#thats not what i mean tagging system please stop

[melodygirl239]

Do people seriously think I have the attention span to understand the difference between ADHD and ADD?

[lucabyte]

On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

Bonus:

[bunnyboy-juice]

honestly. being able to be honest with my loved ones about when i am Mentally Unwell but also Dont Want To Talk About It has done wonders for my mental health

[lonigiri]

arcade chapter two; pickup line

masterlist

"nowadays all i do is shine take a breath and ease my mind" - 2009 - mac miller

yn sat at the bar, drinking whatever kiyoko had put into her hand. she thought that going to the bar would make her feel better but wow drinking doesnt make her feel better who would've guessed?

"hey, whats your name?"

yn turned her head, ready to reject whatever ugo was trying to flirt with her. instead of seeing an ugly incel she saw a pretty guy. "oh um hey, its yn, what about you?"

"oh its atsumu, but you can call me yours." he flashed a charming smile at her. she rolled her eyes at him and laughed at his advances. the alcohol in her system somehow made her want to go along with him. she watched as he ordered a drink both for him and her making her stomach knot up a bit.

"awe thanks you didnt have to do that!"

"of course i did, a pretty girl like you should be spoiled!" a smile grew on her face and she waved him off shaking her head at him. "oh stop it, im not that pretty." "have you looked in the mirror ever? like genuinely asking." she smiled again, her cheeks starting to hurt because of his flirting. the alcohol on her empty stomach not helping the situation.

she looked down at her phone for a second seeing the groupchat blowing up. she didnt read any of the messages she just out her phone on do not disturb and placed it back down on her lap. looking back at the pretty man that kept buying her drinks.--she knows that he told her his name but she did not remember it if she was being 100% honest--. he was talking to this guy. her eyebrows furrowed trying to hear whatever they were saying but she couldnt make out anything they were saying over the loud music.

"atsumu leave her alone, shes drunk, dont take advantage of her." "shes having a good time! if she didnt want me here she would tell me, right?" the man turned around and looked at her for approval, but all she could see was the man that stood behind her. the regular from the arcade. she thought she was seeing things so she blinked a couple times to make out what she was seeing.

"do i know you from somewhere?" she spoke. "hey i just asked you a question?" atsumu desperately trying to get her attention back. "are you from the arcade?" the man standing behind atsumu said, his eyebrows furrowing. "oh my god. is this is hot girl from the arcade!!??" atsumu said to the guy that was standing behind him. "i think what i said was pretty, but yeah thats her." the mystery man talked to atsumu but was staring at yn. his focus snapped straight to atsumu and then grabbed him by the ear and dragged him away from the bar. "hey i never got your- he cant hear me."

"hey wheres that blonde dude?" kiyoko came up to yn talking to her from across the bar. "arcade dude was here." "arcade dude? you mean YOUR arcade dude??" "yeah i guess he's friends with the blonde?"

fun facts!

-atsumu HATES going to the bar

-noya is NEVER a casual drinker, he drinks to get BLACKOUT drunk i wish i was kidding

-yns drink of choice is a vodka cranberry w a splash of soda water

-once yn gets 6 drinks in kiyoko starts adding less and less vodka to her drinks until they basically turn into cranberry soda

-atsumu scoped out the bar and then went up to the prettiest girl that was there and that happened to be yn

-oikawa was genuinely suprised when atsumu started talking to yn and she didnt turn him away instantly

-atsumu has the same 5 pickup lines that (usually) never work

-yeah yn and bokuto still dont know who tf eachother are

tags- @itsdragonius @koshox @miss-manipulative @rrosiitas @celestialsabrina @deluluforcarlos55 @tsumtsumya @gigiiiiislife @dazqa @soobin1437 @thiisisntlovely @nymphsdomain @kagsoup @secondary-character-25 @fefesooli @walllflowerrrsss @giocriedpower @zukly @jaynawayna

(if your name is bolded i am NOT able to tag you please go to your settings and change it to where everyone can tag you) (if you want to be tagged the form is in my masterlist that is linked above)

[the-sour-patch-crew]

While blocking we noticed people were getting pissed about "endos" coming at the new application Octocon (also searching it just gives links about an Irish Convention soooo thats fun).

Apparently, it's because we are mad endogenic plurality isn't being included as its primary target audience???? Really? You think that's it?

You think its because we don't want traumagenic systems to have their own tools? To have an application that focuses on them and not us?

Baby girl, that's not what people are doing. (If this is your reason for attacking the application, then kindly remove yourself from the internet).

You now have a dedicated tool for traumagenic systems to use with resources (im assuming) specifically for CDD systems. And that's great! Fantastic! Glad to see more options and variety out there for systems. My only problem with it is that it doesn't allow freedom to speak about plurality outside of what the people who run it deem as "acceptable".

The thing is, if you are making an application for traumagenic systems, then you are making it for ALL traumagenic systems. That includes pro endo traumagenic systems or traumagenic systems with created headmates. Crazy idea, am I right?

This is a lie. It's not inclusive. You can't freely share experiences. This is why I am going after the app and saying it needs to advertise appropriately. The only time you get a real taste of what the community stands for is when you join the Discord server. *If* you join the discord server.

