#this because boy did i ramble a lot

[technically-human]

Hey, don't cry. Ghost yuri, okay?

(Now that you know the girls, they need to meet the boys!)

[edwinisms]

it’s actually so wild to me that this fairly quirky YA type show gave both of its main characters deaths that can, in one way or another, solidly be considered hate crimes. they were both flat out murdered as a result of being A) gay and effeminate or B) brown (south asian, specifically) and you could argue whether or not those kids thought of it that way in the moment or whatever but the bottom line is that they would not have been in the situations that killed them if they weren’t of their respective minorities. like legitimately that is a ballsy choice for this kind of netflix show, let alone for the two Main Characters, and i respect it big time

[landfilloftrash]

seeing ghosts everywhere you go?

are they all in your head or are they here causing that chill in your bones?

[sysig]

for requestober ! my heart's been aching for yanderapy for a while and i would like to get something about them :3 i don't have a specific prompt . i do like to see them more on the angsty-unhealthy-relationship side lol like some of the requests you made last year . overall , just seeing anything about them would be nice . X3

Day 1 - Sodium Chloride Couple

[lulu-the-bugaboo]

Interestingly enough, there are so many different views on why Ace didn't run away in marineford, despite the fact that Oda tried to provide an explanation. It feels like I have barely seen the same conclusion between two people.

[glass-trash-bab]

Augh I love my dnd character so much. I love him so much. And I love all the characters from his backstory that the rest of the party doesn't know yet.

I have so much love for them and I can't even form a coherent thought.

Also hi mutuals I'm sorry I haven't posted shit all yeah. I'm knee-deep in this dnd hyperfixation and almost everything I'm drawing is revolving around that.

[quietwingsinthesky]

Do you agree w/ the fandom interpretation that john was so homophobic he’d have beaten up and abandoned his sons for being gay? Cause sure, he grew up in the 60s as a mechanic and then later became a marine during the vietnam war, but i also don’t think homophobia would’ve necessarily been a priority for him? Like obviously he’s not gonna be the full on supportive and politically correct loving dad, but i think that the fandom’s general opinion on that is pretty warped by people’s relationships w/ their own fathers

I do think this is one place where people tend to project. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that; working out our issues through fiction is healthy and good! I don’t think there’s any canon proof of it beyond, as you said, him being a marine from the sixties who would probably not be super knowledgeable about being queer, maybe a little apprehensive about it from what he’s absorbed through the culture he grew up in. I think we’d be correct to point out that if Sam or Dean were queer, he might be uncomfortable about it, he might try to avoid the topic, which is in of itself hurtful.

The thing about me is: I fully disagree that John was ever physically abusive towards his kids. At most, I will bend this interpretation to say he was probably too harsh on them while teaching them to fight and that maybe he and Sam have traded blows before when arguments got too loud (by blows, I mean, probably shoving with the yelling, you know, assertion of physical space. It seems realistic to me that two people who have been using violence for a long time to protect themselves, and for John, his family, down to the hierarchal power he’s put in place of him -> Dean -> Sam, would resort to it when things got too heated.)

(I also think that sometimes fandom’s insistence that John had to be physically abusive can sometimes get a little insulting because it perpetuates the idea that emotional abuse does less harm and can be overlooked and for flattening out John’s character in a way the show very literally pointed to and said He Did Not Do That. This is the entire point of Max’s episode in s1, for the show to point out that their experiences of abuse were different. How well it was handled is arguable, but I take it as clear evidence that when we talk about John’s relationship with his sons, the focus should be on the emotional abuse, the codependency he developed with Dean from a very young age, his neglect of them both, his attempts to suppress Sam, etc. And I appreciate this about the show, because you can’t talk about any of those things without also talking about why they’re happening, why John thinks this is necessary, how he loves his sons and isolates them to protect them and ends up doing more and more damage that will never leave them through their entire lives.

I’m sure there’s depictions of John being physically abusive that handle it with the same amount of nuance that the show handles him being emotionally abusive in canon. I have not seen them, unfortunately. I’ve seen John being physically abusive 90% of the time just being used as shorthand for him being Bad and Evil and A Terrible Father. Which does not interest me. So I will remain here as a staunch defender of He Would Not Fucking Hit His Kids.)

