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(OOC - Update #17)
Hello everyone! Just a little update since it's been a while. âĄ
Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate and I hope everyone has a wonderful upcoming weekend! :D
Just so everyone knows, my sleep schedule switched again, so I apologize in advance. What that means is chaos (probably more for me than you, but still)! So, sometimes you'll get messages from me at weird hours. You might also get replies that make no sense or have typos, depending on how late it keeps me up.
Slowly but surely, I'm working on getting replies out. I've been focusing on older threads and asks that I had sitting in my inbox, so I should have some of those out soon (and I'm sorry it has taken me some time, but I hope you enjoy the responses! <3). The next ones I'm going to be working on are listed under the cut, along with an activity check in.
At the very end, there's a mention of pet loss â please skip over that if it's triggering for you (post is also tagged, but it's a brief mention). I wanted to address that because I know I have a mutual who it triggers, so I just want them and everyone else to be okay.
Please let me know if you don't want me to tag you for the reply list. This is usually just the easiest way for me to let everyone know at once. Thanks! (:
Replies To-Do:
@swanprincessodette
@sigynoffidelity
@animnerd
@byondtheveil
@ghostsandmirrors
@bdkrp
@meaningful-negativity (I think it's my turn for Adrian? I'll have to double check)
@honorarystripes (I did your response, just have to find the link for you and send it again <3)
I'll also be trying to message people back either today or tomorrow, depending on what the holiday has in store for me.
On another note, this blog has reached 98 followers, so a big thank you to everyone who has stuck around and those who are just joining! I'm glad to have so many awesome mutuals and I've really enjoyed interacting with everyone in the community so far. :D
Also this screenshot might explain why it takes me forever to sort through drafts, especially when it makes me refresh every time I change something *sob*
As for my last update, my to-do list hasn't budged due to some personal issues going on in my life. Some of you know already, but at the beginning of November (a few days after I came back from my hiatus), I lost one of my pets and I'm still having a hard time; that's part of why I hadn't responded to messages or RPs for a little. Most of you already have a relationship with me outside of our RPs if you've been here for a little while, but some of you are new and I don't want anyone thinking I'm ignoring them or that I'm not interested in our RP. I will get back to you, even if it takes me some time (and thank you for your patience, you guys are amazing <3)
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The Last Hours (2020 - 2023)
#the last hours#tlhedit#tscedit#chain of gold#chain of iron#chain of thorns#my edits#this one has been sitting on my draft since forever#litedit
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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1- Write about your ship cuddling into bed together after a long and tiring day. + Rooney and Yori?
Thanks for this one! This turned out rather short but very fluffy.
[Prompt List]
Summary: Rooney and Yorinobu cuddle in bed and chat after a long and tiring day, especially about dinner with some old friends. Words: 1.2k words Content Warnings: No warnings apply. This is just straight up fluff.
Taglist (Opt In/Out): @bbrocklesnar, @sergeiravenov, @alexxmason, @voidika, @imogenkol,
@strangefable, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @tommyarashikage, @theelderhazelnut, @carlosoliveiraa,
@cassietrn, @direwombat, @derelictheretic, @cloudofbutterflies92
Rooney sighs contentedly, staring at the warm, comfortable-looking bed adoringly. They had been looking forward to crawling into bed all night. âIf I did not know better,â Yorinobu teases with a soft smile, âI would think you are only with me for my bed.â
 âI might be,â They tease back with a smirk on their face, crawling into the bed on the left side. Rooney always takes the left side, closest to the door, preferring to put themself between Yorinobu and any points of entry. Between him and anyone who might want to hurt him.
The mattress is far softer than theyâre used to, far softer than they normally like. (After many years sleeping on a cot or in uncomfortable places in general, Rooney prefers a firmer bed.)Â But Yorinobu prefers his mattresses soft like he could sink into them, and considering this was his bed, Rooney wasnât going to argue with him. What really matters is that he is getting into bed with them.
Yorinobu climbs into bed on the other side as Rooney pulls the plush cream comforter over themself, the weight a soothing pressure. As soon he is underneath the covers, Yorinobu seeks Rooney, spooning with them. His left hand finds its way to their hip, sliding underneath the black fabric of their tank top. He rests his hand in the dip of their hip, thumb lazily tracing patterns in their skin. Meanwhile, Rooney plays with his hair, fingers gently teasing his short black hair. Yorinobu yawns, a content smile on his face as the duo lay in bed, weary from the long day behind them. âHow did your meetings go today?â
He frowns. âToo long. Too boring.â
Ah, it was that type of day. âIâm sorry,â They sympathize, âthat really sucks.â
âIt does,â Yorinobu confirms, âSome like to hear the sound of their voice, never getting to the point. Or they repeat the words of my father, marionettes on a string.â
Rooney winces in sympathy. âOh, YorinobuâŠâ
âEnough. How did your day fare?â
âFrustrating.â Rooney felt like a dog chasing their tail, every lead they followed seemed to fizzle out, âNone of my leads worked out.â
âYou will find them,â He says it so sincerely, that Rooney is tempted to believe him, âYou always do.â
âYeah, I hope sleep will give me a new perspective.â
Yorinobu smirks. âIf sleep does not help you, perhaps I can.â Rooney groans affectionately at his innuendo, rolling their eyes as he laughs.
Silence permeates the room, and Rooney relaxes, this being one of the few places they could. They close their eyes, weariness weighing down on them.
âWhat did you think of our dinner with Alexandre and Marion?â Yorinobu asks, Rooney opening their eyes as he breaks the silence. Alexandre and Marion Garnier were high-ranking members of the Arasaka Corporation, specifically in the European branch, and allies of Yorinobu. Alexandre was a former French General while Marion had worked in diplomacy, easing tensions between Europe and Japan. Yorinobu continues, âThey were delighted to see you.â
Delighted was an understatement. Rooney had few fond memories during their time at Arasaka, Yorinobu occupying most of them. However, Rooney had missed Alexandre and Marion, and the Garniers had clearly missed Rooney too. Rooney first met the couple when they were attending a dinner party with Yorinobu, early when the two were straddling the line between friendship and something more. Alexandre and Marion were distant at first, polite, but not overly friendly either. The Garniers most likely assumed that Yorinobu would tire of Rooney quickly, and it wasnât worth getting to know them. (Not that Rooney could blame them. Yorinobu wasnât known for his long-lasting relationships, something he had in common with Rooney, for very different reasons.) At the dinner party, Alexandre began a discussion on a recent military conflict. Rooney, naturally, jumped into the conversation, excited to talk shop. Alexandre and Marion stared at them in curiosity, only to monopolize Rooneyâs time for the rest of the night. Rooney enjoyed spending time with the Garniers, discussing politics, history, military strategy, and other topics.
 âDelighted?â They quip, running their hand through his hair.
Yorinobu laughs, a pleasured shudder running through him. âAlexandre and Marion always adored you. I thought they would ignore me the whole night.â Rooney remembers the way Alexandre and Marion lit up at the sight of them, ecstatic smiles as the duo got out of their chairs to greet Rooney. Marion hugs them tight, telling Rooney how good it was to see them again and how much she missed them. Alexandre shakes their hand firmly, but Rooney doesnât miss his misty eyes as he gives them a fond look. When Yorinobu and Rooney are finally able to take a seat, Alexandre and Marion immediately assault Rooney with questions, mainly about what Rooney had been doing after they left Arasaka. (There had also been a few pointed questions about Rooney and Yorinobuâs relationship, mainly if the pair were back together.)
âI was afraid they were going to do that too.â Although, Rooney couldnât be too mad. It was nice to talk with Alexandre and Marion. Every time they look over at Yorinobu, he watches them with fondness, a slightly smitten smile on his face, arm resting on the back of their chair, hand on Rooneyâs shoulder. It makes their heart melt a little, knowing they feel the same way about him. âI really did miss the Garniers.â
âThey missed you. Alexandre and Marion were devastated when you left; they wanted to find you. I threatened them to leave you be.â Rooney looks away guiltily, knowing the Garniers had not been the only ones devastated by their departure. They still remember the heartbroken look on Yorinobuâs face as he watches them choose the military over a future with him. âRooney,â Their eyes meet his brown ones, âWhat did Alexandre say to you before we left?â
Rooney remembers the way Alexandre beckoned them over, out of earshot of Marion and Yorinobu. âShepard, it is rare to get a second chance,â Alexandre looks away from them, towards Marion with love in his eyes, âespecially when it is with someone you care about. Do not be a fool and make the same mistake twice.â âAlexandre said that I had second chance, something that most people donât get, and I shouldnât make the same mistake.â
âWhat did you say to him?â
âThat I wonât. I donât make the same mistakes twice, and Iâm going to make the most of it this time.â Rooneyâs hand leaves his hair, tracing the edge of his face. Alexandre was right; they should not be so foolish this time around. âYori, I love you,â a swell of affection rises within them, âI want this to work; I donât want to lose you again.â
He smiles, letting out a genuine laugh. âYou and I got the same lecture tonight,â He pulls them closer, his leg slotting between theirs, âI love you too.â He presses his lips against Rooneyâs lips, a soft kiss. He tastes like the wine the group drank all night and the tiramisu the pair shared for dessert. Rooney deepens the kiss, pouring all the unsaid words into the kiss. Rooney is going to make this work; they can make it work. Theyâre going to find a way to protect Yorinobu and save V from the Relic.Â
#kate writes#the rooney fic tag#commander rooney shepard#I won't let fear compromise who I am#OTP: It always comes right back to you#yorinobu arasaka x OC#v: cyberpunk 2077#Hope it's okay that I tagged you#Tumblr can be a real bastard about notifying people about answered asks lol#ANYWAY Hope everyone enjoys this one#it's just nice and fluffy#and builds on some lore during Rooney's time with Arasaka#this has been sitting in my drafts forever and I decided i'm putting this out there#also i missed them#especially since I haven't been writing for them much the last few weeks
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quietly burns
(683 words, extra scene from the fic âthe survivorâ from my zombie apoc au)
Moonlight streaks in through the half-drawn curtains over the sink. The night is still young and endless, but Etho isnât tired. These days, he often isnât. His knees ache from standing all day and thereâs a pain in his chest thatâs only eased when he carefully sits on the edge of the couch cushion.
Soft snores chase away the pain like salve to a burn. It settles the restlessness in his bones, unravels the tension in his shoulders. He unspools. He sheds his boots and his coat. He sits in the darkness as he looks over Bdubs as he sleeps, curled tightly on a couch much too small for him.
âWhy were you asleep on the couch last night?â Etho asks, the morning after the first time he finds Bdubs there. A warm mug in his hands.
Bdubs answers with a mouthful of powdered eggs. âHad to make sure you got back in one piece, didnât I? Someoneâs gotta take care of your sorry butt. Iâll stay awake next time, for sure.â
He hadnât stayed awake. Nor did he the time after or the time after that. Each night, when Etho comes home with weary bones and exhausted eyes, Bdubs is here: curled on the couch like heâs made a permanent spot in the crease between the cushions. He snores peacefully, drool seeping into the fabric beneath his cheek.
Etho pulls a blanket over him. Force of habit. The worst of the winter is already over. But Etho does it anyway.
He thinks he should scold Bdubs for it. That heâll mess up his back sleeping on an old, rickety couch like this. That itâs too cold in the living room with the drafty window. That Etho is perfectly capable of coming home to an empty, sleeping apartment.
But he doesnât, nor does he think he can. Etho trades in silence like a croupier deals in cards. Reluctant to release the best ones. Eager to keep the most cunning hands to himself. Bdubsâ silence is not a profound one; itâs noisy, mostly full of snoring and sleepy mutterings. But itâs a silence Etho greets each night when he comes home. And maybe the most selfish parts of him bask in the idea that Bdubs does this just for him.
Idle fingers graze over the soft curve of Bdubsâ cheek. They ghost over the fringe hanging in his face. Another habit. Like fully appreciating the tiger only when its asleep and its fangs are retracted. Bdubs would never hurt Etho; thatâs not what heâs afraid of. But his fear is something greater, a mirror turned in toward himself. Because Etho doesnât get to have this.
He thinks if Bdubs were to admit it, to proclaim this is all heâs ever wanted, and it doesnât matter what Ren or Martyn do or say, Etho would be able to offer nothing but silence. But fear. Because what is fear if not the greatest silencer?
Itâs impossible to lose something you never had in the first place, but just as impossible to ignore something thatâs already been set on fire.
So Etho swallows it. He indulges himself in these moonlit silences. In Bdubsâ unaware snoring and the fragile hope that maybe the next night, heâll get to do it again. He lets himself burn in the maybes and the almosts. Because those might be all he gets, and who is he to ask for more?
If Bdubs would ask, maybe heâd be able to admit it. Maybe he wouldn't burn so quietly and endlessly. Maybe heâd be able to say he didnât want to lose itâ that heâd do anything to protect it.
But Bdubs wonât ask. Heâs asleep and Etho burns, slow and quiet, beside him. This way, Bdubs wonât have to wonder. And Etho wonât have to say it outloud.
#mczu#the survivor#birdie writes#ethubs#ethubs fic#etho#bdubs#trafficshipping#hermitshipping#<- tagging to be safe since it could be interpreted as romantic though it is not intended to be one or the other#this has been sitting in my drafts forever figured I should post it#last life#last life fic#divorce duo fic#divorce duo
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NSFW PREFERENCES:
bold: always applies | italics: sometimes applies or partner specific | bold  +  italic: favorite | strike: never applies | normal: very situational / not a fan of, but doesnât mind it
INCLINATIONS / HABITS: submissive  |  dominant  |  prefers to top  |  prefers to bottom  |  likes to switch  | heterosexual  |  gay |  lesbian  |  bisexual  |  asexual  |  pansexual  |  demisexual  | enjoys sex with men  |  enjoys sex with women  |  enjoys sex with genderfluid, agender, demigender, or nonbinary individuals |  enjoys sex with all genders regardless of identity  |  enjoys sex with multiple people at a time  |  initiates  |  waits for partner to initiate  |  spits  |  swallows  |  morning sex |  night sex  |  sex any time  | no sex drive  |  low sex drive  |  average sex drive  |  high sex drive  |  fluctuating sex drive
BODY & APPEARANCE: slender  build  |  medium  build  |  athletic  build  |  muscular build  |  curvy build  | voluptuous  |  chubby build  |  wears boxers  |  wears boxer briefs  |  wears lingerie | goes commando  |  shaves |  trims  |  waxes  |  does not shave  |  cup size a - c  |  cup size d - f  |  1 - 5 â in length  |  between  5 - 7 " in length  |  8 - 9 â in length  |  10 â or over in length
SOUNDS: silent  |  quiet  |  loud |  grows in volume over time  |  bites hand  |  bites partner  | bites pillow to muffle self  |  calls out partnerâs name  |  curses  |  fakes  | exaggerates  |  prefers a quiet partner  |  prefers a loud partner  |  prefers a partner who grows in volume over time  |  no volume preference  |  turned on by dirty talk  | turned off by dirty talk
TURN-ONS / KINKS: having their hands pinned  |  pinning partnerâs hands  | having own hair pulled  | pulling partnerâs hair  |  being watched (by their partner)  |  being watched (by a third party)  |  watching their partner  | receiving oral |  giving oral  |  giving praise  | receiving praise  |  biting or marking |  being bitten or marked  |  spanking  |  being spanked  |  teasing  |  being teased  |  having toys used on them |  using toys on their partner  |  giving anal  | receiving anal  |  choking  |  being choked  |  dirty talk  |  being tied up  |  tying partner up  |  being worshipped  |  worshipping partner  |  humiliating |  being  humiliated  |  degrading  |  being  degraded  |  knife play  |  blood play  |  gun  play  |  being  pegged  |  pegging partner  |  partner wearing lingerie  |  wearing lingerie |  whipping  |  being whipped  |  being edged |  edging  |  overstimulation  | anonymous  sex  |  clothed / partially clothed  |  deep - throating  |  nipple play  | public sex  |  sadism /masochism  |  size difference
PLACES: bedroom  |  shower  |  bath  |  pool  |  ocean  |  kitchen  |  home bathroom  |  public restroom  |  car  |  tent  |  alleyway  |  field  |  forest  |  empty or abandoned building  | library  |  rooftop  |  terrace  |  dressing  room  |  elevator  |  parking lot  |  museum  | cemetery  |  beach  |  closet  |  hospital
#headcanons#.nsfw#this has been sitting my drafts since forever#there's so many things whre i'm like idk man so i just did not bold it or anything#i'm just gonna say she's open-minded for now or that it's circumstantial#she likes biting tho or like she needs to keep her teeth (mouth) occupied ig#or sheâs just gonna whimper a lot and thatâs embarrassing smh#one day iâll write smut but for now iâm shy still#ig it's out in the world now byyye
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*"i can fix them"
*(they will make each other much, much worse)
#character dynamics#teehee#this one has been sitting in my drafts since forever idc im posting it#OVER A YEAR
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lake house bunny (jack hughes x bsf!reader)
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠ
summary: kinda love triangle (quinn hughes), bsfs to lovers, smut with plot, quinn's new gf tries to get under your skin by pushing you and jack tg, pining (from jack), reader uses the nickname 'bunny', trevor and cole are heavily incorporated in the plot (bc who doesn't love them) warnings!! NSFW, heated makeout, fingering, cursing, drinking, angst, use of the word 'slut', quinn being an asshole a/n: first time writing NSFW ahh! (pls don't judge if u think its bad. I tried.) this has been sitting in my drafts forever. this kinda fits in with the lake house gc (if you like this you should def read those in my master list) BUT it's not canon in the series. I tried my hardest to not make reader seem like a pick me girl but I fear she kind of is. let me preface by saying, I DO NOT CONDONE SLUT SHAMING!! just bc ur jealous doesn't mean you have a right to talk shit on the new girl. also, I can't stand people who hate on other people for 'being too nice' but reader DEFINITELY has her reasons to be suspicious. anyways, happy reading :) -mars wc: 9.6k
18+ content // minors dni
âThis is disgusting.â you sat on the boat, arms crossed next to Jack as you glared over at Quinn and his new girlfriend, Adelaide. He was driving the boat with her perched in his lap. Her hands wrapped around him, while he had one on the wheel with the other on her thigh. Your blood boiled at the sight. All you could think of was how much you longed to be the one wrapped around him like you used to.
