#this post gave me a fucking heartattack

[suckerforcate]

I want you, just you

Pairing: Joyce Byers×OC, Robin Buckley×sister

Word count: 2601

Warnings: some smut at the end

Summary: You are Robin's older sister and friends with Steve, Jonathan and Nancy. You always hang out at Jonathans and often help Joyce cook dinner for all of you. You developed a massive crush on her and one day you ask her out on a date. Joyce knows that your gay because you helped Will with coming out to her.

A/n: So I haven't posted anything in a while and I had this fanfic in my drafts for quite a while but never got myself to finishing it. But I have a few new ideas and wanted to finish it before I start something new. So here it is. Hope you like it!♡

"My god, just ask her out already. The worst that can happen is that she says no."

"It's not that easy Robin! What are Jonathan and Will gonna think?"

"They both love you endlessly, they won't care. They just want their mom to be happy. Asking her out won't kill you." Claire turned around and raised an eyebrow at that statement.

"Then why don't you tell Nancy how you feel about her?"

"That's totally different, she's in a relationship. You know that. Joyce is single and I don't want to listen to your sad, self pitying anymore. So. Ask. Her. Out. End of discussion." Robin grabbed her bag and left the shop.

Claire Buckley worked in a little flowershop a few houses next to the shop Joyce Byers worked in. Her shift usually ended an hour before Joyces, so she always waited for her after closing the shop and then drove her home. They knew each other through Jonathan. Claire was friends with him, Steve and Nancy. They often hung out at the Byers house and when Will also had his friends over, there were a lot of mouths to feed. So Claire often helped Joyce with cooking and making dinner ready. She loved it, just the two of them talking and laughing. Joyce knew that Claire was gay, Will accidentally told her, when he was talking about the way that Claire helped him with coming out.

Today wasn't a busy day so she closed the shop early. Before leaving she made a little bouquet out of beautiful pink-yellowish roses for Joyce.

Claire knew Robin was right, asking her out wasn't such a big deal and normally she was pretty confident in everything she did but Joyce made her legs wobbly and her heart beat so fast it felt like having a heartattack.

After closing the shop Claire walked up and down the sidewalk like an idiot in front of the shop and thought about what to say. She really didn't want to fuck this up, besides the whole crushing situation Claire really liked Joyce. She had been so accepting, when Claire came out and had always been there for her. Robin was a fabulous sister but she had her own baggage to cary with struggling and coming out. It was nice to have someone just listen to you and tell you it would all be alright. And cooking with Joyce always made her day and she enjoyed the calming effect that she had on her. After about 5 minutes of walking a hole into the sidewalk Claire entered the shop.

"Hey Joyce, it's me. I closed the shop a little earlier." Claire walked over to a free counter and sat down.

"Ah, there you are. Not much business today here either." Joyce sat down next to her and smiled at her. That bright, loving smile gave Claire some confidence.

"I brought you some flowers."

"Thank you Claire, they're beautiful. They'll get a special place at home." She smiled at the flowers and seemed to be caught up in her thoughts. It was so easy to fall in love with her, Claire thought. Or maybe that was just her opinion.

"I... I wanted to ask you something."

"Sure, what is it?" Joyce looked up to her and gave her a reassuring smile.

"Would you go on a date with me? We could go to a restaurant, or I'd cook for you." Her smile faded a bit and Claire directly hated herself for ever having asked. She stood up and walked away from the counter, the flowers still in her hand.

"Aren't I a bit too old for you?" She chuckled sarcastically. Joyce felt a wave of insecurity rush over her, she didn't think that Claire would make such a cruel joke but she doubted that she really wanted something from her. Why would she? Claires smile dropped immediately.

"I..." she had never thought about the age difference before, her concernes always lied somewhere else. The kids, her maybe not liking woman, the town gossip...

"I never thought about our age difference to be honest. It never mattered to me." Claire stood up and walked towards her, she still had her back to her but the flowers weren't in her hands anymore.

Claire slowly put a hand on Joyce's shoulder and another one on her waist. She closed her eyes and she could feel her sink into the touch and visibly relax. Joyce felt safe when Claire touched her, it wasn't something she understood but it was something she always denied herself because she never thought the feeling could be reciprocated.

Moving close to her ear with her mouth Claire whispered: "It doesn't matter, you hear me. It doesn’t change the way I feel about you and I wouldn't ask you out on a date if I didn't mean it. Believe me. So, what's your answer?" Joyce really wanted to believe her, she wanted to so bad. So she did. She risked being hurt. She was tired of denying herself basic needs.

She opened her eyes again and moved her head slightly into Claires direction. Their faces were inches away from each other.

"Okay, cook for me." Claire started smiling without even trying to and turned Joyce around. She moved her head up to look into Claire's eyes and shyly smiled at her.

"Close the shop, noone will come. And if they do, they can wait until tomorrow. I'll drive you home." She nodded and started closing.

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Claire stopped the car infront of the house and as Joyce wanted to leave the car, Claire grabbed her arm. The older woman turned to look at her.

"Tomorrow, 7 o'clock?" Joyce nodded and with a smile she left the car. Claire waited until she was in the house and the door was closed. With a bright smile on her face she left, excited to tell Robin about the latest events.

"You'll never believe what just happened. I need you out of the house tomorrow." Robin hadn't even closed the door yet but Claire already threw the words at her.

"Ok, chill. I really have to pee. After that you can tell me." Claire rolled her eyes but accepted and walked back to sit down on the sofa.

Her thoughts directly wandered to Joyce, just thinking about her made her feel like a teenager again. It felt like there were thousands of butterflys in her stomach. She had never felt like this before.

"Claire? Hello, earth to Claire?!" Robin was wildly waving her hands in front of Claires face to get her attention. "So what did you want to tell me, huh?" Claire immediately started to smile like an absolute idiot.

"I did it. I asked Joyce out. And...she said yes! Can you believe it. We have a date tomorrow at 7 o'clock. I'll cook for her. That why I'll need you out of here at least until the next morning. You never now what will happen." Claire winked at her sister and smiled sheepishly.

"Well thas amazing Claire. I told you it won't be bad to ask her. Honestly if I wouldn't have forced you, you would still cry about her. So you can basically thank me."

"Oh, shut up. I would have done it sooner or later."

They both laughed. Happy to have each other and to have someone who understands them.

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"Oh. Hi, Joyce. Please come in, Claire is in the kitchen. Claire! Joyce is here. I'll leave now. Bye" with that Robin closed the door behind her and Joyce was left alone in the hallway. She didn't really know what to do so she took her jacket of and went to look for Claire. Right in that moment Claire opened a door at the other end of the hallway.

"Hello Joyce. I thought my sister would have enough manners to actually show you where the kitchen is and not just leave. Come in." Joyce stepped forward unsure how to greet Claire she just looked up at her and laughed nervously.

"Do I hug you now?" Claire let out a laugh at that.

"If you want to, then yes." So Joyce stood up on her tiptoes and hugged Claire. At that Claire felt a shiver go through her whole body. She buried her head deep in Joyce's hair and felt completely at ease for the first time in a long time.

Claire let go before it got awkward and showed Joyce the living room.

"You can sit down. I'll just grab the food real quick."

"I could help."

"No." Claire protested, "You're my guest and I'll treat you as such." With that she left the room just to come back with two bowls of food a second later.

"Mhh, that smells amazing Claire." She smiled at Joyce and they started to eat.

