#thinking about the state of the workd

[skepsies]

hc that feuilly cries a lot because he's just like me fr

[leonardalphachurch]

i am being self indulgent i am doing this whole thing with just chucker. some chuckboose making a special appearance bc as you know all chucker is chuckboose in disguise. feel free to still send in numbers for other ships i am just Going Ham.

note that i’m mostly basing this off of our yet to be written church lives au so slight spoilers for that but like. not really. all you have to know is that it’s a post-13 au.

1. Who would end a heated argument by defending their actions with ‘because I love you!’ ?

honestly probably neither. they’d both say something similar but i neither of them are very big on the “i love yous”. ESPECIALLY not when they’re angry. they’re much more likely to lash out than be sappy in an argument

2. What would they do if the other woke in a manic state after a nightmare?

neither of them would really get manic? church is Dissociative King and tucker canonically has panic attacks so i think that’s how they’d react to nightmares. when he’s dissociating is like one of the only times he’s 100% open to and wanting affection so tucker would be like. giving him kisses and pats to ground him and calm him. meanwhile for tucker it’s like, church isn’t great at giving affection so it’s much more practical. giving him water and making him breakfast and throwing a weighted blanket on him. and obviously they both just. call caboose over for cuddles. caboose number 1 nightmare destroyer

3. Do they wear the other’s clothes? (sweatshirt, bandana, necklace, etc.)

i think tucker is more fashion conscious and is like. your clothes do not match my style. meanwhile church is just wearing whatever the fuck is in front of him. not to churboose but church is wearing caboose’s shit basically every day. big for him

4. Which one is more protective? Who needs to be ‘protected’?

they’re both so protective in the dumbest ways. it’s that one comic of the two people who keep jumping in front of the bullet for each other but even stupider and way less functional

5. Describe their cozy night in.

some of these i think i might have to talk about on my nsfw blog lol… (edit: okay it’s in the notes). for a sfw version. they watch bad movies and get drunk and yell at the screen and at each other and also caboose is there and they’re all in a giant cuddle puddle by the end of the night

6. Who would beg the other not to leave? Who has to leave to protect the other?

neither of them would beg but they both so desperately want the other to never leave their side. please don’t leave them alone again. please.

7. Would they build a pillow fort together just because?

they come home and caboose has built a pillow fort in their living room and church acts like he’s mad about it and tucker is annoyed that he’s going to have to clean it up later but they all end up in there

8. What happens if one of them gets sick?

uh this happens in the fic so. no spoilers. however we know what canon church is like when tucker is sick LMAO he vacates the fucking premises

9. What are their thoughts on having children?

they already have kids lol. but i do like to imagine them adopting a child together… that is SO far into the future of their relationship tho

10. Describe their first date.

spoilers…

11. Do either try to hide their emotions if upset? Can the other still tell?

LMAO DO CHURCH AND TUCKER HIDE THEIR FEELINGS??? THE MOST REPRESSED MEN IN THE WORKD, DO THEY EVER HIDE THEIR EMOTIONS??? i guess it does depend on what kind of “upset” is meant tho. anger? not hidden even slightly. literally any other emotion, including positive ones? baby that’s just anger! why feel emotions when you can feel a) lust or b) anger. that’s all you need! and uh they both can usually tell that something’s up but in order to talk about it they would have to admit that they feel emotions besides lust and anger and. well.

12. Do they have many heated arguments? How do they smooth things over?

DO CHURCH AND TUCKER HAVE HEATED ARGUMENTS???? they do not smooth things over they just have angry sex and let all their emotions fester until the next time they argue and are nasty and vicious to each other and then do it all again

13. Who’s the bigger tease?

nsfw… but they both have their moments.

14. How do their personalities compliment each other? How do they clash?

that is. too big of a question to answer in this format lol

15. Do they always say 'i love you' before leaving?

lmao no

16. Can they stay up all night just talking?

this is literally The Thing that they do

17. Who's more likely to pull the other in by the waist and kiss them passionately?

SO tuckercore. tucker does this constantly everyday and church yells about it but never ever stops him

18. How likely are they to have fur babies? How many and what kind?

why do you have to say it like this. i think if church had a pet he would have a mental breakdown about it. tucker might have some reptiles tho. for fun

19. How do they feel about PDA?

they are literally one step away from having public sex

20. Choose one song that perfectly describes their relationship.

i’m so bad at songs lmfao. all the chucker songs i have are just tucker pining over church. mr. brightside the killers; starring role marina; you belong with me taylor swift…….. i don’t have any of their actual relationship

21. Who would get into a fight to defend the other's honor? Who tends to the other's wounds?

lmao no they’re the ones dashing each others honors. someone insults one of them and the others like “oh man so true!” church would be the one tending wounds tho bc if church is wounded he needs to like. go in for maintenance lmao tucker does not know how to fix robot. also church will take any opportunity to take care of someone while loudly complaining about the fact that he has to take care of them

22. What reminds each of their partner?

this is too vague i think for me to know how to answer it

23. Who's more likely to convince the other to stay in bed come morning?

“church we need to have morning sex. church please i will die without it.”

24. Who's more likely to give the other a massage?

tucker wants to be all sexy with it but church. is a robot. he might help church with like base level maintenance stuff to fufill the same purpose tho

25. Do they have any hobbies they share?

i don’t think they have. hobbies. i guess watching tv? ………sex.

26. What are their vices?

girl i am writing an entire fic about this. everything about them is a vice

27. Who is the light weight that needs to be taken care of after a party?

neither of them really are lightweights but i think tucker is definitely way more likely to take some more illicit substances hanging out with kai and church gets so fucking annoyed having to take care of tuckers high ass

28. What are there thoughts on pet names? Do they have any?

babe is literally the most common word coming out of tuckers lips

29. Who is more likely to jump in an elevator? Who freaks out?

i think church would be more likely to freak out but tucker wouldn’t really jump in an elevator bc hed be lowkey scared too. caboose is the one jumping he thinks it’s SO fun. it’s like you’re flying!

30. Your OTP gets to pick out each other's outfits; what is each wearing?

uhhh. nsfw? but i could see them picking out something really stupid for each other tho. actually tucker would pick something super nice and church would pick out something as a joke and then feel like an asshole about it.

31. Can they sit side by side without touching the other or are they handsy? (lacing fingers, touching knees, etc.)

tucker is the most handsy person in the fucking world and church is so touch starved he’s dying so they are literally all over each other. caboose is also there he is holding them both at all times.

32. Who's the better story teller?

church probably. he’s overdramatic while tucker is just kind of boring with it.

33. Who's the better cook?

church is better at following recipes but tucker is better at winging it. so tuckers food is usually more simple but it tastes better most of the time

34. Who's more likely to tell a dirty joke or story to make the other blush?

lol. who could possibly be the one more likely to tell a dirty joke here. i could not imagine.

35. Who's more artistic?

neither are artistic in a traditional sense (church literally put his creatively Somewhere Else) but tucker is super musically inclined

36. Who's more likely to fire up the stove at 2am because the other woke up in the middle of the night hungry?

church doesn’t need to sleep and gets so fucking annoyed hearing tuckers stomach growling

37. Which is more likely to swear?

lol

38. Who is more sexually experimental? Who's more vanilla?

lol nsfw. tuckers more experimental but that’s only bc church doesn’t need to experiment he knows what he wants

39. Who would rescue an injured animal and nurse it back to health? What would the other think?

tucker would bring home an animal and church would be so mad about it and then he’s up at 4am hand feeding it food that he crushed himself all the while complaining about how much he hates it

40. Who has an insatiable appetite? And what does the other do to help?

uh. surprisingly this is kind of spoilers.

41. Which one would take their jacket it off and drape over the other one because they were visibly shivering?

church but he claims it’s because tucker shaking is so annoying and church has internal temperature regulation systems anyway

42. What's their favorite type of weather to enjoy together? (getting snowed in together, watching thunderstorms, etc.)

oh i think they have opposite weather feelings lol. church likes the cold, tucker likes the heat. i think they both hate the rain together tho. bonding over being mad about the wet

43. Who would give their life for the other without a second thought?

lol. lol. lol.

44. Who would dance in the kitchen making dinner? Would the other join in or watch from the doorway?

tucker 🥺 church would definitely be watching and then be pulled in and annoyed about it and just. cute.

45. Can they fall asleep without the other?

church doesn’t need to sleep so he does not bother sleeping unless he’s with tucker or caboose. tucker has more than enough practice sleeping in the worst of situations but he is 🥺 about having to sleep without church

46. Would they get frisky at the movies by themselves?

LMAO YES. remove the “by themselves” lmao. lmao.

47. Does either of them have a secret that could potentially ruin their relationship?

spoilers. but also. they’re both convinced that the secret of them having feelings for the other is this

48. Who's the better driver?

church is an ai that was literally made to be in charge of helping maintain a space ship the size of a city. so tucker.

