#tgt : god exits

[akaakeis]

midnight snack -- suna r.

synopsis - suna rintarou and yn are roommates. they both have the worst insomnia ever. one night, they decide to go out to a nearby convenience store, and the night ends on an unexpected, but good note.

wc :: 1671 .ᐟ

gn!reader x suna rintarou (2nd person)

notes//cw :: cursing,, mention of blood (used when talking about reader feeling flustered),, sorry if he's ooc!! i kinda just did this as self indulgence lmao,, not proofread!!

it's another quiet night in your room, the soft music coming from the headphones over your ears being the only thing making noise throughout the entirety of yours and suna's dorm. the recognizable melody of milk coming through your headphones is calming, but your mind can't help but run on and on. the muffled click of another door in the dorm opening can be heard outside of your room, signaling to you that suna is still awake. you let out a groan, stuffing a pillow over your face in frustration at the fact that you can't fall asleep. 

when you go to lift your head, your eyes are drawn to the glowing display of your alarm clock, the face of it reading 2:34 AM. 

"fuck..." you mutter, taking off your headphones and putting them on top of your bedside table as you grab your phone. the brightness of the screen's display lights up your face in the dimness of your room, waking you right back up.

unsure of what to do with yourself at such a late... or early hour, depending on how you view it, you open your messages app, texting suna.

yn:

sunaaaaa

suna pls

sunarin

rintarou

please dont tell me you fell asleep

suna:

what yn

yn:

I CANT SLEEP

like no matter what i do i cant just pass out 

im so annoyed ☹️

suna:

yeah me neither

yn:

is that all u have to say 💔

OH MY GOD WAIT

do you wanna go to the convenience store tgt

suna:

sure

you grin as you see his message, immediately slipping on a hoodie and some random tennis shoes so that you two can go to the convenience store together. you hear the soft click of a door closing outside of your room and faint footsteps that are approaching your bedroom door. after a brief moment of silence, a knock is heard, which you quickly answer by opening your door.

"hey, you ready?" suna asks lazily, looking down at your cozily clad figure, hands in his hoodie's pocket. you nod in response, looking down at his outfit in amusement. he's in a plain hoodie and pajama pants, and he's wearing some random sneakers with them.

"yeah, let's go!" you reply happily, the slight groggy tone in your voice audible. you grab your phone off of your nightstand and stick it in your hoodie pocket before exiting your bedroom and shutting the door behind you.

without another word, suna nods, following behind you as you lead the way to the convenience store near your guys' dorm. he puts an airpod into his ear, playing some music from his phone as the two of you walk. when you glance back at him, you notice the airpod in his ear and look at him curiously. you fall back into pace with him.

"whatcha listening to?" you ask, cocking your head to the side as you look over at him. suna doesn't reply, instead pulling out his airpod case and taking out his other airpod, handing it to you so you can listen to the song as well. you take it with amusement, a jolt of electricity running through you as your hand briefly brushes against his. when you put the airpod into your ear, a familiar melody begins to play: sleep walk.

the two of you walk together in silence, listening as suna's playlist continues to shuffle. you both occasionally brush against the other's shoulder or hand as you walk, but neither of you apologize. the silence, the brief contacts you two make with one another, it all feels so comfortable. 

before you know it, you've already arrived at the convenience store. suna pulls open the door, motioning for you to go in, which you do, saying a quick 'thanks' as you enter the shop. the fluorescent lights of the store shine down on you and suna as you both enter the store, and the shopkeeper can be heard muttering a 'welcome in' as the two of you walk further into the store. suna grabs a basket and follows you.

the two of you walk through the store aisle by aisle as you grab things you like. once you guys stop by the drinks, he starts letting out a soft laugh as he looks at the packaging for one of the drinks.

"wait, wait, wait." suna says, an amused lilt in his voice. as you turn to look at him, he takes you by the shoulders and turns you so that you're facing him, parallel to the shelf of drinks. his eyes dart from your face to the drink packaging, going back and forth for a moment before he bursts out laughing again, letting go of your shoulders. he has no idea, but now your heart rate is spiked now, and you can feel the blood rushing up to your ears (which were thankfully somewhat hidden by your hair).

"you look like the personification of this character," suna says, reaching behind you to grab a plastic bottle of some flavored drink. he lifts it in front of your face, lightly shaking the bottle. the packaging on the bottle had a little korilakkuma drinking something on it. his comparison gets a small giggle out of you as you lightly push his shoulder. 

"yeah?" you inquire, turning the shelf of drinks, scanning through their labels and designs before eventually finding a little juice box- it was an anpanman drink with a flying anpanman on its front. you grab the drink and lightly shake it in front of suna's face. "...and you like the personification of dear anpanman," you say, the delivery of your statement shaky from you holding back your laughter. suna jokingly tsks at your remark, taking the juice box into his hand along with the bottle he had shown you moments earlier. he tosses the two drinks into the basket along with the other snacks the both of you had grabbed while walking around.

"whatever, you just wanted to have a comeback," suna teases, starting to walk away without you, briefly glancing back to check if you're following.

you jog up to him, matching his pace and giggling. "so what? i'm right, you two look so similar!" you tease, knowing damn well you aren't anywhere near correct about it. you just find it funny to mess with him.

suna rolls his eyes, a slight smile on his face as he walks up to the shopkeeper's counter, putting down the basket of snacks and drinks. the two of you stand in silence as the shopkeeper rings up the items and tells you both the total. when you go to take out your phone and pay, suna puts his hand over yours, lightly pushing it to the side.

"i got it," he says, putting bills in the cash tray sitting on the counter. you're slightly surprised as you let out a soft huff. you quietly say thank you to him, to which he merely glances down at you and nods.

once suna purchases all the snacks, the two of you walk home side by side. his playlist is still on shuffle, the familiar melodies of the songs softly playing through the airpods the two of you are sharing. as you both continue to walk, you switch off between holding the bag of snacks and keeping your hands in your hoodie pockets. this drawls on until the two of you get back to the dorm, unlocking the front door and heading to the living room.

you sigh, putting the plastic bag down on the coffee table and flopping onto the couch. "that was fun, thanks again for buying the food," you say groggily, letting out a yawn. 

"yep," suna replies, letting out an amused huff. he drops down beside you on the couch, grabbing the plastic bag and sorting through the food and drinks in it. he tosses a couple bags of chips and candy into your lap along with the bottled drink that had korilakkuma on it. he takes out the remainder of the snacks and empties them out onto his own lap, starting to open up a jelly stick that he bought.

you laugh softly at the way he tosses the snacks and drink onto your lap and unwrap a brown sugar flavored bun, taking a big bite out of it. "mm, this is even better than i remember," you comment, sinking into the couch.

suna hums, sucking some of the jelly out of his jelly straw. "yeah, i think everything tastes better when it's bought and eaten late at night." he glances down at you once again, a slight smile on his face.

"so why couldn't you sleep, hm?" you ask, tilting your head towards him, ripping a piece off of your bun and eating it.

"that's a long story..." suna replies, "you wanna hear about it? it may help you fall asleep, honestly." 

you nod, turning towards him in your spot on the couch. "yeah, sure."

the two of you both end up talking about why you couldn't sleep for nearly an hour. that is, until you fall asleep.

"yeah, so i had been-" suna freezes when he feels a weight hit his left shoulder. he looks down and sees you, sound asleep with your head resting on his shoulder. his expression softens slightly, and he wraps an arm around you, sighing quietly.

"i didn't even get to finish talking, y'know." he says softly, taking a throw blanket that was folded over the armrest of the couch and putting it over both of you, smiling slightly when he sees your face. you looked so relaxed in your sleep. he wouldn't be against doing this more often, in fact, he kinda liked it.

you and suna both slept on the couch that night. his chin was rested on top on your head, and he had pulled you impossibly close to him, making sure that you can sleep comfortably. it's safe to say that both of you were content that night.

notes ::

₊ ⊹ i was inspired to write this after doing something similar with my own roommate last night ◡̈

₊ ⊹ kinda forgot to proofread this before putting into my tumblr drafts and i dont feel like trying to proofread it now so sorry if you guys find an error ദ്ദി ꒦ິ꒳꒦ິ )✧

₊ ⊹ any other works can be found on my masterlist! (it's pretty small at the moment since i just started though!!)

