#the individuals of nonbinary persuasion are fighting

[asbestos4president]

THE BOSOM SAGA: A MODERN ART PIECE COMMUNICATED THROUGH THE MEDIUM OF SCREENSHOTS

[socialmxsfit]

KAMENASHI KAZUYA + NONBINARY + HE/THEY ⸻ COMBAT BOOTS SPRAY PAINTED IN FLUORESCENT COLORS, BLOOD SEEPING FROM A WOUND THAT NEVER HEALED PROPERLY, WITHERED FLOWERS ROTTING AWAY IN EMPTY WINE BOTTLES — the previous are indications of an individual wearing a BLACK KITSUNE MASK PAINTED IN NEON COLORS roaming in the city. though sightings of HARUKI SAITO, the THIRTY-ONE year old looking HYBRID, have been scarcely reported in the underground. rumors of their PLAYFUL + STREET SMART demeanor aren’t to be undermined, since admonitions would warn against their RECKLESS + SARCASTIC nature. as our records indicate, they are a part of the GOURMET faction within the ghoul societies. there is no doubt their reputation precedes them as THE TRICKSTER

Character Chart Character’s full name: Haruki Saito Birthdate: November 23rd Species: bitten ghoul Occupation: “errand boy” for the Gourmet Affiliation: The Gourmet

Physical appearance Age: thirty-one Height: 5’11 (182cm) Distinguishing marks: two smaller tattoos: a waning moon on the ring finger of his left hand and a little throwing knife on his right hand, between his thumb and pointing finger Usual fashion of dress: practical and comfortable, in all black, combat boots, torn jeans & oversized hoodies, with an occasional chain and stain of fluorescent paint here and there, messy hair kept in place with the help of colorful beanies Jewelry or accessories: colorful sunglasses, beanies, a few chains and fingerless gloves Ghoul mask: a black kitsune mask handpainted by him in fluorescent colors Kagune: a single ukaku, resembling the wing of a raven

Personality Good personality traits: playful, street smart, persuasive, adaptable, witty Bad personality traits: sarcastic, reckless, unpredictable, destructive, apathetic

Habits Hobbies: destroying public property, bar hopping Spending habits: excessive Smokes: an awful lot Drinks: frequently

Traits Optimist or pessimist?: nihilist Introvert or extrovert?: ambivert Daredevil or cautious?: daredevil Logical or emotional?: logical Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat?: methodical but messy Prefers working or relaxing?: relaxing Confident or unsure of himself/herself?: overconfident

Biography

Haruki always stood out among his family like a sore thumb; he was an unplanned child, by far the youngest among the four children of his family, which put a distance between him and his siblings from the beginning. Their parents, a struggling lower class couple, put too much focus on their jobs and too little of it to the family, leaving the kids to fend for themselves, hence why Haru effectively raised himself... and no one would say that he did a really great job.

He’s always been a slightly twisted child, driven by almost morbid curiosity; while other kids played with toys, he pulled apart his surroundings to bits and pieces, trying to understand how the world worked. He drew his first blood by the time he was eleven, with a butterfly knife he stole from his older brother’s room, and felt no remorse after, no matter how much he was shunned about it. He kept the knife after; it’s with him to this day.

He was definitely a problem child; he longed for a different life, and no matter the cost he wanted to build it for himself. It started with small lies and petty crimes, but soon enough he was wiggling his way into the upper classes and their lavish parties, wooing the wives bored with their current lives. That’s how he met Nadiya, the owner of one of the city’s most prominent restaurants; he worked as a bartender at one of her fancy parties, then another time at her private get-together... And the rest is history.

It definitely wasn’t a healthy relationship; she had him wrapped around her fingers, coaxing him with promises about a life that he longed for, silencing his doubts with expensive gifts and charming words that he easily fell for. This naivety cost him a lot later, when she decided that she needed her plaything bound to her in some way and turned him on his 20th birthday.

That was a rude awakening for him; he never wanted a life like this, and for the longest time he felt really disgusted with what he became. She never made an attempt to help him overcome these issues; as soon as she deemed him ready to manage on his own, she moved on to someone else, and then someone else again.

In some twisted way he’s still attached to her; he used to love her and these feelings never disappeared, only got tainted with blind rage and hatred, and the burning need to draw her blood, let it wash over his ice-cold hands... One day he’ll rip her heart out with his bare hands. Gods be damned if he wouldn’t.

Although he never really fit in with The Gourmet, being way too loud and obnoxious compared to them, he made himself a name among them; he prides himself on being quick and efficient with handling various matters, so while he can’t really be categorized into either of the ranks, they still keep him around for some reason. He sometimes wonders if he’d be better off somewhere else, but never really does anything to move on, go find something better.

He grew into a comfortable routine, having gotten free reign over his life; yet he always pushes the boundaries, wrecking havoc along the way. He hasn’t decided yet if it’s a masterfully crafted plan or just wrecking havoc for the fun of it. Not that he cares; what shall happen, will happen sooner or later anyway, so why fight it? Not that it matters, anyway.

Headcanons

He’s definitely someone that one would call ‘jack of all trades, master of none’; he could fix a car, cook a decent dinner (by human standards at least), do your interior design... but he’s also fairly efficient when it comes to cleaning up evidence and hunting down people, so if you’re looking for a fairly cheap helper to do your dirty jobs, he’s your man.

