactive now but im trying, im just mentally ill and forget tumblr exists :,)

im CURRENTLY hyperfixated on warrior cats and resident evil and im open to talking about those as well

my favorite characters are mello, bb, L, and light because theyre either hot or i like bullying them (death note wise)

my favorite characters from my current hyperfixation are whitestorm and claire redfield (but leon is the subject of my conversations WAY more often and what can i say, hes hot and he gives me gender envy lmao)

yes, im the one person who drew light in a bikini (and a wedding dress. and a crop top)

i have a shitton of tier lists i did that i will link here the minute i feel like doing that, that minute is not right now

i do art (that i never post), i write fanfiction (that i never post) i write video scripts (that i never post), i cant do math (i do post about that)

youre mostly gonna see me reblogging stuff or spouting shit at a noise decibel loud enough to rupture an eardrum

im in a number of fandoms including genshin impact (distancing myself, i havent played in like 3 weeks and have been avoiding media like crazy), animal crossing, obey me, tears of themis, and some more stuff i dont have the mental capability to paperclip right now

im wiccan !! as of me writing this imbolc is coming up like... tomorrow so i may or may not post about that but i try not to because i know not everyone likes it

here’s my links !!

https://archiveofourown.org/users/pngfanfic ao3 (that i dont have anything posted on)

https://liamthepng.carrd.co/ my carrd, it looks bad on mobile so i recommend looking at it on desktop

https://en.pronouns.page/@lace_png my pronouns page, so you know how to refer to me

i dont feel like linking my socials right this second but my insta is verylawtistic and my discord is lawtistic#7355

i dont recommend looking at my tiktok i post cringe on there and i dont post very often but it is... something ill reveal after i clean it up it’s a vile place honestly

very specific rule for anons is that you can say literally anything as long as it doesnt align with my triggers or dni list (found on my carrd). there’s three chances and if theyre all fucked up i’m turning anons off

id be a GIANT hypocrite if i said you cant send me dumb shit and you can absolutely do that i have the humor of a 3 year old just dont piss me off on purpose

i do post and tag appropriately so if you have a certain tag blocked they shouldn’t show up for you :]

#pinned #jesse and val if youre looking to argue i will not engage #smh #clogged up my page #this is why the og was deleted #lawtistic

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heartbinders · 4 months

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Verse Information - Sunset City.

List of all the major divergences below the cut. Where relevant, I'll indicate when a Discord-only muse or mun is being referenced.

Let's start with Roxas, since he's got fewer divergences to hammer out:

And for Sora:

Sora's ship in this verse is with my friend's Riku who doesn't write on tumblr, so you'll probably see Soriku referenced in relation to this verse.

Jingle doesn't really exist in this verse...yet.

The point in the Sunset timeline that I write these guys at on the blog jumps around a lot, it just kinda depends how I feel lmao.

#❛ verse: sora ; sunset city.#❛ verse: roxas ; sunset city.#❛ verse: noctis ; sunset city.#❛ headcanon: sora.#❛ headcanon: roxas.#❛ headcanon: noctis.#❛ general: queue.

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godfrey-the-chaos-duck · 2 years

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Hi! Welcome to my blog!

A quick little list of things to know.

My name is Godfrey, obviously.

I love DuckTales, Good Omens, Gravity Falls, Hamilton and other wonderfully nerdy things like that.

This blog is a safe space for neurodiverse folk, people in the LGBTQ+ community, people of all ages, races, genders - basically, this is a safe space for anyone and everyone! Except if you're being hateful, in which case I will not hesitate to report your sorry ass. ☺️

I myself am neurodivergent, asexual, lesbian and (maybe?) genderqueer so if ANY of y'all are gonna have a problem with that kindly get the heck off my blog.

I write fanfiction on Archive Of Our Own, where my username is ChaosDuckWrites. I also draw, but it's not great lmao...

I guess what I'm trying to say is, welcome to the blog, I hope this post finds you well, and remember to take care of yourself.

You can find a carrd with my online things here.

Kind regards,

Godfrey (they/them)

#first official post #Oh wow would you look at that it's a whole letter #the chaos duck has spoken

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mellicindi · 3 years

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Danmei Reading List

I feel deep into the danmei abyss over the past few months - so deep that I needed to make a blog to vent my thoughts before I get decompression-sickness trying to crawl back up to reality lmao

These aren’t reviews/reccs so much as a brief tally of which novels I’ve read so far, and which I plan to read next. If any of them catch your attention, the titles should link to carrds where you can learn more about them!

Read so far, in order:

MoDaoZuShi - Ah, the gateway drug.This was my first exposure to the xianxia genre, and it hooked me hard and fast. The flying swords, magic music, and necromancer MC got my attention, but the grey morality, complex family dynamics, and theme of second chances made it impossible to look away. It was so refreshing to read about a queer adult who is still very much figuring himself out, who made decisions with dire consequences (and paid those consequences) before finally being able to fight his way to a happy ending. (You can see why I got really absorbed in danmei as a whole.) Also, it’s just SO FUN to read from Wei WuXian’s POV - witty, eccentric, principled, but so unable to look at himself and his own desires because he’s so focused on helping everybody else. I loved how the narrative voice echoed his reluctance to dwell on suffering by all but cutting out the parts of the story where he endured the most pain, and leaving the reader to fill in the gaps. Speaking of...

Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System - SHEN QINGQIU, YOU’RE A MESS! A MESS!! But a mess whose narrative voice single-handedly turned an abject tragedy into one of the funniest novels I’ve read in years. The friend who recommended Scum Villain to me pitched it as a comedy with some romantic elements, so when the corpse-clutching crap hit the fan, I was completely blindsided by the Dumpster Fire(affectionate) that was SQQ and LBH constantly talking past each other and hurting each other because each was convinced they understood the other. I ended up loving this story for completely different reasons than I anticipated. I wanna give BingHe a hug.

