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[ashclouds366]

What's your fav starburst flavor?

pink and yellow together... play the game where you split them up and roll them into balls and mash them together. it tastes like a pink lemonade flavor would, i think. if i had to pick just one, though, id say the pink one. i think it's strawberry

[goodstories08]

Double Date

Sodapop Curtis X Male Reader

Request: Yes @mack-thedork

Description: Sodapop decides to take Y/n on a double date with Ponyboy and Cherry. He takes Y/n to the movies and they have the best time laughing and stealing kisses with each other until they have a run in with a few soces that Cherry knew. They started to make fun of Y/n causing Sodas blood to boil to the point we’re he punched the soc. The cops showed up and obviously blamed the greaser for the fight.

“You ready for the movie darlin’,” Sodapop called as he came into the living room, you hummed a yes as he came closer to where you sat on the couch. “Alright, come on we gotta go meet Ponyboy and his new girlfriend Cherry,” he said before leaning in and pressing his slightly chapped lips against yours.

You smiled into the kiss and wrapped your arms around his neck, continuing to make out on the couch for a bit till Darry walked in. “Sodapop! Y/n! Y’all got a date to go on, go do that there,” He demanded, Soda and you looked into each other’s eyes before bursting out into laughter. “Yea, yea we’re leaving,” You mumble before getting up and dragging Soda out to his car. The key turned causing the engine of the old car to roar. “Wow, we’re did you get this one?” You asked, Sodapop’s grin growing more. “Someone brought it in at work, they were just happy to get rid of it so I fixed it up for you,” He whispered in his deep voice.

You smiled but thought about what he just said, “Wait!? What do you mean for me?” You looked up to his beautiful eyes, Soda leaned forward and kissed your lips. “Happy early anniversary baby,” He whispered into your ear before nibbling on it. Your eyes went wide and before you could say anything the car started moving forward. “W-wait Soda what are you talking about, is this car…”

“Yours, of course it is darlin’. I love you,” You felt your lips curve into a smile, blush rushing to your cheeks. “Oh my god, Soda baby I want to kiss you right now! Thank you so so much,” You said still in disbelief that Soda got you a car. How the hell would you ever find a gift that could top that. Sodapop may not have much, but the little he did have he gave all to you. He was the sweetest and kindest boyfriend you could have ever hoped for. It was nice to have someone who understood what not having much was like but together you needed nothing more than each other.

The car slowly came to a stop, the gravel crumbling beneath the weight of it. “All right here we are,” Soda said while steeping out and running over toward your door to open it for you. “Thank you baby,” You say while laying a kiss on his cheek, smirking as you noticed his cheeks grow red. Sodapop dragged you away toward the trunk, when it opened your eyes widened. “How’d I do. Happy early anniversary, again baby,” Soda whispered, his arm wrapping around your waist, pulling you closer so he can kiss your lips. There in the trunk laid a pic nick blanket and basket filled with your favorite foods.

“Hay Soda!” Ponyboy yelled as he made his way over, Cherry giggled as the two stumbled over each other.

“Hi baby brother.” Soda piped up, his arms wrapping around his younger brother and his fist ruffling up Ponyboy’s hair. Cherry looked to you with a huge smile and leaned in for a light hug. “So nice to see you. Y/n right?” You nodded with a smile, “took forever to walk here,” Cherry went on as you showed her to the car, where the two of you took a seat on. “Ponyboy had to practically drag me from the house. I was so busy getting my hair ready and everyhin.”

“Soda had to remind me, I’m just always so tired and forgetful with my folks always yelling at each other, barely getten sleep. That’s why I’ve been staying with Soda for a while.” Cherry gave a look of sympathy and pat your back, “Well we’re lucky to have em aren’t we.” Both you and Cherry looked over to the snack line, where your boyfriends stood joking around and bumping into each other. “Yea, we sure are.”

You looked up the the stars for a quick second admiring their beauty before looking back down to Cherry who watched as a few socs walked over. “Hey Cherr, Just wanted to check in. Why you hanging with a fucking grease?” I uncomfortably shifted and stood up to try and leave but one of them grabbed my wrist, pulling me back onto the front of Cherry’s car.

You winced from how hard he was squeezing your arm, you didn’t even have to look to know Soda was already running over to him with clutched fists. “Hey get of him!” Soda yelled with anger, Ponyboy following behind him closely. “Why what’s your fairy ass gonna do?” Soda’s face was bright red from anger he leaned forward but was met with another Soc’s fist in his face.

“Hey!” Cherry and I yelled as Soda and Pony began to fight back. You screamed as loud as you could but you couldn’t break free from the socs grasp. You watched in horror as Soda and Pony where hit over and over. Cherry tried to intervene but one of the socs pushed her to the floor. Tears seepe into the collar of my shirt as my shoes slid against the dirt.

Before anyone could pull a knife the cops where already there, I felt a rush of relief as they came out of their cars. But that relief was soon replaced with confusion as they started to arrest Soda and Pony. “Hey, stop they attacked us first,” You scream, Cherry nodding in agreement. The cop just stared before pulling Soda into the car, My blood really began to boil once the socs started laughing. Of course they would, it was never their fault. Rich kids were perfect and never caused trouble according to the police.

Later that night Darry drove you and Cherry to the station after getting a call to pay bail. After telling him what happened he was pissed as well but there was really nothing we could do but listen.

As the car came to a roaring stop you ran out of the door and into the large building. You didn’t even talk to the cop at the front who asked who you where, you just ran toward the back, ran as fast as you could till you found him. Found Soda, leaning against the wall of a Cell, a black bruise forming around his face. You screamed his name and his bright smile immediately took the feeling of nervousness away. You ran up to him and kissed him gently through the bars, trying to reach him so that you could hug him. “I’m soo sorry Y/n.”

“Don’t be, it’s not your fault,” You reassure while taking in his scent. Darry rounded the corner along with Cherry, who immediately ran toward Ponyboy. “I know, but I promise you that you won’t have to see that again. I promise I will protect you so that none of them can lay their gross hands on you again. I promise you Y/n,” He said with seriousness in his voice. I smiled as he pulled me in for a kiss once more. “I know you will, I love you Soda.”

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[thesunmeltedthegrayaway]

We Wanted It All: Sodapop Curtis x Male!Reader

Warning: I just wanted to put a warning out there just incase this might upset anyone lol It has some heavy moments in my opinion so... you have been warned.

This is a request! If you would like to make a request take a look at (this post) for all of the characters I am currently writing for.

