#they’re gna need some help out there

[jemmaredgravewhore]

please in s3 can we have maggie and nina returning the matchmaking - creating diversions to coax azi back to earth and then bam! he has to confront crowley on what he thought was just a simple work trip.

the ‘emergencies’ get increasingly more high stakes until they full on stage the birth of the antichrist just to get these 2 heartbroken losers back in the same room again

[judeswhore]

uhm hi😳😳

u also sort of having a little crush on him too but you’ve been friends for so long that ur well aware of his reputation and you’ve had a front row seat to his revolving door of girls so u really don’t wna put urself in a situation where he can hurt u despite knowing that he has some kind of feelings for u. so ur always keeping that little bit of a distance between u, flirting but not letting it go too far, making it very clear that ur just friends by talking abt other guys ur seeing or bringing up girls he’s seeing. and it drives jude mad bc he wants u and he doesn’t really understand why the two of u can’t work out bc he can see there’s something there between u but ur constantly putting a little barrier up. so he’s just having to stick to being a love sick puppy, always asking abt u, always complimenting u, constantly trying to sit near u whenever ur out and being moody if u don’t join ur friends. who think it’s absolutely hilarious that he’s so smitten but u won’t do anything so they’re always torturing him abt how unlucky he is and how eventually he’s gna have to move on.

but the two of u end up on the same night out in the same club but with different groups of friends and without the supervision of ur normal group and somehow ur harmless flirting leads to making out in a dark corner which leads to jude half begging u to go home with him and he just looks so good and his hands feel incredible and all u can think abt is finally scratching that itch. and in ur head its okay bc it’ll happen once and u can get it out of ur system and ur friends won’t ever have to know bc they’re not even there. so u end up going home with him and it’s honestly the best sex of ur life bc jude actually cares abt u so he’s so attentive to ur needs and makes sure ur feeling good the whole time (he gives u more orgasms than you’ve ever had until ur quite literally crying and shaking from the pleasure) and its so strangely intimate and actually kind of perfect but when u wake up the next morning ur hit with a wave of embarrassment and worry over the whole thing bc this is jude and you’d promised urself you’d never go there with him bc it wasn’t worth the hurt down the line.

so ur asking him to keep it quiet and pretend it never happened, telling him it won’t happen again and that he can’t tell ur friends bc it’s really not something u want them to know. and ofc jude is agreeing despite the fact he’s quite disappointed and hurt that ur just gna leave it as a one night stand but he’s so stupidly in love with u that if that’s what u want ofc he’s gna respect it bc he really doesn’t wna ruin ur friendship. and things go back to normal for a little while and u manage to act like nothing happened until all of ur friends are out one night but u couldn’t make it and jude has one too many shots and starts moping again that ur not there and somehow that leads to him spilling his guts abt what happened to the guys and he’s going on abt how amazing it was and how it was the best night of his life and that ur just incredible and he can’t believe he won’t get to sleep with u again and he doesn’t mean it in a gross way and he doesn’t mean to disrespect ur wishes but he just couldn’t help himself and now that little bit of information spreads to ur girlfriends who confront u abt it and u can’t believe jude wld do that to u.

going out as a group the next day and the tension is obvious and u can’t just let it go bc ur fuming that jude has gone and bragged abt getting with u and u feel like shit that he’s one of ur closest friends and he’s treated u like this. so ur following him into the bathroom to ask wtf he’s playing at and u end up having this huge fight bc ur accusing him of being like every other guy and saying this is exactly why u never acted on ur feelings bc u knew he’d let u down and you’d just be like another number to him and jude is just so confused but feels so bad bc that’s not what he wanted and he never meant for it to come out the way he did but he couldn’t help himself when he’s so into u. he’s just letting u rant at him for a while before he’s having to literally cover ur mouth w his hand to get u to shut up and listen to him while he explains and even as he’s explaining he’s telling u he knows it’s not an excuse but u literally drive him crazy and he had to tell his best friend that he finally got w the girl of his dreams and he’s giving u this big love confession that stuns u to the spot bc u knew he liked u but not to this extent and now it’s starting to feel a little silly that you’ve been avoiding ur feelings and not letting him in

this whole situation leading to u finally letting him take u on a date and when ur friends find out abt that they’re all sort of breathing a sigh of relief bc they don’t have to put up w jude being lovesick anymore

[saintzweig]

pls make a fic on patrick hovering over reader while they’re trying to study. intentionally distracting and disturbing them for an ounce of attention !!

funny you ask for this because i'm supposed to be studying for my midterms. THIS IS GNA BE MY LAST POST I NEED TO STUDY (crucify me if you see me post).

patrick visiting stanford after months on tour, desperate to see and feel you to make up for the times he had to settle for phone sex. unfortunately for him, he picked the wrong time because its your exams week and you have too much on your plate. he lays on your bed, sighing out loud numerous times and groaning for your attention to which you only rolled your eyes. he couldn't take it anymore and walked over to where you sat by your desk, placing his hands on your shoulder and crouching down so his lips are right next to your ear.

"can't you take a break? it'll be quick, i promise" his hands trail down to grope your chest, making your breath hitch. his warm breath on your skin and his large hands feeling you made you clench your thighs, which of course didn't go unnoticed.

"can't pat, i have to study or i'll fail" you huffed, trying to ignore the ache between your legs.

he chuckled, "you're not gonna fail by giving your boyfriend, who you haven't seen for months, atleast five minutes of attention" moving down slightly to attach his lips to your neck, leaving trails of sloppy kisses.

"i'm gonna fail if i don't study" his hands are now under your shirt, feeling your stiff nipples.

"then i'll help you, yeah?" he pull his hands out to grab the stack of flashcards on your desk before pulling you up and dragging you to the bed. he sits down and pulls you down to your knees, right between his legs.

now your mouth is around his cock, gagging while he reads you questions– if you get an answer right, you get to kiss the tip and if you get an answer wrong, he gets to push your head down.

you passed the exams, which he arrogantly took all credit for but you can't say that he didn't help. he's definitely expecting some sort of reward for helping you as if he was the one that took the test :)

[ashsostrange]

i’m (not) sorry to say, but miles is better off by himself.

idk if i’ve ever written a post this long, but i got energy tonight. y’all have been sucked into the black hole of shipping, so let me ground you and remind you of this amazing thing called being single. i’m gna talk ab margo and gwen, but mostly gwen bc she’s obv miles’ (main) love interest. i’ve said more than enough about why miles and gwen don’t work/make sense. if you wna be enlightened then feel free to click the links.

thoughts on ghostflower: here!

reblogging a moot's post w/ added thoughts: hereee!

i love ranting so let’s get it! 😛

i don't have much to say about margo bc sadly, she's barely there. what i will say though is that as cute as miles and margo would be together, there’s one more movie left lol. the third movie’s gna be busy as hell. there’s literally no time for romance, and to rush miles and margo (two people who just met) into liking each other in, like, a three hour timespan would just be terrible writing. plus, we all know she’s there for some bs having to do with miles nd gwen, which is literally soooooooo very lame, words can't describe. one, where are you finding the time to cram in jealousy/all this angsty romance mess when miles’ dad is ab to die and the universe is ab to collapse bc of a nigga that looks like the lovechild of a cardboard box and a cow?? two, is this really all margo is here for?? to make gwen jealous or “help miles realize he’s in love with gwen” ?? shameeee, like summer said. 😐 i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again: margo could be SO much more than a disposable love interest!!!

gwiles/ghostflower fans, i’m going to tell you something that will make you upset. i said i was coming for you and i meant it 🗣️‼️

before you yell at me and push smoke out of your ears, i need you to put your right hand on your chest and close your eyes. you feel your heartbeat? good. now, count to three while taking deep breaths and remember that none of this shit is real so you’d look stupid af trying to attack me. 🙃 some of y’all are getting TOO comfortable being unnecessarily disrespectful and ion like that lol. don’t try it here bc i’m on another level of not gaf!

listen, even if (when?) gwen and miles team up to save his dad, it won’t change the fact that gwen was keeping some hefty info from miles, yo. she was smiling in jeff’s face and cracking jokes like she didn’t know he was bout to die. y’all gotta be so very real with yourselves. you wouldn’t wna date, let alone be FRIENDS with someone who kept something that big from you, regardless of the circumstances or lack of ill intent. one of the most important people in your life concealing the fact that you’re about to lose another important person in your life is insane.

