#there i go again oversharing

[redwidow616]

Outside pool is so underrated

[lazylittledragon]

ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

[bittsandpieces]

im supposed to be productive today but instead im trying to get the guy I went out with last week to send me a dick pic

[asurrogateblog]

The Syd Poll

the topic of this poll is one that is frequently avoided in the pink floyd fandom, but inevitably one we all consider – our individual views on what we think caused syd's psychological struggles (and by extension, led to his departure from the band). I think that – at least in this neighborhood of tumblr – this is a conversation we are capable of having in a way that is civil, nuanced, and at least minimally disrespectful to syd.

So, to help facilitate this, here are some ground rules:

let's all assume we have a mutual understanding of the complexities of this. syd could never actually be reduced down to a poll, and all of our viewpoints are limited in various ways

the poll options just serve as just a conversation starter, and responses are not necessarily a statement of absolute beliefs

feel free to discuss as much or as little of your own perspective as you feel comfortable sharing.

in the case that debates break out, please try to assume good intent – and also demonstrate it (unless, for instance, someone is being blatantly insulting beyond a misunderstanding that needs correcting)

please do NOT vote if you are not actually a pink floyd fan with at least basic knowledge about what we're talking about here.

The options I've included below are not meant to be exhaustive, they are simply the "theories" that I have seen most commonly circulated. I have also decided not to include combinations. I'm fairly sure we'd all agree multiple factors were involved. Rather than make the poll too complicated, I ask you to instead select the one that you think is the "most" important to your viewpoint, and clarify further in your tags/comments as you wish.

so. here we go.

READ BEFORE VOTING ^^^^

(note of correction: "late-onset schizophrenia" should just be "schizophrenia". the typical timeline for onset of symptoms is late adolescence/early adulthood, so syd would've been well within that period at the time)

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[isbergillustration]

I feel like absolute garbage today so no new art (sorry to the peeps whose commissions i promised to do today) but here is an update on this thing. Amputated part of its waist which is good, glued its legs on back to front which is. Unfortunate.

[shibaraki]

I know I planned to have some fics posted over the weekend but I am dealing with a family emergency and my ma has been rushed into hospital so I’ll be mostly offline until things calms down. sorry guys

click for my regular navi

[nuppu-nuppu]

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

[lunar-years]

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[grinchwrapsupreme]

i'm still reeling at the fact that we got havers back in series 5 like what do you mean he's back at button house??? what do you mean the captain got to see him again???? what do you mean that's his fucking swagger stick???????? ben willbond i'm going to hunt you for sport!!!!!!!!!!!!

[to-dance-beneath-the-diamond-sky]

You ever read a book or watch a movie and relate to a character so hard that it scares the crap out of you and then proceeds to trigger a full on mental breakdown? because that was Brian Lackey from Mysterious Skin for me

[pidgefudge]

i miss being close with a person

[thefrogdalorian]

Do any other writers ever get a bit down when you realise you're constantly writing the kind of relationship you desperately want but will probably never have?

Writing has helped my mental health a lot, it helps me to write down emotions when I struggle to place them in real life. But sometimes it also just makes me sad to write about something I desperately want but feel I will never have, so I just wondered if anyone else goes through this.

More under the cut, just going to rant about mental health and navigating the dating scene as an autistic person.

Like I'm sure a lot of us here on the hellsite, I spent my teenage years socially isolated and struggling because I didn't fit in with others, without realising why I felt so different. I just knew that I experienced attraction differently than my peers. Now I know that I'm autistic and queer, but back then I had no idea. At that's at least answered for me. But I'll never get that time back.

If I had known just how different I was earlier in my life, I think I could've navigated the age at which a lot of people are having these experiences more successfully. I did have some fun myself too. But most of the time, such encounters were stressful and overwhelming when they really should have been fun and exciting.

I honestly don't see myself ever getting into a relationship. I think I have a lot of great traits and strengths. I guess I'm probably not ugly. But I'm just not good at meeting new people. I have my friends and I like their company, why would I want to meet others? But how am I ever going to find love if I don't? Plus, dating apps terrify me and if I were to ever make it far enough to meet in real life, I feel like I don't know how to go on dates. Most people don't even want dates, either. It's all just casual which does not interest me.

I have a lot of amazing friends, I spread a lot of the love I have inside of me to them and I think platonic love can be just as fulfilling as romantic love. But it does kind of make me sad to think the closest I'll probably ever get to a real, loving relationship is by writing about fictional characters. Honestly just writing this out and I'm like wow... my life is pretty tragic.

I mean, I'd love to be wrong. But based on the way society has shown time and again it mistreats people like me, I've pretty much given up on love in my mid twenties. Except in my fanfics.

And that makes me sad, I can't lie.

[museofthepyre]

your art really fits your appearance... are you the real life sydney sargent? i'd be freaking out if you were sydney sargent ahh

Well, yes.

I could explain my multi-year spanning selfhood/ ID situation in depth… buuuut we would be here for hours. Short answer for all intents and purposes is: yes.

[anto-pops]

Can someone with knowledge of anxiety or panic attacks tell me if I dealt with that last night because I have never in my life experienced something like this before and it honestly freaked me the fuck out.

I was getting ready for work at like 3 in the afternoon and my heart started racing. Like, beating insanely fast. I didn't check my heart rate until way later, but basically for the entire time I was getting dressed, doing makeup, etc. I had to continuously sit down cause I felt like I couldn't catch my breath.

I finally got in my car at like 5 to head to work and once I parked, I checked my heart rate on my watch and it was reading at 142 bpm. It had been bouncing between 140 and 130 for over an hour and there was absolutely no reason for it. No caffeine, no exercise, no stress that I could solely blame for any potential 'anxiety' or anything.

I was sweating my fucking brains out for like an hour at work, was super winded for literally no reason, and I only started to feel anxious and worried once I realized just how fast my heart was going. My coworkers told me I looked red in the face even when I was standing completely still not moving. It stopped around like 7:30 give or take, but that was still roughly 5 hours of dealing with everything. I have never experienced anything like this before, and everyone I spoke to last night was on my ass about going to the ER, but I wasn't about to leave work for that.

I don't know. Should I make an appointment to see a doctor ?? I'm at a loss for what to do cause this was a one time instance as far as I'm concerned, but it was super scary and it lasted such a long time. I thought I was going to have a heart attack and my one thought was that I didn't wanna croak at my job LMAO

[theworldisabrokenbonebutitishome]

Kang Yo Han is the walking embodiment of I'm Not Okay (I Promise) and relates to Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge far more than is healthy. In this essay I will-