🏷️ : @hyenagoated , @causenessus + @bokukos <3

[sweetk1lls]

       [   CONTENT   -   MAIN CHARACTERS LIST   -   PINBOARD   -   PLAYLIST   ]

*   WIP INTRO   :   GOD EXITS, THE 2ND INSTALLMENT OF THE GODLY TRILOGY 

“   And God exits leaving behind the lies in all gore galore. Yet god too exists in the dirty basements, every torn out eyes, the stars bound to die screaming and fall forgotten, these cracked reflections stained with blood, ashes, and memories that beg to be held despite, despite, despite—   ”

‹ GENRE // : ›   Metafiction while it is consisted of every genres there is, though the most highlighted ones are action, comedy, horror, sci-fi, and weird fiction across all mediums of God Exits   /   ‹ POV // : ›   Everything to embody the chaos within the narrative   /   ‹ THEMES // : ›   Believing into being, bending the possible and breaking the impossible, creations vs. creators, finding light in darkness, hands made to love and to kill, morality in creation, rebellion against fate, self searching in everything and everyone and everywhere, what makes art and storytelling, nothing matters therefore everything is beautiful, the narrative loves you enough that it will kill you.  /   ‹ WARNINGS // : ›   Cannibalism, death, experiments, existentialism, eye themes ( horror, gore, scopo ), general horror ( body, gore, psychological, etcetera ), religious themes, mental illnesses, nihilism, paranoia inducement, self-harm, sexual themes, suicide, suicidal ideations, surrealism, traumas, unreality, violence, world endings, mentions of abuse in general.   /   ‹ STATUS // : ›   Outlining only the novel version; will soon focus on other versions as the novel is the main priority of this installment

‹ SYNOPSIS // : ›   There are seven doors present before You that You can enter that its path embodies a form of medium: Novel, show, film, theatre, music, podcast, and video game. These paths will tell You a story that sets in the God Exits universe, where everything and everyone and everywhere dies because of The End phenomena except for You, the Consumer, part of the Audience. No matter which door You take, You will meet an all-encompassing glitch who may be either your friend or foe, even more or less than either, known as [ REDACTED ]. It seems to be the only character who knows about The End, and It wants to find a way to prevent this moment from happening, but warns You that there is no point of returning if You want to help It. So You can choose to help It and all of these universes or walk away. If You do intend to help, You should wonder if You truly can when You are then the cause of The End.

“   Oh, and how the universe always say God exists in myself as well. I do believe it: God exists in all and then me, killed before consumed raw. And I loathe how, even as all horror made in God’s name, the taste of divine makes me wish for the end when I just want to BE[LIE]VE—   ”

[maman-suho]

WHAT IF - Got7 members were cursed and became girls for one day

Version française

(Stupid) Plot : Once upon a time there was anti witch. One day she send them a letter saying “Because I wish you could understand what it is to be a woman before singing shi*** stuff like Girls Girls Girls, be prepared to turn into girls for one whole day. Good luck.”. And the day after, all got7 members were turned into girls. 

Note : When I say girl  I mean, physically. They’re still theirselves on the inside.

Words : 1140

While Mark had woken up without realizing it, Bambam instantly felt the difference

Immediately he touched his boobs 

but then realized he doesn’t really have some cause he’s still skinny as fuck

and as soon as he got up, he tried his clothes

just to realize they still fit him perfectly 

Because indeed, the difference wasn’t that big

Witch is not the case of Yugyeom... poor boy

He might have big breasts, his oversized sweaters made him feel like a flag

and turned him into a clumsy mess

this guy even tried to dance, but felt terrible because he doesn’t have a bra

and god knows it hurts

so he stopped

And when Bambam arrived (on high heels, of course, cause he’s sassy and bc shoe lifts are overrated when you’re a girl) they started to do shit tgt,

comparing theirselves and screaming w/ high pitched voices (help)

The noise had attracted evil Jinyoung

who wanted them to shut up

But he got instantly whistle at by Jackson.

“Nice ass!” he said by raising his eyebrows

Jinyoung smiled against his will because wang gae park gae for ever ykwim

Jackson would be a really sexy girl tbh

Like a curvy fit girl

and everybody would know that fact because

he would have shared it on ig

in a story, w/ a bikini and a wicked smiley,

tagged “too cool to be a woman guys! Am I hot?”

And everybody would agree, of course

Everybody except Yugyeom, 

because while Bambam started to polish his nails like he already did as a man 

the maknae started to feel pain in his lower abdomen

and soon came out of the bathroom panicked

because he peed blood

“You didn’t peed blood, you have your period” answered Mark, absolutely neutral

Jinyoung would have laugh so hard 

and then be (gently) hit by Yugyeom

“That’s not funny it hurts like hell!”

And when a web site (because they had to search on internet to be sure) mentioned he had to go to the convenience store to buy sanitary pads

Yugyeom blushed

So Jinyoung accepted to go w/ him

And Jackson too because it’s so funny to be a girl

“I got accosted three times on my way here, be careful guys, men are dogs.” said Mark before they leave

An awkward silent had then invaded the room before Bambam spoke.

“Hmm... Usually we’re men, do you remember?”

“Honestly, when I look at you I don’t see any difference.”

Awkwardness then vanished w/ laughs, they left 

But on their way to the store nothing happened even if they clearly understood why Mark had to face that situation

In fact Mark was really fabulous as a girl,

even dressed w/ oversized men clothes

When they arrived at the convenience store Jackson bet he was able to get the checkout boy phone number, and leave

to start flirting with him in an awkward provocative way

Meanwhile Yugyeom and Jinyoung had difficulties to decide on what type of pads they had to buy

Then Jinyoung saw a guy behind them,

he was clearly glaring at Yugyeom ass

so mode ‘mummy Jinyoung’ now activated, he yelled at him, with a terrifying expression

“Hey ! What are you looking at you little...”

And the guy, scared to the bones, left without a word

while Yugyeom couldn’t help but reddened

“Mark was right. I didn’t know men could be that horrible...” he concluded w/ a sigh before

Jackson came back, a phone number in his hand

“I got a number from a guy !” he exclaimed when they came back

“I guess he gave it to you because you intimidated him w/ your muscles...” said Bambam with a laugh

“It’s cool to have muscles, even when you’re a girl you know.”

But then the room became silent, every new comer paralyzed in amazement, 

their eyes stucked on Youngjae sat on the sofa

“Damn Youngjae” said Jackson while Yugyeom only breathed a “wow”

Indeed Youngjae was stunning, looking even more beaming as a girl than usual

His face fitting perfectly to be a girl, and a really cute one

“What?!” He abruptly asked, not girly anymore

“Nothing you’re just... wow!”

“Yeah.” said Bambam. “Hyung, honestly, I think I would have flirt w/ you if I was a boy” he stupidly laugh.

“I think you better called him ‘unnie’ now” laugh Mark while Yugyeom escaped to the bathrooms

After a while everything was calm again

Bambam had brought up the idea of sleeping with a man to check the difference

after Yugyeom expressed with his unbearable voice how it’s horrible to have periods.

They started to make a list on who’s the sexiest, the prettiest and the cutest member

then planned to go out to have a drink as girls

before Youngjae asked where’s JB

“He locked himself up in his room since the morning. He said he had work to do”

But everybody knew it was fake

Jaebum was just dealing with losing his virility, alone

like he couldn’t even go to the studio to do music cause his voice wasn’t okay

“I’ll stay there” he has asked when Jinyoung and Youngjae came to know if he was okay and if he wanted to go out with the band

“I have an idea to hurry up” suddenly said Mark “Bambam, just come here and disrespect the hermit!"

So after the fake maknae enjoyed being a little shit for a minute JB exited his room

“I knew he was hot! Bam you owe me 10!” exclaimed Mark.

And he was right, Jaebum was hot. Blasé, but hot.

“Okay I’m out” he said turning around to go back to his room

But Jackson stopped him, and soon they we’re all out, having a drink together

But they forgot they were girls

and they didn’t expected to not holding their drinks as good as before

so soon every of them was drunk

They started to approximately sing their songs to check if they have a better future as a girls band

And then the waiter accosted JB to say he was cute

So Jaebum died from shame, 

hiding himself in his sweater

and disappearing under the table

Bambam even took a picture

Then started the drunken debate ‘Is it cool to be a girl?”

Opposing the team “No it sucks” w/ JB, Yugyeom and Mark

against the “It’s soooo cool omg” including Jackson and Bambam

while Youngjae and Jinyoung stayed indifferent

because as Jackson said “of course it doesn’t change anything for you. You still have a peach booty and you a cute face...”

So on this wises words, the day ended 

And this is how got7 spent their day as girls.

[cythoughtsnmemories]

27.12.21

Request bf to go try d glide at CHIJMES after our wkday dinner. So hot! Lol but an experience lah. Shall go ice skating w him some day.