Initially he tried to, but lately he’s given up on trying to fit in with the regular humans of Nadiris; most of them believe anyway that he’s just really eccentric and obnoxious, not straight up unhinged as he claims to be.

And yes, he does own 137 throwing knives.

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[theramseyloft]

What makes cocks and hens attractive by pigeon standards? We know about crop size, strength, dedication and tenacity are all highly valued, but I don't think any physical traits like color, beak length, body shape, personalities etc were mentioned. I do remember you said Money Penny, Gwen, and Bird-Bird were all considered attractive by pigeon standards, but what about them makes them so desirable?

Pigeons consider ferals and homers to be the most attractive.

It’s all about body shape and attitude.

Money Penny (Show Type Racing Homer) stands very upright. 

She’s well balanced, smooth, and elegant, but she’s also solid, muscular, and adds up to a sturdy looking lady.

Her takes absolutely zero shit attitude declares to the cocks that she can defend herself just fine in their absence, and presents a formidable challenge to attempt wooing,

Look at Gwen (Lahore)

Upright, well balanced, bold.

Takes absolutely no shit from other pigeons, and won’t even look at you if you aren’t up to her very exacting standard.

Here is another fit, sturdy, powerful hen who KNOWS she is attractive and carries herself like a queen.

Bird-Bird is not as big or commanding as the other two hens, but she is the epitome of bird shaped, and she crouches at the drop of a hat, so she, by pigeon standards, just oozes sex appeal.

Unfortunately, the cocks mistake her failure to react to their wooing as playing hard to get, which makes her even more irresistable.

Only Samhi seems to have caught on that she just can’t see, and has started guiding her when she seems stressed. Let’s discuss our current residents attractiveness in detail. ^v^ We’ll go by age.

Sun Tsu (Chinese Owl cock)

Tiny, fluffy, and probably the most.. let’s call him exotic? looking little bird in my flock.

He’s an adorable, beautiful little teddy bear of a bird... by human standards. He’s probably the lowest ranking mature cock in my loft right now.

He has to really work to woo Pitch, and she’s the only hen that spends any time with him.

Bobbi (Old Dutch Capuchine hen)

She’s well balanced and lovely, but she is probably the most slender built of all my hens, and pigeons do NOT like skinny girls!

Then there is her personality.

Despite being hatched here, she is terrified of me!

She’s seen what every other pigeon has, including all the other birds cozying up to me with out incident, but there is no bribing her close.

Now that Yun has left, she is the last human hating hold out.

Luxie is braver than she is.

Aside from Luca, the rest of the flock ignore her like something is wrong with her.

Emillio (Portuguese Tumbler cock)

Emillio is considered to be one of the most attractive cocks in the loft.

He was the only bird Gwen would even acknowledge, because her very exacting standards required a bird that stands like her.

Look at them together.

Smaller than her, with a shorter beak, no muffs, and a little more upright stance are the only structural differences.

Even in this photograph, she’s watching him intently.

Emillio is a bold, energetic little guy, that can out fight cocks WAY bigger than him through sheer, unbreakable tenacity.

His attitude DEMANDS respect from the other cocks, and wins the admiration of the ladies, who you will often see nod or even crouch for him in our youtube videos.

He has strong preferences for his favorite hens, though, and tends not to take side chicks.

Papillion was an interesting exception, but we’ll go into that when we get to her.

His current favorite is Tandy.

Luca (Lucerne cock)

Luca is a very mellow cock, largely keeping to himself with the exception of fearsomely defending the nest he shared with miss Money Penny.

Like Emillio, he tends to be faithfully devoted to his favorites.

He doesn’t do much showing off or arguing outside the nest he has now invited Bobbi into, except with individuals that make a habit of trying to steal his scared box behind his back. (His son, Vynni, and Vynni’s second cousin, Lilly.)

So he doesn’t garner much attention from any one of either sex.

He and Bobbi are off in their own little world most of the time, and here lately, she’s been spending more time by herself.

She will be going to her retirement home on Thursday, and he will ship out to his on Monday.

I doubt it’ll stir much up, besides competition between Vynni and Lilly over his vacated nest box.

Papillion (Old Dutch Capuchine x Show Type Racing Homer hen)

Money Penny’s offspring by Ferdi, and the first cross of our Therapy Project is a gender fluid nonbinary individual.

She presented fully as a cock from six weeks into adulthood.

While she was growing up, we were the most cock-light The Ramsey Loft has ever been.

Gwen was her first love, and even after she reached maturity, Papillion presented so completely as a cock that Gwen accepted her as such.

Unfortunately, upon the arrival of the four fliers of the a-cock-calipse (Hoya, Emillio, Bram, and Luca), Papillion lived through every trans and non binary person’s nightmare: Gwen became aware that Papillion is ‘not a real cock’ and promptly dumped her for Emillio.

For several months, Papillion tried to woo Gwen back.

She’d try to join her in her nest and preen her, only to be punched out by the solid, bony butt of Gwen’s wing.

When she gave up on that, she just stood on the floor in front of Gwen and Emillio’s nest and contact called.

Gwen completely ignored her outside the nest. Would not feed near or acknowledge her existence. 

Emillio, interestingly, treated Papillion as an extension of Gwen, and sort of took her on as a secondary wife. 

She laid the only egg he fertilized, but Gwen kicked her out of her nest and took over helping Emillio raise the chick.

For a while, she presented as a cock until she wanted an egg filled.

Instead of choosing a specific mate, she just crouched to let the cocks take turns on her until every one had had one and then set the egg by herself.

