#toxic!prinxiety

[cofe-doodles]

As I mentioned in my previous post, I will be explaining - in detail - the different au's I have of the sides. During the time I was active in the fandom, I made a lot of au's; some I remember, whilst others I don't. I will try to remember discarded au's as well just so that I can give you all content (and maybe drawings, but most of my content - as for now, since I am busy in school - will be in writing). So, without further ado, the first au we will be discussing is the:

Heather's AU!

Character Information:

Virgil Sawyer

Once popular turned outcast; Sawyer lives his high school life low-key. After graduation and upon entering the dreaded life of a high schooler, Sawyer finds himself in a mess; torn between his best friend and a chance at happiness again.

He wouldn't say that he didn't miss popularity because, in truth, he did. He missed having friends who would have his back and he missed the feeling of freedom; wherein everyone doesn't care what he does because he was one of the 'popular kids'.

So, between his life, the life of his best friend, and the lives of the innocent, Sawyer faces the most difficult choice of his life yet. Become a popular again or risk losing his sanity; he hesitates just once before making a choice.

Roman Sanders-Chandler

Rich, famous, and undeniably gorgeous, Chandler has the whole school wrapped around his pretty finger. Having been born in a rich family, problems for him were as easy as typing out his credit card info. The easy life was what he always had wanted, but the climax of his story was just nearing.

Fixated over the 'new' kid, Chandler finds himself drawn to a classmate. He swears he has seen him before, but can't really remember where and when.

There's nothing that stops him from reaching out, maybe even offering something he never offers to anybody. What can he say? The Sawyer kid caught his eye.

Logan Duke-Sanders

Obedient, intelligent, and often ignored by the king bee. Duke had always been the black sheep but that didn't stop him from achieving higher than any of his peers. He metaphorically crawled his way to the top; to where he is now, so why in the loving freak of nature is Sawyer doing in their table?

Confused and utterly mortified, Duke tries to understand why the self proclaimed king bee invited an outcast into their circle. Unwanted thoughts of what if's metaphorically knocked his noggin, a sense of rejection hitting him.

Was he being replaced by a former somebody?

Patton McNamara-Sanders

Ever smiling and ever laughing McNamara; the sweet lamb of the wolf pack. People often see him as the 'friendliest' Sanders which he takes advantage of. What can McNamara say? It was just that easy to fool people these days. Manipulative and charming; a dangerous combination.

So it's not a surprise as to why Sawyer opened up to him first. With the given information from the former outcast, McNamara can either break or make Sawyer; but don't tell Chandler that.

McNamara keeps secrets, like everyone in high school, but he feels like he can trust Sawyer.

Janus De Felice

With physical scars that reminded him of his past, De Felice moves out of his father's house and into a new city, meeting new people; meeting a potential boyfriend. The mystery of his past seemed to have Sawyer on a leash, and maybe De Felice doesn't really mind that.

Remus Sanders-Ancar

Moving from school to school due to his 'bad' behavior, Ancar finds himself in the same school where his wannabe cousin was. He decided to get himself suspended but reconsidered when meeting a winsome boy with the cutest eyes.

Relationships:

Virgil - Roman, Logan, & Patton

Virgil has mixed feelings about the three considering that he always viewed them as up-tight and mean people.

Roman - Virgil

Roman is interested in Virgil; not in a romantic sense but something close to that. Though, he flirts with Virgil a lot of times.

Logan - Virgil

Logan doesn't really like Virgil but flirts with him due to Roman.

Patton - Virgil

Patton feels indifferent of Virgil.

Virgil - Janus & Remus

Virgil likes them both, but it's not necessarily romantic. He just feels comfortable with the two since they don't really care about status or reputation.

Janus - Virgil

Janus has romantic feelings for Virgil considering the fact that Virgil is really easy going compared to other people. It's mostly because it's convenient.

Remus - Virgil

Remus has an unhealthy fixation towards Virgil; it started as a way to spite his cousin (Roman) but it grew to be an unhealthy obsession.

Janus - Roman

Janus doesn't like Roman but flirts with him to spite Remus.

Remus - Roman

Both hate each other.

Janus - Logan

Janus doesn't particularly like Logan.

Remus - Logan

Remus likes to flirt with Logan just to spite Roman.

Janus - Patton

Janus hates Patton.

Remus - Patton

Remus likes Patton because of his manipulative nature.

Roman - Logan & Patton

Roman considers them as friends. He likes hanging out with them because they let him be 'in control'.

Logan - Roman & Patton

Logan looks up to Roman in an unhealthy way, he also kind of has a crush on Roman because of the power Roman has on him. Logan likes Patton since both have different views that they can talk about.

Patton - Roman & Logan

Patton admires Roman openly. He also likes Logan and is very honest about his feelings for the two.

I'll add more as I build the world and story :)

[where-are-the-spooky-gays-2]

The only thing that kept me sane for like two years was tumblr and shitty AO3 fanfics, AND EVEN THEN I COULDN’T FIND MANY 🙁☹️

As someone who's been shipping them since late 2019 - early 2020 I can confirm those kept me sane too but mostly the fact that I'm an ✨editor who occasionally writes and thinks about nothing but T H E M <3 on the daily✨

[lio-the-chaotic-nonbeanie-weenie]

and i’m still in it but i’ve long stopped believing this fandom is positive. i feel dumb for even saying so. man growing up and watching fandoms fall sucks. and i don’t even wanna join another fandom because i’m not dealing with more toxic people and shit so i’m just clinging onto this one and taking what content i can.

Man the sanders sides fandom had some stupid stuff going on like 1 inch below the surface back in the day and we all just pretended we were peaceful huh

[firewolf111]

Temporarily closed

Creative block is a jerk and I'm bored so...

Comment a sanders sides ship and I'll write a small blurb for it. (Check my blog to see my writing style and what I mean by small blurb).

