#some of us aren’t used to hearing no
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Men it’s okay to be told no by a woman.
We’re not entitled to a yes just because she’s by herself or for any other reason.
The same energy we used to give those shoe cleaners in the mall is the same energy that women are on when they tell us no: they’re just not interested. And we don’t need to be salesmen.
We’re not entitled to an explanation either. And we don’t have to create our own narrative behind the no.
Accept the no and kindly move on. Another woman will say yes; just not her.
#some of us aren’t used to hearing no#or some of us are tired of hearing no#either way#that’s not on her#we have to do soul work for ourselves#and we don’t need to project anything onto women just because they said no#let’s work to heal ourselves from our insecurities and pride#so that when she does say yes#we don’t self sabotage#wayofthelogan#for the men
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Here's an absurd amount of drawings I made last week for this year's @hetalia-rarepairweek with my otps <3
(They're all in chronological order ^^)
There's more under the cut 🫶
#hetalia#hws england#hws italy#engita#itaeng#angel pair#asaeng#nyotalia#2ptalia#arthur kirkland#feliciano vargas#my art#this was an excuse to use more colours lol#some aren’t finished so I may repost these seperately in the near future :)#I really wish I posted during the week event but I was so busy :')#I may talk about the culture and folklore one because i never hear anyone talk about it#it's quite obscure
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my hypster fc magazine came in the mail, and it was full of bangers as usual, but it is so important to me that you all know that kuukou, out of concern for the youth who can’t afford to travel to a temple, or that it’s too far etc etc, has decided to create a temple in the metaverse and therefore accessible from your smartphone LOL
#vee queued to fill the void#KUUKOU IN VR CHAT LMAO??????????????#the little blurb was written like he’s talking to us about his plans and he’s so funny lol#kuukou: those old farts aren’t gonna understand the use of tech so it’s up to me to show them the way 😏#also kuukou: idk how our patrons will hear my sermons i haven’t thought that far ahead yet#kuukou is literally faking it until you make it LOL#and i mean that so literally pls towards the end of him talking out of his ass about his plans he relays to us#kuukou: obvs this is going to cost a lot and i don’t got money jyushi’s broke and hitoya’s a stingy btch so i can’t rely on them#kuukou: and so i’m recruiting bon line dancers!!!!#kuukou: for those who apply as thanks i will build you an in metaverse grave using a percentage of donations yall generated#KUUKOU????????????????????????? HUH??????????????????? WHAT????????????????#anyway petition to get kuukou a vtuber or some digital avatar he keeps trying to reach out to us LOL#c: kuukou👑
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sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.
#Using randomly gendered words because that’s me now but hey#Regardless of if you were born afab and are a girl 100% or if you were born afab and are someone else#It STILL sucks to always be grouped along with ‘girls’ just because of your voice and realize#You CANT hit that. You can’t hit the mark for ‘girl’. You’ll never achieve that without like. Hrt#Just say THE VOCAL CLASS. Like. Sopranos sing with this. Tenors with this. Bass with this. Etc#Then it doesn’t hurt! But nooo instead they’re looking or ‘sing with the other girls’ and you fucking can’t#And it gives you a crisis at age 14#Anyway all I know is when other people who were assigned female at birth and aren’t on something they changes ones voice#and just happen to have born with the same deep ass voice as me. It makes me proud to hear them use it#Because not enough people do. It’s like we’re all collectively embarrassed or something#I see so many sad posts from teenagers posting their dream roles and the reason they won’t get it is ‘girl’#and it’s like. I remember being that kid. Never able to get a female lead because of my voice. Never able to get a male lead because of gir#Even though my voice and appearance could easily swing male. Nope! You’re GIRL. So you’re doomed to background forever :)#I got 1 lead role and it was when I was at my most feminine and was also for a villain that was a fat hag#I LOOOOVED playing her im aunt sponge forever. BUT. Never getting one again after that… showed me. Something#More gender blind casting and more songs just written for tenors please#doing just ONE of those things would probably solve the issue#But both please because I’m greedy and I want what I couldn’t have for every kid today#(And also me in the future in adult community theatre. Haven’t had time/too intimidated so far but I WILL go back)#And before anyone questions the language on this post. I STRUGGLED with how to word it#TERFs begone. I love trans people. I am nonbinary and some form of intersex (pcos).#I just word it this way because of like. Where we all start#Whether we stay GIRL girls or realize we’re somewhere in between. It crushes us either way to have the ‘wrong’ voice to do anything#Because it did me at first. And I’m otherwise GLAD to be confusing#I’ve come to love my deep voice it baffles others and they never know what to call me it really helps the whole ‘what am I’ presentation#But. In terms of certain things. Like being in theatre in the deep south#It certainly does not help and can be disheartening#Especially back when I was younger and more self conscious#lion’s lair
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ROPE OF THE WEEK (3):
SISAL ROPE
FROM ROPE AND CORD / ROPE & CORD
(It’s actually called that)
I LOVE ROPE AND CORD!!!