Sorry, okay, we got off topic there this is about gay shit.

The point of All Of That was for me to be able to say, John’s not going to react to his sons being queer by beating them. He’s definitely not going to abandon them. Hello? John Winchester? Abandon his kids? John Winchester, the guy who has been keeping them in warded up motel rooms their whole lives and moving them across the country out of paranoia the demon who killed his wife could find them if they say anywhere too long? John Winchester who only trusted one or two people to ever look after his sons when he went on a hunting trip too long? We think that John would ditch his kid because they’re queer???

Like I said, I think the most realistic reaction for John, (if not just flat out him going ‘that’s fine, now load this gun while I time you because that’s more important for me to know that you can do’, because. He kind of has bigger priorities to worry about here. Like werewolves.) would be discomfort and pushing it out of his view, ignoring it. Which would still fucking hurt! And would have horrible effects on Sam and Dean both, would encourage Dean to repress it if he thinks his dad is ashamed of him, would push Sam away if he trusts John with this fact about himself and can’t be accepted easily.

I just think this is truer to John’s character.

Anyway. If nothing else here persuades anyone reading that John Would Not Fucking Do That, well. He thought his kid was demonspawn, remember? He thought Sam was corrupted and might not be able to be saved. I don’t think you can get more clear queercoding than that, and you know what John’s very telling response was to that information, to finding out something a thousand times more terrifying than Sam being gay ever could be? To refuse to look at it. To insist to himself that whatever Hell wanted with Sam, he wouldn’t let it happen. To tell Dean to take care of it, because even when John is certain that his son might literally become a demon, he could never bring himself to pull the trigger on him. Because he loves Sam.

So like. He literally would not do anything for the much smaller realization that Sam is gay. His son has demon blood that might turn him super evil, and John still wouldn’t hurt him.

I guess what I’m trying to say here is, I try to keep the fact that John loved his sons at the forefront of my mind when I’m writing stuff about him, because I think if you let that slide out of your head, you can very easily make him much worse, much more flat than he was in canon. The real picture of him is just an extremely flawed man in a terrible situation who fucks up his kids as much as he protects them.

And also he wouldn’t care about them being gay because JohnAzazel real and true and they fucked sloppy in that hospital basement-

[weidli]

tatort: gefallene engel // yann tiersen: sur le fil

in honor of the one-year anniversary of me watching this episode <3

[ratatatastic]

you can tell who actually came here to fish and knows the horrors of the sun and who is just here for fun silly pr and have no intentions to deep sea fish

[edwinisms]

banging my head against the wall every time I see someone reblogging a post of mine with tags mentioning the ‘unrequited confession’. we have been OVER this it is NOT a case of unrequited romantic love it is completely canonically up in the air as a possibility. listen to jayden revri himself and be enlightened i am begging you

[scattered-winter]

wait hang on who are the hot gay boys in that gif set you reblogged

HGLHSIERGLSJDGALKSHGLK i was gonna put the [do you have any idea how little that narrows it down] meme but im pretty sure u mean this one <3 and in any case i will always be down to ramble about the Sillies(tm)

ok so those guys in particular are from the fox procedural called 9-1-1 Lone Star, which is a spinoff of the original 9-1-1 (which just got moved to abc after some Drama that went down so my tag for it is 911 (not fox) lmaoo). but both shows are about first responders (firefighters, paramedics, dispatchers, police) with a particular focus on firefighters. 9-1-1 (the og) is set in LA, and primarily focuses on the 118 firehouse and the firefighters/paramedics there with some other characters in the main cast who work as dispatchers/police officers (the police storylines are more often than not FULL of copaganda which sucks but the main focus is on the firefighters so i'm able to enjoy the rest of the show). 9-1-1 Lone Star is pretty much the same except it's set in austin texas, and is about the 126 firehouse. there are onscreen queer characters in both (in the og there's a married lesbian couple raising a kid, and in lone star there's the aforementioned hot gay boys [one of whom is unfortunately a cop but i swear to GOD i will get him out of there. one day.] and in lone star there's also a trans man and wlw woman in the main cast.) and my favorite thing about these shows is the found family !!! like these are the shows that have endeared firefighter aus to me because they live together and eat meals together and just. the familial/platonic love is So Powerful and it legiterally makes me cry to watch. like there's romance ofc but genuinely it's one of my favorite found family medias to ever exist. its So.