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This request is for @mack-thedork​

~~~

POV: Yours

We both knew that what we were could be considered wrong, immoral, and unnatural to most people. Yet, the moments we shared together eclipsed any worries we had... or at least we’d like to think so. It wasn’t until we separated from each other and the dizzying bliss we made each other feel fade away did reality creep back out at us. In those moments of isolation, I’d lay awake at night with fictitious scenarios presenting themselves behind my eyelids as I desperately tried to sleep. I imagined the angered and confused faces of those closest to us; the words of bile they spoke in disgust. As much as we didn’t want to care if someone else disapproved of us. It would always sting more when it’s someone as important as your family.  

So, we hid our relationship from the people closest to us. Well, expect from Pony, he was a pretty smart and observant kid. He knew his brother all too well; he knew how he acted when he was completely enthralled with someone. The day he told me he knew about us was a day I could never forget. Mostly because he gave me a reaction that I wasn’t expecting at all.

~~~

Flashback

Pony had been acting weird all afternoon; he didn’t seem nervous or uncomfortable. But rather, a lot more observative than normal. His observations weren’t even on the schoolwork I was helping him out with. His observations were mostly on Soda and I. His questions made my head feel like it was spinning. Worry and panic began to fill my blood; my hands began to feel the urge to tremble.  

“So, Y/N?” Ponyboy asks casually. For some reason, the start of this question in particular made my blood run cold.   “Yeah?” I replied, trying to maintain the composure that was chipping away with each passing second. “Were you and Soda ever going to tell me that the two of you are together?” He asks, his casual and calm tone hadn’t faltered in the slightest. I didn’t really know how to react; I could feel the blood rush to my face. I felt the urge to both laugh and cry at the same time. I felt terrified, yet relieved too, finally someone new. And I wasn’t met with everything that I had imagined I would receive.  

“Uh... I” I gasped in a breath trying to calm myself down. “How did you know?” I asked after my breathing had returned to a slightly more consistent pace. “Y/N, Soda's my brother. I know what he’s like when he falls in love with somebody. The second you came around I could just tell he was completely enamored by you.” Ponyboy explained.   He sounded as though it was the most obvious thing in the world.   “Oh,” Is all I could say in reply.   I was bracing myself; I was waiting for him to yell and shout in outrage and disapproval. But all he really did was look at me like he always did, kindly.

“Y-you’re okay with all of this?” I question skeptically. “As long as you’re both happy, I’m fine with your relationship.” Pony replied honestly, I finally like out a sigh of relief. It felt as though I could finally relax. “Thanks Pone.” I say appreciatively. “Just don’t get pregnant and run off to Florida, okay?” Pony joked. I laughed at his joked, shaking my head at the randomness of it. “I can assure you that will not happen.”   “It better not...”

And just like that, we got back to how we normally acted. The fact that I was dating his brother didn’t hinder him in any way. There was no tension or passive aggressive comments. It was just normal, blissfully normal... End of Flashback

As nice as Pony’s reaction was, I knew not everyone was going to act that way. Those worries and doubts I had only subsided slightly. So, for a while, Ponyboy was the only one who really knew what was going on.

But there was a downfall about secrets, they could only stay hidden for so long...

~~~

It felt like any other afternoon, school had just gotten out. Ponyboy and I were walking back to his house. I had the full intention of helping him out with his history report. But, something, or should I say someone threw a wrench in them almost immediately.

“No, it would be-” My sentence was interrupted by the sound of the screen door creaking open before slamming shut. I wondered who it could have been, but my theories were shut down a few seconds later. Soda walked into the kitchen, a lazy yet attractive grin resting on his lips.            

“Hey,” I greeted brightly, I walked over to him wrapping my arms around the back of his neck before pecking his lips. “I thought you weren’t supposed to get off till 7 tonight.”

I felt a pair of arms snake themselves around my hips before I was pulled closer to Soda. “I got off early, I feel like I haven’t seen you in weeks.”

“You haven’t seen me in weeks.” I reply.

Soda and I could never really go on dates due to the gang always being around town. And being alone was an impossibility for us most of the time.

“You’ll just have to wait for me to help Pone finish his report, then we could spend some time together.” I add with a shy smile.

“I should be fine now Y/N, you two can go ahead and spend some time together.” Ponyboy spoke up, making Soda and I take our attention off of one another.

“You sure because I really don’t mind-”

“Yeah, I’m sure.” Ponyboy reassured.  

I gave him a grateful smile before uttering a “Thanks.”

~~~

We ended up hanging out in Soda and Pony’s room. I was, in all honesty fighting sleep; my head rested in his lap. One of his hands had interwoven itself into my hair.

“You trying to put me to asleep Curtis?” I asked tiredly.  

He let out a smooth laugh before replying. “No, but I do have to admit you look absolutely adorable half-asleep.”  

His free hand moved to cup my face; his thumb lightly brushed itself back and forth against my cheek. “I know I don’t get a chance to tell it too you often Darlin’ but I love you.”

I smiled fondly at him before replying. “I love you too.” Soda began to lean down. I leaned up, meeting him half way. Our lips gently interlocked together, before I knew it, that all too familiar dizzying bliss consumed me again.  

But before I knew it, our moment of serenity would come crashing down in a matter of seconds. We didn’t react fast enough to pull apart when his bedroom door slammed against the wall abruptly. We did however, move as quickly as we could once we heard an all too angry and familiar voice.

“The hell is goin’ on here!?” The gentle grips we had on one another tightened immensely at the sound of Darry’s angered question. “Get off of him!” Darry shouted at me. I pretty much jumped out of Soda’s hold the second I was ordered to.

“Darry-” Soda started but he was cutoff almost immediately.  

“Don’t even try to come up with an excuse for this... this-” Darry looked as though he wanted to puke. His face was so red with rage I thought steam would come out of his ears. “Disgrace!” He hissed out.

“W-we didn’t want you to find out about us this way.” You strained out; your pulse felt as though it was going to beat right out of your skin.

“It should even be something at all!” He yelled, it almost sounded like a roar.

“Darry knock it off!” Ponyboy spoke up bravely, I was surprised he was stepping in.  

Darry’s head turned around as soon as he heard Pony’s voice. “What’s goin' on here Pony?” His voice wavered as he spoke, his breath was now coming out in small huffs.

“It’s not my place to tell you!" Pony replied.

Darry turned back around to face us; his jaw was now clenched. “One of you better start explainin’ yourselves before I flip out.” He warned in a deadly tone.

I could hear a slight sniffle coming from Soda. I was tempted to try and comfort him. But I thought if I did Darry would end up dragging me out of the house by the collar of my shirt.  