THEY’RE MY FAVORITE STORE!!!
BUT I'M NEVER ABLE TO SHOP THERE BECAUSE I’M BANNED
(He used to visit that store every day from opening to closing hour and harassed customers and employees by telling them rope facts)
I WILL NOW TELL YOU ABOUT ONE OF THE ROPES I USED TO BUY THERE ALL THE TIME BEFORE I GOT BANNED
WITH 9 REVIEWS (SURPRISINGLY) AND RATED 5 STARS
THIS SISAL ROPE IS THREE-STRANDED AND TWISTED JUST LIKE THE ROPE BEFORE
(Rope of the week (2) link)
EXCEPT IT’S A SISAL ROPE INSTEAD OF A POLYETHYLENE
NOW YOU MAY BE WONDERING WHAT’S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A SISAL ROPE AND MANILA ROPE SINCE THEY ARE COMMONLY CONFUSED WITH EACH OTHER
WHICH I DON’T GET WHY THEY ARE WHEN IT’S VERY OBVIOUS
I WILL NOW TELL YOU THE DIFFERENCE!
(Took up too much time will be explained in another post)
NOW YOU KNOW THE DIFFERENCE!
THIS ROPE’S DIAMETER RANGES FROM 3/16 IN. TO 1 IN
WHICH MEANS YOU CAN USE IT FOR VARIOUS PURPOSES BECAUSE IT’S DIAMETER ISN’T LIMITED
BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS YOU CAN’T CLIMB A ROPE THAT IS 3/15 IN.
AND AS I SAID BEFORE, THE DIAMETER AFFECTS THE STRENGTH SO IT CAN HOLD AS LITTLE AS 540 POUNDS (WHICH IS STILL SUPER STRONG) TO 8100 POUNDS!!!!
THIS ROPE IS SO STRONG!!!!!!!!!!
IF I WAS THAT STRONG I COULD HOLD SO MANY ROPES!!!!!!
NOT ONLY THAT IT IS ALSO ROT AND ULTRAVIOLET RESISTANT
THOUGH IT SADLY SINKS IN WATER
IT DOES SOMETHING COOLER IF YOU LET THE ROPE ABSORBS WATER
IT BECOMES STRONGER BY 120%!!!
IT TURNED ITS GREATEST WEAKNESS TO IT’S GREATEST STRENGTH
THIS ROPE IS MY IDOL
I AM TAKING SWIMMING LESSONS BECAUSE OF THIS ROPE
(Genuinely true, not an exaggeration)
YOU KNOW THE REASON WHY IT BECOMES STRONGER IN THE WATER BECAUSE ONE OF THE MAIN PURPOSE OF THIS ROPE IS TO MAKE FISHING NETS
THIS IS NOT ONLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE ROPE (THEY ARE ALL) BUT SAILOR WADDLE DEE’S FAVORITE ROPE
I SEE THEM WALK INTO THE ROPE AND CORD STORE AND WALKING OUT WITH 600 FEETS OF THIS ROPE VERY OFTEN
WHICH COST AROUND 2,100 STAR COINS
I WAS WONDERING HOW THEY WERE ABLE TO AFFORD THAT MUCH ROPE BECAUSE I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT
SO I ASKED THEM “HOW ARE YOU ABLE TO AFFORD THAT MUCH ROPE?”
THEY REPLIED:
"GAUN AWAY FRAE ME YE ROPE MAD RADGE! AH'M GONNY NAB THE BIGGEST F*CKIN FISH ANYBODY'S EVER CLAPPED EYES ON!"