Long wkend just past so fast. Had half day on xmas eve. Watched my drama till 4 then prep and went Grace's hse for steamboat n xmas exchange. We said to buy gift of budget of $30 but I got a gift which I think at most $10 :( We played quite a few different card games and only head home ard 2am. Shag

It's okay, I got 2 surprise the next day. Woke up 9+ and meal prep alone at home. Suddenly, there was a delivery, I tot was for my sis or dad but it looks like food. I asked who ordered and d delivery man showed me the receipt. It was from my buddy aka team leader. 2 pin of Udder ice cream hehehe~ I'm so touched!

Meeting bf 12 at platform to go lunch tgt. He said he went to collect his stuff, so I tot maybe something for his uniform. Quickly clean d kitchen and only left hse at 12. Oops! Open my hse gate and saw him hiding beside hahaha~ saw him holding the pie which I wanted to try so badly but nvr get it. 1st thing I felt was guilty hahaha~ cos I just said him a few days ago that he nvr plan where to go nowadays, and I have to request then he go w me. I was really touched!! He pre-order and went to collect for me! Actually he love me a lot in other way, his words, also trying to spent more time w me, check on me. I'm so not thoughtful :( haha

I con't meal prep a little after lunch before we took a nap. Make bf do mask w me, while waiting for sis to finish cooking for xmas dinner.

We were quite on to book a trampoline fitness class next day, last min after dinner. Was quite excited! Regret didn't drink enough water cos 1 side of my ear was echoing. After d class, I had cold Sweat and feeling giddy. That's it, I puke in d toilet. Lucky bf was ard and we went for a drink. So sweet of him to travel longer route, just to acc me to d stn I'm alighting. Can't ask for more. Managed to meet my SSC for late lunch. It's always a good time, but I felt a bit tired though. Bus ride home, feels like taking forever. I had diarrhea once I sat on d toilet bowl. Took pills for diarrhea after I ran toilet d second time. God! It's didn't stop. The whole night I ran 4 times more. Had to call in sick.

Hmm, manager asked me to reschedule today's meeting when I told her I'm on mc and she had no time to attend. Wow~ no help given. Sad life, got to crawl out of bed to send email, to inform reschedule exit interview meeting. Seen d doc, then realized I had overwork my muscle ard my core and causing me to have diarrhea. Feeling better after d meds n nap. Met Della for dinner before she return to her hometown on Wed. Finally!! So happy for her. Oh and she got promoted, for d 1st time in her career. Really hard work paid off!

Can't wait to meet bf tmr! Hehe Goodnight!

[blissful-reveries]

MY EXPERIENCE AT EXO’RODIUM!!!

I CANT BELIEVE I GOT TO SEE MY KINGS AGAIN TT IM SO EMOTIONAL EVEN THOUGH ITS BEEN 2 DAYS SINCE THE CONCERT - EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT IT I JUST GET ALL GIDDY AND EXCITED AGAIN :D Here is my post on my experience at exo’rdium last night (fyi I wrote this on the night when i came back at like 2am LOL) its HECKA long post.... without further ado, here is MY EXPERIENCE AT EXORDIUM ^^

EXO’RDIUM 02.11.17

TODAY WAS FKING EXO’RDIUM HK AHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SO SHOOK HOLY I CAN NOT EVEN. WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN OMFG I- I can barely wrap my head around the fact that (YET AGAIN) EXO was in the same building as me, less than 10m away, LIVING, BREATHING IN THE FLESH EXO. LIKE THEY’RE REAL. NOT JUST PIXELS ON MY LAPTOP SCREEN- I JUST CANT. I STILL CANT. okok so to start, for this EXO concert, I wasn’t able to get standing tickets like I did for EXO’LUXION (when i was lucky enough to have FRONT ROW JEAAAASUUSS), but I was HUGELY and pleasantly surprised that our seats (Block 5, Row 6) WAS ACTUALLY SO CLOSE TO THE STAGE. LIKE I COULD SEE THE ENTIRE STAGE + EXTENDED STAGE, AND IF I USED MY CAMERA TO FILM, I COULD SEE THEIR FACES. So that was a huge plus as soon as we got into the arena. When the concert started, a VCR was shown - about how EXO was the saviours of the world (when are they not tho tbvh HAHA) from danger and etc. the screaming was seriously unreal - like when every member came up on the VCR… #impressed. Then, they started the concert with MAMA and can we just- MAJOR THROWBACK TO FETUS EXO DAYS??? LIKE THIS SONG TRIGGERS SO MANY MEMORIES IM NOT EVEN OKAY RN. also can we just - can SM please release the remix version of MAMA CUZ I WOULD GET IT IN A HEARTBEAT <3 Then without giving our poor hearts a second to rest, they jumped right into mONSTER!!!! IM WAS NOT READY FOR IT AND THEY JUST THREW IT AT ME WHAT. It was amazing as expected, the choreo and everything omfg.. it was LEGIT like copy and paste… AND CAN WE TAKE A MOMENTbc JONGDAE FREAKING BLEW THAT HIGH NOTE AWAY. wait where was that high note? BLEW AWAY BY JONGDAE’S GORGEOUS VOCALS THATS WHERE.

THEN yet another throwback, they performed wolf :’) it been so long since they performed it and omg It was beautiful. The tree added with projections, and it was a remix version which meant DANCE BREAK!!!!! Seriously it was SO SO GOOD like they added projections so that it seemed like they were entering and exiting the tree behind (LOOK IDK IF THAT MAKES SENSE BUT THATS WHAT HAPPENED OK). and it was just so perfect… perfect way to bring back the song.

THEN they finally took a break and did their first ment. can i just pause for a sec and mention how much i freaking love their black blouses? like the ones with the cuts. THEY’RE GORGEOUS AND THEY WEAR THEM SO WELL TT… Kyungsoo, suho and baek all mentioned that they’re going to comeback soon so to give them lots and lots of support (YES BC EXOLS PULL THRU). Sehun and his mandarin came through as expected HAHA and it was so cute - cuz he kept saying things like “are you enjoying yourselves?” “Did you miss us?” my hubby you go! Yixing greeted us in cantonese and it was so cute XD his voice when he speaks canto is the cUTEST THING EVER. i wanna wrap him up and bring him back home.. he started talking in canto about wanting us to support his film, but then paused  to think - then after like 5 seconds, gave up and spoke in mandarin instead AHAHA XINGXING YOU CUTIE OMG. SPEAKING OF YIXING THO — Originally I didn’t know if he was going to attend this concert or not, because he’s been away for filming at guangzhou for the past couple of weeks, there’s hardly been any news of him so i wasn’t sure… BUT I WAS SO FLIPPIN HAPPY WHEN I SAW HIM COME OUT. FIRST THOUGHTS: DAMN SON YOU SLAY EVERYTHING. SECOND THOUGHT: his hair was really long HAHAHAH XD STILL SLAYING THE HANDSOME GAME THO. Suho kept mentioning that coming to HK always leaves good memories for him, and mentioned the EXO daesang win during MAMA AND THE CROWD WENT WILD ;D You know how much we support y’all.

Afterwards, they performed WHITE NOISE AND I WAS SO SURPRISED BC I HAD NO IDEA THEY WERE GONNA DO THIS SONG — i made myself not watch any prior concert vids bc i wanted this to be complete surprise and HECK YEAH I WAS SURPRISED. It was a new dance and everything it was so fresh :’))) there were some body rolls here and there, and overall it was a lot more toned down than artificial love oH GOD ARTIFICIAL LOVE JUST WAIT HOLY. Middle of white noise they went to the centre hexagon and danced, but then out of nowhere WATER START POURING FROM THE TOP DOWN LIKE WHATTTTT THEN THEY STARTED DANCING IN THE POURING WATER LIKE ALL WET AND EVERYTHING X_X i was so so so happy bc sehun was always on my side of the stage so i was able to see and film him well <3 his dancing is en pointe as usual heh #proudwifey

THEN JESUS SAVE ME THEY PERFORMED THUNDER <3 <3 <3 AND SEHUN OWNED THAT STAGE LIKE IT WAS NOBODY’S BUSINESS He was on the center extended part, and damn like the stage should have been called FIRE, CUZ IT WAS LIT. Yixing and Jongin as always slayed the game too and the VOCALS FOR THIS WAS SO GREAT OMG LIKE IT WAS LIKE PERFECT :’)) also. jongin was being a huge TEASE bc he kept smirking and smiling while dancing :((( HAHA but it was lovely and made my heart thump <3

then they did playboy. rmb when playboy used to be the most sexual dance in their concert? YEAH NO JUST WATCH ARTIFICIAL LOVE HOLY i need to cleanse my eyes…. ANYWAY BEFORE THAT— this time playboy was done a bit differently, sekai wasn’t paired tgt, as pcy and osh were tgt, and kai had his own rising stage fanncaayy B) OH AND SIDE NOTE: I LOVE their laced up pants too..its very pretty and... its very tight LMAO gives me pirate vibes lol. i loved it bc the boys were all just having a TON of fun - like they came in yesterday night, and performed today thats just amazing if i compare that to the amount of energy they had today. THEY WERE LIKE HIGH OR SMTH SO CRAZY XD AND HYPER <3 but it was like a giant party so WOO!! Suho and chen went out to the farthest extended stage which meant I could see their features and OMG PRINCE SUHO ATTACKS AGAIN BC HE NEVER FAILS TO FAZE ME AT HOW BEAUTIFUL HE IS IRL. He’s like a LEGIT god descending from heaven…. <3 Chanyeol went to the hexagonal extended stage and did a solo dance there - it was beautiful :’) and YIXING was in the center extended just having a blast body rolling, pelvis thrusting JEEEEZ i need holy water.