“Look, you know what you saw-” Soda forced out. He huffed in a stuttering breath trying to calm himself down. “I-I’m g-”

“Don’t even finish that sentence.” Darry sounded mortified; his expression filled with disappointment.

“I love him Darry,” Soda admitted in a pained whisper. “And I don’t want you to hate me for it.” He began to full on sob, and before I knew it, tears fell down my eyes too.

Darry just looked down at us, his arms crossed tensely. “Y/N, just go.” He spoke, his tone now a lot calmer than before. But that didn’t make me feel any better; in all honesty, it terrified me more.      

I listened to him, slowly rising up from Soda’s bed. As I walked past Darry, I took one last look at Soda. His face was red; tears stained his cheeks. I brushed past Pony as I made my way toward the front door. My nausea and worry began to be the only thing I could focus on. I pushed open the screen door. Despite the cool and refreshing air, I felt more flustered than ever.

“Y/N! Y/N, wait!” I heard Pony shout from the porch, my hand still gripped the gates handle as I watched him run over. “Y/N, I swear I tried to stop him from comin’ in. But he saw Soda’s DX shirt and-” He ranted shakily.

“It’s fine I’m sure you did everything you could.”

“I didn’t think he would act like that.” Pony said meekly.

I gave Pony a sad smile before replying. ”I did,” I could feel my face begin to burn, tears welled up in my eyes. “I’ll see you around.” I added brokenly.  

“See you...” He muttered quietly.

~~~ POV Change: Pony’s

I could feel my stomach twist when Y/N left my line of vision. I didn’t want to walk back into the house. My mind filled with the possibilities of the things Darry could do. Maybe he’d yell and rant, spit words of hatred out at Soda. Or worse, throw Soda out entirely. My nails dug into the palms of my hands as I walked back to the house. I reluctantly pushed open the screen door and walked into the kitchen. Darry stood there, leaning tensely on the countertop. He turned around to face me as soon as he heard the sound of my footsteps.

“How long have they been together? Soda won’t tell me.”  

I went to answer but he interrupted me.  

“And don’t give me that “it’s not my place to tell you.” Crap either, I want answers.”

“I only found out about it a few months back. They never told me when they got together.” I answer honestly.

“So, you’ve known about this for months and didn’t care to tell me?” His tone was beginning to get tense again.

I nodded, “They didn’t want me to tell anyone, and I respect that.”

“H-how can you be so okay with this?” Darry asked incredulously, he rubbed his face as if he was trying to wake himself up. “There is no way you could handle that mess this well.”

I scoffed at Darry’s question and fought the urge to roll my eyes. “Darry it’s a relationship not a mess. And I can handle it just fine because there’s nothing wrong with it. You’re the one who can’t handle it for some reason.”

Darry went to say something but stopped himself. He stomped off to his room slamming the door shut. I waited a few seconds before walking toward Soda and I’s room. He sat numbly on the bed, his tears finally ceasing themselves.  

“Did he say anything to you?” I asked reluctantly not wanting to upset him again.

“No,” He whispered. “He just asked me how long we were together and then left.”

I sat down next to him on the bed and pulled him in for a hug.

“He hates me Pone, I know he does.” His voice sounded so hurt as he spoke.

“He doesn’t hate you, he just... doesn’t understand.” I tried to say my words carefully.  

He didn’t reply to me, we just sat there with an overwhelming anxiety. All we could do was hope Darry didn’t do anything irrational...

~~~ POV Change: Soda’s

The next morning had rolled around and Darry hadn’t said a word to me all day. The gang hadn’t even been around. I guess they had a feeling that something wasn’t right with the three of us. I had just finished getting dressed after getting out of the shower. The bathroom door knocked abruptly, making me jump slightly.

“Get movin’ Soda you don’t want to be late for work.” Darry called out from the other side of the door.

I didn’t respond to him; I didn’t even really know what to say. I heard him sigh through the other side of the door. “I’ll give you a ride, just hurry up.“ He walked away before I could reply.

I felt a bit of relief that he was talking to me again. But I also felt dread at the thought of being in the truck with Darry. I didn’t know all the things he wanted to say or do. But I would have to face him at some point; the sooner I did it, the better I would feel. So, after taking a moment calm down, I walked out of the bathroom and out the front door.  

The drive was silence, I just stared out the window not wanting to look at Darry. I went to get out as soon as the DX came into view.

He suddenly cleared his throat before he began to speak. “Soda, first off, I just want to say that I could never hate you.” He spoke earnestly. “I love you to death little brother.”

“I love you too...” I replied in relief.

“But-” He paused, contemplating what to say next. “I don’t want you to see Y/N anymore.”

My heart sunk rapidly and the panic I felt yesterday returned in a matter of seconds. “Darry, I- I can’t do that.”

“Soda,” He voice began to sound frustrated again. “Do you know what could happen if word gets out that your together with Y/N? It could ruin your life!” He hissed out.

“I don’t care Darry! Y/N brings me a happiness I hadn’t felt in a while!”

“Well, I do care and I am not going to watch you throw your life down the toilet. You’re breaking up with him!”

“No Darry! You don’t under-” I protested.

Darry’s hand slammed against the wheel of the truck, making my sentence stop in its tracks. “Damn it Soda! Now you listen to me, you and Y/N are done! Am I making myself clear?”    

I didn’t reply to him off the bat, my teeth harshly bit my lip.  

“Hello?” Darry spoke up wanting a reply.

“Fine.” I answered reluctantly.

I didn’t want this... I didn’t want to break up with Y/N at all.

