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Tl;Dr - I stopped playing the game but I like the characters and I wanna draw them but idk if the wiki I use is up to date for cards
Do u know any wikis that have up to date cards for all the twst characters-
Asking specifically bc of Malleus cause I can't tell anymore if he has any more new cards bc HE DOESN'T EVEN HAVE A 100 DISNEY ANIVERSARY CARD IN THE WIKI I USE š
Like compared to everyone else in Disanomia, he has 12 cards (in the wiki I use) and then Lilia has 17 cards š
Cause I think Malleus has a Bean's Day card as well, but that could just be a fanmade one, I don't have JP twst nor ENG twst anymore so I can't confirm it myself urhghrhevw š«
Malleus doesn't have a Beans Day card, so that would've been fanmade! and the 100 anniversary cards are actually the new round of birthday cards, so most of the characters don't have 'em yet -- Malleus should be getting his in a couple of days, when his birthday event starts! oh god my keeeeeys
I think the wiki.gg stays pretty up to date? it looks to me like they have everything that's currently up through JP, at least. :O I did go through and do a quick count just because I couldn't believe Malleus only had 12 cards, but. he really does have the least...defeated only by Silver with 13...astonishing. we need his gargoyle club wear immediately.
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#...maybe? tenuously? i have no idea#i think lilia and floyd are tied for the most at 18 each#twst loves the chaotic gremlins#granted card quantity is separate from card rarity/significance/whatever#i remember all of us losing our minds when vargas camp 2 came out and trey FINALLY got an event ssr after a million years#anyway i am looking forward to the upcoming magift cards and all don't get me wrong#but i am VERY VERY excited to see what the gargoyle club wear looks like#i NEED to 1) know what malleus thinks gargoyle fashion is and 2) see him in it#jade is also in a weird club by himself but at least that. y'know. has a gear theme and everything.#tangentially i do sometimes think about the fact that malleus and jade are both in single-member clubs#despite how in...i think lilia's robes story the music club was in danger of disbanding because they only had three members#although i do genuinely believe that crowley is too scared of both jade and malleus to tell them they can't have their clubs#so y'know. it tracks.
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#dudunsparce#i was convinced for a significant amount of time after this pokĆ©mon was revealed that its name was dundunsparce#and that everyone who said it ādudunsparceā was just reading it wrong. and thatā in factā i was infallible and could never read something#incorrectly. i think it would be funny if i then said āand then yesterday i got diagnosed with dyslexiaā but i have not been#i think i was just momentarily extremely confident in something that was not true#anyway. that one youtuber who hunted for 8000 years to get a shiny three-segment form i think?
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DAY 76: louis wain
#codacheetah#isat#loop isat#siffrin isat#louis wain#for all of my followers who are not well versed in Codacheetah Lore#which is to say probably about 98 percent of you.#i fucking love louis wain#i cant even make a joke abt 'if i had a nickel for every time i drew a wain cat meeting a kaleidoscopic wain cat i'd have 2 nickels'#bc i would have THREE nickels. and soon i'll have four. ive been wanting to draw a third part to my wain cats for over a year#i love his adorable normal cats and his beautiful kaleidoscopic cats#i'd go more into how much i love his psychedelic cats but then id start typing way too much defending a guy that died a century ago#isat spoilers#<- very funny post to get that tag i think#EDIT: THIS IS THE ONLY IMAGE I'VE EDITED AFTER THE FACT. but there was a minor mistake that was pissing me off#it's fine... the defective version will also circle around too i guess... ue ue ue
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Day 29: Caught you!
PLEASE! Donate to save Muhammad Shehab's family! Main Post | GoFundMe
#This is honestly how I see them first meeting haha#Sonic is on Little Planet focused on stopping eggman when all of a sudden BAM lil hedgehog hugging him#amy rose#amy rose daily#sonic#sth#sonic fanart#please donate!#day 29#sonic the hedgehog#classic sonic#classic amy#I dont see this as romantic#but i dont mind if people tag this as ship if they want#honetsly like I dont even know if I ever thought Amy genuinely had a crush on sonic#^^^IN MY OWN HEADCANNONS#I think I saw it more as like#she was so in love with the idea of love that she WANTED to have a crush#and her attachment to Sonic is what brought her friends like Tails and Knuckles#so by that point she was unintentionally using her crush on Sonic to keep her connection to her friends#since they really were more Sonic's friends than hers#in fact I think it kinda took years for her to realize that knuckles and Tails even saw her as a friend outside of Sonic#especially since the three of them would ditch her all the time as kids#and it seemed that anytime her and sonic disagreed Knuckles and Tails would take Sonics side since āAmy is crazy sometimesā#bascially I think Sonic and Amy's frienship is very complicated because actually BOTH of them were in the wrong#Amy didnt respect sonic's bloundaries#but sonci didnt respect Amy's wants or feelings#and when tehy were younger that feel into Knuckles and Tails also having less respect for Amy#at one point though - after Amy has already sworn off her crush on sonic and has worked to make up for how she used to treat him#she actually calls them out on how they disrespect her sometimes
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... The poem may be an elegy for childhood losses.
