#this is about tumblr but it is also about the wider state of publishing lol

[mqfx]

can I be a bitch for a second. the fact that most people on Tumblr voted that they're best at writing "angst" is both typical and inaccurate. many people THINK they're best at it, and many people prefer writing it because it's a good way to process emotions. but speaking from a technical standpoint much of the shit churned out by the populace is overwrought, maudlin and trite because the lot of you are sheltered middle-class suburbans whose greatest anguish is that you are guilty for/of possessing certain privileges and you believe you need to suffer to make up for them or to earn the pain you feel

[wrinkledtulip]

SMUT!! Caitlyn Kiramman x Fem!Reader

Caitlyn Kiramman x Fem! Reader

18+ Smut!! Fingering, praise, AFAB reader

It's my first time writing smut, or publishing on tumblr for that matter so pls be nice lol <3 Also this is unedited.

Life as an enforcer was always gonna keep you on your toes.

Whether it be chasing drunkards on the streets of Piltover, patrolling the overly large council grounds, or the occasional graveyard shift if the sheriff was cruel enough. 

But what you found most challenging of course, was learning to handle weaponry, at least the ones that weren’t your first choice.

For a strange yet defended reason, all enforcers were required in training to use a rifle, a standard gun. And so, had led to countless hours in the training facilities aiming for wooden targets. 

Technically, you could handle one. Yet your aim was not incredibly precise.

Ever since that Kiramman girl joined, the handling of guns seemed to reach for higher standards. Apparently her family was renowned for their handling of the weaponry. 

You hit the target every time but the sheriff expected bullseyes in a row. 

Huffling in frustration you reloaded the barrel, shouldering your rifle as you aimed once more. 

But as you peered through the iron scope, a posh voice rang out behind you. 

“You’re not hitting the bullseye because you have a poor trigger pull”

Kiramman. 

“Haven’t you got a cocktail party to be at Kiramman?” you huffed, lowering your weapon as you looked back at her. 

The two of you shared a brief moment of a solid yet intimidating stare, her blue eyes bearing down on you. 

You both laughed. 

“You know me better than that” she chuckled, knowing your words were nothing but playful banter. Despite her status and the other enforcer’s distaste of her, you had grown to like the girl. Though she had a tough exterior she was sweet and playful. 

“Come to show me up then I presume?” You said, rolling your eyes as she stepped closer to which her words caused her eyes to roll. 

“You know how pathetic it is watching you stand here for hours aiming over and over, we’ll lose bullet stock because of you” she spoke, shaking her head. 

“Well I have to practise, Marcus has been up our asses since he’s seen your shooting skills… he’ll do anything to keep you from winning if it means dragging the rest of us along” You huffed, shouldering your rifle again as you turned back to the range. 

“Oh” she sighed “I didn’t realise I had placed a burden like that onto you.”

There it was again, that softness that sought for nothing but do good for people. 

“I enjoy the challenge” you answered, hoping your truth would console her as you aimed and fired again. Your body shook slightly with the recoil as the bullet was about half an inch off bullseye. 

Caitlyn chuckled, shuffling through her pockets as she stepped behind you, balancing a coin atop of your rifle.

“Don’t you remember what I said before? Try again” she said.

“I don’t want your money.”

“That’s not what it’s for. I said, "Try again.”

She stepped back as you sighed, keeping your rifle still as the coin balanced on its smooth top.

You aimed again and as you fired, the echoing sound of a coin clattering to the ground could be heard.

“Now what was-”

“You have a poor trigger pull.”

“What?”

“You heard me.”

You sighed, agitated by her unexplained actions.

“You should be able to fire without the coin falling, it means you move the gun as you pull the trigger and you can’t properly withstand its recoil” she explained, stepping back towards you as her hands reached out to your form.

“Your stance isn’t firm either. Open up your chest a little more and stand with your legs wider” she stated, her hands moving in correspondence with her words as she adjusted your shoulders and hips, her fingertips grazing your form.

“Try again.”

So you did, focusing as you aimed once more and fired. This time it was closer to the centre of the target, your body the stiller as the impact of the recoil began to subside. 

“Better. You just move the gun when you pull the trigger, learn to isolate your finger, you need more finger strength, I suggest working on that before you create a bullet shortage” she said with a small smirk, raising her eyebrows as she looked out to the target. 

“And how would I do that?” you huffed, lowering your weapon. 

“Just exercise it” she shrugged.