Here lately, she has stopped presenting as anything at all, but she looks enough like her affectionate sister, Cookie, that Sissy occasionally tries to solicit her.

She has not been interested in any one at all for almost a year.

Pitch (Frillback x Old German Owl hen)

Not many of the boys seem all that attracted to her.

Her son, Pj, chases her everywhere trying to woo her. He’s even more enthusiastic about it than Sun Tsu, but she’ll respond favorably to Sun Tsu’s offers.

Cookie (Old Dutch Capuchine x Show Type Racing Homer hen)

One of the most desired birds in the loft. Over all, considered ideally pigeon shaped; well balanced, sturdily built, upright and perky.

She’s the only hen here that sees a cock she wants and determinedly woos him, though she’ll crouch like her sister used to and just take any cock that wants some when she wants an egg filled.

She can be seen in SEVERAL Youtube videos absolutely wrecking Sissy and Valentine’s marriage. 

When ever she saw Sissy kissing Valentine, she’d shove her beak into the other corner of his mouth like a demanding younger squeaker insisting he feed her too.

When ever he’d actually go to step up and tread Valentine, Cookie would dive between them so he’d tread her by mistake.

Eventually, he started seeking her out to tread instead of Valentine, but still wanted to spend most of his time with Valentine, ignoring Cookie when he didn’t want sex.

Pippin actually likes Cookie. He prefers to spend most of his time with her, and was devoted to her eggs.

Right now, he wants to try for another round.

Cara (Chinese Owl x Old Dutch Capuchine)

Though aesthetically pleasing to most of the cocks, Cara doesn’t stick around to be flirted with.

She and Mia were squeakerhood friends that just naturally grew to be a mated pair, and her refusal to acknowledge attempted wooing solidifies her as off limits to the rest of the flock.

Mia (Old Dutch Capuchine x Old German Owl cock)

Most of his wooing and displays are aimed at Cara, or a warning for other cocks to keep out of his way.

The other ladies move when he tells them to, but don;t seek out interaction otherwise.

Sissy (Lahore x Modena cock)

BIG! Strong. tenderly romantic boy. Inherited the upright stance of his father and the solid, muscular build of his mother

He has and is everything the hens want in a mate, and most of them fawn over him.

Valentine (Voorburg Shield Cropper x Frillback-OGO hen)

Val is tall and slender, well balanced, and physically fit.

I’ve mentioned before that pigeons tend not to like skinny chicks. Sissy seems to like that Valentine is eye level to him. 

Pj gets excited when she crouched for Sissy (because he usually gets distracted by Cookie), and being the opportunist that he is, can’t resist trying to tread her.

She is pretty firm about not wanting any one’s attention but Sissy’s, though.

Jet (Archangel x Classic Old Frill cock)

I don’t think pigeons find any specific color other than blue bar and iridescent necks inherently attractive, but they do love a stream lined shape.

Jet, when he’s feeling well, is the epitome of stream lined, and photos do NOT do his iridescence anything even resembling justice.

But part of what makes pigeons attractive to other pigeons is their attitude.

He HAD to have Rigby, when they met, and put all of his effort into wooing her.

Hagrid (Frillback x Giant Homer hen)

Hagrid is everything cocks want in a hen; stream lined, sturdily built, bold, and inquisitive.

Lots of the cocks vie for her attention.

Betty just happened to be the most persuasive.

Sony (3/4 Old German Owl, 1/4 Old dutch Capuchine hen)

Though upright and sturdily built, Sony only seems interesting to other Owl Breeds and Owl breed mixes.

Silk (Lucerne x Old German Owl cock)

Silk’s build is nearly identical to Sony’s, and pigeons are naturally inclined to favor birds built similarly to themselves or their parents.

Sony is the only hen left in the loft that fits that description, and they paired up before either of them were sexually mature.

Betty (Classic Old Frill x Racing Homer cock)

Racing homers are probably the most universally attractive breed to other pigeons, and Betty inherited most of his mother’s build, with his father’s chest frill ad bold, jaunty demeanor.

He is a flamboyant dancer who isn’t afraid to throw his weight around, so he’s gained a fairly high status in the ranks of the Ramsey Flock.

Having won Hagrid over, he likes to parade around her when not sitting on her eggs.

Hagrid finds this immeasurably attractive, and so do several of the hens, who often nod to him in passing.

Rigby (Classic Old Frill x Racing Homer hen)

Betty inherited more of their father’s upright stance, which makes cocks supremely attractive to hens, but Rigby inherited more of her mother’s horizontal stance, which makes hens look ready to be tread and gives cocks the impression of being perfectly balanced to easily support them.

She’s bold and sassy and wants what she wants when she wants it, and the cocks fall all over themselves to woo her when she makes it clear they might have a chance.

Tandy (1/2 Racing Homer, 1/4 Old Dutch Capuchine, 1/4 Show Type Racing Homer)

is presently the most attractive hen in the loft.

She closely resembles a purebred Racing Romer, but the Show Type Racer gives her a bit more bulk and makes her look extra solid.

Nearly every cock here has tried to get Tandy’s attention, but Emillio is a tough cock to compete with.

Pj (1/2 Chinese Owl, 1/4 Frillback, 1/4 Old German Owl cock)

You can see in this boy just how persistently the Frillback build inherits.

He’s gorgeous, even by Pigeon standards, though not exactly their ideal.

