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consciouschunkofmoss · 2 years ago
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screaming crying sobbing i love my friends so much its unreal
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puppyeared · 7 months ago
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who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it
#id have to be waterboarded before i can talk abt how i see a lot of my adhd and personality in mitsumi iwakura let alone post it#idk how to talk abt this without feeling like im talking over or invalidating ppls experiences relating with a character#someone was talking abt how ppl tie laios' autism to special interest and social difficulties but not much else which kinda flattens it#and then went into a respectful in depth analysis of other autistic behaviour that laios exhibits and it wasnt phrased meanly#its fascinating and important to me to hear someone explain a little bit abt traits that they recognized and often go overlooked#because it does help me learn more about it. but i think thats also where hesitancy kicks in when it comes to depicting it accurately#like i have adhd and some of my adhd symptoms overlap with autism (time blindness and pattern seeking behaviour) but that only means#it feels familiar to me even without having autism. on top of that traits arent always cleanly determined as being /caused/ by#a disorder. to understand my environment i compare it to something unrelated but similar to make it more familiar and for the longest time#i thought that was a personality thing and not an information processing thing since i loved playing pretend in my head as a kid#so if you make a character who experiences that hoping to reach people that also experience that and tell them its not weird or#smth youre making up like. thats the goal. ppl who dont get it arent expected to it just means it doesnt cater to them but it helps them#become familiar to it yk? since i dont have autism myself i dont feel confident i can depict it properly or explain it in my own words#but that doesnt mean im trying to dismiss it or try and cut it out completely.. ill just leave the floor open to someone who /can/#a lot of issues around fanon depictions are when smth is baselessly popularized or a characters personality and behavior is flattened#especially to fit them into a trending meme. its harmless and its supposed to be for fun but it gets tricky when you drag things that#need to be carefully explained beforehand or else it gets lost in translation. like that tweet abt 'hyperfixating' on cooking pasta#once it becomes popular language usually the original meaning is left out for the sake of simplifying it for everyone that when it#circles back theres a sort of hesitancy like. am i using it the way it was intended or am i unknowingly using the popularized version of it#actually thats probably why i felt wrongfooted during diagnosis bc it felt like i was misusing the words i heard to describe what i felt#i /know/ i see a lot of myself in mitsumi because our minds are always somewhere else and we tend to put good faith first and for me#that personal connection is enough. but idk it feels like its always gonna have to be 'palatable' first before i can talk abt it openly#mad respect to writers and creators who stick to their story even if theres the looming fear of ppl misinterpreting it and letting them#have it.. its been almost 2 weeks and i am so close to deleting that m3 dunmeshi drawing bc ppl keep saying chilchuck wouldnt have 200 HP#IT LITERALLY SAYS I MADE IT WHILE WATCHING EP 1. I USED EARTHBOUND LOGIC AND I WASNT EVEN TAKING IT SERIOUSLY CHILL#yapping
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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months ago
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#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that?#because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought#i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy#its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere#bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like#normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes#possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my#reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it#i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything#in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place#i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass#i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired#god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or#read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill#so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating#its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage#bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪#i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn#unrelated
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lanadelreyscokewhor3 · 14 days ago
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AGORA HILLS- JOSH WASHINGTON
pairing: bestfriend!josh x onlyfans!reader
word count: idkk sorry i wrote this in one sitting in the app
summary: the whole group thinks you're an innocent angel, but josh found your little secret account on onlyfans a few weeks earlier. little do you know, he wants to be a feature.
warning: IMPLIED SMUT (like they basically do it oki), fingering, praise, dumbifaction, swearing, petnames, size kink, manhandling, mocking/ teasing, filmed sexual activity
not spell checked im sorry if theres any mistakes!
"boy, you're the one, you're the only man/ me and you on my OnlyFans/ holy cow, you're the holy trin'/ hold me down when a hole need dick"- doja cat, agora hills
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josh felt like a complete and total pervert.
he couldn't help but let his gaze linger as he stared at you from across the room. he was undressing you with his eyes, leaving every trace of you vulnerable, despite your clothes still being on, trying to ignore him and focus on the rest of the group.
it was late in the night, everyone sitting around the fire in the lodge, warming themselves before bed. drinks had been passed around, some blunts smoked here and there.
but he was high off of the info he had about you. and you didn't even know- and it was killing him.
josh's attraction had been bubbling up for quite some time, and he couldn't help but think you wanted him too. a sweet, innocent, naive girl, too scared to hurt a fly- you often became flustered at his comments and flirty remarks. with you- he wasn't even trying to be funny, or witty.
he was so fucking truthful when he always whistled at you, giving your hip a gentle pat as he'd put his arm around you from behind. pipsqueak was your name, because he was so much bigger then you.
everyone was.
but as sexual secrets were being passed around, and you claimed you had none, everyone teasing you- he knew that wasn't true. he was scrolling only fans as one did on a late friday night after smoking- and he had stumbled across something that made his heart drop, his dick get even harder.
it was you- though you didnt show your face, he could tell just from your body it was you. the body he fantasized over for so many nights, here- in front of him.
and just his luck, you were letting people join for free on this one night. it was fate. clicking on yoru profile, he skimmed through all your content, few things- as it looked like you had started not too long ago.
he couldn't help but touch himself as he stared at your naked mirror selfies, or little skirts, and if he was lucky- a video of you touching yourself with your skirt hiked up.
the skirt you wore now was the same on in that video. he watched as you hid your face in embrassment at everyones teasing, and couldnt help but let his lips curl up into a smirk.
"fine, if you havent done anything, do you at least like someone?" you murmered somethin lowly, turning your head towards the fire.
"what was that pipsqueak?" he taunted, his long leg reaching over to nudge your leg. "do i have to?"
"yes bitch! we all spilled, you gotta give us something here."
you took a breath, eyes catching his for a split second. "i like josh."
"ayooo i knew it!" mike grinned cheekly, looking over at josh. "we all knew that." jess teased, nudging your arm.
"don't hold that over my head please." you begged at josh and he winked. "everything is over your head baby." he teased and you groaned.
"alright. well just cause i said that, i deserve a hot shower before bed. goodnight gang." you stood up, giving the group a little salute before turning in the wrong direction.
"wrong direction pips." josh called, making the others laugh. he had to come and direct you, turning you the other way, his hand rubbing little circles on your back, fingers slipping under your shirt.
he was warm and you couldnt help but lean into him as he waved goodnight to the group, throwing them a wink as he guided you down the hall to your room.
"so you like me, hm?"
"that was a drunk thought." you sputtered out as he guided you futher from the group.
"you've had two drinks and a puff of my blunt. you're sober baby."
"whatever.." you mumbled under your breath, making him chuckle. you bit your lip as his hand slip to rest on your hip, fingers stretching down to brush the curve of your ass.
god you wanted him. it was fucking killing you, and him. his cock strained against his jeans, and he wasnt sure how much longer he could wait.
it was like a leash had snapped, when you had admitted to having a crush on him, and even that you wanted to fuck him. he had all the conformation he needed.
"you stumbled into the empty bedroom and he turned the lock, walking over to you- making you stumble back and hit the edge of the bed.
"so you wanna fuck me? is that it?"
"dont taunt me." you moaned softly, fingers gripping the sheets subtly.
"im not trying to taunt you baby, you know i just joke. but you really want me to fuck you? i thought you were miss innocent?" he toyed, leaning down enough to make you go down on your elbows. he bit his lip, eyes tracing your cleavage through your top. your breath went shallow.
"i am joshy i swear."
"really miss pornstar?" you froze.
"i'm not a pornstar joshy dont be silly." his eyebrow cocked, and he leaned close enough you were pratically smuthered by his large frame, tounge darting out to lap at your neck.
"is that so misskittycat?" you moaned as he nipped your neck, teeth biting the skin playfully.
"i dont know what your talking about.."
"you touch yourself so pretty baby. ya know i touched myself to that? it was so much better then in my head. such a pretty pussy." he hummed.
"maybe you can show me how you touch yourself so i can, yeah?"
at this point, you were putty. you couldnt hold up the innocent act any longer. youd do anythng he'd ask, and do it happily.
"i think about you when i do it." you confessed, and he chuckled deeply.
"yeah? you wanna say that to the camera sweetheart?" you turned, seeing an old camcorder opened on the dresser.
"wh-"
"dont worry, its not on. just had it here from a few trips ago. did you want me to turn it on?"
your eyes widdened. "d-did you want to?"
"i asked you the question pips." he smiled as he placed his large hands on your hips, fingers brushing your skin and making you dizzy/
"w-we could film ah- content if you want.."
"yeah?" his voice dropped, and you felt yourself swoon as he kissed you gently, slipping his tounge in your mouth faster then you could think. "yeah" you moaned out as he moved his hands down to push your legs open.
he broke the kiss, reaching over with ease to click the camera on, and you watched as the little red light started to blink. "we're rolling honey. but its just you and me okay? just focus- hey- focus on me okay?" he gripped your chin and guided your gaze back to him. you dumbly nodded, leaning into his touch.
"is this okay?" he asked softly, guiding your hand down to touch your soaked panties. you nodded.
"why dont you show me how you touch yourself baby? so i do it just how you like." you felt heat rise in your cheeks, limbs tingely as you dipped your hands down your panties.
"cmon show the camera baby." he manhandled you, picking you up with ease to turn you around, tugging your panties to the side. you shamelessly dipped your finger inside, moaning softly as you curled it.
"oh yeah like that?" he teased, finger darting up to rub your clit. you squrimed at the pressure he applied, rubbing slow gentle circles. "y-yes fuck joshy"
"oh dont get shy on me now." he laughed, taking your finger out to replace it with his own. you let out a gasp, a look of surprise on your face at the larger sensation, his fingers reaching spots you didnt even know fingers could reach.
"oh i know baby, its so much bigger then yours hm?" his fingers curled and you bowed, letting out a loud moan as you squirmed again. his dirty talk had your head going empty like static on an old tv.
"yeah baby im gonna take such good care of you."
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comet-forgot-you · 4 months ago
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yo hear me out, so it started with R shouting "You're crazy Amber?!!" cus she found amber is ghostface and amber reply with "wel don't you think you shouldn't have let in a murderer inside your house" and they starred each other off and just have a makeout session + passionately fuck?
thankyou.
smut. 18+ pls.
do not repost for any reason.
you opening the door in nothing but a t shirt and underwear, recognizing the frantic knocks from amber. she was dressed in her black robe, a cut on her arm, bruises littered over her body.
you didnt even think to question it, your girlfriend was injured and that was all you were worried about, the strangeness of the situation not hitting you until you were done cleaning her up, wrapping her arm up.
“what the hell happened?” you asked, finally taking in her clothing. “what the hell are you wearing? is that a fucking knife? amber what the hell are you doing?” your never ending questions not allowing her answer. then it hits you, the robe, the knife, the blood, the recent murders.
your girlfriend was ghostface.
