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it always feels a little weird when people call my rants/me writing about stuff in games i like "analysis" bc i never feel like im 'smart enough tm' for anything like that, like any time i write that kind of stuff i feel like im just incoherently rambling utter bullshit that spins around in my head barely more understandable than a dog imitating human speech, bc i think you have to like .. learn that sort of thinking, no? like pulling a piece of writing apart and analysing its themes and everything, really THINK about stuff- i just ramble about whatever i 'think' about in the moment with no deeper thought about themes and symbolism
at least, thats what i FEEL like, i left school without a degree(?) bc my mental health got too dangerous to continue- but i learned for .. A-levels(?? still not sure if that the right word for that in english lol) and we had literature analysis in german (bc im german .. i guess thats what 'english' classes are for english people? xD) and usually got very high grades for that despite me also feeling like i was talking utter nonsense
(though that was also about stuff i was never rly interested in, and ... to be honest i have no idea what the hell i wrote about anymore either, i dont know if could write anything like that anymore, forgotten all the rules :V)
that doesnt mean i want people to stop calling it that, it was very few anyway, its a bit of flattery (oh?? you thought my rambles were coherent enough to call it that OwO), and a bit -i dont deserve that- (uh oh theres people that think i know what im talking about)
#ganondoodles talks#random#random thought be random#i wish i could THINK tm about stuff and come up with intersting stuff#like -tbskyens boss designs of- series that analyses dark souls etc bosses#he always comes up with stuff id never get too#thats what feels like a proper THOUGHT tm#anyway#idk why i wrote this tbh
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hello!! i have thoughts about the hunger au worldbuilding <3
okay so
will Grian ever have an encounter with the Watchers in the fic (you dont have to answer ofc)?? but if he did,, what would his reaction be???
are they looking for him? did they just let him leave??
because- like. from what i can remember they didnt have any malicious intent towards him?? like Watchers function on a completely different moral level so they didnt mean any harm they DID harm him, y'know? if that makes sense??
also! do they Watchers love him in the sense of like,, parent child love? or do they simply view him as their offspring TM
now that im typing this out i feel like this is all very spoilery ish so you probably wont be able to answer it, but!!! i had to try >:)
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Hey bug anon!!! Dw i can answer these, thanks for asking!! :D
The Watchers wont be showing up in the main fic-- although theres definitely room for them to appear in future oneshots!!! That being said, uhhh.... Grian would NOT have a good reaction to seeing them again. He's got a lot of trauma surrounding them-- thats like, hardcore panic attack breakdown territory if he ever had another encounter.
And the Watchers are looking for him, actually-- community is such a big part of Watcher culture that its anathema to them that he'd ever even want to leave in the first place, and they worry a lot for his safety (considering hes both an integral piece of restoring their population, and because to them, striking out on your own is synonymous with death). They've been looking for him for years now, though by the time the fic takes place, that's tapered off from any active searching. These days, they only look where their feeding happens to take them (many of their colony assume he's dead, but some still hold out hope despite everything).
