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[fireandspiceland]

*taps mic. clears throat.*

Arthur Mommykink Kirkland.

*crowd cheers.*

[deerixiie]

APPRECIATION POST!!

june 29th, or a little more that 6 months ago i posted my first fic. that was honestly the best decision of my life because tho tumblr is a hellsite it’s a hellsite that got me through a hellish year. i just want to come out and express my extreme gratitude for all of the people who have gotten me through 2020.

my followers. i remember when i first hit 100 and i was so excited bc 100 ppl in the world actually appreciated my writing enough to follow me...and then more of you guys started coming and sent sweet asks and suddenly i felt so loved 🥺 i didn’t expect to gain the following i did on this hellsite but i did and i love you guys so much :( thank u so much for being here through it all and making this year so much better!!

character anons/other anons; i know i don’t have much and not all of u are active but you!!! you guys are the bestest people on earth!!! shoyo, haji, yams, and all my noya anons,,, i love u guys sm. seeing you in my inbox made me so happy and i loved interacting w you 🥺💗 i hope you guys have an amazing new year and i hope you can talk more soon!! same goes for my other anons, 💜, 🍁, iara, and all the other anons that have send me asks, i love you guys so much!! getting anons and asks was something that made me feel so appreciated and important and seeing your asks always made my day!! ily guys <3

@sa-suga, @neonghxst, @sanso, @starrysamu, @stelleum, @myelocin, and a whole bunch of others writers; you are the most amazing people on the planet. writing on a site like this that gives little to no appreciation is so amazing of you :( your fics have made me smile, laugh, cry, and even grow as a person and i’m so grateful for that! bc of u i was able to distract myself from all the crappy things that happened this year. ily guys so much!

and now, my mutuals!!

@hajiimes; cola i will always always start with you. my closest friend, writing genius, someone i can bounce ideas off of, ask for help, watch movies with, voice call for hours with, and simp over characters with. getting close with you was one of the best things of this year and i really appreciate you for it. its really refreshing to have such a close friend i can really turn to and talk to about stuff that’s bothering me and i know i do it a lot and i’m a terrible friend sometimes but you’re always there for me :( and yeah we tease each other a lot and you’re honestly so annoying sometimes but yeah it’s fun and i love you so <3 STOP MAKING BREAKUP PLAYLISTS OKAY IM SORRY

@sugakuns + @suikazura + @kageyuji + @miyasangel + @giorvanna + @sophiawithstars + @hajiimes; i literally could not have gotten through 2020 without dinonet. it’s the first discord server and probably only discord server that i’ve really felt at home in because you all are so accepting and sweet. your support and love and kindness have gotten me past this year. i’ve been able to laugh and scream and vent and word vomit and be myself because of you all and i’m so appreciative of that. i cant wait for an entire new year with you all, ilysm!

@mehreya; you changed your url and i freaked tf out but ANYWAYS HEYYY~ rae i literally. i literally love you so much like. where would i be without you? you’re so welcoming and comforting and i love you so much :( if there’s anyone i’d share a deformed braincell with, it’s with you!! i feel like i can relate to you?? so much?? i literally keysmash in your inbox sending like 12 messages and i don’t have to worry about you getting upset because you do the same thing right back. we share really similar interests and you’re so compassionate and sweet and ugh i’m gna cry ily

@suikazura; bae i. how do i even say this. you’re literally the kindest, sexiest, funniest, loveliest person i’ve ever met. when i had a really bad day and broke down you were there to hype me up and tell me such wonderful things that i still think about all the time. you wrote a poem comparing me to the sun. ME?? THE SUN?? sui i don’t even know where to go with this ive never had someone do that for me and you doing that just makes me tear up and i’m tearing up writing this- and i love your humor so much despite the fact that it haunts me to this day and your art is so pretty and i could look at it for hours. like man i can’t believe someone like you exists i don’t deserve you at ALL. ilysm bubs

@cavalree; AZZIE WE HAVENT EVEN TALKED THAT MUCH BUT OUR CONVERSATION YESTERDAY WAS >>> THIS IS ME SAYING WE SHOULD TALK MORE WE HAVE A LOT IN COMMON

@fairyoomi + @luvromis + @rilacry; we’ve been moots for So Long but i have no idea what to talk about w u so i get intimidated and don’t talk :( ily guys so much though, you’re really sweet and kind and your humor is literally top tier. this is so weird to say but reading ur self-ship posts makes me so happy bc i feel like i can be open about my self-ship too,, it rlly comforts me and makes me feel loved hehe. i miss talking to u guys even though it was barely anything and i rlly hope 2021 is the year we get closer!!

@sophiashortcake + @star-puff + @kurooskult; we’ve recently become mutuals but i love your vibes!! i really hope i get to interact with you more next year so we can become closer <3

@bunx; BIG SIS!! literally i feel so bad for not talking to u because you’re literally the blueprint :( i just don’t know what to talk about and then get all freaked out XBSKSJD i’ve stared at your disc so many times debating what to say cbsjs but anyway thank you so much for being here from the beginning! i know for a fact ill wouldnt be where i am today w/out u 🥺 ilysm bubs

other moots that made this year so much more beautiful i want to get closer too!: @haikoo, @4fterh0urs, @run-004, @sugasugawarau, @s4ijoh, @gg9183, @baeshijima 🥺💗💗, @kozu-mei , @kaguol ily all so so much, you all are such amazing ppl and i hope we get to talk more!!

[sword-of-summer]

All of them answer every question fuck you

ahahaha no i respectfully deny your "fuck you" and i accept the ask and so-

i am 5'10", and i don't wish to be taller or shorter- i am the perfect height for hugs and messy hair, and yep, i like it here-

dream pet would be a mix of golden retriver and a husky called Holly and a chonky cat called Loki- yes ofcourse my future kids have names everyone should name their future pets-

ripped jeans/black pants with a Darth Vader tshirt or a Ethnic Fusion Kurta with black sneakers/artificial leather slip-ons, and if it's cold, a black jacket open obviously- and a black wristwatch i love my black wristwatch.

favourite video game was Clash of Clans and going even back, GTA Vice City and, the og- MARIIOOOO

three things/people are Oreos, Nutella and Pizza. The Holy Trinity-

"Beware me my fingers are smeared with chicken popcorn grease"

you didn't mention an opinion, @chunkybirb, so imma give my opinion on Vanilla ice cream and Nutella- ANYONE WHO HADN'T COMBINED THESE TWO COMBINE THESE TWO THEY ARE FUCKING AWESOME

im either phlegmatic or melancholic bruh idk maybe ik or maybe not

im v v v v ticklish

not an allergy, but an intense hatred for ketchup- i vomit if it gets too close to me fuck you ketchup

im heterosexual

any between tea and coffee but full milk coffee (ik, kill me), never had cocoa- but i love a chocolate or nutella milkshake

both. both is good. (cat and dog)

i would be an elf cause hell yeah, knowledge and wisdom

favourite youtuber is Samay Raina, a stand up comedian turned youtuber who is just awesome-

as i mentioned in 1., i am 5'10"

i would not change my name cause it's the coolest fucking name ever, i am Tanay, and Tanay in Hindi means Son, and my parents literally named their son Son, and hell yeah i like it

i forgot how much i weigh- last i checked it was 75 kilos, but ive gained weight since 2019 so yep, gotta walk in the mornings

yes i believe in metaphysicality cause one- it seems cool- second- me and @theclassyghost discussed a metaphysical life theory that i really really like and metaphysicality gives preservation of knowledge so i believe in spirits

SPACE. SPACE. SPACE.

im not that religious, no

pet peeves no well nah not really

nocturnal def nocturnal i sleep at 4.50 anyway hehehehe

fav constellation is Cassiopeia

fav star is Sirius tho

what the fuck are ball jointed dolls

i do have a fear of losing people that's just anxiety i guess

yep, global warming is real

never thought that much about reincarnation tbh but maybe, i do

fav movie is Spider Man : Into The SpiderVerse and Inception and The Dark Knight Rises and Revenge of The Sith and yes, for my indian gang, 3 Idiots and Gully Boy

yep i get scared v v v easily

i have had no pets but i plan to once i grow up

@chunkybirb 's blog is fucking cool awesome and *chef's kiss* a masterpiece

blue calms me. i love blue.

live in Norway cause pretty lights, snow, and less people than this overpopulated country i am in

born in Mumbai, India

v v v dark brown like it's almost black but no it's dark brown

introvert

horoscopes and zodiacs, i do read them, never believed that much tbh-

HUGS I LOVE HUGS

i really wanna visit my brother i haven't met him in a long time i really wanna play cricket w him just like old times

my sister- she's annoying but well i care for her

nah

tattoos idk bruh im okay idk may get one or may not get one

nope, smoking is ewwww *vomits*

ah my crush- she's cool [ if she exists

when the chalk doesn't write on the board but goes iiiiiieeee I HATE THAT

a sound i love is rain pitter pattering i just hhhhhh sends me into happiness

nope fatass here

nope fatass here

favourite actors have to be eddie redmayne, oscar issac and pedro pascal- and margot robbie and winona ryder in the actresses section also yes, elliot page

bruh already answered in 30.

im okayish!! spotify and tumblr, cool combo-

my hair are okay being black for me

yesterday, monday, from 6.40 to 6.50

music

uhhh naah not that i know of

well in Rick Riordan's Magnus Chase books, the sword of Frey aka Sumarbrander TALKS and demands to be called Jack, so here i am

bakwaas, music and comfy

yep, i believe in evolution

unfollow on hate and when they dm me sending nsfw pics ugh why are people like that

follow, well, i like people and they seem cool, so i follow them

fav kind of person is the one who'll sit with me for hours not even talking and just vibing to music

fav animals are beavers, doggos and cats

three fav blogs are @chunkybirb, @theclassyghost, @little-boats-on-a-lake, @aredhel-of-gondolin, @sue-me-imbadass, @alleenkaas, @my-ackerman, @brrrrrrrrrrzone

fav emoticon has to be ☹ this me seeing my stupidity outrank others

fav meme has to be Butternut is a master of psychological manipulation

INTP

Libraaa let's go

no dog, i have

black darth vader tshirt, black pants, black sneakers and black wrist watch

i have no selfies my phone has no cameras i live in eternal darkness

what the fuck are platform shoes

i, uhhh, i remember weird things like what i drew in class in 3rd while i was supposed to be doing english

lazy ass here, no front flips possible

i like birds they fly

nope i don't Iike swimming i like blankets

wrapped up in blankets reading books sounds better than both

ketchup

hyperspace travel

nope none

reading writing eating sleeping

my friend

tumblr seems cool

i have around 60-70 idk

yes i can run but why

yes they do but what's the fun in that

nope I'd fall over

sapphire let's go

koala bear or panda

sunflower or the one on a lemon tree

ketchup store

one cup of coffee is enough, tysm

read minds that sounds cool cool yeaaahh

nope never wore it a black clothes guy here BatMan

winter winter all year long

i don't know and i don't wanna try

i don't know and i don't wanna know

everyone cause they are better than me

bookstores cause bookstores any bookstores

sneakers, black onez

apparently some gas bitches mixed up to form a planet

non vegetarian but i partake meat just twice or thrice in two weeks

i don't know they don't seem like liking

naaaaaaaah

bugs ew

spiders ew

about the fact that i come off as arrogant and overconfident while in reality it's just that my communication skills suck

i can draw averagely whenever im in a mood

this thing im answering but i like answering it

uhhhhhhh brain freeze- idk bruh questions are good they give knowledge

yep, while sleeping

ahh yes calming, they are

cloudy days cause fucking cool vibes

hehehe wouldn't you like to know, weatherboy

CumuloNimbus i really like it's name yknow nimBUS

dark blue, dark blue always or black

naaaah no freckles

fav thing is when they laugh and it's just happy and we're both laughing like shitheads but who cares we're rebelling against depressing life and we laugh

both. both is good [ fruits and vegetables

sleep but i have to answer 170 questions cause @chunkybirb

sky sky sky it's my blog's header duh uh sKy

sweet and sour candy. SWEET AND SOUR CANDY.

dim lights it makes me feel cool

ahhh so here we go- Mooncalfs, Thunderbirds, Phoenixes, Sphinxes, Dragons that seem to be Space Nebulae, and more and more and more

i really feel like a boomer sometimes

i love everything about this site/app it makes me feel happy cause i like the people and the posts

uhhhhh i think too much about everything cause i just do. i like thinking

"He's dead, guys. For the sake of The Force, please watch Star Wars now he wanted to discuss it with you" actually no i would just say "A big shoutout to Garlic Bread he loved Garlic Bread"

myself cause i should be sleeping but sleep is for the weak and i am the weak and the strong i am a paradox-

that i obsess too much on things and try involving people it never works out

nope. had braces for 4 years, that beat out teeth showing smiles

i prefer computer-tv ahahahahaha

never tried them, so IDK

naaaaah not motion sickness- never travelled by sea so idk seasickness

lobed ears

yep i believe that deeds do count in life and beyond

idk bruh i don't believe in physical attraction too much- bodies are fake- mentally/metaphysically tho, im a 7

ahhhhh many many Stupid Genius, Tani, Tanu, Tanya

i still do-

i really want to talk to a therapist. converse. and discover.

im both, i am both.

