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Yesterday i was hanging out with some friend and we slept by one of my friends, but me the smartass thought some caffeine couldn't do that much harm, but well i couldn't sleep. So i thought to just secretly watch birth videos and i came back to some old birrh videos and new and I'm going to share all of those birth in this post.
Birth 1: even though she did get the epidural i still find it a absolutely gorgeous birth and she is so beautiful. she start pushing at 12.50
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Birth 2: this is a new birth I found from Russia and even though you can't see much it's more like a point of view birth
She starts pushing at 11.00
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Birth 3 and 4: if you watched birth videos you probably have seen atleast 1 birth of the schmid family. The first one is a twin birth (my favorite) and a outdoor birth at nigth
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Birth 5: i just love her pushing sounds and a clear view of her vagina
Birth 6: this is a very short one and its her last few pushes but dose sounds are amazing
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Birth 7: i normally hate these kinds of birth but this one is just amazing
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Birth 8: a water birth, such a tight pussy and the head doesn't want to get out and her sounds are amazing
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And the last birth: is a calm slow waterbirth my favorites
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This is a long post i hope there is something in for all of you!
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I am afraid that Coby is setting himself up to be severely and devastatingly disappointed with his conclusions about his mom.
THAT BOY IS SETTING HIMSELF UP FOR SOOOOOO MUCH DISAPPOINTMENT <3 
I love Cody’s in-universe theory crafting So Much. I love how much he was able to piece together (he’s a clever little guy :] and a schemer. i say that with all the love in my heart btw) and also in the spirit of actual real life theory making how he completely missed the mark on some of his guesses. And it’s understandable!!!! It’s not like he knows his mom is a weird special werewolf that never changes back into a human. Because that’s straight up not how being a werewolf normally works and why would he assume his mom is an exception he doesn’t even know is possible. 
Something going wrong with Cody’s plan was pretty much inevitable the moment we found out about it, and I for one can’t wait to see how things turn out thanks to Cody’s several incorrect assumptions. And I LOVE how extremely confident he sounds about all of it. “The uncertainty was theater; he’d decided he was right.”; “Cody had no doubt in his deductions.”
Cody my boy, some doubt and uncertainty would do you good in the long run I think. It’s not very surprising though, since we see him make the exact same mistake before! Cody is a pretty capable 12 year old and he knows it, and that’s good! It’s good that he knows what his strengths are. The problem is that he gets so sure of himself that he ends up being overconfident and underestimating those around him. Like with hitball for example! 
Cody knows he’s good at this, he’s quite literally supernaturally good at sports. He’s so sure of his abilities that he told Hijeff that he has to go carry the team. And that overconfidence is how Dimitri, Max, RJ and Ollie got him in the end. Because if you look at Dimitri’s plan, how complicated that whole thing is, it becomes clear that Dimitri used Cody’s confidence against him. Like Dimitri was So Sure that Cody would easily dodge all the other throws (and he was right) and that Cody would get so caught up in the fact that he didn’t have much trouble with dodging them, including the one they made to look like their final one, that he would stop paying as much attention to his surroundings (and again. he was right). Which goes to show that this is a quite noticeable quality about Cody (though to be fair, Dimitri is very clever and seems to be quite good at picking up on these things (at least when he’s able to look at things somewhat objectively, Dimitri tends to let his feelings cloud his judgment.)). 
And that’s not even counting his thoughts “I’ll just slip through the cracks” and his little mind monologue from when he was about to get hit with the golden switch. It also ties into something else I really like about Cody, which is how similar he is to his dad and his absolute lack of self-reflection about any of it <3 Cody is obviously nowhere near as bad as Davy, but the similarities are there! And it makes sense since that’s just how kids work, they get influenced by the people around them. Like, Davy’s absolute trust in himself, his extreme confidence, those are things I’ve just discussed about Cody taken to their extremes. And the list goes on! Just look at Cody’s extreme protectiveness over his friends and his tendency to keep them in the dark. Or the fact that both Cody and Davy do the thing where they carefully control conversation in a way that lets them learn as much information as they can (we can see Davy do this on page 1 with Peter Puckett, and Cody mentions doing the same with LB and RB on page 47, Zack even used similar wording to describe what they did). Or their shared love for theatrics. I just find that so interesting and fun to think about! It’s great :] 
Also I am going to change the topic and talk about how EXCITED this update made me about future interactions between Jean and Cody. I had a mighty need to see these two interact ever since I subscribed to the “Shrike is Cody’s mom theory” and seeing that theory confirmed already made that excitement grow tenfold. But now? Now that we know that Shrike was faking her death for like 3-ish years (Zack confirmed on twitter that they were around the same age as in the first chapter 7 flashback, and based on Cody’s age I’m assuming that Jean, Rick and Mina were 13-ish when Shrike faked her death), and was watching him from the shadows. Now that we know that Jean was wrong in chapter 7 when he said “She would have come back for me, she would have!” (I love Paranatural mentor-mentee/parental figure-child relationships I love how adults never fail to let down the kids they’re supposed to be looking after I love how it all either stems from them prioritizing their own problems or pushing everyone away, thinking that keeping them in the dark is the best way to protect them I love how that secrecy just keeps causing problems for everybody. It's so good.), because she left, thinking she was doing the right thing. Like Jean thinks that the only reason she wasn’t with him is because she was stuck as a werewolf ever since whatever accident he was talking about in chapter 7. And we know that’s not true! And talking to Cody would make that Very Clear, since Cody more or less knows the date Shrike actually disappeared for good. Do you all see the vision. It’s gonna be GREAT.
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maestro04yayyy · 6 days
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So, I had some "Match My Freak" thoughts but they need to be spread across two asks, so here goes the second!
 Basically, I have two ideas how I think the post Style Queen story would go, (3 if one wants to imagine Gabriel actually retiring either for a time or permanently) Those being: 
Akuma Juleka, & Violent Tigress Juleka 
The set up is basically the same for both, as established CHloe bounces back fast when rejected by a loved one because well she's used to that and thinks love is something you earn or win and otherwise fight for and if she isn't receiving it she needs to fight harder. So she's already forgotten (Repressed) the horrible things Audrey said earlier and is cheerfully (Hysterically) dismissive when Juleka is concerned about her basically shutting down from the stress of not being able to please her mother and listen to Juleka at the same time. 
Juleka's keyed into enough of Chloe's issues at this stage thats he won't push her too hard but she is concerned.
Things go as normal and then Audrey choosed to take Marinette to New York and Chloe is definitely upset by this; she's not quite as insecure in this timeline & she and Marinette are marginally more chill but this is still the mother Chloe's spent a lifetime modelling herself after in a quest for love choosing another girl over her cos of a hat. Even with her bolstered confidence and better social circle, this is still a blow and she's definitely not keyed into healthy relationships enough to fully understand or articulate it save that she's in pain and her mother just doesn't seem to care. 
Because she's not exceptional enough to warrant being cared for. 
Note: it is possible tat Audrey may be willing to deem Chloe as useful potential staff for a more slow burn version of this, like taking Marinette, Juleka & Chloe to New York, but it being very clear she deems the model and seamstress a tier or two above Chloe who is just staff, but that feels like its own AU. 
Exactly how far things spiral is up in the air, as it could straight up involve Chloe revealing she was Queen Bee and helped save Audrey the day before, which would at best lead to Audrey saying Chloe just threw her one shot at being exceptional away to prove a point, or being furious at Chloe for 'betraying' her. Or it could just lead to them fighting and Chloe fleeing in tears without making the reveal. (Whether she knows Juleka has the tiger could play into this) 
Juleka goes after her regardless, though not before sending Andre a contempt filled glad because he did nothing and or may even try and discourage or stop Juleka from going to look after Chloe as he wants her vulnerable and to come to his side. But whatever the case she slips/breaks away and goes to her and tries to comfort her. 
If Chloe revealed her ID as Queen Bee, Gabriel sends an Akuma after her but Juleka grabs onto it in Chloe's stead, becoming Berserk Knight, and when Chloe tries to talk her down, well Juleka turns Chloe into her queen/maiden whose power is to basically make Juleka stronger/bolster her.
Then she goes on a rampage at Audrey & Andre, fights Ladybug & Chat Noir, though CHloe manages to willpower her way out of Juleka;s control and get her to stop long enough for the heroes to win. LB or Chat likely do tell her she can't be a hero again but that what she did there was exceptional (Sending pointed glares to Audrey) before leaving. 
If Chloe didn't reveal her ID, Juleka ends up donning Roarr and promises the smirking tiger as much havoc as she desires. Cue Juleka pretending to be an Akuma and going on a rampage directed at Audrey and Andre. (Note for the more unhinged AUs this is not a loud rampage but a dead in the night rampage)
She has no real interest in fighting the heroes but may get Akumatized if she loses the fight and oh boy that would be dangerous, but even if not, I'd say she manages to get away after putting some fear in Audrey & Andre's guts and Chloe would probably cover for Juleka cos like hell she's gonna let her GF be blamed for something she did on Chloe's behalf. 
So Violet Tigress is still on the loose in both versions, but has very different relationships with the heroes and Chloe's situation is radically different too. 
Not sure where things would go after that, but I could see Maladiktator still happening (or something like it) when Andre fails t get his claws back into Chloe and she'd likely still get chosen on Heroes Day as well given the circumstances. 
Uhhhh!!!! I love all those options!!!!!!!!
Juleka sure as all is concerned!!!!!!! Her girlfriend is very concerning on a good day!!!! And that was not a good day!!!!
Also for how chloe react to audrey leaving with marinette, I think I prefer that she just has another breakdown in public and run away crying!!! Like this way ypu really show how much that affected her because she really doesn't like showing weaknesses to others, and while I can see chloe transforming or attacking audrey(yelling but I also love if she punch her, as a civilian) that would imply chloe think audrey is wrong, and that's probably not the case, chloe wish she is wrong but chloe always think that audrey is always right!!! So nothing she does could change it, so running away and hide until they go away is the best action for her.
(Also all of them going to new York really is an au of it's own!!!! I can see marinette gicing the miravulous to alya, and juleka accepting the offer because chloe was happy about it, in a If I day now, I would rise from the death just to do this thing kind of way, so turning it down was impossible for juleka even if she really doesn't like audrey, but at least they are getting away from andre)
Also!!!!! I love the idea pf jukeka just using the miraculous and terrorize andre and audrey!!! And just go for a rampage!!!!!(also I love the death in the night rampage!!!) And violent tigress is an awesome name!!!!!(also chloe totally make an alibi for juleka)
Amd oh god that's gonna be interesting to see with other heroes!!!!! Since juleka will probably be seen as another villain!!!! And probably act as one not only that one time because why not? It's not like her action as villain have real consecuences since ladybug fix everything, she just has to be careful about traumatizing people or not to be careful about it if that's exactly what she wants(I actually can see her going after gabriel for whatever reason, maybe he helped andre to gake chloe back, maybe he is keeping adrien away from chloe, anyway gabriel now is convinced tigress know his identity as hm)
Ohhh and having a secon villain and with such raw power and destruction level, might mean chloe will be given the miraculous more often to fight her!!!! And the flirting is gonna be unavoidable!!!! Because chloe know it's juleka and juleka either figured it out or chloe told her!!!!