i’m aware that gwen didn’t tell miles about his dad because she genuinely thought it’d cause mass destruction if he saved jeff. thing is, even if miles knew that, i think he’d still feel betrayed. that’s 100% valid because this is his dad we’re talking about. he just lost his uncle not too long ago, too. i wouldn’t blame miles if he never wanted anything to do with gwen again. i wouldn’t blame bro if he got sick to his stomach every time he saw her. it’d be justified, bc if he never followed her that night, then he wouldn’t have had the chance to save jeff.

my point is that you can be a “good person” and still fuck up bad enough to make someone never wna speak to you again. miles is a sweetheart so he’ll probably forgive gwen. my thing is, miles forgiving gwen doesn’t mean the two of them are obligated to be friends again. they can handle it maturely, go their separate ways, nd never speak again. it’s really not even gna hurt y’all cuz it’s the last mf movie anyway??? 😭😭

if it isn’t clear by now, i don’t want miles and gwen together at all. they have no business being around each other frl 🙃 not as friends and definitely not as lovers. like, sure, that one scene where they’re swinging/talking on the bank was my absolute fav. it was cute. i shipped them before i really thought about it. that scene is still my fav, but my adoration for it isn’t gna stop me from keeping it real.

i really don’t care what anyone says or how in love they think these two are, this isn’t a “forgive and forget” situation. if the writers truly wanted gwen and miles to be involved romantically, then not only should they have structured their dynamic better, they shouldn’t have made gwen the person she was in this movie. love, love, LOVE redemption arcs because it’s a reminder that we're human and we're flawed, but you can’t redeem yourself from that. sorry. (not) i say miles should leave that girl alone 🤷‍♀️ leave all potential girls alone ffs.

in conclusion, it’s okay for miles to be single. he's 15 anyway, it's not like he'll die without a girl. i’m the suckiest sucker for anything to do with romance, but characters in film/animation don’t need to have love interests for a project to be considered good. if you feel like it does, then maybe ts you’re watching just sucks, lmao. a girl and a boy can be friends without one having feelings for the other, or both of 'em having mutual feelings. (in the media idk ab irl..) it’s time to stop forcing ts. please.

and it’s okay y’all, i promise you. it’s okay if miles and gwen don’t end up dating. it's okay if they reconcile and stay friends. it’s okay if they reconcile and don’t stay friends. though unlikely, it’s also okay if miles doesn’t forgive gwen at all! resolutions like these go to show that you can “forgive” someone without letting them have access to you anymore. that’s what miles needs to do. straying away from the “happy ending” everyone is expecting would be nice. it’d be a different approach and a realistic way to complete the franchise. (i’m not just saying this bc i love angst)

but before the gwiles (ugly ass ship name btw) fans start throwing up and telling me to end my shit, it’s 99% unlikely that anything i just stated will actually happen. we’re more than likely getting a kiss between miles and gwen, nd that’s bc the writers are probably high off the same dope they were on when they wrote gwen sneaking in thru miles’ window, j for his parents to be way more calm about it than any other normal parent would be. i could say some more about certain scenes but that's for another night.

miles doesn’t need to be with anyone. especially not gwen when it comes down to it.

oh and i HATE peter b. fuck that nigga. he was nun but an extra in this movie and i know he’s an opp in the next. 🙎‍♀️

that’s all! if you read allat then thanks, cuz i wrote a lot. if you're feeling angry, then go for a walk. this isn’t a place for any typa criticism bc i am right, therefore, i am not requesting confirmation. 🙌 i said what i said. have a good night.

[allcnaprograms]

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[ang3lik]

I wanna start writing for Ethan but everytime I write a decent fic I tell myself it's cringe and end up deleting it 😭😭

PLSS this is me 😭 but honestly it’s not, as a person who reads all types of things such as books, plays, fiction, whatever it is, it’s out there, and if i like whatever it’s gna be ant i’m gna read it, cringy or not. and they’ll always be someone who thinks it’s cringe.

like some au’s i don’t like are enemies to lovers because i personally think they’re cringe, but i’m literally writing one rn 😭 and that’s just what it’s abt, as a writer your writing for an audience that’s actively searching for your content, and they’re going to consume that no matter what !!

but it’s important to also write for yourself, if you don’t feel comfortable writing, that’s perfectly fine ! i can understand a lot of writers also get writers block or lose their passion for writing and i’m not going to be writing forever, but i’ll let people enjoy my content, when i choose it.

but also if you feel like you need some structure or help with writing, for anyone who’s thinking of writing my dm’s are always open !!

[ashsostrange]

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thank you for taking the time, talia, i wna add some stuff, since they’re mainly mad at me for some reason!

what’s crazy is the fact that believe it or not, i genuinely wasn’t going to say anything. i know it’s ironic considering i always seem to b involved in it it, but i really hate drama. trouble j find tf outta me man 😭

i told everyone else to keep it offline too, bc it was over with. her and dalia were “cool”, so why bring it online at that point? but now since we wna ip grab, make petty insta notes, and act like i’m evil, it’s online now.

i guarantee you that nobody can name one time i was mean to them unprovoked, because i never was and i never will be. me and everyone else were willing to move past this and stay friends if maye would’ve just given a real, mature apology in the first place and showed some actual growth and the want to change. i’ll literally pull out screenshots of me saying so if sb wna call bs.

for the girls i was in a gc in with maye, i thought we were all on the same page that we wouldn’t be speaking to her anymore, given the fact that that they started sending screenshots and throwing fuel in the fire. so to go behind our backs and make another gc w maye is crazy, bc they had me feeling bad for them cuz they lost a long time friend. whole time, there was never anything to feel bad about. they switched up at the speed of light.

if these girls wanted to stay friends with maye, then they could’ve have done that instead of hiding it, because that makes them look guilty, no? if you’re gna stay friends with her, why not stand on your decision? bc you know you’re wrong for it? like, what other reason is there, really..?

i would never try and stop them, and i haven’t. i’m not controlling, it’s their choice, the same way it was my choice to drop them for staying friends with her. i wasn’t gonna make them choose, i chose for ‘em 🤷‍♀️

and yeah i was talking mad shit, i won’t front, idc idc 💋 bc ts would’ve been one and done if maye was genuine whenever it was time to apologize.

this is some petty middle school drama and i hate that it got to this point, bc now i’m wasting my time explaining shit at 10pm on a wednesday night.

at the end of the day, i have standards that i set for myself. i don’t make exceptions for anyone.

hope this helps! 💘

i’ll edit this later if i need to.

racism and 'hiimayee'/'mayearies'

hi! so, I know Im not posting as frequently as I should be n I kinda fell off, BUT! theres a reason for that that I will be discussing today.

so, around maybe a month or so ago I was added to an insta gc with a handful of writers. Some being ash, maye, Dalia, a mutual friend named Ash, who we refer to as Lash, and a few others. Keep in mind, just so there is no misconception, the dominant population of this groupchat was both black and queer. I am not going to define who as its not relevant, and I would like to respect everyones privacy.

So, one day in the groupchat, we were all joking around when maye decided to call Dalia, aka @primaviva, a b--der h**per.

Now, for some who are confused lets go over the term 'b--der h**per' and its history.

This is a racial slur that aims to offend the Latino community, specifically Mexican immigrants. it is a callback to the border laws that prevent non-U.S. citizens from entering the United States without legal documentation, otherwise known as a passport or a 'green card' that will recognize you as a U.S. citizen. Throughout history, the government has made it harder and harder to apply for U.S. citizenship. Especially if the person attempting to migrate doesn't have the appropriate funds to finance this kind of migration. This is a form of systemic oppression to further segregate POC from White America, and this system has been critized in the past due to its nature and America even being stolen land.

As stated above, this slur is aimed at Mexican Immigrants. However, anyone of any culture can be an immigrant. When Maye knowingly said this to Dalia, not only was she using a derogatory term used to berate those who spent years trying to find a way towards a better life against her, but she was also grouping her in a category that is not her own. Dalia is NOT Mexican-American. She is puerto rican and dominican. So not only does this term not apply to her, it groups the entire Latino community in a giant umbrella of ignorance that erases her culture, and throws it under one title that is not her own.

To put this into perspective, lets use a hypothetical example.

Jen is Mexican-American. Her culture has deep roots that contributed to everyday history. While some components of her history may be similar to other Latino heritage, they are not the same and differ in many ways.

Gabriella is Puerto-Rican. She too has some similarites to other Latino/spanish speaking cultures, but there is an entirely different story to how her people came to be.

