#thats a lot of boy to deal with | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

solei-eclipse · 2 months

Text

Happy Birthday Azure!

@4listr / @azureitri this is what I meant. hehe

I apologize for how rushed this is!! I had some stuff I needed to take care of inbetween.

Please forgive Solei and their strange thoughts. Azure confuses them, but Solei does wish to understand him. They're not the type to push it, though, so after this they kind of just quietly coexist around him. They won't start anything if they feel like he won't budge.

If Azure has any ties to butterflies, Solei wouldn't know it. The gift is just a coincidence.

#alnst oc: solei #alnst oc: azure #the thing about solei is they go off of vibes a lot #thats why theyre cautious around or avoid certain people despite not having interacted yet #they have a gut thing where they can feel like something is “off” they just dont know what. and theyre not exactly the brightest so #they dont always figure it out LMAO #solei genuinely has no idea what azures deal is #its just “i do not enjoy this vibe”#i hope this is okay!!! i hope you like it!!#im sorry if anything is wrong!!!#happy birthday rock boy

44 notes · View notes

pansyfemme · 6 days

Text

ugh i might have to get a caffinated item before my internship. it may be legally required today

#im trying to cut down on the caffine unless i really need it but dude. i need it #it is 2pm. i start at 3 and i am there. possibly until 8pm so i should. deal with that #it’s rainy today. which always makes me feel like shit physically and mentally #im like. meloncholy. and my bf is away. for like. two days but thats still sad for me bc i do not have a lot of free time #i very much wish i was napping with a boy in my arms rn but i am not. alas!

24 notes · View notes

bacchuschucklefuck · 5 months

Text

My Accolades

#not art #this is actually maybe not Super Plausible if the cannons are actually old school style lmao.#they often used a long matchstick thing that burns a Lot slower than usual. thats where ''fire in the hole'' came from #what I imagine and kinda force it to work is riz flicks the embers from his cig into the vent. and thats a hot enough fire to light a canno #I know Ive been here for uhhhh ten seconds but u guys must know what my deal is by now lmao. its like this forever #anyways its cool so it has to be real. that boy was Aiming AND Lighting those things all by himself. he was doing some insane stunts #to get that to work he weighs like five pounds soaking wet and you Know those cannons are not securely latched down #gods to think of it. that means kristen and k2 were risking it all for real hanging out on the gunner deck #it truly is Big Bill Hell's Ship out here Im so sorry girls. Im so sorry kristen #Im so sorry k2........#anyways if u ask me how this works 1/it just does 2/shut up 3/dont talk to me ok? ok #My Accolades. I get to have this

53 notes · View notes

petrichoraline · 5 months

Text

I found this to be such a random comment until I realised it was Balgeum saying it and it suddenly felt so heavy

#his money trauma runs so deep he cant see how his behaviour hurts inho much more than any money issues could #or maybe he does and its just that bad that he cant physically stop himself #when he told inho to go back i was like my man he cant keep coming back until you have enough money to feel secure #if you dont deal with this now that insecurity is gonna run for the rest of your life and even if you do have money youll always worry abou #losing them and not be able to enjoy the comfort that comes with them #and youre always going to base your feeling of self worth on them #and your happiness and everything valuable in your life would be so easy to destroy #itd crumble #i want him to see the truth so bad it hurts me watching him go through it #im happy he was at least honest with inho #thats a step #hes gonna have to take a lot of small ones too #all of these hurt boys ugh #its such a pretty show and the comedy is fun and the acting is top notch that it makes me ignore how much sadness there actually is in ever #episode #and i recommend it as a light watch because they mix the sweet and the sour so well #but i feel for all of these characters #including hyejin lol #boys be brave

17 notes · View notes

lesbiradshaw · 1 year

Text

just started thinking about bradley as a teenager struggling with his emotions both pre and post his mother’s death/fall out with maverick but not wanting to reach out for help because a history of mental health problems can get you disqualified from enlisting in the service. happy saturday guys.

