#this is nothing compared to the shit I've been sent lmao but it was a nice refresher of non cursed content!

[rey-jake-therapist]

I was sent an ask related to the armor that Sauron *apparently* gifted Galadriel with, in Numenor. Apparently, some people believe that this gift was Sauron love bombing Galadriel. We all have our analyses, I just think this one's wrong.

Proof 1 : we didn't see Sauron give her the armor. We don't even know if it's him who gave her that. I don't know why it suddenly became "canon" that he did. Because Charlie nodded after a producer said the armor was a gift ? That's not how it works, sorry. I like to believe that the armor was a gift from Saurbrand, but what's show!canon is what we see in the show. Nothing more, nothing less.

So why is it a proof ? Because the writers would have wanted us to see him gift her with the armor, and see it as manipulation after the Sauron's reveal. Heck, maybe that's why this scene didn't made the final cut at the end, because they knew that this would be misinterpreted ?

And seriously, I can't see Sauron believe that Galadriel would become codependant of him because he forged her an armor lol This is giving Haladriel a dynamics it doesn't have.

Proof 2: I know what love bombing is, for I had my share of it and the odious behavior that inevitably follows love bombing. Sauron never love bombed Galadriel. He never flattered her, never gave her gifts (except, perhaps, this armor), never promised her anything, never had any "we will do this or that, you'll see it will be fantastic" bs talk. He compared her to a HORSE for god's sake. Galadriel of the Noldor, a horse ! lmao We as the audience saw he couldn't keep his eyes off her, but he never told her she was beautiful (except when he proposes to her, indirectly, when he told her she was "fair as the sea and the sun"). if he ever did love bomb her, it was during his proposal. Before that ? Never.

It's an entire different tactic that Saurbrand uses with Galadriel: "chase me and I flee". From the beginning he shows her he doesn't give a shit about what she wants ("I have other plans, Elf"), and keeps asking her to leave him alone, not very nicely. He also gently lectures her about how she should behave in public ("kneel", "try not to make new enemies"), criticizes her methods and gives her advice... Something that constantly unsettles her because she's not used to that. She's a Elf princess, a commander ! And here goes this little man, this mortal ! who forces her to calm down and listen to something else than her own voice, for once.

THIS is not love bombing by any means. I can tell you who he loved bombed though : Celebrimbor. This relationship was abuse 101 : love bombing, isolating the person from their friends, antagonizing him then saying "I'm sorrryyyyy", another love bombing, gaslighting, emotional violence followed in the end with physical violence... Except for the violence part that I have never been subjected to, I recognized all the patterns. It was quite unsettling, let me tell you, to witness this abuse unfold and think each time, "wow, I've been through that too, but I didn't realize until I got out of it".

Personally, I feel like he made that armor out of a possessive desire to see her wearing something that HE made, so that he can feel validated, but as a manipulation tactic to guilt her into staying by his side? Idk...

I don't think that as arrogant as he is, Sauron believed he could make Galadriel dependant of him just because he offered her an armor 😂 If he did forge this armor, I think he made it as a reconciliation gift of sort. The last scene they shared on screen before the departure to Numenor, they didn't leave on good terms... This gift could be his way to tell her, "Okay, let's do it, let's lead this army together". Of course it wasn't a wedding dress... Strange idea, people think that ?

She obviously lied to Adar about what Sauron promised her. The only thing that Sauron promised Galadriel was to make her a QUEEN, which involves much more than an army. Of course she wouldn't say that to Adar, while she didn't even tell Elrond, her best friend... She is the one who promised Sauron an army, and she indeed, gave him one. I mean at some point people can twist the narrative as much as they want to make it look like she was entirely manipulated by Sauron into giving him an army, it will still be wrong lol Not to mention that it takes away Galadriel's agency.

Did he provoke her, by reminding her constantly that she was "short of an army"? Yep. Did he learn her a few tricks for her to use against Miriel, knowing he would profit from it eventually ? That too. Is he the one who convinced her to recruit an army so they could fight their mutual enemy together? NOPE. She did that on her own.

And the funniest, it's that Galadriel convinced herself that Halbrand was the one who convinced Miriel to send an army in the Southlands. No wonder why she's in such denial in season 2. She's not much different from Sauron in that they both refuse any responsability in their wrongdoing: "He deceived me !" "You chose it, not I !" "I was played like a harp !".

I don't think I ever saw this parallel pointed out...

Source

See these two liars being called out by the people who know better...

It's about time we stop treating Galadriel as an innocent victim who was targeted by the evil villain who played 4D chess with her. She's just not that. Celebrimbor was Sauron's victim, because he had little to no control over what was happening. Sauron did everything to blindsight him, and used all the tactics of the abuser book to get what he wanted from him. And when Celebrimbor resisted, he threatened him, tortured him and murdered him.

He didn't do any of that with Galadriel, who wanted an army to hunt Sauron wayyyyyy before she found him on the raft, or do we forget that too ?

[nochi-quinn]

campaign 3 episode 53: what a load. what a load of. a load of b

we never should have given sam the power of pre-recording

matt said if they're gonna make me do a movie ad I'm doing it in the goofiest way possible

I apparently need to watch that 4sd, shortonegaming keeps streaming on tuesdays so I missed it

laura squinting at the prompter

well-oiled machine

I need someone to report on the texture of that blanket

I do NOT have the money for it but god do I want it

aabria has claimed the blanket

"oh shit I bited the robit"

"no wait I'm mad at you"

I am fully walking around looking for my crochet hook during this lsdkjfls

half fucked-up, half fuckable

oh, having to make sure an area is safe for "our kind" is. hmm.

dial it back, is what I'm getting at

starlight express

werefaun

just tendiiiing

(tiktok references nobody but me understands)

HA

(found my crochet hook)

mental whisper gossip network

"can I have advantage?" "just 'cause?"

deanna can only be heard by dogs

"I fall asleep" mood

I am begging matt to just say "houses"

"how long have you lived here?" "what a fun question"

"roll vibe check"

department store junes showed up here last december and proceeded to devour all our economic slack

"there's too much stuff in my brain, sometimes it just jumps out!" mood

imogen :(

travis: sheepishly nothing motherfucker 🔪🔪🔪

oh my god you can't just ask people why they're fauns

"alimony payment"

tilda swinton

I typed it as they were saying it lkadjfls

uwuessa

(fun story, my partner had uvulitus, but when I texted his wife about it she immediately sent back "UWUITIS?" so that was my twitter name for a while)

surely it's common knowledge that he's been under investigation

"we don't just have a druid part of the city!" why not, vasselheim does

"I don't know to be offended by that phrase"

oh. oh shit. hm. don't love that.

"I found a bag of skittles in a desk drawer and I've done nothing but eat the whole bag"

oh shit does trent's collar still work?? like I know that's small potatoes comparatively but

chetney looting like in tlou

mines? mines collapsing? ungood?

"you just hate gluten as a person?"

hmmm. unlike.

from within the palace?

BULLETS COME DOWN

"you're light an orym!"

okay I now actively dislike fcg

or at least the way sam is playing him currently

maybe I just have religious trauma idk

statue?? cursed statue???

all I'm picturing is a silver lynel

rogues are whatever

wait like zerxus' griffon?