Grouping Jen and Gabriella together is ignorant. Doing this overlooks and dismisses their difference in history and boils their culture down to one small similarity; Spanish. You wouldn't call Gabriella a deragotory term that doesn't apply to her, because not only is it racist, but it also takes a massive eraser to her culture and roots. To put these two under the same roof and unite them under one thing is essentially telling them "you're all the same."

Cultural erasure is already a big problem in non-white communities. Anything that differs from European american history is already not talked about, but to do this is just a slap in the face.

And to put the icing on the cake, this was her apology. Which took her 3 tries...

#1, which was already an issue in itself...an emoji for racism is crazy.

#2, which still wasn't sufficient for racism...

And #3, in which she attempt to deflect the situation by saying we use "problematic language". Which, is only the n-word amongst each other. Because we're all black!

She even got defensive when Dalia assumed she was Latino due to how quickly the word was sent like it was normal. This was not a PROPER apology, regardless of how lengthy it was.

And to make matters worse, this isn't the first time she's been caught saying some racist/problematic shit.

This post is lengthy, and for that, I apologize. But I would like to address one last component of this post before I sign things off.

As you can see in one image, Maye cracked a joke about 'curry' when talking about Pakistani women's education activist Malala.

Let's take a moment to explain why this is problematic, and how cracking jokes about curry when on the topic of Pakistan is an issue.

Pakistan is a country in South Asia that neighbors India. This country has a beautiful and unique history of its own that very rarely is taught in classroom settings, just like I said earlier with any sort of history that is not European. One of the racial stereotypes of its South Asia is their 'abundance of curry', and all of their meals being some type of 'curry'

This is again an ignorant and narrow-minded ideology regarding the topic of race and its similarities to other countries that are similar in certain aspects. It pushes people into a marginalized box, and labels them as 'all the same'.

I ask that you do research before spreading a harmful narrative about peoples culture, and don't be ignorant. Thank you for taking time to read this post.

[unwell333]

I literally cannot purge anymore.

Story time: Today was day three of my October calendar and it was a disaster.

Yesterdays fast was amazingly successful but this morning i wake up to my dad bashing my mom on the family gc and my mom waking me up to make me defend her.

So i get to school and everything is fine until lunchtime. My best friend notices i’m not eating and comments on it and now everyone is offering me food that i refused. Then i realized that i needed to break my 20$ bill and the only way to do that was to but something at the cafeteria.

I was craving an oatmeal cookie but there was none so i end up getting a caramel muffin. Then since i was still craving a cookie i get this pack of three double chocolate cookies. Already i feel super full and disgusting. We had one more period left and it was sports.

So before going to my class i go to the bathroom to try and binge ( only the apple and cucumber i had before the start of my binge came out) and that’s when the migraines started again. They’re extremely painful it’s like an extreme and violent pounding in the middle of your head. Atp i’m so over it i can’t function in class so i go to the infirmary.

I couldn’t tell them that my head hurt cause i purged so i told them it’s cause i didn’t eat lunch and since i’m in a self destructive mood i ask to go buy myself food and lay down. They say yes obviously and i proceed to buy another caramel muffin and pretzels. ( i’ll be remembering that’s pretzels are pretty low cal and i get sick of them easily so i have less chances of binging)

And now i’m omw to dance class and i bought plantain chips and a honey glazed bun( i don’t even like these.)

Last week iwas binging all the time but since i vous purge it was fine and i still lost 3 pounds. But now i can’t purge so i rlly have to be good. My stomach rlly hurts from eating so much right after fasting.

I think i’ve been to easy and trusting on myself. i usually don’t like meanspo because i just get defensive but i think i’m gna starting ready some because or else i’m going to stay fat forever. Also i have new and better friends now and they make me feel better about eating which is bad. I need someone to tell me how fat i am.

This is why i don’t bring money to school. I’ve learnt my lesson. Plus i was so excited to get home and make myself a mealspo worthy dinner. There are too many temptations. I have to be better tomorrow.

If you’ve lasted this long ( i doubt anyone is even reading this) please message me so we can become ed buddies and help each other out.

[maiverie]

hi I saw this on my dashboard can you ship your mutuals with idols you think they will fit best

oh god HI ANON 🕵️‍♀️ i’ve been seeing these on my dash too GHEHEHE this is so cute except you’re asking the wrong person since i feel like i’m so new to tumblr and know nobody 🧍🏻‍♀️ but anyway imma do u one better and write some fic ideas based on what i think their relo would be like 😳

@yerion ship her w jyp obviously 💪 she always talks about how she wants 2 be an idol so she can have a whole ass delicious record executive in her dms??? duh??? the math be mathing 🥵 #enemiestolovers #agegapau #ive never noticed how beautiful his eyes are au 💓 i bet she would like rock up to the jyp building and be like hey give me a contract and the man would be completely enamoured by her at first sight and she’d be like 😍 ure so rich daddy 😋

@seungstarss heeseung it’s heeseung OF COURSE IT’S HEESEUNG i gotta give my girl full rights to her man 😭 no but idk heeseung is such a quiet kind of nice that i feel like sei and him would make such a cute couple 😭 LIKE I SWEAR THEIR LOVE STORY WOULD BE SO CUTE AND FULL OF FLUFF like maybe sei would lowkey like one of his friends until one night she needs help and he’s the only one that pulls thru for her #theyre in an friend group and they’ve never been alone tgt until one night and she’s like damn actually he’s kinda cool and cute but wait y is he looking at me like that au or maybe #neighbours au IDK JUST SOMETHING WHERE HEE LIKES HER FROM AFAR

@vmpnoo i…. i wanna say sunoo so bad EXCEPT THIS BITCH IS LITERALLY A HORROR/GORE WRITER AND SHE STANS THE FLUFFIEST FLUFF BALL THAT IS KIM SUNWOO?????!!! SOMETJING AINT CLICKING 😭😭😭 so maybe it’d be like an opposites attract au but tbh i also see fray with like niki cause they’re both chaotic af like i can see fray scaring the shit out of niki bc she finds it funny 😭 she’s legit gna wake up in the middle of the night and be standing over his bed dressed up as a masked killer and threaten to stab all of his lil plushy toys HAHAHAHHSHAHAHAHAHAHA #romcom # chaotic evil (her) vs chaotic good (niki) couple dynamic

@hoonsilk OUR KDRAMA QUEEEENNNNNN SHE DESERVES ALL THE ROMANCE JSDKKDD SO IMMA SAY SUNGHOON SINCE SHES PROLLY GNA KILL ME IF I SAYANYONE ELSE BUT ALSO IM GETTING A JAY VIBE TOO (ik …. giving up my own bias for u… that’s how u know i love u) BC JAY IS GNA GIVE U ALL THE ROMANCE U NEED!??? he’d literally plan out all the coolest most thoughtful little dates omg bye i’m jealous now—

@wonvelvet YEONIEEEE OMG THIS IS KINDA HARD SINCE WE ONLY JUST MET 😳 BUT IK U LOVE JUNGWON AND U ALR GIVE ME BFF ENERGY SO IM TOTALLY CONVINCED U GUYS WOULD HAVE THE MOST ENERGETIC ADORABLE RELO EVER?????? gotta be liek a school au where yeonie is the new kid and jungwons is the student president and he has to give u a tour and then uh oh he accidentally leads u the wrong way and now you both have detention bc turns out he’s dumb af and doesn’t know his way around the fucking school 😭😭

@twilightau i think it’s cos i read ur godly prince au series but i see u with a tall handsome prince gentleman THATS GNA TREAT U RIGHT AND FIGHT OFF OTHER SLEAZY ASS MEN 🤺🤺🤺 SUNGHOON IS OBVIOUSLY A PRINCE AND HES GNA TAKE CARE OF U SO WELL HE’LL LITEDALLY TREAT U LIKE A PRINCESS #royalty au DUH

edit: WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE I WAS THINKING AB WRITING MOOTS AND I TOTALLT FORGOT ABT MY READING BESTIES

@miiiwaa THE LOML IM HANDING OVER NERD!HEESEUNG LITERALLY CHERRY/HEE SHDKEKKFKSJX HOW CAN I NOT when i feel like ud treat him so well and give him all the reassurance he needs

@jaeyummies WHERE ARE U U WERE MY FIRST FRIEND ON TUMBLR AND NOW YOURE GONE 💔💔💔 heart been broke so many times but anyway you’re the kindest sweetest soul you’re literally my aussie bestie so duh duh duh i ship u w jakey!????????? i’ll gladly be the third wheel and we can all take trips to bunnings and muzz with the eshays on the train 💪

p.s. here’s to a year of more interaction ❤️❤️❤️ HOPEFULLY ONE DAY I CAN DO A PART TWO OR SMTH…….. hoping to get to know more people around here on engene tumblr so if you’re reading this pls don’t be afraid to reach out ☹️💓💖💞

[oyesmendes]

all i wanted was a happy ending

a/n: it’s been a hot minute hasn’t it???? anyway, summer’s ended and we’re in the new semester which is #tragic because im still doing online school and i barely see my friends. but ya here’s one that’s been sitting in my inbox for awhile, probably gna get yelled at bc its an angst piece but yknow what? suCK IT jk i hope you enjoy as always, leave me a message!!

trigger warning: mention of cheating, general angst and a couple of baby swears

It felt like a war in her own home. Hurtful words shot like bullets through the wreckage. This wasn’t supposed to happen. Shawn and Kiara were supposed to be happy. But somehow through the year long world tour, señorita and the fourth album, they seemed to have lost their way. Date nights were reduced to once a month, and nights in were converted to screaming matches and cold wars. Every moment spent together was a battle against each other, tonight was no different. Shawn doesn’t even remember what the argument was about anymore, they were now just pulling shit out from the past to use as their ammunition.