#that boy should have been in therapy from ages 2 on up like.#i def hc that carole took him to someone when he was younger but bradley probably stopped going once he was older and was given the choice #but like. idk. picturing carole trying to bring up him going back after she gets sick because she KNOWS he needs to talk to someone #and maverick cant be there all the time. but bradley says no because hes a teenager and hes started thinking about how to make himself +#appealing to the navy and that opens a whole other can of worms where carole sees that but doesnt want to deny him #because she can see hes already having a hard time with things as they are.#mav trying to convince him to go and bradley pointing out it’s hypocritical because maverick doesnt like talking about his feelings either #i just think people ignore his trauma So Much. they only pay attention to the maverick and goose bits #but they fail to consider how even before the maverick stuff happened bradley had a lot to deal with from a very young age #he spent most of his life on his own! he lost the people he loved most OVER and OVER…#the amount of trauma that must have come flooding back when phoenix (&bob but phoenix is clearly bradleys closest friend) had to eject #i think thats why people painting him as angry & agressive because of the scene where he yells at mav never sits right w me #that moment is so incredibly raw for both of them. bradley lashing out when hes just been triggered is not that surprising????#anyways.#carolcore #bradley rooster bradshaw

36 notes · View notes

arimiaromage · 1 year

Text

art book in the mail today for a hidden gem, Devils and Realist! it's a great josei if you like primarily male casts, fantasy, and historical settings with drama. I really love the art style so I've been eyeing this artbook for months.

#devils and realist #makai ouji #yes its more victorian boys dealing with demons and reincarnation and a lot of drama #ive accepted that thats my brand

30 notes · View notes

faerynova · 1 year

Note

Hey, 🥝 of the queue system here again! I'm sorry if I'm clogging up your ask box here, but im pretty sure my previous ask got eaten. Anyways- I was wondering when exactly raph's OSDD came to light?

Hope you're good ^^

it didnt get eaten its in my drafts with like 5 paragraphs of nonsense sldkjfsdk

dw tho youre not a bother i love getting asks and talking about my fics. it can just take me like a while to respond if its something i have to actually think about

honestly im still figuring out details!! its not relevant to connective tissue (the big fic im working on w my friend) so its not super high priority, but im dipping my toes in a raph backstory oneshot to explore his whole everything

uhhh rambly under the cut!!

i think hes like 11 or 12 when he figures out hes a system. but also i think that he pretty consistently heard and even talked to mind raph for years and just assumed that like... he has a very animated inner monologue (donnie's words, not raph's). mind didnt see any need to say anything otherwise because it kept the system functional

tbh all the boys are so weird in their own ways that raph's weird stuff (garbage memory, "mood swings", hardcore zoning out, randomly going nonverbal, talking to himself) is hardly a blip on anyone's radar so he didnt really think about it either (raph is also autistic you'll pry it from my cold dead hands so theres another reason he just didnt second guess anything)

i think what tips raph off eventually is the memory stuff. if he forgets something, or blanks out a whole day, then why can mind raph remember and give him tips and reminders for things? he shouldnt know things that raph doesnt.

basically: slow realization, nothing sudden or alarming. unnerving yeah but on raphs end it gets worked out through communication w mind raph and then the rest of the system. and from there honestly he IMMEDIATELY tells the rest of his family that hes got other people in his head. that part im sure of. the collective doesnt hesitate with telling everyone else

its a lot of confusion and antics with splinter being halfway convinced raph is possessed (absolutely nothing bad comes from it. splinter just doesnt know what the fuck osdd is and he knows magic is real so like. reasonable assumption on his end), and then its april to the rescue because her dad is a psychologist and she can be like hey this thing has a name actually and ive got info from a ~professional~

reactions vary--splinter has some v e r y complicated emotions. donnie and leo both get a bit overbearing/invasive asking raph all sorts of questions about his system and april is beating them back with a stick. mikey is mildly confused but is having a blast getting to meet the rest of the collective properly. everyone gets to figure stuff out together from there