“you’re fucking ghostface? you’re the one thats been killing everyone? amber what the fuck!”
she grabs your shoulders, its startling and enough for you to shut up for two seconds. “calm down.”
“calm down? amber you’re killing people! my girlfriend is a fucking murdered and you want me to calm down? amber, you’re fucking crazy!”
she pauses for a moment.m, her eyes narrowing. “im crazy? you’re the one that let a killer into your house.” your eyes widened, fear washing over you for a brief moment. “you think im just randomly killing these people? its for you, its all for you. everyone of them is for you.”
shes fucking crazy.
amber had always joked about how she would kill for you. at least you thought it was a joke, now you weren’t so sure. it scared you, just a little bit.
but it was hot.
your eyes meet hers as she sets her knife down on your countertop. theres still blood on it, streaks of dried blood coating the blade. your lips are on hers before you know it. its hot, her tongue dancing with your own. she turns the two of you around, trapping you between her body and the counter. she reaches behind you, your lips never leaving each other as she pushes the knife away from you.
she taps your thighs and helps you onto the counter, her hands unable to keep still on your body. she kneads and pulls against you, forcing whines to fall from your lips. her fingers finally meet your clothed cunt, feeling the wet spot that appeared on you underwear. she pulls the fabric to the side, far to eager to have you right now than to take the time to pull them off of you.
her fingers run through your folds before sinking into your cunt, curling them slightly. you pull away from her lips, starting to feel lightheaded at the lack of oxygen and the pleasure. your hot, heavy breaths mixed with each other, both of you so needy for the other.
“all for me?” you whisper the question out and amber nods. your walls squeeze at fingers at the confirmation, everything she’s done has been for you, and it was attractive in its own way. it doesnt go unnoticed by amber, a smirk creeping onto her lips.
“you little freak. do you get off on the fact that im killing for you? hmm?” you walls squeeze around her fingers again, giving amber the confirmation she needed. her lips trail down your jaw, using her free hand to tilt your head up slightly, allowing her more access to your neck.
“ambs,” you suck in a breath as her teeth scrape your neck. she presses a gentle kiss to the skin.
“hmm?”
shes sucking a deep mark, her fingers not to stopping their movements inside of your cunt. you let out a shaky moan, already so close, “please.” her thumb starts to rub your clit in tight circles, the added pleasure bringing you closer to your high.
you cant control your moans, everything about amber was just driving you crazy, pushing you closer and closer to the edge. “im not stopping you, hun.”
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plvybxi · 3 months ago
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baby
eren hated seeing you around campus. despised it. it made his stomach churn and his face would scrunch up. he was always being unreasonably harsh and cold toward you and it didnt make it any better that you would come around sometimes. it annoyed him so badly. armin would always bring his girlfriend with him whenever they hung out and of course you tagged along.
it was obvious that he wasnt fond of you and others noticed it too. they told you to brush it off and thats just how he is but you were so genuinely confused. you had never even had a clear conversation with the guy and he didnt like you?
it was odd but what were you going to do about it? definitely the least of your worries.
you mostly avoided each other anyway, but you had a few classes with him.
you walked out of class in front of eren and connie with your bsf and she suddenly decides to stop and start a conversation with connie about some party.
you glance over at eren and hes staring at you like he hates you. and he does. he hates your nose, your ears, your lips, your hands and how they hold your bottle, your eyes and how they shift across his whole body, he feels like hes gonna throw up.
his lip twitches and he taps connie on the arm
“im leaving. let me know when your coming back to my room.”
eren brushes past you like you werent even there.
you roll your eyes at how mannerless he is because what have you even done to him??
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what have you done to him?
eren is asking the same question. he rushes back to his room so fast hes almost out of breath. he shuts the door and locks it in a hurry before throwing this backpack on the ground. His hand flys to his dick and he cant hold it in anymore.
what. have. you. done. to. him?
hes so hot all over, his face from the neck down was so pink. he hurried and pulled at his dick to touch around himself. he was already so leaky and he really didnt know why.
he was so mad at you. mad that you were so annoying. mad that you didnt hate him back. mad that he cant stop thinking about you. mad that this isnt your hand on his dick right not. he lets out a saddened whine, his hips rutting up into his own hand as he feels betrayed by himself.
he cant help but think about you, you were just so pretty, and nice, and smart, and sweet. and he is always such an asshole to you.
he thinks back to earlier in desperate trace of his thoughts. your figure pops up and he gasps. your hands look so neat, he wants them all over him. everywhere. anywhere you want. the way your necklace sat just above your round tits had him squeezing his dick harder. that stupid sparkly belly button ring you had earlier ran circles around his mind.
this has been going on for 4 months now and eren literally doesnt know what to do. hes been trying his hardest to let this thing blow over but its killing him. he hates how bad he wants you. needs you.
hes remembers the smell of your perfume when he walked past you. his back arches and his eyes start to roll to the back of his head. you smell so good to him. so sweet. he just wants it all to stop.
even now he wants to stop but theres no way he can. hes so mad at himsel- no, you. he was mad at you. he runs his hand up his dick faster at the way your eyes scaned up and down his body earlier.
“f-fuck.. mmg, sh-…please“ he lets out in a cry. he doesnt want to keep doing this.
hes so so close, his head falls back as his jaw drops at the thought of you. mumbling little praises of your name.
but his heart drops immediately and he stops. he thinks he hears something down the hallway to his room. he hears connie and armin laughing loudly and he books it for the bathroom and shuts the door, rushing to turn the shower on. why did he forget armin and connie asked to hang today. do you see what you’re doing to him? his life had never been this difficult.
he heard his roommates open the door still being loud and rowdy.
“you in the shower eren?” connie yelled through the door
“yea i’ll be out in a second” eren yelled back
he felt so defeated so betrayed. his dick was so hard and you were the reason he even got in this situation
eren calmed down, showered and joined his friends in his room to end the rest of the day.
the next day rolls around and eren was so tired. he couldnt sleep and he was frustrated coming to class. he found himself losing focus from the professor a lot. looking over to roll his eyes when he sees your little spine tattoo creeping out from under the backside of your shirt.
he tried to ignore the zip of electricity that flew up his spine. he couldn’t wait for class to be over. could he leave early? hes going to leave early.
erens body moved before his mind worked and started to put his books away. you glanced up at him watching him ruffle around with his backpack before leaving out of the door.
connie looks over at you and your best friend and shrugs his shoulders at his friends attitude.
you shook your head, it was only like 20 minutes of class left
you turned your attention back towards you professor as he goes on and on about the upcoming test that going to be 45% of your grade.
he assigned “study partners” and tells the class that you would have to study with this person and turn in your notes in from over the past couple weeks to get 2 free A’s
you got partnered with eren.
your jaw dropped and you turned to your bsf to beg her to switch partners with you
“sorry y/n i dont think were allowed to” she said laughing at your irritation
“why him of all people he literally hates me” you said expressively while stuff your laptop away.
“well truly in my opinion, i think he likes you a little deep down. me and connie talk about it all the time. armin says he’s head over heels and doesnt know how to express it. if armin says that you gotta know its true” she said gloating about her boyfriend. you shove her and roll your eyes while she continues to laughs at you
you and armin are good friends, you introduced him to your best friend and he went crazy over her, you trust his words but theres no way.
erens mean, and rude, and mannerless, and cold. theres no way. right??
connie walks over to the two of you and all of you engage in a conversation.
“hey connie do you have erens number? i need to to tell him about us being partners and ask him when he wants to study.” you ask
“uh here, not sure if hes going to respond though. sometimes i dont even know if the dude remembers he has a phone” connie ridicules.
“thanks anyways” you say mentally sighing while they make you feel worse about the matter
they continue to conversate as you try texting eren. “hey eren its y/n. were study partners in class and we get 2 A’s for turning in our study papers over the few weeks. do you have time to study soon?”
he reads it
you wait, 2 minutes, 4 minutes, 8 minutes. what the hell? you turn to the long conversation with connie and shove your phone in both your friends face
“he literally left me on seen. and im just trying to get our work done whats up with him?” you say distraught
connie laughes. “hes never even seen my message that quick so be happy for that” they were both being so unserious about how rude he is and it makes your blood boil everytime
“any idea what i should do now?” you turn to ask him truly defeated
“honestly just go to his room. he’s probably not doing anything anyway” connie takes your hand and writes their room number down on it
“im gonna stay at sasha’s tonight she wants to do a movie marathon so call me if he starts getting out of hand” connie adds
you sigh and turn away from them to find their door
“good luckkkk” your bestfriend yells out.
you find his dorm relatively fast, its the same building as yours just a floor or two below where you are.
youre standing infront of their door truly just wanting to leave but the quicker you finish studying, the quicker you can leave him the hell alone.
you knock on the door and he opens it quickly
the door whips open and you get hit with a smell of very faint weed, fresh linen, laundry, and cologne
he was standing there towering over you with his hair in a messy bun and was wearing a white compression shirt with black sweats.
his green eyes narrow at realizing its you, his face still blank and you cant read it
“what?” he said running his hand over the top half of the door frame
he was so much taller than you
“did you see what i texted you, is it okay that im here” you ask looking deeply into his green eyes
“how did you know where my room was ?” he always sounds so upset with you”
“connie” you only say equally sounding upset
“i mean youre already standing in front of my door” he walks away from the door leaving it open and walking further into his room
your body flare with irritation and you step inside the cold room shutting the door behind you
he slumps down on the edge of his bed and you scan the room
its was surprisingly so… him. everything in the room fit him down to the random items that peered into his personality and the smell. you loved the smell. it said so much about him. he smells so clean but also mischievous
you walked over to his desk and sat at his chair
you start to take out your notepad and put your glasses on while you immediately start studying
eren wasnt dumb, not in the slightest. you had to correct him a few times which he obviously wouldnt appreciate but that’s apart of getting this shit done.
there was one formula eren just couldnt get through. it was dark outside at this point and the anger in erens body was rising
“no eren thats not right try again” you say calmy although this is the 4th times youve given him a example problem
“what are you even doing to get the right answer? the way you formatted it isnt even fucking right” eren spat out rude harsh insults through his frustration.
he cant focus and he doesnt know what to do. he cant think straight.
“i am doing it right eren doing fucking question me.” said getting angrier that he’s insulting your intelligence.
“ive been sitting here with you for 2 fucking hours trying to get through your shitty attitude because you don’t understand. im not your fucking tutor eren” you said in disbelief
hes gripping his pencil so hard. who do you think you are to talk to him like that? why are you even here right now? why are you dressed like that in his room, your tits are almost spilling out of your shirt and your thighs are squished together in his desk chair giving him so much to imagine
hes ignoring the burn he feels in his body, the ache he feels in his hips. if only you werent here right now.
you look up at his angry eyes. he looking down at you so intensely, hes so red and mad he looks like hes gonna explode
you sigh and scoot closer to him taking his dominant writing hand and holding it in yours and you talk him through the problem, guiding his hand to writing and solving the math problem
hes in disbelief, theres no way youre touching him. hes disgusted, his body isnt though, his dick aches, and his ears are filled with blood.
his hearing fuzzes as the sound of your voice runs through his head and down his spine while his eyes trickle down to your glossy lips, then your pretty collarbones, your tits, your thighs- on my fuck your thighs…
his breath hitches and hes never been this upset with someone. he pushed out of your touch and stands up looking at you like he wants to snap your neck.
you stand up and look at him confused.
