#they know it would of ended me that’s why /jjjj

[simpingforcys]

You’re telling me we could have gotten THESE KING CANDY SHOTS

BUT WE DIDNT

[ikamigami]

I'm so happy that Moon opened up so much about his trauma and his feelings bsbzbzbzbbznx QwQ 💞

I'm proud of him 🥹💗

Earth really did awesome job with helping Moon with this stuff 👏

I'm glad that Earth is more understanding to why others don't tell her everything right away.. she starts to understand that she knows she can trust them and they'll definitely let her know in their own time..

She still feels hurt but it's a start and I'm proud of her as well 💞

It's good to see that Monty is honest with Earth about Taurus <3

And I'm happy to see Monty hanging out with Lunar like they used to ^^

And at last.. Sun.. spill your guts finally pls QwQ

Why he has to wait to open up till trauma just corners him and basically forces him to face his issues and feelings? - July 16th and Dazzle..

The silence when Sun heard that Moon nearly died again.. was painful QwQ

And yet the only thing he told is like always "Nexus wants to use to find shards and he doesn't seem to listen"..

Like pls Sun what about "Nexus told me how I and everyone else were unable to see him as his own person and I'm just still scared of him being hurt or dead"..

I think I know why Sun doesn't want to talk about this or about the specifics of what Creator told him in that dream or how Dark Sun told him about Moons killing their Suns in most dimensions.. or about what Goliath told him.. or about anything else like that really..

Cause Sun holds all the blame for all these things to himself.. he blames himself for everything..

"Sometimes I don't know how to help.."

"The fact that you support him is really helpful.."

Earth is right obviously.. but I'm sure that this line won't help Sun too much..

Cause look what happened when he was supportive to Nexus.. look how it ended..

I swear when Sun will finally admit to how much he feels guilty and blames himself for everything I'll be old bdndndnx/jjjj naaah but I'm sure that Sun won't admit to it too soon QwQ

Also ha! to all the peeps that were angry at me for saying that Sun is self-harming - look what Moon admitted that he's doing to himself hmmm ʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ

So I guess that talking about self-harm is okay.. and hints towards them having suicidal thoughts.. but at least no one will commit suicide.. cause we have that confirmed..

I just wish that people weren't so hacking rude and condescending towards me for saying that Sun is suicidal or that he's self-harming..

Like I said the only thing that I exaggerated about was that Sun will kill himself.. but other than that just leave me tf alone if you disagree with me on Sun's mental state.. ofc I'm always open to normal discussion ^^

So yeah anyway.. I think that Sun may do something reckless.. because he won't be able to kill Nexus.. that's my theory 👏

Xbjsndbdbndnd I just wish that at least someone would know.. at least one person.. how much Sun struggles with guilt delusion and all.. pls QwQ sbsnnsnxndnxn

But I'll wait patiently and suffer with Sun crying and enjoying the angst (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

Also I saw someone's comment that maybe it could help Moon if he saw how much Eclipse's changed and grew (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠) and honestly I agree ^^

I also wish that Eclipse would be first to find out that Sun holds so much guilt QwQ pls 🙏

Also I'm so happy that Sun and Jack talked in today's sams episode zbnxnxnxnx but I'm sorry Jack but it's hard to make Sun to spill his guts QwQ you tried though *gives headpats to Jack* ^⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠^

And Sun and Jack watching a movie together vzbxbxbbxbzbxb

Sun sleeping on James Bond "how dare you, sir?!" Hdjjdjdjdjd /jjjj I know that Sun just didn't have much time when he was only one working in the Daycare to watch stuff and now he mostly play games when he isn't overthinking stuff or cleaning vxbxbsnsnnsns

Also hell yeah I love Kingsmen xbxnnxnxnxn yay yay yay (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) Sun you'll love it x3 💞

And I'm so glad that Solar and Sun seem so comfortable with each other compared to how it was before vxbxjnxnxnxnxn ✧⁠◝⁠(⁠⁰⁠▿⁠⁰⁠)⁠◜⁠✧

Sams episode was funny and wholesome bxbxbbxbxbxnx

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Jade, Silver: Fools and Family

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 Imagine this...

SPLAT!!

Jade had taken that pie like a champ, with a genuine smile and a laugh. He didn’t mind that it would leave a milky mark on his jacket, or that it would have his hair sticky and sweet-smelling until the end of the night. It all made for a more lively gathering--and that was, after all, the very reason he was here.

For amusement.

He ran an index finger along the length of his nose, securing a dollop of cream on the tip, before curiously pressing it to his lips. A smooth sweetness swept over his tongue.

Silver was watching his movements--Jade could sense it without even turning around. As gentle and reserved as the knight could be, Silver was still very much a student of Diasomnia, a force to be reckoned with.

How fun.

“Silver-san.” Jade waved a hand in front of his classmate’s face. “Are you alright? You appear to be in quite a daze.”