JESUS NO ITS HERE. I CANT. IT WAS ARTIFICIAL LOVE NOW. omg i can’t even bare to talk about it I WAS SO….AHHHHH I CANT EXPLAIN OMG. i felt strange LMAO ok so right after playboy WHICH WAS ALREADY MILDY SEXY, they grabbed the canes from the side of the stage and as soon as the music came up i was like UH OH HERE IT COMES… and KAI WAS ON THE HEXAGONAL STAGE (yes im referring to him as kAI BECAUSE BABY NINI WOULD NEVER DO THAT)- AND OH JESUS IT WAS SUCH A SHOCKING MOMENT WHEN HE… UM.. GRINDED ON THE CANE?? GOSH EVEN TYPING IT MAKES ME FEEL DIRTY LMFAO I couldn’t even bring myself to film it bc i jUST CANT???? then, when switched positions, baekhyun was now where kai was, and another chorus came along which meant another grinding session (pls save me). When I watched baekhyun’s one i was ready to keep my eyes closed bc puppy baek grinding? it would destroy my image of him forever… BUT!! he was actually very reserved HAHAH XD i think it was just yixing, and kai who like 150% WENT FOR IT. ground like there was no tomorrow LMAO. so yeah long song short, KAI’S SEX APPEAL BROKE THE ROOF, and baekhyun was still a cutie BAHAHA XDD and then it was KAIXING duet dance break during artificial love with the BLINDFOLDS OMG SO SEXY HOLYY my poor heart :((

OMG AND UNFAIR!!!! I love the stage for unfair its so cute and unique, squishy kyungsoo popped out of a tv and a chair (oh i wish that were reality), just the entire performance aspect of it was top notch and so cute. After unfair, it was a short ment where exo all sat on the steps of the stage, and yixing and pcy sat on both ends holding guitars. WHICH MEANT ACOUSTIC MEDLEY TIME!!!! Yixing gave a short introduction about the medley (it was so nice to hear his voice after such a long time not hearing it) and then demo-ed the guitar by playing a little impromptu melody — reminds me of just how much of a genius zhang yixing is *heart eyes*. Chanyeol also did a quick demo and same thing goes for him.. how do they self learn things so well :((the first song that they sang in the acoustic medley was My Lady and I FLIPPED OUT BC IT WAS KYUNGSOO AND IT WAS R&B MY TWO FAV COMBOS <3 It was so nice to just sit and listen to their live vocals - and this really goes to show how much talent there is in exo. whoever disagrees should sit in one concert and just LISTEN TO THEIR FLAWLESS VOCALS. like seriously, there was no out of pitch moments (- wAIT AHHA THIS REMINDS ME OF SOMETHING FUNNY PCY DID). OKOK SO BASICALLY near the end of the medley, (I CANT RMB WHICH ACOUSTIC IT WAS RN BUT-) it was supposed to be baekhyun’s line but kyungsoo held his mic towards Chanyeol’s mouth (he was preoccupied with guitar playing) to prompt him to sing. PCY did sing baek’s line, but his voice cracked BAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH XD AND THE FUNNIEST THING WAS: HE MADE THIS REALLY CUTE SHOCKED FACE WHEN IT HAPPENED AND TOUCHED HIS THROAT THEN SHOOK HIS HEAD. NAWWWWWWW <3 adorbs… in the acoustic, they covered so many songs - CMB (WHICH JONGIN SANG BEAUTIFULLY OMG), My turn to cry, lady luck… just some i could rmb off the top of my head rn at 2:17 am HAHA.. then at the very end, yixing sang an acoustic version of Monodrama - and the lyrics were on the screen so the entire crowd sang along-it was beautiful <3 <3 <3 - at the end, yixing looked really sheepish, and grabbed the mic saying, “i’m so sorry, i sang the demo version’s lyrics so I didn’t sing the right words heh” and then pcy BEING THE MEDIATOR HE IS, was like “eyyyyy they probably didn’t even hear the difference- did you guys hear the difference???” and obvs we screamed NO!!!! and then that made xingxing look even more sheepish SO SO CUTE X) the entire thing just sounded and felt like a warm campfire get together with exo ls and exo <3 it was heartwarming and beautiful and I’m so glad that they added this segment.

and then they did lady luck again- this time not acoustic, but the dance and song version and kyungsoo. just. his voice. like. it melted the entire arena down. his projections were all so stable it sounded like the studio recorded version :’))) they danced on rising stages and everything was just so aesthetically perfect.. If i’m being completely honest, this time around, I was putting my focus deliberately more on sehun because i remember last year during exoluxion when i was front row, i could only really focus on whoever was in front of my area of the stage, which meant i missed a lot of sehun when he performed :( so i made the decision to FEED MY EYES AND HEART fully of sehun this time as last time, i was kyungsoo came to the front a lot and i kyungsoo’s vocals and dance fed me fully hehe (ohhh good times :’)) so yeah i wanted to say that kyungsoo’s vocals blew me away here because his LIVES ARE ACTUALLY PERFECT???how. haha bc his voice is made of honey chocolate <3

they performed TENDER LOVE next and I got shook all together again because THEY ALL INTERACTED WITH THE FANS THROUGH THE LIGHTSTICK :’D THEY each grabbed a lightstick and as soon as the song started baekhyun yelled “PUT YOUR HANDS UP!” :D yixing walked to the center extended stage and the next thing i knew, the STAGE WAS RISING UP LIKE A RAMP AND MY QUOTED WORDS AT THAT TIME CAUGHT ON VIDEO WAS “WOAH LOOK AT THAT STAGE” i was so surprised IT LOOKED LIKE A COMPLETE FUN HOUSE :DD All the members were just having a ton of silly fun during the song by just jumping :D during the chorus they would direct the crowd into little movements sequences we could do with the lightsticks and it was so nice bc it was like a little dance party - and they all looked so proud haha like we were all together - WE ARE ONE!! hehe Sehun came up to the farthest extended stage and danced on the stage closer to my side which was AMAZING <3 which meant that he was directing my block in the light stick moves ^^ i just thought it was super nice that they were able to interact with all of us in that way, include us all in that way it was very heartwarming <3

then LMR came up!! a lot earlier than last year’s one actually. fun and quirky as usual, BAEK’S VOCALS YES. they all danced so energetically and so hyped up, it was so so so AMAZING TO SEE THAT <3 esp sehun bc he’s usually the type that dances to the extent that is enough to show that he’s doing the moves, but this time he added so many more little side moves of his that spiced things up a lot hehe..

During One and Only, i think someone that stood out the most for me was def jongin. his vocals during the song was just something straight from all things good in the world. it was so good :’))) I’m so impressed by how much he has improved his vocal abilities over the years and is truly developing his own distinctive voice <3 OH AND the official HK exo fan club organized an event where during performance of One and Only, representatives in the crowd would hold up letters that spelt “EXO You Are My One and Only”.

omg and possibly my favorite part of the concert….. kai x sehun x lay WATER DANCE WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I am not at all exagerating when i say that every millisecond of what i saw looked like something out of a painting. IT WAS GORGEOUS AND BEAUTIFUL (how many times have i said beautiful omg). they were all so in sync, and everyone gave it their all and it shows <3 THEN CAME THE MOMENT THE WATER STARTED FILLING THE GROND AND WHERE ALL 3 OF THEM JUST DROPPED TO THE GROUND (how do they not break their knees is my question) IT WAS SO SO *fight the urge to say beauti—* BEAUTIFUL <3 I’m sorry there are no other words to describe how amazingly godlike the entire performance was.. then when the water started pouring from the top OH DAMN THAT WAS THE CLIMAX. so they danced in the water with water pouring all over their heads and bodies and THE EFFECT LOOKED SO ETHEREAL like aM I EVEN ALIVE? HAVE I GONE TO HEAVEN? BC THIS IS WHAT I THINK HEAVEN WILL LOOK LIKE TBH. 3 DANCING WATER ANGELS <3 ahHAHA so yeah and when it ended, they 3 were kneeling in the water, and jongin had to be all extra and stuff and run his hand through his hair, gazing dangerously sexily into the audience.. yep THERE GOES MY OVARIES BOOM. THANK YOU OSH, KAI AND YIXING.

