#sooo goddamn proud of this

[ditterdoob]

cried just as much as i did last playthrough

i am never playing low honour again it kinda felt like micah won in a way which i did NOT like

[tealfruit]

my fingers are soooo rough and calloused

[francisforever2014]

BIG WEEK GUYS . my birthdayyyyyy on thursday and i’m treating myself to dinner at my fav mexican restaurant and then on friday i’m getting on a plane to visit my bestie the loml and also next week i’m going to get to see my sister FINALLY these last weeks have been hell but i can finally see the light at the end omg

[dc-comics-enjoyer]

Hc on the first time Bruce clearly says I love you

(quick note : Bruce tends to show his love through actions that scream "I love you with all my soul" rather than saying it outright. But hey, let’s have some fun with this)

To Dick - He's 12. Him, Bruce and Alfred just came home from a day out. They spent the day at an amusement park for his bday. Dick has never been happier, so just before he runs back to his room, he turns abruptly to Bruce, almost tripping him and with the brightest smile, he says it. "That was sooo cool ! Thank you, I love you !". Bruce is taken aback but the smile is too blinding which pushes him to not overthink : "I love you too, Dick."

To Jason - After a long period of distancing himself, Jason is finally back with the Batfamily. The tension is still there, but Jason is more open to being around Bruce. One morning, Bruce is in the kitchen having breakfast when Jason walks in. For the first time in a long time, Jason opens the fridge and grabs something to eat. Bruce watches him, feeling moved by the casual domesticity. “Jason ?” He says softly. “Mmh?” “Thank you for being around. I love you." Bruce doesn't immediately realize that he said it, and when he does, Bruce practically runs away.

To Cass - She’s gotten into calligraphy and creates a “Love you” sign, which she slides under Bruce's bedroom door. The next morning, Bruce comes into the kitchen holding up the sign, looking preoccupied. Or is he choked up ? Anyway, “Who made this ?” he asks. Cass raises her hand with a shy smile. Without hesitation, Bruce strides over and pulls her into a hug. “I love you too, kiddo.”

To Clark - On the field, Clark has gone rogue due to red kryptonite. After a grueling battle, the League manages to subdue him and Batman uses kryptonite to neutralize him. This time, however, they're not sure Superman's going to snap out of it. Exhausted both physically and emotionally, Bruce drives the kryptonite into his chest and whispers, "I’m sorry, Clark. I... I love you. Please come back." (bonus points if it buys into the cliché and is what makes Clark come back)

To Damian - He's having a particularly rough time, feeling inadequate, but also misunderstood because ultimately he's still a kid and doesn't know yet how to express himself. That night, he lashes out and pushes everyone away, isolating himself. Bruce's heart breaks when he realizes what's really happening and tells him through the locked door : “I want you to know something important: I love you, and I’m really proud of you, no matter what.” Damian swings the door open and clings onto his father with all his might that night.

To Alfred - Bruce is young and has been Batman for just a couple years. Earlier that night, he sees a father and son playing in the park. It's simple, but, through his whole night out, his mind is relentlessly thinking of them. When he arrives home, Alfred is waiting for him, ready to provide comfort. As always. Bruce is taking off his mask, and when he looks at Alfred, he sees a father. "Alfred. I don’t say it enough-- I don't say it at all but... I love you."

To Tim - Bruce is stuck on a case, and lacking on so many others. The past month has been extremely tough. The cases are piling on but he's burning out, he has his nose to the grindstone. Tim gets home after being away for a couple weeks. Immediately, he gets on the cases too and, because he has a clearer and fresher perspective, he points out a few crucial points. Bruce, dark-circled and unkempt, looks up abruptly : "Y--yes, that's right... How did I not-- Damnit finally ! I goddamn love you, Tim."

[katyspersonal]

In today's SoTE progress: ARRRGHHH I am SO goddamn angry!!!! Gfhghmjm But also I am thinking about Messmer and Marika a LOT now.

1) So, I was getting mentally prepared for going to battle Messmer, and decided to visit just one last piece of fort associated with his location!

^ This shield was dropped by a Black Knight Garrew that acted like a boss but was no harder than a regular enemy. He was using a Crucible aspect that gave him chameleon's shooting tongue to attack with and I hoped he'd drop it instead hfhghgj I'm gonna assume it was somewhere in the game and I just missed it for a dumb reason :pensive:

^ A valid reference in case if anyone will want to draw/write certain grim scenes in detail or something like that

2) There was also a fairly well-hidden secret that I felt proud of discovering, but it was just a stronger version of the talisman that makes arrows stronger! And not only I don't use bows, but also it didn't even give lore! Goddamn it Fromsoft reward me with INFORMATION for my explorer's interest!!

3) Okayyyy sooo :/ I was soooo ready to get my ass kicked by Messmer that I kinda dreaded it, but needed to get this over with! Alas, DLC should end sooner or later...

And at first, I did get my ass kicked, sure. But..... ...not only he switched to the second phase halfway through his health bar and not after it was fully reduced like I expected.. but also I adopted OBNOXIOUSLY fast. :/ :/ :/ It didn't take me EVEN 15 MINUTES to fully adapt to him and just get closer and closer with every try. And!! I did kill him? Like are you JOKING. Are you KIDDING me. That was IT? It took me several days and tormenting @fantomette22 for useless tries to finally defeat Rellana, I had to try many strategies and be extremely smart and inventive with her!! I thought if she was so strong, Messmer would have been even WORSE, and yet I am just sitting here like:

Dude yeah no SHIT you needed Rellana to protect you :/ Guess I was not impressed by 18 inches of Messmer the Impaler 😔😔😔

4) Okay but I DID like his voice acting a lot hfhgv I was just sitting there like "stop sounding sexy you dunce, I already decided that I'm going to dislike you!" XD /j

5) His final words were "Mother... Marika... A curse... upon thee..." and.. hell if I know whether he cursed us or her. I am assuming he cursed her since switching to calling your parent by name instead is a kind of strong sentiment. Like defying them their status over you sort of. Besides all the statues of her in Shadow Realm but one being headless. So... yes, interesting.

6) It was not patched out btw! :>

7) Okay actually when I was about to beat Messmer's ass for good I've accidentally found the summon sign for Hornsent NPC! I was not seeing it during the fight, just happened to run into it, and if Igon taught me anything is that such summons are a good idea because they progress the questline. Maybe. So, he gave a dialogue after Messmer was defeated:

"We meet again I see, comrade-in-arms. Upon his end, did you see Messmer's face? Twas sublime - a very tangle of snakes! To think he dared to call us savages. When he himself was most base of all.

To say the least, I am to you indebted. Yet unquenched remains my thirst for revenge. The death of Messmer was merely the start. Now comes the piper to collect from Marika, her offspring, and all the Erdtree's denizens... In vengeance for the flames, my blade I wield... If Miquella's redemption soothes the ache... that throbs within, demanding blessed vengeance... Then I wish not to be by him redeemed."

Sigh... I just can tell that the guy will have to turn on us sooner or later. Honestly, rejection of anything that could help/heal/etc the pain that demands revenge is such a... real reaction? He is a very real character. He straight up doesn't want to stop even after achieving his objective and himself, ironically, fell for the path of punishing every associate including innocent people whose only sin is being "born in this culture". He became like Marika in this regards!

Honestly, this is a very good writing moment! Second favourite after Miyazaki's jab at horrors of believing in "sacred mission" in Crusader's Insignia! (I like the character even more now for very real negative character development, but I just can TELL we'll have to kill him gfhhgg)

8) .... ah, right, I forgot this post about Messmer

Again: hatred like what? Hatred coming from Abyss Serpent? His hatred for Marika? Hatred for all divested of her grace? Hatred for himself? Is this many things? Fromsoft spare me I am too autistic to read hfggjhgjgb

9) This is actually sweet:

So, the snakes were friends all along, and I suppose the counterparts/antagonists to the "evil" serpent within him!