“And how would I do that?” you sighed, turning to her. In genuine curiosity you had no clue how to exercise it apart from just shooting, but that would waste bullets.

“I have my own ways of doing it.”

So that’s how you ended up in Kiramman’s bed, a withering mess as she showed you her own ‘special’ ways of literal fingering exercises. 

She had you bent over her lap, her legs crossed to raise your hips as her spare hand roaming over your backside as you moaned into her silk covers. The subtle echo of her fingers squelching in your hole could be heard.

"Not so tough are you now pretty girl?" she cooed, smirking down at you. By now you were bound to be leaking across her thigh as her fingers slipped in and out of your hole. Every time you inched closer to a release, she would just roam her fingers across your folds instead.

"Kiramman please.."

"My name is Caitlyn" she said, that dominant tone in her voice. The same tone she used to get you to lift up your own dress and pull your own panties down for her. God, it sent shivers down your spine.

"Caitlyn please-"

"You finish when I say you can finish" she commanded, her finger slipping back inside you, eliciting a long whine as you gripped at her bedsheets. Her fingers curled to hit that sweet spot inside you, sending electricity through your body as she only smirked at your needy whines. It was clear you were desperate for release; her fingers were soaked as a small stain began to appear on the fabric of her thigh as you leaked in need of proper release.

"I thought this was a finger exercise-" you whined out.

"It is, for me at least, you just get to enjoy the benefits of it" she said in that sweet little smartass voice of hers as her fingers curled up inside you again, causing another loud moan to slip from your throat.

"fuck, just let me cum" you whined, your thighs trembling in anticipation as your body begged for that high, evident in the pleasurable sounds that escaped your lips.

"Ask me properly and I just might" She said, continuing to slip her fingers in and out of you.

"Caitlyn please... please let me cum" you begged quietly, gripping at the bedsheets as you could barely keep it together anymore. She leaned in, whispering in your ear as she smirked, her fingers speeding up.

"That's a good girl" she cooed. You moaned needily.

Her fingers moved quickly inside you, sliding in to continuously press up against that sweet spot. Your thighs began to clench around her hand yet she persisted as you whined and moaned. You felt that knot in your stomach begin to build as your increased volume made it evidence, however Caitlyn showed no intention of stopping or slowing down anytime soon. Just what you wanted. Every moment felt like ecstasy as she pulled you to your high, shuddering and moaning as she felt you come undone upon her fingertips. She rode out your high, continuing to milk you of your essence until you settled to a whimpering pant, feeling her fingers slowly slip out of you.

You glanced back to see her tongue swirl around her own fingertips, your sticky consequences being lapped up by her tongue as a dirty smirk rested upon her face.

"Those aren't even your trigger fingers-"

"So? Is there a problem darling?"

"No."

"Good girl."

[kati-the-archer]

THE SABIAN SYMBOLS [Symbols of the Degrees of the Zodiac]

I have seen that the interest in zodiac degrees has increased in the tumblr community so i thought it will be a good idea to introduce you to this topic that some astrologers use as a tool when reading a chart and show the different ways in which the degrees can be interpreted.

★I apologize for any misspelling★

THE SYMBOLIC DEGREES (x)

✨The symbolic images associated with each of the 360 degrees of the zodiac, also called "monomeric".

✨They come from various sources, the most ancient one being the Thebaic calendar.

✨It is believed that monomers date back to a millennium BC, but some authors believe that they were already known in the time of Ramses II.

✨In addition to these Thebaic degrees of Egyptian origins, there are also Hindu degrees

which Sepharial passed down to us with his translation of the Volasfera

✨Both degrees, Thebaic and Hindu, belong to the traditional astrology.

✨In the 20th century, much more modern symbolic degrees appeared: the Marc Edmund Jones degrees, also called Sabian Symbols degrees (Saba symbols in reference to the queen of Saba).

✨Its origin is the result of a cooperation with the psychic Elsie Wheeler. He picked up a set of 360 blank cards where they wrote a note and a degree on the back.

✨Neither she nor Marc Edmund Jones knew the degree involved during the lectures. they only took into account what the seer was experiencing.

✨Marc Edmund Jones discovered the structure that emerges from the 360 symbols, and their relationship.

✨Rudhyar, upon discovering Jones's book, gains a great interest in the subject.

✨He asked Jones for permission to include a version in his book "The Astrology of Personality," published in 1936. This publication introduces Jones's Sabian symbols to a wider audience.