They talked about everything that came to mind. It felt absolutely natural and they both felt comfortable around each other. This date wasn't their last one. They met multiple times after that. Never doing much more than having dinner, talking or going to the movies. But that was fine with them. They wanted to take it slow.

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It was a cold Friday evening, Claire had cooked for Joyce again and they both sat on the couch together laughing about a story Claire had just told about her sister. Joyce laughed so sincerely that Claire just stopped and looked at her in awe. She was so damn beautiful. Without really noticing Claire got closer to Joyce. When she opened her eyes again, Claire was so close to her that she stopped laughing abruptly out of shock.

"I..., Claire what are you doing?"

"If you won't protest I would like to kiss you." Joyce eyes grew wide in shock. She guessed it was logical that all the dates would lead to this but still she wasn't sure how to feel about this. She knew that she wanted it but still she still couldn't believe that Claire was sincere in her intention.

Joyce backed away a little.

"I.., Claire if all of this. All the dates, the cooking was just to get into my pants, I can assure you there is nothing grande under those clothes. So you should search for someone your age for that." Claire felt a wave of sadness wash over her. Did Joyce actually believe that? Didn't she make clear that she liked her?

"Joyce, please listen to me." She took Joyce's hands in hers and looked at her with all the sincerity and love she had in her.

"All of the things that I did for you, all the dates we had, all the hours we sat here talking, laughing about stupid things. All of this, I did because I really like you. Because I enjoy your company. And if I wanted to kiss you or sleep with you, that's just because I think your stunning, I feel butterflys everytime I look at you and I want you. Not anyone else, just you. But if you don't want all of that. That's ok, we don't have to do this."

"But why me? I'm not special, neither me as a person nor the way I look. I'm just Joyce."

"And that's exactly what I want. You, Joyce. With all your flaws, all you fears, insecurities and problems. You are beautiful, please you have to belive me. I've had this crush on you since I've known you and it took all the courage in me to ask you out, because I thought you would never want to date me. So know that you allowed me to be such an intimate part of your life and let me get to know you even more, I want to protect you with all I have and make you understand how wonderful you are. I've realised that what I feel for you is so much more than a crush." Joyce let out a shy laugh at that and stroked a strand of hair out of Claires face.

"I don't think anyone has ever said something so beautiful to me." Claire grabbed Joyce's face and before she could overthink it, she kissed her.

It was by all means not a perfect kiss, but it was full if love and desire. It felt like all the butterflys in Claires stomach wanted to break out. And the feeling made it perfect, better than any other kiss could ever be.

Claire's hand slowly wandered down to start unbuttoning Joyce shirt. She stopped for a second to wait for consent. When Joyce slightly nodded, she took the shirt of and threw it to the floor. She pushed Joyce's hair aside and started to kiss her neck and then her shoulder. She slowly pushed Joyce down until she was laying in front of her and continued kissing her, while slowly wandering down to her breasts.

"Take it off, take your shirt of." Claire stopped to follow Joy's request. To Joyce surprise Claire wasn't wearing a bra, so she was practically naked in front of her.

"Claire, I think you should know, that I have never slept with a woman before." Joyce looked at Claire with an apologising smile. Claire moved up and kissed Joyce passionately.

"I don't care." She grabbed her waist and pulled her closer to her. She wanted to feel all of Joyce skin on hers. While kissing her, her hand slowly opened Joyce pants and started to move them down a bit. She could feel Joyce lift up her hips against her. It drove her crazy how much she wanted that woman. She never thought something like this would be possible.

As the pants landed on the floor, Claire started kissing her way down Joyce's body and grabbed behind her to open the bra that was still covering Joyce's breasts. When she moved up a little to look at Joyce, she covered her body. So Claire shoved her hands away. "Don't. You look amazing. I want to see you." She started slightly kissing her breasts and took one nipple in her mouth while pinching the other one. Joyce tried to suppress a moan but failed as Claire sucked harder. "Please, I want to hear you. Let it out." At that Joyce moaned again, this time not trying to suppress anything. At that sound Claire's vagina pulsated and her whole body got goosebumps. She started wandering further down and took of the panties, that were the only item of clothing Joyce was still wearing. Joyce clenched to the cushions closest to her while Claire started kissing and licking her already wet cunt. With one hand Joyce shoved Claire deeper into her and held onto her hair. "Oh god, Claire...please" Claire stopped much to Joyce disappointment and looked up. "Please what? Use your words.", "Please I need more, please fuck me", Claire chuckled, amused by Joyce's neediness. "Your wish is my command." With that she resumed her actions but also slowly put two fingers inside her. Joyce's was already throbbing from lust. The moaning got louder and fastly turned into a kind of lustful and erotic screaming. Something Claire had never heard before but it turned her on quite alot. "Claire, please. I'm gonna come.. I...Oh god, that feels amazing." With a last loud scream Joyce came with Claires name on her lips.

Claire slowly moved up to Joyce and kissed her.

"Thank you, I never knew sex could feel like this." Claire smiled at her and stood up  she reached out for Joyce and took her to the bedroom, where they fell asleep curled up together.

[bakuhatsuo]

This is not what being gassed means, but it is inhumane, as are the “detention centers” as a whole. Gassing in this context is to say they are actively being killed every 15 minutes and that misunderstanding takes away from the point as a whole. This is still a horrible thing but please do not spread information that can be easily misunderstood as it only serves to help the fasicts. That being said:

The detention centers are leading to the deaths of thousands and if we could direct some of our anger to their justic as well. Sign the petition. Consider listening to groups such as Never Again Action and joining their protests as well

http://chng.it/2TrMRPgFjS

Help stop the gassing of Immigrants!!

[thefreakymunson]

Hello there, i saw your post about your head canon and imagine requests open, so can I please request the following,thank you, if that’s no trouble:

where Reader caught smoking by Eddie during school hours and endlessly teases her for it, as she is somewhat popular herself.

thank you, have a great day !

Hi!! No trouble at all!! I hope you enjoy! <3

You were laying back against the cool brick wall, your eyes closed tightly as you let the nicotine soothe your nerves. Today had been a long day and it wasn't even past third period yet. So many people wanted to talk to you, none of who you considered friends. You weren't here to make friends per say. You were just here to get school over with and go home.

"Boo!" came a loud yell as someone jumped around the corner, laughing maniacially.

"Jesus Christ!" You yelled, stumbling to ash the cigarette as you looked up at the crazed person standing beside of you.

"Hah," He smirked, "Caught ya."

"I could kill you right here and now Eddie Munson," you glared at him, "What the fuck is wrong with you? You almost gave me a heartattack. Why aren't you in class?"

"Why aren't YOU in class? Hm?" He asked, digging in his back pocket for his cigarettes.

You watched as he plucked a smoke from the box and slid it between his lips. He turned away from you for a moment to light it and the turned back around to face you.

"I didn't know you smoked," he said, squinting against the smoke that blew back in his face, "Wait, weren't you the head of the D.A.R.E program last year?"

"Yeah, so what, Munson? People change." You sighed, "That was before i discovered cigarettes."

"Recognize. Rest. And Report." Eddie smirked, "I had that etched into my brain all year last year."

"Yeah because you were the type of person we were against."

"Dealers gotta live too," Eddie shrugged, "Does this mean I get to blackmail you?"

You looked up at him in shock, but the shit eating grin on his face told you he was only joking. Eddie Munson, although loud and rowdy, had no bad bone in his body. You liked him more than you let on. He was cool.

"You blackmail me and I'll send out your kindergarden photos to the entire school." You smirked, "So just try me, Munson."

"Mm, I do like a challenge." He smirked.