of the two the og is my favorite for a LOT of reasons, but they're both pretty enjoyable !! lone star definitely has more of a comedic tone than og (theyre BOTH funny but lone star doesn't have as many somber intense moments as og does, and they're much more spread out so there's a lot more room for goofy shenanigans. but og still definitely has plenty of those) and the team dynamics in them both are just...ughhh <3333

HOWEVER. lone star has ..... Him...(derogatory)...he's the fire captain and (despite lone star SUPPOSEDLY being an ensemble show with no Main Character) is in fact. the Main Character. and he's the blandest most obnoxious crustiest white man to ever LIVE. he gets most of the storylines and he's constantly propped up by the writing as The Coolest Guy Ever when he's just . not . i hate him so much it's unreal it's soo so unreal (<- biting the bars of my cage) BUT the rest of the team ??? absolutely love them. like i DO love lone star a lot its a great show with great characters and dynamics but it just has. the most annoying guy to ever live front and center when ITS SUPPOSED TO BE AN ENSEMBLE SHOW FEATURING EVERYONE EQUALLY. grr. anyway. og does a much better job of being an ensemble show, and i could not choose a favorite character of the main cast if you held me at gunpoint. angela bassett is there. i am gay. jennifer love hewitt is there. i am very gay. etcetera.

AND SINCE YOU ASKED SPECIFICALLY ABOUT THE LONE STAR GAYS ILL TELL YOU A BIT ABOUT THEM

so one of them is tk strand (firefighter/paramedic, also the son of the Main Character (derogatory). i have many many many thoughts about that. i would probably get gunned down in this fandom if i ever said them aloud.) and the other one is carlos reyes (a private detective TO MEEEEEEEEEEEE but unfortunately fox is full of cowards who refuse to see the truth. they wanna have a gay cop in their show sooo bad </3) and they're kind of the main romance of the show (there Are others ofc but theyre like. The Focus. which is fine ig but i do wish there was more focus on other relationships because in general lone star isnt as good as the ensemble thing as og. but i already complained about that so i digress.)

now they're a fun pair because one of them has been shot, frozen almost to death, and otherwise put into a coma on MULTIPLE occasions. and it's not the guy whose entire job is to get shot at. (the whump in both of these shows.....................absolutely effervescent. im thriving here.) and they have a very fascinating relationship because their personalities fit together really well but they have different ways of coping with shit that kind of tear each other apart a little bit. which is of course terrible for them but incredible for me. and the writing is at times ridiculous. soap opera-esque, even. they're ridiculous. i adore them. they cannot catch a god damn break and i love that for them even more. <3

[snickerdoodlles]

For the ask game: f, m, and n!

:D! ty friend <333

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

i!! spent a silly amount of time choosing a scene for this!!

from Silver for Truth fic:

“You actually thought we bought your bullshit? You thought Kinn did?” Kim sneers. “You know what? Why the fuck not? If you can convince us you’re telling the truth, we won’t hurt you. But Tawan…” Kim smiles, thin and sharp, eyes as cold and wild as a shark’s. “Khun and I have had six years to think about what we’d do to you for breaking Kinn’s heart. So please. Keep your fucking trap shut.”

tbh i just love all the dialogue in this fic. brothers looking out for brothers! brothers being shy about loving each other! kinn and vegas having a dick measuring contest while the guards stand on edge! tawan's reality check!

this fic was really tricky for me to write because, well 1) tawan is the femme fatale of his own story and so fucking obnoxious lol, 2) i was deep into some chinese political dramas while writing this and definitely inspired by the court politics/layered discussions that would happen in those, but the thing about a mafia setting is that for all kinnporsche's violence gets dressed up in family politics, there are no actual politics to any of it. mafia politics are either an excuse for the violence they already wanted to inflict or a coverup for a power/territory grab. there's a funny brilliance to the specific chess metaphors the writers chose because while i think the intention was to show Korn as a mastermind puppet master, the specific moves and game mechanics overall work far better as a metaphor for how out-of-place Korn is in a mafia above street-level operations and how he bulldozes his way to victory vs any proper or decent planning/scheming.

