#theyre so good aaaaaaghhh this season was so good this final scene was so fucking good

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Ah but okay real talk as someone who’s been through the whole “being gay while having severe trauma from a religious upbringing” experience, the good omens season 2 ending is so fucking accurate to the emotional turmoil you go through when discovering your sexuality while simultaneously not wanting to go to hell

Like throughout the whole show, and specifically its highlighted many times in this season, Aziraphale is trying so hard to believe that God is inherently good and that straying from that path is inherently bad and unforgivable. Cuz that’s the shit you’re taught when raised catholic! And him constantly trying to prove that Crowley belongs in heaven instead of hell is his way of trying to save Crowley from damnation, and by extension, himself

So when Aziraphale gets the offer to earn his place back in heaven with Crowley by his side, of course he takes it. It means that they can both convert and finally be together without consequence! And fuck, that just rings so true to me because I just remember when I was younger the way I was so scared of turning away from god, and even though id try to convince myself that maybe being gay isn’t a sin, it didn’t help. So I pretty much thought that I could find a loophole where I could theoretically be gay, but I’d have to be an extremely devout Catholic in order to cancel it out and guarantee my spot in heaven. Just in case being gay was a sin. And that’s essentially what is happening here, Aziraphale found a loophole where he can be with Crowley AND saved from damnation, all he has to do is pledge loyalty to heaven and get Crowley to do the same

But Crowley knows better. He knows that it won’t work like that. Even if they can be together now without damnation, it won’t be worth it because this ideology is toxic. He’s traumatized and fed up with this way of thinking that guarantees you’ll be saved as long as you don’t ask questions. He’s heartbroken that Aziraphale WOULD want that for them when it’s caused both of them nothing but misery. He’s hurt that someone he loves thinks he has to do this so they can be together, given how much Crowley emphasizes that he wants nothing to do with it. It’s frustrating as hell to not be listened to, to have someone not understand that you’re significantly happier when you don’t have to constantly repress your identity to please some god who is, quite frankly, a complete asshole

And the part where they kiss and Crowley makes it quite clear that his stance won’t change, that he actually WANTS damnation if it means they can be together, and Aziraphale says “I forgive you”? OOF that hits so hard