I actually looked it up lmao, it's what the Savalirwood used to be called

she's not gonna heal you bro

oh that's a cool mini, I hate it

your badge, show him your fuckin badge!

are they within ten feet of me

"did you just roll a bunch of dice?" "no, I'm looking for more d10s" "MORE d10s?!"

jeSUS

[travis voice] there's too many diCE TO ROLL, MARISHA

oh wow, she showed him her fuckin badge

okay somebody draw the wall street bull

"and because you're fearne"

"I think frida's falling in love with fearne" "who doesn't?"

I love when travis' internal notes kick in

I think I might love umudara

a good boy!

"you made me sit between my exes and my dice are nervous!"

extra calming of extra emotions

cast valium

when you hide for three hours after going on a rampage in skyrim

I love her

"you passed everything"

can I just state how extremely HERE I am for the concept of all the old creatures and myths and mystical beasts coming back

The Magic Comes Back my beloved

"it might not be there anymore but we don't know that"

…what if what fucked up the savalirwood gets unfucked too

everything's on the table! total setting shift!

[chogiwow]

dude so i saw ur reply last night but i was in desperate need of sleep but also didn't sleep bc i was just engrossed in a book IVDSNS BUT this morning i opened up my inbox and couldnt find ur reply and was so confused and as i continued to be unable to find it in my inbox i got sadder and then i realised im stupid bc the reply wouldn't be in my inbox 🧍‍♂️anyways semi-long reply sorry hehe (semi-long bc ive defs sent longer ones)

ahh i see i see @ substack. reminds me of medium, which i've come across before... i did debate exploring medium as another writing platform, but never got around to it vsjnvks so its nice that u bring substack to my attention bc now i can compare 🤩 well. maybe not now now but yknow. whenever i decide to/can get around to it NVJDKNSK

100% agree w and have had the same thoughts as you about fics/continuing to write/the pub industry (which i really should give much more thought to, given that one of my degrees is in writing🧍‍♂️) and yeah no it DOES serve as a good incentive to build a portfolio (if anyone asked me for a portfolio, i would simply hand over my uni work bc i have nothing else rn LMAO) but tbh i think even if it is a hobby, it's a good way to kinda explore and set your ??? idk like foundations or whatever so you get an idea of what you wanna write about and if you actually wanna take it seriously (which isn't to say you aren't - we can 100% take hobbies seriously - just that different contexts/intents would call for different. things. wow i love words.)

and also related but unrelated, i think its fun/nice to. uh. idk how to say it but for us (as in literally you and me, but also other mutuals and people in fandom who made friends in the context of fandom) to see eachother write or talk about things outside of the uniting factor or common denominator or whatever? though yeah that does kinda potentially extend the relationship beyond what some people are comfy w. i'm kinda just rambling rn sorry AHHA

OH BUT BUT sorry back to the publishing/career thing. Even if you don't use the substack writings for like. writing/publishing careers, it can still help with other career things? like, you run a blog and hav experience writing about diverse topics, communicating ideas etcetc. so no losses 🤩

do not feel guilty about the chan fic 🙂‍↔️ yes i love/d it and i think about it and yes i would love to read more BUT im so happy to have just been eble to experience it at all. i hope you've never felt pressured by my responses to it KNVDSKJNVDSK sincerest of apologies if you have.

tbh i havent been up to much, i don't think. shits kinda hit the fan tbh but i'm hoping (always hoping) the only other place for the shit to go is down, now. (ie. i hope this is the part where things start getting easier etc). it is what it is, even if it shouldn't be, and we'll somehow get through it because. well, we have so far, right? BUT ANYWAYS

"anything you wanna yap about-" BOY do i have things to yap about. that book^^ i was so engrossed in? jesus CHRIST i sent my friend 10mins worth of voicemsgs JNCDKSNDSK (it may have been 10mins because i simply i can't articulate properly and kept repeating myself and going off on tangents.. but it probably would have been 10mins anyways if i'd planned and scripted it all before hand anyways. it was only 10mins because i got tired and realised i should probably see how much ive spammed 💀) ("kat... 10 whole minutes? 😭" babes thats not even the worst of it-)

i also like to 'yap' about the stuff i learn in class (my other degree/major is in media and cultural studies) and i just 🤩 have so much to say about some things that i find so so interesting but me talking as much as i do/want to is also just. i find it interesting and really wanna share and talk about it KJNVDSKJVNSK so like yeah, to bring this full circle, is why i've vaguely thought about using medium/substack,,, tbh i thought about just making a sideblog here AHAHA but i cant take myself on tumblr seriously LOL + 'fresh' start on new platform sounds neat mhm mhm but also hehehe (evil) maybe instead of spamming my friend about stuff, i can just write blog posts and she can read it whenever hMMMM thinking thinking,,,

anyways 🧍‍♂️sorry, i was expectin this to be long but it ended up longer than i thought it would HAHA wait no im rereading my ask/reply rn and substack just sounds great bc i can do informal reviews about things i've watched/read aswell AHHHH and yeah like just ??? more personal though explorations/'journaling' kinda vibes as well? HMMM AND and even mini writing pieces--- i literally do not have the time to be considering this rn but here i am wHOOPS okay i'll stop now before this gets even longer 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️

hi katttt, i'm so sorry for the late reply :'D apparently i'm in the phase of my life where i can only type out articulated replies on my laptop and not my phone, also week's been sooo hectic i hate being a corporate slave fml <3

lmfao not you tryna find my reply in your inbox sdjskd all's good tho hehe :3ooh medium is ... something, i couldn't really figure it out all that well and also the few times i've tried to read on medium, it's asked me to subsribe or sign up to continue to read? and i just don't ... vibe with that lol

yes yes, tryna write about real life stuff really makes me pause once in a while and just think (?) it through bc writing fiction is gen easier than trying to string together the raw ideas relating irl issues/stuff (for me at least). like it really makes me stop midway and rethink my choice of phrasing stuff or even putting forward an opinion thinking about how its gonna make people percieve me? well, not that its not sumn that doesn't apply to fiction as well bc i kinda think that the way one writes always just brings about some sort of perception of their character and personal views through their words, no matter how subtle ... am i making sense? but fictional writing just lets you cloak it into a 'what-if' situation where any judgement of your story/character(s) is not a direct discernment of your personal opinions whereas talking about irl stuff always comes with that concious load of having your opinions/thoughts being obligated to a verdict (positive/negative/both).

so anywayyy sjhdj, yes it's fun to just write and pursue as a hobby bc its fun communiatingideas and realise that it might not be all that irrelevant as you thought haha :>

and noooo, i absolutely love love LOVE reading yout tags on my fics, like i legit go back to my old writings and read the rb tags and it always makes me so happy :( i do want to continue writing fiction bc its always been a comfort to me to be able to weave stories my way, but i suppose everything has its own time to unfold and settle ... sometimes inspiration hits so bad but the will to write it out is just not there :/ but anyway ! i'm glad that you've enjoyed my writing so far <3

yeah, things don't don't need to work out all the time. i'm realising this the hard way, through adulting. really makes me wanna go back and give my younger self a good whooping on the ass to have ever wanted to grow up fast so desperately. but yeah, hope your shit works out man (✿◡‿◡)

lmaoooo no bc ! its so fun to just simply yap about stuff , that's like writing but ... verbally ,,, you could litch rally make a yap blog and i'd read it alllllll :3 also what book is this, drop the nameeeee :'D no but like i get you not being able to take tumblr seriously bc i was like ! i can't talk about this shit on tumblr ! tumblr's supposed to be for my clownery ! all the grownup stuff needs a different platform altogether sjsdksjd but if you ever consider making a blog, i think i'll read it fo the vibes itself. and the words ofc and opinions and stuff. like that's important too gaaaahhhhh what i'm saying is ,, i think you'd make a really amusing and entertaining blog - in a good way !!