“Good, now get into work before you’re late.”

~~~

POV: Yours

I thought I had a death wish, or that I was going insane. I didn’t know what I was thinking when I began to walk down to the Curtis’s house after what had just happened the day before. But I was worried. I wanted to know how Soda was doing. I wanted to know if Darry was treating him any differently now. My curiosity and worry seemed to be more than any wrath Darry would give me.

When I approached the house, I saw Pony sitting on the porch. He seemed happy to see me, he greeted me with a smile.  

“Hey Y/N,”

“Hey, is... Soda doing alright?”  

“He’s-” Pony’s sentence was cut off by the sound of the screen door opening. My nerves were set ablaze once I saw Darry lean outside. His icy green/blue eyes pierced right through me.  

“What do you want?” He spoke with slight hostility.

“I uh, I was just wanting to see if everything was alright here after the other day.”

“Everything’s fine and if you were wanting to see him, he’s not here.” Darry replied.

“Where is he?” I asked feeling slightly skeptical for some reason.

“He’s out with Sandy.” He answered without a second of hesitation.  

I felt my heart sink, I could feel a pressure in my chest at even the mention of her name. “Oh... I should go then.”

I could see Ponyboy was beginning to feel worried. He sat up straight and scrambled to speak.  

“I’ll walk you back.” Ponyboy said as he unceremoniously got up off the porch.  

“I think they’ll be fine Pony.” Darry replied with a forced smile.

“C’mon Dar it’s late, he might get jumped.” Ponyboy argued making Darry’s jaw tense.

Darry gave Pony a glare before replying. “Fine, but get your butt back here as soon as you can.”

“I will Dar don’t worry.” Pony reassured, he walked off the porch pretty much dragging me with him.

“You don’t have to walk me back Pone, I would’ve been fine.” I mutter as we began to walk up the street.

“He isn’t out with her,” Pony spoke completely ignoring my previous sentence. “He hasn’t talked to her in a while.”

I sighed not really wanting to talk about Sandy. “How do you even know?” I asked with a broken laugh.

Pony didn’t answer my question, we just walked in silence. “Just follow me.” He said vaguely.  

He then began to walk in the opposite direction of my house. It looked like we were heading toward the field near here. As we grew closer to the usual unkept field, I began to notice a small light in the distance.

“Wh-what is that?” I asked squinting my eyes at the light.

“You’ll see.” Pony replied, I could tell he had begun to smile.

My question would be answered a minute later. Pony and I approached a small little picnic that rested on a hastily laid down blanket. But that wasn’t what was fully pulling my attention. Soda was sitting nervously in front of it; his back was turned to us.

“Soda.” Is the only thing I could think to say.  

He turned himself around to face me, a smile crept onto his lips. He stood up walking over to me slowly, we just stared at each other at first.  

“I’ll leave you two alone.” Ponyboy spoke up before walking back up the field.  

I was pulled into a warm hug. I melted in Soda’s embrace almost immediately. My face burrowed, my face burrowed in the crook of his neck, and held him as tightly as I could.

“You okay Y/N?” I could feel Soda’s heart beating rapidly against my chest. His pulse fluttering against my cheek.

“I’m as okay as I can be after yesterday.” I reply with a weak laugh.  

We pulled back slightly from our embrace; our noses now lightly pressed against one another. Soda leaned in, his soft lips entrapping themselves in mine passionately yet methodically, too. His hands were cold as they cupped my face, but I didn’t mind. He pulled apart from the kiss, giving me a quick peck on the cheek after we caught our breath. He carefully pulled me to sit down on the ground with him; his charming smile returned to his lips.

But, as happy as he may have looked to other people, I could tell something was eating away at him still. I didn’t want to interrogate him right away; however, I wanted to bask in the enamor that filled the air. We ate and drank in a comfortable silence before lying down to look up at the sky.

“Y/N?” Soda spoke up, I could tell his voice had a trace of reluctance in it.

“Yeah?”  

“You know I love you darlin’, right?”

Despite the sweetness of his sentence, I couldn’t help but feel dread.  

“Of course, and I love you too.” I turned my head to look over at him, our eyes locked onto each other.  

“I know you do... but,”

Here it comes. I only had a few seconds to prepared myself for the punch I was about to feel on the middle of my chest.

“Darry doesn’t want us to see each other anymore.” Soda admitted sadly, his eyes now swimming in remorse.

“Wh-what?” My phrased cracked, my nerves began to skyrocket again. My hands had begun to feel numb. “Are... are you-”

“I don’t want to,” Soda interjected in a panic. He sat up; his hands now clenched in a fist. “But I don’t know what to do.” He added hopelessly.

I sat up myself, looking over at him sympathetically. “I’m sorry.” I comforted now leaning my head on his shoulder.

“I feel so confused. I love you so much and I don’t want to lose you. I don’t know why Darry can’t be happy about that. Darry is headstrong on the idea of us not being together. I- I...”  

I knew what I had to do, even if it pained the both of us immensely. Losing someone as important as Darry would be even worse for him, I feel. I sat up straight again making Soda look over at me.

“You should listen to your brother.” I spoke tearfully. “You can’t lose him Soda; I know you love him to death.” I added with a tremble.

He looked over at me heartbroken, it was a look I never wanted to see from him. “But we could date in secret like before he doesn’t have to know.” His said quickly.

“That’s what we tried before; it didn’t work out too well.” I explain.

“Y/N...”  

“Your family is important to you and I don’t want to see you lose it.”

“You’re important to me too!” He exclaimed.

I gave him a tearful smile before replying. “I’m not as important as them.” I gave him one last kiss, savoring the blissful high it made me feel.  

“I’m sorry... I love you.” I then got up, walking away with no intention of looking back. I knew if I did, I wouldn’t get the strength again to walk away.

I guess it was foolish to want it all.

To be continued...

[homosexuality-at-its-finest]

Could you please do a Poly-Relationship one-shot consisting of Steve Rogers x M!Reader x Wanda Maximoff? A part of the plot could be the reader asking Steve to be his boyfriend, but Steve knows that the reader is in a relationship with Wanda, so he says no until Wanda and Reader explain it to him. After they explain it to him,it could cut to the three of them going out together, and Steve is a little uncomfortable (because he doesn't really understand the Poly-Relationship), so Reader and Wanda take Steve to do some fun activities around New York that'll ease him into everything

@mack-thedork

Plot: Requested

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Male reader x Wanda Maximoff

Y/n: Your name

L/n: Last name

H/c: Hair color

E/c: Eye color

Warnings: Polyamorous relationship, shy Steve, going on a date, fluff, kissing, cussing

Word count: 1070

When Steve Rogers woke up this morning, he definitely didn’t expect both Wanda Maximoff and Y/n L/n to block his path to the kitchen, a smile playing on the two’s lips.

See the thing was, Steve had a crush on the two, he found Wanda breathtakingly beautiful and Y/n intoxicatingly handsome, and he knew polyamory was more accepted now, but it didn’t mean he wasn’t embarrassed and would like to avoid the topic at all costs.

The couple came up on either side of the super soldier, fingers brushing tantalizingly against his skin, causing a flush to spread across his cheeks. “How can I help you two?” He questioned; his voice sheepishly small.

“Well Stevie.” Wanda started a smirk playing on her ruby red lips.

“Tony told us a little secret the other day and we wanted to know if it was true.” Y/n finished for his girlfriend, looking up at the blonde from under his eyelashes.

Steve swallowed thickly, looking between the couple, his heart stuttering a bit. God this so wasn’t fair.

“Oh? What was that secret?” The soldiers voice was a pitch higher than normal, something the couple obviously picked up on.

“Well, Tony said you liked us, and we were wondering if that was true.” Wanda wrapped her arm around Steve’s bicep, keeping the blonde from booking it down the hall.

Steve’s Adams apple bobbed as he swallowed down the lump in his throat, looking between the red head girl and the H/c haired man. His mouth opened and closed for a few moments, mortification running through his very being. Steve was going to kick Stark’s ass.

“I- Yes that’s true.” He finally replied after a few beats, unable to look at either of the people in front of them, wishing the floor would open up and swallow him whole.

“Well why didn’t you just say so Stevie?” Y/n questioned with a raised eyebrow, head tipped to the side, a playful smirk on his lips. His fingers ran up Steve’s chest, causing the super soldier to shiver slightly.

The couple leaned up on either side of him, pressing a kiss to both cheeks. “Meet us in the lobby at 8 sharp, don’t be late Rogers.” Y/n said in a stern voice, winking at the man who was frozen to the floor.

With that Y/n threw an arm over Wanda’s shoulders, leading her to the kitchen. Steve was in a daze for a few moments, hand going to touch his cheek almost shyly, before a smile bloomed across his lips.

Steve was a wreck the entire day honestly, he wasn’t sure where they were going so, he didn’t know what to wear. He was scared Wanda and Y/n wouldn’t like him as much as they originally thought, a million thoughts ran through his head.

Those thoughts were silenced when he arrived at the lobby at 7:55 and found Wanda dressed in a simple yet elegant dress with a cardigan thrown over it, and Y/n wearing a pair of dark ripped jeans and something he’d called a ‘dad shirt’ a couple weeks back.

Overall, they looked casual but absolutely gorgeous to Steve. He gave them a shy smile, scratching the back of his neck.

“You guys look amazing.” He complimented the two, noticing the way the two looked almost bashful at the compliment.

“Thanks Stevie, you don’t look too bad yourself.” Y/n replied smoothly, standing on his tippy toes to press a kiss to the man’s cheek.

“Mhm, I agree.” Wanda piped up, fingers ghosting against the soldier’s jaw. “Though I would love to see what you’d look like with a beard.” He Sakovian accent was thick, but charming to Steve, making his heart thump erratically.

Y/n grinned, making a sound of agreement at his girlfriend’s statement. He wrapped his arms around Steve’s bicep, looking up at the blonde.

“Now cmon pretty boy, Wanda and I made plans for the three of us.” Wanda came to Steve’s other side, taking his lonely bicep and leading the soldier with Y/n.

He had no idea where the two were taking them, but just allowed himself to relax and enjoy the easy conversation passing between the three.

Steve felt a bit uncomfortable with the stares of strangers, but Wanda and Y/n would reassure him quietly, easing the soldiers’ anxieties over the situation. Finally, they arrived at what seemed to be an art gallery, making Steve light up.

“I love art!” The blonde enthused, looking between the two, earning a fond smile from the E/c eyed hero.

“We know, that’s why we brought you here. To help ease you a bit. Thought it might be easier if we’re surrounded by something you’re passionate about.” He explained, fingers running soothingly over Steve’s clothed skin.

The hero flushed bright red, tipping his head a bit. “Thank you.” He said, giving the couple a little grin.

Wanda simply waved her hand dismissively. “Nothing to thank us for.” She replied, before pulling the two men along.

Steve honestly had a blast at the gallery, absolutely fascinated with the art. The couple let him gush and kept conversation with him.

They both seemed to genuinely care, and it made his heart melt, he had no idea how he deserved not one, but two different people like this. He had more fun that night than he had in years, enjoying the date with Wanda and Y/n.

By the end of the night, he was disappointed that it had to end, his heart clenching a bit in his chest at the idea of leaving them. He walked the couple to their floor, shyly running a hand through his hair.

“Thank you, guys, I really enjoyed myself. I hope we can do this again?” He offered, looking between the witch and enhanced.

“We’d love to Stevie.” Wanda replied, standing on her toes to press a light kiss to Steve’s lips. Before he could recover, Y/n did the same. Steve’s entire face was bright red, though a smile was spread across his lips.

He leaned back down to kiss the couple once more, and if he left the floor later that night with swollen and red lips, well no one needed to know that.

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Diners and Shiners: Sodapop Curtis x Male!Reader

This is a request! If you would like to make a request take a look at (this post) for all of the characters I am currently writing for.

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I feel like this the ending is kinda meh... but I like the beginning haha.

The request is for @mack-thedork