His posture, vivid iridescence, and bold attitude are his best features, though the latter can hurdle right into obnoxiousness.

Escher likes him, and doesn’t seem to mind, unless she wants his attention right then, that he tries to woo and tread almost every hen that crosses his line of sight like a horny teen stereotype.

Luxotica is a purebred Racing Homer.

Physically, her elegant, streamlined little body is the epitome of attractive to pigeon cocks.

But her skittish temperament reads to the Ramsey cocks, who know they are safe, a lot like a learning disability.

To most of them, she’s pretty, but not worth the risk of being spooked off her nest by the giant flock Auntie.

Lilly likes her, though, and has been putting in the time to work her slowly out of her wariness by example.

Escher (1/2 Old dutch Capuchine, 1/4 Old German Owl, 1/4 Chinese Owl)

Aesthetically, Escher is beautiful by pigeon standards: well balanced, solidly built, fine featured... 

But to most cocks, her temperament leaves much to be desired.

She is difficult to distract or deter from what she’s doing, and comes across too busy to pay attention to any attempts to flirt with her.

Vynni (Lucerne x Show type Racing Homer cock)

Vynni is VERY aesthetically attractive to hens. Big, tall, solidly muscled, fearsomely tenacious combatant..

But, like Escher, he seems completely tunnel visioned on what ever it is that he’s doing.

Usually, fighting with his father, Luca, and his second cousin, Lilly, over nest boxes.

I have yet to see him attempt to actually woo any one.

Pippin (Feral cock)

Small, but feisty, with a vivid neck and energetic dance moves, Pippin is another in the category of mostly aesthetically pleasing by pigeon standards.

Hens love his attitude, and Cookie was charmed off her little claws by his persistent, sweet wooing.

His tiny size is a bit of a disadvantage. He’s too light to put up serious resistance against another cock that really wants his nest, and pretty much every one knows it.

Lilly (1/2 Racing Homer, 1/4 Old dutch Capuchine, 1/8 Old German Owl, 1/8 Show Type Racing Homer cock)

Lilly is the youngest of our sexually mature birds, having just reached 6 months of age on Monday.

He is SOLID, thanks to being mostly some variant of Homer, and a bold, aggressive combatant that takes no shit from any one.

He was the first of the entire flock to come down and meet adult, thickly muscled racer cock Karen’s aggressive challenge on arrival.

They fought fiercely for nearly 5 minutes, and gained enough of a mutual respect to neither antagonize nor flee each other after that.

He is probably the bravest bird in the loft, and skittish Luxie benefits tremendously from his fearsome protectiveness of her and which ever nest box she wants at any given time.

For these highly intelligent, intensely social birds, appearance alone will NOT win you a mate.

Though they certainly do have their aesthetic preferences: 

Big, solidly built cocks that stand proudly upright, 

and sturdy, stream lined hens with large eyes and slightly finer features who stand more horizontally, (both sexes preferred in blue bar with a vivid neck iridescence...)

A bird with an unpleasant temperament will be ignored no matter how good looking they are.

Both the looks and the personality are required for a pigeon to be attractive to their flock mates.

[all-cursed]

Meet my first OC to have a specific fandom they’re attached to!

So I’ve never created an OC specifically for the universe of a show before, they’ve always been fandomless, but I was excited to create one for Wynonna Earp. I’m going to give him a proper page on the muse list as well as give everyone more detailed biographies eventually, but for now, this should work.

DISCLAIMER: to anyone who may have concerns, please know that I myself am Native American (Blackfoot and Cherokee), and did a lot of research while creating this character to make sure I do them justice and create an actual Native character that isn’t just a stereotype. Some parts that might seem stereotypical - such as the name this character chooses to go by - just comes with the modern era the universe is set in and the character’s own reasons. Several of the struggles he faces as well are specifically chosen because I hope to raise awareness in some small ways to the struggles that IPOC face even today. None of it is meant to be fetishising or stereotypical - some of it just exists in that space as an unfortunate reality.

Alright! Here we go.

                                                       [    i.    STATS   ]

NAME.  meecha wo’i  " crow "  redwolf .   

AGE.  23 as of 1x01 .

DOB.  nov 29th ,  1993 .

GENDER. gender-indifferent cis male  :   prefers he/him or they/them pronouns .

PREF. pansexual but has a preference for men and nonbinary individuals 

SPECIES.  human ,  witch  ,   skinwalker .

RESIDENCE.  the  ghost  river  triangle  .

OCCUPATION. former cashier ; former lead guitar in an up and coming rock band ; current bartender . 

ETHNICITY. in simple terms: native american. specifically: hopi and creek. some scottish but not by much. 

 [    ii.    INTROSPECTION    ]

POSITIVE TRAITS.   curious ,   adaptable ,  perceptive ,   creative ,   passionate ,   loyal ,   perseverant , open-minded , compassionate .

NEUTRAL TRAITS.  persuasive ,   withdrawn (at first; nervous about other’s intentions) ,   secretive , free-wheeling .

NEGATIVE TRAITS.  temperamental ,   unrestrained ,  spiteful ,   reckless ,   capricious ,   hedonistic .

DISLIKES.  sounds of traffic or loud machinery in general &  the sound of metal on metal &  the smell of cheap perfume/cologne &  hot weather &  dust  &  houseflies &  being told (instead of asked) what to do &  rap music &  wool scarves &  fluorescent lights &  lack of hygiene &  orange flavoured candies/sodas/anything that’s not an actual orange &  deep dark waters he can’t see the contents of &  mistreatment of animals &  having assumptions made about him  &  mathematics &  onions &  football  .