The bell rang and you sighed, stomping out your cigarette, "I gotta get back to class."

"See you later, liar." Eddie grinned which turned into a laugh as you playfully shoved him backwards.

[thehouseoflamentation]

oh bread overlord, i would just like to say that, these new outfits for the demon bros gave me a nosebleed and a heartattack- LIKE- OMFG SWD isn't even being subtle anymore abt trying to hook us in saldjsalkdjsadlkj (my fave is Satan's outfit, tho its mostly cause its him- fuck- ssskskksks i wanna hug him)

All these new outfits are gonna make my heart explode!!!! If I suddenly stop posting it’ll be bc I finally got Beel’s outfit for my main screen and astral projected out of my body through sheer excitement and the power of horny >w>

[nintxndos]

an nsfw ask meme (hide ur eyes kiddos)

I was looking through my blog and saw I answered this ask meme back in 2016 and the answers are preeetttyyyy different so I thought i would give it a go again

1. Are you a virgin? nope havent been for a hot minute now

2. Does anyone besides you know your bra/penis size? Yes ive mentioned it to my bff a few times lmfao

3. Do you know anyone who has any STDs? Yeah my fucking dad (actually it may have been an sti but still)

4. Were you married when you first lost your virginity? nope lmfao

5. Do you swear under celibacy? nah man

6. When did you first lose your virginity? If you haven't, when would you like to? ugh back in 2016 not a good time tbh

7. Have you ever gotten tricked into aphrodisiacs or alcohol for sex? nope

8. Have you walked in on someone masturbating/having sex? Yeah my parents when I was 5 amd I still remember it vividly

9. Have you ever seen someone masturbate or have sex with their permission? yes I quite enjoy it tbh

10. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex? the couch in my boyfriends parents house when everyone was home

11. If you had to chose one, would you have outdoor sex or car sex? car sex bc I dont want grass in my asshole

12. When was the age you first masturbated? Whether you knew it or not? probably 14 or 15

13. Have you ever helped someone "finish"? yes I really love it too

14. Have you ever had an erection in the past month? (clitorial counts, too) I dont know?

15. When was the last time you have had an erection? (clitorial counts, too) didnt know this was a thing tbh lmfao

16. Have you ever had an erection and someone noticed? gonna take a guess and say no

17. What is your method of masturbation? (ie. toys, clitorial, prostate) clitoral

18. What is your bra/penis size? 38DD

19. Has anyone seen your private parts other than yourself or a family member? yes

20. What is the strangest thing you have ever put up your vagina/anus? a boys dick ayyy

21. Do you like rough sex or intimate sex better? rough sex gets me fucked UP (though intimate is nice too)

22. When was the last time you masturbated? uhhh 2 days ago maybe?

23. When was the last time you had sex? god two weeks ago and im dying i swear

24. When was the last time you watched porn? a few days ago maybe

25. Have you ever bought a sex toy? If so, which one did you buy last? First sex toy? If not, which one do you plan on buying when you do? yes i have y first was a little blue bullet and the most recent is a vibrating dildo

26. Guys: Circumsized? not male

27. Which not-genital part of your body do you like being touched? thighs and neck fuckkk

28. Which genital part of your body do you like being touched? the clit baby!!

29. Girls: Are you able to achieve orgasm just through breast stimulation? nope though wow good for the ladies who can

30. What color/type of underwear are you wearing? blue panties and a floral bra

31. Have you ever sent someone a picture or video of you in the nude? Did it include sexual actions? absolutely

32. Have you ever posted a picture of image of you in the nude on a website? Did it include sexual actions? nope

33. Have you ever anonymously sent/posted a picture or video of yourself in the nude? Did it include sexual actions? nope

34. Have you anonymously sent a sexual ask to someone on tumblr? nope

35. When was the last time you have had a wet dream? maybe a week or so ago?

36. Which wet dream was your favorite? not sharing lmfao

37. Is there a friend you would willingly have sex with? well im currently dating my best friend of 7/8 years

38. Is there a celebrity/character you would willingly have sex with? yes

39. Have you ever masturbated with someone? yeah

40. Have you ever took a shower with someone that is not a family member? no :'----( I dont even wanna fuck in the shower I just want my back washed

41. Favorite sexual position? If you are a virgin, which position interests you? honestly i love missionary

42. Do you like being called a slut or whore in bed? Fuck yes

43. Are you into any BDSM? god yeah

44. Have you ever wanted to have sex with someone but knew you couldnt for any reason? Why? yes because we live 3 hours away 😪😪

45. Turn on's? choking, spanking, being called names, ropes

46. Turn off's? age play is a no go

47. Have you ever had a sexual fantasy about someone? Was it about anyone other than your lover? yes i have and since we started dating absolutely not

48. Have you ever had phone sex? Video sex? Chat box sex? yes like all the time the (since he lives 3 hours away)

49. What was the weirdest thing that has ever turned you on? uhhh I cant think of anything right now tbh

50. Do you like dirty talk? oh fuck yeah

51. Are you loud or quiet during sex? Masturbation? usually quiet bc i have to but I love being loud for my boyfriend

52. Have you ever been inturrepted during sex or masturbation? Who/what? yeah someone came downstairs and started yelling abt something, also my bf and I were fucking on the couch and the remote fell over

53. Most embarressing sex/masturbation story? god my exs mom walked in right after I gave him a blow job and she was like "what are you kids doing?"

54. Most hilarious sex/masturbation story? bruh my bf and i were trying to fuck and we had to watch his sisters dog (like in the room) and she started trying to sniff his ass it was so fucking funny he jumped off me

55. What kind of porn do you like to watch? I dont really watch porn anymore tbh

56. First type of porn you have ever watched? (ie. lesbian, hentai, threesome) leabian for sure

57. What was the most recent type of porn you have ever watched? What category was it under? uhhh threesome I think

58. Most hilarious/stupidest porn you have ever watched? dude this man had a pizza around his dick and the chicks grandpa deadass had a heartattack and she still rode him

59. Have you ever fantasized over someone older than you? How much older? Younger? How much younger? chris evans tbh (older by a hot second)

60. Favorite sex toy (if any)? I quite like my purple dildo

61. Have you ever had to break up with/divorce someone because you weren't satisfied with their sex? nah

62. Have you ever used anything/gotten any surgeries to improve sexual performance/feel? nope and probably never will

63. If someone you knew asked for a nude image, would you do it? What about a tumblr follower? yes for my boyfriend anytime but not for any of yall sorry

64. Have you ever told someone any wet dreams/fantasies you've had about them? yes my bf is a fan of them

65. Do you like to have sex like they do in pornos? no bc I have real orgasms (finally!!!)

66. Have you ever confessed to someone that you got an erection over them? What about masturbated to them? yes I tell my bf and we have phone sex at least once a week

67. Are you able to be secretive when you masturbate? (like able to be quiet so no one can hear?) yeah I kinda have to

68. When was the first time you achieved orgasm? when i was 15 I was literally sitting on a closed toilet in my house bc I shared a room at the time w my sister so i had no choice

69. Is there only one way so far that you have been able to achieve orgasm? (ie. only by using toys, only from 1 positon,only from masturbating a certain way) nah I can do clitoral, clitoral/penatrative, and just penetration

70. Favorite type of oral? the kind w his tongue on my pussy?

71. Strangest sexual positon you've tried? havent really done any strange positions

72. Have you ever made up a sexual postion? not that I'm aware of

73. Girls: During sex, vaginal or anal? vaginal i fucking hate anal

74. Girls: During masturbation, clitorial, vaginal, or anal? clitoral

75. Do you like to be dominant or submissive? I love being a whiny sub

76. Have you ever masturbated to someone? yes

77. Have you ever masturbated because your sexual partner wasn't there when you needed them? god yes that is why I usually masturbate