~~~ Sodapop Curtis was a dream, a relief I thought I could never find. I was always told to act a certain way, be in a relationship with a certain gender, and be like every other cookie-cutter man. But I knew myself all too well. I knew the things I liked, the things I wanted to make out of my life. They weren't up to society's standards and the skewed moral high ground they had come up with.

And that terrified me at first, not because I would care about what others thought about me. But rather, that I wouldn't find anyone who wanted the same things out of life as I did. I didn't want structure and a set routine. I wanted to live life freely, and get high off of the rush it presented to me.

But then he came around and washed away those worries in a flash. Every standard and wish I had come up with when it came to my significant other was the exact definition of him. He was drunk on life; he had an easy-going philosophy. He'd move in whatever direction life wanted him to go, whether it was difficult or not. It was hard for me not to fall for him. He was like a magnet; one whose pull was so strong the force it exuded could not be ignored. But it wasn't until he reciprocated the feelings I had for him that I fully embraced the pull he had on me. And it was blissful being with someone as understanding and carefree as him.

But of course, there would always be people who would be nosy. People who would think they had the right to comment on things that didn't concern them. I had prepared myself for it long before I had gotten with Soda. So I knew to let things roll down my back, and consider their words to be nothing but air. But Soda, on the other hand, had a bit of a harder time letting comments and stares like that go.