Again, you can have your tools. I'm happy for you. But I'm going to be critical of it just like I was critical of the syspunk tag. Saying something is inclusive means you must also be inclusive to traumagenic systems that experience plurality outside of their trauma. That also have created headmates. That also support endogenic plurality. Who's experience isn't going to align with what you think is "correct".

Technically, everyone can use this app and you've acknowledged you can't stop them. So again, no reason for anyone to be jelous or mad.

BUT when anti endos are celebrating the application, and then you see Octocon's stance on endogenic plurality, it's QUITE clear it's just another anti endo application, and people have a right to know.

You aren't JUST about misinformation. It's okay to admit it. Admit you are an anti, its fine. But for the safety of traumatized systems who may join your "welcoming and inclusive" community, they have a right to know upfront. People have a right to know who and what they are supporting without having to join the Discord server. They have a right to know because there are traumatized systems that have been hurt and fakeclaimed constantly by other traumagenic systems who are "against misinformation" and endogenic plurality. AKA anti-endos. Facts.

I'm not crying about Octocon existing and being a tool for traumagenic systems. Again, I'm thrilled to see more resources for systems. It should be something to celebrate. But, false advertising really grinds my gears. So yeah. I'm going to bitch about it.

I'm not trying to murder your project right out the door. I just want proper transparency.

If you want to discuss this and vouch for the application, then please feel free to. If you are blocked, sorry, you'll just have to sit on it. If you are a traumagenic (not an anti) and think I'm being unfair, then also let me know!

[tojisun]

Firstly, I'm not a hater. If you're so incapable of reading, it's your problem! I never criticized her work, specifically the character. Can't I share my opinion? I just can't imagine Simon with such a person; it's purely impossible for me to imagine Simon liking such a person, okay? AND YES, I KNOW IT'S A FANFIC. This blog is a safe space for me; I often write about what I think, and many of my asks or thoughts have been received very well. Secondly, oh my god, I didn't know you could filter tags. Thanks for that advice; it's already done.

Sun, once again, if my comment offended you  you, I'm sorry. I didn't mean you or your work. I love you very much, and I adore your work. I apologize if my ask hurt or bothered you.

hi hi!! thank u sm for sending this to clarify!!

and im sorry too for how ur ask had snowballed (but pls do understand that it is not made out of exaggeration as there has always been an influx of criticisms on works when authors dont ask for it; ur ask is not the first and would not be the last- it has been one, though, that was not truly made with the intention of hurting and for that im thankful too)

thats not to say that ur not allowed to share ur opinion!! but that goes on my end too. it just so happened that urs is a ‘criticism’ (using this term loosely) while mine is a fic/work. the avenues we used to share our opinions differ so pls also understand why reactions about our opinions vary. so when u sent the “please stop with this xyz” on my page that has reiterated how writing xyz is personal and fun to me, it was startling

that said, im glad that ur able to figure out how to use the filter system!! it helped me bunch when i didnt wanna see stuff my moots would reblog bc my main blog is linked to other blogs so sometimes when im out of a fandom for years now (ex. marvel) i filter them too!!

this got sooooor long but thank u sm for reaching back out!! stay warm and hydrated, and take care ^v^

[dyedfrog]

the ULTIMATE OMORI fanfic recs because one of my favs just ended and it deserves more recognition!!

Okay lets start this off with the one in question (also not in any particular order)

These Days Without You by Smitty1899. absolutely beautiful, please read it this fanfic needs more of a community around it

By Your Side Once More, or, How Sunny Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Occult by Keltikknight. the suzuki siblings and their immaculate sense of humour. thats all i have to say

A New Dawn In Sunless Skies by letos. i wish this one would update again its got such a cool premise.

Sinking and Heroism by TenPes. linking them together because they're not part of a series.

The Faraway Event by kinemortomoli. me putting this here is actually a cry for help. i dont think this fanfic is dead but i cant suffer alone

Tired by Sunburner. this is pretty short and sweet (more like sad, depending on your ending preference)

DEADSPACE by Es_Novels. this one is so eerie as many zombie fanfics are, but i think the imagery makes this one take the cake

Car Trouble by Smitty1899. oh my god

Birthday Picnic by ToxicPineapple. poor kel. he saw mari like a big sister

stuck on one day for the rest of my life by lowbatteryhealth. we as a fandom need more hero angst

Reciting Wrongly by JonRightBackAtcha. not gonna say anything, just read it

Other Half of The Whole by JonRightBackAtcha. did not realise this and 11 were written by the same person. huh.

Fates of Damnation by Anonymous. oh my got two electric boogaloo

heat haze by crowcinthus. as someone who knows nothing about kagerou project wow

The Healing Properties of Reading a Book Out Loud to Your Loved Ones, and Other Domestic Bullshit by Prince_Enby. this ones good even if it hasnt updated in a while

In Which Sunny Is Bad At Naming Things by Prince_Enby. let me introduce you to the chatfic ever

I'll Cherish You Forever by phoeberrie. tiny bit hesitant to recommend this one bc of the themes but there is another fanfic later on this list with similar themes that is basically on every omori rec list ever so just a warning for stalking, obsession and gore. also, heed the tags. its good but not everyone will be comfortable with it.