âYeah, sheâs a slut.â Jack whispered into your ear, eliciting a soft laugh from you. You and Jack had always shared a close bond, one that felt especially strong in the lake house. He was your rock, the one person you could always rely on. Jack knew since you were kids how much you liked Quinn, and he couldnât help gaining a jealous eye when he saw the two of you together. You never knew how much he actually cared about you, as you were too wrapped up in trying to get Quinn to even just look at you. Since you were teenagers, itâs felt like a game. Quinn would give you the smallest amount of attention and flirtation, then he would ignore you. The cycle repeated throughout every summer at the lake house. You let your arms fall to your side, glancing over to Luke trying to surf the wakeboard as Trevor and Cole cheered him on. You turned your attention to your feet, trying not to look at the eye sore that sat at the wheel.
You sighed, glancing over to Jack who had moved his sunglasses to the top of his head. âYou know the worst part is, sheâs not a slut. Sheâs really nice and funny. I actually like her, and I want to hate her so bad.â Jack gave you an empathetic smile, and you couldnât help but gaze back at the couple. You rested your elbows on your knees, letting your face fall into your hands as you stared. Jack hated seeing you in this state, and he hated his brother more for making you feel like this. He didnât actually hate his brother, but he couldnât help but let his anger take over when Quinn was messing with you like this. Jack sighed, looking over to his brother who was laughing with Adelaide, probably about something that wasnât nearly as funny as the things you said. He looked back to you who had sad eyes as you watched the scene in front of you.Â
Jack huffed his breath, causing you to turn your attention towards him. âAre you okay?â you asked softly, noticing the tension in his jaw as he turned to you, worry evident in his eyes.
âYeah. Iâm fine,â he replied, but you could tell he was anything but. âYou shouldnât have to deal with this.â Jack decided to do exactly what Jack Hughes was expected to do in the moment of his best friendâs misery. In a sudden burst of determination, he leaned over and pulled you into his lap, wrapping his arms around you in one swift motion.
âJack, what are you doing?â You said with a soft smile, your body instinctively relaxing against him.
âLifting your spirits.â He smiled, placing one hand on your back and the other on your thigh to pull you in closer. You moved one of your arms around his neck, your free hand landing on his bicep, grazing his bare skin with your thumb. The simple touch sent shivers through his body as he tried to keep himself content. You moved your head to look over to Quinn, but Jack grabbed your chin, shifting your gaze back to himself. âDonât look at them. Look at me.â You graced him with a small half smile, as you leaned further into his touch. âPretend I just said something funny.â
You rolled your eyes, your tone flat as you spoke. âHaha, Jack! Youâre hilarious!â Jack cracked a smile and burst out laughing at your attempt to fake a laugh. Your laughs quickly went from fake to real in an instant. Jack blushed at the sound, pulling you in closer. The two of you carried on in conversation, laughing with each other, and you eventually found your head resting on his shoulder. You were being more touchy with him than normal, in an attempt to make Quinn jealous. Jack was fine with this, welcomed it even, but a part of him felt bad for playing into your vulnerability. While you were in the middle of animatedly telling Jack a story about work, Adelaideâs attention caught sight. She tilted her head and smiled, watching the two of you interact.
âTheyâre so cute together.â She remarked, drawing Quinnâs attention away from the water. He shifted his gaze, eyes darkening at the sight of you wrapped around his brother. He simply scoffed and returned his glare to the water, his grip on the steering wheel tightening. He didnât want to admit it, but he was jealous watching the two of you touch each other like that. He was so used to having you follow him around like a puppy, he didnât think about the consequences of bringing a girl to the lake house. He kept his eyes on the water trying his best not to look at the two of you, when he heard Adelaide's phone camera shutter.
âDid you just take a picture of them?â He asked, glancing over to her.
âYeah, itâs just a cute photo. Theyâll want it.â She brushed him off with her hand, pointing his sight back to the water.
âOkay. Just donât post it or share it anywhere. They like to keep their personal lives private.â She agreed and the two of them went back to cuddling in the captain's chair. You were too wrapped up in Jack to even notice Quinn and Adelaide anymore. The two of you were laughing about old times, squeezed into each other. You couldnât help but lean into the comfortable touch of Jack, who was holding you with such care. The way he rubbed his thumb against your skin and squeezed your thigh, made your body tingle in a way that it had never before. You and Jack were always touchy and affectionate with each other. Itâs the kind of friendship you had, but it was never like this. This felt like Jack was being possessive, and you wouldnât admit it, but you liked it. You noticed the way he would squeeze your thigh whenever he caught Quinn looking as if to say, âSheâs mine. You canât have her.â In his head, he thought no other man should be able to look at you on the boat like he did. He admired the way your skin shone from the sun under your baby blue bikini, the way your bun slightly tugged at your scalp when you laughed, and the way your cherry red lips smiled down at him when he said something cheeky. This beautifully painted picture was for him and him only. He wanted Quinn to know that. Even if he thought you were only doing this to get a rise out of Quinn, Jack looked at it as a distraction from the sadness of the situation for you. He felt a sense of protection over you from Quinn, being an audience member to your little routine every summer. He never wanted you to get hurt because even if he had deep feelings for you, you were still his best friend.Â
As the sun began to set, Quinn pulled the boat into the dock. He and Adelaide stepped off first, hand in hand, with Luke and Trevor following close behind. Cole walked over to you and Jack who had coincidentally fallen asleep on each other. His grip on your waist was still tight as you rested your head on his shoulder. His head had fallen onto yours, mouth parted slightly as the two of you slept peacefully. You were both rudely awakened by the sound of Cole clapping his hands together in front of your faces.
âRise and shine dickheads.â You slowly opened your eyes, blinking to adjust to the sudden light. Jack woke up beneath you, rubbing his eyes as he unwrapped his arms from around you. You quickly got back on your feet, Jack following behind you as you both lazily stepped off the boat. âGotta stay alive for the party, princess.â Cole placed his hands on your shoulders, guiding you off the dock. Jack walked closely, ready to snatch you away from Coleâs grip in a millisecond. He noticed the way you covered your arms with your hands as goosebumps grew across your body, without a thought behind his eyes he immediately handed you his warm shirt that had been drying under the sun for hours. You sent him a gratitude filled smile as you slipped on the shirt, feeling instantly warmer. Jack didnât stop there, he put his arm around your waist, pulling you close, subtly hinting to Cole that this wasnât a friendly touch anymore. Jack was actually trying to reel you in like he said heâd do years ago. The three of you broke off into your separate rooms to begin getting ready for the annual party thrown by Jack and Quinn. You were dreading the party this year, having to be crammed in the basement surrounded by Quinnâs teammates, you were just thankful that some of the Devils would be there too. As you stepped into the shower, you let the warm water entrap your body, washing away the weight of the day. You stayed still for a second just letting the shower pour down on you, grateful that your horrible boat ride had come to an end. Watching her and Quinn felt worse than actual torture. It wasnât even the fact that you had feelings for him, because if you were being honest they werenât extremely strong, it was the fact that he could be so loving and good to her and not you. For years Quinn has led you on and brought you down over and over again, and here he is playing wife and husband with some bunny he met on a roadie. I must be the problem, you thought to yourself, and unfortunately that idea would stick. You exited the shower, slipping a towel over your frame, leaving the bathroom quickly. You entered the bedroom only to see Adelaide sitting at the vanity curling her hair and doing her makeup. You had completely forgotten that you had to share a room with her this summer, considering Ellen and Jim wouldnât let couples share rooms in their lake house. It didnât matter if you were adults, the rules were if you arenât engaged or married, you canât sleep together.
âOh hey, Y/n!â She turned her attention from the mirror over to you in your towel. You simply waved to her wearing an awkward smile. She was really nice, almost too nice. âYou and Jack looked really cute on the boat today.âÂ
âThank you.â You mumbled, not knowing what else to say. You rushed to your dresser, pulling a pair of panties from the drawer before heading to the closet to grab your sundress. The silence was deafening and awkward. In her head, Adelaide wanted to talk to you, but she could sense your tenseness. You however, couldnât speak to her. You were afraid that you would talk too much and accidentally let too much slip about you and Quinn, or maybe she would start talking about how great he was. That was bound to bring you to tears. You decided at that moment to exit the room, feeling uncomfortable undressing in front of her. Sure, she was a girl, but you barely knew her, and the thought of her judging you made your whole body cringe. You left the room, wrapped in your towel, walking through the halls until you made your way to Jackâs room. You knocked on it twice before hearing a faint âCome in.â Pushing the door open, you found Jack, Cole, and Trevor sprawled out on the bed, their attention fixed on their phones. They were already dressed in their clothes for the party, and you couldnât help but notice how sharp Jack looked in his fitted white polo and jeans, his hair slightly tousled. You stomped over to the bed, tossing your clothes onto the floor before flopping down on the edge next to Coleâs feet, resting your head against Jackâs thigh.
âWhat's got you down, Bunny?â Trevor asked, tearing his gaze from his screen.
You sighed dramatically, covering your face with your hands. âI hate her.âÂ
âHate who?â Cole questioned, glancing over.
âQuinnyâs new girlfriend.â Jack said, running a hand over your wet hair. âYou donât hate her, B. You told me yourself.â
âUgh! But I want to!â You flopped your arms down in frustration. âItâs just so frustrating.â You sat up to face Jack, making sure your towel was securely wrapped around you. âDo you know how difficult it is to watch someone that's hurt you over and over again, treat some random person like sheâs his wife right in front of you?â
Jack laughed, pulling your towel up to your chest that had slightly fallen down. âCanât say that I have. Not the universal experience you think it is.â You rolled your eyes, pouting your lips slightly at Jackâs absence of understandment.
âYeah, why donât you go talk to Addy about it.â Trevor said her name mockingly which caused you to whip your head over to him.
âSay her name again.â You warned, squinting your eyes at him.
Trevorâs face flushed quickly as he tried to quickly pull himself from the situation âAddy.â He said normally.
âNuh uh. Thatâs not how you said it!â You shifted your body closer to Trevor, now invading his space. âYou donât like her!â Trevorâs eyes widened in fear.
âT-that's not true. I like everyone! Everyone is my friend.â He let out a nervous laugh before widening his eyes again at the sight of your stare. You stared at him intimidatingly with a small smile, knowing he would eventually crack. âFine! I donât like her!â Trevor buried his face in his hands.
âYes!â You exclaimed, throwing your arms up in triumph as groans emerged from Jack and Cole.
âGreat going, Trev. Told you not to say anything.â Cole smacked the side of Trevorâs head.
âYouâre just feeding into her delusions.â Jack huffed out.
âWell, you guys are both fine with her, I canât stand her! Apparently, Bunny canât either, so allies.â You gave Trevor a fist bump, earning more groans from the boys. âI-I canât help it! She cornered me and talked about her new Dior makeup set for like an hour!â
You gasped in disbelief âShe uses dior?â Trevor nodded his head with wide eyes. âThat rich skank!âÂ
âExactly! Then, she starts bragging to me about all the things Quinn buys her, like I'm supposed to be jealous. ME. TREVOR ZEGRAS.â
You let out a slight laugh, now lying against the headboard in between Trevor and Cole. âOh my god. She sucks.â
âNo, no, no, no.â Jack interjected. âBunny, Trevor is filling your head with garbage.â Jack scoffed, sending Trevor a glare before turning his attention back to you. âYouâre only saying this stuff because heâs giving you a reason. You know that when you start talking to her again, youâll forget this conversation ever happened and youâll be back to being sad because you like her so much.â You whipped your head back over to Jack, indignation written all over your face.
âYou called her a slut on the boat!â You pointed at him, gasps escaping from Trevor and Cole.
âWh- I Di- I was trying to make you feel better!â Jack whisper yelled. Cole shifted in his seat, becoming more interested in the conversation.
âJacky doesnât like her either!â Trevor began to laugh, causing a smug smile to wipe across your face. âAdmit it, Hughes. You donât like your big brotherâs âslutâ girlfriend.â Trevor let out, moving closer to you on the bed.
âShe just seemsâŠâ He sighed, trying to collect his thoughts. âToo good to be true. Like sheâs too nice.â You clapped your hands together in excitement, sitting up in your seat.
âThatâs exactly what I'm talking about! It seems fake!â You yelled.
Jack rolled his eyes, but couldnât help chuckling. âLike, I handed her a drink from the cooler and she said âThank you so much Jack! This is amazing. Youâre the best ever.â Who is that happy to drink a Whiteclaw?â He mocked her voice with a high-pitched tone.Â
âShe just seems too polished,â Trevor added, nodding his head. âLike sheâs trying to win the girlfriend of the year award.âÂ
Cole leaned back tossing a glance at you âYeah you wouldnât catch her dead hanging out with us on the bed in a towel.â You shifted from your position off the bed, signaling the boys to cover their eyes so you could get changed. You turned around, dropping the towel before putting on your dress.
âNo, I get it, Jack. She came up to me before we got on the boat, looked me up and down, and said âugh I wish I had your confidenceââ Several âooohâs and hisses from the teeth emerged from the boys. âI didnât think anything of it at the time, but looking back it was pretty backhanded.â You said, slipping the straps of your dress up to your shoulders.
âHow do I look?â You asked, spinning around as the boys uncovered their eyes, jaws dropping at the sight of you in your checker-patterned red dress. Trevor let out a low whistle as Cole clapped his hands in approval. Jack's gaze lingered over you for a moment longer. His eyes tracing up and down the dress that he had bought you last year on your birthday, wanting nothing more than to rip it off. You walked back over to the bed and Jack quickly sat up, taking the hem of your dress in his hand.
âYou look beautiful as always.â He sent you a smile that made your heart race in an instant. Cole and Trevor side exchanged knowing glances with a slight smirk at the interaction. You smiled down at him, ruffling his hair as your cheeks flushed.
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠ
An hour into the party, things were finally starting to settle in. You had taken shot after shot, doing your best to forget about the simmering situation in front of you. Quinn and Adelaide were sitting on the couch, arms wrapped around each other as they talked to Elias and Brock. That used to be you. You loved those guys and you missed talking to them, but they were Quinnâs friends, not yours. You were too drunk to even care when Luke pulled you away from your glare to a clearer area of the room. Everything was a blur. You were all smiles and laughs as Luke pulled you closer to him to dance to Pink Pony Club. You were on aux of course, the boys knew it was the only way you would have it. Luke had one hand on his beer and the other on yours as he spun you around. You laughed gracefully as you flopped against him while he jumped around. He set his beer on the table next to him, taking both your hands in his as he moved your arms back and forth. He stuck his tongue out as he jumped, moving closer as you laughed, leaning into him.
âHey! is that girl looking at us?â He yelled into your ear, picking his beer up from the table.
You looked over your shoulder to see a small brunette girl who was eyeing Luke as she took a sip of her drink.
âYeah.â You yelled back, a smile growing across your face at Lukeâs excitement. âGo get emâ Lukey!â You pushed him away, towards the girl. He immediately got flustered and whatever drunk confidence he had, had suddenly left his body entirely as he went to speak to her. You laughed at the interaction and made your way towards the kitchen, settling yourself next to Nico the moment you caught sight of him. You hopped onto the counter, Nico having to spot you with his hands as you stumbled. You grabbed the side of his head, pulling his ear close to your lips.
âGrab me another drink?â You asked loudly. Nico turned to face you, laughing at your eyes that were lazily falling closed.
He placed a hand on your shoulder, trying to give you some sense of reality. âHow about a water?â You grinned wide and nodded your head slowly at him. He smiled and walked off to get you a glass. You stayed on the counter, letting your gaze fall to Quinn and Adelaide yet again. They were standing in a circle, his arms wrapped around her as she chatted with Bella Boeser. You had always been good friends with Bella at social events like these. The two of you would manage to find each other and chat in a corner while Quinn and Brock were off entertaining their friends. It occurred to you in that moment, Bella hadnât come up to you at all tonight. She seemed much more interested in Adelaide and her attempts at kindness. You felt a wave of sadness wash over you as you realized that this girl was quite literally taking everyone from you.Â
âStop gawking over the Canucks.â Nico walked up, handing you the water before draping an arm around your shoulders. âBeing a Devils girl is way better.â You laughed at what you assumed to be an attempt at flirtation, but you were very wrong. âYou're lucky your boyfriend is on our team and not theirs.â You nearly spit out the water in your mouth, turning your head to Nico with a stern look.
âBoyfriend? W-what? I donât have one of those.â You said softly, worry filling your eyes.
âWait, wait what? You and Jack arenât-â
âNo, why would you think that?â You cut him off loudly, playing with your necklace anxiously. Nico looked at you with wide eyes, tilting his head to the side.
âUh- the post. I thought it was like a hard launch or something. Doesnât look too friendly to me.â He laughed. Your eyes grew wider in fear, your mouth parting slightly as your heart beat faster.
Your grip on your necklace tightened as fear struck through your entire body. âNico, w-what the hell are you talking about? What post?â Nico motioned towards your phone that sat on the counter next to you. You quickly picked it up, handing it over to him after unlocking it. Nico scrolled, and you bit your lip nervously, growing anxious to know what he was talking about. He handed the phone back to you, letting your eyes fall to a clear picture of you sitting on Jackâs lap laughing on the boat, his hands wrapped around your body. You stared down at the screen, heart racing as the realization sank in. The photo was up there for the world to see, one that you donât even remember taking. Jack's arms wrapped around you, looking too comfortable to be âjust friendsâ. You turned your attention to the top of the screen, seeing that it was Adelaide who posted the photo. Your blood boiled over your anxiety filled body, knowing that it was common knowledge that you and Jack preferred your personal lives to be private. âI-I-I gotta go. Thank you for the water.â You hopped off the counter, leaving your cup next to Nico. You quickly made your way through the swarm of people that filled the basement, looking for Jack. You pushed your way through the crowd, ignoring the curious stares and whispers. Your pulse was thundering through your ears as you made your way to the far side of the basement, where you last saw Jack. Finally, you spotted him leaning against the wall with Jesper and Curtis, laughing and entirely oblivious to the picture Adelaide posted.Â
âJackâ You called out, his smile faltering at the sight of your facial expression.
âWhat's up?â He asked, moving away from his friends to meet you halfway. You didnât waste any time. You grabbed his hand and dragged him up the stairs. He didnât know what was going on, but he could sense your worry so he followed you immediately. You made your way through the upstairs hall until you finally made it to his room. You pushed him inside, quickly shutting the door behind you.
âBunny, whatâs going on?â Holding up your phone, you shoved it into his hand so he could see Adelaideâs post. His face shifted through a range of emotions. Confusion, surprise, and finally a hint of frustration. He ran a hand through his hair, sighing deeply, as he planted himself on the edge of the bed. âAre you kidding me? She posted this?â He groaned.
You nodded, crossing your arms. âAnd now everyone is going to think weâre together. Nico already thought you were my boyfriend.â A hint of sadness behind your voice.