They didnt let him leave. Grian spent YEARS carefully watching them, cataloging their habits, learning how both they and his new body worked, before making a rapid and desperate escape. But they also didnt hold any malicious intent! Like you said, they just have a completely different moral structure, and ultimately, they were just following their customs. Community values dictate they stick together, so Grian's mad run for freedom took them all terribly by surprise, and was ultimately what gave him the leverage to successfully escape
I think the way Watchers parse the concept of love is very different from ours-- i hesitate to say they loved Grian if only because i dont feel like they define that feeling the same way Players would or even how we do irl. But they did deeply care. Juveniles are highly valued and taken care of by the entire community-- although Grian had the mind of an adult, not a freshly hatched juvenile, so that did make a slight difference in how they viewed him. I think a more accurate way to look at how they felt about him is that of a mentors and mentee relationship, where they taught him how to survive as one of them, and fully incorporated him as a member into their colony. He was genuinely cared for; in my head, i liken them to a well-meaning but very controlling family (though not a nuclear one)
Thanks again for the ask, bug anon!! :D it was nice to get a chance to talk about this!! I definitely want to write the Watchers proper at some point, so who knows-- maybe in a future oneshot, they might appear. Whether thats a pre-canon fic or a future one...... well, who's to say >:]
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LESBIAN ASS COMING IN ok maybe all the girls because last i checked there were only three and thats your max SO them with a super affectionate s/o?? like they are constantly holding their hand or leaning against them?? or maybe even koala hugging them with the tall ladies 🍓
Affections TM
( I hope this display of incredibly soft, hard working woman getting some affection warms your heart!! <3 )
Warning -> Fluff / SFW
Character X FM Reader | Anthology
Includes: Beidou, Jean, Ningguang
Beidou
It doesn’t matter how close or far apart you are from her, she will still find herself drawn to you -- luckily she never has to look very hard because most of the time you are right by her side
She might turn to see you gazing at her, the smile on your face so telling of the affections in your heart -- she’ll be standing at the side of her massive ship and feel the sweet embrace of your arms around her, the comfort of your chest against her back and no matter how chilly the water seems, you’ll always make her warm
She doesn’t mind the close contact, oftentimes she welcomes it, the only thing she worries about is your safety when things start to get unsteady on the choppy seas - but you’ve proven to her how capable you can be in all your skills
The sea was calm, the steady dip and sway of the Crux a constant reminder of the mysteries below. How deep did the water go - what lay just out of her sight and would she ever see the secrets of the depths. Her hands pressed against the deck railing, shoulders locking into place as she leaned against the boat. It was a test to see if your legs could handle the bobbing of the unsteady and, at times, unpredictable ocean temperament but after years of journeying these vast waters, she had no issues.
She closed her eyes and took in the smell of salt mixed with pitch and tar. She’d grown accustomed to the combination but recalled the days where the scent made her retch. Breathing in again, she took in a new scent. Roses and lavender, with a hint of mischief.
“Shouldn’t you be asleep?” Beidou asked, her eyes opening to see you standing in between her arms.
“I couldn’t -- I missed you.” Your smile was as bright as the moon, your fingers as soft as flower petals, voice as delicious as a good bottle of wine. As your fingers ran over her lips she allowed herself to divulge into the taste. “Shouldn’t you also be asleep, captain?” Your tone was playful, experiencing the residual effects of the giggle she coaxed out of your moments before.
“I wanted to check on things, my duties never rest even if I must.” Beidou stepped forward, her hands remaining on the railing even though her body drifted closer to you. The distance didn’t seem to bother you as your arms quickly wrapped around her waist to hold her even closer.
“Then I will check on things with you.”
“Will you now?” She asked, laughing.
“Mhm, you can count on me.”
She adored you and it was easy to see that you returned her feelings -- you always found ways to shower her in your attention, in your affection, and she found herself expecting great things every day
Tonight though, under the light of the moon she took you in her arms and swayed with the help of the ship and the constant, drifting waves
Jean
There are times when she wishes that she can be more available to you, but with all the duties on her plate, she finds it hard to spend more than a few moments here and there. She hopes you understand that her distance isn’t directed at you -- she promises to take every moment that she can to spend it with you
It’s the quick embraces in her office that fill her battery, it’s the soft touches and reassuring gestures that remind her you are happy being with someone so busy, it’s the tender kisses on the cheek when no other eyes can see where she finds herself the most thankful
She never imagined that she’d have someone so incredible as you in her life -- sometimes she wonders if divulging in your generosity, your kindness, your love isn’t selfish … but how could she let anyone else see what you give her every day
Pacing her office was a habit of hers. It helped keep the blood in her legs flowing as she worked longer hours than those around her would like. It wasn’t often that she was able to leave, who knows what might happen if she did. Who might need her advice, support, or solution, so this was the best thing she could get to be physical at times.
Every once in a while she had conversations with Lisa, maybe even finding the chance to stalk Kaeya if only to collect the work he was supposed to return -- though he frequently evaded her. More often than not, she dealt with Klee and her own restless habit. At least Jean’s pacing wouldn’t blow a hole in one of the walls of Mondstadt.