Also I can see tigress just kidnap chloe sometimes when they want to have a date but andre tried to keep chloe busy with some gala or something like that that she couldn't avoid and juleka couldn't join, so crime is the only answer.(also both of them probably like the kidnap part way too much)
Also really thank you for sending me asks!!!!! I love them all!!!!! And sorry it took me a while to answer!!!!
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Thanks for the reblog on the Lila post!
Also seeing as Lila & Heroes Dy came up, I had a theory regarding that for Queens Second Chance. Obviously your story but its a thought. (Also I may blur over to 12 Kwami/Altered Butterfly lore a bit, apologies its habit XD)
So, LB & Chat know the gist of what went down in the future & that a big event is coming up on Heroes Day. What is the plan once QB spills all the tea?
Cos some part of them would just like to have Ladybug on hand to either deal with illusions or give a public statement to calm panic.
But this is also the only time Hawk Moth leaves his home base before 'whatever' he did in QB's original timeline that fucked them all up.
This is too good of a chance to waste!
Stage 1: Recruitment!
QB wants to recruit all the other heroes, Fu is strenuously against it, feeling that the original timelines bad end proves his point. However, he is compelled to at leas give them a test.
Kim doesn't, not just cos of himself though Luka probably can't/won't be picked for now cos Sass may be semi out of commission & regardless Fu wants Sass far away from HK. Max has a fifty fifty chance of being recruits given the powers of Voyage but he may be deemed a bit to "In his own head". Kagami is recruits as she already has combat skills & can & will fight even when lacking in powers.
Stage 2: Remove or ambush key Akuma.
The most important Akuma to Hawk Moth's plan or the most dangerous that will still show up are:
Nadja, integral for spreading panic Kim, because he can make more Akuma Volpina, the entire plan relies on her after all Sandboy, like fuck any of them want to deal with that again Minon, not integral to the plan but if she has dolls of them, they're screwed.
Minon is easy just swing by her house the night before & grab the dolls, promise her they'll come play with her later. Sandboy is harder, but maybe his family suddenly found themselves winning a deluxe holiday or basically any other reason to GTFO of Paris.
Kim could be handled by telling him the truth but there's fear HK won't show himself if things don't go too well, same for Nadja & Volpina. So rather than take them out before hand or right away the plan is to basically wait in ambush.
IE, Ladybug, Rena & Carapace will stealth up on Nadja to both drop her Akuma and make a public announcement on her camera to keep Paris calm.
Queen Bee, Chat & Kagami will be stalking Kim's flight path in order to ambush him the second Hawk Moth shows his face as Kim stayed in hiding to surprise Akumatize people.
This let's them reassure Paris, keep Kim calmed down so there's no new Akuma and catch HK flat footed. his army might be an issue but that is also what Kagami is for.
IE, she goes all Wind Dragon and blasts them away to clear a path to Hawk Moth. Then Carapace either needs to trap him or all of them in a shield so they can curbstomp his ass.
3: The Wheels come off
As fun as it'd be for this go succeed and end in a rousing round of Gabriel stomping. Gabriel is, for all his issues commanding an army, a good schemer. He will notice something is off either before this goes into motion or right when everything starts going to hell.
He's too proud to quit just like that though and does still have his army and so hopes to brute force it. Still, he almost certainly calls Lila in to act as his shadow and body double if shit goes south.
If its like canon, Nathalie may also make for the Peacock right away even if it means a big risk to her life.
Or Gabriel's survival instincts kick in & he starts manifesting a Familiar. early.
Whatever the case, with a combo of Lila & outsider intervention, he escapes.
Chloe likely destroys the nearest objects in a rage, cos yeah at this point HK almost certainly knows some kind of prophecy, time travel shenanigan's have happened.
This means he can blame all his failures on that rather than him sucking or his foes being perfect and is further enraged because it means he had won and they took it from him.
Cue a trip to Shanghai.
Note: also if Max was taken on he'd be on hand either for evacuation, or to help with scattering the villains, or the ambushes.
That's just my take though.
Fantastic plan!
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Ok I am going to be controversial. If I'm honest, I don’t really understand the desire for Adrien to turn his back on Ladybug at the end of Strikeback. That's partly because I don't completely get what the writers intended Adrien’s struggle to be about in Season 4. I understand what Ladybug did wrong, but my thing is…
Does CN ever actually express to LB why he is upset in Season 4? Does he ever try to reason with her or advocate for himself?
I don’t remember him approaching the real issue until they were under Risk’s influence and he says “maybe that’s because you never tell me anything.”  I also remember that overall fallout feeling really muddy throughout the season.
From what I see, Chat Noir’s most valid reason for being upset is because she’s keeping him, her loyal partner, at a distance. She’s not communicating as well to the point that he ends up confused, outside of the plan a few times. He finds out she told someone her identity even though she's always been massively against that. Toward the end, he discovers she’s been working with an active Rena Furtive without making him aware. She said nothing between them would change, but he can sense this new distance and her secrecy. He doesn't quite know what to make of it, but he can't help but feel a bit betrayed. He deserves at least to know things like when a new Ladybug shows up at random or a secret miraculous holder being in the field with them.
So you'd think that would be the clear cut reason, but I'm not sure? The writing gives mixed messages and Adrien brings a lot of his own baggage to the table. The increased neglect and secrecy by Ladybug is one facet , but if we’re being honest about what we were shown, there are some more factors:
The side effects of the guardianship in itself. The nature of the guardianship means Ladybug is now a leader responsible for the kwami and involving many more holders. More holders make defeating Monarch easier and Paris more safe, but it also means less time as a duo and more competition to play on CN’s insecurity. He worried about his being replaced as early as Season 3 with Carapace. His insecurity is exacerbated by her distance, but also by more holders in general. The average person might not have been as upset at getting a "break" for a few rounds, but to Adrien, it's a sign that he is finally being replaced. Even if he knew about Rena Furtive, I’m willing to bet he still would have felt uneasy about her threatening their relationship.
He is in love with her. Kuro Neko’s messaging is all over the place, but Plagg wasn’t completely wrong. Ladybug’s increased distance and secrecy hurts 50 times worse because Chat Noir is in love with her. If he were in love with Marinette instead at that point, he might even enjoy the extra load off and having fun with his friends at school, but he is very much in love with Ladybug. That makes his suffering hit much harder.
He’s upset about Carapace and Rena Rouge knowing each other's identities even though he can’t know Ladybug’s. To be fair, I rate the other holders' identities BS pretty low on my list of things to rage at Ladybug about because after Season 3 when all the heroes were revealed and Ladybug continued to give the same heroes their miraculous while also still being really anxious over identities, it was so nonsensical that I chalked it up to plot convenience rather than Marinette just being this stupid and risky. The show was not about to design new hero models so logic be damned. I don’t blame her for this anymore than I blame Chat Noir for being stupidly bad in battle at random a.k.a nerfed to make Ladybug look better. I also acknowledge the rules for the Ladybug and Cat miraculous hold an elevated risk. If Monarch knows Rena and Carapace identities he maybe has two new miraculous. If he knows Ladybug and Cat’s identities, he has his wish and the world is rewritten. 
His father also started neglecting him more after a big change in their lives. He’s projected his relationship with his father onto his relationship with Ladybug as early as Glaciator when she didn’t make it to his date. So possible PTSD.
There are also the reasons that the fandom projects onto Adrien as things he 'should' be upset about, but is never actually upset about and have never had any canon ground:
She’s the leader and the only holder with a cure. They’ve never been exactly equal despite that one line and he’s never had an issue with this on the battlefield. He only wants to know what’s going on. If he does have some leftover resentment at Fu not choosing or training him, his beef is with Fu.
He doesn’t know other holders identities. He’s only ever cared to know Ladybug’s. And this may be controversial opinion, but even if he wanted Ladybug to tell him the other holders’ identities, would he be justified in that? He’s not a guardian. Why is he entitled to demand the guardian hand them over? Especially without their permission?
Her plan with Luka to reveal their identities and erase his memory. This is to me her most egregious offense in season 4 and if he knew about it, it would make the argument against his forgiveness much stronger in my eyes. But he doesn’t. And it becomes obsolete information after the episode.
Even with all these heavy factors, all valid reasons to be upset, the only reason that validates righteous anger from CN’s pov and doesn’t make him look like kind of a tool is her secrecy around Rena Furtive and him discovering her keeping him out of the loop on some need to know info in Hacksan and one or two other eps. Emotionally, it goes much deeper than this for him. But these represent her responsibility in the matter.
The reason I can't see him justified in cutting ties with her in Strikeback though is that... this doesn't come up? He can't say he's tried to communicate with her. Nothing like “you’re keeping things I need to know from me and I don’t like it” or “you said things wouldn’t change between us as partners but you’ve distanced yourself from me. we started this together”. Nothing before Strikeback. I could see if he'd tried to talk about it and she dismissed him and didn’t try to fix things. But there’s no conversation around this in particular.
The weird thing is a lot of the other reasons come up in canon through his voice or someone else’s or both. He’s in love with her. He doesn't know what he'd do without her. All the new partners make him feel insecure and irrelevant. Why can’t we know each others’ identity and they can? In other words, the reasons that make him seem overemotional and self centered. These reasons also all center her or the desire for her love and adoration rather than his feelings as her partner. That’s what’s highlighted in Season 4.
But the actual legit criticism and bone to be picked with Ladybug herself does not come out of his mouth until he is under Risk's influence. Even then, it’s a one-liner. I don’t remember him ever actually trying to touch on the real problem with her prior to that. He either smiles and shrugs it off, even when she asks if he is ok, or he lashes out and runs away.  He doesn’t breach the topic and if he doesn’t communicate it, how can they work through it? 
Kuro Neko was the perfect opportunity to have Adrien really vent, but the initial argument is a textbook miscommunication. He shows up smiling over his pain and cracking jokes. Therefore she doesn’t realize how upset he is. Then he pushes the subject even though she’s out of time and she snaps at him for not listening. Hurt, he snaps back and runs. Plagg blames it on heartbreak alone. Ladybug takes that bait and laments that there’s nothing she can do but dote on him a bit because hey he’s just heartbroken. She's not responsible for his unrequited love. At the end, he never mentions the legitimate issues and nothing is ever wrapped up. That’s where I start to think, did the writers even mean for him feeling diminished as a ‘partner’ to be a real issue? Did they intend for this to be a lovesick issue from the start?
I don’t think this is just on Ladybug being impossible to talk to because of some vibe she sends out or her making sad face. Chat Noir has been pretty cross with Ladybug before over other less justified matters and she didn’t crumble or smote him. She did throw him in the trash but that took 4 seasons of being calm and reasonable in the face of some behavior that wasn’t always great on his part. He is usually the one supporting her, but she managed not to meltdown while he was struggling in Guilttrip and Reverser and support him.  She’s not glass and she’s not his father and I think he knows that on some level. I think his lack of communication is partially his upbringing.
But mostly, he's just written to undermine himself. Ladybug isn’t the only voice box for the writers. Adrien is too. Everyone in the show works to serve a particular narrative so it’s no wonder that his most valid complaint against Ladybug in Season 4 was buried under all of the less noble ones, even from his own lips. He needed Risk just to confront her on the part she was actually responsible for. Odd choice. I guess he wouldn’t have been the perfect boyfriend if he did it without Risk?