“... What?” Silver blinked, snapping back to attention. “Ah, no. I’m fine. I apologize if I made you uncomfortable. Sometimes when I think too hard, my mind wanders, and my gaze comes off as intense.”

“Not to worry. You are forgiven.” Jade chuckled, his fingers curling to conceal his snicker. “If I may ask, what is it that is preoccupying your thoughts?”

“... To be honest, it is something that you said earlier in our interview.”

“Oh?”

“When I asked you who you would like to have as a brother, you spoke of the benefits you would gain from your selection.”

“Is there something you find to be odd about that?” Jade smiled sardonically, an eyebrow arched. “One would think that it only be fitting to explain the reasoning behind the choice.”

“That is true, but... It felt off to me.”

“My... ‘off’, you say? I’m afraid I haven’t the foggiest idea why.”

“You didn’t really talk a lot about whether you actually liked any of your brother candidates as individuals. You mainly talked about what you could gain from your association with them.”

“It sounds as though your love is conditional. Reliant on what others can provide for you.” Silver shook his head, slightly frowning. His beautiful aurora eyes were more steely than soft. “And that is something that does not sit well with me.”

“Well, now. Might you questioning my intentions? I assure you, they are wholly pure.” Jade took on a sympathetic tone. “If I recall correctly... Silver-san, you were adopted, yes?”

“That’s right.”

“Then you must know the dilemma of having family not of your own flesh and blood.”

“That was a long time ago. It may have caused me distress back then, but I am well-adjusted now.”

“Fufu. Your guardians must be such kind and selfless people, going out of their way to care for the child of another couple—and to ask for nothing from you in return!” The eel folded both of his hands over his heart, angling his head to hide the mocking glint in his eyes. “Such unadulterated, unconditional love.”

How sickeningly sweet—moreso than even the whipped cream.

“I am thankful for the life and the guidance that my father has given me.” Silver nodded, his eyes alight with sincerity. “I would never dare to think of him as something to be used for personal gain—not when he has been nothing but giving to me. Friends and family are meant to be your closest confidants, not tools to be used.”

So honest, so driven, so noble.

... Disgustingly so.

“Rest assured, Silver-san,” Jade laughed lightly, revealing two rows of his serrated teeth. “I’m certainly not a heartless monster. It was simply poor phrasing on my end, I’m afraid. I will take care to speak more clearly so as to avoid another misunderstanding like this in the future.”

“Ah... So it was just a misunderstanding after all. My bad.”

“There is no need for that. You were simply acting based on your own strongly held convictions. I have no doubt that many of our peers—myself included—would do the same. Let us not dwell on the subject.”

“Yes. In that case, I will excuse myself to fetch you a towel.”

“That would be lovely. Thank you.”

Jade’s eyes followed Silver’s form until the Diasomnia student ducked into a crowd of guests. When he was sure that Silver was a safe distance away, Jade allowed a devious smirk to unfurl across his lips.

Now then... How shall I put this one to some use?

[bteezxyewriter12]

High/ Ending 2

Pairing- Yoongi x Named Reader

Includes- drug use, alcohol use, overdose, depression, death

Part 1 Part 2 Ending 1 Epilogue

*For the people who like happier endings*

Yoongi POV

"Hi baby", I say when I see her

She comes and sits on the bed next to me

"Hi Yoongi."

"Jagi I'm sorry-"

"It's ok this time Yoongi. I know what today is and how hard it must be for you. But you can't do this anymore. You're going to kill yourself"

"I don't care Joanne. If it means I get to be with you, I don't care"

"I do baby. You're only 26, you can't die so young", she argues

"You did"

"I didn't do it on purpose. I love you Yoongi but I don't want you to die"

"I know but I just need to see you"

I reach out for her and she comes into my arms

We spend the whole time together, talking and laughing like we used to.

But deep down I know it's not her

I know I'm talking to myself, that I'm holding air

But I'm too high to keep a hold on that thought

After a few hours she starts to fade away

No

Not happening

"Hold on baby", I say, getting up

I stumble over to the rest of the powder, mixing all of it

I inject all of it, having to use two syringes

I'm aware that I might die but I couldn't care less

"Yoongi no what are you doing!", she cries

I look at her and she comes right back into focus, not fading away anymore

"I'm ok", I say although I don't feel so ok

My heart is racing

I go back to her and sit on the bed

"Yoongi...are you ok?", she asks

"I uh, I don't know. But you're here. That's all that matters"

"No that's not all that matters Yoongi!", she says sounding scared

I'm having a hard time breathing

I can't get enough air

And I'm getting so sleepy

"Baby I think I need to lay down"

"Yoongi! Yoongi!", she shrieks while I lay down

"Jo, I uh...I"

"Yoongi you took too much!"

I know I did

My heart is beating so fast, it feeling likes it's going to burst out of my chest

I think I'm dying

Joanne is leaning over me

She looks up, surprised, then back down at me

"She's here"

"What?", I get out

Who? What is she taking about?