49. Does either of them have a hard time being away from the other?

they cry EVERY DAY they are apart so sad so tragedy

50. Who's more likely to do something out of spite?

LMAO. they are so fucking. they are constantly fueled by spite. everything they do is out of spite. church is more spite but. tucker is there too

51. What’s a non verbal way they say I love you?

church’s love language is 100% acts of service. he can’t tell you how he feels but he can make sure all of your medication is in order and to call to confirm your appointment and have you been eating enough vegetables lately? ugh he’ll have to hide them in your food for you so annoying. no shut up he’ll do it. he’s already doing it. tucker is just. constantly having his hands on church and kissing him and just hoping, praying that somehow everything he feels can be transmitted through just his lips grazing churchs skin

52. Describe their weekend getaway?

uhhhh. i have ideas for a honeymoon but. for a weekend… maybe they just go some place quiet and spend the weekend boning. or they go somewhere fun with caboose and junior and [spoilers]

53. Would they ever go skinny dipping?

tucker lives to go skinny dipping. church would think it’s stupid but do it anyway

54. Who’s more likely to carry the other to bed?

church demands to be carried at all times. but the one doing the most carrying is caboose. he loves to pick up his friends

55. Do they like watching clouds or star gazing?

no they are not deep. actually. church does like looking out at the stars when he’s on a ship. reminds him of a time when things were. good. tucker still doesn’t really know how to react when church gets wistful bc it’s such a rare and jarring experience so he just. stands there with him and holds his hand. even though he’s really REALLY bored.

56. What do they do turn the other on/put them in the mood?

aha uhhh nsfw.

57. Whose the serious one when grocery shopping and who likes to toss random things in the cart?

their cart is 100% snacks and bullshit. they both take turns being the one to put in real food and being the one to put snacky treats.

58. Who’s more likely to hold a grudge after an argument?

they are SO talented at holding grudges #1 grudge holders 2559

59. Who tops? Who bottoms?

nsfw. they switch

60. Who pulls the other closer when they’re sleeping?

i don’t know if either of them would. caboose.

[munchkindango]

vent under the cut

at this rate i should probably make a seperate vent blog because of how oftsn i seem to be doing it lately but i yuess you've just git to bear with me. i think im going through withdrawals from my antidepressants and antipsychotics and everything hurts so much maybe tenfold from before i went on them. i can't believe i was prescribed what was practically only a half month trial of medication, not a refill; it feels taunting. it feels like, now that i have had the chance to function and feel like a normal person, that chance is now being stripped away from me completely for the rest of my life, as if to say that i was meant to stay miserable. it hurts it really hurts so much because i know in this state i cant be well enough to enjoy myself and live and be secure about myself and I can't be well enough to not exhaust my poor partner and drag them down with me because of it. And he means more to me than anything else om this workd. im just laid in bed fetal position waiting for sleep to save me from how in pain i feel right now. I don't know what im gonna do in this state

[hobieszeze]

I feel like no matter what for any hobie he prioritizes his loved one. Even canon hobie cause you have to think he also is a punk and hates most people in the workd and is actively rebelling to help and to protect people he loves and cares about. Also they rebel with him like captain anarchy. I feel like any hobie would be the type to sacrifice the world for you, due to you being his priority. And personally i feel like hoboe would prob be in a bad mental state without the people he cares for so he physically couldnt lose you. Like the thought of it would make him sick because you are his world to him. Does that make sense? I dunno i feel like it does and doesnt. But yknow hobie<3

I'm listening to "LET THE WORLD BURN" on repeat (and god do I love it, give it a listen if you will) but it stirs a question in my mind.

Which one is Hobie?

Sacrifice you for the world,

OR

Sacrifice the world for you.

Listen to let the world burn while you're burning from a fever is absolutely metal 🤟 (I'll give it a listen!)

Hmmm 🤔 that depends I guess on what you would tell him and which Hobie it is. If it's bdas and tf hobie then it's the second one if it's ttn hobie and canon hobie then I think it'll be the first one. It really depends on the circumstances

[inessencedevided]

There's been a lot of cql/mdzs atla-au posts going around lately and I need to add my take.

Because I think a lot could be done with Wei Ying as the avatar.

Imagine the story goes similarly as in canon. He is the son of traveling benders. Maybe Cangse-Sanren is a firebender and Wei Changse a waterbender. They get killed on some mission and he gets taken in by his father's old friend and leader of the Yunmeng water tribe. (This reminds me a lot of kyoshi's backstory, too.) He raises him a long his own children, his daughter who takes to healing more than fighting, and his son who likes nothing more than fighting.

Wei Ying already showed signes of being a waterbender, so they train him, even though he is the son of a former servant. He is, of course, more talented than any other of their students, even Jiang Cheng. Madam Yu still hates him for it.

At some point, they let all the children of the sect take the Avatar test. He passes. Occurs, they don't tell him until he is 16, so he doesn't know. Madam Yu dies though and her hatred for him for upstanding her son only grows. But Wei Ying is happy and loves them, much like in canon and, much like in canon, he is also convinced that he is deeply indebted to him and always brings more trouble than he is worth.

When they tell him he is the avatar on his 16th birthday, he is shocked and scared of his responsibility, but doesn't show it. He laughs it off and tells everyone he is glad because that means he can see the world and doesn't have to annoy madam yu anymore. He only shows cracks to his cheerful facade when they tell him that he has to leave the very next day. That means he will miss Jiang Cheng's birthday. When he tells Jiang Cheng's this, he gets angry and tells Wei Ying that clearly he is very important now and why not run off to the other sects, see if they will put up with him. He refuses to say goodbye after that, so it's just jiang yanli and Jiang fengmian seeing him off.

He goes to king Nie first who is the most renowned earth bending master of their time. He is unyielding and harsh, but unbelievably fond of his younger brother, who mostly uses his bending to sculp intricate and detailed statues. Wei Ying likes him instantly.

Next is fire. He doesn't like the fire lord who greets him and treats him like he is royalty himself, but in a way that makes Wei Ying's skin crawl. He does like the shy boy in his group lessons and his older sister. Wei Ying is good at firebending, even though it should be his natural enemy. Maybe it's his mother's side showing itself though.

Then of course, to complete his training, he needs to learn air-bending. He gets to Gusu and immediately dislikes it there. They are monks and they live like it, too. There are rules regulating every waking moment and the sleeping ones too and he vows to break at least half of them. By now he us 20 and he'll be damned if he lets himself be bossed around like he's 12 again.

He is greeted by their unusually young leader and his uncle and brother. He expects the uncle to be his teacher, but no. Lan Xichen explains that the honor of training the Avatar will go to the youngest air bender to ever become a master, his brother, Lan Zhan.

Okay, Wei Ying thinks, he can live with that. At least a teacher close to his own age should be fun, right?

Wrong!

Lan Zhan is strict, reticent, unyielding and punishes him for every single infringement of the 3000+ rules. He scolds Wei Ying for not taking the enormous responsibility of being the avatar more seriously. He never smiles and never praises him with more than a "passable".

But he is a challenge. One he is good! The best opponent in a fight Wei Ying has had since he was 14. And there is something so fun at making him react in even the slightest way! Also, his ears blush when he is angry and it's cute!

The first time, Wei Ying uses something other than air bending in their training fights, Lan Zhan is furious (Undisciplined!). But tge second time he grots his teeth and fights, really fights Wei Ying. He holds his own again a 3/4s-trained avatar for more than 30 minutes until Wei Ying let's him get swallowed by a whole in the ground that he than seals with a thick layer of ice that will take him way to long to slice open with air bending.

After that, their relationship evolves. It's more of a mutual rivalry, rather than just Wei Ying needling his air bending teacher until he snaps. After a few months, once Wei Ying has progressed beyond the basics (he can fly now! He loves flying! How can the Lans be so serious all the time? They can fly!!!), Lan Zhan introduces him to musical air-bending. Through bending, they can use the sounds to heal and to hurt, amplify them at will or direct them to a specific direction. Lan Zhan demonstrates some techniques on his guqin and then plays a song, though he refuses to tell Wei Ying its meaning.

Wei Ying picks a dixi. He takes to music like a fish to water and soon he is declared a fully trained air bender. His last night in Gusu is when it happens. News reaches them that Yunmeng is under attack from the Wen sect, who have been annexing more minor territoires for years. By the time Wei Ying gets there Lan Zhan at his side, Lotus Peer is burned to the ground. They barely get Jiang Cheng and Jiamg Yanli out, helped by Wei Ying's old friend, Wen Ning. They make it Wen Qing, who takes one look at Lan Zhan and tells him to go because Gusu is next.

(The wens knew where the avatar was abd where he wasn't abd chose their attacks accordingly)

Lan Zhan rushes back (alone. Wei Ying has brother to get back from the brink of death) but he us too late, too. Cloud Recesses is burned, his father dead, his brother missing and he is taken prisoner.

The war happens almost like in canon. The other heirs are taken hostage and given lessons as to how to behave towards their occupiers. They escape through the stupidity of Wen Chao.

I don't think that there'd be a burial mounts though, nor an equivalent to the list golden core. you can take someone's bending but i want Wei Ying to remain the avatar because:

In his desperation to beat the seemingly almighty Wen and his grieve for the Jiangs who took him in, he devices a plan. A) he goes to Lan Zhan and asks him if musical cultivation might help him to learn how to control the avatar state. He says they can try. They do try and after a while, Wei Ying reaches that state. And B) he rensacks the world for scrolls on blood cultivation.

When they advance on nightless City, he is ready. No one kniws his plan. Even Lan Zhan only knows of his having learned to control the avatar state. He needs the element of surprise and he needs it when he stavds in front of Wen Ruohan.

