#trying my best to not go insane

[verflares]

i thought i felt your shape, but i was wrong. really all i felt was falsely strong, i held on tight and closed my eyes. it was dumb, i had no sense of your size. it was dumb to hold so tight.

also on inprnt :]

[im-not-a-college-dropout]

Nov 7

so, every time that i go home i go home with a long list of things that i want to complete. over the summer, it was getting my license, maintaining my job, working on selling earrings again. i always overwhelm myself when i make these kinds of lists. i feel like, though it gives me a reasonably list of things to do, it gets really overwhelming, and i don't know how to process each of the things on the list and i can't get things done.

during my leave, i wanted my list of things to do to be short, but it always gets longer because of the expectation that i will have free time to be willing to do other things, like spending time with my extended family and making dentist appointments and going to check in. my initial list was simple: get a therapist. i've been working through my insurance and i know that i've only been home for two days, but i want this to kind of be a done deal and it's not. i'm sitting and consistently waiting for responses on things. because there are very few official tasks that i need to do, i am very bored. my friends that are here are in school, and i don't want to be a distraction from people who actually could deal with struggling with their mental health while they are in college.

today, i think that i just slept and avoided my mom. i forgot that she stresses me out sometimes and it makes it stressful, especially because i know that she's not going to get my little quirks as well as the people that i have only lived with for a couple of months-- how i like the actual instant white rice and how i like to spend time talking about some levels of politics, and that i like not being referred to as a daughter or a girl or a she. i watched kids cartoons and i finally got the motivation to go eat some basmatti rice (after washing and soaking it properly unlike my sister does). i kind of wish that i had saved some of the water as a hair rinse for the future, but it's okay, maybe the next time that i spend time washing the rice. i didn't really wat to eat, but one of my goals is to eat more meals per day so i can feel a bit better and have a bit more energy, but it is very difficult for me to manage to eat more than once or twice a day because my dietg is so restricted and i like my food to be exactly as i want it or i won't eat it. it's hard for my mom to understand why a 20 year old wants to live off of grilled cheese and apple sauce, but as long as i don't think about those foods too much, i am completely satisfied with it. I don't know if that is something that i want to explain because it goes back to therapy and the diagnosis process for autism which is frustrating and scary as someone who is afab and a black person. i have had so many feelings about it recently.

so tonight, i am going to do my voter research and hope that it doesn't stress me out, do some origami as a birthday gift for my friend and my (fake) girlfriend. i'm also going to listen to some music or a podcast while i do. i kind of want to take a long drive and listen to a full podcast, but i'm not sure if that is something in the cards at the moment.

[bertoyana]

charles and erik with each other: oh dear, oh dear. gorgeous 🥺👐 charles and erik with the villain of the week/the x-men: K1LL YOURSELF 🔥🔥🔥

X-Men: First Class (2011) | X-Men Apocalypse (2016)

[grand-line-shenanigans]

do not disturb. watching world hoppers (again)

[beanghostprincess]

Luffy not knowing about Zoro promising Sanji to kill him if he ever ends up losing himself makes me go feral because that's something they can only know about. Because Zoro's respect for life and death goes beyond anything, and Sanji knows he understands. Sanji knows that if somebody has to kill him, it's him.

And I don't even think it's because Sanji assumes Zoro's opinion of him is hatred and it would hurt less for him to do this, but because Sanji knows only Zoro would be able to treat the promise as it is. Because he would put Sanji's wishes before any feelings he has for him. It's not that Zoro doesn't care, but I think he respects people's ideals and decisions to the extent of being able to kill Sanji if he so desires.

That being said, he'd do it if there's no other way to fix it. If it's either dying or living as an emotionless machine, which is the same as dying for Sanji, Zoro would fulfill his promise. And there is just... Something about Luffy not knowing. Their captain. The man they're devoted to the most as if he were their God. Luffy doesn't know. It's something only the captain's wings are aware of and the thought of these two keeping this from Luffy until the end is just insane. Not even trying to make it romantic here, but the bond and respect these two have for each other is crazy.

Maybe it's the poetry of it all, too. Somebody like Zoro, who has looked at Death in her face multiple times and said "no", ending Sanji's life, who wants to give in to death to not experience a fate worse than death for him.

[kagoutiss]

oot zelda doodle i liked :’-)))

[avephelis]

every time someone mischaracterises jay ferin as the therapist friend a fairy loses its wings btw. put some respect on her emotionally-constipated ass.

[puppyeared]

Was nobody gonna warn me that I would fall a little bit in love with every character in Stardew

[marclef]

alright.... SO. since there has been.... a very big influx of people asking for Fake Peppino hugs. i have taken the liberty of making this easier for myself and shoved them all into (mostly) one drawing!! hooray!!!

(aside from 2 that i couldn't fit, and felt like drawing differently. but... you'll see!)

but anyways, i hereby present... THE FAKE PEPPINO HUG PILE!!!

featuring the hug-ees @noodletime (don't worry, he's been given VERY strict rules not to eat you.), @juliatv, @lavenderrvalleyy, @cyanityinsanity101, @yoyosiuwu, @hamsterrodent, and @creat0rstudi0! i hope i drew you all right 🤗😊

.... and now, two more Fakeys for your (hopefully) viewing pleasure!!

for the lovely @thatspecificanomaly, with their "Fake" Brick... i think getting a hug might be a bit too dangerous for them though, Fake seems fairly suspicious...... 👀💧

and then for my friend @abbyroseflame24, because i couldn't figure out where the heck to fit her into the big drawing... so she gets a full-body snuggle instead 🤗

(... phew, that's like 10 asks out of the way now at least 😅)

[carpathiians]

dug up my oldddd tiny wacom i used to draw with as a kid </3

[skunkes]

(trying to be) happy to be here

[moeblob]

son boy raccoon trash can man suffering in a dnd au as a cleric bc his warlock will not stop committing murders and he has to keep coming up with reasons murder is valid to convince the gm its fine and under control

[ozzo-the-wozzo]

Trying to explain Adrien’s subplot in miraculous to anyone but it’s just this:

[thestarlightforge]

“COME WITH ME”

[spookythesillyfella]

here's an assortment of tsp doodles ive made on magma together with my wonderful older brother @chamom1le-t3a ^_^

+ an extra doodle of me nd hv tony for funsies under cut

happy pride . fruit bat 💌💌🌈🌈

[dailyserirei]

Ooh what if Serirei just talking with their past selves, it could be chaotic with past Reigen being extremely energetic, but just imagine kid Seri too being so anxious and his future self helping him out. Now past Seri has a friend weee

OUGH!!!!! ageswap au is great actually that i went a little too far made a comic something like this

Serizawa to his 14 years old self (quite long):

Reigen to his 14 years old self: