#this is just a rant because I feel so helpless and so scared but I can’t tell my guardians because they’ll overreact

[kn11ves]

idk what it is with me and women but they just flock to me in my time of need. 5 seconds ive been in a room and they want to tie my shoelaces for me they wanna help me do things they want to give me advice and make sure im okay i what

[holy-mumther]

I truly felt so pathetic today.

I was just laying on the couch when my heart started pounding and racing, that wasn’t too bad. I drank some water, that didn’t help anything. My hands started shaking and my body felt so weak, I could barely move. It wasn’t painful but it was so uncomfortable and I was so scared, just laying there unable to speak or move. Everything was a blur and i couldn’t process the world around me. I genuinely thought I was going to die in that moment.

Time was strange and I don’t even know how long it happened, but I guess I fell asleep or passed out. I woke up two hours later and ate dinner, then it happened again but not as bad this time, I could still move.

I felt so helpless. There’s nothing I can do to stop whatever is wrong with me. I’m on 5 medications but things like this still happen. I’m so jealous of kids my age, they get to enjoy their breaks, go out and have fun with their family and friends. I can’t do that because i might end up back at the ER.

I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. I hate this.

[welovelouisandbucky]

My two favorite Slytherin boys headcanons bc why not?

T/w: few swear words, my writing, and some out of character stuff because im delusional, little suggestive if you can call it that, and yes aside from that if you find any pls let me know:) also my writing

A/n: hi y'all, I just want to say pls be kind as this is my first time writing for these characters so if there's any mistakes pls overlook them thank you! Also I tried my best to keep this GN so everyone can read and enjoy this and yeah that's it, have great day!!!

S/n: requests are open so feel free to send in ideas, I'll love to write what you guys suggest. Also feel free to ask for more Slytherin or any Harry Potter characters you want headcanons/blurbs about, I'll love to write and add more🤗

Masterlist

Mattheo Riddle

(gifs credits to the rightful owner)

Also this one's long as you can see I got carried away😁

Mattheo who always looks forward to see your face after the end of the day

Mattheo who will fight any one who looks at you funny or talks shits about you

Mattheo who glares at every single person but the seconds he spots you his eyes softens up in millisecond in adoration

Mattheo who holds your books or bag everywhere you guys go, because God forbid if his princess/prince ever has to worry about those things when he's there to do them for you

Mattheo who waits after you when the class is over so he can walk you to other class while he pulls you as closer to him as possible

Mattheo who searches for you before every Quidditch game so he can have his good luck charm kiss from you

Mattheo who pretends to hate and act tough when you baby him while secretly melting into a puddle inside every time you call him sweet names. ( He absolutely loses his shit when you call him baby but shush it's a secret 😌)

Mattheo who has probably drawn you only few hundreds of times in his super, super duper, very classified sketchbook that no one knows of.

Mattheo who always encourages you to do things you want to do but are too scared to actually do it.

Mattheo who always supports your decisions, even if they are stupid

Mattheo who appropriates your little hobbies and interests even if they are weird, he just wants to you to feel safe and heard around him

Mattheo who's always there for you whenever you need him, always there to hold you close on bad days because he knows how it feels when you are at your worst and there's no one to comfort you (thankfully he doesn't have to worry about being alone now that you are here as well as his friends)

Mattheo who struggles with expressing his emotions and feelings but still tries his hardest to show them to you because he wants you to know how much you mean to him.

Mattheo who's not that good at comforting but still pulls you to him because he can't stand seeing you cry and not do anything about it.

Mattheo who willingly listens to you rant about everything and anything because he loves hearing your voice (even if half of the things you said are going above his head but hey at least he's trying! ☺️)

Mattheo who hates not knowing what's happening around him because it makes him feel helpless and he hates feeling weak. That's why he always, and I mean always knows what's going on everywhere

Mattheo who's touch starved (bc yk all that being dark Lord's son and growing up with death eaters and all) and craves your touch. He's always in any way touching you, whether holding hands, or a hand on your thigh or waist just any kind of physical touch because he wants to be as close to you as possible.

Mattheo who loves loves cuddles, doesn't matter who's spooning who as long as you guys are in each other's arms.

Mattheo who loves you so much that it physically hurts him, and there's nothing he wouldn't do you

Mattheo who will always protect you no matter what

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Theodore Nott

Theo who loves to tease you throughout the whole day just so he can see you all worked up for him

Theo who looks forward to your quick comebacks every time he comments on something he knows he will get reaction out of you and absolutely loses his shit when you roast the shit out of him for it

Theo who calls you sweet endearments in Italian because he loves to see your confused smile, contemplating whether he roasted you or called you something sweet in foreign language

Theo who keeps you company while you finish your homework in library

Theo who loves spending time with you on Astronomy tower (he just in general loves spending time with you but astronomy tower is more special to him) while you are snuggled up against his side as you guys look at stars.

Theo who will read with you, doesn't matter what kind of books you guys are reading as long as both of you are together.

Theo who prefers reading classic novels but will happily read cheesy rom-com books with you because you said so (secretly he enjoys them too but hush🙈)

Theo who actually enjoys reading poetry, and sometimes when you guys are alone he'll read few to you

Theo who's always there to comfort you whenever you have problems with your family because he knows how it feels.

Theo who's always there to stand up for you in any situation

Theo who starts to smoke less around you if it bothers you, but if you smoke too then both of you guys will smoke together at the Astronomy tower

Theo who loves silence and doesn't enjoy talking much but is always ready to listen to you talk for hours, you are the only person he can talk and listen to for eternity without ever getting sick of it.

Theo who loves when you wear his clothes

Theo who said I love you first time when he saw you curse someone out because they said some shit about him, he doesn't really care whatever shit they were saying but seeing you stand up for him made him feel emotions he never felt before.

Theo who just absolutely loves you and wants to spend entirety of his life with you

Thank you so much for reading, likes and comments are very much appreciated. As well as positive criticism, pls don't hate this is a safe place for everyone!! Bye bye have great day!!!

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Enzo's headcanon!

[screechingfromthevoid]

@disastertourwaterdeepedition

Sorry for the weird fucking post but like tumblr straight up ate your ask?? I had to search and screenshot from my email??

Its like super fine I love big rants and big feelings (especially about the blorbo of the month).

Whoa buddy if you wanna talk about a rant. This got so long I'm putting it under a read more.

I'm not sure any of this is above board conscious thought process. When he looks to Orym, when he thinks about how he feels about Orym, I think Dorian, king of compartmentalizing, gets a rush of all three of the things in the post. He gets a little too lost in thought looking at the way Orym's hair now tries to curl against his ear or how well tailored the armor is to his body, he first gets hit with the Will guilt. Then he thinks about "ohmygodtheresawaron" and he'd shovel all of that down. Because its not time to think about Orym and him. But he knows by the way Orym watches him "sleep". He knows by the way Orym refused to be princess carried in Aeror. (Seriously dude Dorian princess carries everyone. It would have been less suspicious if you let it happen). He knows because Orym didn't see his husband when they were in Zephrah. But when he dares himself to actually think about a possible future together, he uses the big three to shove it down. And no, he has no clue that Orym thinks he doesn't return his feelings. (Wow you're right. Pronouns are hard)

Lol to finally answer your question: I'm not sure! Because the thing is! Orym has gone down twice in a battle with Dorian there! And honestly if Orym being on death's door doesn't make either of them confess, i'm not sure what will! (thats a lie I do have an idea). But like Orym went to the moon and back and almost died on the moon and all the count communicate to Dorian was "I miss you"!! Orym nearly died twice in one battle and he didn't think to give Dorian a sloppy, "If I die again I want to have kissed you once" kiss before going in for another round of getting hacked on. Dorian watched him go down and had to bring him back from death's door (one failed save scared the shit out of me) and he didn't think to give Orym a "We need you, I need you" kiss.

My unfortunate thought process, which I can't decide if I want it to come true or not, is that Dorian has to get hurt. Like when I say hurt I fucking mean it. Taken down in a round or two, two failed death saves, hurt. Because then Orym will have to face losing Dorian again. Face losing the man he loves, again. He pours a healing potion into Dorian's mouth because warlocks don't have a single healing spell. (Just checked). Orym feels so helpless in saving Dorian, because a healing potion isn't nearly enough to keep him up. He starts to cry over Dorian's (now conscious) body. He whispers between sobs "Not again, not again. Dorian you can't leave me. I love you, please, I never got to tell you, please stay alive." and Dorian, having heard all of that, reaches up to cup Orym's cheek and says. "Alright, just for you though."

Or something like that.

As much as I would love for them to be adults and just talk to each other. I know thats not going to happen. (Please, Robbie, Liam, prove me wrong.) So I think major tragedy will be the reason they confess to each other. Because they're idiots in love with a lot of weight on their shoulders.

[sweetbisscuit]

I’m so freaking mad right now, just saw someone comment about yutaxmaki saying it’s garbage and their moment in that classroom isn’t anything like ??? Did we read the same chap of jjk 0?? What do you mean that meaningful moment isn’t anything?? Their whole interaction and arc was one of the best foundation to ship them!!

I don’t usually do this, but I’m so frustrated that I’m going to explain why I love Yuta x Maki ship.

We saw yuta being this insecure and mess of a person because of rikas curse, in everything he did he felt helpless, scared, and didn’t know how he’d live his life. Then here comes maki, the person who made him face his insecurities and showed him a way, a guide, somewhere he can start in order for him to live his life and in a way that gave yuta the push and resolve to change, resulting in his major development, tell me thats not nothing.

Both showed their vulnerabilities to each other and both acknowledged and accepted that. Maki in her own way, made him take a step to change and helped him get better, to fight and be confident in his skills and this things creating an impact within yuta. he literally looks up to her, admires her even, and that admiration, that respect of her strength and resilience, causes Maki to feel confident and accepted, almost as if saying her existence wasn’t a failure like her family claims. Even with the short interaction we saw, those developments was something that, for the both of them was impactful and meaningful that caused them to develop in a good way. With Yuta finding the resolve to change, being more confident than before and Maki being able to acknowledge her own existence. They bring out the best of each other and thats one of the reason I ship the two.

It’s funny really, rereading the first chapter of jjk 0, esp their first interaction, you can see how Maki saw a bit of herself in Yuuta. Maki, from the zenin clan who have felt helpless due to feeling of inadequacy, who was always told over and over that she was weak, a failure, a disgrace from her family; and Yuuta, despite having the protection of the curse felt helpless because of that curse. who convinced himself that he deserved punishment, who, with his tremendous power is considered special (i want to list more ‘cause they parallel each other so much, like don’t get me started on that yuuta-gojo and maki-toji parallel) and yet despite all of that, both of them want to prove and be confident that its okay for them to live.

Anyway, that’s my rant. Feels like I just rambled and said nothing at the same time, but oh well.

Also, just ‘cause you have a diff ship doesn’t mean you have to disregard one of the crucial developments that shaped the two of them and call it nothing, you don’t have to belittle another ship just to praise yours.

[creature-wizard]

Man, witchtok and witchbook sure do love the narrative that Christianity stole everything from them, huh?

So I see that you asked a mutual of mine the same question, while also asking what can be done about this problem. Since said mutual suggested that you come to me for advice here, that's what I'll post.

First of all, understand that this is nothing new. this has always been a popular narrative among neopagans, because it gives people a narrative in which they can frame and talk about their grievances with society. "The Catholic Church stole Christmas" isn't factually true, but it's easier to learn and spread than advanced socioeconomics. People believing this stuff is not a personal failing. It's a consequence of systemic failure. We live in an information crisis, with conservatives effectively sabotaging education at every turn and algorithmic feeds designed to serve up whatever will get the most clicks, not what's most accurate.

The problem, therefore, must be addressed systemically. This means participating in politics, voting on whatever elections you can vote on, spreading relative political news, whatever. Do whatever you can do keep the GOP out of power or from gaining more power. Get involved in political activism circles if you aren't already.

You can also put out your own information to counter the misinformation, and boost or promote good info. Work with the limitations of social media - short, memeable content is always more likely to spread.

When you catch yourself wanting to complain about something you hate, try to find a way to transform it into praise for something you love. Like instead of complaining about people who post misinformation about the goddess Aphrodite, find some cool facts about Aphrodite to post instead.

When you're creating educational content of any kind, follow this very simple guideline: don't shit on the dinner table. That is, don't mix big ranting gripes in with content meant to educate the masses. If you got a big gripe to get out of your system, put that gripe in its own space.

When you do have to address incorrect beliefs specifically, try to avoid shaming believers, because not only does it not work, it's just unnecessary cruelty. Nobody misinforms themselves on purpose. Nobody wants to be a bad person. What we have are a lot of people suffering from systemic fuckery and just want to not feel sad, scared, and helpless, because feeling that way hurts.

(This post is an example of how I took something frustrating and put a positive spin on it. I wrote it when I was feeling pissy about the kinds of problems you mention in your message.)

Prepare to deal with the same misinformation a lot. Like not just intellectually and emotionally, but physically - create FAQs, masterposts, whatever. It can get really frustrating trying to deal with that stuff a million times, but the reality is that there are billions of people in the world and they're making new ones every day.

Keep a list of resources on hand that you can share with people you're talking to, depending on what they're searching for. The fewer steps/resources that are needed to access said resource, the better. Keep a list of podcasts, scholars with YouTube channels, blogs with good information, whatever, that you can just suggest to people looking for info.

And finally, take care of yourself. If you find yourself wanting to rip people's throats out or something, it's time to take a break and focus on yourself.

[brainrotgoverner]

FINALLY have time to watch an other episode of the Scracthed Universe series so I'm just gonna write this post as I watch it cuz I'm OBSESSED with them:

The way Jumpsuit signaled Fixer to get behind him permanently altered my brain chemistry. THIS is the reason I'm watching this series so slowly, im writing them a fic wherever they like of or not XD

Okey, pausing my 2013 fangirl rant to talk about how GREAT the infected are

The mutilated faces are a basic yet extremely effective way to show the virus. It corrupts their faces, like corrupted files. Because that's exactly what they are, they are in a video game and they are made out of digital blood and 01100100 01101001 01100111 01101001 01110100 01100001 01101100 guts. The faces are unnatural and unique to the character (and even according to game mechanics as the Spy's can hide it), it makes you feel uncomfortable in a way only uncanny valley could and I love that XD

ALSO this moment I'm losing my MIND here with this series-

Another reason I like their dynamic so much is even though Jumpsuit is more comfortable in this environment, Fixer is in no way helpless. Shown in the way how he efficiently held up his own before Jumpsuit showed up to save him from the infected Spy (WHICH only got the upper hand because he was about to backstab him) in the last episode, the way even though he panics frequently and Jumpsuit calming him down definitely helps, he throws in ideas on what to do, fixes sentries and jumps right back up to headshot that Demoman after getting blown up. I like how they both have strong suits in different departments and complete their dynamic. I'm fairly positive they are going to make it out <3 please don't tell me I just jinxed them

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT THING?????? THIS IS ACTUALLY DISTURBING LIKE I'M NOT KIDDING- the other infected were spooky, yes, but this is downright bone-chilling this is WRONG THAT THING SHOULD BE PUT DOWN the only reason I added scared Fixer there is because I genuinely can't handle looking at that thing in full size BUT I might be biased since I was always uncomfortable with hyperrealism in animated horror lol

WHY WON'T IT DIE?????? I mean, I'm happy about the full-white eyes since it's less creepy but NOPE THE EYES ARE BACK JUMPSUIT DO SOMETHING YOUR BOYFRIEND IS SHAKING

To be honest I'm not really sure if the BONKBOT can access the map interface and or if he knows how many people are on the map thanks to his visors or something BUT he is a brilliant character XD he is a perfect way to lower the stakes and sprinkle in some comedy without it feeling out of place

ANOTHER BADASS SCOUT (with AMAZING vocals I mind you) AND HE IS DROPPING SOME DELICIOUS LORE

...what's going on with Fixer?

[ithinkinggenshin]

Yae Miko with a GN!reader and Yae is scared that she might be accidentally hurting or manipulating S/O, so she's confused as to why S/O keeps coming back to her, scared that she might be accidentally gaslighting S/O when in reality she's doing nothing wrong

"Loving you, killing you, isn't it thrilling? You've said enough from those guts you've been spilling through Crying and begging, a lovely sound I tear at your soul, but you still stick around What I've found is a treasure indeed A friend who can bend to my every need I'll use and abuse you and never feel bad, until suddenly, funnily, you take my hand Tangle you tight in the yarns that I've spun And I'll do it again, to get what I want Pretend that I'm harmless, I'm actually alarmed this is something charming to anyone... (wow) The fact can actually make Death wanna Die? I'm the one that you love, and I'm making you cry And it's "just me", after all"

"You know, I want you to care that I want you to stay So I swear I won't blame you if you turn away At the end of the day, I will smile and give in to this burning and vile Original sin 'Cause hell is the realization you're selfish And drawn to the loving, the soft and the helpless I can see through that facade that you wear When you're honest, and promise you'll fight the despair And I'll say it again, that I know I'm the worst So then how can you spend so much love on the person that hurts you Like I do? 'Cause inside, I can't hide that I cannot desert you And if I'm "the world" to you, surely you never stood even a chance at all, didn't you? It's me, after all"

This request was based on the song "Ijimeko Bully" by Mori Calliope so please try to focus most on the themes of the song also here is the overall lyric analysis made by the song writer/singer:

"The basic theme and motif is, it is a self-hating song. …The self-hatred is accompanied by confusion as to why someone still continues to love them. Think of like, for example, a kind of Beauty and Beast situation. There’s a terrible beast who doesn’t understand why when they continue to hurt the person they care about, the person that they care about keeps coming back to them. …This is coming from the perspective of the beast.

Something I want to make really clear is, in this sense, because this is coming from the beast’s mind, there are mentions of things like hurting, abuse, et cetera. This is because, since we’re in the mind of the beast, these are just things that this villainous being believes that they are doing, right? So perhaps they aren’t actually hurting someone. But they hate themselves so much that any time they give the bluntest little quip against someone that they care about. while to that other person it might feel like, “ouch that was kind of a harsh word,” to the beast, perhaps, it feels like they’ve done something horrible and struck and actually hurt that person much more deep than what may be the truth.

So for example, while I don’t actually go out of my way to go on rants and tirades and angry shouting at anyone because I really don’t like confrontation, sometimes I’ll give a sharp little remark or say, “Oh, that wasn’t funny.” But it’s like, it feels to me as soon as I’ve said it I regret it, and I say, “oh man, oh shit oh fuck, oh no,” and I feel like I’ve really hurt that person. There are times when I’ve apologized afterward to people that I care about, and they say, “What are you talking about, it’s fine, y'know it was a little annoying, but it’s not that big of a deal, dude.” And maybe the root of that is because the beast actually just hates themself. So there’s the self-hatred part. ‘Calli’s the beast?’ Maybe!"

Bully?

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: Yae Miko

Pairings: Yae Miko x GN! Reader

Warnings: Angst

Word count: 655

Synopsis: Oh little red, what an innocent face. Let me eat you up. You’ll sit well in my stomach. …Won’t you?

Extra Notes: I really like this ask. I like the lyrics of the song too. Very thoughtful. Thanks for requesting!

Yea is known for making people sweat and squirm. On occasion she’s made some of them cry. At first she thought you were simply a masochist, continually coming back to her with that big, dopey smile and offerings only to be turned into a flustered mess when she teased you. But you kept coming back. Then she thought you were trying to bribe her, everyone who comes to the shrine has some sort of desire, whether or not they want to admit it. But you voluntarily said that the only thing you wanted was to see her. Finally, she thought you were a blind, lovestruck fool. No one really loves her. No one even truly knows her. You just want to have a pretty and powerful woman like her wrapped around your finger, but if you think Yae is going to fall for that, you’re sorely mistaken. But you surprise her once again. You claim to not care if she loves you. You admit to having a crush on her. Yae cuts you off with a quip about how she’d never date a human. You look down shamefully but continue on and say that you’d still like to be her friend. You enjoy seeing her in action and the conversations you have with her are entertaining. And that one day, You can know the real her.

Yae is stunned by your confession. Taken back by your sincerity. She sorely regrets making that snide remark earlier.

The sunset light hits your face beautifully, and you smile at her. It’s time for you to go back to your boring, little human life. Yae almost doesn’t hear your question of if she wants you to come back the next day, as you always do. She waves you off and says that you can do whatever you want. She’s hit with another wave of guilt as your face falls.

The response was something typical of her to say, but it still hurt for you to hear.

Yae isn’t sure how to react to this rare feeling of discomfort. Since when is she uncomfortable with being herself? Normally she basks in a person’s crestfallen face or at least is disappointed in it. But just now, with you, she felt… ashamed of herself.

You disappear down the mountain and Yae retires to her chambers. She doesn’t sleep. One night of missed sleep is nothing to her. Instead she lays in her comfy futon and thinks about all the times she must have hurt you. She says so many things in a day, so used to saying whatever will get the best reaction out of people.

She used to think it was you that she had to be wary of. Oh how the tables have turned. The reality is that it’s you who should be avoiding her.

Miko feels as though she’s been stabbed as the thought of you avoiding her crosses her mind. What a terrible life that would be, she thinks to herself.

But…

She can’t argue that it would be better for you. Even she has to admit to the damages she must have done to you. The ways she’s baited you, letting her teasing go too far. She’s taken every gift you gave, every compliment, everything. Such an adorable, little piece of sunshine. Little red riding hood just trying to pick flowers for grandma and the big bad wolf— Yae came along and ruined everything. Stole your innocence and hope. All while smiling about it.

Yae is torn between wanting you to come back and hoping you stay away. She’s a bad influence. A bad person. She’ll only continue to hurt you. It’s who she is after all. You’ll never truly know her. You’ll never make it past her walls. You’ll start climbing and she’ll tease you and laugh when you fall and land on your ass. It’s just too entertaining. It's too mean. She should tell you to stay away.

Even if it makes her heart sting.

[titikawai]

Why show Polin disappointed me :

Hi everyone, back on another long as rant. I just finished this season and felt betrayed so I decided to type !

I read the 4th book not really knowing what to expect as I boycotted season 1 (left traumatised from reading half of the first book) only watched season 2 (which I love so much) and didn’t like the Queen Charlotte season (sorry not sorry).

To be fair, when I started reading the book, I couldn’t care less for Polin as I did not like the way show Colin treated Penelope like a dog, only there to make him feel better about himself. I had hopes that Penelope would run away to find a better suiter after that terrible finale on season 2. I actually loved the way Eloise confronted her about being LW and the fact their friendship is challenged.

Even though I heard Colin was going to be an ass in this book I still gave it a go. I was surprised and ended up loving the book so much I bought it to put it on my shelf. I found out that, in the novel, Colin was way less of an ass and a much more sensitive character that sometimes did not understand his own feelings. I absolutely loved the plot involving his jealousy towards Penelope’s writing in comparison with his own. I understood his fear to become a nobody, to not find his purpose or something he would be « good at », known for. His need to prove himself to his family and others that he is more than a pretty face.

I also loved how fervently Penelope defended her work as an extension of herself, someone she wanted to be, had always been but was to scared to be in real life. I loved how the book explained how one would feel if they had never received loved and thought they were doomed to never get it so much so that they do not even try anymore.

Finally, I loved how pure their loved felt. In that regard how their relationship was more love than lust (even though there was still some heavy smut scenes). I loved how they did not just f*ck, but MADE love! I felt like their relationship wasn’t the « passionate » type which to me is a good thing because it means you love the person much more than you love their body that you worship because of the soul that inhabits hit. I felt like Polin was the perfect couple as they completed and accepted each other (apart from that scene where he grabs her by the arm and every mention of anger management like WTF stop giving main male characters toxic traits to try and make it seem hot to the audience, it is not). Also, I especially loved how Colin made it his priority to protect Penelope and especially her emotional state. He is often portrayed fearing for her reputation as he does not want her to isolate herself and go into a pattern of self hatred. He hates the way she speaks ill of herself and will not let anyone, that involves her mother, to disrespect her.

I now realised why I didn’t like show Polin as much as book Polin : it is because Show Colin has nothing in common with his book alter ego. In the show, Colin didn’t even realise how bad he hurt Penelope and managed to rekindle their friendship by telling her how SHE make HIM feel (here again taking the spotlight from her and drawing it to him) and not how much he cared about her well-being and self-image.

I absolutely hated how they turned Colin into just another rake turned right by the « ugly girl who had a makeover and that he now notices because of that particular reason and how fuckable you now look ». This storyline should have stayed in the 2000s ESPECIALLY with Polin. Indeed in the book Colin gets feelings for Penelope once he grew up and became more mature enabling him to love someone. While Penelope matured and started to loved herself and that helped her accept love from someone else and expect nothing less.

In the series, I hated how helpless Penelope felt. Firstly because she did not clap back to haters as she did in the book but also because Colin did not come to defend her once. He didn’t not care to stand up to Cressida or his friends / the gentlemen when they insulted Penelope. Wouldn’t you stand up for anyone if they were insulted and ran of crying!? ESPECIALLY if you are supposed to be in love with her. He did not care to embarrass her before a room full of people and her potential future husband while he could have just asked to see her in person (this element was added for drama but still gives huge red flags)

I hate how they turned Colin’s passion for travelling into a joke or a metaphor for sexual tourism. This only makes him appear more shallow (even though he came up with gifts for his family which I found cute). It makes it seem like him travelling is just an excuse to appear deep in society and this gives such fratboy vibes it almost made me ill. Where is the poet, the writer who paints landscapes in his mind and puts it on paper! He was turned into a smut writer!!!! How disappointing!

Why is it that he didn’t get to find out LW’s identity before he asks Penelope to marry him?!? What about their common love for writing? Him wanting to marry her anyway because her being LW makes him love her even more : because he loves her for her, their relationship and not because he had wet dreams of her. I wish they put in scenes where they had openhearted conversations about for instance : her feeling bad because of her spinster status, how she is scared no one will ever love her; his writing; his quest for purpose and put in none of that rake or Lord Debling/husband nonsense they created because they needed to fill a whole they dug!

Oh and WTF was that carriage scene music choice!?!?!???!!!!!!?? I cringed so hard. I liked the carriage scene overall even though I didn’t like the events that led to it

On what I loved…

I ugly cried when Portia was surprised her daughter ever believed someone would love her and refrained from holding her when she desperately needed a hug => if you are the child of a narcissistic mother, this hits so freaking deep

I loved Francesca’s storyline with the earl!!! It was genuinely sweet

I loved seeing Show Colin jealous

The modiste!!!! I love lady Delacroix so much and would have liked to see more of her friendship with Penelope. She could have helped her boost and confidence past the physical makeover level

I liked Cressida’s backstory and the comment on internalised misogyny

Wished there was more Penelope / lady Danbury moments

Loved Penelope’s sisters and her mom. I like how they portrait her toxic relationship with her daughters by focusing on her small remarks (it makes it much more realistic)

Kanthony

Wished Polin dance scene on Snow on the beach lasted longer to show their attraction without needing to make it too sexual (the eyes are the door to your soul)

Costumes, décors etc. As always

Weirdly enough, the first kiss scene

Thanks for coming to my TedTalk

[plaguerat00]

SO.

I finally watched Jordan Peele's Nope that was released in 2022 on Prime Video and is the fact that I'm like a year late to watching it gonna stop me from ranting?

Nope! (Har har)

HOL-EE SHIT. Jordan Peele has once again done an outstanding job. I personally find this his most scariest movie yet, and yeah it might be because UFO horror movies that are done right scare the hell out of me (War Of Worlds) because there's always that unspoken thing of how helpless human beings are. You can't fight it you can only run and hide, and Nope shows that PERFECTLY.

The Star Lasso Experience is HORRIFYING. All of those people getting sucked into Jean Jacket's throat and slowly being swallowed and judging by those squishing noises right before the blood rain maybe even chewed is absolutely terrifying. Jean Jacket's sounds? That popping noise? Fucking creepy as hell!

Most of the movie taking place during the day in wide open desert with no cover from the giant extraterrestrial predator flying over your head and trying to suck you up into it's maw? YES.

And Jupe, I feel so fucking bad for his character and how he turned his trauma into entertainment, and fatally exposed himself and others to the same scenario he and his costars were with Gordy. I've read abour the symbolisms with the other shoe dropping and victims' traumas being turned into clout and I love that Jordan Peele addressed these things but did it in a way that people could figure it out without being told directly.

I could go on and on about this movie, it's just, SO, GOOD.

[maririririr]

Here’s a copy and paste rant from months ago!! I did this rant on a discord server so it’s pretty messy…

TW: mentions of su!cide And abuse

I don’t even know how to start but like the representation of mental health in Kagepro is amazing. I’ll start this off with like Jin doesn’t directly tell you “hey this character has this” but you just know the character has it. With Kano you know he has a compulsive lying disorder (along with some other things) because of how his music video represents it and the lyrics to his song + all the events and feelings he went through in the 5th LN. You actually get a representation (at least I haven’t seen this in like any other series) of being abused physically and emotionally, kanos mom used to abuse him physically, but a couple hours later come back crying and apologizing and it would repeat, but he didn’t think it was her fault and he loved her so much. It was only mentioned like twice in the LNs and he was really little when it happened but it’s still such a strong form of a lot of abuse that happens, not just the “I abuse my child, I feel no regret and my child hates me” type thing. Then Kano blaming himself so much for ayanos death he blames someone else for it (this ties in with survivors guilt kinda.) he also deals with getting manipulated….I can rant on abt kano but there’s other characters. We’ll go with Shintaro, obviously it’s known he has depression that’s just like there, but the representation of trauma he gets is SO GOOD. Again Jin doesn’t just go like “hey Shintaro has trauma.” But you just know he does because of the amount of representation. LTM he gets a couple of flashbacks to things, but things that aren’t just like “haha trauma is only abuse and witnessing something horrifying”. LTM and Shintaro represent that perfectly, and also him blaming himself for Ayanos suicide (survivors guilt/just guilt that comes along with trauma). Then also getting nightmares from trauma, like even if a lot of them are just Yaki talking to him in his dreams it’s still such a good representation. Also him pushing everything else away just to not forget Ayano. In the LNR Kano turns into Ayano, all the feelings Shintaro once had when he was with Ayano before came back, and he was afraid she hated him. I can go more on Shintaro but again other characters. Momo having a craving for attention when she was little because Shintaro was so much more intelligent than her. Even though she had parents who loved them both equally, she still felt not good enough, mostly mentioned in mr2, but she directly tells Shintaro she’s going to learn how to swim before him so she can be better than him in something, while not having a hateful feeling towards Shintaro. Then also mentioned in mr2 and the anime she has survivors guilt, thinking it was her fault her dad died. Then Seto in the LN route. Because he wanted to protect someone or not let go of someone so much he ended up trying to neglect and forget everyone else he loves, him thinking what if no one loved him all this time, basically running away from all his problems, and at the end of the route scared everyone would be mad at him for feeling the way he was feeling. In mr2 Seto felt helpless saying it was always like this and he can’t do anything to help, basically blaming himself for not being able to help anyone. He’s such a mess in the LNR I love him sm…..

Hibiya obviously has trauma and survivors guilt. In Otsukimi Recital he has tons of flashbacks even when he’s trying to be cheered up. Going to the park but getting flashbacks to Hiyori at the park, seeing Momo pet a cat and getting flashbacks to Hiyori petting the cat, etc. Blaming himself for not being able to save Hiyori as Hiyoris still “dead” and stuck in a loop.

Ayano with loneliness as seen in additional memory. She’s alone in the daze, and she misses everyone. But she KNOWS she had to do it, she sacrificed her health for everyone else’s even though she had to watch it do nothing in the end.

Ayano So desperately wishes to be the person everyone relies on, she loathes in it. If she can’t save anyone, what’s the point of her being there in the first place?

Haruka and Takane deal with diseases. Takane has a sleeping disorder and it makes her faint randomly, can be fatal. Haruka has a disease (most likely a heart disease) that is very fatal.

Haruka deals with things like wanting to be stronger because of his illness, feeling that sense of loneliness because he can’t physically be strong enough to do certain things, and having to visit the hospital frequently. But he wants to be himself (shown in anime.) In mr2 he deals with loneliness as everyone at school ignores him, he doesn’t have any friends but he still tries to be happy. In the hospital he finally makes a friend, he meets Takane. Takane has to leave but Haruka is stuck in the hospital due to his illness, but later Shintaro is taken to the hospital and Haruka becomes really good friends with him. But he has frequent nightmares abt Takane.

Takane deals with bottling up her emotions and feelings, she also deals with survivors guilt, thinking it’s her fault Haruka died. She was so caught up in her own pride she ignored him, she didn’t notice when he passed out from his illness. In mr2, she also doesn’t have any friends until Haruka. she deals with jealousy as well. She comes back after leaving the hospital to visit Haruka, even bringing gifts with her. But she sees Haruka and Shintaro playing video games together and laughing and stuff (btw she introduced Haruka to video games and played them all the time with him). She ran out of the hospital jealous and ended up committing su!cide

Even tho Ene is the same person as Takane, she deals with way different things in route xx and mr2. In route xx, she does her absolute best to try and not let Shintaro commit suicide, she does her best to distract him and does everything she can. She has to bottle up everything with Haruka, and keep everything from Shintaro. She’s afraid if she even brings up that she used to know Shintaro, it’ll give Shintaro bad memories of Ayano and the past. Yet she STILL tries her best to make Shintaro happy and distract him. She ends up failing, getting deleted and watching Shintaro kill himself. Plus she has to deal with her teacher literally being the one planning their deaths like??? (Even tho it’s technically not her teacher but yeah). Then in mr2 she admits she was running away from all her problems to shintaro, and says that Shintaro saved her as much as she saved him. (Ene and Shintaro stuff makes me AUGH)

[faunabel]

agh sorry rant abt my family again

i am sosososo tired of my parents being overprotective. i can't even step outside for two seconds without them projecting all their nonsense. what makes you think it's even remotely appropriate to into detail about how i'll be kidnapped and murdered and raped. if i tell you to stop, you fucking stop. your paranoia should not be my problem. "protecting me" is a bullshit excuse. you didn't even protect me from yourselves so why do you think i'm foolish enough to feel safe in your presence or believe anything you have to say? not to mention how the hell is going into detail about how i'll be hurt protecting me?

all you do is stress me out while simultaneously make me ignore the hell out of you because you're exhausting. no if i step outside nobody is going to punch me in the face. what the fuck makes you think that's okay to say to your child? then screaming at them for rightfully getting annoyed by the constant fear mongering? you even pulled this when we had a house. in a safe, completely quiet neighborhood. like someone was waiting around the corner to get me at all times.

