#the fact that hes developed bc of o.uma

[blindedhope]

Romantic Relationships

Saihara is shy. A lot of things make him blush and its easy to embarrass him; whether it be calling him cute or just giving him a present. Him receiving affection from others is just something he isn’t all that familiar with so when it actually happens a truck of emotions hit him at once.

He’s aware that generally most people view romance as a ‘must have experience before death’ type of thing but to him he doesn’t really agree with that. While he does want to enter a relationship and experience what that and beyond is like he doesn’t really have high hopes and doesn’t expect anyone to fall for him. In fact he hasn’t even really experienced romantic feelings towards someone so when it does its just one confusing mess.

Saihara having trouble with romantic feelings can come from a number of reasons

He’s inexperienced, this is all new to him and he doesn’t know how to deal with them

He’s slow in general and it takes a while for things to click, time depending on how much he knows the person

He wants to make sure this is actually romantic feelings and not strong platonic ones

The first two are self explanatory but I’m gonna elaborate on the last one.

Saihara’s life goal ( or at least one of the more major ones ) is to make the people around him happy. He wants to help those in need and cheer them up when they’re down and just be a useful and good friend in general. What this means is he considers someone else’s feelings before his, especially when it has to do with potentially being more than just friends. He doesn’t want to jump in and rush things and put them in an uncomfortable spot. Even when the other person confesses to him and everything clicks he wants to make sure his feelings are genuine before taking the next step. Even when he has fallen in love, he thinks of the other person first and makes sure both ends are actually feeling what they think are feeling. He doesn’t want to enter a relationship built on dishonesty and uncertainty, where in the end one of them gets hurt. This may cause him to slip up though, as sometimes his feelings get the better of him and he will unknowingly start flirting with them because he blurts out his own thoughts before he can stop them.

As for how he acts and feels when he enters a relationship, he acts as caring and loving as he could be. He will put in effort in the relationship and makes sure that they stay safe and happy. While he will be shy and might not be overly pda in the beginning he will do small gestures like hand holds and kisses depending on how comfortable his partner is when it comes to that sort of thing.

He has admitted before that he would never be unfaithful towards someone.

KAEDE: Are you alright, Shuichi? You’re not weirded out by romance or women, right?

SHUICHI: Ah…no?

KAEDE: Oh! And just because you see it happen a lot, that doesn’t mean cheating is okay!

SHUICHI: N-Never! I would never do something so dishonest!

He’s loyal. He would never even think about going out with someone else while he’s already dating. Cheating is disgusting to him. He doesn’t ever want to hurt the person he loves. They and possibly even their family will become his top priority next to his work and training. He’s willing to do anything to keep them safe and happy. He associates anything romantic with his partner to the point where if anyone else tries to flirt with him he won’t notice while if his partner gives a flirty remark it will click a lot faster and he will react better.

There will be a few moments in the relationship when he gets a bit overwhelmed. This is not the fault of the partner, its more him feeling like he doesn’t deserve the love of someone else. Its him putting unnecessary pressure on himself to not make any mistakes and be the good and perfect boyfriend they most likely expect of him. This more or less ties to how he feels when he’s in an investigation. He’s afraid of messing up and afraid of losing what’s most important to him. He feels as if he has to do a lot on his own and deal with them by himself. Of course he is going to mess up here and there, this is still a new thing to him and everyone makes mistakes, and he’s still going to be extremely guilty and beat himself up over it and try to fix it. He doesn’t want anyone to see how weak and vulnerable he can get, especially a significant other. This doesn’t mean he won’t open up to his partner and talk to them, since they would have built a strong amount of trust he will vent about small things to them or actually let things out in the event where he can’t bottle things up anymore and he breaks. Until things like that happen though he puts them before him. Their feelings and safety matter more to him than his own.

Despite this he doesn’t like keeping secrets. He doesn’t like hiding things from them and he will open up about more serious topics down the line and won’t mind having these types of conversations with them as long as no one on either end gets mad or too upset. He will willingly share things to them that he hasn’t shared to anyone else, that's the amount of trust he has for them. If they ask him about there’s a very, very small chance of S.aihara lying to them.

When it comes to receiving affection he’s a shy little ball for a long while, but he’s willing to not let embarrassment stop him if it means he can show his partner that he truly loves them and wants what’s best for them. He’s new to all of this, but he’s going to try his best no matter what. In truth however he’s actually a pretty affectionate person, and once he’s comfortable enough he will shower his partner in different ways of showing how much he loves them, them including expensive gifts, constant cuddles and kisses, love letters, and more.

S.aihara is also extremely submissive. Moments where he takes the wheel are rare and its only when he gets his occasional confidence boosts. His reason being is that he hesitates and he doesn’t want to do anything that may cause harm to the other person. Even when he acts ‘bold’ for once he can stop for a second to make sure whatever he’s doing isn’t hurting them, especially when its things he’s never done before. It doesn’t even have to be something extreme, like neck kisses, he will still stop and pay attention to the other person. He wants to make sure no limits are being crossed and he wants to make sure that whatever he’s doing is still making the other happy. Everything he does involving the relationship is wanting to make the other person happy and strengthen the amount of trust that they’re building.