Sorry as Can Be, For Whatever That Means by JonRightBackAtcha. quite a few fanfics by this author on here. but what can i say, they're great.

sinking. by marlkarx1. this is really good, also pretty dark. heed the tags.

Despite everything by Aisenic_Warrior. another legendary fic with no updates for over a year.

Sometimes a Knife Fight at 3am Can Mend Any Friendship by Shrimp_fry_rice. i dont believe it. you're telling me a shrimp frying rice wrote this fic?

Overwatered Garden by otomerson. rip flower boy lmao (im crying)

Picnic with Mari AU by Gornkleschnitzer. just gonna recommend the whole au

One More Time by GalileoGalilei. think of a 'watching the show' fanfic but its omori post-bad ending. now that i think about it, a version of this fic but they're watching an unserious playthrough on youtube would be kind of funny.

Sometimes Goodbye is a Second Chance by Smitty1899. whatever you're expecting to happen, you're wrong.

Amusia by JonRightBackAtcha. the legend. i wonder how many times this author has appeared on this list.

Kel kicks Sunny's door down by otomerson. attempted hikkikomori route

The Everyday Shenanigans of Something by Practicallyunethical. obsessed with the references in here.

Reality Check, Please by Paramocks. this fanfic has the kind of humour that could kill a christian grandmother.

Endless Dreaming by otomerson. this fanfiction is so beautiful it can make a grown man cry and thats okay (i dont know the quote dont kill me) please read it

Their Time by ShardOfHope. man this fanfic HURTS. you better read it.

The House That Breathes by Shifting_Walls. THIS IS SO GOOD

Broken Space by SpoonusBoius. yes, this fanfic is dark, but i feel people greatly exaggerate it. its not darker than pursuit, don't worry.

The Sun in Another Solar System by TellThemNaegi. if you look through this entire list while only reading one fanfic from here, please let it be this one. i have been totally fixated on this one and it deserves a mini-community of its own just like some other aus.

You're back, Mari by Anonymous. i hope you all expected this one. this is the mentioned one on no.17. im not sure how many trigger warnings i need considering this entire fic is so infamous i'd be shocked if someone didn't know. i don't want to risk spoiling it so just look at the tags. i was debating putting the sequel on here but decided against it. after all, the absolutely visceral reaction the pursuit au can garner from the fandom after just being mentioned probably has enough potential for a case study.

And there it is. the ultimate omori fanfic rec list consisting of 35 fanfic recs (I was originally gonna put way more on here but i got lazy near the end and put only my all time favourites)

[starlitgroves]

more syscourse cause im mad feel free to skip

im not gonna tag this or mention anyone specifically because i dont want to be fucking attacked but our largely inflated sense of justice is going GRGRGRGGR so i need to make my point a bit here so im sure weve all seen the pluralpunk system punk argument currently going on, at this point i was about to go yay !! new tag so people will stop bitching and leave each other alone !!! but noooooo someone went and made a flag going grgr i hate anti endos heres a flag with a dead animal in the mouth of its predator. which, weird in the first place to make that, why are you so pressed its a tag on tumblr pls go touch grass, but depicting a prey animal DEAD on a flag 'reclaiming a term from the evil stupid antis' is?? did you not connect the dots??? that people would interpret it this way???? like if its reallyyy about the field of psychiatry as a whole sure whatever, but don't get mad at people for missing your symbolism when the thing youre symbolising had nothing to do with the conversation.

and THEN theres the people attacking the person who pointed this out are?? are they ok??? like, idk abotu yall but they probably just opened the syspunk tag, saw that bullshit, blocked, then went 'hey guys thats really weird' on their own account, they most likely !!! did not go snooping on that persons account first to see if that person has a cdd or not before blocking because !!! thats kinda weird !!! same thread for the people who are going 'I HAVE A FUCKKING CDD BITCH YOU FCUCKING BITCH WE HATE YOU ANTI ENDOS ARE EVIL YOURE VICTIMISING YOURSELF BECAUSE ME AND THIS OTHER RANDOM GUY AND THE CREATOR OF THE FLAG HAVE CDDS' compared to the people i have personally seen saying 'chains + predator + its dead prey + creator aggressively hating a group of people = people in that group thinking it was targeted' girl.... nobody cares if you have a cdd or not you're just mean, youre just yelling at abused kids, idc if you were also or are also an abused kid, having a shit life does not make you unable to make someone elses life shittier also even the creators response if awful,, like 'idc if you feel unsafe by the possible insinuation that people are going to hurt you' ??? weird which brings me to YET ANOTHER POINT because no im not done i could talk about how stupid some people are forever the extremely negative generalisations (which are on both side, but i'm specifically referencing the response from the flag maker, specifically specifically "tbh If it made anti endos feel unsafe..I kinda don’t care lol anti endos never made anyone feel safe" do you now see how cynical that is?? why do i feel like i have to beg people to treat each other with like a smidge of humanity, like are you reading this?? you dont care if you make other human beings feel unsafe like thats not even really my point but i have to keep coming back to that bit there but like actually my point is, stop talking to each other, i'm being so fr, youre like evil siblings that need their own corner but get jealous then ruin it then argue then need their own corner and the cycle just repeats, use the tag filters, use tags properly, if you dont like a post, block the user, i thought this was basic internet knowledge and btw !! this is coming from someone who is technically anti endo, but you know what !! i interact with endos and other system types on discord servers and stuff because it is (and let me say it real loud for the people who have their head in the ground) A PUBLIC SPACE. if you dont want to interact with an individual so bad, it is your job to facilitate that, but guess what !! theres always going to be overlap because not everyone can control everything, so everyones best bet is to just shut your mouth, please i am begging shut your mouth, if you happen to come across one another accidentally and it comes up, just say smth like "i know we wont agree on this topic, so lets not talk about it" because lets be so fr, there are bigger issues, which i know sounds very hypercritical of someone who has spent the last however long typing this out but whatever, because its the internet nobody will care by tomorrow, just treat each other like people