âThere is something wrong with that woman.â Jack huffed out, rubbing his neck. You sat down next to him, holding his arm and leaning your head on his shoulder. He leaned into your touch, placing his head on top of yours. âIâm so sorry. This wasnât supposed to happen.â Before you could respond, there was a knock on the door. The two of you turned and the door opened slightly before Trevor and Cole poked their heads inside, their faces a mix of curiosity and amusement.Â
âYou two good in here?â Trevor asked, eyebrows raised as he looked between the two of you.
âCan we get five minutes without the two of you barging in?â Jack rolled his eyes as Trevor and Cole settled themselves in the room, shutting the door behind them.
âFive minutes, huh? Thatâs all you need?â Cole grinned, leaning against the wall.
Jack groaned, throwing his hands up âSeriously, dude?â Trevor made his way over to Jack, leaning over his shoulder to see the phone. He squinted his eyes slightly, trying to get a better look.
You looked up at Trevor, letting go of Jackâs arm. His eyes were wide and his mouth gaped open as he looked at the phone. âHoly shit.â
âWhat? What is it?â Cole asked, pushing himself from the wall to get a good look. He took the phone from Jackâs hand, pulling it closer to his eyes. âOh my god. Did you even know she took this?â You shook your head, biting your lip ever so slightly. Jack huffed his breath, standing up to face Cole and Trevor.Â
âThis is bullshit.â He said, taking the phone from Coleâs hand. âIâm gonna talk to Quinn.â Jack started making his way to the door before you quickly stepped in front of him, placing a hand on his chest. You could feel his heavy breaths, the way his chest moved up and down in a pattern youâd never seen before.Â
âNo, wait,â You said, your voice quiet. âLet me talk to her first. Iâm sure she just didnât know, letâs not throw her under the bus.â You looked up at Jack with pleading eyes, taking your phone from his hand.Â
Behind you, Trevor crossed his arms as he shook his head. âDonât defend her-â
âIâm not defending her.â You cut him off, your voice raising slightly. âI-Iâm just saying, letâs not snitch. Let me talk to her, woman to woman. Iâm sure sheâll take it down.â Jack let out a heavy sigh, stepping back slightly to silently give you permission to talk to her. You nodded your head, glancing over to Trevor and Cole with a small smile before making your way out of the room. You didnât realize how drunk you truly were until you started making your way down the hall. The adrenaline of seeing the post had sobered you up, but only for a split second. You stumbled your way down the stairs, your grip on the railing firm as the room began to spin around you. You stood at the bottom step, scanning the basement for Adelaide. You finally found her standing by the kitchen counter, her blonde hair now tied in a low bun to reveal her gorgeous collarbone. You pouted slightly, seeing how perfect she looked knowing that you were a hot, drunk mess. You made your way towards her, repeating affirmations to yourself as you built up your confidence. When you reached her, a smile grew across her face almost immediately.Â
âHey, Y/n!â She exclaimed, her tone happy. âI havenât seen you all night.â You sent her a sheepish smile, anxiously playing with your necklace again.
You brushed a piece of hair behind your ear, trying to find that confidence you were meant to have. âI know! Itâs so crazy in here.â You let out a forced laugh, trying to hide your nervousness, which she mirrored quickly. âListen, I gotta talk to you about something.â She tilted her head, sending you a closed mouthed smile as she reached for her drink. She took a sip, silently waiting for you to speak. âThis umâŠthis picture you posted of me and Jack. I-I know you mean well, but we do like to keep that part of our lives private.â
Adelaide placed her drink on the counter, her eyes widening as she covered her mouth with her hand. âOh my! Iâm so sorry, I didnât know.â You let out a sigh of relief and a teeth-showing smile at her response.Â
âIt is totally fine.â You said, letting out a relieving laugh. âJust, with the media itâs kind of hard.â
She nodded her head, gracing you with a smile. âI totally understand that.â Your smile grew wider, wondering why this was so hard for you to do in the first place.
âYeah, so if you could just take it down-â
âOh, no.â She cut you off. Your smile quickly faded as you stared at her. Her fake smile still plastered on her face.Â
You let out a nervous laugh, gripping onto your necklace. âI-IâŠuh.â You paused, clearing your throat. âWhat?â
She picked her drink back up, raising her eyebrows. âIt looks good on my instagram. Plus, you and Jack look super cute. Donât stress it.â She laughed, letting her grin go wide. âThereâs so many pictures of you and Quinn on the internet, so whatâs one with Jack?â She shrugged her shoulders passive aggressively as she walked away into the crowd. You were left standing there in pure shock. Your mouth dropped, your arms falling limp to your side as you tried to process what just happened. The tension in your chest tightened as her words replayed in your mind. The dismissiveness, the fake sweetness masking her clear intentions, it hit you like a gut punch. You were rooted to your spot, staring at where sheâd disappeared in the crowd. Your fingers still toyed with your necklace, a nervous habit you couldnât seem to shake. She was jealous. Youâd never even thought of the idea that maybe Adelaide would be a little shaken up by staying in the house with her boyfriendâs childhood fling. You assumed Quinn kept his mouth shut about the two of you, considering he never cared about you that much. What did he tell her? What could he have possibly said to her that would make her want to put you and Jack on blast to the internet?Â
Suddenly, you felt a pair of hands land on your shoulders. âHowâd it go?â You heard Coleâs voice shout through your ear, but still not enough to knock you from your state. You couldnât even move to look at him, your gaze centered on the crowd.
âI-umâŠâ You cleared your throat. âShe said no.â You said flatly.Â
Cole moved his head closer to yours, glancing at you with a side eye. âNo?â You knocked yourself out of your daze, turning fully to face him.Â
âSheâs jealous.â You said quietly, leaning in closer so he could hear you. âSaid thereâs so many photos of me and Quinn, so why not have one with Jack.â Coleâs mouth gaped open in shock, no one expecting her to say no. He was speechless, unaware of what to say in this moment. Out of the corner of your eye, you spotted Jack walking closer, a stern expression on his face. You let out a sigh of defeat, waiting for him to walk over.
Jack could sense the tension as he stared between you and Cole. âWhat happened?â He asked, the sentence coming out more as a statement than a question. You crossed your arms, your fingers digging into your sides as you glanced at Cole. He still looked too stunned to speak, his mouth opening and closing like he was trying to find words that just wouldnât come. Jackâs gaze didnât waver from you, his brow furrowed in concern as he waited for your answer.
âShe said no,â You finally said, your voice flat and devoid of emotion. You clenched your jaw, betraying your anger that simmered just below the surface.Â
Jack blinked, his confusion quickly shifting to irritation. âShe what?â
âSheâs jealous.â Cole interrupted, his words finally making their way out. âSheâs using you to show people that Bunnyâs with you and not QuinnâŠI think?â Jack stared at you for a moment, processing what Cole just said. Then he muttered a curse under his breath, running a hand through his hair as he turned slightly away, his frustration evident in every movement. âUnbelievable.â
âHey, guys!â Quinn yelled from the couch, turning down the music. You clenched your jaw at the sound, watching Trevor walk up behind Cole. âCome over here with us.â You scanned the couch seeing Adelaide, Quinn, Brock, and Bella all squished onto the couch. Nico and Jesper sat next to each other on the floor while Elias sat across from them. Luke pranced his way to the big chair, pulling the brunette from earlier down with him. You bit the inside of your cheek, not knowing what to do at this moment.Â
âWhatâd I miss?â You heard Trevor whisper into Coleâs ear.Â
âNot good.â Cole mumbled back.
You jolted slightly at the feel of Jackâs hand intertwining with yours. He took a sip from his beer bottle before pulling you to the living area with him, Trevor and Cole following close behind. Everyone in the room had their gaze centered on the four of you as you silently made your way over. Quinn was staring especially hard at your hand intertwined with Jackâs. He let go of your hand to allow you to take your seat on the floor in between himself and Trevor. The room felt like it was holding its breath, everyoneâs gaze locked on you and Jack as you sat down. The tension was palpable, thick enough to cut with a knife. You couldnât help but notice the way Quinnâs jaw tightened, his hand resting on the back of the couch near Adelaide but clenched just enough to betray his irritation. Your eyes darted around the room, trying not to make eye contact with anyone as the anxiety rose through your body.Â
Quinn cleared his throat as he shifted in his seat. âWeâre gonna play truth or dare,â He said, causing Jackâs eyebrows to knot. âAddyâs idea.â You glanced over to Adelaide who sent you a shit eating grin, like she had you in this perfect trap designed specifically for you.Â
âIsnât this a kids game?â You said, taking a sip of Jackâs beer bottle.Â
Quinn scoffed, rolling his eyes slightly before looking back at you. âItâll be like old times.â You felt a lump in your throat as your heart dropped, but you were quick to swallow it down. Jackâs arm moved to cross behind your back, not quite making contact with your skin, but it was enough to make your heart race. Quinn went first, daring Brock to take three shots in under ten seconds which he failed miserably at. Brock asked Elias to tell the story of how he lost his virginity.
âI was fifteen, after a school dance in my car. It was terrible.âÂ
Elias asked Luke to tell the craziest story about Quinn in high school.
âWell when Bunny was sixteen-â
âHe said tell a story about Quinn, not Bunny.â Jack was quick to interrupt at your defense. Luke told a story about Quinn getting drunk and trying to climb up the house to his bedroom window. Luke then dared Trevor to let him draw a dick on his face, which Trevor was drunk enough to be excited about. You laughed hard when Trevor turned to face you, a realistic looking cock on his forehead with the cheesiest grin youâd ever seen. Trevor asked Cole to tell the room his celebrity crush.
âWeak question. Meryl Streep. Love a good gilf.â
âGross, Cole.â
Cole dared Nico to share his last google search with the group.
âNico Hischer sexy tweets? Thatâs insane.âÂ
Nico turned to Adelaide, who picked truth. He asked her what the most expensive gift Quinn had bought her was, and her eyes beamed like this was the question sheâd been dying to answer.Â
âProbably my Louboutins.âÂ
Your heart dropped when her gaze centered on you, a smug smile wiped across her face. You kept your expression stern, wanting to show her that you werenât intimidated.Â
âTruth or Dare?â She asked, a hint of aggressiveness behind her voice.
You took another sip of Jackâs beer, letting your legs come uncrossed as you leaned back on your hands. âDare.â Jack, Trevor, and Cole all let out small but noticeable sighs. They knew you only said dare because you were drunk and determined, and they all wished you would just keep your mouth shut at that moment.Â
Adelaide let out a soft laugh, like she had you exactly where she wanted. âI dare youâŠâ She paused, letting her words hang in the air knowing it would cause you more anxiety. âNo-â She said, causing your brows to furrow. âI dare you and Jack,â The words sent a shiver down your spine, knowing you couldnât back out. âTo go into the closet for seven minutes in heaven.â Jack groaned quietly as you bit the inside of your cheek. The circle boomed with laughs and whistles. Everyone had a smile plastered on their face except for you, Jack, Cole, Trevor, and shockingly Quinn. The laughter and whistles of the group felt deafening as Adelaideâs smug expression deepened. Jack shifted uncomfortably beside you, running a hand through his hair as his cheeks flushed.Â
You exhaled sharply, masking your nerves with a nonchalant shrug. âFine. Letâs get this over with.â Your voice was steady, but your heart was racing as you stood up. Jackâs eyes flickered to yours for a brief moment, searching your face for some kind of reassurance or escape. Finding none, he reluctantly stood too, stuffing his hands in his pockets.Â
âSeven minutes,â Adelaide chirped with a saccharine sweetness, glancing at her phone as she set the timer. âDonât keep us waiting.â The closet door swung open, and you stepped inside, Jack following closely behind. The space was tight, filled with jackets that smelled faintly of cologne and laundry detergent. The door clicked shut, plunging you into darkness save for a thin sliver of light from the bottom. Not being able to see in the darkness, you pulled out your phone.
âWhat are you doing?â Jack asked, his tone curious as his frame towered over you.
You bit your nails, opening up messages. âTexting the groupchat.â
You: okay itâs official i hate this bitch.
Cole: You should see the smile on her face rn
Trevor: Yeah she looks like pennywise kinda
You: just glad me and trevor were right for once đ„ł
Trevor: Me and Cole will try to brainstorm some good revenge plots
Cole: Yeah you guys just thug out your seven minutes
Trevor: In heaven
Jack: Fuck off Trevor.
You sighed, putting your phone in your pocket. The room was dark again as you and Jack stood, facing each other. The closet was tiny and you didnât realize how close the two of you were until you felt his breath on your forehead. It sent shivers down your spine almost immediately as you tried to keep yourself content. The tension in the closet was palpable as the soft sound of Jack shifting his weight echoed in the cramped space. You felt his hesitation as much as your own, the unspoken words swirling between you like a storm. His breath, warm and close, made your stomach twist in a way you couldnât quite decipher.Â
âI donât know what to doâŠâ You let out. âin this weird situation with her.â Jack let out a hard sigh, which you felt against your skin.Â
âJust- donât think about it.â He said gently, his hand hovering over yours. âUse this time as your distraction from the night.â He had fully enveloped your hand at this point, slowly moving closer towards you. You couldnât see, but his face was plastered with a bright red tint when you began rubbing circles against his hand. The sounds of laughter erupted from the living room, muffled but still noticeable. In just two seconds, all that noise faded into the background as you felt Jack squeeze your hand. You could feel the heat from his body as he moved closer, your chests almost clashing together.Â
âI-Is this weird?â You asked, your voice just barely above a whisper as you felt yourself gravitating towards him.
âIs what weird?â He mumbled. You felt your breath hitch as your faces now sat merely inches apart. You stood on your tiptoes, trying to get closer.Â
âThis.â You whispered, your lips so close to touching as Jack moved an unexpected hand to your waist, a touch that sent hard palpitations to your heart.Â
Jack let out another breath, his thumb now tracing circles against your hip. âDoes it feel right?â
You bit your bottom lip, shutting your eyes at the feeling of his voice vibrating against your face. âMhm,â You let out, nodding your head.Â
âThen, no. Itâs not weird.â He whispered, ghosting his words against your lips. The hand that was holding yours moved up to your face, cupping it gently. Your stomach twisted at the touch, gently leaning in closer. Your knees closed together, as if keeping them open would unleash every sexual feeling that had been building up for the past ten years. You felt your heart almost beat out of your chest as Jack finally closed the space between the two of you, placing a gentle kiss on your lips. It was hesitant at first, like he was waiting for your permission, but you quickly kissed him back, biting his bottom lip gently. Endless hours of flirtatious teasing, watching you swoon over Quinn, it all led up to this moment. The kiss quickly grew hungrier as Jackâs hands pulled you closer by your waist, tasting every lick of the satisfaction heâd yearned for all these years. Your hands moved to the back of his neck, letting your fingers explore his hair as he moved closer against you. The kiss was slow at first, but quickly intensified when you felt his tongue swipe your bottom lip. You opened your mouth, allowing his tongue to enter as he devoured every inch of you. He pushed you up against the wall, his pelvis absentmindedly grinding against you which caused a slight moan to escape from the back of your throat. You felt your stomach tingle as a flood rushed to your panties, moving your hands to grip his shirt. Jackâs lips moved in a way that was perfectly catered to you, like it was something you needed but never knew. His hands made their way up your body, one settling on your back to cradle you. His tongue pushed further into your mouth, almost reaching towards your throat. His other hand found its way to your thigh, slowly reaching up your dress to toy with the string of your underwear, twisting it with his finger against your skin. He pulled back only the slightest amount, his lips ghosting yours. âWe donât have to do anything you donât want to do.â He whispered against your lips, the feel of his breath causing you to shudder, growing hungrier by the second. You werenât thinking about Adelaide or Quinn, your mind was only on Jack and how bad you realized you wanted him.
âI need you.â You whispered back, your lips growing dry from his absence. âPlease,â Jack didnât waste any time before crashing his lips back onto yours, moving more intensely than before. The kisses became sloppy, like he was starving for this feeling his entire life. His fingers made their way down, just barely touching your folds through the fabric of your panties. You let out a heavy breath through the kiss, silently begging him to keep going as he teased you slightly. He bit down on your bottom lip as he moved the fabric to the side, revealing every inch of yourself. You whined slightly at his touch, finding yourself in this moment of vulnerability youâd never expected to have with Jack. His finger lightly brushed over your heat, testing the waters as you ran your hand through his hair to pull him closer.Â
âCan I-â
âYes, please.â You said eagerly before pulling his lips back onto yours. Jack moved his hands to the strings of your panties, slowly pulling them down to your shaking knees, not removing his lips from yours once. Your hand was now fully tangled in his hair, the other on his back to pull him closer. Jack wasted no time before allowing a finger to enter your cunt, feeling the wetness that was made just for him. You let out a soft, quiet whimper against his lips as he gently explored your walls. He pumped his finger in and out slowly, removing his lips from yours to plant kisses on your neck. You leaned your head back, breathing heavily as his thumb made contact with your clit. âJack,â You whispered. Never in your life did you expect to have any part of him inside of you, but now that you were here, you couldnât imagine your life without it.Â
âYou have no idea what this fuckinâ dress does to me.â He mumbled softly against your skin.
âFuck.â You let out quietly as he entered another finger, filling you in just the right way. Your fingers tugged at his hair, pulling him closer as his motions grew faster. Your legs locked around his fingers, his other hand finding its way under your dress to your breast. He continued pumping in and out of you, his thumb circling your clit as he reconnected his lips with yours. He felt your insides, like it was a forbidden place heâd been waiting so long to explore. His hand made its way under your bra, squeezing your breast gently. You tried to silence yourself, but it was becoming more and more difficult with every thrust of his fingers. You felt yourself reaching peak, which was shocking in such a small amount of time. Something about the way Jack moved around your body, touching every spot in the exact right spot. âIâm gonna come.â You whispered, pulling back slightly.Â
He grinned as he moved his mouth down to your collarbone, placing gentle kisses across your neckline. âLet go for me, bunny.â His motions intensified, your breaths growing heavier by the second. He nibbled slightly against your skin, but not enough to leave marks. You let out a quiet moan as you finally released your juices around his fingers, letting him ride you out until the end of your climax. Your chest rose and fell heavily as Jack removed his fingers, taking them to his mouth. Both of you wished you could see each otherâs faces at this moment, but the closet was pitch black. Years of suppressed feelings you didnât even know you had, all spilled out onto Jack Hughesâ fingers. He moved his hands down to your knees to pull up your panties, your hands still tangled in his hair. âYou alright?â He asked, his voice quiet but audible.