10:1 is the ratio- giving 10, receiving 1

uhhh nothing just when i am right and people use the old "disrespect" argument

3, Hindi, Marathi, English

girls

uhh no i am not

my hair i love them everyone says things about my hair but i love them

knowledge vibes i give, someone tells me- and that's all i ever wanted

anyone i know tbh, my mutuals, my friends, my discord friends

ahhh no i wouldn't but i wish i was born 20 years earlier

bleh bloo, neither like nor dislike

i don't know if i have one

i don't know, haven't had physical contact in a long long long time in a galaxy far far away

the above point stands but i would like to ig

anything i write, 3 hours later, i instantly hate just idk why

anything i write

that i am normal no i am not and i am not okay hahahahaha

65-70 ish people

somewhere around-

many many many don't ask please but okay if you do ask

somewhat

uhhhhh idr exactly but i won't tell in public duh uh

mediummm hairrrr

last year lockdown i became harry potter

i don't know buddy i seriously don't know

yep i do cause knowledge i like knowledge

naaah never tried

no i definitely cannot stand on my hands or my head for more than 30 seconds

yep, im pretty sure i answered most of them correctly-

og link-

[heavenlycreatures]

(since you asked for people to vent about their crushes) i have such a crush on my friend and i've never had a crush on someone for so long without telling them and i REALLY want to but i also hate long distance relationships and bc of covid it would be like that ANYWAY they're so interesting and they laugh at my jokes when we are in discord group calls together even when nobody else does and oh my god yesterday i was scrolling back through my photo gallery and i found a video of us in september 2018 and theres this one part where the cameras a little too close to them and they're like leaning into me and looking up at the camera and i nearly melted watching that again like how did i not just fall right then and there how did it take me so long to realize i like them ?? i'm about 80% sure they like me too, bc sometimes they say things that are like. very flirty. and i don't think that's how they act around other friends. like one time they sent me a bubbline fanart (we often compare ourselves to them) and bubblegum was kissing the top of marcelines head or something, idk it was a few days ago and my memory is dying with every passing day, anyway i was like "i wish I had a gf to kiss the top of their head" and they were like "i'm right here smh" and i may have shortcircuited a little bit but yeah they always seem to enjoy when i increase the levels of flirtiness in my texts so yes anyway they're also really interesting and i think i might've said that earlier but they really are and they like so many cool things and appreciate the beauty in everything and their opinions on important things like morals and politics are just chefs kiss mwah!! they're romantic in the perfect way and they're so funny when they actually speak up and they're often quiet which isn't a bad thing i love quieter people bc i have really bad social anxiety and my last two partners have both been loud extroverts who often drew attention in public which was not fun. but yeah i remember when me and my crush used to see each other every day back in pre-march 2020 there were lots of comfortable silences i love that they can sit in silence with me and it isn't uncomfy. i wish i hadn't taken all that time together for granted. they're so thoughtful. their mind is wonderful. everytime i remember they're non-binary i just !!!!!!! YES me too ugh our minds

aaaah the way you talk about ur crush is just so so cute, they sound very wonderful indeed!! i got so happy reading this message, crushing on someone is a very exciting feeling ^^ this person rly seems to have a positive impact on your life c: also the fact that you compare yourselves to bubbline is so sweet ;u; in my opinion you should definitely tell them how you feel at some point! i know it can be scary but honestly what do you have to lose? :’) and by your description i very much think they could have some romantic feelingz for u too ! ldr relationships can be quite tough (i’m in one currently) but they are still manageable and me and my boyfriend talk lots on discord when we can’t see each other for longer periods of time. so i wouldn’t let the dislike for being in a long distance relationship keep you from confessing your feelings, things may work out fine in the end :+) i’m rooting for you and wishing you all the best! xx (if you ever tell them, you can always come to gush about it to me haha! <3 i’m such a sucker for all kinds of romantic stuff i know :p) tell me about yr crush/lover on anon!!

[callmehopeless]

I also wanted to say, I hope you're okay after that whole RP server mess. It broke my heart reading that people were coming at you so horribly for trying to fix something that obviously needed to be fix - and that you're getting hate mail for it !?! Ugh you do not deserve that kind of treatment at all, I hope you're okay my dear and pls let me know if I can do anything to help you ♥️

Thank you my dear, kind friend <3

I’ll put a bunch of this under the cut, because I’m happy to talk about it, but I go into detail here about some of the stuff I’ve been sent and it’s not fucking pretty, like, at all:

It was such a messy experience from start to finish, and I completely, genuinely understand how stressful and upsetting it was for everyone involved. Finding out the people you care about are doing shitty things is hard to accept - and losing a space that you care about and makes you feel safe? That’s tough, too. I’m not angry at anyone for being hurt by losing something they cared about.

But how it has been dealt with, across the board, has been pretty fucking wild. And receiving such vitriolic messages over it just demonstrates to me that this was the right decision - that there were a bunch of people present in that community who were creating an environment that was too hostile to be repaired, and had already caused too much grief and toxicity to flourish for any number of people to fix.

Obviously, it’s a heartbreaking thing. It’ll be heartbreaking for a while. But I also know I’ve gotten the shortest end of the stick I could’ve gotten, and people coming after me is really just a testimony to the issues that we, as a community, need to come together and consider and try to fix.

I’ve been called things ranging from a toxic narcissist, to a bitch, to a bully, to a control freak, to a sociopath, to a pathetic little loser, to someone with a God complex, to a “manipulative ps*cho (nice ableism)”, to an unfeeling cunt. I’ve been blamed for singlehandedly destroying the RP community (odd, considering new servers are already popping up, but whatever man), and I’ve been accused of doing all of this to boost my inflated ego, which is fucking wild. I’ve got a pretty tough skin, but I’ll admit it - I had a pretty big cry before dinner yesterday reading through it all and feeling like I was drowning.

I don’t expect I’ll get many apologies over this, and I think I’ve got to accept that for a few days, people are going to just keep coming here to spew their anger and hate at me. And I’ll probably never get a resolution to any of that. I think I can cope with it. I think. It’s just exhausting and hard work - knowing I’m trying to do the right thing, trying to be a good person and advocate, and feeling like I’m sinking in mud.

I’m so, so appreciative to the vast majority of this community for being so supportive and great about it all. For starting up new servers, and for trying to hold me up when I feel like I’m sinking.

I hope, eventually, I can be in this space and feel safe and comfortable, and not be looking over my shoulder 24/7, or getting like, a physically icy feeling when I get a Discord message. Seeing I’ve got a new Tumblr inbox actually makes my stomach flip the fuck over. I woke up last night from a nightmare about all of this, and went to sleep again to find it just replaying in my head.

But I’m accepting for now, that’s kind of gonna be how it is. And I can either decide to close it all and step away, or just keep on doing what I’ve always done. 

But I think the good I’m putting out is worth defending. And I think I’m worth me defending, too. So I’m gonna plant my feet, write my fics, and remember that this, too, will pass.

All things end in time. :)

As an addendum: if anyone wants to discuss this, I am absolutely open to PMs or the like. It won’t upset me if people want a space to talk, to discuss, or to understand. A lot of people have a lot of feelings, and a lot they want to say. If anyone wants to have a genuine conversation about it - I’m totally open with that. I always have been. If it would help people gain closure to make their feelings heard in a compassionate way - I’m here to talk. :)

[if-the-crown-fits-translate-it]

Discord pt 93

[Date: 18/03, 05:45 PM GMT - 18/03, 06:29 PM GMT]

[Prior to the below conversation, Maxwell and the people from the server were discussing how the liquid from the cut-off bud from the previous day appears to be red to Maxwell, yet it had appeared as white in color to Marcus and the others after the bud was cut. The bud was also fairly large, about half the size of Maxwell’s thumb, and may have been one of the calendula marigolds, not the freesias. The flower petals can be around like a normal petal, but they’re still metal. The bud hadn’t wilted]

Maxwell: “so....

whats this about”

|[Little-K1ng: “I wish I hadn’t snapped at fetch like that… maybe when he comes back I can give him a proper apology”

Maxwell: “hm perhaps that would be good

family should get along”]|

Marcus: “.....

..we didn't want to worry you”

Jack the Observer: “that was the spoilered image from yesterday afternoon. Mona decided it would be beneficial not to let you know.

you know. seeing as it was rather uncharacteristic.”

donti (e): “... yea”

Marcus: “...seeing as you had already spoken ender”

Maxwell: “i...i dont remember saying that”

Jack the Observer: “i doubt it was actually you who said it.

much more likely it was some partial incarnation of Page.”

Marcus: “....it didn't sound like you”

Maxwell: “the fuck do you mean it didnt sound like me

I....”

Marcus: “i mean it didn't sound like you, Max”

Maxwell: “why didnt you tell me!”

Marcus: “we didn't want to worry you!”

Maxwell: “want me to worry?! about what! that Im gonna end up back with crown even if I dont wanna be! I already know that!”

donti (e): “heey hey they.. didnt want to worry you

everything else was already stressful..”

Marcus: “...”

Jack the Observer: “donti.

your goody goody nice-talk is not helpful here.”

Marcus: “max”

donti (e): “... alright.”

Marcus: “im sorry”

Maxwell: “.....

look i just

i hate being treated like a child

i mean

Its like the whole circlet argument all over again!”

Marcus: “....the

max?”

Maxwell: “what”

Marcus: “how do you

how do you know about that argument”

Maxwell: “I DONT KNOW OKAY”

Marcus: “max what else do you remember”

Maxwell: “IVE-- ive been remembering random things while forgetting others i cant tell anymore”

Marcus: “......

why didn't you... tell us?

how long”

Maxwell: “I just thought they were dreams or nightmares

i dont know....ever since the trial maybe?”

Marcus: “..

max”

Maxwell: “what...”

Marcus: “i'm sorry”

Maxwell: “FOR WHAT WHY CANT YOU JUST TELL ME”

Marcus: “everything

for everything okay!

i'm sorry we didn't tell you about the voice thing last night

i'm sorry fetch tried to lie about the buds in your hair!

i'm sorry that you and i got into that stupid argument and that we had to leave our family because i wouldnt tell you something!”

Maxwell: “I hate this....why does everyhting think they have to keep things from me”

Marcus: “I'm sorry”

Maxwell: “I aint a god damn kid....i havent been for a while....”

Marcus: “I know that Max

I know”

Maxwell: “.....you....”

Marcus: “....”

Maxwell: “marcus

stand in the light for a sec”

Marcus: “im sorry

what?”

Maxwell: “please please just stand in the sunlight for a moment”

Marcus: “max..?”

Maxwell: “.....I think I know why you've been so tired....”

Marcus: “stress?”

Maxwell: “no...

i...im sorry me getting made probably brought it on im so fucking sorry--”

Marcus: “..max?”

Maxwell: “the leaves”

Marcus: “the what”

Jack the Observer: “huh.

marcus is also growing a wreath.”

Maxwell: “the leaves have sprouted”

disks and the color red |Stars: “thats unfortunate”

Maxwell: “im sorry im sorry im so fucking sorry”

Jack the Observer: “interesting”

LLyr: “max, this isnt your fault”

Marcus: “i...”

donti (e): “heeeyy thats kinda rude guysss”

Marcus: “max why would this be your fault”

LLyr: “there’s no way you could have prevented or made this happen”

Jack the Observer: “[i whisper to dave] i wonder how much it will effect him, considering the circlet did little to nothing”

Maxwell: “but it happened after we started arguing after I upset you im so fucking sorry oh my god”

[donti (e): “heeeyy thats kinda rude guysss”]

LLyr: “thats just how they are :3″

emuhlee: “this isn't very pleasant :(”

donti (e): “yea.”

Marcus: “max it isn't your fault”

Maxwell: “but arent you in pain?!”

Marcus: “um

not..really?”

Jack the Observer: “well. it makes sense that the "happiness wreaths" grow off of negative emotions.”

Maxwell: “......what...”

Marcus: “i didn't even notice it happened”

Maxwell: “you...how--

syd screamed in pain I had headaches for days and even fetch is hurting...”

Marcus: “i dont... i don't know max

i don't have answers”

Jack the Observer: “oh, you're only partially immune”

Marcus: “immune???”

Jack the Observer: “should've guessed – you still lost your memories after all.”