anyway ! i think i needed a medium to unscramble the crap in my brain so the blog served well (even though it was an impulsive decision lol) but yeah ! go for it, you won't regret it. nobody really gaf's in the beginning, like readership is low babes, unless you have friends who will actively read your shit but that's a big comfort to me lololol. not sicouraging you in anyway, but its a point to consider if you're looking for a chill sesh with your own writing haha <3

[diary-dot-exe]

dump - entry 1 of ?

song: instagram - dean

remind me to not scroll through instagram and compare how great my following's lives are to my bland one. i see them partying at clubs, going out of town, doing besties shit with their siblings while i'm at home drowning myself in games that i only play for validation and to be "not like the other girls," and barely hang out with my siblings.

i knew i had been an odd one since i was a kid. i mean, that's why i belong with the "unpopular kids" or "the weird ones." during lunch breaks, i would often get left behind the classroom doing nothing. i never had fixed friends before. after parting ways, one of them invited me to the school fair and as much as i don't want to go, i felt bad. wish i didn't go because i was left alone lmao. people were suddenly nice to me there, though. needless to say, i left early. no point staying there until the fair closes since i have no one with me anyway.

high school time. seventh grade was a big change since i came from a private school but it was still bland. had my first crush and did cringey things to catch his attention and be nice to him. bought him drinks during his game and even had his jersey number as my shirt number. yeah, embarrassing. looking at his girlfriend now, a classmate of mine back then, i knew i did not have any chance lmao. had a friend though. thought we were solid but after graduating, we kinda lost touch.

eigth grade was eventful. had some friends, had some enemies (kind of) but it was still bland. had another crush and i had high hopes for this one. we hung out pretty often, even sat next to each other and it was cute and all. we treated each other with brownies and cookies and all those sweet stuff. idk if he was just being nice but it felt good. we talked to each other until the wee hours, sent each other memes, and jokingly called each other "mine." never really made anything official but he does know i like him because we were just joking around about crushes since he asked if me and another classmate were together. i told him "no, we're not" and he proceeded to name each male student and asked if i have a crush on them. he ran out of names so he said himself and i said yes. he said it was cool and i was half expecting us to be awkward but we weren't. we even hung out after classes to watch videos, just the two of us in the classroom. idk if what i've heard from the girls are true about him liking me back because apparently, the boys tease him too but again, our dynamic never evolved and we stopped talking after eigth grade.

more on eight grade, i had my first drama involvement about my two friends fighting. forgot what the context was but it led me to just stop talking to the two of them. also had my first group of friends that i thought had a chance at longevity but nah. there were four of us and the three are a lot closer than i was with them so i do feel left out sometimes. stopped talking to them after eighth grade too but kept in touch with one of them until mid ninth grade. also during that year, i felt like i was back in private school with how the rich and popular kids treated me. they were so nice to me at times but they talk behind my back. didn't hurt before but now that i remember it, it sucks ass.

ninth grade is when i met my friend group. real friend group this time. we started as four but then we grew to nine so it was fun. year end hang out happened but only two hung out - me and a friend. was still cool though, she's nice. tenth grade and we're still friends. we're like a big group made of smaller groups of friends so i am not all that close with the others but since we're all mutuals, we hung out. no crushes during ninth and tenth btw. anyway, pretty uneventful.

eleventh grade, we were all separated from each other so naturally, we all formed another group of friends but we still remained in contact. my first friend in seventh grade and i rekindled our friendship and befriended some others, one of them was my classmate in an elective so i know these people well enough. not the best friend group though, i have to admit. we hung out more than my ninth-tenth grade friends but i just don't feel like we are that close and we are more inclined to hanging out because of academics, which isn't all that surprising because i was placed in a class which is made up of students with high grades.

my friends during eleventh grade bled to senior year and same still goes. i was still friends with my earllier and bigger friend group. pretty unventful senior year. i didn't go to prom because i was (and still am) insecure and i have no money for that lmao. we graduated and kept in touch (again, aside from my first friend who we barely talk to now) but even so, i still feel like i don't belong.

looking at their posts, things they share over to our group chat, and the like, they have a way more eventful life than i will ever have. all the things i dreamed of doing, all the clothes i dreamed of wearing, all the body shapes i dreamed of having, they all have it while i'm still in my room, fat as fuck and unmotivated to lose weight despite having body dysmorphia, trying to be so different when really, i want to fit in, and being a depressed fuck. all of them have the same interests, both friend groups, that i don't have. they have different views on things compared to me (which is very valid, btw) but why do i feel invalidated and that my views are all wrong? why do the rest of my friends protect them and reason out their mental health and disabilities when i am the one who's hurt by their words? adding to that i am diagnosed with anxiety and depression and probably an undiagnosed bipolar disorder myself (i stopped talking to professionals because i can't afford it) why am i the one obligated to say sorry while they can barely reach out to me? i sound entitled but i genuinely want answers. i have told them from time to time to tell me what i did wrong but nothing ever comes up. i'm always the villain to them. the two friends that i have gotten a fight into have a separate group chat with another friend so i'm not surprised if they talk shit about me there.

i just don't feel like i fit in anywhere. i am insecure. i don't excel at anything. i am a villain. i... i don't know. god, even here where i just scream into the void about my three a.m. thoughts, i feel like i'm pathetic and seeking attention. maybe i am seeking attention. maybe that's all i want - for someone to hear me out and tell me i'm doing well, or tell me what i did wrong to improve myself, or tell me that what i'm feeling is valid. seriously should've continued therapy but it's expensive and again, i am not that talented in any field to do commissions and i don't wanna beg for people's money.

anyway, life is still shit. i am still shit. i feel shit. i look like shit. better days to come, i hope.

