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[dilwaledyke-moved]

tell the story!

Okay okay you asked for it!

So firstly this story takes place over my junior and senior years of high school, and has 3 main characters. Me, my longtime friend and probably she was supposed to be my twin (we’ll call her Luci), and Luci’s at the time BFF, we’ll call her Megan (yes after the But I’m a Cheerleader character...).

Some background: I came out as lesbian when I was 12, so Megan has known I’m a hardcore dyke from right when she met me. She even witnessed my awkward as fuck summer of sophomore year relationship. Yowza. Megan was hella funny and smart and driven and teen movie pretty. Skinny and athletic, long blonde hair, blue eyes, big smile, etc. I didn’t really think of her as anything except a laugh riot to goof off with during calculus. I was getting over a girl I’d had a crush on since I was 10 who had walked all over me (and basically hooked up with all our mutual friends just to  mess w me lol. I didn’t have eyes for anyone else. 

So my gaydar is pretty good. In 11th grade, I’d never been wrong about someone I knew. Megan talked about hot boys CONSTANTLY. We went to a pretty leftist school, lots of queers, she wasn’t in any of those circles. My friends were all at least one of the following: lesbian, enby, bi, or poly. Except Luci, who I’ve been friends with since we were seven and who’d gone to the same school as me since grade 5. Before puberty people thought we were legit twins. She’s basically me if I was het and extroverted. We were born the same week. WE ARE TWINS. I digress. 

Megan and Luci were best friends. They wrote comedy sketches together, watched SNL together ever Saturday, were constantly laughing and boy chatting. Sometimes I’d hang with them if my friends were elsewhere. Except for math class. Me and Megan were 2 of 4 flukes in the system that ended up getting a special tiny math class (somehow we all skipped 6th grade math and then standards changed and we ended up in a class for seniors as sophomores, so then we had special math with just us once we were juniors and seniors). 

So the four of us had a study group and also just a whole lot of dumb fun during math. Like we all laughed so much, and it was mostly me and Megan riffing on stupid puns and jokes. All in good fun! Up until then I had never thought I’d be friends with a cheerleader. But Megan was a cheerleader.

Okay. It’s second semester of junior year. We’re sitting in ToK (IB kids anyone??) and Megan goes, “Have you seen the movie But I’m a Cheerleader?”

And I’m like...is she asking because I’m a lesbian??? But I say, “Yeah of course! I love it!”

Megan: “I know right it’s hilarious! Such a good movie! The premise is perfect!”

Me (in my head): heheh a cheerleader who loves a movie about a lesbian cheerleader lmao. (out loud): So perfect! 

And then I forget that that happened. Until a week later. Luci and me are doing homework during study hall and she’s like, “What do you think of Megan?”

My first thought is that those two are exploring their sexuality with each other, and I’m like good for you sis (in my head). I reply, “she’s really fun!”

Luci: do you like her?

Me: yeah she’s cool!

Luci: Hon, she likes you. Would you ever date her?

Me: *DA FUQ* I had never though of that as even an option....

Seriously, it never crossed my mind because she seemed so straight!! I was shocked and on the spot so I was like “yeah probably not??”

And then ended up asking this senior friend of ours to prom who then ditched me at prom to go smoke weed with Luci’s dealer...and she was my ride...LOL Megan had sewed her own prom dress and it was super cute and we danced a bit.

Fast forward to the start of senior year:

I’m over that girl from when I was 10, and have sorted it out and am all chill with the girl from prom. Megan, who I now know is at least kinda not unavailable, is hilarious and we hang out a bit at different times. I developed a crush over the summer. YIKE. I tell Luci. Luci is like yoooo she was really sad last year and worked really hard to get over you.

Me: fuck

December of Senior year: Me and Megan are working on tech for the school play. She’s sewing costumes and I’m trying to stage manage children. And I come over and am like “justsoyouknowithinkyou’rereallycool and i maybereallylikeyouinagayway” and then WALK AWAY.

We shared some pretty awkward car rides later in the year, with a lot of tension. I maintained my crush through my first year of college. She got a boyfriend right away and I think they’re engaged now. So moral of the story. Cheerleaders. If they ask you about lesbian movies. Ask them out.  

[dilwaledyke-moved]

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