10) *points at this like in the meme* Hey I remember that this bit was mistranslated! XD

It actually says that he did that for his mother's sake, and not by her wish! It makes even more sense with the following sentence, as if HE really wished for no single mfer to look weird at her. No, as if he INSISTED to accept all blame and hatred. Considering he curses her in his dying breath, after all (or at least calls her name which is a bad sign from a child), there must have been such a long build-up of unhealthy relationship between them to it...

He not only wished to keep her away from all fear and hatred that follows, and fulfill her vengeful desires, but also basically said to use him like a punching bag. But if she feared the curse within him in the end, then SHE is to blame that he gave up on any and all hope to be pure, good and loved. Like.. whose fault do you guys think it IS that his self-image centered entirely on being fear and dread, as well as someone to hate? I have an impression that he did want to take the blame and excile for her sake, but also resented that she actually accepted his request to use him. Like.. maybe he didn't even realize that what he, subconsciously, wanted was for her to refuse. I might be speaking from too much personal experience, but sending such mixed signals (requesting something with expectation that the person will refuse) is a sign of bad parenting at least, abuse at most. And knowing Marika's horrid parenting skills... yeeeeah.

Again, really good writing. They are saying so much with so little, as always. Glad that Mister Miyazaki keeps the mark with his stories only being readable if you have at least one PTSD ggbhjghbb

11) I have a bad guess that they did not elaborate on what exactly Abyss Serpent is, otherwise @val-of-the-north would've already spoilered me because we love worldbuilding xd

But seeing how Marika Had a Moment about Giants' Fire all because it's capable of burning the Erdtree, the reason is probably similar. She I with Fire like Gwyn is with darkness: it can end her era, maybe end herself, so it is terrifying.

At the same time, she was trying to love her children, at least at first. She created this eye for Messmer and created a lot of Divine Blessings to ease his burdens in the past. Then there were Omen Twins that she yet named with her initials and at least Godfrey and Godwyn were seeing them, although horned creatures would be her worst nightmare. I feel like the pipeline from this to "children become kings or lords or else you'll only be worthy of sacrifices" + "unwanted bastard in Mausoleum" was a long one. She tried to love even the children that were either a walking hazard or walking PTSD, but failing to overcome fear before Messmer set her down the spiral. God, I can see all of her snapping if Messmer asked too many questions, accidentally acting hostile if he tried to be physically affectionate unable to conceal her fear fast enough... She would not be the type to try again with anyone after casting him aside in the end, but, she would take the passive position of "kids, prove me that you deserve my love because ME putting in effort won't avail anything, apparently". The guilt but one that made a quitter rather than a better person.

12) Also *points like in the meme again*

Yeah, every forge type of the dungeon in Shadow Realm has throwing weapons!!! He adapted!

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So yeah this post gotten EMOTIONAL ALL OF A SUDDEN when I expected it to be short. Damn, the girls didn't lie, he IS an interesting character!

[vaguely-concerned]

Happy Grace/Pan Vibes For The Soul

"How can I, with you in the way?"/"(Laughs) The floor is yours!"

First of all I'm honestly just so charmed by how genuinely delighted Pan seems to be at watching Grace finding her voice and learning to enjoy using her power, I think that's where I started to take a shine to him. (also seems quite central to his character/romance in general because it's a thing that recurs through their relationship -- he tells her "I'm enjoying it if you're enjoying it" straight out at one point and that's definitely always there in the subtext). He buys a music studio for her just in case she ever wants to return to making music again even when she's not the muse anymore just because he loves her singing and has seen it make her happy before, how is that not the sweetest goddamn thing in the world??? Pan and Oracle in shared first place as stans for Grace musically

For real though, 'I Can Teach You' is sooo... even when you don't join forces with him Pan teaches Grace so many things in that song, it's a thematic tutorial as well as a gameplay one in many ways. For me I think the most impactful subtexts are 'This is a tricky situation, change is here and it's difficult, but you have more control and agency here than you think' ("You're in control!" "It's your song!"), and this sense that, y'know... there can be joy and playfulness and discovery in setting out into the unknown, not just fear and uncertainty.

dude... I wanna be in cahoots with & sing playful duets with you for the rest of my life bro (amorous intent)

Pros: Hell yeah look at her go! 🥰

Cons: Uh-oh look at her go! 😬

I love that Grace can bring Pan's motif into 'Challenging A Queen' and be called the fuck out by Persephone btw. why u keepin' your guard up girl uwu

'you gave up the only thing worth having -- for your little mortal friend' he says, giving up everything for his little once-again-mortal friend literally the next day fhsdkjfhsad who are you fooling buddy? not even yourself at this point surely??? (dialogue for if you save Freddie by giving up the eidolon)

my observations on the grace/pan dynamic across the different personality traits (yes I've done a run of each romancing him I am normal about it):

Clever!Grace: Pan seems to set out to be a trickster mentor of sorts, and Clever!Grace flips the uno reverse card on him and goes ‘Not if I trickster mentor you first bitch be honest about your feelings or perish challenge engage’. Probably the most birds of a feather combination (and indeed it’s the Blue version of the soundtrack that shows off his romance — also his tie and glasses are on the cover for that one :) ). 

Charming!Grace: Performative puppy dog eyes-off whenever either of them wants to get their way. 🥺4🥺. Pan is provably a soft touch from the Charming option to find Persephone before Challenging A Queen so I feel he probably tends to buckle faster but it’s a close thing. Local trickster god completely disarmed by someone being nice to him.

Kickass!Grace: “Be real with me or Imma kick your ass”/”Promise? ;)”/"...>:)"

I am always thinking about the way he steps up in The Trial when romanced (and the way it's the only one where Athena is genuinely shocked and appalled fhskadj). there is something about him that's like... he keeps protesting against 'innocent' and he's probably right haha, but there is certainly an almost fundamental lack of any active malice there that he doesn't fully admit to himself or to grace until this moment. he is doing this for grace, but it is also a confession about something really deep in himself that seems to be very vulnerable for him in its sincerity -- that he really doesn't mean to or more importantly want to cause harm (I don't wanna dance/with blood on my hands). admitting to his own basically good heart finally seems to be the bigger, scarier thing for him, more than facing the prospect of dying. he's experiencing the mortifying ordeal of being known and I for one am so proud of him

"I'm just here for the dance"

the way he sings that just to her and completely changes the meaning of it from what he said with it before, from using it to keep her out to inviting her in...

also can you imagine how badly the kill bill sirens must be going off in Grace's head in all variations of this scene no matter who steps up, considering what happened to Freddie just days before....... oof!

*incensed whisper* are you fucking kidding me with this what am I supposed to do with myself here

love these too

I really like the visual repeats of crossing the pond to the tree and back as a metaphor for them getting closer (or rather, him letting her closer, it is very much His Space). he retreats back there towards the end of 'Share This Dance', and that's the point where Grace puts her foot down and essentially says 'no. you come meet me honestly in the middle this time or this isn't happening'. and in 'The Trial' he does and then some!

I meant what I sang. I'm not a good man. If Athena had taken me up on my offer, the Idols would have been better off But I can try to be better. You make me want to try.

fun fact: if you break up with him after The Trial (YEAH you can still break off the romances at that point! it's wild honestly fsjadk), Grace tells him he should try to be better ‘for himself’ not for her... and he calls that (i.e. himself) ‘not much of an incentive’. My guy don’t make me break out the ‘Have you tried therapy’ prompt again. He takes it very calmly and gracefully under the circumstances but he's also like. quietly resigned and subdued. I tried it once for Science and never will again but there you go I bring my knowledge to this altar of sadness lol

you see the thing is I would forgive him for just about anything too I understand why so many of the characters in-game can't stay mad at him for any length of time

he starts the game by asking her to take his hand and he ends it on asking her to take his hand (and she does)...