[zend-pixie]

I'm SO glad you asked (you didn't) I'm gonna take this as an opportunity to go over the scrapped Rex concept designs I've seen cause there is a LOT and a concerning amount of them have katanas as weaponry. When in the development process did Rex go from katanas to futuristic guns I will never know but it's a choice I'm happy was made

I've also deduced that Rex being Emmet is actually a very last-second decision! Since in some of the leaked scrapped storyboards where we're shown Rex's backstory he's some other guy, and in an interview about Emmet and Rex with Chris Pratt he says Rex was on Undar for 4 years - something that was never mentioned in the movie but IS in the early storyboard. It's interesting that Rex was originally a whole different guy but was still going to have the same voice as Emmet??? Make it make sense

ANYWAYS let's get into it

I've already gone over the potential angst angle of the hoodie, but there's many more where that came from

like this one. It feels like one of those designs you know won't be final but you crank out anything you can think of in hopes that combining them will yield an inspiration cause why in God's name is he a 2003 rapper

this one is super interesting to me cause it heavily focuses on his villainy aspect! Something that was meant to be a twist in the movie, but would've been a lot more obvious with a design like this. Although I'm not gonna lie I do really love this one he actually looks kind of cool. Evil overlord fit

we of course can't forget about the infamous dino pjs that we all agreed can easily be canon. Does he seem more like a "nothing but boxers" sleeper? Yes but c'mon look at him. You can't deny him the dino pjs

putting these two together since they seem to be in a similar veing and I'm not entirely sure what to think? The little uh..flag? Feels a bit random but maybe if this design was finalized it would have more of a place in the movie. I do find it funny that the first one breaks lego rules of printing (hands can't have any printing or dual-molding on them. Full colors only) and the second one gives him a KILLER waistline

this one feels so random but it seems to take inspiration from 80s fashion and perhaps a bit from the canceled lego racing movie! I do like that the Rex we ended up getting still retains that 80s-90s vibe, even if it's mostly how "futurism" was seen back then compared to now. I can definitely appreciate the inclusion of a tattoo and robotic arm

this is essentially just our Rex but with a mechsuit that got scrapped, I'm assuming this is pulling from his concept design in an even earlier storyboard (pictured below). Love how this one ALSO breaks the hand printing rules though lmao

(look at this fucking frog i HATE him)

This is pretty much Rex's semi-final design but I still want to put them here cause...ough...he looks SO dirty and dusty... the hair is so much scruffier....I can't explain it he looks so cute to me here. Our Rex is a little worse for wear himself but he's not visibly DUSTY just scratched out (especially noticable when the vest he gives Emmet looks pristine). You'd think he'd still have some of that Undar dust clinging onto him. He has the arm crack scar though so I won't complain too much. And also this concept art confirms to me that he's SUPPOSED to have fingerless gloves. I win

2015!! Don't let anyone tell you tlm started development in 2017 this thing has been in the works for a WHILE. You can actually see the bionicle in the storyboard fragment I sent over earlier as well! But this one is so....crazy to me. A trenchcoat?? What looks to be a bulletproof vest?? And a... house arrest collar..? Odd choice but alright, lego movies are silly parodies for the most part so just throwing random shit on him feels appropriate enough. But with the angry smolder, random hat, trench, eyepatch and less scratchy 8'o-clock shadow, he feels like mostly a parody of what "tough, gritty men" were seen as in the 2010s. A lot more than the Rex we got, ours has a more personal sense of style. This Rex looks greasy and like he smokes 6 packs a day. Watches the 2017 Punisher show on the weekends and scoffs instead of laughing. I can't help but love him anyway, a Rex is a Rex

Then we have these 3. Very big dissonance in style, it seems they couldn't decide whether he should be more jungle-esque, future-esque, gritty-esque, or science-time-travel-esque. The collar is on in all of these so I can't help but be curious if it had any lore significance... But as you can see, the utmost top one has a katana. For no reason. This is not the only time either. I do find it funny how all of them break lego printing or molding rules. And the scar on the first one continuing through his hair.... something else happened to this guy. But it's interesting that no matter the backstory, Rex's purpose in the movie was always to have a villainous persona and turn Emmet into a worse version of himself.

Now I'm unsure how official or not these are, but they seem to be done by someone who worked on the movie in some capacity (James White) so I'm putting them here together. The katana apocalypse has started. I'm starting to suspect Rex saying his middle name is "machete ninja star" is both a cringe tough guy thing and a reference to the vibe a lot of his early concepts had. I do like the colors on a lot of these though, and the accidental pan flag on the first one is a little funny. Rex does accidentally say a gay slang not once but TWICE in the movie so nothing new there. A lot of these are army-based...which is interesting. Perhaps even more of an influence on what a gritty man's man is supposed to be like.

I thiink that's everything? Sorry for this being so inhumanly long lmao I had to krank my thoughts out of my brain before they get pickled for good </3

Thinking about the parralel that Lucy dyed her hair with marker to hide her real self, and later it's revealed Rex covered his face in marker to hide his real self

Dangerstyle makes me sick THEY MAKE ME SICK.

Additonally do you guys ever think about one of Rex's early concept designs where he has a hoodie. Like his ex. The one who he wanted to change for initially and felt hurt by. The one he still seems to think about nonstop despite claiming to "letting go of the past", in the intense glares he sends her way or the hollow envy he feels when he sees a brighter version of himself loved by her unconditionally - something he thought he had to earn. Yeah.

[volfoss]

thoguhts on some of my favorite images

First one is vibes, not cursed, second one is mildly cursed but like only 2/10 (going in clockwise order btw), 3rd one is baby 0/10 (cursed vibes 0, angel vibes 10/10), last one is dad joke vibes 0/10 cursed, altogether a nice set of images!

[beevean]

I haven't played TGAA, but I find the double standard in the way Barok is treated vs the way Miles, Fran and the rest of them are treated kind of strange. Barok is supposedly insufferable, plus he's racist and xenophobic. I ain't excusing that, but that's just how 19th century England was.

Miles and Fran have most likely sent innocent people to jail or even landed them the death penalty, simply because they cared more about securing a guilty verdict than actual justice. Godot is a literal murderer, and I've heard some unpleasant things about Simon and Nahyuta as well.

Yet, all (or most of) these characters are redeemed. Barok's biggest crime is...upholding the views of everyone else at the time. And that somehow makes him irredeemable, despite him actually warming up to Ryonosuke later. I'm not saying everyone should like Barok, but if Barok is irredeemable, so is every other prosecutor in AA.

This has been pretty much my point ever since they announced GAA's localization.

Barok is obnoxious, that is undeniable. Nipponese this, Eastern island that, his mocking of Ryuu easily crosses a line that leaves the player uncomfortable, as it should, because if his xenophobia doesn't bother you it says more about you than about the game.

But. Being obnoxious is all he does.

He does not present forged evidence, or use loopholes in court, or coach witnesses, like Edgeworth and Franziska used to do.

He's never ever physically violent against the defense, unlike Franziska, Godot, Simon or Nahyuta - he breaks his own glasses and bottles when frustrated, but he never harms anyone. (it says something that the entire series so far had only three prosecutors who are decent human beings)

His objective as a prosecutor is simply to find the truth. While he pushes very hard to prove the guilt of the defendant, it's clear that it's because he genuinely believes in his case - once Ryuu manages to convince him his theory makes sense, Barok drops most of his hostility and helps him. Unlike Edgeworth pre-heel face turn and Franziska, he couldn't care less about his own record, which means that he never deliberately gambled with the lives of potentially innocent people for his own ego. He is biased towards Ryuu, not only because he's Japanese but also because Barok admits to personally taking his cases even if they're banal, but he's not completely driven by a petty grudge like Godot - like I said, he'll help Ryuu win if he does a good enough job in his book, no matter his personal feelings towards his learned Japanese friend.

Both he and Edgeworth post-heel face turn share the same goal of finding the truth. However, Edgeworth has hurt at least one person in his quest, infamously Adrian Andrews when he threatened to reveal her mental illness in court and even said "if you kill yourself, that is no concern of mine". Compare this with Barok, who has shown himself capable of kindness as soon as his second appearance, when he (spoilers for Case 4 of GAA) subtly implied he would allow Roly Beate to keep his job despite tampering with the crime scene, because he could empathize with the poor man wanting to spend one day with his wife.