Heaven Official’s Blessing - XIE LIAN, LIGHT OF MY LIFE!! MOON OF MY STARS!! FIRE OF MY LOINS!! Ahem. Yeah, I liked Xie Lian a bunch. My favorite parts of the story focused on his past character development leading up to his present isolation and lack of self-worth. His personal story deeply resonated with me; from believing he had the power to make the world a better place, to feeling pathetic, useless, ashamed of his past arrogance... and then, learning that maybe he wasn’t so foolish after all. It wasn’t a cynical tale of a self-righteous prince being brought down to the ‘real world’ - it was a long struggle to remain a good person through extraordinary suffering. A tale of self-forgiveness for being unable to live up to high standards, and being loved regardless. Xie Lian and Hua Cheng just worked so seamlessly together, despite having very different ideals, and watching them fall in love made me incredibly happy.

Dumb Husky and his White Cat Shizun - Happiness who?? 1-800-Would-You-Like-To-SUFFER?? Uh, yeah. So. This... might be my favorite book. Ever. I hesitate to comment too much because I read half of it as MTL, but holy shit?? Meatbun, how are you so powerful at plotting that I sat through ~150 chapters of garbled google-translate text and STILL sobbed more than any other book I’ve read? I have NEVER seen character development of this caliber before. (And yet, I can’t recommend it to anyone irl because of the laundry list of content warnings lmao.) I will absolutely read it again when Rynn and Suika finish their translation, and will probably read it many, many times after that. (Yeah, this book is longer than all 7 volumes of Harry Potter combined, and I read it in a week. I think I was possessed.)

YuWu - Back to meatbun and MTL hell. Surprise surprise, I also loved this one. XiMang might be my favorite CP that I’ve come across so far. The plot isn’t quite as absurdly perfect as Dumb Husky, but it was a damn good ride. Again, I’m going to re-read the whole thing when Congeebrains’s translation is complete, and will feel more confident speaking on it then, but there’s so much I want to say about this story. The forlorn yearning, the betrayal, the nuanced take-down of patriotism... not to mention one of the most fascinating casts of side characters yet. Please just let XiMang be happy.

Nan Chan - Wasn’t expecting to be so engrossed by the mystery aspect of the story, but the plot was well-constructed and threaded together with intricate motifs. There were enough suspects to keep me questioning who the ‘final boss’ would be, and the reveal was deeply satisfying thematically. The fantastical elements based in Buddhism were, for lack of better words, really fucking cool. The Blood Sea? The Heavens literally collapsing down into the mortal realm?? A being’s true form being visible in their spiritual sea??? (Would love to read more novels in this vein, if anyone has reccs.) Also, I mean, the MC starts off as a fish. A FISH. Can’t get better than fish x sword romance.

In-Progress:

Sha Po Lang - There’s so much to be engrossed by in this novel, from the world-building to the complex characters, but I’m a bit too smooth-brained for the military&political maneuvers in the latter part. I will definitely come back and re-read it from the start at some point, but there are so many other shiny stories I want to read in the meantime.

Golden Stage - A big fan of how chill the CP are with interacting with each other. Very refreshing that they get together early-on, and the majority of the story is about them supporting each other through their ordeals. I’m at chapter 60 currently, not really sure why I haven’t been able to push through to the end. It may just be that I’m a slut for fantasy, and this novel is fairly grounded in reality.

To Rule in a Turbulent World - Considering than I am the aforementioned slut-for-fantasy, I was shocked at how addicted I became to this book. (The most fantastical thing that happens is the ML being slightly stronger than is probably possible.) You wouldn’t think that a relationship between a spoiled 16yo and a sex slave could be so wholesome... It’s similar to Golden Stage in that the CP get together early on, and support each other through various tribulations. And tribulations are aplenty! I was lulled into a calm and warm story of a tea-merchant’s son setting up a prosperous estate from scratch, and then - WAR! TRAUMA! And worst of all.... BEING A POLITICIAN! I jest, but this novel puts the ‘historical’ in ‘historical fiction,’ and comes across as being incredibly well-researched and does a fantastic job of enveloping the reader in its world. I’m getting towards the end of Book 4, and I already know I’m gonna go feral waiting for the last ~15 chapters to be translated.

To-Read List:

Lord Seventh

Jing Wei Qing Shan (GIRLS? LES BEANS?? PLEASE AND THANK. One day I will read enough baihe to have its own list \o/)

Qiang Jin Jiu

Revitalization of FuYao Sect

I may do first-impressions/read-throughs of these novels among others. Aside from that, I plan on doing more thorough reviews/recommendations for the ones I have completed.

#danmei #mdzs #svsss #tgcf #2ha #yuwu #nan chan #reading

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jellyluchi · 3 years

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Happy anniversary to this tweet. I didn't think of the trajectory my life would take just from this single decision at 1 fuckin am on a random Wednesday. But I eagerly waited to make this post since last year for many reasons. Because recounting how I came to love Pros and why this blog exists is always fun for me. Because indeed, why not?

Around July 25 of 2020 was when I watched the TGD arc for the first time. I'd already seen Pros before then (in a meme and a fancam LOL) but I was so glad I didn't get spoiled for this arc, I LOVE this arc. I originally thought I'd have a hard time enjoying part 5 (ironic) because at the time my main fav character from all of Jojo was 4taro. So I knew I'd watch part 5 slowly and I did, do that throughout the rest of August. Bruno and Mista (two other characters who I seem to have stopped talking about) were my favs back then too and I had a little list in my carrd with all three of the above mentioned. Somehow after the TGD arc (at the time I rationalized it as me thinking he's pretty) Pros made it to the end of the list. I thought hey LS are a random group of white men I should pick out a fav, this is my token white man!

I really didn't want to admit I liked him like that. Especially when he was introduced I thought 'oh he's one of THOSE dudes' I could feel the scene of him hitting Pesci coming and I was like yeah he's lucky he looks kind of ok compared to the rest of them. But then the scene of Pros consoling Pesci arrived which really threw me off a loop and changed my opinion of his character entirely. Suddenly there was a hidden depth to him I didn't expect. Either way, I enjoyed it and I thought that was it. I spent a lot of August looking at 4taro art and getting spoiled about Stone Ocean while reading SBR lmao. Around September, lots of my mutuals were reading reader insert fanfics. I wasn't in jojo tumblr back then and I didn't read reader inserts nor did I enjoy them as a form of fic. But inspired by the rest I decided to go down my fav character list. 4taro fics were nice but I couldn't see myself with someone like Jotaro. Bruno fics were nice but forgettable somehow and Mista fics were fun and cute but diddn't make me feel much.