[rafasbiscuits]

Some of us blacklist Novak so I'd like all posts with him in it to be tagged correctly. That goes for other players as well.

hmm, I don't understand what was said here but yeah, honestly, tags are important. I mean based on what I understand from this statement.

If what has been said isn't a good thing about the player, then please don't tag it by the player's name. Just. Post it, but dont tag it w their names,, it's a free world and we are all free to make our own statements, no one's stopping anyone here, but players have their own fans and not-fans.

The Novak fandom community in tumblr is alr a v small little bubble and is a minority compared to other players. So, don't tag it by the name if there's nothing good to be said (this goes not just for Novak fans babes, this goes for the players that doesnt have a lot of support compared to others).

I'm sure the Novak fans, (ofc I'm not representing cause I'm not one) is alr handling a lot today because of the loss.. im pretty sure they need a healthy, loving tagging system right now instead of scrolling through a tag of their fav thats just filled with hatred <3

And also, tennis is slowly growing as a sport, I'm sure more new fans will appear and every player's fans wants to scroll through their favs tag and see some cool, sweet, posts about their faves that they love so much, not slander-

Goes for all of the players btw, and not just for sports. We're all part of a community here.

Giving all the Novak fans a hug btw🫂

[rq-smiley-face]

Quite alright, I was busy yesterday myself. And by busy I mean prancing about in ears and a tail because it was Halloween and I could. I probably won't be able to do that until the convention this January so I had to! Also watching all the analog horror content that dropped yesterday. There's... still so much to go through.

Well, anyway! Best I have at the moment to help is reinforcing that I also don't think anything is wrong with his body, no matter what it was made or used for in the past. (Same for yall collectively ofc.) You may relay that message if you wish/are able too. He doesn't need to talk to me if he doesn't want, either. Just. Throwing it out there.

I personally still need to get better at the caring act. I do genuinly want to help others, but irl I can come off as real deadpan and thats... not the most comforting. Thats why I find it easier to type, especially with tone tags, so I can convey what I actually want to. I do experience emotions myself, but it's very hard to convey them outwardly in a phsyical sense at times. With writing, there's so much more to make it more clear. Punctuation, tone tags, emojis, you get it.

And!!!! Augh I'm glad you liked reading it and hearing about all that. Like I said, I've never gone that in depth before so I was nervous. But yea!! Learning and trying to heal together, and mutually being beneficial for each others complexes (I don't think his god complex is undo-able, but thats okay since you can have one and still be happy and functional, so Im not entirely concerned about it staying.) Honestly, its funny in a way. He and I are very different from eachother, and yet here we are. I especially thought he'd permanently hate me, given I'm a mad scientist of sorts, but!!! No!!! And I just fgdksafhcvhdfksagfdhfbcdhfg. Weh. >_<

Anyway, I will now be shifting into somewhat heavier topics. (programming again.) If you're not in a mind to read it: SKIP THE RED TEXT. (No hard feelings if you're not, its less questions this time and more of an update on my discoveries, partially submitted as well for the other anons going through similar.)

So, I've discovered that I can use the annoying dizziness as a bit of a geiger counter for answers in some cases. For example: wondering if we're only one part of the system, or maybe a subsystem dedicated to the front = get dizzy, meaning I shouldn't think about that, meaning there likley is or was meant to be and I'm not supposed to be able to think about it, but since nothing was ever completed I can override that failsafe. Or: Thinking about different programs and how they could be used on others = no dizzy, meaning I was potentially meant to be a handler as well as a general servator (current descriptor Im using.) Those are just some examples, but it's been helpful and maybe others can use this method. (PLEASE BE CAREFUL, YOU MAY TRIGGER DANGEROUS FAILSAFES.)

I've also figured out more things about sleep: We stopped taking naps when the body was one year old, which is... not normal for humans. We regained the ability to do so around age twenty, but not without feeling guilty if I haven't "Done Enough" first. So it would seem those are used as some form of reward system.

End of red text.

I also feel like this is writting letters to a friend kinda!!! Your letter did find us well, and I hope mine finds you the same.

-🦌👁

Good evening watching deer anon. Your letter found us quite well, it is always a joyous day when a friend hears word from another!

Now, I cannot speak on what you and Cas have discussed in regards to your partner and your relationship, but I nevertheless assure you that we found it very endearing.