LIKES.  the scent and sound of rain &  physical touch &  candles , lighters , and controlled flames in general &  the smell of cedar , pine , and the forest &  music and playing musical instruments &  italian food &  raving about attractive people with others; intoxication is a bonus &  leather; wearing it and the smell of it &  glasses clinking together &  late night talks &  stargazing &  drawing / sketching &  records and record players &  animals &  'stealing’ and wearing the clothes of people he’s close with &  running &  card games &  dancing and singing & creating something out of nothing &  getting the last word .

HOBBIES. drawing &  singing and playing instruments &  exploring / learning as many places as they can like the back of their hand & people watching  &  drinking and bar hopping &  seeking pleasure and adventure wherever he can find it & collecting random things he enjoys / likes .

WEAKNESSES. he’s standoffish until he knows he can trust a person and can come off rude or aloof  & the inability to let go of most grudges &  his tendency to follow his desires and his heart before logic or his mind  &  impulsivity when emotional .

STRENGTHS. independence and ability to function and thrive alone (even if he would prefer to have company it is not mandatory) &  ability to be resourceful and adapt to new situations quickly &  handles time-sensitive situations well due to his tendency to act quick and think later &  stubbornness to stick to a task and see it through &  quick thinking &  agility and speed of inhuman proportions (thanks to his less than human side) .

HABITS. clicking his teeth together repeatedly when annoyed &  flexing  fingers & playing with his hair in absentminded / lazy moments &  silently staring at someone when he’s done with a conversation until they catch the hint and stop talking  &  if there’s music playing within earshot he always ends up swaying to the beat  &  will often make less than human sounds (growls, etc.) when angry if he doesn’t catch himself .

EDUCATION. average  student  throughout  elementary ,  middle &  high  school .  graduated with an equally average gpa of 3.0 , &  decided against college, choosing to seek education in less typical places .  fed up with his family and much of the treatment of his peers, he began to learn magic from a witch he met on one of his regular trips to wander the ghost river triangle and explore & learnt magic and about the more mystical parts of purgatory - ultimately becoming a skinwalker via the witch’s guidance and training .

[  iii. APPEARANCE  ]

FACECLAIM.  booboo stewart . 

HEIGHT.  5 ' 8 " ,  though when able to he wears combat boots that add a few inches to his height . 

EYES.  a very keen and observant hazel when he’s in human form .   when shifting , eye colour can range from yellow to red to green to blue depending on many factors - location , how far he shifts , etc .  always alert and bright unless intoxicated or in very rough shape emotion-wise . often wishes they were green or grey and has considered wearing contacts to change his eyes (human-wise) to those colours.

EYEBROWS.   defined  arch  but not so much so that it’s dramatic .  not too thin and not too bushy , and naturally neat - he rarely has to tend to them and usually only does so to shave a tiny slit or two through them as a stylistic choice .

HAIR.  long and dark ;  sleek with an ever so slight wave to it .  typically worn either down or in a loose ponytail , occasionally sections are braided .  falls just a few inches above his ribcage .  every so often he’ll dye streaks into his hair but has never dyed his whole head .

SCARS.  many . he has a variety of smaller scars from a rowdy childhood; a few faint ones on his hands and arms from scratches borne of cats and dogs . the typical scars that come from falling off bicycles or off swings ; scraped knees and cuts on chins . his forearms especially are covered in scars he prefers not to speak of .  there’s a scar on his forehead from a fight with his cousin as well as a few long scars on his back .

DRESSING STYLE.  it varies depending upon mood and whatever job he has at the time . especially fond of punk / alternative styles , likes leather , and enjoys the comfort of loose and flowing garments. whatever style he happens to choose at any given time , he wears well and somehow always manages to draw attention - whether from the jewelry he accessorises with (varieties of bracelets and cuffs , rings , pendants with gems , etc.)

LIPS.  naturally  full ,  scar at the right corner of his lip , occasionally  sore or split when he goes through anxious phases and tends to chew at his lips .

SKIN.   smooth , tanned . he doesn’t have much body hair , a fact that doesn’t tend to bother him much. he rarely engages in a skincare routine and much like his eyebrows generally stays neat and well-kempt without much effort . does not wear much makeup but enjoys eyeliner from time to time . if not for his skin tone, the dark circles beneath his eyes would be much more visible .

CHEEKS.  defined cheekbones ,   not easily flushed .  sports the occasional scars due to nervous picking when he was younger.

[  iv. ABILITIES  ]

LANGUAGES SPOKEN. english  [ fluent ] ,  hopi  [ conversational &  spellwork language ] , spanish  [ conversational ] .

THREAT LEVEL.  mediocre  to  high .

WEAPONS.  fairly efficient in his understanding of magic and can easily hold his own with either combative or defensive magic ,  but prefers when possible to rely on his own physical skills ; is proficient in hand to hand combat thanks to the speed , agility , and strength bequeathed upon him by his skinwalker nature . very skilled in knifeplay , whether throwing or up close . has little to no practise with firearms as of 1x01 . 

MAGIC. magic learnt by his mentor was primarily elemental based and neutral in that it could easily be manipulated for defensive or offensive ; he was never extremely proficient and left before he could complete his training so he is still learning his limits and the heights he can reach , and wants to branch out . as for the magical abilities granted by his status as skinwalker - he is able to shapeshift , which saps him of certain levels of energy that depend upon what creature he takes the shape of . he is also granted higher than average speed, agility, and strength because of this which he keeps with him even when not shifting.