:') let's share this dance

[sneppu]

THIS IS EXTREMELY SELF INDULGENT BUT HEAR ME OUT

I think Bellatrix x Severus has potential to be very fun, in an AU Setting, because to be honest? the reactions to it would be so fucking funny, no matter what kind of AU it is. For example, in an AU where Voldemort is just a politician and Severus + Bellatrix are both in similar years, and therefore able to be students together:

The sheer amount of gremlin energy they would bring to the table. The absolute MENACES they would be. The thing with Bellatrix and Severus is that they are BOTH capable of such extreme levels of devotion, that if that devotion were aimed at someone who not only reciprocated but MATCHED it? there is nothing they could not achieve.

BUT FURTHERMORE:

Young Severus? That's a troubled little gremlin freak right there. The thing is... lily just can't match his freak at that point. maybe she did once, when they were younger, but as time went on, its pretty clear her priorities were just different. but BELLATRIX? she ABSOLUTELY matches his freak, encourages it, makes it grow, even. I think Snape would appreciate that, having someone who was just into it all. and speaking of Lily..

secretly a gremlin lily is cool and all; I'm a fan of it myself. but its like??? ok but why be secret about it. why bother with that shit at all. simply be a gremlin and be proud of this goddamn Sneep! have a little integrity. "oh but i have to make excuses to my friends for you" bro. your friends are wack! check out this unpleasant toenail growing hex he just invented. sick as hell.

CONSIDER:

Lily? buzzkill. can't even admit how impressive as hell this hex is. Bellatrix? in the goddamn trenches alongside with you, ride or die, is actively helping u test out this sick as hell hex. and shes proud of you the entire time! "a toenail growing hex? fucking superb, let's use it on unsuspecting passerbys who happen to be called james potter. oh wow would u look at that, it worked perfectly, sick. could we modify it so that the toenails gain sentience and are able to scream though" idk like, obviously, this is all EXTREMELY AU and very OC, i know this. but like. im JUST saying, that Bellatrix wouldnt have just sat there and chatted politely with potter as The Sneep was choking on soap. is all.

i just think Severus deserves someone who is capable of and willing to be openly and unabashedly obsessed with him in an equally morally grey way as he

also! they would be. just the WORST couple to criticize. you've heard of iconic couples and power couples now get ready for the actual domestic terror couple. imagine Lily and James thinking they're gonna be sooo iconic only to get absolutely obliterated and upstaged by these shameless fucking maniacs every single time. because they WOULD be shameless, it's basically Bellatrix's whole brand.

anyway, are they good for the wizarding world or particularly healthy? of course not, but we're here for a good time, not a long time. I want my Sneep free and enabled, i want him to live his BEST gremlin life, and I want everyone else to seethe about it.

[im--never--happy]

I really fundamentally cannot understand how and why the avatar fandom has been sleeping on Mako. Especially with all the Zuko love. People love an angsty sad boi who just wants to do the right thing. And by god if that is not Mako I don’t know what is. Like. Mako as a character is soooo fucking angstable. So much angst potential right there. But fandom just collectively ignores him (or else hates on him for no fucking reason). Is he perfect? Of course not, but Zuko is so insanely far from perfect and all of Zuko’s wrongdoings so far surpass any of Mako’s. Yet fandom easily forgives Zuko, resident sad boi, for his actual fucking crimes (kyoshi village didn’t burn itself down, Song’s ostrich horse didn’t steal itself, Sparky Sparky Boom—I mean Combustion Man didn’t hire himself—lmao) in favor of focusing on his trauma and angst (don’t get me wrong I am an absolute slut for angst and complex nuanced discussions of trauma in fictional characters, and Zuko is such an amazing vessel for my insatiable thirst for angst. But. SO!! IS!!! MAKO!!!!!). But Mako doesn’t get that treatment. He’s vilified for his significantly less bad mistakes. And it makes no actual fucking sense. Because he is so primed for angst and he has insane amounts of trauma. And he’s so sweet. He just loves the people in his circle so fucking much, he just wants to do right by them, he just wants to protect them and keep them safe, and also fucking save the goddamn world. Jfc. He’s sooo GOOD. And the crazy thing is that he’d actually be a better fit for a lot of the specific angst and character traits people want to project onto Zuko that actually aren’t in line with Zuko’s character. Like when people write how Zuko is so humble and doesn’t think he deserves anything and is so intrinsically kind and patient and gentle. And that’s just… not canon Zuko at all. Canon Zuko is impatient and loud and shouts and so insanely fucking proud. He was raised a prince thinking he deserved everything because he was royalty. And yes yes so much abuse and lack of self worth and trauma. Yes obviously. But Zuko expects (or at least expected) people to give him things or do things for him because he was royalty. At least at one point. He doesn’t know how to cook or take care of himself or other people, because he’s always had people doing that for him, at least to a certain degree (I’m not saying the ship banishment was luxury but he still absolutely had a crew that did a lot of shit, like cooking and day to day grunt work for him). Whereas Mako IS humble and soft spoken and quiet and gentle. He never raises his voice with bolin and never lashes out in anger. Bolin and Korra say hurtful unfair and unkind shit to him, and he just fucking takes it. He doesn’t shout or throw insults back. He just accepts their anger and criticims and still fights to help and protect them. He is self reliant and raised his younger brother alone since they were both homeless orphans. He can cook. He also doesn’t think he deserves better when people treat him like shit, because he’s always been treated like shit. (Hello self worth self-loathing angst potential galore!!) Mako is everything that a lot of fandom want Zuko to be and he has endless potential for sad boi trauma angsting. But he gets hated for no fucking reason while Zuko gets idolized. And it makes no fucking sense and drives me absolutely fucking nuts

[2n2n]

ch. 111

the plot thickens and I am thrown all around the room as if in a hurricane... I really cannot predict Iro-sensei's plots!!!!!!

oh Amane, all of your efforts, your gestures.... what a desperate, helpless feeling

its the most predictable response Tsukasa would have, but it still hurts very very much.

he's reaaaally strange isn't he... he's like that....

oh Amane.... you're so reactive to perceived rejection and failure. You'll say the worst things, you'll think the worst things... you're sooo unstable, Amane!

What, you simply don't accept that your otouto would 'try to leave you'? I bet it's something like that. You "know he's fake" now because he "wouldn't do something like this to you"... that's my guess at your dumb little brain. Don't take him too seriously, okay, Tsutsu? Your brother just can't handle the sense of rejection of you choosing to die & leave him behind, or he can't handle that all his gestures and attempts to show his love fell so flat that you have no idea at all of his desperate love of you. Nooooo you have to be fake~~~ my real otouto would understand and he'd never leave me~~!!! I don't think you, Amane, understand how suicidal your real otouto was, and is, to this day! Would you believe it has less to do with disregarding you, and more to do with not believing in his own life's worth? No, you won't believe that, right... it's about you, instead! hahaha....

I'm glad I played AidaIro's Snow White game because... Estelio is THIS HURTFUL to Rasphard, and it's just out of a sense of being rejected!!! Estelio would kick his twin's goddamn corpse on the ground, let him wriggle and DIE in pain and AGONY if Estelio has the impression Rasphard wants nothing to do with him or isn't considering him ... LOL. Iro likes this kind of ... troubled, insecure, desperate, spiteful, needy person... you want the perfect brother, who loves you. You have that, but you can't understand the idea of someone choosing to leave you through death....