As for Kevin/The Deep. I will pass on the sentiment, it will mean a great deal to him and us.

As for what is in the red text. Let me say that your gieger counter is likely very accurate. I have been a member of this system for nearly 15 years, and I can personally tell you that I have installed similar fail safes into our system. Any time the beloved members of this system get too close to information I prefer left better alone it triggers an intense dizziness, followed by nausea followed by disassociation. And if that isn't enough, a seizure.

I recommend treading carefully in these areas, as you may never know what sort of symptoms your body is capable of triggering.

I'm sure you would have made an astute handler, and I hope, if that is ever your interest you are able to be one. You'd be surprised what it takes to break the human mind.

And absolutely you can be completely functional with many complexes. The ears and tail sounds nice, I'm glad you got a moment of authenticity in a world meant to choke those who are of a unusual breed.

All the best, your friends at the Liminal Churchyard

[slovo-theshattered-onion]

NEW PINNED. finally time itself bit me in the ass to make this

hello ! call us slovo. we're plural, that's all the information we feel comfortable sharing here on that matter.

you will get absolutely no alter names or system information unless you go on a scavenger hunt <3 i WILL think you're creepy if you do <3 whether i'll like it or not depends on if you're one of the good creeps <3 tee hee !!

i support all the right causes and bash all the wrong ones and all you need to know to figure out what that means is to remember we are still dreadfully/delightfully very human in bodymind. just autistic

to be my friend you must solve my riddles three and your main hint is that everything is literal except for all the things that aren't (and frankly we don't always know where one ends and the other begins either)

stop ALL genocides. do ALL you can, and all you feel you must, and all you are safe to, to support the peoples suffering from such atrocity. (don't stop the white one tho, do it for MY sake and not for all the minorities, have you considered being white really hurts my hyper-empathy and need for identity :( lmao. i hope whiteness does a flip when its flaming corpse falls off a building and everyone it was ever weaponised against gets every reparation)

i love you. please don't ever treat me like an adult even though i am. please don't treat me like a child either. if you're weirded out by [vague gesture] this, the block button is right there and it's calling to you with a siren song, please use it at your own discretion.

i hate you and i hope you destroy me. yes you, specific reader of this post, who i have reached through space and time with this tiny casing of our soul to stare down the eyes of intensely.

life is beautiful and terrible and i will do ALL i can to stay in it. that is a threat against every world leader AND their mum <3

btw ! our personal tags are ! fuck u u get none. i know them. find them urself. we also dont tag anythin' properly cause thats Scary unless we are in a mood. so untagged NSFW and also EVERY PHOBIA EVER. do not follow if you have a single unmanaged trigger. even a SINGLE ONE. yes this is very serious, i WILL scare u on purpose. sign this consent waver before hittin 'follow'. SlovoRic Inc. is not held liable for any damages or soul imprints at prolonged or careless exposure.

stay safe, good luck, i wish you all the best no matter what you wish me except my definition of best is very skewed, peace love and plants ! light and dark on planet earthhhh,,, [peters off into a dissociative ramble]

[sludge-coinbag]

@nnugatoryextravagance 's mogai flag making and term coining blog for funsies bc I've always found this really interesting

I'll add more info later but for now my name is Sludge, i turn 18 in literally 2 days as of posting, and I only go by neopronouns (honk/honkself and more but any works) and I'm just straight up vibing

I dont know why I decided to fill my page with Reddy idk I like them theyre a funny fellow

I do take requests but I cannot promise that they'll be done in a timely manner but I will do them trust

I don't really have a set DNI but I will include some things under the readmore either about me or that I have hard opinions on that usually does good at weeding out people I don't want to talk to

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Regardless of what I say here I do not wish to overly gatekeep who can use the terms I coin, you are allowed to use whatever I coin even if we disagree on things so long as it applies to you obviously, I don't wish to start shit on here truly. But also just because I believe you can identify with whatever you want doesn't mean I'm also not allowed to not like you for it, if you wanna announce your taboos to the world you should expect people to not exactly always be cool with it man. If I went into detail of what I don't like here we would be here all day though and that's not the point so I will stop yapping and get to the list.

I identify as strictly nonhuman and I prefer you always refer to me as such and actively avoid referring to me as human whenever possible. Plus if you're unable to use my neos for whatever reason it/its is a valid replacement, do not they/them me

If we're working with proper terms I am a traumagenic system, I prefer not to always identify as it though (I prefer traumalthugenic in particular.) If you are plural I don't care what your system's origin is because that isn't my business.