Raeva: “It could be because you've spent much more time with Crown than the rest of them”

Jack the Observer: “the circlet only worked partially. of course this wreath only works partially as well.”

[Jack the Observer: “[i whisper to dave] i wonder how much it will effect him, considering the circlet did little to nothing”]

disks and the color red |Stars: “dunno. i still think he wont go with the rest of them though [he whispers back]”

Marcus: “.........”

Jack the Observer: “if that were the case, the circlets should have less effect on Prince and Baron as well

not to mention Countess.”

Marcus: “....oh that's your assumption...”

donti (e): “... they didnt need the laurels though”

Maxwell: “hm...”

Jack the Observer: “based on historical evidence, i would guess that Crown effects you less, in particular”

Marcus: “max...

max what are you humming?”

donti (e): “uh

Jack the Observer : “if you're taken again, remember morse code :)”

Maxwell: “....what...”

donti (e): “... didnt crown figure out the morse code?”

Marcus: “..hm..hm...”

donti (e): “he used it in an ask of his own?”

Raeva: “Now you're both humming?”

Marcus: “max how do you know that tune?”

Marcus: “you've never...

max?”

Maxwell: “......know that I'm with you the only way that I can.....”

Marcus: “....Until you're in my arms again....”

disks and the color red |Stars: “...interesting”

Maxwell: “.....remember me.....”

Marcus: “.....max”

Maxwell: “.....i dont know....

i cant tell whats my memories and whats....his”

Marcus: “....sometimes I can't either”

Maxwell: “I hate it....it hurts...”

Marcus: “...I'm sorry”

Maxwell: “its not you...I'm....Im happy I met you guys...”

Marcus: “i'm glad i met you too..”

Baroness: “Hello Page and Viscount. :)”

Marcus: “the real you”

Maxwell: “ugh god, fuck off baroness...”

Marcus: “what the fuck are you doing in here”

Maxwell: “we aint in the mood”

Maxwell: “okay wait how the fuck did you get into the god damn house”

Baroness: “I just thought I'd come by and see how things were growing. It looks like we're becoming a family again. :)”

[Maxwell: “okay wait how the fuck did you get into the god damn house”]

Baroness: “Hmm, i think the door was unlocked. Funny that. :)”

Maxwell: “what”

Maxwell: “oh....mona left it unlocked in case fetch came back...”

Marcus: “......”

emuhlee: “.... :(”

Baroness: “So, it looks like you're starting to bloom Viscount. Are you excited? :)”

Marcus: “.......”

Maxwell: “leave him alone you piece of shit

or else ill be the one biting at you”

Marcus: “..max”

Maxwell: “STOP CALLING HIM THAT”

Baroness: “Calling him what? his name? tell me, do you feel more like a Page or a Maxwell right now?”

Maxwell: “maxwell you dumb bitch”

Marcus: “.......”

Baroness: “Alright. I'm sure that will change soon. :)”

Marcus: “Pa- max don't antagonize her, please”

Maxwell: “you piece of shit you do anything to my family [deleted shortly afterwards] friends AND ILL KILL YOU”

donti (e): “heeey maxx chill

we should.. not do anything.. we will regret

haha

hi baroness”

Marcus: “...”

Baroness: “I'm not doing anything.

The bloom will happen and spring will come.

You can't stop the changing of the seasons. :)

donti (e): “very poetic.. thank you”

Baroness: “I'm just here to tend to the flowers. :)”

LLyr: “i mean with that logic winter will come eventually, won’t it?”

Maxwell: “no BUT I CAN SHOVE MY FIST DOWN YOUR THROAT”

Marcus: “Page- Max please stop yelling”

Maxwell: “.....”

donti (e): “hEYyyyYYYYyyyyyyyy heeeyyy everyone caaaallllmmmmm dooownnnn no need to yell”

[Maxwell: “no BUT I CAN SHOVE MY FIST DOWN YOUR THROAT”]

Baroness: “Page, Page, Page. Is that any way to speak to your family?”

Maxwell: “YOU AINT MY FAMILY YOU PIECE OF SHIT”

Void: “for someone so concerned with a happy family baroness is awfully good at sowing discord and unhappiness”

donti (e): “heyy heyy no need for sniping comments”

Marcus: “..not the time for puns, donti”

[Void: “for someone so concerned with a happy family baroness is awfully good at sowing discord and unhappiness”’

Baroness: “Sometimes you have to snip a few weeds for beautiful flowers to grow. :)”

Void: “hm. don't like that.”

[Maxwell: “YOU AINT MY FAMILY YOU PIECE OF SHIT]

Baroness: “:)”

Marcus: “.....”

[shadedrose01]

Maybe There's a Reason (To Believe You'll Be Okay)

Relationships: Harley Keener & Tony Stark (platonic), Harley Keener/Peter Parker (at the end)

Summary: Harley has a crisis, and Tony helps him through it (with a hint of parkner at the end).

Tags: Remix, Parkner Remix Event, Even though its barely parkner whoops, Emails, Letters, Phone Calls & Telephones, Tony Stark Acting as Harley Keener's Parental Figure, Sexual Identity, Identity Issues, Coming Out, Kinda?, Sexuality, Gay Harley Keener, Crushes, Harley Keener Needs a Hug, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Acceptance, Self-Acceptance, Love, Parental Love, Tony Stark is Good With Kids, tony stark is a dad, why is that not a tag, Parkner is only at the end, for like a paragraph, Just so yall know :)

For the Parkner Discord Remix Event!!

A remix of @official-impravidus ' fic "Sincerely, Me" (which you can read here!)

This is longer, so ao3 link is here!

Hope you all enjoy! Love you lexie!!

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Wednesday, May 8, 2013, 1:24PM 

From: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

To: tes@starkindustries.com

Subject: Relationships and Mark V

I don't understand dating. Like, my friend Bryan started dating Rachel today, and that's fine, whatever, but I just don't get it. All they did was hold hands and kiss each other all day. Is that all a relationship is? What even is the point of it? I mean, I know humans are animals and our instincts give us our need to reproduce so we need to find a viable mate and all that stuff, but why do you need to always be together, and hold hands, and do all of that gross stuff too?

Either way, I finally got around to building a mark V for my potato gun! It's just a few upgrades up from the mark IV, for faster shots and farther range, but I think it'll be cool once it's done. 

I hope your day is going okay.

-Harley

 

~~~

 

Wednesday, May 8, 2013, 10:43PM 

From: tes@starkindustries.com

To: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

Subject: Re: Relationships and Mark V

Relationships are complex, and complicated. Humans are born to reproduce, yes, but dating, and finding a partner is more than that. It's finding someone you're compatible with, who can be there at your best and at your worst, and a bunch of other deep seeded emotions that are hard to explain.

You don't need to worry about that now, though. You'll understand more when you're older, anyways, so I wouldn't worry about it.

My day has been good. More of a lazy day today, Pepper and I ordered some take out and watched movies in our pjs. I didn't have my phone on me per Peppers request, or I would have answered sooner.

As for the Mark V, the updates sound good. Keep me posted, kid.

  -The Mechanic

 

~~~

 

Monday, September 8, 2014, 4:57PM 

From: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

To: tes@starkindustries.com

Subject: Middle School!!

I started middle school today!! And honestly? It wasn't as exciting as I thought it was gonna be. I knew that movies and tv shows oversell the wow factor of middle school and high school but I didn't think it'd be this dull. I'm still in the same class, with all the same classmates, and my classes are still crazy easy. I had hoped that the increase in grade would make it even a little bit harder, but I knew everything on the outline they gave out before the teachers even started teaching!! It's bonkers!

Apparently this middle school also has a STEM, or "gifted" kid program for kids like me though, so hopefully that'll be harder. I'm still gonna be so bored in my normal classes though. Ugh.

I have the STEM classes tomorrow, so I'll tell you how it goes. I know you've been stuck in those awful meetings lately, but I hope your day is going better than mine.

  -Harley

 

~~~

 

Tuesday, September 9, 2014, 5:04PM

From: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

To: tes@starkindustries.com

Subject: STEM Program

I had my STEM class day today, and it went a lot better than yesterday did! My teachers are all super nice, especially my math teacher, Mr. Trevor. He immediately starting teaching today, which was awesome, because all of my other normal teachers had a Ice Breaker class first (which I hate, we all already know each other, why do we have to say our names and something about ourselves??), but he just went right into it, and started teaching us trigonometry. I haven't learned any of it before, and I'm super excited to dig into it and find out how it works. It's seeming pretty simple so far, just formulas and using calculators right.

The only bummer is the class I got put with. They all seemed to click and get along well together, but none of them really talked to me much. I don't mind though. I'm more focused on my education anyways.

Also! I saw that Captain America and Black Widow took down SHIELD's headquarters on the news. What was that about? Do you know?? Apparently they leaked files too or something???

I hope everything is okay.

  -Harley

 

~~~

 

Friday, September 12, 2014, 10:27AM 

From: tes@starkindustries.com

To: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

Subject: Re: STEM Program

Hey kid. Sorry for the late response, things have been hectic here, as you probably know. It's been a PR nightmare, with the whole "Cap took SHIELD down" fiasco. I can't say more than that though. Legal things, NDAs, you know how it is.

I'm glad the STEM classes are testing your abilities more. I know the regular classes can be boring for someone of your intellect, but try to enjoy them while they last, okay? Soon you'll be an adult, and doing adult things, and trust me, it isn't as fun as they make it out to be in the movies either.

Don't worry about those kids too. Give it time, they'll come around.

  -The Mechanic

 

~~~

 

Friday, September 26, 2014, 9:02PM

From: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

To: tes@starkindustries.com

Subject: Update?

Hi. Just emailed to give an update on me. Everything's been pretty normal, I guess. Abbie's loving elementary school, her teacher, Mrs. Millar, is really nice. I did my trig test today, and I think I did well. Mama's working late again tonight, but that's just normal at this point too.

Have you ever, I dunno. Felt like you were weird? Or strange, or broken? Like, all of your friends are one way, and doing some things, but you aren't, and everyone looks at you weird, and treats you differently?

I don't know. I don't know where I'm going with this. I just feel off tonight. Think I'm going to go to bed early.

I'm sorry.

  -Harley

 

~~~

 

Friday, September 26, 2014, 9:48PM 

From: tes@starkindustries.com

To: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

Subject: Re: Update?

 

You don't need to apologize, kid. You did nothing wrong.

I used to feel like that, quite frequently if I'm being honest. When I first went to MIT, I felt weird. I stuck out like a sore thumb, and had people talk about me behind my back because of how young I was. But then I met Rhodey, and things got better.

And then Afghanistan happened. And the invasion. Let me tell you kid, I've never felt more broken and alone after that. I had panic attacks, as you know, but I also struggled with a lot of paranoia. Lack of sleeping or eating properly, mixed with trauma does that to you. I was a wreck, and I was so certain I couldn't be fixed. That I'd be like that forever.

And to an extent, I will be. I'll always struggle with it, but it's much, much better now than it used to be. I went to therapy, talking about my feelings, which sucked ass (don't tell your mom I said that), and learned mechanisms to help myself. Learned breathing techniques, practiced meditation, focused more on self care, and now I'm doing so much better.

So, moral of this long, way too personal story. You aren't broken, kid. Whatever is going on, whether it's similar to me or not (I hope not), it'll be okay. You will be okay. Things will work out. And don't worry about what other people think. Focus on yourself, and do what makes you happy, no matter what.

I'm always here if you need to talk, Harley. I might not be much help, or be very good at this whole hormonal preteen emotions thing yet, but I can try.

I'm glad things are going okay outside of that though. I'm glad your sister's settling in well, and I'm sure you aced your test. You're a smart kid.

Goodnight.