Rules:

Just the ship means I'll post a funny or sweet small convo between them.

You can add specifics like:

Scenario (ex. First kiss, confession, picnic, etc)

Angst. (Angst will most likely be longer than regular posts. Feel free to specify how angsty)

Other characters to make a cameo or interact.

Ace or aro characters or Qprs ( I will try my best to write it accurately).

Or just general dynamics or such

I will do:

Poly (gladly)

Potentially triggering Content (like anxiety attacks or violence etc) with tws

Headcannons or aus (if you specify it)

Angst or hurt/comfort

Qpr (as stated above)

I won't do:

Smut (innuendos or jokes are fine)

Remrom

Long form fics (yet, at least. Check my blog for what type of fics I write)

Toxic dynamics are a maybe (will determine by individual basis)

Some ships might be better written by me than others. I'll try my best.

I'll tag you in it unless you ask not to be tagged. Put "do not tag" or dnt or something if you don't want me to tag you for whatever reason. If multiple people want the same thing, I'll tag multiple people. Though if you asked for specifics, I'll tag you in only your specific request. (Like if someone wants specifically prinxiety angst, I won't tag them in the general Prinxiety and vice versa. Or if someone has a specific headcannon or au they want included)

I might miss people to tag, so check my blog for potential missed posts or if I've already done a ship.

Ship request posts will be tagged with "this wolf sets sail" (get it? My name is firewolf and I'm doing ships. So this wolf sets sail. Lol, this is stupid and I love it).

Go wild with requests. Who knows? Maybe this'll blow up enough I'll open commisions for longer fics.(lmao, not likely. This'll probably get 3 requests max. But imagine, lol)

[sxcrxtlxfx]

okay I need help I want to find a sanders sides fic I remember reading a few years back but I can't remember the name of it. luckily I remember every detail. it was logicality focused w prinxiety b plot. Logan was a florist and Thomas was pattons son. roman and Patton were brothers and Virgil was logans best friend. Logan had a toxic ex and the flower shop he ran belonged to his now deceased mother who I believe was named Minnie. someone please help me find it im desperate

[transfemlogan]

alternate timelime where instead of shitting on roceit & roceit shippers 4 shipping an "abusive & toxic ship", ppl shit on prinxiety & prinxiety shippers 4 the same rzns

[royall-ass]

do you like any of the sanders sides ships? If so what’s your fav?

YES!!!! ummm this is rlly hard tho,,,, on one hand i lovveeees logince just because i like their dynamic and the idea of them just jdsvhdhd

BUT i also like the possibilities with roceit,,,,,,, not necessarily fluffy possibilities, more toxic couple than anything,,,,,,, but possibilities nonetheless

and then on the other hand prinxiety holds a special place in my heart because they’re so silly and i love hoe they went from despising each other to bffs and and

[beansforwhat]

SONGS THAT MAKE ME THINK ABOUT SASI:

SHIP EDITION

Key!!

♡ indicates NSFW overtones; ♧ indicates implications of toxicity; ♤ indicates implications of violence

Your Stupid Face | Kaden MacKay (Anxceit)

♧ I Love You Like An Alcoholic | The Taxpayers (Anxceit)

8 | Billie Eilish (Anxceit)

Clarity | Zedd, Foxes (Anxceit)

Call Me What You Like | Lovejoy (Roceit or Anxceit)

Can I Have A Ride Home? I'm At A Party And Don't Know Any1 | carpetgarden (Roceit or Anxceit)

Rewrite The Stars | Zac Efron, Zendaya (Roceit)

♡ Like Lovers Do | Hey Violet (Roceit)

Every Note | Mystery Skulls (Roceit)

♡ Play Date | Melanie Martinez (Roceit)

Trust Me Not | Backseat Vagabond (Roceit or Prinxiety)

Red Flags | Tom Cardy (Roceit, Dukexiety or Dukeceit)

Horns | Bryce Fox (Roceit or Moceit)

Fight For Me | Heathers (Prinxiety)

♧♡ Mommy Fwiend | Penelope Scott (Prinxiety)

♤ The Dismemberment Song | Blue Kid (Dukexiety)

Mixed Messages | Tom Cardy (Dukexiety or Roceit)

The Zombie Song | Stephanie Mabey (Dukexiety or Intrulogical)

♡ Sex With A Ghost | Teddy Hyde (Dukeceit)

♡ Dead Girl Walking | Heathers (Dukeceit)

Pretty Little Psycho | TheExorcist (Dukeceit)

Partners In Crime | Set It Off, Ash Costello (Dukeceit)

♧ An Unhealthy Obsession | The Blake Robinson Synthetic Orchestra (Dukeceit)

�� The Red Means I Love You | Madds Buckley (Intrulogical or Dukeceit)

Friends Don't | Maddie & Tae (Moceit)

Take Me To Church | Hozier (Moceit)

Criminal | Britney Spears (Moceit or Intrulogical)

Ready Set, Not Yet | Beetlejuice (Logicality)

I Will Be There | The Count Of Monte Cristo (Royality)

MASTERPOST

[thegoldenduckie]

I dare you to rank all sanders sides ships on a scale of 1-10. At least, as many as you can think up of.

OOO SOUNDS FUN ANON! Ill try to get as many ships as i can (but not that one, you know which one)

Rankings under cut

btw i used fanlore.org to look for all the ships, so idk if each of the ship names are right

AND THIS IS JUST MY SILLY OPINION! IF YOU DISAGREE THATS ALRIGHT THIS IS JUST WHAT I THINK!