Her mind drifted, her finger pressing against her lips as she worked through the problems outlined in front of her. It was up to her to figure them all out, how exhausting. Jean jumped when she felt something slide around her stomach, her head twisting to see who was entering her space but, when she saw you, her demeanor relaxed substantially.
“You looked stressed.” Your head rested against her, chin finding ground against her shoulder as you looked at her with a tender expression.
“There is a lot to do, but it’s nothing I can’t handle.” She placed her hands onto yours, her thumbs rubbing over your skin.
“Maybe you don’t need to handle them at all?” Jean’s brows furrowed, her eyes shifting as she tried to understand your comment. “I mean, you could give them to someone else you know, delegate.”
“A-ah … then that would just pass the workload onto another, I couldn’t do that.”
“You are quite an impressive woman, Jean, but you can’t do it all alone.”
“It’s my duty …”
“I know, I know.” You pressed a kiss to her neck, the tightness of your embrace increasing as you showed her you understood her position. “How about taking a break then? You need to rest.” You didn’t wait for her to argue. Slowly you brought her to the couch in the corner of her office, making sure she settled into the seat next to you.
“You can keep working if you want, but I’m not letting you get up from here, not for a while anyway.” Jean sighed and resigned herself to your win.
It was easier to give in than try and fight against you anyway, this is why you always won. She had a soft spot for you -- your consideration of her, your patience, your strong will to get her to take some time. You helped her more than she could ever say, and far more than she could ever repay
There was a stir, a shift that pulled Jean from her sleep and when she analyzed her surroundings, she found you resting peacefully on her shoulder. Your hand wrapped around her arm, a blanket draped over the both of you. You looked so peaceful, content -- she smiled and couldn’t deny this was the first time in weeks she felt fully rested
Ningguang
She’s a woman who knows what she wants - the determination, strictness, focus that she has for everything that she does is so incredible there are few that think she must be more than human
Reservation, Composure, Proper - all of these describe how she interacts with others, and when it comes to you she is no different
In the light of the public eye, she treats you with respect -- behind closed doors, she behaves much more attached for she prefers to have you by her side if at all possible - to bathe in your company is like basking in the gaze of Morax himself
Ningguang surrounded herself with documents. Her desk was nearly littered with them, leaving only enough room for a few spare items here and there. It seemed that there was more work to be done after the fall of the Jade Palace and, while she wished to start working on plans for the future, it seemed all her attention was shackled to the present.
Knocking out her pipe into the ashtray, she let it rest so she could stand and organize the current state of work orders piling up behind her. Attendants came and went, their proper work ethic motivating her to continue - how could she expect those around her to keep working hard if she let herself slack. There would be plenty of time to rest once these were through … when that would be though was a question she didn’t have the answers to.
There was a knock at the door, her attention drawn to the soft rapping of knuckles on the rich wooden frame and, when she saw you standing there patiently, she grew more at ease.
“Come in.” She beckons, resting the documents on the table before making her way toward you.
“Are you busy?” You asked, looking over her shoulder at the pile of documents on her desk. While it may appear to others that her duties were smothering, it was common practice for Ningguang to keep records of nearly anything she did.
“There are still many tasks ahead, which we will get to when the time comes. To what do I owe the pleasure?” She felt your fingers wrap around hers and with a soft smile, she let you take them.
“Would you object to me just … hang around for a while?” Your expression was nervous, it was as if you were never fully confident in your standing with her.
“I wouldn’t object, besides, having something nice to look at while one works is good for the heart.” She pushed your chin up as if to remind you to always be yourself around her and when your lips stretched into a smile she knew, once again, that she was right in choosing you.