it really pisses me off!!!!!! can i not have any sense of autonomy!!!!! i am not a child and i am not incompetent and you are not protecting me by putting that shit in my brain!!!! if i tell you time and time again i don't like it then fucking stop!!!!!

agh. i'm so mad. i'm so tired of being disrespected. stop scaring me by going into gruesome detail for zero fucking reason. stop disrespecting my discomfort and requests for you to stop. stop treating me like a dumb, helpless child by telling me obvious shit. or needless shit entirely unprompted. oh my goddd. stop justifying your bullshit. i do not care. in fact if i want to get murdered that's my prerogative!!! if i want to put myself in danger i have the right!!!!!!! but i'm not putting myself in danger i'm stepping two fucking feet out the door for fresh air! AGHHHHHH!!!!!!!

ironically i love when people are protective over me but this isn't protective this is just absolute controlling nonsense. they make me feel unsafe existing in the world for no good reason. and i'm not naive for fucks sake i'm so tired of people treating me like that. I Know Things. just because i choose to focus on the good doesn't mean i'm not aware of the bad. i can take care of myself. i'm especially not naive for not believing every person around me is secretly plotting to rape me. like what the fuck. get a grip and piss off. i will not live my life miserable and paranoid just to please you.

[winns-stuff]

LO RANT:

So everyone won’t take Minthe’s backstory and will continue to try and rip her a new one and insult her but you all will be up in arms to defend and victimize Hades’ disgusting behavior because of his backstory right? Okay. See this is what really annoys me about THAT part of the fandom, I’m not saying Minthe is a good person or anything like that I’ve literally talked about the way I feel about her in a earlier rant and I’m not saying “yes, yes excuse her behavior because she has a sad backstory!!” because as I always say for Hades the backstory is only ever going to be an explanation not an excuse or pass for her behavior, but at the same time it’s real hypocritical for so many people to use that exact statement when trying to defend Hades. Let me explain.

One thing I absolutely despise about this whole thing is how so many people continue to say that Hades has trauma and he has issues, “everyone’s been sooo mean to Hades no one respects him or treats him right!!” (which is understandable because look at how this motherfucker acts ON THE DAILY, we all read the exact same chapter he yells, manipulates, gaslights, and talks shit about all of his employees but they’re supposed to bend over backwards for him and forgive him even though he won’t fucking stop?? he doesn’t deserve respect, respect is earned not given and he has done absolutely nothing to correct his attitude nor has he compensated for his actions to literally everyone who deals with him in the Underworld, I don’t want to fucking hear that shit) but they’ll bash Minthe so fucking hard for having the exact same fucking issues. You guys act like Hades is just this perfect man who can do no wrong when Hades is literally a man-child. When Minthe and Him started their relationship he basically used her, he made it so that she got fired from her old job just so she can be his assistant that he can just take out all of his stress out on whenever he wants to. That’s why he gave her the job, so she can be completely reliant on him and not go anywhere. He knew that buying her that apartment and clothes, basically everything she had would make her financially helpless and what did he do instead of giving this woman a better job or at least a damn paycheck to get her on her feet? He went and found another woman in the exact same situation as her, scared and financially unstable. Needing someone to rely on, maybe not for sexual or financial things but it’s definitely emotional. The whole thing was started by him and no I am not blaming him for Minthe’s behavior but I am blaming him for using her and creating this mess in the first place.

Honestly, I’m proud of Minthe’s arc. I am excited to see her development and to see her grow as a person, wanna know why? Cause we still don’t see development from fucking Hades yet everyone wants to comment on how amazing he is, HES FUCKING BORING. He’s not a male wife either stop slandering male wives like that, he does not deserve the title of male wife, all he is is a predatory loser who obviously can’t handle mentally and even physically mature women because he knows that they won’t take his bullshit. So many people are eye rolling about hearing Minthe’s backstory but hers is probably one of the most interesting ones we’ve seen this whole fucking comic. You all accepted Hades’ backstory with open arms even though they’re doing the same shit! Stop insulting and berating Minthe and not doing the exact same to Hades.

Not only that, but at least Minthe is getting some actual developmental changes. Hades pulled out a man’s eye in season one and he has not shown an ounce of remorse or care, we never see Hades doing anything except being a whiny fucking dickhead that can’t fathom the fact that he’s the fucking problem. Minthe at least showed some damn self awareness and self reflection, she’s in the damn process of maturing and becoming better! Hades is still on the same shit he was on the 1st season and ITS SEASON FUCKING 3!! I’m so tired of everyone praising such disgusting characters and getting upset at people pointing out just how uncomfortable they get. Your fave is an asshole, he’s a manipulator, he’s a hothead, he’s a cold piece of fucking work that does the bare minimum. That doesn’t mean you have to stop liking him, I’d just be so relieved if people would stop pretending like he’s fucking Bob Ross! Like honestly, I wouldn’t even have a problem with people liking Hades or favoring him if only they’d stop shaming and gaslighting and being so hostile with this weird delusion that he’s a good person, not only that but I cannot stand the hypocrisy that comes out of this how are you mad at one person saying that they favor Minthe but you favor and defend Hades with your whole life no questions asked. You’ll shame that person for liking Minthe because she’s a bad person who’s made terrible decisions that’s affected everyone around her but you cross the line to Hades that’s also a bad person who’s made terrible decisions that’s affected everyone around him. Make it make sense please, it’s getting super annoying.

But anyways that’s the end of this rant, honestly I’m just really disappointed about how some of the fandom treats situations like these. I feel like this comic makes it it’s mission to have as many poorly written female characters as possible just for them to be hated on by the fandom. I’m probably overreacting though I am really upset at the response of some fans. Anyways, this was completely and entirely biased and it should not be used as fact since I literally just started writing this with little to no evidence, I’m basically running on thoughts and piling them together. These are just my plain raw emotions about the situation and how I chose to react, a little extreme and more aggressive I guess so I’ll fix that later. But if you agree or disagree is both fine I don’t mind either, disagreeing or agreeing with anyone is human nature and it would be really creepy if we just agreed on everything honestly.