78. Have you ever had a one night stand? Do you still keep in contact with them? yes and absolutely not

79. Have you ever had a friends with benefits? Are they still beneficial? yes and no

80. Have you ever had sex with someone who wasnt your partner? not while we were dating no, but ive had sex w people who arent him

81. Has any of your partners had sex with someone else? yes

82. Have you ever gotten pregnant? Were they your lover's or someone else's? nope though ive had a scare or two

83. Birth control or condoms? birth control

84. Do you ever masturbate to porn? not really anymore

85. Does anyone know you masturbate? Did you have to tell them? yes and not really?

86. Did your parents ever find out you were sexually active? yup

87. Do you have any STDs? nope

88. Have you ever masturbated to a fictonal character or celebrity? yeah when i was like 15/16

89. Have you ever had sex during "7 minutes in heaven"? nope never even played bc its lame

90. Spit or swallow? Or do you not like oral? I swallow if he cums in my mouth but i love getting it on my faceeee

91. Have you ever been rejected for sex? Have you ever rejected someone else? nope and yes

92. Do you have someone who said they are willing to take away your virginity if you havent lost it by a set age or if you just want to have a good time? no

93. Have you ever experimented with the opposite sex? yes

94. When you first lost your virginity, was it intended or spontanious? intended bc thats the only way we ever had sex unfortunately

95. Has anyone ever walked in when you were taking a shower with someone? nah

96. Did you ever tell someone once you lost your virginity? yeah I literally called my best friend (current boyfriend)

97. Does your lover know if you have masturbated? yes

98. Does your lover know that you want to have sex with them but cant? yes!! we dont live together and we are constantly horny it sucks!!!!

99. Do you like masturbation? eh

100. (Asker's ask) If i were to ask you if we could have sex, would you say yes? nope sorry

[shaken-veil]

This is a very personal post. It’ll be put under the cut, but I had to put my feelings around yesterday’s story reveal somewhere. so consider this a personal whine and rant, if you dont wanna read, then don’t. I also don’t need any stupid or smartass comments under this. 

When I decided to actually join the Destiny fandom, I was in a very bad place. I just left Overwatch’s fanbase because I got treated badly, betrayed and I considered a lot of bad things like self-harm during that time. Then I stumbled into this fandom here and I was welcomed with open arms. 

It encouraged me to write again and when I built Nevia’s story, it was completely centered around Cayde and their relationship with one another. I finished my first longfic in years and it felt so damn good. I gave Nevia all that I couldn’t have in real life. Gave her a healthy relationship, a purpose and something to fight for. 

A lot of people kept telling me, I shouldn’t worry about Bungie killing off Cayde, because he’s their money character and bla. Fact is. I was right to worry.. Yesterday’s story reveal devastated me. 

I lost my husband 2,5 years ago to a heartattack and this? This hit far closer to home, than I would like to. I’m sure others think I’m stupid for being so attached to one single Character, but for me it was an anchor to a life, I couldn’t have. 

I feel the need to delete Nevia’s and Cayde’s stories, because I don’t want my OC to go through the same grief and trauma, that I’ve been through. I’m aware, that some others say that it’s good story stuff. As far, as I saw it, most of the fanbase is very very angry. It is a cheap trick to get us hooked to the DLC and it fucking works. 

I always see character death as a cheap way to cause the fans hurt and pain, in this case the thirst for revenge. If it would have made sense at least, but it didn’t. The dev’s reactions during the interview after the stream only made me more furious. ‘Ehehehehe we didn’t kill Cayde, Uldren did.’ Well fuck you, I guess! You’re the devs and writers. Screw you all. 

This game and this character in particular helped me through a lot of rough days.. And you just kill him and treat it like it’s nothing later. On the other hand, I can’t agree with the people who are writing death threats and violence and stuff.. This is not what I intend to do. When I say ‘I fucking fight everyone’ it’s an expression of frustration and helplessness. 

Happy for all those, who actually are now excited about this. I know some of the Eliksni friends really love the new types. I do, too. I agree on that. I was hyped for the new mechanics, new supers, new loot etc. But the trailer last night killed off all of my excitement. I’m not even so sure if I still wanna play this DLC. I probably will..because I love my friends.. But it’s not going to be a good expirience for me. 

Not unless Bungie actually manages to rip this thing around and by what I’ve seen them do with the other campaigns so far, my hopes are very low.. 

So this is enough for me..my heart is shattered and I’m not sure if I want to touch Destiny during the next few days.. 

[eggo-poppy]

A girl like you [HOPPPER X READER]

The imagine-hopper Christmas countdown!

This is part three of my imagine-hopper Christmas countdown. Every day, up until Christmas day I’ll be posting a Christmas-themed Jim Hopper reader insert. Of course I’ll also still be posting regular reader inserts, so keep those requests coming guys! Hope you’ll enjoy this one! I’ll be using prompts from the list of the amazing @lillie-writes ​

Prompt 38: No white Christmas this year.

But if you’ve got any type of Christmas prompt you’d really like for me to tackle, send them my way!

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of these characters.

You walked out of the gym, sighing with relief. You were glad that you could go home, you'd been on your feet all day. First while helping to set up the Snow Ball, then you were in charge of serving drinks to the kids and making sure none of the older ones spiked the punch.

Your heart leapt in your throat when you saw Jim. He was casually leaning against his car, smoking a cigarette. Joyce was standing next to him, chatting amicably.

"Hey (Y/N)!"

You had contemplated to just walk away, your car was parked elsewhere anyways. Part of you had wanted to talk to Jim, the other wanted nothing more than forget about his existence as a whole.

You had your eye on him for the better part of the year now. The two of you had shared a couple of drinks before, even one or two dinners he had cooked for you. But nothing ever came of it. Not because he didn't want to, you could tell that he was quivering with anticipation to be close to you everytime you met. But your last relationship hadn't been pretty. Physical scars had long healed, but something inside you had snapped. You knew that Jim would never intentionally hurt you, but that didn't mean you weren't frightened.

You finally walked over to Joyce and Jim. He took a step left, freeing up a space on the hood of his car.

"Come lean with us." he joked, making Joyce laugh.

"Want a smoke?" he asked, offering you his.

You shook your head and he looked surprised.

"You quit or somethin' (Y/N)."

"Take a leaf out of her book Hop." Joyce teased and he merely grunted.

"So, how is it inside?"

"El and Mike have been smooching like crazy."

"What the fuck? I am-"

You placed your hand on his forearm and when his eyes met yours, he was hit with the realisation that you had been joking.

"Jesus (Y/N). Nearly gave me a heartattack."

You smiled at him and you felt your throat close up when he mirrored the action.

"I just realised, I really need to go. Forgot somethin' at home." Joyce suddenly said, sharing a suspicious look with Hopper.

"I'll keep an eye on Will. Promise." Jim said, already aware that Joyce was going to ask.

"He was having a good time Joyce, really."

"Okay okay, I'll be back soon."

She sped off in her car and you looked questioningly at Jim, he simply shrugged his shoulders.

"Don't look at me. No idea what's gotten into her."

You stand next to him, looking up at the stars.

"No white Christmas this year, what do you reckon?"

"Can't predict the weather chief."

Then lyou shiver against your own will. Jim notices and he is out of his jacket before you know it, he gently puts it around and squeezes your shoulder.