  -Tony

 

~~~

 

Tuesday, October 7th, 2014, 3:38PM

From: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

To: tes@starkindustries.com

Subject: Call

Hey, can we call? I know you're probably busy, and we don't normally do that but I'm kinda freaking out about something and I don't know who else to talk to. My number is (___)  ___-____

  -Harley

 

~~

 

Tuesday, October 7th, 2014, 3:41PM

From: countryroadstakemehometotennessee@gmail.com

To: tes@starkindustries.com

Subject: Re: Call

Nevermind, ignore that last email. I was being overdramatic, and stupid. I'm fine, everything is okay.

Sorry for bothering you.

  -Harley

 

---

 

He didn't expect anything from the emails. He assumed the older man would've read his last email, and shrugged it off, pretending the previous didn't exist like Harley longed for him too. As he said, he was being dumb. It didn't matter that his heart was pounding, that his brain was screaming at him that he was a freak, and dirty, and so so so wrong , that he was shaking like a leaf and on the verge of tears. It didn't matter. It was stupid. It didn't matter.

He didn't expect that Tony would actually still call him.

He stares at his vibrating cell phone through teary eyes, blurry vision, the number unknown but he knows who it is, knows it because nobody else calls, because when his friends call, they call the home phone, not his phone, so who else could it be?

He blinks the tears out of his eyes, rubbing them away quickly when a few escape, swallowing down his fear and panic and self hatred as he scrambles to pick it up before the call ends (he doesn't think Tony would appreciate it very much if he let it ring to voicemail), stuttering out a shaky, higher pitched "H-Hello?"

"Hey, kid." Tony's voice, much lower and rougher than his, rings through the phone, and Harley braces for the questions, the interrogation he knows is coming, knows Tony's gonna ask him about it, about what's bothering him. Why, why did he email him? Now he's gonna have to tell him what's wrong, now he's gonna have to admit it, admit how wrong and messed up and broken he is- "How was your day?"

Harley jerks back slightly, mouth gaping and eyes wide, caught off guard by the unexpected tame question. "Huh?"

"How was your day?" The man repeats calmly, tone smooth, even, relaxed, like it's a normal conversation on a normal, boring day. Nothing like how Harley is feeling, nothing like the swarming thoughts in his mind, like the flood of emotions in his chest, like the churning in his stomach, the burning ache in his lungs. 

"U-uhm," Damn his stutter, he had grown out of it years ago, why was it suddenly coming back now? "I-it was good." He lies, trying to keep his voice from wavering, trying to keep it steady, trying to stay composed as the tsunami of emotions tries to pull him under. "Yeah."

"Yeah?" Tony prods lightly, voice softening slightly, and Harley shakes his head in a nod, firm, even though Tony can't see it, even as tears start to burn at his eyes again, even his chest winds tighter and tighter and tighter .

"Mhm." He forces out, not trusting himself to speak anymore, his throat closing as his feelings start rising up his esophagus, a sob clawing its way up his throat, trying to escape.

There's a pause, then, a moment when everything freezes. A moment right before the iceberg tips, right before everything crashing and burning down around him, right before the beginning of the end. And then, time starts again, as the mechanic asks, quiet, hushed "What's going on, Harley?"

And Harley crumbles .

The sob rips from his throat, echoing loudly in the large emptiness of his garage, a trembling hand covering his mouth as soon as he does. But the floodgates have already opened, tears are streaming full force down his face, his body shuttering through shaky gasps and shattered sobs. "I-I-Im sorry ," He chokes out as he sits down heavily in his old, pachy wheely chair, curling into himself as his body shutters again. He rubs his eye with the hand on his face, sniffling and coughing through a whimpered, "I-I know you're- you're probably b-busy, you- you don't h-have to-"

"I have nowhere else to be." Tony murmurs simply, cutting off Harley's poor attempt at waving him off, at delaying the inevitable for any longer. Harley lets out a small whine as the older man speaks up again, soft, soothing, repeating gently, "What's going on, kid?"

"I-I dont-" He hiccups, running a hand through his shaggy, too long blond curls, tugging slightly as his knee bounces rapidly. "M-My friends, or my classmates, they- lately, they've been, I don't know, they've been talking- talking more about crushes and girls and stuff." Harley sniffles, tugging his hair harder as his vision starts to blur again, the words tumbling out of his mouth now. "And- and I never really c-cared about it, you know? I never really- really unders-stood it, didn't see the appeal, s-so I didnt m-mind it. But they- they just keep talking about it, and getting g-girlfriends, and-and talking about their bodies and I didnt get the- the i-interest, so I thought maybe something was wrong with me-"

"There isn't." Tony chips in, but Harley just runs right over him, keeps blabbering. He knows it's rude, knows his mama taught him better, but he can't seem to stop talking now that he started, his words getting more and more wobbly, panicked the longer he goes.

"But there is , there is something wrong with me, I- I know there is now, be-because when I-I went to school today, the- the past few days really, I started- started noticing that I started f-feeling weird, and- and it sounds- sounds similar to how the- the others say they feel, but it doesn't make sense , it can't be that, I dont- I cant-" Harley's breath catches, and he grinds his teeth together, refuses to speak another word, refuses to accept it, refuses to admit the god awful truth, refuses to utter the words. Because it can't be right, it can't be true, it can't be-

They sit in silence for a few moments, when he assumes Tony thought he would continue speaking but he wont, he refuses , until the softer, calmer voice returns, slightly staticky through the speaker, but barely more than a whisper, as if he spoke any louder, Harley would shatter. He probably would. "So, if I'm understanding correctly, you think you have a crush, and you're... scared?"

He doesn't sound patronizing, just honest, if a bit curious, but it doesn't help calm Harley any, a higher pitched, frustrated noise escaping the back of his throat, his free hand going out of his hair going back to rubbing at his face, rubbing off the tracks of tears, trying to rub away any sign of upset, until his skin is red and raw. "No, I-I mean, kinda- its not- I can't- god , this is so stupid."

"Its not stupid. I get it." The man responds, and Harley wants to laugh, feels the bitter feeling bubbling in his chest, because does he? How can he get this? Harley doesn't even get this, it doesn't- he shouldn't- "What's her name?"

The sound erupts out of him at that, but instead of laughter like he thought it would be, it's just another pitiful whine, another loud, agonizing sob. Because that's the thing, the thing that's been haunting him ever since he figured it out earlier that day, the issue that's been plaguing his mind and freaking him out, winding him up more and more and more as the day went on until he got home and sent those messages. 

Because- because when he thinks back to earlier that day, he thinks of lunchtime, of sitting at his lunch table with his "friends", of them talking and laughing, of Harley feeling those weird feelings again, especially when he looked across from him, and saw big, forest green eyes, saw a big, toothy grin, saw two small dimples and scattered freckles, saw short, short black hair, saw a sharper, thinner jaw, saw male male male, felt butterflies flutter, and realized he was wrong, wrong, wrong .

Because- "It's not a girl." His voice is small, defeated, barely a whisper, his whole body tensed up in fear, waiting, waiting for his reaction.

There's a pause, before a faint, quiet, sympathetic, "Oh, kid." That Harley immediately the wrong way, because he hates him, oh god he hates him-

"I'm sorry!" He gasps, jerking upright, sitting ramrod straight and the apologies spilling from his mouth. "I'm so sorry, I didnt- I dont mean to, and I-I know its wrong, and I shouldn't, and I-I know I'm weird and- and a freak , and-"

"Hey, hey, woah!" Tony's voice is louder now, stronger, and Harley hushes up immediately, his mouth slamming shut, even as his body trembles with a silent sob. "It's okay, kid. You aren't any of that."

"But- but I am!" Harley whimpers. "I'm w-weird, and everyone else isn't like this , and-"

"Am I a freak?" Again, the random question sends Harley for a loop, trying to grasp onto any of his quickly scattering thoughts.

"W-what?"

He can hear a faint smile, faint amusement in Tony's tone as he asks again, still so so calm, so reassured, "Am I a freak?"

Harley narrows his shining eyes, still full of tears, staring down at the wooden table in front of him, at the chips and nicks covering the side of it, wondering if this is a trick question. "N-No? Of- of course not, you're Iron Man."

He can hear some noise in the background of the call now, squeaking as if someone's leaning back in a chair, before Tony speaks up again, voice full of warm amusement now. "Well, Iron Man has had a few rendezvous with men in the past, and still likes them to this day. Does that make him, and therefore, me, a freak?" When Harley doesn't answer, mostly out of pure shock than anything else, Tony keeps going, tone going serious again. "Kid, I'm gonna get this out there right away. There is nothing wrong with you for liking boys, you hear me?"

He swallows, and wants to agree, longs to agree, but- "But- but my friends, they all like- like girls , and mama, she- she said that traditional marriage was what God wanted and-"

Harley cuts himself off this time, and Tony only waits a few beats before murmuring softly, "Is that what you think?"

He just shrugs, picking at the table, sniffling, whispering quietly, "I don't know what to think anymore."

There's a soft hum and another pause. "You're different, Harley. I'm not going to beat around the bush, you are different." Harley stomach drops. "But," Tony continues, "Kid, you've always been different. You're so smart, way too smart for your own good, if I'm being honest. And there's nothing wrong with that. People may try to bring you down, or kick you while you are down, but you've gotta remember that, okay? There is nothing wrong with you."

Harley waits a few moments, let's the words wash over him and wrap him in a blanket of warmth, of security and comfort, but there's still one little thing that keeps rearing its ugly head, that's still making him antsy. "But, what if I'm just- overreacting? And I don't actually... y-you know." He finishes lamely, still not ready to completely admit to everything yet.

Tony doesn't seem to mind. "Then that's okay too." He says simply, a bit of shuffling coming through the line. "Kid, how old are you again, like twelve?"

He can hear the teasing in his tone, and rolls his eyes as he huffs out, "Thirteen." 

The older man chuckles for a second, before his voice goes back to calm, quiet. "Seriously though, you're thirteen , Kid. You don't need to have everything figured out right away." He snorts, then. "I sure didn't. I think I was a mess at your age, wasn't even thinking about relationships. At least, not long term." There's a pause. "Point is, you don't need to know right now. This might be a fluke, and you might end up liking only girls from here on out. You might end up just liking boys, liking both, or neither, who knows? But you've got time, kid, and that's the key. Give it time . And whatever it ends up being, whatever ends up happening..." His voice softens at the end, a smile prominent in his tone. "It'll be okay. You will be okay." 

For the first time all day, Harley finally takes a deep breath. His shoulders finally relax, his body practically melting back into his chair, and a smile grows on his face, warmth blooming in his chest. "...thanks, Tony." He whispers, hoping that the amount of pure, unfiltered gratitude he's feeling can be heard in his tone.

He thinks it can, as there's a hint of embarrassment and awkwardness in Tony's voice as he responds with a simple, "Don't mention it, squirt." 

Harley just chuckles at the sudden discomfort of the older man, before his eyes widen. "Oh! While you're here, did I tell you I passed my trig test?"

"Hey! I knew you would, kid, I had no doubt." Harley's grin widens, before he throws himself into another story, feeling warmer, safer, and happier than he has in a while.

A few years later, Tony was getting off of the elevator to his penthouse with a huff, having just gotten back from a rough meeting, when he freezes. His heart warma and a smile grows on his face when he notices Harley, now 17 years old (almost an adult, god he was so old ), curled up into Peter's chest, his face pushed into his neck, seemingly fast asleep. Peter's head rests on top of Harley's, eyes open but hooded, as if keeping them open was getting difficult. They glance over to Tony immediately, though (damn his spider sense and increased hearing), and a faint blush forms on his cheeks even as he smiles lightly, his eyes softening as he glances back down at his boyfriend and presses a firm kiss onto his head. Tony watches the interaction with a soft grin, before quietly stepping away, his chest full of mostly warm, sappy feelings, but also full of pride and joy, knowing his pseudo son is accepted, happy and loved.

[kur0kvmi]

The Menacing Mind of Felix Lombardi-Act 2

I peek through the door glass one more time, to make sure I’m not hallucinating. Yep. Ami Fujinami in the mother, fucking flesh. 

“Felix? I know you’re in there, open up” Ami said, in between repeatedly knocking

“Yea I’ll open it up in a minute” I said as I frantically searched for a clean pair of sweatpants to wear.

Ami and I have known each other for the entirety of the 2 years I’ve been living at this apartment. She and her Grandma have taken pretty good care of me seeing as I’m not exactly the best at it. 

“Hi Ami, what brings you here?” I asked, trying to push out the conversation with my brother from my mind

“Well, a strange man in a dark blue suit was here yesterday and he gave me 2 tickets to Mysticon” 

And then it call comes rushing back

“Wow that’s weird, well have fun” I said as I tried to close the door on her, only for her to stop the door from shutting.

“He said he was your brother, and that I should ask you to go with me” Ami said, slowly edging towards me like she was trying to get a good look at the reflection in my eyeballs.

“Well, I have no idea who you’re talking about. I don’t have a brothe-”

“Hello? Mr. Lombardi? He said exactly what you said he’d say. Mhmm That he doesn't have a brother. Should I hand him the phone? Ok. Ok. I’ll tell him.” 

Oh fuck.

“He says if you don’t go to Mysticon with me, I should tell Obaa-san to lock you out of the wifi for a month” Ami said, in the most perfunctory tone imaginable.

“First of all, you can’t do tha-”

“Yes. Yes I can. And to be honest, I don’t care if Mr. Lombardi is your real brother or not, I want to go to Mysticon, and I don’t care who with. So you’re going with me Felix.” Despite the fact that Ami was more or less extorting a date out of me, she did so with the gusto and demeanor of a middle schooler who just won a spelling bee. 

“Why couldn’t you just go by yourself?”

“The deal is, I take you, and I get a free ticket. Mr. Lombardi was very clear about this” 

“So I have no choice”

“None at all”

“Alright. Come knock on my door on saturday”

“It is Saturday, you bum”

“Why aren’t we using your car?” Ami moaned as we exited the building. 

“The train is faster” I said, pulling a pack of cigarettes out of my jacket.

“Mysticon is in Hells Kitchen right?” Ami asked, whilst reaching into her backpack

“Yup, and it’s...3pm, traffic will be annoying, and I don’t wanna worry about driving back if I buy weed.” I said, pulling out my lighter

“What have I told you about smoking when you’re next to me.” Ami said, pulling out a batton, then flicking it to extend it’s length. 

I put the cig back in the pack, whilst prompting her to sheathe her weapon. Throughout the journey my mind is racing. Ami and I hanging out again? It’s not that I like her or anything, it’s just that I kind of missed her. Hey I’m allowed to have feelings aren’t I? I’m sure you’re wondering “but Felix, if you missed hanging out with her, why did you stop talking to her?” Why yes fair reader, that’s a very adequate question, however the nature of our relationship isn’t that simple. Ami is kind of an all around nerd aficionado, she cosplays, she writes fanfics, she draws, she sings anime openings on youtube, it’s kind of scary how much she does all over the place. Recently she’s started to get really famous online, she’s started to devote a lot more time to it, and She started ghosting. Being distant... And you know me, I ain’t exactly a butterfly myself, so we just drifted apart. She should be making money on youtube, couldn’t she just get her own tickets?