“eren..”
“what the fuck is your problem y/n?”
“eren what are you even talking about? what the fuck is your problem eren?” you say getting just as mad and stepping closer to him
“you come in here unannounced without asking and trying to do fucking “work”. it’s noticeable youre always trying to be near me and its fucking exhausting. looking so go lucky when you come here claiming to “study” and you dont even know what youre doing. always coming when armin and his gf comes around to piss me off” eren yells at you with veins popping through his arms. he wants to scream hes so upset.
you genuinely cant believe him right now. what is he even saying?? is he really this entitled? this delusional? youre just as mad as him if not worse.
you step up to him making the gap between you both smaller.
“eren i dont know that the fuck is wrong with you but youre the biggest piece of shit i’ve ever met. youre rude and entitled and i’ve never had a single reason to care about you enough to want to piss you off. you act like a fucking child with your stupid ass attitude. my friend has a name. i have a name. fucking say it eren.” youre even closer to him now glaring up at his face. you can feel the heat radiating off each other from how mad you both are. his knees buckling from your insults and he doesnt know what to say back
he can smell your perfume, your minty breathe, your oh so pretty eyes and lips, and how your eyebrows narrow up at him with disgust and infuriation.
his breath is laboring but you dont stop. “i cant fucking wrap my head around how shitty you are unprovoked. i cant stand be around you either because you act like such a fucking baby. are you a fucking baby eren? do you want me to treat you like one?” you ask head tilted to really get your point across and stare into his green ones. you were so fed up.
you wait on his response but he just keeps staring at you feeling contradicted.
“fucking answer me eren”
he cracks before you can even finish his name
“just fucking-“ his hands raised to both your checks and he slams your face into his. its damn near bruising.
youre so surprised and you pull back with a stumble
you look at him appalled and hes breathing so hard. hes scared of you, terrified of your response. why did he do that? WHY did he do that?
hes sure you’re going to leave after that. you step forward towards him and he feels like hes gonna faint.
you watch his eyes drop down to your glossy lips. you smirk at him and grab him by the jaw. his lips part slightly just sitting in your hand you analyze his whole face, his long pretty lashes his faint freckles, and his pink plump lips that are just a tad but dry. he just so thirsty for you. hes been thirsty for the longest.
you let your hand trail around his jaw to the little hairs on the back neck and his eyes flutter while he takes a deep breathe in, inhaling how good you smell
he instinctively leans closer to you just slightly, so desperate he doesnt even know his muscles could move in their own.
his hands are ghosting your hands, he wants to pull you in so bad but hes scared. so embarrassed.
“is that what is is? you want to be treating like a baby?” you ask him, so softly like always. youre always so soft to him. he nods barley enough to fully admit it.
“but youre so mean you know that eren? you hurt my feelings so bad” you coo so closely to his face he can feel your breath on his lips.
his eyes flutter open to meet yours. your pretty minks blinking so seductively at him. it makes him feel small. “y/n” he whispers and leans in a little, his hands brushing against yours now
“wanna make it up to me?” is the last thing you say before he cant take it anymore and is kissing you with so much egar that you falter again.
he cant help it. he so badly wants to make it up to you. he wants to show you he can do it. he kisses you so needily you can barley keep up. he rest both his hands on the small of your back trying to resist sending his hands lower. you hum into the kiss and his dick twitches in his pants
your hands make way to his biceps and he relishes in how small your hand is compared to him. youre so much softer than he is. he feels like hes gonna die. your lips are so soft and pillowy he doesnt want to stop kissing you. ever. he his whole body is basically climbing on top of you.
your head is craned up to devour all of his kisses. your hand finds his abs and hes so sensitive for you. you let your hand softly trickle around the expand of his abs through his shirt and he cant help but to tense his body. his lips ghosts over yours as you start to feels how built he is.
“you were hiding all this from me when you couldve just asked” you say against his lips. his eyes are closed and hes lost in this thoughts. everything you say has him in a frenzy. he sends a low whine from his parted lips against yours and you back him up to lean him against his bathroom door.
you look at his face from the window light and you didnt realize how pink he is all over. his whole body is blushed.
his tip is sending precum all over his boxers hearing you talk to him. his eyes opened and his back arched up into yours a little when he felt your hand go under his shirt and touch his abs.
he was panting and he couldnt help it. you were scared he was gonna pass out. he was scared he was going to pass out.
he felt your fingertips run from his v-line through his abs up to his very sensative chest. he couldnt help but pull yiu into him more.
he had no space to move. he was wedged between the door and his whole world. you.
you could feel how hard he was through his sweats. his body was so pretty. he was so pretty.
he couldnt get anything out but your name. hes gasping your name and bucking up at the same time.
why does he feel so sensitive with you hes never felt this way with any other girl. and a lot of girls know eren.
but theres always been this lingering attraction to you. and he hated it. or did he? his body couldnt hold it anymore up to about 4 months ago.
your lips found their way to his neck and your hand moves further and further down until your at the drawstring of his sweats. his jaw drops wide at the anticipation.
his head falls back against the door and he cant get anything out.
your tongue is so warm and the way you suck right against the pressure point boiling on his neck has him thinking youre a witch.
you have his body so trained for without ever having knowing it.
you slowly move your hand down his sweats to feel him in his boxers
hes so strained and you can feel how hes excessively leaking into own underwear.
you press your finger to his wet tip and he lets out a heavy moan while pressing himself future into you.
“ffuck… shit, wait, please” he voices breathly.
you experiment a little and you run your hand down a tad bit to rub the nervy spot just underneath his mushroom tip and his back is arching involuntarily
“oh right here hm?” you hum
his brow furrows into pleasure as he nods to your question
your lips raise from his neck to kiss along his jaw line. you pull his jaw down again to join your lips together and he hates how obedient he is to you
“y/n, please” he tried to whisper but it came out strained.
“oh hush” you kissed him again and hes mewling into your mouth
his whole body tensed and he grips you harder, grabbing at your ass and truly struggling to kiss you back now.
“o-oh fuck-.. y/n i need…” he cant finish his thoughts
“what do you need baby?”
baby. you called him baby. in that sweet voice. he feels your other hand grip the small roots of his hair slightly and his eyes roll back.
he cant hold it anymore.
his shaky hands grabs the one down his pants and shoves it to touch the bare skin on his dick. youre shocked upon feeling how much precum he had in his underwear. he moans as you felt him rolling his body into yours trying to catch your lips onto his. he was panting so bad, eyes rolling.
“breathe baby” you said close to his ear
2.5 seconds later he was cumming all over your hand. you kissed his face to bring him down from his high, which that only made his orgasm longer. he opened his eyes and looked at you.
how he looked at you now was way different from how he normally looked at you
there were hearts in his eyes and he was still holding your hand so tight.
an idea popped up into your head and you internally smiled.
you pulled your hand out of his pants and stepped away from eren in whole. his body chased yours and walked forward with you.
“w-where are you going” he said worried
you said nothing but walked over to his laundry and wiped your hand on his shirts from the basket
you gathered your things and eren rushed to your side
“y-y/n….” he said in a trailed off voice. he wanted you to stay. do you know hes sorry for how he acted? where are you going? why are you leaving him? he needs you.
“the test is next month. you need to study that problem without me too so you know how to use that formula.” you said nonchalantly. hes so confused. fuck the formula. you are all he wants. he wants you to teach it to him. youre so smart. smarter than him. youre the only way he’ll understand it. he cant learn it by himself.
“w-well were studying tomorrow again too… right?” eren asks with pleading eyes. he doesn’t understand. he wants you to say yes so bad, he wants to see you again
“uh i dont know eren i have a few guys from the football team that asked me to study with them. maybe after this weekend, k?” you continue putting your things away.
hes staring at you trying to get your eyes to connect with his. he just wants some attention, just wants you too look at him and feel bad for the state hes in. but you never look back at him. why wont you look at him? its frustrating him and he wants to cry
“im gonna leave my part of the notes for this formula here so you can go over it okay?” youre talking like nothing happened. as if you arent breaking his heart right now.
you study with other guys? football guys? guys with an s? how many guys? he feels his heart dropping by the second.
“bye eren” you say with that pretty smile. youre out of his dorm so quickly. so quickly your scent is still lingering around his room. he feels so dizzy. he walks over to your notes on his desk. your pretty, neat handwriting and your cute highlighted math formulas. his head is swimming with you.
he tries to think of what to do now. he cant figure it out, he feels how sticky his underwear feels and embarrassingly sheds out of them.
he changes his underwear and crawls into his bed. he picks his phone up and changes your number to your name. he texts you “let me know when youre free.” you look at it and dont reply. he feels his heart wrench.
hes never saved a girls contact in his phone. he scrolls over to instagram and searches your name. he follows you.
the next day in class eren cant help but to sneak looks at you. even connie notices and asks him whats up.
eren brushes his friend off and tries to look forward at his professor.
he sees you more around campus with so many other guys, you still havent texted him back, acknowledged him, nothing.
when you two are standing near each other he feels so small under your gaze.
its been 3 days and its hurting him to breathe at this point.
until, tuesday night you text him and his heart almost jumps out of his body.
“what are you doing tonight?”
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qvinx · 15 days ago
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~Bound by shadows~
Rafe Cameron x Fem/Reader
Summary: Rafe takes Y/n on a tense late-night drive, avoiding her questions about his mysterious activities. Despite his controlling moments, he softens, showing his affection and devotion. After a comforting yet intimate shower, they prepare to leave Tannyhill.
Warnings: A little violence
Word count: 2.1k
A/n: I wouldn´t really say theres violence but, Hard touches.
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I was practically thrown into the passenger seat of Rafe's truck, my head spinning with questions. "Rafe, why do you even have this truck?" Confusion was written all over my face. Rafe always kept me out of his business, never mentioning anything about the gold, the deals, or any of the questionable things he was involved in. He was adamant about shielding me from all of it.
Sitting silently in the driver's seat, Rafe glanced at me, his gaze intense and unreadable. I could practically hear his heartbeat thudding, even from where I sat. He picked up his phone, dialing Rose's number, as he started the truck again.
"Excuse me, I asked you a question?" My patience was running thin. The phone connected, and I could faintly make out Rose's voice on the other end. They started discussing something about a Cross cryptic and intense. My mind filled with questions, thoughts tumbling over each other, but I held back, trying to piece together what little I could understand.
The call ended just as we rolled up to a red light. I turned to him, eyes searching for answers. "Rafe, what's going on?"