How could another be allowed to look at your face? How could she handle the thought of you being taken by another -- she often looked at you with eyes you’d swore knew all the answers but love often makes one unsure -- and she was still surprised that you choose a woman like her
A woman who came from nothing, who fought and crawled her way to the place she was today - yet, she couldn’t help but feel that when you looked at her, when your hand rested in hers, when your fingers ran across her skin, that you saw her for the woman she was - nothing more, nothing less - she could be completely herself in your presence
As she continued to work and you offered your input where you could, the two of you never let go of the other hand
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so i just finished season 4, and BOY do i have thoughts
******SPOILER WARNING FOR S.4 OF STRANGER THINGS*******
note: absolutely none of this is going to be in chronological order. my brain is going 100000 miles an hour, i cannot be bothered to sort my thoughts into a proper timeline.
holy. fucking. shit. that season was AMAZING. i think season three may still be my favorite, but GODDAMN DID THEY PULL THROUGH??????
okay, firstly: i got the whole "the orderly is 001 and also victor creel's son" spoiled for me, when i was trying to find the actor and found out like- 2 minutes before the big reveal about what exactly was going on with the dude. tbh, though, it didn't ruin it for me, it just made me more excited to see what came next.
also very proud of the fact that i was able to clock that he was vecna before the actual reveal, both because of his eyes- bright, unnaturally blue, and because of the way he killed the kids. doesn't matter in the slightest but i felt smart for a few minutes so
i cannot WAIT for everyone to reconvene and exchange information. this is what i'm pretty sure everyone has to share, i dont think i'm missing anything?
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joyce/murray/hopper: hopper's alive, the russians have a demogorgon
mike/will/jonathan/argyle: more information on the nina project
el: origin of the gates, brenner's alive, has her powers back, where vecna came from, more information on the nature of both her powers and her personal history
nancy: more information on vecna, saw henry's backstory and will be able to add to el's context on henry/vecna
steve/nancy/robin/eddie: the upside down is stuck in the past on the exact date that will went missing, demo..bats?, more information how communicating through the upside down works, info on watergate
dustin/lucas/max/erica: where the gates are coming from, catch everyone up on what the police know/are doing, save people from vecna w music ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
pretty sure that's everything? i think? lmk if i missed something. but the point is, thats a HUGE amount of information that everyone is going to have to process all at once. at the same time, the more information they have on the upside down, the clearer it'll be on how to beat it.
i would also like to say that That Scene (tm) with max and the running up the hill is quite honestly one of my favorites of the whole show, 'twas beautiful.
i really liked fred for the short amount of time he was on screen, and same with chrissy- i wish they didn't need to die :(
that bitch DESERVED the roller skate to the face and we should be talking about it. fuck her.
cannot wait to see joyce's reaction to finding out everything that her kids/her kids' friends have been up to. she thought she was going wild, skipping off to russia secretly to rescue hopper, meanwhile her children are trying to solve homicides that are being committed by an otherworldly creature that has no clear way to be killed. picturing a completely blank, dead look when they fill her in. petition to let her say fuck, specifically for that scene.
we stan suzie. "i think we spooked a skunk" who's gonna tell her that's weed. and a lot of it. i will take no criticisms of my love for suzie.
also, if steve 'the hair' harrington dies in part two, i die with him. no questions asked. (for legal reasons that's mostly a joke.
but maybe most importantly, the scene where el creates the first gate in order to,,, banish? 001 raises SO many questions. dustin's initial thought as to how vecna fit in with the mindflayer was that he was some sort of five star general, as opposed to the demogorgons being foot soldiers. but considering that vecna/henry/001 seems to be the first thing in the upside down, does that mean that it's kind of the other way around? i feel like vecna has somehow created the mindflayer/demogorgons/demodogs, but now the question is how. i mean, he's been creating the gates by killing people through psychic whatever it's called, but how does that translate into the other creatures? is there another party on hand, one that we don't know about yet? is that how season 5 is going to wrap up the show, with the characters and us gaining a full understanding of the creation of the upside down?
god, i love this show so much. they've done an absolutely INCREDIBLE job this season, i'm in absolute shock. i cannot wait for part two, im going to SCREAM and immediately drop EVERYTHING the day it comes out.
anyways, anyone else have thoughts?
oh, and finally: give the people what they want. give us canon byler.