You removed your hands from his hair, letting your body fall back on the wall. Your breathing was still heavy, but you managed to speak. âYeah,â You whispered. âI-Iâm good- that wasâŠâ You paused for a second, your face quickly capturing a wide grin. âThat was amazing.â Jack let out a sigh of relief, a smile growing on his face as he leaned in to kiss you again. It was gentle, allowing it to last for only a few seconds.
He pulled back, his hand coming up to cradle your face. âListen, Bunny-â
âSeven minutes is up!â The door jolted open, causing you and Jack to quickly separate as Trevor stood in the doorway. He glanced between the two of you, a wide smile growing across his face as he took in the sight. You both looked rough, your hair messy, clothes not exactly straight. He let a small laugh escape his lips as he held the door open. âNo way.â Was all he said before Jack rolled his eyes, giving Trevor a hit to the shoulder as he made his way back to the living room. You stood there in shock, running a hand through your now frizzy hair as you looked at Trevor. âThat good, huh?â He asked, a sly grin across his face. You rolled your eyes, throwing your hair up into a ponytail as you made your way out of the closet.
âShut up, asshole.â You mumbled, causing a giggle to erupt from Trevor. Trevorâs laugh followed you as you stepped back into the circle, your cheeks burning under the weight of everyoneâs stares. You refused to meet Adelaideâs gaze, knowing her smug smile was probably plastered across her face. Instead, you focused on Jack, who had taken a seat on the couch and was pointedly scrolling through his phone, avoiding eye contact with anyone. You sighed, wanting him to look up for just one second, but his entire face was red and his lips were puffing out. âSo,â you broke the silence. âWho's next?âÂ
Quinn looked up at you, biting the inside of his cheek as Adelaide shifted her weight onto him. âIâm going to bed.â He said flatly before leaving his spot on the couch, Adelaide following close behind, giving you a wink before walking up the stairs. The tension in the air was thick as you took a seat next to Jack, his arm absentmindedly draping over your shoulders which caused your heart to drop. Cole and Trevor both had wide eyes, looking at you and Jack, then to each other. Little by little, everyone made their way out of the house, the party simmering down as you and Jack stayed in your own little world. He scrolled through his phone as your eyes grew tired, falling asleep against his body. Luke took his new âfriendâ up to his room by the end of the night, Bella and Brock left shortly after with Elias following behind, then finally Jesper and Nico passed out on the floor of the kitchen. It was just you, Jack, Cole, and Trevor left downstairs. The living room had quieted down to the faint hum of music playing in the background and the occasional clink of empty bottles being cleaned up. Jackâs arm remained draped over your shoulders, his phone still glowing in his hand as he scrolled absentmindedly. You felt his warmth against your side, your head resting against him as your eyelids grew heavier. Across the room, Trevor and Cole exchanged another round of wide-eyed glances, their smirks only growing. Trevor leaned closer to Cole and muttered something, and Cole stifled a laugh, though it wasnât quiet enough to go unnoticed.Â
âWhatâs so funny?â Jack asked, his voice calm but with a hint of annoyance as he finally glanced up from his phone.Â
âOh, nothing,â Trevor replied, feigning innocence, but his grin betrayed him. âJust⊠didnât expect you two to get so close tonight.âÂ
Jack rolled his eyes but didnât move his arm from around you, a fact that clearly wasnât lost on Trevor. âGrow up, Zegras.â
Trevor yawned dramatically, standing up and stretching. âWell, I think thatâs my cue to crash. Try not to do anything weird while Iâm asleep, you two.âÂ
âGo away, Trevor,â you muttered, leaning in closer to Jackâs side. His hand moved to your shoulder, stroking soothing circles with his thumb.
âYou wanna go to bed, Bunny?â He asked quietly, leaning his head against yours. You nodded your head slightly, sitting up to let Jack stand. Jack stood up, offering you a hand to help you off the couch. His movements were slow, almost hesitant, as if he didnât want to disturb the calm bubble the two of you had created. You took his hand, your legs a little wobbly from the unspoken moment in the closet as you followed him toward the stairs. Behind you, Cole gave a low whistle, and Trevor made a mockingly loud kissing sound. âGoodnight, children,â Jack deadpanned, throwing a pillow in their general direction without even turning around. You couldnât help but grin, shaking your head as you climbed the stairs behind Jack. Once you reached the hallway, the noise of Trevor and Coleâs laughter faded, leaving just the sound of your soft footsteps. Jack led you into his bedroom, shutting the door quietly behind him. Without you having to ask, he went to his dresser to pull out a Devils t-shirt and a pair of shorts for you to wear. You smiled at the gesture through your sleepy eyes, taking the clothes from his hand.Â
âI umâŠâ Jack paused, looking towards you as you held the clothes close. âI wanna talk about it.â He said quietly. You smiled at him, taking a seat at the edge of the bed. He followed close behind, sitting down next to you. His thigh brushed against yours as he looked into your eyes, taking your hand in his. âBunny, I-â He took a moment to gather his thoughts, letting out a sigh. âI care about you. Like, a lot.â Vulnerability wiped across his face as you sat next to him, brushing your thumb back and forth on his hand. Your heart skipped a beat at his words, the weight of his vulnerability washing over you. Jack wasnât someone who usually wore his emotions on his sleeve, and seeing him like this, nervous and sincere, made your chest tighten in the best way.
âI care about you too, Jack,â you said softly, your voice steady even though your heart felt like it was racing.Â
He let out a breath, like heâd been holding it since he started speaking. âI mean, I really care about you,â he clarified, his eyes locking onto yours. âItâs not just⊠I donât know how to explain it. Youâre not just my friend. Youâve never been just my friend.â The room felt impossibly small, the air between you charged with emotions neither of you had fully acknowledged until now. His hand tightened slightly around yours, like he was afraid you might pull away.Â
âJack,â you whispered, your voice barely audible. âWhy didnât you tell me sooner?âÂ
He let out a dry laugh, shaking his head. âBecause I didnât want to mess things up. Youâre my best friend, Bunny. And you always had this annoyingly huge crush on Quinn, which pissed me off more than it should because he just tore you down over and over again. if you didnât feel the same, I didnât want to ruin⊠this.â He gestured vaguely between the two of you, his cheeks tinged pink.Â
You smiled, your thumb continuing to brush against his hand. âYouâre an idiot, you know that?â His brows furrowed, and he opened his mouth to respond, but you didnât let him. Instead, you leaned in, closing the small gap between you and pressing your lips softly against his. Jack froze for a moment, his brain clearly trying to catch up with what was happening. But then his free hand came up to cup your cheek, pulling you closer as he kissed you back. It wasnât hurried or desperate like before, it was warm and gentle, filled with all the unspoken feelings heâd been holding onto for so long.Â
When you finally pulled away, his eyes searched yours, a mix of disbelief and relief written all over his face. âSo⊠does this mean you feel the same?âÂ
You laughed softly, resting your forehead against his. âWhat do you think, genius?â
Jackâs lips curved into a smile, his confidence returning now that the weight of uncertainty had lifted. âI think I shouldâve said something a long time ago.â
âWell,â you teased, your voice light, âbetter late than never.â
He chuckled, leaning back slightly but not letting go of your hand. âSo⊠are you still okay sharing the bed? Or should I take the couch now that this is out in the open?â
You rolled your eyes, standing up to change into the clothes heâd given you. âYouâre not going anywhere, Hughes.â Jack laughed quietly, lying back on the bed with his hands behind his head as he watched you.Â
âYes, maâam.â
As you climbed into bed next to him, he pulled you close, his arm wrapping around your waist. For the first time that night, the tension melted away, replaced by a sense of calm and certainty that you hadnât felt before. And as you drifted off to sleep in Jackâs arms, you couldnât help but think that maybe, just maybe, this was the start of something even better than you couldâve imagined.
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They're his children of course. Richard still recognizes them; it's only been two years.
And yet...
Peter is a man. Still six months shy of his draft papers, but he stands, walks, sounds like a man. He always has a pocket knife, he tips his hat to all the females, he sings in a baritone that will only get deeper and richer. The tea he makes is decent, but sometimes he drinks coffee now. He talks about horses and crops and reads Augustine. He can drive a car. He gives orders, and expects them to be followed.
They all look to him, to Peter. Helen calls him to open a jar, Susan questions how her hair looks, Lucy runs to him in tears. As for Edmund, he and Peter are curiously joined, they turn to each other with their laughter, their thoughts, their books and newspapers and letters. As often as his family swirls around him, Richard sees them swirl around Peter, a habit, he knows, born of necessity, but that doesn't prevent it from being strange. Even painful.
Peter moves to take the head of table, catches himself. They both start to say grace, stop, glance at each other. Peter takes the newspaper over breakfast, and is a page in before he remembers. And every time he apologises. Each time he smiles at his father, and it is warm, glad, even benevolent.
One of the first nights, shortly after Christmas, Peter finds him sitting in his old armchair, staring into the fire, after everyone else has gone up to bed. "Dad?" comes the question, and he looks up blinking at the tall man, lamplight crowning him in gold, blue eyes deep and dark with knowledge and certainty.
"I'm not who I was," Richard says, a confession, the kind a father shouldn't burden his son with he thinks immediately, but then Peter is down on one knee, reaching for the mangled hand, tender with the three fingers as he clasps strong calloused palms around them.
"Neither am I, Dad. None of us are." Peter's gaze is earnest, bright. "But you are still my father. And I will always be your son. I am forever grateful for that."
It is as if a great burden rolls off of his shoulders, and he finds no shame in leaning on Peter's hand to rise.
When the holidays end, and the four go back to school, Peter says I love you to each of them at the station.
If Peter is a man now, Susan is a lady.
She sits straight, she walks gracefully, she can cook anything as well or better than her mother. She reads the newspapers with Peter, she scolds Lucy for coming home with twigs in her hair and a tear in her stocking and wet shoes.
She talks less than her father remembers, and there is a woman's sadness in her gazing out the window or into the fire. She is also very admiring of the boys in uniforms, and Richard requests her arm on the way out of church with a father's righteous sense of protection.
But she is also gentler than he recalls, she does not shy away from his injured hand, she takes care of him without making him feel as if he needs care. She sits on a cushion by his feet as she braids her hair in the evenings, leans on his knee as she reads aloud, and Richard thinks, Not my little princess, but a queen now.
At the train station, she kisses him goodbye, and he hugs her close, and there are tears in her eyes as she says I love you.
Edmund is the closest to unrecognizable, the once-obvious four year span between he and Peter seemingly halved. He greets his father wordlessly, all shining eyes and bright smile, and his face is so close to Richard's own it makes his heart break a little.
Ed is no more little boy, he is tall, slim, oddly graceful, but his handclasp is strong. He holds himself the same way Peter does, with squared shoulders and lifted head, but he wears that nobility in a quieter fashion. He's quick to see, quick to hear, quick with a wisecrack that makes Peter laugh out loud. He plays the violin now. He returns the family Bible to the living room with an apology for having kept it since the summer holidays. He reads Agatha Christie as a personal challenge, whispers to Susan in French, and his chess games with Peter are fierce battles of strategy that Richard cannot keep pace with.
In discussions of the war and its movements, he is sober and considerate, he meets each of Peter's moods with a balancing counter, he has a way of phrasing questions that pull out stories Richard had never planned to tell.
A few nights before the children return to school, Richard sits up in bed, certain he has heard a faint cry, and he slips away from his exhausted wife to check on his children, remembering how Edmund had suffered from night terrors as a child, imagining little Lucy inflicted with some dark dream.
But all he finds is shadows in the boys' room, and quiet whispersâPeter's apologies, Edmund's reassurance, and allusions to things Richard has no context for. He lingers by the door, an outsider in his home, until silence falls, and he returns with morning light to find them curled together in Peter's bed, Pete with an arm over Ed, and the father's love is bittersweet.
They have fought their own battle over here, on the home ground, Richard reminds himself. In their own way they have each faced terror and learned to conquer or be conquered, but perhaps he can meet them somewhere in between. Only time will tell.
On the train platform, Ed hugs his father tightly, gives him a smile, tells him to keep out of trouble.
Lucy is the least changed, though she too is taller and stronger, and her eyes are deeper. She still sings, still dances, still tries to make friends with all the animals, still smiles and speaks kind and stares dreaming at the Christmas tree.
She still gives fierce hugs, still climbs into her father's lap, though her head comes up higher on his chest, on his shoulder.
But then he finds gaps in his library, and Lucy returns the medical books with a winsome apology, she asks questions about his practices in the field, she winces but does not shy away from the blood and broken things he speaks of.
Then she recites long poems, words spinning off her tongue until they become half song; she dances swift and graceful, she and Peter laughing and stepping and clapping and spinning in intricate patterns to the swing song on the radio; and it is she who, breathless, quotes Byron: "On with the dance! Let joy be unconfined!"
Her comfort is both generous and thoughtful, and she strokes her father's hair with a motherly hand that makes his eyes sting, and he kisses her fingers, looks up at her to whisper, "Don't- don't grow up quite so fast, my darling."
When she hugs him on the platform, Susan waiting for her, the boys already gone, she doesn't want to let go, and there are tears on her cheek, that he wipes away gently. "Be careful, Daddy," she whispers. "Get strong. Take care of Mummy."
"Yes, little mother," he smiles back.
And then they are all gone, and he takes a cab home, weary of his still-recovering body.
He will have to learn his children all over again, he thinks. But he is proud of them still. That has not changed.
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ââââ on your knees now
đđ synopsis. childhood frenemies w benefits w bladie (kinda)
đđ pairings. blade x gn!afab!reader (take this however you want. cuz this has pussy eating, you can imagine it as ass instead tho :P. + masturbation from blade' s side), !!nsfw content ahead!!
đđ director's notice. old draft on my old blog (plus rewrote a lot of the stuff) again lol
đđ word count. 800+ !!
blade who's so in love with you, he hates it so much. nothing he's more hungry for. all this time he's been so against you, especially when you both joined the stellaron hunters, his addiction to you got even worse
blade who spread the precum of his cock down onto its base, this hasn't felt more pleasureable. why does he feel like this .. thinking of you?
blade who can't help but let out small moans of your name, biting his shirt just to keep himself quiet, as he stroked his cock slowly, his movements only get faster when he can imagine you sliding down slowly onto his cock, only getting turned on more by his imagination
oh.. the sight of seeing your hole sink down onto his cock.. he gasped as he slowly stroked his length back up. blade whose cock feels so sensitive, thinking about you riding him so slowly and sensually.
ahh even right now, your legs spread wide open and thighs squeezing his face close to your scent. the way blade's lengthy tongue would kiss your velvety walls, you can't help but clench down on it.
even more so when he gets you to come over and over again, letting it all squirt on his tongue, gladly lapping up whatever he could get. blade eats you out like a starved man, one who hasn't ate in years.
letting you sit on his face, your hands in his hair as he only fastened his pace inside you. blade who just can't help but stroke his dick, watching your expression only turned him on all the more.
it's only when he finishes with you, warm semen landing on his own stomach as you came into his mouth. only now is when blade would hold you down with his calloused hands, your thighs in his hold, making sure you wouldn't get off just yet.. no he needed everything.
to put you into a mating press like this just after fulfilling another one of his fantasies shittt he was hard again. gladly pumping his dick down into you, the warm feeling on his cock felt great, and getting to see how good he made you feel, hearing every little sound, every little moan, every arch, every breathy whisper of his name, he felt like he could fuck you forever.
moon shaped marks left on your hips as he held you rough and close, blade couldn't help but lean down, and kiss you, but it was a lot more gentle and soft, in contrast to his unrestrained strikes to your stomach, the mark only getting clearer.
the bulge in your stomach could only worsen, as he whispered into your ear, lust clear in his tone, "so good right? so good you won't let anyone else fuck you like i do right?" blade's possessive side could only get gradually worse
blade who grinds into your g-spot, letting you see how good he treats you after what seems like your 5th climax, still so sensitive, you couldn't do anything but let out whimpers of pleasure,
blade who makes sure you look into the mirror in front of you both while sitting on the edge of the bed, one of his hand on your waist, and the other on your jaw, making you face your reflection
but blade who makes sure to hold your hand throughout everything because it's a habit he's had ever since you both were kids, even when you both hated each other, whenever other tried to hit on you, his hand was already intertwined with yours, and ready to defend you against the catcaller
blade's possessive side which wouldn't allow himself to let anyone else see you so vulnerable like this, but at the same time only got more turned on from the thought of fucking while on the astral express. or wherever you can imagine
blade who makes you sit on his face, knowing how stressed you must be after claiming another stellaron by his side. not even needing words, you already knew what he meant when he led you to another room
blade who loves to see the way you rock back and forth while you take it from behind, watching how he slowly sinks into you, only to quicken the pace right after observing such a sight.
but also blade's aftercare game is insanely good, i don't see him treating you bad at all. in fact is a lot more gentle, and talks in a softer tone while spooning you
blade's aftercare game so good he always makes sure that you're okay with what you both have been doing (i don't see any character in-game allowing non-con personally)
blade who still won't admit he loves you, but he does, and like the saying goes, actions speak louder than words.
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â° . college au, fem!reader, reader wheres a skirt, this is SO cliche, plot >.<, scara's a little bit of a biter, orgasm denial once, nipple play, semi-public(?), this has been in the drafts FOREVER and is also really fucking long
you and scaramouche played an innocent prank on a professor-- which led to you both being trapped in a small storage closet. since you'd both be in there for a while waiting for someone to come get you out, why not make it more enjoyable, right? . . .