So he waits. By the time he stands face to face with Wen Ruohan and his army, the floor us littered with corpses.

Wei Ying, in front of his brother, Lan Zhan, everyone goes into the avatar state and with the power of all his former incarnations, bebds the blood of every single corpse, as well as every single Wen soldier to turn on Wen Ruohan and then each other. It's a massacre.

When he comes to it again, there is silence. And then cheers. Everyone cheers for him, even though blood bending has veen outlawed for ages. He won them their war though.

Everyone cheers, everyone but Lan Zhan.

They fight after that, a lot.

(I helped you enter the avatar state. You could have died! - my problem, not yours! - You desecrated the dead! What about their spirits? - what about their spirits? I'm the avatar, i can deal with them! - the avatar state is the sacret link to your past lifes ... - My past lifes, yeah Lan Wangji! Let me decide what to do with them. - Wei Wuxian! - Lan Wangji.)

They part on bad terms more often than not.

So when knews reaches that the Jins, a notoriously rich noble family in some corner of the earth kingdom, has taken Wen citizens, civilians mostly, for slave labour, he goes alone. He is furious, more so when he realises that his friends are among them. He enters the avatar stare involuntarily and has the blood of all present Jin soldiers boil in their veins. Wen Ning is almost dead, but he uses his bending to circulate his blood in his body until he can get him to his sister. She is in Lanling after all, having married their heir.

Now because I love Jiang Yanli, in this au, she plays a bigger role. She saves Wen Ning and shows them out of Lanling.

They flee to a part of Qishan that was all but destroyed during the war and then used as a mass grave for the Wens wei ying himself killed, the ones whose spirits Lan Zhan had warned him about.

And the workd turns on it's Avatar.

The avatar is supposed to bring Peace, stand for balance and justice. Not choose a handful of people to protect at all costs.

But Wei Ying thinks, this is just! The world is full of greedy rich people trying to outdo each other for power, so isn't protecting those who suffer from it through no fault of their own justice?

Now, this could go two ways. Either, in a plot more similar to mdzs, the spirits Wei Ying disturbed abd that he is now living on top of, betray him when the rest of the world finally comes to ambush him (cue Lan Zhan trying g to protect him abd falling from grace himself. And the eternally yearning because he list his chance. the avatar is reborn ofc and Lan Zhan vows to protect them because Wei Ying is still a part of them, but they aren't Wei Ying. They are a completely different person and Lan Zhan never loves again.) DEPRESSING

So, let's go the atla route. Wei Ying goes through a spiritual journey, similar to Korra, gets the Wen remnants rehabilitated, makes the right people see sense and basically does the whole Avatar shitck of first finding peace within himself in order to bring peace to the world. *waves hand*

He confesses to Lan Zhan. They adopt A Yuan. Cue kiss in front of a glowing sunset and "The End" displayed to soaring music.

Admittedly, the second ending needs more flashing out, but it's late,so if anyone wants to have a go, feel free :D

[dahniwitchoflight]

Airy Thoughts about Heirs and Gender

That kind of always has been John’s modus operandi when it comes to dealing with problems though hasn’t it?

Eveen waaaaay back in the beginning when John totally pushed it out of his mind that his dad was actually just a normal business man and not obsessed with clowns, that it was actually John who was obsessed with clowns, and jokes and pranking, thats always been how he deals with stuff he doesn’t like

Ignore it, make it not real, don’t acknowledge it, compartmentalize it, heck, joke about it, do pranks, make it silly, make it lighter, try to lessen the seriousness of it all

John has ZERO skill when it comes to actually dealing with perceived negativity in any sense, always been very reliant on basically his Aspect’s traits to solve problems for him

and now its becomes so bad, thats hes on the edge of having a full blown dissociation disorder about it

(I wonder actually if being too reliant on what’s been given to you on your plate already is a trait overall for Heirs or Those Who Inherit? It fits well with my previous idea of Heirs notable for being stuck in ruts, but it seems the true train of thought here, is that Heirs basically are caught in a pre-determined state, the lines have been drawn around them, their plates have been served, and they have to deal with what’s given to them, and as a result, have ZERO ability to handle situations that their pre-equipped toolset cannot deal with)

definitely an area where Heirs are prone to overembracing, when they become so, reliant on their pre-existing toolset, that they become unable to change things ups, see things differently, handle different problems

There’s an element of priveledged behavior here that clearer to me now, people who Inherit their wealth have no idea what it’s like to work for it or earn it themselves

and now isn’t THAT a connection to Maid and Heir?

this is where you could spin Heir as someone who starts out having no idea how to create something new and having to forcibly learn that

I could see someone creating a Maid/Heir argument for this

but then the problems arise of “how is that different from the Maid’s arc of also having to learn to take what was given them and start making anew what they want”

and the biggest hurdle to Creation Heir: Heir is not a feminine associated class

and the reason this matters, is if creation doesn’t have to be feminine associated, then masculinity gets the lion’s share of creation and destruction in Homestuck overall, and that feels like favoring masculinity too much, especially with how much Creation and Destruction as concepts are overvalued over the other aspects by far, it’s tilting it too far in one direction, when these Red and Green concept should spiral Equal (theoretically)

its out of step with how Creation and Destruction have been shown to be thus far

BUT

All of this was how things went down for me, back before June Egbert became a thing

So, in reading this, and with having the knowledge June might actually be a girl (maybe, Hussie said so, but thus far have yet to see anything from John in canon)

is that enough to make “Heir” feminine associated overall? moreso than other feminine associated classes like Maid/Sylph/Witch? Enough to be a strong enough pair to the Maid over Sylph? Two words that can literally mean “Girl”

Equius and Mituna still exist, what does that say about them? Is the background joke of Equius in a Maid outfit starting to actually become relevant?

who knows, but, It’s bringing up interesting questions I think, for me at least

John is the Main of Main Characters, versus Equius being background and Void aspected and Mituna being essentially non-existant, is that enough to balance out importance wise of who really gets to define what being an Heir means?

is it distateful to call being Spoiled an essentially feminine associated trait, if it’s balanced out by Maids being hardworking (or Servile..?) as opposed to a royally spoiled Prince and silly clown Bard?

better question, are these questions about gender things that Hussie never actually thought that deep enough about, so theres threads of things that could work, but end up falling apart in practice, revealing biases unfortunately baked into the system itself

cuz its like this: if Sylph/Maid is the females creation classes, its making sure girls vs boys in the grand scheme of things is equal, but that’s kind of going with the quid pro quo of masculine destruction/female creation thats baked into homestuck from the start, which is likely just the result in the authors inherent bias. Is that a net good? or a net bad? kind of unsure

if creation doesn’t have to be female, the idea that we should just be able to do away with the idea of gendered classes entirely is a thing, which is good in its own context, unfortunately leaves things with a different unfortunate gendered bias, where masculinity gets all the good shit and importance and feminine associations get sidelined and its unequal again, is this a better or worse way of seeing things? if male just happens to get the lions share of cool stuff, does it mean we can ignore gendered classes altogether, or is that exacerbating the problem with gendered classes to begin with

if a class that so far, hasnt had any traits associated with either masculinity or femininity (kind of a lie with Heirs being unusually good at the “mangrit” stat) gets strongly associated with femininity via one main character, is that enough to tip the scales and make things balanced again?

(is the above perhaps just a beautiful metaphor for the question of said characters eventual transition?)

(yknow, if that actually happens in canon, and gets explored by John/June at some point, and doesnt just die as an author word of god background fun fact..)

basically, Ive been wondering exactly how much the who gendered association of classes in homestuck should matter, but more importantly, how much it’s already affecting

would it be a good step to make Heir/Maid a creation pair? or is that just making a small problem bigger

tl;dr basically if Hussie makes it clear in canon that June Egbert has been a girl/dealing with a gender struggle all along in the way that they always have done by trying to downplay/ignore/compartmentalize it then yeah, Heir Maid gets a lot stronger legs to me, purely for the character symbolism of it all and the great message that would say about the gender construct of homestuck overall

but

if John Egbert remains the status quo, if Hussie never actually intended John to transition, if it never gets brought up in any way other than the authors saying out of the workd “I said so” Heir Maid as creation just doesn’t work without that Transition metaphor, so it fallbacks to the traditionally neutral Sylph/Maid as creation oriented

though, there’s also the fun question of what if through change of the characters themselves, their classes change with them? So through the power of Main Character June changes the associated traits Heir has overall OR stops being an Heir and gets a different class, both would be equally cool transition metaphors (which ironically would just reinforce Heir as a class of Change/Transmutation overall but lol)

[bimney424]

I had a plan to post today something I was thinking about regarding CR, but then the country’s seat of government had a meltdown. There was an insurrection, a breach of the Capital building to stop a legal Constitutional required action. I am not going to talk about it cause that is not what I use Tumblr for. So this is not a political post, but a post about how sad I feel because of the actions that took place today. Watching people, some who I want to think are smart people act like like complete idiots is disheartening. It was like watching a train wreck & it took me a bit to stop watching tv. To see Americans desecrate a historic federal building because they could face defeat made me both sad & angry at the same time. This should never have happened in our country. Not here. But it did. It became painful to watch. I actually played Workd of Warcraft for like 4 hours to occupy my mind. I usually watch CR to distract myself, but felt it would have been a disservice to the show to use it to drown out political shit, knowing how the actors all feel about the state of our government. I hope that our nation moves in a positive direction after 1/20. I feel that it may take along time to get there, but it is possible.