I wonder if Tsukasa started grabbing your jacket to move you to protect you.... meanwhile, Amane impulsively moved to protect his ~~~fake otouto, haha!

I wonder ... if Nene-chan has her memories because, she is magical etc, or if Akane actively made Teru do something to her to enable her to... stay as an aware asset, since he isn't completely sided with the Clockkeepers... maybe Akane is waiting to see what 'new future' comes to be, and seeding a few tricks to utilize if he doesn't agree or wishes to pull out? (I mean, if the Severance never happened, Aoi definitely would not be his girlfriend haha)...

The clockeeper's circumstance is interesting enough. Its very Aidairo-core. But not enough for me to talk about haha.

swag, I have been right the whole time! cool. yep!! of course. logical haha!! I can't be too proud of myself, it's been spelled out ...

that same old God~~ our Tsutsu!

the year before the murder, when the boys were 12... fuckin scary place to go to. What on Earth are you changing... the circumstances of the shinjuu?

if we're 'fixing' the 'problem', I wonder if that means we'll be going into the original timeline, where Amane would likely still be alive-- he'd just be an old man, and Nene-chan's teacher at Kamome. Wouldn't that be so funny and interesting? Lol. What would we all do if Amane was "Yugi-sensei" and like, old! It would be very AidaIro core AHAHAH ahhh the agegap fetish--! It's not enough to have Sumire x Hakubo and Yako x Misaki and Kako x Mirai and the entire Monstery Nursery AUs LOL you know, we need more ahahahaah (HanaNene is already technically biiig agegap! I would laugh if actually making Amane like 60 woke some people up flfjdklfdjk)

I'm just not sure... Amane could just be dead, I guess, and Tsukasa. Or he could be alive, and old. I have a vague theory that he must be a kaii because of, whatever he or Tsukasa had done together during the shinjuu... (maybe Amane was impulsed to eat some part of Tsukasa, maybe the God blessed Amane at the last second, etc etc)... it's hard to imagine Amane would be a school mystery-- Tsukasa is his yorishiro after all... and we don't quite know what circumstances make Sumire and Tsukasa into objects, if being sacrificed to the God had something essential to do with that...

Well, so interesting, I wonder if Nene-chan will have to go even further than she did in Picture Perfect-- in that arc, she had to choose to reject a seemingly perfect, but ultimately fabricated, world; even if it was 'nicer' than the 'real world'. Now, she might be shown a world fixed of its cracks-- it could even possibly be a world Amane never had to murder his brother, like she wanted before. Nene-chan is so often getting "what she asked for" in the wrong way, at the wrong time. She fell in love with "Hanako". Is the boy she fell in love with "here"? Is he in a form she can confess to?

Furthermore, she just bonded with Tsukasa, and has knowledge of the Red House... must be essential, to write that happening before this-- just before, even. Tsukasa even inspired her to need to free herself, even if Amane isn't there to save her.

Poor Nene-chan though-- so scary!!! What an awful situation to be in HAHAHA, flung around...

I have no idea what Mitsuba's situation will be, but Tsukasa is responsible for our "Mitsuba" to even be around. He wouldn't have even managed to become the ghost about the entryway without Tsukasa kaii-ifying him through his first, vague wish.

Well, it would be funny if these things were all true now:

-Amane is alive, but he's old lol -Aoi is not Akane's gf, and maybe that other timeline was the only goddamn way you could ever get her within reach lol -No Mitsuba To Speak Of lol

MUCH POSSIBLE, MUCH TO THINK ABOUT-- MAYBE I'M WRONG ABOUT IT ALL!!! Iro-sensei writes such interesting plot twists WOO ahahaha! I WONDER IF WE WILL INTERACT WITH 12 YEAR OLD TSUKASA AGAAAIN~~ pleaaase ~~

feeling more certain than ever that Tsukasa is The single most tragic member of this cast hahaha

[nekohime19]

Heart behind the lie # 31 : Past and future

We get Cheng backstory and some sweet moments

Cheng’s claws were hitting the edge of his desk in a soporific manner, Sun Wukong twitched at each grating sound, very much wanting to stop the other from making the noise. The sage knew he was being unfair, everything Cheng did seemed irritable in one way or another, and it wasn’t because the lord was horrible (even if he wasn’t the greatest), he knew it was only the jealousy speaking in his place. He remembered his master's teachings, “breathe, let your feelings go”, and discarded his anger, letting it pass like clouds swept away by the winds.

The peacock sighed, expression easing in something more contemplative, and slowly opened his beck.

“If you want to know who petrified those people, it is indeed me.” The sage felt the three kids tense in his back, each one of them reaching for their weapons ( or, in the Bull’s son case, preparing a fire casting spell). They were well-taught, if the sage wasn't fully focused on his so-called brother, he would be proud. “ I’m sure you heard it already, but I am cursed. It’s not a secret really. Me and the two other lords had been cursed by the same person. We do not know her name nor her face, only her voice, thick with a foreign accent. We suspect she comes from Greece, considering what she unleashed on me and the other two came from ancient Greek legends. She found each of us on different days, and saw a flaw in us, something vile that should be corrected. She claimed that I liked myself too much, that I was bewitched by my own reflection, as such she gave me stone eyes that would petrify anyone daring enough to look in my eyes, even myself. The Crow liked money too much, so she gave him hands that would turn anything he touched into gold. The Dove abused the trust others gave him because of his innocent appearance, so she gave him a lying mouth, unable to say the truth, unable to be trusted. She said that as long as we don't correct our ways, we will live in misery.” Cheng barked a laugh, his smile turning cruel at the edges. “Well she clearly miscalculated our stubbornness ! I do not care if I had to live in blindness, I found people to be my eyes, in return for their services I petrified their enemies . The Crow found people to be his hands, in return he gave the gold he created, he’s probably one of the richest people out there. The Dove found another way to talk, and became the best goddamn liar out there, even truth searching spells can’t expose him! I’m not ashamed of this garden, if I was I would have hidden it better, I simply don’t want my people to see those faces again. I could very well destroy the statues, but I think death is too sweet of a relief for them.”

“ Sooo, those statues were bad guys ?” Asked MK as he tilted his head, trying to make sense of the situation.

“It depends on the point of view, they were certainly not sweethearts though.” Scoffed the peacock as he crossed his arms.

“You’re not gonna petrify us then ?” Asked the dragon girl, her hand still hovering above her blade.

“Why would I do that? You’re my only hope for the throne.”

“Alright, sorry for jumping to conclusions.” Sighed the sage, shoulders lowering as the tension faded.

“It’s fine. As much as you are a handful, you’re also very entertaining, great sage.” Snickered the peacock, Sun Wukong’s eyebrow twitched angrily at that.

“This is exactly why you’re alway getting on my nerves.” Groaned the sage as he threw his arms above him.

“I guess brothers are meant to argue.” Laughed the bird with a teasing smirk.

“I am not even gonna comment on this.” Grumbled the King as he turned away, he left the room, the kids on his heels.

The sage walked without really knowing where to go, he considered going back to the library and see, once again, his moon but he didn’t want to appear desperate. And he wouldn’t know how to act around the other. Technically they both said that kisses were alright (for his great pleasure) but it didn’t make it less awkward. It felt good, of course, but it blurred the line between them. Sun Wukong knew they were friends, for now, and he was fine with it, knowing how unhealthy it would be to begin something while Macaque needed his magic to live, but he couldn’t help but yearn. Was he allowed to be jealous ? To voice his uncomfort? Was he allowed to acknowledge what was growing between them ? He was Macaque’s friend, and even if the title was meant to change, that was who he was to Macaque for now. 