I had to admit though, I never would've expected the usual high-on-life Soda to act like this...

~~~

Soda and I had decided to go out on a double date with Pony and Cherry. In our heads, the idea sounded great, simple. We hadn't really thought something bad would happen. We didn't think that someone would disrupt our evening... because who really does something like that?

But, I guess we should've today.

The group of socs Cherry had hung out with once before were subtle in their jeering at first. The first time I had seen them today they stood across the street staring at the four of us through the window of the diner. Thankfully Pony and Soda didn't notice, but Cherry and I could feel their stares burning holes into us right away. For a bit, that's all I could focus on. With their taunting eyes and mocking smirks, their posture looked confrontational. I began to imagine the things they planned on doing. Maybe they'd try and jump us from behind, or do anything to embarrass the hell out of us. Or...

A hand on my shoulder jolted me out of my thoughts. I jumped slightly, turning my head to look into Soda's concerned eyes.

"You okay over there?" He asked, his tone laced with slight worry.

I couldn't help but smile at his question. It was just an effect he had over me.

"Yeah I'm fine, I just got lost in my head for a second." I wasn't lying technically... I just chose to not delve into my thoughts.

His once slightly frowned lips curved into his usual charming smirk. He draped an arm around my shoulder before pulling me close to him.

"You're always getting lost in that head of yours." He teased before giving me a peck on the forehead.

I looked across the table. Cherry looked at me with slight skepticism. She could see right through my excuse. Her stare made me nervous slightly; the glint in her fiery eyes could intimidate anyone.

"Why don't we head out to the Drive-in now, the sun looks like it's going to set real soon," Cherry spoke up concisely.

"Yeah, we should get goin'." I added.

Soda and Pony looked at us curiously but didn't object to our idea, thankfully. I had hopes that the socs across the way would mind their business. But this was Tusla, that hope I had was something I knew was never going to happen...

~~~ They followed us like I knew they would. But they surprisingly kept their distance when we got to the drive-in at first. But their subtlety didn't last long; they made their presence known not too long after the movie had started. They acted childishly at first, throwing popcorn and empty pop cups at Soda and I. But it wasn't too much of a bother. Well, to me at least, no matter how calm Soda usually is I could tell his collected state was slowly chipping away.

"Someone's asking to get their head ripped off." Soda muttered bitterly.

I flinched as I felt another piece of popcorn hit my head before I could speak. My annoyance was slowly growing at the childish antics the other socs were doing.

"Just try to ignore them, getting into a fight with them isn't worth it." I reply quietly, my hand reaching over to grasp his in hopes of calming him down.

"It might be worth it." Soda grumbled grumpily, his hand now squeezing mine a bit too tightly.

"Yeah, it might be worth it in the moment. But then you get this aftermath called hurricane Darry." I deadpan making Soda laugh.

"Yeah laugh it up now but don't say I didn't warn you when Darry locks you up in the house. The only way you'll be able to talk to me is through the screendoor." I joke.

Soda went to say something, but his sentence faltered as soon as another piece of popcorn hit his head. Any composure he had seemed to have crumbled away at that moment. He stood up with vigor, his eyes shot daggers at the group of socs behind us.

"Can you get lost already?" He snapped.

Well, so much for pretending like they didn't exsist.

They merely laugh at his anger clearly not taking him seriously. "Can you two stop being freaks of nature already?" One shouted trying to mimic Soda's tone from earlier.

I turned my head to eye them myself, my eyes deadly in their stare. "You're abhorrent." I spat out now standing up next to Soda.

The socs raised themselves up from their seats. A few shouts of protest could be heard from the people sitting behind us. I had a feeling this night wasn't going to have such a smooth ending.

"Oh just leave them alone, do you guys really have nothing better to do?" Cherry asked in a sharp tone now standing next to us.

"Don't you have better people you could be hanging out with? I will never understand why you hang out with these scum." Another one sneered.

"The only scum I'm lookin' at is standing right in front of me." She answered back with ease.

It always shocked me how easily Cherry could stand up to the people she once called her friends now. I still remember the beginning of her relationship with Pony. She didn't even utter a word when they began to taunt them. I was glad she eventually found her voice as time went on.

"Look just buzz off, okay? I don't think you want to end your night being humiliated," I say tensely.

"Who's going to humiliate us?" One of the socs says looking around the packed drive-in. He then points back at us with a faux stunned look on his face. "Wait is it you guys?"

"No shit," I answer back bluntly.

"Oh okay." The soc replies back nonchalantly. He looks around the drive-in again. Then suddenly a force hit me right in the chest making me fall down to the ground unceremoniously. The next few seconds honestly felt like a blur. One second I was on the ground and then the next I see Soda swinging as hard as he could at the soc's face. The soc held his jaw, it began to bruise almost immediately due to the strike. But he recovered quickly throwing a punch of his own.

"No no no." I rushed out as they began to break out into a fight. I grabbed at Soda attempting to pull him back. But it was kinda hard to do that when his friends jumped in. Ponyboy had been so quiet the whole night I had almost forgotten he was there. He too jumped in trying to separate the quickly escalating fight.

"That's it break it up!" A new voice shouted, my eyes followed the direction of the voice. It was one of the cops that stood at the entrance of the drive-in. They never really did their job very well, all they'd do was stand there and "make sure" no one drove home drunk. In reality, all they would really do is stare into your window for a few seconds before sending you on their way. Maybe they would do their job this time, and diffuse the situation.

That was a funny thought... it really was.

~~~ Having our night end with Sodapop in cuffs was not the way I wanted things to go. Out of everyone in the gang, Soda was the last person I would ever think to see getting hauled off to the cooler. But, I was living in that reality now. What made that said reality even worse was that one of us would have to tell Darry what happened.

Cherry had dropped us off at Pony's house before speeding off. Which was a smart decision on her part... I wouldn't want to be around to see our conversation unfold either. Ponyboy and I just stood at the front of their chain-linked contemplating what we were going to do.

"Look why don't you just climb through your bedroom window and hide while I run home for the night?" I say only half-joking. Ponyboy just gave me an unamused look before pretty much dragging me to the house. When we got in Darry was sitting in his armchair reading a newspaper. He was surprisingly the only one here so he was probably enjoying the rare moment of silence.

"Hey, you guys are back early." Darry greeted as soon as he looked up from the newspaper his expression twisted into confusion. "Where's Soda?"

He was met with complete silence at first, Pony and I stared nervously at one another.

"What's wrong with you two, you're acting like he got arrested or somethin'," Darry said with a laugh but his laughter died down slowly when we didn't respond again.

I looked over a Pony with a broken smile. "So, are you going to tell him, or should I?"

"You can go ahead," Ponyboy replied without hesitation as he sat down on the couch.

I turned back over to Darry whose face had completely lost any ounce of humor it once had.

"You're a really good guesser Dar," I say with a nervous laugh. "And I really hope you have bail money."

"What the hell did he do!?" Darry asked shooting up from his armchair as he spoke.

"He may or may not have gotten into a fight with a soc."

Darry was growing more and more irritated by the minute. He looked as though he didn't know how to function or how to react. "Oh for the love of-"

"But he didn't start it!" I added quickly.

Darry went to speak but he suddenly got tongue-tied and stammered for a bit before just giving up on talking and stalking off to his room. The house vibrated slightly as he slammed the door. I stood there awkwardly for a moment basking in the silence in the room.

"I think he took that well..."