RANDOM DISCLAMMERR!! this fic has been in the drafts probably like,, since i started writing- WHICH, isn't THAT long ago but my writing style has changed a lot since then. i don't hate this fic so I'm not gonna change anything I've already written, but the smut part is what i didn't get to writing so that part of this fic will be more similar to my current writing style!^_^
for whatever reason, you let scaramouche, aka your university's most notorious troublemaker, coax you into playing an innocent prank on one of the professors that no one liked, which put you in the situation you're in now.
you weren't really friends with him, so you had no idea why he was asking you of all people, but you figured that it wouldn't hurt to do something fun for once. everything went as planned, but there was an unexpected turn of events when you and scaramouche had to duck into a nearby storage closet to avoid being caught by the professor who was chasing you through the halls.
you both slammed the door shut while laughing but also trying to shush each other to avoid getting caught, and you decided to wait it out for a few minutes just so the professor wouldn't see you both and chase after you again. amidst your giggles and shushes, you hear a faint jingle, and you pass it off as nothing before you hear a click followed by that jingle once more. you looked up at scaramouche who also seemed to have heard the sounds, and you both fell silent while glancing between each other and the door.
swiftly, your hand moved to the doorknob and you tugged at it and attempted to turn it a few times-- but it wouldn't budge. you shifted your gaze from the door and back to scaramouche with an inward sigh. "bad news! we're locked in..." you said in a trying-to-be-optimistic tone.
he raised an eyebrow whilst his eyes slightly widened in disbelief. "seriously??" he replied. his hand moved to the door and he did the same thing you did, tugging and turning at the knob for a few seconds, to no avail. he sighed and pulled his phone from his pocket, opened it, and moved to sit in a chair that was sitting against the back wall of the closet. he took a few moments to type something up on his phone before looking back up at you. "i texted a friend for help. they should be here soon, k?"
you responded with a curt nod and rested your back on the wall behind you, shifting your attention to your phone and trying to find something to do to kill time.
you both waited in a somewhat comfortable silence, considering you were both occupied doing whatever on your phones as to not make anything awkward. though as time passed, each moment started to feel longer and longer. at some point, your phone was no longer keeping you occupied and you've resorted to looking around the small closet that seemed to continuously shrink the longer you were trapped in it. not only was your boredom reaching its peak, but with scaramouche occupying the only chair in the room, and there being no space to sit anywhere else, you began to grow restless from standing.
just as you were about to prop yourself up from the wall and attempt to relieve the growing discomfort in your legs by stretching or something, you hear Scaramouche begin to speak and you move your gaze to him. "don't you ever get tired of standing for that long?" he extended his hand toward you with his usual mischievous grin. "here, sit with me," he said.
you raised an eyebrow with a skeptical expression and confusion in your voice. "sit with you? where? there's nowhere to sit," you replied. you figured what he said must've been sarcastic, and that he was taunting you since he was the one sitting and you had to suffer while standing, so you rolled your eyes at him.
he let out a brief laugh at your response and inched his hand a little closer, that smug smirk and undertone of sudden anticipation still apparent on his face. "come on, of course there is!" he said.
you looked at him, retaining that skeptical look, and sighed. though you didn't entirely trust him since he was the one that got you both into this situation in the first place and he was also known for having tricks up his sleeve, you couldn't bear to stand for another second. hesitantly, you reached your hand towards the one he held out for you, and the moment your hands made contact, he swiftly pulled you towards him, making you fall on his lap with your back pressed to his chest.
when you realized what just happened, you hurriedly sat up, remaining on his lap but creating some distance between the two of you. You turned your head to look over your shoulder, and your eyes met his, followed by his cocky grin that seemed to have grown wider. You furrowed your eyebrows and silently thanked the archons that the room was just dark enough to where he couldn't see the faint pink tinting your cheeks. "seriously?!" you said.
he let out a curt laugh and spoke almost tauntingly. "better than standing though, right?" he teased.
you then realized that this was better than putting your legs through any more pain and you sighed, indicating that he was sort of right. "..i guess. just.. not really what i had in mind," you replied. he snickered and went back to whatever he was doing on his phone before, as did you.
minutes pass, and you slowly begin to realize that you still aren't comfortable. then again, you remind yourself that this is better than standing and you won't be truly comfortable until you're finally out of this cramped closet. but that doesn't stop you from slightly shifting on scaramouche's lap every so often to try and make the discomfort a little more bearable.
the way he quietly gasped, his cheeks grew a reddish pink tint, and the way his hand inched closer to gripping your waist every time you shifted went unnoticed by you until you shifted once more and unknowingly brushed the plush of your ass against the bulge forming in his pants, eliciting a sharp gasp from him and causing him to place a firm hold on your waist with a swift movement of his hand. "stop moving so much.." he muttered.
you looked over your shoulder to meet his gaze and he prayed that the darkness of the room hid his flustered expression from your view. "sorry..!" you said with a mixture of awkwardness and guilt on your face.
his hold on your waist loosened but he didn't entirely let go. He took a deep breath and diverted his eyes from yours "it's alright, just.. don't move so much," he replied.
you responded with a curt nod and turned your gaze back to whatever you were doing before. as the moments passed, you found it harder and harder to resist moving even just a little bit. although you didnât want to annoy scaramouche, you were so uncomfortable with the way you were sitting. you considered just getting up altogether and standing, but you didnât want to be rude since scaramouche was the one who offered you a seat in the first placeâ and you'd rather not have aching legs from standing uncomfortably.
after a few minutes of silently fighting back and forth with yourself on whether or not you should move, you inwardly sighed and decided to move just a little in hopes that it wouldnât be too much of a bother to him. in doing so, you heard a muffled groan from him and felt both of his hands steady at a firm grip on your waist.
he leaned forward, and you felt his hot breath fanning your ear as he spoke to you in a steely tone. "you really don't listen, do you?" he paused, a hand moving from your waist to trace gentle circles on your neck with his finger as he continued on, "then.. i guess I'll have to teach you how to."
you heard a low chuckle from him before he began to slowly drag his tongue from the bottom of your neck to the point where the tip of your earlobe met your jawline, gently kissing the spot where his tongue stopped afterward. shivers flew down your spine, and he hummed to himself, gently kissing the back of your earlobe before bringing his voice down to a low, daunting whisper. "i'm going to ruin you," he muttered.
your eyes widened and you swiftly turned your head around and raised your voice almost to a shout. "what are you--!!" but before you could finish, he placed a shushing finger over your mouth and spoke in between the kisses and gentle bites that he started to place all over your neck. "shhh," he began. "you wouldn't want anyone to hear us, right? hmm.. what would they think if they found us like this..?"
though you weren't looking at him, you could perfectly imagine the cunning smirk plastered across his face. his hands moved again, one stationed back to your waist, holding you in place while the other rested on your thigh, though slowly creeping up and moving toward the hem of your skirt while his fingers delicately tapped along your skin.
while his hand dipped under the fabric of your skirt and teased along your inner thighs, he started pressing slightly harsher bites on your neck, pinching your skin between his teeth hard enough to leave small red marks.
this was all too much. you were feeling so many different things all at once and everything scaramouche was doing was moving far too fast for you to process. your head spun as your hands clenched at your sides, and he was absolutely reveling in the power he held over you.
he pushed his hand forward, deftly dragging his fingers along your soaked panties, your breath hitching as he pressed against every little spot that made you want to squeeze your thighs shut. to prevent that, he placed a hand on your thigh and every time you tried to close your legs he'd just squeeze you harder, his nails digging into your plush skin.
his breath was hot and teasingly heavy against your ear, the feeling sending a shiver down your spine as he let out a mocking chuckle, "look at you. I've barely done anything yet," he teased.
you huffed. you couldn't tell if you were frustrated at how he was teasing you or because he was doing this in the first place, but either way, it did not matter-- it wasn't like he was going to stop any time soon. without warning, he pulled your panties to the side, not even bothering to pull them off before slowly slipping one finger past the entrance of your cunt.
slowly, very slowly, he moved his finger back and forth and back and forth, his pace painfully languid. he was teasing you, and you knew it. you couldn't deny that what he was doing excited you, but it wasn't enough. with furrowed brows and an expression akin to frustration, you bucked your hips forward in an attempt to gain friction-- but scaramouche was quick to put a stop to that. his free hand moved back to your waist, pulling you back against him and holding you still. "so impatient," he muttered before finally slipping another finger in.
you gasped feeling his second finger slip inside of you, though he still retained that same teasingly slow pace. as he worked his fingers in you, scissoring them back and forth and such, hushed moans and gasps spilled out of your mouth. though he, mere moments ago, told you to keep it down, he was a little dissatisfied with how quiet you were being. he leaned in, seductively whispering into your ear, "come on, pretty. i know you can give me more than that," he said before finally picking up the pace, moving his fingers a little faster just so he could hear more from you.
just as he'd hoped, your needy whines increased in pitch and you threw your head back, the back of your head resting on his shoulder as you arched your back forward. taking this opportunity, he bit down hard on a sensitive spot on your neck, and you yelped. he chuckled before resuming sloppy kisses all along your skin.
your face was flushed, hair disheveled, and you were panting heavily as his fingers speedily moved in and out of your dripping cunt. biting your lip, you tried to silence your moans, but he only increased his pace in response. your vision was splitting in twos, and you could swear you were seeing stars. nearing the edge, you found yourself caring less and less about the volume of the lewd noises that were leaving your mouth.
pure ecstasy was the only way you could describe what you were feeling in this very moment. a moaned whisper of his name spilled from your mouth, and just as the tightening knot in your stomach was about to snap, he suddenly came to a full stop, pulling his fingers out of you just before you came undone.
you whined in protest, looking back only to see him teasingly licking his fingers while eyeing you. slowly, he moved them into his mouth, sloppily licking all of your arousal off of them with his mouth open just wide enough for you to clearly see his tongue swirling around his slender fingers in delibaretly slow motions.
he slowly dragged his fingers out of his mouth, the tips of them still connected to his mouth by a string of saliva before he pulled them away. "like what you see?" he said. you huffed. despite such lewd situations, he could still be such a tease, and you disliked it. again, his lips moved back to your neck, licking and biting at the already red and purple marks all over your skin.
he moved his hands to where you couldn't see them, and behind you, you heard a zipper before feeling something long and hard pressing against your back. it took you a minute to realize exactly what that was, but by then it was too late. with both of his hands placing hold on your waist, he lifted you a little up and forward before bringing you back until you could feel his tip prodding at your hole.
you bit your lip, unsure if you guys should be doing something this sinful in a place like this, of all places. "waiâ hngh!!" before you could protest, he bucked his hips up and pulled you down onto his dick. he bottomed out in you so quickly, and you moaned, the feeling of being so damn full sending you reeling.
he lifted you up again, pulling out until just his tip was left in before slamming you back down, the way he so easily manhandled you knocking the wind out of your lungs. as he repeated his slow and harsh thrusts, you could hear husky groans spilling out of his mouth. "this, is what you get.." he trailed off, his nails digging into your waist as he tried to keep his composure, "..for being so.. disobedient...!"
your hand flew to your mouth, desperately trying to muffle the strident moans that you were letting out. in between your stringy whines, you tried to protest, "i'm a-ah..! 'sorry!!" after slamming into you once more, he suddenly stopped, leaning in, his voice dropping to a low, seductive whisper as he spoke. "oh, you're sorry, hm? does that mean you want me to stop?" frantically, you shook your head. your mind was spinning in so many directions, but if there was one thing you knew, it was that you definitely didn't want to stop now. besides, the two of you were already too far into it to just end it now.
"n..no!" you choked out. he chuckled, "good," he said before bringing your hips up once more and slamming you back down on his dick, groaning before he spoke again "that's what i thought." he picked up the pace, repeatedly bouncing you up and down on his cock with rapid motions-- quickly turning you into a moaning mess. moving one hand away from your waist, he lifted your shirt, your bouncing tits on full display for him.
he had one hand on your waist, and the other was groping and squeezing one of your boobs, pinching and rolling your sensitive nipple between his fingers while he feverishly bucked his hips forward. he began to place kisses from your shoulder blade all the way to your ear before teasingly whispering to you. "can you imagine if someone walked in at this very moment? what would they do if they saw you like this, hmm?" he said. you whined out in protest, too fucked out to even try and form coherent words, but he continued to toy with you. "well, judging by the way your pussy's clenching around me, id say you like the idea of being caught."
you shook your head, but you couldn't deny the thought of it did turn you on a little bit. though before you could think about it more, he suddenly lifted you off of him, standing you up as he stood up with you before pushing you forward, bending you over with your hands against the wall. you didn't know just how many more of sudden movements you could take, and you were about to question him before you felt his hands take firm hold on his waist and he thrusted into you again.
already, his thrusts were accelerated and a little erratic, his dick hitting you in spots so much deeper than before. you couldn't control your moans anymore, and you honestly didn't care who heard you at this point. by now, he had driven so many marks into your skin by how harshly he gripped you-- not that you minded. you were so close, and your head was absolutely spinning. your vision was going blurry, and you could hardly form a single coherent thought as you felt the tightening knot in your stomach about to snap.
with a desperate cry of his name, you finally came undone, spilling all over him and leaving a milky white ring at the base of his dick. clearly, that did something to him, as his thrusts got more erratic and you could feel his dick twitch inside of you. "ah, fuck," he muttered. he leaned forward, chest pressing against your back as he harshly snapped his hips forward with a speed that knocked the wind out of you.
shamelessly moaning into your ear, he let out a strained groan as he finally came, spilling ropes of his warm, sticky cum right into you. his thrusts slowly lost speed as he made sure to fuck his cum deep into you before he came to a full stop. he paused for a moment, catching his breath before you felt his dick soften and he pulled out and pulled his pants back on, a few drops of your mixed arousal dripping out of you and onto the floor. he grinned, satisfied at the sight.
your legs wobbled, and you practically collapsed, plopping down onto the floor and leaning your back against the wall with a flushed face and heavy panting. crouching down in front of you, he tilted his head to the side with a cocky grin on his face. leaning forward, he gently kissed your lips, his sudden tenderness a stark comparison to the coarseness of his previous actions. "well? aren't you going to join me?" he said. looking at him, your vision was blurring in and out and you raised a confused eyebrow at him. he did not wait for you to respond before grabbing you by the hand, standing you both up and walking toward the door.
still very confused, you followed him with your eyes as he reached into his pocket and pulled out... a key?? he brought it to the little keyhole on the door and, he unlocked it! your eyes widened, and suddenly everything was starting to make sense.
that cunning bastard.
#scaramouche#scara x reader#scaramouche x reader#smut#genshin smut#scaramouche smut#genshin impact#genshin#wanderer genshin#wanderer x reader#wanderer smut#scaramouche genshin impact#genshin impact scaramouche#wanderer genshin impact#genshin impact wanderer
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I donât usually talk about politics on here, if ever. But itâs been almost six months since the conflict in the Middle East flared up again, and Iâm finally ready to start. Here are some of my thoughts.
I say âflared upâ because this has happened before and itâll happen again. Because, even though what's currently going on is absolutely unprecedented, those of us who live in this part of the world are used to it. Let that sink in: we are used to this. And we shouldnât have to be.Â
But I use that term for another reason: I don't want to accidentally call it the wrong thing lest I come under fire for being a genocidal maniac or a terrorist or a propaganda machine, etc., etc.âso letâs just call it âthe warâ or âthe conflict.â Because thatâs what it is. Doesnât matter which side youâre on, who you love, or who you hate.Â
This post will, in all likelihood, sit in my drafts forever. If it does get posted, it certainly wonât be on my main, because I'm scared of being harassed (spoiler: she posted it on her main). I hate admitting that, but honestly? Iâm fucking terrified.Â
I also feel like in order for anything I say on here (i.e. the hellscape of the internet) to be taken seriously, I have to somehow prove that a) Iâm âeducatedâ enough to talk about the conflict, and b) that my opinion lines up with what has been deemed the correct one. So, tedious and unnecessary though it is, I will tell you about my experience, because I have a feeling most of the people reading this post are not nearly as close to whatâs happening as I am.
How do I explain where I live without actually explaining where I live? How do I say âI live in the Red Zone of international conflictsâ without saying what I actually think? How do I convey the fear that grips me when I try to decide between saying âI live in Palestineâ and âI live in Israelâ? I don't really know. But I do know that names are important. I also know that, due to the various clickbaity monikers ascribed to the conflict, it would probably just be easier to point to a map.Â
I haven't always lived in the Middle East. I've lived in various places along Americaâs east coast, and traveled all over the world. But in short, I now live somewhere inside the crudely-drawn purple circle.Â
If you know anything about these borders you probably blanched a bit in sympathy, or maybe condolence. But in truth, itâs a shockingly normal existence. I don't feel like I've lived through the shifting of international relations or a war or anything. I just kind of feel like I did when COVID hit, that dull sameness as I wondered if this would be the only world-altering event to shape my life, or if there would be more.Â
I've been told that, in order for my brain to process all the horrific details of the past six months, there needs to be some element of cognitive dissonanceâthat falling into a sort of dissociative mindset is the only way to not go insane under the weight of it all. I think in some ways thatâs true. I have been terrifyingly close to bus stop shootings when my commute wasnât over; I have felt my apartment building shake with the reverberations of a missile strike; I have spent hours in underground shelters waiting for air raid sirens to stop.Â
But. I have also gone grocery shopping, and skipped class, and stayed up too late watching TV, and fed the cats on the street corner, and cried over a boy, and got myself AirPods just because, and taken out the trash, and done laundry on a delicate cycle, and bought overpriced lattes one too many days a week. I have looked at pretty things and taken out my phone because, despite it all, I still think that life is too short not to freeze the small moments.Â
So I'd say, all things considered, I live an incredibly privileged lifeâcompared, of course, to those suffering in Gazaâone filled with sunsets and over-sweetened knafeh and every different color of sand. One that allows me to throw myself into a fandom-induced hyperfixation (or, alternatively, escape method) as I sit on the couch and crack open my laptop to write the next chapter of the fic I'm working on.Â
But there are bits of not-normalness that wheedle their way through the cracks. I pretend these moments are avoidable, even if theyâre not.Â
They look like this: reading the news and seeing another idiotic, careless choice on Netanyahuâs part and groaning into my morning coffee. Watching Palestinian and Jewish childrenâs needless suffering posted on Instagram reels and feeling helpless. Opening my Tumblr DMs to find a message telling me to exterminate myself for reblogging a post that only seems like itâs about the war if you squint and tilt your head sideways.Â
These moments look like all the tiny ways I am reminded that I'm living in a post-October seventh world, where hearing a car backfire makes me jump out of my skin and the sound of a suitcase on pavement makes me look up at the sky and search for the war planes. They look like the heavy grief that is, and also isnât, mine.Â
Here's the thing, though. I know youâre wondering when the ball will drop and my true opinion will be revealed. I know youâre waiting for me to reveal what demographic I'm a part of so that you, dear reader, can neatly slap a label on my head and sort me into some oversimplified category that lets you continue to think you understand this war.Â
No one wants to sit and ruminate on the difficult questions, the ones that make you wonder if maybe youâve been tinkered with by the propaganda machine, if you might need to go back on what youâve said or change your mind. We all strive for our perception of complicated issues to be a comfortable one.