He's genuinely competent in his job, relying simply on cold hard logic to dismantle the defense's arguments as a good prosecutor should - to be honest, it may be the different writers, but Klavier, Simon and Nahyuta never struck me as being especially good at their job, with Klavier having to deal with a rather incompetent Apollo in AJ and Simon and Nayhuta happily abusing the old "attacking the defense" and "asking evidence for every word you say" tricks. (to be fair Simon gets to demonstrate his interesting manipulative skills in one case... Turnabout Storyteller, when he's Athena's ally. Also, I can't remember anything particularly horrible he does beyond being an ass like usual, in fact he may be the best prosecutor of the second trilogy)

Speaking of Nahyuta, the reasons I can't stand him while I love Barok are that Nahyuta is nothing but repetitive, unwitty, painfully realistic obnoxiousness propped up by a shallow twist revealed at the tail-end of the game; he has no real character development, because "sowwy guys i was good all along" is not development; he prosecutes simply to win even if it means insisting that a young girl committed murder in spite of the defense's reasonable arguments; there is no in-game justification for shit like him tormenting Athena in Japanifornia, or even him being an asshole in Japanifornia at all; and there's no weight in the realization that he let hundreds of innocent people being sentenced to death while he stood aside to protect his sister (like, that has got to mess you up a bit right? Can you show me that, game?). Barok not only has a much more fleshed out, drawn out backstory that explains most of his behavior (although I have my reservations at tying his racism to One Trauma); not only he slowly (... very slowly) warms up to Ryuu; not only he has humanizing traits like feeling horrible about being branded the Reaper of the Old Bailey, like it would happen to anyone being rumored to be a death bringer; but he is, most important of all, an overdramatic bitch and the contrast between his intimidating demeanor and the shit he pulls behind the bench is infinitely more hilarious than being told for the umpteenth time that you're a putrid lawyer who's going to hell. It doesn't sound like much, but a good AA game masters the art of "love to hate".

You know how Klavier is a base-breaking prosecutor because some consider him too nice? Barok is what happens when you take Klavier's honest, well-meaning demeanor and give him enough presence to be hated and loved at the same time. I completely understand if people find him too annoying (he's testing my own patience lmao), but I still think he is one of the best prosecutors in the series, both as a job and as the role of the rival.

[bettycanavosio]

hope you were serious about that "i'd read a novel if you sent one" comment cause i've got more on henry realizing his priorities and getting frustrated with his career choices. i always figured he probably wouldn't want to be a capo even if he had the chance, because he seems to hate like...managerial shit and planning and being responsible for other people. he comes off as super disinterested when he's giving orders ("they should be there somewhere, ask her yourself, that's your problem"), he leaves joe to explain the plan in ch4, he wants the jobs done quietly (presumably so there won't be outside consequences), and i don't think he'd be suited for the pressure of having other people answer to him/being responsible for their safety; on the other hand he seems way more excited about the hit in ch5 when he's a part of it and he's planned it all out–he strikes me as a very "give me a target and a gun and i'll figure out the rest" type, not at all as a leader. in fact, the level of detailed with which the job in ch12 is planned seems very out of character compared to earlier in game, so clearly something's changed.

then he has that whole "you can spend the next thirty years breaking your ass for eddie and carlo before you either wind up dead or back in the can" thing. he spent twenty years working for empire bay's premiere shitbag only for it to all go up in smoke and leave him completely out of work and afraid for his life–all that loyal soldier shit for nothing, and now carlo's trying to start a war and henry's probably afraid of it being "same shit, different family." he's tired of working for people who don't give a shit about him (something i think he especially realizes with the knowledge that vito and joe do care about him) and not having anything to fall back on.

so i don't think the drug thing is just about cash; it's about freedom and a sense of security, and tbh reminds me a little of sammy robinson in m3 saying the money from the heist will help them get out from under sal's thumb. henry doesn't want to rise through the ranks, he just wants to quit being a pawn, and since he's way too jaded to consider going legit, he decides to go rogue instead. hell, the fact he says "let's just get through today" when joe mentions the idea of it becoming a regular thing makes me think he's maybe just trying to prove to himself that he can do it, that he's not completely beholden to carlo. he's just as tired as vito is, the difference is in the way he deals with it (especially because he can't see himself as anything but a gangster, a conclusion vito evidently comes to as well later on). and he wants vito and joe to come with him, because they're probably the only people in years who've actually cared about him, and the only thing he knows how to do in return ("after today, none of that [his past fuckups] matters") is to bring them in on the job so they won't get fucked over the same way he has for 20 years. he's trying to take care of them the only way he knows how.

god this is just where i argue with myself and go off topic for a solid five paragraphs i’m so sorry in advance

i genuinely got excited at that intro lmao i was so serious!!!! i think freedom is a massive part of it, but i also don’t believe he’s completely detached from the idea that money = success = happiness since that’s a difficult thing to break out of if it’s all you’ve ever known. i also think he just hates being alone, even if he’s characterised as this reserved calm collected wise guy who only cares about himself. that’s just how vito presents him to us. he didn’t have to bring vito and joe in on the deal, but he did. as a result, what he really wants and what he’s been taught to want get in the way of his main desire—freedom—which leads to the inevitable tragedy we got.

i like to think he was offered the opportunity of being a capo at some point and probably rejected it—he didn’t seem hungry for power, but maybe purpose. he’s only ever been thrown about: go to america, work for a family friend, you have to, you don’t have a choice, you were made for this. so he does. then when it’s all over with clemente, it’s like he’s been in a cage all this time and he’s only just been given a key to the door. does he leave? it’s all he’s ever wanted, but will it all go to shit if he does? is it safer to stay in the cage?

a funny (not so funny) thing to think about is how his pride quite literally killed him. well. depending how you look at it. he probably could’ve disappeared to another state and restarted his life like lincoln in that one ending if he wanted, but he’s too fixed on the idea that the life is the only thing for him—he stayed in the cage and starved in it. or got cleaved to death or whatever but that makes the metaphor sound like shit. sorry. anyway! i mean, joining a family and betraying them immediately? not that i blame him—as you say, same shit, different family—but jesus he had some balls to do it. i guess he wouldn’t consider going legit anyway. why would he? he doesn’t want to be good the way tommy does, the way tommy knows—he just wants liberty. it’s also strange how he says the whole thirty years speech as if he won’t wind up dead or in the can dealing drugs with his two inexperienced (in comparison) friends. i guess that’s more confirmation than any that it’s about freedom and his friends more than any of the other factors.

it’s interesting to me how he doesn’t have this thirst for power like most of them do (joe saying being a capo was “everything he’d ever wanted” surprised me to some degree. sort of didn’t. but that’s another story), especially as it would give him purpose. maybe he doesn’t like taking responsibility for other people because of something that happened in the past… maybe something to do with betty….. idk i’m just speculating (and going off topic)!!!! but now he’s found his purpose, and it’s to be loyal to the people who won’t use him, the only genuine people he’s known in decades. like you said, working for clemente was like carrying a bomb until all that loyalty blew up in his face.