 [  v. DETAILS  ]

➣➣ he was born in georgia originally to a loving but struggling mother and father - his mother was hopi and his father was creek, and while both parents had originally lived on their own respective reservations, they had met one another by chance during a trip and fallen in love, eventually deciding to seek out their own home outside of the reservations. his parents loved him but struggled financially; eventually his mother’s sister offered to take him in. as that was the better option rather than the three of them becoming homeless, crow’s parents sent him to live with his aunt in arizona on the rez. while they stayed in touch, his parents needed to stay in georgia, and as such he only would see them on the occasional holiday.

➣➣ while his aunt meant well, his cousins were another story. living with his aunt and uncle would have been fine had it not been for their two children; a son and daughter who constantly bullied him behind their backs for not being pure hopi as they were, often harassing him about being a ‘halfbreed’. a quiet boy at heart to boot, he faced bullying in school as well all the way through high school. his cousins, in tenth grade, snooped in his room and found his journal - which they used to out him as pansexual to the school.

➣➣ the moment he graduated, he spent as much time off the rez as possible, avoiding his cousins. on one of his frequent trips to simply explore nearby cities and towns, he found himself in purgatory. one drunken night led to following a mysterious woman into the woods. as it turned out, she was a witch. intrigued and excited at the idea of learning magic and having a way to defend himself, he quickly took her up on her offer to teach him. after a few months, she let him in on her secret - she was a skinwalker.

➣➣ she talked up how powerful she was because of it, and how no one would ever hurt her again. the more he heard about it, the more he wanted it. still unhealed from the way he was treated growing up and too caught up in the concept of never having to be beneath someone ever again, he agreed to let her hold the ceremony that would make him one as well without thinking of the consequences. when she told him that the final task he needed was to kill a family member... he almost faltered but agreed and went back to the rez. 

➣➣ he almost didn’t do it. it was night when he returned, and he could see his male cousin drinking on the porch. the concept of killing someone - even someone like his cousin who had treated him so poorly - was daunting. he might have changed his mind had his cousin not seen him arriving and was immediately being malicious; using homophobic slurs and accusing crow of having run off with a lover, talking about how disgraceful it was. and it all was a blur from there.

➣➣ bringing back a lock of his cousin’s hair to the witch, she finished the rituals and he became the creature she had promised - powerful but at what cost? still wrought with guilt despite having made the ultimate choice, crow left the forests on the outskirts of purgatory where he had been training and into the ghost river triangle itself, unable to go home after what he did and unable to stomach facing the witch. living out of his truck, he went from odd job to odd job, eventually landing a stable job as a cashier at a grocery store. around this time he chose to begin going by the name crow - both to distance himself from his past, and because if someone were to want to control or destroy him now as a skinwalker, they could do so if they knew his true, personal name. as such, a nickname seemed the safest bet. 

➣➣ fastforward to present day (1x01). after a few years of cashiering and attempting to rent rooms and apartments without success, as well as a stint playing guitar for an up and coming rock band, crow landed a job as a bartender at one of the local bars and instead of attempting to rent rooms or apartments, ended up moving into the trailer park. it was sketchy to say the least, but he couldn’t afford anything fancy and clearly didn’t handle having roommates well. a trailer seemed like the next best thing, outside of living in the woods or in his truck. his tendency to mind his own business and expect that of others meant that he mingled with normal purgatory residents and the revenants equally, pursuing his hedonistic nature as he pleased. which was all well and good, until things began to get... a lot more chaotic due to a curse and an heir he had originally had no knowledge of. 

               [ MORE TO COME THROUGHOUT                                               CHARACTERIZATION DEVELOPMENT ]

[trans-advice]

Hey, for the past 5 or so years I have privately identified as nonbinary or not conforming to any gender, and even recently requested that my boss and coworkers use they/them pronouns. About a month ago I stumbled across a "gender critical" blog and started reading it. I know it's a bad idea to engage with trolls, especially when it will impact your sense of self, but I felt restless that my existence was being debated and wanted to hear the other side. Now I am feeling confused (1 o 2 asks)

I’m feeling confused and gross, wondering if all this time I have been actually working against my own feminist beliefs, or if I’m just being naive and getting indoctrinated. Like,I worry about me being a female who simply didn’t subscribe to gender stereotypes, tricking myself into thinking I"wasn’t like the other girls". I have also been wondering about what it means to identify into an oppressed group, and why we can’t talk about it without being dismissed as a dumb TERF. (1 o 2 asks) Thx

— Eve: CW: long post, possibly rambley, could’ve used better editing, transphobia, “gender critical”, recuperation, discussion of “terf” politics, recuperation of liberation movements, politics, oppression, rape culture, anti-fascist, anti-capitalist,

So basically I have tried for almost 4 weeks to write a response detailing this stuff. however it’s gotten too unwieldy. i tried to condense it, but this was as close as i got. it’s practically like 3 drafts back to back. I couldn’t figure out the differences & when i saw similarities it seemed significantly different enough. so I’m not editing any further. here’s a mindvomit. i wish i had this more polished but I can’t do that & i didn’t get a response.

however I’m going to make a history book recommendation, a referral to gendercensus2020, and i need to emphasize that these are much more like personal beliefs & not generally the tone of this blog which aims to give advice & positivity, while this is inherently political, the good bad & ugly. and there are trans people of various persuasions so I don’t want alienate them. i dissecting some ideologies that are transphobic, how they became that, how they got recuperated, and how you can find the same concerns being addressed. I’m answering this because it totally makes sense to me that this is asked in good faith & I want to respect your concerns & show that there are better methods of liberation activism that are trans affirmative, or at least must become & develop into such.