[aspoonofsugar]

I'm sorry I'm still not sure if I exactly understand why Eren suddenly reverted to his child self in the paths and summoned Armin (if that was even intentional?)! Is it only something symbolic or in your opinion has something to do with Eren's intention to connect to Armin as his child self?

Hello anon!

I think that Eren reverting to his child self is symbolic of his state of mind. He is acting as a literal child, as @aotopmha​ wrote here.

It is both to illustrate Eren’s defense mechanism (1) and the thematic resonance of Eren’s actions (2).

1) He is dissociating (imo) and acting like his child-self. He is focusing on the vision of the sky and ignoring what is happening at his feet aka the price of this kind of freedom. At the same tiime, Eren appears as a child because he is still following his childish vision of the world. A vision which is black and white and simplicistic.

2) I have talked about the thematic meaning of the chapter here.

When it comes to plot, I think that Eren appearing as a child and his feelings reaching Armin has simply to do with how the paths workd.

All Eldians are connected through time and space thanks to paths, after all. This is why shifters are able to see the memories of past shifters. This is also why the Attack Titan can see “future memories” and why Eren could use the Coordinate to communicate with all Eldians. It is because they are all connected. Because of this, feelings can also travel through paths.

So, Eren is currently at the centre of everything and is dissociating hence the memories and feelings of his child-self are coming to him very strongly. It is not that strange that the paths, which are also connected to feelings, mirror this by presenting him as a child. Similarly, his feelings for Armin have made so that Armin could feel and see Eren for a moment.

In short, paths connect Eldians and Eren is at the centre of the paths. He is were the paths all connect and this is why his feelings and will shape the paths themselves.

Thank you for the ask!

[im-in-every-fandom-cuz-im-alone]

Chain of Gold

Yall I love this new installment in the shadowhunters universe the characters, the mysteries, and the locations all of it. I just have one tiny problem with the universe as a whole not this particular book because like I said I enjoyed this book soooooo much. Can I please get some more black shadowhunters like we have Diana Wrayburn( a badass) but like where are the prominent black family's of Idris. Now this isnt me calling out Cassandra Claire or anything she has an incredibly diverse group of characters and it's one of the reason I fell in love with her workd as a gay mixed race latinx man. She made me feel seen with through her words.

I recently watched Self Made: Inspired by the life of Madam C.J. Walker on Netflix about a black women in the early 1900 who became the first female millionaire in the United states. Since it takes place roughly around the same time as chain of gold I couldn't help but feel like CoG was lacking where this movie flourishes when it come the depiction of the black experience of that time.

The Nephlim are a race apart from mundanes regardless of race or ethnicity your shadowhunter blood is what binds you to a greater cause yet so often it feels like white is the shadowhunter default. All of the most prominent families are white; the herondales, lightwoods, carstairs, fairchild, blackthorn, Cartwright.....

I want to clarify that I'm solely speaking about the lack of black shadowhunters. There are plenty of shadowhunters from around the world such as the Ke, wrayburns, Rosales, ( oop I cant think of any more that have prominent roles in the universe)

[bustedbernie]

When Chavez was alive he created something called 'Misión Barrio Adentro' that was supposed to 'take healthcare into the popular zones of Caracas and other major cities in Venezuela. Part of that mission was taking Cuban doctors into Venezuela and they were the shittiest doctors to ever work anywhere in Venezuela. They were famous for solving everything with paracetamol pills. (Part 1)

And he did all that... As opposed to investing in Venezuela's hospitals that were already falling into the worst state they had ever been. So, please, spare the workd the talk about how good Cuban doctors are, because I can tell you for a fact that they aren't.

Yeah, well they really have some kinda cognitive dissonance or whatever. For whatever reason they’ve decided Castro/Cuba/Venezuela is the hill they wanna die on. I don’t really understand what it is about. I get that a lot of them like the aesthetic of socialism so whatever, but they just don’t seem to care what locals of these nations have to say. Or, they dismiss anything said to the contrary of Sanders/PopularLeftist as “well this person was probably just part of the upper-class of their country.” Which i’ve already seen a lot of bernie bros say about Cuban-American voters in Florida. I just... don’t understand what they’re thinking haha

[crystaljins]

wow wow wow!!! i just finished reading chapter 2 of river lead me home. honestly yeah i agree with you, i love oc! she's definitely having it hard with adjusting and people just aren't sympathetic; we can see it even more in chapter 2 when jin wouldn't even let her explain herself and proceeded to just assume what he thought was going on and not what was actually happening. i was super surprised that jin wasn't going with, but i'm also glad that oc stepped up and was willing to do it on her own.

Ahhhh thank you so much!! I love how positive some people are being to OC! She’s been through a lot and I think she needs a good friend 🥺🥺🥺

BUT in the interest of fairness I think it’s time to defend poor Jin. Because now the scales have tipped- everyone loves OC but can’t believe how horrible Jin is! And to be honest, he is a bit mean, but let’s try and see thinngs from his POV.

It is extremely hard and exhausting being a caretaker and Jin has had to do it since he was a 14 year old refugee. Compassion fatigue is real, and Jin has been doing his best for YN since they were kids!!! Imagine that!! Being a literal child and having to emotionally support your devastated best friend. He’s coming from a place of hurt- it’s really painful to see someone you love and care about constantly make bad decisions and I thibk he lashes out because he’s reached that stage where nothing works. Nothing he says make things better. No actuon helps her. He just can’t get through to her. So yes, he’s said some mean things, but the mean things (while in no way justified) are being said because he doesn’t know how else to act. Even where he lashes out in this chapter- it’s because he thought she was just leaving without saying a word! Imagine how much that would hurt- your best friend just leaving without even bothering to say goodbye. For all he knew, he woild have spent the rest of his life wondering what happened to her and grieving her loss because she didn’t have the decency to say goodbye. And that’s not even factoring in OTHER things in Jin’s life- sacrificing friends, a social life to clean up her messes. He works in the ED! My guy is coming home from 18 hour shifts of pure chaos and then having to make a meal for OC, or drive to the police starion to pick her up. Yeah, it seems like he wants OC to suppress berself but there are far healthier and better ways for her to live out her “guardian”-ness. She could be a first responder or a firefighter or something. She can still save and help people without resorting to vigilante justice- look at Jin. He’s a doctor!! He found a healthy way to honour his culture without bringing stress and pain to the people he cares about.

And we know how hard things are for OC because we’re in her head. We know her every thought and feeling. But don’t forget that not every emotion OC inteprets is true. Just because it looks like Jin isnindifferent to OC it doesn’t mean he is. I sometimes do things where I’ll describe Jin’s expression and interpret it, but I’ll intepret it through OC’s eyes because i think it makes the story kore interesting. So don’t always trust what she sees and feels.

Laslty, OC’s mother. Let’s not forget that they came to this realm with literally nothing. She was a widow who had lost her husband barely 12 hours before and then had to step into an entirely new workd and support an emotionally devastated 11 year old child!!! Imagine how hard thst is!!! And so yeah, she kept her engagement from OC until the last minute but that’s bexuase she knew it would hurt her. I’m not saying it’s right, but still.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, as much as I love and adore OC, she is no martyr. She’s done things wrong just as much as everyone else, but the great rhing ahout her is she’s trying her danged hardest to fix it. And hopefully I do Jin justice, but just like OC, I have plans for him to learn and grow (although it is a frustratingly long, painful road. Don’t forget this fic is nearly 70k LOL)

And yeah! I didn’t realise it would be a big plot twist that Jin chooses not to go with, but it just made sense, you know? Their relationship is honestly in tatters. Why would he go with her given the current state of things? But as you can probably tell... jin’s role is in no way finished ehehe... stay tuned for next week (unless u get sick of this fic which is totally fine 🥺)

[moonchild93liner]

Kiss and Make Up (Hoshi - smut)

Soooooooo hey, long time no see, I’ve been with this in my head for the past days and there’s a second chapter so wait for it... It’s pretty late for me and I will fix this put on the masterlist etc later ok, ok.

You’re basically friends that once in a while end up kissing each other at parties but don’t exactly stay together after that.

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He was a friend of a friend and we'd only see each other at parties from our common friends, we hooked up at the clubs and after that we'd always fight because of something, it was like our personality didn't match outside parties but he knew the effect he had on other people, damn even boys would check him up from time to time, he was a real tease and DAMN he got some dance moves. I've never really seen him with other girls or guys before, my friends also would never talk about him being with someone else to be honest and at the parties he would only stay close to his friends too busy enjoyng the music.

The last two parties I stayed home, I was so sick of this stupid game, I mean, if we are meant to be we ARE meant to be, it's not a little fight that would tear us apart, after every fight he would come saying sorry because he felt really bad and wanted to be friends again, fuck.

- Y/N, c'mon, it will be nice, I promise you, no boys, just us. - My friend was sitting on my couch begging me to go to another party with her because she really wanted to go out and had nobody to go with her.

- I know Soonyoung will be there, no way. - Yep, it was another friend in common and he's so predictable.

- No, I mean, yes he will be there but c'moooonnnnnn, we'll stay together until the end, pretty pretty please? - She was one of the best friends I had and she knew I would do almost everything for her.