“Obaa San wouldn’t let me” Ami said as we reached the station. “She’s against anime conventions on principle”. 

“Is this about a ‘Japan is more than anime’ thing?” I asked, shifting over to the right as I stepped on the escalator so I could walk down past the standers.

“No that’s more my parents. Baa san is a reeeeaaally old school Otaku.”

“Then what’s her beef with anime conventions?”

“She thinks they’re ‘commodified caricatures of otaku culture’ or something along those lines” Ami said as we hopped on the train.

Granny Fujinami isn’t wrong in the slightest.

“So she won’t be mad at you for going?” 

“She’s only letting me go because I’m going with you. It’s aaalways about you with her.”

“Not my fault i’m the grandson she never had” I said while making a mocking face at Ami.

“She only loves you cuz you’re a broken mess she can nurture. You’re like my dad. Ugh, you’re like all men really.”

Ouch.

“Ouch.” 

“Suck it up loser.” Ami said, shifting her direction away from me. 

“You’re so cute when you go all Tsun” I said, pulling out my phone.

“That would imply me having any ‘dere’ for you.” Ami snapped back.

So hot.

[At the Convention]

What’s going on what’s going on going on. Everyone’s looking at us. Well I guess I am walking next to Amura. Yes that’s Ami’s social media name, you try coming up with something better at 12. Mine’s [REDACTED]. This is not what I signed up for. Louis Othello Lombardi you fucking bastard. You knew this would happen. You did your homework on Ami and figured out she’d be a lightning rod for attention. Keep me around her, and I’m bound to be assaulted by nothing. But. Fucking. People.

“OH MY GOD IT’S AMURA!” Two young girls screamed. “But I heard you weren't coming? You said so on twitter :(.“ I swear to almighty Haruhi Suzumiya, if there was such a thing as a frowny face emoji in real life, whatever that girl did was damn close. 

“Well change of plans ^_^” Oh my god, Ami can speak emoji too!

“So what panels are you going to? I heard Gail has a panel about anime piracy” Said one of the fangirls, angling towards it on the con directory. 

“Gail from Crunchyroll?” 

“Sounds fun! Felix, ikimasu!” Whoever this version of Ami was, I wanted NO PARTS. 

“Sounds lame. I’m going to the arcade.” I was putting my foot down

“Ok cool. Hand me your pass then. You can pay on your own.” 

“You can’t do tha-”

“Yes. Yes I can. You want this pass?.” Ami pulled out the 3 day convention pass out of her purse and dangled it in front of me. Obviously I tried snatching at it, only for Ami to move it out of the way. Damn japanese reflexes.

“Gotta be quicker than that. We’re going to the panel. Follow me.” Ami said, tossing me the pass.

“If you sneak off, I’m calling Obaa chan.” she said, in that her perfunctory yet declaratory way.  

“...So what you end up having is an environment where it’s harder and harder for us to justify hosting servers for anime distribution, because they don’t wanna pa- *ahem* because piracy.” Or something to that effect I’m not really listening to this Gail lady.

Anime piracy is a dumb thing to have a panel about anyway, it’s not like anybody in this room even knows how to torrent off wonwons, let alone\ how find the right codec for shows with bad compression. These are a bunch of crunchycores. The kinds of anime fans so hopped up on seasonal hype that the mere thought of an anime older than 12 months makes their tongues run dry, and their eyes wire shut.

“Are there any questions?”

“You got anything to ask?” chuckled Ami. 

“Why are we here. We both know Kissanime is in your bookmarks” I jeered.

“Networking dummy. I talk to Gail after the panel, and smooth out something over at Crunchyroll” For some reason Ami’s eyes did the dollars signs when she said “crunchyroll”

“In San Francisco? You’d hate it there.”

“I’d make it there. That’s the important part. I’d really make it. I’d be in.” 

“In what?” I said with a look of befuddlement. 

“You wouldn’t understand. You’re basically guaranteed a job after graduation” 

“Hey, don’t make it like tha-”

“Don’t make it like what Felix?” Ami snapped, but less with anger, and more a tired expression.

The Panel was beginning to wind down, and folks were getting up to leave. Ami bounced out of her seat and darted towards the stage. 

“Gaaaaaiiiil! Hiii, I follow you on twitter!” Ami screamed, like a schoolgirl seeing a classmate

“Amura! I follow you too! I love your singing” Gail responded in a surprisingly similar manner.

“Thanks so much, ugh. That means alot l love you and Sailor Bee’s podcast ^_^” This whole display was just. The worst. 

I backed off from the discussion, but I knew I wasn’t gonna be able to make it far without incurring that good old Fujinami wrath. Jeez they’re taking forever. Is this a meet and greet? Or a job interview. 

“Felix? Oh shit, how you been bruh?” This voice, I recognized it. 

I turned around, and yup, it was Tyler. 

“Who let riff raff like  you in here?” I said as we shook hands

“Is that any way to treat your one black friend:” He responded dryly. 

“I have plenty of black friends. Unlike you, most of my friends are girls.” I shot back. 

“Yea right, if you ever left your yuppie ass play pad I’d believe you.”

“You’d be surprised how many of em recognize me from Ami’s streams.”

“The streams she stopped inviting you to?” 

“Low blow T.” 

Tyler is a friend from Highschool who runs in the same online circles that I do. We keep in touch through discord and trade merchandise on message boards. He’s been trying to break into the FGC since middle school and recently struck a deal with a team based out of Brooklyn, The Mash Masters. He’s pretty good, quick reflexes, consistent muscle memory, but he lacks patience, and his neutral game needs work. 

“Where you headed to after this? Tryna hit up the arcade?” Asked Tyler as he picked up his backpack getting ready to leave. 

“I’m here with Ami, I gotta check and see where she’s headed to” 

“Whooptish” Tyler said, while making a whipping motion. 

“You know it’s not like that bro.” I shot back

“For her it isn’t, for you it is.” he retorted. 

I told him to wait up for a sec as I went over to Ami & Gail. They were still chopping it up like they’d known each other since band camp. 

“Shoot me a DM on twitter whenever you get the chance, I’d love to get you acquainted with the rest of my team. Maybe even talk bringing you to some other cons around the east coast ;)” Naruhodo, it seems this Gail is also of the emoji Clan. 

“Sure thing! Don’t forget to tweet out the channel link with the picture, and tell Vicky I said hi!” Ami said gleefully. 

“I definitely will, but uhh, she hates being called Vicky. Victoria or Sailorbee are just fine.” Gail responded, with a tinge of trepidation.

“Yea, I made that mistake on twitter once, it wasn’t pretty” I said with a chuckle.

“Oh hello, and who might you be?” Asked Gail.

“This is my friend Felix I was telling you about.” Ami said. Wait, telling her about what?

“Ah yes, the animator. Ami showed me your fan animation of Diebuster. Very interesting to see a Gainax show done with heavy Yutapon vibes” This lady knows her stuff.

“This lady knows her stuff” I said to Ami. 

“Of course I do silly, I work in the anime industry” The smile Gail shot me as she said this wouldn’t be out of place in a Shaft anime.  

“You definitely have some real skills. We’re looking for someone to do a sakuga heavy promo for our new youtube ad. If you’re interested, Ami has my contact info. It was so very nice meeting the both of you, don’t forget to keep in touch.” Gail said in a warm, professional tone as she got up to leave. 

“Well she seems nice” I said to Ami. 

“You’re welcome Felix.” Said Ami, in her usual biting tone. 

“I didn’t ask you for that. If I wanted a job at Crunchyroll I’d have one already.”

“‘Thanks Ami, I really appreciate you showing my work to someone really influential who can open doors in my chosen profession, would you like headpats?’” Ami said, in a mocking imitation of my sultry ciciillian speech pattern. 

“First of all, fine, thank you, that was a very nice thing to do, and I was pleasantly surprised. Secondly, do you seriously want headpats?”

“Don’t flatter yourself, you weirdo” And there’s the Tsun again. 

“I ran into Tyler, he says he’s going to the Arcade, and I was looking to go with. You in?”

“Tyler’s here? Yea sure, let’s go” 

Ami & I leave the stage and head over to where Tyler is sitting when I get a text on my phone. 

[11:58. Text from Lou]: Having fun?

[11:58. You]: Yea

He’s just like mom. 

“Oh my god it’s Amura! Could you sign my Fightstick?” Tyler sniggered, his fightstick outstretched. He’s such an asshole I love it. 

“Knock it off, I’d actually sign it if I didn’t know you’d just flip it on Ebay” Ami sneered, arms folded and head angrily tossed to the side. 

“Aww don’t be like that, I really did want your autograph. You’d be surprised how many Blazblue players would pay good cash for one” Tyler said, packing his fightstick back in his backpack. 

“If anyone’s gonna make money off the Amura brand it’s gonna be ME!” Ami retorted viciously.

“Now that’s just anti-black business” I said, chuckling as Tyler dapped me up. 

Ami rolled her eyes as heavy as she could roll them and stomped out of the conference room, and we sheepishly trailed after her.

By this point in the day I’d grown used to Ami being a lightning rod for attention. My camera skills must have leveled up big time from all those pics I had to take, of her with fans. Just getting to the Arcade area of the convention was a whole 20 minutes of photo after photo with weeb after arrested developed weeb, and to be honest I was practicing some big time restraint to not just walk out of the center and catch an Uber home. But surely enough, through fire by force, we found ourselves at the-

Boy was this the kind of place I wanted to be. The whole area was what you’d expect from a high profile convention in a big city. What seemed to be at least 30 TVs all hooked up with consoles spanning an entire auditorium. This wasn’t an arcade, it felt more like a Bazaar crossed with a colosseum. You have your old reliables for the boomers like Street Fighter, MK, ok that’s neat, there’s Melee, 64, Ultimate, Smash 4, oh even Brawl, full house, that’s impressive. As we moved through, you could imagine that there were furrowed brows due to the smell, but in all honesty it wasn’t as bad as most invitationals I’ve been to. We couldn’t find the game we were here for though; Blazblue. Tyler directed us to the kiosk so we could get directions. 

“Nigga where the Blazblue at?” Tyler said to one of the convention attendees, 

All the way at the back, by the Under Night” The Attendee responded.

I was just about ready to dart over there when Tyler said: 

“Nah hol’ up real quick bro, I got a question I gotta ask you” uh oh, I hear the Brooklyn leaking out. 

“Yea? Is there something wrong?” the attendee said, with a befuddled expression.

“Y’all always hide the anime fighters, what's up with that?” Tyler said blankly, almost with no life at all. 

“It’s not my decision where the games are set up-”

“That’s not what I asked bro. I’ve done conventions fam, I sat where you sat. NYCC 2017, bigger con than this, and from what I know about my time there, y’all have a meeting to coordinate where the games are set up. Correct?” Oh my god, Tyler what are you doing. 

“Yes correct” The attendee responded. 

“So you were in the room when the decision was made, correct?” This is so wacky

“Yea, but like, I didn’t have a choi-”

“Nobody’s asking about a choice, I’m asking you, what was the reasoning behind the decision?” Should I stop this? Or?...

“They didn’t want the anime stuff turning folks away” Oh no, here we go

“There it is” Tyler said triumphantly as he began to walk off. 

“Hey, I think it’s bullshit too ma-” t

“Yet you said nothing. You and all your boys said nothing. Aight, I see you fam. Haruhi’s watching you” Tyler said, his back already turned and walking away.  “Let’s go guys”

“Did you have to make such a big hoopla you maniac?” Ami said laughing her ass off. 

“Because I have Principles Fujinami, you should try em some time” Tyler snapped back. 

“That was the FUNNIEST shit I’ve seen all day, I’m so happy I knew to record that” Ami said, still cackling. 

“Wait you recorded that?” Tyler said, shocked

“I uploaded it. Enjoy being a meme” Ami said blankly.

“Not again…” Tyler sighed.

We finally make it to the Blazblue section, and it’s about as serviceable as you’d expect. Two TVs both hooked up to PS4s playing Central Fiction. There wasn’t much of a crowd, about 5 or 6 people, all looked to be around college age, couple on the boomer side though. All guys. 

“This game is so hyperactive…” Ami said, in a tone betwixt judgement and bewilderment. 

“Not every game gotta be Street Fighter” Said Tyler. “Ey yo, who got next?” Tyler asked a portly asian fellow playing Taokaka. 

“Uhh, I dunno, anybody got next?” the Taokaka player asked. The crowd shook their heads. “I guess it’s on you bro after this.” 

Nobody else noticed, But Tyler’s killing intent began to spike. I get you’re excited kiddo, but you haven’t even chewed the scenery yet. 

The game was pretty hype. There it was Taokaka vs Valkenhayn. Both characters with adequate rushdown capabilities and heavy damage. The Valkenhayn was an even match, but the Tao was just catching clutch reversals at every corner. It felt like seeing a tiger beat a lion by leaving a bigger gash every time they left the scuffle. Tyler, ever the professional, was quiet as a mouse. A mouthy prick like him? Quiet? I know right? But he gets like this when it’s Blazblue. The data collection phase. See if Street Fighter is Chess, then Blazblue is Mahjong. The same level of depth, but a wider variety of dealing with situational disadvantages and advantages. Tyler sees what I’m seeing and he’s analyzing, putting his pieces together, he’s not here for fun. This is off the job training. 

“FINISH” 6 red letters on the television screen. Read em & Weep. 

“My turn now right?” Tyler asked the Taokaka player. 

“Yup. What’s your name?” said the Tao player

“Tyro, and you?” oh yea I forgot that was his FGC name, everywhere else he’s Tyrilla. He sucks at names yes I know.

“I’m Yiao, nice to meet you.” Yiao said, pushing his glasses up.

The character selection screen pops up and… Wait don’t tell me he…Oh boy, Tyler’s picking his middle school main. Hazama. Yiao on the other hand started mousing over Tao then over to Litchi. Come on pick a character already. After more mousing, his cursor finally landed on Mai... From rushdown to range spam. Just all around bloodthirst.

Both of them sat in silence as the loading screen started up, until Yiao broke that silence.

“I’ve heard of you, Mash Master Tyro. To be honest I was hoping we’d meet. I have this Mai prepared just for you.” said Yiao. Yawn. This happens all the time. Tyler’s probably got him scoped already too.

“Yiao, third runner up at Anifight Staten Island. Three. Years. Running.” Yup, knew it. Tyler lives for this shit.

“You wanna know why HowRite was able to beat you 3 to nothing last year?” Tyler said, deadpan staring at the screen.

“THE WHEEL OF FATE IS TURNING” oh shit the round is starting.

“Cuz he knew if he lost, he’d never get to face my mentor in the finals”

“But wait. Ulysses isn’t on your team?” Yiao said confused, the backstory here is really weird, I’d be confused as well to be honest. 

“REBEL 1” 

“Ulysses is my stepdad.” 

“ACTION”

Told you. 

End of Act 2. 

[hgfstreamchats]

The Hunchback of Notre Dame

highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:38 PM Ready whenever you are, everyone! Sharpwing — Yesterday at 9:39 PM I'm here! Is this the Disney version, or a different one? highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:40 PM The Disney one! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:40 PM Hello!  Are we still going with discord's built-in streaming? highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:40 PM We are. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 9:40 PM liKE FIRE, HELLFIRE That'll be in my head for a while highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:41 PM Obtained through only the most legal, Autobot-approved methods, naturally. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:42 PM Ah, the un-fun methods thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:42 PM Naturally. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:42 PM Wink.

thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:43 PM Wink.  https://twitter.com/SydSteyerhart/status/1402695659254259713 Syd Steyerhart (@SydSteyerhart) https://t.co/RrUUxJW2ev Retweets 18233 Likes 184927 Twitter•06/09/2021 Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:43 PM :wink: thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:44 PM Well, time to see if discord feels like working for me today. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 9:45 PM ...Dang it. Apparently I won't be here for a little while. Sorry about that, I'll be back! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:46 PM It looks okay for now. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:46 PM Sound, picture, yes, good? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:46 PM Yeah. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:47 PM I can see the singing horse, yes thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:47 PM I just binged this entire show the other day--it is great. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:47 PM I enjoy the fact that one of those abominations sounds exactly like Blades. He doesn't want to talk about it. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:48 PM Annnnnd the picture is frozen now. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:48 PM Is it frozen for everyone? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:48 PM No. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:48 PM Still moving for me thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:48 PM Clicking "stop watching" and then clicking on it again usually fixes it... for a little while. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:48 PM o highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:50 PM I blame the singing horse. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:50 PM It wasn't the horse...it was the other creatures thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:50 PM I usually end up having to do that dozens of times per stream.  I just don't bother mentioning it every time because there doesn't seem to be anything you can do to fix it. That was #4 just now, btw. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:51 PM :[ highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:51 PM Ugh. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:51 PM Yeah :/ Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:52 PM Do you have anything else running on your end, like youtube or some game? That's normally what takes me out when I try to stream/watch a stream on discord or internet provider being not good too thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:53 PM It is discord.  The problem is discord.  I can stream other things just fine. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:53 PM dang thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:55 PM Even rebooting and only having the minimum running doesn't help. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:56 PM Oof. Idk how to fix the discord. I had someone else fix mine via a whole computer upgrade highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:58 PM Does anyone want to try watchparty? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:58 PM I'd love to do so Wazkalia — Yesterday at 9:58 PM I'm down thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 9:58 PM I can just arrange my windows and have discord visible at the same time for chatting highglossfinish — Yesterday at 9:59 PM https://www.watchparty.me/#nosy-game-agree WatchParty Watch videos together with friends. Chat and react in real time to a synchronized stream, with multiple ways of watching video, including screenshare, VM, and YouTube.

thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:02 PM I can see it, but I think it's muted Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:02 PM ok so i wasn't losing it... This is frollo's fault thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:03 PM Absolutely. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:05 PM gettin some grape juice, I'll be back highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:06 PM I don't know how to fix the sound issue. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:06 PM heck this is disney's fault thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:07 PM I believe you can share directly from a link instead of your screen Right, it's the virtual browser option I hear it now! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:08 PM i hear! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:12 PM man, this part gives me chills Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:12 PM Honestly! I makes me think that's what all those statues were for. Mess up in front of the church? THE CHURCH SAW YOU thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:13 PM But, y'know, I think the archdeacon was thinking too much about punishing Frollo and too little about whether he's actually fit to be a "parent" Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:14 PM Oh he was. I wouldn't trust Frollo to take care of a moss ball thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:14 PM I wouldn't trust him with a pet rock. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:14 PM He'd somehow give the rock anxiety and depression thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:15 PM ...Okay that gargoyle's voice is SO familiar. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:16 PM Which one? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:16 PM That one, with the long, narrow horns The joker. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:17 PM Jason Alexander! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:17 PM Oh! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:17 PM Ye! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:18 PM Ohhhhh, George from Seinfeld, of course Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:18 PM the man mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 10:18 PM HOW MUCH DID I MISS?!?! highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:18 PM Hello, whoever just jumped on. We're here. https://www.watchparty.me/#nosy-game-agree WatchParty Watch videos together with friends. Chat and react in real time to a synchronized stream, with multiple ways of watching video, including screenshare, VM, and YouTube.

Not much. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:19 PM About eleven minutes. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:21 PM Frollo gets a proper seat and a proper plate and cup because of course he does. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:21 PM Naturally. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:21 PM Did it cut out? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:21 PM Wow, that sure is a version of events It's still going Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:21 PM I still see and hear highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:22 PM Excellent. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:22 PM It's been working just fine! I'd say at least 90% of the people in the city would have made better guardians than this guy. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:23 PM The rats would have been better thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:23 PM And that's including small children. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:23 PM A ROCK! You'd think someone would hear him with them pipes and holler at him thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:25 PM Right?  Or see him Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:26 PM They can't see the man who clearly made parkour highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:26 PM This movie really doesn't have a single bad song in it. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:26 PM It doesn't! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:26 PM Every last one is fantastic! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:27 PM Ohohohoho Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:27 PM :3 Flex thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:28 PM Nice disguise Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:28 PM Nice pun Achilles heel thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:30 PM Yes, we know you're a murderer Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:30 PM Absolutely vile mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 10:30 PM Why is my phone giving me phonecall audio quality here? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:30 PM So... did he know those ants were there ahead of time?  Did he leave them so he could have his little drama? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:31 PM The best boi! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:31 PM I mean, why else would the stone be loose like that Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:31 PM Cause he's a vile judge who apparently hates nature Goat pls thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:33 PM She's so good Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:33 PM Imma pop out real quick. This part makes me sad thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:34 PM ...Ah, right.  wince Wait, wait, that guy recognized him? That raises some questions. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:34 PM My heart hurts at this highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:34 PM What's their objection? He looks like a pug. You all like those, don't you? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:35 PM Well pugs back then looked normal and could breath highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:35 PM It's a lovely movie if you end it there. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:36 PM Oh this is is where my childhood hate of law enforcement came from IT WAS THIS PART Ninja! Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:38 PM I RETURN Have I missed the Hellfire song or not Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:38 PM Nope! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:38 PM Not at all Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:38 PM Nice Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:39 PM Oh I love that bit thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:40 PM oof Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:40 PM >:[ If them guards ain't start tossing produce Waste of food highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:42 PM Is it out of sync for anyone else? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:43 PM Hmmmm, seems okay to me. NOPE Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:43 PM Nasty man NASTY thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:44 PM n o p e Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:44 PM Stab Him Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:44 PM Turn the goat on him Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:45 PM Nahh. Not sharp enough. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:47 PM This song chills me thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:48 PM they DO recognize him Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:48 PM SO THEY WERE EVIL ON PURPOSE Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:50 PM SPIT THAT OUT Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:50 PM She's hungry thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:51 PM oof Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:51 PM :oof: Hardcore parkour thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:53 PM ikr oh so it's a map highglossfinish — Yesterday at 10:54 PM You know, they say she never had any interest in him, but I wonder. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:54 PM Why would she not just say "it's a map" Oh, it is out of sync now, oops Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:55 PM Quasi stronk Man is in full armor, lifted him Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:57 PM OH The middle gargoyle reminds me of Pumbaa! I could never put my finger on it before now! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 10:58 PM ITS TIME Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:58 PM It's tiiiiiime >:3 thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 10:58 PM I'm sure she knows no such thing. Vile man Sharpwing — Yesterday at 10:59 PM Yes, but catchy song Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:00 PM EVIL MAN thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:00 PM "get out, I was busy singing about my boner" Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:00 PM Sgdfs Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:01 PM Who plays this guy? And has he released any music tracks of his own Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:01 PM Google time! One sec Tony jay! Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:03 PM Thanks! I'll look him up on Spotify sometime Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:03 PM Phoebus is a real hero thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:03 PM ikr Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:04 PM HE'S IN PLATE HANG ON You ever use your burning city to cook? Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:07 PM Well, I suppose their only jobs are being stone and being irreverent. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:07 PM They could have told this story without the gargoyles. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:08 PM Could a just kept the girl. She at least on her own is a reason voice Also give them leg Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:08 PM True... but I feel like they're useful for comedic relief in theory. They're just... obnoxious. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:09 PM Yyyyeah Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:09 PM Awww- did I miss the movie? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:09 PM Hi smoky!! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:09 PM About 2/3 of it Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:09 PM I wouldn't mind if he had gargoyle imaginary friends, they're just... irritating Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:09 PM Hey!! ... Wait, where IS the movie Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:09 PM Yeah most of it highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:10 PM I like that they make absolutely no secret of the fact that the fat one wants to insert his entire hoof into the goat. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:10 PM That would be Not Here highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:10 PM https://www.watchparty.me/#nosy-game-agree WatchParty Watch videos together with friends. Chat and react in real time to a synchronized stream, with multiple ways of watching video, including screenshare, VM, and YouTube.

Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:10 PM CURSED, KO highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:10 PM Here it is. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:10 PM CURSED. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:10 PM HELP highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:10 PM It's true and we all have to live with knowing it. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:10 PM You didn't have to remind me! Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:10 PM Thank you, Woojit! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:10 PM That made me choke on my DRINK Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:10 PM ... Also, sorry about, uh, the other day. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:11 PM I'd rather you than the owl beast. You're slightly too late for Hellfire, but just in time to watch his heart rip in half. Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:11 PM I'm sorry your face is comfy to sit on!! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:11 PM Wh Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Smokescreen was an owl for a little while. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:12 PM HOW WHY Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Magic! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Hoo Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:12 PM He also enjoys making statements with Implications. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Anon magic most fowl. Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Hoot hoot highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Horrible, horrible magic. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Wait...how big of an owl? Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Pretty big! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:12 PM Cause uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Oh, that's fine then As long as he wasn't the size of a Honda highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:14 PM Also, is the room loading for you, Smokescreen? It's a stopgap measure because discord is acting up. No. About owl-sized. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:14 PM Good, good. Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:15 PM It's loaded, but paused for me? OH THERE IT GOES highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:15 PM There we go. Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:15 PM i had to sync Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:15 PM Discord has been kinda wack in general lately, it was refusing to give me and my friends notifications for a while. I assume the recent updates messed with some things. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:15 PM Heartbreak Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:15 PM But! By the way, Woojit, I might have a good surprise for you to make up for using you like a chair. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:15 PM THE PAIN Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:16 PM Does that ever happen to you guys? You update something and then something (not so) unrelated goes wrong? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:16 PM Yeah, Windows in general Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:16 PM I meant Transformers, but that too. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:16 PM Ooh! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:16 PM O Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:17 PM Oh, yeah! I'll update my datapad and it will just take FOREVER to boot up, and I end up with like, weird messages about having viruses? But like, I can close those, so it's fine. But yes!! Woojit, I'll come by with the surprise later. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:17 PM Admittedly, that's what I'd do too, for lack of knowing what else to do about it. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:18 PM EVIL MAN Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:19 PM Yyyyyup thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:19 PM Surprised he didn't want to keep the figurine Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:19 PM He did burn her scarf, to be fair Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:20 PM JUST GO SAVE THE TOWN thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:20 PM Yeah but you don't want to know what he did with it first Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:20 PM EW Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:21 PM thanks for that fricking mental image. Ew. thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:22 PM Close the door behind you! Guys the DOOR Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:22 PM This is why you close doors!! Or graves SPOOP SPOOP Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:23 PM hehe thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:23 PM ohoho Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:24 PM I found Tony Jay's discography! ...It's not what I expected.

Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:24 PM BUSSIN Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:24 PM trust that bitch!! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:25 PM EVIL MAN thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:25 PM ...this is why we close doors Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:25 PM Close doors!! highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:25 PM Bussin' Moves with Frollo. Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:26 PM I haven't listened to them yet, I wonder if maybe Spotify got the people mixed up...? But maybe not... Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:26 PM I hope not!! Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:27 PM Same tbh, though admittedly I was hoping for a best-case scenario of "he did a cover of Fly Me To The Moon". Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:27 PM This is historically accurate! Men who didn't get the girl the wanted yelled witchcraft!! How come them bigger gargoyles don't come to life? Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:28 PM Good point... Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:29 PM Could a used the bigger flying ones But we get sick Tarzan moves tho The favored French pastime: CIVIL UNREST Gungoyle Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:31 PM fjdhgsdfgsdf thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:32 PM That man would be dead. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:32 PM Ye Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:32 PM Killed a man via horse butt. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:32 PM FROLLO WOULD HAVE BURNT Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:32 PM (Almost sent that message to the wrong chat, btw!) :) Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:33 PM Shsgs She's resting thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:33 PM Resting from smoke inhalation :frowning: Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:33 PM She needs some milk meme to hide the pain QUASI NO Frollo lookin like a sith lord Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:35 PM He had a whole musical number about his dark urges, and you're surprised? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:36 PM Nah, I just noticed it with the sword DIVINE INTERVENTION thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:36 PM HA Nice timing Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:36 PM They do come alive! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:37 PM Just for poetic reasons tho For the drama mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:37 PM is the movie over Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:37 PM Nearly mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:37 PM i had to peace out Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:37 PM Pretty much, sorry highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:37 PM This could be resolved with a threesome. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:38 PM KNOCKOUT mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:38 PM not because of the movie but because of Video Games Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:38 PM Accurate, and far less cursed than any of your other takes. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:38 PM Well, it could! mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:38 PM this is about as true as the fact that humans need more ways to explode Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:38 PM Aren't you the one who said they did mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:38 PM is drinking energon a way for humans to explode Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:39 PM DON'T. mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:39 PM yes, both are very true. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:39 PM True, but your timing keeps making me choke on my drink!! mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:39 PM it could be solved by a threesome and humans do need more explosion methods Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:39 PM Ouch. HEY DO NOT *they Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:39 PM Shsfshd mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:39 PM like having a friend chug energon like gatorade and then shooting them in the gut so you both explode Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:39 PM OH Woojit!! Have you seen the sequels for this? Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:40 PM WE CAN SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST, WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT. Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:40 PM They're pretty bad, aren't they? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:40 PM SEQUELS??? mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:40 PM that's two ways to explode right there: Drinking energon before being shot in the gut, and also shooting someone in the gut right after they drink energon Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:40 PM Plural?????? Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:40 PM I thought there was only one sequel mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:40 PM everything Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:40 PM SAME highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:40 PM Oh, we absolutely have to watch all the unforgivable Disney sequels. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:41 PM Oh dear lord help us Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:41 PM "SPONTANEOUS" IS EVERYTHING, ITS LITERALLY NO REASON AND ANY REASON Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:41 PM GOOD mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:41 PM IS IT 'DRINKING ENERGON AND EXPLODING'?!?!? Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:41 PM ..............Fair............ mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:42 PM when i die fill my corpse with energon so that i may be used as a cybertronian hand grenade, preferably by knockout Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:42 PM Is this human Soundwave? mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:42 PM Me? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:43 PM LMAO mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:43 PM (other ways for humans to explode that we have been ROBBED of: Being used as a cybertronian energon hand grenade, and being caught in the blast radius of a cybertronian hand grenade. highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:43 PM Yes. mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:44 PM guess I'll practice this emoticon then. }[} Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:44 PM What is this and why have I never seen it?! mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:44 PM or |[} okay wait is this being streamed to discord am i missing a thing thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:44 PM https://www.watchparty.me/#nosy-game-agree WatchParty Watch videos together with friends. Chat and react in real time to a synchronized stream, with multiple ways of watching video, including screenshare, VM, and YouTube.

Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:46 PM VR chat is a CURSED land Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:49 PM CARS. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:50 PM IM SCARRED thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:50 PM Well. Wow. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:52 PM He found out his discord love him I...did o have a stroke? That was beautiful highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:55 PM Any other suggestions to close us out? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:55 PM Not from me. Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:55 PM Not off the top of my head, nah highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:56 PM In that case, thank you all for coming! I've been excited to stream this one. mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:56 PM I might have one! highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:56 PM Not excited enough to stream it in a timely fashion, but still. Oh? thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:56 PM And thank you for hosting! mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:56 PM Markiplier plays people playground thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:56 PM Oh? Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:56 PM Thanks for streamin!!! Smokescreen — Yesterday at 11:56 PM Thanks for having us, Woojit! Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:57 PM Chaos man highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:57 PM Can't stand that particular human! mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:57 PM oh apologies highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:57 PM But thank you for throwing it out there nonetheless! mysteryfleshpitnationalpark — Yesterday at 11:57 PM Dumb idea for a FUTURE stream: Uhhhhhhh lemme get back to you on that Wazkalia — Yesterday at 11:58 PM Night all!! highglossfinish — Yesterday at 11:59 PM Good night! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:59 PM Goodnight! Sharpwing — Yesterday at 11:59 PM Goodnight! Thank you!! thenightetc2 — Yesterday at 11:59 PM And thank you for being willing to try out the new site!  I'm sure it won't last but it worked SO much better highglossfinish — Today at 12:00 AM Glad to hear it!

[handgunz]

this really long questions meme thing that you can read if you want to get to know me but if not you can continue to go watch rick & morty or whatever shit you’re consuming this fine wednesday night

so many ppl tagged me for this like @shimmy-sham-with-the-fam​ and @www98vikitoo​ off the top of my head but i legit cant remember the rest and i dont wanna change tabs

for any questions i dont wanna answer ill just put “AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES” bc thats the answer to the “last song you listened to/what are you listening to rn” lmfaooo and yall should listen to that creepy ass RWBY soundtrack bc i listened to it to the point where it stopped being really disturbing and actually kinda catchy

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water

2. Phone call: @proofofhumanity​ it was probably yesterday or today, i dont really remember bc we call like almost every single day. aka im usually the only one talking while she types stuff in response. 

3. Text: it was @ DC like 2 seconds ago

4. Song you listened to: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES (this is actually the song tho)

5. Time you cried: i dont remember, probably a long time ago

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: lmfao worst relationship of my life

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: not really actually

8. Been cheated on: yep

9. Lost someone special: lmfao

10. Been depressed: im too cool for that

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: not that stupid

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: silver, black, red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: i make new friends like every week lmao

16. Fallen out of love: yea

17. Laughed until you cried: wyd??? i do this literally every day. i laugh so fucking much every single hour at the dumbest shit, probably 30% of my life is spent laughing at someone or something. 

18. Found out someone was talking about you: uwu ya

19. Met somebody who changed you: im the only person who can change myself gtfo 

20. Found out who your friends are: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

23. Do you have any pets: yea, 2 doggies

24. Do you want to change your name: sorta??

25: What did you do for your last birthday: whatever my mom wanted to do for the occasion, i dont really remember bc i didnt care

26. What time did you wake up: 6am every day

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching rwby chibi, talking to abby, lost, and lotti on discord, was rlly warm under some blankets

28. Name something you cant wait for: im rlly excited about mercury being in volume 5!! i cant wait til he comes on because he’s one of my fave characters ever <33333333333

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 2-3 hours ago?

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: n/a

31: What are you listening to right now: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i doubt it?

33. Some thing that is getting on your nerves: nothing that i can think of at the top of my mind

34: Most visited website: tumblr or discord

35. mole/s: wtf

36: mark/s: i have a birthmark that kinda looks like a heart on my hand

37: Childhood dream: n/a

38: Hair color: dark brown

39: long or short hair: it’s long ig, it goes down to a little bit above the halfway point in my back

40: Do u have a crush on anyone: i dont have time for that kind of thing

41: What do you like about yourself?: everything lmao i dont have low self esteem, at least i dont think so

42. Piercings: my ears are pierced but i dont wear earrings 

43. Blood type: A+ or A-, i dont really remember

44. Nickname: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

45. Relationship status: single and not available for flirting 

46. Zodiac: aries sun, scorpio moon, aries rising (yeah im the devil)

47. Pronouns: he/him or she/her 

48: Favorite tv shows: rwby, hxh, and nge

50. Right or left hand: both

51. Surgery: no thanks

52. Hair dyed in a different color: i dont do that lmao

53: Sport: too busy with grades for that

55. Vacation: las vegas is my favorite city so i would really like to go there again. french buffets are cool.