"Thank you."

The volume of the music inside the gym is turned up, suddenly you can easily make out the song they're playing.

I need to know if you feel it too

"Wanna dance?"

He looked at you so seriously you don't dare to say no and you nodded. He carefully wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you closer to him. You started swaying to the rhythm.

Won't you tell me if I'm coming on too strong

"What's up with us (Y/N)?"

"Don't know Jim..."

"Honestly (Y/N). I like you, I really really do."

He carefully stroked your side, letting his hands rest on your hips again. You hid your face in his chest.

"Hop, I really really like you too. Honestly, you've got to believe me. But it's just, after everything with Jake -"

I've been waiting, for a girl like you, to come into my life

"Gonna stop you there (Y/N). Will I fuck up? Sure. Will you? Like hell you will. But I will never, you gotta listen carefully, I will never be like Jake. He was a disgusting scumbag. I'm an annoying dick on the worst days. I know you want it too, don't let Jake get in the way of anything anymore."

I've been waiting for someone new. To make me feel alive.

"Okay."

"Okay?"

When you love someone, really love someone.

"I'm gonna kiss you now, 'kay (Y/N)."

Yeah waiting, for a girl like you. To come into my life.

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@jobean12-blog , @casownsmyass , @loverosetyler

[beet-rootesoupevodkabanya]

Post-apocalypse military AU.