That's when the tweet happened. I didn't want to read Pros fics per se, it was a run off the mill decision, I didn't even consider him seriously my fav, just some character who I liked to see art of on the TL because he was the prettiest to me out of La Squadra. I even ignored the silly brainworms that came before I even read fics for him. I was expecting to find some hardcore NSFW fics because he's villain. I thought I'd get a good laugh and move on! Especially because I didn't even like NSFW fics they felt so awkward to me. But when I searched "prosciutto x reader" on AO3 the first fic that showed up literally had "domesticity" in the title and "wifey status" in the description. It was this fic that I read. The writer is no longer active, they were already inactive when I was reading it. My domesticity loving ass was like "lol sure I'll be 'Prosciutto's wife' lmao" as if it was all fun and games. I mean, it was before I read the fic. Because after I read it... the brainworms were instantaneous.

What the fuck!!!! I enjoyed it so much... I already thought he was so cool. I tried to convince myself that he's ugly in places of the anime so I would like him like that, but it wasn't working. I loved his interpretation SO MUCH... He was so sweet, gentle, and charming. I was like damn maybe I DO wanna be Prosciutto's wife real badly... who's shit at baking but tries to be domestic anyway. He was so tender I just... words are all I have, but when I try to speak about him got none. He makes me stupid FOR REAL. I couldn't stop thinking about that fic, his smile, his gentle presence just... anything! Suddenly I was straight up constructing a reality where I get to take him back Canada and meet my family because yeah... we're married that's what married people do. But I knew I was fucking gone when I was trying to take a shower and I got so distracted thinking of him next to me, him being with me, I accidentally used body wash as shampoo. I told you he makes me stupid.

That little favorite character list got an update REAL fast and I was consuming Prosciutto content at the speed of light. Every single hc, fic, drabble, whatever I read made me love him that much more. He's so perfect. I really really REALLY wish I had the words to describe it other than 'he's perfect' but again, I run out of words! Maybe I don't know enough words to describe what I'm trying to say, maybe these words simply don't exist or the feeling transcends words entirely, I don't know. I didn't know what selfshipping or an f/o was either back then. But I constantly came back to tumblr to read Pros content and imagine myself with him. I only knew of jojo tumblr because the writer of that fic linked back to their blog in ao3 and I'd made a request of another fluffy pros fic (it never happened which is understandable). Even though I had a lot of fun reading about him, it was incredibly lonely. I didn't have friends with f/os they couldn't understand the depth of my feelings. I was afraid of being made fun of and so I couldn't admit that I liked him more than just a fav or comfort character on top of being incredibly insecure about my selfship. I'd never been sadder in my life than back then when the thought of sharing Pros made me cry multiple times, I felt stupid. I'll be honest, I still struggle with that now sometimes but I'm much better about it. I just don't talk about it but if there's people out there who are uncomfortable sharing f/os I send you all the strength <3

But since I was reading about Pros so much from cruising his ao3 / tumblr tags multiple times a day to obsessively reading and re reading and scrolling the same blogs over and over, google even suggested Prosciutto (the meat) before I typed anything into the search bar. I thought enough was enough and made this blog to save all the content I wanted to see and to track new Pros content that might come up. And I'm so happy I did!!!! I didn't think I'd meet so many wonderful people because of him! I remember being sad because I thought people would think my selfship is silly or I'm a bad fit for Pros or something but knowing there's so many good friends I've made who are all so supportive makes me so so so happy!!! I'm glad I read that fic, I wouldn't be here otherwise. I wondered where I'd be a year later. I was afraid I'd spend too much money on Pros and then not even enjoy him less than a year later. But I'm so happy to be in love with him still, to enjoy him still, and to not enjoy him alone. A lot of friends have told me they like my brainworms (thank you friends <3) and the same me was absolutely silent back then about him. I'm glad I don't hold in my thoughts for him anymore and just spill them out whenever. I used to think self-inserts were silly and now I have Focaccia who I'm so proud of. That little fic changed my life so incredibly, I can't recount every detail. And this is just one year, I can't wait for more years!!! I was relieved to think I'm free to love Pros as long as I want. So I'll be like 99 and showing my grandkids a black and white picture of him saying "that's your grandfather before the war" if I so wish.

Happy anniversary, Prosciutto 💜.

#taha talks #honey bunny #prosid #prosid anniversary #I hope I get to use this tag many many many times

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emilythecosmicbun · 4 years

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Creepypasta OCs.

Any updates information is on Wattpad WATTPAD: https://www.wattpad.com/story/255861941-creepypasta-ocs-emily-elliot-and-stedge

TW BLOOD, ABUSE MENTION

cottontailprincess is my Instagram and Emilythecosmiccat is my username on some art websites.

They/Them pronouns please

do not sexualise me, my characters or my boyfriend please he isn’t comfortable with that.

okay so these are my two vent ocs.

Emily/Elliot (Bunny.)

one of them, as you know, is my impure agere oc, representing all the sad and flashback parts of everything. I made them to help cope with my thoughts and feelings. They are based off of my appearance and my trauma. They age up with me.

BASIC INFO

Full Name: Emily/Elliot Bunzelle but prefers just Emily or Elliot.

Nickname(s): Bunny, Emmy, El, Em, Princess, Prince, Princette

Meaning of name: Emily (from Urban Dictionary.) An Emily is someone who is crazy inside and out. She knows who her friends are and try’s hard to look after them. She is very pretty but doesn’t always know that. She isn’t always the most popular, but to her that doesn’t matter. She has friends from all ages and they all adore her. She hides her feelings however upsetting they may be.