Loceit: 8/10 Really good, love it, love the content of it

Moceit: 50/10 MOCEIT IS MY OTP! MY EVERYTHING, MY ABSLOUTE FAVOURITE SHIP

Dukeceit/Demus: 7/10 Its really good! Lovee their dynamic, its a shame we dont see these guys interact in the show much :(

Roceit: 7/10 Love roceit, so many angst and fluffy opportunities, honestly love the angst

Thomceit: 5/10 Honestly im not enthusiastic about sides x Thomas ships, but they can be pretty sweet! This ones really good, i see the appeal

Anxceit: 9/10 AHGG THEM! Sooo good! As platonic, romantic, familiar, and bitter exes! Love it! So many fun amd angsty posibilites!

Logicality: 7.5/10 Its so adorable!! I loveee logicality fanart and fics! I really loved logicality when i first joined watched the show, so it gets an extra .5 for nostagic sake

Intrulogical: 10/10 like DUDE INTRULOGICAL MAKES ME FERAL! Its so silly and adorable and freaky ahsxhjlsxkjkjhsx

Logince: 9/10 aaa its sooo fun! Their chemistry is SO INCREDIBLE

Lomas: 5/10 Again, not big on thomas and side ships, but this ones pretty cute

Analogical: 10/10 YESSS! YES YES YES! I COULD TALK ABOUT THEM FOREVER! THEY MAKE ME SOO HAPPPPYYY!! ESPECIALLY AS QPPS!! AAAA I LOOOVVEEEE THEMMM SO MUCH!

Intruality: 6/10 I like it! Its growing on me! Has a lot of adorableness

Royality: 6/10 Love it platonic, indifferent to it as romantic, and its just very sweet and seeing content of it makes me smile

Momas: 5/10

Moxiety: 6/10 again, love it familar and platonic, with a father son relationship! Honestly dont like it romantic

Platonic Creativitwins: 9/10 Yes! The twins! I love them just being chaotic siblings, or even on good terms and having being good brothers to eachother

Intrumas: 4/10

Dukexiety: 7/10 I like it a lot!!

Prinxiety: 8/10 its reeaally adorble, honestly love it lots

Analogince (Lo/Ro/Virge): 7/10 cute!

Romas: 5/10

Thomxiety: 5.5/10 this ones pretty cute

Logicalceit (Jan/Lo/Pat): 8/10 Its content is soo sweet

Intruloceit (Jan/Lo/Rem): 9/10 YEAHH I LOVE IT!! MAKES ME FROTH AT THE MOUTH

Roloceit (Jan/Lo/Ro): 7/10 Seems loevly

Analoceit (Jan/Lo/Virge): 9/10 At first i was indifferent to it, but a certain mutual made me see how amazing this ship is

Intrualceit? (Jan/Pat/Rem): 5/10 i think thats the name

Royalceit (Jan/Pat/Ro): 5.5/10 havent seen much of it, but points for that sick name

Moxiceit? (Jan/Pat/Virge): 7/10 ive seen some cute suff with this, i think thats the name

Anxceitmus (Jan/Rem/Virge): 9/10 YESS! AAAAA THESE THREEE MAKE ME SOOOO INSANE!

Anaroceit/Prinxieceit (Jan/Ro/Virge): 8/10 so much potential for a toxic yoai polycule

Intrugicality (Lo/Pat/Rem): 5/10

Morolo/Moralogince (Lo/Pat/Ro): 8/10 SO ADORABLE

Analogicality? (Lo/Pat/Virge): 6/10 i think thats the name

Anaintrulogical? (Lo/Rem/Virge): 6/10 i can see the appeal, i think thats the name

Anaintruality? (Pat/Virge/Rem): 5/10 i think thats the name

Anaroyality? (Virge/Ro/Pat): 5/10 i think thats the name

LAMP/CALM: 9/10 LOOOVEE IT! I DO NOT MAKE ENOUGH CONTENT OF THEM! ITS SO ADORBLE

DLAMP: 7/10

DLAMPR: 8/10 YES! ONE BIG HAPPY POLYCULE! THE BEST KIND OF SHIP

Thanks for the ask anon! Again, all these rankings are just my opinion, please dont fight me

[rookaroos]

Just curious, do you take ships for requests?

depends, I wont do anything toxic or weird, but I'll do ships I dont ship! examples of what i will do could be things like prinxiety from ts or davekat from hs and things i wont do could be stuff like frans from ut or beta kids x alpha kids from hs :3

[meowthefluffy]

I'm only realizing this now, but we know Virgil struggles with saying that he loves Roman, and now when he was struck by that love arrow by Remus he just goes "I guess this means I love you twice as much now, right?" so that was tooth-rottingly sweet and enough to make me forget that Virgil is still thinking of leaving Roman because he doesn't wanna hurt him and he's such an idiot-

I know right!!?!??!!!! I was literally giggling and kicking my feet as I was writing and drawing that part it is so sweet.

I’m really having a lot of fun with this au, because most of my au’s end with Prinxiety getting together, or are like not obviously dating, So I don’t get to draw a lot of couple stuff,so it’s been so so so fun to draw a bunch of cute couples stuff that ALSO has plot implications because of this au’s ending!! I basically have created the perfect situation where I can draw fluffy sweet stuff that is literally all just them being in love and because the au dice knows where this au is going it’s really really sad!!!

I also really love the way in which I set up the characters, because their personal flaws/ insecurities perfectly loop back into the main plot and make everything so much worse, while also making sense!(and not being like, one of them being a toxic person)

I love writing Virgil’s hesitation around Roman because although it stays consistent throughout the story it shifts from, oh this is awkward I have to act romantic with this guy I am accidentally involved with, to oh I get all flustered when the guy I like acts all romantic with me and I get nervous when I have to initiate it, to oh I can’t have this I shouldn’t take more than I deserve.