Without warning, he reached over, gripping my cheeks and tilting my face toward him. His eyes locked onto mine with an unsettling intensity. "Shut up," he said, his voice low and edged with something I couldn't quite place.
My hands moved up to his, trying to ease his grip on my face. His fingers softened under my touch, loosening enough for me to take a breath. But as the light turned green, he pulled away abruptly, returning his hands to the wheel. I felt the lingering sting on my cheeks, my fingers brushing over the tender spot as I steadied my breath, trying to calm the storm of thoughts swirling in my head. I turned to the window, biting back the sting in my eyes, willing myself to stay composed.
Beside me, I heard him sigh. He reached over, placing a hand on my thigh, his fingers wrapping around it with a surprising gentleness. His thumb traced slow, calming circles, as if that small motion could erase the hurt from moments before. We pulled into Tannyhill's driveway, and he parked in front of the house, shutting off the engine. He turned to me, his gaze intense as his eyes flickered down my figure.
"Y/n," he murmured softly, his voice holding an unspoken apology, his eyes tugging at mine. But I stayed silent, my hands fidgeting in my lap, the words I wanted to say caught in my throat. He sighed again, then opened his door and stepped out, his boots hitting the gravel with a dull thud. In moments, he was at my side, opening my door. His eyes landed on me, studying the way I kept my gaze down, fixed on my hands.
Gently, he reached for me, tugging at my waist as he unbuckled my seatbelt. His grip tightened just enough to pull me out of the truck and onto my feet. With a soft click, he shut the door behind me and, before I could say anything, pulled me close, one hand resting on my waist, the other coming up to brush my cheek. My eyes stayed down, avoiding his gaze, my heart pounding under his touch.
His fingers slid under my chin, lifting it up so I couldn't look anywhere else. His eyes were steady, searching mine. "Love, look at me," he whispered, his voice low and tender, sending a shiver down my spine. Slowly, I met his gaze, getting lost in the intensity of his eyes.
His hand tangled into my hair, pulling me closer until his breath was warm against my ear. "I'm sorry, you know that," he murmured softly, his voice brushing against my skin. He placed a gentle kiss on my earlobe, trailing down my neck with slow, lingering kisses that left my skin tingling. Moving up, his lips found my jaw, then grazed over the spot on my cheek where he'd held me too firmly earlier, almost as if he could erase the memory with every soft touch. My fingers fidgeted at the hem of his shirt, grounding myself as his face pulled back just enough to take me in.
I looked up, my eyes wide, cheeks tinged with a soft pink, my lower lip trembling slightly as I took a shaky breath. He seemed to drink in the sight of me, then closed the space between us, pulling me into a deep, consuming kiss. His lips were soft but hungry, and I melted into him, my arms winding around his neck as his hands wrapped around my waist, tugging me impossibly closer. One of his hands slipped under my shirt, his fingers exploring my skin, sending shivers down my spine. He pinched lightly, drawing a soft moan from my lips, and took the opportunity to slide his tongue into my mouth, deepening the kiss.
Our tongues danced together, a passionate, unspoken battle for dominance as we lost ourselves in each other. When we finally broke away, breathless, he looked at me with an intensity that made my heart race. "You know I love you," he whispered, his words barely audible but full of meaning. I nodded, a small smile tugging at my lips.
With a gentle smile, he locked the truck, guiding me inside the quiet house. "Come on," he said softly, his voice carrying a warmth that filled the silence. "Let's take a shower."
In the bathroom, I undressed slowly, feeling his gaze on me the entire time. Stepping into the warm stream of water, I felt the heat surround me, but the warmth of his eyes on me was even stronger. Soon, he was there too, his hands gliding over my body, grounding me, his lips leaving tender kisses along my shoulder, my collarbone, and anywhere else they could reach. Each touch and kiss felt like a silent promise, as though he was engraving himself into my very skin, washing away every worry with his presence.
The warm water cascaded over both of us, steam curling in the air and clinging to the glass walls of the shower. Rafe's hands moved with purpose, gliding over my wet skin, his touch soft yet deliberate. He reached for the body wash, pouring a small amount into his palm, and began lathering it over my shoulders and arms. His fingers worked gently, kneading the tension out of my muscles as the scent of fresh citrus filled the air.
"You're so beautiful," he murmured, his voice low and reverent. His hands trailed down my back, smoothing over every curve as if committing them to memory. My eyes fluttered closed, letting myself relax into his touch, the soothing combination of the warm water and his presence melting away my lingering tension.
Rafe stepped closer, his chest pressing lightly against my back. His lips found the curve of my neck, placing soft, lazy kisses as his hands slid down my sides, grazing my hips. I felt his breath on my skin as he whispered, "You're mine, you know that, right?" There was a possessiveness in his tone, but it was wrapped in tenderness, a need to remind me of his devotion.
Turning me gently to face him, Rafe brushed my wet hair out of my face, his thumb running over my cheekbone. The water streamed between us, but his eyes held mine, deep and unwavering. "Let me take care of you," he said softly, almost pleading, as if he needed me to let go and trust him.
I nodded, and he leaned in, kissing me softly, his lips lingering on mine before pulling away just enough to rest his forehead against mine. His hands moved again, this time washing my stomach, thighs, and legs with the same gentle care, his touch never faltering. He wasn't in a rush, this wasn't about passion or urgency but about grounding me, showing me through every movement how much I meant to him.
When he was done, he reached for the shampoo, working it into a lather in his hands before carefully running it through my hair. His fingers massaged my scalp, the sensation both soothing and intimate. "Relax, love," he said, his voice almost a whisper, as though afraid to break the moment. I leaned into his touch, letting out a soft sigh.
After rinsing my hair, he brushed a strand from my face, studying me as if I were the most important thing in the world. "There," he said with a small smile. "All clean." His arms wrapped around me, pulling me into his chest as the water continued to fall around us.
Rafe stepped back slightly, grabbing the shampoo and quickly working it through his hair. The water ran over him, streams trailing down his toned chest and shoulders. His movements were efficient but unhurried, his eyes flickering to me every so often as if to make sure I was still there, still okay.
He reached for the body wash next, rubbing it over his skin with broad strokes, the scent mingling with the steam. As he rinsed off, droplets clung to his jawline and the curve of his collarbone, his damp hair slicked back. Despite the simplicity of his actions, there was an effortless grace in the way he moved, his focus steady and calm.
When he was done, Rafe turned off the water, the steam wrapping around us. I reached for a towel, wrapping it snugly around my body before stepping out of the shower. Rafe followed, tying a towel loosely around his hips.
Leaning into his chest, I let out a tired sigh. "Please don’t tell me we have somewhere to be," I mumbled, my voice heavy with sleepiness.
A low chuckle rumbled through him. “Sorry, my love, but—”
I groaned before he could finish, lifting my head from his chest and trudging out of the bathroom into his room. Flopping onto his bed, I sank into the soft pillows, my damp hair leaving faint marks on the fabric. Rafe emerged a moment later with another towel, rubbing it through his hair as he glanced at me sprawled across the bed.
“Y/n, just put on some clothes and get ready,” he said with a hint of amusement. “You can sleep in the car.”
I groaned again, turning my head into the pillow, unwilling to leave the cozy spot. Rafe, already used to my resistance, quickly got dressed. The sound of footsteps echoed in the hallway, followed by a light knock before the door creaked open, it was Wheezie. Her eyes widened slightly when she saw me.
“Y/n, I didn’t know you were here,” she said, her tone with a hint of panic before turning to Rafe. “Can you help me close my suitcase?”
Rafe let out an annoyed sigh, muttering something under his breath, but eventually followed her out, locking the door behind him. I took the opportunity to drag myself out of bed, begrudgingly pulling on clothes and brushing through my damp hair.
As I adjusted my long-sleeved shirt, I paused, hearing faint sounds of someone fiddling with the doorknob. My stomach knotted. “Rafe?” I called, but there was no answer. The sound stopped abruptly, followed by the faint creak of footsteps retreating down the stairs.
“Rafe?” I called again, louder this time. A moment later, the door unlocked with a soft click, and Rafe walked back in.
“What, love?” he asked casually, glancing up as he grabbed his bag and keys.
“Were you messing with the lock just now?” I asked, my voice quieter this time.
“No, my love,” he replied, distracted, as he continued packing.
A nervous pit formed in my stomach as I watched him, my thoughts spinning in different directions. Noticing my stillness, Rafe stopped and turned to me. He moved closer, one hand settling on my lower back pulling me into him while the other cupped my jaw, tilting my face toward him.
“It was probably nothing. You’re tired, remember?” His voice was gentle, reassuring, and he sealed his words with a kiss on my forehead.
“Probably,” I whispered under my breath, though the unease lingered. I nodded and refocused on packing, pushing the thought aside.
Once we were ready, we headed out to his truck. The cool night air hit my skin as I climbed into the passenger seat, buckling my seatbelt.
“Is Wheezie coming with us?” I asked, glancing back toward the house.
“No,” Rafe replied, starting the engine. “Rose will pick her up in the morning.”
I nodded, leaning back into the seat as he pulled out of Tannyhill’s driveway. The hum of the truck and the soothing rhythm of the road quickly lulled me into closing my eyes, sleep tugging at the edges of my consciousness. 
A/n: This is based on S2.E9 "Trapped", i think that pretty obvious tho... Do not copy my work or claim it as yours!
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thelov3lybookworm · 8 months ago
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Lucien who now lives full time in the Day Court knowing the truth (think white robes and cold crown and makeup omg) and who has been in love with IC reader since getting to know her while he was there.
She's now visiting on some Night Court business (research, negotiation, etc.), and he's decided to put on his full Lucien teasing charm to woo her.
Sunlight in a Bowl.
Summary: Did he just... no. Of course not.
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A/n: I didnt realise how much i loved this idea until i wrote it 😭 thank you soo much my darling anon for sending in this request, i had soo much fun writing it lol, it was like it took no effort, came to me soo easy 🥹
also, posting this an hour early for funsies 🤭
i promised no angst so theres no angst @milswrites
anyways, enjoy!
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The day court was beautiful.
That was all Y/n could think of as a sentry led her towards Helion's private receiving chambers, all other adjectives having flown out of her head the moment Azriel had dropped her on the border of Day court, from where she'd winnowed herself to the palace.
The white houses, the red and gold roofs, the sunlight shining from above and reflecting from pools of water and the Palace right in the center of it all, the colourful market in the town square...
It was safe to say Y/n was ready to move to Day court, already having forgotten that she was here on a mission from Rhysand.
She was ready, bags packed, no questions asked.
So busy was she gaping at the beautiful architecture of the palace, the artwork reigning her in like some trick of hypnotism, she didn't realise the sentry had come to a stop outside two large oak doors.
Unfortunately, that meant she smacked right into his back before she realised.
Her cheeks blazing, Y/n stumbled back as she glanced up at the male, who had an amused smile on his face.
"I merely stumbled. My dress is a little long."
He nodded. "Never said you did not stumble. I believe it must be hard to walk around in your too long knee length dress."