(On Dream Song 29, Thomas Travisano)
#myart#hollyleaf#power of three#warrior cats#MY MAGNUM OPUS!!!#AUGHHHHHRHGHHHHHHH#GUYS. DREAM SONG 29. DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#okay here are all the details: āif he had a hundred yearsā with the mountains is supposed to bring to mind the ancients#everyone is supposed to be faceless except for holly. on the second pace the bottom 3 silhouettes are leaf crow and squirrel#and their eyes are white with colored iris to look even MORE uncanny. the fire cuts across hollyās throat foreshadowing her death#the entire second page with the fire is showing how this once event has completly collapsed her life itās everywhere she canāt escape it#lightning on 3rd page also represents the storm. and the fact that holly was scared of storms after the fire with is so :(#i also imagine holly used to be a lot lighter gray as a kit/paw with tabby markings. just personal hc#ashfur killing scene again you donāt see the action you donāt even see her face just the aftermath. she wasnt there it didnt happen. etc#the leaf has the tufts of her fur that were in his claws from the fight the only āevidenceā of it happening.#and the last two shots show her alone in the tunnel dreaming of her family (squirrel bramble fire sand leaf and lion and jay)#vs lion and jay. and the prophecy. who donāt even stop to grieve her because theyāve found the 3rd cat. nobody is ever missing
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marc needs to run him over like actually
#revealing like three new discrete delusions about the whole situation nine years after the fact is so fucking funny iām sorry#motogp#callie speaks#asks
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I literally read that kitten post and was like āRaphā then I scrolled down and saw you had thought the exact same thing LMAO
the way i saw that final rb to it and immediately hit the reblog button because RAPH!!!!!!!!! ITS LITERALLY HIM
#ask#raph#there's even exactly three other kittens there its so weirdly perfect#also i would like to mention how close in age raph actually is to his siblings.#i have siblings with that kind of age gap and it barely ever comes up#theres something so heartbreaking about the order of their ages being so immensely relevant to the way they function as a family#because things like raph falling into the role of caretaker like that and mikey being the baby despite only being a year younger#-than the twins. i cant help but feel like thats indicative of the way they coped and handled their kind of neglectful home life#they are so dedicated to playing roles like that#ngl its a big reason im such an older twin leo truther beyond the fact that it was actually intended to be canon#because it makes leo and raph's conflict make a lot more sense#the argument is implicitly about their roles as older siblings. there's a reason raph rarely if ever gets after DONNIE for this.#just leo
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šµ Say that you're in control, say that you are
I can't think of a time when you looked less alive
Possessed Joshua, anyone?
bonus jn-adjacent sketches under the cut (mild strangling tw )
lyrics: Alexisonfire - Control
At least he did end up coming back to his senses, right?
#twewy#ntwewy#the world ends with you#neo the world ends with you#joshua kiryu#neku sakuraba#I've been thinking abt this a Lot that one time#the possible angst of this whole situation#joshua trying his best to keep neku safe (...sort of) from whatever the hell is going on in shibuya and yet#in the end it's (once again) him whom neku needs to be saved from#neku himself who finally gets to see his dear dear partner after three long years#only to immediately have to fight for his life against him#and the fact that the whole situation is painfullfy reminiscent of their 'duel' three years ago def does not help anyone#neo twewy#yoshiya kiryu#my art
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Is it true that Elizabeth of York birth celebrated like she was a son? I have seen some historians say this.
Hi! Yes, Edward IV did celebrate his daughterās birth as though she was a male heir (āa princeā), iirc as per the Great Chronicle.