I think a decent percentage of the rage at LB in Season 4 is made more intense and inflated in combination with all those other factors. We as the viewers know Adrien's trauma, how starved for love he is, what little support system he has vs the act he puts on as both Adrien and Chat Noir. We know too the meta fact that the writers never allowed CN the dignity to be rightfully upset about it or voice his most valid displeasure at anytime except when he was under the influence of a villain.
Taking the show at surface level, I can see him forgiving her. I just wished they had talked about it. Adrien isn't helpless in the face of Ladybug. He's faced Gabriel. He went to school and told him he didn't want to model and opened up about feeling like his father never wants to talk to him. so I know he can be more honest with Ladybug without a villain spell. The only reason I can think of it never reaching that point is because the writers didn't want it to. Not only do I think that he would have expressed himself well and honestly enough if given the moment, but I think there’s a good chance Ladybug would have tried to fix things if she actually knew what he was upset about and didn't reduce it to 'he's in love with me.' Which I can't completely blame her for. She had help from both Plagg and Adrien.
Maybe that’s just me being wishful about the blorbos, but my early season blorbos are better than their later season counterparts. The latter just seem like shills for a plot that doesn't match them.
I really miss early Adrien anyhow. He took a lot more flack then because he messed up more because he actually had a personality that allowed him to disagree and have sassy moments. Sometimes he was right, sometimes wrong, but at least he felt more layered. 
Whew, this is a long ask! I'll take this part by part.
Ok I am going to be controversial. If I'm honest, I don’t really understand the desire for Adrien to turn his back on Ladybug at the end of Strikeback. That's partly because I don't completely get what the writers intended Adrien’s struggle to be about in Season 4. I understand what Ladybug did wrong, but my thing is…
The thing is, I don't want him to turn his back on Ladybug in Strikeback. I've said before that I love that scene. What spoils is for me is that the conflict is never addressed after that episode, and it just makes it come off as Chat Noir pushing away his hurt to be there for Ladybug once more. Like he just accepted that he'll be treated in ways he doesn't like. The scene in isolation is one of my favorites, but it's how the aftermath was dealt with that makes it bad.
Does CN ever actually express to LB why he is upset in Season 4? Does he ever try to reason with her or advocate for himself? I don’t remember him approaching the real issue until they were under Risk’s influence and he says “maybe that’s because you never tell me anything.”  I also remember that overall fallout feeling really muddy throughout the season.
You're partially right. He doesn't really try to actually talk with her until Risk/Strikeback. And part of this is because of his own trauma. But the other part of it is also because Ladybug has also become more and more unapproachable over the course of the season. When he does try to approach her in some way, he gets shut down.
You're pretty spot on about the other reasons for why he feels the way he does.
There are also the reasons that the fandom projects onto Adrien as things he 'should' be upset about, but is never actually upset about and have never had any canon ground: She’s the leader and the only holder with a cure. They’ve never been exactly equal despite that one line and he’s never had an issue with this on the battlefield. He only wants to know what’s going on. If he does have some leftover resentment at Fu not choosing or training him, his beef is with Fu.
I agree that any resentment he feels for Fu not training him isn't Marinette's fault.
This is getting long, so I'll put the rest of it under the cut.
He doesn’t know other holders identities. He’s only ever cared to know Ladybug’s. And this may be controversial opinion, but even if he wanted Ladybug to tell him the other holders’ identities, would he be justified in that? He’s not a guardian. Why is he entitled to demand the guardian hand them over? Especially without their permission?
So, he isn't entitled to their identities. I personally think he would have been justified in wanting to know before Season 4, but it's not really that way anymore. But in any case, that isn't the issue. The issue is Ladybug playing loose and fast with the rules, allowing others to know their identities and even revealing her own identity to someone else while making sure that Chat Noir sticks to the rules. He has a right to be upset about that.
Her plan with Luka to reveal their identities and erase his memory. This is to me her most egregious offense in season 4 and if he knew about it, it would make the argument against his forgiveness much stronger in my eyes. But he doesn’t. And it becomes obsolete information after the episode.
The point is that it shouldn't have become obsolete. She was going to do something awful to him. I don't think it should have been thrown aside. He should know about it. She's shown that she's willing to take advantage of his trust and she never actually learnt any lesson about not doing that or that it was wrong. He's entitled to information about her actions that could potentially have harmed him. That's something she should admit to.
The reason I can't see him justified in cutting ties with her in Strikeback though is that... this doesn't come up? He can't say he's tried to communicate with her. Nothing like “you’re keeping things I need to know from me and I don’t like it” or “you said things wouldn’t change between us as partners but you’ve distanced yourself from me. we started this together”. Nothing before Strikeback. I could see if he'd tried to talk about it and she dismissed him and didn’t try to fix things. But there’s no conversation around this in particular.
I think the reason for this is clear in your own next paragraph. I will say again that him cutting ties with her in Strikeback is not something that I want.
The weird thing is a lot of the other reasons come up in canon through his voice or someone else’s or both. He’s in love with her. He doesn't know what he'd do without her. All the new partners make him feel insecure and irrelevant. Why can’t we know each others’ identity and they can? In other words, the reasons that make him seem overemotional and self centered. These reasons also all center her or the desire for her love and adoration rather than his feelings as her partner. That’s what’s highlighted in Season 4.
And that's exactly it. The season spends so many episodes building up this conflict between them, building up Ladybug's secret keeping and Chat Noir's increasing resentment and insecurity over the fact, and then... reduces it to him being in love with her. There are plenty of valid reasons for him to be angry with her, but Kuro Neko, the episode where the Ladynoir conflict is supposedly at an end, tells us that the reason for all this is because "Chat Noir is in love with Ladybug." I call BS.
It's a severe flaw in the writing. They reduce the conflict down to being about Chat Noir being in love with Ladybug while brushing over everything else that was set up. Him being in love with her may have been a slight factor, but it was never the main problem. If he hadn't been in love with her, he would still have the right to be pissed. Reducing it down to him being in love with her reduces the whole conflict, and Kuro Neko actually ends with Adrien saying he was too sensitive (which is Gabe rhetoric) and him apologizing to her as though she did nothing wrong at all. Kuro Neko is just... a fucking awful episode.
Kuro Neko was the perfect opportunity to have Adrien really vent, but the initial argument is a textbook miscommunication. He shows up smiling over his pain and cracking jokes. Therefore she doesn’t realize how upset he is. Then he pushes the subject even though she’s out of time and she snaps at him for not listening. Hurt, he snaps back and runs. Plagg blames it on heartbreak alone. Ladybug takes that bait and laments that there’s nothing she can do but dote on him a bit because hey he’s just heartbroken. She's not responsible for his unrequited love. At the end, he never mentions the legitimate issues and nothing is ever wrapped up. That’s where I start to think, did the writers even mean for him feeling diminished as a ‘partner’ to be a real issue? Did they intend for this to be a lovesick issue from the start?
And I think you've hit the nail right on the head. This is exactly the problem with Kuro Neko and Season 4 as a whole.
I don’t think this is just on Ladybug being impossible to talk to because of some vibe she sends out or her making sad face. Chat Noir has been pretty cross with Ladybug before over other less justified matters and she didn’t crumble or smote him. She did throw him in the trash but that took 4 seasons of being calm and reasonable in the face of some behavior that wasn’t always great on his part. He is usually the one supporting her, but she managed not to meltdown while he was struggling in Guilttrip and Reverser and support him.  She’s not glass and she’s not his father and I think he knows that on some level. I think his lack of communication is partially his upbringing.
I do sort of disagree with Ladybug being approachable. I think Glaciator 2 did do some damage. See, it's always been their dynamic to banter and for Chat Noir to flirt. Ladybug herself has enjoyed their banter and has responded to his flirtatious comments with nothing more than a small roll of her eyes. When he does it at the wrong time, she tells him to cut it out and he does. Considering that, throwing him a trashcan is unnecessarily overblown. That's way out of line. It's clearly because she's stressed out and annoyed about the situation and because of everything else going on, but him never bringing up anything so as to not upset her is a pretty reasonable interpretation after that. And it does happen again in Kuro Neko. He offers to help, she snaps at him.
The situations with Guilttrip and others like it were when it wasn't about Ladybug. She is supportive of him and she does care for him, but it's always when it's not about her. When it is about her, she never actually puts in the effort to fix the problem and just smooths over the situation (Kuro Neko, Strikeback). Of course, a lot of his lack of communication is due to his upbringing, but Ladybug is also visibly more unapproachable now.
But mostly, he's just written to undermine himself. Ladybug isn’t the only voice box for the writers. Adrien is too. Everyone in the show works to serve a particular narrative so it’s no wonder that his most valid complaint against Ladybug in Season 4 was buried under all of the less noble ones, even from his own lips. He needed Risk just to confront her on the part she was actually responsible for. Odd choice. I guess he wouldn’t have been the perfect boyfriend if he did it without Risk? I think a decent percentage of the rage at LB in Season 4 is made more intense and inflated in combination with all those other factors. We as the viewers know Adrien's trauma, how starved for love he is, what little support system he has vs the act he puts on as both Adrien and Chat Noir. We know too the meta fact that the writers never allowed CN the dignity to be rightfully upset about it or voice his most valid displeasure at anytime except when he was under the influence of a villain.
Spot on.
Taking the show at surface level, I can see him forgiving her. I just wished they had talked about it. Adrien isn't helpless in the face of Ladybug. He's faced Gabriel. He went to school and told him he didn't want to model and opened up about feeling like his father never wants to talk to him. so I know he can be more honest with Ladybug without a villain spell. The only reason I can think of it never reaching that point is because the writers didn't want it to. Not only do I think that he would have expressed himself well and honestly enough if given the moment, but I think there’s a good chance Ladybug would have tried to fix things if she actually knew what he was upset about and didn't reduce it to 'he's in love with me.' Which I can't completely blame her for. She had help from both Plagg and Adrien.
Spot on again.
Maybe that’s just me being wishful about the blorbos, but my early season blorbos are better than their later season counterparts. The latter just seem like shills for a plot that doesn't match them. I really miss early Adrien anyhow. He took a lot more flack then because he messed up more because he actually had a personality that allowed him to disagree and have sassy moments. Sometimes he was right, sometimes wrong, but at least he felt more layered. 
I will say that Miraculous trying to make the switch from a monster-of-the-week type of show to having an overarching plot was an ambitious choice, but it did not work out well, for reasons you've mentioned here.
I will also say, when I criticize Marinette, it isn't often Marinette herself that I criticize but the writing around her. The sort of writing that involves other characters bending over so that she doesn't look bad, or Adrien being reduced to her emotional support partner who doesn't demand a thing from her. That's ultimately what Season 4 had him learn, that he isn't and never will be her equal and that he should just be okay with whatever she does. And since Adrien character is that of the abuse victim who has never been allowed to be his own person, it just paints a very nasty picture. So, I think we do largely agree on many things, anon.
Thank you for your ask!
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odnlb writing process/workshop
this is mainly for my own reference. however, if this post ends up helping you with yours, then even better! 😊
most of you know, i wrote this fic as a practice for using save the cat (aka snyder) structure, and so now that it's complete i have the outline to come back to in a way that i understand and can use in future wips! did i deviate from this structure? yes. a lot. did i still follow all the beats though? i think so! check out how i formatted my outline!
my starting point: marinette 🐞
want: revenge against monarque
need: replace hate with love
this gave me a very clear picture of the emotional journey she would undergo. once i figured out her emotional need and decided what she would do to fulfill that need, i was able to pretty much plot out the entire fic. we needed a hero (in her case, an anti-hero) we could follow through an entire 45 chapter fic, and odnlb marinette gave us a reason to care about her and root for her right off the bat!
here's what save the cat's 15-beat structure looks like at a glance:
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(isn't it just beautiful? 😍)
for odnlb, i combined this structure with the 3-act, 9-block, 27-chapter method:
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lol so i did not exactly stick to this, as was my plan (my huge cast of characters wanted more from me.) however, i did stick with the proper beats...it just ended up expanding into 5 acts.
this is how my outline ended up looking (orange = save the cat, purple = 3 act 9 block 27 chapters):
act 1 - ladybug meets the villains
block 1
opening image - marinette leaves a rose at chat noir's statue. her eyes are dead (like him)
introductions/setup - 6 years later, marinette works for chloe. adrien still models for gabriel & is estranged from her and his old friends
theme stated - alya says, "you're getting better." (marinette has not been focused on hatred, but her personal growth)
catalyst/ inciting incident - bunnyx steals the rabbit miraculous & draws out the villain team
debate/ immediate reaction / fallout - villain team decides to abandon plan to use rabbit miraculous & get ladybug's miraculous instead. marinette decides to get cat walker's miraculous & kill monarque with it.
block 2
actions - ladybug interrogates adrien agreste bc he is close to lila, chloe, and felix (primary suspects). he doesn't give her any information, but reassures her he is on her side.
consequences - volpina attacks ladybug, villain team overpower her
block 3
pressure - ladybug is outnumbered, cannot stand against all the holders & their power-ups. villain side: ladybug is onto them. ladybug needs an ally & turns to kagami (also close to felix), but kagami turns ladybug down (but why?).
pinch/plot twist - cat walker contacts ladybug: tells her monarque is going to resume akuma attacks unless lb gives her miraculous
break into act 2 - monarque attempts to akumatize ladybug, but cat walker saves her. realizes villains' motivations are split.
act 2 - rise of monarque
block 4
new world - luka and zoe come to town. adrien is in trouble but felix stands by him. su han abandons marinette; he cannot teach her bc she has too much hatred.
fun and games/ b story/ies - felix and adrien switch so adrien can meet his friends for drinks. chloe sneaks snake miraculous back to luka. felix and lila threaten each other. felix likes kagami.
bad guys close in - monarque akumatizes nino to punish adrien. marinette finds out cat walker is a sentimonster
juxtaposition/ old vs new - luka/aspik shows up & joins marinette's side (she's not alone anymore). adrien realizes he has to be alone bc of what happened to nino. kagami confronts felix and gets the dragon miraculous (war begins)
act 3 - adrien identity reveal
block 5
build-up - luka and marinette plot to find the sentimonster. luka confronts adrien indirectly, suspects monarque is gabriel. marinette sleuths on felix (suspected peacock holder) only to discover adrien is a sentimonster/cat walker. kagami finds ladybug & offers to spy on felix & the villain team for her. monarque akumatizes zoe to punish chloe. ryuko gets her felix's amok in the fight, but gets it back when ladybug uses it against him. to stop ladybug harming argos & ryuko, luka reveals chat noir is still alive.
midpoint - montparnasse scene: ladybug confronts cat walker, he admits the truth. stand off with monarque until aspik & mellona rescue ladybug.
reversal - marinette is no longer hate driven, but driven by love to save adrien
act 4 - angrybug reversal
block 6
reaction - due to big emotional distress, ladybug goes into the avatar state (foreshadowing 👀). luka and chloe calm her down. feligami get together. adrien pleads to his father not to harm ladybug.
action/trials (raise the stakes) - the more adrien breaks his amok, the more he breaks his miraculous. marinette is set up to "spy" on adrien for the villain team. villain team plot to corner ladybug at dj wifi wedding.
dedication - adrinette kiss scene. adrien promsies himself he will harm himself before he lets harm come to ladybug. marinette promises no more harm will come to him.
block 7
calm before the storm - lila flashback: she killed nathalie and has been akumatized/transformed for 6 years. balcony scene: marinette tries to keep adrien close to no avail.
pinch/plot twist - volpina and monarque attack chloe, luka, and zoe. vesperia and carapace get their miraculous back. ladybug tries to heal cat walker & free him with her power, but his miraculous is too broken. she can only save him by getting his amok.
everything goes wrong/ dark night of the soul/ all is lost - lila & felix flashback: lila is monarque reveal. ladybug confronts gabriel agreste & tries to kill him, but can't (bc she is no longer full of hate). realizes monarque is lila. monarque takes felix, but kagami takes the other miraculous back to ladybug.
act 5 - fall of monarque
block 8 - finale
power within - team assemble. chloe uses mouse miraculous to activate other holders. lila finds marinette's identity.
action - monarque attacks. luka sacrifices himself to get the upper hand. alya gets the fox miraculous off lila, all her illusions drop. lila akumatizes timetagger, bunnyx shows up to get him. team fights argos and his sentimonster, red moon, to the death. chloe incapacitates argos.
converge - monarque takes the senti-twins and runs. remainder of the team follow her to agreste mansion.
block 9
final confrontation/final battle - monarque tries to make felix fix her miraculous. ladybug and team show up. monarque morphs into monster and attacks. gabriel sacrifices himself to save lb, but monarque still gets the upper hand. chat noir cataclysms monarque with a broken miraculous.
climax - the broken cataclysm destroys the world, but carapace's shield protects remainder of team. with adrien gone, felix is free and emilie is awake. ladybug goes toe-to-toe with broken miraculous final form chat noir, but her power is too weak compared to his untethered destruction. then felix gives her the peacock miraculous and she uses it to create a new bond for adrien, tethering him to life with her love.
resolution/denouement - all of paris knows chat noir is alive! big parade for heroes. ladybug and chat noir do a william and kate kiss. alya shoos off su han. felix gives gabriel to chloe and decides to work for tsurugi tech so he can stay with kagami. zoe and luka decide to go back home for a bit then come to stay too. emilie wants to be close to felix and adrien, but she is def not the priority for them atm. marinette takes the butterfly miraculous back from emilie. adrinette go off on a honeymoon vacation. adrien practices his proposal on a beach.
final image - adrien and marinette playing in the water on a beach on la reunion. “camera” pans away from their silhouettes running around on the sand, back to their stuff on the beach. shows a ring box in adrien’s bag with plagg & tikki chilling.
if this helped you out, i'm so glad! it definitely helped me see how to organize a story. i think if i ever do a fic like odnlb again, i will definitely do this for it.
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The whole system for the Miraculous is wonky as hell and much of the writing feels like they're still on that whole Good/Bad Luck concept from the show's planning stage. LB's power is literally Lucky Charm, and the symbolism of Ladybugs are good luck symbols not creation symbols. Same with the Black Cat symbolism (though the Miraculous borrow from Chinese culture and Black Cats are good luck symbols in China) I'd be more than willing to wager that the Peacock and Butterfly were concepted out before the change and no one went "Hey shouldn't we change the peacock"
Originally there was no Peacock. They were planning to do Bagua instead of Wu Xing. So a couple of miraculous from concepts were able to make it in.
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But yeah, I have a growing list of what I noticed to be concepts that got changed, but weren't fully implemented to match those changes, so it's like they're still working off those old concepts despite the changes and it's not working as well, at least, how they're going about things.
As you mentioned, yeah, there's still the Good-Bad Luck theme going on (which both animals are European exclusive in terms of lucky view, an unlucky animal in Chinese should've been an Owl or Wolf).
Marinette's Luck and Tikki's treatment of her.
Now older concept Marinette was a lot more problematic. She was invasive of Felix's company and would try to force kisses on him. She also used her good luck powers selfishly, which brought bad luck as consequences. So being more pushy with her interest and being more selfish, it warrants Tikki to be criticizing and more questioning of Marinette and her choices.
Marinette now though is very selfless and considerate of others, and hardly ever abuses her power or use it selfishly. Despite the changes to her character, she still suffers a lot of bad luck (much of it played for comedy which sometimes goes too far), and Tikki is very criticizing/nitpicky of Marinette's choices and actions.
2. Chat still pursuing LB despite the clear no
Felix still pursued LB despite the clear no because he was cursed with bad luck. His actions aren't ok, but you get his reasoning on why he still tries.
Adrien though is curse free, still pursues LB despite the clear no and its because he really wants to be with her and is trying to wear her down and is dismissing her answer and feelings. That's not good.
3. Hawk Moth and His Son
Felix actually was not HM's son. Between that and him not having a desire to be a hero, it made sense why Felix wouldn't actively look for HM. He doesn't have that close connection nor did he have that drive.
Adrien is HM's son, and he has that close connection and could get that plot moving. And yet 5 seasons now, Adrien is none the wiser. It's a weird placement where they know he is HM's son, but they're also acting like Chat still isn't his son so has no reason to look into HM and discover things and get this plot moving.
4. The Slow Slow Slow Slow Slow Slow Slow Civilian Side Burn
When it was Felix and Marinette, he couldn't stand her (understandably) so he avoided her while she makes all the effort to try and get closer with him. It's understandable why the civilian side of things would be slow going.
Now, Adrien is friendlier and does like Marinette, and she still makes a lot of effort to confess to him and get closer with him. But it fails or goes nowhere, which just sets up this impression that she is far under his radar. And introducing Kagami didn't help cause you could pass off him being too blind/set on LB, but Kagami shows that he can notice other girls, so Marinette just isn't a romantic option. I do hear they finally reversed the LS in s5 but it feels way too late.
5. Marinette and her Parents
Earliest concept of Marinette actually had her coming home finding her father dead. And I didn't see much else of her having parents or them talked about. And given that Marinette is written to be independent, self-reliant, hardly turns to adults for help and advise, and seems to turn to Tikki as a mentor; to me it seems that Marinette's parents were just never meant to be in the picture or factored in. Mindful, I think Marinette was originally meant to be college age. If she and Chat Noir were always meant to be a romantic pair, well, there is no way this Chat is a young teenager.
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Either way, she now officially has parents, but they are hardly in her life, she never really turns to them for help and advise like a 13 yo should, and she's still incredibly independent. Mostly, she turns to Tikki for help and advise. At It's almost like her parents aren't there.
This way of writing how uninvolved and absent her parents are, it could be a left of to them possibly being dead, or it could be a left over from the earliest thought that Marinette was going to be older and not need them around as much. They made a change, but it's not fully implemented, especially with Marinette confirmed to be 13 at the start of the show. I don't know how much independence 13 yos in France get, but I'd expect they still rely on their parents quite a bit.
So, this is my list of things I noticed that were changed concepts, but they didn't fully change everything to really make it work, and it feels like they're still working off those old concepts despite making changes. Or they're just trying to have their cake and eat it to. They do that a lot.
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~ 100 Facts about my WHB MC!! ~
So I did this with Mara on my Obey Me Tumblr but let's do 100 facts of Mirjami as we get into the story to get a feel for her <3
1. Mirjami was born February 15th 1997, making her an Aquarius Sun, Cancer Moon, and Sagittarius Rising
2. Mirjami's Father is Arab and her mother is Israeli making her mixed but looking more Israeli. When they died she was adopted by a nice Greek Couple making her understand a bit of it
3. Mirjami is actually 5'8 and weighs 185 lbs making her a bit chubby but she tries to stay active
4. While Mirjami loves her adoptive parents they weren't exactly receptive to her leaving her to be a very awkward lonely child when she was younger
5. Mirjami was actually pretty slow as a child making her very immature despite her age (she actually was held back and had to go to a specialized course because of her slowness and to help with her communication skills)
6. Interestingly however despite being slow there are certain subjects she excelled in such as music/writing/art
7. Mirjami is actually a bit older than Minhyeok but because of her slower development she got along with him a bit more than others
8. Mirjami is someone who ALWAYS had someone or needed to be taken care of leaving some to see her as a burden or leech
9. Minhyeok and Mirjami were friends since they were young but Mirjami never saw him as anything more because she felt he deserved better
10. When Mirjami was a teenager she never could make friends because she felt too awkward and timid around other girls and boys (Minhyeok is the only person she feels comfortable with during this time)
11. When Mirjami graduated from high school her parents moved back to Greece and she chose to stay wanting to support herself through college
12. Mirjami always loved singing and often partook in plays or musicals because of her fondness for it
13. Mirjami met her baby daddy/ex-husband Freshman year of college. She was studying music and art and he studied biochemistry. The two dated through college until Junior year where she got pregnant
14. When Mirjami got pregnant the two decided to marry but the marriage eventually got annulled because her ex Ahmed felt as though they rushed things or were making a bad decision and didn't actually want to tie down Mirjami
15. When Mirjami gave birth to Munira she dropped out of college to raise the child majority time while Ahmed went to college and got his degree
16. When Ahmed graduated college he got more custody of Munira than before and the two coparent amicably having a deep fondness for each other that has grown platonic on Ahmed's side
17. Mirjami actually is pretty poor and she lives in a trailer park with her pet dog "Pom Pom". When she visits Minhyeok she does so to clean his home a bit or imagine herself having a home like his for her and her daughter
18. Mirjami is incredibly close to their daughter and sings songs for her constantly it being a source of comfort
19. Munira is a very bright girl leading to some to joke that for as dumb or ditzy as Mirjami is she was lucky to have such a smart child. She doesn't mind this but she feels bad she can't do more
20. Mirjami dreams of returning to college to finish getting her degree and wants to compose songs
21. Mirjami is an Assistant Manager at a gas station and works very hard to keep things together- Most of her coworkers like her becomes she's so maternal and sweet
22. Mirjami loves to bake and enjoys cooking always willing to make big meals for her family
23. Mirjami doesn't ever really talk about herself she always hypes up people close to her
24. Mirjami isn't actually very perverted as she doesn't have time and actually got used to watching things too sanitized
25. Mirjami once put a child lock on her computer but forgot the password hence why she's always at Minhyeok's searching things up
26. Mirjami still loves Ahmed and while she tried to move on for his sake it's clear to everyone she would go back to him in a heartbeat
27. Mirjami hates violence and yelling and gets scared and uncomfortable when people aside from Minhyeok Munira or Ahmed touch her
28. When Mirjami met Satan she was scared of him but seeing him save Minhyeok made her trust him
29. Mirjami consistently gets ignored or talked down to leading her to timidly just take whatever people call her
30. While Mirjami is awkward and weird it's implied she has a lot of bottled up anger and emotions implying she's more Wrath oriented than any other sin
31. Mirjami's goal is to help the Devils drive back angels but also so they could help protect her daughter
32. Mirjami loves her daughter immensely and often turns murderously serious at the thought of her getting hurt
33. Mirjami loves small fluffy animals and wants another pomeranian. She has a weakness for cute things
34. Mirjami loves to sew and knit and often makes clothes and things for her daughter
35. Mirjami often thinks of Ahmed and how she wishes they were together again even if it was the right decision
36. Mirjami is actually shocked when people are sexually attracted to her because she still feels like a weirdo when around others
37. Mirjami is heterosexual but is implied to be curious of exploring
38. Mirjami loves horses and always wanted to take her daughter to the stables
39. Ahmed loved Mirjami but it's implied another reason he left her is because he felt like she would always be a follower to his wants when he wants an equal partner
40. Mirjami hates when people argue and fight because she is like an emotional sponge who absorbs others' emotions
41. Mirjami was openly disgusted with the "needing essence to survive" and currently tries to pretend it's anything but what it is
42. Mirjami's favorite food is Mediterranean Food or Shawarma and Falafels
43. Mirjami is actually terrified of the ocean and doesn't know how to swim
44. While Mirjami is a bit slow at times she's very perceptive of others' intentions especially when it concerns her daughter and keeping her safe
45. Mirjami favorite type of person are those who are fatherly kind and strong
46. Mirjami doesn't actually have sexy underwear; she wears cotton undies that are pastel color and she gets surprised when she gets sexy underwear
47. Mirjami used to have an imaginary friend and she often reminisces about them missing them. Minhyeok doesn't like them
48. Mirjami loves working at the Gas Station but never notices when people perv on her because her mind is elsewhere
49. Mirjami doesn't like to drink any alcohol/in general. Her favorite drinks are Shirley Temples
50. Mirjami has always dreamt of having a family (husband house and her daughter) but gets embarrassed talking about it because she imagines it with Ahmed mostly
51. Mirjami is very worrying and doting to everyone making her seem as if she's a worry wart or does too much
52. Mirjami feels ashamed she dropped out of college and while she tries to say she did it for her daughter she sometimes misses the days before pregnancy in her lowest moments
53. While Mirjami is a decent parent Munira in turn is actually very protective of her and tries to take care of her mother
54. With Munira being incredibly smart and intelligent Mirjami will often go out of her way to take odd jobs so her daughter could have the best education
55. Mirjami falls asleep in movie theaters and during movies often
56. Mirjami often cries because she is very sensitive
57. Mirjami loves and adores her daughter so much that she always tells herself the sex with demons is for her sake
58. Mirjami loves cuddling or being held and will often try to push herself into the arms of those she's comfortable with
59. Mirjami loves Zodiac stuff and crystals and has a lot of amtheyst in her room
60. Mirjami is ambidextrous but was forced to use her right hand more
61. Mirjami's voice is very girlish and sweet leading people to sometimes remark she sounds like a fairytale princess
62. Mirjami is a bit embarrassed about her freckles
63. A bit tmi but Mirjami actually doesn't like using condoms and enjoys sex from behind. She will never tell anyone but it's... Easy to see her tune change after it when she needs Demon essence.
64. Mirjami's favorite color is pink and she loves receiving carnations and lilies
65. Mirjami is actually afraid of getting yelled at and thunder/lightning so when she hears it she often cuddles her daughter/dog/cute thing close for comfort
66. Mirjami is a certified dog parent and was worried to death angels would hurt her dog. The pom currently lives with Minhyeok now
67. Mirjami's Pomeranian is names Pom Pom. As you can see Mirjami is very original with names
68. Mirjami gets overwhlemed easily so she often likes to sit alone to recuperate and her singing and tunes sort of helps her mind focus
69. Sexually Mirjami is too sensitive: You could kiss her a bit too harsh and she'll be whiney or tell you to be gentle. Makes the sex with the Demons very intense with her
70. Mirjami had always wanted to cut her hair but doesn't because her daughter likes it long
71. Mirjami learnt to like reading by her daughter and reads a lot of kid books so she can talk about them with her baby girl
72. Mirjami loves volunteering at school events and is the more "present" parent than Ahmed making her disappearance very distressing for Munira
73. Mirjami and Minhyeok actually went through a period of time where they didn't talk when she was married briefly; It was mostly on him and Ahmed as Ahmed didn't feel comfortable with their friendship and its one of the few dark parts of their friendship
74. On that note while Mirjami cares deeply for Minhyeok and Ahmed she does sometimes wonder if her friendship with Minhyeok caused her marriage to Ahmed to end but she doesn't bring it up because she's scared Minhyeok will get mad or leave her
75. Aside from that Minhyeok is one of the few allowed to babysit Munira because Mirjami trusts him so much
76. Mirjami HAS clicked on weird porn links before. She keeps thinking it's a message from a potential friend or she's supporting a niche website but then she sees titties and gets shocked
77. Mirjami clicks on links so many times the child lock is sometimes more for her than Munira
78. Mirjami has a pretty buxom figure and while she never noticed it it's been a source to why she's popular at the Gas Station or outside. She genuinely believes people are just being nice.
79. Mirjami loves to get magazines that have perfumes and lotions and jewelry just because she likes to pretend she'll buy those someday
80. Mirjami has a license but is often too shaky to drive. She loves walking everywhere
81. While Mirjami lives in a trailer she's made it her mission to make it a cozy home on the inside so when her daughter visits she feels safe and comfortable
82. Mirjami spoils her daughter immensely to the point she gave her the bigger room in her house so her daughter had space. It's not out of any malicious intentions she just loves her daughter too damned much not to
83. Mirjami had always felt Solomon's connection but never gave it much thought as she always felt a bit weird
84. Mirjami is often overwhelmed by the lavish castles and furnishing the Devils have. She was so used to going without it surprises her
85. Some of the demons have made Mirjami cry before. She's sensitive and cries easily so she always clings to the more dominant protective energy in the room
86. Mirjami still carries a photo of her on her wedding day with her husband and a photo of her family because those were the happiest days of her life
87. While Mirjami regrets dropping out of college she never regrets having her daughter as she felt partly she was always meant to be a mother
88. While not exactly permissive Mirjami HATES disciplining Munira as it makes her want to cry if she sees her daughter upset in any way
89. Mirjami is very curious of Solomon and actually kind of sad since her daughter won't get to meet her magical grandpa
90. Mirjami is very shy about it but she kind of likes soft degrading IF it's mixed with loving words ( You can call her stupid but also tell her you love and cherish her or she will cry )
91. Though Mirjami doesn't say it- It deeply upsets her when Sitri or other demons only call her "Solomon" it makes her feel unloved or unseen and she kind of veers away if they won't acknowledge her
92. Mirjami loves to paint and wants to do it often even if she hates getting paint on herself (she's SUPER delicate and precise when painting honestly)
93. Mirjami HAS snapped before and it's kind of implied that when she snaps things get REALLT ugly because she puts 100% her whole emotions into it (it usually leaves her drained or sobbing afterwards so she tries not to get mad)
94. Mirjami's greatest fear is scaring her daughter or making Munira dislike her. She wants desperately for her daughter to love her and be with her
95. Because of Mirjami's fear of the ocean she's never been on boats and is actually not a fan of flying either
96. Mirjami can't handle too many positions changes unconsciously after sex with demons she limps slightly. Be it because it's in her head or because she's still reliving it those moments makes it very easy to see where her mind is still at afterwards
97. While Mirjami has plans for the future and wants to go back to college she's actually content to put her whole life on hold so her daughter can be happy (she's not a multitasker she'd rather invest herself 100% in one part of her life than bettering the other)
98. Mirjami still wants to be married and belong to someone but given doesn't actually think that's possible with the Demons
99. Mirjami has been described to come off Aloof from a distance. It's not something she intends but when she's not on the register or just in her day to day she seems lost in her head
100. Mirjami doesn't regret helping the demons. She wishes there could be peace but she would honestly destroy the 2 Realms just to make sure her daughter was safe and lived her life happy
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So I read the second part of your ml analysis which is very good btw, but I have two questions: 1. you say something about how Adrien would never give up being Chat bc of freedom and stuff, but he does so in syren (kind of) and in kuro neko. I mean, it would make sense that he wouldn‘t bc of the reasons you stated, I‘m there with you, but… that‘s not canon? There are instances where he gives up his hero life bc he‘s insecure of what LB thinks of him (which tbf seems ooc but still). And second, Luka didn’t know about Mari‘s secret identity at the time when they were together, and I wouldn‘t necessarily blame him for being upset at her for not being very present during their relationship. Idk maybe I misunderstood (in which case I‘m sorry) but he only learned about that later. (Or do you mean that if he was the main love interest, he would‘ve forgiven her for acting the way she did?)