~~~ Darry still seemed pretty pissed off the next morning. Any room or space he entered suddenly filled with tension. He hadn't uttered a single word today, which was rare for him. He must've been really mad if he couldn't even think of something to say still. I could feel the apprehension fill me as we made our way down to the police station. I didn't know if they'd buy our story or have an automatic bias when it came to us. Because let's face it, the socs will almost always have law enforcement on their side.

When Pony, Darry, and I walked into the jail an officer working there greeted us plainly.

"What can I help you with?" He asked half-heartily.

Darry cleared before speaking. "I'm here to post bail on Sodapop Curtis. He uh... got into an altercation last night."

The officer's face went from uninterested to smug in a matter of seconds. "Oh, he's the one who attacked that group of boys last night."

I guess those socs told a pretty inflated story...

"Umm, officer, I don't mean to be disrespectful here but he didn't just attack them. He was defending himself and me." I interject trying to stay composed.

"That's not what I heard last night sir." The officer answered back with a tinge of attitude.

"Well are the group of boys who accused Sodapop of this "attack" still here?"

"Of course not."

I gave Darry a fed-up look, he returned it with one of his own almost immediately.

"Officer, those group of boys had been harassing us all day yesterday. They were following us, throwing things at us, and then at the movies, they ended up shoving me down to the ground. Soda just defended me." I explained, the officer gave me a skeptical look.

"Really?" He asked, his eyebrow raised in suspicion.

"I have no reason to lie, sir. I couldn't tell you a single one of those boys' names not one of them." I admit as cooly as I could.

The officer's attention shifted from me to Ponyboy who seemed pretty nervous at the situation that was unfolding.

"Be honest kid, is he tellin' the truth?" The officer interrogated.

Ponyboy nodded almost immediately before speaking. "Yes sir, they started it, Soda just defended him when things got physical." Pony explained.

The officer sighed and just stared at us for a minute. He then got up suddenly and walked away without saying anything to us.

"I think he really likes us." I joke meekly.