While we have no contemporary reports at the time of Elizabeth of York's birth, we know that Luchino Dallaghiexia reported that the birth of Edward and Elizabeth's third child, Cecily of York, "rejoiced the king and all the nobles exceedingly*, though they would have preferred a son'. Wanting a son (ie: an heir) was typical for their time period, likely enhanced by Edward and Elizabeth's unprecedentedly controversial marriage, her very unsuitable origins and his own status as a usurper. The fact that he was described as being "exceedingly" delighted at the birth of his third daughter in a row regardless does support the claim that he would have gone over-the-top to celebrate the birth of his first legitimate** child.
Hope this helps!
*Bizarrely, I have seen several historians and blogs using Dallaghiexia's letter to claim that he was bitterly disappointed at Cecily of York's birth. I don't understand how historical reading comprehension can be so poor that "rejoiced the king exceedingly" has somehow been rewritten as the...exact opposite of that. With no self-awareness whatsoever. **His illegitimate daughter Margaret (known as Elizabeth for some reason) was almost definitely born before his marriage. We don't know the birth dates of his other two illegitimate children: I think the likeliest conception date for Arthur was in early 1470, but it's unverified; and we know nothing about Grace (which was in fact her surname, not her name) other than the fact that Elizabeth Woodville seems to have been very attached to her.
#ask#elizabeth of york#edward iv#queue#speaking of which#did I mention how much I dislike historians who state that one of Elizabeth Woodville's 'advantages' was that 'she was fertile'#and just leave it at that?#or dumbfuck Anne Boleyn stans who argue Elizabeth was 'safe' because she had a son (she was literally deposed twice but okay)#That is simply incorrect and a complete erasure of her actual - presumably difficult - experiences#Elizabeth literally 'failed' (so to speak) to have a son throughout her first queenship#She had three daughters back-to-back#Her first son with Edward IV was in fact born seven years into her marriage after her husband had already been deposed and in exile#It does her an incredibly disservice to rewrite her very complicated situation according to your own whims and fancies#Particularly considering the very unusual nature of her marriage and rise to queen (+Edward's own status as an usurper)#which meant that Elizabeth - like H8's wives after her - was in a far more precarious position than sonless foreign royal queens before her#And while the lack of a son clearly didn't affect her personal marriage (her husband celebrated their eldest daughter's birth#as though she was a male heir and was described as exceedingly happy at the time of their third daughter's birth;#they decided to go on a pilgrimage - presumably to ask for a son - *together*; etc)#That doesn't change the fact that they were in a very very difficult situation that having a son could have resolved/legitimized#Worries that may have intensified even more after 1469 when George of Clarence (second York brother) rebelled against Edward#I also suspect their lack of a son affected the nature of Warwick's propaganda against them during his rebellions#but that's a whole other topic of discussion#Either way: What we should never do is erase and rewrite Elizabeth's (and Edward's) very complex situation in the 1460s#in favor of an inaccurate but more 'convenient' alternate history#It's a little odd tbh because I HAVE seen such discussions for Anne of Bohemia; MoA; and Henry VIII's wives#who all struggled to have male heirs#But for some reason Elizabeth's situation is not even acknowledged - let alone discussed#funny how that happens#anyway#ik I went VERY off track I'm sorry about that
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Gear 5 luffy's laugh is so contagious I just hear the drums and go insane how does this work. What did he do to me
#i still cant believe how much this new opening theme goes off.... DREAM SAVE ALL OF US šš»šš»šš»šš» AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH š„š„š„š„š„š„#wait a second. the robot attacked 200 years ago. the void century was 800 years ago no????? what#oh see it was made 900 years ago.... but why did it attack 200 years ago then.... what happened#it is still so funny how they made evegapunk einstein but with some cunty long legs#200 years ago they gave rights to the gyojin!!! i see i see āļøāļøalso i still wonder why law and kuma have similar hat and pants designs#like there is NO WAY that much similarity isnt done on purpose. NO FUCKING WAY!!! I NEED ANSWERS!!!#are they annihliating cp ships akdhakskd yeah vegapunk letsgo#also the opening song is about dreams and the end one is about luffy reaching shanks...... havent got a clue why but there it is#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1098#also is lucci named lucci bc it kinda sounds like luffy. SERAPHIM KUMA HAS HIS DEVIL FRUIT???? vegapunk could only make zoan fruits????#also wdym when cp0 acts it means its some historic event. lucci is like 25. where are the experienced people here#sentomaru works for vegapunk??? maybe i forgor about this tbh also do theu have a doffy seraphim??? the fact they have animal names....