#im always nervous posting first thoughts like this abt my fics esp when im still mid-research #i wanna talk but i wanna make sure my shit is CORRECT #which is why it can take me a while to respond #honestly just need to bite the bullet and deal with it #here are my ~first draft thoughts~ please forgive anything weird about them #anyway raph learning hes a system and telling his fam? chill. confusing but ultimately no drama #raph later learning hes an alter and not the core?? ho boy that one comes with a lot of ptsd and no one has a good time but thats for later #(ik not all systems have a core but thats how the collective functions)#ask

23 notes · View notes

starry-bi-sky · 17 days

Text

back on my bullshit

and by bullshit i mean "rewatch MCD for the millionth time in a row and resist the urge to make an MCD OC"

i have yet to succeed in my bullshit.

#minecraft diaries #*makes another MCD Oc for the nth time and pairs them up with garroth*#he's my special baby boy #latest MCD oc is Skyen. they have a fantasy version of permanent photokeratitis and is the one who discovered Garroth outside of PD back #when he first ran away. and they were ✨Roommates✨. smth smth Garroth never shows his face to anyone but Sky and yet Sky is the only one #who can never see him. their blindness concept is admittedly ripped straight out of an old SkyArmy deviantart comic i read way back when.#they can technically 'see' except thats relative because they can barely see past their nose IF they hold their hand up to their face and #block out the light. they wear a bandana around their eyes and unlike AARON has an actual REASOn for it bc if they dont they get really bad #headaches and their eyes hurt due to being really sensitive to the light. they were taken in by an old man who lived in PD and taught them #how to deal with their blindness and essentially daredevilled their ass (also ripped off the SkyArmy Comic). they're still blind as fuck th #so while the heightened senses and training helped. they still like. need help with stuff they normally wouldn't if they had their sight.#they left PD to go traveling after the Old Man died when he and garroth were 18-19 and returned sometime after Aphmau became lord.#WHEN that is. i have not decided. there are a lot of options available for their return but im leaning towards 'before Donna's wedding but #AFTER garroth gets shot'#Skyen refers to Garroth as 'my friend' affectionately and Garroth does the same. they return to living with one another after skyen returns #and one of the first things they do is sit down with garroth and trace his face to feel if anything changed. which there has.#Skyen 🤝 Laurance: Blind Buddies!#Skyen helps Laurance adjust to blindness and lends him one of their bandanas to cover his eyes. Laurance jokes its because nobody wants to #see his eyes. Skyen dryly tells him that when he inevitably gets sand in his face he'll be thankful there was something to protect #his eyes against it. can you tell that i've thought a lot about this

5 notes · View notes

bmpmp3 · 3 months

Text

the villainess flips the script is a really fun manhwa with gorgeous art and my wonderful son luca who is a little bitch who i love so much BUT i will say. the family tree situation as the story has gone on makes my head hurt