I am cool with all good faith identities (for example, things like m-spec people, I am one of you hi bestie.) I am much less cool with people with uh... less than peachy ways of identifying (look I don't care if you're "non contact" or whatever, if you're prancing around about things that would get you banned from school zones or the local petting zoo please go away.) I don't believe in thought crimes obviously (i am gods strongest ocd warrior) but jesus christ dude cmon, not cool. (sidenote, no idea whats going on with radqueers or xenosatanists but I have not heard nor seen literally anything good, please god do not talk to me)

I have autism and tend to lean into coining terms related to things I like, however this will include some things that make people uncomfortable as I am very fixated on topics that relate to horror adjacent things, (fictional) gore and themes of unreality and such especially, please make sure your tag filters are up to date and if I don't trigger tag something that I should've please let me know

I may add more here later but thats it for now methinks hii

[melancholiaenthroned]

@prontaentrega ok heres the ideal way to do it if ur me. start reading detective comics rebirth. now theyre going to introduce a kind looking nurse in a sweater named "jean-paul" and you need to assume that hes some kind of french-canadian leslie thomkins type character that was just introduced in something you havent read. later he will pull out a flaming sword and batman will ask him to please not kill any people. youll want to google him at this point. now you know that is or was "azrael" which explains the flaming sword but it does seem like hes kind of over it so ignore it and move on. now take a break from detective comics and start reading urban legends for some reason. azrael story! maybe now you can learn what hes all about. so it seems like hes still a nurse, but maybe now also murdering people. but he seems to have issues about it? also hes catholic, which is fine. you google him again, and learn what knightfall is. you knew what knightfall was but you forgot about it because you didnt care. try to read it. stop reading it. return to detective comics. he starts being azrael again but now hes team batman and not killing people and also besties with luke fox. finish detective comics. you now have a fairly solid grasp on azraels backstory and general deal through context clues and some exposition. finish urban legends. azrael will return in 2022. start reading everything you can find with him. try knightfall again. its not your thing but you know understand that its important so suffer through it. go to the tag to see if anyone feels the same. find a lot of tim drake fans who really hate azrael for being mean to him. close the tag. read justice league odyssey, which you know takes place after detective comics because kate mentions him going to space and he is in space now. overall its fun but the characterization does feel off at some points. its 2022. sword of azrael begins. read this. for a six issue run it will explain a lot of backstory and also not explain quite a lot at the same time but its deeply fun and very good. read azraels story in saved by the belle reve, a book im still not sure of the target audience for or who greenlit it, but whatever. theres some good backstory and interesting characterization but i do feel like as a stand alone some of the grown jean-paul went thru in it doesnt rlly matter becuz it fits no where chronologically. or maybe it does and i havent read it. now check out azrael agent of the bat and batman sword of azrael. finish neither. read batman curse of the white knight. send sean gordon murphy death threats for his characterization of azrael. finish azrael agent of the bat and have mixed but mostly positive feelings on it. reread a few things but in the order they were actually released. finish batman sword of azrael but skip around a bit. oh shit he had a series in 2009 i should read that. false alarm its about a different guy who is also going by azrael. ignore that one. wait for the next sword of azrael issue. google if jean-paul is canonically gay. google if jean-paul is canonically homophobic. you kind of have to assume he is? reread whatever single issues u saved and take screenshots of him to edit hearts and mcr lyrics on to. dont post those. google if jean-pauls whole deal is ever canonically referred to as dissociative identify disorder or if he truly just is using the term system to describe a system but somehow still no one is saying it. realize you forgot to buy sword of azrael issue 3 and thats why issue 4 makes no sense. read issue 3. it makes sense why he was fighting a giant named satan (not the devil a separate guy) now. hope this helps<3

EDIT: upon attempting to remember what issue of detective comics 2016 azrael first appears in, i have discovered that he appears, as azrael, in issue 1 (/#934). i didnt remember this or connect the dots to this being the same "jean-paul" that we later meet. all this to say um. my bad

i actually need to stop offering to make ppl comics reading lists because i read everything out of order in stops and starts and cant tell you where one arcs stops and one begins. the first time azrael appeared in a comic i was reading he was just introduced as jean-paul becuz i was meant to already know who he was and then a couple issues in he casually pulled out a flaming sword and i lost my mind. the first wildstorm comic i read was the authority 2008 and when angie got her nanosuit back i was shocked and also i thought jack was always an old man until the end when he got better. i read david zavimbes batwing run by accident because i thought it was something else and by the time i realized i was eh this is fun ill keep going.

[marellytalks]

I feel like Chay can and could influence all three Teerapanyakul brothers.

Like Kinn would turn the underworld upside down for Porsche if anything happened to Chay

We know Kim would not hesistate to kill for him and Tankhun has already signed the adoption papers on him.

Ok but a 100k word fic on this please

Please use these tags:

1. Protective older brothers. This can be applied to Kinn and Tankhun towards Kim

2.Protective younger brothers. This can be applies to Porchay and Kim towards their siblings.

3. Tankhun leaving his comfort zone for Chay; attending his graduation, bring him out for shopping etc

4. Kinn having the chance to feel like an older sibling, taking Chay out for his first drink, tutoring in his studies, Chay giving Kinn younger brother affection like he does to Porsche

5. Kim freaking out when he couldnt stop/save Chay from being in trouble and having to ask for help ( like the time he got tasered at Chay’s house)

6. Birthday gifts for Chay. They be trying to up each other , Tankhun gifts a condo, Kinn buys a car, Kim gives an engagement ring and lifelong commitment

7. Chay to interact and hang out with the guards and him learning stuff like firearms and hacking into security system with Arm, learning boxing from Pete and having hotpot in the bodyguard’s quarters.