I am so in love with this au

[tss-storytime-summaries]

40

Expected Rating: Teen

Warnings: Toxic Romantic Relationship, Alcoholism, Character Death, Slightly Unsympathetic Roman, Hinted at abuse? (Maybe, not fully sure if this will be part of the story yet), Suicidal and depressive themes/ideologies, Roman, Remus, and Virgil angst, Arguing, Cursing, Toxic Familial Relationship, Mental disorders? (May have to add or remove some trigger warnings as I actually start writing)

Characters: Roman, Remus, Janus, Virgil, Emile, Remy, Logan, and Patton.

Romantic Relationships: Prinxiety, Past Roceit

Summary: Roman can’t remember the last time he genuinely smiled or laugh. Life felt like nothing more than a vicious cycle. Every day blurring into one another. All unnecessarily meaningless and exhausting.

The world saw him as nothing more than a piece of entertainment. One of the most successful upcoming actors and singers. Another pretty face to envy on the other side of the tv screen. An untouchable being.

His boyfriend and brother saw him as nothing more but a shell of his former self. A soulless body that once housed an energetic, fun-loving, and caring guy. A painful reminder of how a rose withers over time. A once warm and inviting heart now cold and callous.

Roman doesn’t know how long he’ll continue surviving this way. His heart aches to feel again. He wants to love the only two people who are still by his side no matter how awful he is. All he needs is a meaning. But he doesn’t know if he’ll ever find it.

[non-binary-nightmare]

You need me.

Warnings: kidnapping; mentions of killing; yandere!character(it’s in the tags)

Just something to try and get out of my writers block.

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“It’s been 4 months since we’ve met. Now, I know that’s not a whole lot of time but I know for sure that I’m in love with you. I know you don’t feel the same way and I know that it’s going to take time but you’ve got to see if from my perspective. Think about it. You’re handsome, funny, always smiling. How can I just stand by and watch people hurt you constantly?

Now, I know you don’t see it just yet but believe me, you will. I mean come on! You couldn’t see it before but Patton was lying when he said he loved you! And-And Janus! He talked about you behind your back all the time! You can’t read people like I can. I could just tell by the way Janus was looking at you that he was only hanging out with you out of pity. He’s a liar!

Alright, I’m sorry. I’m being a little extra. Okay listen, you don’t understand. That’s fine. Let me just explain some things to you. I had to kill them! If I didn’t, they would’ve hurt you! And I can’t sit by and watch you get hurt. You’re too precious.

Okay, I understand that given the circumstances, you don’t wanna hear my side of the story. But, give it some time! I just need you to give me the password to your phone and laptop. It’s fine if you don’t, I’ll just figure it on my own. You’re not too complicated, I’m sure I could find something that would tell me the passwords.

I just need to be able to post on your social media, that way, no one comes looking for you. Then, you’ll be all mine! Think about it, you won’t have to do anything! I’ll take care of you! You won’t have to work, you won’t have to cook, or worry! Nothing! So, what do you say, Roman?” Virgil said, ripping the duck tape off of Roman’s mouth. “Let me go! You’re psycho!”

“I love you!” Virgil said, forcing a kiss upon Roman’s mouth.

“Get away from me!”

“Fine! I’ll just have to leave you here until you can understand that I am doing this for your own good.” Virgil said, grabbing his backpack and heading out of the basement. “I will not be coming down here for a week. Then, maybe you’ll realize what I did for you! And how much you need me!” Virgil left, turning off the light and locking the door behind him and leaving Roman tied up to a chair in the middle of the room, in the dark. “Hey! Get back down here! You can’t just leave me down here! Please! Just let me go! I won’t tell anyone!”

Eventually, Roman got tired of yelling and struggling, and accepted that he wasn’t getting out of here. Maybe he’ll just have to do as he’s told. Then maybe, just maybe, he’ll be let out.

[lovelivingmydreams]

Toxic comfort part 2

Ok so this was supposed to be a two parter... But it’s still too long so enjoy part 2 part 3 is in the works. If you missed Part one or need a reminder Here’s the link. Check the trigger warning cause this is some dark writing.

Your healer… What were they like?” Anxiety asked as he was removing thorns from a wound covering most of Roman’s back. It was not a bad wound but it required time and care to clean. Which was perfect.

“Hm?” Roman wondered. His face buried in his soft fluffy pillow, enjoying the soft waves of energy washing over him as Anxiety worked. Every brush of his fingers was revitalizing and much more relaxing than it should be. He barely registered the pain of the injury, and that was not completely due to the painkillers or numbing cream Anxiety had applied at the start of tonight’s treatment. Getting kicked in the back by the hoof of a minotaur, take several hits from his whip and landing in a rosebush right after finally defeating him probably left a ghastly sight… okay that probably sounds like a really bad wound but it was fine really. Not that he’d be able to convince Anxiety of that. Luckily he’d managed to make his way from the door to the bed without showing him his back, successfully avoiding being half carried. He knew Anxiety didn’t like proximity like that and he would not force more of it upon him than needed. He owed him that much courtesy. “The ones who’d take care of this if I wasn’t here?” his unexpected medic clarified. “Oh,” Roman murmured disinterested. “Well, they are highly skilled of course and quite attentive. The way you expect the personal physician of a crown prince to be,” Roman explained casually. “Must be nice, getting pampered in a big ass castle,” the dark clad man mused. “It is okay,” Roman admitted. “There are definitely some upsides to getting patched up in my room here though,” he continued. “What’s that?” Anxiety asked, sounding genuinely curious. ‘You.’ Roman thought. But aloud he said: “Central heating.” Anxiety chuckled at that. A surprising sound from the otherwise so tightly wound man.

“Getting bandaged in a cold room is not pleasant!” Roman insisted.

“It's your fantasy world. Can't you just… make the room a good temperature?”

Roman scoffed. “Are you accusing me of being lazy?” he challenged.

“I was accusing you of being practical. I now see my mistake though.” Roman had to fight not to laugh. That would definitely be painful right now and he didn’t think the bliss of Anxiety’s hyper focused attention would overpower that.