I don‘t disagree with you at all, I was just confused about those two parts
I'll be honest, the original draft has been in the work for well over a few years now. So, it was initially written before season 4. Much of my information on the episodes moving forward is either clips or second-hand information.
(Being honest though, I don't feel like I miss much doing this. A lot, and I mean ALOT of MLB is padded fluff and not even good kind. I did keep up with recaps until season 4. Season 5 to me is a complete mystery. And I don't wanna find out. What little I have seen or been told, makes me question...so much).
That said.
You do have a point.
Adrien gives up "Chat Noir" on two occasions. 1) Despereada 2) Kuro-Neko.
(I'm not counting Syren because that was a threat, not really him giving it up, or following through.)
But here's the thing. We're both in the correct here. Because while Adrien "gives up" the Alter Ego of Chat Noir - in Desperada he does not give up being a Superhero.
He is just trying on a new mask. He still wants what he's always wanted "a home" and his "home" is Ladybug. He tries to please her, by being Aspik. His "wish" hasn't changed, he's figuring out if a new mask will be able to grant it.
And in the case of Kuro-Neko, I would liken it to a corrupted soul gem. Realising that the "wish" he made when he became Chat Noir is fruitless.
I said "[Ladybug] offers him [a place to belong], while Chat Noir lends him the means to show that “true self” he can’t allow to others. He would never give up his miraculous because it would mean losing all that."
But what happens if the first statement is false? What if Ladybug no longer represents a place where he belongs? What if he no longer feels like Chat Noir is his true self? If either of those fail, then what's the point of having an Alter Ego? That's when he gives it up.
The moment his wish is proven NOT to be granted by the Magical Power Up, he gives up his Alter Ego.
OOC, yes. But it has some (?) sort of internal logic.
However, the point of that specific part was simply to say that Chat Noir is a (slightly) better-constructed protagonist. Through seasons 1-3, he remains with this internal logic. Something that Marinette does not have, even at the very beginning.
Again, I do believe Kuro Neko could have worked - but giving it the 1 episode treatment ruined any shot at redemption it could have.
As for the Luka situation
I really was trying not to go into a tangent, within a tangent about how badly they handled Luka. So I sorta jumbled a lot of stuff together and mistyped a lot. It's actually quite understandable that I didn't make myself clear, I wasn't trying to.
I was vaguely gesturing at the problem. But, if you insist:
My main point is: I don't think he should feel entitled to information about his (relatively new) girlfriend.
That entire thing was, politely said, a dick move.
With my comparison to Tokyo Mew Mew, I was trying to prove that Luka did the one thing that no Magical Girl Male Lead should EVER do. It's antithetical to everything the genre stands for.
Marinette wasn't in the wrong for keeping ANY sort of secret from him that didn't relate to their relationship. Point blank. But, he feels so justified in this, that when he becomes an Akuma, he outrights forces everyone to give up Marinette's secret.
One that I would argue IS a huge deal in regards to their relationship. She still likes Adrien. But he says he already knows that.
And, apparently, does not care for it.
Okay then, why did he care for her other secret? What could have possibly been worse in his head to get into such a huge fight over?
And in the end, it doesn't even matter cause he does find out she's Ladybug afterwards!
He broke this girl's heart just bcs he couldn't handle she wasn't being 100% honest in a, what? 2-month-old relationship?
The entire thing is messy and weird, and meanspirited. I'm not a fan.
And that should be obvious. I compared Aoyama and Ichigo in a positive light to them.
I do not ship them. I don't even think they should have been endgame. I know that's an essay/rant for another day - but to somehow be worse than the most VANILLA of Magica Girl ships, the one ship anyone will tell you isn't the one they wanted. The one that everyone in the REMAKE is begging to be changed...
You fucked up.
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Personally, if lb6 is any indication I think fgo's plan is to have Mash replace Galahad. I've thought that since I saw Mash call herself Fairy Knight Galahad and then all the dialogue with characters referring to Mash as Galahad but better, etc. Either way I don't think things will go smoothly for Galahad if he even gets into fgo.
I've been meditating on Mash succeeding as the "new Galahad", but LB6 didn't convince me that it's going to happen. Mash found a lot of joy and purpose in acting as Fairy Knight Galahad and the Knight of Sheffield, but I didn't read that as Mash needing to literally become Galahad; it was that acting -with amnesia- under his name, gave her the opportunity to act without restraint and show us the kind of person she is at the core, and what kinds of things are important to her. And, even without knowing her purpose or the reason she was made, she's a person that selflessly protects.
And she chose to defeat Barghest, earning Gawain and Lancelot's approval, not because it was practical or even definitively the right thing to do - the only thing at stake was Barghest’s reputation. She just did it because she cares about Barghest. So, as far as I can tell, FK Galahad (and Galahad himself) are more... narrative tools to show us Mash’s state of mind, rather than her inevitable future? Hmm.  
I found it interesting that Galahad's powers didn't really help Mash in the fight with Cernunnos at all; she needed to make use of the Black Barrel, a power that was out of her reach but was returned to her once Habetrot was sure she was ready to use it again. LB6 read as Mash getting her feet back and determining, using her own morality, what she wants to use her powers to protect - both her power as a hero of the shield, and as the bearer of the destructive power of the Black Barrel. This is something she especially needed to figure out now that things are less black and white than in part 1.
And not only have some of the barriers holding her back from Galahad been removed, it is now (thanks to Habetrot) infinitely easier for her to use the Black Barrel. I can't help but see parallels between Galahad and Habetrot's current function as the, uh, Guardian Fairy of the Black Barrel... or whathaveyou.
Mash's issues in part 3 have been relating to her insecurities regarding her actions and motivations, resulting in her disconnect from Galahad in the first place. That might mean she ends up figuring out her own path without him, or it might mean she ends up situationally bouncing between Ortenix/Black Barrel and Lord Camelot... I think it would be pretty reductive to just make Mash the new Galahad and ditch the old one instead of becoming a new hero in her own right, but it could certainly still happen. Just not sure how I'd feel about it, and how the Black Barrel would fit into it. Unless Habetrot just jacks that forever? I'm not entirely sure what's going on there. I’m still making my way through Tunguska. (Yeah, yeah, I know... I cleared Traum first, geh)
She'll certainly still be considered among the Knights of the Round no matter what, but, I mean. So are the Fairy Knights, Castoria and Gray.
The "Galahad-but-better" stuff was in reference to the power boost Mash got while acting as Fairy Knight Galahad - her permabuffs and being boosted to lv100 and such. A year plus on I can't quite remember if it was the inherent power of being granted Fairy Knighthood, her jacking her own fame boost due to time travel or what, but it was conditional on her being active in Fairy Britain and we were told at the end of the chapter that "Super Kyrielight" wouldn't be sticking around once the LB collapsed. It wasn't that she's literally superior to Galahad forever and always, it's just that under those circumstances she was hella jacked and could probably benchpress him.
Though at the end of the day, I just want him to be interesting. I hope I'll at least get that, regardless of anything else.
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actually i can’t remember if you’ve talked about this before so apologies in advance, but #14 for the ask meme: what voice does casey have in-game and do you headcanon her with a different voice? and if you have already answered that, i’m curious about your voiceclaims for your other OCs
Sorry this took a while; I have a fever and it's confusing me as to what I'm doing rn...
Unsurprisingly I'm going to answer both 😅
Boss ask meme
14. Which voice does your Boss have? Or if you imagine them speaking differently to one of the in-game voices, describe it.
So I think I answered this at some point but it was pretty brief. Casey's voice is SR3/4 Female Voice 1, the Laura Bailey voice. Apparently that voice is not so popular 😅 but it's how I've always imagined her. In 2 I play with the other Female voice 1 but hc she sounds the same as 3/4. I guess it's probably a little different in my head to in-game just because I've written as her vastly more than I've played as her by this point.
In SR1 I never attempted to remake "unnamed SR4 Boss" as she was at the time, I had a different Boss entirely. But I imagine her voice just sounding appropriately younger; a little higher pitched and when talking for extended periods, probably a little more timid too, though obviously the one-liners we hear in-game are her at her most confident.
I think we can assume the Stilwater accent is similar to Detroit, but her mom was from a different area of Michigan and in terms of later in life she has been heavily influenced by living in Steelport and Washington so I think her accent is pretty mixed. In terms of how Michigan I imagine it she definitely says stuff like didja, toldja, meetcha, y'guys instead of y'all, ope instead of oops, and Matt teases her over "meer" and "cloze". She doesn't have the vowel rotations like "melk", "stahp" though, I think her mom did though so she actually finds that pretty grating.
So yeah; she probably sounds a little different in my hc but I did study the LB voice lines as much as possible... the videos are just loooooong 😅
22. Another question not listed here: Do you have voiceclaims for your other OCs?
Pretty much all of my OCs have voices in my head but I don't think I have voice claims for most of them.
Mori is a difficult one because he's one of my most important OCs and I have a clear idea but no voice claim. In terms of tone I always imagine his voice being similar to the friend I based him off, whose voice has been likened to JJ Olatunji/KSI, but Mori is not British; his accent would be Stilwater but with several words pronounced with a Bajan inflection as he lived in Barbados for the first 11 years of his life.
Nessa's voice claim is KO/Karen Olivo because the minute I named the character Vanessa I couldn't help but associate her with Vanessa from In The Heights, and KO originated that role.
Rhys only has one line in my fanfic which is a very smooth "Mi rey." when he finally sees Pierce again. I'm tempted to say he sounds the same as his faceclaim Laith Ashley. His voice when speaking Spanish is how I imagined, maybe slightly different when speaking English, but he has a nice voice, I think it works.
Charlie's from East London so think the cockney male voice in a higher register. They're AFAB on a microdose of T.
I haven't really given Ward a voice yet but later I might have a walk around in SR2 and the first npc voice that suits him, I'm going to steal 🤣
Jenny is from Laredo, Texas and I described her as having a "gentle southern drawl.". She is obviously hugely rich and successful but unlike Casey she will not let her accent be influenced. She remembers her roots.
Daniel (the only fanfic featured OC I didn't draw for the pride thing) is also really important but... I guess I just imagined whatever "American kid" voice my brain thought of when writing him. I'll have to think about teen/adult Daniel!