(English translation:
Leave me alone you rope-obsessed idiot! I’m going to catch the largest f*cking fish anybody have ever seen! Radge is the Scottish term for dangerous idiot)
I HAD NO IDEA WHAT THEY WERE SAYING, SO I LEFT
RECENTLY I HAVE BEEN BUYING THIS ROPE MORE OFTEN FROM MY ROPE DEALER BECAUSE I NEEDED TO REPLACE MY FURNITURE
AND BEFORE I WAS BANNED I BOUGHT A LOT OF THIS ROPE TO DECORATE MY FURNITURE BECAUSE IT IS A BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF ART
I USED IT FOR MY RUGS, COASTERS, LAMPS, WALLS, PLANTS, TABLES, AND MUCH, MUCH MORE
SO I’VE BEEN REDECORATING MY NEW FURNITURE WITH MY ROPE
WHICH IS GREAT BECAUSE FURNITURE WITHOUT ROPE IS VERY UGLY
I RATE THIS ROPE A
10/10
#Rope MF#kirby oc#waddle dee oc#The purple text is from me mint-terms&conditions#DID YOU KNOW THAT WHEN ROPES WERE FIRST CREATED THEY WERE MADE OUT OF EITHER FLAX GRASS PAPYRUS LEATHER DATE PALMS OR ANIMAL FUR?#ROPES MADE OUT OF HEMP ONLY STARTED EXISTING 2800 B.J. (Before Jambastion)#I WISH I WAS ABLE TO COLLECT ROPES FROM THAT LONG AGO!#THAT WOULD MAKE ME A TRUE ROPE LOVER!#BANDANA WADDLE DEE CAME BY WITH OTHER WADDLE DEES TO HELP REBUILD MY HOUSE#BUT THEY BUILT IT ON THE GROUND#I DON’T KNOW HOW I AM SUPPOSED TO PUT THAT BACK UP IN THE TREE WHERE IT BELONGS#I TOLD THEM MANY TIMES THAT I IT USED TO BE A TREE HOUSE#BUT THEY COULDN’T HEAR ME!#THEY WERE TOO BUSY LISTENING TO MUSIC WITH THEIR HEADPHONES#NOW I NEED TO REBUILD MY HOUSE BY MYSELF AGAIN#I NEED TO DO IT QUICK BECAUSE IT’S GOING TO RAIN SOON AND SOME OF MY ROPES AREN’T WATER RESISTANT!#NONE OF MY ROPES DIDNT BURN IN THE FIRE BY THE WAY!#IF THEY DID I WOULD BE SAD
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I love learning ASL it’s so good. Makes me happy to learn it. I’m so glad my university has classes for it with professors actually steeped in Deaf culture.
#blue chatter#am I good at ASL? hahahahahahaha. no.#ASL and English grammar are incredibly different and even when I remember my vocab I am easily clockable as hearing#but I do have some language capacity now. enough to communicate the basics.#and I just. genuinely really enjoy it. it’s fun to learn and engaging in a way most of my classes just aren’t.#and I can. yanno. communicate respectfully w Deaf ppl. and learn about their culture#which is incredibly important given that I want to go into a field where there is a higher incidence than typical of Deaf people#autistic? you’re more likely to be Deaf!#not to mention the fact that sign language can sometimes be a useful alternative to speech for nonspeaking/nonverbal people#depending on the person obvi; some nonspeaking/nonverbal autistics cannot use sign language and that’s okay#but surely at some point I will encounter either a Deaf client or a nonspeaking/nonverbal client who uses ASL#and when that time comes I should have some idea of how to communicate with them#I also rly like the Deaf church by my parents’ house#their community is really welcoming and their services are really interesting#I think it’s rly cool how they take intentions directly from the congregation#they’ll raise their hands and then sign what their intention is from their pew to the ambo#which is rly neat#it is funny bc every time I go the Deaf ppl I talk to will tell each other ‘go slow she’s hearing’#which is ENTIRELY fair bc. I am hearing. and I do need them to go slower.#but it also makes me laugh bc truly everyone knows within a few minutes.#oh hey the new person? they’re hearing. yeah they’re learning ASL at college. sign slowly for her.#which again makes sense bc a big Deaf culture thing is keeping ppl informed. it’s not gossip it’s getting everyone on the same page.#Deaf ppl do NOT beat around the bush that is like the height of rudeness to them. u say what u mean goshdangit. do not waste their time.#which I appreciate the heck out of bc i don’t have to try and phrase things delicately or w/e#it was also funny bc my mom came w me while I was home for Christmas and they asked her if I was her kid#and she said yes. and the lady running the kid’s craft corner thing was like ‘great you’re doing a craft now’#and I’m sitting there. visibly over 18 years old. amongst several seven year olds. trying desperately to figure out how to say hot glue gun#I made a v pretty pinecone tree it was a lot of fun ^-^
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I’ve started riding Fjara to help my dad with her tripping (read: he likes to ride with a long loose rein and Fjara ends up tipping forward).