Meaning of name: Elliot (Urban Dictionary) Elliot is a true master at caring. He teaches how to love and be loved. A man of honour a man of steal. He's as handsome as a Greek God, as strong as diamond, as compassionate as a saint and is as gentle as a father's touch. Elliot possesses a magic within to create a vision in the eyes of all, leaving them stunned at how brilliant and perfect Elliot truly is. A leader, a spirit lifter, a lover, a giver, an Elliot'll leave you speechless with his being, his essence.

Gender: Non-Binary

Pronouns: They/Them

Age:

Currently 19, same as IRL me, though they physically and mentally regress to younger ages, so their age varies. Their main ages are variants of 1+

Date of Birth:

August 21st (Body born in 2001)

Race/Species: English and a Spirit or Entity.

Native language: English (as in England English.)

Orientation/Sexual Preference: Bisexual Personality: Silly, playful, honest, caring, childish, bratty, stubborn, sweet.

Are They Dead: No but they aren't alive either. Somewhere in between.

Any Mental Health Issues?

C-PTSD, due to multiple traumatic events. They frequently experience multiple flashbacks and nightmares, and is usually terrified of leaving their safe space unless it’s with Stedge, even then, they panic.

Triggers: Listed Here. Triggers page on my Carrd.

Powers/Special Abilities: Can float slightly off the ground, is able to phase through walls, spew blood at will, and look "alive" when speaking and comforting children, or just around those they trust.

APPEARANCE:

Looks:

Very young child: Short but very curly/wavy brown hair, a bit lighter than when they are in older looking forms. They wear a pink dress with a white shirt under, and black school shoes. However, they can also just wear a sonic shirt and leggings, or a skirt.

Child: They can vary but their usual look is long curly/wavy brown hair, brown eyes, pale skin, blood on their mouth and nose area, tired-looking eyes, pink dress, sometimes a nightgown, depending on the look, they can wear socks, bunny slippers or even go barefoot! Sometimes they wear bunny ears! Sometimes they like to wear sonic gear.

Teen: Depending on the age as a teen, at the point it's "kawaii" inspired things, sometimes just a Melanie Martinez shirt and pants (or skirt), sometimes overalls! They also wore band merch, stuff like that. They have either long brown hair, black hair or multicoloured hair like Melanie Martinez (dyed in variants such as pink, red, blonde (more like light ginger.)

Adult: Band tops, but also ones with cute designs on such as bunnies or kittens, sometimes overalls or dresses, sometimes even onesies, since they can still have the traits of an agere headspace. Short Brown hair, is a lot chubbier than the rest, can be considered mid or plus size.

Height: Varies depending on form and age, but usually smol.

Weight: (UNKNOWN BUT IT VARIES.)

Hair color: Dark brown/Brown

Eye color: Brown

Scars and/or skin conditions: Has a few bruises and a few cuts in some places, but I prefer to not draw them.

Has a skin condition called psoriasis. (I have it IRL.)

Never Seen Without: White Bun, and their three Cream The Rabbit plushies.

Likes:

• Things with peaches (the fruit) on them. (Including peaches and peach ice tea.)

• Bunnies

• Their Caregiver, Stedge.

• Drawing, and colouring in.

• The colour pink.

• Sonic The Hedgehog.

• Porcelain Dolls

• Stuffed Animals

Dislikes:

• Abusers (including physical, mental and sexual abusers.)

• Those who take advantage of vulnerable people.

• People who don’t take them seriously.

• Drama.

• Being abandoned or left alone.

Relationships:

Stedge - Partner in crime, best friend, caregiver and lover. (Depending on age of course.)

Cream.exe (Sally.exe game) - practically twinning, bunny loves to hang out with cream.exe. (my highest kin, apart from cream herself.)

Family Members - Depending on which member, they do have a good bond or a negative one. Bunny loves them on different levels, some of them, they hate. This does not reflect on how (I myself) feel about said family members.

(If you want your creepypasta oc to be friends with Bunny, just ask!)

OTHER INFO:

• They age up with my current age since they aren't dead and they are based off of me.

• I decided to make them some sort of entity since I couldn’t make them a ghost and still be alive lol they age up with me.

•Their “trauma” is the same as mine, which is why I won’t write it in detail here but they are a victim of abuse.

• They are all bloody because its how I feel about my trauma.

• They physically and mentally regressed to the age they are supposed to be, if they are in their child forms, they are an actual child. (Direct reference to my age regression I use to help me cope with my trauma) They prefer to be in this form so they can protect and befriend children. They don't harm children or other victims of abuse. The children usually call them “bunny.”

• When they're in their adult form, they have a partner called Stephen. Someone who they have known since they were 17 years old. When they are a “child” he takes care of them and protects them to make sure they don't ever get hurt again.

• Their sense of justice is what caused them to want to help other children. They never want to see another child go through what they went through.

Any Other Info is on the Picture.

Stedge

Well, I also made a creepypasta oc to represent my boyfriend, someone who I love and trust to help me during those horrible times. He’s like my partner in crime. lmao also his age isn’t rly there because he ages up with his real life counterpart, which will get updated.

REMINDER TO NOT SEXUALISE HIM AS MY BOYFRIEND IS UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THAT.

BASIC INFO:

Name: Stephen

Nickname(s): Stedge, Mr. Bubbles (by Emily/Elliot.)

Meaning of name: Stephen The most beautiful boy in existence. Has stunning eyes, that make your heart fall through the floor when they crinkle with his perfect smile. Is deep, unlike most boys, and extremely intelligent. Has a big heart, and he doesn't realize when he's being taken for granted. Even though he would never admit it, he sometime's can't see what's right in front of him. An over-analyzer, and very stubborn, but he will admit defeat when he has to. Likes to drive girls crazy, apparently. Easy to fall in love with. Hard to figure out.

Gender: Male

Age: Ages up with IRL person. Currently: 19.

Date of Birth:

9th April

Race/Species: English, Human.

Native language: UK English.

Orientation/Sexual Preference: Straight

Are They Dead: No

Any Mental Health Issues? No, None that we know of.

Triggers: None that we know of.

Powers/Special Abilities:

He doesn't have many powers but he athletic and can run quick and has a good amount of strength. He uses a bat and other various stuff.

