#they say it was strong too :O

[stuffedsand]

As an alternative to my last question post, hello again milgramblr, who are you entirely certain you Will Not vote guilty in trial 3, no matter what is revealed?

[lieutenantselnia]

A Piett to brighten your day :)

[contagious-watermelon]

am i the only one who feels like aspecs have started doing to "allo" what neurodivergent people have done to "neurotypical"

[theultracharmingladynoire]

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[pepprs]

ok so. today i am going to

fly (and travel at all) by myself for the first time since making the emergency return home from br!ghton bc of c0vid 4 years ago (extremely distressing and scary experience). and fly by myself two weeks after a mixed bag of a conference experience / plane ride home that included a massive scary depressive spiral that i had someone there to help me through as much as they could but it wasn’t enough which was absolutely not their fault but was deeply distressing to me at the time. so im about to be in a very similar environment but this time that person won’t be physically with me and it’s going to wreck my brain in multiple directions in part bc i have not yet recovered from the depressive spiral. i am still in it. lawl <3

ride in an uber by myself for the first time. ride in an uber at all for maybe the 5th time. as a very short young woman. which i have been expressedly warned by my parents not to do. lol <3

check into a hotel by myself for the first time

walk in a big city by myself for the first time (technically slightly untrue bc wjen i was last in ch!cago 5 years ago i did power walk from the hotel to the conference venue (like a block away) on the last day bc i was pissed about a situation but that was like… a block and i saw ppl i knew walking in that area. this time i will be in the same city and know no one at least for today

give myself a self care evening at the recommendation of my therapist…. for the first time. (maybe after i take a walk which i will do specifically when it’s still light out to see what the area is like). tonight no one i know will be in ch!cago yet and i have no plans to do anything. im going to play video games and draw and sing and give myself space and time to just enjoy being by myself and see how it goes

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Also hoping things at work pan out the way they're looking bc it's so surreal to know I'll be in a position where people are gonna be looking up to me

[kaykoko]

I finally finished Dungeon Meshi!!! Very fun read and amazing charaters!! The hype i have for the anime now is unreal!

[icharchivist]

and this just breaks me

when Barret paid his hommage he also rested his hand on Cloud's shoulder to try to support him through the grief

but Tifa.... Tifa cups Aerith's cheek, slowly carressing her face down as she has to face that she's gone. Her close friend. Gone. She can't even focus on Cloud's grief nor even sharing her own with him.

she can only run away

one more thing she loved taken away by Sephiroth....

[silverselfshippingchaos]

could cozy up to me- ahem

[nimue-hidden-lake]

I'm trying to focus but he may as well be clinging onto me and distract me.

I cannot focus on writing what I want to thanks to Dice thoughts.

[selvepnea]

A strange shirt sort of dream?

[jackietaylorgf]

i saw @sappy-sappho do this and thought it looked fun!! here's my s2 yellowjackets ship chart along with a blank copy. <3

[hidefdoritos]

In other news, I've downloaded an app with a bunch of exercises to help with PTSD stuff. So far it's not really set up to track flashbacks or disassociative episodes or overall struggle from day to day, but an audio visualization exercise did actually help, and so does the prompt to journal a little something every day.

[flovverworks]

been thinking about it again lately, but the way akira spends most first meetings & some early events calling the wizards handsome/'are all wizards this pretty?!'/the 'wow they look like models' comment in that one summer event. like. the way akiras 2 big commentating points are ure pretty & what kind of cat u remind them off is so funny

[pepprs]

i know i need to shut up abt it esp bc i don’t know for sure if i actually got exposed to covid but like. it’s just so fucking frustrating and terrifying. not just in the case of covid but with other things too like driving. you can take every precaution to keep yourself and the people around you safe but all it takes is one selfish careless asshole who can negate that in a heartbeat and ruin your life or maybe even end it in some circumstances. lol

[i-am-a-fucking-nerd]

have a horrible headache and usually headaches are a combo of things (esp not eating/sleeping enough) which could be the reason i have one today but. also i smoked thu which was 2 days ago and usually i get a headache 2 days after smoking. and im just. i already wrote a diary entry talking abt it and how i feel guilty and bad for like a million different reasons but now i'm also just incredibly frustrated w myself bc why do i do this!!!!!!!!!!!! i can go weeks and months w/o smoking i don't NEED to do this!!!!!