“Remus does stuff just because. I have rules to things. Besides, even if I wanted to, the imagination responds to my mood too. It's hard imagining pleasant things when I feel miserable,” he explained. It was true. That was what started this whole thing in the first place. “That makes sense,” Anxiety said. Suddenly Roman realized that the darker side was attempting small talk. It was unexpected to say the least. To do so implied a deeper care than Roman ever thought Anxiety was able to extend to him. Something beyond his sense of duty towards them as parts of Thomas. The realization lit a spark within his core. Craving more of the rush this brought, and genuinely wanting to return the favor he scrambled for a topic. “Were you truly that bothered by the whole changing thing?” he asked. “What?” “Thomas’ friends I mean… Personally I liked trying out different looks. Don’t you ever… Just try something new?” he wondered.

Anxiety scoffed. “We just went over how I feel about change Charming,” he deadpanned. The nickname had no insulting twist though. Even the sarcasm wasn’t as thick as he expected it to be… wait was Roman’s room affecting him? He'd joked about it once. Maybe Anxiety had ran off then because it was true.

“Yes, I know… I meant small things though. Like your outfit for example. I think you'd look quiet fetching in purple,” he offered. Anxiety was quiet for a little. Just when Roman started to wonder if he’d decided to cease the talking all together he spoke. “Thanks I guess,” he muttered. That was the end of the conversation though. And they didn’t talk again after that outside of the next video. Roman had quite enjoyed their cartoon adventure. When he came back from his adventure unharmed, for the first time in a while, he tried to strike up a conversation about it with Anxiety. He wanted to try if small talk was as effective as medical care. He might be able to set his pride aside every once in a while if it worked well enough. Who knew? In recent months he’d learned a lot about Anxiety and he had his good points. Not just as a side but as a person. So maybe, they could be frenemies. That was a thing they could do right? Often opposing one another but getting along? Anxiety was rude and dismissive today though and Roman took great offence. He was sulking and moping for the rest of the week. He didn’t even go on any adventures. It was a drain on him but he didn’t want to be around Anxiety if he was going to be like that. He managed to get a bit of a pick me up from Logan and Patton during a family night as it was his turn to pick the activities and he knew exactly which ones to pick to get a little boost. So he was doing fine really. Maybe he’d invite Anxiety over again next week though. Maybe he’d be extra attentive after the radio silence? If he was still like that Roman would get to the bottom of it. Anxiety’s moods normally never lasted too long, so if he was not over it by now something had to be wrong. He was appreciative enough of the gloom and doomer’s care to want to return the favor to some extent. And then it was time for a new video. And Roman noticed Anxiety didn’t show up when he normally would have. Invited or not. And he found it unsettling. Their banter was comedy gold after all. And he’d kind of hoped to see that naysayer’s face again to see if he was still on his bad mood trip before going on a mission again. He couldn’t show it though. Nor his terror as Logan explained that Anxiety had left them. He tried his best to convince everyone including himself that it was no big deal. He’d been fine before Anxiety started taking care of him. He’d be fine again. Never mind the fact that after the Disney debate and all of their bantering he’d kind of been hoping for a more friendly relation between them in the future. And sure, he wasn’t too excited about how Thomas was acting… It felt harder to reach him if he was honest. But that could be fixed. He didn’t need Anxiety that bad. It was fun for a while but he’d always known that sooner or later Anxiety would let him down. He hadn’t come to rely on him that much. He could figure something out.

But, to his secret relief, Patton and Logan refused to let it be and they went to Anxiety’s room. The second Anxiety made himself known again, Thomas was back to being a functioning human being. Someone Roman and the others could actually work with. Which was definitely a relief. But that relief was rather short lived as a feeling of wrongness slowly crept up on Roman. Anxiety arguing that he was not needed added guilt and worry and the start of genuine panic. But he didn’t know how to convey that. When he tried to be diplomatic and understanding of Anxiety, his thoughts were a complete mess and his already conflicting views on the vigilant side had him feeling very disoriented. Eventually though he managed to convey a sincere and passionate defense of his now former enemy’s contributions, though he still felt it wasn't enough. How could it be enough? How could he ever be enough? And then, just as he felt he was about to fall into an abys of paralyzing fear, Anxiety guided them out. Or rather, Virgil, guided them out. Roman turned the name around and around in his head as he knocked on his new ally’s door.

He really did like it. It felt right. “No.” Virgil greeted when he saw who was at the door. “So you don’t want to watch Disney with me?” Roman asked quickly before Virgil could close it again. This gave the darker man pause. “You… Want to watch Disney movies… With me?” he verified. Roman nodded. “I wanted to suggest it last time you… were over, but you were in a bad mood so… I suppose I now know why. I shouldn’t have given you the silent treatment in rebuttal. Bad timing I suppose,” he laughed awkwardly. Virgil took him in for a moment. “You don’t have to feel like it’s an obligation. If you want me to leave you alone then I will. I just… I thought it might be nice to spend time together outside of purpose related things?” the thespian explained clumsily.

Virgil searched his face. “You really mean it?” he realized. Oh of course. From where Virgil stood, this came out of nowhere. He should better explain himself… but…

“I… mind if we continue this in my room? This is not a place for heart to hearts and while I would like to meet you on your own territory… I’ve had more than my fill of that for a while,” he tried to joke. It fell flat but the lack of deadpan remark hopefully meant the effort was appreciated. “Yeah. Okay let’s go.” Virgil allowed. Roman let out a sigh of relief and led the way to his room where a pillow fort and projector was set up, as well as sufficient snacks. Virgil whistled impressed. “You don’t half ass anything do you Princey?” he smirked. Roman was pleasantly surprised when the snarky complement had a similar effect to disinfecting and bandaging a shallow cut. In addition he felt pretty proud. Getting Virgil’s praise was a hard earned privilege. “Why thank you stormy knight,” he said with a bow before they both settled in the fort.