The first two times we were still getting used to one another, she’s still trying to gauge why the heck I’m asking her for turns and to do a few steps backwards and walk sideways a little.
Today I decided to take a different path around the farm and Fjara was particularly high in her energy, so when we turned to go back her back curled a little and her tempo went up…
And I’m sitting on her all impressed at the energy but also please don’t do a happy buck, I’m still getting used to how different you are from my regular horse 😅
#she’s a fun one!#I know that from like…the ground#now I’m learning it in the saddle#really gotta find my ‘grip’ so to say bc where Lilja is short and slight Fjara is tall and broad#I can’t even get on her without a step 😅#Lilja? no problem. I’m still convincing her that steps aren’t evil so I can get on better but y know#if there’s a problem and I need to get off I know I can also climb back on sort of gracefully#Fjara is a damn mountain! and broad!#and her saddle gives a lot less grip so to say#you can do a happy buck after a few more rides miss missy#but she is very sensitive and polite. she might want to return to Lilja buuuut she’ll still listen to my directions#has a good stop#loves praise for doing a good job#my dad doesn’t utilise that enough#yet#and her tölt and walk are asdfghjkl right now but I can get that back to some decent gaits#some groundwork and some more time under the saddle and a bit more help for my dad and she’ll be a-okay 👌👌👌#*myhorses#Fjara frá Skjálg#oh! and I rode Lilja bitless#she seems to love it and I love that#just gotta find the middle bit where she doesn’t just go lalala when she wants to go fast and I don’t#it’s not out of control but more like … well….lalala can’t hear you wheeeer#it’s a test for us to see if it helps her with tension#Lilja shows her teeth when in a faster gait and I’ve tried many bits and different things with my hands#I still get a ‘smile’#I’m also going to see if I can find a soft bit#and ask a bitfitter for advice#if anything just to rule out any discomfort in her mouth#there’s no bruising or anything that I can find
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the lengths i will go to for my friends (i spent about an hour making them a playlist of every jeremy jordan song on spotify)
#it kills me that some of his covers aren’t on spotify!!!!!#like sorry but i need to hear him sing she used to be mine or it’s all coming back to me now??????#jeremy jordan#it took a long time to track down all the songs he’s sung on spotify and still i can’t guarantee it even is everything
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when I’m inspired to write a particular passage of a future chapter I put it down in my notes app so I don’t forget the phrasing. It helps me track plot details to set up earlier but it also helps me track my hormonal cycle, because around day 12ish I write some INCREDIBLY sappy mushy shit for tommy and sam that literally rots my fucking teeth, and then the moment I hit PMS someone goes through the horrors and the dog metaphor gets INTENSE
#barking#in other words…..creating sort of an endearment lexicon for them#bc I have a weird pet peeve when ppl use random petnames that just aren’t suitable for the characters#Sam’s choices in petnames could be so cute but it’s so hard to imagine some of them in a scouse accent#so until I hear an example we are sticking with the classics#that’s fine tho Tommy is gonna use basically all classics because he’s sophisticated#sam has some cute unique ones in there tho bc he’s a romantic :’)#I gave the silly ones to alfie as throwaway lines bc we all know how he loves a goofy lil nickname#he’s like my garbage disposal of funny words. he gets all of them#not even in a romantic way I just think it’s so funny that British ppl say sausage as an endearment
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Nell Benjamin teasing new numbers in the west end Mean Girls production
#i will never know peace 😭#remember in 2019 when nell gave me her personal email#absolutely dying to use it and be like hey what the fuck does this mean#‘some new numbers that aren’t new’ give us bossed up and janis’s revenge party verse so help me#and i swear to GOD if they don’t change the end of fearless back nell WILL be hearing from me#i'm gwen and i approve this message
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tlou ep 3 wasn’t so much “burying your gays” but lowering them gently into the earth with a kiss on the forehead
#in a world where your dead body is puppeted by decay itself it’s nice to see two men find peace with eachother#gently left where they were in their bed#with the window open so it doesn’t smell#it was meaningful and beautiful#held between two characters who felt treasured and real#god I love it I’m gonna cry all over again#the last of us#spoilers#tlou#oh I just saw it had the same director as some eps of it’s a sin and everything makes sense#(ik they aren’t actually dead but yk hear me out here)
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this project seems like so much frickin work!!! how many people created it/are working on it?