But I know that no matter what I do, there will always be assumptions. So, while I shudder to reveal this information online, I think that maybe my most significant contribution to this meta-discussion spanning every facet of the internet is this:Â
I am a Jew.Â
Or, alternatively, I am: Jewish, ŚŚŚŚŚŚȘ, ÙÙÙÙÙŰŻÙÙÙÙ, etc. Point is, I come from Jews. And, like any given person, I am a product of generation after generation of love.Â
I'm not going to take time to explain my heritage to you, or to prove that before all the expulsions and pogroms, there was an origin point. If you donât believe that, perhaps itâs less of a factual problem and more of an âI donât give weight to the beliefs of indigenous peopleâ problem. But, in case you want to spend time uselessly refuting this tiny point in a larger argument, you can inspect the photos below (itâs just a small chunk of my DNA test results). Alternatively, you can remember that interrogating someone in an attempt to make their indigeneity match your arbitrary criteria is generally not seen as good manners.Â
Now, letâs go back to thathateful message (read: poorly disguised death threat) I received in my Tumblr DMs. I think it was like two or three weeks ago. I had recently gained a new follower whose blogâs primary focus was the fandom I contribute to, so I followed them back. I saw in my notes that they were going through my posts and liking themâas one does when gaining a new mutual. Yippee!Â
Then they sent me this:Â
I tried to explain that hate speech is not a way to go about participating in political discourse, but the person had already blocked me immediately after sending that message. Then, assured by the fact that I surely would never see them complaining about me on their blog (because, as I said, they blocked me), they posted a shouting rant accusing me of sympathizing with colonizing settlers and declaring me a âracist Zionist fuck.â Oh, the wonders of incognito tabs.
Where this person drew these conclusions after reading my (reblogged) post about antisemitismâŠ. I'm not actually sure. But I greatly sympathize with them, and hope that they werenât too personally offended by my desire to not die.Â
For a while I contemplated this experience in my righteous anger, and tried to figure out a way to message this person. I wanted to explain that a) seeing a post about being Jewish and choosing to harass the creator about Israel is literally the definition of antisemitism and b) that sending a hateful DM and refusing to be held accountable is just childish and immature. But I gave up soon afterâbecause, honestly, I knew it wasnât worth my effort or energy. And I knew that I wouldn't be able to change their mind.Â
But I still remember staring at that rather unfortunate meme, accompanied by an all-caps message demanding for me to Free Palestine, and thinking: the post didnât even have any buzzwords. I remember the swoop of dread and guilt and fear. I remember wondering why this kind of antisemitism felt worse, in that moment, than the kind that leaves bodies in its wake.Â
I remember thinking, I donât have the power to free anyone.
I remember thinking, Iâm so fucking tired.Â
And before you tell me that this conflict isnât about religionâlet me ask you some questions. Why is it that Israel is even called Israel? (Hereâs why.) Why do Jews even want it? (Hereâs why.) But also, if you actually read the charters of Islamist terrorist organizations like ISIS, Hamas, and Hezbollah (among others), they equate the modern state of Israel with the Jewish people, and they use the two entities interchangeably. So of course this conflict is religious. Itâs never been anything but that.
But I do wonder, when faced with those who deny this fact: how do I prove, through an endless slew of what-about-isms and victim blaming, that I too am hurting? How do I show that empathy is dialectical, that I can care deeply for Palestinians and Gazans while also grieving my own people?Â
There's this thing that humans do, when weâre frustrated about politics and need to howl our opinions about it into the void until we feel better. We find like-minded souls, usually our friends and neighbors, and fret about the state of the world to each other until weâve gone around in a satisfactory amount of circles. But these conversations never truly accomplish anything. Theyâre just a substitute, a stand-in catharsis, for what we really wish we could do: find someone who embodies the spirit of every Jew-hating internet troll, every ignorant justifier of terrorism, and scream ourselves hoarse at them until we change their mind.
But, of course, minds cannot be changed when they are determined to live in a state of irrational dislike. In Judaism, this way of thinking has a name: Ś©Ś ŚŚȘ ŚŚŚ Ś (sinat hinam), or baseless hatred. It's a parasite with no definite cure, and it makes people bend over backwards to justify things like the massacre on October seventh, simply because the blame always needs to be placed on the Jews.Â
So when a Jew is faced with this unsolvable problem, there is only one response to be had, only one feeling to be felt: anger. And we are angry. Carrying around rage with nowhere to put it is exhausting. It's like a weight at the base of our neck that pushes down on our spine, bending it until we will inevitably snap under the pressure. Iâm still waiting to break, even now.
I wish I could explain to someone who needs to hear it that terrorism against Israelis happens every single day here, and that we are never more than one degree of separation away from the brutal slaughter of a friend, lover, parent, sibling. I wish it would be enough to say that the majority of Israelis (which includes Arab-Israeli citizens who have the exact same rights as Jewish-Israelis) wish for peace every day without ever having seen what it looks like.Â
I wish I could show the world that Israel was founded as a socialist state, that it was built on communal values and born from a cluster of kibbutzim (small farming communities based on collective responsibility), and that what it is now isnât what its people stand for.Â
I wish the world could open their eyes to what we Israelis have seen since the beginning: that Hamas is the enemy, Hamas is the one starving Palestinians and denying them aid, Hamas is the one who keeps rejecting ceasefire terms and denying their citizens basic human rights. Hamas is the governing body of Gaza, not Israel. Hamas is responsible for the wellbeing of the Palestinian people. And Hamas are the ones who are more determined to murder Jewsâover and over and over again, in the most animalistic ways possibleâthan to look inwards and see the suffering theyâve inflicted on their own people. I wish it was easier to see that.
But the wishing, the asking how can people be so blind, is never enough. I can never just say, I promise I don't want war.Â
When I bear witness to this baseless hatred, I think of the victims of October seventh. I think of the women and girls who were raped and then murdered, forever unable to tell their stories. I think of the hostages, trapped underneath Gaza in dark tunnels, wondering if anyone will come for them. I think of Ori Ansbacher, of Ezra Schwartz, of Eyal, Gilad, and Naftali, of Lucy, Rina, and Maia Dee, of the Paley boys, of Ari Fuld and of Nachshon Wachsman. I think of all the innocent blood spilled because of terror-fueled hatred and the virus of antisemitism. I think of all the thousands of people who were brutally murdered in Israel, Jews and Muslims and Christians and humans, who will never see peace.
My ties to this land are knotted a thousand times over. Even when I leave, a part of me is left behind, waiting for me to claim it when I return. But when I see the grit it takes to live through this pain, when I see the suffering that paints the world the color of blood, I look to the heavens and I wonder why.Â
I ask God: is it worth all this? He doesn't answer. So I am the one, in the end, to answer my own question. I say, it has to be.Â
Feel free to send any genuine, respectful, and clarifying questions you may have to my inbox!
EDIT: just coming on here to say that I'm really touched & grateful for the love on this post. When I wrote it, I felt hopeless; I logged off of Tumblr for Shabbat, dreading the moment I would turn off my phone to find more hate in my inbox. Granted, I did find some, and responding to it was exhausting, but it wasnât all hate. I read every kind reblog and comment, and the love was so much louder. Thank you, thank you, thank you. đ€
Source Reading
The Whispered in Gaza Project by The Center for Peace Communications
Why Jews Cannot Stop Shaking Right Now by Dara Horn
Hamas Kidnapped My Father for Refusing to Be Their Puppet by Ala Mohammed Mushtaha
I Hope Someone Somewhere Is Being Kind to My Boy by Rachel Goldberg
The Struggle for Black Freedom Has Nothing to Do with Israel by Coleman Hughes
Israel Can Defend Itself and Uphold Its Values by The New York Times Editorial Board
There Is a Jewish Hope for Palestinian Liberation. It Must Survive by Peter Beinart
The Long Wait of the Hostagesâ Families by Ruth Margalit
âBy Any Means Necessaryâ: Hamas, Iran, and the Left by Armin Navabi
When People Tell You Who They Are, Believe Them by Bari Weiss
Hunger in Gaza: Blame Hamas, Not Israel by Yvette Miller
Benjamin Netanyahu Is Israelâs Worst Prime Minister Ever by Anshel Pfeffer
What Palestinians Really Think of Hamas by Amaney A. Jamal and Michael Robbins
The Decolonization Narrative Is Dangerous and False by Simon Sebag Montefiore
Understanding Hamasâs Genocidal Ideology by Bruce Hoffman
The Wisdom of Hamas by Matti Friedman
How the UN Discriminates Against Israel by Dina Rovner
This Muslim Israeli Woman Is the Future of the Middle East by The Free Press
Why Are Feminists Silent on Rape and Murder? by Bari Weiss
#palestine#israel hamas war#israel hamas conflict#hamas#on war#essay writing#personal essay#rant post#stop terrorism#israel#writing#palestinian lives matter#jewish lives matter#jewish and proud#jewish identity#jewish muslim solidarity#on grief#on religion#antisemitism#anti zionisim#purim 2024#chag purim sameach#judaism#israeli palestinian conflict#am yisrael chai#kvetching#jumblr#the post that turned my blog into an anti-antisemitism blog
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[Captano X Fem!Reader]
Theme: You are the reincarnation of his beloved.
A/N: This is one of my favorite sketches from the drafts. Because that's why I also created this bot in Character.AI. If anyone needs it, I can give a link
How many years ago Capitano lost his lover? He's don't know. It has been 500 years since the Khae'nriah Disaster. They were once a happy family until this happened. After this, he joined Fatui, abandoning his past.
Present tense
The tall figure of the first Harbinger moved along the snowy streets of Snezhnaya. One could say he was walking aimlessly, just strolling in the cold, even though the unusual stone was trying to warm the populated areas of the region.
His memories were flooded back to his past lover. "Damn, again" the 1st Harbinger thought to himself. No, he loved her, but he decided to give up his past forever because it constantly caused him pain.
Looking around, he realized that he had wandered into the Snezhnaya area, which was populated by various small shops and services for people such as coffee shops and snack bars. After thinking for a while, he decided to go into a coffee shop to buy himself some coffee.
Having chosen one of the coffee shops, he walked inside, his arrival announced by a bell above the door. The atmosphere in the cafe seemed cozy and quite pleasant. Several people were sitting in the hall, but they immediately tensed up when they noticed such an influential person. Capitano, for his part, simply rolled his eyes under his helmet and walked up to the counter where the barista stood. But as soon as he looked at her, he fell into a stupor, although because of the helmet it was not particularly noticeable to those around him. In a way, he was grateful for the mask on his head. He studied the barista again with his eyes.
"this can't be.." - he muttered quietly to himself
The barista was an exact copy of his lover from 500 years ago. Same hair and eye color, same face shape and nose.
""It can't be..." - he muttered again, still with the same complete disbelief, but then decided to pull himself together. - "Lungo, no sugar."
#capitano#genshin impact#fatui harbingers#fatui x reader#il capitano#capitano x reader#capitano x you#khaenriah
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âAre You Confident?â
fwb!Jungkook x Plus Size Reader
Summary: The one where you get fed up with Jungkookâs teasing and decide to take him up on his offer.
Word Count: just under 1.7k
Warnings: +18 mdni, smut. oral(m. receiving), swearing, Jk starts out fuckboy-ish but turns subby, slight dom reader, readerâs referred to as Noona, not proofread
A/N: This idea has been sitting in my drafts since early December, but I finally managed to finish part one! This is sort of a prequel to this drabble, so if you can read it too if you liked this one. Iâll also be posting part two and a masterlist(hopefully)later this week, so lmk what you think!
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If you had to choose a favorite place in the whole world, you would choose Jungkookâs apartment without a thought. Not your own apartment, not you favorite shop, not even the dream vacation youâd been planning and saving up for forever, just being tucked into the corner of Jungkookâs couch, Bam curled up next to you, his massive head resting in your lap, subtly begging for pets as you vented to his owner about your most recent dating fiasco.
The guy one of your friends had set you up with had seemed nice enough at first, but as dinner progressed, things had progressively gone downhill.
âDid he least pay for dinner?â Jungkook asked, sprawled on the opposite end of the couch.
âIâd assume so, I walked out before the bill even came.â You replied, taking a long drink from your glass.
âWhy do you even bother with dating anyway? You said before you hated it.â He asked.
âIâve told you, Iâm⊠lonely.â You said pointedly, avoiding his eyes.
He squinted at you, understanding suddenly flashing across his face.
âAh, so you just need to get laid?â He asked, sitting back with a smirk as your face flushed with color. âWhy didnât you just say so? I could help you with that.â
âUgh, shut up.â You groaned, getting up and heading to the kitchen.
âIâm serious.â He said, following you. âItâs better than fucking some random asshole.â
This type of conversation was a recurring thing in your friendship. Jungkook loved to tease you, and with a relationship that had grown as close as yours had, he had plenty of opportunities.
Your friends often joked that the two of you should just date already with the way you acted with each other, often toeing the line between what was typically considered okay for âjust friendsâ. Youâd slept in the same bed more times than you could count(a fact that had made Taehyung nearly choke on his drink when heâd found out), youâd even kissed at his friend's New Years Eve party after a few too many drinks and a similar conversation to the one you were currently having, lamenting about not having someone to kiss at midnight.
You didnât know what had possessed you to do it, all you could remember was hearing the countdown and leaning in, connecting your lips with his for the briefest moment, only for him to quickly chase after yours when you had started to pull away.
Neither of you had brought it up afterwards, but the memory of it was permanently seared into your mind; the feel of his lips moving against yours, the way his hands had gently gripped your waist-
You shook your head, redirecting your attention back to the current moment, trying to ignore Jungkook as he leaned against the counter next to you.
âLook, if you donât want to, thatâs totally fine, Iâm just offering a possible solution to your problem,â He said, shrugging as he grinned at you. âYou know, if youâre really desperate.â
You scoffed. âYouâre one to talk. When's the last time you even went on a date again?â
Your words had the desired effect on him, turning his expression sour.
âThatâs different, Iâve been⊠busy.â He said grudgingly.
âUh-huh, sure.â You grinned triumphantly.
âI mean it though,â He said. âIf thatâs really all youâre after, Iâd be glad to help.â
You blinked at him in disbelief. âSeriously?â
âYeah,â He shrugged. âI mean, like you said, itâs not like I've got anything going either. It doesnât have to be a big deal, just two friends helping each other out.â
âThat is, if you think you can handle me.â He added with a smirk.
You rolled your eyes, letting out an irritated laugh. âPlease, I could handle you.â
âAre you confident?â He asked, quirking a brow at you.
âYes.â You answered immediately, catching both him and yourself off guard as you stared him down.
Your words werenât entirely true, you werenât all that confident when it came to things like this, but Jungkook had a way of triggering your stubborn streak, whether it was with that cocky smile he always threw your way or the domineering tone he like to tease you with, something about him made you suddenly brave and willing to challenge anything he said.
Normally, that was part of what made your friendship fun, the two of you constantly bickering and at odds with each other, but this was much different than arguing over where to get dinner or what to watch on tv.
You were chest to chest now, able to feel his heart pounding surprisingly fast as he stared down at you.
âProve it.â He said, his tone having lost its teasing edge as his gaze flickered between your eyes and your mouth.
That was all it took to make you break.
You closed the gap between the two of you, pushing him back against the wall as your lips clashed.
This wasnât at all like the first time youâd kissed, there was no hesitancy or tender playfulness, it was hot and rushed and needy, full of tongue and teeth.
You were aware of a voice in the back of your head frantically screaming at you, something about how this was terrible idea and could ruin things between you and Jungkook completely, but you really couldnât bring yourself to care as his warm hands found your waist, pulling you flush against him as his tongue fought with yours for dominance. He tasted sharp and sweet like the wine you had brought, his skin hot under your fingertips as your hands slipped from his shoulders to tangle in his hair, tugging lightly at the strands and earning a low grunt from him.
His grip on your hips tightened before sliding down to grope your ass, grinding you against the growing bulge in his pants.
A surprised squeak left you, making him chuckle against your lips as you mentally cursed yourself. You were not about to let him have the upper hand, not this quickly.
You slipped a hand down between you to palm him over his pants, squeezing just enough to cause what sounded very much like a moan to you to release from his throat, though you knew heâd tried to deny it.
Just as suddenly as youâd begun, you pulled away, making his eyes snap open in confusion.
âWhat are you-?â He panted, stopping in shock as you dropped to your knees in front of him.
âIâm helping you out.â You said simply, undoing his belt as you looked up at him with doe eyes. âIs that okay?â
He nodded, breathing unsteadily.
âI need words, Sweetie.â You said, making him flush at the petname as you fiddled with his zipper. âI canât give you what you want if you donât tell me.â
âI want it,â He quickly blurted, giving up control with surprising ease as he stared down at you, eyes black with need. âI-I want your mouth, please.â
âGood boy.â You tugged his jeans down, revealing the prominent tent in his boxers, a small wet patch on the material showing just how eager he was.
âThese are cute.â You commented, toying with the waistband before letting it snap back against his skin, making him jump slightly. âPurple looks good on you.â
âNoona, please.â He whined in frustration, his head falling back against the wall as his hips twitched forward involuntarily.
âFine, since youâre asking so politely.â You pulled his boxers down, letting his cock spring free, hanging heavy in front of your face.
He was slightly bigger than you expected, the tip flushed deep red and leaking precum as you took him in your hand, making him shudder.
âMm, shouldâve known, even your cockâs pretty.â You mused, leaning in to give it a cursory lick, sucking the tip into your mouth for a moment before pulling back, leaving a few kisses along the underside of his length as you glanced up at him to gauge his reaction.
He was staring down at you slack-jawed, his breaths coming out in uneven pants as you pumped him with your hand.
He already looked slightly fucked out and youâd barely done anything to him yet, giving you a massive surge of confidence as you held eye contact with him, gathering as much spit as you could in your mouth before letting it dribble down over his twitching length.
âFuck.â He muttered under his breath, squiming slightly.
Still holding his gaze, you took him fully into your mouth, sinking down as far as you could go.
âFuck!â He gasped, his head falling back against the wall with a thump as you pulled back, swirling your tongue around him teasingly before sinking down again, letting him hit the back of your throat and holding him there for a moment before pulling off.
You quickly found your rhythm, bobbing your head up and down on him and using your hands on what wouldnât fit in your mouth.
He let out a low whine, fists clenched so tight against his thighs his knuckles had gone white.
Noticing this, you used your free hand to guide his to your head, letting him tangle his fingers in your hair and giving him something to ground himself with.
All too soon, you felt him beginning to tense, his grip on your head tightening as his thighs started to shake.
âFuck, âm gonna cum.â He whimpered. âWhere do you want me to-?â
You only answer to him taking him and deeper and swallowing around him, making him cry out as his hip bucked forward, fucking your face as he chased his release.
âShit, Y/n, I-â His words were choked off with a groan as he came, cumming down your throat in hot spurts.
He slumped back against the wall, breathing hard as you slowly pulled off of him, making a point to meet his eyes again as you swallowed.
âShit, Y/n,â He said weakly as you stood back up. âThat was-â
You cut him off with another kiss, feeling him twitch against your leg as he tasted himself on your tongue.