I'm sure I'll be ridiculous enough to give all the Saints' kids voices eventually 😅
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When we adopted Jasper as an 8 week old kitten 16 years ago, he was sick, but we didn't know it until days later. We called the rescue shelter, they offered an exchange, and informed us he had been scheduled for euthanasia due to ringworm. They didn't treat ringworm due to it taking too long to clear and they had limited space. They did, however, cover the cost of treating his ringworm, URI, and fleas. He was the runt of his litter, had bad diarrhea, was lethargic, but so full of love. We treated him, he mostly recovered, but had diarrhea for the next 13 years with almost daily vomiting. No vet could tell us why. They gave us prescription cat food (made no difference), probiotic medicine (worked for 30 days and the day after the final dose he was back to vomiting and diarrhea again), anti-nausea meds, and even suggested OTC fiber powder and yogurt. No difference. I watched a vet show and the lead veg, Dr. Pol, had a patient come on with these symptoms and immediately figured out it was the fish in the cat's food. Cats can't digest the fat and other stuff in fish. Jasper had been eating seafood his entire life because Cacoa refused everything else. We removed all seafood because why tf not, we tried everything else. Two days later, solid stools, no vomiting for weeks.
Then, November 23rd, 2021, he was vomitting nearly every hour for a solid day, diarrhea, and then he refused to eat or drink anything. He went from a healthy energetic 10 lbs to a weak, lethargic 7 lbs. We took him to the emergency vet clinic as soon as they opened, then napped in the car while we waited. Because we had to get up at 5AM to make it there when they opened at 7AM, and an hour away. They couldn't figure out wtf was wrong, so they have him fluids via IV, anti-nausea meds, and an appetite stimulant. They also suggested kitten food for the calories and fat, which we happily provided. He never fully recovered, but he did gain weight. He was back to his old self this summer, but a week ago he started eating less, vomiting everyday, so I called the clinic. They said to give him the appetite stimulant (we have most of the tube left), kitten food, and make sure he's drinking. He barely ate anything yesterday, even wet food. I gave him wet food today, but refused to do more than lick it. Then threw up a few minutes later and fell over. We just finished wiping the vomit off his arms and chest.
He has an appointment at the urgent care clinic on Monday. I called around today to see if even an emergency clinic can see him. Nope, too many people feeding their dogs things they shouldn't. Jasper will have to wait until Monday. I don't know if he'll make it though. We can feel all his bones, his fur is icky, eyes sunken in, and he's sleeping all day and night.
We've come to terms with the very real possibility that he will have to be euthanized on Monday...if he makes it. Right now, I don't think he will. He's been sick for so long, and the fact it's happening again at almost the same time it did last year...I just don't know.
This is him maybe two weeks ago.
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I can feel all his ribs and vertebrae, as well has his hips and thighs. He feels angular and sharp, and craves every bit of heat he can take.
He has lived a long life filled with love, sunshine, playing, cuddling, and lots of cat TV (bird feeder outside a window). He's had lots of cuddling and brushing, and knows he is loved and cherished. 16 years is a long time for a cat, and staying 100% indoors has made a huge difference. We had hoped to set up a catio this year, but with al the wildfire smoke and extreme heat, it simply wasn't a safe and healthy option.
If it's his time, I can accept that. Husband has no choice to but to do so. If the vet clinic says euthanasia is best, I will ask if they would be able to do this in our home, so his last moments are in the comfort of our home with people he loves and a soft bed to lay in. If not...I'll make sure to bring something soft that he loves, like my bathrobe. He lives soft fluffy places to sleep.
We're not okay, but we will be. I pray Freyja will take him to wherever the cats go to rest, that he have an afterlife of love, sunshine, fluffy places to sleep, all the stinky food he wants, and lots of cuddling. We love him, he knows that. He has lived longer than many of the vets said he would those many times we've had to take him to be seen for the chronic vomiting and diarrhea.
We will be okay, given time.
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Okay I did weigh myself on Saturday and Sunday, but they were both 100-102lbs and I was like... this doesn't seem right for some reason. Even though it was only 4 lbs, I figured I'd hold off on updating my weight on all my apps (MyNetDiary, Google Fit, my fitness watch, LIFE Fasting, workout app, etc.) until it was more consistently over 100lbs because I just had a weird feeling about it
I literally got my period 3 days later. A BITCH WAS RIGHT-
But uh I have absolutely been eating more than usual and more sugar and stuff. We have apple muffins, red velvet cake, cookie dough ice cream, vanilla ice cream, just a lot of sweets when we went shopping on top of all the fruits and veggies and juices. I'm gonna count it all as period weight and just make sure I'm drinking more water than anything and start to cut off the sweet tooth towards the second half of being stuck with good ol' Aunt Flow over here. I can lose weight fairly easily so I just kinda trust that I'll be closer to 96 by the end of the Post-Birthday Astrology Ritual I started that's 12 days long
I also do plan on being more active on this account, I swear, but if you read my post about my mother and I deep cleaning and moving my furniture around then you already kinda know that I'm redoing a lot of things in my life. I'm doing the same thing with my wardrobe, my friends, my routines, my products, and so I've been off my phone planning and journaling and drawing things up and on my tablet making things. I still find it funny when I do things like this AFTER starving myself again because my friend and I swear we become better people when we're mentally drowning in numbers, but I digress. I'm working out again starting today because I stopped when the temperatures dropped a couple months ago, and after I give my phone gallery a clearing out and reorganizing I'm probably just gonna look for more ED memes and thinspo to keep and I might reblog some, try to get back into the habit of posting things, scrolling, thinking. Honestly it used to be really meditative now that I think about it, which is a little funny
BUT OKAY this post is already way too long, just figured I'd give a long post with a few succinct updates to get everything out of the way, because I have had this account on the brain since yesterday evening.
Okay I'm gonna go plan my day and drink some water <33
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12/25/2023
Merry Christmas to you. It is currently 1:39AM as of me writing this. Yet again another soulless holiday for me. I do not have the Christmas spirit in me, but that is because I do not seek for it. Of course, there is nothing wrong with that. I just like to ramble because there is not much to talk about since these last few days.
I reread my last blog post and I am so ashamed. There are clear mistakes that I would normally never make. If you spot any, assume that I do not know any better or I am a dumb dumb.
Anyways, I will just update you on the things I am doing and maybe ramble again at some point.
As far as music production goes, I have not been able to work on it due to technical difficulties. It has been solved but it gave me a heart attack. Oh my god, my music is outstanding. I listen to it regularly and I just can not get enough. It is not even complete, matter fact, less than thirty seconds of it has been remixed. I STILL LOVE IT THOUGH! NOBODY CAN PRODUCE LIKE ME (i am getting carried by the song).
My water fasting journey starts on the 26th, so literally tomorrow, which was something I forgot to mention on my previous blog post. I am excited for it and I am stoked for change. Even if I am approaching this the incorrect way, I will march on. Fun fact, I have actually water fasted before. A few times actually. I used to like eating large portions regularly but I still had standards for myself. To combat my eating prowess, I fasted any time I was at risk at being over 190lbs and normally, I would drop about ten to fifteen pounds. At one point, I dropped 22 so I was borderline 160lbs. This was my peak weight and it was during 10th grade.
Ever since I stayed at a certain U.S. state for 3 months during the summer before 11th grade, I have gained an ungodly amount of weight. To paint the picture, before arriving to that state, I was 164 lbs. Three weeks in, I was 175. 2 months in, I was 180s. By the time I came back, I was in my 190s. It did not end there. At this point, I am early into 11th grade, probably around October. My weight went down quite a bit to near 170s until depression hit me during my second semester. My weight skyrocketed to 200s. I do not know where my scale in my house went, but I am assuming I am around 210 pounds now. That is grossly high.
My goal to be in my 140s, I have to lose at most 70 pounds. That is, on average, 35 days of water fasting. My god. I am tired of talking about this, I am out of breath (haha jk, fuck you, i am better than you at basketball, run the 1s). Enough about my weight though.
I do not know what else to ramble about even though my mind is filled with vast amounts of thoughts.
Merry Christmas. It is probably someone's birthday so happy birth day to you. If you are reading this, you actually browsed through this shithole and I respect you for that. Hit me up :)
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HIS - DEBTS - SEPARATE - YES
PROPERTY - IS - JUST A TERM
4 - THOSE - THINGS - THAT - R
OWNED - BY - ONE - SPOUSE
AS - 18 AND OLDER - B 4 THE
MARRIAGE - MODERN - ENG
ENGLISH - LAW - VALID TOO
14TH - AMENDMENT OBEYED
NO - US - STATE - CAN - DENY
DEPRIVE - ANY - PERSON - 18
AND - OLDER - OF - PROPERTY
WHAT - U - PURCHASED - AND
OF - VALUE - AT WALMART OR
TARGET - ROSS - DRESS 4 LESS
WEDNESDAY - PUBLIX - $5 - YES
SUSHI - DAY - GOING - SOON FOR
LUNCH - 11A - 2P - WEEKDAYS - &
WEEKENDS - MY - BACKPACK
OVER - 70 LBS - WAS FALLING
SO - EVENT - OF - RAIN - JUST
1 LARGE - BAG - USED - CLEAR
PONCHO - 4 - RAIN - LIKE - YES
CLEAR - RAINCOAT - FREE FOR
HOMELESS - I - GET - MANY XO
FREE - GETTING - NEW - ONE AS
I - USED MANY - AMAZON PRIME
4 - LIKE - FITTED - BEDSHEETS 2
PUT - OVER - 4 - RAIN - USED MY
PUBLIX - HAIR - CLAMPS THREE
2 - KEEP - PLASTIC - IN - PLACE
SO - AT - RIGHT - SPOT - WHERE
PEDESTRIANS - WALKED BRIEF
PLACED - OVER - 70 LBS - YES
PUMA - BACKPACK - ON - WET
STREET - 62 INCH - GOLF - YES
MAUVE - LARGE - UMBRELLA
OR - WANT - 2 - CRY - BUT DID
NOT - HAVE - BOTH - WITH ME
SMALL - FULL - AUTO - BLK
MALE - JEWEL - NOW - ( 3 )
BLK - MALES - UNDER THE
BRIDGE - HE - GOT - USED 2
HUGE - AND - SEE - THRU FL
CHEST - SO - WHEN - BLKS
FRATERNAL - SISTERS LEFT
FLORIDA - HE - WANTED TO
PUT - HIS - BLK - MOBY - IN
MY - MOUTH - PINAYS TALK
2 - MUCH - 6TH - FLOOR - AS
ME - 24 HRS - ACCESS - HE
WHAT - STALKERS - REMEMBER
HE - DECREASES - VOLUME - OF
IKE TURNER - DECEASED - TALK
2 - SUCK - MOUTH - OF - THE 1ST
FEMALE - PRESIDENTS OF ASIA
HOUSEWIVES - THEN - WHERE
ARE - THEIR - BREASTS - 2 YES
GENTLY - TOUCH - OR PINCH
STANDING - AFTER - HOURS
AS - HE - LIVE - FLOURESCENT
LIGHT - SHOVE - HIS - MOBY
UP - THAT - WHAT - HAPPENS
WHEN - FIANCE - YOUNGER &
OVERSEAS - AMERICAN FROM
ANOTHER - NON-COMMIUNITY
PROPERTY - STATE - ALL - THE
'WEIRDO - VIRGINS - OF - ASIA'
KNOCK - THEM - UP - FREE FL
MIAMI - ABORTION - CLINICS
'F' - UP - DERANGELY - GOT A
GREAT - SHOVING - FR - BUTT
HOLES - LIVE - SHOVING FOR
MARTIN LUTHER KING JR
BOTH - ARE - SOUTHERN
BAPTIST - LIKE - WHO YES
STARTED - CHICK-FI LA YES
CHICKEN - SANDWICHES - U
WILL - WORSHIP - GOD - ON
SUNDAYS - FRANCHISE - IS
CLOSED - ILLEGALLY - EACH
SUNDAY - 2 - WORSHIP - GOD
JEWEL - FR - ANOTHER - USA
STATE - STANDING - SHOVE
SHOVE - HIS - MOBY - 2 ME
ON - WALLS - 6TH - FLOOR
24 HRS - ACCESS - WHAT A
WEIRDO - KEEP - A SECRET
BUT - NOT - IN - TOKYO FOR
VAGINAL - AREA - PROBE
SHOWS - THE - POSITIONS
69 - USED - BY - BLK - AND
HISPANICS - THE - SIZE - OF
ERECTION - THOROUGHLY 2
PROVE - MARRYING - NOT A
VIRGIN - JESUS - IS - LORD
SAW - JEWEL - TWICE - AT
MAIN - LIBRARY - ELEVATOR
HE - KNOWS - I'M - PARTIALLY
BLIND - TOUCHED - MY BACK
UNDER - BRA - AREA - ITS YES
ILLEGAL - 2 - TOUCH - CASUAL
55 AND OLDER - GOING - 2 DIE
LAST - WILL - AND TESTAMENT
HE - KNOWS - MY - NO - US $$$
OVER - $199 BILLION - FREE
INTEREST - BEARING - USE
CEMENT - FLOOR - 2 MAKE
TRAUMA - BLIND - MORE THAN
1 YEAR - F - F - F - AFTER - HRS
BOX VAULT - SELF - STORAGE
HE's - IN - CHARGE - OF - HER
NOW - OVER - $155 BILLION
AUTO - TAX - PAID - TOLD HIM
NO - BLKS - IN - PHILIPPINES
HE - WILL - CHANGE - THAT
BUT - THEY - KNOW - MICHAEL
JACKSON - BEYONCE - MORE
2ND - TIME - TODAY - WAS YES
GOING - 2 - TOUCH - ME - BUT
ANOTHER - MALE - THERE
AGAIN - 'ARE - U - OKAY?'