- (...) K. - And I rolled my eyes.

- YES! You won't regret it!- She hugged me tight.

- Now go, we only got a couple of hours to get ready, I need to shave my legs.

She left my house and oh well, I started to get ready to this oh so awesome party that I was surely not looking forward to it and I will not but I'm sure I will regret it, the things we do for friends.

I took a shower, picked some nice and tight jeans so that I wouldn't have to shave (first world problems) since I wasn't planning on leaving the party accompanied and a loose tshirt, some snickers and that's it. Put my makeup and waited for my friend to get ready. While waiting as I was checking my instagram I saw Soonyoung's stories, he was indeed going to the same party and hell he looked good, he had this squishy cheeks with the most adorable smile but also the most piercing eyes and when he decided to do some makeup it would get 10 times worse, it was almost irresistible.

My friend called me and after hanging up I took a deep breath and stood up to get going. She was all way more dressed up as me, we stopped by the convenience store to get some drinks and after we were a little more loose we headed to the dance club. It was pretty late so he was already there for sure, it was just a matter of time before we bumped into each other.

- Let's grab our free drink and find a nice spot. - I anticipated and pulled her with me.

After two more drinks, as my friend couldn't take hers we were ready to party. I myself am strong when it comes to drinking, I couldn't say the same about my friend but since I wasn't planning to leave with anyone I would might as well take care of her tonight.

We started to dance and from the other side of the room I thought I saw a pair of familiar eyes but it could be just my imagination, as the drink reached my head I started to dance and my mind went off, I didn't care about my surroundings, my friend was long gone wasted dancing with her own thoughts but every once in a while I would check up on her.

All I Wanna Do by Jay Park started to play and that was my jam, I rocked my whole body to the beat with closed eyes, I know my moves are not the best but fuck it, I just wanted to enjoy myself. By the chorus I felt a body approaching me from behind and rocking with me I knew well whom those curves were from but kept my eyes closed because that wasn't important at the moment.

His torso found my back and after some moments his hand found my waist, I was so lost in the song I didn't notice that unconsciously I moved a step back and now our bodies were almost glued together.

- Nice moves... - He whispered in my ear but I pretended not to listen, the trance I was in slowly fading and my surroundings starting to come to life again.

- I've missed you... - He tried again and this time I turned to face him, his hair was still dry, sign that he didn't dance this much since he arrived. I kept staring at him waiting for what he got to say.

- Where were you? - He (dared to) ask.

- Doing my stuff, you know, working, studying, trying not be fooled again. - I put some intonation on the last workds and he seemed to get the point.

He fit his head in the crook of my neck and kept it there as the song went on.

- You know I would never do that to you... - He started to slowly push me to the closest wall and proceeded to pin me against it, I just stared at him.

- C'mon, you are never like this, why give me such a hard time today? - He licked his lips and looked at mine.

- Buy me a drink and I will think about it - I lifted one of my eyebrows and looked at him from top to bottom.

He took my hand and guided me to the bar, ordered our drinks and took a sit on the only chair available but after realizing it he was about to get up and give his seat to me but I stopped him putting my hand on his shoulder, he looked at me questioning it and I sit on his lap, he tilted his head so confused, it was cute, I smiled passing my fingers through his hair, it was starting to get wet.

- You look cute. - I simply stated, he was wearing almost the same clothes, just different color of tshirt.

- Don't even need to say the same to you. - He answered embracing my waist with his arm, drawing circles with his thumb on top of my shirt, I started to drink in silence waiting for him to give me a good reason to spend the night with him.

- Baby, listen, I know I say this a lot but I truly am sorry, you see, I didn't even drink today, I just came because my friend really asked me to, if it was for me I would've stayed home now I'm happy that I came because I got the chance to talk to you, you don't answer my texts anymore, you have all the reasons to be mad but let's just enjoy the night, I know how tired you are of all of this, believe me, so am I, what do you say? I won't hurt you tonight, huh? - He told looking at me as I tried to focus on not looking back because I know that would be my weak point but when he asked he pulled my chin whith his fingers so I could finally look back.

- If only that would be true... - I finished my drink, got up, grabbed his hand and pulled him back to the dance floor, what I didn't see was him giving his drink back to the bartender and following me with the dumbest smile.

Another song was playing, when we found the spot we were previously my friend looked at me questioning what she was seeing and I just bounced my shoulders unamused.

He stood behind me again, again with a hand on my waist, he had this habit when we were together, he would always find a way to be touching me, we were daincing and as the hours passed by the songs grew heavier, he was now with his hand on my tigh, something he never did before.

- Very tipsy for someone who didn't want to come. - I said low enough just for him to listen.

- You didn't see but I gave my drink back just like I got it. I'm not even close to drunk. - And for some reason that gave me chills, we were always a little tipsy when we hooked up so our actions, the ones we remember and were not a blur, were always justified by the alcohol but seeing him like this demonstrating a certain desire sober was something definetly new. If I was sober I wouldn't come close to him in first place because sober he is way out of my league, I'm not that bad but also I'm not the most pretty girl in the club and that's exactly he could get with his looks, sober or not.

He squeezed me tigh and I turned to face him, both his hands on my waist now, a clear blush on top of my cheeks and he smiled, that damn smile.

- What about you? Some extra make up or just blushed because of me? - He put my hair behind my ear and I looked down, stupid Kwonie.

- Ah, look at you, the most cute girl in the club. - He pulled my chin again.

- You know I'm not, and you know how I feel about that... - He knew about my insecurities because one night I got so drunk he ended up comforting me on the curb while I had a mental breakdown because another girl WAY PRETTIER than me tried to hit on him.

- Yes, I'm pretty aware of that but let me show you how do I feel about that. - He turned me again so he was facing my back again and hugged me by the waist with both arms tugging me even closer, he rested his face on my neck and peppered slow kisses, his lips were warm. My hands found their way to hold his and as the next song came on he kept the same position, sniffing behind my ear because he knew that was one of the places I used to put my perfume.

- Still using the same perfume that drives me crazy - I could hear the smirk on his mouth, right after that I couldn't stop the same one on my face as well.

- Really? - It was just a confirmation because to be honest I didn't know what to do and my body was a whole mess.

- Do you even ask? Feel for yourself... - He then pulled me a little tighter and my eyes popped when I felt an extra excitement coming from behind me between his legs.

- ... You underestimate yourself, everytime we're together this happens but I've never been this close to show you. - He whispered right into my year being very careful to not let anyone else hear.

I cursed under my breath and he chuckled darkly.

- Y/N CLAIRE JUST CALLED ME, NICK IS IN TROUBLE AGAIN, LET'S GO! - DAMN, my friend wildly appeared looking totally sober grabbing my hand and darting away, I was so caught by surprised that I just had time to look at Soonyoung and mumble sorry but it was time enough to see him rolling his eyes and say before he turned around and disappeared.

- Fuck this shit, I'm outta here. - That son of a bitch, so it's just a matter of getting laid?

The gif is not mine, it also don’t exactly match the story, it was just because I had to find some Soonyoung with a badass face and some makeup on.

[chacolachao]

Hypotheticals...

You’re very welcome!

And oh my goodness I am so glad you asked this. As unlikely as these combo transformations would be to take place, I like delving through these hypothetical forms.

 First off, hyper ruby!Sonic:

Hyper Sonic’s form is only known to take place when he uses Super Emeralds (Chaos emeralds powered up by the Master Emerald). Seeing as how I explained Ruby!Knuckles as having a combined form with the Phantom Ruby along with the Master Emerald’s energy, it would make sense that Super Emeralds would allow Sonic to become one with the ruby as well. I added four external ruby shards that float around him as he himself acts as a sort of magnetic force constantly dispelling and attracting the ruby.

Secondly, dark ruby!Sonic:

This dark version retains the same general shape as the regular ruby form with small tweaks. The ruby in Sonic’s chest looks the same but has grown more shards from around the general area. This is because Sonic, unlike the regular ruby form, is accepting the power of the ruby and allowing it to spread its influence. Regular ruby!Sonic is in a constant state of dispelling the ruby as it moves forward, half rejecting it. Dark ruby!Sonic’s body still wants to reject the ruby but his mind has given up. The ruby also doesn’t appear to be a part of his body, but more intruding through it.

Now for Darkspine ruby!Sonic/ Phantom Darkspine:

The Phantom Ruby has changed form in this one, resembling a longer, sharper shard that goes straight through Sonic’s chest and out the back. This is to align more with the original Darkspine form’s story. Other long shards grow out of his head along with his quills. I imagine there is a bit of a clinking chime sound as they move. This form retains his flame manipulation powers with a new raging intensity along with the illusionary powers. However, this form without the ruby already had a bit of that power. Granted, this is only using three of the seven Workd Rings so we have yet to know how it would look with all seven.

Next up, Werehog ruby!Sonic:

Unfortunately this form gives up all swift illusion powers that came with the original phantom ruby and leans more towards the raw impact side of power. With the energy of Dark Gaia mixing with the ruby, we see the ruby free to spread throughout, without any permission needed from the chaos energy that has been bypassed. Probably the only real use of the ruby’s power would be an ability to teleport mid jump.

annnnd.... Red Excalibur Sonic:

The ruby is on his head. His armor I guess is red now. He can teleport too. yup. He still has his sword. Not much to be said here really.