APPEARANCE:

Looks:

Short brown hair, brown eyes, a bit of facial hair, variants of a black or dark grey shirt, but obviously not only those, sometimes they’re ripped.

Hair color: Dark brown, brown.

Eye color: Brown.

Scars: None.

Personality: He is quite intelligent and mature, behaves childishly in front of Emily/Elliot, cold and serious, is kind, polite, protective.

Hobbies and Likes: • playing the guitar

• skate (skateboarding)

• listening to tunes

• spending time with Emily/Elliot.

Dislikes:

• Abusers, people who take advantage of vulnerable people.

• People who are cruel to Emily/Elliot.

Relationships: Bunny - Best friend, soulmate, would do anything to make bunny smile, frequently gets them stuffed toys and food.

EXTRA INFO:

He is a few months older than me in IRL, his age is 19 right now, along with mine but will be updated.

Stephen is a human, and helps take care of Emily (in their child forms.) since they are a child and very vulnerable in that state due to their trauma, when they’re adult they are romantic towards each other.

They work together as a team when bashing and killing abusers. While he uses physical means, Emily uses mental.

Any Other Info is on the Picture.

WATTPAD: https://www.wattpad.com/story/255861941-creepypasta-ocs-emily-elliot-and-stedge

#my art #agere #sfw agere #creepypasta oc #creepypasta #impure regression #creepypasta child #child oc #bunny #sally.exe #sally exe #sonic exe

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seijch · 4 years

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ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

#did i have an announcement tag #announcement #also regarding work hsjkdfsd the company i work for didnt give my location the opening for the full time position i wanted #my managers all agree id be promoted if we had it but we dont so i . hee .#anyway um i hope everyones doing well #some of my moots changed urls while i was away and now i have no idea who anyone is #its like when you see your familys friends and theyre like omg youre so big now! i remember when you were a baby and youre like 🧍‍♂️#and you have to play along bc apparently they remember you hskdfsd #im not very funny in this post but i figured id rather be honest considering my lengthy absence #consider this my comeback stage

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3, 7 and 18 for as many as you can answer; btw do you still have an ocs page? like with introductions and all that

wow this took forever oops!

tysm for the ask!! i’ve been meaning to make a carrd or something with oc intros, but i have so goddamn many ocs and so little time now that i’m in college and all that. and i have the code saved from my old pages before i remade, but those are kind of outdated and incomplete

that being said i’m probably gonna end up making that carrd regardless of how busy i am cause special interest indulgence and all that, so i’ll post about it when i do

anyway! i’m putting the actual oc answers under a readmore because i’m gonna try to do all the ocs i listed and it’ll be kinda long lol

3. What does your oc’s voice sound like? (Or, if you have one, what’s their voiceclaim?) Can they sing, whistle, or roll their rs? Do they have any speech impediments or notable dialects/accents?

how does one even describe voices... ok here goes

avani: she’s my character for a ttrpg campaign, so her voice sounds basically like mine (which might not help much cause you don’t know how i talk lol), but when i’m talking as her i pitch my voice up a bit and make it a bit more nasally. she’s not much of a singer, nor can she whistle, but she can roll her r’s pretty well. also, since she’s autistic and hard of hearing, her tone of voice often comes off the "wrong” way

farhan: he’s another ttrpg character i play lol, or at least he will be next semester, so his voice is again kind of like mine. but when i talk as him i pitch my voice down and it’s a bit hoarse. ig his voice would also be more “masculine” than mine but whatever. he can sing and whistle but has a pretty small vocal range (since he’s, like, 13 right now and will be 16 when i rp him next semester)

carter: i imagine his voice as low and on the quiet and raspy end, with a tiny bit of a lisp. he’s way too insecure to try to sing or even whistle or anything like that, though if he practiced at it he’d probably get pretty good

calira: she’s mute so n/a i guess. but she talks pretty formally in her dialect of elvish sign language, which is definitely unusual

sam: they have kind of a low voice that’s also raspy, but with quite a bit of pep and variation in their tone. they can even sing pretty well and they like to whistle constantly while working. that creates some kind of whiplash cause sam comes off as a typical edgy teen a lot of the time

jizoriel: high-pitched with lots of voice cracks, peak pretentious preteen/early teen jerkass. he can’t really sing or do anything similar, nor does he want to very much

victoria: so quiet and raspy that you can barely make out that it’s low and has a soothing and pleasant tone to it. she can sing well, or at least she could once upon a time

rowan: just! the happiest and most cheerful voice you can imagine! so much love behind how she talks! her voice fills up her whole head and the whole room!! and she whistles sometimes while she walks

ace: defies any masculine or feminine labels, smooth and cool in theory but they stutter quite a bit

charity: gruff but with a hint of cheer and clarity behind it that comes out when she’s startled. she loves to sing but can’t whistle and can’t roll her r’s either

jamal: i actually have a voiceclaim for him! it’s this (the voice that sings from 1:51 to 1:58)

kimberly: her voice is a bit high and a bit... idk how to say it exactly... i guess shrill would be the word?

fabián: his voice seems higher-pitched than it actually is cause he talks higher when he’s anxious, and he’s always anxious. it’s a bit hard to describe his voice otherwise tbh. i can hear it in my head but i can’t quite put it to paper oops. oh yeah also he has a great singing voice but never uses it sooo