"She's here. She came to get you. The real Joanne. Not me."

"The what?"

It's so hard to stay awake

"Your Joanne is here. Not me, not the one you made up. The real Joanne. She's really here", she says

I squint trying to keep my eyes open

Joanne looks down at me as she starts to fade away

No!

No!

I took more heroin so I can see her. So she can be the last thing I see before I die. And it's not working

"Yoongi"

I slowly turn my head to the side of the bed

Joanne is standing there, looking so sad

Wait what?

Isn't she hovering over me?

I look back and I see her still over me but she's fading away more

What is going on?

"Yoongi. That's not me baby. That's the one you made up. I'm over here", she calls

I look at her again

"Jjjj....Jo?"

She gives me a sad smile and nods

"It's really you? I'm not hallucinating"

"No baby. You're not. Not this time. I'm really here"

"How? Why didn't you come to me before?", I ask sitting up and moving closer to her

For some reason I'm feeling a lot better

"I couldn't Yoongi. You were alive and I wasn't. But I was here with you, by your side. You just couldn't see me. But I was here."

She didn't leave me. She was with me the whole time

"I hear you talking to me when you're not high. I heard you at the cemetery today. I was sitting next to you, wishing I could hold you again, make you feel better. I answered you but you couldn't hear me"

I can't help it, I start to cry

She heard me and tried to answer. She never left me alone

But if she was with me....

Then she saw all the things I did

"Jo..."

"It's ok Yoongi. I know what happened, what you've been doing. I was right next to when you were getting high and talking to the made up version of me"

No

I only did that because I couldn't be with her

"Jo, I'm sorry-"

"It's ok Yoongi. I understand. I don't agree with it but I understand. I don't know what I would have done if I lost you. So I understand baby."

"Joanne, I miss you so much. I'm sorry we fought on that day. I didn't mean anything I said. I'm sorry I didn't tell you I loved you before you left."

"I miss you too Yoongi. I know you didn't mean it and I know you love me. I heard you say this to your version of me. And her answer is the same as mine", she says reaching out and touching my face

And this time I feel her. I actually feel her hand on my skin, her warm soft hand. Just like when she was alive

Not the nothingness of the Joanne I was getting high to see

She really real

And when I put my hand over hers, I feel her solidness, her fingers, the bones in her hand. I didn't feel anything like this when I was high

"You remember what she said? Or rather what you said?"

I nod

I do remember

"It's the exact same thing I would of said to you baby. So don't worry about that"

She's the best. She always was. I'm so happy she's here. But...why is she here?

What's different now?

"Jagi, uh, why are you here now? You said you couldn't be here but you are now", I ask, confused

Not that I'm complaining

"Because baby, now we're the same", she answers

We're the same? What?

Then I realize what she means

Before she said she couldn't come because I was alive and she wasn't.

But now she's here which means...

"I'm dead?", I ask, looking around

Oh shit

I'm looking at myself laying on the bed

My....body?

It looks like me but it's not me. I'm here. It's not breathing, just laying there. I turn back to her

She nods slowly, "You took too much Yoongi. You...you overdosed. Your body stopped breathing and your heart stopped. You were already gone when you first looked at me and really saw me."

Huh

I don't feel anything about being dead. I actually feel happy

Because I can be with Joanne now

Right?

"Uh so you're here.....for me?", I ask

She smiles, "Yeah baby. I'm here to take you with me."

"We can be together?", I ask hopeful

"Yeah Yoongi. There's no reason for us to be apart anymore. I just thought you'd be a lot older when you'd see me again"

I know she's upset that I'm with her even though she loves me. I know she wanted me to live my life, a long life but I couldn't. She's my life. And my life ended when she died

"I'm sorry jagi. But I couldn't live without you. I couldn't", I say

"I know Yoongi. I felt the same way while I was here, watching you, wishing I could be with you. I didn't want to be here without you but I was willing to wait for you", she answers taking my hand

Fuck, I missed holding her hand. I missed the feeling of her small hand in my big one so much

"So how is it where we're going?", I ask

She shrugs, "It's just like here. Except uh brighter? And happy. Just happiness. No pain, no worry, no sadness. It's nice. But it'll be even better now that you're with me"

I'm actually so happy to hear that

"I love you Jo", I tell her

I'm going to tell her this forever now that I actually have forever to be with her

"I love you Yoongi. So much", she whispers

My heart explodes in happiness

I lean forward, my lips touching hers, in a kiss I've waited a year, waited for life and death for

Her lips are so soft against mine, so smooth. She wraps her arms around my neck while I pull her closer to me

I don't care about where we're going. Heaven, paradise, whatever, it doesn't matter

Heaven is wherever she is

"Ready baby?", she asks, smiling at me

I feel a smile burst on my face

"Yeah jagi, I'll go anywhere with you"

She takes my hand again and we leave