More than a dozen astrologers have, through their own musings or with help of intutitives, come up with lists of zodiacal symbols worthy of consideration, the most well-known are:

La Volasfera - Antonio Borelli, translated by Sepharial pseudonym of Walter E. Gorn Old

The Symbolic degrees of Charubel pseudonym of John Thomas [Welsh astrologer, clairvoyant and healer]

Symbols of Isidore Kozminsky [esoteric author and occultist]

The Sabian Symbols - Elsie May Wheeler [psychic-medium] and Marc Edmund Jones [astrologer]

HOW TO READ THEM:

📝To understand the meaning of the symbolic degrees in any given chart, please read the description first.

📝With the symbol in front of them, the reader can practice their own interpretations

📝 Symbolic degrees must never be taken literally.❗❗❗

📝The images describe certain details of an individual in small dashes which could be likened to impressionist painting.

📝Each word used in the description of an image has its own value.

📝Let yourself be soaked with the words and the actions described, and that you abandon yourself to their inspiration and dynamism. This is how you can grasp people's motivations and environment.

📝The meaning of an image taken as a whole may not necessarily apply.

📝When dealing with several descriptions, it is the sum of similar words and the recurrence of analogous bits of sentence which indicate the nature of the prevailing influence.

📝Try to infer the main energies from the text and identify repeated or converging trends.

📝Attention should be paid to repeated words, and that synonyms or similar meanings, and even similar sounds ought to be put together.

📝Do the sum of the analogies found and, if the total is significant, you can draw the conclusion that its influence is active.

📝In order of importance: [but you can do as you please lol

1- Sun-Moon

2- AS MC DS IM be cautious about their accurateness may not be reliable, since a four minute gap in the time of birth moves the angles by one degree.

3- Mercury, Venus and Mars

4- Jupiter and Saturn

5-Uranus, Neptune and Pluto

⚠️ A very important disclaimer: ⚠️

❗symbolic degrees belong to a branch of fatalistic astrology.

❗Their interpretation must be regarded with the utmost caution

❗especially given the fact that different authors give different meanings to symbolic degrees.

from time to time we receive new infomation about the symbolization of the zodiacal degrees, wondering if "they are reliable"

It is impossible to affirm that they all are, since we don't have a knowledge of 360 different people, each born under a different degree.

so...HERE IS AN EXAMPLE!

🌼 18-19 VIRGO 🌼

LA VOLASFERA :

« A husbandman or cattle-dealer holding a stock -whip in his hand »

SEPHARIAL : [who claimed his symbol set was a translation of La Volasfera, by Antonio Borelli.]

“It indicates a rough and rustic nature, with a taste for excitement of the chase, or for the breeding of cattle. The nature is rugged, but genuine; lacking in suavity; critical, but invested with unequivocal sincerity, which will cause him to be respected.” The native will prefer country life and its freedom to the more varied but less thorough liberties of the town.. It is a degree of ROBUSTNESS.

CHARUBEL :

Symbol: A strong farmer’s cart, and a horse to match. The cart is loaded with farmyard manure.

Meaning: Denotes a frugal, industrious person. An agriculturist, and one who studies that branch scientifically.

KOZMINSKY :

Symbol:  A rough fire mountain, from several parts of which smoke is rising. On one of the slopes laborers are working.

Meaning: Denotes one who exercises patience and persistence in his life’s work, and whose position is often attended with much worry and personal danger. His soul is full of enterprise. He is magnetic,psychic, and extremely active. It is a symbol of Endeavor.

WHEELER :

Symbol: A OUIJA BOARD.

KEYNOTE: The ability to contact deeper recesses of the unconscious psyche and sensitiveness to psychic intimations and omens.

Meaning: The ouija board is to be considered here a modern device similar to many ancient instruments used for divination and prophecy. Certain states of threshold consciousness are stimulated by such a use, and what the experience produces may vary greatly in quality and in origin. The release of unconscious material has lost the explosive force pictorialized in the preceding symbol, yet at this stage there is still no conscious and willful control over what reaches the ego-consciousness.

This is the third stage of the thirty-fourth sequence of symbolic phases in the life process. It is at best a stage of transition which stresses a passive openness to the unknown. The glamour of it may subtly pervert the mind of the aspirant; but in some cases, this can be the first manifestation of INNER GUIDANCE. The difficulty is to correctly evaluate what or who does the guiding

It is important to read into the description based on the nature of the planet in question

For example, let's take the case of a moon in the 3° of scorpio:

🌙 LA VOLASFERA:

«A lyre, upon the arm of which there hangs a wreath of laurels»

🌙 SEPHARIAL:

–So you can say that this person will choose to express in a creative way the depth of their emotions that the moon in scorpio gives.