7. Chay’s presence in the main house changes it into a house with more warmth or Nampheung recovers

8. Ok so in this universe, Vegas and Macau makes peace, everybody gets along and Pete remains the main house bodyguard and they go on dates on Pete’s day off

9. What if Macau and Chay get into the same faculty what does this mean it means if somebody was gonna hit on Chay, Macau was going to spy on him for Kim thats what it means

10. I want Chay, Pete, Porsche and Tay to form an alliance. Like a chat group. Mafia Malewives Alliances. Maybe for once Porsche could include his brother instead of leaving him behind all the time

PLEASE THIS NEEDS TO HAPPEN

[ars0nism]

okay, final post on this. my thing with terfs isnt the terfs. im 18, ive been through a lot, i can handle a couple of terfs on my page. what bothers me is the young people, especially young girls & transmascs, that fall into the terf rabbithole on accident.

SO.

heres my quick & easy guide on how i personally check for terfs. PLEASE check for these signs. to protect yourself. ofc not all things immediately mean terf, but this is my personal checklist

rad and or fem in the url (IMMEDIATE red flag)

labrys lesbian flag (somewhat of a red flag, could be innocent young lesbian roped into it. if theyre an adult its a red flag)

if you click on the search icon it will show a bunch of commonly used tags. look at the tags. common tags wpuld be radfem, radical feminism, terfism, gender critical etc

look at where they reblog from. who theyre following if its public. what posts they like if thats public. look at the bios of these. if the terf doesnt have a bio and is trying to be stealthy, oftentimes the people they agree with are open about it. block both while youre at it

queer slur discourse (also done outside of terf circles but far more common among terfs, especially coupled with the "not queer, im lesbian" stuff (though thats understandable and not inherently terfy) and in combination with other red flags)

exclusionism (not inherently terfy but still a good point to look out for)

fixation on wombs and vulvas (immediate red flag no one but terfs is that obsessed with their reproductive organs)

the "LGB" community, or even the "remove the L" because they dont want to associate with gay & bi people

really big hatred of the concept of "genital preference". sexuality is only about genitals to them.

intense man hatred. they hate men so much. (also not an immediate red flag because yeah some of it is warranted but you can tell the difference between joking about trauma/standing up against the patriarchy and straight up... being a terf)

the term "ssa". stands for same sex attraction. (pretty big one i think. i personally have only heard it from terfs.)

febfem. bisexuals who only date women. (also one i didnt know about until like half an hour ago. also a big one)

this is one specific to the current time and might be obsolete soon but if theyre vocal amber heard supporters. those are ALL terfs.

terfs are also often swerfs. hating on sex workers (not the system, the system is fucked and we should recognize it) is terfy !

they like to refer to us (trans people) as a cult. which, to be honest, after this experience, im more likely to call them a cult. (if a terf disagrees with you, get ready for closing anon & gross bullshit in your notes. we have mutual circles, they have them too)

and of course green flags for trans people & trans allies, if they have these the odds of it being a terf are. a lot smaller

pronouns in bio

some variation of lgbtq+

following trans blogs

inclusive

mature fucking human being

and if you're in doubt whether or not its a terf, its better to block an innocent person than to interact with a terf, id say. odds are the innocent person doesnt care.

BUT!

let's say you said something they didn't like and now your post is circling in their shitty little group chat. what then? my suggestion would be to

CLOSE ANON ASKS. once their cult has found your page and realizes you post about trans things, or worse, are trans, they will harass you. anon gives a lot of confidence to send death threats. dont let them.

Block all of them. No, it's not gonna stop new ones from harassing you in their place, but it does make for a pretty nice blocklist.

If you need to, don't hesitate to step away from tumblr for a while. Not everyone can handle harassment, and it's okay to step away if it's too much.

Remember you're worth so much more than any of these terfs. Remember being trans is something to be proud of, remember you are loved, and most importantly, remember they're just terfs on the internet. laugh at them. make fun of them. they may say shitty things, but they can't actually hurt you. (anything that can hurt you, like doxxing, is illegal. get law enforcement if possible if you think you're in actual physical danger)

Best of all is to ignore it. Don't keep talking about it ("take your own advice" im working on it). it's not fun to harass someone who just ignores you.

If you really can't cope, it's okay to close your blog. You don't have to stay. Make a new blog. Only tell your mutuals.

(also, side note, i have a blocklist filled with terfs. i am absolutely down to share this blocklist with you, if you want somewhere to get started)

[spookydrreid]

Chapter Ten: Reaggregate

Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!reader

Content warnings: unprotected sex, penetrative sex, creampie, swearing, manipulation, talks of Spencers mothers death, implications of assault (nothing is mentioned). (I think thats everything. Let me know otherwise)

word count: 1.2k

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Chapter nine recap: spencer and pup talk about her past and it reminds spencer why he does what he does, leading them to the murder of her assailant.

“Fuck! Just like that, pet!” I praised as she bounced on my cock. Her kill fresh on her mind, but im think about nothing other than her body. Showering her with praise to keep her on her high.

Her eyes are glazed over while she bounces, drunk smile on her face. She was positively the prettiest woman I had ever seen, or been with. And I was hopelessly in love with her. No matter what she wanted, I wanted to give it to her. I wanted to shower her in lavish things. I want to make her feel worthy of my love. Because she was worthy.

More than if you asked me.