“Don’t pin this on me, Kiara.”

“I never pinned it on you, Shawn. I’m just stating facts that are known to the whole world. Don’t tell me you don’t see those rumours about you and Camila? And don’t tell me they aren’t true.” She grimaces at the way Camila’s name rolls of her tongue, and the way that her thick Mexican accent starts to peak out when she’s mad.

“They’re not true.” He tries to defend. Kiara scoffs, taking a couple steps away from Shawn.

“Everyone knows you’ve had a thing for her since you were a literal child, Shawn. Don’t need to treat me like an idiota.”

“I wasn’t treating you like an idiot.” Shawn seethed.

“Then tell me the truth!”

“That is the truth, Kiara! I love you, and not her! Why can’t you just believe that we’re just friends?”

“Because I’m not a cabrón. Friends don’t look at each other like that! I recognise the way you look at her, Shawn. It’s the same look you gave me when we first started dating. When you and her had that awkward phase and she was barely in your life, you gave me that look - like I was the most important thing in the world to you.” The part comes out like a whisper and she feels her heart physically break. Shawn watches Kiara walk the borders of the room, eyes fixated on the lines of the tiles on the floor. He wants to stop her from pacing, hold her close so he can stop his mind from racing a thousand miles an hour. But he doesn’t. Instead he keeps his feet planted to the ground, body slumped in defeat as he just watches her.

“You are the most important thing in the entire world to me, honey.” Tears prick at her eyes when he uses her pet name. Kiara knows why this fight started even if Shawn didn’t. It has been a storm that was brewing inside of her for weeks. She had seen an article of Shawn and Camila cozying up on each other when he was away on tour. She didn’t think much of it at first, trusted Shawn with her whole heart. But after more rumours spread and some of her friends asking if she was okay, Kiara finally had enough. A thunderstorm ensued, and it was in no way relaxing for either of them.

“Am I really?” Kiara finally looks up at him, and he nods so eagerly that for a moment she thinks she shouldn’t bring the article up. But the anger makes her hands work faster than her mind, scrolling through her phone to the article her best friend had sent her a couple weeks ago. It was a picture of Camila, with her legs wrapped around Shawn and passionately kissing him on the streets of Nashville. She feels the bile rise in her throat looking at the picture again. He could say that the picture was blur as hell, but anyone who knew them would know that the head of luscious brown locks belonged to Shawn.

“Then explain to me, Shawn. What is this?” She shoves the phone shakily into his hands and he feels his heart plummet to his feet. When he doesn’t respond, Kiara nods her her head and looks at him in disappointment.

“Yeah, I thought so too.”  

“I-I wanted to tell you and-“ Shawn scrambles to find the right words, though at this point his efforts seem to be futile.

“When Shawn? When did you want to tell me? Because this picture has been sitting in my phone since the night it happened. I’ve tried so hard to push it out of my mind, and amor I’ve really tried. I didn’t want to give myself a reason to ever use it. But you- you picking fights, and in between tour and the fourth album - we’re no longer the same anymore, and I can’t help but think that this is the reason.” Shawn drops the phone to the table, approaching Kiara and touching her arm. She flinches, moving away from him.

“Don’t.”

Shawn drops his arms to the side.

“Mila was my first real love, Ki.” The way both hers and Camila’s nicknames roll off his tongue so easily in the situation makes Kiara’s stomach churn. He runs his fingers through his hair and continues, “She used to be my world - but that was the past. And that photo, we just haven’t seen each other in awhile and we got really excited so she-“

“So she jumps on to you like you’re her chico amante at the airport? So she kisses you like she’s your fucking girlfriend? That’s some top notch bullshit, Shawn. I thought you’d try harder than that.”

“If you would just let me explain-”

“If you haven’t noticed, there’s nothing left to explain.”

Kiara turns on her heel towards their shared bed room and Shawn’s following closely behind her.

“Don’t walk away from this, Kiara Anne!” In the heat of the moment he raises his voice and Kiara stops dead in her tracks, almost making Shawn crash straight into her.

“You have no right to tell me what to do, Shawn Peter Raul Mendes. You lost your rights ever since that night. I gave you weeks to come clean, to tell me the truth. Instead, you choose to pick fights in every possible situation.” She pokes his chest with her finger when she so desperately wants for someone, for him, to hold her. She wraps her arms around her torso in replacement, willing her tears not to fall.

“All I wanted was a happy ending, Shawn. All my life, I just wanted a happy ending. It didn’t need to be a fairytale happily ever after bullshit, I just wanted to be happy with someone who loved me. I thought it would be with you.” Kiara backs up against the wall, her head tilted back. “Guess the jokes on me huh?” She let’s out a humourless laugh.

“I’m so sorry, honey.” Shawn rubs her arm. She doesn’t move from her spot, and she’s given up on holding back her tears. When her eyes meet Shawn’s, she’s pushing his arms off hers and squirming her way out from the small space between them. Kiara turns to look at him again, and this time the words that spill from her mouth are laced with pain,

“Sorry doesn’t fix anything.”

[wasithard]

Ok I haven’t read them yet but I see u have only posted one of ur folklore bits and I feel like u knew I was gna ask for more..... blease can I see some sequinned smile black lipstick.... 🥺😭

annie u actually made me realise that i forgot to put one of my wips on that post oopsie! i’ve updated it now. also ik there were only two to choose from but as fate would have it sequin smile black lipstick is the one featuring love sex magic!!!!!!!!!! can u believe, how long ago were we talking about it??

DISCLAIMER for everyone Percy is NOT consuming alcohol in this chapter ok! Drink Driving is NOT OK.

sequin smile, black lipstick

Annabeth likes to think of herself as a brave person. Even so, she’s not brave enough to tell her best friend that she’s in love with him.

She runs her finger along the edge of her bottom lip, fixing a non-existent unevenness in her shiny black lipstick to buy herself some more time before she has to leave the bathroom and re-enter the party.

Normally she has a better hold on herself than this, but something about the alcohol in her blood, the snug fit of his skinny jeans, the way his eyes had lingered on the midriff exposed by her cropped old band shirt when he first saw her tonight is making it harder for Annabeth to remember why she’s spent so long convincing herself that the risk of telling Percy how she feels and maybe hurting their friendship isn’t worth it.

She needs to sober up.

There’s a knock at the bathroom door.

She needs to sober up now.

“One second!” She calls out, meeting her own gaze in the mirror and muttering, “Annabeth Chase, you are stronger than this,” before straightening and walking out of the bathroom before she can second guess herself.

Annabeth decides to hunt down Rachel, who will probably laugh in her face about the fact that Annabeth is freaking out over this and effectively remind her of how ridiculous she’s being.

Instead she runs into Percy.

“Hey!” He says, steadying her with his hands on her arms, his eyes on hers. “I’ve been looking for you. Wanna dance?”

She hears the beginning notes of a Ciara track on the speakers above her and grins. What a shame she hadn’t found Rachel first to talk some sense into her. “You know,” she starts, a teasing tone dripping easily into her voice, “There was a time when I would’ve had to beg you to ask me to dance with you.” She starts walking in the direction of the makeshift dancefloor in the next room, “I’m proud of this growth, Percy.”

“Shut up,” he groans, nudging her with his shoulder and grabbing her hand, spinning her under his arm and into the crowd of bodies dancing with varying levels of coordination. “If you want to talk about who’s improved the most since middle school, I could say a lot about how you’ve learnt not to step on my toes anymore.” Annabeth rolls her eyes at him but doesn’t miss the way he keeps hold of her hand after she’s finished spinning. She uses it to spur her on, running her hands up his arms until she can hook them behind his neck and pull him closer.