"Sure he does," Darry replied, a small smirk threatened to expose itself on his lips.

~~~

I didn't really know how long we were waiting around in the police station. Nothing around me gave me a sure indicator of how much time had gone by. All I could really do was stand there in complete boredom not really knowing what was going on. But those feelings of boredom and uncertainty washed away once I saw Soda walking behind the officer. Soda seemed both relieved yet worried at the same time when he saw us.

"I'm lettin' you off the hook this one time Curtis. But if you pull a stunt like that again don't expect me to be so forgiving the next time around." The officer said gruffly.

Soda simply nodded in response before walking over to us.

I greeted him with a soft smile, it was tempting to pull him in for a kiss. But that wouldn't exactly go down very well in a police station. As soon as Darry finished signing Soda's release form we quickly left the police station.

"Not going to lie Soda, I was fully expecting our next conversation to take place with bars separating us." I joke before giving him a peck on his cheek. I wrapped an arm around his shoulder as we walked to Darry's truck.

Soda began to pepper my face with kissing making me giggle. "I missed you darlin'," He spoke in a lovesick tone between kisses.

"Well," Darry spoke up making us pull apart slightly. "You're gonna be missin' him a lot more. All you're going to be doing for the next 2 weeks is work and then you're coming right back to the house little brother."

"I told you he'd lock you inside the house," I said with a laugh once I saw how disappointed Soda looked.

"I gotta start listening to you more." Soda admitted glumly as we all got inside the truck.

"Yeah, you should," I replied teasingly.

As Darry began to drive back to the house I leaned my head on Soda's shoulder. He looked down at me fondly smiles curved our lips without us even realizing it. The feelings of content and happiness was all I could really focus on now.

Life with Soda is always a bit chaotic in some way, but I wouldn't change that in any way.

[homosexuality-at-its-finest]

Will you do a Steve Rogers x M!Reader? I think it'd be cool if Steve realizes he has an attraction men, but since he's from a different time. It'd be neat to see him think something is wrong with him, and the reader helps him come to terms with his sexuality (could it be set in the 40s too ^_^?)

A/n: Thank you for the request, it was fun to write! I wrote the internalized homophobia based on my own experiences with it, if anyone is experiencing that, just know that you are loved, valid and amazing and I am so proud of you.

Tags: @mack-thedork

Plot: Requested

Pairing: Pre serum Steve Rogers x Male reader

Y/n: Your name

L/n: Last name

E/c: Eye color

N/n: Nickname

Warnings: internalized homophobia, gay awakening, depiction of homophobia, arguing, Bucky’s a good friend, all the characters are gay tbh, cussing, mentions of death and war, hate crime, religion is mentioned a lot because it’s the 40’s, I don’t know shit about religion

Word count: 1820

Life had never been easy for Steven Grant Rogers; from the moment he was conceived all odds were put against him. He was born early, a plethora of health issues causing his already frail body to strain itself. His pops passed away overseas, fighting in the first world was. His ma had to raise him all alone, which couldn’t be easy with a son who got sick at a drop of a hat and had a habit of getting into back ally fights.

The small man was blessed with two things in life, and that was his two best friends, Bucky Barnes and Y/n L/n. The trio was thick as thieves, always having one another’s backs, no matter the situation.

On a number of occasions, the two bigger men had to pull Steve out of fights, either kicking the other men’s asses or getting them to back off by pure intimidation.

The two men were frightening, Bucky with pure muscle and height, and Y/n had an aura that just dared you to fuck with him. There was only once the two men had lost a fight, and what had happened that caused the fight was unknown to Steve.

Neither of the men spoke of it as the iced their aching bruises, Bucky looked livid, while Y/n just had this haunted and broken look shining in his E/c eyes.

Steve couldn’t describe the concern that swelled in his chest at seeing his friend look so defeated, he just wanted to wrap his feeble arms around the boy and make any of his worries disappear.

That had transpired a little over a year ago, and the times had changed. They were now living in a world where another world war was raging, fear a common thing to see lurking on people’s faces.

When his two best friends mentioned enlisting, he felt his stomach clench painfully, causing nausea to swell in his throat. All his mind could flash to was Y/n laying still in middle of an active battle zone, his eyes glazed over with the look of death.

He was worried about Bucky as well of course, but none in the same way. With Bucky it was like worrying about a brother, but with Y/n it was like worrying about a… like a lover. It was a realization that punched him in the gut, thoughts of disgust immediately swelling within him. The thoughts plagued him for weeks, the disgust in himself intensifying the more he thought about it.

Y/n was another man, the thought alone was not only a sin, but disgraceful. Never had Steve been so disgusted in himself. How could he feel that way about another man? He was a disgusting and sinful creature who would burn in hell just for thinking about Y/n in such a way.

He couldn’t imagine how his friends would react if they found out what he was feeling, they’d shun him without letting the small man defend himself. These thoughts were like a whirlwind, destroying everything in its path as Steve sunk deep into his thoughts. He didn’t notice as the man of his affections took a seat beside him, eyebrows pulled together in concern.

“Penny for your thoughts?” The familiar Brooklyn draw tore him from the self-deprecating thoughts, the blondes head snapping up in an instant. His heart seized in his chest, his mouth opening and closing for a few beats.

“Don’t worry, it’s nothing.” Steve assured, though his horrible lying didn’t fool the larger man for a second.

“C’mon Stevie, talk to me.” Y/n leaned closer, the familiar smell of his cheap cologne filling his senses.

“Where’s Bucky?” Steve changed the subject, eyes anywhere but the other man. The three shared an apartment, and he could instantly tell the brunette wasn’t there. He couldn’t hear him cursing like a sailor somewhere within the confines of wood and concrete.

“He picked up another shift at the docks, now stop stalling. What’s going on in that pretty head of yours?” Steve cursed silently at his body as his heart fluttered at the subtle compliment. Steve sat silently for a few moments, his eyebrows pulling together with frustration.

“What do you think about two men being together?” The question left his lips before he could stop it, cheeks flushing red with both embarrassment and horror. The other man let out a puff of air, leaning back against the rickety couch.

“I don’t see anything wrong with it.” He replied, taking a second to collect his thoughts. “If two fellas love each other, then they love each other. Gender be damned.” Y/n said this as if it was the simplest thing in the world, it baffled him.

“You don’t think it’s wrong or disgusting?” Steve cringed at how angry his voice sounded; he didn’t mean to project his anger onto his friend.

“Not at all Steven.” Oh, shit he said his full name, Y/n was either hurt or pissed. “Nothing wrong with loving who you love. Do you think it’s disgusting?” Despite his friends’ anger, Steve could pick up on the hesitance and insecurity in his voice.

Steve opened and closed his mouth once more, to baffled to come up with a response.

“Because if you do, hate to break it to ya Stevie.” The once endearing nickname was practically spat out. “You find one of your best friends disgusting.” At this point Y/n had stood up, face contorted with anger.

For a second Steve was shocked, and the stupidest question had to leave his lips. “Wait Y/n, do you like fellas?”

Y/n let out a sound of frustration, pinching the bridge of his nose as if to stave off a headache. “Yes Steve. I like fellas. Is that an issue?” Steve could read his friend like a book and could practically feel his anxiety.

“I…” Steve needed to collect his thoughts before he replied, he didn’t want to piss of the male even more. “I think I like fellas too.” His stomach twisted as he confessed, the disgust rolling through him once more.

In an instant his friend’s behavior changed, from being angry and defensive to concerned and comforting.

“Oh Stevie…” Two simple words and it brought all of Steve’s walls crumbling down, his figure curling in on itself.

“Am I gonna go to Hell N/n?” His voice was full of self-loathing and fear, but for a split second as he felt Y/n’s arm wrap around him protectively, those feelings didn’t seem as hard to bear.

“Absolutely not Steve, if anyone’s getting into Heaven, that’s gonna be you.” Y/n’s fingers ran over his clothed skin soothingly, causing the frail man to melt against him.

“If anyone is going to Hell, it’s the assholes who shame us, and make us scared to be ourselves, who hurt us for just existing.” Steve sniffled pathetically, looking up at his friend.

“Who hurt us?” He questioned, throat feeling tight with unshed tears. A soft sigh left the E/c eyed boys’ lips, face scrunching up into a look of pain.

“Remember last year when Buck and I came home looking like we got hit by a bus?” Steve made a sound to confirm he did in fact remember, seeing Y/n hurt like that made him sick to his stomach.

“Well Buck had taken me to a bar, specifically for people like us. Some guys had been there, and their intentions weren’t good Steve. Jumped us on the way home. Thought they were gonna kill us, honestly. If it wasn’t for Buck, I’d probably be dead.” He let out a humorless and bitter laugh, eyes full of unspeakable pain.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Steve questioned lightly, his hand going to the other man’s knee, giving it a comforting squeeze.

“Cause Buck took me there to try and get over you.” Another humorless laugh left his lips, making Steve’s heart clench. “Didn’t work either.” Y/n breathed out, as if it was an unbearable weight off his chest.

In a moment of bravery Steve spoke up. “What if I didn’t want you to get over me?” He had no idea when he became brave enough to speak those words out loud, or maybe he was in shock. It could be either at this point, honestly.

“Stevie don’t say that.” Y/n sounded almost winded, like he’d just ran a mile. “Why?” The question was simple, but God it had so many meanings to it. Why didn’t he tell Steve he liked him? Why was he trying to get over him? Why would he want him to keep his feelings hidden?

“Because you’re making it damn hard to be a gentleman.” Despite the serious tone of the conversation, Y/n’s voice still held some teasing elements.

“Then don’t be a gentleman.” Steve replied with a quirked eyebrow. Suddenly Y/n’s hands cupped his cheeks, making him look up at the male towering over him. The other man paused, as if offering for Steve to back out, to say he didn’t want this.

Instead, the blonde leaned up, pressing their lips together in an almost desperate kiss. Weeks of pent-up feelings flooded into the kiss, one of his bony hands reaching up to cup the side of Y/n’s neck.

Maybe he was going to hell, maybe he was a sinner who would never be forgiven; but to feel Y/n’s lips against his own it was like a sanctuary from himself. After weeks of being lost at sea, Y/n was the beaming hope of a light house, clearing his path for a safe way home.

Home, that’s what this felt like. That’s what being held against Y/n and being kissed as if it’d be their last felt like.

A small sound left his lips as the kiss was ended, his baby blue eyes fluttering open to look up at the E/c eyed man. A silent understanding passed between the two in their intimate moment, Y/n’s thumbs brushing soothingly against his cheek bones.

“I’ve been in love with you since we were kids, and God was the wait worth it.” A breathless laugh left Y/n’s lips, and Steve couldn’t help but join in on the laughter.

There was a war raging outside, and maybe they would be torn from each other, on other sides of the world or parted by death; but in this moment they allowed themselves to live in a blissful and ignorant bubble of happiness. In a world at war, you had to take these moments when you had it, and Steve wouldn’t waste it.

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