This one contains reference to your "Stella Polaris". U'll see where, dear Feli.😘✨ In the end Yuuri writes own name in Russian a bit wrong. It must be "Юри Кацуки". But he did it the most logical for foreigner way.😉 And again it's not all about this very situation. Hope to finish the continuation soon. 😶 [It hurts. It burns. Liquid metal fills throat, eroding chest, head, splashing outside through eyes. Tears don't bring any relief. They're painful. Suffocating. Burning. World is blurry. It presses with heavy air not letting to move or at least to inhale properly.] [Want to scream. To cry aloud. No, Yuuri. U can't. U already led your team down. Don't make it any worse] Private Katsuki curled into a ball on the floor of his bathroom sobbing quietly. [I'd better call somebody. To Phichit. To Mari-nee, to mom...] Yuuri gulped staring at his phone through shadow of tears. He knew too well he won't be able to say any word. Or even to press "call". He pitifully missed the last moment when it was possible. Missed the critical beginning of the breakdown. [What an idiot...] More then a week passed since their first task together. Just like Phichit said Yuuri recovered very fast. He was lucky not to get any serious injuries after all. Physically. But anxiety successfully compensated lack of body damage. And it became worse day by day. Even when Snow King's team mentioned the fact their newbie protected General, for Yuuri it sounded either as prank or as words of a pity. But most of all he was afraid to be thrown away. For refusal to obey an order, for being damaged, for making commander to bring him on arms out of danger... Or just for being unsuitable... Whatever it means. This evening General Nikiforov stayed with Feltsman-san and Baranovsky-san discussing something and missed their usual supper with all team. It wasn't a reason for breakdown. But this gave it enough time to finally happen. [It hurts. It burns. I just need to see him at least one more time. Just to look at him. Is it too much to ask for?... Just to look at him once before I'm fired...] Technically Yuuri realized in the corner of his mind it all is illogical. But anxiety covered consequences with suffocating sticky mist not letting to think properly or at least ask for help. All he was able to do now - just to hide and lay on the floor chocking with burning tears. - Hey, pig!!! Tell me something already!!!! Did U drop dead there or what??? - angry voice of Capitan Plisetsky... Very angry. Although it's always hard to understand whether he's angry or worried. How long has he kicked the door already?... Yuuri tried to answer but again chocked with tears. No. Anxiety won't let him say a word right now. - Doubt he will talk... - another voice. Obviously from lieutenant Altyin. Why on the Earth did they came here?.. Being deadly ashamed Yuuri curled into a ball more. Did he look this pitiful walking away from their living room?... Steps. Fast. Nervous. Almost running. Shere Khan went out. Maybe he is too angry to continue this useless one-sided talk? He has a right after all... ********************** Angry Kitty almost bumped into his commander jumping over several stairs. - Finally!! - he grabbed General's elbow pulling him forward. - Давай резче! Там твоя свинья самоубиться пытается. Ну или че-т в этом роде. / Move already! Your pig is trying to kill himself or something like that. The immediate change from bored dork to legendary General Snow King was even scary. Chasing his panicking commander Yurio honestly tried to tell Beka is there ready to pry the simple lock open any minute. And that they didn't break in only because didn't want to make Yuuri's condition worse. But it was a bit too late... ************************* [What's with this noise?..] Yuuri unintentionally turned to the door. Something like two people running. Crack. Kick to the door broke it out of place completely. White wooden board fell on the floor. Thanks to unknown builders of the past times who made bathrooms here so wide... In any other case Yuuri'd be buried under the door then and there... Boy from Safe Zone raised a head. General Snow King... He stayed right in front of Yuuri, breathing hard. In splinters of northern sky boiled pure panic. - Ok, I've got it. I'll fix the door in the morning. - muttered Otabek from behind the entrance. And despite of angry fizzing pulled Shere Khan out. But Yuuri almost didn't see it. Because General Nikiforov fell on the floor near and cupped his face with both hands: - Are U ok??? No, U're not... Are U damaged? Does something hurt? His voice trembled. Cold fingers wondered over Yuuri's skin, almost professionally exploring wrists, neck, abdomen. As if he knew too well how and where could persons hurt themselves. For some time unexpected intrusion even distracted boy from his breakdown. But reality still looked like from underwater. Honestly Private Katsuki wasn't absolutely sure if his General is here for real. These can't be true: his lulling despite of being cold touches... Over the whole body. His short, nervous embrace. His hoarse, cracked voice: - There, there... Yuuri, потерпи, малыш, сейчас станет получше... / bear it a bit more, baby, U'll feel better soon. [What does it mean?... Who knows...] Private Katsuki would be glad to ask but voice didn't work. Body felt so heavy... And sleepy. But he knew too well he won't be able to sleep now. Even if he crawled to the bed, he'd just stayed in awful half-conscious condition for hours. Unable to properly rest. Comforting hands left his body. Why? Is General tired from babysitting him? But the next minute cold touches returned. Snow King pulled away boy's t-shirt. In any other case Yuuri'd immediately die from embarrassment feeling how strong arm embraced his naked stomach. Hold of his General was firm and soft at the same time. "Absolutely perfect..." - thought melted somewhere in the corner of boy's mind. This embrace didn't let him to fall back on the floor while cold fingers unbuttoned his pants. Palm touched exposed hip while taking off pants and underwear... [What are U doing, General??????] And right when Yuuri finally pulled his brain together enough to realize it all is for real and honestly it's time to scream and die from heartattack, Victor carefully raised him on arms. Yuuri shut his lashes tightly for a second. And felt something warm, relaxing and lulling enveloping his still stiff from stress body. Hot bath... That's exactly what his commander undressed him for. [HOW. INAPPROPRIATE.] Too bad. Too unbearable - to melt under his smallest touch and at the same time die from shame. Private Katsuki curled into a ball laying head on knees. If commander continues to stroke his hair and shoulders with this tender sympathy, body can cause a... wrong... reaction... - Hey, Yuuri... - Snow King set on the floor near the bath. His still cold fingers slid under boy's arms and lightly pushed his chest: - Try to relax, ok?.. U need to allow your body some rest to feel better. How could it be possible?.. Man of everyone's dream. Living legend. The best of the best. The youngest High Officer. In nowadays world ranks in military depended of how many (and how difficult) tasks were completed successfully. Snow King always got hardest ones. How many of them had he been through to get highest rank this young?... And how tough it was?... He could choose anyone as Private Guard. (Honestly he doesn't need Private Guard at all...) He could find someone much better. But... Yuuri raised his head staring into icy-blue eyes. Maybe it was the most miserable thing to do... Maybe. But he moved closer, twined hands round commander's neck and desperately leaned with a cheek to his face. - Please... Don't abandon me. Don't throw me away. - sobbing returned being twice more intense now. But this time tears brought relief. Exhausting and embarrassing but relief. Because strong arms returned the embrace without hesitating. Cold fingers traced dark, partly wet locks: - Why do U think this low about your commander, Kaiyo? I won't ever abandon U. How long did they stay like this Yuuri couldn't say for sure. But when water wasn't warm enough anymore Snow King took the boy out of it, wrapping him in a towel. Dried milky-white skin and brought to the bed: - I don't WANT anyone else close to me but U. Saying this Victor turned away a bit faster then he should. And began to search for night closes in Yuuri's wardrobe. It was found rather fast. Although General returned with a bit unreadable expression. For a second Yuuri suspected he saw something WRONG there. But this thought drifted away immediately. It was technically impossible to find any discrediting evidences this fast... And... He'd be mad, right? Anyone would be mad... Sinking in these doubts Yuuri didn't completely realized on time his General already dressed him up. Like a doll. What a shame. Fuck that anxiety disorder with it's ability to slow down perception... But slow or not it was impossible not to notice partly soaked t-shirt and hair dripping with water. Of course the reason was Yuuri's hug. He sigh. [Not to stare... Not to stare! Not! To! Stare!] Impossible. Snow King set on the edge of the bed and bended to boy's face, stroking his head: - I'll be right back, ok? Yuuri nodded. And his commander went to the bathroom. Undressing on his way. Of course the door still laid on the floor. Of course the view from the bed was more then perfect. Of course Yuuri knew he should politely turn away. But he was physically unable to... Porcelain, white skin. Lean muscles. Flawless forms. Water dripping over every smallest line... Forgetting everything Private Katsuki stared at the most beautiful view in front of him. If only... If only he could... Commander turned water off and returned to the bedroom. Him walking to the bed absolutely naked. In gloomy without light room. When white as a snow skin almost radiated shining around... Yuuri nearly howled and thrown himself to the pillow hiding under the blanket. It's too much!!!! - Yuuri? - caressing touch trough dark locks is unbearable. - Do U feel bad again? Do U want some tea? I can make. [Are U kidding me, General Snow King???? Are U really going to make tea absolutely naked?????] Sound of fastened clasp. Seemed like he at least took on pants. Yuuri cautiously looked out from under the blanket. And almost bumped into the most beautiful face ever. Smile of General Nikiforov was blinding as a Polar day: - Yuuri, U didn't tell me what tea would U like. - I have only green here. - muttered boy from Safe Zone crawling back to his hideout. Honestly to watch half-naked General Nikiforov making two cups of tea was an ultimate test of self-control. Now with this simple routine he looked so...domestic. Like soft fresh snow of the New Year in Yuuri's land. It caused the wish to run outside, fall down laughing and playing and scream from happiness... But... He's not only sugary sweet, fresh snow. White skin kept old scars from distant past and traces of fresh bruises from trainings. Scars... Where exactly are they from?... Some small (how many - Yuuri couldn't properly see from that distance) and one rather deep and long. "It's sad - to wake up in hospital alone"... He knew what he was talking about. [Why are U so lonely, General Snow King?..] Wish to caress this scar was too intense. Yuuri bit his lip. To caress, to kiss every small one. [I'd fall on my knees to your feet. I'd kiss away all the pain U've ever been through. I'd cut same wounds on my own body if only it could transfer your pain to me. I'd...] [What are U thinking about, Private Katsuki? U already made your commander to babysit U for a couple of hours already...] Yuuri lowed head and bit his lip more. - Here, your tea. - warm cup laid in boy's palms. Cold fingers touched cheek. Victor sat on the bed so close it was possible to feel warmth of his body. Now Yuuri saw clearly how scarred his porcelain skin really was. Snow King noticed his look. - Ah, don't worry not all of them are from battle. - he waved hand with usual joyful look. Sipped tea. And realized that had already said too much. Boy's hand touched a couple of small scars on the neck: - Then... From where else? - From... U know... Distant times. Even before that epidemic. - General narrowed brows but kept smiling. With a weird expression of cursed, beautiful doll. - U know... Street fights, fights at school... Some... Domestic problems... He grinned wider raising his head. And before Yuuri had a chance to react, winked to him: - U know, in previous world all our team would be sent out of Army? [It's not what U wanted to say, Snow King...] Yuuri moved a bit closer to this comforting warmth. If his General doesn't want to talk about it all right now, let it be so. - Why? Katsuki Yuuri was from so-called "2nd breed". He had been through the virus. All survivors lived in Safe Zones. As well as some non-infected ones. Only "first breeds" - who never was touched with virus formed new Army and new Military system. Now without borders or countries. Simply because of lack of people left in the world. Partly ruined cities and infrastructures could easily serve rare survivors. But still not all of them were agree too hold on some civil rules. And it caused the endless war between Military and prowlers. Time to time officers who were damaged too much to continue fighting returned to the Safe Zone and taught newbies martial subject. Yuuri, Phichit and Minami were volunteers from "2nd breed". The main difference was - "2nd breed" lost emotional experience. Intellectual memories stayed undamaged. But emotional memories came to zero. Since that moment only "1st breeds" completely realized how naive and helpless "2nd breeds" turned out to become. But at the same time "naive and helpless" doesn't mean "kind and pure", right?... Snow King smiled again. This time, leaning to Yuuri's shoulder, took away empty cup from boy's hands and put it on the nightstand: - Well... Let me tell U some stories. If U won't like it, U always can think it was just a stupid fairytale. - He pulled Yuuri to lay on his laps, covered him with a blanket and absent-mindly traced fingers through dark, silky hair: - Our nowaday's Army is a kind of gameplay. Most of professionals died in that epidemic. Ones who survived mostly lost their emotional memories which caused them simply loose the meaning of battle and hardly realize the danger. Well... What could we do? We restored the way we could. And accepted everyone who volunteered... Now... Rules are different... System is different. But still... We are more like kids playing war now. Only armor is real. And death. Is always real. In previous world I'd be sent out because of injuries, U - because of anxiety disorder, Yurio - for his awful discipline and Otabek - for his doubtful documents. But we are here. Not because our colleagues realize we are useful and let us stay. But because they all are like this too. Seems like noone even remembers now how it was before. He snorted bitterly: - Humans are stupid. We lost the ability to reproduce, to get old, to die from age. We could live Elven life now. But instead we stubbornly kill each other. Although we all know there won't be a replacement... Cold fingers went through dark silk slower as if apologizing. - Sorry, Kaiyo. It's not a suitable time to talk about what's happening in the world around. Aren't U scared? - commander's voice was soft but still bitter. He obviously felt a painful need to talk. But about something else. And couldn't. Yuuri just shrugged his shoulders indifferently: - As long as I'm with U I don't care about world around. Laying on commander's laps Private Katsuki couldn't see bright blush burning on Victor's cheek after his words. Lulled with soft caressing of head and shoulders boy from Safe Zone fell asleep. General Snow King thoughtfully stared at the darkness of the closet. While searching for night clothes for subordinate he accidentally bumped into a small notebook. On the first page of it was carefully drawn that very "love umbrella" from Yuuri's native land. From both sides were unsure writings in foreign for Yuuri language: Виктор Никифоров and Юри Катсуки.../ Victor Nikiforov and Yuuri Katsuki.