“Touché,” she says as his hands come up to rest at her waist, his body swaying with hers to the beat.

Percy and Annabeth are friends. Best friends. Despite the ceaseless teasing of their classmates, they are decidedly nothing more than friends. Sure, they’ve kissed a few times. It doesn’t mean anything.

At least, it doesn’t mean anything Annabeth is willing to admit to herself.

There are moments when she lets herself forget that there are consequences to her actions, though. Moments when the feelings Annabeth spends most of her time ignoring demand to be felt, so she holds on to Percy a little bit tighter, stands a little bit closer, lets her gaze linger a little bit longer.

It doesn’t help that he seems more than willing to indulge her on these occasions.

So tonight they’re holding onto each other, dancing to 2000s music. There’s a disco ball hanging from the light at the centre of the room, and the light it reflects casts shimmering squares over Percy’s face as they watch each other. She feels it, an electric tension that seems to always hum between them but only flares up at certain moments – like right now. Percy’s hands tighten at her waist and she’s one second from pushing up onto her toes so she can press her lips to his when all the lights in the room come on and an adult female voice starts shouting at the Stolls for hosting a party in her house without telling her.

It might’ve ruined the moment, but the adrenaline rush she gets as the entire mob around her start streaming for the exit fires her up just as much. Grinning, she grabs Percy’s hand and makes for the front door, patting Travis Stoll on the shoulder as she runs past he and his brother getting lectured by their mother in the midst of the chaos.

By the time they’re outside and in Percy’s car, both of them are panting and laughing, buckling their seatbelts as Percy’s starts the engine of his old truck. They hear a tap at the back window and turn to see Charles Beckendorf and Silena Beauregard waving through the glass. Percy rolls the window down and Beckendorf says, “Got two spare seats?”

“’Course, man,” Percy says, and the couple file into the car. Then they’re off, exchanging escape stories and guessing what the Stolls’ punishment will be and eventually falling into a comfortable, tired silence as the high starts to wear off.

When they reach Beckendorf’s apartment, he and Silena get out of the car with a “Good night,” and Annabeth watches the boy loop his arm over his girlfriend’s shoulder as they walk into his building.

She turns back to Percy to see him watching them too, making sure they get inside safely. The way his green eyes reflect the streetlight in the darkness of the car is dazzling to Annabeth, and when his gaze meets hers she’s already feeling swept up again in the interrupted moment they’d shared at the party.

She doesn’t think, her hand just comes up to cup his cheek and then they’re kissing in his car.

It’s gentle and slow, like they’re both conscious that the moment is fragile enough to break if they’re not careful. Her hand stays on his cheek, and his own on the wheel, and in the quiet of their embrace Annabeth feels a section of the tight shell around her heart loosen.

They both jump when Percy’s phone vibrates with a text message, and Annabeth snaps her hand back into her lap, her mind reeling and well and truly sobered up. What was she thinking?

“It’s just mom,” Percy says, clearing his throat, “Asking when I’ll be home.”

Annabeth doesn’t respond, just stares directly out the windshield while she waits for Percy to reply to his mom and then pull out from the curb. He switches the radio on and neither of them speak the entire drive back to her place.

Before she gets out of the car she meets his gaze. Somehow, seeing the nervousness that she’s feeling herself reflected in his own eyes brings a soft smile to her face and lets her body relax.

“See you on Monday?” She asks, and he visibly relaxes too.

“See you on Monday.” He smiles.

She walks up the path to her front door and looks over her shoulder to wave at him after she’s turned the key, knowing he won’t leave until she’s closed the door behind her.

At school on Monday she berates him for forgetting his homework and it’s like the kiss never happened.

[judeswhore]

hi original anon here and obvs i understand that you won’t post this but i’m really sorry for how this has all spiralled. your blog very much IS a safe space for me and i always enjoy reading your work, it was just that one (the bbc one, sorry i didn’t properly specify) that didn’t sit right and i brought it up with you because i’ve followed you for so long and trusted that you would handle it well.

i’m so sorry for how other people are taking a tiny bit and completely running with it and now making absurd claims about your character, that’s not right and also not true. your writing has always been great it’s more some of the anons that send slightly weird things in which is not in any way your fault, you can’t control what enters your inbox

hi this is the last thing i’m gna post on the matter just bc this is where it stemmed from and i appreciate u coming back. i’m glad u brought up that one ask bc like i’ve said previously it helps me to educate myself and to know what kind of things i need to avoid answering. i’m aware that sometimes i get anons that are weird (there are so many that i don’t answer for this reason) but u pulling me up on that one has simply just made me aware that i should be more wary of what i do reply to, instead of brushing over a certain phrase like i did that one i should just not post the ask at all. i have no control over what i get sent but i can just choose not to answer if i think it’s gna cause offence or harm to anyone so again, i appreciate u originally bringing that up.

as for everything that has stemmed from that ask it isn’t ur fault, anons on here just seem to think it’s okay so cause problems and drama when they don’t need to and i don’t think they realise how harmful what they’re saying is to everyone involved. i’ve never done any of the things they’ve tried to claim i have so it is just a bit weird that they’re trying to paint that narrative and it just shows the kind of people they are. i’m glad that u do think this is a safe space, i’ve had a lot of people say the same and that makes me happy bc that’s all i’ve ever wanted for this blog. i don’t want anyone to feel uncomfortable or like they aren’t included bc that’s awful and that really isn’t the kind of person i am. i want everyone to enjoy every aspect of this blog no matter who they are. receiving those anons after urs just made me very wary abt posting abt jude bc some of the things they were saying were completely out of it. again, i apologise for that ask and i appreciate u mentioning but for everyone else the claims you’ve made have been awful.

[brutaledsaved]

*          𝙾𝙱𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙰𝚃𝙾𝚁𝚈     𝙸𝙽𝚃𝚁𝙾     𝙿𝙾𝚂𝚃          ?          yes     ,     i     think     so     .     first     of     all     :     you     have     no     idea     how     genuinely     excited     i     am     to     write     with     you     all          !          i     saw     this     in     the     tags          &          pretty     much     immediately     knew     i     had     to     app     .     anyways     ,     hello          !          my     name's     florence          (          twenty     -     two     ,     she/they     ,     aest     /     the     pits     of     hell     ,     either     is     fine          )          &          i'm     delighted     to     be     introducing          (          albeit     briefly          )          my     two     absolute     demons          !          a     lil     about     me     :     i'm     currently     devouring     the     grishaverse     trilogy          &          i've     got     the     six     of     crows     duology     lined     up     next          &          i'm     in     the     tail     end     of     a     degree     i     keep     forgetting     i'm     enrolled     in     .     hardly     the     most     interesting     information     ,     but     anywhom          ---          i'm     infinitely     more     excited     to     learn     about     you     all          &          to     get     to     write     with     you          !          as     always     ,     drop     a     wee     like          &          we     can     get     plotting          (          feel          free     to     message     me     for     my     discord          )          !

ekaterina     ‘     katya     ’     petronella     aronova     ,     twenty     -     five     .     tailor     .

katya's     google     doc     will     be     coming     soon     ,     rest     assured     ,     but     until     then     this     is     a     concise     little     rundown     of     her     history          &          personality          &          whatnot          !

first     ---     -     i'm     just     gna     note     that     katya     is     a     demi     girl     who     uses     she/they     pronouns          !          

born          &          raised     in     os     alta     ,     ravka     .     mother          &          father     are     nobles     whose     primary     concern     was     marrying     off     their     daughters     and     throwing     lavish     parties     .     very     bridgerton     ,     actually          /          forever     looking     for     a     new     match     ,     a     new     connection     to     make     .     quite     politically     savvy     ,     they     never     took     into     account     their     childrens'     feelings     .

ekaterina          (          katya     ,     as     she's     affectionately     known          )          is     the     youngest     of     six     daughters     .     their     parents     will     say     that     they've     always     been     trouble     ---     -     too     distracted     ,     head     permamently     stuck     in     the     clouds     .     when     they     were     younger     ,     it     was     hard     to     get     them     to     sit     still     and     focus     on     anything     .     they     were     infinitely     more     interested     in     athletics     than     studies     ;     from     a     young     age     ,     she     showed     a     penchant     for     acrobatics     and     dancing     and     had     plans     to     run     away     and     become     a     performer     had     the     inevitable     not     occurred     .