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tw s/h, psychosis (?) , unreality, death
i legitimately think i might have had a psychotic episode a few weeks (? not sure how long) ago. cause uh. i really was convinced i had superpowers and i needed to draw blood to use them and a few times i thought i actually made stuff move with telekinesis (not sure if that was like intense delusion or some strangely well-incorporated minor hallucination) and that i was having prophetic dreams/visions and. i saw a word written on one of my friends legs and questioned her abt what that meant to her bc i thought that was an indication of the future. and then i got mad at her for ‘lying’ to me. mm.
also separately-ish ig, i thought that i was in a dream (psych said i was dissociating but then got Concerned TM when i told her i truly believed this whole world wasnt real, and that she wasnt real, so i stopped talking)... like i was in a coma and everyone was fake and a couple times i got so exasperated about it that i just starting telling myself out loud that no one was real and doing repetitive motions to calm myself which freaked a couple ppl out, but i walked off before they could press into it. and i felt so angry that everyone was lying to me and all the minor things that i had previously thought of as like “yeah... thats not right, thats not real i think, but i believe it, and it could become a proper delusion if i feed into it”. those all got way more “real” to me and it was terrifying and i felt like i was gonna die.
everything was too loud and too much and it felt like all my emotions were numb but my reactions/responses were turned up to level 1000. so. huh. i think that was not okay? i feel pretty alright now since its been some time but like. i dont know what to do about that????? do i tell my psychologist?? is that normal for someone whose only current diagnosis is depression??
tl;dr i think i experienced psychosis symptoms and i need advice
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hello friend i have a question. could u. explain what u love about kyle to me and how it differs from sami bc. i know u love sami a Lot and u also love kyle A lot and i was just wondering. howur love is different for them. thank u bye
god. ok. ok. im gonna be Super inarticulate & incomprehensible bc i still dont know how to take thoughts & feelings & put them to proper words. but. First i think theres a faw Similarities to note, they both talk abt wrestling as an Art (as Theatre) & put a Lot of time effort & thought into planning (sami w the "obnoxious & aggravating but Always Right" energy kevin has talked abt, kyle w constantly proposing big & creative bumps for Himself to be on the receiving end of, treating every match as an opportunity to Try Something New), the specific brand of cartoonish wobbly legged selling, the constant circulation of Friend-Or-Foe with real life (tm) friends (to the point where even kyles said hed be thrilled if he & adam were to get to a point with their dynamic that harkens to sami & kevins unending orbit around each other. i guess im not as,,, informed abt samis Early Path but the sheer ENERGY of kyle literally border hopping with no paperwork to his name Repeatedly to drive between vancouver & st louis, back and forth to be trained by & work with davey richards in the states, but go back to bc to actually legally earn income so he could keep living in st louis........... thats incredible. thats genuine Dedication to the art. im abt to get unnecessarily & uncharacteristically poetic on main for a minute bc i rlly cant think of a way to actually. Describe the difference in feeling. sami is the warm scent of olive oil the house of an old friend of mine always carries, Comforting & Familiar & Welcoming. but kyle is like. the lake breeze at my grandparents house on the shoreline of lake huron. the second it hits you, you know youre supposed to be there, it feels Right just closing yr eyes & breathing it in. its Home & you can feel yr chest swell w love & pride & belonging with every moment you spend letting it flow around you. and its. 4am & this is Already getting out of hand & its definitely not gonna get any MORE coherent if i keep going so im gonna cut myself off but idk if ive even Remotely answered yr question
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alright so i have. a lot of questions and thoughts on changeling physiology
tldr it’s quite unorganized so; asexual reproduction, shifting is a natural instinct but can be expanded through study and discipline, Form is easier to reproduce than Function, changelings passively absorb energy via background radiation, conservation of mass... ha, energy efficiency, regeneration is an aware but subdued/vulnerable state, you can sneak up on odo but not most changelings, exaggerated and inhuman movement, language and body language learning, Viscosity tm, vital organs exist, injury and physical tolerance, focusing the senses...