7. What song reminds you of this oc? Does this match up with the type of music your oc likes to listen to?

this question opens up a wormhole cause i have playlists for many of these guys but instead i’ll just provide one (1) song for each and vaguely describe their music taste, how does that sound

avani: honestly “mr. capgras encounters a secondhand vanity” by will wood is a “her” song to me. her music taste leans a lot more toward older music though (like some classics from the 70s and 80s and such)

farhan: he’s still very new so i haven’t really found a song for him yet. but i know he absolutely loves peppy and energetic pop music and also sappy gay love songs

carter: (slaps my hand away when i try to type another will wood song) “fantasy island” by the shins always launches me into daydreams about him. which kinda roughly aligns with his music taste, he listens to a lot of those “mainstream indie” artists. he’d also listen to will wood because he’s gay and mentally ill <3

calira: one of my favorite songs on her playlist is “maximillian von spee” by dirt poor robins. but the music she listens to is basically all invigorating church-loving stuff with medieval-era instruments lmao

sam: “sometimes” by nick lutsko is an absolute bop and very much a sam song. sam actually doesn’t go out of their way to listen to music though, but when they do they listen to either the most soothing and relaxing stuff or to the angriest metal emo music. no in between

jizoriel: i’ll go the less emo angle here and say a song that reminds me of him is “upside down” by jack johnson. jizoriel’s music taste is like. old choir music and shit plus incomprehensible magical music that doesn’t even sound like music. if he was from earth he’d like my chemical romance

victoria and rowan: i’m grouping these two together here because a song that reminds me very strongly of both of them/their relationship is “human” by dodie. which actually fits very well into both of their music tastes!

ace: again, going the less edgy angle here, “auntie earth” by walter mitty and his makeshift orchestra. but ace mostly listens to uh, classical flute music and flute covers

charity: absolutely “dance and cry” by mother mother, that’s pretty much her theme song. it’s among her favorite songs in canon too

jamal: “tire swing” by los elk, since his arc is about letting go of childhood and all that jazz. he’s more inclined to listen to fun. and other pop artists and rappers and such. he likes janelle monae

kimberly: “best tears” by the happy fits for sure. in terms of her music taste though, her taste is pretty similar to jamal’s. they bond over being janelle monae fans

fabián: by god does “heal” by so much light fit him. his taste is that he rotates through three (3) specific obscure indie artists lmao, so theoretically i guess that specific song is included in there

18. How does your oc see themself? How does this compare to the way other ocs see them?

i am gonna do my best to keep these short cause this is a loaded question for all of them hoo boy

avani: how she sees herself: honestly the worst person alive. unless she spends every moment of her time trying to make up for what she’s done, she’s worthless, and she doesn’t deserve to love herself in any capacity how others see her: her brother (farhan) really looks up to her! most of the time. the superhero team she’s on (other people’s ocs) all think she’s generally smart and capable enough, and her boyfriend in particular thinks she’s incredible

farhan: how he sees himself: as of right now? a misunderstood emo middle schooler who’s still kind of cool i guess how others see him: his sister (avani) thinks he’s quite an impressive and charismatic young man

carter: how he sees himself: 1/10 awkward and annoying how others see him: carter reminds calira too much of her old self, so she love-hates him. sam thinks he’s weak and cowardly but admires his kindness. and jizoriel clings to him as a caring father figure and loves carter’s passion for natural studies

calira: how she sees herself: it goes back and forth between “i’m the greatest chosen one ever im such a strong warrior” and “wow i’m literal trash why did the gods pick me for this” how others see her: carter is a bit intimidated by her but appreciates her attempts to vibe with him, sam thinks she’s an annoying pretentious self-important bitch (but their opinion softens over time), and jizoriel sees right through her facade and feels comfortable around her because of it

sam: how they see themself: evil and in need of redemption, kind of similar to avani ig but with 10x more confidence in their skills and also much more violent how others see them: carter knows theyre doing their best even if theyre kind of an asshole, calira is a fan of their strength and determination, and jizoriel Hates Their Guts (at first) because they baby him too much

jizoriel: how he sees himself: a fucking fraud of a prince. all he has going for him is his abilities as a mage, but even then those are shaky how others see him: carter knows he’s very insecure and wants to comfort him, calira admires his magical prowess and noble air, and sam thinks he’s a snarky little pretentious douchebag but also he reminds them of their late brother and they want to protect him at all costs

victoria: how she sees herself: basically dead. only good for interacting with ghosts. not worthy of the human world or of friendship how others see her: she reminds rowan of her old self. rowan sees a glimmer of love and hope in her and wants to bring it out

rowan: how she sees herself: a fucking mess but she’s trying her best and that’s what counts! how others see her: victoria very much appreciates her cheerful air even if she doesn’t act like it

ace: how they see themself: way too weird to be human, way too weak not to be. their self-image changes constantly. theyre very confused about everything please help how others see them: charity is literally dating them lol she thinks theyre the cutest person alive, jamal appreciates how hard they try as a friend, kimberly thinks theyre an alien invader whom she can study and use to get further in life, and fabián knows more about ace than anyone else and loves them for it

charity: how she sees herself: a Teenager who’s struggling. she desperately wants to be young without the burden of her trauma but whether she thinks of herself as emo and sad and angry or not depends a lot on her mood how others see her: ace adores everything about her, jamal loves how cool and fun and sociable she can be, kimberly is annoyed with her rebelliousness, and fabián worries very much for her well-being and can’t shake the image of her as helpless (oops that’s gonna cause some drama)

jamal: how he sees himself: just a chill guy trying to get by. unremarkable. how others see him: ace is grateful for how forgiving he can be but is still terrified of him being angry over [spoilers], charity loves how sociable and fun he is and how protective he can be of his friends, kimberly secretly envies his carefree nature, and fabián sees him as a solid acquaintance to whom he did not give a good first impression

kimberly: how she sees herself: not good! if she can’t grow up fast and do science well then she’s useless how others see her: ace wants to be friends with her but doesn’t know how to do that, charity is annoyed by her rule-bound-ness, jamal thinks she’s cool but should unwind a little, and fabián resents her at first but would still like to play chess with her sometime

fabián: how he sees himself: he has a moral responsibility to help people Or Else. way too anxious and stuck up but he doesn’t know how to change that how others see him: ace fuckin Loves this guy, charity loves him too but she gets pissed when he tries to help her with anything, jamal genuinely thinks he’s a great guy and wants to get to know him better, and kimberly is actually impressed by him and envies his apparent confidence and charisma

ok ok that’s it i promise. sorry this is so long and tysm for reading if you made it this far!! feel free to ask more oc questions literally whenever, that goes for anyone reading this <3

#pey talks #ocs tag #this was so fun to write thank you for asking ;-;#ace #avani #calira #carter #charity #fabián #farhan #jamal #jizoriel #kimberly #sam