56: Pair of trainers: wyd??

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: popcorn

58. Drinking: citrus tea

59. I’m about to: sleep hopefully

61: Waiting for: rwby vol 5 ep 5 comin out this weekend 

62: Want: to write better and better til im the best. i dont really know what this question is asking. but that’s one of my various goals. 

63. Get married: i believe in prenuptial agreements but if that’s out of the way then sure

64. Career: gonna be a nurse or a physician’s assistant (while writing as a hobby)

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs definitely 

66. Lips or eyes: literally do not remember the last time i cared about lips, so probably eyes

67. Shorter or taller: doooon’t really care

68. Older or younger: preferably the same age honestly ?

70. nice arms or nice stomach: whoooo caaaaaaaares

71: sensitive or loud: anyways i want to die

72. Hook up or relationship: meeeeeeercuryyyyyyyyy blaaaack

73. troublemaker or hesitant: lusus naturae, bitch

HAVE YOU EVER:

74: Kissed a stranger: ugh

75. Lost glasses / contact lens: nope

76. Turned someone down: yea

78. Sex on the first date: no

79. Had your heart broken: yea

80. Broken someone’s heart: yeaaaaaaaaa

81. Been arrested: why are you interrogating me

82. Cried when someone died: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

83. fallen for a friend: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: more than anything else in the world. i’d rather believe in myself than anyone i’ve ever met in my entire life. 

85. Miracles: nope

86. Love at first sight: noooope

87. Santa Claus: AWAKEN MY BROOD, TODAY YOU WILL RISE, I'VE GIVEN YOU LIFE MY LUSUS NATURAE OPEN YOUR EYES

OTHER:

90. current best friend name: lost

91. Eye color: brown because im a bitch of color

92. favorite movie: aaaaaaaaaa maybe kill bill? heathers? mean girls? no idea

this took like ten thousand years so maybe @driftingglass​ @decembercamiecherries​ @proofofhumanity​ @smooth-and-skeletal​ @abnirests​ @inspookswetrust​ whoever tf else wants to do this who’s actually read this far just idk say i tagged you or something

[elitaxne]

@oneshallstand, @visionaryprime, @diiisplaced, @chromiatfp, @mechanicmikaela, @tyrantofthefirmament && to everyone else who reached out and sent me private messages on here and discord, thank-you so much for the overwhelming support --- I woke up to them and it honestly means so much to me, and gave me strength knowing I had such an amazing support system <3333

Secondly, I apologize if my sudden leave last night worried anyone, I was not in a place of mind to discuss what happened, physically or emotionally, and instead tried to sleep. Not going to lie, I had a rough night, but I am better now, and that’s in part to the flood of support I received, so thank-you again.

On that note, I will share what happened however I don’t want to talk about it after this, so I will lay everything on the line and that will be that.... because I’m having trouble enough getting the event out of my head, but I will feel better giving you all closure. If that makes sense? Idk. Bear with me, please.

TRIGGER WARNING: Graphic motorcycle / car accident details under the cut

Last night I was driving down the 405 ( one of the busiest freeways in LA ) to get home as I do every day, and since my house is a straight shot down the route I plunk myself in the fast lane and only change lanes for my exit.

TL;DR //  There’s a carpool lane on the far left, then the lane directly next to it is referred to as the ‘fast lane’. One of the problems with this though is that motorcyclists habitually drive along the dividing like between the carpool and fast lane, which is what happened last night.

To better understand, I will be referring to different cars & lanes so here’s a breakdown:

            Car ‘A’ --- Car directly in front of me             Car ‘B’ --- Car in front of Car A             Car ‘C’ --- Car directly beside me ( left ) in the carpool lane

            Lane 1 --- Carpool Lane             Lane 2 --- Fast Lane             Lane 3 --- Lane directly next to fast lane***

***In total there are 5 lanes, plus Carpool lane, but for now these are the only lanes involved

While driving we were going at about 70mph (120 kmh), and a motorcyclist came up along the dividing line travelling closer to 75-80mph. Just as he was about to speed past Car B, Car B blindly accelerated / veered into the carpool lane to get around a slower vehicle --- and that’s when he sideswiped the cyclist.

The cyclist was knocked off his bike and slammed into Car B ( who from impact immediately fishtailed ), then ricocheted into Car C who locked up their brakes when the body hit his hood, and because of the locked up brakes were unable to swerve, running over the cyclist. The cyclist then rolled several car lengths before coming to a stop ( I would come to realize later ).

Meanwhile, Car A slammed into Car B as they fishtailed upon initial contact, and that’s when pure instincts took over for me. I managed to swerve around the two cars into the next lane over ( to the right ), and thankfully no one was around. I slammed on my own brakes and fishtailed a bit before straightening out and coming to a full stop between lanes 2 & 3. There was no one else around me ( thankfully ), so I was completely untouched.

This is when I noticed / heard Car C and Car B both colliding with each other, then hitting Car A ( who now had stopped fishtailing, facing the on coming cars ), and all three skidded into the barricades for a bit before coming to a complete stop. At this point I didn’t know where the cyclist was, or if he were pinned between the cars.

It took a few seconds but then I carefully got over onto the shoulder where Cars A, B, & C were so I was off the road, and that’s when I got out and saw the cyclist a ways behind on the ground.

( All in all this took under 30 seconds, from first impact to everyone stopping and getting onto the shoulder. But I s2g it felt like HOURS. )

I just stood there as a few people who witnessed what happened pulled over and called 911 --- thank god --- because honestly I was so shaken up I couldn’t comprehend what was happening. I couldn’t feel my legs, and I was shaking, and I almost threw up. I had bottles of water in my trunk from the road trip babe and I just had, so I opened the trunk and tried to have water but was shaking so hard I just stood there trembling.

Miraculously the drivers ( and passengers ) from Cars A, B, and C were all mostly unharmed, no life-threatening injuries, maybe a broken nose or foot at worst, cuts and scrapes, and generally sore but all of them were up and out of their cars and walking around to assess the damage --- what I assume now to be adrenaline, fight or flight response.

It’s been maybe 2 minutes now??? When people say these things happen fast, they happen FAST. It felt like a blur but also as if time stood still? I can mostly just remember the images, and the loud noises, and pieced them together to recreate what happened.

We all rushed over to the cyclist who --- this is where it gets gross --- was soaked with his own blood. He had a mangled leg that was bleeding profusely ( from a broken bone that severed the artery ), along with broken arms. He was wearing a helmet and was unconscious, and we saw that his chest wasn’t moving --- which means he’s wasn’t breathing. He.... he looked dead. I can’t get it out of my head. It was one of the worst things I have ever seen, and I feel sick just thinking about it.

Good samaritan No.1 was an off-duty nurse who started chest compressions and removed the helmet, did CPR, only had to do so for maybe a minute. We were all lucky because there had been a smaller / less serious accident that we passed on the 405, so those responders rushed over and took under 5 minutes to get to where we were.

Once they got here we were all shuffled out of the way, and I sat down next to my car along the barricade, with the other witnesses and uninjured passengers, as the other injured drivers were looked after. Responders were still trying to resuscitate the cyclist when they loaded him into the ambulance. Minutes after he left the Police arrived and took our statements, in the event that charges are pressed, the cyclist dies, etc.

After that the witnesses ( me included ) were let go, and I drove myself home through tears and hyperventilations. In all, it took maybe 30 minutes before we could leave, from time of impact.

I didn’t have a long drive, but it felt long, and when I got home I called the babe and basically had another panic attack. So thanks babe for listening.... I.... I just didn’t know how else to comprehend what happened.

SO IF YOU READ ALL THAT, THAT’S WHY I LOGGED OFF LAST NIGHT. AND I AM SO SORRY IF I WORRIED ANY OF YOU. I had several panic attacks and just needed to try and calm down. I couldn’t even speak. I’m still a bit shaken up by it, and took almost 3 hours to get to work because I drove so slowly.... I also can’t focus because I haven’t heard anything on the news about it, so I don’t know if the cyclist is even alive or not... I just, ugh.

Please let this be a reminder to CHECK. YOUR. BLIND. SPOT. ALWAYS.

Motorcyclists are much smaller than a car, and are harder to see....

So yeah.... again, I am physically unharmed, there is no damage to my car, and I honestly... it’s a miracle that no one hit me, or that I didn’t hit someone else. The universe looked favourably upon me yesterday and I still can’t believe it. I'm going to try focusing on other things today, but if I’m a bit slow it’s because I’m still processing things, so please be patient.

Also, thank-you again so much for all your support. You guys are far too good to me, and I’m sorry for scaring you all. And if you read all this props because it took a long time but yeah. It’s good for me to write it out so I can at least have it as notes if I am called again to give testimony, or something.

I love you guys so much, and just please, PLEASE BE SAFE WHILE DRIVING. These things really do happen in an instant, and it’s easy to forget how heavy, how powerful these machines are until you experience trauma / tragedy.... thank-you again, for listening <3

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HANNAH’S RP HABITS

Name: Hannah Characters: Amelia Smolet, Mabel Pines, Peter Pan, Jon Ratcliffe, Reed Fisch, Sindri Dyrsson

Triggers: Hi, hey, so yeah. I have like one oddly specific trigger that I wasn’t actually too worried about and it’s more of an ooc thing so I obviously wouldn’t expect anyone to stick to it or anything. I will mention it,  though, just because I guess now would be the best time to do so. Even writing it is bad haha. I get really anxious whenever someone says they feel like they’ve been hit by a truck. I know it’s a joke and I used to say it too, but yeah. I get over it eventually but just thought I’d mention it.  Fave Disney Movie(s): This is really hard okay. I fucking love Treasure Planet for so many reasons. I love Peter Pan for so many reasons. Mulan is amazing and I love that one too. I have stories associated with all of these wow. Fucking--The Little Mermaid. When I was little I used to stick the VHS tape in my diaper so I could carry it around with me. It was the old case too that had the penis castle but I loved it so much and carried it around all the time so the art got ripped up and stuff haha. I told my mom she should’ve saved the penis castle from me and she laughed. With Mulan, my sister and her friend and I would watch the training part on repeat. We kept rewinding it and we would like scream the song in her friend’s playhouse so loud that her mom could hear us from the actual house it was great. We did it so much that the tape got stuck. Side note: I really feel I am aging myself in these anecdotes lmao.

Favourite Book(s): I cannot even begin to list my favorite books. I read so fucking much. Yesterday I got tired of the book I was reading (the long winded one) so I picked up a different book and read it all that day. I rip through books. That being said, I have read pretty much everything Stephen King has ever written. I recently discovered another author--Joe Hill--and read a few of his because I liked how they had a Stephen King vibe and then I learned he is STEPHEN KING’S SON so that blew my mind. I’ve now read all of his books. Um, some standalones that fucking murdered me...let’s see. OH before that I’ve read so much Terry Pratchett he’s hilarious. Ugh, TSOA is a recent one that KILLED ME! I also read How To Buy A Love of Reading awhile ago and that book was amazing also (thanks Lauryl). See, this has just turned into a book rant. Oh, if any of you read for like anxiety relief or like to escape Walter Moers is a good place to go he writes like fantastical stuff it’s so funny and cute. He’s a cartoonist too, so all of his books have art in them it’s a really fun journey, man. His books are big, but totally worth it. I FUCKING ALMOST FORGOT BRANDON SANDERSON HOW COULD I DO THAT TO HIM he is fucking so good. He writes the best characters and like his magic systems are all so fascinating I love him so much. Like in the Mistborn books, the magic is from metals that people have to ingest and then they “burn” them off and each metal does a different thing and some people can only use certain ones. Like “steelpushing” is where u burn steel and you can push off of anything metal so like if you drop a coin you can “push” against it and basically u r flying or like jumping really high it’s so cool.  Favourite TV shows (s): Jeez, I haven’t been watching a lot of TV shows recently but I do have my favorites. I’m rewatching Parks and Rec bc that show is fucking great. I love it all. BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER IS THE REAL MVP I LOVE THAT SHIT! wow fuck I need to rewatch that I love it so much. You know what else is good? Coffee Prince. That is something I would rewatch for sure. It’s SO PURE and GREAT!  Best way to communicate with me: *shouts from the rooftops* DISCORD! or shouting from rooftops, honestly.  When you approach me to plot, please… ooo, um don’t be too pushy? I have this problem where it’s really hard for me to say no to people because I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. I mean, usually I’ll probably be all for it. I love me some good plots. I also don’t like when people don’t really take my characters into consideration beyond like using them for the plot. Or they blow me off when I say well I don’t think my character would really do that. I’m not saying that happens here, it’s just something that I have experienced so I figured I’d put it in here. When I approach you to plot, please… love me? Lmao. But yeah, sometimes I get really excited about things and I haven’t like fully thought them through so I’m sorry if I do that to you. Also, be honest with me! If you don’t really want to plot you can say it it’s fine. I don’t want to overload anyone so please don’t feel pressured if I come at you. You can just say aww hannah i’m really slammed on so and so and that’s totally fINE! <3 rp is supposed to be fun so i would hate to pressure people.  My RP Pet Peeves: 

Okay, so I don’t have very many. It’s pretty difficult to peeve me in RP usually just because I feel like we all do this for fun and it’s not really fair of me to get upset about stuff. I will say, though, that not everything my character says has to be responded to lol. I just feel like, sometimes, people tend to look at RP dialogue like a list of things to respond to, but if you think about it that’s not how people talk. I could go on and on for like 10 minutes and then someone will usually just say something about the last thing I said. Or continue the narrative and add their own anecdote. So when other characters respond like it’s a list it makes it feel like i’m reading a list instead of an interaction. So I guess that’s sort of a pet peeve. 

OH I’m not sure if this has happened here yet or not, but it used to happen to me a lot. I DO NOT LIKE when characters respond to things my character is thinking. Or like, if I have a villain who is pretending to be nice? Don’t make ur characters instantly not like him that’s not cool man. They don’t KNOW he sucks until he sucks in their vicinity lmao.

One thing you should know about me before we RP is: I have a job where I have to be a stupid amount of time unfortunately. I also get pretty exhausted at said job sometimes--both emotionally and physically--so if it takes me a little bit to reply that might be why. THAT BEING SAID! I don’t use a thread tracker so if I haven’t replied to you and you are waiting for it please say something. I use my activity to track stuff down and sometimes that’s not very effective. Yesterday I literally almost replied to something for the second time because I looked at the activity and thought I still owed it and that would’ve been embarrassing.