AND THEN IT WAS VOCAL LINE TIME TO SHINE!!! Stronger was performed, and it was all i could ask for to have all four of them, kyungsoo, baek, chen, and suho sing this song… esp during stressful times THANK YOU <3 also the vocals were just off the charts at 200% today like they even said themselves that they’re feeling great today WHICH MAKES ME SO DAMN HAPPY :’’)))) oMG THEN THEY PLAYED THE REALLY CUTE VCR OF EXO AS NOMES (??) HAHA dancing and stuff, then they came out of the back wearing the cute af pointy hats and elf shoes XDDD CUTENESS OVERLOAD!! they sang HEAVEN as they came out and it was SO CUTE and also the way that kyungsoo wears his pointy hat, OVER HIS FOREHEAD AND TOUCHING HIS EYES IS SO DAMN SQUISHY OF HIM AHHH :3 he’s so adorable CAN I TAKE HIM HOME PLS along with the rest of exo!!!!! Then they took off their costumes to sing Girl x Friend and it was honestly so great.. xingxing was dancing and pointing out to the audience to guide them in singing the song, sehun came out again to the middle to just enjoy the stage, and kyungsoo was sining happily waving a nightstick around ^^ WAIT OMG ALMOST FORGOT — SEHUN WAS WEARING SPECS DURING THIS AHAHAH HE LOOKED SO DAMN HOT I CANNOT EVEN. SEHUN IN SPECS MAKES ME REEVALUATE MY LIFE. <3 hot hubby hehe

Then 3.5.6 WAS LITTTTTTT haha everyone was dancing and as EXPECTED!!! they did the weird “ooh ooh” sounds in between the 3.6.5 chorus lines xDD HAH now it sounds weird to listen to the studio version one cuz it doesn’t have those sounds LMAO. THEN EXO BECAME A BUNCH OF MEANIES BC THEY FINISHED THE SONG AND as soon as the lights turned up, they were like, “okay, bye! Thank you for coming!” “See you tomorrow” (BISH LIKE WE HAVE MONEY TO SEE U 2 CONSECUTIVE DAYS IN A ROW ALTHOUGH ID VERY MUCH LOVE TO), and the entire crowd AWW’ed and whined like NO! you can’t leave us like this :((( they were so mean…

BUT THEN THEY CAME OUT WEARING THOSE COPPERY COLORED JACKETS and performed TRANSFORMER like in MAMA but EVEN BETTER <3 <3 <3 I really love the part where they all come together and do the roboty like thing. i think i have a new found love for transformer OOPS x) it was so cool like the choreo too!! it was so sharp and just overall. ANNND THEN THEY DID LIGHTSABER~~~ everything was lit. DANCE WAS LIT, SONG WAS LIT, RAP WAS LIT, ALLLSO there was a special dance part near the end where everyone got ‘lightsabers’ and STARTED SWINGING THE CRAP OUT OF IT HAHAHA. and as to no surprise. MORE WATER!! haha water started pouring again (honestly I’ve lost count HAHA) they’re so obsessed with water… or they just want the wet clothes to stICK TO THEIR ABS? x_X

then they took a break and did another ment - which was good cuz i needed that break HAHAHA xD sehun, pcy, yixing and minseok went backstage first to change out of their wet clothes, while baek, suho, kai, chen, kyungsoo, stayed behind to talk. They talked about how nice it was that Jongin was muscular bc he was good at exercising which made nini really embarrassed HAHA.. then joonmyeon turned to kyungsoo and was like, “what about you?” and squishy soo didn’t say anything and just bowed. NAW ITS OK PENGUIN SOO I LIKE IT BETTER WHEN YOU DONT HAVE RIPPED MUSCLES :D Then, Baekhyun said in the ment that, “During One and Only you guys held some letters up, but I couldn’t really see them as I was dancing, what did it say again? Could you raise it again so I could read?” so the representatives in the crowd did, and Baekhyun, Chanyeol read it out. THEN HAHA WHATS FUNNY IS baekhyun then said, “oh! i see now. But you know it’s not because we don’t know how to read english, we do- its because you guys held one letter upside down so we couldn’t read” UHMM SAVAGE BAEK ???!?!!? HAHAHA BUT IT WAS SUPER FUNNY XD. Then joonmyeon pitched in and said he thought that the M and Y were going to spell MYEON, which made him suspect that “oh? maybe they’re preparing something for my birthday……?” HAHAH NEXT TIME JOONMYEON NEXT TIME WE PROMISE <3 such a cutie.

AHAH ANOTHER FUNNY PART!! Baekhyun wanted us all to be quiet for a bit bc he wanted to say something but the crowd didn’t stay quiet for long, so he kept shushing us, like “sh! sh! SHHH!” and then he started saying SH in a really fast and abrupt way, IT SOUNDED LIKE HE SWORE AND SAID SH*T XD AND EVERYONE STARTED LAUGHING HAHAHAHAH don’t think he noticed but oh well baaha cute. baek went on to say how hard they’ve been preparing for their new album, so requested for us to show it lots of love when it comes out (OF COURSE!!! ITS A GIVEN1!!)

AHH ok so those 5 went backstage to change and now pcy, sehun, yixing, minseok came out to ment. During the ment, minseok said that he felt sorry because he messed up during the lightsaber perf. He said that it wasn’t because he forgot the moves, but because the water was pouring into his shirt, and it was so cold that he momentarily forgot what he was supposed to do (poor baby… please don’t get sick any of you :\\). Then PCY started going “沒關係” which is “no problem” in cantonese and got the entire crowd to repeat over and over until minseok told us to stop HAHA :3 then sehun decided to ment next, and he told a “funny” story - which really wasnt funny at all HAHA srsly no one understood what he was trying to say HAHAH or the purpose of the story he was telling - anyway at the end when he realized that no one understood what he was saying, he said, “i’m just trying to lighten up the mood from the sorry atmosphere minseok hyung set up just now..” then PCY again did the “no problem” chant and got the entire crowd in on it again x). Then to compensate, sehun asked us to all give a collective fake laugh AHHA AT HIS FAILED JOKE XD i can’t this boy is everything. then yixing went around giving a cantonese lesson for the other 3 boys, teaching them how to say thank you, hello, my name is___ except the fact that he forgot how to say the members names in canto xD

After the ment, yixing went back and pcy x sehun x minseok did a rap song that i believe is only exclusive to the concerts? its called “같이해” which means “do it together”. THIS. SONG. WAS. FREAKING. LIT. SEHUN FREAKING OWNED THAT STAGE LIKE IT WAS HIS AND NO ONE ELSES B) HE WAS IN CENTER STAGE MOST THE TIME, AND WENT ON THE RISING RAMP WHICH WAS SUUUUPER COOL. He was so full of charisma on stage i couldn’t take my eyes off him for even a second. he demanded attention in everything he did HAHAH THATS MY BOO then this lit rap transitioned into DROP THAT when all members joined them on stage, and IT WAS AS LIT AS IT WAS LAST YEAR WOO so so nice. “we say e-x, you say o! , e-x-“ “O!” so nice *sparkling eyes* OMG ALSO CHANYEOL DID AN ELECTRIC GUITAR COVER OF GROWL AND IT WAS FREAKING COOL AF

ooooohhhh then next they did the cool little Let Out the Beast remix starting with the lightstick part. It was a bit of a shame that they did not organize this concert to have the bluetooth setting so it lost a wow factor there, but STILL THE REMIX SONG WAS GREAT AND THEY DID A DANCE REMIX IT WAS SO EFFING COOL AND OLD SCHOOL I LOVE IT SO MUCH <3

Following that, they performed Lucky, where everyone LEGIT WENT CRAZY HYPER HAHA THEY DID RANDOM DANCES AND EVERYTHING speaking of random dances, CHANYEOL DABBED LIKE AT LEAST 10 TIMES HERE JEEEAASUS and did juju on the beat hAHAHA I WAS SHOOK lmao THEN they did RUN and yixing was near the part where i was at so I had a very clear view of him going CRAZYYY like actually CRAZY!! he was doing all sorts of random running moves, and just having a ton of fun :’)) this was so impactful on me because i rmb last year, they flew in to hk really early and at the same day they had to perform so lay was really really tired that day. but to see him so hyper and energetic was so refreshing and it made me really hyped up too :’) little xing bunny jumping for joy haha

GROWL MY FAV SONG came out and everything was SO PERFECT haha this time the members freely walked around first and interacted with fans. then park chanyeol. okay so um. this boy has a problem with chronic DABBING AND JUJU-ING. he DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO STOP LITERALLY DOES NOT STOP. HE DABBED LIKE AVERAGE EVERY 5 SECONDS NOT EXAGGERATING. And then baekhyun learned from him and started to dab and juju uncontrollably too ._. not you too baek AHAH but in all honesty it was so funny to watch XD pcy did so many dabs that sehun had to almost flying kick him to get him back to his regular mind haha. THEY WERE CRAZILY HYPER today and i LOVE IT SO MUCH  <3 AHAH AND THEN YIXING WAS SO CUTE CUZ during the beginning of growl when everyone walked everywhere, he walked to the furthest extended stage, but during the bridge he was supposed to get back to the middle to do the dance part. He only remembered when the music turned and had to RUN FOR HIS LIFE back to the centre aND IT WAS SO CUTE CUZ I SAW THE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE REMEMBERED XD PRICELESS.