So I’m going to recommend the book “Transgender History (Second Edition)” by Susan Stryker, which I have put on our blog’s google drive account, so hence a link. It goes into the historic common ground between the feminists & LGBT+ peoples. It also gets into historic movements. And on top of that, the first chapter is literally a list of terminology deconstructing gender, which is also helpful for analyzing topics feminism analyzes..

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1IvCwNvCJ_EiDmOer4zS8SbFGz4m-WDJ1

another thing you need to know regarding the label lesbian back in the day is that it was a catchall for any woman who didn’t have sex with men. now granted, this was a cisnormative understanding, but basically lesbians included celibate women, asexual women, and of course bisexual women in addition to gay women.

basically the normal advice of wait til you have your own money to have sex, wait til your mid 20s, don’t rely on a man to pay your bills etc, all of this comes from political lesbianism, which was like be celibate or else have sex that doesn’t involve sperm. (granted, communities cannot be monoliths if they want to be ecosystems, like any movement label there are different interpretations made by members of it, and therefore there are some strands that uphold a homonormative appreciation for conversion therapy. perhaps a middle ground for understanding how that happened is that joke about macho sexuality purity “if a man masturbates with his hand, he’s using a man’s hand to get off, then it’s gay.” granted, there was of course a political/economic reason to this, but still, it seems in terms of history that this joke was considered actually legitimate.)

“lesbian” was a catchall for women who didn’t have sex with men. this included ace, celibate & gynephiliac women. part of the reason these communities were conflated again had to do with the economic pressures to get married which I’ll detail a few paragraphs from now. (while this next thought could be incorrect because I did just learn about ‘compulsory heterosexuality" a month ago, I think the vestiges of those economic pressures are basically the gist of “comphet”.) the goal of political lesbian as well as lesbian separatism was to build an economy/get money that didn’t require submission to patriarchy, via marriage, pregnancy etc. so basically in an effort to build like support networks, “men” were shunned as much as possible.

however these networks ended up replicating capitalism, (partly due to oppression against communes & other anti-capitalist activities) which then replicated the oppressions of capitalism. it makes sense that transphobia had formed of assimilation/respectability politics for such feminists. To quote from the criticism section of the Wikipedia article on the women’s liberation movement.

> The philosophy practised by liberationists assumed a global sisterhood of support working to eliminate inequality without acknowledging that women were not united; other factors, such as age, class, ethnicity, and opportunity (or lack thereof) created spheres wherein women’s interests diverged, and some women felt underrepresented by the WLM.[208] While many women gained an awareness of how sexism permeated their lives, they did not become radicalized and were uninterested in overthrowing society. They made changes in their lives to address their individual needs and social arrangements, but were unwilling to take action on issues that might threaten their socio-economic status.[209] Liberationist theory also failed to recognize a fundamental difference in fighting oppression. Combating sexism had an internal component, whereby one could change the basic power structures within family units and personal spheres to eliminate the inequality. Class struggle and the fight against racism are solely external challenges, requiring public action to eradicate inequality.[210] >

birth control helped to liberate women & that accommodation/handicap for reproductive health disabilities (disability is merely inability to do something that’s Normative. so if having a uterus, pregnancy/menstruation/having breasts etc aren’t considered normal, which is especially common in a patriarchal society for these examples, then it’s disability.) It should be said that due to the desire for bodily autonomy to regulate our own body parts, as well as a desire to manage our fertility & sterilization, the transgender movement has a lot in common with feminism’s female-as-disability movement.)

it should also be noted that before the medical transitioning became accessible that us trans people relied a lot more on social transitioning than medical transitioning. it should also be mentioned that the medical procedures are available & used by cisgender people too.

that being said, since both cis females & transgender women were denied birth control etc, there was a very intense fear of impregnation happening & trans women going back in the closet not only to get money under patriarchy but also because life raising a kid is hard. like if you’ve ever seen “the stepford wives” & look at how the ally husband betrays his feminist wife, then that should clue us into how a lack of birth control scared us.

the problem with the school of feminism that emphasizes physiological sex over gender identity (in order to deny the existence of trans people with female-organs or not) is that it doesn’t account for birth control & how that’s affected the landscape, the economy etc, the revolutionary impact of birth control basically. it also ignores that trans people & cis women feminists have the same goals when it comes to getting freedoms about reproductive rights & bodily autonomy. therefore it ends up being transphobic & wanting to run back into the times when we didn’t have abortion access because they want to hurt us.

That being said though, we need to have birth control & more in order to help liberate trans people too, so if somewhere doesn’t have birth control, then we’re not doing well either because it’d pay a lot more to be transphobic (which of course it doesn’t now when we have birth control & various medical & other technologies). i think what I’m trying to say is that similar to disability accomodations clashing with each other, if we of the women’s liberation, the trans liberation, and the gay & lesbian liberation, and the bisexual & ace liberation get stranded then we’re all doomed. granted we might be doing that due to defensiveness with hostility similar to how in the 1980s feminism got very conservative in USA & how some transgender people get spared in systems with strict gender conformity & anticolonialist values, it’d be wrong to say that all our liberations are in conflict with each other. they can be mishandled, but ultimately, safety still tends to favor cisheteropatriarchal people. internalized patriarchal thinking is like internalized queerphobia, and so forth.