Virgil looked at the selection impressed. “Alice in wonderland, black cauldron, treasure planet, nightmare before Christmas,… if I didn't know any better I’d think you were trying to impress me,” Virgil joked. Roman thought it sounded like it was working.

“Well it wouldn’t be much of an olive branch if I didn't try to be accommodating,” he offered.

Virgil nodded. “Okay. So… you… you really were planning something like this? Before today I mean?” he asked tentatively. It was odd to hear him so fragile. It was like after everything  that happened today, his guards had come crashing down. Roman realized that he'd been granted glimpses of the other side off those walls whenever he'd been seriously hurt, but never the full visual. “Yes. I… I realized that I didn’t… That I was enjoying it, when we weren’t at each other’s throats and I thought it was maybe worth a shot. After you made the effort to initiate small talk I could at least try to initiate a bonding activity. On top of that you’d inspired that day’s adventure and participated, reluctantly, but you did it. It was only right you’d be rewarded. I know I didn’t respond well to your refusal. I wish I had been more attentive towards your mood. I was planning on asking next time I saw you, if you still seemed upset. But that was too late,” he sighed regretfully. He could’ve prevented this if he hadn’t let his wounded pride get in the way. “Small Talk?” Virgil frowned. “When you asked about my realm and it’s inhabitants,” Roman reminded him confused.

Virgil’s eyes widened and it was hard to see underneath the foundation, but what little color he had seemed to evaporate. Then he looked away, very pointedly not saying anything. “Virgil?” Roman pressed carefully. “I… It didn’t start as small talk. I… I asked cause I…” Realization dawned on Roman. “You were thinking of ducking out back then?” he asked, horrified that he’d failed to notice his fellow side’s distress, and that ducking out hadn’t been a spur of the moment, negative spiral gone to the extreme kind of thing. Virgil had been thinking about it for weeks and had gone so far as ensuring that there would be someone to properly take care of Roman after he left. “What you said that day actually helped,” Virgil offered as he played with his sleeves.

“It kind of almost felt like we were friends hanging out and I could convince myself for a little bit that you might miss me or something if I ducked out.”

It was odd to feel his heart warm and break at the same time. “Then… Was it the cartoon episode? Did we say something?” Roman asked worriedly. “No, I mean, kinda? It wasn’t the episode, it was just… well… I was, confused, after the whole thing and then you came back from your adventure and you were… you didn’t do anything wrong per say. It’s just that my mind was already spiraling and I couldn’t really deal with your energy or things being even more confusing…” Virgil rambled his breath coming faster and more shallow by the second. Roman wasn’t an expert. But he was fairly sure this was one of those spiral things. “Virgil,” he said carefully. “Can I touch you?” Always ask consent after all. Virgil nodded, his face flushed. Roman scooted closer and wrapped one arm around him.

“Okay let’s just, focus on breathing. Just breathe with me,” he said.

Virgil nodded and curled up as his breathing slowed down bit by bit. “There you go. You’re doing great. I’m not mad or anything if you worry about that. And you don’t have to explain yourself if…” Roman got interrupted by Virgil diving into his chest, clutching at his vest crying into it. “Virgil?” he asked shocked. “Not… Not your fault. I… J… Deceit. I went to him to ask him if… And he said…” Roman didn’t need him to finish. He embraced him fully and pulled him close, hoping Virgil wouldn’t notice his heart racing. “You don’t have to say anything. I… Just know that I want to be friends Virgil. I thought it wasn’t something I should want until recently and I wish I’d stopped caring about that sooner,” he admitted, hoping that that would shoo away the dark thoughts that had led to them nearly losing their long suffering protector. Virgil slowly calmed down again and moved away from the embrace. “Sorry,” he muttered. “No need… If you wish to talk about it we can. If not, then there is a pile of Disney movies you can pick from?” Roman offered and he felt his heart swell with pride when Virgil allowed a tentative smile. “Thanks… Can I make a special request though?” Roman nodded. “Sure,” he agreed without hesitation. Today had been a lot for Virgil, clearly. He needed Roman to take care of him for once. “Can we watch Lilo and Stitch?” the edgy side asked with a whisper. Roman could tell that commenting on it would not be wise and just conjured the movie in question and started it up. As soon as the opening started playing Roman felt Virgil shuffle closer again until he was leaning against him once more. He could hear him whisper along with the more heartfelt dialogue and he got the sense that this was a comfort movie for Virgil.

This wasn't how he imagined the evening would go. But he found himself not caring. He could try to coax Virgil in playful banter or whatever other way he could think off for him to pay attention to him later. Right now Virgil needed him to put his needs first. It had to be bad if Virgil was being this vulnerable with him of all sides.