[wormsongs]

if actors dont have groupchats to send memes of eachother then what are they doing with their lives

[svartalfhild]

LET THE BODIES HIT THE- Oh Wait, No: A Series of Internal Screams About Critical Role Episode 82.

I’m not gonna lie, I missed a few things in this episode, because I was exhausted and drifting in and out of consciousness, but I think I was awake for all the really juicy bits.

First of all, have I ever told you that I love Kerrek?  Because Kerrek is so great and it was so exciting to see him come along with everybody on a proper adventure for the first time.

The Percleth brOTP moments in this episode were A+.  Percy clinging to Keyleth’s arm in the dark because Shitty Human Vision was so good.  Percy’s “this happens to me all the time; isn’t it great” comment when Keyleth got blown up and she was like :D.  Keyleth getting super excited and teasing Percy because she’s just so damn Hype over his relationship with Vex.

Speaking of which, THE PERC’AHLIA IN THIS EPISODE WAS EVERYTHING I COULD ASK FOR.  VEX TELLING GROG SHE’S SEEING SOMEONE.  PERCY BEING PROUD OF VEX FOR TRICKING GROG.  VEX TAKING PERCY WITH HER ON THE BROOM, NOT WITH HIM HANGING OFF IT THIS TIME.  VEX TELLING PERCY TO BE CAREFUL.  THE ANGST OF PERCY BEING UNABLE TO SHOOT THE BODY OFF VEX.  PERCY RUNNING FULL OUT TO RESCUE VEX AND PIKE.  THE “I’M SO GLAD YOU’RE ALIVE; LET’S MAKE OUT NOW SO I CAN BE SURE” KISS IN FRONT OF EVERYONE.  THEY ARE SO IN LOVE AND DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT PEOPLE SEEING ANYMORE.  I LIVE.

The visuals in this episode, though.  Matt painted such a vivid picture.  It fed my cinematic imagination like a big carcass for a hungry wolverine.  I could see the chasm.  I could see the dramatic camera angle changes because of the gravity shift.  I could see the bodies and the way they moved.  I could see the fountain and the shadows cast by the water.  I could see the book (which I was afraid was the Book of Vile Darkness at first) and the brazier, blackened and dusty, and the way the blood moved inside it.  Just everything.  It was all so good, so delightfully creepy.  Matt will never cease to amaze and impress me.  What a DM.  What a guy.

I would like to take a moment to point out that VM totes would have died if they’d gone in without resting, so Good Choice there.

Grog was so fucking funny this episode in his dumb asshole way that’s sort of sad and endearing at the same time.  Like the thing with the rocks he wanted desperately to be salt licks and his insistence that if anyone wants something from him, they have to trade for it, even Allura.

Taliesin doing Scanlan was honestly so fitting, because post-death Scanlan is grittier and angrier and Taliesin is just the right person for that.  Also people trying to channel Sam was Gold.  “ROCK GLYPH” WAS AMAZING AND I WAS SO IMPRESSED.

Keyleth officially has a Thing about touching stuff and I will at some point make a separate post about this because I Love It.

Percy’s Sun Tree comment was such a brother thing to do.  Poor Kiki.  But also, Much Siblings and I Love.

Grog demanding Percy’s ascot because he wants to feel fancy was so Pure and Wonderful, especially when Percy gave him like a silly little bowtie type deal.

UGH OKAY SO I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY ABOUT THEM FIGHTING RAISHAN AGAIN.  I HOPE THEY’RE GONNA GET A LITTLE BIT OF A DROP ON HER.  THAT MAY BE ALL THEY NEED. BRB, TRYING NOT TO HAVE A HEARTATTACK OVER THINKING ABOUT IT.

[captain-tiny-dick]

Fuck me

FUCK YOU TUMBLR! GAVE ME A FICKING HEARTATTACK POSTING MY SHIT ON FACEBOKK

[beet-rootesoupevodkabanya]

Post-apocalypse military AU.