âIâm not done with you yet.â
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BTS REACTIONS: YOU HAVE A TOXIC BEST FRIEND
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â A/N: Hey guys! This is my first time uploading in forever. I already had a prologue of a series here I was planning on writing but got caught up in life (Iâm still caught lol) but writing has always been my passion and this is my way of distressing. Although I canât focus on writing the series right now, I thought I could start uploading little reactions or drabbles that have been sitting in my drafts unfinished for a long time! Any feedback or suggestions is appreciated :) although go easy on me Iâm trying my best XD
â English is not my first language so I apologise in advance for any mistakes or typos!
àšâĄà§ KIM SEOKJIN àšâĄà§
It was a calm and clear night. You had planned to meet up with your friends for a night out and were undeniably excited as you bounced around your apartment getting ready. It had been forever since you last hung out with the girls as everyone got caught up and busy with life. This whole thing was planned by your best friend so everyone could meet up and destress while enjoying some gossip.
Seokjin smiled to himself as he sat on the bed watching you apply the last of your makeup. He couldn't deny the fact that you looked incredible in your outfit. A simple black short, tight and long sleeved dress reaching you mid thigh paired with stockings and platform knee length boots.
It was a simple combination but Jin loved it. He got up from the bed and made his way towards you, standing in front of the dresser. He would usually take this time to annoy you by making dad jokes but he felt particularly worn out today from the harsh dance practice. He wanted nothing more than to cuddle with you but he understood how much you were looking forward to this meet up and said nothing, instead opting to hug you as he wrapped his arms around your waist and buried his face in your neck.
"Have fun and be careful jagi" he whispered to you slowly. "You don't have to worry Jin, all the girls will be there. Why don't you put on one of my face masks and destress playing a game while I'm gone" You suggest as you run your hand through his hair.
Jin chuckled softly at your suggestion, his breath warm against your neck. "That actually sounds like a good plan," he murmured, reluctantly pulling away to look at you. His eyes were full of warmth and admiration. "You look stunning, by the way."
You smiled, feeling a rush of affection for him. "Thanks, Jin. I'll be back before you know it." After a final quick kiss, you grabbed your coat and headed out the door, excitement bubbling inside you. The night air was crisp, and the city lights twinkled as you made your way to the meeting spot. The bar was lively with chatter and laughter when you arrived. You spotted your friends at a corner table, waving enthusiastically. As you joined them, the evening quickly filled with animated conversations and catching up on each other's lives.
Midway through the evening, the topic shifted to hr es and interests. Your best friend, who had always teased you about your love for a particular TV series, couldn't resist making a comment. "Oh, and how's your little obsession going?" she said, a smirk on her face.
You felt a familiar twinge of embarrassment as the others laughed lightly. Before you could respond, Jin's words from an old discussion echoed in your mind that you shouldnât feel ashamed of your interests. You took a deep breath and tried to stand your ground. "It's going great, actually. I even got Jin hooked on it. We've been binge-watching it together."
Your best friend seemed slightly taken aback but quickly recovered. "Well, I guess if Jin likes it, it can't be that bad," she said, a hint of reluctance in her voice.
The conversation continued, but the initial comment had left you feeling unsettled. Despite your efforts to stay engaged, the teasing from your best friend didn't stop, and soon, her laughter felt more like mocking that made even your other friends uncomfortable. The hurtful comments began to pile up, and you could feel your confidence waning.
Finally, it became too much. Making an excuse about not feeling well, you left the restaurant early. As soon as you were out of sight, tears began to stream down your face. The drive home felt endless, your mind racing with all the hurtful words that had been said.
When you reached your apartment, you were barely holding it together. You opened the door to find Jin lounging on the couch, a game controller in his hand. He looked up, immediately noticing the tears in your eyes. Concern washed over his face as he rushed to your side.
"Jagi, what happened?" he asked, gently cupping your face in his hands.
You couldn't hold back any longer and broke down, sobbing into his chest.
"She just kept making fun of me, Jin. It hurt so much." He held you tightly knowing exactly who you were talking about and started comforting you. "I'm so sorry, Y/N. You don't deserve that. Your friend should support you instead of making you feel bad about things you love."
You clung to him, feeling a mix of relief and sorrow. "I thought it was just joking, but it really hurt." Jin pulled back slightly, looking into your eyes. "Jokes shouldn't make you feel this way. You need to talk to her about how you feel, or maybe it's time to reconsider who you spend your time with."
You nodded, wiping your tears. "I know. I just didn't want to lose her. I've known her literally since we came out the womb"
"You won't lose true friends by standing up for yourself," Jin said softly. "And no matter what, I'm here for you." he smiles softly at you.
He led you to the couch, where you sat together in silence for a while. Jin's presence was soothing, and slowly, your sobs turned into sniffles. He handed you a tissue and stroked your hair gently.
"Do you want to talk about it more, or just relax for a bit?" he asked.
"Can we just relax?" you murmured, feeling drained.
"Of course," he said, grabbing a cozy blanket and wrapping it around both of you. He picked up the controller again and handed it to you. "How about we play a game to take your mind off things?"
You managed a small smile, grateful for his understanding. "That sounds perfect."
As you played together, the weight of the evening began to lift. Jin, in his usual playful manner, started making his signature dad jokes, which never failed to make you giggle.
"Why don't scientists trust atoms?" he asked with a twinkle in his eye.
"Why?" you responded, already smiling.
"Because they make up everything!" he exclaimed, grinning widely.
The joke wasn't that funny but you couldn't help but laugh. Jin's antics continued, his exaggerated expressions and goofy behavior working wonders to distract you from the earlier events.
"Thank you, Jin," you said after a while, your voice full of gratitude.
"For what?" he asked, feigning innocence. "For being the incredibly handsome, hilarious, and charming person that I am?"
You laughed again, feeling the tension ease out of your body. "Yes, for all of that and for being here for me."
Jin wrapped an arm around your shoulders and pulled you close, giving you light pecks on the lips. "Always, jagi. I'm here for you, no matter what."
As you cuddled together, you felt a renewed sense of strength. With Jin by your side, you knew you could face anything.
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àšâĄà§ MIN YOONGI àšâĄà§
The practice room, typically alive with the sound of music and the energy of rehearsals, felt unusually heavy today. The mirrors reflected your troubled expression, your movements sluggish as you tried to focus on your routine. The tension from a recent phone call with your best friend lingered in your mind, making it hard to concentrate. Frustrated, you finally gave up and sat on the floor, staring at your phone.
Yoongi, who had been practicing his own routine nearby, noticed your unease. He quietly walked over and sat beside you, offering silent support. After a moment, he gently asked, "What's wrong?"
You sighed, running a hand through your hair. "It's my best friend again. She keeps forcing me into doing things I'm uncomfortable with. Today she wanted me to flirt with some random person, knowing full well that l'm in a relationship with you. When I told her I didn't feel comfortable, she just brushed it off and said I was being too sensitive and uptight."
Yoongi frowned, his usually calm demeanor now filled with concern. "That doesn't sound like a friend, Y/N. You shouldn't let her treat you this way."
You shrugged, feeling a mix of shame and confusion. "She's been like this for a long time. thought it was just her way of joking around, but now I feel like she wants to humiliate me." you mumble.
Yoongi shook his head slowly. "Y/nâŠ.Jokes arenât meant to make you feel uncomfortable or pressured. A real friend respects your boundaries and listens to your concerns." he says looking into your eyes.
You looked down, feeling a lump in your throat. "I know, but it's hard to confront her. She always makes me feel like I'm overreacting or being too sensitive. She even says I'm boring now that I'm with you, and I'm just imagining things when I tell her how I feel."
Yoongi placed a gentle hand on your shoulder, his touch comforting. "Y/n friends don't gaslight you and they don't force you into situations you don't like." he says knowingly. Having been part of a large friend group. He knows what healthy friendships should look like.
His words resonated deeply with you, and you felt a tear slip down your cheek. "I just don't know how to stand up to her." you replied, wiping the tears off of your face.
Yoongi sighed softly, his eyes full of empathy. "You need to be honest with her about how you feel. If she truly values your friendship, she'll understand and change her behavior. If not, then maybe it's time to reevaluate if that's the kind of friendship you want to be a part of."
You nodded slowly. "You're right, Yoon. I need to talk to her." you say as you wiped the snot from your nose.
Yoongi offered a small smile. "You're stronger than you think, Y/N. And you're not alone in this. You have a lot of people who care about you and who want to see you happy."
You managed to give a small smile. "Thanks, Yoon. You always know what to say." He chuckled softly and pulled you into a warm embrace. "I try. And I'm always here for you, no matter what. "How about we take a break and get some fresh air? Clear your mind a bit." he says looking down at your face.
You agreed, and the two of you stepped outside, the crisp air helping to lift some of the weight from your shoulders. As you walked together, Yoongi shared stories and made lighthearted jokes, his quiet humor easing the tension you felt.
By the time you returned to the practice room, you felt a renewed sense of determination. You knew the conversation with your friend wouldn't be easy, but with Yoongi's support and advice, you felt more confident in addressing the issue.
Later that evening, as you prepared to confront your friend, you replayed Yoongi's words in your mind. You took a deep breath and dialed her number, ready to stand up for yourself and your boundaries.
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àšâĄà§ JUNG HOSEOK àšâĄà§
It's late evening, and you're in your apartment, the soft glow of lamps casting a warm light over the room. Despite the comfort of your home, the tension from another exhausting interaction with your best friend weighs heavily on you. Your friend's constant need for attention and the guilt-tripping over spending time with others had left you feeling drained. You pace the room, your phone clutched tightly in your hand, trying to process the conversation you'd just had.
Hoseok, who had been visiting and lounging comfortably on your couch, noticed your stressed demeanor. He sees the way you're moving restlessly and decides it's time for a heart-to-heart conversation. With a cheerful smile that lights up the room, he stands up and walks over to you, placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder.
"Hey, what's got you so worked up?" he asks, his voice radiating warmth and concern.
You look up at him, your frustration evident. "It's my best friend again. She's always demanding attention and making me feel guilty for spending time with anyone else. I try to explain that I need a balance, but she just makes me feel like I'm abandoning her.*
Hoseok's expression softens, and he gently guides you over to the couch, encouraging you to sit down beside him. "That sounds really tough, baby. It's never fun when someone makes you feel guilty for wanting to live your life and have other relationships."
You nod, feeling a mix of relief and continued frustration. "I've tried to explain to her that it's not about her, but she just doesn't get it. She keeps saying l'm changing and that I don't have time for her anymore. It's like I'm constantly walking on eggshells."
Hoseok listens intently, his hand resting comfortingly on yours. "You shouldn't have to feel like that. Friends support you and understand that you need a balance. I mean me and the boys have always kept a healthy bond and if not we discuss our differences and find common grounds. It sounds like your friend might be struggling with her own insecurities and is projecting them onto you."
You sigh deeply, feeling the weight of Hoseok's words. "I know, but it's hard to set boundaries without feeling like I'm hurting her feelings. I don't want to lose her, but I also need to live my life and be fair to the people who care about me."
Hoseok's eyes light up with a burst of his signature sunshine personality. "Hey, you've got every right to take care of yourself, and you don't have to feel guilty about it! Sometimes people need a little nudge to understand what friendships look like. Let's make sure you're feeling good too. How about we turn this evening around and have some fun?"
You look at him, intrigued and curious about what he was thinking. "What do you have in mind?" Hoseok's face brightens as he gets an idea. "Let's have a mini celebration of our own! We can start with a fun dance-off to some of our favorite tracks and then watch a movie or two with all the best snacks!"
You can't help but smile at his infectious enthusiasm. "That sounds amazing, Hobi. Let's do it!"
As you set up for the evening, Hoseok's bright energy turns the room into a lively, happy space.
He puts on some of your favorite upbeat songs and shows off his best dance moves, making you laugh and forget your worries. The movie marathon that follows is filled with laughter, cozy blankets, and delicious snacks.
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àšâĄà§ KIM NAMJOON àšâĄà§
You're sitting in the cozy cafe, surrounded by your laptop, worksheets, and notebooks from university. The low hum of the city outside barely penetrates the quiet, creative atmosphere of the cafe. Despite the vibrant and inspiring environment, your downcast expression suggests that something is weighing heavily on you.
Your best friend, who had been chatting with you about your latest project, suddenly makes a comment that hits hard. "Honestly, Y/N, you're such a perfectionist. It's almost laughable how you stress over every little detail. Do you really think this assignment is going to make a difference? You act like it's some huge achievement. It's just schoolwork."
You try to keep your composure, but her words cut deep. "I know it might seem like a lot, but I really want to do well. This is important to me."
Your friend rolls her eyes, clearly dismissive. "Important? You're making a big deal out of nothing. It's pathetic how you put so much effort into these assignments. Maybe if you weren't so obsessed with getting everything perfect, you'd actually have a life outside of your textbooks."
The harshness in her voice makes you feel small and inadequate. You force a tight smile, a small part of you believing what she said. "Yeah, maybe you're right."
You focus on your work, but her toxic comments linger, gnawing at your confidence. Just as you're about to give up on your task, the door of the cafe swings open. Namjoon walks in, spotting you immediately. His warm, friendly demeanor brings a smile on your face. He makes his way over to your table, greeting you with a bright smile.
"Hey, babe! How's everything going?" Namjoon's presence is a welcome distraction, and his positive energy starts to lift your spirits.
Before you can respond, your friend interjects sharply. "Oh, Namjoon, you're just in time. We were just talking about how Y/N gets so worked up over her assignments. I'm honestly amazed at how she can make such a fuss over something as trivial as schoolwork. It's like she thinks she's doing something world-changing."
Namjoon's expression shifts from casual friendliness to a serious one. He notices the tension and hurt in your posture and eyes. "Really? I think it's important to recognize how much effort Y/N puts into her work. She tries her best in everything"
Your friend's face flushes with anger. "You don't get it, Namjoon. I'm just being realistic. Maybe you should stay out of it." She stands up abruptly, clearly offended by Namjoon's defense. "| don't need to listen to this. I'm done here." Without waiting for a response, she storms out of the cafe, leaving you and Namjoon behind stunned at her outburst.
Namjoon turns to you with wide eyes. "Are you okay, Y/N?" He reaches out, gently taking your hand. "I'm sorry you had to deal with that. You don't deserve to be treated like that."
You nod, feeling a mix of relief and lingering hurt. "Thank you for stepping in. Her comments really got to me."
Namjoon pulls you into a hug, his warmth enveloping you. "You're doing amazing, Y/N. Don't let anyone make you feel otherwise. Your hard work is something to be proud of."
He places a tender kiss on your forehead, his affection bringing a sense of calm. "You deserve to be treated with kindness and not someone belittling you or your work. Don't let anyone's negativity get you down."
As you lean into him further, you feel the tension slowly melting away. Namjoon's presence is a soothing balm, his gentle touch and kind words helping to heal the sting of your friend's harshness. "Thank you for always supporting me Joonie."
Namjoon smiles down at you, his eyes full of love. "I'm always here for you, babe. You're strong and incredible, and I believe in you. No matter what happens, remember that you have someone who truly cares about you."
With Namjoon by your side, you felt your feelings validated. The negative comments fade into the background and the evening at the cafe becomes a reminder of the positive and caring presence Namjoon brings into your life, making you feel valued and loved.
When you leave the cafe, you're not only carrying the weight of your work but also the knowledge that you have someone who stands by you and supports you unconditionally.
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àšâĄà§ PARK JIMIN àšâĄà§
You arrive home from work, the exhaustion of the day heavy on your shoulders. The apartment is quiet, the only sound being the soft hum of the refrigerator. You drop your keys on the hallway table, noticing the faint aroma of the lavender candle Jimin likes to light. The warm, golden glow of the evening sun filters through the windows, casting a serene light over the living room.
As you step into the room, you see Jimin standing near the window, his back to you. His usually bright and cheerful demeanor is replaced with a tense, rigid posture. The sight sends a jolt of worry through you.
"Jimin? What's wrong?" you ask, your voice soft and concerned.
He turns to face you, his eyes filled with a mix of anger and hurt. "I heard something today," he says, his voice shaking. "Your best friend told me you've been seeing someone else behind my back. She said she didn't feel right hiding such information."
Your heart plummets, the weight of his words crashing over you. "What? That's not true! I would never do that to you, Jimin. You know that..." You trailed off. "You can even check my phone or anything if it means we can clear this misunderstanding." you add desperately. You couldn't believe what you were hearing, especially the fact that it came from your best friend? You felt sick to your stomach.
He runs a hand through his hair, his distress evident in his every movement. "Why would she say something like that if it wasn't true? She's your best friend. Why would she lie about something so serious? She said she wanted to warn me."
Tears well up in your eyes as you step closer to him. The room feels colder, the once comforting ambiance now a backdrop to your situation. "I don't know why she's doing this, but I swear to you, Jimin, I've been faithful and I will continue to remain faithful. I love you more than anything."
Jimin's anger starts to wane, replaced by a deep sadness. He looks around the room, his eyes lingering on the pictures of the two of you that decorate the walls. "Then why would she try to hurt us like this? I just- I knew deep down you wouldn't have done something like this. I trust you...I just felt hurt" he mumbles the last part.
You reach out, taking his hands in yours. "She's been causing problems for a while now, ever since I got this job. Gossiping, spreading lies... I think she enjoys creating drama because of the fact that the fact that she can't make fun of me anymore. But I promise you, my feelings for you are real. I would never betray you."
Tears start to fall down your cheeks as the emotional toll of the situation overwhelms you. Jimin pulls you into a tight embrace, his own tears mingling with yours. The soft fabric of his sweater presses against your cheek, a small comfort amidst the chaos. "I'm sorry for doubting you. I just...love you so much, and the thought of losing you terrified me."
You hold him tighter, your voice trembling. "I love you too, Jimin. You're the most important person in my life. I need to cut her out. She's toxic, and she's trying to ruin everything in my life."
Jimin nods, his grip on you tightening. "You're right. We don't need that kind of negativity. We'll deal with this together."
You both sit down on the couch, the plush cushions providing a small respite from the emotional storm. The soft glow from the candle flickers, casting dancing shadows on the walls. Jimin wipes away your tears with gentle fingers, his touch reassuring. "We'll get through this, okay? Our relationship is stronger than any lie she can tell."
The ticking of the clock in the background is a steady reminder that time moves forward, regardless of the pain. "Thank you for believing in me. I don't know what I'd do without you."
He kisses your forehead softly, his lips lingering. "You're my everything, Y/N. We'll move forward from this, stronger than ever."