Thankyou for liking my little AU :D And thanks for these asks, they’ve been fun to think about @blackbeast999

Ruby!Knuckles explanation

[ff15trashgoldenslumbers]

When I first saw you

Oh, my gods! Loves, it's Golden Slumbers first anniversary! Whaa! (º̩̩́⌣º̩̩̀ʃƪ) I’m such a happy, little Olive! Thank you, everyone, so much! Just because it’s been a year since I meet you loves, I wanted to do some first meeting drabbles!

~~~~~

Noctis

You sat at the table, you had gotten all dolled up and a huge smile plastered on your face. You had just landed a job that would make your life so much less stressful, you honestly could not wait to celebrate and waited for your boyfriend to show up so that you could explode with the good news!

Your reservation was at 5pm sharp! You fidgeted with your dress wanting to look absolutely stunning when you revealed that you were stepping up in the world. This was the first night of the rest of your life!

You looked to your phone, reading 5:15pm, hoping to see a text stating that he was running late because of traffic. But there was nothing, you checked your previous texts. Yep, you stated at Grand Nox 5pm tonight and even sealed the deal with a kissy face. You got a response about 1:56pm stating “K”

Just “K”!

Maybe, he was in a meeting, he did have a few lately.

At 5:27pm the waitress had refilled your water again, asking if you were ready to order. You were, but he still had yet to show up, so you wanted just a little more time.

“I’m sure he got caught up in a meeting.” You smiled weakly.

When you checked your phone at 5:41pm to avoid the looks of all the other people in the restaurant, who had begun to cast apologetic looks, as they had already known what you refused to accept as the truth. Your boyfriend did this frequently canceled last minute or an hour after you already looked a fool, and then would call asking to crash the night at your place smelling of booze, and you dump him on the couch and go to bed. You had hoped with this good news you’d re-spark your relationship with something nice.

You closed the menu with a sigh, nothing looked nice to eat anymore and the night was ruined. All your excitement was gone! You shuffled from your chair, going to grab your purse. You were going to break up with that asshole for standing you up again and then drown yourself in some ice cream!

You heard a huff and heavy breathing, “Sorry, I’m so late! Meeting ran late, and traffic was horrible.”

You looked up, a man you had never seen before was sitting down across from you. His beautiful blue eyes glanced away from you with a small pink blush underneath them, as he removed his beautiful suit jacket, that looked like it cost more than your rent, car payment, and entire life combined.

As he leaned forward, almost as if he was going to kiss you he softly whispered, “I’m Noctis, if you want, go with it? Whoever didn’t show up is a dick.”

You couldn’t help but giggle as you nodded.

“I can’t apologize enough, anything you want is on me tonight, Sweetie.” He called loudly as the rest of the patrons returned to their meals, obviously happy that you got your happy ending.

You were rather happy that you did indeed go with the plan, Noctis was an absolute sweetheart, a little quiet but he seemed rather genuine with his affections toward you, and those beautiful blue eyes.

“You got the promotion! That’s awesome!” He beamed, causing you to flush at the praise. He didn’t even know you and he was so excited for you. He was so cute!

You honestly felt wonderful underneath it all, it seemed the perfect gentleman was across from you, you hadn’t even noticed that it had become so late. When you were offered his arm, after he paid for the rather expensive meal, no matter how much you offered to split, moving you to the door.

“Do you need a ride home?” He asked, scratching the back of his head, suddenly appearing rather nervous to meet your eye.

You thought it over, it would be cheaper than calling an Uber and you honestly ran the same risk. Only to turn pointing toward the large planter, “Would your friends mind?” 

This got you an embarrassed chuckle from Noctis, as three men emerged from the planter. Once getting introduced to the men, who all seemed as good nature as Noctis, you almost tripped over yourself as a limo appeared.

“Y/N?” Noctis called, as you stared around the limo, first time being in one so you were a bit everywhere. “I was wondering if you wouldn’t mind doing this correctly?”

You beamed, “Give me one second.” You pulled out your cell phone, sending a text to your ex, breaking up with him, this wasn’t the first or even fifth time had don’t this to you, might as well cut him off. It was honestly a long time coming. As you hit send you turned to your savior of the evening, “I would like that, a lot, Noctis.”

Noctis handed you his phone,“Are you free tomorrow? Oh, wait you start your new position tomorrow, uh Friday?”

“Miss, Y/N?” Ignis called, as he opened the door, as you handed Noctis his phone back, allowing you to step out, Noctis following after you, walking you to the front gate.

“I’ll see you Friday, Sweetie.” You cooed, pressing a kiss to his cheek, before whisking yourself inside, where you celebrated in your one-woman victory dance. As you replayed tonight in your head you got a wall of text from a number you blocked rather quickly, you didn’t want those that couldn’t be happy for you or that you couldn’t rely on.

Besides you got a really cute text from a sweetheart, that said he enjoyed tonight. So that sent you to bed with a happy heart.

*

The next morning as you moved into your corner office, overlooking the beautiful Citadel, a donut in your hand, you turned as an intern rushed into your office holding today's scoop.

“Thanks, I’ll review it in just a secon…” You stopped, on the front page was the world's largest caption.

Prince Noctis New Girlfriend!

At least your face was partly covered by a fern, but that was your dress and your smile, and that was the man you met last night.

“Oh, my gods…” You whined softly. Only to shriek it louder when you dropped your donut! It was covered in blue sprinkles too!

~~~~~

Prompto

It wasn’t that he meant to stare, but this guy was seriously being an annoyance!

He’d see you sometimes in the morning doing morning stretches in the park when he went jogging. One morning he waved at you and you waved back! There was never any words between the two of you, just every morning, there was a quick wave and then you both would go about your days.

But it was pretty early in the afternoon, and Prompto’s cheat day demand, a Moogle cone. Gladiolus and Iris got him hooked on them, and from May to October, he would have at least two of them on his cheat day.

“So where’s your boyfriend?”

You froze, you had been attempting to turn his guy down for about 3 minutes and he just would not take no for an answer.

“All I’m asking for is your…”

Prompto moved between the man and you, his back facing the guy as he smiled, “Sorry, the line was longer than I thought. Got your Moogle cone!”

You blinked in confusion as your hands reached out automatically taking the cone presented to you.

“Go along with it,” Prompto whispered to you, before turning to the guy attempting to date you, his hand going to your own, ready to lead you out the way if need be. “This a friend of yours, Sweetie?”

You were still catching up, “Uh…”

The man scoffed, “Why didn’t you say you had a man. Whatever.”

You watched as the man turned around and left, before turning back to Prompto holding your hand, “Thanks so much.”

“It’s no problem.” Prompto smiled releasing your hand, “Oh better eat your ice cream or it will melt.”

You moved to hand the cone back to the man, only for him to smile brightly saying you could have it.

“If you want, I can wait with you until your boyfriend shows up.”

You flushed, “I...I actually don’t have one.”

Prompto blinked in confusion, “Oh...all then. See you arou…”

“Wait!” You called, causing yourself to jump at how loud you were. “I have to repay you for the ice cream.”

Prompto beamed brightly, which caused your heart to flutter, “No need.”

“But how am I supposed to go on a date with you?”  You froze at your own forwardness, only to see that huge cute smile appear on his face again.

“We can go on one now if you’re free.” He smiled holding out his hand.

You didn’t even think twice before taking it, licking at your ice cream in the shape of a moogle. “You ever wondered why they don’t make a Chocobo one? Don’t tell anyone but I think they’re cuter.” You could have sworn you felt Prompto’s hand grip yours hard.

“I think so too!”

~~~~~

Gladiolus

You wanted to scream as you saw “that man” step into the bookstore. You came in here so that you could find a nice book to escape your horrid life at the moment. You moved over to the central hub, waving down your friend who workd there.

“Hey can you hold these for me, I’ll be back later to pick them up.” You called, before quickly rushing out the store.

“Y/N wait.”

You kept moving, almost sprinting into the courtyard of the outdoor shopping center. This was the second week! Couldn’t this asshole give up already?

“I just wanna talk!”

“I’m done talking to you!” You hissed back.

“Come on, Baby-Girl.”

“Fuck off!”

The man moved before you, as you turned to leave, you growled feeling him grab your arm. Turning as you shoved him away from you. “Don’t touch me, asshole!”

“Just let me talk!”

You growled, “Oh you wanna talk? You wanna talk about how I found you in my fucking bed with some bitch! You wanna talk about all the people who saw you out there with your tongue down some other girls throat! Fuck you.”

“Come on it’s not like that.”

“It’s not like that? Obviously, you need me a lot more than you think I need you. Lose my number and get out of my sight.”

“It’s not like you can do any better than me.”

You scoffed, rolling your eyes pulling your arm from him. “I’m done here.”

“You fucking, bitch…”

“There you are babe!”

You turned, seeing a rather large man standing before you who had caught your ex’s arm, that was going to swing at you with a baton. Your eyes widen at the weapon, only to turn to your savior.

“Gladiolus Amicitia?”

This was your first time seeing him in person, but everyone knew the Amicitia’s the King’s Shield. He was a lot hotter than the magazines made him! 

The man gave you a wink, easily pushing your ex away from you, and then moving before you. No wonder this guy was called the King’s Shield, he was built like a fucking wall.

“Did my girlfriend, do anything to upset you?” Gladiolus inquired, he made absolutely certain that you were covered.

You ex scoffed, “Fuck you, Y/N.”

You didn’t even have to know that he turned tail and ran, he was always a coward, but this guy before you. Damn!

“Are you all right?”

You smiled, “Yeah, thanks.”

“Good to hear, wouldn’t want anything to happen to fellow Dynasty Will reader.”

You beamed at this, “You read Dynasty Will too?”

“Yeah,I see you at the bookstore reading every so often.”

You giggled, figuring that it always made you a nerd to like that series, “You know what, how about for helping me out, I get you a drink big guy?”

Gladiolus chuckled, “Only if I can get you one too, babe.”