Lucky One was next, and similarly it was free-dance and walk around which was nice and chill for them ^^ but jongdae did not give up on the dance and still did it throughout ahah #dedication. near the end, suho was the only one dancing and pcy and sehun were both doing weird af gestures behind him LOL .. and then it was time for the last ment D: I’m sad just thinking about it again….

So at the start of the ment, when pcy was talking, jongin bent over and looked really tired, which is expected since he danced with so much energy during the entirety of the concert - but he suddenly ran off stage, and no one knew what was going on- i started to get really nervous because i didn’t know what happened, if he was sick or hurting and i felt really sad :( my heart hurt. But then when it got around to about fixing’s turn to ment, jongin finally came back and all the members were like, “kai-sshi where did you disappear off to just now?” and HAHA HE SAID, “i had to go to the bathroom really urgently i was very very urgent” HAHAHAHA XD NOT WHAT ANYONE OF US WERE EXPECTING LMAO IM DECEASED XDD Then the members teased him and were like, “Kai-sshi is your stomach not feeling well (aka do u have a stomach ache/diarrhoea)?” and he immediately denied it and said, “nO! I just went to the toilet to pee hahah i was so urgent.” Then he said, “You know, after coming back from the toilet, my mood is so much more relieved” BAHAHHAHAHA “RELIEVED?!?!” IM DEAD AGAIN.. then PCY started saying, “so did you go to the toilet to … number 2?” HAHAH and jongin said, “NO! I WENT TO DO A NUMBER 1” IT WAS SO FUNNY MY ABS HURT AHAHAHA THEY WERE ARGUING ABOUT THE TOILET ON STAGE I CANT WITH THESE BOYS.. XD

Channel kept dabbing and juju-ing still, which triggered baekhyun to do the same, AND I KID YOU NOT, they DID NOT STOP DOING THAT UNTIL THE ENTIRE MENT WAS OVER FOR EVERYONE XD THESE TWO PUPS.. baekhyun’s ment consisted of him teaching us how to dab LMAO he was like “i’ll teach you the easy one (the dab), bc the other one (the juju) is more complex” LOL THANKS TEACHER BAEK. so yeah long story short, he got the entire arena to dab. yup. EVERYONE. us all dabbing only exacerbated chanyeol’s chronic dabbing syndrome and he continued to do it, with baekhyun responding to him every single time. #CHANBAEK OTP FTW. throughout all the dabbing sehun was just judging and like “ai these hinges…” but then eventually he caved and also did dabs AHHAHA, yixing,  chen were laughing so hard. the thing is, suho is trying to give his ment properly, and there you have chanyeol on one end, baekhyun on the other DABBING TOWARDS EACH OTHER OK LIKE THESE BOYS ARE NOT OK. WHAT DID THEY EAT BEFORE COMING OUT HERE?? Eventually suho gave up AHAH and dabbed too (…….) WHAT IS WITH ALL THIS DABBING….?!!??! also . baekhyun couldn’t help it and decided to teach us the juju too so. LMAO. AND THEN BAEK SAID, “the dab move i taught you! when we sing Angel for the last song, I want you to dab throughout the song!” THIS IS HOW OBSESSED THEY ARE OK. IM BEING HONEST, PCY AND BAEK added tgt for the entire concert prob dabbed and juju-ed like 50 times each . NOT. AN EXAGGERATION. Haha so yeah, fun times..

During Angel, fans threw stuff toys and animal hats on stage, and exo went around playing with them. Baekhyun found a pikachiu hat and chanyeol found a stuffed pokeball = chanyeol smashing the pokeball at poor baekhyun who ended up rolling on the stage xD. Sehun found a dinosaur hat and a snake that he wrapped around his neck (how exotic LOL), then he found a small stuffed white puppy that looked like Vivi. and he carried it all the way back to the stage where he said in chinese, “Vivi says, ‘see you tomorrow!’” (CAN HE GET ANY CUTER???). AND THEN omg the sweetest part was how yixing liteally went to every corner and crevice of the stage to bow and say goodbye and thankyou to the fans :’(((( IM CRYING HE’S LITERALLY THE SWEETEST BUNNY TT he was the last to return to the back part of the stage where baekhyun said they wanted to take a photo with all of us dabbing in the background (LMAO). it was so sad to see them all disappear behind the closing screens, how did time pass so quickly? it felt like we just came in to sit down..

it was an INSANE night. SO MUCH HYPE, SO LIT, SO FUN AND TRUELY showed the talents and nature of exo :’) they really had so much fun and as an EXO-L that is all I can ask for. Im so glad that they were able to get a nights rest before the concert this time unlike last year, because they were so much more awake and aware of the concert. they were all so into it and so CRAZY HYPER HAHA. Interestingly, baekhyun, suho both talked about how this Exo’rdium in HK was the VERY FIRST concert they held in the new year of 2017. WHICH WAS SUCH A HUGE THING!! they were all so energetic and excited about the concert that they asked for everyone in the crowd to dab while they took a group photo with us in the background - I AM OFFICIALLY SIGNING OFF. THEY ASKED US TO DAB FOR A PHOTO IM DONE. LMAO IM DOOONNEEE

So yeah…. that was a LONG ASS POST but it was worth staying up to 4am to write about <3 the best part was that when we looked at the time it was 10:32pm. we started at 7pm SHARP. which meant this concert went on for 3 and a half hours. 3 AND A HALF HOURS. THATS AMAZING AND GENEROUSLY LONG <3 This beautiful memory will stay with me forever and motivate me to do well in upcoming mocks and exams ^^ EXO SARANGHAJA!!!!! <3 WOOOOOO

[jslivingthelife]

Mother’s Day. So blessed; We are!

This Mother’s Day 2018, falling 13th May, by far one of the best family days ever.

1. Last night, I had a feeling I should try inviting mom and dad to church while they were watching tv at the family area. Mom (surprisingly) asked what time? & dad said if mom can wake up. Green light.

2. I woke at 7. Mom 7:20am. I gave her a kiss and hug while she was getting ready :). Dad already up. We took a walk to Seletar Mall by 8:15am. Sat for service. Pastor Mark gave today’s sermon. It was hilarious. So many takeaways, and they even gave Mom a gift! Mom seems reciprocative, which I’m happy for. Peaceful, in that direction at least. 

Today during worship, I teared up occasionally. I felt vulnerable, and I felt emotional, so emotional somehow. The worship songs struck a chord in my heart, deep down. That’s when I felt God touch me. I felt God’s love. I felt your love, Jesus. Your Perfect Love. Never forsaking. Can’t explain, I felt your love.

Anw, Pastor Mark’s delivery was clear and concise. Comedic, easy to receive and well received. Seeing mom and dad receive God’s Word made me light up. I felt a peace, knowing that they felt a peace and they were receiving the word, listening to the word.  Heart Origin: “Hear (†)” So amazing.

3. Three of us had macs breakfast where we talked about the messages during the sermon, and the convo was light and cheery. It was interesting too, to hear dad’s insights. Especially about Trump being a Christ Ambassador which he claims not many people know about. 

4. Mom and I took a walk to look at houses and talk, spent quality time tgt. Showed me pamphlets and ads on property. We discussed how to market better. Almost went to see a big bungalow but open house closed. To which we were both stunned bc this guy’s tone was so proud, I was sure I could do better business than that bc I would never speak to anyone in such a tone. It put me off so badly. I’m sure I could do better. (not by my work but by God’s Grace and his blessings ofc!) Bc grace flows to the humble. Tell God “I don’t know, show me the way. Teach me. Yes, and Amen.” and Receive. Receive his overabundant provisions. Listen. Do the good work by Listening. Listen-In not Listen-through.