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So I have, like...a lot of main F/Os at the moment, more than I wish I did, but feelings are feelings so what can you do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I’ve been a little bit too busy to finish fics or anything else to properly celebrate Heart Day, but my feelings have certainly been going strong, and since I’m only really good at rambling nowadays I decided I’d write a post where I say a little bit about what I like most/what’s most special to me about my current mains...that seemed about as good an idea as any for a Valentine’s Day offering, and it gives me an opportunity to cry about all of them while also encouraging me not to go overboard, else this end up turning into like a 50 page essay about why random anime man #11 makes me swoon

Going under the cut for length reasons, naturally, and I hope everyone is having a lovely day with their F/Os and loved ones, familial or romantic or platonic, and everything in between! You’re certainly special and loved and appreciated, and I hope none of you ever forget that 💕💕💕💕💕

I guess I’m just going to separate this by character and I’ll go down my list as it’s organized on my carrd, because that seemed like the easiest and most straightforward method lol. I apologize if I end up running out of steam near the end since this is going to encompass like 12 characters and that’s quite a bit of writing for me. I’ll try to keep each description to about a paragraph just for ease of reading and for my own sanity lol.

Saruhiko: I feel like I’m just going to repeat what I already rant about daily when it comes to him, but Saruhiko might legitimately be the love of my life lmao. I know that’s a fairly bold claim to make but he’s stuck around for so long, and my feelings for him came back so strong…remembering how I felt about him back when his series was airing, how I’ve felt getting to read and watch new material that I didn’t even know about, getting to know him more and grow with him and still have him here with me after everything…I just love him. He’s not perfect, but neither am I, and his character has helped me with so many things. I’m sad I’ll never really be able to properly thank him for everything he’s done for me, but Saruhiko just means the world to me, he’s special and amazing and I’m so glad I discovered him, that I revisited his source material, and that he’s stuck around with me even to this day.

Dazai: Another character that I used to like and ended up revisiting and I still can’t tell if it was a mistake or not, but in reality I really am glad he came back into my life. I really went off the rails back when I first discovered his series, I connected with it so personally as a writer myself, the animation and character designs are gorgeous, and the story is pretty unique if not convoluted at times (but what shounen anime isn’t lol.) I connected with him on a more personal level due to where I was in my life at the time and the issues we share (and continue to), things related to self acceptance and self deprecation, and the best ways to deal with that. Dazai’s existence itself helped me not feel as bad about myself, or feel so alone in my struggles, and I’m very grateful that he came back into my life and is still with me now, even if it’s only been a short time. It turns out my feelings didn’t really fade that much over time (which seems to be a trend with me) so :) I guess that’s good lol.

Alastor: Really embarrassed to be talking about this asshole at all but like oh my god. Oh my GOD I wish I could say I have no idea how he rooted himself so deeply in my heart but I know exactly why, and that’s why I continue to love him as much as I do. Aside from letting me explore some darker themes in terms of my selfshipping, Alastor’s personality is just…really appealing to me? Everything about his mannerisms and gestures is enjoyable to watch, and who he is as a character is just endlessly interesting to me. He also gives me the opportunity (as most of my selfships do) to feel like even someone as popular and powerful as him could still have feelings for me, and more than that, have me as their most important person. The confidence and general self worth boost that he and all of my F/Os give me is phenomenal and more meaningful than it probably should be, but it’s there and I’ll never stop being grateful for it. Falling for him really was an accident but once I’d taken the plunge there was no going back, and he’s already been with me through some considerably rough situations despite my only knowing him a short time…I’m so glad to know him and I really don’t regret stumbling upon him and ending up in this predicament because it’s really just been more of a gift in my eyes!

Mordecai: This poor man that has been in my life consistently since I started putting all my selfshipping antics on a blog, I never talk about him but he’s so immensely important to me. The fact that I didn’t even go into his source material planning on liking him, and that I was kind of put off by his design at first, but now I love everything about him…true irony lol. He shares a lot of similarities with Saruhiko and Dazai in terms of personality and development (although leaning much more heavily on the Saruhiko side when it comes to personality lol) and I’ve been ensnared and intrigued by his journey from the moment I was properly introduced to him. He’s exactly my type and I’ll never stop being grateful to my friend that introduced me to this webcomic, a combination of cats and 1920s aesthetic, which happen to be two of my favorite things! Mordecai hasn’t been at the front of my mind as often as the others but he has always been lingering in the background, sometimes wandering but never fading, and I appreciate his presence and having the opportunity to love and adore him as much as I appreciate getting to do that with all of my F/Os, old or new!

Desair: Another character from a webcomic that a friend introduced me to (or rather manga, but it is available to read online, and yes I am going to plug this and say it’s a series I highly recommend 👀) and yet another case of “I went into this expecting to like someone else and now I couldn’t care less about that person and I’d lay down my life for this character.” Desair checks the boxes of the tragic backstory that so many of my F/Os seem to have (gotta love that angst I guess) but also so many things about his character interest me. He did a pretty bad thing and suffered the consequences for it, after already losing so much, thinking that it would help him get revenge for those things that he’s already lost. His story hasn’t progressed too much further beyond that, but I’m so eager to see more about how his development will go from here and how he’ll make things up to those he harmed, although he can’t bring back anything he ruined, and seeing him suffer more consequences of that will be interesting too. But he is genuine and caring, if not a little misguided, and despite how obscure he is I wouldn’t trade him or his love for anything else, I absolutely adore him! ;w;

Nishiki: Oh this sunshine boy, the first really positive one on this list lol! I’ve never played any of the Fire Emblem games myself, even this one, and I only really know what I’ve been able to piece together through my own research and what I’ve learned through friends. I admittedly only sought him out because a friend of mine mentioned he was a kitsune character you could date (and she knows how I feel about kitsune lol) but the more I’ve gotten to know him the more I’ve come to appreciate him for everything he is? He’s so caring and positive and uplifting, he looks out for others and he’s very adamant about not taking advantage of people. He tries to help people when he can and seems to enjoy the simple pleasures like the happiness of others, and I can’t accurately convey how much that means to me. He’s just a big support for me that I honestly didn’t expect to love as much as I do, but I’m so glad I discovered him and I know I can always count on him to be the light that helps stave off the darkness a bit if I ever feel it bearing down on me too heavily.