the last part of what you said is so real and insane because if it is the only way he knows how, it also means he doesn’t know if it’s actually helping vito and joe at all. (insert dead bird in the cat’s mouth thing…) and like, of course he wouldn’t. i think he probably grew to recognise his father sending him away as some great honour rather than the death sentence it became. not that his other options were much better, but you know what i mean. in the end, the deal makes everything a million times worse, which makes the whole thing more tragic: henry never intended for things to go south for everyone else like he’s accused of, but instead acted out of kindness. (the whole “henry is a rat” bullshit really pisses me off because it’s totally illogical but again. that’s another story!!!!) it’s even more ironic because in wanting to grant them freedom, he only trapped them in the life forever. (joe working for leo, vito in new bordeaux… christ.) he can’t even defend himself in death. not that he’d ever admit it to their faces, but you know. at least he’d have a chance at trying. then again, i wouldn’t blame vito and joe for growing to hate henry as years went on—what did he do for them, really? he knew they were being scammed by clemente, he got vito a 10 year sentence, all their jobs went to shit. the only good thing henry did was try to be a friend. he just tried and tried and tried. to be honest, i think that’s enough for them. we’ve seen how forgiving they are, but idk. sometimes i wonder.

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Lmao im sorry but im unfollowing. I though i finally found a angst related blog to Osomatsu san but the only thing you do is upload au's and weird conversations. Bye

"the only thing"?? are you fucking kidding me?

like no, I'm sorry, but I've written almost 150,000 words of serious stuff for this blog, and I plan to continue writing that serious stuff because I love it.

I know I haven't done a lot of actual content recently, and I'm REAL sorry, but sometimes I need a break. sometimes I need a laugh.

and I don't know who's sending all these funny asks and shit, but sometimes they make me smile. I've been down recently and whoever is sending me these asks clearly is trying to make me laugh.

as opposed to... this message that was sent specifically to make me feel like shit? do you think this is any serious constructive criticism?

I have exactly three AUs, and two of them are serious and focused on angst, horror, whump. I've done maybe 1000 words of "weird" stuff for asks, even my AUs are less than 15,000 words combined

compared to the nearly 150,000 words of serious, actually angsty stuff I've done?

and you think that's the ONLY THING I DO when it's not even a FUCKING TENTH of the angst and whump content I've done so far? so far because it's not like I'm going to stop?

I mean. what was even the point of this ask? to make me cry? congratulations, you did that. pat yourself on the fucking back, I hope you feel real fucking good about yourself for making this blog feel less safe and happy for me.

you could have just unfollowed me. you did NOT have to send this nasty message to make me feel like crap for not doing any serious content over the last few days. sending this message accomplishes nothing, because believe it or not, insulting people doesn't make them wanna do what you want. shocking, I know!!

I do wanna keep this blog mostly whump and angst. I even ASKED SEVERAL TIMES if anyone wanted me to tag the asks so that you didn't have to see them. but nobody said a word about wanting them tagged.

but guess what? I'm not a machine. I'm not an emotionless thing who doesn't need some breaks or laughs.

this is MY blog. I started it to do something I WANTED TO DO, and even though I try to be considerate of what people might not be here for, this is MY SPACE to do WHAT I WANT WITH IT.

you are not entitled to my time or content. if I want a break and want to do nothing but answer stupid asks for a while, you don't get to make me feel like shit.

I owe you NOTHING. good fucking riddance.

[suggers-got-dingled]

Seeing as Christmas is coming to save our souls and Robert Jacob Sugdens 😉 I've been re watching some old robron to get back into how amazing they are ( they still have been acting wise even tho he plot is crap) but I wanted to kno what are some of your top/fave robron moments from 2014-now ? x

anon I’m pretty sure you sent this in like October so for that I deeply apologise but is there any better time to respond than less than 24 hours before the highly anticipated ep actually begins?!?!

I THINK NOT

I HAVE SO MANY FEELS TONIGHT

(well always really but especially tonight bc i’m really weirdly emotional for some unknown reason and it’s startling me a bit)

and I can’t believe you’re making me choose my top fave moments like I can just whip them out without thinking into the depths of their earth shattering love

I’d literally be here for the entire festive period if I listed them all so I’m gonna narrow it down to ten (tough but doable)

2014... the be all and end all, the sexual frustration, the inability to stay away from each other, literally so much tension you could ferment a brand new molecule with that chemistry 

...compare it to now it’s absolutely complete sheer madness how far we’ve prospered through the good and the bad and the soul wrenching, I get quite overwhelmed that these two are still so deeply connected and nothing compares tbh

anyway I live and breathe pre affair era so let’s start this ten carefully chosen moments with that

When Aaron literally discreetly yet directly asked an engaged Robert out on a date without second thought??? like we don’t talk about that enough, before Robert actually faked a breakdown and before the first kiss of dreams, Aaron fully invited him for drinks as though they were best mates and he totally didn’t want to jump his bones lol a m a z i n g 

Hotel one. There’s just something about Aaron’s soft, content smile as he wakes up and adjusts to his surroundings by realising he’d fallen asleep with Robert’s arm round him, and those bright blue puppy dog eyes blown with lust as he gazes at Robert’s thirsty af face and only-boxer-worn bod

When Aaron’s injured in the woods after that beautiful life shifting movement where they pretty much jumped into a relationship after spending a week in Robert’s marital home together. Aaron weakly calling out for him and Robert taking off his jacket to protect his frail, cold body as he high pitch panics and tries to tell the paramedics how to do their job :’))))

The abuse era. (It counts as one solid point okay I’m making the rules now) it’s harrowing and tragic and sad but also so wholesome and tentative and genuine. Robert totally being ride or die Aaron, like he just dedicates his whole life to him without even reconsidering his actions??? It’s all so normal and natural to him, there was no ulterior motive behind it, it was just Robert wanting Aaron to be ok and healthy, Aaron slowly growing to trust Robert again as he recognises Robert’s devotion, framing a best friend who have always been and are still in love but it’s not right to act on it dynamic  “I’LL WAIT FOR YOU, TILL YOU’RE READY!!!!”, the pivotal reveal itself god it wrecks me every time AND THAT DAMN PLACEMENT OF THE BLANKET... high and mighty Robert Sugden sleeping on a hard floor all night because he wanted to be beside him MAXINE KNEW EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS DOING

SUPER SOAP WEEK THE LITERAL HIGHLIGHT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. This also counts as one, soz. The entire proposal mid argument as Aaron fails to recognise what may be happening even though an engagement ring is literally thrown in his face lmao just pure, golden, completely, absolutely robron. Robert revealing his biggest secret to the love of his life??? coming out to him for the first time???? he poured his heart out and Aaron’s heart exploded in return. Aaron’s quiver of his lip and teary eyes as Robert tells him about the farm hand, Robert looking away, Aaron having an outburst of love for the first time in forever bc all these feelings spilled out of him in such an intimate moment and he was determined to let Robert know how amazing he was bc it’s what he needed to hear!! the underwater scene of almost death (and literal death on my part)... do not even talk to me about that, thank you. The hospital bedside scene on the Friday - Robert squashed and curled up in a heap on that tiny chair in the corner, adamant he wasn’t going anywhere, not even home to change out of those dirty lake water garments bc no way was he leaving Aaron again, “Rob... Robert”, the fluff ruffle, the constant heart eyes, the second segment of the proposal where Robert was unwavering in his love for Aaron, telling him he’s all he wants, that soft little double kiss as he dove back in bc one literally wasn’t enough, the beaming smiles, the soft voices. It was all so wonderfully sweet and romantic??? every part of it bound them together and showed just how much they invented the word love like????? EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN RIGHT THEN JUST HOW MUCH THEY BOTH MEANT TO EACH OTHER AND HOW MUCH THEY KNOW EACH OTHER INSIDE OUT I would die for that week tbh