I saw it the most when we were like this. High on each other. I saw it in her eyes and the way she looked at me, eyes glassy and full of lust. Blood stained clothes littering her floor. Her skin was warm, my fingers burning her skin with the same feelings she puts into me.

“Spencer… please,” she begged, breathless. My hands wrap around her, holding her into my chest as I buck up into her. Her moans vibrating against my cheek as she tries to muffle them. But it doesn’t work and I love it.

I taunt her with semi-fake sweetness in my voice “please what? Use your words and ask nicely.”

She groans and when I force her to look at me, I can tell shes trying to form words, “l-let me cum. Please! I c-cant hold it.”

Her plea sends me closer and through a moan I give her permission. And with two more thrusts I watch her pretty eyes roll in the back of his head. A sound similar to my name leaves her lips as her walls pulse around me, sending my over the edge. She always feels good, warm and wet and mine.

She was perfect, made for me. I wondered if we were lovers in a past life. Energy cannot be created or destroyed. Only converted from one form to another. Meaning, shes been here since the start of the universe. The Big Bang created her, and while I was grateful, I knew I’d be the one to ruin her. In more ways that just sexually.

But I didn’t care. Not while shes in the midst of pleasure.

“Go ahead, pup. Cum for me… I’ve got you.” I hold her hips to helps her along, knowing she wouldn’t be able to keep going. But I needed her to. Because when we were tangled up like this, my brain stops working. I can think more clearly and not a million miles a minute. My anxiety and insecurities cease. She is my calm and all I want is for her to be happy… with me. When she’s close, all that matters is her and her life. Her happiness. Just… her.

Her moans are beautiful as she cums, profanities falling from her lips as her walls clench around me, pushing me towards my end. I fill her with the most precious thing I can. I don’t want life to come from these unions, I know that wouldn’t be fair. I’ve wanted children for as long as I can remember, but the path I’ve chosen took that from me. It’s my fault. But I don’t regret anything.

Everything I did, I know was for good. I was doing the work out justice system didn’t. So many woman and men had to get on that stand and tell their story, talk about how they were violated. And the courts laughed in their faces. They did it to my pet. It was infuriating how often that happens.

So, I took the law into my own hands. At first, I felt guilty for abusing my power. Abusing the resources I had from the FBI. Prison had forced me to reconsider my entire life. I sat there while my team tried to get me out. Again, another case of the justice system not working. I was bitter, angry that my team wasn’t working fast enough. Angry that this was happening to me. Just… so fucking angry.

“Spence? Are you okay?” She asked me, forcing me to look up at her.

“Hm? Yeah. Yeah. I am. Sorry.” She climbs off me, heading to the bathroom and leaving me alone with my thoughts once again.

I was mad and I wanted my team to know it. I didn’t deserve the time I spent in a cage. I didn’t deserve them not figuring it out sooner. Penelope and I clearly were the only ones capable of solving murders clearly. It made me feel used and I hated it.

And then, JJ confessed her love to me. After fifteen years, she confesses. Then tries to backtrack. But I knew better. I was a much better profiler than her. Not to mention that I can remember everything. I knew her and her facial expressions. She meant it.

Will didn’t deserve it.

I didn’t deserve it.

“Okay… you’re in your head. What’s going on?” She’s in my clothes and lays beside me, her head resting on my chest.

I sigh, wrapping an arm around her. She knew all my fucked up thoughts and feelings. So, I didn’t know why I felt stressed about letting her into my mind.

I did it anyway.

“I just… I’m mad at me team and all they put me through. But I don’t know how exactly to get back at them. Killing them wont work and I refuse to touch their children.”

Children was the line I wouldn’t cross. Will was innocent, Savannah too. If anything, they were nice to me. Savannah gave me research about my mother before she died. I didn’t know much about schizophrenics with Alzheimer’s. She did the research and gave it to me. I knew my mother wouldn’t have long after the diagnosis. I tried getting her into all the research programs I could. But none of them helped her. I lost her not long after.

My pet thinks for a moment before lighting up “fear… that’s it!”

I give her a confused look ”fear? Pup, you don’t get it. They’ve seen it all and they are not afraid of much.”

“Except you.” Again, I shot her a confused look. She sighs and continues. “Spencer, listen they know that you are smarter than them. They know that you can get away with murder. That you are. They know they cant stop you and that terrifies them. You saw it when they interrogated you.”

She was right. I’m able to admit that. They looked at me in defeat. They knew that they had nothing except the body I stood by. But my prints weren’t on her and neither were my pets. They couldn’t pin any of these on her or me.

“Okay but how do we really scare them… I’ve been doing this for long and in that room? They looked more frustrated.”

She things again, this time for longer, “media. Contact the media. Fear to the public. You used to say that JJ could control the media and the way the public reacts. We can do that too.”

“It’s not easy. It needs to be calculated.”

She blinks at me, chuckling just a little as she states something she finds obvious, “and you’re a literal genius. Figure it out. Run the calculations. They don’t know me. It’ll be easy for me to give letters, pictures, all of that. Avoiding cameras. Put fear into the public. Use them. Make them fear the government.”

Make them fear the one thing that makes them feel safe. And she claims I’m the genius

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