GETTING BACK ON TRACK, i won't bore you with my kp chess meta lol, but in writing silver for truth, i had a lot of push and pull between wanting to write high tension, veiled barbs, political double-speak confrontations vs the far more blunt and abrupt violence of a mafia setting. i'm really pleased with how the story came out in the end. i had so much fun writing kim and khun work off each other and the way they schemed together to protect kinn, i had even more fun writing kinn and vegas poking at each other every chance they got regardless of how inappropriate it was, and i had the most fun delivering tawan's reality check to him in the form of vegas shooting him in the head. and ultimately this entire fic happened in the first place because of the line shown above-- kim telling tawan he's here to hurt him because he hurt kinn, and there's nothing tawan can do that would make him stop 🥰

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?

oh gosh u know me, i'm only ever working on one fic at a time!!

since we're talking about talk shit, get hit series, my current plan for the next fic is a Porsche POV that's more of a coda to silver for truth. because in silver for truth, kinn makes up a lie about porsche having run off with vegas on his orders as a way to protect him, but i think porsche would absolutely hate that. porsche always chafes when his personhood and freedom to choose is stripped away, either acting out in an extremely bratty, "i fucking dare you" sort of way ala ep2, or internalizing his conflict so hard he becomes a quiet shadow while he works through it ala ep5.

i always knew that i wanted the end of silver for truth to have kinn and khun finding a cover for porsche as a jab/punishment for tawan -- tawan seems to genuinely care about vegas in a way he doesn't for anyone else, but he doesn't care for vegas so much that he'd be willing to reveal their lie at his own expense. but then i wanted their lie to come back and bite them/kinn as well from the person they never expected it to, which is porsche himself, because porsche can accept and handle his stupid decisions, but he hates when people try to strip away his choice in making stupid decisions, and i love that about him.

however, since i first wrote and posted gone fishing, i have desperately wanted to throw kimchay into the jungle for their own romantic vacation. and i realized that the direction talk shit, get hit series is going gives me a very good reason to have them thrown in there beyond just me wanting to do it. there's a car chase to throw them in there! painful mafia reveals and kim swallowing his own foot! kim having to cling to chay despite it all because chay can like, survive nature, and kim is a precocious little city boy wildly out of his depth! kim is going to have heart eyes to the max over chay's nature survival skills while ALSO being in the metaphorical doghouse because he's tried to claim he doesn't care about chay. the end is going to feature them both killing the goons that originally chased them into the forest for the other and kim desperately pleading for chay to stay despite his awful offerings. kinn and porsche are downright frantic when they finally get to them and kim tiredly plops his head against kinn's shoulder from relief and they both have a crisis about it for the next three fics in the series.

kimchay jungle fic was an idea i had a year and a half ago and think about SO MUCH and somehow it keeps getting pushed back on the writing docket.

RIP ME

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

i've technically already done this!!! well, okay, i've done this several times actually, but all of you should go give so much love to @bisexualbard-writes soulmate AU fic the sweet invention of lover's dream !!

i don't want to talk too much about bard's fic because it's her fic, definitely go yell about it with her (<3333), but the premise of kim having a very distinguishable soulmark vs chay's very vague/open one came out of a groupchat convo that was...mostly me complaining about the soulmark AU/trope come to think of it 😅

i can rarely seem to find soulmate/soulmark AUs that hit any of the beats i'm looking for. i supremely Do Not Like when two characters choose each other specifically because they know they are soulmates. similarly, i haven't really liked when two characters don't know if they're soulmates, choose each other, and then in a twist it's revealed that they were soulmates all along! either because. well. it's just a lot more interesting to me if they never soulmates in the first place 9.9 times out of 10.