they     were     tested     relatively     young     ,     and     consequently     grew     up     primarily     at     the     little     palace     .     they     took     particular     delight     in     combat     lessons     ,     learning     that     they     possessed     a     unique     agility     and     a     dancer's     grace     in     battle     .          (          all     the     more     canon     fodder          :          if     things     go     tits     up     ,     katya'll     be     out     of     the     palace     as     soon     as     possible     and     running     off     with     a     performing     troupe          .          )          during     this     time     ,     they     grew     to     be     comfortably     popular     and     made     quite     the     number     of     friends     .     to     this     day     ,     they're     still     close     to     a     number     of     them     .               (          potential     connections     here          !          )          

in     all     honesty     ,     she     resents     not     being     able     to     do     more     with     her     power     .     she     wishes     ,     desperately     ,     that     she     were     born     a     heartrender     or     something     useful     .     she     enjoys     her     work     as     a     tailor     but     wishes     she     could     get     more     involved     in     battle     .     as     much     as     the     darkling     reminds     her     how     necessary     she     is     ,     it's     not     quite     enough     .

that     brings     us     up     to     the     present          !          in     light     of     the     current     situation     ,     they're     more     restless     than     ever     about     not     being     useful     enough     .     they     fill     their     time     with     combat     training     and     acrobatics     lessons     ,     but     it's     still     not     quite     enough     .

a     social     butterfly          !          katya     loves     people     and     can     always     be     found     with     a     friend     .     they're     amiable     and     easy     to     get     along     with     ,     and     will     always     make     an     effort     to     befriend     new     people     .     uncommonly     kind     ,     but     beware     of     a     sharp     tongue     .     they     do     love     a     little     bit     of     gossip          !

natalya     karine     yahontova     .     forty     .     inferni     .

just     like     katya     ,     natalya's     google     doc     will     be     coming     soon     !     i'll     update     my     pinned     post     with     her     info     when     i've     got     it     all     written     ♡

natalya     karine     yahontova     was     born     to     wealthy     parents     ,     one     of     a     set     of     twins     that     have     covered     each     other     since     the     beginning     .     she     and     thomas     are     every     bit     as     similar     as     they     are     different     ,     and     the     sibling     bond     they     share     is     almost     eerie     .     twin     telepathy     is     very     much     present     there     !    

raised     by     nannies     ,     governesses     ,     the     whole     nine     yards     .     parents     were     remarkably     absent     from     their     childhoods     and     as     such     ,     natalya     got     attached     to     the     rotating     crew     of     staff     instead     .     she     considers     them     family     and     still     makes     sure     to     visit     them     whenever     she     can     .     despite     the     strange     dynamics     with     her     parents     and     whatnot     ,     natalya     is     relentlessly     family     -     oriented     .     family     comes     first     ,     always     ;     it's     why     she's     still     so     goddamn     close     to     her     brother     and     to     the     people     that     have     raised     her     .

she     and     thomas     were     tested     relatively     late     and     whisked     off     to     the     little     palace     soon     after     .     whilst     her     brother     had     always     leaned     more     towards     books     and     creating     ,     natalya     has     always     been     one     for     fighting     .     the     first     army     has     given     her     an     opportunity     to     hone     her     craft     ,     and     make     no     mistakes     about     it     :     she's     TERRIFYING     when     she     gets     going     .    

when     she     was     younger     ,     she     was     a     little     more     raw     ,     a     little     meaner     /     she     definitely     made     herself     enemies     by     sheer     virtue     of     her     personality     .     reclusive     and     quick     to     rise     to     a     challenge     ,     she     presents     quite     the     engima     :     a     rose     despite     the     thorns     ,     desperate     for     something     but     not     quite     willing     to     let     it     in     .     she's     softened     over     time     ,     but     she's     still     venomous     when     she     needs     to     be     .

unmarried     ,     but     not     without     a     collection     of     flings     that     she     has     lingering     feelings     for     .     she     has     a     bad     habit     of     getting     involved     ,     realising     she     has     some     kind     of     emotion     for     them     ,     panicking     and     then     leaving     them     .     are     her     exes     begging     her     to     seek     a     bit     of     therapy          ?          almost     definitely     .

at     present     ,     she's     found     her     place     within     the     army     and     has     carved     out     a     place     for     herself     .     she     enjoys     training     younger     inferni     and     helping     them     to     master     their     power     ,     and     she's     gotten     better     at     being     nice     to     people     but     she's     still     relatively     secluded     .     you     won't     catch     her     talking     it     up     at     a     party     ,     let's     put     it     that     way     .

i     love     her     a     lot     n     that's     that     <3333

[3elphie]

making a cake for oikawa’s birthday.

headcanon : making a cake for oikawa’s birthday with aoba johsai as your little helpers.

so you asked everyone if they could come over to make a cake

ON THE DAY OF OIKAWAS BIRTHDAY because u guys were too indecisive to choose a day

and you had to text oikawa that you all would be busy for a couple hours which made him :((

funny thing is iwaizumi said he wasn’t going to make a cake for oikawa but here he is at your doorstep along with the others

so you give all of they ask for aprons but the thing is.... you only have girly ones

they’re like 😀😀😀😀

nd ur like “ok get the batter all over urself then” partly because u wanted to see them in a heart apron

so eventually they take it nd inside ur like Fuck yes but move on

you asked kunimi to get vanilla cake flour like the ones you find at the grocery stores

because you only had chocolate flour at ur house

“kunimi, can you give me the vanilla cake flour please!”

and he hands it over to you and ur like....

“these are brownies, kunimi.”

“oh shit sorry i just grabbed wtv i could”

so now you’re making chocolate cake!!!

out of everyone, i think iwaizumi would be the only like decent baker, he could bake a few things if he wanted to

but the rest...

you ask makki and hatsukawa to grab 2 eggs from the fridge, considering it’s an easy job

hatsukawa gives his egg to u just fine but here comes makki

“y/n, catch!” makki shouts across the room

you panick?!???? wtf makki this egg is not a ball!!!!

but ur hero iwaizumi saves it before it hits ur face 🥺

i’m js gna put you in the middle of everything, making the others put in cups one at a time would be tiring

so after you finish that, you ask kindaichi to kindly mix the batter with the automatic mixer

i think kindaichi would want to help, and he’ll put in his best effort too!! so he’ll turn the mixer on and

little does he know it’s on full speed

and the flour gets Everywhere.

“I’M SORRY, I’LL TRY HARDER!” he pleads as you pat his back saying it was ok

iwaizumi takes over the job... (cannot stop thinking about his biceps)

then the cake batter is done! while iwa mixed it you had already set the temp

yahaba decided it would be a good idea to put in pink, so the cake is now pretty and cute

but, kyotani thought it was a bit too cute... and dipped his finger in the batter and ate it 🙂

you all went silent as you guided him to get some water, hes gna need it

matsukawa would be like pink is too dull, let’s add more!!

resulting in half of the cake batter just being an explosion of colors

you finally manage to get it in the oven

“now time for the frosting!!!”

you were a bit scared to make the frosting, you knew the boys would eat it right away

and your predictions were not wrong...

yahaba is mixing nd he’s like.. my hand tired take kyotani

and mf stirs SO hard the frosting is all over the place

and so you and iwaizumi go to get clorox wipes to clean the half of the frosting that fell out the bowl up

but you come back to kyotani licking the floor and makki and hatsukawa licking the table

...

feels bad for kyotani he is literally going to barf

anyways you wait until the cake is done once you all are finished with the frosting

the boys had no mistakes with coloring the frosting, considering the we’re obsessed with food coloring

it’s all gone good and well, until you ask kunimi to check on the cake

instead of clicking the light on the oven, MF CLICKS THE OFF BUTTON

sigh

“whoops, my hand slipped”

“next time you won’t have a hand to slip ❤️”

you check on the cake anyways AND IT DEFLATED... LIKE THERES A SPACE IN THE MIDDLE THAT JUST SHRUNK and ur like wow this is going well

you put it in the oven for a bit more and it eventually comes out atleast edible

you then go back to watch tv so the cake can cool

“so, what’re we going to put in the middle of the cake boys.”