HISPANIC - BLK - LOOKING
MALE - HUSBAND - OF LISA
WHITE - PRUNE - BAG - SAME
'ARE - U - OIKAY - EVERYDAY'
THEY - ASK - WOMEN SOLE
HOUSEHOLD - TOLD - HIM
'ALL 0F - U - ARE THE SAME'
(BLKS - HISPANICS)
(HOMELESS - OR - NOT)
EVERYDAY - ASKS
'ARE - U - OK'
WHY - SHOULDN'T - I - BE
ACTUALLY - TORTURE - ABUSE
HARRASSMENT - (FELONIES)
'WHY - SHOULDN'T - I B - OK?"
LEFT - ANGRILY - THE - YES
ELEVATOR - JEWEL - ALWAYS
NOW - STALKING - ME KNOWS
I - WAS - BORN - VERY - BLIND
CARROT - DEFICIENCY - TRUE
OBEYED - DOCTORS - NOW I'M
PARTIALLY - BLIND - NOW - HE
IS - WAITING - 4 - ME - 2 - YES
ENTER - LIBRARY - 2 - TOUCH
ME - THEY - HISPANICS - AND
BLK - LOVE - 2 - TOUCH - YES
BARBIE - BLONDES - THAT
WAY - 'FIST - 2 - FIST' - SO I
WILL - GIVE - WHAT - I YES
GAVE - A - FIREMAN - DO U
REMEMBER - DIDN'T - WANT
2 - TALK - 2 - ME - NEAR YES
HOTEL - INDIGO - AXES AXES
DEMOCRATIC - PARTY - WILL
REMOVE - THEIR - AX - FOR
UNDER - POSSESSION - OF
DEADLY - WEAPON - S CA
CALIFORNIA - BICYCLE YES
RIDER - CHINESE - GIRL AS
BORN - IN - CALIFORNIA &
PUBLIC - SCHOOL - SHE TOOK
COLDS - MED - AS - BIRTH YES
CONTROL - PILLS - USER AND
A - VIRGIN - PAPS SMEAR NOT
4 - VIRGINS - SO - SHE WHILE
DRIVING - FAINTED - SO - AS
CAR - HT - TREE - SLEEPING
FIREMEN - SAW - 'STUPID'
SMALL - EYES - CHINESE
GIRL - AND - COULD NOT
REMOVE - FR - CAR - AND
WITHOUT - ROOF - 4 - CAN
B - RESCUED - SOONER SO
THEY - GOT - THEIR - AXES
CHOPPED - HER - THIGHS
BROUGHT - 2 - U CLA - AT
LEAST - GREEN - PAINT
EMERGENCY - AREA AS
THEY - TOOK - STATE - CA
MANDATORY - 30 MIN XO
LUNCH - SO - WHEN SHE
WOKE - UP - HOSPITAL 2
FELT - STRANGE - BELOW
SAW - SHOCKING - THAT
NO - MORE - FULL LEGS
JESUS - IS - LORD - FOR
HOT - STILL - TV SHOWS
'BIONIC - MAN' - LEE MAJORS
'BIONIC - WOMAN' - LINDSAY
WAGNER - BOTH - IN - TRUE
HALLMARK - MOVIES - YES
ROMANCE - ABOUT - DOGS
VETERINARIAN ( s ) - THUS
FUTURE - REPLACING HER
WITH - BIONIC - LEGS AND
GIVING - HIPNOSIS - 4 - IN
NEW YORK - ASTORIA THERE
WAS - A - FIRE - 3 BUILDINGS
AWAY - ELEVATOR - OPENED
FIREMEN - RUSHED - IN AND
MY - SUADE - DESIGNER BLK
COAT - HEAVY - OVER $2,000
MY - PHILIPPINE - ADOPTED
MOM - GAVE - ME - THEY
WENT - BEHIND - ME AND
SHOVED - MY - BACK - FR
ELEVATOR - 2 - OUTSIDE
THEY - ALL - SAID - ITS THE
LAW - THEY'RE - FIREMEN
SO SMILED - PAW PAW - MY
PAW - BRUCE LEE - AGE 32
GOT - GENTLY - ONE - AX &
SLICED - THEN - CUT - ALL
2 - PIECES - KILLED - ALL IN
ELEVATOR - TOOK - STAIRS
AFTER - 4 - CONCIERGE YES
ALLOWED - THEM - IN - THE
SAME - WHO - TOLD - ME NY
5:30P - CAN'T - BRING - MY
THINGS - WEIRDO - ISRAEL
MOVERS - 3 HRS - LATE - 2
BAD - NEWS - IN - NEW YORK
NOT - ALLOWED - BACK - IN
ROOSEVELT - ISLAND - NYC
NOW - PENTHOUSE - AND I
NOT - ALLOWED - IN - INNS
WAS - REMOVED - FR - THERE
BECAUSE - HER - HUSBAND
PINOY - ADOPTED - FATHER
HIS - ERECTION - STRONG - SO
THEIR - ALL - THE - WAY - WAS
SUPERB - BUT - SHE - CHANGED
MIND - THEN - WHEN - THEY YES
WENT - 2 - EUROPE - HE STAYED
2 - KNOCK - ME - UP - NYC - NY
BEFRIENDED - CONCIERGE
MALE - CHARLIE - HE SAID
WON'T - HAPPEN - ADOPTED
INCEST - SAN FRANCISCO YES
AGAIN - THEY - GET - THEIR
KIDS - PREGNANT - PILIPINAS
OR - OVERSEAS - 2 - SELL THE
BABIES - HUSBAND - WIFE AS
THEY - RAPE - THEIR - FIRST
1ST BORN - DAUGHTERS AS
NOW - I - KNOW - CHRISTIANS
UNIVERSITY - OF - PILIPINAS
THEY - WERE - RAPING - MY
PERSONAL - MAID - MAIDS
SHE - LESBIAN - WAS - YES
RAPING - MY - MAIDS BUT
THEY - STAYED - BECAUSE
OF - ME - SO - SHE - DIED
FIRST - MAJOR - HEART
ATTACK - HE - NOW - IN
CALAPAN - ORIENTAL - OR
MINDORO - WITH - FRENCH
SABER - SWORD - I - WILL PH
TAKE - CARE - OF - HIS BODY
PIECES - AFTER - AND - WITH
MICKEY MOUSE - WATCH
AIR - CREMATE - BODY AS
SECRET - NEW - OWNER OF
MAKATI - AND - MINDORO
ISLAND - SO - I'M - NOW 2
HUNGRY - SUSHI - $5 - AT
PUBLIX - EXIT - 10 ST - AT
PROMENADE - ALSO - AT
FREE - METROMOVER TRAIN
911 - 9 ST - PUBLIX - SELF YES
SERVICE - 2 - GET - FOOD XO
GOT - LOTS - 2 - POST - YES
TODAY - ABOUT - BLK - AND
HISPANIC - STALKERS - NOW
BLK - MALE - JEWEL - AS HE
THINKS - HE - CAN - KISS MY
I'M REALLY - AGE 59 MOUTH
WAS - ONLY - RAPED - BY
OVER - 25 WHITE AMERICAN
UGLY - MALES - B 4 - AGE 21
TALL - BRUNETTE - MALES &
SINGLE - MIAMI - POLICE YES
SECRETLY - LOVE - HOMELESS
THEY - KNOW - OUTSIDE - HAI
ADDRESS - AS - WE - RELEASE
OUR - ROBOTS - 2 - END THEIR
USA - TORTURE - AND ABUSE
FOREIGNERS - DO - U - KNOW
THEIR - HARRASSING - US - 4
WE - ENJOYED - OUR
DOMESTIC - TRANQUILITY
POLICE - SHERIFFS - ILLEGAL
TAX - PAID
MILITARY - FORCE - ADD - ON
FINEST - MILITARY - WEAPONS
SMALLEST - BULLETS - INDEED
ONLY - ALLOWED - TAX - PAID 2
WHAT's - IT - LIKE - 2 - HAVE
24 HRS
LESS THAN - TIC TAC - SIZE
WALT DISNEY - SIGNATURE
LIMITED EDITION - BULLETS
TAX - QUALIFIED
ILLEGAL - CIVILIAN - SIZE
AMMUNITION - BY - THE
SERVANTS - OF - STATE
14TH - NO - US - STATE CAN
DEPRIVE - ANY - PERSON OF
LIFE - REVISED - UNLESS
'REQUIRED - BY - JUDICIAL'
FORGOT WORDS SO ABLE2 - EXECUTE - REPOSSESS AND EVICT - ILLEGAL - PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS - WILL - CONTINUE
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