asexual reproduction. loads of possibilities here. they might split in two (which could mean they’re really all clones of one another or else slight variations on an original) or lob a bit of themselves off which then begins to form a new individual. they might fragment off and start growing more individuals from themselves until they’re mature enough to carry on, or they might produce spores!!! OR they might reproduce the way coral do. the main complication is that this is meant for simple or single-celled organisms and also maybe leaves them all more vulnerable to that Clone Problem of being wiped out by a single virus. but perhaps their ability to mimic other types of dna is involved in providing new individuals with a robust enough mix of original genes to be baseline Adaptable
also a problem with simple organisms is that they propagate Extremely quickly and tend to be short-lived and. unintelligent (think fruit flies) so - changelings could have a fair few ‘simple organism’ traits but are ofc complex in reality
the mimicry -- do they actually become the material?? if you scan a changeling as a rock, they have the make up of a rock. but what about more complex materials? or systems? like fire? that requires energy input. im gonna go with: 1. depends on skill level 2. some things like fire they can mimic visually, maybe even with proper light and heat, but does take energy to do so.
speaking of which HOW do they get energy. i think i rambled about this a little in another post, but basically im going with the idea that they’re sort of filter feeders on the dust of the universe... they’re just VERY energy-efficient and collecting these little bits of radiation being thrown around space is a passive activity. i.e. odo probs wouldnt even know he does it, even though he does it constantly.
um. conservation of mass. the biggest thing ive seen odo turn into is that blob-monster, which was maybe 10′x10′ ? 15 at most? large, but probably somewhat unstable, and not huge. the smallest thing in canon is probably the mouse. ive seen the idea that humanoid-formed odo might be. hollow? there’s no need for him to actually form internal organs or any of that, its all surface-level, and besides. if we’re going with the idea that they can reproduce Form more than Function, they wouldnt actually work. he doesnt even eat anyway, so why waste that kinda energy?
that said!! there are probably some basic object functions they can reproduce. im gonna say that maybe your average changeling isnt going to be able to make a microwave that actually microwaves (not without a great deal of practice and scientific understanding), but could more easily become a lamp, for instance, that does actually turn on. that means they have some ability for bioluminescence, but again that requires energy and would shorten the time they can hold that shape.
regeneration obvs. is a chance to re-acquire energy, but we’re told odo doesnt sleep - it’s still a resting state, but maybe he’s still at least somewhat aware of his surroundings, if a bit unable to focus. he certainly seems to still undergo thought processes, etc. but if attacked in this state, he’ll be quite vulnerable, esp if he’s just reached hour 16, but he wont be completely defenseless. WAY more likely to hide than retaliate though, esp depending on where in the cycle he happens to be at the time -- even if that werent also kinda his personality. maybe its like bein rly rly rly tired but ur brain wont keep quiet.
kinda enjoy the idea of changelings becoming a little translucent or misshapen when they zone out. it takes some effort, practice, skill to remain present. a habit!
im sure he doesnt really bother to maintain constant humanoid-shape unless someone’s likely to look at him. could see him MAYBE being caught unawares, on occasion, whoops. very rarely, but how embarrassing
on that note, if you’re able to sneak up on odo and surprise him, he might momentarily jump a little out of shape (like a cartoon, exaggerated). other emotions like disgust or haughtiness might come off a little exaggerated too
at large, humanoid body language is a learned language for changelings, even if they can pick it up very quickly
odo’s got his humanoid walk cycle down pretty good but probably not perfectly, actually. i sort of imagine it could be a little more flowing -- not always -- but if he’s doing something he normally doesnt do, he moves a little less like a human bc he hasnt practiced it enough
ok whats the viscosity of changelings? like..... really runny and liquidy? j.... jelly? i kinda refer back to single-celled organisms again. cytoplasm w control.