After the film was over Roman put on fantasia, just something pretty and soothing for them to watch. “Can you not tell Patton about this? He’d make a big deal about it and I don’t want to be a bother,” Virgil asked softly as Roman settled back in. “Alright,” Roman agreed, knowing that he was not in the position to insist on informing the others about anything. But when Virgil drifted off, he thought of someone who he could vent his fury to. He blamed himself still, but Deceit always claimed himself an ally of Remus and Virgil. If he’d not only failed to keep Virgil from going through with it but encouraged it, however unintentionally, then for his brother and Virgil’s sake, Roman had to ensure that this would not happen to either of them again. And so he snuck out of the fort, out of the room and downstairs. He didn’t pull his sword. It went against all his instincts but he intended to talk and if his brother caught him with a weapon out then he would not get the chance. Apparently though, not having a weapon out didn’t give Remus as much pause as he’d assumed it would. He barely set foot in the deeper commons before he got a blow to the side. He brought out his shield to guard against a follow up attack, still determined not to look for a full on fight. “Remus! I’m not here for you,” he hissed through his pain. He hoped he’d be able to fix it before Virgil noticed. He wanted to be a better friend to him and reshape their relationship before he asked him for help again. “Well I’m all you’ll get Romie. Double D is taking a nap,” Remus cackled before bringing down his morning star repeatedly, luckily Roman managed to ward him off. “Well that’ll have to wait. I want to talk about Virgil,” he grunted. That did give Remus pause. “He… He told you?” he growled before hitting the side of the shield so hard that Roman could not hold on. Roman wasn’t fast enough to summon it back to him before a new blow knocked him on his back. Something definitely cracked this time. Remus raised his morning star again, looking furious, which was not like him. “Remus, I won’t fight you!” Roman insisted stubbornly. “Too bad!” Remus growled as he swung his morning star and Roman braced for impact. It never came though. Instead he heard a feral hiss and the sound of the Morningstar hitting the ground while his brother was tackled by a dark figure. Roman sat up, ignoring the pain and saw to his shock that Virgil was pinning Remus to the ground. Four spider legs ripping through his hoodie and providing extra grip on the floor, fangs that weren’t there last time Roman saw the spooky side bared threateningly. Remus was just glaring up at Virgil, baring fangs off his own. More worryingly were the tentacles that had sprouted from Remus’ back and were reaching for the more fragile looking spider legs.

“Tentacles off!” Roman called out as he finally summoned his sword and slashed at one of his brother’s appendages.

Remus snarled as his tentacles recoiled. Roman seized the moment and pulled Virgil back by the hoodie until he was firmly behind him.

He got ready to defend just in time for Remus to jump at him, completely forgoing summoning his Morningstar back to his hands. Ordinarily Roman would jump out of his way out of sportsmanship, but now he was protecting Virgil. He had no room for mercy like that. He stood his ground firmly and struck with his sword across Remus' stomach, severing his shirt and breaking skin. Remus hissed again and fell back . “Calm yourself!” Roman demanded. Remus growled and got up, ready for another vicious attack. Roman readied himself to protect Virgil. “Roman don’t,” Virgil whispered urgently. “What is going on here?” They all turned towards Deceit who had entered the room, looking like he indeed just came out of bed but had attempted to pull himself together. Remus did not quite drop his aggressive stance, but he relaxed a little. Roman could feel Virgil tense behind him. So all in all, Roman stayed on guard but lowered his stance a little to show he was still not looking for a fight. “Deceit. Just the Side I came to see,” he managed through gritted teeth. His chest was really starting to sting, but he didn’t want to show it in front of Virgil. “Is that a fact?” Deceit asked with a raised brow, arms crossed in front of him. “Indeed,” Roman nodded, trying to gather his strength to bluff his way through the pain. He swore it was getting worse, but thinking about it would definitely allow Remus’ brand of imagination to take hold of it. Deceit looked past Roman. “Anxiety, what in the world happened here?” he asked.

“Save yourself Double D. Virgin told him,” Remus growled, this came as a surprise to the scaled man. “I told all of them!” Virgil corrected, sounding furious. “And you know what? You were wrong. They did accept me. They did want me there. But then again, you already knew that. I don’t know why I thought that me asking as a friend would make you be honest with me. Or maybe, maybe you were being honest. Maybe you were finally voicing your own thoughts!” he growled, making Deceit recoil for a moment before he recollected himself.

“Don’t be preposterous Virgil,” he drawled, infuriating Roman.

“Don't you dare gaslight him! Regardless of intent, you made him feel this way! You don't get to dismiss his feelings just because you don't like them!” he bellowed.

Deceit stared at him unimpressed, slowly raising a brow. “When did you turn into his keeper?” the snake like man wondered.

“I'm trying to be his friend,” Roman corrected, ignoring the throbbing in his chest.

“I know I messed up in the past and I am working on being better. I came down here to make sure you would take more care with what you say to him and Remus. Clearly you said something that inadvertently hurt him,” he explained, trying not to reveal something Virgil was uncomfortable sharing with present company.

“Save your breath Princey. I appreciate the gesture, but I don't think he has considered us friends since I started thinking for myself,” Virgil huffed. Roman looked back now, seeing the pure disdain on Virgil's face. Then Virgil looked at him, eyes darting to his chest. He frowned displeased.

“Can we go now? You need medical care,” he said. Roman was a bit disappointed that he failed to hide his injury.

“I'll be fine. He only got two hits in. I've walked off worse,” he insisted.

“You tell me that again when I am patching you up,” Virgil growled as he grabbed him by the shoulder and sank them both back to his room. Roman wanted to insist he could walk but Virgil silenced him with a glare and made him lie down in the pillow fort. “I’ll be right back,” he said softly before heading to the first aid cabinet. Roman frowned and looked down, wondering how Virgil had been able to tell. Once he did, his eyes widened in horror. Red blossomed through his white outfit. Remus had done his second strike with sharpened spikes. Not only that but as Roman opened his vest and exposed his chest to see the damage, he saw that his brother had blighted the wound. tw graphic description here Fungi and mold had made their home in the seemingly severely infected wound at the dead center of his chest Roman could perhaps admire the exquisite colors and shapes if not for the fact that they were making their home in his exposed flesh. He could even see the cracked rib he’d felt earlier. There were gashes and scratch marks over the bones from which thorny vines had started to grow outward. Obviously on their way to grapple him and who knows what else? Safe to read

This was bad. If not for him being a metaphysical being, he would not have survived the impact. Virgil came back with his arms full of supplies, a concerned frown on his face as he made Roman drink a whole vile of his antidote as well as a painkiller and then started to work on cleaning out the wound. No easy task considering the effort Remus put into this particular manifestation of his emotions of that moment.

“I’m sorry, I did not intend to give you trouble,” Roman offered softly as he tried not to indulge too much in the invigorating sensation Virgil’s care provided. He couldn't not experience the benefits, but he could at least try not to enjoy it.