Like always, this was something he should share with Macaque, but Sun Wukong wasn’t one for words. 

He had a lot to talk about with Macaque.

The rest of the days went fastly, Sun Wukong was guided to his room by one passing servant after asking where he should spend the night, and stayed there till dinner. The room, of course, was lavish, Sun Wukong was beginning to be used to the sight of finely carved gold. 

When the time for dinner came, the great sage was dragged to the dinner room by a pair of starved kids, and one less hasty fiery boy. They barged in his room and latched on him before he could even utter a word. He followed them easily, lured by the whiff of smeel he catched here and there on their path. 

The dinner table was even fuller than before, you couldn't even see a speck of wood underneath the plethora of plates. The group was already sitted, awaiting them patiently. The sage immediately went beside his moon, he sat on his right, ignoring the way the kids looked at him with knowing eyes. 

“Did you spend the whole day in the library?” Asked the sage. He tried to say it with leisure, but he couldn't help the nervous trill that escaped him. It wasn't something substantial, yet he saw Macaque ears shiver. 

“Yeah, it was… insightful.” Awkwardly chuckled the macaque, he smiled at the sage, perhaps to reassure him, but it came out more shaky than anything. Sun Wukong faltered a bit, not liking the tension between them. He understood why they were both on edge, their relationship was something unsure, unsaid. But understanding it didn't mean he liked it. He wondered if he should do something about it. If he should risk startling the macaque. There was still a part of him that feared Macaque's disappearance, that feared seeing him plunging in a flurry of shadows. It was irrational, for he knew the both of them weren't fleeing their feelings anymore, but still fear wasn't something he could erase so easily. 

The sage decided to push himself, to go beyond his fear. He tentatively brushed his tail against Macaque's own, the warrior flinched, but he brushed back. Sun Wukong shuddered and, not wanting to lose the pleasing thrill tickling his skin, he tried to loosely intertwine the tip of their tails. Macaque let it happen, not once turning away from the shy caress. It soothed something inside of the sage, even if Cheng stated that he didn't want to pursue Macaque, his appearance did make the sage doubt his place in Macaque's life. It was reassuring to have this, those bits of tenderness, it comforted him in the idea that there was something between the two of them. He wasn't imagining the affection they shared. 

Cheng didn't dine with them, apparently busy with other matters. The sage learned, after they began to eat, that the amount of food came from the chef cook off with the lord's cuisine. According to Tang, the cook off ended in a tie, both sides bounding over their love of Change (which explains the amount of mooncakes on the table, one of the goddess stellastar recipes). 

“You have your own plate, Noodle boy!”Groaned the fiery boy as he tried to push his mentee away. 

“Come on, Red, you can pick from mine!” Laughed the boy, he put one of his arms on the Bull's son's shoulders and dragged him closer. 

“That doesn’t make it better.” Sighed Red Son, cheeks ever so slightly red. The sage was glad to see his (kind of) nephew being good friends with his mentee, MK really had the power to melt even the coldest of hearts. 

Once they finished dinner, they all decided to heed to bed, the day had been particularly eventful after all. The sage promised to warn Sandy about their situation before going to sleep, the poor tea-lover would worry otherwise (Sun Wukong also wanted to take the opportunity to see his lil bud). 

The two monkeys watched as the others left the diner room, regaining their respectives chambers. Both didn't want to let go of the other yet, but neither knew how to voice this desire without being awkward, or without hinting at their feelings. 

“You…” The sage cleared his throat to ease his nerves. “Will you allow me to accompany you to your room, my good sir?”He chose humor, as always, to ease the both of them. Macaque immediately relaxed, his hold on Wukong's tail tightening ever so slightly. 

“You're dramatic.” Chuckled the warrior, he handed his arm to the King and Wukong, not one to ever deny being close to his moon, immediately linked both of their arms. The touch was light, but for them, who weren't used to one another after centuries of avoidance, it was burning. The sage would never cease being delighted by this, by having the chance to be at the other side, to link arms with him and kiss him. It felt like a well-crafted illusion at times, a dream, a product of his deepest desire. But yet he knew when he touched the other, that this was real, and it will keep being better and better. Not because they would never encounter difficulties, but because they chose to face them together, they chose to not flee. 

“Not as much as you, theater kid.” Snorted Sun Wukong, he relished in the way Macaque's nose crunched, a tell-tale sign of his amusement. They both walked in silence, enjoying the way their warmth mingled with each other. They slowed their steps, wanting to bask in the moment for as long as it was allowed. “Hey, you… wanna go see Sandy with me?” Asked the sage as he caught sight of Macaque's threshold in the distance. He knew that perhaps he was pushing it, but he couldn't help himself, it was painful to let go of the other when they were so close. 

“Well… Okay, why not.” Mumbled the warrior, his hold on the sage's arm never once wavering. Sun Wukong had to bite his mouth to hide the trills burning his lips, he stilled his heart (and his tail before it could sway with the macaque's own) and summoned his cloud with a wave of fingers. They struggle to step on it without letting go of the other, but they eventually manage. The sage flew themselves towards a window, and then took them to the sky. It didn't take long to reach the airship hidden behind waves of land, it was rather close, despite being unseen from the city.

They broke away from each other once on the ship, even if Sun Wukong would have liked being linked for a few more hours, he didn’t want to make the other uncomfortable. There was a silent agreement between them, something they both immediately thought of when they agreed to kiss (and perhaps be more intimate) without starting anything : to keep it between them. It would be complicated to explain everything, to answer the questions when they were both in uncharted territory. Intimacy, especially kisses, was to remain in-between them until they decided to begin anything serious. At least until one of them voiced any desire to be openly affectionate.

One of his clones and Sandy left the airship’s inside and walked on the deck, perhaps to see who landed there, they relaxed when they saw the two monkeys waving at them.

“It’s you, Boss. I thought it was an enemy.” Sighed his clone, his shoulders lowering as he realized he didn’t have to fight. “ You look really good by the way, Boss.”

“Yeah, yeah, no comment.” Mumbled the sage, not wanting to be teased in front of his moon. “We have quite a lot to tell you, so let’s head inside. Where is-”

“Sock is in the lounge room with the other clones. We were having a game of monopoly.” Cut his clone, already knowing what he would be asking without him voicing it.

“I’m glad to see you both. I was getting a bit worried when I saw the sky darken.” Chuckled the tea-lover as they went inside, guided by his skipping clone.

“Sorry, big guy. A lot happened.” Aplogized Macaque, he awkwardly scratched his neck and looked the other way, perhaps guilty to leave him behind each time they needed to find one of the lantern piece.

“Oh no, it’s alright Mister Mawkwaque. I had fun with the clones.” Wukong felt a chill tickling his back, he hoped the three gremlins wearing his face kept their mouths shut, but knowing them they probably did a whole presentation to explain his entire backstory to the tea-lover.

The two other clones were shamelessly laid on the couch, stealing some monopoly money from the two vacants seats around the table. Sock was curled up above Mo, both on the floor, using him as her personal bed. The two clones looked up when they heard them coming, they stopped stealing and waved at them as if they never dared to cheat.

“Guess all Wukongs have the urge to cheat.” Snickered the warrior as he threw a teasing glance at the sage, he was lucky to have such a cute smile otherwise Sun Wukong would have bitten back.

“What? We never cheated in our lives.” Huffed one of the clones laid on the couch, Macaque fondly rolled his eyes and leveled him with a tired, but affectionate, glare. The clone giggled (somethin airy that normally wouldn’t cross the lips of the great sage) and sighed dreamily, eyes softening at the warrior fond huff. Sun Wukong cleared his throat in a warning and the clone hid behind his peer, looking up at the sage with a nervous chuckle on his lips. The King was absolutely not jealous of himself, he just didn’t want to let those gremlins act out of line with his moon. 