#luca buddy im sorry ur family tree has at least one circle in it #somehow the most. ethical? incest? his parents were unknowing um. second cousins? hold on i need to work this out #are they second cousins or are they first cousins once removed. i need to consult charts #I THINK they were second cousins. lets go with that. okay so they were second cousins who didnt know they were second cousins #accidentally having a drunken one night stand and thats how luca came to be. no personal relation and apparently risk of like #genetic issues goes down with second cousins. so i guess its like. the most um. 'ethical'? it could possible be. but still :(#but also luca love interest is his second cousin too maybe? the kid of his blond great uncle???? i dont know man #all so the main character can turn out to be secretly royalty orz TOO COMPLICATED too complicated #although i guess this is how a lot of historical royal and noble families were tho. a bit circular.#that is something i would change tho if i wrote this. first of all i would make judith his bio mom instead of pretending #because i think a fl who had a drunken one night stand the dead playboy brother of her LI is just really interesting LOL #but also i would just like. remove her relation to the royal family entirely #but thats me personally. i find the main character finding out about secret royal blood trope suuuuper boring LOL #but it is common in stories like this so i deal. but in this case i would absolute strike out that plotline. maybe give it to #luca instead like make him look oddly like his great grandma and make the former king obsess over him instead #we'd still get a lot of the same plot beats because of judiths relation to him but just without the loopy family tree JKSDJHDKs #ALSO also i would make lucas relationship with rudiger stronger. NOT SAPPIER like the original in universe novel i like the difference #but i would make them closer in like a shitty uncle who sucks that you hang out with anyway and the shitty nephew u lovingly bully #sort of way. if that makes sense. one problem i have with a lot of villianess stories that have a kid in it is when the love interest like #doesn't have much of a relationship with the kid. i think its lame. i want them to be CLOSE not just like mild coworkers #but thats just me. thats just me #despite all i just said i still really like it. rudiger is cute luca is my baby boy who i love so much and judith is so silly and i love he #great characters even if i would personally alter their relationships

5 notes · View notes

robbed-ghost · 5 months

Text

“Damian isn’t ooc what are you talking aboutttt he’s only 14 and wants to trust his dad so badlyyyy guyssss don’t get upsettt” have you never read a comic with Damian in it in your life

#I FUCKING HATE TJISHDJDHF #WHAT IS GOING ON AM I INSANE???? AM I LOSING IT???#Damian trusting his dad despite BRUCE acting so out of character EVEN IF ITS TO PRAISE DAMIAN AND MAKE HIM FEEL SPECIAL #HAS HAPPENED BEFORE #AND HE HAS SPOTTED THAT SHIT AS STRANGE A MILE AWAY #AND HE WAS LIKE. 12. AT FOURTEEN WE’VE ESTABLISHED DAMIAN AS MORE OBSERVANT AND PREPARED FOR THIS #it can either be taken as retrofitting him into ‘normal’ developmental periods which again. we’ve established Damian has as the antithesis #or as a way to put down his character in the robin mantle in order to make Tim’s run look smart and perfect in comparison. which is gross.#Tim has been Robin and even moved past it and became even better and now we’re what? missing the good ol days?#Tim became Robin in 1989. NINETEEN EIGHTY NINE GUYS #THATS 35 YEARS AGO #I KNOW ITS NOSTALGIC FOR YOU BUT YOU HAD A LOT OF STUFF WITH HIM IN IT AND HES JUST A SMART LITTLE WHITE BOY #Damian became Robin in 2009 and we’ve barely tapped into his psychology because comics is so hot buttoned right now #that they don’t know which aspect to deal with first and foremost and always choose Bruce’s relationship as an easy out #Damian was Robin for barely 15 years and yet the guy that got DOUBLE his time is back for round 3. ok.#and here we are again.#Damian has proven himself to be so capable and smart his only downfall is his own hubris and inexperience #he has been trained SINCE BIRTH to use his head guys. a few years in America didnt take that out of him.#anyway. plz pick up a comic. damian would know better cause he’s not an average 14 y/o and he’s not just a traumatized little boy.#‘ohhhh he craves his dads attention and praise so much he’d believe anything he saiiiddd’ WHO TOLD YOU THAT??? ZDARSKY??#WHAT WAS ALL OF HIS YEAR OF PENANCE ON THAT ISLAND FOR #WHAT WAS HIS ARC WITH DISTANCING HIMSELF FROM HIS FATHER A BIT IN THE WAKE OF NEEDING SOME TIME TO HIS OWN REVELATIONS #WHAT ABOUT IT. DID IT JUST NOT HAPPEN SUDDENLY #whatever.