~~~~~

Ignis

It wasn’t that he was being noisy, actually, it was but not that he meant to do it, but when you work in a pastry shop with a huge viewing window for customers its rather hard to not notice.

This little cafe was adorable, and also made an amazing cup of ebony. It was often that Ignis might find himself seated at a small table within view of the viewing area and catch up on a book or reports. Enjoying the soft chatter of patrons going in and out, or the relaxing music within the shop.

“I want to speak to the owner!”

This was the scene Ignis came in on one day, only to find you step behind the counter.

“Yes, how may I assist you?” You asked.

“I said the owner!” The man screamed.

“I am the owner of this shop, how may I assist you, Sir?”

“A woman, no one this place is such a shit show, you don’t have a man in charge! I said a blueberry hazel, and your little excuse of a barista messed it up! I demand a refund.”

You smiled, that retail smile, “I would be more than happy to get you a refund, Sir, please allow me just a moment.”

“I also want that little bitch fired.”

“Sir, I am not going fire my barista because of simple human error. She has apologized, and I have already issued a refund to your card. At this time our transaction is over and I will request for you to leave my store before I call the authorities.” You replied placing his return receipt on the counter.

“The authorities! Do you know who I am!” He growled.

“I shall have the pleasure of saying I do not. Now please leave!”

“I work for the King and I’ll have this place shut down and fucking ruin you, you bitch.”

“Bree, call the police.”

“You fucking bitch!” He barked, picking up his cup, before tossing it across the counter.

Ignis only managed to move before the man, lucky it was a warmer day and the coffee was iced. “She may not know who you are, yet I do Falsus, I’m certain that you’ll enjoy explaining as to why you were terminated for using your position to intimidate a citizen. I suggest you leave now.”

The man backed up, before leaving the shop head low.

Ignis turned to make certain that you weren’t hurt, only to find you had rounded the counter with a clean rag.

“Oh my goodness, I am so sorry about that. Are you all right?” You called handing him the rag so that he could clean his face.

Ignis chuckled, “It was iced, fortunately, a shame such a work of art had to go to waste.”

You smiled softly, only to realize that his jacket was ruined. “Oh no, please let me pay for the dry cleaning bill.”

Ignis chuckled shrugging off his jacket, “I assure you it perfectly fine, I would not mind a cup of this. It was rather delicious.”

You giggled turning to the girl behind the counter, “Bree, please an iced ebony for our hero today.”

“Of course!”

You walked Ignis over to his familiar table, moving back to grab his drink and snagging a pastry from the case. “A thank you.”

Bree's head popped up over the counter, “Boss lady, loves it when you come in! You should probably ask her out!”

“Bree!” You gasped, playfully scolding her, “I will put you on snickerdoodle duty again.” This only got you a laughing barista.

“I would actually be honored.” Ignis chuckled at your adorable expression. “Would this Thursday be fine, after the shop is closed?”