This is indicative of a nature almost wholly given to the pursuit and cultivation of the fine arts. The mind is harmonious, generous and peaceable. The life will be free from disquieting and distressful elements, and the inherent harmony and refinement of this character will be reflected in all his works. He will strive by the use of the gentle arts as well as by the more liberal, to illustrate and interpret the finer emotions of the soul. In art or the drama he will meet with great distinction.

if you want to know more about this topic...

You can check the rest of the 360 degrees here:

http://docshare04.docshare.tips/files/23078/230782881.pdf

http://rockymountainastrologer.com/DegreeSymbols/SabianSymbols.html

https://hominycreekhoroscopy.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/la-volasfera.pdf

A list of books :

https://www.astrolearn.com/astrology-articles/booksondegrees/

[nudibranchiethoughts]

Disclaimer: this is 90% of a ramble I wrote in response to a thread on my main blog :-) im not editing yet b/c I've topic jumped to celtic languages vs anglocentrism. Also I found out tumblr posts have a limit so I'm gonna continue the thread in reblogs LOL

Addressing a common theme in the original discourse thread, especially with regard to using LGBTQ people as tools or weapons: I am very literally an LGBTQ person in the flesh, I associate with almost exclusively LGBTQ people (just the way the mop flopped). Unless I am somehow weaponizing myself - I’m interested to see the reasoning. I’m self-IDing on this post for reference - I’m queer, bisexual non-binary. I actively participate offline in queer direct action/mutual aid + post covid, hopefully organising some things in my local area.

Canon in works of fiction is a fun guideline (though it is important for works of fiction to be finished before their canon is presented) for artists and otherwise creative people to work with. I don’t actually care enough to view content on Alex’s YouTube channel and when reading the “official” wiki for character backgrounds there was no mention of sexuality. This leads into a secondary point, the word of Alex in non-canon media is not the word of god. Unless there is direct, real LGBTQ rep in the finalised product it can only be taken as lip service - show in game that there are LGBTQ characters, not in related and non-canon media like YouTube videos. It’s the same kind of slapdash representation used by JK Rowling pre-TERF days to make her works seem more progressive than they are. To clarify: I’m not making a direct comparison - Alex is not JK Rowling. It is the nearest example that’s easy to search and verify. To condense this: If it is not on the ‘official wiki’ with a source in game, or in the game with no room for confusion that the characters are LGBTQ, it is lip service at best.

The majority of my issues lay outside of the development process and involve what I perceive to be really unfair treatment of the fanbase (people are giving him money and he has only JUST implemented Osana. It has been 6 years. Sole developer or not, that’s an incredibly long time when she probably should have been added in at the beginning to fix balancing issues and time schedule conflicts - it would have been easier) as well as issues with wider anime content that have directly influenced his game development and attitudes towards women.

Yandere Simulator is misogynistic and I would venture to say Alex is too. This is pretty easily summed up in the first regard with the panty shot mechanic + the reduction of women into being either rivals or NPCs with no personality or emotion. I would be interested to see if the final product passes the Bechdel Test or not. I genuinely think I would have had less of an issue with this first point if he had just openly stated that Yandere Simulator would be a fanservice ecchi game with a yandere character - at least it would have been open about the intentions. Instead it’s being gussied up as a social sim + assassination game.

Tackling the misogyny in plainer terms: the objectification of women in Yandere Sim both continues to push stereotypes of women only being objects to gain or exploit as well as the sexualisation of school uniforms and youth. Even if there is a disclaimer that they are all 18, the sexualisation of school uniforms and “schoolgirls” contributes to the idea of younger girls being more sexually desirable. There are multiple published studies regarding the impacts of sexualisation of younger women and its impacts on both their mental health and their safety - I’m going to cite my sources at the end of this if you do want to read up as well as pulling the relevant information from the articles if needed. This is of course not limited to Yandere Sim and is more than prevalent in wider anime/manga content as well as a lot of content outside of that. I am not touching on the fact the games mechanics include torturing and murdering school girls, I think that’s pretty self explanatory. No media exists in a vacuum - it should, will be + can be critiqued in its wider social context. Yandere Simulator is absolutely not exempt from this.