#stussy letting kaku get hurt akdhsjsn oh atlas has lamb ears..... and lucci said she is is prey... no..... the foresahdowing :(#lucci you fucked up she just gave luffy food... that a death sentence look what happened to kaido#episode 1099#<- oh my god btw. god. jesus.#why is akainu telling the cp0 what to do or thinks he can do that... thats the world gov... also thinkng about how garp should fight him#and not luffy.... because of ace you know... i still wonder how did sengoku know who ace's father was... there is only one man who knew....#everyone trying to stop them from fighting ajdhsksjks two rabid dogs fr#LUFFY TAKING OFF HIS JACKET WHEN LUCCI ASKS FOR HIS WANTED SIGN!!!! GO OFF KING!!!! SLAY!!! THE CREW SAW HIM!!! FINALLY!!!#i have been smiling since he started the transformation this is so sick...... i have got a case of the luffy brain#zoan fruits steal the personality of the user when they awaken āļøāļø luffy???? nami being the only one who saw gear 5 <3 twins manifesto#robin being so shook about luffy being a god ajdbjansk wdym devil fruits exist because people wish for them. fairy magic real????#WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ARE FROM ALTERNATE REALITIES WHERE SOMEONE DREAMT ABOUT THEM??? DOES HE TRAVEL THRU REALITIES FOR THEM???#jinbe has been making this face š§ every episode three times it is amazing ajdhaksnsk poor man... now he sees a kid angel version of himself#after seeing hia captain turn into a god... he is gonna get a stroke OMG SENTOMARU WE JUST GOT YOU BACK#episode 1100#<- CRAZY. INSANE. OH GOD. ONLY 12 LEFT. THATS A WEEKEND!!! I CANT DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i personally think there was no need to make remarks about age
#i dont need to feel any more ashamed about this when i shouldn't feel ashamed about this in the first place#because three years is not a HUGE difference. it IS an age gap but it isn't a GIGANTIC red flag-waving age gap.#but i guess for a guy it is if the girl is older#but anyway man it was comment after comment line after line and i felt like i was standing in front of a firing squad#not gonna lie my whole chest literally hurts when i think about it too deeply!#i have literally never been told before that i'm not an option because i'm too old#i also personally (and this is a bit bitter of me to say so maybe) i resent the fact that he did take the time to tell me that he was not#personally attracted to me. and then add at the end of the conversation that if i were younger he'd consider it#like. you literally told me you don't like me that way and aren't attracted to me that way#so the only reason you'd consider me as an option really is the fact that you know I'M interested in you ????#anyway makes me want to throw up:)#the waiting room chapter
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[1] `there are often translations available in other languages long before English ones` This is really interesting! I'm familiar with translation in games, where english is often a very early target (a small game might get 0-5 translations, depending on amount of text) because the size of the market is larger.
[2] Do you happen to know why this is different for books? Is it faster to come to a deal about publication rights for some other languages to get started on the translation? Is translation to english harder (at least from French) than to say, Spanish?
The literary translation situation has long been very dismal in the English-speaking world! I donāt know a lot about video games, but are localisations provided by the company that makes the game? Because if that's the case it makes sense that games would get translated into English as a priority. For literary translations which are imported rather than exported, other countries have to decide to translate a foreign author and anglo countries (US, UK and Canada at least) are not very interested in foreign literature. There's something known as the "3% rule" in translationāi.e. about 3% of all published books in the US in any given year are translations. Some recent sources say this figure is outdated and itās now something like 5% (... god) but note that it encompasses all translations, and most of it is technical translation (instruction manuals, etc). The percentage of novels in translation published in the UK is 5-6% from what Iāve read and itās lower in the US. In France it's 33%, and thatās not unusually high compared to other European countries.
I don't think it's only because of the global influence of English* and the higher proportion of English speakers in other countries than [insert language] speakers in the US, or poor language education in schools etc, because just consider how many people in the US speak SpanishāI just looked it up and native Spanish speakers in the US represent nearly 2/3rds of the population of France, and yet in 2014 (most recent solid stat I could find) the US published only 67 books translated from Spanish. France with a much smaller % of native Spanish speakers (and literary market) published ~370 translations from Spanish that same year. All languages combined, the total number of new translations published in France in 2014 was 11,859; in Spain it was 19,865; the same year the US published 618 new translations. France translated more books from German alone (754) than the US did from all languages combined, and German is only our 3rd most translated language (and a distant third at that!). The number of new translations I found in the US in 2018 was 632 so the 3% figure is probably still accurate enough.