Blood rushed into Y/n's ears as she looked down at the dress that... only reached her knees, realising he was right.
Fuck.
She cleared her throat, standing at attention, avoiding his eyes.
From her peripherals, she could see him grinning as he knocked on the door, waiting until a voice called out to let them in.
The male opened the door, holding it open for Y/n. She hurried in, resisting the urge to just die as he closed the door behind her.
So much for making a good first impression.
Y/n shook her head, trying to dislodge the lump now forming in her throat at the upcoming conversation.
Being an introvert and shy was a hard job, one Y/n was very good at.
But being introverted and shy while being an emissary? Now that was the job of someone that Y/n would consider god.
And exactly why Y/n had been so against the idea of her becoming an emissary when Rhysand suggested it, knowing she would rather live a life alone in the middle of nowhere and probably become the next Weaver than become an emissary.
Alas, she was the only researcher Rhysand had at his disposal, so now she had been sent to read through as many libraries and books in day court as possible to aid in Feyre's second pregnancy.
It hadn't been confirmed yet whether the babe was winged, but Rhysand and the inner circle thought it best to start researching in advance just in case the babe did have wings and to prevent the second pregnancy ending up the same way the first did, and this time with no one to save them.
"Y/n! Always a pleasure to see you!" Y/n met the warm honey eyes that belonged to Helion, a smile spreading on her face unprompted.
"Helion." She greeted, walking forward and directly into his open and inviting arms, squeezing him back when he wrapped his arms around her.
"I hope the journey was not too hard?"
Y/n laughed, pulling away. "All I had to do was winnow, Helion, why would it be hard?"
Helion grinned, then turned to glance at something behind him.
With horror, Y/n realised that it was not something, it was someone.
Her panicked eyes shot to Helion, remembering that Rhys said Y/n wouldn't have to interact with anyone other than the day court high lord.
"Ah Y/n, meet my son, Lucien. Though I'm sure you've met before."
Y/n swallowed, then let her eyes wander to Lucien. Which, definitely not a good idea, considering Y/n was suddenly drooling and looking away like he had burned her eyes.
She had only looked at him for a moment, but that moment was enough for Y/n to have taken note of how ravishing he looked.
Ravishing?!? Get a grip Y/n.
Y/n attempted to calm her racing heartbeat by taking deep breaths, trying not to think of all the golden skin on display that was not covered by the white robe, the gold crown adorning the head of fiery red.
Trying especially hard not to think about the way his skin glowed with happiness and the beautiful, flirtatious smile adorning those plush, soft lips.
"We- we have met before."
"That's amazing! So if introductions are not needed, I'll take my leave."
Y/n knew her eyes were bulging out of her head at this point, but she did not really care as she gaped at Helion's retreating back. She continued to stare until he reached the doors, then turned to wink at her like he was in on a secret she was not.
Bastard.
Y/n, not knowing what to do, glanced at Lucien, who, in the perfect son-of-bastard way, sent her a cocky grin.
Y/n glared at him at that, pretending like the blush on her face was because of anger and not because she was shy.
"I don't know if Rhys informed you, but I will be helping you out today with the research."
Y/n's eyes widened, staring at him like he'd claimed to have met the Mother herself.
Which, Y/n would have been less surprised to hear, but that was the talk for another day.
"I- no one told me."
Lucien shrugged, that infuriating smile still on his face. "It came up last moment when my father had to leave to handle some important matters."
Y/n nodded sadly, mentally encouraging herself that she could do this.
With a sigh, she gestured at him. "Lead the way."
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"Are you hungry yet?"
Y/n reigned in her sigh of exasperation.
For the past hour, Lucien had been hovering around Y/n, bothering her with stupid questions and trying to get her to go somewhere else. Where, Y/n could not for the life of her figure out.
She glanced up at him, finding his arms crossed over his chest, a careless grin on his face as he leaned against the desk she sat at.
She also noticed how he stood a little too close to just be acting like a caring host, but she ignored it, just like she ignored the bulging, mouth watering muscles in his arms.
"I am sorry Lucien, but my stomach does not consider me worthy of food at the moment. I will let you know once it decides I deserve to eat."
He laughed at that, his head thrown back, his chest vibrating with how genuine the sound was.
Y/n's eyes dropped to the strong column of his throat, his Adam's apple bobbing as he glanced back down to her, grinning. Y/n noticed the dimple that made an appearance in his cheeks, but she pretended she was still mad at his constant nagging and turned back to the thick bound tomes she had open in front of her.
Y/n got a moment of reprieve before he drew her attention again.
But this time he did not ask her if she was hungry or if she was thirsty.
No, he pushed off from the table, and Y/n watched him from the corner of her eyes as he walked to the back of her chair.
She was curious, of course she was, but also glad that he would let her do her studies.
Also sad that he was leaving, but no one needed to know that.
But suddenly, two arms were caging her in against the table, and Y/n startled at the sudden heat of being caged against the wood by someone who quite literally had the heat of autumn court fire in his blood and the warmth of day court sun in his blood.
"What are you doing?!" Y/n yelped, trying to keep quiet in the library.
His breath tickled the hair at the side of her neck as he leaned in.
"I am just wanting to inquire when your stomach will deem you worthy of eating."
"Oh my god." Y/n mumbled, her blood tinting her face red. "Stop it Lucien!"
"Not until you tell me you will go out to eat with me. Tell me, will giving you the sun in a bowl convince you?"
Y/n only kept getting redder in the face, and to try to cover it up, she slapped her hands over her face.
He tsked. "That sounded like it hurt."
Y/n paused for a moment, then mumbled out- "It did."
He laughed again, and something about having him so close to her, so free and vulnerable did things to Y/n. She spread her fingers, peeking out to find his eyes closed, his teeth glinting softly in the sunlight streaming in through the stained glass windows.
She stared at him, slowly letting her hands fall into her lap, not realising she was staring.
Or maybe not caring.
His laughter slowly died down, the sound still ringing softly in Y/n's ears until it faded away.
He met her eyes, happier than Y/n had ever seen, and gave her a soft smile.
"So?"
Y/n sighed, the sound so exaggerated she would have laughed any other time.
"Fine."
For good measure, Y/n rolled her eyes at him before she turned back to the dusty tomes sitting on the rich wood desk.
She could practically feel his grin as he dipped closer, planting a kiss on her cheek.
Y/n's eyes flew wide, turning to gape at him as he straightened.
"So, a bowl of sunlight. In the receiving room before sunset?"
Y/n choked out an okay.
The bastard had the audacity to wink at her as he turned and strutted away, his careless demeanour already enchanting Y/n's malfunctioning brain.
She watched his retreating back until she couldn't anymore, then straightened to stare at the words that now made no sense to Y/n because she was so busy trying not to think about the plans she now had for the evening.
Did he just...
Y/n blinked, glancing once to the archway he'd just disappeared into.
Did he just ask me out on a date?
Y/n shook her head.
No, it was just not possible.
Lucien? Asking Y/n out on date?
Y/n wanted to laugh at herself for even thinking that. Lucien would never...
Fuck.
Despite herself, Y/n began to smile, and hope.
What have I gotten myself into?
It was going to be hurting her brain to think so much about it, but she couldn't care less about it.
Still smiling, Y/n returned to her work, now trying to stop focusing on him and start doing the thing she was actually here for.
It's going to be a long day.
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grapejuicestyless · 10 months ago
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Could You Imagine That?
JJ Maybank x fem!reader
Summery: You failed. The gold, the cross, the fame, the fortune. But really, who cared? Not when you had the best gift of all. Inspired by the song: Forever by Noah Kahan
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We listen to Pope and Kiara argue about who knows how to build a fire better, throwing logs into a heap by a pile of rocks and lining stones in a circle in the sand. John B and Cleo make beds for everyone to sleep on and Sarah works on some sort of spear for us. Yet, JJ and I haven’t even given a second thought of how long we just might be here for.
Maybe a few more hours, a couple days or years. In the end, did it really matter? We’d been just fine so far and we’d swear the feeling of freedom was worth it no matter how starved we became or how cold the nights were. We’d screamed about Poguelandia hundreds or times already, calling out the name of this great island and hoisting the flag we’d painted with rocks and the mud packed beneath them. Our hands pruning from the salt water and our shorts left on the edge of the shore line while we ran around in our underwear, splashing around like little kids and laughing like old friends should.
“We’re broke!” We laughed, finding the fact that we failed more funny than anything. Because had we really failed if we got a greater gift than what being filthy rich could give us?
“But real rich in our heads!” JJ would scream back, chasing me down along the edge of the ocean. And when the waves slowed my strides he lifted me from my waist with his tanned arms, not minding how our wet bodies stuck together like glue and our clothes would surely stink like ocean for as long as we’d be here.
“Won’t be alone for the rest of our lives!” I laughed in his hold, and his grip restricted my lungs but I would take the ache that came with it over any other feeling in the world. Because even after he loosens his grip, he never really lets me go and I am reminded of how he’s always within arms reach. Ready to make me smile, make me laugh. And it’s worth more than anything money could buy.
“Can you guys help us?” Kiara calls out desperately, but even she can’t hide the smile on her face, how much she loves the idea of it just being her and the Pogues all together and safe for just a small moment in the grand timeline of adventure ahead. No parents, no threats, no blood or tears. Just the sun and sand beneath our feet. A good cooked fish roasting over the fire and beds woven with leaves under our heads.
“Come in the waters just fine!” JJ splashes, catching a glare from Pope as the salt water briefly tames the fire they just started. And when Kiara catches his line of vision, we don’t have to look back to know their broken laughter is because their stripping to join us in the sea. Ready to splash around carelessly like children do, like we do.
“Can you imagine being here, like this forever? No more window shopping or late rent!” I laugh, bearing all my teeth in my smile when Kiara wraps her arms over my shoulders and places a sloppy kiss to my cheek.
“Won’t be alone for the rest of our lives!” She repeats my words back to me, eyes shining with the glow of the sunset that casts a warm hue over her sunburnt cheeks.
“Poguelandia forever, baby!” JJ’s arms pull Kiara away from me, and like glue, I’m stuck to him with nothing more to offer than the sweetest smile and the world shining in my eyes. I feel more alive than ever and theres not an ounce of gold that could replace it.
“Oh my god!” Cleo laughs at the scene in front of her, dry wood under her arm and a soft blush in her cheek from the sun. We’re all drenched in salt or sweat but we can’t help but feel absolutely okay with it.
You could fly over head at that very moment, on the search for miserable teens in need of help and you wouldn’t even look twice. The way everyone laughed like brothers and sisters and cherished what the world gave them, you’d think we were on some vacation. Like we hadn’t washed up here by accident.
Broken bones and aching muscles worth every moment that led us to this island and this life.
Looking back at JJ, I see the stars in his eyes and the world under his feet. It’s all we’ve ever wanted. A simple life by the ocean with all the people we love. So, we might be broke, we might be hungry and by god we might smell but by god are we richer than most.