Pub quiz. A* content, and surprise content which made it even better. Working as a team to prove just how disgustingly bonded they are??? the playful fun and the gags and the impish comments, Robert calling everyone else but him and Aaron a peasant, Aaron saying his super suave fiance is now Hugh Grant because he buys his crisps in a tube, the signature tickling, the hug, the whispering in the ear, generally being the best most victorious and powerful couple in that goddamn village

The wedding vows in the garage. A dirty, oil stained garage where they first fucked, where the journey to soulmates began. That moment where Aaron was giggling at the whole bizarre ordeal that hadn’t really sunk in and then Robert said his name and his face just completely changes???? oh my god it ruins me absolute sentimental idiots who are so bloody in love with one another so much so that the rest of the world is blocked out and if there was to be an apocalypse they’d still be there savouring the moment

Goodbye scene. For obvious reasons. I don’t even need to say anymore do I?!?! 

The mill reveal. To say the ons literally tore me in two, this episode was just stunningly directed and “my beautiful husband who I love” was born so nothing else matters really

A romantic picnic to aid my devastation. Robert just wanted to take Aaron out to take his mind off everything he’d been through and he literally just sat there on a blanket reminding him how he’s never had better??? the softest realest shit™

and one more to add bc it isn’t appreciated enough: when Robert was rooting through Bernice’s handbag that time during his mild scheming and he was so sure he’d fooled Aaron with his “I just wanted a tissue” makes me wee every time GIVE ROBRON MORE COMEDY 2k18

[fullofleaves]

Hi! I've been a huge fan of your work for years now. :) I think you're one of the authors who understand the depth and complexity of Loki's character the most, and you have such an amazing way of portraying both his strong and vulnerable aspects in your stories. I was just wondering if you've seen Ragnarok and if you have some time, would you be willing to share with us your honest thoughts about it? (Particularly about Loki's character development from the first two Thor films to this one?)

Yoooo sorry for taking forever to answer this, but the true fact is I had to go see Ragarok again to formulate a proper answer.  But, wow, thank you so much!  I really love Loki’s character, and spend probably Way Too Much Time thinking about him, so this is a great question.

Anyway.  HAVE I SEEN RAGNAROK.  Short answer: YES.  Longer answer: YES I HAVE SEEN IT THREE TIMES NOW AND NEED TO GO AGAIN AT SOME POINT.  It’s a very important movie to me, given my love of A) Loki, B) Loki being stuck in absolutely stupid situations, and C) Thor throwing stuff at Loki’s head.  That said, it had a couple details didn’t love so much, but overall it was exactly the kind of shit I’m in to.  I mean like… you’ve read the crap I write so you could have probably guessed that already.  I live for Loki’s suspicious relationship with the Grandmaster and the orgy ship and everyone saying the word anus a few too many times and Bruce complaining about Tony’s tight pants.  And the play.  Sweet Jesus, the play.  A+ material.  A+.

But Loki’s character.  There’s so much that could be said here, and I’ve seen a lot of really good meta floating around already, so I’m going to stick to a couple key points.

I really like this version of Loki?  And I think it’s a good direction for his character to go.  In the first Thor movie you had him starting off as a mischievous character but not really “evil”, until everything in his world went to hell and he kind of lost his shit.  In Avengers, well, he’s Full Evil, killing people for funzies and generally fucking everything up.  In Dark world, I don’t think he actually repented at all sitting locked away in prison… until Frigga’s death.  This is the first time his actions have had a real consequence for him, and you can see the change it makes when he fights alongside Thor.  And now here I feel like he has, in some ways, almost come back to who he was in the beginning.

He’s not Evil.  He didn’t kill Odin when he easily could have.  As “Odin”, he didn’t kill Thor or have him banished or send him off on a death sentence of a quest, or even try to do anything like that.  It’s implied he just kept encouraging Thor to stay away from Asgard, giving him space to build ridiculous statues of himself and commission bad theater.  He’s Loki of Asgard again, but like… a more confident, evolved version.  He’s been through actual hell with the Chitauri, did the whole supervillain thing, and now he’s just hanging around pulling the greatest con Asgard has ever seen by pretending to be king.  He didn’t even kill Heimdall, who probably saw right through his illusion.  Just discredited him and sent him on his way.  The point is: no more killing (at least of anybody more important than a random alien lackey or undead soldier) and his leadership of Asgard is more IDGAF than villainous.  Like if anybody noticed anything weird, they probably attributed it to Odin going off the deep end after Frigga’s death, not “we’re obviously being conned by an evil mastermind”.

Side note: this whole Odin charade would have been going on for several years by the time Thor finally outed him.  I think it’s possible that by this time, on some level, he was almost relieved to be caught.  It looks like he’d been pushing things further and further to see how much dumb shit he could get away with, tempting fate.  He doesn’t seem that upset at the big reveal, so obviously kingship of Asgard wasn’t a critical position for him.  He was just doing it for the lulz and basking in his own successful scheme.

And then they go to Earth to pick up Odin, and I think this is really Loki’s first wake-up call in the movie.  He had to have been expecting either Odin to still be under his enchantment (and Thor will kick his ass), or for Odin to retaliate in some way (as Odin is famous for doing).  In either case, he would have been mentally preparing himself for a confrontation.  That doesn’t happen.  Odin accepts and forgives him, which throws his whole balance completely off.  Is he reassessing all of his life choices that led up to this moment and rethinking his entire worldview?  Probably not.  But he has to, at the very least, feel kind of shitty.  You can see that in how he stays absolutely silent throughout the entire scene.  Not even a single word of argument or a weak attempt to explain himself. It’s Loki’s special brand of remorse.  You know: the kind where you don’t have to apologize (and probably get mad when somebody tries to talk to you about it.)

Now for the next wake-up call, let’s consider that Loki landed on Sakaar weeks before Thor did.  And because he was kicked out of the Bifrost beam first, he had no idea how the fight between Thor and Hela ended.  Did Thor win?  Who knows?  From his vantage point, it looked like Hela was pretty savage and had a good chance at coming out ahead.  He had to consider the very real possibility that Thor was dead or otherwise out of the way.  And you’d think that somebody who professed to have such a desire to sit on the throne would do anything to find his way back to Asgard to see WTF was going on, but… he didn’t.  He stayed where he landed. I’m still trying to figure out his motivation behind this choice.  Waiting for the right opportunity?  Maybe.  But if he’d already stolen the security codes, what was stopping him from leaving?  I think it’s more likely that he’d given up (at least for the time being) and decided this was is life now.  It was his fault Odin died and Hela was released.  His fault Thor could very well be dead and Asgard destroyed.  Add Frigga’s death on top of that and I’m thinking he’s decided at this point that Asgard is better off without him.  