* When I say itās not just about the global influence of Englishāobviously that plays a huge role but I mean thereās also a factor of cultural isolationism at play. If you take English out of the equation thereās still a lot more cultural exchange (in terms of literature) between other countries. Take Olga Tokarczukās Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead; it was published in 2009, and (to give a few examples) translated in Swedish 1 year later, in Russian & German 2 years later, in French, Danish & Italian 3 years later, in English 10 years laterāonly after she won the Nobel. Iām reminded of the former secretary for the Nobel Prize who said AmericansĀ ādon't really participate in the big dialogue of literatureā because they donāt translate enough. I think it's a similar phenomenon as the one described in the "How US culture ate the world" article; the US is more interested in exporting its culture than in importing cultural products from the rest of the world. And sure, anglo culture is spread over most continents so thereās still a diversity of voices that write in English (from India, South Africa, etc etc) but that creates pressure for authors to adopt English as their literary language. The dearth of English translation doesnāt just mean that monolingual anglophones are cut off from a lot of great literature, but also that authors who write in minority languages are cut off from the global visibility an English translation could give them, as it could serve as a bridge to be translated in a lot more languages, and as a way to become eligible for major literary prizes including the Nobel.
Considering that women are less translated than men and represent a minority (about 1/3) of that already abysmally low 3% figure, I find the recent successes of English translations of women writers encouragingāOlga Tokarczuk, Banana Yoshimoto, Han Kang, Valeria Luiselli, Samanta Schweblin, Sayaka Murata, Leila Slimani, of course Elena Ferrante... Hopefully this is a trend that continues & increases! I remember this New Yorker article from years ago, āDo You Have to Win the Nobel Prize to Be Translated?ā, in which a US small press owner saidĀ āthereās just no demand in this countryā (for translated works); but the article acknowledged that itās also a chicken-and-egg problem. Traditional publishers who have the budget to market them properly donāt release many translations as (among other things) they think US readers are reluctant to read translated foreign literature, and the indie presses who release the lionās share of translated works (I read it was about 80%) donāt have the budget to promote them so people donāt buy them so the assumption that readers arenāt interested lives on. So maybe social media can slowly change the situation by showing that anglo readers are interested in translated books if they just get to find out about them...
#ask#anyway it's difficult to find accurate stats for translation and compare between countries because some % you see are#for all translations and as i said technical translations / computer manuals etc make up the bulk of it#some % are averages over decades; others only for fiction or for novels & poetry etc so you end up comparing apples and oranges#but the fact remains that the three percent website (translation database) was able to list every single literary translation#published in the us year after year and it was never higher than 600-ish titles in the 2010s. it's not great#when you see much smaller countries release translations in the thousands or tens of thousands#it's also not a huge improvement over the 400-ish yearly US translations in the 00s#but they haven't released numbers for the past few years and maybe the situation is a bit better now
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Fallout New Vegas Lucky 38 Presidential Suite Sleeping Arrangement Headcanons:
I've been thinking about how the sleeping arrangement would work, since there are only three beds and six couches in the Lucky 38ās Presidential Suite.
Hereās what I imagine:
Veronica Santangelo and Rose of Sharon Cassidy:
In the smaller bedroom to the left, Veronica and Cass share this bed together. Veronica is used to sleeping close to someone since she grew up in a bunker. While Cass has slept in worse conditions while traveling for her caravan work. So neither mind sharing.
Sometimes sleeping next to Cass makes Veronica think of Christine.
If Cass is up late drinking or canāt sleep (she finds the Lucky 38 creepy) then sheāll drink until she's knocked out. Sleeping on one of the empty couches or while sitting at the kitchen table.
Lily Bowen:
Lily sleeps by herself on the bed next to Veronica and Cass'. Since she's too large to use a couch and takes up an entire bed by herself. Everyone has woken up before to Lily listening to the holotape of her grandchildren, but no one is ever bothered by it. Lily has also tucked everyone at least once into bed.
Craig Boone:
Boone ALWAYS sleeps on the couch. Heās used to sleeping in uncomfortable positions due to his NCR work, so he doesnāt mind. I think he'd also feel guilty taking a bed. Also, he doesn't want to share a bed with anyone else because the last person he did that with was Carla.
He usually likes the couch next to the pool table since it faces the Lucky 38's elevators. However, if Cass falls alseep there after drinking a little too much, then Boone will take a different couch.
Rex:
Rex changes where and who he sleeps every night, but whenever he sleeps with Boone itās like this:
Raul Tejada, Arcade Gannon and My Courier Six:
Raul, Arcade and her all share the main big bedroom.