“Poguelandia forever.” JJ whispers only for my ears to hear, forehead pressing against mine and his eyes observing the crinkles by my eyes. His thumbs lift from my hips to rub against my cheeks. Then he kisses me, kisses me in a way I hadn’t felt since before death looked at us in the eyes and grief was all we knew. Like we both knew finally that it would all work out and we would be okay.
When we pull away, we share the same hazy look we had plastered on our cheeks before and his hands plant themselves firmly on my hips once again. Squeezing the skin between his fingers playfully and drowning out the world around us.
“Could you imagine that.”
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curvykittyyssmutfics · 11 months ago
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"Slow down, Denji. You're gonna overstimulate her too quick. Slow licks. Yeah.. Just like that. Take your time, she ain't goin nowhere."
Aki speaks from across the room, patiently observing Denji struggle not to devour you. He slips his t-shirt off but leaves his sweats on. Head tilted, one hand resting on his raging dick as he leans back further into his chair. You don't know why he's still clothed; made you and Denji get undressed soon as this started.
"I don't want tooo. She tastes so fuckin sweet. Its like candy, Aki."
Denji's a fuckin brat but slows down anyway, giving you a chance to catch your breath. Even with him replacing his savage ass sucking with fast little kitten licks, you can't dig your toes out the mattress at the feeling.
"Yeah, I know she does. Don't mean you can do whatever you want." Aki tells him, squeezin his dick to the sight of you.
"Not the fuckin boss of me.." Denji mumbles into your pussy, making Aki's brow raise.
"That right? Want me to shut this shit down? Fuck y/n till she can't see straight while we leave you to play by yourself?"
That gets Denji back on track. Doesn't dare talk back. Only whines into your sensitive lil pus before getting back to his task.
"Thought so. Fuckin brat. Did you not promise me to work on followin directions? Gonna have to handle your bad ass later.. And you better make her cum real good too."
Theres no doubt about that. Tip of his tongue is dead on, swiping that spot on your slippery nub with an accuracy you wouldn't have thought a virgin could possess. He's only been between your legs for a couple minutes but apparently a few tips from Aki and suddenly he's a pro.
"Ahh, ahhh- Denji! Can't believe- didn't think- ohmygod!"
Aki chuckles as Denji moans around your clit, gripping around your thighs tight. The vibrations put an arch in your back that make Aki finally pull himself out to stroke; he's way too fuckin hard watchin you so drunk on pleasure.
"See what you're doin to her? She can barely take it. Use your fingers.. Yeah, like that. Bet shes squeezin round you.. Always bear hugs the fuck outta my dick when I first slide in."
"Mmmhmmm.."
A finger swipes at your opening, experimenting with the slip and slide of you. Denjis curious. Slowly lets his digit creep inside, suckin at you a little quicker. He's stares at your glistening lil puss, mesmerized by how you engulf him like his lips do to your clit.
"Good boy, Denji. Thats it.. Isn't he doin so well, sweet heart? Makin your lil puss flutter nice and tight, huh? Well, tell him then. Dont be rude.."
"Yeeees, Aki! Makin me feel so- ah, ah, ah!"
Denji can't take it anymore. Wants you to be a good boy, and to be the one that makes you cum but he so fuckin selfish. Needs something from you first: wants a real taste of your pretty lil chocolate pussy. So he abandons your clit, pulling you even tighter against his mouth so he can dig his tongue inside of you as far as it can go.
"Ohhhhmyyy- uh, uh, uh!"
It's too intense too fuckin quick. Your yank at his hair to pull him back but he doesn't budge, leaning into you body to trap you against the bed. He wiggles it inside of you erratically, no rythym at all. Just trying his damnest to reach your depths.
"Geez, Denji.. Should've known; you never fuckin listen."
But Aki doesn't stop him, quickening his strokes as he gets up to stand closer for a better view. He swipes at the precum streaming from his flushed tip. Reaching down with the same hand to pluck at your stiff nipples, smearing them sticky before rubbin slow teasing circles around your clit.
"Listen to that.. Hear that cute lil pussy singin for us? She's loud.. Even louder than your mouth. You so nasty, baby."
"Mmm mmm mmm."
Denji doesnt even hear Aki anymore, groaning in between your thighs like you just offered him a feast. Which is hella funny cause that's how he eats you. It's so damn sloppy, too messy. Your juices and his spit mixing to slide down your ass to the bed.
"Gonna cum Denji! Dont stop, please. Fuh-uuck.. More, Akiiii!"
Your pleas the prettiest symphony either of em has ever heard.
"Okay, y/n, okay. Let it out- ahhh.. Need to see you wet up his mouth, princess.Ohhh, gonna buss- don't stop Denji. Our girls gonna cum. Huh, y/n? Fuuuuck, you're so damn. beautiful."
He gives your twitchy lil button the attention you need, just not in the way expect. Stops rubbing to land 3 swift smacks against your clit. But your gone by the first, mindlessly squealing and cumming on Denji's mouth. Hips twisting uncontrollably but his hold on your thick thighs keeps you in place by. All the while, the fuckin brat makes multiple attempts to reach that special spot inside you with his devilish tongue.
"Mmmmfankoooohmmmm!"
Denji groans his appreciation when you shower his swollen mouth with your love. His tongue batters your walls, forcing moan after moan from your throat till your voice cracks.
What neither of you expect is for the scene to become to much for Aki. He pushes Denji to the side and bullies his cock between your spasming walls. He relishes how the end of your orgasm pushes him into his own.
"No fair, Aki! Wasn't done yet. Not your turn!" Denji's whining, swiftly standing to take Aki's place.
"Shut it."
He strokes his dick slowly, whimpering when he notices how Aki fucks you so good that when your lips part to cry nothin comes out. No breath in your lungs, mouth open wide in a silent scream as Aki leans over you and humps you quick and hard. You're left to grip at your covers, shapely brown legs wrapping around his waist; having no choice but to take what he gives you.
"Yeeees y/n! Bout to fill up my pussy, baby. You ready? Gonna take it all? Got so much cum for you, princess!"
You shake your head, hoping he takes some pity and pulls out.
"Nooo, Aki. Take it out. Don't want you too."
Your mumbled denial definitely lacks conviction.
"Too fuckin bad, baby- ohhhhshit! Can't stop now. Mmmm.. 'S too amazin y/n. Ahhh.."
Aki fills you and then some, thick streams pushing out everytime he fucks back into you. You're thankful his strokes turn shallow at the end of his nut, energy draining from his limbs as he lays over you heavily.
Denji watches as he jerks, envious of the intimacy between you two as Aki pecks kisses all over your face.
"A-aki, 'm close, so fuckin close.. Can I cum? Please, Aki, please?"
"No. Hands off." Voice commanding, he's back to his stoic demeanor; even though his hips still stutter slowly into yours.
Denji groans in disbelief, droppin his hand reluctantly. He can't believe Aki's bein this way. You came and he clearly just satisfied himself, shivers still running through him as he pulls his dick out of you. So then why can't Denji find some fuckin relief too?
But then Denji's pleasantly surprised when Aki spreads you wide, both watching as his nut pools too your entrance. You cover your eyes with your arm, embarrassed how they stare at his cum slowly oozing out and into the big puddle beneath you.
Aki looks at Denji, smiling brightly; cock still stiff as fuck.
"Kay, Denji. Put it in, your turn.."
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nomizombie · 10 months ago
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[König and the cafeteria] König x GN!Reader
[SFW/Fluff/Wholesome] ; you're friends with könig, the quiet giant no one talks to because they're either terrified of him or find him off-putting..., established friendship, könig has social anxiety, no y/, gender-neutral reader, mutual pining...? maybe...
[A/N] ; sorry guys!! ill post the poll winner soon i just needed a small drabble to clear my head after editing the same draft for so long :,)
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König is an anxious man. Especially in a crowded space. Too many people. He can feel the eyes on him, judging him, talking about him.
He's big. He knows that. But, does everyone always have to gasp when they see him? Crane their necks when they pass by? He's tired of it all.
The cafeteria is loud and busy. There's people shuffling around everywhere. He doesn't have anywhere to hide.
“Are you okay?” A sudden voice interrupts his train of thought.
It takes him a moment to process what you said.
“Oh. Oh yes! Ja, of course.” He turns to you, smiling awkwardly under the balaclava.
How did he manage to befriend you? He’s so… difficult to be around.
“You seem anxious.” You continue. The trembling hands were just one of the many signs.
“I am?”
Thats when he finally looks below the canteen bench and notices his hand resting on top of yours, mindlessly playing with your fingers and drawing circles in your palm.
“Oh.”
You snicker, “Embarrassed?” You say grinning.
He doesnt answer, instead opting to lifing his hand up quickly. A feeble attempt to escape.
Another giggle escapes you as you grab his hand firmly, settling it back down to its resting place. Under the table.
His eyes are wide as he stares at you, before they drop down to the tight grip you have on him.
You’re giggling until you notice that his shocked eyes aren’t from your touch… and hes still trembling slightly. Theres a bead of sweat dripping down his forehead too…
“König? You alright?” His eyes are distant.
Again, it takes him a second to register your speech.
He smiles awkwardly again, “Yeah! Of course, of course...”
"Is it the people?" You ask concern spread all over your face. The two of you had been friends long enough for you to recognise the signs of his anxiety.
"I'm fine really!" he laughs, clearly trying to cover it up.
"You're shaking." Your eyes point downwards at the hand that refuses to rest.
"Right."
He can't hide anything from you.
"But really! I'm fine, I'm fine. Just great."
"You don't have to lie to me."
His eyes finally focus on you. They search your face before meeting your concerned ones.
"Ach, well. I'm just- You know, nervous." He purses his lips. His eyes dart to the people skittering by, trays in hand. There are conversations from other nearby tables ringing in your ears. It's packed.
You tighten your grip on his hand and he softly smiles at it.
"Thank you."
Your eyes crinkle in response. He smiles back, you can tell despite the mask covering his nose and mouth. His eyes are more expressive than you thought.
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ty for reading! sorry.. the drafts from the poll will come out soon... i just needed a break from working them so i wrote this quick 15min drabble (-w- ;)
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femme4ngel · 2 years ago
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can you write something about leahs arms please. where the reader admires them and cant keep her eyes off her muscles and it leads to smut xx
tysm for this request i love writing for leah<3 smut is kinda new for me to write tho i hope u like it!
you would just stare at her shamelessly. when she was in her tank tops, when she was working out. her fingers, her forearms, her biceps, you were obsessed and just couldn’t look away. you would try masking it, reasoning that you just like being close to her anyways, drawing circles on her palms when she felt anxious or offering her a massage after a tough training session. you thought you were being slick, the thought that she would discover how much her arms turn you on embarrassed you. so you just kept stealing glances, or suggesting sleeveless shirts when she asked, keeping silent about it. all until this morning.
you were sitting on the couch, tangled together, with one of her arms over your shoulder and the other in your lap playing with your fingers, drawing circles on your palms. you lost the plot of the movie you were watching a long time ago as you couldn’t stop looking at leahs fingers entangled with yours. her hand was bigger than yours, her palms soft as she caressed your hand. you just kept looking at her fingers, thinking thoughts that made you clench your thighs together. being with leah always made you feel such warmth inside, your heart beating faster anytime u were near her. this time wasn’t any different, you could feel the ache between your legs, your cheeks blushing. you just couldn’t keep staring at her. her fingers, her forearm, her biceps, the line of her muscles peaking out from her tank top.