“SPRINKLES”

“i second that”

“yeah why not”

these headasses literally decided to put all the sprinkles in the hole instead of around the cake

but before that, you frosted the cake

it was and array of colors brown, red, white, orange, pink... more colors you didn’t know existed but the boys made it anyways

you asked who wanted to put the frosting on and iwaizumi IMMEDIATELY TOOK THE FROSTING BAG

in your head: ok he’s putting an h, a, p, p, y, b, d, a, y, s, h, i,

hold on

shittykawa

and he made it specifically on the brown section of the cake 😔

alright, it was finally time to call oikawa over

and so he acts clueless when you ask him to come inside but in reality he’s been waiting out there for five minutes about to barge in

he comes in like... where tf are you guys but he sees candles lit on what seemed like a cake behind the gifts on the kitchen counter

and before he could see the cake you all popped up singing happy bday

baby started crying 🥺🥺

you go over and pay his head and comfort him, leading to everyone giving him a group hug

you’re so nervous for him to see the cake

he heads over to the cake like “... 😀” pretending it looks nice

but he’s so happy you guys actually planned something

even though there was flour and eggs all over the place

he really appreciated the effort

he thought it was so sweet, it meaning the cake

anyways i love oikawa if i see any of u hating on him i’m gna grrrr at u

[cvastals]

ok heres my 8th char * starts crying cuz im getting ahead of myself bt idc ig *

* brenton thwaites, cis man + he/him  | you know abel romanov, right? they’re twenty-seven, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, their whole life on and off? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to the system only dreams in total darkness by the national like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole ordering coffee with an ice cube because you’re too impatient to wait for it to cool, unhealthy obsession with everything being perfect, forcing on a smile so often it aches thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is december 3rd, so they’re a sagittarius, which is unsurprising, all things considered.

background.

second child 2 senator vaughn and philanthropist adelaide who’s currently running for irving’s mayor, younger brother of cain!! the romanov’s r quite well known fr their All American n Lavish lifestyle

growing up abel worshiped cain he was the cool older sibling who cld do it all n still maintain the lifestyle he wanted/their parents expected n abel wanted nothing more than to follow in their footsteps

he tried his best to keep up, did everything cain did, but his grades were always just a bit lower, or his form was always just a bit off, he always felt second fiddle, like it was his role in life as the second child

abel ignored it the best he could for most of his life but he started to notice a different side of cain that he didn’t show their family and a side that :/ abel didn’t like or know at all that was quite vile and this was when some resentment started to form bc their parents thought of cain as their Golden Child n didnt see what was going on behind the scenes whereas abel tried his best to be genuinely good if he could help it

by his senior year of high school things were starting to look up a bit, his already rly good grades were managing to improve, he was on a bunch of social teams, and the coach was saying it was looking good for him to become captain of the soccer team by his second semester, which would look good for scholarships

bt bc i hate my muses obviously this was not going to happen?

abel was still subconsciously trying to impress his family, his siblings, the people around him, wearing himself out until he was stretched far too thin, and he paid for it with one wrong move during a soccer game that had his knee popping out of place and shattering

it was really really really bad, he was in a cast for a few months bc it needed several surgeries, obviously sports were permanently out of his future, he still walks with a limp in his right and is in need of a cane to this day

this sent abel into a really bad depressive spiral sighs that he didn’t really talk to anyone about cause he’d trained himself at that point to just keep things to himself and never reveal his emotions so that no one could catch him vulnerable or have an upper hand on him

however this was the final nudge he needed to really become his Own Person after realizing it’d gone too far and he’d gotten too bad (on medication now to regulate when he gets out of control/starts to get bad again bc it does happen from time to time)

told his parents fk ur money! n moved out of home, had a rly lovely letter of recommendation from airi’s dad that got him into medical school, started joining different teams tht he thought wld b more fun (radio, chess, etc.), starting to distance himself from his siblings a bit too (mostly out of shame)

personality.

rly started to loosen up, threw a lot of parties at the romanov summer beach house without telling his parents n would purposely act out/make more friends than he ever had trying to uphold the family image

is still . quite stiff around the edges to this day tho, thinks everything through and has like daily planners he writes down his entire days in to the Second old habits die hard its jst how he functions at this point

had another rly rly bad depressive episode when cain went missing bt like everything he does? he internalized it baybee!

is like overly nice tho he just rly struggles expressing himself/being openly emotional and vulnerable with ppl he thinks they’ll view it as weakness tho he’s a bit desperate to properly let someone in

when cain came back (will b explained in james’ bio) their parents encouraged abel to keep an eye on them n it made abel :/ another reason fr resentment in his eyes (he still loves his brother bt bc hes so bad at expressing himself he thinks hes gna make cain worse if anything)

has been with several ppl bc hes kinda desperate fr approval/fr ppl to need him so hes been quite a good bf in the past bt his incapability to properly open up has put a real Damper on things

likes to think hes in perfect control of his emotions bt explodes a lot bc hes bottled things up fr years

is in no way a Bros Bro but will blush over his shirtless guy friends sometimes then b like . awww so endearing of me i must love my friends sm<3 like jst doesn’t realize he’s Bi LKSHDGKLHSDKLG he wldnt even freak out if he found out he’s just clueless.

thts all . i can think of now ok bye<3

connections.

exes???? he wld have a Few methinks

fwb’s/past hookups/ur regular old Spice

obvs he’s never been w a guy before but i am So Desperate fr a funny/cute plot where a friend or even jst a random hits on him/Opens His Eyes and he goes wow this is all starting to make sense.

ppl he has a crush on…………. bt wld never say anything abt it . in his current Frivolously Unemotionally Emotional state

family friends/ppl he grew up with?? or ppl who knew him before he separated himself from his family a bit n knew him as a diff guy n is like ‘omg wtf lol’ now

obvs . some friends Bleathe

enemies?? ppl who he got annoyed with n jst lost it on bc it was a wrong place wrong time Situation.

thts all i can think of rn very basic bt teehee

[smalltragedy]

* herman tommeraas, cis man + he/him | you know donovan mercer, right? they’re twenty one, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, four months? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to ice boy by corbin like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole fear hidden behind a stoic stare, bleeding from your nose and from your gums, and the night sky with all its stars, with all its mystery and unknown thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is march 15th, so they’re a pisces, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them )

looks away as i finally post his intro after being kinda awol fr however long. i love him a lot n hes also bri’s character mercy’s younger brother so u hv to be nice to him. think abt mercy’s life. then think abt ducky. im sry in advance tht his intro’s a little longer ive hd ducky fr like. a year or two n i’ve been playing him a While <3 as always like this if u’d like 2 plot n i’ll try 2 msg u bck bt otherwise im gna just hop right into threads bc obv i need to. change my methods.

ABUSE, VIOLENCE, DRUG ABUSE, EYE INJURY, GANG MENTIONS TW.

mini playlist.

father ;; the front bottoms / ice boy ;; corbin / lose yourself ;; eminem / my own worst enemy ;; lit / say it ain’t so ;; weezer / maps ;; yeah yeah yeahs / star stopping ;; lil peep / benz truck ;; lil peep / trauma ;; nf / northern downpour ;; panic! at the disco / your graduation ;; modern baseball.

statistics.

full name: donovan mercer.

nickname(s): ducky.

birthday: march 15th, 1999.

zodiac: pisces sun, aquarius moon, aquarius ascending.

mbti & temperament: intp & theorist / phlegmatic.

label: the despondent.

hometown: hell’s kitchen, new york.

sexuality: bisexual (bt not out). 

pinterest.

biography.

born in hell’s kitchen to vinny mercer and a mother who ran out of the hospital as fast as she could, as soon as she was able. she’d gone so quick that she’d never given ducky a middle name - just donovan. the younger brother of mercy (shoutout 2 bri)

his father’s the right-hand man of a well known mob boss named lars amaretto, and so, you can imagine the kind of environment ducky (& mercy) grew up in. weapon & drug dealings, interrogations, violence around every corner. a brutal way of living, no place to raise two children.

implied abuse tw // their father was not kind, or merciful - and ducky was a runt compared to mercy, small and sensitive and kinder than his brother. weak, and filled with softness, with big brown eyes and a smile that should’ve been able to melt ice - but it didn’t. and it never did.

he cried often, and was punished often for it until he learned to stop crying - at least in front of their father, and mercy too, at some point. only in the comfort of his room, with doors locked and blinds drawn closed. implied abuse end of tw

he dreamed, too, dreamt often. he’d been obsessed with outer space since childhood, as long as he could remember. school had once shown man landing on the moon, and ducky wanted that. wanted to be that, wanted to be there, up with the stars, discovering the unthinkable.

abuse mention // but it was discouraged, heavily so - projects destroyed by an angry fist only to be reconstructed to the best of ducky’s ability, with mercy’s help, all throughout the night. he’d saved up for a telescope when he was thirteen, but it’d been destroyed almost immediately when discovered. not a day went by that their father didn’t tell ducky that he was, first and foremost, stupid - and would always be. end of abuse mention

to the point where he stopped trying, simply. he never graduated high school.