I want to emphasize that it is relatively easy for transgender people especially nonbinary people to find gender critical discourse somewhat appealing. Here’s why: TERFs & Gender Critical discourse is agender-normative disability discourse regarding reproductive health & other AFAB organs. (a disability is being unable to do things that society considers normative. so if you can’t drive & your locale de facto requires it, then that’s a disability. also in usa you’ll find that pregnancy & disability are the main things welfare programs prioritize. a pregnancy can be harmful, but can be easier with the right monitoring etc. which again is the same with disability.)

the problem though is that they then insist on misgendering you as one of the binary genders based on objectification of your body (specifically, “morphology”). point being, because you feel dysphoric over being misgendered as something nonbinary as being mislabeled as cisgender, this implies that you are indeed transgender.

https://gendercensus.com/post/612238605773111296/the-gender-census-2020-is-now-open

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Now to be clear, there are historical economic considerations that made the decisions to specialize on the intersectionality of cisgender AFABs, but the economy & technology has changed. Basically marriage back in the day was economically necessary because there was effectively no birth control available. Therefore, to get child support etc, required getting the father to pay the consequences. However, marriage was very much a chattel property institution, marital rape was still legal, and women couldn’t get credit etc in our own names.

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At the same time, similar to birth control being unavailable, hormones & other procedures for medically transitioning trans people were unavailable as well, which meant social transitioning & wardrobe etc were the main methods of affirming our gender. however, we sometimes got lucky & had a doctor write us a note affirming our gender & sometimes we got even luckier & govts accepted this. this however required getting labelled sick & begging doctors to give us treatment & getting money for this since insurance companies etc still discriminated against transgender people even when we agreed to have our gender identity situation labelled as sick & medically necessary. (similarly insurance companies still refuse to cover abortions & so do some doctors & hospitals.)

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So this meant that AFABs were concerned about getting hijacked via impregnation. Because of the patriarchal economics of the whole thing, people were afraid of “the stepford wives” repeating itself in their own lives, where the mind can only handle what the ass can stand would mean trans women would go back into the closet.

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Granted, that’s a bit misrepresentative of trans women & trans people because trans people & cis women who can get pregnant do have a lot more in common. we take the same meds, go to the same clinics, menopause etc gets taken due to distress over how our bodies work, etc. then again, how would trans AMAB people have gotten the money for child support?

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historically & still to this day we basically had to beg doctors for the ability to get hormones to get a surgery to get a gender marker change & so on, which granted, what we trans people had available to us varied from locale to locale because it required collaborations of trans people, doctors, and the local govts & especially their police stations. again, before roe v wade abortion providers were super underground & secretive & there were specialized units at police stations for hunting down patients & providers under the charge of “murder”. it’s the same dynamics.

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seriously trans people & people with bodies that can get pregnant, menstruate, menopause, etc, we go to the same clinics! women’s health clinics take trans patients, planned parenthood takes trans patients, do i need to go any further on how trans people & feminists have the same interests regarding reproductive health?

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as for political lesbianism:

basically the normal advice of wait til you have your own money before having sex, wait til your mid 20s, don’t rely on a man to pay your bills etc, all of this comes from political lesbianism, which was like be celibate or else have sex that doesn’t involve sperm. (i’m not sure what the conditions were like surrounding not piv sex among the straights, and therefore what the likelihood of avoiding piv sex was. I do know that rape culture was much more heavily normalized than it is now.)

“Lesbian” was a catchall for women who didn’t have sex with men. this included: - ace, - celibate - bisexual - gay women. Part of the reason these communities were conflated again had to do with the economic pressures to get married, (while this next statement could be incorrect because i did just learn about ‘compulsory heterosexuality" a month ago, i think the vestiges of those economic pressures such as weddings are basically the gist of “comphet”.)

The goal of Political Lesbianism as well as Lesbian Separatism was to build an economy that didn’t require submission to patriarchy, such as that of marriage, pregnancy etc. In efforts to build like support networks, “men” were shunned as much as possible.

However these networks, (partly due to lacking radicalization) ended up replicating capitalism, (partly due to oppression against communes & other anti-capitalist activities) which then replicated the oppressions of capitalism. It makes sense that transphobia had formed of assimilation/respectability politics for such feminists. To quote from the criticism section of the Wikipedia article on the women’s liberation movement.

> “The philosophy practised by liberationists assumed a global sisterhood of support working to eliminate inequality without acknowledging that women were not united; other factors, such as age, class, ethnicity, and opportunity (or lack thereof) created spheres wherein women’s interests diverged, and some women felt underrepresented by the WLM.[208] While many women gained an awareness of how sexism permeated their lives, they did not become radicalized and were uninterested in overthrowing society. They made changes in their lives to address their individual needs and social arrangements, but were unwilling to take action on issues that might threaten their socio-economic status.[209] Liberationist theory also failed to recognize a fundamental difference in fighting oppression. Combating sexism had an internal component, whereby one could change the basic power structures within family units and personal spheres to eliminate the inequality. Class struggle and the fight against racism are solely external challenges, requiring public action to eradicate inequality.[210]”