They sat around the table (Sun Wukong made a point to sit in-between Macaque and his clones, said clones either snickered or rolled their eyes at his behavior.) Sandy, like always, served tea and snacks to the two monkeys. Sun Wukong nibbled on a peach biscuit, his tail quietly thumping the floor in joy each time he took a bite. He jolted when he felt someone play with his tail, he threw a glance back and cooed at the sight. His lil sage was pawing at his tail in curiosity, she meowed at him when she noticed his gaze. 

“Aww, I missed you.” Cooed the great sage, he took Sock in his arms and nuzzled her, burying his snout in her fur, taking in her familiar scent. Sock pawed at his face, perhaps a bit annoyed at being manhandled, but enjoyed the attention nevertheless. 

“It hasn't even been a day.” Snorted the macaque, a teasing smile blooming on his lips. 

“A day is a lot. Kinda wish I could take her in my pocket.” Mumbled the sage, he then put Sock in the warrior's face. “How can you not miss that cute face after not seeing it for a whole day!” Sock pawed at Macaque's snout (like always when she was put close to someone's face). Macaque barked a laugh and scratched under her chin, she meowed happily and leaned in the touch. Sun Wukong took her back after a bit and resumed his nuzzling, rubbing his cheek against her. 

“I don't think she enjoys being this smothered.” Pointed the warrior with a raised eyebrow. 

“Nah, she likes it.” Sock jumped out of his arms the second he said that. Sun Wukong whined but he didn't dare hold her back, she was always fussy when he held her for too long. Sock pawed his lap for a bit before settling on it, paws crossed and head held high like a lady from the Victorian era. Sun Wukong chuckled, endeared by the way she held herself, and scratched behind her ears (the place she liked most). 

“Aw, I wanted her to be with me.” Whined one of the clone, another patted his back in sympathy, muttering something about “OG rights.”

“So you two said you had a lot to talk about.” Began Sandy as he put his cup down, “a lot” was an understatement, Wukong felt like a billion things happened in this odd city. He didn't even know where to begin. 

“Well, for short, someone named Cheng has the piece. A lot of things happened, he kinda wanted to marry me at first? But then Wukong became his sworn brother, and now in exchange for the piece Wukong has to participate in some sort of festival and win.” It was a very shortened version of what happened. Sun Wukong sweatdropped at the way Macaque's omitted very important details. 

“MARRY YOU!?” Shouted one clone as he slammed his fist on the table. 

“Who is this bastard and where does he live?” Asked another with narrowed eyes, a dangerous glint swirling in his pupils. 

“We have a sworn brother?” Muttered the last clone. 

“When does this festival take place?” Asked the tea-lover, trying to subtly change the subject and hopefully not anger the clones further. The clones noticed what he was doing and threw a very instant glance at the sage, something that said “We'll talk later.” Sun Wukong sighed, but nodded at his copies either way, they wouldn't let that go even if he avoided them. 

“The festival takes place in one week.” Answered the warrior, unbothered by the murderous aura swirling above two of his clones, or perhaps pretending to not be bothered. 

“I see. Well, in any case I hope this festival will not be too difficult.”

“Don't worry big guy, I got this!” Assured the great sage with a puffed out chest. 

“Yep, our Boss is the strongest.” Added one clone, he draped himself over the King and gestured at his arms. “I mean look at those muscles.”

“Very strong.” Insisted another clone. 

“Strong like…can protect you and care about you, strong. Mate material.” Ended the last clone as he not so discreetly glanced at the warrior. Macaque raised an eyebrow and turned towards the sage with a small, shadowed smirk on the edge of his lips. Sun Wukong blushed, he pushed his clones away and glared at them. 

“Anyway, I can take you to the city, Sandy. We'll be staying there for a while after all.” Proposed the great sage, not wanting to leave the blue giant behind for so long. 

“Oh it's alright, me and the clones have fun here.” Replied the tea-lover, it was probably meant to be reassuring, but Sun Wukong was anything but reassured at the idea of leaving those three blabber mouths with the tea-lover.

 “Yeah, we even scheduled a movie night tonight!” Proudly declared one of his clones. 

“Ghibli night!” Added another. 

“You should stay with us.” Proposed the last clone, his eyes knowingly drifting towards the warrior. Sun Wukong narrowed his eyes, immediately suspicious, but he had to admit that spending the night here (at Macaque's side) sounded nice. 

“Well… why not…” Muttered the sage as he glanced at the warrior, Macaque put a claw on his chin (probably thinking about it) but ultimately nodded. 

“Yay! Let's prepare then, Boss help us with the snacks!” Ushered one of his clones as he stood up and waved the sage over. Sun Wukong followed him (delicately putting his lil bud aside), knowing very well what his copies truly wanted. 

“We didn't finish the game.” Whined another clone as the last one dragged him to the kitchen. 

“Doesn't matter. I was winning anyway.” Huffed the clone dragging him. 

“You were in prison!?” Raged the reluctant clone, outraged. 

“Yes, but I was rich.” 

“Come on, guys. Stop bickering.” Groaned the clone in the front as he pushed them all in the kitchen. They all stumbled in the space, glaring at the clones that pushed them once they steadied themselves. 

“You guys have no discretion.” Sighed the sage as he rubbed his forehead. 

“Blame yourself for that Boss. We're you.” Replied the clone that pushed them inside, he closed the door and turned towards the King with fiery eyes. “So what was that about a guy wanting to marry Macaque?”

“Name's Cheng. He needed a partner or whatever and chose Mac. We found another solution to avoid the marriage, and so I'm his sworn brother.” Curtly explained the King as he leaned in the countertop, arms crossed. 

“Sooo… He’s not a love rival? He was only interested for business,right? ” Concluded one of the clones. At the sage's silence they all began to panic. “RIGHT?”

“Well… he was chummy with him, but he said it's only because he's a fan of shadow…”

“You can't trust the guy that easily, Boss!”Groaned one of the clones. “The world is full of evil people.”

“I say you stay with Mac, if the guy sees the both of you being close he's gonna give up.”

“Speaking of that, any progress with Mac?” Asked one of the clones with a hint of a sly smirk. 

“Well… we… we kissed a bit…” Shyly muttered the sage as he twirled one of his strands around his fingers, cheeks reddening. 

“Damn, you both are growing up so fast. Feels like yesterday when we were pining over him.” 

“Remember when we pretended to be drunk after the brotherhood fests just so he could pick us up?”

“Good old days.” Laughed the last clone as he rummaged through the cupboards and pulled out various snacks. “Let's go, they'll be suspicious if we take too long.”

“We're already suspicious.” Grumbled the sage as he took some of the snacks. 

They settled comfortably before the TV once they came back, of course Sun Wukong sat beside the warrior, shoulders brushing against his, tails almost intertwining. The movie the clones chose was quite entertaining, something above a moving castle. Sun Wukong had to admit he did get a bit sentimental towards the end, tear nipping at his eyes. 

“You alright, there?” Chuckled the macaque, his breath tickling the sage's ear. 

“Yeah, everything fine.” Replied the King, Macaque threw a glance behind him, before looking back at him with an amused glint in his gaze. Sun Wukong furrowed his eyebrows and looked behind, he groaned when he caught sight of his three clones, all coddled around the lil sage as they cried their eyes out.”They're… more sensible than me.” Poorly explained the sage. 

“Yeah, I'm gonna believe that for now, for your pride.” Snorted the warrior, he hovered a bit above the sage's ear, strangely hesitant, before putting his head on the King's shoulder. Sun Wukong startled, but quickly melted against the other. Putting his own head against Macaque's. They quickly fell asleep, tails curling around one another in their quiet slumber. 