abuse mention // anxiety mention // anyways … at the age of fifteen, he’d have enough. he was sick of the abuse, the pain - the crying behind closed doors, the sneaking around, the constant feeling of needing to escape, impending doom, anxiety attacks in the shower and in school bathrooms and at the back of the bus where nobody sat besides him because he was - that boy, the son of that man, the brother of that brute. he’d been a teenager and he’d already been an outcast by all means - an outcast in his family, no matter how hard he tried to appease vinny, and an outsider everywhere else.

the plan took months of preparation, paper ripped out from the back of his school notebook and stuffed beneath his mattress, details of his escape from a checklist of essential items to makeshift maps of bus routes to different cities.

all for nothing, the moment vinny discovered it, the edge of a map sticking out after a rushed morning.

heavy abuse tw // violence tw // it’d been the same day he’d gotten the nickname - ducky - the way the wound wrapped below his mouth, and the way it’d begun to heal - puckered, at first, like a duck’s bill. a better name than eyepatch, at the very least. the scar’d run from the arch of his left brow, across his eye, down his cheek, and below his lip. his eye sustained injury, and not allowed to see a doctor about it, it never healed properly.

eye injury // corneal scarring, impairing his left eye. astronaut dreams destroyed, but not in a matter of seconds. in the matter of an hour, maybe more - and that’d been much, much worse. 

he stopped trying to run away after that. tried to be more like their father, more like mercy - more brutish, less feeling. spoke less, and less. spoke hardly at all, unless spoken to first.

still didn’t matter. still lived his days in fear, still knew it’d never change. nothing would ever change.

the mercer brothers have been floating around the north carolina scene for ~5ish years now, trailing after their father who is consistently chasing after their mother with no luck. they’re currently residing in palm motel. can we get a hell yeah?

personality & facts.

he’s actually very? intimidating? when you first meet him. mercy’s younger brother, with a criminal’s record almost as long as his - a scarred face and a mean resting face. it takes at least five minutes of conversation beyond small talk before it starts to weigh on your mind that maybe, he’s not as bad as he seems.

and - well, he isn’t. but he’s guarded - so guarded. more-so than mercy, because mercy’s quicker to anger, quicker to react, and ducky tries so hard to drown out the noise. but he’s not a robot, and his facial expressions can give him away in a second.

he’s seen what happened when mercy had a glimpse of something good in his life (though, it wasn’t actually good at all - mercy had someone, at least. at the very least) - and how quickly it’d all fallen, and so ducky puts a barrier between him and others. distant, as much as he can be.

it hurts, because ducky isn’t by any means antisocial. he doesn’t hate people - he wants to be normal, wants to have friends and a girlfriend - or maybe even a boyfriend, god - but he’s so afraid. ducky is, by nature, a very scared person. terrified to his very core. he knows there is always eyes on him, and mercy too, and he knows that nothing is worth getting someone else hurt.

you know him as mercy’s little brother, and he’s quiet you know that - but his name is ducky, and you think - he’s not too bad. and he knows this, knows the doubts. knows that it’ll get back to mercy, eventually, that his brother is nothing more but a pussy. so he fights more than he’d like to, against the guilt that buries itself deep within his chest with every thrown fist. he throws up, afterwards, in the garbage can outside. too much to drink, he says, rare grin - because grins are convincing, and grins with bleeding gums are intimidating. he learned that from his brother.

violence makes him sick to his very stomach. he can’t watch horror films, or even action films, without feeling queasy. there’s been more times than he can count where he’d thrown up after a fight, or after an interrogation, usually in private but in the occasional presence of mercy.

they fight, a lot, sometimes - ducky’s too soft, too weak, and it’s bad and it’s terrible and ducky knows that mercy’s afraid. for him, of their father, and his wraith. ducky knows that if mercy isn’t hard on him now, their father will be on him harder. still. there’s resentment, small but there, like the flame of a match. he doesn’t know what’ll happen when there’s nothing more to burn, but he doesn’t want to find out. he’s afraid to find out.

he’s still in love with the moon and the stars, and the planet’s - and their moons, too. its subdued, now, though. a silent passion - one that is often not watered, left for rot. he sneaks into engineering lectures at the community college, occasionally, or physics, or whatever peeks the small curiosity inside of him.

commits small acts of kindness when nobody looks. doors held open, the meals of elderly folk eating alone suddenly paid. picks up litter besides trash bins, and always cooks extra than what he needs and leaves the rest for mercy. it’s these small things that make him feel, just the slightest, better about himself.

because god - there are layers and layers of self-loathing. it’s a labyrinth, and he’d never speak of it - but he can’t stand his own reflection. doesn’t keep photos of his family, only a few sparingly of mercy.

a liar, sad to say. has little experience with. ehem. intimacy, and the bodies of others, but lies often and says that he does. mostly to his brother, but word travels quick - and he’s not nearly as much as a fuckboy as is rumored, having only been with a handful of girls, if even that. it’s better this way - if people know that he throws others away like they’re nothing.

he ghosts often, too, if he does get to talking with anybody. the moment ducky feels a spark, something pulling at his poor heart, he ghosts. he develops feelings too easily, too often than he’d like. has left many friendships without explanation, because of this. you know the priest in fleabag season 2? the scene where he comes to fleabag’s house? yeah. tht’s ducky!

has maybe half the amount of clients that mercy does, but he’s working on it.

pretends he doesn’t care as much as he does. pretends a lot, like there’s nothing soft to him. but a trained eye can see clearly through this. even so - even if you can see that there’s more to ducky than violence and drug deals - you’d still have to break through a dozen walls.

in the rare occasion you get him talking - i mean, talking a lot - he’ll talk about space. ramble off a dozen useless facts about dwarf stars and black holes and all of jupiter’s moons. about a video game he likes, about nothing and everything at all. but as soon as he begins, he stops - embarrassed. apologizes, shuts his mouth, disappears to wherever. anywhere but there.

drug abuse // has a. complicated relationship with benzos n xanax n a various assortment of painkillers. ironic bc he hates drugs due to. his chosen career n wldnt do most of what they sell, bt yknow. this ws inevitable. hates beer bt forces himself 2 drink it bc toxic masculinity probably man idk.

overall just … he’s a soft boy, with a big heart - bigger than anybody else in his family, that’s for sure, but his exterior is far different than that, and it’s hard to tell.

violence mention // purposely loses fights so that he doesn’t have to severely hurt someone. because sometimes he just - he was raised in a violent environment, and sometimes he snaps. sometimes ducky just fucking snaps. and his vision goes red, and he can’t control himself - because need to survive kicks in, and violence is all he knows. if someone pushes ducky - pushes him enough, he breaks. he fights back. it’s all he knows. it’s all he knows. it’s all he knows, and that’s not an excuse - and he knows this, and god, he’s so tired. he is so. tired.

wanted plots.

u look good tonight ... ;; wld love a connection in which he is feeling emotionally compromised n maybe kinda hs a thing w someone bt hes like. very unreliable n kinda ghosting bc he is very afraid n it wld b maybe bad fr them to b anything other than hook ups. cld apply to smth very intensive or smth very surface lvl i’ll take thousands.

palms sweaty ... moms spaghetti ... ;; ppl tht ducky just hs fkn brawled. cld b anybody fr any reason. ducky prob lost n he prob lost on purpose bt also ur muse cld maybe kick ducky’s ass? cld b a fake fight cld b a real fight. cld b a npc fight n then ur muse cn patch up ducky? possibilities endless. maybe they hv a nice spaghetti dinner n both of them r both bruised up frm their fight. sometimes fights end in spaghetti dinners. thanks eminnem or whatever.

own worse enemy... ;; ducky needs friends bt hes bad at making friends n sometimes he fks shit up by pushing ppl away n self sabotaging n being a major cunt n sometimes he just ghosts bt hes always very remorseful abt it? this cld b a very like. up n down friendship of any type its just. where do they stand. r they friends. r they enemies. r they lovers? probably not lovers. prob just platonic. but still its the thought tht counts. 

and also ;; literally just like. anything. clients who buy off of him n like. casual friends n casual enemies n casual hookups. ppl hes ghosted. ppl hes embarrassed himself in front of. maybe ur muse tries to get ducky to socialize or maybe ducky is like. u are too much fr me. n ur muse runs off crying. endless possibilities all u hv to do is call this number now.