5. Linner (Lunch/dinner?) @Eugene’s where we bought cake, took photos and had a decent meal despite craving Lobster and Fish’n’Chips but being unavailable.

6. Bought my water bottle (friggin’ excited), hairspray, shampoo, SHAVER, and TOOTHBRUSH (fruck friggin’ excited). Ok not sure why but definitely pumped up to start the day tmr with all of these. Feels like a replenishment. Feels great!

7. Drive back to Sg, we talked bout mine and sis’s work. Insights from mom and dad, advice, ideas. (The value your client gets from giving you referrals / referring his/her friends/family/colleagues to you, so you can spend less time finding new business and in turn, take this time to focus on serving them better instead of running around finding business it will be never-ending.) 

The best thing was that everyone, participated. Just amazing. & most times this time each of us were more or less receptive. Thank you Jesus, for your Word this morning. It has 100% definitely impacted our family. So DIRECTLY it is almost unreal.

8. I’ve a compelling vision in my head, I believe given by God. He knows my motivations, he has plans for me. It is as such. I don’t know what the future brings but I know it is at the end of the day, good. God’s Plan. He may delay certain blessings but that’s because he knows when to give them to you at the best opportunity so you’ll receive the MAXIMUM value of his blessing! Suddenly I feel so creative. I feel alive again.

9. Gymmed with Jerome @GreenwichV. We had a conversation about our day, about church. Told him the funny thing dad did this morning with the holy communion, but that both mom and dad were receptive so I was very happy. Gymmed hard. Was good. Felt good. Then walked back to the car and chatted. I also showed him the Bungalow and surprisingly we were then talking bout how houses should be like, the pros and cons of long houses, and the cost that’s delivered to clients at the end of the day.

10. We spoke bout his work also and mine. Sis’s work also (convo in the car about how she handled a prospect). “Give me a chance/opportunity to review your ___ I could highlight or cover any gaps in your portfolio / give you a second opinion. All I’m asking for is one time. No effort on your part. What do you say, would that be alright? 

11. So now I know that he does pitches to his entire team so they’ve a better understanding b4 they pitch to the investors. Presentation usually <5min, with 3 strong points at the end. Investors can be in for the short or long term either. IPOs are good USPs (unique selling points) for Short-term investors bc they can Exit fast. “They’ve got a strong network in Asia” etc is a good USP for longer-term investors, etc. Also, how he feels his superiors (mgmt level) in the company don’t see eye to eye with him on how the company should be run. He thinks the answers he’s gna get from COO (Parkben) and CEO are going to be everything else, except People/human. His stand is “You must make your people happy.” & I completely agree. People, Team, your executors on the ground. They need to be incentivised to consistently perform better and better. Giving a fixed salary and promotion every year can be seen as mundane, in such a case maybe commission would be a healthy incentive. However promotions could be seen as recognition, it depends on how you market it to your people. At the end of the day, it is how your people see it that matters. So you have to see it first before they’re able to see it. Just as today’s sermon, Save yourself first before you can save others. Save yourself first. When you see it, naturally they will be able to see it, with time at times but nevertheless.

12. Bought the cheesecake for him and his fam. Good job on sharing is caring.

What a wonderful fulfilling day. One that I will remember, for life.

Hallelujah, Jesus. Praise the Lord, Jesus.

Thank you, Lord. Amen.

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   ❝   A CREATION AND A DESTRUCTION ALL AT ONCE— HOLY, HOLY, UNHOLY.   ❞

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The narrative of God Exits is told through seven kind of medium that are considered to be alternative universe to each other, yet with a similar concept of The End occurring to every universes within the story, meaning everyone and everything across everywhere die, when the Consumer ( you ) finish consuming God Exits. The purposes for this are the ideas of coming to appreciate different forms of storytelling while also exploring the techniques each medium hold towards the narrative and their influences to the audience. Every medium have its own ways of telling a story, if not similarly ( show vs. film, music vs. podcast ), so if those methods are the literal causes God Exits is told the way it is within the respective medium / universe. This is a list that points out what medium is used to tell the narrative of God Exits and the notable differences between them:

NOVEL VERSION

God Exits’ book version is a universe most known to be in black and white, as well as it loses its sound since the start of the narrative, meaning no one can hear each other or anything, having to rely on mostly their sight to travel across the universe. Another thing to note the difference is while the plotline progresses, everything will gradually be covered in words ( i.e. a blue sky is entirely covered with text, “blue sky” ), as if the universes within God Exits’ book version are actually part of the simulated reality, though this may not be the case. There are some certain scenes that are coloured and text-free, given the fact that the book will contain pages that are in graphic also, usually when [ REDACTED ] manipulates the page from text to imagery, or the main characters have stumbled upon a significant setting ( each panel or some panels, depending on the scene, are intended to be drawn in multiple different art styles by different people to emphasize the unpredictability with the universes coming to The End ). There are also puzzles in some pages that can be done ( maze, word search, crossword, etcetera ) that may be actually vital to the storyline.

FILM VERSION

God Exits’ film version is a universe most known to appear as perfectly normal, though as the plotline progresses , the film itself is slowly losing its colours, contrast, sound, etcetera; as if the story is being gradually consumed by the darkness, The End. Multiple genres and styles ( animation, realism, puppetry, etcetera ) are present within this version of God Exits. The biggest difference between the film and show versions is the idea of how a film can be considered to be a more faster paced media than a show, therefore, the scenes are more sudden and chaotic to watch than the show version that has more slower scenes that are easier to understand.

SHOW VERSION

God Exits’ show version is a universe most known to use doors / portals / holes / etcetera as a way to enter and exit from one episode to another. This version of God Exits can be considered to tell the narrative in a nonlinear manner while it contains multiple timelines when the Consumer can choose which one of the few episodes to watch next. Multiple genres and styles ( animation, realism, puppetry, etcetera ) are present within this version of God Exits as well.

THEATRE VERSION

God Exits’ theatre version is a universe most known to always have a door present at the back of the stage ( “ the Room “ ) as the scene is happening. No matter what is occurring within the Room, a door is always there at the back for the characters to enter through and exit from, as if all of the scenes take place within the Room that has no connection to a building or a hallway or just anywhere; there is only the Room. The Room is considered to be a sanctuary for the main characters to stay in while no one of the audience knows what is going out behind the door / outside of the Room and can only learn about the universe through the characters’ shared experiences. The theatre version also explores the concept of hope vs. despair through the respective action of singing and speaking; one sings when experiencing positivity and hope, one speaks when facing negativity and despair. If a character ends up falling silent throughout the rest of the narrative or uttering a single to few words, it means that they will die soon before The End.

MUSIC VERSION

There is a music version where the sole protagonist singer who travels across the Multiverse to sing until the universes come to the end. While the creator of GE is not a musician, until they are able to find someone who can produce the songs, the lyrics can be read as poems. The actual plotline of this version has yet to be decided as this is the latest addition of the God Exits project.

PODCAST VERSION

God Exits’ podcast version is a universe most known to have no natural and artificial lights, the universes within having to lose them just as the narrative begins and even there are no flashlights involved, the main characters having to rely mostly on their hearing to travel across the universe. Unpleasant / triggering sounds are heavily used in the podcast version to usually indicate the states of the universe and people in it worsening over time. As the episodes ( “ records “ ) are recorded in a manner of documenting what is happening in God Exits, it is intended for the Consumer to find these records scattered, meaning that this version tells God Exits in a nonlinear narrative, literally using the concept of lacking perception creating a chaos within the narrative and its timeline ( having certain points of the timeline disorganized ).

VIDEO GAME VERSION

God Exits’ video game version is a universe most known to have the intention of having “ glitches “ and “ bugs ”. As the plotline progresses, glitches and bugs begin to appear such as the NPCs being able to phase through walls out of the sudden, the buildings are slowly merging together, the characters’ expression are briefly distorted, and so forth. There are many different kind of art styles ( Cutout 2D, vector, pixel, realism, etcetera ) present within the video game version. Any of the main characters can die and the Consumer may choose to either continue the story without that newly deceased individual or return to any of the already played scenes in order to keep them alive still. However, the more the game is restarted, the higher chance the game becomes unplayable before the Consumer has to play the game with all of the data erased from the very start once again.

[sweetk1lls]

Prologue of God Exits is DONE as the progress of God Exits is officially ON

[sweetk1lls]

THE MAIN CASTS OF GOD EXITS ANTHOLOGY

Here are the main characters of each God Exits project / version in the total of thirty one, excluding [ REDACTED ] and the Narrator / Narrative who acts as the multicast characters alongside with the Consumer / You. At the moment, everyone is still currently in work of progress as I have finally finished outlining the main GE characters list. I also created this graphicset as a quick reference for people who may want to ask questions about or see who would I be referring to since there ARE a lot of main characters in God Exits.