two!! only my boyfriend & me :) it has been an unbelievable amount of work and we’ve been working on it for a very long time ahaha which is why now that we have a decent working prototype we’re super eager to get it out to you all and see whether or not you guys are interested and willing to support it financially before we go any further. we have so so so many ideas, so many things we want to add to it, so many things that still need to be finished, and it’s all an insane amount of work that neither of us want to put in if no one is going to support it, you know?
for several years now i’ve dreamed of making a lil game in the vein of mystic messenger, where the story is told primarily through text messages/chats, because i thought it had super cool narrative potential and i have yet to find a game that can fill the void mysme left in my heart ahaha
#it isn’t ALL for naught because if u guys aren’t into it then i’ll use it in another project#but the original intended use was for you guys#so we’ll see!!! we’re soooo eager to get some feedback and hear all ur thoughts hehe#i hope ur having an awesome tuesday anon bb! <3#stay safe and drink water!!!#inky.bb#clari gets mail
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friendly reminder that my self-inserts are not OCs (I know that other people count theirs as such, and that is absolutely fine, but mine do not count as such)
#I’m very flattered that people want to know more about lorenza but the ask game is not for self-inserts .w.#the way I think of my self-inserts is that they are each fictional versions of me for the respective source material#none of them are identical to me but part of that stems from each one having a different backstory to me#and different self-inserts tend to have different aspects of my own personality to different extents#(mainly because I myself struggle to know how to#describe my own personality thanks to it being quite inconsistent)#I know some people call them self-insert OCs and everything but. to me my self-inserts are me. calling them OCs implies they aren’t.#that’s just how I perceive it#(I know I also don’t help myself by answering WoL/OC questions for lorenza even though she’s neither an OC nor a WoL)#(but I do it because she is who I play as and in-game you play as the WoL)#I feel like I’m being really nitpicky but I also don’t want the misconception to persist but I feel bad for correcting it >~<#I can still use the sparkles to give facts about her I just didn’t know if the people who sent them for her would rather actually hear about#one of my OCs instead of one of my self-inserts#sorry#heart of the void#self‑insert: wings of the void (lorenza)#sort of
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Yeah alright real
#My favorite part about being a system is that I literally don’t remember ever listening to some of the songs in my top songs playlist#Like I do remember listening to suicideboys a lot and that part isn’t surprising in general but apparently my top listening month for them#was in January and like. I flat out do not remember January through April#I remember December and May through now but January through April is gone#At this point I was apparently also listening to a ton of the Prodigy which I would not have even vaguely guessed to be in my top 5 artists#this year ?#I expected my genres to land about how they did and I expected the Voidz in my top 5 and in particular the song Alien Crimelord#Most of my songs aren’t even songs I listened to on repeat because I liked them but songs that skewed my results because I got really#obsessed with a 30 second portion of them and wanted to hear The Sounds over and over for stimming purposes#I used to fix this with private session but I didn’t touch it once this year so now there’s a bunch of random semi unexpected shit in my#playlist. Ah the Spotify#The majority I definitely just listening to over and over though like I cannot deny my love of semi cringy tiktok phonk rap. You guys go#got me there. I am a phonk enjoyer. Moondeity IS in my top 5 artists#listened*#Like I honestly expected I Monster to be in my top 5 and I also expected more songs by Air to be in the wrapped playlist but they weren’t at#all#One of my top 5 genres is gothic rock because I listened to a ton of it this year but there are like no songs from that genre in the wrapped#playlist#I somehow listened to Vivien by Crosses more than Pillars by Sunny Day Real Estate but if memory serves (which it admittedly often does Not)#that sounds Wrong???