And you can see this in the infamous elevator scene.  Loki mentions wanting to stay on Sakaar, in what’s pretty obviously a setup for Thor to say “oh no brother you are way too important to me, we must stay together”.  And then he’d grudgingly agree.  Instead, Thor’s like “YEP, THIS HELLHOLE SURE IS PERFECT FOR A SACK OF DICKS LIKE YOU, LMAO.”  He asks if Thor really thinks so little of him, when he has to think so little of himself.  It’s kind of a crushing blow to hear that Thor agrees.

My opinion?  Loki wouldn’t have tried to betray Thor in the following scene if Thor had given him the answer and brotherly love he was looking for.  Like, he would’ve betrayed Thor eventually, because that’s what he does, but it’d probably be more like “Hey Thor now that we’ve saved Asgard, how about you go off and restore peace to the realms while I stay behind and definitely do nothing to undermine your authority and usurp power again”.  He knows Thor’s the only one who has a chance at defeating Hela, so it’s in his best interest to stay on that side of the equation.  It’s only when Thor turns him down that his Lokiness gets the better of him and decides to turn Thor in for the bounty and go his own way.

So why does he go back to Asgard?  Spite, probably.  I don’t think he ever specifically wants to be GOOD, per se.  He’ll always have a massive chip on his shoulder that’s giving him an excuse to be a stupid shit and ruin stuff for everyone, especially himself.  But I do think, at certain points, he has wanted to ACT good.  He wants to step up and do what’s right, either to prove something to himself (ie, killing Laufey) or to prove something to Thor (ie, showing up out of the mist with a giant spaceship to save the day).  That struck me as a real “you betrayed me but now I’m helping you, don’t you feel bad?” move.

Okay.  So.  Where does Loki’s character end up after all this?  Well there’s this really great post I’ve seen going around about how the existence of Hela helps him realize that, shit, maybe he’s not a Bad Guy.  Because if Odin’s own blood daughter can turn out that spectacularly fucked up, his own problems and hangups and crimes seem kind of paltry in comparison.  And I agree with this 100%.  Compared to Hela, he’s small potatoes.  Hela is now officially the Worst Child Ever and this has to make him feel better about himself.  It has to.  Before, Thor would probably complain to his friends about how terrible Loki was (in fact, he does just this when telling the snake story), but now?  Now Thor can complain to Loki about how terrible Hela is.  And Loki can be like, “Wow, yeah, she’s just off the fucking charts with Evilness.”  And then they bond with a fistbump, or whatever.

ANYWAY, the point of all this is…?  Loki goes through a lot in this movie, but I think he ends up in the right place.  I mean, obviously not geographically, because they’re about to be screwed up the ass by Thanos (I assume).  But he’s had a four-movie arc now, bouncing all over the place in terms of motivation and emotion, and it seems like he’s kind of… settled now?  He’s back where he started, at Thor’s side, but after all he’s been through I think he now has a better handle on what he wants for himself and where he thinks he belongs, as opposed to what others tell him he wants and where they say he belongs.  Maybe it’s just me wanting to see what I want to see, but he comes across as a character who’s more comfortable with himself.  Especially compared to the Loki who was lashing out so much in earlier movies.  He’s had his rebellious phase.  Now it’s time to start over rebuilding his relationship with his brother.

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Hahaha weary I talk about writing all the time, but I don't have a set tag for it at all. I'm really bad at tagging shit, because I tend to mindlessly reblog. The only search tag I have is my Avatar Tag which is really recent (and helpful only to me).

This is late af (because I started drafting a response and then had to stop and I'm just??? awful at responding- especially these days sob), but I've just gotten so used to people... not actually being interested, that I've given up on trying. I've only ever had two people even actually check my ao3 out, and they were both sporadic readers. Neither stayed long (as readers or as friends, sadly enough).

I'm quite pessimistic ^^; when it comes to friendship especially.

One time I entered an exchange in a Discord server, and I was writing this fic? My laptop had broken, so I was freaking out. I ended up writing ninety percent of the fic out by hand- it had drawn out pictures, a whole time system, and by the end it was twelve thousand words (when most of the other fic pieces were one to two thousand, even).

I was so proud of that thing. I bought a laptop asap in order to type it up and give it an ending and just barely finished it in time.

No one even read it.

Well, that's a lie. I glanced at the Doc and there was exactly one person viewing the fic. No comments on the doc. Nothing said in the server or in DMs. Not a single indicator that anyone had even seen it.

In a petty fit, I ended up deleting the copy of the doc I sent the server, and, for a few days, I felt bad for sabotaging it? But no one even fucking noticed lmao. I told myself I would wait until the month ended.

Well, I'm not in that server anymore, lol.

Honestly, I still kinda feel stupid. For being so proud, for going so far, for caring so much. I knew the server was a clique and I was just on the vauge outskirts of the group, but I tried so hard to get in. Lmao it was kind of pathetic.

It might not have been the first time, but I'm pretty sure it's going to be the last.

That's definitely a part of my writer's block- the whole "nobody's going to care anyways." It just leaves piles ans piles of WIPs in my docs that I'll never finish, but I could never delete them.

It's hard to write when it feels like nobody cares.

On a more positive note, I loved Bleach!

A lot of people complained about the Arancar Arc, saying that it was cheap to reuse the same trope with Orihime beind kidnapped, but like... Honestly, that's a rather unfair critique lmao.

Not only was it a showcase of how similar and different Orihime and Rukia are, like... from a writer's perspective, there aren't many other ways to get the protags to explore the Hollow World-

That arc also added more to- not just Ichigo's character- but ALL of the characters. Even Orihime, although her's was underwhelming comparatively. Bleach was pretty good at subverting the 'girl exists solely to be love interest' trope for it's time, honestly.

Yeah, the characters were sexy (Yoroichi, Orihime, Rangiku, the huge tittied big sis with the spirit canon), but they were also powerful!

Lmao, maybe I just don't see things the way everyone else does, because a few of my favorite Shounen's get shit for their treatment of their female characters (it's a genre for boys and Japan is really bad with misogyny), but like?? All I see are powerful ladies. They have the Obligatory Pervert Character, but said character almost never has actual influence on the story, and most of the time stops being relevant after season one.

I loved the worldbuilding of Bleach! Every single question had an answer in due time (Why is Ichigo so strong? Who is Uraraha? Where do the Hollows live? Why does Ichigo have a Hollow inside him? How do Chad and Orihime have powers? If Ichigo's dad was a Soul Reaper, how come no one recognizes the name Kurosaki?), but the problem was that they were all slowly addressed arc by arc, so if you didn't watch all of the arcs... you would miss it.

Uhh, you reblogged that "but Im tired" post like seven times back to back, you ok there bud??

Haha uhh... ^^; not really lmao.

I'll spare you the details, but I have been in an almost complete creative block since, like, February/March (which, like, lmao, depression always makes it hard to write, so I've sort of been dealing with writer's block since the start of 2019). My life picked up recently, which I thought would be good for my writing, but I'm just so fucking exhausted.

Before/during June, I was in a huge depressive slump, so I couldn't write anything through my sheer apathy. Now, I'm getting out of the house and working, but it's incredibly tough and horribly draining.

That's been my mood before all of this, but especially with working nowadays, I am just so fucking Tired.