DOOR 15 : 55 ( FROM THE NOVEL UNIVERSE )

HIERO, THE TRAGIC HERO.   Cis male.   He / him.   Demigod of Sky and Sea.   Traveller, once chosen hero.

DETECTIVE WOLFGANG MOONGLADE, THE WOLF IN MAN’S CLOTHING.   Trans male.   He / they / she.   Werewolf with nine tails.   Private occult detective.   Modern allusion to Big Bad Wolf; have eight incarnations relating to a Wolf folklore.

FATHER LUCAS LOVEWRIGHT, THE ANTICHRIST.   Trans male.   He / they.   Cambion.   Priest.

EDEN HOCHBERG, THE LAST HUMAN.   Trans female.   She / they.   Human.   Apocalypse survivor, once veterinarian.

FELIX HIRSH, THE BATTLE ROYAL WINNER.   Cis male.   He / him.   Human.   Vigilante, retired wrestler.

DETECTIVE DANIEL DARLING, THE FINAL FOOL.   Trans masculine agender.   He / they / she.   Human.   Private detective at day, secret killer at night.   Embodies the horror trope of “ first fool to die “ and “ final child to live ”.

MORTIMER, THE CHOSEN ONE.   Demimale.   He / they.   Superhuman.   Vigilante, retired astronaut.  Died in the moon, only to be chosen with another chance to live, using it to save the world.

DOOR 3 : 1 - 8 ( FROM THE FILM UNIVERSE )

ASTRA, THE FATALIST.   Cis female.   She / her.   Human.   Travelling prophet.

KARISHMA, THE LABYRINTH.   Cis female.   She / her.   Human.   Travelling musician.

SALEM GRIMBANE, THE RITUAL.   Cis female.   She / they.   Witchess.   Traveller.

RAINE, THE HAUNTING.   Cis female.   She / they / it.   Ghost.   Wanderer.

CASIMIR WAKE, THE FUNERAL.   Agender.   Any pronouns, mainly they / it.   Human.   Mortician.

LAZARUS FALLON, THE RESURRECTION.   Cis male.   He / him.   Human.   Author.

LUKE “LUCKY” KING, THE CONSUMPTION.   Cis male.   He / they.   Human.   Internet Personality.

SMILEY, THE APOTHEOSIS.   Agender.   They / it.   Glitch.   Hacker.

DOOR 13 : 4 - 8 ( FROM THE SHOW UNIVERSE )

OFIOÚCHOS EXPERIENTIA, THE ALLUSION.   Non-binary.   They / it.   Ophiuchian Goddex of Development.   Traveller, vigilante medic.   Fallen to Earth as their punishment for nearly destroying the Solar System with their greed and envy for power to earn and give immorality..

SOJOURN, THE REFLECTION. Cis male.   He / him.   Human (?).   Traveller.

MALADY, THE METASOMATOSIS / ASSIMILATION.  Demifemale.   She / they / it.  Demon.   Actress 

HYUN SANG-SEONG, THE METAMORPHOSIS / EVOLUTION.   Demifemale.   She / they.   Human.   Mecha pilot.

AGATHA MALKIN, THE METEMPSYCHOSIS / INCARNATION.   Panagender.   Any pronouns.   Human.   Librarian.   Reincarnates each time their death occurs,

JU YEONG-SEO, THE IMITATION.   Demimale.   He / they / it.   Android; once a human.   Train conductor.

CHEON JI-JUNG, THE CREATION.   Non-binary.   They / it.   Nephil.   Traveller, aspiring astronaut.

SPECTROPHOBIA, THE TRANSFORMATION.   Genderfluid.   Any pronouns; mainly they / it.   Eldritch personification of Spectrophobia, the fear of mirrors / reflections.   Arcade / amusement park staff.

DOOR 11 : 1 ( FROM THE THEATRE UNIVERSE )

BEAU BLYTHE, THE SINGING ARTIST.   Demifemale.   She / they.   Human.   Bookstore cafe staff, aspiring theatre actress,

CHANG YEON-SEUNG, THE SPEAKING SCIENTIST.   Cis male.   He / him.   Scientist, secretly longs to be a full time artist.

DOOR 8 : 17 ( FROM THE MUSIC UNIVERSE )

SAYONARA LULLABY, THE FAREWELL SONG.   Non-binary.   They / she / he.   Human Fabula.    Multiverse travelling musician; sings to the worlds as they come to their ends.

DOOR 4 : 16 - 18 ( FROM THE PODCAST UNIVERSE )

DETECTIVE NOBLE BENISON BRIGHT, THE HOPE.   Non-binary.   They / them.   Private occult detective.

DETECTIVE GRIM MALISON DARK, THE DESPAIR.   Agender.   It / its.   Archdemon of Despair.   Private occult detective.

DOOR 16  : 14 ( FROM THE VIDEO GAME UNIVERSE )

AMBROSE, THE GUARDIAN OF TIME.   Cis male.   He / they.   Immortal human.   Musician.

AMARANTHA, THE GUARDIAN OF SPACE.   Cis female.   She / they.   Immortal human.   Artist.

AETERNUS, THE GUARDIAN OF REALITY.   Non-binary.   They / it.   Immortal human.   Author, retired actor.

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12.12.21

Good times always past fast. Did not meet with my cousin w my family cos I'm too lazy to travel, after waking up at 7.30 today to go for morning walk w bf.

Work isn't busy but it's slightly stressful due to there's a few resignee who break bond and their liquidated damages to pay is pretty huge. They can't pay, so I'm d chaser. I really hate this. Okay, I'm grateful my manager did initiate to have zoom meeting to discuss w those resignee on how they are settling the LD.

Anw, I'm so happy to meet bf on Tue for dinner. Cos it's a busy wk for him, and thought we might not be meeting until wkend.

Met Grace for dinner on Fri. She was craving for cafe food, so I suggested to go Lola's cafe. Finally she tendered after 6 years. I hope she will learn more at the new centre. Felt sad for her that d current centre didn't really appreciate her hard work. Will see how long the centre can survive w/o Grace. Not say she is perfect, but she carried so much responsibility and nobody help her but still mgmt is complaining.

Woke up early yesterday too. I'm so light sleeper that I could hear my mum's phone vibration in her room while I was on my bed. So I just wake up, went to the temple, then to d market w sis, before I meet my bf for lunch. Mum is going for heart surgery this mth end and I really pray she will recover well after surgery and everything will be smooth. Bf meet me a little later for lunch but we were quite chill. He took a short nap while I prep those sushi ingredients. Then we nap tgt hahaha~ It was a tiring week for him. Poor bf. I didn't have any craving, so bf make d decision for dinner place and he picked Korean BBQ (Seoul Kitchen). It's perfect cos it's just a few bus stops away and the price is so worth it, $19.90++ per adult (Unlimited 90 mins bbq & it's on a wkend!). Will return if I want to have Korean BBQ and dw to travel far! Came back after 2hrs of dinner, shower and Netflix.

I couldn't sleep again, and bf is so nice to wake up to have Ya Kun w me before we go for a walk at Labrador park. Spot kingfisher for the 1st time haha. It's an easy 1hr walk. Bf had stomachache after the walk and I tease him w d pic of him walking faster to the toilet saying "bf dw me liao. I stuck at shopping mall entrance cos safe entry app wasn't working well and he nvr check and wait for me". After he was done, he texted me and ask me not to hide, but I was sitting on d toilet bowl to feel if I wanna shit 😂. After I came out, I replied we had our last meal this morning as gf/bf (inside joke) then he saw me walking out of the toilet. I purposely walk straight to d mall exit, then he purposely walk towards me and shouted my name, "CY where r u?" Omg 😂 I quickly run towards him and hold his hand and shhh him. I asked him if he wants d whole mall to know my name, he replied gf lost liao, must find. I say "u dw gf liao" He say oh then is find my wife back. Some how I felt touched by this action. We managed to reach tiong bahru market by 11.30. Weee~ I got to eat my lor mee! Shared char kway teow too. We nap on our way back in d train. Bf con't to nap after shower, while I cook the rice for sushi.

We woke up after a short nap to make the sushi. Made a mistake for leaving the seaweed expose to air, it became not crispy. Thank God my bf is not picky.

Alone at home now, feeling a little tired but I'm not gonna nap anymore. Maybe sleeping early at 11.15 tonight. Shall enjoy my me time before my family comes back. It's a happy wkend spent!