Next part as I promised to dear Feli.😘 Occasionally it'll have the 3d part. Btw I chose tramadolum as painkiller bc it's typical in such cases in Russia. ************************* Private Katsuki woke up in the middle of the night. From cold. Or better to say - from loss of living warmth. The last thing he remembered was thin, cold fingers tracing his hair, wondering over neck, shoulders, innocently getting a bit under a t-shirt time to time. General Snow King... But. Where is he? Yuuri rose on elbow looking around. Shadow on the balcony. Here he is! Boy clumsily got up, still half-asleep, rubbed his eyes and realized something was completely wrong. His commander smoked on the balcony. But it's autumn already. Nights definitely aren't warm enough to stay outside half-naked and with bare feet. And the way he stayed. Hardly supporting himself with one hand over balcony fencing, as if trying to step on the left leg less. Burning spot of cigarette shivered in darkness. Private Katsuki stormed there. Being a long-time friend with doctor Phichit taught him a lot of useful (or not really...) things. Of course now it was clear - old wounds of his General were aching. Maybe this time because of stress... [I made General suffer... It's my fau...] [Not fucking now, Private Katsuki!!] - Sir? - boy from Safe Zone stepped on the balcony. - I know cold seems... distracting from pain. But still... It's not good for U. [Fuck. Chilling stones of the floor almost burn skin.] Not waiting for any response Private Katsuki reached for commander grabbing his waist. Snow King obviously shivered. - It's ok, Yuuri, just go back to sleep. I'll be right in a minute. - General turned to him with almost normal face expression. Almost... Smile could look carefree. But cold drops of sweat on his forehead, dark shadows under eyes and bitten almost to blood lips betrayed him completely. - Old wounds, righ? - Yuuri hugged his commander with both hands making to lean on his shoulder. - Finish your cigarette and let's return. - U shouldn't step here with bare feet. - his voice is too quiet. Almost like whisper. He sloppily stifled the cigarette, burned fingers by smoldering end and didn't even noticed. [How much pain do U hide from others, General Snow King?..] White skin was icy cold. How long did he stayed there?... It was just several steps distance - to get to the bed. Frozen fingers leaned to boys shoulder searching for support. Yuuri hugged commander almost bringing him on arms to the sheets. Laid there and touched forehead with lips. At least it's not a fever. In this case he knows what to do. - Sir, what caused this? - stupid question but Phichit could need to know it to choose the treatment. - Is it weather or... - I'm sorry. - icy-blue eyes focused on Private Katsuki. - It's just... I've got...nervous. It happens time to time. [Nervous?... Is it... Because of me?.. My fault??... No, Private Katsuki, it's fucking NOT the time for this!!!] Yuuri nodded, grabbed the phone and placed a fast kiss on pale cheek: - I'll be right back. I'm gonna take medicine for U. - Hey, c'mon, Yuuri! I'm fine. - strong hand held his wrist. - I told U it happens time to time. Nothing to worry about. No need to bother doctors. - NO NEED???!!!!! MY ASS!!! - unexpected outburst made General Nikiforov to instinctively let go of boy's hand. - If U're in pain it IS a reason to worry!!!! He whistled to Makkachin, tapped the bed near General and nodded to his side: - Look after him until I return. Dog wigged tail and licked Victor's cheek. *********************** Midnight call woke Phichit up but didn't really surprise him. As well as Yuuri in pajamas and army boots put on bare feet. He saw his best friend in even more weird states. The problem was clear. He put out some ampules and syringes and began to scroll through General Nikiforov's medical card. - Did U catch a cold, Katsuki-san? - Minami appeared from nowhere. Still not completely awake but as always super excited about hell knows what. - Your face is all red. [Just. Great. What am I supposed to answer? "Oh, it's ok, I've just occasionally kissed legendary General Snow King in a cheek."?????] Muttering something unclear, Yuuri grabbed medicines, listened to Phichit's warnings and rushed back. To his commander. Of course even more red then before. Minami sigh, pressing hands to face dreamily: - My OTP... ************************ When he returned Victor laid on the bed hugging Makkachin and hiding face into soft, brown fur. Is he asleep?... Private Katsuki unsurely touched naked shoulder. - Yuuri... - his voice was quiet and hoarse. - Please, go to sleep. U need a rest. - Phichit gave tramadolum for U. - Yuuri softly turned his commander on the back. Of course he wasn't the only one who being able to give an injection. Every soldier was taught medical basics. He was just too used to it for a newbie. Of course because of Phichit (or "dr.Hamsterviel" as he was often called by friends despite of lack of similarity). And it was also the reason why, unlike other martials, Yuuri never was reckless about medic themes. Boy took out first-aid kit, and returned to the bed with spirit and syringe but unexpectedly his General grabbed Makka, pressing him to the chest as a huge stuffed toy and curled into a ball near the headboard. - I'm a kind of... Don't like injections. I had too much of them during hospitals and stuff... - intonations sounded almost normal now. He even snorted. As if everything is fine. [Too much? Is it the only reason, General Snow King?...] Yuuri stopped for a second intensively thinking the situation over?.. Is his commander really scared of injections? But why? Painful memories? Or something else? But they must do it anyway. And do it right now. [What to do?! Think, Private Katsuki!!! What Mari-nee did when she brought U to doctors and U was afraid?...] Yuuri set on the bed near his General, stroke silver locks and when he raised a head cupped his face with both hands, smiling: - Please, darling... Don't be afraid. It won't cause U pain. He moved closer, to hug his commander: - Please, Victoru-chan... Don't be scared. I'm here. I won't let anything bad happen to U. [DARLING???!!!!! VICTORU-CHAN????!!!! Katsuki, are U retarted or what????!!!!!! Honestly he should punch U right now! Not to mention it was over-idiotic - to use tender pronounce of own country...] But all these internal screams didn't stop Yuuri from making embrace tighter and beginning to slightly cradle his General, caressing winter silk: - Don't worry, dear... It won't be painful... To say legendary General Nikiforov was surprised would be a shameless lie. He wasn't SURPRISED. He was STUNNED. And gasped with wide eyes unable to put thoughts together. He never experienced something like this before. If someone would ask Snow King what exactly he feels right now he definitely hadn't be able to answer. Either too stupid or too happy. Or both. Of course little traitor Private Katsuki used inadequate condition of his commander to press vein, touch skin with spirit pad and stuck the needle in... No, it's not painful. It could be even exciting in it's own weird way. But still... Tramadolum has some...unwanted side-effects. Victor blankly stared at empty syringe. Pain will fade away soon. It's not that good though... - U see? Everything is fine now. - Yuuri pressed a cold from spirit cotton pad to the vein, hugged his General with a free arm and caressed silver locks - U did great. U'll feel better soon. And now it's time to sleep. Somewhere in the corner of his mind General Nikiforov understood he should react somehow: say that he's not a kid to comfort him like this, or calm Kaiyo down because he is definitely worried, or... But he couldn't make a slightest move, unable to realize it all is for real. He didn't even notice when Yuuri turned off the light. - If U need something, I'm right here. - Boy laid his still speechless General to the pillow and covered with a blanket. Silence lasted about a minute. (And during this minute Yuuri several times almost died from heartattack hysterically thinking over again and again what had he done in last hour... - Yuuri?... - hoarse nearly to whisper voice sounded apologetic. Boy from Safe Zone almost jumped. From mix of worry and unreasonable embarrassment: - Yes, s-sir?.. - Are U here?.. Weird question. Victor tried to force out laugh but it sounded bitter. As an answer warm hand sneaked over his chest and pulled into soft embrace. Yuuri leaned to naked, sharp shoulder blades, breath touched the line of winter silk on the neck: - Aye, sir... I'm here for U, sir... This weird kid is always so brave in very unexpected moments... - Didn't I tell U? No "sir". We're family here. We call each other by names... -Victor caught milky-white wrist, intertwining their fingers. Nervously and too forceful. Private Katsuki didn't try to get free. Warm thumbs caressed icy-cold skin of his commander - I'm sorry for all this mess... - General inhaled making voice to sound less weak. Seemed like tramadolum worked on him rather fast. - I must explain U why I didn't want to use painkillers. U see... It has side-effects. Body is dizzy, mind is clouded... - Snow King sigh as if being a kind of bored with it all but then buried face into Yuuri's palms. Breath was shaking, more like sobbing, but cheeks stayed dry. - And... U know... I kinda... Loose control. Last time I got this injection... I was in hospital with damaged knee. They gave it to me every night for five days to make it possible to sleep. And every morning I found out the pillow is wet as fuck. And nurses muttered I cried for all six hours of it's effect. I didn't properly remember though... So stupid. I don't want U to be scared of disgusted...if something like this happens again. Boy from Safe Zone tightened embrace burring face into wither silk: - Why do U think so low about your subordinate, Victoru?... Crying is natural. And... U're not alone anymore. U won't wake up alone and in tears. I'm here. With U. [...And always will be with U. I'll wipe all your tears. If only I could... I'd wipe them with kisses... I'd give U my everything... My flesh and blood... Every second of my life...] - My Yuki-no-kami-sama... How did it happened - that Yuuri said it aloud - later he couldn't say for sure. But flawless body in his arms tensed up even stopping to breath: - Say... That... Again... Please... First Katsuki's wish was to roll into furthest corner and die there: how could it be??? Is his General mad at him now?... But... It's not a right time to be in hysteric. He just clung to Victor tighter: - It means "God of snow" in my language. [It's nothing to loose now. If he is mad, he has a right to kill me...] Kaiyo cupped commander's cheek stroking porcelain skin and repeated: - My. Yuki-no-kami-sama. Silence lasted for rather long. He'd think his General fell asleep but tense body in his arms made him doubt. Husky whisper touched boy's palm: - Yuuri... Where did U spend your epidemic period? Do U remember that times? [Ehhh??!! Why this question???] Private Katsuki shrugged shoulders blushing and being graceful to the entire Universe for laying behind his Snow King. He won't see this stupid redness. - Well... I don't remember much... I know we were evacuated because of risk of nuclear explosion in our region. It was a long trip. I can't say for sure what land it was.. And then threat was fixed and we were sent back home. But memories are so shadowed... I can't say what was a dream and what was for real. - Yuuri caressed silver silk away from commander's eyes. - But if U want, we can go and check it up in documents in the morning. General exhaled. Either disappointed or just thoughtful. And curled into a ball in Yuuri's arms, leaning to him with his back unexpectedly tight: - Yes... Let's do it. In the morning. Boy from Safe Zone locked the embrace and slid palm under Victor's cheek instead of a pillow: - Sleep well, sir... - "Sir"...my ass. - he lightly pushed Yuuri's side with an elbow and sigh - Sleep well, Private Katsuki, it's an order.