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this is probably a strange thing to wonder lol but i wonder if jakurai has alive parents 🤔
#this is vee speaking#like dohifu’s parents are presumably okay besides whatever honobono did to hifumi’s#and it’s probably because they’re older we don’t hear of their parents but like it was a source of drama for otome our eldest character#so jakurai’s parents can be a thing lol#(i’m acting like parental figures aren’t a driving force for a very large chunk of these characters lol)#see tho back when mtr was the primary brain rot i hc that jakurai was also an orphan lol#the backstory i gave that man before it was defined lmao#i thought he was a product of a child assassin program the government ran using orphans esp from the war#like jakurai’s generation grew up with war and jakurai in particular was bred on it#and i used it to reason why jakurai has such a bleeding heart for children he didn’t want the kids to grow up like he did#canon has now said otherwise thankfully lmao but like he could still be an orphan lol#uhhhh it’s not like you need a deep backstory to want to heal but that saviour complex of his has been around for a very long while#he was in college already to be a doctor before the war started so presumably he’s always wanted to be a doctor right???#did the looming war influence him???? or did he have a similar familial reason like hitoya’s to be a doctor????#like he lost his parents to disease and he was helpless to help#(because he was a child lol but kids blaming themselves for stuff they have no control over is a thing in hypmic lol)#but yeah here’s some jakurai flavoured thought for today rare form on this blog nowadays lol#c: sensei
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I had a really great time going out to dinner with my mom and nana tonight at a nice restaurant but nana believes in conspiracy theories and my mom and I have to keep debunking the bs sources she pulls out in a joking way to keep her from getting too defensive about how we don’t agree and I’m so tired. God fucking help me.
And then they’re like. Both loudly and condescendingly agreed about the whole “men and women can’t be friends” thing and that men and women have completely different brains/ in general most men are waiting to fuck you instead of genuinely caring about you as a person (and they did that FUCKING CONDESCENDING exaggerated laugh w/ eachother over it. I know most men have misogyny and treat women badly. And that they talk about us differently behind our backs. No fucking shit. But it’s not everyone, and believing so stringently that it’s impossible to have a true genuine friendship without either wanting to fuck eachother annoys and hurts me. How can we ever move forward to a less misogynistic world if we ourselves refuse to build real friendships with the opposite sex regardless of gender.) and frankly that kicked the Gender Issues bruise in my heart and I just Was Not Having It at the end of the night
#still a great dinner and I’m almost cooled off from how annoyed I was and I was very fucking patient about it#but GOD DAMNNNNN IIIITTTTTT AAAUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHHH#my patience was unusually thin tonight because they both kept bulldozing over any attempt to talk I made#and they’re both LOUD#because my nana won’t STOP TALKING TO LET SOMEONE ELSE TALK#and she yells because she can’t fucking hear but refuses to acknowledge it and when someone yells it makes me aggressive#and she INSISTS that we’re BRAINWASHED because we DISAGREE WITH HER#this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to using my tumblr like a diary I’m that fucking close to my limit#I still have to wrap the presents and pack#but I really really need to decompress#and I fucking hate that they’re both like. staunch believers in gene essentialist bullshit to cope with the shitty men in their lives#because like. that perspective that men and women are totally different animals just.#always brings up the memories of every debunked sexist claim about women and men I’ve worked so hard to un-internalize for my own sanity#and self confidence#I’m a cos woman I don’t even have the added pain of questions/transition but it’s still excruciating when that hornets nest is kicked#because it makes me think like. if they’re right and men and women have completely different brains (not just some differences)#does that make every nasty cruel misogynist claim about women- and thus me as a person- true?#are all my male friends really just. not actually my friends then#it’s just our biology motivating us to keep our options open#might just kill myself if we truly are nothing but a set a of steps towards fucking (which we aren’t btw. if we were we’d be more like#cicadas#or those moths with no mouth.#and we sure as hell wouldn’t live so long beyond our reproductive years. we are built for survival#not just reproduction)
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