6 notes · View notes

slutdge · 2 years

Text

think its fitting i relapsed on new years day lmao

#back on the needle boys this blogs about to get a whole lot more fun #if yall had to deal with the people i deal with on a daily basis youd do hard drugs too believe me #not an excuse just. explaining why lol im in a living hell i may as well indulge in something that makes me feel better in my spare time #its just neutral to me now like i dont care about nothing anymore lol this is just what i gotta do to survive #its not good or evil. its just a pace i run through.#thats what i missed the most about tar. you dont feel anything lmao. its heaven.

21 notes · View notes

mrfoox · 2 years

Text

The fact I refuse to confront/inform the people who have basically ruined my mental state and my ability to function bc that would make them feel bad is honestly bonkers

#miranda talking shit #I cant say id be having a good and normal life if i wasnt abused as a young child but im 90% sure I'd not have this must trouble #Id still have my autistic and add problems but my anxiety and depression would definitely be a lot better #Its... Insane. That my older brothers probably have no idea how much they have actually ruined my life/mental state from such an earlh age #As 4 yrs old... Hell they might not even remember it or even think it was a 'big deal'. I know my second oldest brother probably falls into #The latter. I know now that they both most likely have undiagnosed adhd/autism and they used me as a way to act out/feel better #But being told youre stupid. Fat. Ugly. Useless from the age of 4 like... I cant stress how much it have ruined my self image #Ive tried to build confidence in myself and love myself since my teens and i can barely say im 'avarge' without doubting it #Like they also hit me but that's nothing compared to the mental torture i had to go through on an almost daily basis #Funniest thing is that bc it happened/started when i was so young i didnt think it was... Bad or weird or abnormal.#I started crying when my parents told me to go tell my brothers it was dinner time. I was terrified of knocking on their doors #I still to this day 20 years later am still incredibly uncomfortable and anxious talking with them and i havent been able to make much of #An relationship with them bc of it. Im scared to say anything to them even if its simple shit. And men/boys in general ive thus been #Terrified of since i was young. Once again i thought it was normal to mistrust and be scared of men until i was in my teens #I wish i could hate them i wish i could be angry i wish i had someone to blame #But no my brain is too nice and give excuses to them. Their actions are excused. They have ruined me mentally but thats not their fault #Fuck that might be true but they were still 6 and 11 years older than me. I didnt have a chance to protect myself in any way #I wish someone saw i wasnt okay. I wish someone understood that i wasnt well. I wish someone saw me.#Negative #Abuse

27 notes · View notes

suckishima · 9 months

Text

rrrrrrrrr im so frustrated with my writing. its just been weeks of struggle and whyyyy. idk i think i need to rework or rethink what im going for with this one or something, its like i can feel the threads of the themes i wanna do are sooo close to tying together but it just isnt quite reaching yet and so it reads like a stilted bland mess but the more i stare at it the further away it feels aaah

i know it can get there i kNOW it can, the ending and like aha moment is so cleaaaar that i think its almost too solid and thats why my beginning feels so fucked—like i just keep asking myself 'well if hes gonna get there in chapter 5, whats stopping him from getting there now in chapter 2??' i tHOUGHT i had reasons but now that im there i just keep instinctually writing him to have the connecting/realization moment anyway and like. if that's how it is then what even IS the story??? i need a break