“do you like the movie?”- she asks, smiling at you.
“mhm sure..”- you mumble, her voice startling you, pulling you away from your thoughts.
“your not even watching it. your staring at me”
“mhm i’m not even..”- you blush, looking away quickly, the heat spreading all over your body from the embarrassment.
“ is there something on my shirt y/n?”- she asks, theres a slight tease in her voice as she cocks her head to the side. her palm now caressing your face, her fingers dancing over your blushing cheeks.
your whole body feels like its on fire, the butterflies in your stomach are whirling, the ache between your legs intensifying.
“ no.. i was just..”- you cant even finish your sentence, her gaze is so intense, so burning.
“ you were looking at my arms right? do you like my arms pretty girl?..you know i sometimes catch you looking at them..” - she says with a slight chuckle in her voice. now she got you totally flustered, you cant even look her in the eyes. your stare at the patterns of the sofa, your face burning.
“its okay, you know i like catching you staring”- she says, her hand still holding your face as she leans in to kiss you. her lips are soft and she kisses you with hunger and a kind of passion that leaves you grasping for air. you shuffle around on the sofa, leahs hands guiding you into her lap. neither of you breaks the kiss till leah tugs on your shirt, pulling it over your head. her hands are now all over you, teasingly squeezing at your curves, holding your hips. she knows exactly how to hold you, how to touch you to make you lose your mind. her hands cup your tits as she stares into your eyes.
“ look at my hands baby. do you like them like this?”
you cant seem to answer its all too much. her fingers playing with your nipples,her piercing gaze. you kiss her as an answer, whimpering into her mouth. your little noises make her smile, she loves hearing you, hearing how good she makes you feel. she keeps kissing you, swallowing your whimpers and moans as her hand starts slipping down your stomach, inching closer to where you need her the most. your whole body is on fire, the butterflies in your stomach going crazy as you start rocking against her palm. her mouth doesn’t leave yours while her fingers dip inside your panties, softly touching you, dragging her fingers through your wet folds.
“please.. leah please”- you break away from the kiss for a second, pleading and whining into her ear. her thumb is now pressing against your clit, rubbing small circles as she keeps kissing you deeply. the new sensations make the pleasure corse through you, your stomach turning into a knot. you can’t keep up with her pace for much longer, just a few more seconds and you cum around her fingers. she holds you close and tight, her touch is now slower and softer, her kisses sloppy and faint.
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peonypaint · 1 year ago
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giramie day one: confession
jeramie would like to take things slowly and properly write a grand romance for the two of them. gira does not pick up on this.
full id under the cut!
[ ID: three digital comic pages of jeramie and gira from ohsama sentai kingohger.
page one. the color pallette of this page is mainly blues, with a blue background in the panels of jeramies bugnarok kingdom. panel one, jeramie walks while thinking to himself with gira standing behind him. jeramie smiles and there are music notes next to him, as if hes humming. there is a question mark next to gira. there are several boxes showing jeramies thoughts next to the panels on this page. the first box reads, "things are going well with gira." the second box reads, "i enjoy his company more each day. but i musnt rush things-" the third box reads, "subtext is key, especially in matters of the heart." panel two, jeramie turns his back to the viewer and holds a hand up to his obscured face as he continues to think. the fourth box of text reads, "i have to take things slowly, and properly court him". panel three is a close up on jeramies eyes, he looks down with a soft expression. on either side of the panel are two boxes of text, which read, "yes, there is still time ahead. plenty of time to weave a perfect love story for us.." panel four, jeramie jolts out of thought as gira comes into frame, saying "jeramie." above jeramie is sound effect text that says "oop!". panel five, gira looks up at jeramie with an open and happy expression as he says, "theres something i wanted to talk with you about." panel six, jeramie turns towards gira and smiles back at him with his eyes closed, saying, "yes?" with small text above the speech bubble saying "hm?" and sound effect text saying "turn"
page two. panel one, gira takes jeramies hands in his with sound effect text that says "grab" and lines of emphasis around the panel. the color palette of this page has shifted from the blues of the first page to being pink. below panel one gira and jeramie are drawn from the waist up holding hands and looking at one another, gira looks at jeramie fondly as he speaks and jeramie looks shocked. gira says, "i know this might be selfish of me- but id like it if you were always by my side." panel two, a close up on gira and jeramies faces from a side view as they look at each other. behind them is a yellow background with a pink heart and pink lines of smoke intersecting it. in front of the panel is a speech bubble from gira, which says, "will you be the king of my heart?". all around this first half of the page are sparkles and circles drawn similar to shoujou manga. panel three, gira and jeramie continue to hold hands, we focus on jeramies dazed expression with giras back to the audience. above jeramie is text that reads "dazed". panel four, a close up of giras face as he holds jeramies hands and looks up at him adoringly, there are hearts in his eyes and several hearts next to him. panel five, jeramie ducks his head and blushes, saying, "well now!". below this panel at the bottom of the page gira and jeramie hold hands and smile as jeramie says, "how am i supposed to say no to a face like that," while he looks away bashfully from gira, who closes his eyes and smiles. next to gira is text that reads "hehe" and below jeramies speech bubbles is text that reads "youre too cute, its unfair."
page three. this page is not colored and is only a single comic strip. panel one, jeramie holds a hand up to his face as he says, "although logically, arent evil tyrant kings usually selfish?" with an amused expression. panel two, gira and jeramie stand in silence as gira thinks about what has just been said with three large dots above his head. panel three, which has emphasized spike action line borders as gira says "oh!!" as he understands. panel four, gira holds his arms up in his evil tyrant king theatrical pose as he laughs, saying, "bwahahahaha! all according to my evil plot to steal your heart!" jeramie is in the foreground of the panel, holding up his hands to his face with a smile and closed eyes as he thinks, "i love him so much". /END ID]
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megamindsecretlair · 25 days ago
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I was wondering how you stay consistent with all the fics you be posting. Gurl give us the tea. You dropped like four back to back.
Lmfaooo, yall making me feel like im a fic addict 😭🤣🤣
See, what you do is meditate for 2 hours straight, praying on your muse to beam ideas and writing straight to your skull. Grab an acorn, a candle (your favorite scent), red twine, and a bottle of henny. And make a circle...lmfaooo jk jk.
TL;DR: my mind never shuts up 🫠 never turns off, never stops running, and that energy has to go somewhere, okay 😭
I wish I could take all the credit. I am the one writing it. But I have a close group of friends who let me vent out my ideas or give me ideas on how to improve. They listen to my nonsense, love yall so gd much 😗 @planetblaque @westside-rot @babybratzmaraj .
Other times, the ask is just so detailed, so rich, that it sparks some inspo and I get to writing. I am so in love with the creativity yall have on here. Completely blown away by these ideas you request!
It also helps that I went to film school and was taught how to think visually. You don't have to go to school for that, you just have to expand how you currently think about scenes.
Most times, as mentioned, my brain doesn't shut up. Even when I'm sleeping. There's this running commentary in my mind where I'm constantly turning over fics in my head. I think about scenes, I think about dialogue, I think about sex positions. Half the time, I'm scatterbrained irl because I'm too busy fucking in my head 🤣🤣
I write in my head, if that makes sense. I have these loose scenes in my head that I kind of play around with. I attack the scene from multiple angles trying to think of what sounds better.
Soo, when I sit down to write ive already done half the mental battle. I've already thought about the characters, the scenes, the motivations, the positions. It's just a matter of sitting down and writing it and it flows. I re-read my own writing all the time. But *way* after I've written it and moved on.
There's still moments where I have to pause and think about what comes next. Theres still times where I have to picture what tf is happening 🤣 or what's being said. Or what they're feeling at the moment.
Truth is, I just like to write. I've been writing since I was 11. It wasn't until I re-joined Tumblr at age 30 that I fell back in love with writing. I always loved it. But at a low point in my life, I felt hopeless that no one would ever want to read my writing. I thought I should've just quit altogether.
But by writing on here, I discovered that writing is for ME. If im having fun, then i know you will. I wont lie and say its not scary. I post overnight because I dont want the anxiety of seeing comments and reblogs trickle in 🤧 but the one rule I had for posting my writing, was to write for me. Write for the little girl who thought she couldnt. Write for the little weirdo who loves marvel and has anxiety and constantly feel like im being rejected. Thats who i write for. Thank God I didn't quit 😍🥹 I never would've met any of you. I never would've grown as a writer.
Being here with all of you, sharing my writing, seeing your reactions makes my fn day every day 😭 it's because of YOU that I felt confident enough to write a book.
I didn't get here by accident, I just write. And write often. And I read often. I learn from every single person that posts on here. I learn from all the feedback you give me.
My brain ought to do something useful since it doesn't know how to sit the fuck down 😩😩😩
Sorry this was long? Hope this helped? Feel free to ask more? Idkidk. Its still weird talking about myself. Thanks for this ask though 😗😗😗
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sleepwrites · 2 years ago
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Hello! This is one of my first times asking so sorry if this is bad :,)
This could either be romantic or platonic but macaque, mk, and wukong with a reader who has social anxiety? For example they rarely talk to new people and usually orbit around people they know.
I hope this is enough I hope you have a nice day :]
Aw this is a wonderful request! Loved writing it!
Disclaimer!: I do not have social anxiety and I have no idea what it looks like or what it feels like. If I get anything wrong please let me know and I’ll correct it immediately.
Your safe here
MK, Wukong and Macaque with an s/o who has social anxiety.
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MK
When you tell him you have social anxiety he is the most supportive boyfriend ever!!
He knew you weren’t that good around people, he was the one who had to ask you to be friends in the first place.
He would usually introduce you to new people. Very rarely would you ever go out and make friends on your own but when you did he would be so proud!
He wont push you to make new friends, he will give you a slight nudge every so often. Maybe even start the conversation with someone before needing to ‘go grab something’ and let you handle it from there.
So either you and this person hit it off and become close friends or you cut the conversation off shortly after MK leaves and run to go find him.
You tend to cling to him in social situations, especially if theres a huge crowd, then you’ll be holding his arm 24/7.
He is probably the most extroverted person you know so he will be slightly disappointed that you dont wanna go to a party that Mei invited him to but the look of serenity on your face when its just you two is enough to make up for that.
If you end up getting overwhelmed while your both out he’ll notice incredibly quickly, (he is really emotionally aware so he’ll notice fast) rushing you out of there to calm you down as soon as possible.