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[mdverse]

md's fun silly little top 10(ish) arts of the 2023!*

*pretend there's a fun cute doodled banner here (i was going to make one earlier and then i forgor)

doing a lil recap of my top 10 15 (it was supposed to be 10 and i could not narrow it down oops) best(? this is subjective as fuck i guess it's more like my personal faves) drawings of the year! *the crowd cheers* (it’s me I’m the crowd)

15: paradise by the dashboard light! i hate to rank her so low bc i spent ages on her but it seems i don't love the result that much anymore so :/ a for effort for me tho this was ambitious

14: cheer girl loml <33 not my best art technically by far but i went way out of my comfort zone for the background and the art style (for no good reason really) (i just wanted to do a comic book thing bc superhero vibes or whatever) (it did not come out the way i was hoping it would bc i think i got too frustrated) and we simply must acknowledge that. atog did things to me that i cannot explain

13: barbie meme brittana! not my best britt but truly sooo fun to work on. there's nothing quite like finding a fun rendering process and then never using it again (i don't even remember how i coloured this but i like it)

12: cowboy barbie brittana <3 they look good, they're about to kiss, cute outfits, pretty sunset, probably went overboard with the rim lighting, what's not to love? a banger, i think

11: i say a little prayer! i think the background is. questionable at best. but this is still really fun! i think i got possessed when i got to the uniforms bc goddamn they look good

10: klaine?? on this blog???? almost unheard of lmao i truly did not think i would like this one as much as i did. i'd consider ranking it higher if i wasn't constantly Unwell over brittana but again, i'm biased, and no one here should be surprised about that

9: pre-wedding kiss my beloved! with how insane i've been over this kiss it could perhaps be higher. i am gnawing on my desk as we speak i'm not even sitting at a desk rn

8: rutherchang x black swan!! ohhh u guys i don't talk about this one enough i think it's so pretty i don't even remember how i did the colours for it but rhgfdkngd?? love her, love pushing the glee x bts agenda, if any of u gifmakers are interested in making a mike chang x black swan lyric gifset i will love u forever

7: colour wheel challenge! busted my whole tiddies and ass for this one fellas. labour of love etc etc i think staring at the bright colours for so long made my eyesight worse and i'm ok with that

6: mistletoe brittana <33 easily the best instalment of this series by a long shot! recency bias (and also just. regular bias) made me rank her much higher originally but technically she is not the most intricate piece so she must sit down here

5: prom queen kurt! dare i say a girlslay on my behalf? i think i dare. every time i see it i think i should do more glosters (glee posters) and then i don't. i could tho they would be really cool (source: dude trust me)

4: churro kiss redraw!!! genuinely Not Sane over this! never have been, never will be! redraws are like crack to me and so is this kiss

3: furtana!! i neglected them for far too long this year but if neglecting them results in art like this i may have to do it again

2: heart kiss <3 if we're being really honest and vulnerable in the chat tonight i think this is technically my best of the brittana kiss screencap redraw things i've done this year? which i did not see coming but i guess practice means refining the process etc etc so. it makes sense ig. mwah to them <3

1: black or white gcv animation <3 it's not what i would call my best drawing (bc it's, yknow, not just one drawing) but it is what i would call the product of a very obsessive thought and some frantic art sessions. objectively it's the coolest thing i've done this year so it deserves the top spot. i'm proud of it i hope to glanimate more next year. also this isn't art but it's a relevant post that i still stand by months later

[umhuhwellthen]

Sooo I was making outfit/color refs and look how they turned out~

I am so fucking proud of this Yuichi you have no idea, like I love how Kitsune turned out but the only problem I had with her was the pattern and muzzle, Yuichi was a goddamn struggle, hijo de su puta madre

I love how he looks, no thoughts between those eyes and if in a miraculous moment he did it would only be kind ones

My scrunkly<3

Stretch him out like mochi and HIT HIM WITH A HAMMER

Throw him out a window

*blows him up with mind*

He's a stuffed toy I am giving to my dogs to tear apart😊

Little pretty boy, has done nothing wrong in his life, has done many crimes but gets out of it cuz look at his face, you're gonna arrest that face? Another reason why Kogane sucks

I want nothing bad to ever happen to him, I need him to suffer

On one hand I hate how much the fandom tag is taken up by shipping but on the other hand I look at him and feel like an old lady wanting to set the nice neighborhood boy up with a good match, maybe instead of Yuichi being head over heels for the turtle, the turtle should be head over heels for him? Hm?

Like yes he's a bit reckless and overconfident, but age and experience will sort that out and he'll be just the most lovely partner, i swear!

Putting Chizu and Gen under a readmore because 😭 the difference between a good art day with motivation and a bad art day with little to no motivation is insane

I swear I like them but their designs were just not computing those days to me

These drawings are exclusively for refs augh

[crulixto]

SATAN’S S/O WHO’S ALLERGIC TO CATS

note: im allergic to cats too (and dogs aswell, a luci chapt on this w dog shall be awaited) and im a big satan(and lucifer) stan sooo i thought it’d be fun to write this :•

edit: this was kinda lame ngl HAHHAHA hope u enjoy

this man, at first he’d be so shocked offended when he found out (before u guys were dating)

he would have probably tried to avoid you at some point

But when during his character arc (lesson 10-11 ish?) he started to empathize with your situation and that it isn’t your fault

Hanging out could get difficult

“i see… then we’ll have to change plans..”

“W-wait no it’s fine really!”

“ I insist”

you’re sneezing all over the place. Every goddamn time he came from a cat cafe.

Walking home from RAD together, he comes across a BOX OF KITTENS.

“Are those kittens? In a box? Who’d leave such precious creatures behind? And in such a small and worn out box too.”

He goes up to the box and literally scoops them all up to carry them all

While he was playing with all those kitties u were just standing there like ‘bitch i cant play with the cats with you are fkin fr rn’

Satan notices this and apologizes then tries to come close to hug you

The key word was tried, your eyes started watering and you started to sneeze and try to sneeze (that struggle to sneeze but you cant do it last minute, ugh my eyes start to bring out a pool worth of tears

He always. ALWAYS. Bring tissues and some medicine with him at all times.

There was one time too Satan made his trained cats scratch Lucifer and his study, you were surprised when you enter Lucifer’s study to pass your tasks to be welcomed by that fuzzy, itchy feeling in your nose and your eyes felt like swelling

Lucifer was deep cleaning his study because he knew you had tasks due that day😭

“My apologies MC, it seems that Satan had brought cats in here earlier today to scratch me. Just leave the papers there.”

Poor guy and you

one of the hardest parts of dating him, he’d come home after playing or tending cats in the streets. And you? Pass the tissues you dont even feel safe from sneezing in his room.

He genuinely tries to hold back from even coming close to a cat now, since he would be probably taking u out on a date, want to cuddle, or anything when it came to bonding with you really. But cats. Cats!

Its the only thing keeping you both apartt~

Honestly at some point he’d get upset and conflicted then just gets a book and tries to find a spell for u allergies to go bye bye

Wrong move, it got kinda worse

So now you’re both sad and miserable

Once your allergies got so bad ur face swelled after he came from a animal shelter

You guys stayed in your rooms but texted/called

“Satan, what are you doing right now?”

“Im reading a book of spells about allergies, dont worry MC once i can put out your allergy we wont have this problem anymore—“

“Hey! Remember the last time you did that?!”