#leaving for my parents for christmas tomorrow and while its always a little lowkey stressful there esp during holidays #itll be nice to at least have a different stress than this one for a few days lmao #mandatory writing break coming at a good time ig #anyway a lot of the real problem is that a big reason i wanted to write this fic is bc i wanted to explore tsukkis mental space during #the ball boy arc bc i feel like its an interesting transitional time for him in terms of like being after his big moment but then #he slightly regresses in that post match bathroom scene until yamaguchi sets him straight and like. i love just how furudate is showing #that growth isnt linear and so i wanna explore how tsukki would feel during the camp (which he didnt seem stoked to go to)#and in contrast with hinata who couldnt go but weasels in anyway and like how does tsukki deal with #that intensity of stupidity and passion in regards to how he feels about his own relationship to volleyball now #like i dont think its a straight line from blocking ushijima -> admitting yeah sometimes volleyball is fun #i think theres some wavering in there and oooo i wanna explore it but FUCK its hard??#why furudate why does tsukki deny extra practice the first night of rookie camp but accepts the second night??#i know why he accepts night 2 im excited abt that. i'm big time struggling with pinpointing why he says no night 1 in a way #that doesnt come off like 1 hes fully regressing 2 like im having him say no purely bc thats how it is in canon so magical ~plot reasons~#truthfully furudates reason is probably just 'was funny to have tsukki and kunimi say no in unison' and it isnt out of character for #tsukki to say no either but i also can feeeel it i can feeel the threads of a solid character developmental reason that will fit with #all the OTHER stuff im also trying to do lmao #i just need to piece it together in the right way in the right order and right emphasis #and its so cloooose rn but ugh it just feels wishwashy atm #and so. i struggle lmao #eesh anyway fun tag rant yay #heres to hoping not thinking about this for a week will help #x #....who wants to take bets on whether ill delete this later lol

4 notes · View notes

hired-help · 1 year

Text

charon-mod is equipped with Charon's Shotgun, which is a ported version of his fallout 3 one (with the stat tweaks, i mean), but i've given the player a useable version called Rita found in his footlocker

why???

well, because i saw the poster in new vegas - the one where there's a ginger woman and it says something about herpes sinking ships idk i'm not into war posters - and i thought, wow, that looks like Rita Hayworth. wait a sec, Rita Hayworth is era correct if we're using 50s stuff here. that could really be inspired by her.

then i got caught up on the idea that Rita Hayworth exists in the fallout universe, and also the connection between Charon being non-physically imprisoned and the existence of the short story Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption so anyway yeah i decided Charon called it Rita and she's fuckin Loaded alright test her on it i dare you--

whatever it's called, it's a replica of his shotgun just for you :)

#fallout 3 #fallout new vegas #fnv #ill stop spamming the tag now im sorry im just VERY FOCUS RN #mine;#i had this scheduled but then donut said that thing about brooks and--#theres actually a copy of the book on his shelf you can pick up #i just. idk i always had him pegged as a reader to some extent #and RHSR is a story about a bunch of guys dealing with prison for the most part #it seems like itd click with him #altho its not in itself era correct #thats fine i didnt give the book a title it just has a blurb if you look in your pip boy lmao #there is also definitely a lot of my own love for rita in there #shes my marilyn tbh

4 notes · View notes

penisliker-moved · 2 years

Text

when kids misgender yiu and r rly adament abt it 💀

#not mad at him onvious hes 4. nd i exolained and he understood and started calling me a boy #i id as a transguy irl #bc its easier. lol #like when my friends/hal bc rly only hal does it refer to me as she ik they like get it #but if my family did itd just be misgendering does thst make any sense.#ijust know if i said Yeah i use he And she pronouns theyd all only use she. thats th reason i stopped using they rly #bc my mom only ever uses they for me and its. rly disheartening..like i get it you dontnsee me as a n actual guy #BUT WHATEVER!!!#just kinda sucked bc i explained 'i used to be a girl but i feel more like a boy !'#my brother went OHHH you are a boy :] you sound more like a girl 😁#which like ik but. idk. ig i had deluded myself into thinkjng that my voice is super masculine #and it has changed a lot from b4 t but he obviously..doesnt remember that lol #i went on t when he ws what. 2?#IDK.. JUST KIND OF BUMMED MAN bc ppl around me talk a big deal abt how my voice is so much deeper n everythin but umm. do i rly still sound #like a girl.. aghh #like yeah im a girl but i dont want to seem like a Girl i wanna be seen as a boy whos also a girl. not a girl pretending to be a boy #does thst mske sense

8 notes · View notes

bonesblackheadrotten · 2 years

Text

okay...so soap's hair is naturally very fluffy and wavy. imagine him with a different haircut...like...

5 notes · View notes