in fact odo probably has some very simple (or maybe very complex, considering, but able to disguise themselves accordingly. so simple-appearing?) organs going on in there as well as cytoplasm of some sort
they dont sweat, they dont bleed, they dont smell, they dont taste, they dont sleep
they DO see, hear, are tactile, and feel most emotions that humans do. some of that emotions stuff is cultural
losing a little tiny bit of themselves (injury, i.e., a bit chopped off by a weapon) probs doesnt really hurt much more than getting a scrape, but if u like chop em in half thats gonna be Bad. but most surface level damage is just like getting a haircut or something, no pain. re: that scene with odo stopping the turbolift like.... that could’ve been painful
FOCUS!! sight, sound, etc - im writing senses as things that dont necessarily need to be located in the. face. bc they dont. but im thinking odo tends to concentrate it of course to better interact with others. that means technically - he could. .. . ‘accumulate light sensors’ and see out the back of his head, for instance, even without forming eyes, but because odo’s odo and he’s really trying to fit in he usually wont do that sort of thing and you can still sneak up on him. sometimes he even forgets he can do that kind of thing, when he’s humanoid-formed (unless he’s startled -- then he might revert to more ‘natural’ reactions) - bc he really hasnt spent any time with his people at all
this doesnt even get into the Great Link and changelings being a little bit touch-psychic
another thought !! i like the idea of one limitation being that he has to have seen / experienced in-person / studied / encountered / been exposed to an object, person, or animal to really become it. that’s where skill comes in -- some things are going to come very naturally, like shapes that are common in the universe such as rocks or. plants, in star trek . they can learn by description or by looking at images and making their best guess, but its not gonna be totally accurate. so - some shapes come from study, like humanoids, and others come more by instinct like rocks and dirt and water, like learning to talk.
so when did odo meet a klingon targ omg
also means they are instinctually EXCELLENT observers, both of material and behavior
but imagine a bird or smth speaking in odos voice yikes
speaking of speaking, odo speaks bajoran and doesnt really know any other languages on his own, except workable cardassian. i.e. he’d have to learn to speak seagull
what if bc odo’s learning and sort of stunted in skill bc of his upbringing and inhibitions his face is..... actually made of latex, sometimes, like when he needs to save energy he goes Low Poly Rendering cos its close enough, and easier, and he’s interacted with plenty of latex and other Made materials bc he’s hardly lived at all anywhere that wasnt built-up by life forms. (probs partly why he seems so interested in practicing other animals and plants -- natural shapes are not shapes he’s been as exposed to, so they’re more interesting - and dynamic - than say, furniture / appliances)
he gives off no body heat, but neither is he cold. room temp, with a wide tolerance
can survive in space and vacuums
they seem somewhat naturally stronger than humans, esp as a sturdy material
some of them can become a magnet, thats just aligning poles / can then reproduce some basic electronics functions
at least they seem to have pretty comparable intelligence to humans so that’s relatable
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okokok i know i said id do this later but im still sitting in a car and suddenly was Overcome so here it is now. sorry i still dont know how to do readmores on mobile
kakyoinposting hours begin
i think that kakyoin is so interesting both in and of himself and in regards to how he’s treated and interpreted in the fandom
he’s a guy with many faces and that people take whatever facet that appeals to them and amplifies it is rly fascinating 2 me bc i think its very indicative of the person. i think its very cool that he occupies this juncture of, like, proper & polite with an undercurrent of ... i dont want to say viciousness because thats not quite what i want to convey... but he has sharp edges, while at the same time being just a little bit weird and cryptid. but he’s also a bundle of self preservation and survival, in regards to his, like, social interactions with others and interpersonal connections. pushing and pulling any number of these things creates almost a unique character every time, it feels like. a fork off the master branch. you know what i mean? and none of them are necessarily “wrong” for doing so, but i feel like there’s a lot more opportunity for variety with him than with other characters. kakyoin is an enigma. but also he’s kind of not,
marge simpson voice I Just Think Hes Neat
i think that also speaks to his depth as a character, too. i heard that araki had planned a 19 page backstory for him but his editors nixed it in favor of action and i would LOVE to see what he had planned for him, how much it would add and/or explain
i like him a lot!!!!!!!!!!! and it’s kind of funny (but not, i guess) because he barely registered on my radar the first time i went thru stardust crusaders. i didnt dislike him but he didnt make a huge impression. but now im like
also hey check out this concept that i got very excited about today
this is just a Fun Headcanon(tm) and i dont know if it quite falls under the umbrella of “thoughts about kakyoin” contextually but. wrrr
Thoughts on the boi kak?
luv that bean
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