[love-life-dead-or-alive]

Disclaimer: This is gonna be a very weird emotional rant that I can't sent to the person in question so tumblr it is...

I don't know how to keep you interested in me as a person. Like without resorting to sending nudes, which I'd rather not because it's not something I really like. But as a person I don't feel like I have much to offer that'd keep you interested in continued interaction with me, and it's driving me a bit more insane than I usually feel.

It's actually pretty annoying because I don't recognize a lot of the things I'm doing anymore. Like I keep my phone on vibrate overnight just in case you text me, so I can wake up and text with you? Which sane person would do that? I'm constantly checking my phone, I listen to the voice notes you sent to me in bed and I'm actually willing to cancel preplanned appointments just on the off-chance I might be able to meet up with you.

I would never normally do any of those things? And yet here I am yet again staring at out conversation with this weird empty-hopeful feeling inside of me.

I've been in love plenty of times before and I also have a few people right now, but I don't remember ever feeling this helpless after puberty. And I'm turning 30 next year so it's very unlikely I can blame it on hormones.

Like I'm not even sure I'm falling in love with you or if it's just that I got so much dopamine from being with you, that my brain got confused. But I constantly think about you, I constantly want to send you things, ask you things, check in with you...most of all I want to see you again. Those pesky 430km between us don't scare me.

And you answer like 10% of my texts and are probably constantly busy. And I just wish I could find a way to keep you even slightly interested in me so you'd want to see me again as well.

[opossum-by-night]

Little sad rant ahead because it's been a really really fucking hard week!!!!

So partner is at the point where he's basically panicking and shutting down multiple times a week at his job. Some days are okay but it's getting more frequent that he calls me freaked out and crying and wanting to just walk out and quit. So obviously that's fucking terrifying and sends me into panicked emotional tailspins pretty much every time. Like, it's very bad. And I'm doing everything I can to support him but obviously I can't do anything material about it so I feel incredibly helpless and it's just awful and stressful and I feel sick all the time.

I did help him get his resume updated, and he's applied for a handful of jobs and has an in-person interview this Monday. It's for a job that he's very (pretty much perfectly) qualified for and is similar to the one he has now in terms of job duties, but the specifics are stuff he's more interested in and it's a smaller plant, which I think would be good. I think he could absolutely do the job, and it would be a significant pay raise. But I'm very afraid that 1. he won't get offered it or it won't work out for some other reason and that will send him into a total meltdown, or 2. he'll take it and then just burn out again 6 months later and we'll have to do this whole motherfucking thing again.

And as much as it would be wonderful in some ways for this job to work out, the whole idea of moving fucking ✨terrifies✨ me!!! Especially moving to a whole different state!!!! We have friends here, doctors and therapists here, it's familiar, I know where I am, etc. etc. and the prospect of starting all that over is terrifying!!!! At least when I moved here I knew a couple people!!!!!

And there are so many potential good things about this job. I'd be within driving distance of my best friend and also my parents, we'd be in a lower cost of living area, it's a state that my therapist is also licensed in so I could probably keep seeing her remotely, it's a smaller city (but near a big city), it would get him out of this job he hates, and it pays better. But I'm so scared I can barely be hopeful about it. I've been trying to be optimistic and not panic about shit down the road yet, but it almost feels like I'm lying??? Or faking??? Or something????? Like I know being anxious doesn't solve anything but idk what else to do????

[hetaero]

This isn't trying to be a horny or a hater comment I am just genuinely curious. I have never heard of a hair cutting kink before, and I was wondering where you feel the dynamic sits in that. Is it related to the act of service and having some say in their appearance or is it something more specific to hair cutting? Is it limited to just cutting the hair or does it involve other things like washing or dying it? Are there specific hair types or styles you prefer? Is it limited to just head hair or does it extend to something like trimming beards or shaving body hair?

Hopefully that isn't too many questions again no hate I am just genuinely curious

Don't worry, curiosity is perfectly normal and healthy, I don't take it as an insult lol I kept it vague because it's genuinely kind of a complicated kink. I think it's mostly a fear/trust thing, that someone relents control to me and allows themselves to be vulnerable enough to do something like that. Maybe I'm biased but I find it to be an inherently intimate activity— you're letting someone touch you and stand over you and alter your appearance and move you around while you're pretty much helpless and restrained to a chair, lol. I'm surprised there aren't more kinksters that caught on to that. Some people are much more possessive and rough with this kink and see it as an ownership/branding/forcefulness thing, but I'm much more of a caring type of domme and this definitely goes hand in hand with my mommy headspace and helping someone through any fears and discomforts surrounding the experience if that makes sense (although most people aren't very scared or nervous throughout haircuts but sometimes it's repressed)

for me it's just the actual cutting process, not drying or washing, but I know some people who like that. And just head hair. I shave people's faces sometimes but that's a platonic care thing, doesn't get me off. as for hairstyles, it's usually whatever suits the person and looks good. I tend to like classier hairstyles on men (that make them look like cute little Boy Scouts) instead of the newer trendier ones (that look like they're about to throw gang signs).

ironically I've always liked guys with longer hair (like, up to shoulder length) but my kink makes me want to cut it off 😭 it's a paradox. If it looks nice long, I'll just trim it, but my preference is definitely cutting hair with clippers. The vibrations and loud sounds add to the kink. Over time the preferred length I like to cut it to has gotten shorter and shorter, but I still draw the line at like, buzz cuts. My dad is bald so that association would ruin it for me, lol. But yes, if it looks good and it's cute and short I'll like it, especially if I get to run my hands over the freshly shaved parts of it or if the length of it embarrasses my partner a bit. That's a big part of it. Idk maybe my kink is just to be a fussy mom who knows 💀

anyway sorry for this GIANT rant I hope I answered everything, there's more intricacies to my fetish you can feel free to inquire about but yeah