“What were you thinking going down there?” Virgil wondered displeased.

“Well… I suppose I couldn’t take back the way I treated you. And vowing to do better in the future seemed insufficient. But if Deceit had caused you harm, I could… I don’t know. But I had to do something after seeing you so upset!” he explained passionately, not missing Virgil placing a hand to his shoulder to remind him to stay put.

Virgil was not quite looking at him.

“You went through this to try and make D apologize?” he verified.

Roman nodded. “I suppose. Though I did not intend to give you cause for alarm. I was hoping I wouldn't have to fight at all. I didn’t realize hearing me say your name would be so triggering for Remus,” he explained.

Virgil shook his head. “Do you have no sense for self-preservation at all?” he demanded, though he didn't sound angry exactly. More frustrated and incredulous and a little sad.

He went back to the arborous task of tending to Roman’s injury.

“If Remus had given me a cursed wound I’d be freaking out. And you… you are worried about how it inconveniences me?” he muttered.

“Not quite, I just didn't wish to force you to look after me again quite so soon. I do intend on building a genuine friendship. To show you that I genuinely wish to spend time with you,” he explained earnestly.

Virgil shook his head as he focused on a particular delicate part of the wound that needed to be cleaned. “Nothing half assed,” he muttered to himself. Then he looked up to him. “Thanks. But please never do that again. I had a heart attack when I woke up alone in a different room and then again when I saw Remus about to go for the head. Just… I appreciate it. And I don’t mind looking after you when it’s you going on a quest or because something happened to Thomas. But… I don’t want you getting hurt for my sake okay?” he said seriously. Roman nodded. “Alright, I promise not to go behind your back next time,” he vowed, it was the best he could do. Because if they were friends now, he couldn’t possible refrain from defending him if he found himself in danger. “That's all I ask,” Virgil sighed. He worked in silence for a while and Roman was left to wait for him to be satisfied the wound would properly heal. And feeling guilty for the relief he felt as he felt his craving not just be met but almost overcompensated.

After a long time Virgil helped him sit up so he could bandage the wound.

“Look I know it'll heal overnight, but I… is it okay if I stay around for a bit longer? Just so I am close if something goes wrong,” he asked.

Roman almost declined out of habit but then recalled that it was okay to enjoy having Virgil around now. Not only that but he recalled how tired Virgil tended to look after he'd had a particularly bad injury. He wouldn't let him lose any more sleep over him if he could help it. He could protect him that much. “Well we were already on our way to having a sleepover before I decided to talk to the neighbors so we might as well pick up where we left off,” he declared.

“Mind popping in a movie for us Aaaa H P Lovecraft?” he requested. He doubted Virgil would let him get up for anything right now.

Virgil chuckled. “Seriously do you have a list or something?” he asked playfully as he got up and searched through the stack of extra options Roman had summoned. Roman meanwhile tried to slow down his heart. As he tried to even his breathing he noticed the state of Virgil's hoodie.

“Virgil… your hoodie. May I attempt to mend it?” he asked. He'd never altered another sides clothes before.

“Oh… um sure,” Virgil allowed. Roman focused and mended the fabric to the best of his ability.

“It is not my best work,” he said apologetically. Virgil settled back in the fort. “Thanks,” he said as the movie started playing. Roman was moved when he saw the opening of Mary Poppins play. Virgil knew he adored this one.

Virgil sat himself next to Roman, but with more distance than earlier. It might have been the painmeds messing with his head, or rather the memory of how they tended to slow Thomas' mind, but Roman felt the need to address that change. He didn’t like it.

“Afraid you'll hurt me if you sit a bit closer?” he teased. They'd been cuddling earlier. It might just have been a moment of emotional vulnerability, but in any case Roman needed to know what was okay for them now.

“You… you never want me closer than I need to be,” Virgil argued.

Oh. Roman blushed a little as he recalled how hard he’d tried not to jump to every opportunity to have his former nemesis be closer to him.

“I thought you were uncomfortable with close contact and I tried to minimize that when possible,” he explained sheepishly.

Virgil turned his head to the screen. “Oh, thanks. I guess.” He muttered.

It was quiet for a little while. When Mr. Banks got home Virgil shuffled over to Roman’s side. Just close enough to feel one another's presence.

“I… don’t get much of that. But I don’t mind it,” he admitted.

“Well, I’m sure Padre will be delighted to shower you with any affection you might be craving if you feel uncomfortable receiving it from me,” Roman assured him. It would be understandable. Years of arguments didn’t disappear over night.

“S'fine Princey,” Virgil muttered, playfully bumping their shoulders before he fully relaxed next to him. The last thing Roman remembered was Marry lulling him and the Banks children to sleep as Virgil was leaning his head on his shoulder already gone from this world.

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Can you please tell me the blogs so I can block them? I've been seeing people hate on my ships even when they completely make sense and are legal, and it just ruins my day :(

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Here you go, bud. Also block the anti-prinxiety tag just in case.

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Omg propoganda foe pieces verse

Pieces verse ohhh my god

Its a soulmate you where the first place your soulmate touches you is at first black but then turns coloured after being touched by your soulmate

But omg tulip uses it to explore purity culture and amatonormativity and its insanely good

Chipped Tea Sets - explores Remus and Janus navigating that as aspec individuals in their suuuuper restrictive toxic upper class lives

Its amszing i cannot recommend it to you enough

There is also prinxiety and logicality and logan and the twins are siblings and ugggghh

Round 1 Side B

17. Pieces Verse - @/SoDoRoses (FairyChess) (ao3) vs. 21. lavender for luck - @/lovelylogans (ao3)

Propaganda:

lavender for luck:

Image ID: A screenshot that reads: Virgil is from a family of magic users who all bear a curse where any person they fall in love with will die. Inspired by Practical Magic (1998). Romantic LAMP.

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