In weekdays, you guys hang out as muuuuch as possible and you secretly hope from within that you both dont pass by a cat so he does not get you sneezin all over the place again

He once passed u a sticky note in class, you opened it and saw cute doodles of cats, just to play with him you draw yourself in a chibi version, sneezing and suffering from allergies

Once you gave the sticky note back to him, he smiled abit at your drawing and realized what it meant

He glares at you, and pulls you by your chair and side hugs you

“Would you look at that MC, no sneezing or such?”

He is smug and proud

“Haha then after recess you go tend to that box of kittens you found at the west tower of the office”

“…” “…okay..” “wait mc—“

[asstrofem]

idk. i think getting peed on would be sooo fucking cute if i really like the person. like "yes relieve yourself on me my darling. ooo goddamn babe you drank so much water today. im so proud of youuuuuuuuu 😘😊" and all that jazz lol

[beardedjoel]

smother is everything! i found it when looking through tags on tumblr. i'd been reading fics on ao3 and was oblivious to the fact all these authors and fics i read are also on tumblr! started it last week. would have finished it much much much sooner if not for life things but i swear when i tell you i ate it up so quickkkkkk, like was so hard to not just finish in one sitting. i will need to re-read again to hold me over and also to dig into the scenes more too! not a lot of people out here doing what you're doing and doing it this goddamn well!!!!!!! i was wondering what your favorite part to write was, or your favorite scene? apologies if this has already been answered elsewhere!

i can't decide what my favorite chapter is but there are a million moments i love in this fic, even less ~big~ ones, simple things like joel feeding blossom bread and cheese in pt 2 and she asks why he hasn't hurt her yet too was so precious to me or basically any of the times blossom feels pretty, like when she's putting on the clothes he's picked out for her for the very first time, or feels like she wants to be sexy (all those types of moments are so endearing and in my head i'm like, i get it girl). these are just some small things that come to mind but there are a million more moments i love - can't wait to reread and rediscover them. also the one shots of them are mindblowing. satin is the sweetest thing i've ever read, and polaroid is so fucking hot and lowkey a commentary on kinks lol. i was also curious if you have any other series planned for when this one is wrapped up too?? no worries if you do not divulge these details! i will be very sad when smother is done but so glad i came across it.

helloooo!

thank you so much for reading, i'm really glad you ended up finding my story and sent this thoughtful message. omg where to even begin? i would say my favorite parts to write have been 8 and 11! in pt 8 i really enjoyed writing the cuter stuff between them with the reading and her getting so comfortable with things, kind of trying to imagine more finally what their day to day life together would look like! and pt 11 i found powerful to write. i really was proud of the emotion i drew out of the chapter even if it broke my heart a little bit. i feel like i have a favorite scene from each part though honestly!

also, agreed with you - there are sooo many small moments between them - the getting drunk, the haircut, joel cooking for her, picking the outfits like you said, all their intimate moments, OMG HIM PAINTING HER NAILS LIKE... there are just so many good moments between them that i still love so much.

and the polaroid one shot is definitely up there for favorite things i've written for them. and tbh, i never even think i meant for it to be a commentary on kink but because it came from a genuine place of how i feel about the subject it really does read like one towards the end there, which i love! 😋

as for future series i don't want to promise too much because i'm a very slow writer, but i maybe have a few random one shot ideas and a sugar daddy!joel series i have had rolling around in my brain since like way earlier this year! and definitely some smother one shots if things keep coming to mind once the main storyline is done.

okay anywayyyys, ty if you read this far! and thanks for all the fun questions and commentary! 💗

[kinnbig]

"#embarrassing confession: i have an entire doc that is just a collection of my headcanons for established relationship ramking" BESTIE YOU CAN'T SAY THIS AND THEN NOT ELABORATE

eee thank u for this omg! I will never turn down the opportunity to ramble about ramking 🫣 I have browsed the google doc and now I can present a collection of established relationship ramking headcanons (quick warning that some (ok lots) of these are nsfw) -

King still calls Ram "ai'Ning" a lot of the time - but he does switch to just "Ram" when he's being sweet/affectionate and when they're in bed lmao. Ram continues to use Phi for King, including in bed - which King fucking loves.

as Ram gets more and more comfortable around King, he becomes more able to talk to him and express himself verbally - but it's never something that comes easily to him. he still struggles with it, especially when he's particularly tired or emotional or overwhelmed. he'll always choose actions over words where he can, and is never going to be someone that's talkative or that like... monologues about his feelings.

but King doesn't mind! Ram is very good at showing affection physically and King is very very happy to receive this physical affection

this of course makes the words Ram does say that bit more impactful for King... whether that's making him feel particularly adored when Ram compliments him or tells him he loves him out loud... or whether it's making him lose his goddamn mind with just a few words when they're in bed. the power of a simple "please" or "P'King" or "don't stop" or "harder"......... 😳🫣

they're vers - and usually they're on the same page, but sometimes there's some fun and mostly silent communication/debating about which way round they're gonna do things. they're both very good at goading the other one into doing what they want lol

King tops a bunch of times in a row and then is like "it's sooo sad that I'm so pretty and my ass is sooo nice and I'm sooo flexible and no one is taking advantage of those things because I'm a vers forced to live as a top…." dkjdfhjsjkd

Ram has a praise kink.

King has a thing for fucking in slightly weird locations - he loves the idea that he made Ram want him so much he couldn't wait. so he's very into fucking like... against the kitchen counters or over the table or on the living room floor. Ram is more practical, but he's also very easily convinced lmao

King is also very very forward and a really silly obvious flirt. he'll drape himself really dramatically over furniture or 'accidentally' press right up against Ram's back to reach over him. he also puts his hands in Ram's back pockets a lot.

they're both pretty possessive of each other but in different ways. Ram is "if you hurt him I'm throwing hands" possessive, whereas with King it's more that he wants everyone to know that Ram is his.

it's a bit of a "look what I have and you don't" thing - Ram is famously difficult to get close to, and King got Ram to fall in love with him. he's very smug proud about this and wants everyone to know about it.

similarly - King is the worst influence when it comes to Ram ignoring/being rude to other people because he loves it. he's like "yesss be rude to all these strangers yesssss" "yesss Ram is so hard to get close to but look at how close he is to me" "yessss act all mysterious and tough in public and then blush when I call you 'nong' and tell you you're pretty yessss…"

they watch a lot of nature documentaries together in the evenings

also King introduces Ram to Animal Crossing 🥺 King is very into decorating everything beautifully, but Ram exclusively plays to try and complete the museum. he will catch every single bug and every single fish even if it kills him. he also does not care about any of the villagers, much to King's dismay.

it's not all perfect obviously. Ram both desperately craves and yet is terrified of emotional intimacy. he expects a level of emotional vulnerability and reassurance from King that he's not always comfortable reciprocating, and he has a tendency to use physical intimacy as a substitute for emotional intimacy - eg he'll occasionally initiate sex to avoid having to talk about his feelings.

he also forgets that although King is good at understanding him and picking up on his non-verbal cues, he isn't a mind reader. Ram can get unfairly frustrated when King doesn't respond to wants/needs/feelings that he hasn't actually expressed.

King is not good with boundaries. Ram is quite private and likes to spend time alone, and King has a tendency to not understand and to feel hurt that 'alone' means 'without King' lol.

he's also quite impulsive and will make big decisions without thinking it through or consulting Ram, which frustrates Ram (who likes things to be planned in advance).

but in general they're incredibly compatible and where they do occasionally fall out it's never for long - and they're very good at making up again because they are incapable of being angry at each other for more than 5 minutes

they're that couple who get together and are basically just married from the word go. when they eventually do get engaged (King proposes after a few years) all their friends are like "huh. tbh we thought you guys had eloped years ago"

(which to be fair is a reasonable thing for their friends to assume, because they get drunk and seriously consider it all the time)

finally: matching. tattoos.