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àšâĄà§ KIM TAEHYUNG àšâĄà§
You're at a serene park, the late afternoon sun casting long shadows on the ground. The tranquil setting, with its lush greenery and the soft rustling of leaves, opposite of your internal turmoil caused by your best friend's constant rivalry.
You sit on a wooden bench near a small pond, watching the ducks glide effortlessly across the water. Your mind is a whirlwind of emotions as you think about your upcoming wedding with Taehyung. The excitement and joy you should be feeling are overshadowed by your best friend's actions. She had planned her wedding for the same week as yours and hadn't even bothered to tell you, despite her recent engagement. When you confronted her, she called you hurtful things, saying Taehyung was with you out of pity and accusing you of always copying her.
You take a deep breath, trying to calm yourself, but the words still sting. The rustling leaves and gentle breeze do little to soothe your aching heart. You're so lost in thought that you don't notice Taehyung approaching until he's right beside you.
Taehyung, who was walking Yeontan around the park returns and sits down next to you, his usual playful and lighthearted energy noticeably subdued. Yeontan, his fluffy dog, sniffs around your feet before settling down with a contented sigh. Taehyung looks at you with his soulful eyes, full of concern. "Hey, what's wrong? You look really upset."
You glance at him, trying to hold back your tears. "It's just... everything with the wedding. And my so-called best friend. She planned her wedding the same week as ours and didn't even tell me. When I confronted her, she said I don't deserve you and accused me of copying her even though we have been engaged for a while and our wedding plans have been happening for months."
Taehyung's expression shifts from concern to a mix of anger and irritation. He reaches out his arm and wraps them around your shoulder to bring you closer. "That's not right. You don't deserve to be treated like that, especially by someone who's supposed to be your friend."
You squeeze his hand that is on your shoulder, finding some comfort in his touch. "I just don't understand why she's doing this. It's like she's always trying to compete with me, to one-up me. And now, this? It feels like she's trying to ruin our special day."
Taehyung's eyes flash with a protective fire. "You deserve better than this, Y/N. Our wedding should be about us, about our love and commitment to each other. If she can't be happy for you, then maybe she doesn't deserve to be a part of your life."
You look out at the pond, the ducks still gliding peacefully. "It's just so hard. She was my best friend for so long. But now, I don't even recognize her."
Taehyung pulls you even closer that your head is resting on his chest. "People change, and not always for the better. But you have to focus on what's important."
You nod, leaning into his embrace, feeling his steady heartbeat against you. "You're right. I need to let go of her and focus on us and people who actually care about me."
Taehyung's voice softens, filled with his signature gentle care. "Exactly. We'll get through this together, just like we always do. And I'll be right by your side, no matter what."
He kisses the top of your head, his lips lingering for a moment in a gesture of reassurance and love. "And remember, you deserve all the happiness in the world. Don't let anyone make you feel otherwise."
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You're at a lively party celebrating your recent promotion, the room filled with upbeat music and the buzz of cheerful conversation. The glow of string lights and colorful decorations creates a festive atmosphere, with people mingling and enjoying themselves. Despite the celebration around you, you can't shake the feeling of disappointment.
Earlier in the week, you had received a major promotion at work, a milestone you were eager to share. You had organized this party to mark the occasion, hoping to celebrate with friends and loved ones. However, your best friend's response was underwhelming. She had offered a brief congratulation before quickly redirecting the spotlight to herself, as if your achievement was merely a backdrop for her own.
You're standing near the snack table, trying to enjoy the festivities while feeling overshadowed. The party's vibrant energy contrasts sharply with your inner frustration.
Just then, Jungkook arrives, his charm adding to the party's atmosphere. He spots you standing alone, looking unsettled, and makes his way over to you.
"There you are baby! it's your special day!" Jungkook says with a wide smile. Before you can react, he sweeps you up into his arms, spinning you around with playful enthusiasm. "Congratulations!"
As he sets you down, he leans in and places a series of soft, celebratory kisses on your cheeks, his eyes sparkling with joy. "I'm so proud of you. This promotion is amazing! I know how hard you worked for this. I'm so proud of you babe."
Your initial surprise and delight quickly fade as you catch sight of your best friend nearby, her forced smile and dismissive demeanor still fresh in your mind. You let out a sigh, feeling the weight of the day's events pressing down on you.
Jungkook notices the change in your mood, his expression shifting from playful excitement to concerned seriousness. "Hey, what's wrong? You don't seem as happy as you should be." You explain, "I'm glad about the promotion, but the way my best friend reacted? It feels awful. It's like my success doesn't matter unless it's about her."
Jungkook's smile fades. "Hey don't let that take over your mind. You should enjoy your celebration without feeling overshadowed regardless of how she acts. This is about you, pretty."
As if on cue, your best friend approaches, her smile now strained and forced. "Oh, Y/N, you're still here?" She says as if this party wasn't organized by you to celebrate your milestone. It made anger bubble up in you. "I was just thinking about how great it is that you got a promotion. It's nice, I guess, but let's talk about my new project. It's really making waves." She continues.
Before you have the time to reply, Jungkook sweeps in. "Actually, Y/N's promotion is a big deal because she worked very hard to achieve it. Maybe you could try being genuinely supportive instead of making it all about yourself."
Your best friend's smile falters and she scowls. "Are you seriously calling me out at your own party? I was just trying to be polite!" she says looking towards you as if she expected you to defend her behavior.
Jungkook remains firm, his tone unwavering. "Politeness isn't enough. If you're going to be here, you should show some real respect rather than always making everything about you."
The atmosphere of the party is now charged with tension, your best friend's frustration evident as she struggles to respond and instead she decides to storm out of there.
"Thank you for standing up for me," you say softly. "I really needed that."
Jungkook pulls you into a warm, reassuring hug. "You're worth celebrating, and I'm here to make sure you know that. Your success is important, and I'll always stand by you."
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pairing: steve harrington x fem!reader
word count: 2.7k words
summary: in which a moment at a party that led to a drunken kiss and a heartfelt admission pushes you and your best friend away from each other. after nearly a week of silence, itâs still hard to find the right words to say to steve and to find the right way to mend what feels as if it has been permanently broken. until youâre drunk at a bar and he is the one to come and get you.
warnings:Â bestfriend!steve, explicit language, underage alcohol consumption, angst with a happy ending<33
authorâs note: this was sitting in the drafts for a veryvery long time and iâve finally decided to let it see the light of dayđ«¶đŸ (full âfolkloreâ album series masterlist here)
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âi didn't know if you'd care if i came back, i have a lot of regrets about that.â
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The bar was comforting in a weird kind of way.Â
It was pretty dark and empty for the most part, which partly made sense since it was ten oâclock on a random Wednesday night. You didnât mind the music softly playing and the stool you were sitting on actually felt comfortable, or maybe it was the alcohol making you believe that.
Somehow even with the number of drinks youâd had in the past hour, it still didnât manage to effectively push your thoughts far away from Steve and what happened at Robinâs birthday party.Â
You couldnât not think about the kiss with him, which you had abruptly and drunkenly initiated; it was a kiss that felt simultaneously wrong and right. And his words that followed the kiss played on what felt like an endless loop in your mind too.
âIâve wanted this, Iâve wanted us, for practically forever. Ever since that moment our momâs forced us to meet at that county fair thing when we were ten, I think I knew it was you.âÂ
It was hard to think about what you did in response to that, but still the quick, âIâm sorry, I canât,â you managed to stutter out before basically running away from him played on equal loop in your head. Â
The two of you hadnât spoken since that Saturday night, with you returning back to your college that was two hours away from Hawkins early the next morning. And you were unsure if it was you leading this dance or if both of you were equally avoiding each other because the phone calls that would happen practically daily were reduced to nothing. It had barely been a week, but it was long enough for everything in your life to feel shifted; to feel a little emptier.Â
âYou look like you need to talk to someone,â The bartender, a woman who you were certain couldnât be older than thirty, said as she slid you the latest drink youâd ordered.Â
âNo, Iâm fine. Itâs justâŠâ You trailed off with a small sigh before taking a sip from the cold glass. âI did something stupid this past weekend and I regret it, but I also think it might have been the right thing to do.â You were unsure if you were referring to the kissing Steve part or the running away from him part. âI donât know, I just wish that entire night hadnât happened, actually.â
You knew that it wasnât solely your inebriation that made your words seem as if they didnât make any sense, because everything going through your head was so damn confusing even when you were completely sober. None of it, the emotions you were feeling or the situation itself, fully made sense to you and you forced yourself to not think about any of it by solely consuming yourself with your schoolwork for the last few days. And when doing that was no longer enough to silence your thoughts, you decided to come to this bar.Â
It was dumb and probably only making things worse, you knew that, but it also felt so much easier.Â
âOkay,â The woman said. âCan I have a lot more context?âÂ
You were unsure why you had the immediate urge to tell her everything. Maybe it was the alcohol, or perhaps because it was just always so easy for anyone to pour their heart out to a stranger.Â
âMy friendâ my best friend, weâve known each other since we were tenâ me and him were at a party. It was actually our other friendâs birthday and she just turned eighteen, so of course, we had to make it a huge thing for her, and we did it at Steveâs house; my best friend, thatâs his name. Anyway, itâs about two hours into the party and weâre all pretty drunk. Me and Steve are in his backyard sitting on one of his old patio chairs, and then I donât know why, I blame it on my drunkenness and how close we were in that moment, but I kissed him. I pulled away almost immediately, but then he said that he has wanted this, wanted us, to happen for so long, and I didnât know what to say to any of that. So, I just mumbled out a stupid âIâm sorry,â and then left.â
You had barely taken a breath as you spoke, spitting out what happened that night in one rushed go. Finally saying all of it out loudâ recounting the story in pretty much its entiretyâ made you feel a little better. Everything was still a complete mess, but you felt like you could breathe the tiniest bit easier.Â
âWhy did you leave?âÂ
A part of you expected her to ask that question, and at this point, you shouldâve had an answer to it that felt certain, but you didnât.Â
âIt just⊠It felt like the right thing to do, I think.âÂ
The thought of anything more happening with Steve hadnât ever crossed your mind, at least not consciously, and even now you still refused to think more about it. Because it wasn't just about Steve. You didnât want anything more with anyone; you didnât want feelings, a relationship, any of it.Â
It wasnât that you hated love or the thought of it, it was more so that you had been burned because of it so many times that you refused to fall into it so easily again. Falling for boys that you thought actually liked you only to be proven wrong and left heartbroken.Â
âI get it,â The bartender ultimately said, her voice soft. âYou guys have been friends for practically forever and if you started dating and then broke up it would probably change everything between you two.âÂ
We would never break up.Â
The thought hit you so abruptly that it actually managed to surprise you. Â
The woman looked at you, confused. âOkay⊠So, then whatâs the problem?â
âWhat?â
âYou said that you and him would never break up, so whatâs the problem?âÂ
You hadnât realized you said the thought out loud, and you couldnât even feel embarrassed about accidentally saying it because all you could think about was how completely true it was. You and Steve would work so well together, you pretty much already did. You knew the ins and outs of each other; everything little that was annoying but also so endearing. It was what you loved about himâ as a friend and as more. Â
But still, it was so fucking hard to admit that out loud, and you wanted to forget about the entire realization.
âIâ I donât know,â You finally answered before folding your arms against the countertop and then putting your head down. You squeezed your eyes shut, hoping that that action would be enough to will away the tears that you could now feel threatening to spill out.Â
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âand i ended up here. pouring out my heart to a stranger.â
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âHey, you okay?âÂ
The voice was soft and immediately comforting and oh so familiar. It was enough to put a smile on your face, but your head was starting to pound so you couldnât bear to do anything but groan. Â
You lifted your head and mumbled out a soft, âSteve?â
You only vaguely remembered the bartender, whose name you eventually learned was Chelsea, asking for a phone number of someone that could pick you up. And although you shouldâve given her your roommateâs number, you instead gave her Steveâs.Â
âI never thought Iâd be the one picking you up from a bar,â Steve said as he sat down next to you. âI always thought it would be the other way around.â
âYâknow what they say about college, it changes people,â You told him with a nonchalant shrug. The two of you hadnât talked in days, but it still felt like second nature to fall back into the joking cadence you had with him. âIâm a total badass now.â
Steve laughed a bit and looked at you amusingly. âMhm, yeah, sure you are.â
You werenât as drunk anymore but you were entering the early stages of a hangover that would be a bitch, and you already knew that there was no way youâd be going to your eleven oâclock Statistics class.Â
âI canât believe you drove two hours to pick me up,â You said as you settled yourself in the passenger seat of Steveâs car after you paid your pricey tab and goodbyes were said to Chelsea. Â
Steve offered you a small smile. âWhat else are best friends for?â
You couldnât help but look away from him as you mumbled out a soft, âI didnât know we were still that.â
âWeâll always be that.âÂ
There was so much certainty in his voice that it actually managed to soothe something inside of you. Only for a second, though, because then you were back in your head again.Â
The drive back to your dorm was quiet with only the soft sounds of the radio to fill the silence. It was a short ride, only about ten minutes, and the entire time you could only focus on your dull headache and what you wanted to say to Steve because you knew that you had to say something. Although you didnât want to, that night needed to finally be talked about.
When he was parked in front of your building, you still didnât know exactly what to say, but you decided to start with something. âListen, about Robinâs partyââÂ
âItâs okay, we donât have to talk about it. Letâs just pretend it never happened,â Steve interrupted you. He pushed a hand through his hair and then met your gaze. âIt was really dumb of me to say all of that stuff, and I partially blame it on all the drinks we hadâ definitely way too many. Weâre just friends, I know that. And your life is here now, for the most part, and mine is back in Hawkins, so yeahâŠâ He trailed off with a small shrug.Â
You suddenly felt nauseous and you knew it had nothing to do with the alcohol. He was saying everything that you fully thought you wanted to hearâ what happened at the party shouldâve never happened, you two were just friendsâ so why did it feel so wrong?Â
Things became quiet and Steve was looking at you expectantly, and you were unsure how long youâd been silent for.Â
âUm, yeah, exactly,â You finally said as you unbuckled your seatbelt. Before you opened the passenger door to leave his car, you reached over and pulled Steve in for a hug. âDrive safe.â
âThanks,â He said as his arms circled around you.Â
For some reason, there was a huge part of you that wanted to say âIâm sorryâ in that moment, but you didnât entirely know why, so instead you said nothing and simply got out of his car.
You headed to the entrance of your dorm building and then turned around, giving Steve a final wave before he drove away.Â
It was thenâ as he headed down the street and after a few moments his car became completely out of your viewâ that you wished youâd been honest; with yourself and with him. Â
Because it was in that moment of you yearning for him to turn around mixed with you sincerely wanting to go after him that essentially sealed it for you.Â
Steve was different and he always would be.Â
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âand maybe i don't quite know what to say, but i'm here in your doorway.â
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You felt slightly lucky that you only had two classes on Thursdays because when you woke up after sleeping through your Statistics class, you knew that you wouldnât be going to your Psychology class that started at three. And the reasoning actually had nothing to do with your hangover.Â
Aside from the slight headache, you woke up with your mind feeling completely clear for the first time in a long time. You knew exactly what you wanted and what you wanted to do, and before that feeling could go away, or you could convince yourself to push it away, you were in your car an hour before your class was supposed to start and driving to Hawkins. You were pretty much running off of impulse and hope.
The weather was terrible and you hated driving in the rain, but it didnât matter to you right then because you needed to see Steve.
You had two long hours of driving in terrible rain to figure out what exactly you wanted to say to him, yet you still couldnât form a coherent set of sentences in your head. But, similar to the rain, that didnât stop you from ringing his doorbell.Â
In hindsight, it probably wouldâve been smart to bring an umbrella because it was still pouring and from the short walk from your car to his front door, your clothes managed to become effectively soaked, but it didnât bother you.Â
âHey,â He said when he opened the door, it was easy to tell that he was surprised to see you. âDid you drive all the way here?â
You quickly nodded at his question. âYes.â
âYou hate driving in rain.âÂ
âYeah, but I⊠I just really wanted to talk to you, and didnât wanna do it over the phone.â
âCome inside,â Steve said, pushing the door open wider so that you could step in.Â
You almost followed him but then stopped. âNo, wait⊠I kinda just wanna say this here.âÂ
Steve looked at you confused, but ultimately nodded. âOkay.â He then stepped out of his house and closed the door behind him; his clothes immediately got wet. âIt feels wrong that youâre the only one getting hit by the rain.âÂ
You laughed a bit. âThank you. Thatâs very considerate.â Â
Things got quiet for a second and you suddenly felt nervous, but you pushed that feeling to the side.
âI know you said that we donât need to talk about the party and we should pretend that it never happened. And although thatâs exactly what Iâd been doing for the past few days, I donât wanna do that anymore.â It actually didnât feel too hard to let all of this out; verbalizing exactly what had been going on in your head. In a way, it felt like a relief. âI think I kissed you that night because deep down I know that itâs you too. And that itâs always been you⊠Which is actually so scary to think about because weâve known each other for so long and youâre the one person in my life that has been the biggest constant. Youâve seen every part of my very horrific love life and I donât want us to end up like any of the stupid relationships I had before, and I think thatâs why I ran away that night, which I do really regret.â You pulled your eyes away from his for a second. âBut, what we have is different, and I want to try. I want us to try.â
You let out a long breath. âOkay, thatâs it.â Â
Steve didnât say anything for a few moments, and it was then that you realized how loud the rain was, and somehow it was actually a bit calming to hear the sounds of the heavy drops hitting the ground.Â
You searched his eyes to see if you could decipher what he was thinking, but before you could get a clear read on anything, he was closing the small bit of distance between you both and reaching up to cup your face in his hands before leaning in to kiss you.Â
The abruptness of the action slightly startled you, but you were completely okay with this nonverbal response to you pouring your heart out. You were kissing him back almost immediately and suddenly the sound of the rain was gone and instead all you could hear was your heartbeat pounding in your ears.
The kiss felt perfectly new but also so insanely familiar; even though this was the first time this was happening sober. And so many things were running through your mind, but it was also effectively blank and you knew you wouldnât be able to form a coherent sentence even if you tried.Â
Most of all, though, everything happening right thenâ the way your hands fisted themselves in his rain soaked t-shirt to pull him impossibly closer to you, and how his thumb stroked your cheek so tenderlyâ it all felt so certain and sure and right; there wasnât an ounce of doubt lingering in the air around you both or lacing its way within the kiss.Â
When you pulled away to catch your breath and smiled up at him, a smile that Steve immediately matched with an elated grin of his own, it slightly killed you that all of this hadn't happened sooner.
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âi just wanted you to know that this is me trying.â
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