there's a lot more than just those two things that i dislike in this trope (and ofc nothing to say that they haven't been done well, even if not to my tastes) but those are two aspects of what's probably my ultimate issue with soulmate AUs: the attitude that because something is temporary, it’s not worth experiencing, or that because something might be temporary, it’s not worth committing to for even a short time.

the draw of any soulmate AU is the comfort of not being alone and presumably a guarantee that you(/the character) will find someone who will stay, but a lot of soulmate AUs don't unpack the issues that come with an "i'm waiting for The One" attitude. we're a sum of our experiences, the painful and the good, and having a compass to a ~one true destined~ doesn't change that any relationship is still built together and not having any experience in being in a relationship is going to cause problems.

...this is a very long ramble to say bard took my trope complaints and my initial lob of "what if kim chooses chay because of a soulmark but chay would choose kim anyways" and came out with an absolutely delightful ~10k fic of kim and chay falling in love despite what the universe says and you should all absolutely go read it and give it some love <3333333333333 (story link again for easy clicking!!)

[[ fic writer asks ]]

[offyoupop-easypeasy]

when ppl say it's wrong to read cory/shawn as queer bc guys should be able to have close friendships without being gay

which like

why can't it be both?

but also mainly for me i read them as queer partly bc of their obvious love but also bc of how their relationship is kinda dysfunctional. not that they have to be dysfunctional to be gay. but just their characters have so much comphet. and it is often played for laughs but cory and shawn actually do not have the ideal friendship every likes to paint it as. not that their love is less, but if you really watch every ep you see how many episodes they talk about not having other friends and actually not being allowed to have other friends. cory especially seems to be extremely jealous of shawn having other friends. and this would be seen as a normal friendship plot that we see a lot in media. except in this show it's never actually framed as bad or something to mature past but actually excepted as good and just the way cory and shawn are and how close of friends they are.

[invisible-brandy]

it's really funny to me to see the difference between fanbases bc i havent seen a single person upset about the religious aspects of sister daniel or father phil, meanwhile just recently jake webber had to address "a controversy" of him and tara wearing a jesus and devil halloween costumes. like what.

[no1ryomafan]

My tradition for when I start a new obscure anime is to always go on ao3 to see if there’s a tag and the reaction from me is always one of three things:

“Oh wow this tag actually has surprisingly decent amount of stuff even if it hasn’t been updated much as of late. Still not 100 fics or anything but good to see about 20 that aren’t crossovers.”

“Oh there’s like- one fic in this tag huh. And it was years ago… And everything else is crossovers for some god foresaken reason. I’m gonna have to write something for this eventually.”

“Why the FUCK does this not have a tag do I really have to do this myself?!”

And the only reason I’m not writing more fics for everything I watch since they tend to fall under the second and third option or even if they don’t I end up liking what I watched a lot is because a red robot looms in my mind preventing me to write anything else- Also I’d get really exhausted from carrying so many fandoms when getter already drags me oml.

[timeisacephalopod]

You know as a horror fan "cultural Christianity" is such a useful term because as an atheist as well as a horror fan and a fan of haunted house stuff if it's done well I very, very quickly noticed how many horror movies are Christian propaganda. So few horror movies involving religion (which is a shocking amount of them btw) pick any religion that's not Christianity to center itself around and when they do that religion is bad and evil, not the cause of evil and the savior from it (because the demons may be Christian, but God and the bible are also the solutions in a way other religions aren't granted. Bonus points if it's an indigenous religion being portrayed as Evil and Bad).

Pretty much any exceptions I can think of to that rule use Judaism and the Holocaust as a backdrop and never in like a normal, the Holocaust is horrible way it's always playing on myths of Nazi Germany's experimentation on the Jewish population. Which I find highly troubling and disturbing, but regardless nothing like being a horror fan to convince you of cultural Christianity because no other genre leans on religion as a plot device so much unless it's straight up a Christian movie for a Christian audience using Christianity as it's main theme and through line.