You smiled softly, “I would love it.”

~~~~~

Lunafreya

HOW! How was this happening! You had just told the Oracle, that you like sweet soft spoken girls. It was supposed to be a flirt between friends, you did it with the guys all the time. Which was the problem! You had no idea how to flirt with ladies anymore, and you just told the Oracle.

“Healers always make their way into my heart.”

And she without batting an eye goes,

“You know I’m the best healer in Eos right?”

You got so freakin’ flustered that you had to make an excuse to get up and find something for the both of you to eat.

It was already enough that you had the biggest crush on the Oracle, in all honesty, who didn’t? and Noctis wasn’t of any help in learning more about her. He just kept stating, “She like girls.”

What the hell does that mean!?

As you dug in your cabinets attempting to find something to snack on while you and Lunafreya watched some lazy movies, you didn’t even hear the woman approach you. Without her heels, she was really quiet.

Only to shriek as you felt her arms wrap around your waist and the Oracle placing a soft kiss on the back of your neck. You could feel your face heat up immediately at the action.

“Is something wrong, Y/n?”

You muttered weakly, before turning around, afraid to meet her gaze, “I...I really like you.”

“I like you too!” She smiled moving closer.

“No, no, I have like a crush on you.”

“A crush?”

You nodded.

Then she laughed loudly, “Oh my, I think we’re both confused.” She giggled. “I figured this was like our fifth date and you were taking it slow. I’m sorry.”

Wait! You were already dating? That was so easy!

You flushed even harder at this, “Then is it okay if I kiss you too?”

“I would actually like it a lot.”

You smiled, cupping her cheeks before pulling her forward pressing a kiss to her lips, humming as your girlfriend kissed you back.

Healers really did know how to aim for the heart.

[oukis]

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On 1/27/17, at 10:31 AM, shrekugami nerd wrote:

> i need to know how mermaids have sex it's killing me

On 2/20/17, at 3:37 PM, Jo Kay wrote:

> Do gods even have poopholes

On 2/20/17, at 5:47 PM, emily | scarf wrote:

> it’s very important to Kermit that Yato’s buttcheeks maintain maximum suppleness

On 2/25/17, at 8:58 PM, bluism wrote:

> pip spray me with the holy water of kinkshame after tonight bc im about to write pure sin

On 2/25/17, at 11:23 PM, Wolf wrote:

> Nuns don't have sex Blue

On 4/14/17, at 12:33 PM, maddie wrote:

> if I get pizza am I consuming the milk of cows meant to nourish their precious children but instead used for my sick pleasure

On 4/18/17, at 10:57 PM, maddie wrote:

> why don't i have a wife in this chat. is it my nipples

On 4/18/17, at 11:48 PM, maddie wrote:

> can we just add them so i can show my dick hand and them sleep in peace

[13:03] Sunny not Sunhee: when you get fed far too much extremely good food and you wonder if you're a lamb being prepared for slaughter. Oh well at least I know I'll be a tasty Indian lamb curry

On 4/23/17, at 4:11PM, Gio wrote:

> can this chat go a full day without someone saying the word vore

On 4/23/17, at 11:19 PM, emily | scarf wrote:

> maybe the real hafuri was all the kinks we shamed along the way

On 4/24/17, at 11:14 PM, maddie wrote:

> maybe i really was easter sex

maddie - Today 8:28 PM

> to be fair everytime i accidentally taste my pills i feel like I've just given satan a rimjob

I N K- Today 9:08 PM > Ohmygosh I have to tell you the time I had to explain to my mom about alien sex in space

On 4/30/17, at 1:02 PM, maddie wrote:

> my nipples are better protecrted than the gods greatest secret excuse you

[5/1/17, 1:25:26 PM] maddie: after i showed u my dick hand

[5/1/17, 1:25:32 PM] paperypiper: doc

[5/1/17, 1:25:43 PM] maddie: pls pip my dick hand is already in there once

[5/1/17, 1:25:52 PM] maddie: i don't want this to be the new nipples

On 5/5/17, at 12:54 AM, Gio wrote:

> i leave for a few hours and scarf has new kinks

On 5/10/17, at 10:11 PM, Mrs. 707 wrote:

> omg I only introduced myself as daddy LETS TRY THIS AGAIN HI NUGG I'M ALIA

On 5/10/17, at 10:16 PM, maddie wrote:

> I never talk about my nipples!!! I have to protect them because you all are always bringing them up

> defend their honor

maddie - Today 9:20 PM

> I have the healthiest vagina here I bet

[10:13:22 PM] maddie: every time i see an uncircumcised penis i want to cry they're so beautiful

On 5/24/17, at 6:41 PM, shanna ☆ wrote:

> reverse vore is making a baby and giving birth through your mouth

On 25/5/17, at 22:18 PM, emily | scarf wrote:

> gotta fuck the cupcake

On 5/30/17, at 21:59, maddie wrote:

>yato looks oddly calm and placid for being taken from the back either kermit has a small peen or yato has a gaping asshole

On 5/31/2017, at 23:37, bluism wrote:

> why make a competition out of those two presidents when Obama was the daddiest of them all

yatorihell - Today 4:30 PM

> IF GAME OF THRONES FINAL SEASON GETS DELAYED TO 2019 IM OIGN TO RIP MY TITS OFF

Wolf - Today 5:58 PM

>The only day where you can kinkshame me, get it while it's hot

On 6/5/17, at 8:58 PM, maddie wrote:

> gio half of me want to make sweet and passionate love to you behind a dumpster at taco bell and the other half wants to kill you

On 6/10/17, at 12:50 AM, maddie wrote:

> someone had to lovingly shade the clefts in those ass cheeks

On 6/11/17, at 9:31 PM, paperypiper wrote:

> nug he fucked the chicken

On 6/12/17, at 1:27 PM, Hiyori's gf wrote:

> She's 12 and talking about anal beads please drag her

[19:42:09] Yatorihell: Calm the fuck down you uncouth toddler shit stain

On 6/13/2017, at 9:31, Paperypiper wrote:

> if you're maddie you can shove everything up your ass

On 6/14/2017, at 2:50AM, bluism wrote:

> is it true that when you turn 18 you get free dicks for life

On 6/15/17, at 1:17 AM, briitine wrote:

> I wanna look like a moist biscuit not Sasquatch

On 6/20/17, at 10:20 AM, Yatorihell wrote:

> To aliens maybe humans look like their dicks

On 6/20/2017, at 22:52, maddie wrote:

> hey. asking for a friend. you guys ever get nipple lint

On 6/20/2017, at 22:55, maddie wrote:

> what was that you fucking breaded chicken breast

On 6/20/2017, at 22:55, Maddie wrote:

> I'm going to die alone with only my inverted nipples to keep me company

On 6/20/2017, at 22:57, gio wrote:

> maddie what’s the science behind nipples being the shade of your perfect nude

On 6/21/17, at 10:52 PM, shanna ☆ wrote:

> id rather blow a whale than get humped by a dolphin

[6:27 PM] I N K A Y: When two unicorns are having sex they sound like wind chimes

On 6/25/17, at 9:44 PM, paperypiper wrote:

> fisting isn't important to everyone

On 6/27/17, at 6:11 PM, maddie wrote:

> i hate not being in call but being in the text i feel like a kid with polio in the fifties sitting in a wheelchair while the other children play on the playground

On 6/27/17, at 6:23 PM, shanna ☆ wrote:

> wtf maddie no one gets fisted by Roy mustang but me

On 6/27/17, at 11:52 PM, emily | scarf wrote:

> if you think abt it

> vore is representative of how we are all devoured by the dominant ideological hegemonies of capitalism,

> ....

> hot

6/30/2017, at 10:57 PM, Yatorihell wrote:

> sword or dagger

Bluism: > whichever is least painful to shove up my ass I guess

7/3/2017, at 16:19, emily|scarf wrote:

> sleeping with Gio was soft and warm like a mash potato

On 7/6/17, at 7:40 PM, bluism wrote:

> I'm going to lick his nipple tassel  and you can’t stop me

On 7/11/17, at 10:39 AM, Yatorihell wrote:

> FUCK YOU MY AUTOPUSSY IS INDESTRUCTIBLE

On 7/11/17, at 9:20 PM, shanna ☆ wrote:

> my toddler vagina creates miracles

On 7/19/17, at 10:09 PM, scarf | emily wrote:

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On 7/22/17, at 23:01, maddie wrote:

> if donuts weren't meant to be fucked why do they have holes

On 7/31/17, at 18:41, blusim wrote:

>I love voring my loved ones

On 8/2/17, at 4:23 PM, maddie wrote:

> real sex is sobbing in the missionary position for the 2 minutes it takes to come

On 8/5/17, at 4:16 PM, bluism wrote:

> who's my baby daddy? the lord

On 8/7/17, at 18:15, Bluism wrote:

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On 8/12/17, at 10:39 PM, bluism wrote:

> im only a hoe for one man and that's the lord

On 8/12/17, at 10:42 PM, bluism wrote:

> bitch catch me at a church sucking sin from both men and women left and right

On 8/14/17, at 10:21 PM, jay wrote:

> i'm gonna start a gofundme to help achieve my dream of being vored by a giant plush shark

On 8/18/17, at 12:09 PM, Yatorihell wrote:

> vore, pip, vore

On 8/18/17, at 12:13 PM, scarf | emily wrote:

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On 8/19/17, at 1:14 PM, bluism wrote:

> i birthed the lord jesus christ you judas believer

[On 8/29/17, at 4:17 PM],Wolf wrote:

> The three nippleteers

On 9/10/17, at 12:24 AM, maddie wrote:

> anyways i'm done eating ham straight from the bag in my underwear in the kitchen at midnight

On 9/19/17, at 11:04 PM, maddie wrote:

> i type with my nipples first

On 9/23/17, at 12:56 PM, Mrs. 707 wrote:

> nope im saving myself for satan

On 9/23/17, at 5:51 PM, soukohoe wrote:

> no that's illegal in the state of Texas as both homicide and incest

On 9/25/17, at 12:29 AM, vore queen wrote:

> I came here to sin and vore and I'm all vored out

On 9/26/17, at 1:24 PM, maddie wrote:

> anna is leonardo davinci and i am leonardo doujinshi

On 9/26/17, at 9:51 PM, I N K wrote:

> You don't have to buy dead bodies, you just make them

On 11/2/17, at 12:01 AM, maddie wrote:

> you come into my home on the day of my lamppost orgy

On 11/2/17, at 12:01 AM, gio wrote:

> also unrelated to fucking lamps but i found this really neat shark onesie at target today let me show you

On 11/2/17, at 9:07 PM, paperypiper wrote:

> scarf your giving tree smut crashed my wifi

[withasmoothroundstone]

Hope that is conditional upon the impossible is not real hope.

And hope that is conditional upon the impossible, or even the highly improbable, can do a great deal more harm than good.

But also.

Living without hope for a long time can render you unable to see or even conceive of certain possibilities.  Depression, for instance, can completely warp your thinking until every single train of thought ends in “Everything’s hopeless, nothing bad ever changes except maybe to get worse, and I might as well die.”  And it can cause you to rationalize that feeling by explaining to yourself over and over again why every single path you could take is horrible or impossible.  

Made worse by people massively overgeneralizing “depressive realism” into the idea that they’re actually seeing everything more clearly all the time than people without depression.  Made worse by certain kinds of advocacy that teach you should never tell someone their thinking is massively distorted, and never believe anyone who tells you yours is, because that would be ableist or something.

(No.  What’s ableist is assuming that everyone who’s ever been labeled with a psychiatric condition is constantly so distorted in their thinking that they can’t perceive anything accurately without you there to interpret it for them.  It is not ableist to notice someone has distorted thinking patterns in some areas at some times.  Although you should always be careful to be aware everyone has distortions in their thinking including you, and that you might not always have the full story.)

All of these things at once in my life converged into something massively fucked up.  Where I was told that the only hope for my future rested on the disappearance of a movement disorder that had not even been named even in professional literature when this was going on.  And that if this did not make me hopeful that was the fault of my mental illness and if I only believed hard enough in the cure of something that had no name let alone treatment or cure (there were one or two case studies in existence at that time, there is still no real treatment), then the hopelessness would disappear and I would live totally independently by my twenties.

Nobody told me about SSI.

Nobody told me about communication devices even after it was known and in writing in my records that when I couldn’t speak I could still usually write.  And even after someone devised a method for nonspeaking communication on the phone that was basically her running through the alphabet and me tapping the phone when she hit the right letter, along with one tap for yes, two taps for no, and three taps for “something else”.  All of which mimics the scanning feature on many communication devices. 

Nobody told me about the services that existed in my area for disabled adults.

My neighbor as a kid who got MS and vanished into a nursing home overnight (which was seen as totally normal and inevitable, and people wonder why disabled people lose hope) was still in a nursing home when I was in my twenties, and had still never heard of in-home services that existed in our state for people with the same kind of disabilities she had.  She was reportedly suicidal.  This was seen as inevitable if sad.  I hate inevitable if sad.  It masks too many things that everyone ought to be angry about because they’re not natural and inevitable, they are injustices done to some people by other people. People act like institutions are a consequence of disabilities.  They’re not.  They can’t exist without a whole society deciding to turn the other way as part of society forces people into them based on characteristics that don’t inevitably lead to them.  One woman who workd in the California DD system for a long time said it best -- the populations of people inside and outside of institutions are identical.

Of course it’s also important to be aware that the shape of the building and the number of people involved don’t make something stop being an institution.  

And it’s also important to know that people’s lives don’t stop when they enter an institution and that part of the whole hope thing can involve making life inside better.  Because not everyone will get out.  And people who don’t get out don’t deserve to be treated even more like nonpersons because people are afraid if we make institutions better for people inside them then nobody will ever be allowed to leave.  Just never delude yourself that making it better is a substitute for stopping institutions from existing.  No improvement on the inside can create real freedom.  But if it’s genuine improvement and not just cosmetic, it will change people’s lives.  I remember finding out that the best institution I ever stayed in was so good because it was while I was there being investigated by Protection and Advocacy after deaths occurred.  I found this out over ten years later.  That explained why they never used the isolation room (solitary confinement, often with restraints) on us -- people had died in their isolation rooms and they were being investigated.

Anyway.  I’m scared of institutions now more than I ever have been in years.  I’m scared of changes not happening because most people still don’t realize institutions aren’t inevitable.  I’m not depressed -- because I’ve got enough life experiences to know you never know what to expect really -- but if all this happened during my periods of depression in the past, it would already be unbearably awful.

But the thing that scares me most is more children growing up like I did, convinced their only hope of even marginal freedom is to come as close to functioning like a nondisabled person as possible.  And both children and adults thinking you have to be cured or damn close to it to be happy.  And that goes for things that you would really feel better if they were cured, like arthritis -- it doesn’t mean cure is the only possible way to be happy.  Because people treat it like the cure for ableism is just to make people stop being disabled so they won’t be subject to it.  Which is why ~hope for a cure~ is so often poisonous and tainted.