Once your out of the situation he’ll calm you down by hugging you nice and tight, sort of becoming an anchor for you. He’ll murmur a bunch of sweet things into your ear and give you a nice lil peck on the cheek before you two head home.
Overall? The most caring and loving boyfriend you could ever ask for.
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Sun Wukong
At first he thought you were just scared, he didn’t realise how scared you felt when there were too many people around.
But once he realised that you get seriously anxious in big crowds and meeting new people he, like MK, turns to into the most wholesome monkey bf ever!!
Tbh I dont see him as very social either, mans spent centuries cooped up on his island so of course he has some form of social anxiety.
He will always be right near you while your out and about. Will never let you leave his side. Once you two get home he’ll pepper your face with kisses, telling you how good you were.
If you do end up getting overwhelmed he will immediately summon his cloud and get you out of there. Once you get out of their he’ll calm you down with some breathing exercises.
Ideal date? Binge watch the Monkey Cop series and play some video games.
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Macaque
HE WILL PROTECT YOU FROM ALL THE PEOPLE YOU DONT LIKE BECAUSE YOUR HIS DARLING AND-
Sorry got carried away, but yeah Macaque will make sure that your comfortable while talking to someone new.
He’s honestly honoured to be part of the small circle of friends you trust and comfortable being around.
He’ll have you backstage during his shadow plays so you dont get overwhelmed by the crowd, plus the view is way better there.
He holds your hand a lot in public, acting as and anchor for you while in crowds. Sometimes he has his tail curled around your waist as well ‘for extra support’ (or so he says)
Your overwhelmed? Portals your right out of there, nothing is scaring his moonlight while hes around.
He has you focus on him and only him, making you realise that your not in the crowd anymore, that your home and safe with him.
Now, Macaque is a theatre kid™️ you cant tell me he isn’t the littlest bit sociable. If he is talking to someone with you with him, he’ll obvs ask you if you want to chip into the conversation. Respects your decision either way.
He doesn’t mind what kind of date you go on as long as your happy. Fancy a nice dinner? Only if your comfortable love. Wanna stay in tonight? What do you wanna do then?
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n3onstarss · 1 year ago
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OMG THERES NOBODY TALKING ABOUT LYLA OUGH IM FIXING THIS RIGHT NOW
So, here's Lyla x Spider-Woman reader! She may be OOC, but I'm using what I've analyzed from what I've seen (haven't seen the movie, but it's all been spoiled so it's whatever lol)
Blood, injury and panicking are all present, alongside some oblivious crushing on both sides :)
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Lyla knew how dangerous it was to be a Spider-Person. After all, she had been created for the sole purpose of helping one of said spider people.
But Miguel was tough. I mean, all spider people are, but he had trained to be Spider-Man. He hadn't been bitten, he hadn't been thrown into this like the rest of the spider people, or at least as far as Lyla knew.
So when she was scanning her screens and got a notification about a fight on Earth-921, she hurried to check in. The notification hadn't said who needed backup, only having a voice message attached, but it was requested.
She knew immediately who's dimension it was, and she knew how stubborn you were. You wouldn't call for backup unless you really fucking needed it and urgently
Oh. My. God if shes dead I'm going to kill her! The thought crossed her mind briefly, and only amplified Lyla's panic. The thought of being the first to respond, only to find you dead? terrified her.
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My webs were launching and pulling me almost faster than I could keep up, attaching to surrounding buildings and sending me swinging in tight circles and loops around the villain I was battling.
"Too fast for ya, scales?" I teased as I let myself slide under the villains tail like an Indiana Jones movie. My version of The Lizard was more gator like, reminding me of Leatherhead in the TMNT comics I'd seen. And the cherry on top, he was pissed the fuck off. a low rumbling growl emitted from the gator as he span to keep up, trying to find a window of attack, a moment of weakness.
I launched myself as high as I could go when his back was turned, slingshotting myself off two tall apartment complexes, hollering all the way and laughing like a crazed woman. Staring up at the sun, I thought I could touch the clouds like this. The adrenaline rush was amazing, it was part of the reason I kept doing this! I turned and let myself free fall carelessly for a moment before resuming my circling attack pattern.
It only lasted a moment longer before my head snapped to the side when I thought I saw a civilian, a child, standing just inside a convenience store. Without really thinking my webs adjusted my path towards the child. I had no game plan, no idea what I was doing, but I'd work it out, I always did.
But I forgot the most important rule, never turn your back to a villain.
A heavy weight slammed itself into my back, winding me. Sharp obsidian claws wrapping around my shoulders and throwing me backwards. As i hit the ground concrete tore open my suit and back as I tumbled head over heels, and not in the fun way, along the road. Skipping like a pebble and leaving cracks and torn up asphalt in my wake.
I couldn't catch my breath, having been effectively winded again by the final impact, but I forced myself to me feet. I was hunched and swaying side to side when I called for backup, pressing the panic button and leaving a message as instructed as I thwiped into the skies again one handed.
"Heyyy, it's me," I held the watch near my face as i moved, trying to keep the audio undistorted, "Uhhhh I don't know how to explain this but The Lizard got into super crack or something methinks and he is PISSED. I could really use some backup right now!" I cut off with a scream as he swiped at me again, lodging a claw in my calf that i kicked free with my other foot. I hissed in pain and my voice cracked as I spoke again, "Yeah, definitely need backup haha! anyways, civilians in the area, angry croc, destroyed property, y'know the gist. Thankssss!"
I continued my streak of circling, attacking, hissing at a injury i hadn't noticed, and repeating until I ran out of juice. My arms were exhausted and I was nearly out of web fluid. I used some of the last to (finally!) seal the wound on my calf. The Lizard turned to face me now, face to face on the ground, or as face to face as you can get to a 8 foot or taller gator.
"Pick on someone your own size!" I quipped as he threw the first punch. "Or don't." I muttered under my breath, pissed off at the situation and myself for letting it get to the point I needed backup.
The Lizard and I circled each other, fists raised and growling at each other. I faked him out a few times to lighten the mood and provoke him, but he didn't react.
After a minute or so more a golden light and figure appeared on my watch, and The Lizard took that time to charge.
"WHAT are you DOING??" I asked slash yelled as I dove under the villain, dropping to the ground to avoid being grabbed.
"Backing you up! You did call for backup, didn't you?" Lyla spoke, voice full of worry and yet smug. She leaned around where the watch and therefore her were held at shoulder height and her eyes widened a little as The Lizard began to turn towards us again.
"Ha! got me there!" The villains footsteps soon the ground as he ran, and my spidey-sense was going off like crazy, but I didn't move. "Did you alert anybody else? cause despite how much I love your company," I dodged under a punch and spun to kick The Lizard in the gut, sending him flying, "There are civilians in the area."
Lyla scoffed, striking one of her signature poses before speaking again, "Of course I alerted someone! I sent out a general notif, Noir said he's on his way and so did Peni."
Relief flooded my body for a mere moment before I launched into a backflip to dodge The Lizard. I felt like a bullfighter. An out-of-web-fluid bullfighter.
"Thank you Lyla, what ever would I do without you?" My tone was teasing, but my words were sincere.
"Die, probably." Lyla didn't miss a beat, she never did.
"That's for sure!" I got ready to run up a wall as The Lizard approached, but my leg wound started to open up again and i stumbled.
"What is that?!"
I was a little too busy dodging fists and trying not to inhale a shit tone of dust from a villain trying to trample or punch me currently to respond in full.
"Oh. Got cocky, got clawed, the works." I don't know why I was trying to appear nonchalant about something that was hindering. You don't need to look cool in front of Lyla, we've been coworkers since You were 16! that's 6 years!! but now you wanna act cool? God you're stupid!
A stray punch missed us by an inch, and Lyla looked worriedly at where the arm had been.
"Hey, you good?" I was worried that Lyla was worried. She was always so unbothered! It was worrying to see her scared
"If course! Why wouldn't I be?" She shrunk away from the next kick too. "I just think we should, IIIIII dunno.. leave?" Her hands were gesturing wildly as she spoke. A jaw snapped itself closed way too close to us for my liking.
"Hey dickhead!! we're trying to have a conversation here!" I yelled before biting into the closest limb to us, a leg.
"old ohn ight!" I tried to say as The Lizard reared up, shaking his leg violently. Lyla and I clung on comically as his leg flailed, her onto the watch and me onto his leg.
A flash of gold and red light caught the edge of my vision, and all three of us kept an eye on the portal. The Lizard halted his flailing for a moment, and I took the chance to readjust and sink my teeth in deeper. Lyla popped out of existence from my watch and i could see a glimpse of gold above Noir's wrist and he ran through the portal.
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God this woman is a fucking idiot! First she's out of web fluid, then she's injured, and NOW she's clinging to a villains leg by the teeth!!
The light and colors indicative of a portal alerted me to backup arriving after what felt like eternity, but was only around 5 minutes when I checked the time. I glitched myself out of her watch and into Noir's.
"Heyy! so good to finally see you!" Sass drips like venom to the point even I can hear it. "So! rundown!" I started as Noir began his approach, "Civilians nearby, she's out of web fluid and her leg is cut open. Imma pop back over there and check on Her you got this, right? Cool, see ya!" I cut out before he can even speak.
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Lyla popped back up on my watch, clinging onto the edge again even though she didn't need to.
"So! backup is here, and it's time for youuuu," she leaned over and poked the tip of my nose, causing me to scrunch it, "to retreat! You'll bleed put or lose a tooth like this," She gave up on hanging on, sitting with her leg crossed and inspecting her nail, rolling her head towards me to emphasize her point. "y'know?"
I narrowed my eyes at her jokingly before attempting a smile and nod and sinking my teeth in deeper. On the next kick I detached myself and let myself go flying, attempting a cool posed landing and failing when my bleeding leg buckled and gave out momentarily.
"dammit." i mumbled as I stood up fully and watched as Noir, and now Peni, who just ran past me, circled and tied up The Lizard. Lyla disappeared again as I turned to make a new portal to HQ.
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"Hey hi me again! So, we're outta here because she need medical treatment," I relayed to Peni, pointing my thumb over my shoulder, "Good luck, aim for the legs cause shes a biter, have fun!" I glitched out again, leaving a shocked and confused Peni behind.
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Lyla reappeared as I stepped through the portal, sitting on my shoulder in her pocket-sized version now that we were in her domain of HQ.
"Soooooo what happened again?" She spoke up. I could tell she wanted to know why I was struggling, so I explained as she leaned against my head on the way to the medbay.
I had to hobble with my right hand on the wall for support as we went, and in turn we received plenty of weird stares from any passing spider-people. I only caught it once in my peripheral, but Lyla flipped a group off.
We continued our journey, and I got lost in my thoughts. I have no idea what I would do without Lyla.
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sorry it's short! i tried my best sorry if it's OOC! from the clips I saw shes sassy and smug (Miguel backup scene) but also panics sometimes (Margo and her scene and also tracking the Spot) so i tried to incorporate that!! please send requests!
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