#this isnt a sad post its relieving to see this so profoundly rn

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kind of fucked up actually that my brain's physical architecture was altered by years of childhood abuse and trauma which has a proven effect on all future learning, behavior, and health and with this altered brain im expected to always hold down a full time job, to go to school, to love my family, to be the right weight, to conform to beauty standards and gender norms, to be disciplined, to be a perfect friend, to be a perfect person, to never make mistakes, to always say and do the "right" thing etc etc etc etc etc. it's insane for anyone to hold me to those expectations and insane that i'll hold myself to those expectations. i wish all abuse survivors and just all human beings could be free of all this pressure that's put on ourselves