Usually Raul and Courier Six share the bed with ED-E (and sometimes Rex) in the middle. Raul will 100% play the arthritis and old man card.
Despite ghouls being described as gross/smelly, even Raul describes it "stink like a public toilet after Cinco de Mayo". Courier Six isn't bothered by it and doesn't mind sleeping next to him.
Actually, during the two years she worked as a courier she slept alone in many dangerous places. So, now being able to sleep next to someone makes her feel safe and happy.
Arcade usually takes the two couches and pushes them together. It's never comfortable, but he would rather do that than share a bed. His height makes sleeping on the couches difficult.
Arcade LMAO:
When Courier Six and Raul are gone he gets some of the BEST sleep in his life. The Presidential Suite beds are probably one of the few times in the Mojave he's found a bed that fits someone his height.
If Raul and Courier Six return late and Arcade is sleeping they'll just let him have the bed and sleep on the couches normally.
ED-E:
99% of the time ED-E is snuggling Courier Six. However if she's gone he'll either lay next to wherever Rex has settled, intentional sleep near Arcade to annoy him or just float by the elevator waiting for her return.
Courier Six snuggles ED-E like this:
#PLEASE SHARE YOURS I WANNA HEAR WHAT OTHER PEOPLE IMAGINE!!!!!!!!!!!!#Bonus: Post Second Battle of Hoover Dam after everyone eventually moves out (except ED-E) my courier six slowly (and unintentionally)#starts sleeping more and more in the bed on the penthouse floor. Despite the fact her and Mr. House aren't a couple yet.#She just REALLY doesn't like being by herself and everyone moving out is making her lonely.#Also she's usually up late working with Mr. House anyway so it's convenient. Totally nothing else š#Long Text#Long Post#MaddyMoreauPost#Fallout New Vegas#I couldn't sleep so I wrote this instead asjfkfla;ncacv#I imagine Fallout New Vegas takes place over the span of three years.#So of course sheās sad when everyone separates going their own way.#Need to write a post on my Headcanons for what happens to everyone and what theyāre doing during the Second Battle of Hoover Dam.
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posting to hold myself accountable but if this is mcr5 and they come to the uk again i WILL buy the bass like i was going to do in 2020
#does this depend on me getting tickets yeah absolutely but if i see mcr after (checks watch) 11 years#and the fact that i was supposed to see them three times in 2020#i will commit to the musical dream again#mcr#my chemical romance#let me have this okay#elliot talks shit
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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself
#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated#and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it#if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place#but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself#continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone#and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner#you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter#and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault#maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life#saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do#so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time#your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going#and then at the end of your journey#you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey#the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them#is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save#so um. The Guilt is even worse now#now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control#and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad#but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally#you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful#things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be#its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma#you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch#but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander#FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it#mother 3 swap au#mothfics
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Why are you tagging posts with dates from last year? Did you queue them last year?
ā¦ I did.
#Posting gives me apprehension. It's the anxiety of being perceivedā¦#That's why even in the rare occasions I'm making a post to be posted immediately I usually still schedule it to like. Ten or fifteen orā#thirty minutes later#Just so that I donāt have to hit post lol#But yeah I usually simply draft posts and once in a while go dig down for posts from one year ago or so.#Ask me how long does it take me to dive through my ~17 800 drafts of posts (a lot) (90% of them are reblogs of course)#Thereās also the fact that I want to reread the posts Iāve made some time after Iāve made themā#so that my brain is rewinded enough to notice any typos#(sometimes I end up rewriting the posts from scratch though so it doesnāt always work.#Other times Iāve reread the posts so many times Iāve memorized the sentences in them and will not notice typos because of that.)#Also sometimes Iām like āsomething something Akutagawa's bandaidsā#or āsomething something compilation of Akutagawa looking at Atsushi in official artā#which is something I donāt have time to do on the moment and will leave for later#(and occasionally it happens I will never get to it at all. You have no idea how many posts in my queue are just like#āanalysis on []ā ācompilation of []ā ā[edit concept]ā dating as far back as three years ago#which I *should* get to elaborate eventually but ehā¦ Not right now I suppose#On that there' literally a valley of at least 200 discarded posts in my queue āI will get to eventuallyā#And that's on top of the my original posts that don't make it past the drafts.#Mostly random and spontaneous thoughts that lose value after a day#I'm my own filter lol#people asks me stuff#It's also important to keep track of the date because there's takes I've completely moved on fromā#but that I still find it relevant to be posted
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