Yasaburo: I’d say Yasaburo is another type that’s a lot like Nishiki, and not just because he’s a tanuki lol. He’s from a really obscure show I started watching on a whim and good GOD am I beyond grateful that I did. His show is one I have a hard time describing and putting into words, because while the plot may be pretty straight forward, the feeling it gives you (or rather, that it gave me) is just…so special. It made me feel a way no other show ever has, and I never even intended to get an F/O out of it, but I guess by the end I was just won over by his lighthearted charm. He’s also a very uplifting and easygoing person, to the point of it being a problem, but he genuinely cares about his friends and family and I think at the core of it all he just wants people to be happy, and that’s what he wants for himself, too. A pretty respectable desire imo, and like Nishiki he’s the type of person that can always just make me smile. He’s goofy and doesn’t take things too seriously, and that helps him have a different perspective on things, one that helps me take a step back and not get swallowed up by my own spiraling thoughts and insecurities when they start to pile up.

Ren: Still one of my top 2-3, but I moved him around for reasons I’m going to completely ignore for the remainder of this post. Ren is such a special character to me, he and Saruhiko are like a kind of pair in my head, because I set my anniversary with both of them on the same day and they’ve both been my mains consistently for pretty much the same amount of time! I say it time and time again but I love how understanding and comforting Ren in…that’s the biggest thing, he’s just such a comfort. He came into my life at a time when I really needed him and he’s been in and out for a bit, but when he came back to stay it really meant a lot to me. He’s been through a lot himself but he didn’t let it break him or sour him to the point of bitterness, and I respect him so much for that. He could be hateful and angry and hopeless but he’s not, and never was, and he does his best to ensure none of his friends or the people he cares about fall prey to that kind of negativity, either. He’s always willing to give someone a second chance and hear them out before he makes any judgments, and that’s been a saving grace for me, I can never repay him enough for how much his kindness and compassion means to me and has done for me.

Yuki: This man has been around since I was in, like, middle school, and the fact that his show got a proper reboot last year almost obliterated me. Yuki has suffered so, so much, and his growth through all of the hardship is one of the most beautiful and significant character arcs in the world to me. Just wanting to be special to someone, to provide something only you can, to find some proof that anything or anyone else needs you to exist and you do have a purpose…I’m getting a little teary just typing all this up lol. The way he learns to grow and accept himself while also not excusing the past, but knowing there’s nothing you can to do change it, and holding on to the bad things only keeps you from being happy in the present. His support, like the rest of my F/Os, has meant the world to me, as well as an understanding that only he can have as a result of his experiences. I wish he didn’t have to go through what he did, but I love him as he is from top to bottom, and knowing he would do the same for me really just makes me speechless and keeps my heart warm. 💕💕💕

Zidane: Another character who’s been with me for forever, I knew about him all the way back in elementary school, although he didn’t come to mean what he does to me now until much later lol. I was obviously too young to really feel anything at that time, but the fact that he stuck in my head enough that I was able to recognize and revisit him through an obscure picture I saw that just brought all my feelings and memories of that time long ago flooding back…it will always be so special to me. He will always be so special to me. Another character that was just trying to find proof and meaning in his existence, that just wants to help others be their happiest selves, that wants to see people smile and would do absolutely anything for his friends. He can get carried away with the teasing at times, but so do many of my F/Os, especially the more positive oriented ones like Nishiki and Yasaburo, who form a category that of course also includes him. There’s even more nostalgia involved in my love for him than with Yuki, but I’ve never been especially sentimental about things like that. What matters most is how I feel about them now, and Zidane is yet another character that just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and happy inside. He makes me smile.

Tomoe: I have a complicated relationship with Tomoe and his series, and I go back and forth on my feelings for him, but I do undeniably love him. Of course I was drawn to him at first by his kitsune features, but finding out more about his losses, his issues with abandonment, and his genuine desire to take care of people he cares about despite his protests only made me love him more. He’s got his own share of baggage and he has to deal with a lot, and even if he still struggles to show his kindness every now and then, it never fails to shine through with the people he truly cares about most when it counts. Beneath all his fussing and quick temper he’s actually quite gentle and sweet, and I’ve always just wanted to give him the love he desires so that he doesn’t have to project that hardened exterior all the time. He makes me feel loved and protected and special in return, so I’d say that’s a pretty fair trade :)

Felix: PHEW this poor man…who I only moved up to this list recently, and only as a result of some chaos that was ensuing in his fandom. I have a long and rocky history with said fandom and series, one that of course I’m not going to get into right now, but what I can say with absolute certainty is that I love and adore this man just the way he is. Even if he has a cold, closed off exterior, deep down he just wants to be loved and accepted like anyone else. He was forced into a position he didn’t want, but I think he’s made the best of it, and even learned more about himself and how to allow himself to be more vulnerable with people as a result. My relationship with him isn’t as defined, so I don’t have as much to say in terms of development and the concrete ways he makes me feel, but I have an undeniable affection for him that I don’t think will ever truly fade. I just want him to be appreciated and if no one else will, I am certainly here to do the job, and do it right!

It seems I didn’t actually run out of steam by the end of this, which makes me really happy, and I think I even had more I could say about many of them, but I’ll quit while I’m ahead and just leave it at this for now. If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading and giving this silly little post (and my silly little thoughts) the time of day, I genuinely appreciate it and I hope your day is filled with all the love and affection you deserve (which is an infinite amount!) because you all matter and deserve that kind of attention just as much as anyone else :D

#ck.txt #self insert journal #self insert rambling #and now for the tags...#scepter 4 sweethearts #something to live for #poor unfortunate souls #i wish i were this ficus #the only exception #kitsune kisses #tanuki boyfriend #thief of my heart #cat and mouse #you're not alone #burning love #bad luck black cat #AND THAT'S ALL OF THEM i'm not saying anymore in the tags bcuz it's all in this post #my brain is smoking thank you for reading

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